Therapist Reacts to Vermilion pt 2 by Slipknot
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- Опубліковано 8 тра 2024
- Therapist analyzes the lyrics of Vermilion Pt 2 to discuss how when we lose hope of an external solution solving our problem, we often feel like we have no idea where to turn or how to heal. The song gives us the answer to this by encouraging us to not let our feelings build up inside. Instead, it calls us to process them as they occur, and it promises that doing so will bring us back to a place of hope.
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#slipknot #vermilion #coreytaylor
00:00 Introduction
00:14 Reaction 1
01:18 First thoughts...
02:32 Reaction 2
03:13 This song is beauuutiful
04:01 Reaction 3
04:33 This song is genius.
05:22 Reaction 4
06:39 This song calls for you to look inside
08:58 Last Reaction
09:12 Final Thoughts
10:33 Do you feel this way?
10:55 Sub and Watch These
This song feels like the realization that there is no hope. And I can't listen to it without crying. 😭
Yeah. Well said.
Now we need Snuff, that’s a golden song
She needs to listen to the live version
Corey Taylor really writes a lot of his songs straight from a psychological and personal stand point. Which makes these kinds of analyses so interesting. Can't wait to check that one out.
Corey is absolutely like a lot of us, and absolutely brilliant at articulating. Thinking about him lately with his current struggles
We are cooking up something good...😉
@@holycegaming4367 listen to this man
Try Left Behind from Iowa album.
Yeah I'd love to see that one.
Yea, because they're very similar. You jadrools.
The first one is about him stalking her, the second one is after he killed her. He somehow makes murder seem beautiful. And Corey hates Rick Rubin said they payed him alot of money and he would show up like an hour a week and leave.
Can't imagine Rick Rubin and Slipknot in a room together. Lot of real big egos
Yeah no way Corey and Rick's ego fits into a studio, that album did have a different sound then all there others so I guess Rick did something on it.
@@stephenhaynes3460They sounded good, but I have seen a lot of stuff about how Rubin was working on a bunch of people's records all at once, and some stuff about Corey not liking the vocal takes he used.
A lot of ppl complain that Corey isnt screaming his lungs out and crying in anguish on every song like Iowa but I like the deeper, more subdued tones of his voice on Vol. 3, and he screams a bunch too. There's a little more melody but he sounds good. The band sounds good. It's not as raw but it's more musical and its more or less defined their sound, where they can go from grindcore to grunge to acoustic to thrash or groove metal in the space of a couple tracks.
@mediumvillain None of us last forever. He’s getting worn out. I saw a suggested video of him talking about it
@mediumvillain that and also the fact that at the time they recorded Vol. 3 Corey was slowly getting sober.
Whether throughout the whole IOWA era he was drinking 3 bottles of Jack Daniels a day, and not using any technique for his screams, But rather just yelling and "ripping" his vocal chords.
For me this song reminds me of when you're crushing on somebody. The thing is when you crush on somebody you are crushing on who you think they are and not who they really are. That person you have a crush on isn't real. You ask them out and get to know them you find out who they are. If there's disappointment because they don't live up to your fantasy you can't let that build up inside of you. It isn't their fault you built a fantasy partner in your head.
Exactly how I always thought about it. The fear that convinces you to not interact because "she probably doesn't like me anyway", "I probably made it all up".
I tried to get a girl to realize I like her through music and I legit cired for weeks on end when she said she sees me as a friend and nothing more
I knew you'd be shook 😂 And the steam train wooo had me laughing 😂
Personally, I think it's really good of you to use your platform/channel to help people with their internalized issues. It shows that you are a good human being and a blessing to those of us out here in the internet ether just making it through another day. Thank you, seriously. Hope you have a great day. 👍🇺🇸
We at HeartSupport really appriacte your comment. Thank you. We are glad you are here.
Literally been my fav slipknot song since I was in high school when it came out.
