@@Countrycats0fficial hi same whenever my mom sees gay people in movies, she goes ‘ew look they’re adding another gay couple this is so stupid’ and she knows im lgbtq so :)
same. im was hugging a body pillow while I was watching this. I thought I was the only one who craved touch but was scared/didnt like being touched irl.
1:33 really just put in how I feel. Now, I don't know if I'm trans or not, I do think that I'd rather be male than female, I hate being female. But at the same time, I don't mind it. I'd like to have a deeper voice and be thought of as a guy, but then again I don't think I can be male anymore even if I try to transition. (I'm almost 18) And then there's the thought that I think that way because mom loves my brother more. I don't know if this is genuinely a thing I started to think about to shut myself down or not. But there are times where I'd like to be he/him, have a different name and be masculine. Hell, I like the fact that I started getting muscle just because I have to carry my dog around now. I like wearing baggier clothes, but also not so baggy clothes. I'd be happier, but I feel like it's too far from me now.. I don't know and I don't have anyone to talk about regarding this either.
TW: Venting, panic attacks, death Lately since I’m jokingly morbid now whenever I’m around people I get horrible, horrible, thoughts of accidentally hurting them and it gives me mini panic attacks.. my anxiety has been worse, I feel worthless. Like- my actual life has been better but my mental health hasn’t been. There has only been 1 thing that really bad happened this month, which is my dog dying.. but I feel like shit, I hate myself. When I was younger I would cry and cry and cry when bad stuff happens but now I cry and go numb. To the point where it is unhealthy, like when I need to cry I can’t. My brain tries to silence my emotions. It sucks, it makes me feel like I’m insensitive, unable to feel empathy. I’ve had selfish thoughts of wanting attention.. I am so used to being invisible to people that now I have selfish thoughts of wanting attention all the time. I used to be so depressed that now I NEED a tone of dopamine at all times or I feel like shit. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have good friends, family, etc.. but I still feel that I’m not enough and that I’m a waste of space. Im starting to feel more self conscious of being overweight because I’m not used to being over 100 lb.. I don’t want to eat but I still do and it makes me feel bad. I feel gross, I feel nauseous when I eat but I can’t help but eat. Sorry for venting, I just needed to talk about my feelings. Even if no one cares. I just need it out there. Sorry if I apologize too much.
I know how you feel sm, and i have one thing to say: It's ok to be not be ok, its ok to not be alone, its ok to be alone, it ok to be "ungreatful" but it's not...depression isn't "ok" and its not smth u should have to live with that, no one should.
honestly i feel the same way most times. like, im ok but not at all...i hope your doing better now, and i wish you the best, whoever you are. please dont give up i love you, your body, your hair (or lack of) your eyes, your skin, your hands, your personality, you are amzing, and this is for anyone else who needs it. ❤🩹❤❤🩹❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍
I'm really concerned about our generation. The brainrot, the kids that can't be help who NEEDS the comfort, dealing with kids from school, how my life is👍
maybe in another universe I was told the truth. maybe in another universe he would be alive. maybe in another universe I am indeed stronger, than maybe I would be better.
For people who are depressed. Someone loves you. But they’re worried to tell you. You keep bottling up your real self. And I may not know you but I care about your feelings. Please don’t hurt yourself. It’s not worth it. If someone is making you uncomfortable. Just walk away, they are jealous. I don’t know what you look like but you’re beautiful. [as]
I got ignored as a small child, my dad would have his head phones in when I wanted to play with him or show him something I drew..so then I’d ask my mum, but she was always tired. My sister was the only one left but she’d still say no. So I had to play by myself sometimes I’d cry, but that wasn’t the most shitty thing anyone did to me, my dad used to smack me on the ass or threaten me with a wooden spoon when I didn’t do anything wrong..I couldn’t understand why he did that. He moved out a couple years ago, but he’s still fighting for custody. He’s leaving my sister alone and favouriting her then calling me stupid or annoying and comparing me to my 1 year old cousin who pooped on the stares. He might as well tell me he hates me.
My friend stopped being my mate. We were best friends and I loved her so so much (platonically). I’ve been friends with her for over a year and she ended it all saying I’m an embarrassment I’m ugly, my stomach rolls, when I go down stairs I create tsunamis, my eyes are wonky, my hair is messy, and she was skinny and better than me. I’m very insecure and I’ve told her about it and she targeted it. We aren’t friends anymore. And for the first time in months I want to relapse. (I’ve blocked her)
i know im very late to comment on this but that is so so so awesome and you are doing such a great job. i wish i was as strong as you, you are absolutely amazing
You know when that feeling in your throat when you're about to cry because remember that. I'm not known for crying at funerals, or over anything really but one day my friend play hit me after a fight and my throat felt like it was on fire, I kind of regret bottling up my feelings now.
