This song is so profound and the pain is so real to Corey that the glass breaking and the resulting wound from it were 100% real - no props and no fake blood.
This exactly. This is why you need to see the live performance. So many of us have been there in our lives. Corey shows that vulnerability to us so deeply in the live performance.
@@saviorautenberg Didn't Corey play it on his solo tour? I know he did for the CMFT tour, not sure about CMFT 2 though. I also think he plays it with Stone Sour, not sure though.
Hello. I am a young widower. I am 37 and my wife died in 2021 after 2 years in the pain of a quick cancer. I was a caregiver. I was feeling like s**t during the illness and after the death.I had to drowned into two years of suffering after the death before living for myself. The two things that kept me alive was my son and metal music. Thank you Slipknot, Behemoth and Slayer. You are my fuel!
metal heals the hearts of those who let it in, it helps us to be honest with ourselves. All i can do to help is to reccomend listening to Opal In Sky and remind you that you always have family in the metal community. Stay strong xxx
@@beansbeansbeans99999 fr its crazy how neglected metal can be because of the outside stereotypes about it. I grew up in a super religious family and never thought i would eventually get into metal like i have. It really is some of the most beautifully and well crafted music out there.
@@BA-pz3lo corey has said in interviews when asked about the song, he wrote it while going through divorce with his first wife, the bands bassist Paul helped him with it and when paul died of an OD the song took on a whole different meaning to corey and the fans.
This song always makes me cry. I can’t help it because I once was in a relationship like how she describes where I put her on pedestal and so on. And when it ended and she betrayed me I felt like I had lost everything. She could do no wrong in my eyes and then she did what she did. It literally crushed me and I felt like I had died. So I completely connect with this song and unapologetically I cry at it as it gives me that painful reminder of my past but also that reminder to not let myself fall into that hole again.
Same here. It's been 2 years since mine ended, and I'm still bitter, bouncing between depression and anger with moments of just being dead inside. No matter what I did, it was never enough. No matter what I gave, it was never enough. I was willing to suffer so long as she was happy. And then to be cast aside like trash in the end. I never want to feel love, or the horrible aftermath of when it dies again.
I dated a narcissist. I was in a bad place when we met. She destroyed me. This song was my anthem for a few years. It took distance and a lot of inside work to get through it.
I also had a similar experience that i put my now to be ex on a pedestal and i just cherished her so much i told her i loved her like every hour and was always saying "how can i be so lucky to get with someone amazing like you" but in the end the burden that i put on her led to her losing her live for me and than she broke up with me So yeah i relate to this song so much and i agree with you that its a reminder to never fall into that hole again
I agree about that live performance but I think the video actually (for my interpretation) brings the hurt and the feeling even more so. The real pain on the glass and the breakdown of coreys character along with the fact Shawn helps a lot with the videos and the whole band brought something to this song...this version hit's me harder than the live every time. I also can not get my head around the fact this song is so much older now because it it still a go to emotional song for me.
From ThriceTheThird: I think it is important to try to find out who in our lives truly cares, and who doesn't. So that we can distance ourselves from the ones that don't care, and grow closer to the ones that do. Sometimes circumstances can prevent this, and I do not know the context or circumstances of what you are going through, but please free to share more if you ever want/need. <3
This song man... This song and album released right as I was discovering my wife had been unfaithful our entire short marriage of 5 years. I remeber the day I bought the album and listened to this song clearly. That same day my wife recieved a letter from Seattle where she had supposedly flown out to a couple months prior, but this wasn't official mail. This was from a man she had flown out to meet and hook up with. Admittedly I invaded my wife's privacy and paid for it when I found pictures that still flash in my head in this moment. Pictures that absolutely brought me to me knees sobbing in my kitchen as it was clear that the family I was working so hard for and was so proud of having after so many years of growing up feeling completely inadequate was gone. This song has and always will have a very painful yet important place in my heart.
Wow your description of a relationship where you feel inferior is exactly what happened to me when my marriage ended this year. I hit rock bottom and felt like I'd lost the last thing I had left. I wish I'd heard this explanation last year
From NateTriesAgain: Hey friend, thank you so much for sharing about this. I deeply related and wanted to record a video reply so you could "see" you are not alone in this. You can view that here: www.loom.com/share/4acc6904292d40bc871b95623afa4f10
@@HeartSupportI found this video right when I needed it. I'd have you as my therapist any day. I really need to seek some help in my area. Thanks for opening my eyes to it.
*If you're at all reading these taking requests, I'd like to see you do Vermillion pt1 & 2. There's something deep going on in those 2 songs that no one I've ever seen talk about them can really agree on. Anyway, this one's going to be long. First, this song was written about Cory's divorce, and I kinda wish you'd do some songs from Stone Sour's Audio Secrecy album, which is also mostly about the same subject. I'd also like to hear your thoughts on Taciturn, from Stone Sour's House of Gold and Bones pt 1 album, since now I'm just making a million requests. I think you aren't far off about a lot of what you're saying about the song, but there's far too much focus on the front half of the song. And part of that comes from the fact that this isn't the best video to assess the song from, because of the theatrical elements that cut apart what I always feel is the most important part of the song, in the second half. You react to the movie-like aspect, but not the actual lyrics of the song that get unjustly cut up to include these elements. That part of the song is where things flip, and he stops feeling he isn't good enough and puts the blame on her for not fighting for them. For pitying him. For being like everyone else and leaving. And his pseudo-freedom gained from letting go because she isn't worth it, having simply been an angel that lied to keep control. A lot of this song is a twisting of words. He's twisting them on himself, to blame himself and allowing himself to be dark and shut off enough to let her walk away, but then twists them back as he begins to allow himself to feel, and puts things on her how he should probably be feeling them from the start.
I agree 💯 She should just put on headphones and close her eyes. Takes on a whole/ real meaning. The videos are just theatrical entertainment in comparison. I also agree with the other songs you mentioned. ❤️
Hey, she did both parts of Vermillion already! You can click on playlists on her channel and scroll down, there’s a playlist for Slipknot and they are about halfway down.
From Corey’s own words in a few different interviews I rly relate to his life and how he portrays it in/through music, that’s probably why I went down the same path, but this song specifically is a truth in that he had a girl he loved more than himself, she was what held him to earth and he lost that and himself in the process spiraling into addiction at the age of 16-17 along with alot of other trauma I too experienced, music in its own way is therapy to me ,especially making it you can take that emotion and focus it into something someone else could find relation or closure in, that’s my goal in music is just to make ppl feel what they normally can’t.
I really needed to hear you lay it out like that. I went through this with my first love, who was an angel in every way. We were deeply connected for a little while, but I ruined it good and when she left, I was miserably lost for years after, and am still affected by it today. I've learned a great deal, logically, about the dynamics of it all, but losing her because of my coldness and selfishness all those years ago still haunts me more than I should be letting it. My life was completely reconfigured, and it's the greatest pain I've ever known. This song nails it.
Everything you said about relationships here triggered the dark night of the soul that lead to the ascension i am currently fumbling thru.. I watched a few of your tool videos and love how you explain the songs ive used to cope for a lot of years. That dynamic had physical affects on my health and not to be too dramatic the stress of which nearly killed me. ( Sleep problems and stress caused enlargening of my heart) I loved listening to you describe what took me decades to understand. You were so fluid and clear... I am a text book example of what you described. Putting someone on a pedestal, especially if they have low self esteem or other ego issues will destroy your relationship, and most definitely you, not to mention you get to watch the most precious thing in the world turn in to some kind of demon that has no love for you but refuses to let you go. YOU CANT FIX IT WITHOUT THERAPY ALL OF YOUR EFFORTS ARE IN VAIN, QUIT TAKING THEM BACK. LEARN YOUR FUCKING WORTH. Go be your own rebound and learn to love yourself. Be all you need in this world. Or take two blood pressure , heart medicines, aspirin and carry nitro in your pocket its a blast.
I've recently found your channel and I just have to say I love your videos. You go straight into it, no BS, and I love the analysis from a therapist's perspective.
