I just want you to know. I read all your comments. Please speak out, write about your problems, people will always listen to you here. I love everyone💗
I'm really sad because my parents literally dont give a shit about me. And they don't help me with homework, and btw this is not because they are busy or have work. They literally are just laying on the couch watching tv. They do work, but still.. They dont even want to play board games with me. THis is causing me to be on my computer all the time out of boredom. I dont want to be on the computer playing video games but theres nothing else to do. And no one even talks to me and asks me if im ok. Not even when im crying. It sucks. I have nothing to occupy myself other than this stupid computer. They just hand me a computer. I mean, I have books.. But I have to be in the mood to read. But so far I've read them all. And my coloring books are super boring. Its just shapes and stuff... DANG I TYPED A WHOLE PARAGRAPH- I am super thankfull for everything I have though. But.. Im sad they dont care about me. And I dont have anyone to play with.. I dont live in a neighborhood, I have about 3 friends. I have 2 of their numbers but they are constantly busy it seems. Or they make up excuses. And I have older siblings but 1 is moved out and 1 works all the time and is only off on sunday. I'm worried I need a therapist at 11 years old..
( 4:09) How is being assaulted cringe?!?!? Wtf?!? Remember those people aren't your friends and the sooner they're out of your life the better. It means you have room for true ones.
But how do u know who r ur real friends if u tell someone and they r fake friends who do u tell to then until everyone knows the trust is already lost how can they say it to someone else
It’s really hard to get those people out tho because they will basically make you feel your lowest then host you up so you think they are your “real friends” but then they do it again but you start getting the feeling you “need” them. It’s horrible and they way I stopped being friends with them is bc we had a absolutely huge argument and she started blaming everything on me. But then after we stopped being friends I was talking to my therapist and I realized she (they) were one of the big reasons I didn’t like myself and wanted to 👋.
This popped up on my home page, and I don’t normally comment on these types of videos, but omg these compilations have helped me through so much. As someone who has fought with their own mental health for a few years, I always find myself here when things get to be too much. Knowing that I’m not alone is really helpful, knowing that having the feelings I do is normal helps so much. I don’t have any diagnosis by anyone and that comes along with feeling like I’m overreacting even though I don’t tell anyone how I feel, but thank you so much for making me feel seen in the minefield that is my own head, sorry for rambling on, though I do appreciate you taking the time to read what I wrote. I hope anyone reading this is doing alright, and know that you deserve all the good that comes too you! Thank you so much for being here, I’m really grateful that you stick around even when things are difficult, cause even if it seems that way, hard times are not permanent and you can make it through to the other side :)
gawd i have gotten SO used to paragraphs on these types of videos just reading silently making them feel listened too and understanded i was ready to see a 10,000 word paragraph and scroll-
3:29 that was really good art that person shouldn't wreck other peoples art because they are furries nor emo unless it was some very innapropriate art then they shouldnt have done that. me personally do not hate nor love furries i dont mind them just saying.
Yeah i came here to see if anyone picked up anything i didn't see but i guess that was all there was too see that was fricked up I have furry friends and my little sister is a therian artist. I can't believe how hateful and disgusting some people can be. And this is a vent playlist!!! Why the heck is something so hateful in a video for vulnerable people?!?!
:[ I was already sad, but that just made me sadder considering I'm a furry/therian.. ik it was probably put there to cheer people up or smt but that just made me feel worse..
This is just a lovely message for those who are struggling. Someone out there WILL love you, Someone out there WILL hear your voice, someone WILL speak to you, Someone WILL talk to you. Never think you're never worth it when you are! You are worth it, you can do it. you're almost there!
im proud of you. i dont care that i don't know you, im still so proud of you. even if you think its your fault, its okay. its going to be okay. you're doing amazing, im so, so proud of you. please keep on going. i love you so very much. i love you even if you think nobody else does. i love you even if you know so many other people love you. i love you even if you dont love yourself. please, take care. eat any food you like, drink water, stay rested. i love you.
I broke up with the boy who protected me during my lowest, to be honest I’m not sure why I did. But part of me still misses him. He would comfort me, and hold my hand if I wasn’t feeling up to anything. And now he hates me, I’m sorry to him. I’ve said it many of times. But I still don’t understand why I did that. All he did in return was block me and date my classmate instead. Apparently she was waiting for him. I still beat myself up over it, even tho it was about 2 years ago
“You don’t know how lucky u have it. People would die to have me as a mom.” I hate u with all my soul but I also love u with all my heart. Whenever I’m around you I feel uneasy and distant, like I don’t want to be around you because I know how quick you will switch up. Worst part of it is I’m only 13 but I have to take it all just so my sister doesn’t get the worst of it. I don’t fvcking if I mess up u don’t get to hurt ur kids emotionally like that. No mom should threaten to beat the sh!t out of there kids because we told I we didn’t like the camera in the living room. Why can’t u just be a normal parent.
i love (not rlly love) how everyone is talking abt how they started self harming in their teen years but i started at 8 years old and kept going until 13. i now have puffy scars, over 200 scars, more trauma from my mother finding out abt it from the school, i fucked up and can no longer talk to my favorite person for who knows how long (we still talk but without anyone knowing), i only got clean cause i was forced to and now i dont feel like i have a reason to be sad even though my 10 year old bsf would be 13 rn if she WASNT FUCKING DEAD and my uncle KILLED HIMSELF EVEN THOUGH HE WAS THE ONLY PERSON WHO TREATED ME AS A PERSON WHEN I WAS LIKE 5 and im the therapist friend, whenever i tried to tell people that i could "fix it myself" and "i dont want help" they forced it on me and now i hate people even more, my school counselor cant stay out of other business, i've already tried to unalive myself 3 times in the span of 2 years, i have extremely bad PTSD, a good amount of my old friends hate me now bc of how badly i fucked up with my favorite person, and i am on the verge of screaming at everyone in school, getting up of a table, and just ending it right there and then. IM FUCKIGN 14 I SHOULDNT BE HAVING TO GO THROUGH THIS. life is fun right :)
also if people try to tell me that therapy will help, trust me it wont. i know for a fact that i couldve fixed everything on my own i just needed time. also im not going to unalive myself anytime soon cause i promise my favorite person that i wouldnt bc i love her.