so here goes a list of some of these that i relate to :P 5:14 , i'm attached to plushies even though everyone else my age has probably been over that already a while ago, i rather not tell anyone except my BFF(not including my family), i feel like i can tell her anything 5:48 , i was pretty hated in class for 3+ years for zero reason(i've been in school longer than 3 years i'm not a third grader), had about 3 friends, found out two of 'em were trying to stab me/use me for their own good(iykyk), got a new BFF 1+ year ago and grew attached(in a friend way), got more confident, started loving me and my body, shoutout to her for making me feel that way, pretty much just got a mental AND physical glow up during summer break bc puberty started loving me suddenly ig, though remember, everyone has insecurities, even if they're "minor", i do too, if you can't love them, fix them, it's completely valid :) 6:07 , not really gonna talk about this but all i'm gonna say is that this happens basically anytime one of my siblings/cousins crosses the sensitive spot/line(IYKYK) IT'S TIME FOR ME TO YAP ABOUT UNRELATED STUFF MHM recently i've found out my sexuality(aroace, bi), and i can't tell my family nor my friends bc homophobia is EVERYWHERE around me, i've only told my BFF bc i know i can trust her and i share it around the internet bc from what i've seen, social media is pretty accepting, and i don't share my socials w my family just to be safe :D never really wanted a romantic relationship and the yk part of it, like i'm fine with hugs(any type) from close friends and that's it bc i don't really like being touched in any way as i'm pretty sensitive to touch for some reason :P since i've been more introduced to social media from my couple years of my life time, i found out many things about myself such as my interests and what brings me joy, like the little things like butterflies or seeing small children playing/being happy i genuinely got lost while typing this out bc i never really get to talk about stuff like this(here i go already lost the topic in a sentence). :D anyways, sorry for falling of topic a bit on there, i just wanted to talk about it :_) (this took 15 minutes to type HELPPP)
0:08 hey just letting you know this isn’t a vent, it’s an angst video of a character called Peter that’s from a game that severely undermines a lot of bad situations, ie: r4p3.
Maybe in another life my family will love me, maybe my dad wouldnt have left for two dif fams, maybe i wouldnt have sh, maybe i would still have my dogs and bunnies, maybe id love myself, maybe id fit in, maybe id be pretty. Maybe i wouldnt be a tryhard, maybe id be skinny, maybe id be good at art, maybe i wouldn't be bullied, maybe i wouldn't have lost my bsf. (She unfriended me for my ex) Maybe i wouldnt still be doing sh and hiding it, maybe i wouldnt stress so much..
Guys, imma spill some stuff so just fyi: I cant sleep anymore:( its always because im scared, scared to die. The fear of how it will happen and how it well be in the end terrifies me. Not only that but school is honestly crap. This girl started out talking about being bi and asking if i was still straight, made me uncomfortable. Then in changing rooms she said i had a gyatt, made me uncomfortable. At PE she slid her hand down my back while talking about getting a GF. She makes me uncomfortable. I wish I didn’t have PE :( My friend ignores me, most of mine do. It is as if im just an imaginary friend there when they need me. It is how everyone acts. My advisory teacher and violin teacher are the only ones i trust :( P.S my advisory teacher is the art teacher 🤣 i get tips from her when i draw, i draw the entire period because no one talks to me. Not even my friend Z
Really feel the part about the friends I told my no longer friends about my Sh and depression and my shitty homelife and they told me to stop complaining and "tough it out" when I don't think it's that simple or is there just something wrong with me but I feel bad for you I've had some experiences with unwanted relationships they creep me out even as a guy but I hope you get some friends who actually care❤
@@ThePumpkinRabbit77 I feel you, I had a couple rlly toxic friends one of them being the girl whos still my bsf, no one knows what she did to me, and although she kinda has an reason ig she had a shit past too but it still rlly hurts, she never said sorry...and if im being honest i think my friends would just shrug it off if i told them what she did, ik it shouldn't bother me but i have two types of friends: the ones who dont understand what depression is like and talk about themsleves, and the ones who do and dont rlly care cuz theyre used to it, even tho one of my friends does SH she still seems to happier at school then ill ever be, ik she does have it worse in some ways, but still why does everyone have to be happier?? it just kinda feels like no where is safe, schools not rlly, homes not, venting to parents in a no-go, and the same goes for friends THAT WAS A LOT SORRY
@tropicalandlogical nah your good and valid this is just a vent comment to relate to and I get you about the people being happier part it seems no matter how much you try to find one person to cheer up there's no one no one to be useful too in my sense that's the only reason I'm here still rn is just to help people my life was gone I belive in 5th grade so five years ago for me I hope you do see a happier day eventually and get a better friend no matter how bad their life was it gav3 them no right to do that to you❤
11:35 really struck me lmao Mini vent, I guess? When I was little, I would watch nature documentaries all the time and loved learning about animals and plants. Then I grew up was a teenager and yeah teenage things I don't really want to go into detail but nothing bad I just grew up. And then I got more "freaky" cause I was a teenager and now I'm just me lol.