Snuff was one of the songs that helped me get through being in a mental hospital. I genuinely believe if it wasn't for songs like this, I'd still be in there
Thank You for this. Ive heard a quote that has been with me for a long time: to think a lot about the future brings anxiety and to think a lot about the past leads to depression. Anxiety is considered now as one of our biggest demons, but in my case I consider depression more dangerous, because is silent and stealth. It's harder to realize that you can be depressive. I've had my ups and downs dealimg with my past and the choices I've made and it's a struggle that Ive been having for a long time. Your explanation of the song has helped me to see things from a different perspective Thanks.
Oh man me too! This was word for word my divorce scenario as I went from unmanageable alcoholism to almost fatal alcoholism. I'm getting "Bury All Your Secrets In My Skin" as a tattoo
I was in a loveless one sided relationship and after it was over I felt so empty because I'd put everything in and got nothing back, the breakup was messy and left me with depression, anxiety and PTSD and this song was like a light in the dark, I resonated so much with the lyrics to the point where my fiancée can hear the hurt and feeling when I sing along with this in the car
From ThriceTheThird: Hey there! I'm sorry that you went through the abuse of a loveless relationship, but I am glad you are free from it now and rebuilding. No one deserves to be treated poorly by someone they care for. I wish you the best with your journey in your mental health. Feel free to share more if you ever want/need. <3
From beauty4ashes.loved: Thank you for sharing on HeartSupport. I'm sorry you experienced "a loveless one sided relationship" that left you feeling like a pile of muk. I find music theraputic as well. I'm glad you found someone that cares about the hurt you went through as you let him/her in by showing your feelings through the song. If you ever need a listening ear and someone to care, please post whenever you need or want to.
From Micro: I'm sorry that you've been through such a huge amount of pain with this relationship. That is the complete opposite of what one would expect of love and being in a relationship with someone. It makes completely sense to have been so deeply impacted by it and by how it ended. I can only imagine how hard it must have been for you to be in this position of pouring your heart out, of giving so much of yourself without feeling any sense of reciprocity. You were the one piloting the relationship and making it exist, making it alive. But you were not seen truly - even beyond of what you gave, but also simply from who you *are*. It should have been so very different and you should have been treated in a much more respectful, loving and caring manner. On top of it, you had to deal with the effects of a painful breakup - as if it was adding salt on an open wound. Thankfully you made it through, and that is so strong of you. You've learned to recognize how unbalanced and unhealthy the relationship was, and moving away from this person was also a practical way to recognize your worth and value at a time when it was highly impacted by this person's behavior. It takes such a huge amount of fierce courage to walk through the fears that this kind of life change generates. For what it's worth from a stranger like me, I'm so very proud of you for standing still. And even more now for sharing your voice and story! These wounds will take time to heal, and there will still be a before and an after all of this happened. It's okay to take the time you need to process, feel and grieve it all. It sounds like you have some good support with your fiance now, and you can be sure that you have the support of our community here at Heartsupport too. Little by little, steps by step - you will learn to replace this part of your life as a chapter in your story, but not something that will limit you anymore. I have faith in you.
While you’re dissecting Slipknot, please react to Finale. I feel like it gives a great perspective of how society is evolving and wearing us down. It resonates with me as I’ve been listening to Slipknot since I was 16 and now that I’m 40, the perspective is still on point.
I have been listening to this song for a while, I had my first love and did exactly what you said. I traded myself for her and put her on a pedestal and skipped all of her faults (there were a LOT). Whenever I met her I did not believe in myself, I thought that she was way better than me, (had a rough up bringing). Whenever she self sabotaged and I was forced to breakup with her for my own sanity I was destroyed for months... I felt like I had nothing left and I was done for. Luckily I rebounded after weeks of grief and then spite and found myself again and what I enjoy! I still struggle a couple of nights though even though I'm months past, I have gone on dates since then but they don't feel the same. I don't share the interests or the connection that I originally had. Dating is honestly hard these days anyways.... This song and a couple other Slipknot songs saved me though, I will always be grateful for their music!
@heartsupport I have wallowed in and cried hard to this song and it's lyrics for many years after a 20 year marriage ended because her infidelity. VERY relatable to me. I appreciate your interpretation very much. You've shown me the forest that I couldn't see because of the trees, so thank you for that. But the addiction to self pity and self deprecation is real and a hard cycle to break. Somehow it feels good to continue to see myself as inferior and unworthy of anything good. Hopefully I can overcome it eventually.
From ThriceTheThird: I believe in you. You can overcome it. You are not inferior, and you are worthy of good things in your life. It is a process, and it may not be an easy one. It can be very hard, but I definitely believe all people are capable of self love, and growth. In realizing that they deserve to be well, as much as any other person on the planet. You deserve that. Thank you for sharing how you are feeling with us, and if you ever need/want to share more. Feel Free <3.
From Micro: @greglanders1 It must have been such a brutal experience to love her and share life with her only to realize at some point that she was cheating on you. You learn to trust someone, love them and feel like you know them by heart but you are then confronted to a completely different reality where it feels like you wre not good enough for them. It makes you wonder what could have been done more or differently, how YOU could have been different or better for her, even though ultimately it was her decision and responsibility. I'm sorry ou had to deal with this. The brutality of such event can shake your sense of trust to its core... both the trust you have for others and the one you can feel within yourself. It's hard to not wonder what could have been wrong with you and put the blame on you. Hard to not feel as if you were just not good enough somehow and the problem was you. It makes completely sense to fall into this trap of feeling inferiir and not worthy of anything good. There are situations in life like this one that force us to try to find a reason because we need to make sense out of it. And oftentimes putting the blame on us, on our perceived unworthiness, is a way to find answers to the question "why". But the answers provided hurt even more, especially as they are not true. They make *sense*, they serve a purpose, but they are not serving us and they don't help us heal. You were wronged, and it's completely understandable to feel the need to be eheard, conforted, validated in the pain you've been feeling because of what happened. Under different circumstances, I have myself faced injustice through being victim of abuse, and there are times when I feel inside this raw pain and feeling of injustice all over again. In those moments I can't think in any other way than victimizing myself even more. It's a way to express the pain and somehow care for the wounded parts of my heart that are still feeling it all sometimes. There are parts of you that were wounded too, and it's understandable that sometimes they just need to be heard and validated. Although it is good that you are aware of that process and the possible risks of being stuck in that cycle somehow in the long run. Recognizing yourself as being the victim and falling into self-deprecation there again serves a purpose. There comes a time when you will feel though like this identity is not serving you anymore and has reached its limits. The fact that now you already feel conflicted within may be a sign of it - you are both aware that it is there but also that you may not want it to be that way anymore. Which is huge already! It may not have been that way months or years ago. It *is* a sign of growth to embrace and eventually welcome as such. Somehow, you are learning to re-forge your identity and embrace life again, while replacing hurt as being a part of your story, but not something that woule have to determine it entirely. You can be proud of yourself for how far you've come already, and for reaching such level of awareness when it comes to your own heart. I believe in you and in the fact that you will overcome it. It's a long journey that takes plenty of steps, but somehow it's also a very meaningful and beautiful journey as you learn to be kind to yourself, to care for yourself and be patient while your heart re-discover what life has good in stock for you. You got this, friend. <3 -Micro
This song was something that really helped me through my last breakup thats been hell for me over the last 2 years but when you were talking about putting a partner on a pedestal and all that, that was real as hell and im glad someone kind of made sense of that kind of stuff lol
I’d love to see you listen to almost any of the HateBreed catalog. Lots of positive mental health messages in the lyrics. The songs Perseverance and A call for blood really helped me turn the corner and find my own happiness a long time ago.
This song was instrumental in helping me get through the end of my longest, and last, relationship... aaand, I think hearing your perspective on this song has officially helped me get past it completely. As stupid as that may sound, thank you. It's been 10+ years, and I've never fully been able to let go.
i dont know about other people but ive always liked sadder songs. something about knowing someone else has been that far down the hole and found their way out makes it feel like i might be able to do the same one day.