Hey man or female or non-binary person, just a suggestion, if you haven't already done it. try to get some therapy. I hope you can eventually feel okay again. Have a great year! Sending virtual hugs!🫂❤
@@TheLesBean415 tysm. i am thankfully in therapy (even tho i dont wanna be) and i have, so far, been clean from sh all summer (except for the occasional hitting myself subconsciously or picking at my scabs without realizing it). i finally left that horrible friend group and made a ton new friends already. turns out that no one likes that friend group bc of how horrible they are to everyone except themselves and everyone thought i was js as manipulative and horrible as them so once i left they all realized that i wasn't. since leaving that group there has been a giant weight lifted off my chest and i can breathe without being shamed or judged. everything has been better and im slowly starting to learn to be better and appreciate life (slowly... very VERY slowly). also btw i love ur name cause i relate. im also a lesbean :D
I'm a middle child, I hate my mom but love my dad, my moms always so demanding and wants me to get stuff done (I know, sounds like a usual mom) she would threaten to throw my stuff away if I didn't clean my room fast enough, yell at me if my grades weren't good enough, never asked if I was ok, never checks if I'm safe going out so I have to make sure I'm safe myself around everyone and everything, I'd always trip or accidentally dropped something on myself and she'd brush it off like she just saw a child laugh though I was never laughing around her. while she was at school I was so supportive. She got everything I didn't. Good grades, loving parents, good siblings, no gender dysphoria, actually had good friends and a good relationship, had someone there for her. She always posted on our family GC about her good grades and I always said "ok mom, you go girl!" But whenever I say I got a 60 (which is a accomplishment for me) in her eyes it's a 20. I want to impress her and make her love me, my dad works a lot but I can tell he loves me decently, he's a bit overprotective but never pays attention to me because he's so busy. One morning while she was gone at school I was on the counter waiting for my brother to get done with packing for school and I just randomly started crying, I tried to stop but I couldn't and my dad saw, he immediately hugged me and comforted me, my mom always does puzzles instead of hanging out with me and paying attention to me I know she likes my other siblings and one of my older brothers girlfriends and she views her as a daughter, it hurts me because I feel like I'm being replaced by her. I just want to be good, I want to get away from her but I can't. I'm not in a good mental space either which sucks but I've been clean for a year because I use dye instead of a knife or any blade over my arms and legs, I hope they don't notice but I hope my friends do because they care for me more than my parents. I love my friends because they care so so much for me but my parents don't as much
Let me just say i had no one there for me...and so i will. But my mom is abusive too but your a stranger i possibally never met but lemme js say this.The u next time your mom is mean tell her how she made u feel and i will think abt how she will feel too!.. Bc ik im not the only one here thats suicidal, or done self-harm, or put a gun to our own heads but your not alone..And not never ever alone and yk why? Why, because ik what its like bc i was pushed to a wall and my mother said i was N.O.T.H.I.N.G....... And so ik and vent if anyone would like too..❤:)
Used this to feel better, but instead now I’m mad bc this is 2 hours and 49 minutes, not 2 hours and 50 minutes All seriousness though this really helped me see I’m not alone, thank you.
7:22 is so real bro. I was called annoying so many times I just stopped trying to be myself and lost myself along they way. i don't even know my favorite song or color. And I never talk or else i'm too loud but then i'm asked if i'm ok and I have to say yes because if I said no I would be selfish and uncaring about others.
"hey, at least any 'abuse' you think i did to you made you stronger, right?" FUCKING NO, SARAH. I WAS 9. I JUST WANTED TO BE MYSELF. WAS IT REALLY SO HARD TO LOVE YOUR 'DAUGHTER' AS A SON? YOU SAID YOU WISHED I WASN'T BORN. THE ONLY THING THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN MAKING ME 'STRONGER' WAS VEGETABLES AND MILK.
i’ve hated my dad ever since he and my mom divorced. She’s trying her best and he’s doing all he can to be an a*shole. A few years after the divorce my mom told that the reason for it was them constantly arguing and him being controllive over their money. She’s not poor, but sometimes struggling financially. My dad is rich, pays child support but that’s all. He doesn’t give a f*ck about his childrens’ mother. He doesn’t communicate with her, and if he does he’s just passive agressively telling her it’s her fault when it’s not. He plays the victim and yells at my mom on the phone. Im sick of it, and sick of him ”loving me and my sister” while being a f*cking a*shole at my mother who has done nothing wrong. When my mom struggled, me and my sister would lend her money for groceries and she’d pay us back every time. My dad ”found out” and soon we had to stop it. Every time we WANTED to help her willingly, but he doesn’t want that. She’s getting by, but he’s making her life as difficult as he can and there’s nothing i can do about it
I just don't understand why I am this way, my parents are fine, and honestly I should be the one to blame to anyone's trauma. I was always the violent child, and I still am. I don't understand why I am like this, why I cut myself, why I do anything at all really. Though I wish my father actually tried to understand when I'm trying to open up about my emotions. I try to tell him that everyday feels the same, and all he tells me is "go into some after school thing". That's not going to help, I barely want to get up in the morning, what makes him think I have the energy after school to do that? I'd just wish he'd try to listen, but instead I'm the one comforting him after he's the one who made mom mad, comforting him when he's sad that I feel these things about myself, I don't think that's a child's job.
I'm sorry. Try to speak up more. Tell him pretty much everything you wrote on the comment. I'm sure then he'd understand. Idk about the cutting tho if he already doesnt know-
The best time i spent in my life was with people i wish i never met online. im 12. i cut my fingers with scissors. i dont even know why. i cant trust my friends with my crush and i know it sounds so stupid compared to what you guys are going thru but i just can't tell anyone anything anymore. i actually didn't think i'd make it this far. I'M 12. I SPEND MY ENTIRE DAY DOING STUPID CRAP ON MY COMPUTER. i have eating problems. i hate my body, the only people i can vent to i can't even see anymore i don't think moving schools was the best idea. i hate everyone thinking that just because ii go to a private school means im snotty and stuck-up. i hate all my friends, i hate sitting in a classroom the 2 days i go to school. im just a kid...
I’m sorry that you feel like you’re dealing with so much alone. You are just a kid, and I wish it was easier for you. Your body doesn’t need to be anything but yours. Whatever you look like, there’s nothing wrong with it, it just is the way it is. Whatever pain you’re putting yourself through is never going to make you feel less guilty or less lonely, and maybe you know that, but I promise it’s only going to make it harder for you let yourself actually feel better. Twelve year olds are awful to each other. I wish you could say you had more happy memories of friends and more support, but you have so much time to get them. Maybe you’ll need to wait longer than you should have to, but people get better and leave and get replaced. I don’t know if you’re at all in the same mindset that you were when you wrote this, but if you want to reply you can talk more about anything you want
People who think that people with mental problems or mental illnesses are faking it but also say they have a mental problem is trying to get attention for something they don't have and hate and yet every time I write inspirational things like this for people I always remember but never live up to it so word of advice if you ever like tell someone about something then end up having a different opinion on that topic later in life its ok to do that and no one should tell you its not because if they do they should apologize because everyone I've ever met has done that to me before and never apologized and look how I turned out! A person suffering from so much trauma I can't sleep because I dream of those past experiences.