After crying do you ever just….. think about the happy times and wish that, he/she was still hugging you and refusing to let you go for a couple minutes?
1:21 Once i was very overwhelmed and i was in my last class of the day I couldn’t stop crying and my teacher noticed and she told me to go to restroom and i got excused from that class that day
5:14 …same, but I actually hope the pillow strangles me, not confort me😰 but it’s the only thing I touch. physical touch…it’s weird, I’ve been beat, so whenever I get touched, I think they r gonna hit or yell at me…it’s scary, since I’m weak, and I don’t know how to be stronger…anyway, how ya doin’ partner? 🤠, good/bad to hear, I’m doin’ pretty sigma if ya ashk me.🤠🤠🤠🤠
1:26 happened to me before, and the thi g that made me actually start having a break down was being pushed by my fake a$$ friend that passed me with one of their friends in the hallway and laughed after. :'>
this one girl at my school keeps talking the attention away from me when I try and actually talk about how I feel she goes around saying oh at least you don’t have blah blah blah and then she gets all of the attention. I sound like an attention seeker I know but my group is really messed up and they help each other. Except for me, they didn’t even comfort me after I told them I tried to kms.
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I fell like my. Friend ships are falling a part almost all of my "friends" say they don't wann be friends anymore and idk why and I feel like I've done something wrong but idk what
i never have been able to express myself or talk about my problems, I'm not even able to say I'm not okey when someone ask's even when I want to. there are time's when I want to talk about it, I want to yell about it I want to scream about it dammnit but all I can do I say "I'm fine" and go on acting like everything is okey when really I just want to die so I don't have to feel this way. there have been a few times when I told a friend something and they just say "same🤣" or "fr" acting like it's some kind joke. i don't know how I ended up this way I don't want to be this way. I remember when I was younger and I could still feel real happynes but now..I just don't know what to do anymore. part of me wants to talk about this to someone and get help but another part of me wants to bottle it up inside and act like everything is okey and not let anyone know the truth
Everytime I go into a panic attack/meltdown/just a random shitass episode I listen to a lot of music, it would be either rage music, sad music; It would be so that I could actually feel emotions. I genuinely cannot feel negative emotions without listening to music to let it out, and usually it ends with me SH or dissasociating to the point I cant tell who I am.
ik how u feel, i cry when i listen to music, or have a breakdown, and you should rlly seek help, everyone should do that, things arent going to get better on their own, u need to do smth, crying doesn't help, and ik u cant help it, but dont be tough, thats when ppl die...i am here for you tho and i do care
So,this is probably gonna be extremely long but whatever So when I was younger like ten or eleven,I realised that one of my friends my best friend had an eating disorder. I could already tell that she hated the way she looked, she would always say that I look skinny or fit when I asked her to stop calling me skinny. Eventually after I realised I started to make sure she ate her lunch at school,to make sure she ate since she joked that when she was like eight,nine she would go days without food,she only ate so she wouldn’t die,I could never tell if it was the truth or not but no one questioned it,so I didn’t. I wish I did,I wish I told her that it was unhealthy and that she was beautiful and perfect. Anyway so I absolutely hated even telling people when I was sick,so you can guess that I kept it to myself and it ate at me, sometimes I could forgot but then I realised as soon as I got home that she didn’t eat,i literally and figuratively beat my self up about it. It was exhausting,I wish I had told someone,anyone so she could’ve gotten help. I miss her so much,I regret not helping her everyday,I remember those little bits she had to eat,I remember thinking that would be enough,I Remember crying worried if she was going to die,having breakdowns and just shutting down. I wish I told someone so she could’ve still been here with me,laughing like we used to,talking like we used to. I wish I had told someone even if she hated me at least then I would know she would be okay,at least then I would know she would live,that she might forgive me and I wouldn’t have to live with guilt. Jesus that was long
the more and more i watch these, the more i wonder why i dont have problems like that. i want to be normal. i want to be sad but i cant. i just fckin cant when people like these people exist. people that have bad parents, a bad life, sa or sh trauma, and/or just anxiety or depression. i dont have ANY RIGHT to be sad if i have good parents, a good life, a path ahead of me, not a thought of suicide, no.