“You ran away you’re all the same” is probably the deepest line (for me) in any song I’ve listened to. Whether or not it’s friends or spouses, it’s been the same. Maybe I’m the problem or I just find the wrong people to open up to. Who knows
I erased my original comment. I actually watched 7 videos of yours in a row and fell in love with your channel. You're like that cheerleader next door that secretly has a wild side that loves to escape. It's rare to run across someone where metal is happy music for them. Seeing you 60's dancing in your chair to Slipnot was glorious. And the excitement to the understanding of the depth of lyrics over all those videos... Me, I'm some middle-aged guy in an black Audi with 'The Devil in I' cranked getting dirty looks from soccer moms on my way home from work. I love it.
So profound, i love to sing that song,,,,, reminds me how can a relationship can cause damage.. is voice so f$%/& nice.. the reality, the true deep emotions,, thank you !!
My take is a bit different. It's not about idealizing your partner. It's the betrayal of a breakup. I've had breakups where I was blindsided with "I want to breakup but I want to be friends still." And when asked why the breakup no answers. This hurts a lot. I can't trust myself to be open with those people again. And the anger an pain from that splits you into two camps the hurt animal, and the side that wants to keep it peaceful, because you still like the person in some way. (I only wish you weren't my friend, then I could hurt you in the end.) if the ex tries to help it feels like an insult. (Spit your pitty into my soul.) And at the time you don't even want to know if the person still likes you, because that could lead to the exact same pain.
I’m in just awe of how on the nail your explanation/reaction to this video. Hits me soooo hard. What I went thru a year and half ago !!! Omg Thabk you for your words !!! Dam you are soo good !! So glad I found this channel!!!❤❤
You unintentionally described the relationship with a borderline personality disordered individual in great detail. The confusion of being idealized one moment, to devalued the next is not near the pain they continually suffer, but it still leaves scars.
Oh my God, how could i missed out this one ! You reacted to my favorite Slipknot song half year ago and only now i watched this. Thanks for reaction to this one and please react to Slipknot - Nameless (official music video). I so much need you expert opinion, because i liven with this feelings 4 years
If you are going into this kind of music, I recommend Mushroomhead, their older stuff felt like it had a deeper meaning. Songs like Big Brother, Solitaire Unraveling.
"This song shows you the dangers of putting someone on a pedestal, thinking that they are so much better than you and when they leave, the tether that made you feel like you were worthy of love disappears" Well shit maybe i do need therapy.
So, it's 2338 EST on Monday, January 15, and I'm listening to this song for the first in over 15 years. My girlfriend at the time just broke up with me unexpectedly. She didn't just break my heart. She shattered it. All I could do for weeks was lie in bed and hear this song on repeat. It must've been hundreds of times in a row. I'm glad you spoke it. I think that might be why it wasn't so painful this time. :/
From ThriceTheThird: Thanks for sharing what you are feeling with us! Heartbreak is very painful, and we are here if you ever want to share/talk more about it. I'm not sure if you are talking about in this moment, or in the past with the breakup, but if it is as recent one, hope you start to feel a bit better soon! <3
From Micro: @cdawg7138 I'm sorry you had to deal with such level of heartbreak in your life, friend. When you love someone deeply, the perspective of losing them eventually can cross your mind, but it hits so very differently when you are actually confronted to this reality, especially when it's just so sudden and unexpected. You couldn't guess and you couldn't prepare yourself. You trust someone with your entire being, you make projects with them and foresee a future together... but a breakup becomes this brutal and raw stop sign shoved in front of your face. You want to keep walking and to keep moving on but somehow it feels like that right has just been taken away from you at the time. It leaves you vulnerable, alone and lost, without any way to fight back or protest. You can only endure. It's hard to process such an important loss when it happens to us. It feels like all of your life has collapsed and there is just no energy within to try to put some pieces back together. It makes completely sense to have been so deeply affected by this breakup years ago, and to still feel somehow the effects of it. This was a traumatic loss for you and a significant change in your life. You were forced to compose with a reality you didn't want and didn't ask for. It's hard to find a sense of closure somehow and to regain our peace when we've been hurt like this. It just feels like time has completely stopped for us and that there is no way to live life the way it used to be. There is a before and an after, but the after is just a foggy reality that isn't tempting when it has to be explored without someone we loved. When you were lying in bed, you were feeling it all and *allowing* yourself to feel it all. It is okay to feel completely stuck and frozen when we are in such a shock. Under theses circumstances, the best you can do is to try to survive, to nurture patience with your own heart, and to let yourself feel what needs to be felt. That's what you did years ago, and that's what you keep doing today - which is so very courageous of you, even if it may not feel like it from where you are. The very fact that you can talk about it and share how about your journey, share about how it feels, is a beautiful testimony of resilience. You were dealt with someone else's decision that you didn't have a say on. Still you kept showing up to each day, and you've learned to process this loss at your own pace. It's a journey - a particularly hard one - but you've been consistently pushing through and that takes a lot of energy. I'm so proud of you for making it through these years, for making it through the days of feeling stuck in bed, for making it through the tears. For being here today and sharing this part of your heart. This is a significant chapter of your story, although her decisions will never be the reflection of who you are and even less of your worth. You deserve to embrace life, even if the journey has to be without her. Because you matter, you are important, you have worth and value in this world - no matter what anyone could do or say to you. <3 Hold Fast, friend. -Micro
The line "If I can change, I hope I never know" really broke me. I felt like I didn't want to get better, because it would mean I had wasted my life being in pain for no reason.
You need to listen to Solway firth music video, Nero forte music video, a liar's funeral, before i forget, disasterpiece, killpop, all out life, spit it out the live video, the dying song (time to sing), and yen those last 2 songs are off their new album
I lost 2 family members between 2017-2019 and then had to put my first dog down in 2021. I was just at my lowest and this song and linkin parks song Shadow of the Day helped me to rebound and now I'm better but it still hurts
Yep... litterally me. Been here. Twice in fact. Its a strange thing; to know yourself more profoundly and deeply than love. Then when you get this real love its a multifaceted thing: 1) how is this possible 2) how is it that I, this fumbling f*** up i try to hide from the world gets gifted with someone thats pure in intetions and loves me?!. 3) you start to question everything becaues you dont think its possible 4) while all that is going on; you get completly hooked. Its all disastrous in the end. As you can imagine. Everything goes away. Past , present and future. All gone in a single moment. You sit in the hell youve made until you climb out of it. So, you have to learn you arent the fumbling f**** up you think you are , and if you are , you are no more of that than anyone else really. Your worthy to be loved , you arent special in that regard but it is a special thing. There are no hidden secrets except the ones you think exists. They arent real, they are ghosts that haunt you. Just let ghosts be ghosts. Theres no reason to look for reasons why something is the way it is. Just accept life as it happens dont force its hand. It doesnt need your help. Eventually you learn to appreciate, respect and love yourself and your significant other on a mutual basis and that really is key. If you dont trust, love, appreciate and respect yourself and all youve been given , you cant do that with someone else authentically. And look ; sometimes, stuff happens independently of your actions etc. So point is; dont add to your possibilities to end up in this kind of hell from your own b.s! Like i said lol : I've been to this hell twice, i dont intend to go back.