I’m going to vent here since I’m pretty sure no one else cares about what I’m going through(except for very few). So basically I grew up with no father. I had an uncle who was my father figure though, he’d comfort me, protect me from my grandpa(his dad, my grandpa is the worst), we had the best movie nights ever, we’d wake up early in the morning so we could do workouts, there were so many things that he did for me. But now he’s not the same anymore, he had a heart attack(I think) in 2020 and now he’s bed rest and can’t talk. He’s he changed so much it hurts to see him like that. Asides from that I just really need a father in my life, all my other friends have amazing dads but I don’t have one. If I’m being honest I’m more of a physical touch person(I respect others space but I love hugs and cuddles from certain people, oh and forehead kisses!!), and I just really want a nice comforting hug but no one will give one to me. I also see all these other people(my friends specifically) have such nice families but my family is just loud arguments that never seem to end. I’m a big sister by the way and I just found out(when I came back from school) that my sister almost died and I didn’t know anything about it, I was just laughing all day and smiling while my sister almost died. And if I’m being honest with you all…I really just want a big brother or a older sibling so they could give me some attention…I see my cousins(they live with me now) have such good relationships with my aunt and uncle(their mom and dad, but I’m mostly sad about the great father relationship between my uncle and his kids) and it makes me so mad that I don’t have that. I really just want someone to hold me and comfort me…
i see you heart, sitting lonely... it seems just like mine. i could ask for help, but help doesnt.. well, help. what i do that comforts me, is comforting others. i am a therapist friend, if you may guess. to be honest, i'd give anything to be part of your family. whether we switch places, or i am just a part of it with you.. i want a reason. just, the slightest reason to feel how i feel. a reason to cry how i cry. but i wont let myself feel anymore. i want to tell you.. i see, i see how you hurt. i want to hold you. i want to talk to you. i want to have you sit in my lap, and cry however much you want to cry. i want to help. but i cant. however much i try, i will never know who you are, or where you are. its the effort that i care about now. and i'll try to help, as much as possible.
I told myself earlier today “why should people care about you, especially when you’re a background character in your own life” and my instant response was “because the silly background characters are always the favorites”
3:23 wtf? Being a furry is a hobby of cosplaying as an animal. and you shouldn't be ruining furry art its one of the best kinds of arts in my opinion. idk if you don't support it but at least RESPECT it.
I was 7 when lockdown happened. After that whole thing ended, I realized that I'd completely forgotten everything about younger me. The young, innocent child that had to deal with all that shit. I barely remember what I looked like. What my personality was. It makes me feel so awful thinking about it. It's like I remember everything but 7-8 year old me is just.. Erased from that memory. I'm working with my my therapist on inner child work and I honestly feel like it might help me. I feel really uncomfy when I watch old videos or pictures of me, and I think part of that came from the trauma Covid caused me.
VENT: sh, ed, I just recently opened up to my doctor and mom about unwanted touch (not sa) that I experienced on the third day of my freshman year in high school where a guy came up behind me, grabbed my shoulders and ran his hands down my back, then proceeded to walk away and blow my a kiss. I opened up about how ive been extremely paranoid since then and i get flashbacks and panic attacks whenever i see someone wearing gray behind me or if anyone touches my back. My mom said it was all just “normal teenage things”. I haven’t sh in a few days but the urge is back. I can’t look at food without wanting to puke. My body is so used to not eating and i just don’t get hungry anymore. Ive been going between staying up all night and day to getting a maximum of 2 hours. I hate it but ive gotten so used to everything that its normal for me. I barely even get tired anymore either. I hate it when people say im thin.. like i know im thin like you don’t have to point it out.
9:47 my mother thought that reverse psychology was the only way to succeed, she told my i wasnt good enough to go to grades i dreamed about she told me i should get held back and that im not smart enough to get to the next grade she has done this every time leap comes around and every time she does i have a panic attack and she just shrugs it off saying she wont do it againbut she has done it every year and telling me that i just barley made it to the next grade she has done this since 3rd grade and it doesn’t help me
I was joking around with my friends at school, just talking in group-work time. And I was in mid-reply to one of their jokes and then one said, "Can you actually shut up, I'm trying to work." And no one else disagreed with them. The thing is, that was weeks ago, and I'm up at 4:29 am writing this because I couldn't sleep 5 hours ago because of what they said.
I feel bad for venting but here I've been more depressed than usual ig, I've always been upset and mad and I always isolated myself from people if I wasn't being "forced" to be around them. I recently found out that there's a high chance I have depression (I'm not that surprised honestly), and with my mom being bipolar and gaving depression she might've been able to see the signs better than I did, but she didn't, all I got told was it's hormones and that I was just lazy (btw I love my parents they're awsome and I think they're really nicebut this stuck with me). Everything has sucked this year, I've started hating myself more, I can't find the urge to do what I love, I can't find an urge to watch movies or play with my family, or two do basic things everyone can do such as showering and other stuff. I say I'm fine but the truth is I don't want to burden my friends with my feelings, I mean why burden them when they need me, why burden them when they have things going on that could be worse than me? My parents also always fought but it's gotten better, but now I'm extremely anxious and constantly upset, I've always gotten good grades so when I saw them slip I cried, I don't have motivation to do homework anymore or class work and I was told it was because I was being lazy! I also got curious randomly today and slapped my arm with a rubber band, I got a mark and freaked out, it's slowly going now though. I need help but I don't know what to do, I don't know who to talk to or if I even want to, I don't want people to think I'm weird or a freak or whatever. I don't want people to be worried because I'm fine. If I say I'm fine than no one will be burdened with my feelings and no one will be worried. Sorry for this long rant.
I have never actually believed I would make it this far in life or long enough to be an adult because of my extensive medical history and now I don’t really want too and I just realized this so this year’s gonna suck
I told my "best friend" about my SA story. They said "at least its not as bad as mine" She was the first person I ever told, I had to hold back tears, I've never felt so betrayed.
Two weeks clean from cutting… my friend got sent away to a hospital and I miss her so much.. I found old notes and drawings she’s made for me.. and now I’m crying…
As a 10 year old , I never wanted to live to begin with .. When he died , The whole world become the worst thing I’ve ever known . Fighting , S/A , Divorcing , Switching homes .
You're just ten. Please stay with us. I know everything is insane and horrible, but it'll get better. You're not a teenager yet, you don't know how you'll be in the future. You're seen. -Vic
i have issues with both of my parents...first thing is that my dad fucking met me when i was 3..he was not there for me when i was born nor my firs steps...first word...and first day of kindergarten...and "mom" on the other hand is mean verbally and mentally...i'm at the point where i just bottle up my emotions and if i try to tell her stuff i so exited for she is just like "mhm yeah nice" and doesn't look off her damn phone for just one second...every time i see my dad he is just always giving my brothers attention...if i think about it my dad was around when my brothers where born and when they both said there first words...if were all dong a family thing (mom and dad are separated so when i mean family is i mean is girlfriend and her son) or going to the mall he will hang out with the boys a lot and me if im around but i've lashed out on my dad beffore.....and some times i just struggle witch parent is being honest....
Hi (please don't judge me) about 3 years ago i start studying to figure out what was wrong with me...be i always Felt different since as a kid and i got to the conclussion that i might have autism, adhd and MAYBE borderline and i tried to talk to my parents about It...and my dad supports me but my mom she was already abusive before but now she got alot worst and she make me doubt If should get an neurologist appointment or not...
i never comment on this but i just wanted to say that your compilations helped me through a very hard time in my life, helped me get clean, and i want you to know i am eternally grateful
I don’t know if I can keep going like this- I’m staying up until 3 and sleeping until 1 in the afternoon- the only thing that brings me joy is my unpopular interests- my “friend” did a prank on me where she pretended to be a guy on Snapchat and tried to g wet me to date the fake guy and I rejected “him” and “he” (my fake friend) made the fake account act like they were going to kill my self and I had a panic attack sense I can’t deal with being the reason someone died and they were just like “Haha Jk it was just a prank!” And that same person called me a caked up Barbie when I decided to wear makeup for once- they stole something that brought me joy and made me have a mental breakdown- my parents are divorced and my mom is a meth addict that I haven’t seen in months and I just want a good mother figure in my life but my stepmom will say “use your brain! You’re supposed to be smart!” And I legit couldn’t breath when she said that sense she also punished me (took my phone for no reason) i cried so hard today- my cousin is dealing with some tough shit that breaks my heart to see him go through- my grandma recently passed away and I feel like my art isn’t turning out how I want it to- i don’t know how I can keep going sende my step mom sees me as lazy and messy and the one that can never pay attention. This was long and I still have more but I’m not going to bombard you guys.