i struggle with many of the same thoughts, pretty much exactly the same. i live a good life where ppl right outside our apartment are living ones alot worse so many terrible things that happen to all kinds of ppl and im out here complaining abt way more tame shit ?? i know you cant treat it like a competetion, I KNOW that one "i cant be happy bc other ppl are happier then" quote but it still feels so wrong. it just feels like ur coming up with excuses to be a whiner again.. im sure you know the feeling but then again, sometimes.. i try to admit. you still **feel** all those things, all those things that dont feel good. as much i tell myself "im faking it" etc etc, weve still felt all those bad things and it isnt easy a few nights ago i was very sick (my entire body was just so tired and it all ached and my throat still feels like some waterdam) and i had stayed up late a bit. it was around 1:30 am and i got up from my bed and just silently muttered "damn, things do suck sometimes dont they ?" i try to tell myself that, after all were still human and sometimes need some sympathy ourselves too me saying all those doesnt change a thing tho, my problems arent important.. calling them """problems""" itself feels disgusting. i am disgusting i cant be sad ? woohoo i can cry myself a river cuz insert bad thing happened and nobody did their job of giving me hugs and kisses does me.. just saying that mean ill go ask for help ? not like ppl would or should even care idk, sorry for the rant. ur prolly the only person who ive seen say something like this yet
The school therapist told my parents what I told her my parents went "do you want therapy? NO DO YOU WANT THERAPY?" I never gave them a clear answer so here I am hoping I said yes
I continue to brush my teeth and hands. I want to vomit and every time I look at my hands I get disgusted. I am 14 years old. I never had a father. And my mother ignored me all my life. I moved in with her and her partner and my little brothers. It all started slowly. I felt caged. A 30-year-old man. I was afraid. I'm scared. Yes, I did what he told me. I pretended it was normal. I pretended I liked him. Mom, why does it seem so strange to you? I did hand work for him and mouth work. How disgusting. I suck. I want to vomit. I vomited after each time. I was vomiting what he had told me to swallow. Mom. Why are you angry? Why didn't I tell you? I told my grandparents. Sorry for making you angry mom. Sorry for ruin your life again mom.
Free therapy here.
Hey buddy, are you okay...?
Not really
My parents:
Homophobic
I have to tolerate it
Feeling like shit.
Any advice?
@@Countrycats0fficial
hi
same
whenever my mom sees gay people in movies, she goes ‘ew look they’re adding another gay couple this is so stupid’
and she knows im lgbtq
so
:)
Idk u but my mind is just telling me that am faking having anxiety idk what to do
11:02 this FICKING audio comes on well I’m streaming out tears. I started giggling
FR 🔥🔥🔥
LEAST EXPECTED SONG EVER
@@ConnieCrisis 😭
One second you're sobbing and then the next - childhood youtube videos background music starts playing😍
I can relate to the pillows vent I hug my pillow in hopes I would be comforted but I don't like actual hugs so I cry myself to sleep.
ya..:(
same. im was hugging a body pillow while I was watching this. I thought I was the only one who craved touch but was scared/didnt like being touched irl.
@@Cali_painty same I rlly rly want hugs, but dont like them ig its kinda the idea of it-
1:33 really just put in how I feel.
Now, I don't know if I'm trans or not, I do think that I'd rather be male than female, I hate being female. But at the same time, I don't mind it.
I'd like to have a deeper voice and be thought of as a guy, but then again I don't think I can be male anymore even if I try to transition. (I'm almost 18)
And then there's the thought that I think that way because mom loves my brother more. I don't know if this is genuinely a thing I started to think about to shut myself down or not.
But there are times where I'd like to be he/him, have a different name and be masculine. Hell, I like the fact that I started getting muscle just because I have to carry my dog around now. I like wearing baggier clothes, but also not so baggy clothes. I'd be happier, but I feel like it's too far from me now.. I don't know and I don't have anyone to talk about regarding this either.
TW: Venting, panic attacks, death
Lately since I’m jokingly morbid now whenever I’m around people I get horrible, horrible, thoughts of accidentally hurting them and it gives me mini panic attacks.. my anxiety has been worse, I feel worthless. Like- my actual life has been better but my mental health hasn’t been. There has only been 1 thing that really bad happened this month, which is my dog dying.. but I feel like shit, I hate myself. When I was younger I would cry and cry and cry when bad stuff happens but now I cry and go numb. To the point where it is unhealthy, like when I need to cry I can’t. My brain tries to silence my emotions. It sucks, it makes me feel like I’m insensitive, unable to feel empathy. I’ve had selfish thoughts of wanting attention.. I am so used to being invisible to people that now I have selfish thoughts of wanting attention all the time. I used to be so depressed that now I NEED a tone of dopamine at all times or I feel like shit. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have good friends, family, etc.. but I still feel that I’m not enough and that I’m a waste of space. Im starting to feel more self conscious of being overweight because I’m not used to being over 100 lb.. I don’t want to eat but I still do and it makes me feel bad. I feel gross, I feel nauseous when I eat but I can’t help but eat.