I'm not a therapist, so for interpretations of themes, ideas, and possible applications of these to self-improvement, I happily defer to to the expert. I'm a simple beast, though. A near-monster. A man that's been through some shit. An experiencer of turmoil that treasures a mind that's quiet, when it can be. Been through violence and heartbreak. I've been lost. I've been found since, though, I'm doing okay these days. My needs are met, I have time and space to be creative. I'm loved, and love in turn. Might even be happy. I'd like to cast my light on some things here. I don't claim it'll illuminate anything. The video has fair little to do with the song. It's a dark skit about dichotomy. Bait and switch. Corey cross-dressing to freak people out, maybe. I don't know. It's compelling cinema, and anything with Malcolm McDowell in it is worth looking at. It's not really what the song is about, though. I'm not sure it's a call for hope, or strength, or anything really. This song is a snapshot of the thoughts storming around a broken heart. It's the whirlwind of a wasted-feeling past and a darkened, lonely future focussed on a confused, illegible present. It's the brutal honesty of a selfish monster lamenting the divorce from the one he trusted and found worth giving to. The one he hates exactly as much as he loves and cannot imagine living without, yet will have to. 'Cause she's leaving him. He blames her. He blames himself. And he _knows_ the break is necessary, but it doesn't hurt any less for the knowledge. This song is a heel crushing out the last ember of a fire that has no more fuel to burn. An ember that must be snuffed before it can be abandoned. This song is not about how it ended, or what's next. Past and future are merely a frame for the painful now. This song is about that ember being crushed. I'm not a therapist. I'm no expert. I've just been through it.
@heartsupport I absolutely love this song. This was my anthem that perfectly described my feelings when i was dieing of alcoholism and my wife at the time was leaving me but she was still trying to save my life and get me into rehab wich she did do but i still loved her and hated her. I have since made my amends and have nothing but love for her but we will never get back together.
The song was written for Paul Gray who was the bassist for slipknot who passed away and Corey's pain in this song is all real he put 100% of himself into the song
Been in that position, was my own mistake to allow that to happen, and you aren't wrong, it destroyed me, I literally lost everything, even my home, it's taken me 9 years to even get half way back because of the damage.
This song is about a woman Corey was in love with who was giving him signs and being with him but in the end she was toying with him and broke him. He did a interview about it.
This song hits hard for me as my “friends and family” have always treated me as I was inferior. I now have no real contact with any friends or family. Seems they have all washed their hands of me. So my wife and children are all I have left. If I lost them….
From satty22: @raymckean1035 Hey friend, Thanks for posting. You are definitely not inferior. I'm glad you have your wife and children. You deserve to be loved. Take care, Satty
From OmarM: @raymckean1035 I'm so sorry to hear you feel this way. It can be so tough to feel disconnected from family, from those who should be our best supports. Your wife and children are a source of comfort and it's understandable that the thought of losing them is overwhelming. Please remember that you aren't alone, even if it might feel that way. It is okay and shows strength to reach out, whether it's through counselling or just as you are now here on heartsupport : ) The way you feel is valid friend, I'm glad you're doing your best to navigate such a difficult situation.
It hit me when you said "it still hurts when it ends, even if it's toxic" ...my Ex was abusive, phsyically and mentally, and I was so confused when I ended it because I was hurting when I should've been celbrating.
The song was written about his divorce and Paul Grey helped him through it, as well as helped him write it. So it kinda became pauls song after he died. But the music video essentially was metaphorical. She died, and he couldnt handle losing her, so he 'became' her.
@heartsupport Not only do I understand this song but I also went through this death and had to unfortunately pull myself from my hole on my hands and knees learning to love myself and building my self worth and now trying to build my self confidence I can guarantee you hit the nail on the head with your breakdown of the lyrics. My only question I have is what do I do to help myself from dealing with the impacts of those things and deal with those things having a very inconsistent childhood with many homes and going back and forth between parents after the age of about 5? I love your channel and its intention thanks for the good you put out there.
From taylor: @hunterlouisseize1945 Hey friend, Thank you so much for sharing here, and I'm so proud of you for pulling yourself up out of that hole. It takes so much courage and perseverance to rebuild your self-esteem after that loss. It literally feels like the death of the relationship is the death of all of the things that proved your worthiness. It sounds like you're on your way to feeling and believing in your inherent worthiness. One of the biggest steps toward healing and a consistent positive self worth is awareness, which you seem to have a lot of!! You are able to recognize the ways in which you used a past relationship to try to validate yourself. You are able to recognize the inconsistency of your childhood may have contributed to a sense of instability of self, and negatively impacted your sense of self worth. Continuing to build that awareness is a huge part of the healing the process. You can take action on the things you are aware of! I would encourage you to continue building that awareness as well as continuing to build your self confidence. One of the best ways I've found to do that is to follow your joy, do more of what makes you happy, do more of what you get lost in. That will help lead you to the pieces of yourself that you love about yourself. If you're open to it, therapy is a great way to increase that awareness and rewrite some of those beliefs! Thanks for all the love and support for the channel. It means a lot to me. I'm so glad it resonates :) Sending love! You got this!
@@HeartSupport Thank you for taking the time to read that comment. I appreciate the kind words and I'd say I'm getting pretty close to acceptance. Literally just need to take a leap of faith to really exponentially speed through the thinking portion of doing things, I'm really scared to but I feel I'm getting closer and closer to being able to take that leap.
P:S: I've found writing out my thoughts has been incredibly helpful to organize my values and really truly define what I love and appreciate to get more out of my everyday life.
Nine inch nails Hurt is a good one to Trent Reznor version or Johnny Cash‘s version which has this raw emotion to it because of the circumstances, Johnny was going through at the time
This song is so profound and the pain is so real to Corey that the glass breaking and the resulting wound from it were 100% real - no props and no fake blood.
This exactly. This is why you need to see the live performance. So many of us have been there in our lives. Corey shows that vulnerability to us so deeply in the live performance.
@@LT.BrianM hard to see slipknot play that, even corey solo. too hard for him after Paul death., sums wih Joey.
almost forbidden .
@@saviorautenberg Didn't Corey play it on his solo tour? I know he did for the CMFT tour, not sure about CMFT 2 though. I also think he plays it with Stone Sour, not sure though.
@@blahajshorkhe plays on his solo tours he did it at good things were it was just him, and he does it with slipknot
Corey crushing the glass and his breakdown was 100% real.
People are gonna tell you to do the live acoustic performance 😢
Yes yes we are
O yeah 🤟🤟🤟
Acoustic ❤️
It took forever for Corey to sing it live with the rest of the band without him breaking down crying
The live one is so much better. Epic.
"It took the death of hope to let you go" ... years of a dying relationship in ten words.
That one and "Angels lie to keep control" are just so good
„My friend, hope is a prison“ from Architects
Hello. I am a young widower. I am 37 and my wife died in 2021 after 2 years in the pain of a quick cancer. I was a caregiver. I was feeling like s**t during the illness and after the death.I had to drowned into two years of suffering after the death before living for myself. The two things that kept me alive was my son and metal music. Thank you Slipknot, Behemoth and Slayer. You are my fuel!
Hope you´re better now, take care of yourself bro. You´re an amazing person.
Stay strong. Your not alone. I hope things are better now brother.
metal heals the hearts of those who let it in, it helps us to be honest with ourselves. All i can do to help is to reccomend listening to Opal In Sky and remind you that you always have family in the metal community. Stay strong xxx
@@beansbeansbeans99999 fr its crazy how neglected metal can be because of the outside stereotypes about it. I grew up in a super religious family and never thought i would eventually get into metal like i have. It really is some of the most beautifully and well crafted music out there.
I’ve heard this song hundreds of times and every single time it never fails to give me goosebumps. It took the death of hope to let you go hits hard
So many people misunderstand this video. The love of his life died,he is losing his mind and does a Norman Bates. The girl in the video is him.
please explain i dont get it 😅
His marriage was ending when he wrote it
@@kennyclose2157 so he dressed up as a woman 🧐 still dont get it 😳
@@BA-pz3lo corey has said in interviews when asked about the song, he wrote it while going through divorce with his first wife, the bands bassist Paul helped him with it and when paul died of an OD the song took on a whole different meaning to corey and the fans.
@BA-pz3lo him cross dressing as his at the time soon to be ex wife was showing that deep down he still loved her even though they were splitting up
This song always makes me cry. I can’t help it because I once was in a relationship like how she describes where I put her on pedestal and so on. And when it ended and she betrayed me I felt like I had lost everything. She could do no wrong in my eyes and then she did what she did. It literally crushed me and I felt like I had died.
So I completely connect with this song and unapologetically I cry at it as it gives me that painful reminder of my past but also that reminder to not let myself fall into that hole again.
