Last year I was suicidal... I had no friends and barely anyone liked me except for my family. But one day I told myself I had so much to live for. And here I am. Just the thought of it brings me into tears. This video is truly beautiful. You’re saving lives mate!
Lost my son Nick a year and a half ago. Today. He was 22. I think about it every minute of everyday. Like waves in the ocean. Some are seen, some are not. His siblings feel it too. We miss you Nick. We wish you were still here to live. We carry your pain with us everyday. Rest in peace beautiful boy.
Yesterday I watched a similar video, did an analysis... and realized how upset my friends and family would be if I was gone. To everyone: Imagine your friends at your school feeling a deep pain knowing you won't be there to fill the air with chatter about who knows what Imagine your sibling feeling sad knowing they lost a role model. Knowing you aren't there to love them. Imagine your mom and dad feeling crushed knowing you won't be there to love them. And imagine them thinking of your favorite stuff knowing you can't enjoy it. Imagine your relatives feeling a deep pain knowing they can't show you their love at family gatherings. Imagine your pet wondering when you'll cone back home. I was suicidal for a while. I am getting better. I still get the thoughts a little bit but they are less severe.
Since the age of 9, I have been suicidal and I still am. the pain is real and I" sometimes feel that I'd be better of dead". I've tried so many times in my life that I cut to avoid killing myself, and I know it all to well. being bullied almost made me kill myself, I still have pain from my past, that demon is still there.
Hey, remember you are amazing, there is only one of you and that makes you wonderfully unique and perfect, trust me I know life can get really really bad but there is so much to live for, just try your hardest to fight that demon
Hi, obviously i don't know your situation but honestly they probably would even if it might not seem like it and if they really would not then I'm sure that someone out there would, just keep going and fight through those hard times in life, you are amazing and unique, stay strong
I had a close friend pass away on her own terms. How do you let the person go that you promised you’d be there for and you got so busy you forgot to ask how the person was doing and you knew what that person was going through? That’s where I am.
Makes zero difference for me Brother almost killed me 6 times mother died of heart attack dad doesn’t care no friends everyone hates me people run from me in school now tell me after 10 years of this why should I continue
You should continue living! From what you have described the people around you sound horrible but that does not mean you should give it all up, even if you don't want to right now live for YOU ignore everyone else, you don't need to live for them or die cause they don't seem to care, live for the sky and the flowers, live for rivers and mountains, even live for that little rat that everyone seems to hate. It will get better eventually
Since Jennifer Walker died, since she committed suicide, I realize now, I have just been existing, "sort of" , I have been full of guilt, consumed with shame, fear,regret, and sorrow . And even among people who love me, I have been lonely, missing her, like no one knows,, no one can feel what I feel, no one really knows how much i miss her. I have been acting like she left me behind purpose,like she abandoned me for no reason. I have dishonored her memory acting like this. In reality, she did the only thing she thought could save me, keep me safe, she truly believed the demons tormenting her were out to get me too. I have been acting like she gave up, when in reality she was sacrificing the ultimate. to protect me, to make sure I was ok and that my life was full of joy. She gave her life to stop satan from destroying us both. The evil that runs rampant in our universe is real, and Jennifer knew that better than any of us. She knew it for fact. Most people say mental illness is a weakness, laziness, a generational curse, made up, not real, fantasy even. But Jennifer knew, and God knows, and he provided a path to peace for her, I know this because I know how much she loved God. I prayed with her, read the Bible with her, went to church with her and talked often with her about her relationship with Jesus and his love for her and her love for him. I KNOW SHE WAS LOVED BY JESUS! and I KNOW SHE IS IN HEAVEN! Today I will start living my life for both of us! No more lies from the devil, I see how stupid I was to let him convince me that she gave up out of spite, or that I did something to push her over the edge, now I know, , now I know why Jesus really came to earth and sacrificed himself, because the devil and his minions rule this life, and as long as humans have breath, sin and evil will remain, but in that moment, when the breath of life leaves our bodies, we have a chance to return to God who created us, simply by believing in him who is greater than us. when Jennifer took her life, she did so knowing that HER CREATOR already forgave her, he had already made a place for her at his table, JESUS said so, I believe God will always forgive someone who chooses to sacrifice self before letting satan use them to seduce another soul to darkness and unbelief. But satan is still working, he has used suicide to turn the ones left behind, the ones saved by such a sacrifice, in to nonbelievers, and not just nonbelievers, but people who actively proclaim