Sorry for venting, I just needed to talk about my feelings. Even if no one cares. I just need it out there. Sorry if I apologize too much.
I know things are hard right now. Please try to eat a little if you can, your body needs it
I barely read anything but i feel bad for you, i hope you get better
I know how you feel sm, and i have one thing to say: It's ok to be not be ok, its ok to not be alone, its ok to be alone, it ok to be "ungreatful" but it's not...depression isn't "ok" and its not smth u should have to live with that, no one should.
honestly i feel the same way most times. like, im ok but not at all...i hope your doing better now, and i wish you the best, whoever you are. please dont give up
i love you, your body, your hair (or lack of) your eyes, your skin, your hands, your personality, you are amzing, and this is for anyone else who needs it.
❤🩹❤❤🩹❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍
I'm really concerned about our generation. The brainrot, the kids that can't be help who NEEDS the comfort, dealing with kids from school, how my life is👍
thank you
I hate that i can’t feel anything.
maybe in another universe I was told the truth. maybe in another universe he would be alive. maybe in another universe I am indeed stronger, than maybe I would be better.
I LOVE THAT DID U WRITE IT
@@tropicalandlogical yes, I came up with that on the spot
@@Algea_Nox i love it :)
@@tropicalandlogical thank you! I often don't comment shit like this bc I am scared of peoples reactions but this made me very happy💛
@@Algea_Nox YELLOW HEART YAY lol sorry, and im so glad I made u happy :D
For people who are depressed. Someone loves you. But they’re worried to tell you. You keep bottling up your real self. And I may not know you but I care about your feelings. Please don’t hurt yourself. It’s not worth it. If someone is making you uncomfortable. Just walk away, they are jealous. I don’t know what you look like but you’re beautiful.
[as]
I got ignored as a small child, my dad would have his head phones in when I wanted to play with him or show him something I drew..so then I’d ask my mum, but she was always tired. My sister was the only one left but she’d still say no. So I had to play by myself sometimes I’d cry, but that wasn’t the most shitty thing anyone did to me, my dad used to smack me on the ass or threaten me with a wooden spoon when I didn’t do anything wrong..I couldn’t understand why he did that. He moved out a couple years ago, but he’s still fighting for custody. He’s leaving my sister alone and favouriting her then calling me stupid or annoying and comparing me to my 1 year old cousin who pooped on the stares. He might as well tell me he hates me.
That's so messed up! I'm so sorry you have to go through that :(
My friend stopped being my mate. We were best friends and I loved her so so much (platonically). I’ve been friends with her for over a year and she ended it all saying I’m an embarrassment I’m ugly, my stomach rolls, when I go down stairs I create tsunamis, my eyes are wonky, my hair is messy, and she was skinny and better than me. I’m very insecure and I’ve told her about it and she targeted it. We aren’t friends anymore. And for the first time in months I want to relapse. (I’ve blocked her)
I have been clean for 5 months if anyone cares
I care! I don't know you, but I'm proud of you!
@@Rexxie9 thank you for caring
i know im very late to comment on this but that is so so so awesome and you are doing such a great job. i wish i was as strong as you, you are absolutely amazing
@@gl1tch3d_ang3l thank you so much
@@gl1tch3d_ang3l ty
You know when that feeling in your throat when you're about to cry because remember that. I'm not known for crying at funerals, or over anything really but one day my friend play hit me after a fight and my throat felt like it was on fire, I kind of regret bottling up my feelings now.
so here goes a list of some of these that i relate to :P
5:14 , i'm attached to plushies even though everyone else my age has probably been over that already a while ago, i rather not tell anyone except my BFF(not including my family), i feel like i can tell her anything
5:48 , i was pretty hated in class for 3+ years for zero reason(i've been in school longer than 3 years i'm not a third grader), had about 3 friends, found out two of 'em were trying to stab me/use me for their own good(iykyk), got a new BFF 1+ year ago and grew attached(in a friend way), got more confident, started loving me and my body, shoutout to her for making me feel that way, pretty much just got a mental AND physical glow up during summer break bc puberty started loving me suddenly ig, though remember, everyone has insecurities, even if they're "minor", i do too, if you can't love them, fix them, it's completely valid :)
6:07 , not really gonna talk about this but all i'm gonna say is that this happens basically anytime one of my siblings/cousins crosses the sensitive spot/line(IYKYK)
IT'S TIME FOR ME TO YAP ABOUT UNRELATED STUFF MHM
recently i've found out my sexuality(aroace, bi), and i can't tell my family nor my friends bc homophobia is EVERYWHERE around me, i've only told my BFF bc i know i can trust her and i share it around the internet bc from what i've seen, social media is pretty accepting, and i don't share my socials w my family just to be safe :D never really wanted a romantic relationship and the yk part of it, like i'm fine with hugs(any type) from close friends and that's it bc i don't really like being touched in any way as i'm pretty sensitive to touch for some reason :P since i've been more introduced to social media from my couple years of my life time, i found out many things about myself such as my interests and what brings me joy, like the little things like butterflies or seeing small children playing/being happy
i genuinely got lost while typing this out bc i never really get to talk about stuff like this(here i go already lost the topic in a sentence). :D anyways, sorry for falling of topic a bit on there, i just wanted to talk about it :_)
(this took 15 minutes to type HELPPP)
0:08 hey just letting you know this isn’t a vent, it’s an angst video of a character called Peter that’s from a game that severely undermines a lot of bad situations, ie: r4p3.