Anybody realize that you’ve been doing self harm forever (scratching, pulling hair, throwing myself and walls kicking the wall until my foot hurt (with socks on) pinching, playing patty cake with shorts on for so long so hard that there’s red handprints on your thighs, picking at scabs (no healing allowed) biting at my lip, when I accidentally cut myself with a knife cutting a apple I just looked at it, no reaction, not putting a band add when my finger was bleeding out, doing quads till your wrist hurt, etc…)
I feel hurt by my family but it’s not there fault they don’t know that there hurting me but I don’t really like my family I hate how I feel stressed but there’s nothing to stress about I hate feeling sad and stressed
Did you know? You can be abused by your friends. One time they told me they wouldn’t be my friends anymore if I didn’t go in to the bathroom where. They made me take my clothes off. I felt really sick at the time. Whenever I brought it up they just laughed it off like it was just a funny thing to “just embarrass me a bit”.
9:57 my mom literally told me she was suicidal and would leave me when I would be happy and independent. 13:02 fucking warn me next time! seriously, my only friend. between, the mom and brother's both way abuse + bullying (called crybaby, tomato, watermelon etc.) and having hard time at school and in 5th grade a new girl comes in and boom. 2 weeks later, they both leave me. of course I'm friends with the new girl now in 10th grade but never. I'll never get back to being friends with her! at least tell me, if you're going to stop being friends with me. you don't talk to me during summers fine! I'm used to it anyway! just she could've told me she didn't want to be friends anymore instead of ignoring me. I was suicidal, for fucks sakes! 13:50-13:59 this is me. just found out about Al's and just can't stop venting.
Don't have anyone to talk to, so I'm doing it here. This I was sleeping and this guy came into my room drunk, went to my window, opened it, and unzipped his pants, and pissed on the window sill, I left and I had to get my mom to get his out. He doesn't even fucking live here! And this isn't the first time it happened, the last time I was still living at ex step dads house, and he was an alcoholic and did the same thing.
1:05 that's what school did to me i think. Im in the 12th grade in arts, and im thinking of going to asian studies next year (a complete different thing). I think that school for me, took out the joy of drawing what i want when i want because of all the works and then I start to see all the small details when i draw something in my free time that i didnt see before because of the teacher :/ do you know what i mean?
I belief they’re referring to manic episodes, which happen in people with bipolar personality disorder:) If you want more info I recommend searching it up
I know I've commented in the comment section like, 20 times but I just remembered a time when I was on a bus.. A school bus and idk what happened but i got in an arguement with a little boy. Yes, a middle schooler fighting a little boy. (WITH WORDS) But he said, "ATLEAST I DONT HAVE SO MUCH CUTS" ... I started crying. He doesnt know what my home life is, but then again idk his. But that hurt..
I just want you to know. I read all your comments. Please speak out, write about your problems, people will always listen to you here. I love everyone💗
did you delete my comment? whys it not here anymore? i asked why you don’t show the user’s…
@@Pink-Lemons I didn't delete...
@@catiktok-od2cu oh.. i remember putting a comment here yesterday.. okay, but why don’t you have the usernames of the tiktokers?…
I'm really sad because my parents literally dont give a shit about me. And they don't help me with homework, and btw this is not because they are busy or have work. They literally are just laying on the couch watching tv. They do work, but still.. They dont even want to play board games with me. THis is causing me to be on my computer all the time out of boredom. I dont want to be on the computer playing video games but theres nothing else to do. And no one even talks to me and asks me if im ok. Not even when im crying. It sucks. I have nothing to occupy myself other than this stupid computer. They just hand me a computer. I mean, I have books.. But I have to be in the mood to read. But so far I've read them all. And my coloring books are super boring. Its just shapes and stuff... DANG I TYPED A WHOLE PARAGRAPH- I am super thankfull for everything I have though. But.. Im sad they dont care about me. And I dont have anyone to play with.. I dont live in a neighborhood, I have about 3 friends. I have 2 of their numbers but they are constantly busy it seems. Or they make up excuses. And I have older siblings but 1 is moved out and 1 works all the time and is only off on sunday. I'm worried I need a therapist at 11 years old..
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( 4:09) How is being assaulted cringe?!?!? Wtf?!?
Remember those people aren't your friends and the sooner they're out of your life the better. It means you have room for true ones.
That ‘person’ Is a horrible person- who is Probsbly just to stupid to see that it’s bad OR thinking its faking
But how do u know who r ur real friends if u tell someone and they r fake friends who do u tell to then until everyone knows the trust is already lost how can they say it to someone else
@Mimi-li2ll Sadly I don't have an answer for if you don't have anyone else, but eventually you will. Therapy is a great option
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It’s really hard to get those people out tho because they will basically make you feel your lowest then host you up so you think they are your “real friends” but then they do it again but you start getting the feeling you “need” them. It’s horrible and they way I stopped being friends with them is bc we had a absolutely huge argument and she started blaming everything on me. But then after we stopped being friends I was talking to my therapist and I realized she (they) were one of the big reasons I didn’t like myself and wanted to 👋.
This popped up on my home page, and I don’t normally comment on these types of videos, but omg these compilations have helped me through so much. As someone who has fought with their own mental health for a few years, I always find myself here when things get to be too much. Knowing that I’m not alone is really helpful, knowing that having the feelings I do is normal helps so much. I don’t have any diagnosis by anyone and that comes along with feeling like I’m overreacting even though I don’t tell anyone how I feel, but thank you so much for making me feel seen in the minefield that is my own head, sorry for rambling on, though I do appreciate you taking the time to read what I wrote.
I hope anyone reading this is doing alright, and know that you deserve all the good that comes too you! Thank you so much for being here, I’m really grateful that you stick around even when things are difficult, cause even if it seems that way, hard times are not permanent and you can make it through to the other side :)
Ty!
*Snom.*
gawd i have gotten SO used to paragraphs on these types of videos just reading silently making them feel listened too and understanded i was ready to see a 10,000 word paragraph and scroll-
3:29 that was really good art that person shouldn't wreck other peoples art because they are furries nor emo unless it was some very innapropriate art then they shouldnt have done that. me personally do not hate nor love furries i dont mind them just saying.
Yeah i came here to see if anyone picked up anything i didn't see but i guess that was all there was too see that was fricked up
I have furry friends and my little sister is a therian artist. I can't believe how hateful and disgusting some people can be. And this is a vent playlist!!! Why the heck is something so hateful in a video for vulnerable people?!?!