that the souls of their loved ones, lost to suicide , are dammed to eternal hell. that somehow this is an unforgivable sin. READ the new testament, Study Jesus's words, pray for clarity, pray for God's guidance and most importantly, pray for God's wisdom in deserning God's own voice from that of satan. the only being who knows God's word as well as God does is satan, and his greatest trick, the very same lie that he used to convince Adam and Eve to fall from Grace , is the same one he uses today. He convinced us then that God was keeping something from us, that we were less than God, that God was keeping the truth from us for some reason. He still uses this lie today, and he is successful more times than not, even to the extent he can turn one believer against another, with a mear twist of word, he completely undoes all that Jesus did on the cross. if he can convince us that suicide is unforgivable, he can use one life, who in reality is already in heaven, to undermine the faith of so many others. And as survivors we should be thankful that Jesus paid the price, that NO ACTS, NO Measure of goodness, NOTHING aside from believing in him will gain a souls entrance into heaven. Suicide is not the unforgivable sin, letting the devil convince us that their is an unforgivable sin , that Jesus would sacrifice himself and still judge us in any way. that is what will make the gate to hell wide, " For all those who believe anything other than PURE BELIEF in JESUS CHRIST and his love will pave the way. You can't earn it, can't buy it, can't steal it, can't earn it, can't do good enough for it, can't do bad enough to forsake it, can't will it to be true, can't explain it, can't unexplained it, can't do anything, or NOT do anything. The only way to heaven is by believing in God, and Jennifer did believe. If you have anything else to say about this, take it up with God, After reading this I know if you believe enough to ask him, then her death, her life, her sacrifice, and our survival, our loss, our grief has concered the devil's lies, and when we get to heaven, you will see, all you had to do was believe in Christ, no judgment, no condemnation, no "unforgivable " sin. DON'T LET THE DEVIL DECEIVE YOU ! tell everyone you know, just BELIEVE in HIM who created you. believe in love.
I THINK ABOUT IT EVERYDAY NOW MORE THEN EVER I HATE THAT I HAVE TO FAKE A SMILE AND STUFF MORE SHIT DOWN EVERYDAY WHEN INSIDE IM SCREAMING I JUST WANT THE PAIN IM FEELING TO STOP I WANT TO SLEEP FOREVER
They will notice and they will be sad forever but now i feel like i don't even care i had lived my whole 21 y old faking my smile to make everyone happy But what about me?
It will get better i promise!!!!!!! You have got to keep fighting, it doesn't matter who you don't have because however lonely and full of such unbearable mental pain you get you have yourself and the world around you, those two things are such beautiful amazing things to live for, please please please keep going!
This is going to be me soon enough probably tonight nobody cares about me anymore so I'm done living a life where nobody wants me here or cares about me
I want it to be enough too I'm so hurt . Always scold me but said like they care about me but in reality they don't care me nor pay attention to me , but I don't need it
Jesus loves you, He paid the highest cost for you on the cross, because your life and soul are worth it to Him. If you feel like you're on the outside looking in, come as you are and He'll accept you as you are in your hurting and broken state. He wants to cleanse you with His blood and fill you with His Holy Spirit, why because you are His greatest creation. If even those who you trusted the most rejected you, you will never be rejected by God, please don't take your own life or even harm yourself, but run to Jesus because He's waiting for you with open arms.❤😊
My luck that my parents never cared about me… Also my brothers! The difference will be, I‘ll do it in shool, Am a girl, have no boyfriend or girlfriend, or even normal friends… So I don’t see anything, because of what I should stay… It’s only …. Pain …. Very much pain
How selfish is it for you to want to keep someone else living in misery just so you don't have to deal with it. That's what's wrong with this world is everyone is so fucking selfish. I command anyone who's brave enough to end their misery. I wish I was brave enough.
A smile can hide so many emotions
Last year I was suicidal... I had no friends and barely anyone liked me except for my family. But one day I told myself I had so much to live for. And here I am. Just the thought of it brings me into tears. This video is truly beautiful. You’re saving lives mate!
are you doing good???
If I'll be remembered more in death than I'll ever be in life... maybe it wouldn't be so bad...
Sorry I’m late, how are you doing?
Exactly
Nobody understands until you are gone
Lost my son Nick a year and a half ago. Today. He was 22. I think about it every minute of everyday. Like waves in the ocean. Some are seen, some are not. His siblings feel it too. We miss you Nick. We wish you were still here to live. We carry your pain with us everyday. Rest in peace beautiful boy.
Yesterday I watched a similar video, did an analysis... and realized how upset my friends and family would be if I was gone.
To everyone:
Imagine your friends at your school feeling a deep pain knowing you won't be there to fill the air with chatter about who knows what
Imagine your sibling feeling sad knowing they lost a role model. Knowing you aren't there to love them.