I love your input on Slipknot songs….. I wish you were here to us all decades ago
I remember when this album was released, Vermilion pt1 and pt2 really stood out for me. At the time I was living with 2 friends - a guy I went to school with, and a girl who I did love at one point but we had grown apart. Even though we were living together, I didn't see much of her because of my work hours, and i did miss her. One night I got home about 11 o'clock at night and a little while later I heard her leave the house. I had these two songs on repeat and I was thinking of how I missed spending time with her. She never came home. She took her own life that night. I still get a bit teary listening to these songs sometimes even 20 years on
From AliceBlue: @andrewwalker5164 My heart really sinks and I feel your words and those feelings so deeply. I lost someone I love deeply in the same way and somehow I believe they are in the earth around us and with us. We carry them in our hearts
Sending you love x
From twixremix: @andrewwalker5164 hey, thank you for opening up about your friend’s suicide and the feelings you hold about that night. i’m so sorry. please know that you aren’t alone and even after 20 years, grief has no set time length. thank you again for being here and sharing this difficult time in your life.
From Listening2Day: @andrewwalker5164 What a poignant story you share here. Music has such a powerful way of touching emotions and memories. I hope this music also helps to bring you some peace as well.
From Micro: @andrewwalker5164 I hope the tears, however consequent or not, brought a little bit of rest to your heart, even if happens to be just by the possibillity to breathe a little more deeply. It's heartbreaking to lose someone you loved in such a sudden, unexpected and brutal way. At one moment there is life that is shared, conversations, moments of joy and memories created. There is sound, there is life. Then the moment you learn about what happenes, it feels like a button has been pressed, as if reality couldn't be trusted anymore. For it is too hard to compose with it, and too difficult to wrap our mind around the void that loss creates.
I'm sorry that this person took their life that night. I can't begin to imagine the amount of pain they must have felt, and on your end, how much you certainly tried to rewrite the story in your mind - thinking of what could have been said or done differently to, maybe, change the narrative. It makes sense to still feel affected by it and get teary when you are reminded of her. Even through her absence, she keeps having a presence in your life, in your own story - she left a mark, one that was met with love and was highly meaningful for you. It's hard to feel like two trajectories can be shifted away so brutally, to feel like opportunities of life have been lost, while dealing with the reality of being part of those who keep having the possibility to grow, laugh, live.
I hope that, through these 20 years you've been holding on to the truth that any sense of guilt you may have carried on your shoulders never belonged to you. That it's okay to release that away from your heart and mind. Because it's human to think about all the what if's, it's also okay to offer ourselves the kindness and grace we need at the same time, especially when we grieve. We can love, care, be loyal, and at the same time even the people closest to us can decide to not be seen despite being in front of our eyes. It's an expression of pain, but not any individual's fault. You have been a significant ally in her life. :heart:
I can relate to that feeling, I think I remember listening to this song when my grandad died, even though I learnt the news around a few hours later.
Now you see why Corey is something special. He pulls you through on many many songs.
not too many people understand just how genius they really are. That’s why I love Slipknot. One of the deepest bands I have ever listened to, and not too many people understand that they misinterpret the music. I’m glad I have friends that I sit and have conversations about their music with.
literally the little ''jumpscare" at 0:17 was the first thing to make me smile today, and its past 10pm
Snuff, dead memories, till we die and killpop are all songs id love to see you listen to, it’s been really refreshing to see someone who looks and acts like they wouldn’t listen to metal, not only enjoy it but dive deeper and see what we see, it makes a lot of us feel really seen and I definitely appreciate it a lot.
This is the CD that got me in to this band. The local rock station was playing Duality left and right at the time, then both Vermilion songs came out and that was all it took, became a huge fan. Enjoy your analysis of this music, it gives a perspective that I didn't understand at the time, I was just the typical rocker banging his head. lol
We all want what isn't real
You're interpretation of this song is incredible, i am definitely subscribed.
Metal music has always been my therapy . Thank you
Slipknot is one of my favourite Bands and this Song is one of my favourites
It feels like a lifetime ago. I had just worked myself past serious suicidal plans. But my mind was fixated on a woman. A woman that I couldnt have and that I didnt need. The vermilion songs shined a light on my unhealthy obsession for me. And I moved past that issue. I grew up thinking love was neglect, abuse and pain. Especially from women. I didnt know what to do with myself. Everyone else made me feel like I needed a wife or girlfriend to be happy. But I dont. My happiness is inside and I can be in control of my emotions. No one else can ever be the solution. So your interpretation of this song is exactly how I received it back when I heard it. On a different note Id love to see you listen to some Hatebreed songs. Basically any of them. Hard heavy sound but the lyrics have incredible meaning and messages. They literally saved my life. They told me I have the power in myself, so I tried to make it one more day. And here we are 20 years later. Happy, fulfilled, and trying to listen and mentor some of the other guys that need some compassion and to be heard.
