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  • @waterswithin
    @waterswithin 2 роки тому +90

    I've really enjoyed and appreciate what you share with us. I'm soon to turn 34 and a solo mother of two little ones. I've always had very similar feelings and similar dreams. Sometimes I drive in my car and scream my heart out when I need a release. I've felt trapped by life. The shadow work, the inner work is a never ending journey. Learning to truly love oneself and allow the Divine to sing through us is a complete surrender. It's difficult to let go, but necessary. Like the Labor pains of birth. It's only painful because of all we hold onto, we forget who we truly are. As a mother I've felt completely alone, that's part of the journey too. You've spoken wonderful wisdom, thank you 💗

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +13

      I see myself in you, you see yourself in me. We are together. Walking the same path. The least traveled but the One. ♡

    • @douglasnelson4117
      @douglasnelson4117 2 роки тому +3

      Friends. Reach OUT

    • @cheff12341
      @cheff12341 2 роки тому +1

      I know exactly what you going through kinda, im living in my work truck at the moment

    • @waterswithin
      @waterswithin 2 роки тому +1

      @@cheff12341 thank you, for sharing. I was reading something earlier today. Something Jung had explained that "conflict in which there is no solution is the classical beginning of the process of individuation".
      No one's path is the same. It is unique to each of us. So there must be reason we are to experience it. To master something about it.
      However temporary it may be. 🪶

    • @naldo_9389
      @naldo_9389 8 місяців тому +1

      Hello, i would appreciate if i could have a chat with you about a situation I'm in right now, i think you could helped me sort my thoughts

  • @Red.Christopher
    @Red.Christopher 2 роки тому +56

    Powerful thoughts. A lot to think about in this video. At twice your age I still share many of these same feelings about life. I'm often lost, don't know what I am doing, or necessarily what I want, and often just want to run away. I wish at your age I was as cognizant about life as you are. I admire that. Back then I was struggling with trying to meet society's expectations, and not doing a very good job of it. It took me a while to find my free spirit. I still haven't given up on all my dreams yet, but I am realistic about the time left to realize them. While nothing is a guarantee you have time to work on yours. Whatever they may end up being. I'm not qualified to give you any advice. But for consideration, I will share with you what I would tell my 27-year-old self if I could... Follow your path, not anyone else's. The only person you must answer to is yourself, everyone else is by choice. Take, but don't be greedy. Accept help if you need it. Allow yourself to love and be loved, even if your heart breaks from it. Embrace your feelings, the good and the bad. You don't need to be liked by everyone. You don't need to like everyone. Be kind and fair. Don't become addicted to power or money. Be curious, and ask questions. Being content is more powerful than being happy. Seek out both... Another great video Vanille. I am grateful for you.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +16

      I rarely read someone as brave as you Chris. To show who you really are, your strengths and weaknesses. What an inspiring journey to your Soul you chose. Never give up on your dreams Chris, I can feel your power from where I stand today, and you can accomplish so much, still. Regardless of how many years you think you have left in this body.
      Your advice to your 27 year old self, resonate so much. I will hold onto your wisdom for as long as I possibly can ♡

  • @jacksnyder7318
    @jacksnyder7318 2 роки тому +24

    Your an artist, don't torture yourself ;)
    Your already in the field and away from the noise of "progress" : )
    You ask " what lights me up"
    Your beauty, tranquility and cooking : ) thank you for another moment of reprieve in this chaotic world with your craft.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +4

      You are making my heart dance Jack, THANK YOU ♡

    • @suneeta1090
      @suneeta1090 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille come bank

  • @stevenmcilroy3935
    @stevenmcilroy3935 2 роки тому +37

    This video made me cry my eyes out. I hate my life so much and I see no escape from this vicious world. I love your videos, they keep me inspired.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +22

      Steven, no matter how much you struggle right now, I need you to keep in mind one thing. The difficulties, the pain, the obstacles, the misery, they make you grow at a level that most people won't ever reach in a lifetime. Hold on my friend, keep walking, one step at a time. If you don't believe in yourself anymore, I do. I believe in you Steven, you are a powerful man and you can CHANGE THINGS. You are the creator of your life, don't let others dictate your life. Be with the light, you are not alone ♡

    • @hikarihealing1726
      @hikarihealing1726 2 роки тому +3

      I'm with you

  • @angusmacdonald3220
    @angusmacdonald3220 2 роки тому +5

    You appear a very wise and original thinker. Wishing you all the best.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      Only a wise man can recognize another. ♡

  • @melissafields6628
    @melissafields6628 2 роки тому +3

    You are a bad ass, amazing, beautiful, lovely, soul. I just turned 46 years old & I am in the middle of reinventing myself once again. Seasons have changed & my heart calls for change. I just found you on UA-cam. Subscribed of course. Thank you thank you thank you for your raw, real & honest content dear one!!!!! 😌

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      It makes me happy to know my words are inspiring you Melissa ♡

  • @_trram
    @_trram 2 роки тому +12

    Im 27, single and currently unemployed, it has been a really hard time for me lately. it’s like you where talking from my soul and how I feel in the inside. Thanks you for all the kind worlds I really need it to hear this. ✨ sending you magic to light up your life. ✨

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +4

      You will rise again Margarita, I am so sure of that. I can feel your power from where I stand, you have so much potential. To create yourself, to attract what you desire. Believe in yourself, beautiful lady. If you don't, I DO.
      Everything happens for a reason and you can always make things change.
      Using manifestation would be transcendent for you. ♡

  • @VictoriousDestiny
    @VictoriousDestiny 2 роки тому +33

    I feel similar to how you feel and on a similar path. I've lost alot this year and have just been getting by the last couple months......I hope you continue to post these videos. They're beautiful. Sending love.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +5

      Thank you for your kind words. I hope you find a way to your deepest desires and needs, dear one. ♡

  • @rezlivley
    @rezlivley 2 роки тому +13

    It's hard to be a sensitive being. It's a joy when you integrate that sensitivity and practicality into action that brings your dreams into fruition. Keep on keeping on.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      " integrate that sensitivity and practicality into action that brings your dreams into fruition. . "
      Thank you.