Imagine your mom and dad feeling crushed knowing you won't be there to love them. And imagine them thinking of your favorite stuff knowing you can't enjoy it.
Imagine your relatives feeling a deep pain knowing they can't show you their love at family gatherings.
Imagine your pet wondering when you'll cone back home.
I was suicidal for a while. I am getting better. I still get the thoughts a little bit but they are less severe.
Since the age of 9, I have been suicidal and I still am. the pain is real and I" sometimes feel that I'd be better of dead". I've tried so many times in my life that I cut to avoid killing myself, and I know it all to well. being bullied almost made me kill myself, I still have pain from my past, that demon is still there.
Hey, remember you are amazing, there is only one of you and that makes you wonderfully unique and perfect, trust me I know life can get really really bad but there is so much to live for, just try your hardest to fight that demon
Hope u aight rn
@@claim2game3075 im doing ok. Thanks for asking
@@Ventuskeymaster ok that's good
Damn. This actually dose mean alot I thank you for the care and support til the fullest
Half of me wishes they would actually miss me...
Hi, obviously i don't know your situation but honestly they probably would even if it might not seem like it and if they really would not then I'm sure that someone out there would, just keep going and fight through those hard times in life, you are amazing and unique, stay strong
Sometimes people just want the pain to go away. So basically this is a guilt trip. Now we have to suffer through the pain. Not fair
I had a close friend pass away on her own terms.
How do you let the person go that you promised you’d be there for and you got so busy you forgot to ask how the person was doing and you knew what that person was going through?
That’s where I am.
😭this helped me thank you so much 💗
Hey, if your still going,which i hope you are, keep going even when life is shit it does get better and you will find people who care
I have no one my parents didn't want me my family hates me everyone would be better off with out me
Thank you
Most of the things mentioned either don't pertain to me or are false. I'm leaving good bye.
Why this channel is so underrated till today. It deserves better 🌸
Makes zero difference for me
Brother almost killed me 6 times mother died of heart attack dad doesn’t care no friends everyone hates me people run from me in school now tell me after 10 years of this why should I continue
You should continue living! From what you have described the people around you sound horrible but that does not mean you should give it all up, even if you don't want to right now live for YOU ignore everyone else, you don't need to live for them or die cause they don't seem to care, live for the sky and the flowers, live for rivers and mountains, even live for that little rat that everyone seems to hate. It will get better eventually
Since Jennifer Walker died, since she committed suicide, I realize now, I have just been existing, "sort of" , I have been full of guilt, consumed with shame, fear,regret, and sorrow . And even among people who love me, I have been lonely, missing her, like no one knows,, no one can feel what I feel, no one really knows how much i miss her. I have been acting like she left me behind purpose,like she abandoned me for no reason. I have dishonored her memory acting like this. In reality, she did the only thing she thought could save me, keep me safe, she truly believed the demons tormenting her were out to get me too. I have been acting like she gave up, when in reality she was sacrificing the ultimate. to protect me, to make sure I was ok and that my life was full of joy. She gave her life to stop satan from destroying us both. The evil that runs rampant in our universe is real, and Jennifer knew that better than any of us. She knew it for fact. Most people say mental illness is a weakness, laziness, a generational curse, made up, not real, fantasy even.