Same here. It's been 2 years since mine ended, and I'm still bitter, bouncing between depression and anger with moments of just being dead inside. No matter what I did, it was never enough. No matter what I gave, it was never enough. I was willing to suffer so long as she was happy. And then to be cast aside like trash in the end. I never want to feel love, or the horrible aftermath of when it dies again.
I dated a narcissist. I was in a bad place when we met. She destroyed me. This song was my anthem for a few years. It took distance and a lot of inside work to get through it.
I also had a similar experience that i put my now to be ex on a pedestal and i just cherished her so much i told her i loved her like every hour and was always saying "how can i be so lucky to get with someone amazing like you" but in the end the burden that i put on her led to her losing her live for me and than she broke up with me
So yeah i relate to this song so much and i agree with you that its a reminder to never fall into that hole again
Crazy how the softest and most chill music from Slipknot is actually the heavier one.
This is the saddest "metal" song ever.
Such a powerful song, tbh in the live acoustic you can see the pain while his singing 😢
Yea dedicated the song to Paul Gray
I agree about that live performance but I think the video actually (for my interpretation) brings the hurt and the feeling even more so. The real pain on the glass and the breakdown of coreys character along with the fact Shawn helps a lot with the videos and the whole band brought something to this song...this version hit's me harder than the live every time. I also can not get my head around the fact this song is so much older now because it it still a go to emotional song for me.
“If you still care, don’t ever let me know” dealing with something like this
From ThriceTheThird: I think it is important to try to find out who in our lives truly cares, and who doesn't. So that we can distance ourselves from the ones that don't care, and grow closer to the ones that do. Sometimes circumstances can prevent this, and I do not know the context or circumstances of what you are going through, but please free to share more if you ever want/need. <3
This song man... This song and album released right as I was discovering my wife had been unfaithful our entire short marriage of 5 years. I remeber the day I bought the album and listened to this song clearly. That same day my wife recieved a letter from Seattle where she had supposedly flown out to a couple months prior, but this wasn't official mail. This was from a man she had flown out to meet and hook up with. Admittedly I invaded my wife's privacy and paid for it when I found pictures that still flash in my head in this moment. Pictures that absolutely brought me to me knees sobbing in my kitchen as it was clear that the family I was working so hard for and was so proud of having after so many years of growing up feeling completely inadequate was gone. This song has and always will have a very painful yet important place in my heart.
Wow your description of a relationship where you feel inferior is exactly what happened to me when my marriage ended this year. I hit rock bottom and felt like I'd lost the last thing I had left. I wish I'd heard this explanation last year
I came here to write something similar. That relationship description hit hard.
Exactly the same 2 years ago. I was falling to pieces from alcoholism and my wife told me she was leaving. I still loved her but hated her so much
From NateTriesAgain: Hey friend, thank you so much for sharing about this. I deeply related and wanted to record a video reply so you could "see" you are not alone in this. You can view that here: www.loom.com/share/4acc6904292d40bc871b95623afa4f10
@@HeartSupportI found this video right when I needed it. I'd have you as my therapist any day. I really need to seek some help in my area. Thanks for opening my eyes to it.
I hope you’re doing better.
I relate to this all too well. To me the best line is " if you stil care don't ever let me know". Because that knowledge would be the end of him
*If you're at all reading these taking requests, I'd like to see you do Vermillion pt1 & 2. There's something deep going on in those 2 songs that no one I've ever seen talk about them can really agree on.
Anyway, this one's going to be long. First, this song was written about Cory's divorce, and I kinda wish you'd do some songs from Stone Sour's Audio Secrecy album, which is also mostly about the same subject. I'd also like to hear your thoughts on Taciturn, from Stone Sour's House of Gold and Bones pt 1 album, since now I'm just making a million requests.
I think you aren't far off about a lot of what you're saying about the song, but there's far too much focus on the front half of the song. And part of that comes from the fact that this isn't the best video to assess the song from, because of the theatrical elements that cut apart what I always feel is the most important part of the song, in the second half. You react to the movie-like aspect, but not the actual lyrics of the song that get unjustly cut up to include these elements. That part of the song is where things flip, and he stops feeling he isn't good enough and puts the blame on her for not fighting for them. For pitying him. For being like everyone else and leaving. And his pseudo-freedom gained from letting go because she isn't worth it, having simply been an angel that lied to keep control.
A lot of this song is a twisting of words. He's twisting them on himself, to blame himself and allowing himself to be dark and shut off enough to let her walk away, but then twists them back as he begins to allow himself to feel, and puts things on her how he should probably be feeling them from the start.
I agree 💯
She should just put on headphones and close her eyes. Takes on a whole/ real meaning. The videos are just theatrical entertainment in comparison.
I also agree with the other songs you mentioned. ❤️
Hey, she did both parts of Vermillion already! You can click on playlists on her channel and scroll down, there’s a playlist for Slipknot and they are about halfway down.
this is the first song i herd by slipknot and fell in love with it and then realized they were a way heavier band and fell even harder
Love Corey, truly legendary n so much heart and passion in his voice and lyrics. He knows how to hit home deeply. Truly a great band all together.
From Corey’s own words in a few different interviews I rly relate to his life and how he portrays it in/through music, that’s probably why I went down the same path, but this song specifically is a truth in that he had a girl he loved more than himself, she was what held him to earth and he lost that and himself in the process spiraling into addiction at the age of 16-17 along with alot of other trauma I too experienced, music in its own way is therapy to me ,especially making it you can take that emotion and focus it into something someone else could find relation or closure in, that’s my goal in music is just to make ppl feel what they normally can’t.
I really needed to hear you lay it out like that.
I went through this with my first love, who was an angel in every way. We were deeply connected for a little while, but I ruined it good and when she left, I was miserably lost for years after, and am still affected by it today. I've learned a great deal, logically, about the dynamics of it all, but losing her because of my coldness and selfishness all those years ago still haunts me more than I should be letting it. My life was completely reconfigured, and it's the greatest pain I've ever known. This song nails it.
Everything you said about relationships here triggered the dark night of the soul that lead to the ascension i am currently fumbling thru.. I watched a few of your tool videos and love how you explain the songs ive used to cope for a lot of years.
That dynamic had physical affects on my health and not to be too dramatic the stress of which nearly killed me. ( Sleep problems and stress caused enlargening of my heart)
I loved listening to you describe what took me decades to understand. You were so fluid and clear...
I am a text book example of what you described.
Putting someone on a pedestal, especially if they have low self esteem or other ego issues will destroy your relationship, and most definitely you, not to mention you get to watch the most precious thing in the world turn in to some kind of demon that has no love for you but refuses to let you go.
YOU CANT FIX IT WITHOUT THERAPY ALL OF YOUR EFFORTS ARE IN VAIN, QUIT TAKING THEM BACK. LEARN YOUR FUCKING WORTH.
Go be your own rebound and learn to love yourself. Be all you need in this world.
Or take two blood pressure , heart medicines, aspirin and carry nitro in your pocket its a blast.
I've recently found your channel and I just have to say I love your videos. You go straight into it, no BS, and I love the analysis from a therapist's perspective.
in this song corey sings about his divorce and his ex wife, it hits really hard when you dig a little into it
Snuff was one of the songs that helped me get through being in a mental hospital. I genuinely believe if it wasn't for songs like this, I'd still be in there
Thank You for this. Ive heard a quote that has been with me for a long time: to think a lot about the future brings anxiety and to think a lot about the past leads to depression. Anxiety is considered now as one of our biggest demons, but in my case I consider depression more dangerous, because is silent and stealth. It's harder to realize that you can be depressive. I've had my ups and downs dealimg with my past and the choices I've made and it's a struggle that Ive been having for a long time. Your explanation of the song has helped me to see things from a different perspective Thanks.
I want lyrics from this song tattooed on me. I have listened to this song ever since it came out it helped me through my divorce
Oh man me too! This was word for word my divorce scenario as I went from unmanageable alcoholism to almost fatal alcoholism. I'm getting "Bury All Your Secrets In My Skin" as a tattoo
Remember that scene in The Jerk, when Steve Martin was trying to move to the beat? Yeahh.