  • @JoeSimonin
    @JoeSimonin 2 роки тому +10

    I lost everything that mattered to me. I was upset about it until I realized that if I can lose it, it should not matter to me.

  • @Towelievision
    @Towelievision 2 роки тому +8

    I watch people making little log cabins and want to do the same, a lot of hard work. Cabin, garden, hunting and living naturally. Ahhhh dreams!

  • @WhimsicalLiving
    @WhimsicalLiving 2 роки тому +48

    Needed to hear this today.. thank you for being so raw and sharing the shadow side of life.. it resonates with me so much.. love from India ❤️

    • @angelica2062
      @angelica2062 2 роки тому +5

      She is a very honest person

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +5

      Thank you so much, beautiful human. I'm so happy some bits of my journey could resonate with yours ♡

  • @jarpaz007
    @jarpaz007 2 роки тому +2

    Thank you for your new video and hope you get a little closer to your dream!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Thank you so much Jaroslav, hope you’re well ♥️

  • @ReubenClarke
    @ReubenClarke 2 роки тому +16

    Vanille, I love how you always keep it real and honest. That feeling of frustration is so beautiful - thank you for openly sharing yours. It was rising up in me today and I almost reached for a pillow to scream into, but I chose to breathe deeply instead. Maybe I should go outside and scream too? The reason I said the feeling was beautiful is because I realised that I *get* to experience frustration, rather than it being forced upon me. It is a gift and there are lessons to be learned from it, as you said. Frustration with my situation has always been my greatest motivator in changing for the better.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +4

      YOU are a gift Reuben. I truly believe that. And I feel it too.
      The greatest is coming at you dear friend, faster than you think. Because you chose to Listen ♡

    • @The2realistic
      @The2realistic 2 роки тому +1

      Yes. You are present. That is the gift.

  • @bluewaters2829
    @bluewaters2829 2 роки тому +12

    Truth in words. Free. Fresh. Magical. Transcendent. Wise. Honest. Open. Just a few words that come to mind watching this awe inspiring video montage of scenic wonders! All while you, Vanille, narrate what we all ponder each day. What is life? What are we here for?
    We are not of this earth nor are we of the material that encapsulates our souls. We are but children, whether just born or elderly. Our life is the greatest classroom we will ever attend. Not 5o learn of the things if man or even 5his universe. To transcend what we see, hear, smell, taste and feel, us why eeate here. To reach beyond our egos, to grow beyond them, to push past fear and to reach for the known, which is our guiding light that yearns for more. Which can only be satiated by letting go of what have been born into. What society covets is but dust, to reach for peace, love, calm and wisdom. The things that quench our thirsty souls and free us from the bondage of "things".
    You are such a wise soul, Vanille! Do you feel as though you are a wise soul trapped in a youthful body?
    This video, along with all of your others, brings a connection to meof a kindred soul. One that asks the same elusive and soul freeing questions that I have been pondering my whole life as well. 💙❤
    Oh, and I LOVE your main coon cat!!🐈‍⬛😻

    • @libradragon
      @libradragon 2 роки тому +3

      Recognition! Your thoughts, they resonate. My heart listens. This sets my resting pulse. Thank you!

    • @bluewaters2829
      @bluewaters2829 2 роки тому +3

      @@libradragon Words may resonate, but connection moves the soul ..

    • @libradragon
      @libradragon 2 роки тому +2

      @@bluewaters2829 Thank you. Yes, indeed.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      You give so much food to my soul tonight Mike.
      " You are such a wise soul, Vanille! Do you feel as though you are a wise soul trapped in a youthful body? " That I can't know for sure, but there is a high amount of decoherence between my body and soul, indeed.
      " We are not of this earth nor are we of the material that encapsulates our souls. We are but children, whether just born or elderly. Our life is the greatest classroom we will ever attend. " I got my light for the night. ♡

  • @EllaBugby
    @EllaBugby 2 роки тому +5

    You are a true spirit, your work is more important than you may realise. I tell my friends how much I cherish your photography and stories... the message you echo into this earth. To me, you live an incredible life, rich in meaning and you have a great essence that pours out of you. I see it, I see you. We need no add-ons, we are already complete - we just need to be aware of what is already here, the Oneness, which is what we all are. Sorry that you are going through some tricky times but you have a heart of fire, so keep going, we love you and are here for you xx

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      " We need no add-ons, we are already complete - we just need to be aware of what is already here, the Oneness, which is what we all are. "
      Do you even realize how much power emanates from you Ella, from your words?
      You have a gift, and it will help many.
      Thank you, for being such an authentic woman in this world, and for all the love you're giving me right now. ♡

    • @EllaBugby
      @EllaBugby 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille Thank you for your kind words, Verdant 🌷You are a wonderful woman! Sometimes people hold up a mirror and reflect back what we already know in our hearts to be true; I experience that here. I am so glad that you make your videos and I will always enjoy your creative output. Lots of love xx

  • @danherrick5785
    @danherrick5785 2 роки тому +2

    When I was a kid, my family would go to my grandparents farm. When I would see my grandfather, he would give me a really strong hug. He would'nt squezze the crap out of me, but it would be super strong. This is what I would like to give to you right now. Because I can't be there, please go out and hug a tree. When you do this - think of all the people who speak the same thoughts as you - and lets have a group hug for all of us that can't or won't fit into the box the world wants us to live in. Strong hugs ...