I thought it was js a person whos persona looked rlly similar 😭
Creator of the game is also transphobic and lesbiphobic
Maybe in another life my family will love me, maybe my dad wouldnt have left for two dif fams, maybe i wouldnt have sh, maybe i would still have my dogs and bunnies, maybe id love myself, maybe id fit in, maybe id be pretty. Maybe i wouldnt be a tryhard, maybe id be skinny, maybe id be good at art, maybe i wouldn't be bullied, maybe i wouldn't have lost my bsf. (She unfriended me for my ex) Maybe i wouldnt still be doing sh and hiding it, maybe i wouldnt stress so much..
2:25 song name?
Think of me once in a while take care I think.
@@SDMokuri THANK YOU SM
Guys, imma spill some stuff so just fyi:
I cant sleep anymore:( its always because im scared, scared to die. The fear of how it will happen and how it well be in the end terrifies me. Not only that but school is honestly crap. This girl started out talking about being bi and asking if i was still straight, made me uncomfortable. Then in changing rooms she said i had a gyatt, made me uncomfortable. At PE she slid her hand down my back while talking about getting a GF. She makes me uncomfortable. I wish I didn’t have PE :( My friend ignores me, most of mine do. It is as if im just an imaginary friend there when they need me. It is how everyone acts. My advisory teacher and violin teacher are the only ones i trust :( P.S my advisory teacher is the art teacher 🤣 i get tips from her when i draw, i draw the entire period because no one talks to me. Not even my friend Z
Really feel the part about the friends I told my no longer friends about my Sh and depression and my shitty homelife and they told me to stop complaining and "tough it out" when I don't think it's that simple or is there just something wrong with me but I feel bad for you I've had some experiences with unwanted relationships they creep me out even as a guy but I hope you get some friends who actually care❤
@@ThePumpkinRabbit77 you need friends who really care to! You deserve a better a life, i hope everything works out in the end for you, stay strong 💪
@@ThePumpkinRabbit77 I feel you, I had a couple rlly toxic friends one of them being the girl whos still my bsf, no one knows what she did to me, and although she kinda has an reason ig she had a shit past too but it still rlly hurts, she never said sorry...and if im being honest i think my friends would just shrug it off if i told them what she did, ik it shouldn't bother me but i have two types of friends: the ones who dont understand what depression is like and talk about themsleves, and the ones who do and dont rlly care cuz theyre used to it, even tho one of my friends does SH she still seems to happier at school then ill ever be, ik she does have it worse in some ways, but still why does everyone have to be happier?? it just kinda feels like no where is safe, schools not rlly, homes not, venting to parents in a no-go, and the same goes for friends
THAT WAS A LOT SORRY
@tropicalandlogical nah your good and valid this is just a vent comment to relate to and I get you about the people being happier part it seems no matter how much you try to find one person to cheer up there's no one no one to be useful too in my sense that's the only reason I'm here still rn is just to help people my life was gone I belive in 5th grade so five years ago for me I hope you do see a happier day eventually and get a better friend no matter how bad their life was it gav3 them no right to do that to you❤
@@ThePumpkinRabbit77 Tysm! I hope ur doing better, little things that some ppl do like take the time to write a whole reply mean a lot to me ty
11:35 really struck me lmao
Mini vent, I guess?
When I was little, I would watch nature documentaries all the time and loved learning about animals and plants. Then I grew up was a teenager and yeah teenage things I don't really want to go into detail but nothing bad I just grew up. And then I got more "freaky" cause I was a teenager and now I'm just me lol.
14:01 I HAVE NEVER FELT SO UNDERSTOOD WHAT THE HELL- TY FOR MAKING THIS
After crying do you ever just….. think about the happy times and wish that, he/she was still hugging you and refusing to let you go for a couple minutes?