I’m so surprised every comment isn’t about this, like what about the beginning of this song makes you wanna headbang off beat like that😭😭
🤣
I was in a loveless one sided relationship and after it was over I felt so empty because I'd put everything in and got nothing back, the breakup was messy and left me with depression, anxiety and PTSD and this song was like a light in the dark, I resonated so much with the lyrics to the point where my fiancée can hear the hurt and feeling when I sing along with this in the car
From ThriceTheThird: Hey there! I'm sorry that you went through the abuse of a loveless relationship, but I am glad you are free from it now and rebuilding. No one deserves to be treated poorly by someone they care for. I wish you the best with your journey in your mental health. Feel free to share more if you ever want/need. <3
From beauty4ashes.loved:
Thank you for sharing on HeartSupport. I'm sorry you experienced "a loveless one sided relationship" that left you feeling like a pile of muk. I find music theraputic as well. I'm glad you found someone that cares about the hurt you went through as you let him/her in by showing your feelings through the song. If you ever need a listening ear and someone to care, please post whenever you need or want to.
From Micro: I'm sorry that you've been through such a huge amount of pain with this relationship. That is the complete opposite of what one would expect of love and being in a relationship with someone. It makes completely sense to have been so deeply impacted by it and by how it ended. I can only imagine how hard it must have been for you to be in this position of pouring your heart out, of giving so much of yourself without feeling any sense of reciprocity. You were the one piloting the relationship and making it exist, making it alive. But you were not seen truly - even beyond of what you gave, but also simply from who you *are*. It should have been so very different and you should have been treated in a much more respectful, loving and caring manner. On top of it, you had to deal with the effects of a painful breakup - as if it was adding salt on an open wound.
Thankfully you made it through, and that is so strong of you. You've learned to recognize how unbalanced and unhealthy the relationship was, and moving away from this person was also a practical way to recognize your worth and value at a time when it was highly impacted by this person's behavior. It takes such a huge amount of fierce courage to walk through the fears that this kind of life change generates. For what it's worth from a stranger like me, I'm so very proud of you for standing still. And even more now for sharing your voice and story!
These wounds will take time to heal, and there will still be a before and an after all of this happened. It's okay to take the time you need to process, feel and grieve it all. It sounds like you have some good support with your fiance now, and you can be sure that you have the support of our community here at Heartsupport too. Little by little, steps by step - you will learn to replace this part of your life as a chapter in your story, but not something that will limit you anymore. I have faith in you.
Loving you're Slipknot breakdowns, you got a new sub here
You explain the emotions so well....
Deliver me into my fate.
Your comments/review on this song, hit so hard. Thanks, i always hear this song but only now realized how much this song is relatable.
While you’re dissecting Slipknot, please react to Finale. I feel like it gives a great perspective of how society is evolving and wearing us down. It resonates with me as I’ve been listening to Slipknot since I was 16 and now that I’m 40, the perspective is still on point.
I have been listening to this song for a while, I had my first love and did exactly what you said. I traded myself for her and put her on a pedestal and skipped all of her faults (there were a LOT). Whenever I met her I did not believe in myself, I thought that she was way better than me, (had a rough up bringing). Whenever she self sabotaged and I was forced to breakup with her for my own sanity I was destroyed for months... I felt like I had nothing left and I was done for. Luckily I rebounded after weeks of grief and then spite and found myself again and what I enjoy! I still struggle a couple of nights though even though I'm months past, I have gone on dates since then but they don't feel the same. I don't share the interests or the connection that I originally had. Dating is honestly hard these days anyways.... This song and a couple other Slipknot songs saved me though, I will always be grateful for their music!
You're amazing love watching these
@heartsupport I have wallowed in and cried hard to this song and it's lyrics for many years after a 20 year marriage ended because her infidelity. VERY relatable to me. I appreciate your interpretation very much. You've shown me the forest that I couldn't see because of the trees, so thank you for that. But the addiction to self pity and self deprecation is real and a hard cycle to break. Somehow it feels good to continue to see myself as inferior and unworthy of anything good. Hopefully I can overcome it eventually.
From ThriceTheThird: I believe in you. You can overcome it. You are not inferior, and you are worthy of good things in your life. It is a process, and it may not be an easy one. It can be very hard, but I definitely believe all people are capable of self love, and growth. In realizing that they deserve to be well, as much as any other person on the planet. You deserve that. Thank you for sharing how you are feeling with us, and if you ever need/want to share more. Feel Free <3.
From Micro: @greglanders1 It must have been such a brutal experience to love her and share life with her only to realize at some point that she was cheating on you. You learn to trust someone, love them and feel like you know them by heart but you are then confronted to a completely different reality where it feels like you wre not good enough for them. It makes you wonder what could have been done more or differently, how YOU could have been different or better for her, even though ultimately it was her decision and responsibility.
I'm sorry ou had to deal with this. The brutality of such event can shake your sense of trust to its core... both the trust you have for others and the one you can feel within yourself. It's hard to not wonder what could have been wrong with you and put the blame on you. Hard to not feel as if you were just not good enough somehow and the problem was you. It makes completely sense to fall into this trap of feeling inferiir and not worthy of anything good. There are situations in life like this one that force us to try to find a reason because we need to make sense out of it. And oftentimes putting the blame on us, on our perceived unworthiness, is a way to find answers to the question "why". But the answers provided hurt even more, especially as they are not true. They make *sense*, they serve a purpose, but they are not serving us and they don't help us heal.
You were wronged, and it's completely understandable to feel the need to be eheard, conforted, validated in the pain you've been feeling because of what happened. Under different circumstances, I have myself faced injustice through being victim of abuse, and there are times when I feel inside this raw pain and feeling of injustice all over again. In those moments I can't think in any other way than victimizing myself even more. It's a way to express the pain and somehow care for the wounded parts of my heart that are still feeling it all sometimes. There are parts of you that were wounded too, and it's understandable that sometimes they just need to be heard and validated.
Although it is good that you are aware of that process and the possible risks of being stuck in that cycle somehow in the long run. Recognizing yourself as being the victim and falling into self-deprecation there again serves a purpose. There comes a time when you will feel though like this identity is not serving you anymore and has reached its limits. The fact that now you already feel conflicted within may be a sign of it - you are both aware that it is there but also that you may not want it to be that way anymore. Which is huge already! It may not have been that way months or years ago. It *is* a sign of growth to embrace and eventually welcome as such. Somehow, you are learning to re-forge your identity and embrace life again, while replacing hurt as being a part of your story, but not something that woule have to determine it entirely.
You can be proud of yourself for how far you've come already, and for reaching such level of awareness when it comes to your own heart. I believe in you and in the fact that you will overcome it. It's a long journey that takes plenty of steps, but somehow it's also a very meaningful and beautiful journey as you learn to be kind to yourself, to care for yourself and be patient while your heart re-discover what life has good in stock for you. You got this, friend. <3
-Micro
This song was something that really helped me through my last breakup thats been hell for me over the last 2 years but when you were talking about putting a partner on a pedestal and all that, that was real as hell and im glad someone kind of made sense of that kind of stuff lol
This song has always hit me so hard. I've had two relationships that were like this. The analysis is spot on.
I’d love to see you listen to almost any of the HateBreed catalog. Lots of positive mental health messages in the lyrics. The songs Perseverance and A call for blood really helped me turn the corner and find my own happiness a long time ago.
I. WILL. BE.
I WILL BE HEARD.
Hatebreed is an AMAZING BAND!!!!
I’ve never heard someone sum up this song so well before bravo
One of my favorite songs of theirs including Duality and Before I Forget. Corey and the Slipknot band are so deep.
This song was instrumental in helping me get through the end of my longest, and last, relationship... aaand, I think hearing your perspective on this song has officially helped me get past it completely. As stupid as that may sound, thank you. It's been 10+ years, and I've never fully been able to let go.