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      I'm heading to the forest now. Strong hugs Dan ♡

  • @adosindaborges
    @adosindaborges 2 роки тому +7

    I understand you 100%!
    I've been so focused on creating the life that I want that I believe it will happen because is the will of my Soul and that is more powerful than anything in the world!
    When the Soul wants, the Universe has no way but to make it happen!
    Let's believe, Always!
    Lots of Love from Portugal! ❤️😘😘

  • @jamilavibar9698
    @jamilavibar9698 2 роки тому +5

    I woke up to thoughts of disappointment over my imperfections, and even tarot & astrology forecasts read that today will be an intense day for me, personally. This has resonated with my soul. I’ve cried watching your video. Continue your course. Thank you.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      We shed the same tears Jamila, and WE, are on the right path. ♡

  • @bjornzorger3731
    @bjornzorger3731 2 роки тому +2

    Very powerful words ,thank you .

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Thank you very much Bjorn, it touches my heart. ♡

  • @RetireandGo
    @RetireandGo 2 роки тому +2

    I really enjoy your peaceful and insightful videos. Thank you

  • @ilzitek2419
    @ilzitek2419 2 роки тому +10

    You are such a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing. Your content definitely resonates with so many of us living on this earth right now. It is hard to create what you dream about alone. There is definitely power in being together and creating things with others. Many blessings your way…

  • @kevinc1263
    @kevinc1263 2 роки тому +9

    V you got nothing to prove to anyone but yourself , and just having the curage to start a youtube channel is very brave . your channel is growing much faster than most and thats a good thing . be true to yourself and people will respond . as far as the money goes , youll get there i have no doubt . you dont have to try and fit in , you have to learn to like who you are . im rooting for you and i am always here to help , and i think you have seen since starting a community page there are many who feel the same way .
    you take care of yourself and dont give up , your friend kev

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      I listen to your precious words the same way I savor a good white wine Kevin. THANK YOU, fellow kindred spirit ♡

  • @rosanerio2
    @rosanerio2 9 місяців тому +1

    SO COMFORTING and EMOTIONAL to find like-minded people!!!...not feeling so alone anymore..THANK YOU ALL ! GRATITUDE VERDANT!💗💗😢😢🥺🥺💞💞

  • @shadowbanned3716
    @shadowbanned3716 2 роки тому +5

    You have the spirit of a classical poet. By the way...That cat looks HUGE. Thats no average cat.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      You make my heart smile. Haha, his name is Grimm, he is the loveliest cat ♡

  • @thatbeerchick3511
    @thatbeerchick3511 2 роки тому +6

    The ego Vs the soul. My biggest struggle♥️ Your intuition is your best friend. I never feel good enough. I want to follow my heart too.

  • @jamilavibar9698
    @jamilavibar9698 2 роки тому +2

    8:33 Thank you for asking ❤️‍🔥the question!

  • @שאולנקר
    @שאולנקר 2 роки тому +2

    Wise words. Good luck and thank you.

  • @ericaliu2017
    @ericaliu2017 2 роки тому +1

    Your life is just like a movie. Adventurous, full of ups and downs.
    It’s such an admirable decision to pursue your own ways outside of the hectic society that we live in today. I think many people envy your freedom and solitude but they are not geared with strength to bear the instability that comes with this life style.
    Though this path gets hard at times, please stay strong and believe that you have the courage to face any challenges lying ahead.

  • @travelingweaver33
    @travelingweaver33 2 роки тому +53

    I still feel your "pain" sister (if that is the right word🤷). I very much understand what it is like to be a "free spirit" trying to explore the soul and live in harmony with nature and our divine journey through this matrix... in this fake world driven by conformity, social masks, delusions, and "money". Stay on the path sister... 🌟💫🌈 I feel your dreams will manifest sooner than you may know. 🌹 And... as always.... Please.... LIVE FREE. 🤍

    • @soulofjo
      @soulofjo 2 роки тому +4

      Wow... you described me too🙏👌 it is such a relief to see that there is more of us. As i know no one here in my country. ✌️☀️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +3

      Your words are giving hope to my heart Brandon ♡

    • @addict4165
      @addict4165 Рік тому +1

      @@VerdantVanille if u want to know the purpose of life study Ved the original Ved

    • @addict4165
      @addict4165 Рік тому +1

      @@soulofjo if u want to know the purpose of life study Ved the original Ved

    • @stevenl1706
      @stevenl1706 Рік тому

      And yet if you are following that same “free spirit,” then you, her, and everyone else who believes likewise, sitting atop your ivory palaces sitting and judging the world as fake and that you’re on a different path from others, when this woman at around 2:44 or so essentially admitted to being suicidal…that doesn’t sound like someone who is on their “divine journey.” No…if you reject your Maker, God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, you are on the same exact path as every single person in this world who likewise rejects God and just worship yourself and your “journey.” Please consider, I fought against the truth until I was about 27 years old; repent of your life of sin and rebellion and turn to the only one who can save us.

  • @sevenproxies
    @sevenproxies 2 роки тому +6

    Thank you for sharing. Ego management is a lost skill today. Everyone wants to be on top and look the best, even if it's all a lie.
    That is why more people yearn for a simpler life I believe.