:[ I was already sad, but that just made me sadder considering I'm a furry/therian.. ik it was probably put there to cheer people up or smt but that just made me feel worse..
Also it happens again at 20:19
The way 8 minutes in and I’ve already cried 3 times
You know it's gonna be heavy when you hear Mitski
Exactly, like it's gonna be HEAVY once mitski pops up
This is just a lovely message for those who are struggling. Someone out there WILL love you, Someone out there WILL hear your voice, someone WILL speak to you, Someone WILL talk to you. Never think you're never worth it when you are! You are worth it, you can do it. you're almost there!
im proud of you. i dont care that i don't know you, im still so proud of you. even if you think its your fault, its okay. its going to be okay. you're doing amazing, im so, so proud of you. please keep on going. i love you so very much. i love you even if you think nobody else does. i love you even if you know so many other people love you. i love you even if you dont love yourself. please, take care. eat any food you like, drink water, stay rested. i love you.
i really needed to hear this
You are kind enough to say this so I give it back I am already proud of myself.
It’s night and I cried hours watching this. I’m working on my mental healt, alright? I’m.. im fine.. do not worry about me.
I have a roomie sleeping besides me so I envy you.
I broke up with the boy who protected me during my lowest, to be honest I’m not sure why I did. But part of me still misses him. He would comfort me, and hold my hand if I wasn’t feeling up to anything. And now he hates me, I’m sorry to him. I’ve said it many of times. But I still don’t understand why I did that. All he did in return was block me and date my classmate instead. Apparently she was waiting for him. I still beat myself up over it, even tho it was about 2 years ago
55:43 this is low-key very good I can watch and listen to this for hours
“You don’t know how lucky u have it. People would die to have me as a mom.”
I hate u with all my soul but I also love u with all my heart. Whenever I’m around you I feel uneasy and distant, like I don’t want to be around you because I know how quick you will switch up. Worst part of it is I’m only 13 but I have to take it all just so my sister doesn’t get the worst of it. I don’t fvcking if I mess up u don’t get to hurt ur kids emotionally like that. No mom should threaten to beat the sh!t out of there kids because we told I we didn’t like the camera in the living room. Why can’t u just be a normal parent.
3:25 are they just making fun of someone??
i love (not rlly love) how everyone is talking abt how they started self harming in their teen years but i started at 8 years old and kept going until 13. i now have puffy scars, over 200 scars, more trauma from my mother finding out abt it from the school, i fucked up and can no longer talk to my favorite person for who knows how long (we still talk but without anyone knowing), i only got clean cause i was forced to and now i dont feel like i have a reason to be sad even though my 10 year old bsf would be 13 rn if she WASNT FUCKING DEAD and my uncle KILLED HIMSELF EVEN THOUGH HE WAS THE ONLY PERSON WHO TREATED ME AS A PERSON WHEN I WAS LIKE 5 and im the therapist friend, whenever i tried to tell people that i could "fix it myself" and "i dont want help" they forced it on me and now i hate people even more, my school counselor cant stay out of other business, i've already tried to unalive myself 3 times in the span of 2 years, i have extremely bad PTSD, a good amount of my old friends hate me now bc of how badly i fucked up with my favorite person, and i am on the verge of screaming at everyone in school, getting up of a table, and just ending it right there and then. IM FUCKIGN 14 I SHOULDNT BE HAVING TO GO THROUGH THIS. life is fun right :)
also if people try to tell me that therapy will help, trust me it wont. i know for a fact that i couldve fixed everything on my own i just needed time. also im not going to unalive myself anytime soon cause i promise my favorite person that i wouldnt bc i love her.
I really do hope this fix themselves up, and I hate people forcing help on someone. When their not ready too. Wishing u luck :)
@@Idktodaybubbles thanks i appreciate it
Hey man or female or non-binary person, just a suggestion, if you haven't already done it. try to get some therapy. I hope you can eventually feel okay again. Have a great year! Sending virtual hugs!🫂❤
@@TheLesBean415 tysm. i am thankfully in therapy (even tho i dont wanna be) and i have, so far, been clean from sh all summer (except for the occasional hitting myself subconsciously or picking at my scabs without realizing it). i finally left that horrible friend group and made a ton new friends already. turns out that no one likes that friend group bc of how horrible they are to everyone except themselves and everyone thought i was js as manipulative and horrible as them so once i left they all realized that i wasn't. since leaving that group there has been a giant weight lifted off my chest and i can breathe without being shamed or judged. everything has been better and im slowly starting to learn to be better and appreciate life (slowly... very VERY slowly). also btw i love ur name cause i relate. im also a lesbean :D
UM. ACKALLY ITS 2 HOURS AND 49 MINUTES🤓☝️
Omg that’s crazy
and 56 seconds 🤓☝️
UM. ACTUALLY ITS 2 HOURS AND 49 MINUTES AND 56 SECONDS
UM. ACKUALLY, ITS ACKUALY@@TaliaGerstein-mc3cv
Omg 😱 realy
This video needs more recognition!! Definitely subscribing💖💖
💗💗💗
Yall I’ve been clean of SH for 2 months almost 3 🎉🎉🎉
Awww!! Thats so great!!
That's amazing. I'm so proud of you and how far you've come. 🫶
Thanks :)
WERE SO PROUD KEEP GOING!!!
So proud of yooouuuu!
I'm a middle child, I hate my mom but love my dad, my moms always so demanding and wants me to get stuff done (I know, sounds like a usual mom) she would threaten to throw my stuff away if I didn't clean my room fast enough, yell at me if my grades weren't good enough, never asked if I was ok, never checks if I'm safe going out so I have to make sure I'm safe myself around everyone and everything, I'd always trip or accidentally dropped something on myself and she'd brush it off like she just saw a child laugh though I was never laughing around her. while she was at school I was so supportive. She got everything I didn't. Good grades, loving parents, good siblings, no gender dysphoria, actually had good friends and a good relationship, had someone there for her. She always posted on our family GC about her good grades and I always said "ok mom, you go girl!" But whenever I say I got a 60 (which is a accomplishment for me) in her eyes it's a 20. I want to impress her and make her love me, my dad works a lot but I can tell he loves me decently, he's a bit overprotective but never pays attention to me because he's so busy. One morning while she was gone at school I was on the counter waiting for my brother to get done with packing for school and I just randomly started crying, I tried to stop but I couldn't and my dad saw, he immediately hugged me and comforted me, my mom always does puzzles instead of hanging out with me and paying attention to me I know she likes my other siblings and one of my older brothers girlfriends and she views her as a daughter, it hurts me because I feel like I'm being replaced by her. I just want to be good, I want to get away from her but I can't. I'm not in a good mental space either which sucks but I've been clean for a year because I use dye instead of a knife or any blade over my arms and legs, I hope they don't notice but I hope my friends do because they care for me more than my parents. I love my friends because they care so so much for me but my parents don't as much
Let me just say i had no one there for me...and so i will. But my mom is abusive too but your a stranger i possibally never met but lemme js say this.The u next time your mom is mean tell her how she made u feel and i will think abt how she will feel too!.. Bc ik im not the only one here thats suicidal, or done self-harm, or put a gun to our own heads but your not alone..And not never ever alone and yk why? Why, because ik what its like bc i was pushed to a wall and my mother said i was N.O.T.H.I.N.G....... And so ik and vent if anyone would like too..❤:)
Used this to feel better, but instead now I’m mad bc this is 2 hours and 49 minutes, not 2 hours and 50 minutes
All seriousness though this really helped me see I’m not alone, thank you.
