Headspace [A song about Dissociative Identity Disorder and denial]

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  • Опубліковано 26 лип 2021
  • Its been 3 years (the video is a typo) since I was diagnosed and this shit is sTILL causing me issues to THIS DAY. This is a vent song, but one day I'm hoping that I can make a more positive song about this disorder.
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    Soundcloud: / headpsace
    Spotify channel with my other music: open.spotify.com/artist/5rtPx...
    Discord Server: / discord ---
    FREE downloads to all my releases (a donation of even 1$ will ALSO allow you to stream it from the bandcamp app - AND allow others to be able to download my stuff for free, as well): shius.bandcamp.com/

КОМЕНТАРІ • 47

  • @MeagonHardy-sq3nm
    @MeagonHardy-sq3nm 3 місяці тому +7

    I have 3 that I know of and this song is so true and relatable. Thank you because I'm so ashamed about having D.I.D.

    • @EmbeddedSystems_Shius
      @EmbeddedSystems_Shius  3 місяці тому +3

      Hey, thanks for the comment. I wanted to let you know that I identify very much so with being ashamed of having DID - and only until around a year ago, 5 years after my diagnosis was when I was finally able to accept it and be able to truly live with my condition.
      There's a lot of shame and fear in dealing with a disorder that even most professionals don't think is real - and most importantly, a condition that will likely never heal.
      I want to say that things do get better tho, and that humans, in general, are way more adaptable than you might initially think. We live, we move on, and we find other ways to deal. It will always be a problem, and I won't sugarcoat that - but we can play the hands we are dealt well, rather than let the cards in our hands decide our fate.

    • @MeagonHardy-sq3nm
      @MeagonHardy-sq3nm 3 місяці тому +1

      Thank you so much for this. I needed to hear that. I was diagnosed 7 years ago with it.

    • @Nolverse
      @Nolverse 28 днів тому +1

      ​@@MeagonHardy-sq3nmdon't be ashamed we have it to

  • @galacticgarden9309
    @galacticgarden9309 2 роки тому +22

    "I struggle not to lose myself" i felt that

  • @sweetdavina88
    @sweetdavina88 2 роки тому +13

    I have 72 personas and at first I syringed myself to sleep and they became angry and know i feel like there people just like me

  • @lamp6122
    @lamp6122 2 роки тому +11

    im not a system but this song is just incredible.

  • @nwocheckers
    @nwocheckers 2 роки тому +28

    I like this song and hope you can find peace with yourself

  • @derekstoughton3078
    @derekstoughton3078 2 роки тому +16

    Stuck on repeat with this song

  • @Pinkster.
    @Pinkster. 2 роки тому +17

    Always Nice To See Others Who Also Have DID, It Makes Us Feel Loved.
    ~Alex

  • @Boreality_
    @Boreality_ 2 роки тому +14

    Different bits of this song almost daily pop up in my head as they become relevant. It's been weeks since last actually listened to it hdhsj fuckin rent free

  • @TheBamagirl125
    @TheBamagirl125 2 роки тому +20

    I love your songs
    Love from another system

  • @faz4234
    @faz4234 2 роки тому +10

    I...This is way too relatable- you capture the pain we feel perfectly and I swear I love and hate you for it and we can't stop listening-

  • @only.6
    @only.6 2 роки тому +10

    I am ND, I really felt this in a whole level where it shed me to tears thank you for making this.
    It means a lot this song will be remembered.

  • @eriossabiston
    @eriossabiston Рік тому +4

    new system here and all I want to say is thanks -Eris

  • @StarryCloudz
    @StarryCloudz 2 роки тому +10

    One of our littles, Clo, was in dormant for nearly a entire month and the entire time. We couldn’t cope. They helped us so much, just by being there and being themselves. Not comforting us, but being themselves. Happy, bubbly and joking. Thankfully their back now.
    Headspace, it’s sometimes a tough place, but also a place sometimes I would beg to be there instead of the actual world. It sounds mean I know, I’m sorry. - CC (he/they)

  • @vinnie7301
    @vinnie7301 Рік тому +4

    This song is great. We realize now that we are not alone, that there are others going through the same things We are. Thank you for sharing your experiences- The Windows System