Amazing how from walking through really heavy and dark times, you are now standing up while being a voice of inspiration for others. What a journey! And what a beautiful testimony of growth/healing. You can be proud of yourself for not giving up on yourself and for gaining such profound insight on the battles you've been facing. I myself grew up in an abusive environment, so it's been - and somehow keep being - a lifelong process to dissociate that type of pain from genuine love. It leaves you with this void inside and the belief that you would only feel complete through others (or external substitutes). Instead, it's been such a meaningful journey it to learn to meet myself at an emotional level, and to be the one who builds a strong backbone for my life.
Interestingly as you mention mentoring, at Heartsupport we have an online mentorship program (for which of course we always need more people willing to step in and volunteer). If that would be of any interest for you, here's the link to our website with more information: www.heartsupport.com/bts-volunteer - You have a strong story to tell and without a doubt a heart for this. Would love to count you in!
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I love this song and music video so much. I imagine it as a narration of his love. This woman that he loves. It's BASED on a woman, but the woman he built up in his mind isn't the person he thought it was. He's tormenting himself by trying to breathe life into the woman he thinks he loves, but all that's happening is she's floating around in this morbid, animated but still lifeless way. Basically this woman was dead before she was ever alive, and the process the character is going through is actually mourning this person who was never alive. He's giving in and allowing himself to feel grief. He's allowed this toxic hope to build up so much inside of him, that this imaginary person needs to be legitimately grieved in order for him to move on. The last verse to me is like a tragic catharsis, finally telling himself the hard truths and reassuring him in between every sentence. She isn't real (i won't let this build up inside of me) i can't make her real (it's okay man, you can't let it build up)
Sidenote, I do use Slipknot music as therapy not just Slipknot either but mostly Slipknot helps me process music is medicine
You are so incredibly awesome! Thank you for what you do!
A lot of people have Slipknot totally wrong, if you decifer the lyrics, there's a lot of deep stuff in them.
Definitely my #1 band 🤘
“She isn’t real” has helped me realize that the person that I imagined them to be isn’t who they actually are but a fantasy that I created out of a person within my own mind. This is the best way that I can explain how I understand the lyric.
I'm living it
I love these reactions and i especially love your interpretations and your take on the songs! Please keep being awesome! You are helping me while jamming out! And I love it! 🤘🤘❤
You’ve found the words that I’d never found but felt. I have a tattoo on my chest with these words: “I won’t let this build up inside of me” because 5 years ago I was lost. I was profoundly frustrated because of many of “impossible to resolve” problems. I had a depression. And the only meaning and piece of a human happiness to me was my girlfriend that later cheated on me and I had to stop our relationships. And when I was at the bottom of my life I heard both these songs and main words and it helped me and now I’m doing well. That’s why I tattooed it on my chest as a symbol and the reminder about to what it could lead if you let all these stuff build up inside of you. Thank you for such a great reaction and explanation of meanings of these two songs from your professional experience. You are amazing! God bless you!
Bro... I listen to this song since it came out. I've got so emotional with this video. Damn
My Plague by Slipknot was my favorite of the Iowa album
One of the best vocal performances of all-time in my opinion.
That train picture 🤣🤣🤣
subbed
I love the way you analize the lyrics, best regards from Brazil : )
A good psychological torment album with Corey Taylor is Stone Sour’s House of Gold and Bones parts 1 & 2 lyrically it’s a mental whirlwind. Even has accompanying comics. I’d love to hear a therapist’s reaction to those.
This song has been my long time favorite of my favorite band and helped me thru the many years of battling suicide attempts and depression and mental breakdown. Literally both parts helped me realize how much I internalize all my feelings. I’m so glad I found this channel. ❤
Please react to Ren - Hi Ren. It captures mental health struggles beautifully. The video is done in one take (3rd attempt). ❤ Your reactions 😊
Parts 1 and 2 were great to watch… I love metal music and hard rock music, and Slipknot is easily in my top 10 favorites… all of that said your analysis of their lyrics has really helped add a new layer of appreciation for them (my appreciation was always for the level of talent that all possess to make such incredible songs). All of that said this has also helped me with my own therapy, and your reactions have helped me to dig deeper into my self and feelings between sessions, your reactions are hopefully doing the same for others. I can’t express enough even to strangers (which is why I’m not ashamed to say) MENTAL HEALTH IS SO IMPORTANT TO LIFE, and you reactions are great in helping to provide that… thank you, and keep doing awesome things for people
And just like that you lifted all the weight off my shoulders. Th and you 😊
This song saved me from myself in my darkest times thank you for your evaluation I never understood why it resonated with me in such a strong way now it seems to make more sense
Same here man. I grew up alone. I seemed companionship at a young age and still ended up alone. Betrayed by people again and again. This song as many others to this day built up a lot of sadness in my life and helped me express my sadness and frustration in life. I guess that’s why men become so isolated socially in modern society. Regardless the amount of relationships I had felt suffocating but without felt lonely and cold…
Regardless of our past traumas we should have more therapeutic songs like this. This art is exactly how music should be. Every story every lyric should be of a story a message.