0:37 I WAS 11 STRUGGLING WITH SUICIDE AND SELF HATE AND SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION
I hope you're okay. -Vic
THANK YOU FOR POSTING!❤
2:05/2:06 AHH I LOVE THIS ONE THE PALLET VIBES COLORS ETCCHEJEJE
7:22 is so real bro. I was called annoying so many times I just stopped trying to be myself and lost myself along they way. i don't even know my favorite song or color. And I never talk or else i'm too loud but then i'm asked if i'm ok and I have to say yes because if I said no I would be selfish and uncaring about others.
"hey, at least any 'abuse' you think i did to you made you stronger, right?"
FUCKING NO, SARAH. I WAS 9. I JUST WANTED TO BE MYSELF. WAS IT REALLY SO HARD TO LOVE YOUR 'DAUGHTER' AS A SON? YOU SAID YOU WISHED I WASN'T BORN. THE ONLY THING THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN MAKING ME 'STRONGER' WAS VEGETABLES AND MILK.
OMG TYSM FOR THIS ❤❤❤
i’ve hated my dad ever since he and my mom divorced. She’s trying her best and he’s doing all he can to be an a*shole. A few years after the divorce my mom told that the reason for it was them constantly arguing and him being controllive over their money. She’s not poor, but sometimes struggling financially. My dad is rich, pays child support but that’s all. He doesn’t give a f*ck about his childrens’ mother. He doesn’t communicate with her, and if he does he’s just passive agressively telling her it’s her fault when it’s not. He plays the victim and yells at my mom on the phone. Im sick of it, and sick of him ”loving me and my sister” while being a f*cking a*shole at my mother who has done nothing wrong.
When my mom struggled, me and my sister would lend her money for groceries and she’d pay us back every time. My dad ”found out” and soon we had to stop it. Every time we WANTED to help her willingly, but he doesn’t want that. She’s getting by, but he’s making her life as difficult as he can and there’s nothing i can do about it
I just don't understand why I am this way, my parents are fine, and honestly I should be the one to blame to anyone's trauma. I was always the violent child, and I still am. I don't understand why I am like this, why I cut myself, why I do anything at all really. Though I wish my father actually tried to understand when I'm trying to open up about my emotions. I try to tell him that everyday feels the same, and all he tells me is "go into some after school thing". That's not going to help, I barely want to get up in the morning, what makes him think I have the energy after school to do that? I'd just wish he'd try to listen, but instead I'm the one comforting him after he's the one who made mom mad, comforting him when he's sad that I feel these things about myself, I don't think that's a child's job.
I'm sorry. Try to speak up more. Tell him pretty much everything you wrote on the comment. I'm sure then he'd understand. Idk about the cutting tho if he already doesnt know-
thank you, ive already told him about that though. ill try to tell him how he makes me feel all the time
I'll pray for you.@@im_galloping
The best time i spent in my life was with people i wish i never met online.
im 12.
i cut my fingers with scissors.
i dont even know why.
i cant trust my friends with my crush and i know it sounds so stupid compared to what you guys are going thru but i just can't tell anyone anything anymore.
i actually didn't think i'd make it this far.
I'M 12.
I SPEND MY ENTIRE DAY DOING STUPID CRAP ON MY COMPUTER.
i have eating problems.
i hate my body,
the only people i can vent to i can't even see anymore
i don't think moving schools was the best idea.
i hate everyone thinking that just because ii go to a private school means im snotty and stuck-up.
i hate all my friends, i hate sitting in a classroom the 2 days i go to school.
im just a kid...
I’m sorry that you feel like you’re dealing with so much alone. You are just a kid, and I wish it was easier for you. Your body doesn’t need to be anything but yours. Whatever you look like, there’s nothing wrong with it, it just is the way it is. Whatever pain you’re putting yourself through is never going to make you feel less guilty or less lonely, and maybe you know that, but I promise it’s only going to make it harder for you let yourself actually feel better. Twelve year olds are awful to each other. I wish you could say you had more happy memories of friends and more support, but you have so much time to get them. Maybe you’ll need to wait longer than you should have to, but people get better and leave and get replaced. I don’t know if you’re at all in the same mindset that you were when you wrote this, but if you want to reply you can talk more about anything you want
youre literally me except the last part
@@S4G3_1S_CR1NG3 So your saying you're 12 and not a kid at the same time?
People who think that people with mental problems or mental illnesses are faking it but also say they have a mental problem is trying to get attention for something they don't have and hate and yet every time I write inspirational things like this for people I always remember but never live up to it so word of advice if you ever like tell someone about something then end up having a different opinion on that topic later in life its ok to do that and no one should tell you its not because if they do they should apologize because everyone I've ever met has done that to me before and never apologized and look how I turned out! A person suffering from so much trauma I can't sleep because I dream of those past experiences.
3:23 WHY
I’m going to vent here since I’m pretty sure no one else cares about what I’m going through(except for very few).
So basically I grew up with no father. I had an uncle who was my father figure though, he’d comfort me, protect me from my grandpa(his dad, my grandpa is the worst), we had the best movie nights ever, we’d wake up early in the morning so we could do workouts, there were so many things that he did for me. But now he’s not the same anymore, he had a heart attack(I think) in 2020 and now he’s bed rest and can’t talk. He’s he changed so much it hurts to see him like that. Asides from that I just really need a father in my life, all my other friends have amazing dads but I don’t have one. If I’m being honest I’m more of a physical touch person(I respect others space but I love hugs and cuddles from certain people, oh and forehead kisses!!), and I just really want a nice comforting hug but no one will give one to me. I also see all these other people(my friends specifically) have such nice families but my family is just loud arguments that never seem to end. I’m a big sister by the way and I just found out(when I came back from school) that my sister almost died and I didn’t know anything about it, I was just laughing all day and smiling while my sister almost died. And if I’m being honest with you all…I really just want a big brother or a older sibling so they could give me some attention…I see my cousins(they live with me now) have such good relationships with my aunt and uncle(their mom and dad, but I’m mostly sad about the great father relationship between my uncle and his kids) and it makes me so mad that I don’t have that. I really just want someone to hold me and comfort me…
i see you heart, sitting lonely...
it seems just like mine.
i could ask for help, but help doesnt.. well, help.
what i do that comforts me, is comforting others.
i am a therapist friend, if you may guess.
to be honest, i'd give anything to be part of your family.
whether we switch places, or i am just a part of it with you..
i want a reason.
just, the slightest reason to feel how i feel.
a reason to cry how i cry.
but i wont let myself feel anymore.
i want to tell you..
i see, i see how you hurt.
i want to hold you.
i want to talk to you.
i want to have you sit in my lap, and cry however much you want to cry.
i want to help.
but i cant.
however much i try, i will never know who you are, or where you are.
its the effort that i care about now.
and i'll try to help, as much as possible.
