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I honestly don't remember which vsts specifically, but I often use some sort of guitar, synth lead and drums lol Most of the magic happens after the mix for me

@EmbeddedSystems_Shius I guess I'll check out instruments similar and find out if they bear resemblance to the instrumental.

​​@@EmbeddedSystems_ShiusDo you have a file of MHSB's instrumental or something like that?

Yeah no thats such a real problem. Especially because these places deal with people who ALREADY want to die

@@EmbeddedSystems_Shius true tho not everyone in a psych ward wants to die (I'm sure that applies to some people tho), I've never been to a psych ward myself but I'm aware of the inhumaness because of the Internet (for example stories of being pinned down or receiving "booty juice", I don't remember the actual name for it but ik that it's when patients get a shot 💉 in their butt) but I have been threatened to be sent to one (by someone who would actually follow through on their threats, my mother) which I suppose is less worse than actually being sent to one (I'm sure it is), being sent to one has got to be way worse I'm sure of it, I'm just wondering if there is or could ever be an alternative option other than a psych ward (ig being sent to a hospital for mental reasons is the alternative even then some hospital are bad) anyways let me just end my rambling by saying that i agree with you and that i believe it should be 100% the individual's own choice as to whether or not if they want to seek medical intervention for mental health reasons (tho I understand in some extreme cases that wouldn't be in anyone's best interest hence the reason why involuntary hospitalization even exist in the first place but I personally don't believe most cases are extreme if anything that's rare)

I actually don't remember what's in the "booty juice" either, I'm sure i can find out tho by looking it up online

Thats so real LMAOO

REAL

Also I forgot but ONE MORE tip: In chess - playing black is always the easier way to win. This is specifically because white ALWAYS goes on the attack first. Like with literally any "game" in the world - its easier to find flaws in your enemies tactics if they strike first. So if this ever happens to you; I recommend that you observe your opponents ACTIONS before doing anything. In time - inconsistencies in these actions will lead to holes in their strategy. And by the time you know what their weakness is - you've already won. Have fun ;)

LMAOO

Bro I FEEL that

A goth fairy in a very boring life - Cassiopeia.

I feel that. On a VISCERAL level tbh

Hey - I just woke up and ofc drifted to my comment section/youtube analytics, as I do, but I just wanted to let you know that this is THE most heartfelt comment I've ever received for a SINGULAR song of mine. I want to let you know that your words - and the way you UNDERSTAND the song saves me - just as much as my words save you. I believe that music is supposed to be interpreted at a personal level - that every person should have their OWN values, their OWN stories attached to the songs that THEY listen to, and cherish. Nobody will have the same understanding of the same, one song - and that's honestly how I feel it should be. I think what I'm trying to say is - this music is IMPORTANT to you, BECAUSE it's important to your OWN story. And I get it, it's SO fucking important to me, too. It's personal to you - because you understand it through your own lenses of life. I want to say that I really appreciate you sharing your own story with me. The lives we lead are by no means smooth sailing, let alone even 'normal', but - we are NOT without hope. It doesn't matter who you are - EVERY single person can get out of this, alive. EVERY person can be redeemed of the sins forced onto them by others - and by their own actions. I quite LITERALLY just got out of the mental trenches I put myself in for YEARS - and these songs, ESPECIALLY this one - were created out of a desperate NEED to be heard. And even being HEARD wasn't a given - I don't think I ever expected to be UNDERSTOOD. I've said this in my past works, and have chosen to reflect this many times over the course of the years with my own actions - but I WANT to make music about hope. Maybe one day, I want to be able to understand that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. I WANT to document this life - because the shape of hope, in my story - isn't something bright, shining, or even clear-cut. For me, the shape of hope has ALWAYS been cruel. Something more akin to desperation. Something that sounds like... insanity. It's painful, because I could NEVER fucking ignore it - and that's why I write the way I do. Everything I do is a DELIBERATE choice. You UNDERSTAND this because you've gone through the Metaphorical Trenches like I have - even while on a different front, while in a different battle - I believe that the pain remains consistent. Most people won't even live to MAKE IT OUT of this kind of trauma - MUCH LESS be able to heal from it in ANY way. Lives like ours are not MEANT to be recovered from - and your understanding of this subject leads me to believe that you know this, just as well as I do. You know this pain to a PERSONAL level - because you are a survivor, yourself. I want to thank you for listening. I want to thank you for understanding - through your OWN lense, and not my own. If you can - stay alive. It's a hard ask, and I understand what I'm saying is IMMENSELY cruel. But... please, try if you are able. Who knows - you might even by surprised by what you see, if you make it to the other side. --- tangent over LMAO - i need to let you know about the streaming stuff. This song specifically cannot be monetized commercially, due to the instrumentals being licensed under Creative Commons (it's composed by Josh Woodward, and I used it for free p much). Also out of my own respect for his works - I'd rather not even be monetized for the music I made with his instrumentals at all. I have ALL of my music (everything i released, even OLD stuff like my vocaloid original songs) up for free on Bandcamp - which is downloadable as an music file. You're free to purchase albums if you'd like to - and if you make even a 1 USD donation on any album, i believe you can use that platform to stream music, as well. Should be the bandcamp player app on your chosen app store. That being said - I'm sorry I can't put this up on streaming. There are other ways you can download/stream if you'd like to do so, and I do have my own music up on Spotify/Apple Music as well, under the artist name "Shius". So... thank you. lmao. Soory I went on a LONG tangent, Im kinda TOO passionate abt this Thank you for listening :')

