Flame of Heaven, Flame of Hell [An ode to the stories that keep us human]

...As a once blazing flame dies down into embers of a time long gone, I choose to end this story as I saw it begin - with the gentle warmth of a light I saw within you.
And as the curtains on a theatre of Eternity
finally come to a close, I promise that I will never forget this.
Even on this godforsaken stage - there was love, here.
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aka. guess who JUST any% speedran the grief of about TEN STRAIGHT FUCKIN YEARS OF PINING that I subsequently dissociated from and then FORGOT ABOUT. For years??????
Like I kid you not - I have been stuck in this patternistic limbo FOR ALMOST A DECADE.
Literally every single person I sought after romantically (I've dated around quite a bit, but I've only REALLY experienced love like, a Grand Total of ONE other time in my life) followed in this person's shadow, in some way. This person was QUITE LITERALLY my ideal type in EVERY romantic relationship that followed after them.
...And for the longest time, I didn't even know why. I think that was the worst part for me.
Anyways, I'd say I'm doing MUCH better nowadays - and for the love of God (yes this is a pun), I am ACTIVELY trying to get my shit sorted.
Also! If this song sounds Absolutely Batshit Insane - it's because it is. Younger me was quite literally just UNABASHEDLY mentally unwell :)
Context/Explanation stream: ua-cam.com/users/liveBgc1FwAf...
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[@kairussell6106]

Hell yeah! Glad to see you putting this to rest. Song goes hard as always

[@EmbeddedSystems_Shius]

Mate ily

[@daeboilyoverhorse9026]

Do you have a discord server i could join or smth?