I relate to this so much to 😭 but if you're struggling with this to you aren't alone
I am sending hugs through the screen
@@Isimpoverfictionalmen thank you sm ❤️ I hope you get what you deserve in life :) May God bless you and your family
3:22 Excuse me sir/ma'am/other but wtaf
0:45 idk why but i laughed at the vegetables and milk-
I told myself earlier today “why should people care about you, especially when you’re a background character in your own life” and my instant response was “because the silly background characters are always the favorites”
3:24 oh.
3:23 wtf? Being a furry is a hobby of cosplaying as an animal. and you shouldn't be ruining furry art its one of the best kinds of arts in my opinion. idk if you don't support it but at least RESPECT it.
Most likely they were joking, most vids like that are joking
3:24
I took that personally. That was a rlly good drawing :(((
Yeah that was so messed up why the heck was that so hateful and in a vent video?!?!
Mhm! >:( @@pinkishfish6640
I was 7 when lockdown happened. After that whole thing ended, I realized that I'd completely forgotten everything about younger me. The young, innocent child that had to deal with all that shit. I barely remember what I looked like. What my personality was. It makes me feel so awful thinking about it. It's like I remember everything but 7-8 year old me is just.. Erased from that memory. I'm working with my my therapist on inner child work and I honestly feel like it might help me. I feel really uncomfy when I watch old videos or pictures of me, and I think part of that came from the trauma Covid caused me.
26:58
… why does this hit so close to home..?
5:17 …I accidentally let it out shouting this during my time with my "therapist"
VENT: sh, ed,
I just recently opened up to my doctor and mom about unwanted touch (not sa) that I experienced on the third day of my freshman year in high school where a guy came up behind me, grabbed my shoulders and ran his hands down my back, then proceeded to walk away and blow my a kiss. I opened up about how ive been extremely paranoid since then and i get flashbacks and panic attacks whenever i see someone wearing gray behind me or if anyone touches my back. My mom said it was all just “normal teenage things”. I haven’t sh in a few days but the urge is back. I can’t look at food without wanting to puke. My body is so used to not eating and i just don’t get hungry anymore. Ive been going between staying up all night and day to getting a maximum of 2 hours. I hate it but ive gotten so used to everything that its normal for me. I barely even get tired anymore either. I hate it when people say im thin.. like i know im thin like you don’t have to point it out.
11:12
Dawg that shit is the most depressing thing I’ll ever experience.
I wish i saw some of these b4 i started SH bc now the scars wont leave😢
My scars turning white… my father being glad that their turning white..
I’m fucking crying my eyes out. (I have daddy issues)
Ok lol but the video where it says I'm clean because I'm too lazy to do self harm i relate to this sm 😭
Hete i go watching these,I don't think i can do this whole living thing anymore
Yes you can, stay w us.
dont take out the artist's usernames
they probably did so they can earn money
@@rrome. even worse!
@@littlestarsprout yeah I agree
7:23 that is me no literally once I get called annoying my whole personality changes I don’t talk a lot after that …
9:47 my mother thought that reverse psychology was the only way to succeed, she told my i wasnt good enough to go to grades i dreamed about she told me i should get held back and that im not smart enough to get to the next grade she has done this every time leap comes around and every time she does i have a panic attack and she just shrugs it off saying she wont do it againbut she has done it every year and telling me that i just barley made it to the next grade she has done this since 3rd grade and it doesn’t help me
That is messed up for your mom to stunt your academic growth; I hope you’re getting support through this. If not, this is the place❤
@@Lemonado_here ty she is getting better and i hope you have a great day
@@CubicApple1 🙃
Home is my escape from school, school is my escape from home
People have called me a furry and punched me for being a therian😭
5:00 HAPPEND YESTERDAY 😢😢😢
6:11 so tue, I cry easily.
I was joking around with my friends at school, just talking in group-work time. And I was in mid-reply to one of their jokes and then one said, "Can you actually shut up, I'm trying to work." And no one else disagreed with them. The thing is, that was weeks ago, and I'm up at 4:29 am writing this because I couldn't sleep 5 hours ago because of what they said.
I hope you're alright now.
I’m here if anyone ends to vent I do it a lot just let it out
I have bite marks on my fingers because of sh and I bite myself and I would cut myself but I don’t want scars
0:50 uh oh
Everyone can vent here
I feel bad for venting but here
I've been more depressed than usual ig, I've always been upset and mad and I always isolated myself from people if I wasn't being "forced" to be around them. I recently found out that there's a high chance I have depression (I'm not that surprised honestly), and with my mom being bipolar and gaving depression she might've been able to see the signs better than I did, but she didn't, all I got told was it's hormones and that I was just lazy (btw I love my parents they're awsome and I think they're really nicebut this stuck with me). Everything has sucked this year, I've started hating myself more, I can't find the urge to do what I love, I can't find an urge to watch movies or play with my family, or two do basic things everyone can do such as showering and other stuff. I say I'm fine but the truth is I don't want to burden my friends with my feelings, I mean why burden them when they need me, why burden them when they have things going on that could be worse than me? My parents also always fought but it's gotten better, but now I'm extremely anxious and constantly upset, I've always gotten good grades so when I saw them slip I cried, I don't have motivation to do homework anymore or class work and I was told it was because I was being lazy! I also got curious randomly today and slapped my arm with a rubber band, I got a mark and freaked out, it's slowly going now though. I need help but I don't know what to do, I don't know who to talk to or if I even want to, I don't want people to think I'm weird or a freak or whatever. I don't want people to be worried because I'm fine. If I say I'm fine than no one will be burdened with my feelings and no one will be worried. Sorry for this long rant.
I have never actually believed I would make it this far in life or long enough to be an adult because of my extensive medical history and now I don’t really want too and I just realized this so this year’s gonna suck
4:20 what is this one supposed to mean? Hopefully I’m not being rude by asking I’m just genuinely curious ._.
3:22 why tf is this in here?
I told my "best friend" about my SA story. They said "at least its not as bad as mine"
She was the first person I ever told, I had to hold back tears, I've never felt so betrayed.
Two weeks clean from cutting… my friend got sent away to a hospital and I miss her so much.. I found old notes and drawings she’s made for me.. and now I’m crying…
As a 10 year old , I never wanted to live to begin with .. When he died , The whole world become the worst thing I’ve ever known . Fighting , S/A , Divorcing , Switching homes .
You're just ten. Please stay with us. I know everything is insane and horrible, but it'll get better. You're not a teenager yet, you don't know how you'll be in the future.
You're seen. -Vic
2:16 gos i really relate to this...
The saddest people never stoped smiling
I am thinking about it again and the thoughts aren't going away like they did before...
i have issues with both of my parents...first thing is that my dad fucking met me when i was 3..he was not there for me when i was born nor my firs steps...first word...and first day of kindergarten...and "mom" on the other hand is mean verbally and mentally...i'm at the point where i just bottle up my emotions and if i try to tell her stuff i so exited for she is just like "mhm yeah nice" and doesn't look off her damn phone for just one second...every time i see my dad he is just always giving my brothers attention...if i think about it my dad was around when my brothers where born and when they both said there first words...if were all dong a family thing (mom and dad are separated so when i mean family is i mean is girlfriend and her son) or going to the mall he will hang out with the boys a lot and me if im around but i've lashed out on my dad beffore.....and some times i just struggle witch parent is being honest....