  • @enderger5308
    @enderger5308 13 годин тому

    From what I can tell, our host seems to relate with these feelings a lot (it doesn’t help that she has figured out that she assumed the role of host after the previous two retired (the first is a little who couldn’t keep up and the second got re-traumatised at the end of high school by leaving a cult, tearing apart their already fragile sense of self and leaving them completely listless since). Most of us have had the luxury of being used to being alters, but for someone to realise that they had not in fact lived through what they thought was their childhood (she has no memories from before she assumed control shortly after she broke off) has to be hard. That said, we appreciate that she stuck around through the other ripple effects of what happened to us (we know one of the two major traumas in our life, and Dani seems to be piecing together the story of the other (so far, we know when it happened due to the age of our little)) and that she is willing to work with us rather than against us.
    -Alena

  • @icekitsune1483
    @icekitsune1483 2 роки тому +8

    This is absolutely amazing! -Spencer

  • @AuthenticAvian
    @AuthenticAvian 2 роки тому +6

    hey , did system , ive been trying to figure out why the host yelled at us, i knew an alter did somthing , this explains it better than they could :) thx dude

  • @pierinab.c.7598
    @pierinab.c.7598 2 роки тому +15

    I hope you can find peace

  • @YaBonks
    @YaBonks 2 місяці тому +1

    This song is incredible 🤙

  • @mwa1237
    @mwa1237 Рік тому +3

    I LOVE THIS SONG, it really describes how we feel

  • @OtterPxp
    @OtterPxp Рік тому +3

    I've got a friend who's a system, and they helped me make a system OC, I think this is her theme song now /j
    Okay but /srs this song is amazing oml‼️

  • @sapphier0soldier
    @sapphier0soldier Рік тому +2

    🥲 We appreciate your music. Thank you for sharing.

  • @kairussell6106
    @kairussell6106 2 роки тому +4

    Headpsace uwu my favorite :D

  • @lemonkimi2006
    @lemonkimi2006 Рік тому +1

    Tq for made this song,I had this since I was 8

  • @shontellmecham1967
    @shontellmecham1967 9 місяців тому

    Thank you sir/ ma'am , this is beautiful

  • @Friendly_transgender
    @Friendly_transgender Місяць тому

    I love this

  • @nicholasmolinari6451
    @nicholasmolinari6451 7 місяців тому

    Amazing song!!! Fantastic. From one collective to another. Bravo and thank you.

  • @chaosctrl333
    @chaosctrl333 Рік тому +1

    Wow, this is really good. I can relate to it a lot.

  • @Raven44028
    @Raven44028 2 роки тому +3

    Would it be okay if I did a cover song of this?

  • @scrambledpp8956
    @scrambledpp8956 2 роки тому +2

    Love to you from the Mann Co system

  • @cat-xg2sp
    @cat-xg2sp 8 місяців тому

    Why do I love this so much? It-it explains everything so well it's almost scary lol
    ~Isla~

  • @crisjiandennington991
    @crisjiandennington991 2 роки тому +6

    How do you with the time skips, so much happens it feels like I don't know anything or anyone at times

    • @EmbeddedSystems_Shius
      @EmbeddedSystems_Shius  2 роки тому +4

      I don't really have a coping mechanism for that unfortunately, I just try not to switch if I can afford it. I deal with pretty severe dissociative amnesia as well, so I try not to think about it too much when it becomes overwhelming

  • @athendavis100
    @athendavis100 2 роки тому +1

    EYYYYY one for us :)

  • @LuciferKingOfHeck
    @LuciferKingOfHeck Рік тому

    OSDD system here. When the lyrics said "welcome to your new home, welcome to headspace", it felt like I got shot by a gun through my heart. I haven't finished the song yet 😭

  • @Cat_room
    @Cat_room Рік тому

    "and in time i will go to sleep, where headspace welcomes me" hits so hard... it sounds like it's being sung by one who is lost in a forest with but a candle light to watch where one steps.. - the host
    we're using a private account to not relate this comment to our public one.. sorry, but still, thank you ever so much for such a beautiful song, i really love the it, the lyrics are so on point and the sound is so... yes. I subscribed with the main acc lmao, i've heard some of your other songs and they all hit pretty close ngl, like the one about gender dysphoria (I'm a trans girl) and the one about ptsd

  • @xurslone5513
    @xurslone5513 Рік тому

    I felt the lyrics -Aaru

  • @naotokamigire-terumi9912
    @naotokamigire-terumi9912 3 місяці тому

    I see you all.

  • @Axelisanoctopus
    @Axelisanoctopus 11 місяців тому

    I'm so sorry Axel. I don't know what I've done. You can sleep for a while now, it's okay not to come back. It was never our fault