Ahh, one of my go to Slipknot songs. Best therapist ever ❤
i dont know about other people but ive always liked sadder songs. something about knowing someone else has been that far down the hole and found their way out makes it feel like i might be able to do the same one day.
;i dont watch this for the music per se...i watch for the perfectly relatable way its described. puts things in perspective
“You ran away you’re all the same” is probably the deepest line (for me) in any song I’ve listened to. Whether or not it’s friends or spouses, it’s been the same. Maybe I’m the problem or I just find the wrong people to open up to. Who knows
I wish you were my therapist. You make a lot of sense to me.
Great band loved listening to them growing up I would love to hear your insights on the band tool
i dont know where to start your journey with slipknot to help me just listening again is very helpful and im going to watch all your fundraiser videos
I erased my original comment. I actually watched 7 videos of yours in a row and fell in love with your channel.
You're like that cheerleader next door that secretly has a wild side that loves to escape. It's rare to run across someone where metal is happy music for them. Seeing you 60's dancing in your chair to Slipnot was glorious. And the excitement to the understanding of the depth of lyrics over all those videos...
Me, I'm some middle-aged guy in an black Audi with 'The Devil in I' cranked getting dirty looks from soccer moms on my way home from work. I love it.
So profound, i love to sing that song,,,,, reminds me how can a relationship can cause damage.. is voice so f$%/& nice.. the reality, the true deep emotions,, thank you !!
The way she is seemingly dancing to the beat of a different song while talking over this song makes my skin crawl.
Her lack of rhythm is giving off second hand embarrassment
So go watch someone else my guy, let her vibe however she wants. You can't control how someone else enjoys something.
My take is a bit different.
It's not about idealizing your partner. It's the betrayal of a breakup. I've had breakups where I was blindsided with "I want to breakup but I want to be friends still." And when asked why the breakup no answers.
This hurts a lot.
I can't trust myself to be open with those people again. And the anger an pain from that splits you into two camps the hurt animal, and the side that wants to keep it peaceful, because you still like the person in some way.
(I only wish you weren't my friend, then I could hurt you in the end.)
if the ex tries to help it feels like an insult. (Spit your pitty into my soul.)
And at the time you don't even want to know if the person still likes you, because that could lead to the exact same pain.
I’m in just awe of how on the nail your explanation/reaction to this video. Hits me soooo hard. What I went thru a year and half ago !!! Omg Thabk you for your words !!! Dam you are soo good !! So glad I found this channel!!!❤❤
Yes The live version. You can see his true pain. ❤❤
If you react to Corey Taylor’s live acoustic stripped back raw performance, you won’t be disappointed. Just saying.
The next Slipknot song you do needs to be "Before I forget".
stay tuned :)
You unintentionally described the relationship with a borderline personality disordered individual in great detail. The confusion of being idealized one moment, to devalued the next is not near the pain they continually suffer, but it still leaves scars.
That whole commentary at about 7:30 almost exactly describes what I have been going through
You are awesome!!
You have to watch the live video Corey is Incredible!!!
"it took the death of hope to let you go" is my all time favorite verse
This song is about Paul Gray who was a band member who committed suicide.
Oh my God, how could i missed out this one ! You reacted to my favorite Slipknot song half year ago and only now i watched this. Thanks for reaction to this one and please react to Slipknot - Nameless (official music video). I so much need you expert opinion, because i liven with this feelings 4 years
If you are going into this kind of music, I recommend Mushroomhead, their older stuff felt like it had a deeper meaning. Songs like Big Brother, Solitaire Unraveling.
Superbuick is a HUGELY overlooked album. Very influenced by Faith No More's "Angel Dust" album
It is an inner turmoil within one's self that is reflected in this song which is in a variety of Slipknots songs
"This song shows you the dangers of putting someone on a pedestal, thinking that they are so much better than you and when they leave, the tether that made you feel like you were worthy of love disappears"
Well shit maybe i do need therapy.
So, it's 2338 EST on Monday, January 15, and I'm listening to this song for the first in over 15 years. My girlfriend at the time just broke up with me unexpectedly. She didn't just break my heart. She shattered it. All I could do for weeks was lie in bed and hear this song on repeat. It must've been hundreds of times in a row.
I'm glad you spoke it. I think that might be why it wasn't so painful this time. :/
From ThriceTheThird: Thanks for sharing what you are feeling with us! Heartbreak is very painful, and we are here if you ever want to share/talk more about it. I'm not sure if you are talking about in this moment, or in the past with the breakup, but if it is as recent one, hope you start to feel a bit better soon! <3
From Micro: @cdawg7138 I'm sorry you had to deal with such level of heartbreak in your life, friend. When you love someone deeply, the perspective of losing them eventually can cross your mind, but it hits so very differently when you are actually confronted to this reality, especially when it's just so sudden and unexpected. You couldn't guess and you couldn't prepare yourself. You trust someone with your entire being, you make projects with them and foresee a future together... but a breakup becomes this brutal and raw stop sign shoved in front of your face. You want to keep walking and to keep moving on but somehow it feels like that right has just been taken away from you at the time. It leaves you vulnerable, alone and lost, without any way to fight back or protest. You can only endure. It's hard to process such an important loss when it happens to us. It feels like all of your life has collapsed and there is just no energy within to try to put some pieces back together.
It makes completely sense to have been so deeply affected by this breakup years ago, and to still feel somehow the effects of it. This was a traumatic loss for you and a significant change in your life. You were forced to compose with a reality you didn't want and didn't ask for. It's hard to find a sense of closure somehow and to regain our peace when we've been hurt like this. It just feels like time has completely stopped for us and that there is no way to live life the way it used to be. There is a before and an after, but the after is just a foggy reality that isn't tempting when it has to be explored without someone we loved.
When you were lying in bed, you were feeling it all and *allowing* yourself to feel it all. It is okay to feel completely stuck and frozen when we are in such a shock. Under theses circumstances, the best you can do is to try to survive, to nurture patience with your own heart, and to let yourself feel what needs to be felt. That's what you did years ago, and that's what you keep doing today - which is so very courageous of you, even if it may not feel like it from where you are. The very fact that you can talk about it and share how about your journey, share about how it feels, is a beautiful testimony of resilience. You were dealt with someone else's decision that you didn't have a say on. Still you kept showing up to each day, and you've learned to process this loss at your own pace. It's a journey - a particularly hard one - but you've been consistently pushing through and that takes a lot of energy.
I'm so proud of you for making it through these years, for making it through the days of feeling stuck in bed, for making it through the tears. For being here today and sharing this part of your heart. This is a significant chapter of your story, although her decisions will never be the reflection of who you are and even less of your worth. You deserve to embrace life, even if the journey has to be without her. Because you matter, you are important, you have worth and value in this world - no matter what anyone could do or say to you. <3
Hold Fast, friend.
-Micro
The line "If I can change, I hope I never know" really broke me. I felt like I didn't want to get better, because it would mean I had wasted my life being in pain for no reason.
Did you not notice the woman is actually him dressed up? Amazed you didn’t mention that
You need to listen to Solway firth music video, Nero forte music video, a liar's funeral, before i forget, disasterpiece, killpop, all out life, spit it out the live video, the dying song (time to sing), and yen those last 2 songs are off their new album
She is not moving in time to the music. It's like she's listening to a different song while watching the video.
I'm so glad someone said it, like wtf
She's yt, she doesn't have any rhythm...
I just found your Slipknot reactions and they have been pretty insightful. You should do a song off of the 2nd album. I'd recommend Everything Ends.
You need to hear the song "Slipknot - Goodbye"
I lost 2 family members between 2017-2019 and then had to put my first dog down in 2021. I was just at my lowest and this song and linkin parks song Shadow of the Day helped me to rebound and now I'm better but it still hurts
Yep... litterally me. Been here. Twice in fact.
Its a strange thing; to know yourself more profoundly and deeply than love. Then when you get this real love its a multifaceted thing:
1) how is this possible
2) how is it that I, this fumbling f*** up i try to hide from the world gets gifted with someone thats pure in intetions and loves me?!.