  • @melandrialessandra25
    @melandrialessandra25 2 роки тому +3

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Thank you!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @norm5785
    @norm5785 2 роки тому +3

    What a fantastic video. Wonderful food dish and crafts that looked awesome. Just remember that you are awesome, beautiful and caring person as you are. Make your path and follow it until you have completed it. Have a wonderful week, stay safe, healthy and take care of yourself. From Henrico County Virginia

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      Take care of your kind self Norm, your light is needed out there ♡

  • @MarcelEling
    @MarcelEling 2 роки тому +6

    Keep believing in yourself. You are a great soul and love to see what you are sharing I hope you will overcone your biggest fears

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      That resonates. Thank you for your meaningful support ♡

  • @Timber81
    @Timber81 2 роки тому +2

    I wanted to resist you at first. But as I listened to your words I softened. You Won my attention. You are beautiful. Thank You!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      I am touched by your transparency Tim. And even more by your wisdom. Thank YOU!

  • @iv0447
    @iv0447 2 роки тому +3

    What lights me up...is when I see that others are on a similar path and that perhaps we don't have to be alone in this pursuit for a new way to live in this world. I liked what you said about the ego, what I know to be true. Very beautiful work!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      Your words bring me light, fellow soul ♡

  • @kellylynnstudios2185
    @kellylynnstudios2185 2 роки тому +5

    Thank you for this and for these beautiful reminders!

  • @WorldWideWebObserver
    @WorldWideWebObserver 2 роки тому +1

    Thank you for your thought-provoking poetry...🌹

  • @tanja9275
    @tanja9275 2 роки тому +3

    You are an inspiration Vanille 🌷 your doing what most persons won't attempt. You've given up much to live your dream with your dream home, in the free land ~ nature with one you are. 🙏🏽 Understanding your heart at this moment is hurting your frustrations overwhelming you ...
    I put my ego far away for my soul to grow more so ... And for that I thank you 🌷...Your channel recommendation means everything to me Vanille... Sincerely Tanja 🌷

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      And your wise words feel like a blessing Tanja ♡

    • @tanja9275
      @tanja9275 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille
      Vanille 🌷 thank you for telling me..It means so much.. Have a wonderful evening

  • @Anja_Pearson
    @Anja_Pearson 2 роки тому +9

    This video spoke directly to my soul in a way few things can. Thank you, beautiful spirit, and good luck on your journey.

    • @Anja_Pearson
      @Anja_Pearson 2 роки тому +3

      In response to your video description:
      Your heart and soul will guide you to places unique but familiar, traveled and yet unwalked, fulfilling and strangely empty. Your logic will guide you along the same paths others have traveled before you; some paths worn and polluted and others fresh and swelling with life. Both have the possibility to leave you struggling and hustling for worthiness.
      Perhaps, then, take a chance to listen to both? If I may, I'd suggest the books by Brené Brown, as they've helped me become myself more than anything else in existence.
      You will create your world, and I believe in you.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +3

      " Your heart and soul will guide you to places unique but familiar, traveled and yet unwalked, fulfilling and strangely empty. Your logic will guide you along the same paths others have traveled before you; some paths worn and polluted and others fresh and swelling with life. Both have the possibility to leave you struggling and hustling for worthiness. " This, is powerful.
      Your advice really resonate within me, my dear. I will hold onto it for as long as my mind possibly can. ♡
      I will keep listening. And let my heart believe in your wisdom.

    • @Anja_Pearson
      @Anja_Pearson 2 роки тому +2

      I'm so glad my words spoke to you, as your video did for me.
      In addition, I'm so proud of you for the journey you're taking--no matter where it might lead. I admire your courage

  • @chrisakins1512
    @chrisakins1512 2 роки тому

    Love this! Thank you for being You! We are All in this together. Love and Be Loved. Blessed Be 🙏❤️🌞🕊

  • @tiogoala7654
    @tiogoala7654 2 роки тому +4

    "When no one is watching?" Can't say, the ego is being suppressed. Spiritual living is giving without wanting anything in return.Serve others with your talents. Wow, weight lifting that is why you look so good and strong. You have nothing to prove, accept that you are stronger and more muscular than most of us, that's incredible, accept that..You are talented in poetry too and painting, those are your gifts to give to others. So beautiful, this video had wonderful scenery. I wait too long for the next video, looking forward again. Thank you

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      I don't know what is your gift Tio, but bringing light into people's heart, is one of them. Cherish your wisdom my friend, you are much needed in this world. ♡

  • @23iloveanime
    @23iloveanime 2 роки тому +4

    this is one hit very close to home, very close...
    Keep it up with the awesome content

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      My heart sits right there Raxiu, next to yours. We are on the right path.

    • @23iloveanime
      @23iloveanime 2 роки тому +1

      @@VerdantVanille god bless you old soul

  • @deatraparks4739
    @deatraparks4739 2 роки тому +3

    i feel the same,verdant---only i am older--i have had a family---they are grown beautiful people, i am stuck because of that word money---i love a simple exsistance ,close to nature--may i ask how are you living? the desert is so lovely---love to you and blessing---i dont think there is always an answer---your friend deatra maybe ego is telling us there is?

  • @xy101
    @xy101 2 роки тому +13

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts, ideas and reflections, they're very appreciated, thank you. I have much hope for you and I know that you'll be able to get through this feelings and situation. Whenever you feel overwhelmed take some time to eat and rest, be good and kind to yourself as you already are with others, there's a long path to walk and many good and worthy things in it. Much love and my best wishes for you. Thanks again

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      " Whenever you feel overwhelmed take some time to eat and rest. " The most simple yet least spoken piece of advice. Thank you, for reminding me of the essential. Of the big picture. I feel honoured to count a wise soul like yours among this tribe ♡

  • @DarylLorette
    @DarylLorette 2 роки тому +2

    I've noticed without thinking about it too much that your cinematography is very good in your videos and I love the sound of your soft spoken voice. 💕😊

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      It makes me really happy if you could notice such things Daryl ♡ I hope you are doing well dear one.