1:21 Once i was very overwhelmed and i was in my last class of the day I couldn’t stop crying and my teacher noticed and she told me to go to restroom and i got excused from that class that day
Im so grateful for her
5:14 …same, but I actually hope the pillow strangles me, not confort me😰 but it’s the only thing I touch. physical touch…it’s weird, I’ve been beat, so whenever I get touched, I think they r gonna hit or yell at me…it’s scary, since I’m weak, and I don’t know how to be stronger…anyway, how ya doin’ partner? 🤠, good/bad to hear, I’m doin’ pretty sigma if ya ashk me.🤠🤠🤠🤠
The first one was very relatable to me
1:26 happened to me before, and the thi g that made me actually start having a break down was being pushed by my fake a$$ friend that passed me with one of their friends in the hallway and laughed after. :'>
this one girl at my school keeps talking the attention away from me when I try and actually talk about how I feel she goes around saying oh at least you don’t have blah blah blah and then she gets all of the attention. I sound like an attention seeker I know but my group is really messed up and they help each other. Except for me, they didn’t even comfort me after I told them I tried to kms.
I fell like my. Friend ships are falling a part almost all of my "friends" say they don't wann be friends anymore and idk why and I feel like I've done something wrong but idk what
4:42 I FEEL IT SM ive been feeling like i failed sm now, i have no idea sm of these would be so relateable-
i never have been able to express myself or talk about my problems, I'm not even able to say I'm not okey when someone ask's even when I want to. there are time's when I want to talk about it, I want to yell about it I want to scream about it dammnit but all I can do I say "I'm fine" and go on acting like everything is okey when really I just want to die so I don't have to feel this way. there have been a few times when I told a friend something and they just say "same🤣" or "fr" acting like it's some kind joke. i don't know how I ended up this way I don't want to be this way. I remember when I was younger and I could still feel real happynes but now..I just don't know what to do anymore. part of me wants to talk about this to someone and get help but another part of me wants to bottle it up inside and act like everything is okey and not let anyone know the truth
1:20 I have had so many panic attacks when I am on rec room in a public room and I just leave it usually
“Ur thinking abt me!!^^
1:14 THE BFDI BOOK-
BAHAHA THEY JUDGED BOOK BY HER COVER
I’M CRYING LMAO
3:29 hits hard
Everytime I go into a panic attack/meltdown/just a random shitass episode I listen to a lot of music, it would be either rage music, sad music; It would be so that I could actually feel emotions. I genuinely cannot feel negative emotions without listening to music to let it out, and usually it ends with me SH or dissasociating to the point I cant tell who I am.
ik how u feel, i cry when i listen to music, or have a breakdown, and you should rlly seek help, everyone should do that, things arent going to get better on their own, u need to do smth, crying doesn't help, and ik u cant help it, but dont be tough, thats when ppl die...i am here for you tho and i do care
0:07 as soon as i saw Peter (your boyfriend 18+) my heart broke into a million pieces, i love that man so much
You are loved Friend
11:17
me about to cry: 😔
This song comes on: 👁️👄👁️
5:13 she hoped it wouldnt be relatable, but it actually is..
I think my computer's glitching cuz there's some random music at: 8:53
Btw, I hope everyone who vented in these comments are alright
5:06 I WANT TO BE THERE NOW!!!
1:19 called me out 😭😭
What's the first sound called in the video?
Feel free to vent ! If you want advice or help I can help anyone ❤
8:07 song name?
Empty bed by cavetown :D
@@tippy.tobi06 ITS A CAVETOWN SONG? YIPPEE
So,this is probably gonna be extremely long but whatever
So when I was younger like ten or eleven,I realised that one of my friends my best friend had an eating disorder. I could already tell that she hated the way she looked, she would always say that I look skinny or fit when I asked her to stop calling me skinny. Eventually after I realised I started to make sure she ate her lunch at school,to make sure she ate since she joked that when she was like eight,nine she would go days without food,she only ate so she wouldn’t die,I could never tell if it was the truth or not but no one questioned it,so I didn’t. I wish I did,I wish I told her that it was unhealthy and that she was beautiful and perfect. Anyway so I absolutely hated even telling people when I was sick,so you can guess that I kept it to myself and it ate at me, sometimes I could forgot but then I realised as soon as I got home that she didn’t eat,i literally and figuratively beat my self up about it. It was exhausting,I wish I had told someone,anyone so she could’ve gotten help. I miss her so much,I regret not helping her everyday,I remember those little bits she had to eat,I remember thinking that would be enough,I Remember crying worried if she was going to die,having breakdowns and just shutting down. I wish I told someone so she could’ve still been here with me,laughing like we used to,talking like we used to. I wish I had told someone even if she hated me at least then I would know she would be okay,at least then I would know she would live,that she might forgive me and I wouldn’t have to live with guilt.