Best reaction to this music video
This woman is such a vibe.
I needede to hear this words, so thx and respect to your knowledge and viewing angle 🫰🏻
Vermillion 1 and 2 always reminded me of watching my friends deal with and try to overcome addiction.
Another song series that is pretty cool is Metallica - Unforgiven I, II and III.
“I won’t this build up inside of me”
Having become somewhat infatuated with a woman I used to work with but being unable to be with her, when that realisation sunk in I emotionally “shut down” towards this individual in an attempt to stop feeling an attachment to her. Just my thoughts on how parts 1 & 2 tie together for me
I never heard anyone put it into words like this its amazing
The deluxe version of all hope is gone album has another version of vermilion pt2 it’s awesome
My favorite love song
I loove this song!!!
and now the masterpiece THE NEGATIVE ONE.
I love this song. It's been there when iv had to move on after heartbreak. I love the reaction
This pair of songs always makes me think of the stages of bipolar syndrome. Pt.1 is Mania, Pt. 2 is Depression. First he wants her at all costs, second he believes he can NEVER have her.
I would like to say, Welcome Maggot! Corey Taylor is a Lyrcial Genous! The dude (& the 9 in general) are amazing. Personally speaking, they have saved my life. #maggot4lyfe
Ok, the song you NEED to hear is “Finale”. Probably the next most or THE most beautiful Slipknot song.
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES ^^ my favorite sing along song by Slipknot
@heartsupport Omg I love both the versions of this song .. but your breakdown hit so hard thankyou - I get it ❤
HOOOOOOOOOOOO (unsuspecting train meme) lol
seriously though, Vermillion 1 and 2 are some of my favorite Slipknot songs (and songs in general). Not just for the composition. But the underlying psychological story that plays out. I know the singer and bandmates all have very rough lives and terrible times in their lives. You can only peak in through the lens of their creative outlet to see a fraction of their inner turmoil. Its also so relatable. Like who hasn't felt that intense need for someone else to make their life right only to find out that it wasn't necessity. But you find its just infatuation and now you don't know what do to.
Great video. Great analysis. Subbed!
My jam 💓
Holy crap. Thank you
perfect
What you said at the end about interpreting music as you hear it yourself is important. I love hearing the way other people interpret, but using your own thoughts is also important
I recommend you “The Virus of Lifes” from Subliminal Verses too. Please this song is very interesting 👌🏻
I like your reactions, I also laugh at your craziness ☺️
love it
PLEASE react and explain ‘Bother’ - the song by Corey Taylor’s side project - Stone Sour!
Love your reactions, you’re putting all the inner thoughts and feelings from these songs into words just amazingly!
Some of Slipknots tracks honestly moved me to tears before just from the message in it and the relatability to how Corey is saying that message. Some of the tracks like this one have such an emotional response to me. Slipknot is definitely not just all scream yell devil curse gore gross. By far they have been my favorite band for some time and I will always cherish these songs for what they are.
That song (and phrase: I won't let this build up inside of me) is so powerful to me, that I have a tattoo on my left arm s2 I live it like a mantra, and it feels good
Great generalized points.
Wish we could see the reaction to what the commonly held beliefs of the true meanings are for both of these songs.