  • @gregaiken1725
    @gregaiken1725 2 роки тому +2

    the ego is an anchor. the spirit causes you to fly.

  • @soulofjo
    @soulofjo 2 роки тому +2

    I moved into this cabin to face those same feelings and thoughts. And to deal with them. Untill there is only my core to be found It has been the most painful and unfomfortable experience. A lot of fear .rage..anger has come to surface. I feel your words so much that i dont know how to even put it in words 💙 I am a total free spirit and it would be a dream to me to have a friend like you . Who understands. Here... i am alone with these feelings. So this kind of videos are soooo important. Thank you💚

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      You are not alone Jo, never.
      You are a very brave person and I want you to hold on. Feelings and emotions are the messengers of the soul. Through pain and struggle, we are rising ♡

    • @soulofjo
      @soulofjo 2 роки тому +1

      @@VerdantVanille Very true my friend💙 And You are brave too!! Thank you for being so honest and being there☀️

  • @northernwolfhound7096
    @northernwolfhound7096 2 роки тому +4

    You most definitely are inspirational. I was almost twice your age before self realization. You're on the right path, from my perspective its not reinventing yourself but actually touching your own soul and becoming who you always were. Much love and blessings, always trust your gut 😌🙏❤❤❤

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      " its not reinventing yourself but actually touching your own soul and becoming who you always were. " Wow, that, is resonating loudly within me. You have very important things to say, fellow wolf ♡

  • @helmerkappert5152
    @helmerkappert5152 2 роки тому +5

    Thank you again Vanile, for this beautifull piece of art. This talent and insight you have allready at such young age might sooner or later give you all you want.. But whenever our ego resurrects again we will feel a burden again..
    Thank you for an inspiring message my dear friend!😊

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      " But whenever our ego resurrects again we will feel a burden again... " I'm going to ponder over this truth from now on, dear friend.
      You touched my heart Helmer. ♡

  • @moonchild6115
    @moonchild6115 9 днів тому

    You are inspiring , just for being you and sharing yourself with us. that is so brave 💗

  • @neeltrix
    @neeltrix 2 роки тому +1

    Is really hard to be free in a world made to inprison everyone. But its worthy try, as you are doing. Good luck

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      It's worth trying Gabriel, you said it ♡

  • @RolexVevo303
    @RolexVevo303 2 роки тому +1

    You will be ok babe ❤keep the faith

  • @MothaFluffa
    @MothaFluffa 2 роки тому +1

    Seeing videos like this and hearing more people talk this way is the only thing making me feel like there is something waiting for us. It makes my aching heart not feel so lonely. It makes me feel like life is reachable and my lack of other things will not actually crush me. It makes me feel like I'm sitting in front of a door that will soon open. It gives me hope that it will be possible perhaps right when I need, that the pace of life will change and I'll finally be able to float instead of drowning.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      The door is about to open honey. Sometimes a good kick is needed. Or we can choose to wait for the wind to open it. In any ways, I can already see your being coming back. Up to the surface.
      You will rise. ♡

  • @knutrobertoas6893
    @knutrobertoas6893 2 роки тому +8

    Love your videos and how honest you are. If you ever come to Norway again (I live on the west coast, close to the Pulpit Rock) let me know🙏🏼
    And btw, you are an inspiring person☝🏼✨️ the greates challenge many have is being themselfs, and you are so real in your videos; inspiring! Wish you all the best✨️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +4

      You make my heart smile Knut. Thank you for being such a kind man out there, in the world. If I come back to Norway, it will be a pleasure to visit you ♡

    • @knutrobertoas6893
      @knutrobertoas6893 2 роки тому +1

      @@VerdantVanille
      Thank you for your kind reply, and likewise; you make my heart smile!
      It would be a pleasure to have you visit. I think you would love my family's/parent's property by the fjords in Ryfylke, and you'll have a free place to stay🙏🏼
      Let's see what the future brings. Until then, wish you a beautiful summer ♡

  • @The2realistic
    @The2realistic 2 роки тому +2

    Never a dull moment on this channel.

  • @dianaray1470
    @dianaray1470 2 роки тому +3

    Am I the only on not fooled by the poetic words and cinematic videos ?

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      Hello Diana! Thank you for giving your opinion on my work.
      Your comments hold a lot of anger and I’m choosing not to answer to that.
      Instead, I would like to tell you about one thing.
      We judge and criticize someone because there is something that they have, we wish we had it too. So we find all the possible ways and reasons to hate this person.
      I understand. I’m planting the seed in your mind.
      PS: where did you see/when did you hear me BEGGING for money?

  • @childofthesun22277
    @childofthesun22277 2 роки тому +1

    I love your videos so much. You are definitely speaking to my soul. All my life I've wanted so much more than just the mundane life that everyone expects everyone else to fall into. There's something inside of my that yearns to be free and find my own happiness in life. You've inspired to even go ahead and make changes in my life today to move towards a life I truly want. I appreciate you being so honest about your journey. I can't wait to see everything work out for you 💕

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      It is my honor if I could inspire you, to make a move towards the life you deserve.
      We walk the same path Camille ♡

  • @thenakedsingularity
    @thenakedsingularity 2 роки тому +3

    We all live in the same prison. Our goal as human beings is to liberate ourselves from this prison.