Jesus that was long
Almost “committed” today… doesn’t feel great tbh, especially when you can’t share that with anyone
1:48 very relatable😲😲
Feel free to vent here!🤗
when you want to become so ill so your family can finally notice you and care
When you realize all these tiktoks related to you too much:
Relapsed recently and ended up only hurting the parts of my body that i hate
the more and more i watch these, the more i wonder why i dont have problems like that. i want to be normal. i want to be sad but i cant. i just fckin cant when people like these people exist. people that have bad parents, a bad life, sa or sh trauma, and/or just anxiety or depression. i dont have ANY RIGHT to be sad if i have good parents, a good life, a path ahead of me, not a thought of suicide, no.
i struggle with many of the same thoughts, pretty much exactly the same. i live a good life where ppl right outside our apartment are living ones alot worse
so many terrible things that happen to all kinds of ppl and im out here complaining abt way more tame shit ?? i know you cant treat it like a competetion, I KNOW that one "i cant be happy bc other ppl are happier then" quote but it still feels so wrong. it just feels like ur coming up with excuses to be a whiner again.. im sure you know the feeling
but then again, sometimes.. i try to admit. you still **feel** all those things, all those things that dont feel good. as much i tell myself "im faking it" etc etc, weve still felt all those bad things and it isnt easy
a few nights ago i was very sick (my entire body was just so tired and it all ached and my throat still feels like some waterdam) and i had stayed up late a bit. it was around 1:30 am and i got up from my bed and just silently muttered "damn, things do suck sometimes dont they ?" i try to tell myself that, after all were still human and sometimes need some sympathy ourselves too
me saying all those doesnt change a thing tho, my problems arent important.. calling them """problems""" itself feels disgusting. i am disgusting
i cant be sad ? woohoo i can cry myself a river cuz insert bad thing happened and nobody did their job of giving me hugs and kisses
does me.. just saying that mean ill go ask for help ? not like ppl would or should even care
idk, sorry for the rant. ur prolly the only person who ive seen say something like this yet
Watching this bc if i relapse I get all privacy taken and sent to the psych ward 🤗
i'm so sorry...
The school therapist told my parents what I told her my parents went "do you want therapy? NO DO YOU WANT THERAPY?" I never gave them a clear answer so here I am hoping I said yes
FIRST
1:49 2:10 4:52
i dont even have that that bad of a life why am I sad all the time
I was s/a'd at a young age many times up until I reached my teenage years so 7:36 hit me deep.
8:54 no random music? yeah yeah.
0:24 anyone know song ?
15:48 23:15 24:32
You are loved , you are beautiful, you are worthy, it’s not your fault , it’ll never be your fault my dear.. it’ll never be your fault but theirs
Please give me the song name for 2:03
16:48 relatable.
Does anyone know the name of the first song? 0:00 😅
9:00 random music
21:30 pls I NEED the song name
2nd guy be looking like peter from "your boyfriend" game tho, im sorry i had to point it out
Im young but have been through stuff i can help give advice wnd be a friend to u if u need me to and i would be glad to talk just ask❤
what does "sa" mean? idk
Sexual assault
This is just so I can get to it easily...
8:00
My ex got a new bf. It’s been five days. How you gonna complain the whole relationship abt being replaceable then do that?
I continue to brush my teeth and hands. I want to vomit and every time I look at my hands I get disgusted. I am 14 years old. I never had a father. And my mother ignored me all my life. I moved in with her and her partner and my little brothers. It all started slowly. I felt caged. A 30-year-old man. I was afraid. I'm scared. Yes, I did what he told me. I pretended it was normal. I pretended I liked him. Mom, why does it seem so strange to you? I did hand work for him and mouth work. How disgusting. I suck. I want to vomit. I vomited after each time. I was vomiting what he had told me to swallow. Mom. Why are you angry? Why didn't I tell you? I told my grandparents. Sorry for making you angry mom. Sorry for ruin your life again mom.
8:53 I NEED TO KNOW WHAT SONG THIS IS
This is the full song link
ua-cam.com/video/Yjo_NQUyBa8/v-deo.htmlsi=gvQUwKCPPxsUuPro
I think it’s propose by 9lana
thank you, 2 people who replied!
more random music. 16:19
vent in the comments
I’m the youngest that’s all you need to fucking know
Why is this so poorly edited? Sloppily cutting out TikToks, straight up repeating the same ones, weird random music?
ALSO VENT TO ME PLS IF U NEED IT WERE ALL IN THE SAME BOAT HERE might as well make the most of it 🤍
2:32 song name plzz?
"Think of me once and awhile" by take care
6:49 song name?
I think it's drunk walk home by mistuki
2:27 song name?