@@EmbeddedSystems_Shius And yet again your words have dug deep within me and carved out more tears than I thought I possibly had left in my body. Thank you so much for responding and for pushing us forward - even though you didn't need to set aside the time to do that. You may just be a stranger aloft within this infinite universe, just as we are, but you have helped us more than even close family ever could. I should have read the description - ha! I'm sorry about that. I totally get it. But maybe in the future I'll be able to invest in your work. I'd like to. But for now, I'll just keep coming back to this, and your other work, when I need that small bit of comfort again. Despite how cruel hope is for people who have been beaten down, bruised, and left to the wolves without any means of shelter, much like we are each day, at least there is a world filled with color and with art to help derive a sort-of bittersweetness from it all. Music like this continues to remind us why we wake up each morning, and why we push through the molasses to reach some means of consistency. Thank you. Again. I hope nothing but peaceful, non-violent and nurturing days for all of you.

Hey - I remember seeing your response on my final vocaloid channel post lmao I'm glad I can help you in some way - a lot of the words and music I write (ESPECIALLY now) come from a place of never hearing ANYONE say things like this, and NEEDING to say it. Many of these songs - even the fictional ones, are stories I needed to tell myself to keep my own head afloat - to keep hope, somehow. Although I'm still working on being honest with people when I communicate with them - I want to express (however much I can) that messages like yours - and YOUR messages to me, give me a LOT of peace. It helps me remember why I write in the first place. So... Thank you. Sincerely :')

@@EmbeddedSystems_Shius I explicitly remember trying to search up self harm related songs and none of them quite... got it. It's always about some form of recovery and how it'll always get better or whatever- and that's just sometimes not what you want to hear when you're in the thick of it, yk? I'm glad you're doing better on communication though c: It's something we also struggle with- being fully honest, i mean. We were kind of unintentionally trained to be quiet about our problems, but we're getting better at it. ^^ Also no thank YOU sincerely,,,, >:) ehehehe.

Mate ily

(CW for talk of inhumane acts, not graphic detail but I feel the need to put this anyways). Also, the father killing his daughter through medicine to silence her hit hard because today in my Psychology class we had learned about people perceived as less intelligent or undesirable to society receiving non-consensual eugenic sterilization and even talk of euthanasia.

I am. Legitimately so sorry - I was just making old streams (that Im pretty sure WERE public??? At one point?????) public again Its been like years since these things have seen the light of day

Ah jeez, relatable is NOT a good thing with my songs unfortunately LMAO thanks for listening dude!! :D

Mate I love your comments - also you've been commenting since I fell asleep 9 hours ago and I need to ask (for my curiosity's sake) if you've been binging my music for a significant chunk of time in the last few hours Cause Im flattered but also. Are you okay. Cause most people who delve this deep into my music this quick are very often Not Okay

@@EmbeddedSystems_Shius Sorry 'bout that. I have been binging your songs, but definitely not for hours, as I've had other stuff to do and other things grabbed my attention. I'm alright, I just get fixated on stuff. By the time you commented I had moved on to another interest. Sorry if I caused any concern.

No its fine!!! I'm glad to know youre alright tho :D