I'm trying to help my son with his first, second heartbreak. He gave up his friends and everything for her. 🙏🏻
I've been watching your videos for the last hour. Im a metal singer myself and its awesome to watch someone react to some of the deep tool, korn, and slipknot songs without negative judgemet. I've tried to get counseling my whole life and have always been met with a reaction that my pain through childhood abuse, and my mental status from such is a result of my own sins. I dont believe in therapy or counseling anymore because through all of the judgement I'm also smart enough to know that most counselors have never experienced any real horrors in their lives and are making assumptions based on text books. I wish I had different experiences. I'd love to have someone listen to me the way you do these artists. My lyrics are a reflection of me, but never tell the whole story. You are doing something wonderful, and even though I'll never see another therapist, you give me hope that maybe after I'm gone someone may hear what I've been screaming and take the time to understandit without judgement. Thank you for what you do. @heartsupport
Vermillion 2 is basically is the prelude to 1 . In vermillion 2, an obsessed man rapes and kills an innocent lady and leaves her body in the meadows. His jealousy lust and lost love leads him to murder her. After that god tries to take her soul to heaven, but because in her death she is not buried with rituals, her souls gets stuck in earth.
Now starts vermillion 1: where her souls wakes up in modern world. Her soul wonders, and she is not able to recognise and talk to anyone. Frustrated she goes crazy, then a butterfly comes along and gives her soul hope
Liste to "Nero forte", my favorite slipknot song ❤
Finally some one mentions Nero Forte.
Part 2 is about over coming depression and the darkness within, and renewing ones self.
I've gone through a boatload of your content tonight, and I love it. If you want some more mental health-centric music(as you spoke alot of with Slipknot and BMTH), I'd highly recommend Falling in Reverse. Old or new, doesn't matter. Anything from The Drug in Me is You, all the way up to Watch the World Burn, and everything in-between
Metabolic goes crazy!
U showed do Snuff for sure 🖤
Have you heard Snuff yet? It's so impactful and emotional. You will love it!
Please react to Disturbed - A reason to fight [Official Live Video], it's the most powerful live performance I know with a great message. Greetings from Germany 😊 love your reactions and thoughts
Corey Taylor has said this song is about a serial killer stalker and his prey. It's even creepier when you hear it after knowing this. Kind of takes away from any of the other interpretations, but still interesting.
You should listen to The Arms of Sorrow by KillswitchEngage. Beautiful song that is also very heavy.
This song just makes me think of my mom cause she left 💀💀 “she isn’t real, I can’t make her real” it’s like no matter how much I love her and want her to get better she’s not there anymore and likely never will be. But fuck it we ball 🗣️
To me there’s still madness creeping in “I can MAKE her real!” And she is dead. This is much more deep than I think most catch on….
As a widower, this song cuts me to my core. Seven months ago, my wife ended her life. I struggle every day with it.
I know it's more about an unrequited love, but it also speaks to the grief of losing your love to death, to me at least.
"I don't know what to do when she makes me sad." To me, is the gut-wrenching pain of having lost my wife. I don't know where to go with all of this pain that she makes me feel. She isn't around to talk about it anymore.
"But I won't let this build up inside of me." To me, is the grief of losing her. Recognizing that it's like a poison within me, drowning me from the inside out.
"She isn't real. I can't make her real." To me, is the realization that I cannot will her back to life, no matter what I do.
From twixremix: @Self-Delusion thank you for being here and for your vulnerability with your wife’s suicide. i can absolutely see how this song can connect so deeply with your pain and grief. i can feel your despair through the words of your comment… please know that you are seen, understood, and so incredibly valued. sending you so much love and comfort as you continue to heal and grieve.
From Listening2Day: @Self-Delusion What you said was so touching. So sorry you face this; but your understanding is filled with wisdom. I wish you for continued strength in your journey.
From Micro: @Self-Delusion Thank you so much for sharing about your story, about the loss of your wife, and how this song resonates with your personally. There are so many layers to grief that make is such a deep and violent experience yet something so subtle, delicate and troubling at the same time. You've painted some of those layers in such a honest, vulnerable and accurate manner. Thank you for allowing us to see you, to hear your voice and to understand how it's been for your heart during the last seven months.
I heard once someone saying this quote, that grief is about all the love that don't have any place to go to anymore. It's like having this deep energy, this call for love and connection that gets interrupted by a wall of silence each time it tries to go out. This entire world that we shared with someone suddenly got divided, and we're left carrying this world for two. Under different circumstances, I've felt this myself so many times through the sudden loss of someone dear to my heart, and words are definitely not enough to express the brutality of this reality that is imposed at you, over and over and over.