3) you start to question everything becaues you dont think its possible
4) while all that is going on; you get completly hooked.
Its all disastrous in the end. As you can imagine. Everything goes away. Past , present and future. All gone in a single moment.
You sit in the hell youve made until you climb out of it.
So, you have to learn you arent the fumbling f**** up you think you are , and if you are , you are no more of that than anyone else really.
Your worthy to be loved , you arent special in that regard but it is a special thing.
There are no hidden secrets except the ones you think exists. They arent real, they are ghosts that haunt you. Just let ghosts be ghosts. Theres no reason to look for reasons why something is the way it is.
Just accept life as it happens dont force its hand. It doesnt need your help.
Eventually you learn to appreciate, respect and love yourself and your significant other on a mutual basis and that really is key. If you dont trust, love, appreciate and respect yourself and all youve been given , you cant do that with someone else authentically.
And look ; sometimes, stuff happens independently of your actions etc. So point is; dont add to your possibilities to end up in this kind of hell from your own b.s!
Like i said lol : I've been to this hell twice, i dont intend to go back.
The live acoustic version is a MUST
The complexity of this video (and her comments) is magnified when you realize he is the woman in the video!
this song is amazing..
I'm not a therapist, so for interpretations of themes, ideas, and possible applications of these to self-improvement, I happily defer to to the expert.
I'm a simple beast, though. A near-monster. A man that's been through some shit. An experiencer of turmoil that treasures a mind that's quiet, when it can be. Been through violence and heartbreak. I've been lost.
I've been found since, though, I'm doing okay these days. My needs are met, I have time and space to be creative. I'm loved, and love in turn. Might even be happy.
I'd like to cast my light on some things here. I don't claim it'll illuminate anything.
The video has fair little to do with the song. It's a dark skit about dichotomy. Bait and switch. Corey cross-dressing to freak people out, maybe. I don't know. It's compelling cinema, and anything with Malcolm McDowell in it is worth looking at.
It's not really what the song is about, though. I'm not sure it's a call for hope, or strength, or anything really. This song is a snapshot of the thoughts storming around a broken heart. It's the whirlwind of a wasted-feeling past and a darkened, lonely future focussed on a confused, illegible present. It's the brutal honesty of a selfish monster lamenting the divorce from the one he trusted and found worth giving to. The one he hates exactly as much as he loves and cannot imagine living without, yet will have to.
'Cause she's leaving him.
He blames her. He blames himself. And he _knows_ the break is necessary, but it doesn't hurt any less for the knowledge.
This song is a heel crushing out the last ember of a fire that has no more fuel to burn. An ember that must be snuffed before it can be abandoned.
This song is not about how it ended, or what's next. Past and future are merely a frame for the painful now. This song is about that ember being crushed.
I'm not a therapist. I'm no expert. I've just been through it.
@heartsupport I absolutely love this song. This was my anthem that perfectly described my feelings when i was dieing of alcoholism and my wife at the time was leaving me but she was still trying to save my life and get me into rehab wich she did do but i still loved her and hated her. I have since made my amends and have nothing but love for her but we will never get back together.
Vermilion part 2🙏
Hello Alex !!!
If you know you know!!!
One of Slipknot's heaviest songs.
You are f*cking amazing. Please don't ever stop.
M f. My comment got deleted.
Dude, Slipknot sealed the work.
Mudvayne
Death Blooms
"I'm sick and tired
Of embracing reflections of past time"
The song was written for Paul Gray who was the bassist for slipknot who passed away and Corey's pain in this song is all real he put 100% of himself into the song
Been in that position, was my own mistake to allow that to happen, and you aren't wrong, it destroyed me, I literally lost everything, even my home, it's taken me 9 years to even get half way back because of the damage.
❤ like a snuff film when they leave and you morn them and yet punnish yourself with things that remind you of them.
This song is about a woman Corey was in love with who was giving him signs and being with him but in the end she was toying with him and broke him. He did a interview about it.
This song hits hard for me as my “friends and family” have always treated me as I was inferior. I now have no real contact with any friends or family. Seems they have all washed their hands of me. So my wife and children are all I have left. If I lost them….
From satty22: @raymckean1035 Hey friend,
Thanks for posting. You are definitely not inferior. I'm glad you have your wife and children. You deserve to be loved.
Take care,
Satty
From OmarM: @raymckean1035 I'm so sorry to hear you feel this way. It can be so tough to feel disconnected from family, from those who should be our best supports. Your wife and children are a source of comfort and it's understandable that the thought of losing them is overwhelming. Please remember that you aren't alone, even if it might feel that way. It is okay and shows strength to reach out, whether it's through counselling or just as you are now here on heartsupport : ) The way you feel is valid friend, I'm glad you're doing your best to navigate such a difficult situation.
Snuff actually was about the passing of their bass player Paul Gray. It hit Corey hard because they were close and Paul I believe had relapsed.
Thank you for reaction to snuff
It hit me when you said "it still hurts when it ends, even if it's toxic" ...my Ex was abusive, phsyically and mentally, and I was so confused when I ended it because I was hurting when I should've been celbrating.
If you're going to talk PLEASE PAUSE the video you're missing lyrics
Other great songs by Slipknot to check out are Vermilion parts 1 and 2, All Out Life, The Negative One, Eyeless, Solway Firth
The song was written about his divorce and Paul Grey helped him through it, as well as helped him write it. So it kinda became pauls song after he died. But the music video essentially was metaphorical. She died, and he couldnt handle losing her, so he 'became' her.
@heartsupport Not only do I understand this song but I also went through this death and had to unfortunately pull myself from my hole on my hands and knees learning to love myself and building my self worth and now trying to build my self confidence I can guarantee you hit the nail on the head with your breakdown of the lyrics. My only question I have is what do I do to help myself from dealing with the impacts of those things and deal with those things having a very inconsistent childhood with many homes and going back and forth between parents after the age of about 5? I love your channel and its intention thanks for the good you put out there.
From taylor: @hunterlouisseize1945 Hey friend,
Thank you so much for sharing here, and I'm so proud of you for pulling yourself up out of that hole. It takes so much courage and perseverance to rebuild your self-esteem after that loss. It literally feels like the death of the relationship is the death of all of the things that proved your worthiness. It sounds like you're on your way to feeling and believing in your inherent worthiness.
One of the biggest steps toward healing and a consistent positive self worth is awareness, which you seem to have a lot of!! You are able to recognize the ways in which you used a past relationship to try to validate yourself. You are able to recognize the inconsistency of your childhood may have contributed to a sense of instability of self, and negatively impacted your sense of self worth. Continuing to build that awareness is a huge part of the healing the process. You can take action on the things you are aware of!
I would encourage you to continue building that awareness as well as continuing to build your self confidence. One of the best ways I've found to do that is to follow your joy, do more of what makes you happy, do more of what you get lost in. That will help lead you to the pieces of yourself that you love about yourself. If you're open to it, therapy is a great way to increase that awareness and rewrite some of those beliefs!
Thanks for all the love and support for the channel. It means a lot to me. I'm so glad it resonates :)
Sending love! You got this!
@@HeartSupport Thank you for taking the time to read that comment. I appreciate the kind words and I'd say I'm getting pretty close to acceptance. Literally just need to take a leap of faith to really exponentially speed through the thinking portion of doing things, I'm really scared to but I feel I'm getting closer and closer to being able to take that leap.
P:S: I've found writing out my thoughts has been incredibly helpful to organize my values and really truly define what I love and appreciate to get more out of my everyday life.
Use to have a relationship like this with alcohol. This song always got played.
I'm curious what your explanation for him being crossdressed as her at the end of the video is.
She completely missed it 😔
I vaguely remember, I think it was Clown saying it's about obsessive love and becoming that person
This song for his friend in the band slipknot that passed away so he wrote this for his grief and pain
Nine inch nails Hurt is a good one to Trent Reznor version or Johnny Cash‘s version which has this raw emotion to it because of the circumstances, Johnny was going through at the time