  • @libradragon
    @libradragon 2 роки тому +5

    "To be real. To be honest in a sick and superficial world." We can all do this, as Verdant Vanille does it, if we refuse to pretend. This honesty opens the exit, that one hidden yet very particular door, the one that assails us all, and most of our myths while playing a Siren Song. (Some spell Psiren, and as Red Dwarf BBC shows us, this is acceptable.) [R U N] ... "My heart yells, at my body, *"Why do you keep pulling on the rope!? You! Ignorant human body." = Heart-song, the deepest one, the resonant voice calling to the peace, the ending of this strife, the quality we all know, embrace, and deserve.* Thank you!! Forever. 💖 I am grateful.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      Your comment is drawing such a big smile on my face, Dragon. I'm so grateful to count you among this tribe ♡

  • @TinyBudha
    @TinyBudha 2 роки тому

    Power to you girl. I salute your authenticity and bravery

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      I salute you, Daniel. For your purity and kindness. ♡

  • @vanillapapers
    @vanillapapers Рік тому

    This is so gorgeous and exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you.

  • @interior_order
    @interior_order 2 роки тому

    it's true. What a beautiful message. Thank you.

  • @antoniovenuti3417
    @antoniovenuti3417 2 роки тому

    A beautiful message so eloquently delivered. I admire you’re courage in following your soul. All the world should hear this.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Your words and gift are touching my heart so much more than you think Antonio. Thank you, for supporting me on this path, and for being such a kind spirit. ♡

  • @BlessedBlade
    @BlessedBlade 2 роки тому +2

    I love your videos keep it going. Your channel is going to be big 👍🏼 Mercy

  • @pulkitsingh9792
    @pulkitsingh9792 2 роки тому +1

    Thanks for sharing this video Vanille, it made me dream again after a long long time

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Your words and tip are a gift to my heart. It means so much. Thank YOU ♡

  • @hansstam6629
    @hansstam6629 2 роки тому +3

    What lights me up... Sagesse :) Nous avons survécu, nous serons libres. Ce sera comme tu l'as décidé Lionne

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      Nous serons libres Hans. Together, fellow Lion. ♡

  • @Jdvgraphics
    @Jdvgraphics 2 роки тому +1

    I understand what you're going through. In the beginning of this year my dad passed away. His passing was a shock to me. My dad taught me lots of life lessons and we could talk about everything. Your videos has helped me in my healing and I just wanted to say thanks.❤

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      You are so strong, you are doing wonderfully. Never give up, keep your chin up, you are not alone ♡

    • @Jdvgraphics
      @Jdvgraphics 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille Thanks

  • @gabrielleszafir
    @gabrielleszafir 2 роки тому +1

    I completely understand. I make UA-cam videos in a similar spirit to yours and feel like we have a similar approach to life. Those girls you see on UA-cam that you described - they are as real as you and me and the life they portray isn't the full story (as we know) including the financial realities. We need REAL and we need YOU. Thank you for your vulnerability and realness - I feel so much the same way dear kindred spirit friend.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      You said it all Gabrielle. We are connected. And we will get there, fellow soul, that I am certain. ♡

  • @shawnettezaccaria2462
    @shawnettezaccaria2462 2 роки тому

    Understand completely. I feel so trapped. in unconventional ways. I feel it is too late for me to "TRULY" Live my passion. I will be 48 in December 2022. I feel like I was just led to you. Thank you very much!!! Very inspirational. I feel this way 24-7 of my life. IF I could take my great Dane and leave and disappear, I prob would. not because I do not love my family, but my soul seems to lay somewhere else. Hard to explain. Much love and God Bless!

  • @JozefMarhut
    @JozefMarhut 2 роки тому +2

    No drama, everything can be changed

  • @robmansfield1241
    @robmansfield1241 2 роки тому

    Beautiful images and beautiful, wise words. Thank you

  • @jyothymjohn
    @jyothymjohn Рік тому

    I was also lost once.. All i could see around was misery, and i felt miserable. Started maintaining a gratitude journal in 2015, writing down all the little blessings, and in 3 months, I could sense a positive change in me.. Now i can see the beauty around, and i feel peaceful. Please try keeping a notebook and just scribble all the good little things you could do that day, do it consistently and you will be liberated.. Love you all.. Take care

  • @abbasdourasse1975
    @abbasdourasse1975 2 роки тому +2

    The Ego wants to protect, the Soul is here to explore. Everyday we wake up dealing with this essential paradox...
    This sick society is already dying but Capitalism is very strong at denying reality.
    It's hard for most of us nowadays because we wanna see quick results and stop the suffering of people we love.
    The shift in Consciousness is here, I can feel it. Maybe it's just faith but everybody needs a leap of faith once in a while.
    Merci pour tes vidéos très inspirantes, pleine d'authenticité et de vulnérabilité.
    Je me répète : tu es une personne extrêmement courageuse.
    Le simple fait de savoir que des gens comme toi existent m'aide à garder la foi dans un monde meilleur.
    Take care ! Sending all my good vibes from Québec 🙏🙏🙏

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      " The Ego wants to protect, the Soul is here to explore. Everyday we wake up dealing with this essential paradox..."
      Elle te vient d'où Abbas, cette sagesse ?
      Tes mots m'apportent beaucoup d'espoir, et de détermination. I feel lucky to walk with you, on this path. To the ligth. ♡

    • @abbasdourasse1975
      @abbasdourasse1975 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille , thank you for your kind words 😊😊😊.
      You know, I'm just a good sponge when it comes to Eastern philosophy and spirituality 🤭🤭🤭
      Je n'étais pas toujours aussi " sage " mais le fait de voyager/changer d'environnement, même avec toutes les difficultés que ça apporte ( quand on ne fait pas que du tourisme) m'a rendu plus ouvert et encore plus curieux qu'avant.
      Je te souhaite le meilleur malgré tous les doutes qui peuvent s'installer au gré de nos décisions.
      Le principal, c'est de ne pas courber l'échine devant la société et de continuer nos quêtes de Liberté avec un grand L.
      Prends bien soin de toi