There's this song of M.Shinoda that conveys it so well: "Sometimes you don't say goodbye once, you say goodbye over and over and over again...". Because that reality keeps hitting you like waves, and you can only do your best to ride them each time. On one side there's the beauty of this legacy of love and the very fat that it exists, of all that it means and implies, of all the good memories and the chance to have created them with someone so unique. While on the other side there's all the silences, the feeling of carrying a void within and being stuck in time. The world keeps turning ardoun you, but inside there is something that has been frozen and immobilized. It's hard to keep on keeping on when it feels like your heart is pulled in opposite directions. It's hard to not feel guilty for breathing when we mourn the ones who don't.
I know words fall short when it's about the pain of losing someone so close to your heart, and so important in your life. In the end, a lot of people can say a lot of things that don't serve much anything. For what it's worth, I see you, I hear you, and I wish for you to find one day a sense of peace within. Which is not forgetting, denying, or betraying. Only finding a sense of balance between honoring the memory of your wife, of letting it be a part of your life and present in a way that feels meaningful for you, at your own pace.
Sending hugs and thoughts your way today. :heart:
Please do any of TEN.56s songs. I just discovered your videos with slipknot and literally cry at three of them. I suffer from PTSD and depression and this band is very therapeutic for me so I’m very curious to hear your views on them.
Thanks for doing what you do and listening
Pt 1 is from the viewpoint of an obsessive person who murders the girl when he realizes that he “can’t make her real” (be what he wants her to be). Pt 2 is the come down after the killing (“all the torment and the pain leaked through and covered me” refers to her blood literally and the emotions of the even figuratively). In Pt 1 he’s trying not to let his obsession build up inside of him. In Pt2, it’s his guilt that he’s trying to not let build up inside of him.
Nice reaction and interesting thoughts. Vermillion Pt 1 & 2 really got me in to Slipknot (the Vol. 3 album is my favourite). If you like the contrast between both parts try Hyper Music and Hyper Chondriac Music by Muse - certainly more rock than metal, yet similar in the former being more aggressive while the latter is mellow (both are essentially the same break-up song).
That it it right on the head for me!!! I gotta deal with my social anxiety when someone says something to belittle me(jokingly that I take serious) better said than done.
From Micro: @thomaswilt6655 Goodness, YES. Social anxiety really has this way to make everything become extremely serious, even things said as a joke and without any wrong intention. You can have the most casual conversation with someone, yet hearing them saying something, or saying it a certain way, can immediately push your mind into a rabbit hole.
It's exhausting how much social anxiety seems to shape our perception all the time of what others say, of their physical gestures and how we interpret it as a result. Even more so of others intentions while they can be absolutely different than the worst scenario we're imagining. Everything is somehow turned against us ultimately, even if we know rationally that we are with safe people who are not judging or trying to be mean to us. It's hard to see yourself being in this double position: between what you know rationally as being true, versus the sense of panic you can feel within whenever your anxiety is somehow triggered by external circumstances.
I personally can't count the amount of times I responded and reacted seriously to a joke because I was already petrified in the first place. Then it makes things worse because the seriousness of my tone makes me feel even more inappropriate lol. A vicious cycle.
I have no doubt you've experienced this sense that you are constantly under the pressure of having to *perform* what you say and do whenever you're interacting with someone. Although once you feel that way, it's like you're just on edge constantly and have to be on your guard. Anything and anyone can be seen a threat to your sense of safety within. It feels like anything can catch you by surprise and make you collapse internally with feelings of shame and being worthless, and the anxiety creates this artificial illusion that if you stay on your guard, you'll be more prepared. It's SO hard to not take something seriously when your mind makes you feel like you are constantly evaluated and scrutinized, even by people who would never think anything wrong of you.
But it's also so frustrating when it feels like those reactions are beyond your control and make you appear as someone you're not. it's like something else is piloting yourself - but that something isn't you. So many times I've been told that when someone interacts with me at first they felt intimidated or like I was particularly cold. While deep inside it feels like I'm dying and can't express myself the way I want to, or even that I have a ton of affection to share but it can't seem to find its way out of my own mind. It's all controlled and filtered through paralyzing fear. While sometimes I would feel inside so much enthusiasm and affection for someone, yet form the outside it would appear as almost robotic and careless responses. So frustrating when that's the opposite of what you wish to convey.