I hope you're alright.
12:41 is so real like my parents can be so nice then are so mean and so short tempered and treat me like sh!t 😅
Hi (please don't judge me) about 3 years ago i start studying to figure out what was wrong with me...be i always Felt different since as a kid and i got to the conclussion that i might have autism, adhd and MAYBE borderline and i tried to talk to my parents about It...and my dad supports me but my mom she was already abusive before but now she got alot worst and she make me doubt If should get an neurologist appointment or not...
There is random music..
i never comment on this but i just wanted to say that your compilations helped me through a very hard time in my life, helped me get clean, and i want you to know i am eternally grateful
💗🥹
I don’t know if I can keep going like this- I’m staying up until 3 and sleeping until 1 in the afternoon- the only thing that brings me joy is my unpopular interests- my “friend” did a prank on me where she pretended to be a guy on Snapchat and tried to g wet me to date the fake guy and I rejected “him” and “he” (my fake friend) made the fake account act like they were going to kill my self and I had a panic attack sense I can’t deal with being the reason someone died and they were just like “Haha Jk it was just a prank!” And that same person called me a caked up Barbie when I decided to wear makeup for once- they stole something that brought me joy and made me have a mental breakdown- my parents are divorced and my mom is a meth addict that I haven’t seen in months and I just want a good mother figure in my life but my stepmom will say “use your brain! You’re supposed to be smart!” And I legit couldn’t breath when she said that sense she also punished me (took my phone for no reason) i cried so hard today- my cousin is dealing with some tough shit that breaks my heart to see him go through- my grandma recently passed away and I feel like my art isn’t turning out how I want it to- i don’t know how I can keep going sende my step mom sees me as lazy and messy and the one that can never pay attention. This was long and I still have more but I’m not going to bombard you guys.
Anybody realize that you’ve been doing self harm forever (scratching, pulling hair, throwing myself and walls kicking the wall until my foot hurt (with socks on) pinching, playing patty cake with shorts on for so long so hard that there’s red handprints on your thighs, picking at scabs (no healing allowed) biting at my lip, when I accidentally cut myself with a knife cutting a apple I just looked at it, no reaction, not putting a band add when my finger was bleeding out, doing quads till your wrist hurt, etc…)
I feel as if my mother doesnt like me sometimes. But thats alright. Ill still love her no matter how she feels about me.
13:15 and i mended it with shitty cheap tape (a UA-camr) for years. And it just all fell off.
I feel hurt by my family but it’s not there fault they don’t know that there hurting me but I don’t really like my family I hate how I feel stressed but there’s nothing to stress about I hate feeling sad and stressed
Did you know? You can be abused by your friends. One time they told me they wouldn’t be my friends anymore if I didn’t go in to the bathroom where. They made me take my clothes off. I felt really sick at the time. Whenever I brought it up they just laughed it off like it was just a funny thing to “just embarrass me a bit”.
Those aren’t true friends.
I’m sorry you had to go through that. Sending love and hugs ❤
@@Lemonado_here thank you, the whole “friendship” was a shit show to be honest
@@44foxyy 🙂👍
I put this on, drew a bird yelling at a toddler and happy stemmed to it the entire time.
please don’t use random music for tiktoks where the audio has been removed.
7:24 is how people think of me when I talk about what happened over the weekend
The fact is that when I see vents I don't say, "I feel bad" I say "this is so relatable"....
I’m leaving Panamá rn and I’m crying bc I have to leave all the memories and my cousins behind here for probably the rest of 2024 😀
Why did I put this on at 6:45 in the morning it’s too early to have another breakdown
2:40 is my fav and most relatable for me ngl 😭, Only as a girl. I act and dress too "bummy" and "boy-like" for my parents.
7:26 I GET CALLED “ANNOYING” EVERYDAY HUH?? 😭😭
1:06 try to enjoy art and live up to your standards not others its alright to make bad art
9:57 my mom literally told me she was suicidal and would leave me when I would be happy and independent.
13:02 fucking warn me next time! seriously, my only friend. between, the mom and brother's both way abuse + bullying (called crybaby, tomato, watermelon etc.) and having hard time at school and in 5th grade a new girl comes in and boom. 2 weeks later, they both leave me. of course I'm friends with the new girl now in 10th grade but never. I'll never get back to being friends with her! at least tell me, if you're going to stop being friends with me. you don't talk to me during summers fine! I'm used to it anyway! just she could've told me she didn't want to be friends anymore instead of ignoring me. I was suicidal, for fucks sakes!
13:50-13:59 this is me. just found out about Al's and just can't stop venting.
Don't have anyone to talk to, so I'm doing it here. This I was sleeping and this guy came into my room drunk, went to my window, opened it, and unzipped his pants, and pissed on the window sill, I left and I had to get my mom to get his out. He doesn't even fucking live here! And this isn't the first time it happened, the last time I was still living at ex step dads house, and he was an alcoholic and did the same thing.
This happen 7 minutes ago
Can we be friends? I can share my TikTok, discord, or roblox. Just note that I'm not that active on them, especially tiktok.
I’m so thankful that i have a low pain tolerance or else I would’ve fallen off the deep end a long time ago…….
12:31 yes yes yes yes yes yes yes, thats EXACTLY how i feel
All I could think while watching this was, “I can’t believe people go through this!” and “Why am I relating to this?”
woah that's my video in there yippee
@@Shrk.88x 11:23 is mine, i made it on an alt tiktok account after my brother had pissed me off lol
Really pushing it for that 8 min ad revenue 🙄/j
1:05 that's what school did to me i think. Im in the 12th grade in arts, and im thinking of going to asian studies next year (a complete different thing). I think that school for me, took out the joy of drawing what i want when i want because of all the works and then I start to see all the small details when i draw something in my free time that i didnt see before because of the teacher :/ do you know what i mean?
I don’t want people to understand how I’m feeling before I do.
And I still don’t understand.
Real🫥
2:09 what version of Empty Bed is this?
6:10 i dont mean to sound stupid/disrespectful, but what is an episode? (If you dont mind me asking)
I belief they’re referring to manic episodes, which happen in people with bipolar personality disorder:)
If you want more info I recommend searching it up
@@WooffzTheCoon thanks for the info :) I might search up more about it later
@@WooffzTheCoon thanks for telling me
Pov: your severely depressed and out watch these tiktoks to know you're not the only one struggling with life
I'm only 11 and already hurting myself on purpose because I hate myself, my body, my laugh, my face, my health I need help...
I hope you get the help that you need and just know that you are loved
idk go to fucking therapy?
I know I've commented in the comment section like, 20 times but I just remembered a time when I was on a bus.. A school bus and idk what happened but i got in an arguement with a little boy. Yes, a middle schooler fighting a little boy. (WITH WORDS) But he said, "ATLEAST I DONT HAVE SO MUCH CUTS" ... I started crying. He doesnt know what my home life is, but then again idk his. But that hurt..