  • @RahmaHUsman
    @RahmaHUsman 2 роки тому +1

    I love hearing your voice. Its calms my mind. And just wanted to listen to you whole day. ☺️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      You have no idea how much this means to me. THANK YOU ♡

  • @roryl5942
    @roryl5942 2 роки тому +2

    I’m with you

  • @stepstoserenity
    @stepstoserenity Рік тому

    You speak in such a poetic way. I completely feel what you're saying. You're a beautiful soul, the world needs people like you. Keep on keeping on. 💙

  • @Aija-Josephine-Allen458
    @Aija-Josephine-Allen458 Рік тому

    OH MY GOD, YOU GAVE ME SHIVERS. I LOVE YOU!!!!

  • @Dumb-ok1tb
    @Dumb-ok1tb 2 роки тому +1

    Hi sweet...I love this video.. your truthfulness is so amazin and your filming is amazin the landscape is almost as beautiful as you ..i absolutely love the way u are and think .. don’t ever stop being u ..
    ✨🌸🌺✨ your friend James 💐💐

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      You always find the words that speak to my heart James ♡

    • @Dumb-ok1tb
      @Dumb-ok1tb 2 роки тому +1

      @@VerdantVanille well your videos and you touch my heart 💜 thank u...

  • @anja-beveneberle3472
    @anja-beveneberle3472 2 роки тому +1

    I feel you sister 🖤 it is healing to me how real and honest you are - with you and with us. my soul is craving for the same. i want to scream, i want to run away, i want to have the financial freedom to live in my cottage in the woods and sell my handicrafts made out of what nature gave me. but it is such a hard way to that goal. all we can do is stay strong and never give up, because we WILL succeed 🖤 if you ever drive thru switzerlandyou can let me know 💋 bisous

  • @airdriegirl1
    @airdriegirl1 2 роки тому +11

    I've watched your videos for a while only recently subscribed because I noticed I wasn't already what I want to say is you are an amazing woman you have an amazing soul and your words in every video speaks so loud to me it gives me goosebumps from head to toe and I really feel connected to you and your soul because of your words (not in a creepy way lol) your videos are so peaceful and relaxing, always be yourself and I do honestly look up to you because the words you speak are how I feel but I can never put some things in words but you are an amazing human being and the world is lucky to have you be a part of it and teach others things that you don't realise your teaching us ❤️ and to your question who are you when no-one is watching I honestly have to say I'm free and what lights me up is music ❤️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +3

      You are very brave, and wise woman Sarah, I can feel it from where I stand.
      Your words have brought so much peace into my heart, THANK YOU, with all my heart.
      Music is food for the soul ♡

    • @airdriegirl1
      @airdriegirl1 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille thank you, you have taught me many of things throughout all your beautiful videos and helped me love myself and my life a little better and to be me
      Whenever I feel the world is getting to much I sometimes come on and listen to your words (your voice is so calming also) and it helps me within that moment to take a step back so for that I thank you from my souls heart, I hope your keeping well ❤️

  • @helanalurie9962
    @helanalurie9962 2 роки тому

    You make our hearts light up in fire and bring smiles to our faces. You have a lot of depth and soul and you already make a difference in thus world. Thank you!!! 🕊️🐩🐺🐾❤️🌱

  • @ioanamalinici4545
    @ioanamalinici4545 Рік тому

    Hi Vani, I feel that are many people like you in this world, I think we all are like this at our core and we want these things that you described, It's just that some of us are more aware than others that a big important change is much needed in this world. Our souls are craving for this but maybe we are too afraid of the unknown. Keep up the good work and more and more people will finally SEE and have the courage to follow the soul's path... 🤗

  • @the_buddhist_witch
    @the_buddhist_witch 2 роки тому

    We've traveled very similar paths. I love that you are sharing your journey. The beautiful parts and the painful parts...life's light and dark moments. Thank you for being true and authentic. Your magic is palpable and watching your reclaim it is mesmerizing. 🖤🖤🖤

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Through light, and through darkness. We will rise higher Serefina ♡
      Thank YOU for having such a warm heart in this complex world. Your words mean a lot!

  • @nixeradicatus
    @nixeradicatus 2 роки тому +3

    I'm in the same place. Beautiful video though.

  • @sharonmariejohnson2578
    @sharonmariejohnson2578 2 роки тому +3

    Great things take time anything worth fighting for is never easy, I and others like you struggle in our own way but as long as we keep hope alive and focus on our goals, work hard and have belief in our dreams we WILL get there, all things are possible to those that believe, keep shining ⭐️ your light and NEVER give up, you have given us a great message here!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      Oh Sharon, I can't put into words how much Hope and determination I get from your message ♡
      WE WILL GET THERE, fellow wolf.

  • @tomatodave6178
    @tomatodave6178 2 роки тому +3

    Absolute beautiful, I love the insights and depth of emotional intelligence, continue to be you and enjoy your journey. I very much look forward to more of your amazing UA-cam videos.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      You have no idea how much strength and hope your message is giving me, Dave. (should I call you Dave?) ♡

  • @diaryofacarny
    @diaryofacarny 2 роки тому +1

    You're on the right path. The climb up is lonely. It's a hard path.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Thank you, my friend. It's a hard path, but it's the One. ♡

    • @diaryofacarny
      @diaryofacarny 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille, Yes. love from canada xoxoxox

  • @reikitarothealing
    @reikitarothealing 2 роки тому

    Always be true to yourself in the harshest times. Embrace the beauty of screaming and the magnificence of who you are. Who you are is not defined by anything nor does it needs to be identified. You are one and the same with the breath of life, with the trees and its roots, its crown and sap. You do not need to conquer anything, nor do you need to be conquered. You are the rawest, most authentic person that there is! And the ego never dies, we need it as long as we master it and use it as a tool, and the soul never sleeps! Hugs, Vanille.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      I am speechless in front of your beauty, Cristina. I so much needed to read this today. With all my heart, thank you ♡

  • @jamaljamal5433
    @jamaljamal5433 2 роки тому +1

    Thank you Vanille.