Your comment speaks very much to me personally, and I'm so thankful you shared it. Somehow, it's therapeutic to look back at those times when social anxiety made our reactions inappropriate, and to laugh about it too. :heart:
-Micro
His love could not save her. And he lost her to BPD who have no sense of self and whose only friends are narcissists. "She isn't real. I can't make her real." Sad ending.
Massive OOF rn. I’m going through something similar
I wanna see what you think about the song "circle" by slipknot. Its a genius work of art!
Check out Stone Sour - Hesitate (live/accoustic) (same singer, different band, similar song)
Have you reacted to Dead Memories? That's one of my favorite songs of them
I resonate with your prognosis on this song. I'm at a point when I get off of work to run into my room. Read a book, search for people to talk to in a sexual sense because of the anarchy that's going on within my home. The house is a disaster, my stepson is staunchly difficult to deal with and my wife is either working, going to school or drained and nothing is left for me. But, I'm angry because I do things around the house to clean up and then things are either thrown around or just set in places that become catch all. I find it difficult at times to move. forward.
From Micro: @danstuck7372 Yes, it is so hard to feel like you are waking up everyday to a life that seems to be about walking through the same circle, over and over. Rise, rinse and repeat, as if none of what was familiar and source of joy to you in the past was meaningful anymore. It's like your world, as you used to know it, completely changed over time and you end up asking yourself: how did it all come down to this? How did it happen? And how can I initiate change into something that feels incredibly overwhelming already? Is it even possible?
I can only imagine the heaviness and exhaustion you've been carrying these days. This dreading feeling that you're not living the live you desire, while at the same time it feels like having no choice but to keep going through the motions. It's almost as if life was taking control over you, of your heart and soul, and you don't remember how to start governing your own life again, how to regain some sense of ownership. It's exhausting when life seems to keep going in front of your eyes as if it was an accident happening in slow motion, while feeling there's no voice left to scream and prevent from the danger.
It makes sense really that, in the midst of this, you need to retreat someohw and re-create a world in which you'd feel more in control, desired, and away at least emotionally from all the things that are worrying and burdening you. It's brutal to feel like you are a stranger in your own home. That people don't see you, don't see all the things you do, and don't consider it with more respect or care. That the person you love is also seemingly lost in their own routines and worries, that you'd be somehow living together but alsoseparately. You try and keep doing your best to check all the boxes that are listed on your to do list, but at the end of the day it leaves you with questioning all of it. And in light of how much it hurts, it feels better to avoid it all together and escape.
It takes a lot of strength to name things as you did here, especially when it's about how dissatisfied we feel with our current daily life. It's not a comfortable exercise, on that takes a serious amount of humility and vulnerability. I think unfortunately that this is a breaking point that many of us reach at some point in their life, and even though it feels particularly muddy, discouraging and dark while we're in the midst of it, it can also hold a transformative power in the long run. A "dark night of the soul" as one would say, where there *is* hope to unfold, even if it seems to be particularly hidden somewhere we can't see it. This is such a tough place to be in, and I hope with all my heart that you'll find your way, at your own pace and through little steps, towards a transformation that would make life and relationships more fulfilling than it is now. Hold fast, friend. :heart:
You broke me on this one😢
try some of the tool songs in particular schism, parabol, parabola and lateralus
Or 46&2 😊
I think there is a BIG relationship between this P1&2 by Slipknot and (I cringe 😬 risking putting anyone onto it) Pantera's Suicide Note 1&2 from one of their last albums.
Great video, I recommend reacting to Killpop by Slipknot. Interested in your view on it!
Actualy, it seens to me that the sadness of the song shows that things built up, and them he kild himself
I would really love you to analyze Architecs songs. Doomsday, Memento mori, Holly Hell which deal with the lost of the band member due to cancer or straight up accusations like Matchmade in heaven or black lungs. A lot to unpack there.
Not sure if it changes your opinion of the meaning of the song. But there's a lot of hints in this music video that this girl is a corpse. The colour of her eyes when her head falls back, the tone of her skin, the way her body is moving while being moved around like a puppet. Marry this with what looks like her ghost from part 1 & the fact she could only interact with the butterfly after it died & suddenly these two songs get some whole new extra layers of darkness. I personally think this song is from the perspective of somebody that is obsessed with a girl, kills her & feels regret afterwards.
Another song series is the pain remains trilogy by lorna shore. I think you would like it . Loving your content keep up the good work
You should react to slipknots song snuff so good and amazing
Hahahaha... you have such an adorably optimistic interpretation of these songs