  • @Nalu3-0
    @Nalu3-0 2 роки тому +2

    Had to watch this twice, was so beautiful. True Artists like you must be supported, community supported life, that is my vision beautiful natural space that people can live on and take care of their space together yet individually, while transitioning from the idea of our current ‚have/have not materialistic ego driven economy, to Community supported -where all chip in what they can. Creating a higher frequency in life. 🌸💨🌊🌍✨🌸

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      Your words and insights resonate so much with my being. You are full of light, and I feel lucky to be crossing your path in this lifetime ♡

  • @liberatedlioness6478
    @liberatedlioness6478 2 роки тому

    I have been watching your videos about a month ago and each on has kept me glued to the screen because I rarely come across such beautiful honesty. It's so inspiring. Like some of the other comments, I too am almost twice your age and feel very stuck most of the time. I question, what's stopping me from manifesting my dream of moving to the country, renovating an old house my mom built, growing my own food and retreating to peaceful life, immersed in nature. I have been putting it out there for as long as I remember, but I feel trapped in this rat race of working for a very minimal income, paying rent, bills, buying food and struggling for so long. You've inspired me to really consider what's holding me back. How can I take the first step....I encourage you to continue living boldly in your truth and know that others are appreciating the perspective you bring because it's in alignment. Thank you. I look forward to seeing all your videos.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Oh dear. You are making a giant step in introspecting this. Daring to recognize and understand what programmings rule your mind, is a very brave move. Bravo, lionne. ♥️

  • @whenyoucomeafterakingdontm8009
    @whenyoucomeafterakingdontm8009 2 роки тому +1

    We have to let the ego fair and pride die in order to be free I love your honesty

  • @thomasthomas001
    @thomasthomas001 2 роки тому

    The Soul always at play, ego will never serve!.. Your videos are beautiful, real & creative ! 👍

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      So true dear Thomas! Thank you so much for your kind support ♡

  • @catherineleslie-faye4302
    @catherineleslie-faye4302 2 роки тому +1

    At 61 I am older and slower than I was 35 years ago... yet I am still following my dreams into and out of the forests and among men and elves in the dance that is life. Every day I step closer to living in accordance to the Earths shifting cycles... and when I have gotten as close as I can to that cycle in mortal form, then will I step beyond this form and dwell as spirits dwell in the wild. I am sending you and all who read this much love and self-patience. You are more then enough.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      Catherine, what a brave and wise woman ♡

    • @catherineleslie-faye4302
      @catherineleslie-faye4302 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille Thank you for the compliment... I am stubborn and like to walk in the woods. I figure the more I walk in the woods the less I go shopping for things I don't need or really want.

  • @alisaalisa2060
    @alisaalisa2060 2 роки тому +2

    Please start a podcast, it would be so successful! People can listen to you while they are falling asleep or while working, jogging, cooking, your voice is so beautiful and soothing and your message so deep and wise! Love you girl!❤️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +2

      Ohhh!! Thank you so much for your kind words and advice Alisa! I will think about the podcast but I think the visual side of things is too important for me to skip it. Sending much love to you, beautiful woman ♡

    • @alisaalisa2060
      @alisaalisa2060 2 роки тому +1

      @@VerdantVanille You don't have to choose between them, make both of them, your beautiful UA-cam videos and also a podcast, you can ask people what subjects they want you to talk about in your podcast.♥️

  • @loxi2267
    @loxi2267 2 роки тому

    I understand you, really resonate with you. Sending you love 💕

  • @stefk.1006
    @stefk.1006 2 роки тому

    Thank you so much for your honest , I feel the same exact way as you, some people cannot pretend, it goes against themselves.
    I’m about your age and I feel trapped and lost by life as well. As if nothing works out. I’m giving a lot of thought to how life works .. if there’s some kind of path.. cause when everything you try doesn’t work out life seems against you. I have the same dreams and I’m very far from accomplishing them. I love that you make these honest videos about the reality of living in such a way.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +1

      If there's one thing I can tell you Stef: your path is unique and should never resemble to other's. Discover yourself, re-discover yourself, do what feels good to your heart. No matter what other might think. We get what we give. So let's try, even if somedays it's too hard, let's try to see the light and shift to a mindset of Learning. Not undergoing life, learning from mistakes and lows. Much love to you my dear ♡

    • @stefk.1006
      @stefk.1006 2 роки тому

      @@VerdantVanille thank you , I really appreciate your reply and I agree on what you said. I will try to take it more that way.
      Love to you as well dear

  • @ukameetslife
    @ukameetslife 2 роки тому +23

    Keep believing in yourself. Absolutely no need to feel guilty. Navigating this world where what you want is different from what society dictates takes bravery and you are doing it. You will get on the other side too ❤️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому +3

      Thank you so much for this meaningful message dear one ♡

  • @danielmaitre1549
    @danielmaitre1549 2 роки тому

    je suis profondement touché de vous regarder de vous ecouter exprimer avec tant de sincerité, de sensibilité vos souffrances...

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  2 роки тому

      Alors là, c'est moi qui suis touchée. Je vous envoie beaucoup de lumière Daniel ♡