But Jennifer knew, and God knows, and he provided a path to peace for her, I know this because I know how much she loved God. I prayed with her, read the Bible with her, went to church with her and talked often with her about her relationship with Jesus and his love for her and her love for him. I KNOW SHE WAS LOVED BY JESUS! and I KNOW SHE IS IN HEAVEN! Today I will start living my life for both of us! No more lies from the devil, I see how stupid I was to let him convince me that she gave up out of spite, or that I did something to push her over the edge, now I know, , now I know why Jesus really came to earth and sacrificed himself, because the devil and his minions rule this life, and as long as humans have breath, sin and evil will remain, but in that moment, when the breath of life leaves our bodies, we have a chance to return to God who created us, simply by believing in him who is greater than us. when Jennifer took her life, she did so knowing that HER CREATOR already forgave her, he had already made a place for her at his table, JESUS said so, I believe God will always forgive someone who chooses to sacrifice self before letting satan use them to seduce another soul to darkness and unbelief. But satan is still working, he has used suicide to turn the ones left behind, the ones saved by such a sacrifice, in to nonbelievers, and not just nonbelievers, but people who actively proclaim that the souls of their loved ones, lost to suicide , are dammed to eternal hell. that somehow this is an unforgivable sin. READ the new testament, Study Jesus's words, pray for clarity, pray for God's guidance and most importantly, pray for God's wisdom in deserning God's own voice from that of satan. the only being who knows God's word as well as God does is satan, and his greatest trick, the very same lie that he used to convince Adam and Eve to fall from Grace , is the same one he uses today. He convinced us then that God was keeping something from us, that we were less than God, that God was keeping the truth from us for some reason. He still uses this lie today, and he is successful more times than not, even to the extent he can turn one believer against another, with a mear twist of word, he completely undoes all that Jesus did on the cross. if he can convince us that suicide is unforgivable, he can use one life, who in reality is already in heaven, to undermine the faith of so many others. And as survivors we should be thankful that Jesus paid the price, that NO ACTS, NO Measure of goodness, NOTHING aside from believing in him will gain a souls entrance into heaven. Suicide is not the unforgivable sin, letting the devil convince us that their is an unforgivable sin , that Jesus would sacrifice himself and still judge us in any way. that is what will make the gate to hell wide, " For all those who believe anything other than PURE BELIEF in JESUS CHRIST and his love will pave the way. You can't earn it, can't buy it, can't steal it, can't earn it, can't do good enough for it, can't do bad enough to forsake it, can't will it to be true, can't explain it, can't unexplained it, can't do anything, or NOT do anything. The only way to heaven is by believing in God, and Jennifer did believe. If you have anything else to say about this, take it up with God, After reading this I know if you believe enough to ask him, then her death, her life, her sacrifice, and our survival, our loss, our grief has concered the devil's lies, and when we get to heaven, you will see, all you had to do was believe in Christ, no judgment, no condemnation, no "unforgivable " sin. DON'T LET THE DEVIL DECEIVE YOU ! tell everyone you know, just BELIEVE in HIM who created you. believe in love.
I did this before but the rope wasn't tight enough to hold me up long enough
My neck was purple n swollen I was 17
its only the truth
I THINK ABOUT IT EVERYDAY NOW MORE THEN EVER I HATE THAT I HAVE TO FAKE A SMILE AND STUFF MORE SHIT DOWN EVERYDAY WHEN INSIDE IM SCREAMING
I JUST WANT THE PAIN IM FEELING TO STOP
I WANT TO SLEEP FOREVER
Bingo
They will notice and they will be sad forever but now i feel like i don't even care i had lived my whole 21 y old faking my smile to make everyone happy But what about me?
@@zkvd66 no and I'll never blame someone els for thing that he didn't do
Ok i dont have a mum or a dad so this makes me want to do it more
It will get better i promise!!!!!!! You have got to keep fighting, it doesn't matter who you don't have because however lonely and full of such unbearable mental pain you get you have yourself and the world around you, those two things are such beautiful amazing things to live for, please please please keep going!
This is going to be me soon enough probably tonight nobody cares about me anymore so I'm done living a life where nobody wants me here or cares about me
I want it to be enough too I'm so hurt . Always scold me but said like they care about me but in reality they don't care me nor pay attention to me , but I don't need it
Are u still here?
Jesus loves you, He paid the highest cost for you on the cross, because your life and soul are worth it to Him. If you feel like you're on the outside looking in, come as you are and He'll accept you as you are in your hurting and broken state. He wants to cleanse you with His blood and fill you with His Holy Spirit, why because you are His greatest creation. If even those who you trusted the most rejected you, you will never be rejected by God, please don't take your own life or even harm yourself, but run to Jesus because He's waiting for you with open arms.❤😊
Im thinking of doing it tofay or soon im so tyered
Are you here friend, are you okay, I hope you are.
Are you still alive? I really hope you are and if you are, please don’t give up
Am i bad for thinking yeah serves them right?
What if these people are abusive
My luck that my parents never cared about me… Also my brothers! The difference will be, I‘ll do it in shool, Am a girl, have no boyfriend or girlfriend, or even normal friends… So I don’t see anything, because of what I should stay… It’s only …. Pain …. Very much pain
Don't do it
I think UA-cam knows im gonna kms cause they keep recommending these to me
They better off without me
Not true at all. 🫂
The issue is this economy
I am a suicide survivor my first suicide attempt was on 10-8-21 my second suicide attempt was on 4-8-22
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How selfish is it for you to want to keep someone else living in misery just so you don't have to deal with it. That's what's wrong with this world is everyone is so fucking selfish. I command anyone who's brave enough to end their misery. I wish I was brave enough.
just goes too show
is it really worth distroying the lives of everyone else around u just to escape ur own
That is such an immature way to look at the issue
u don't understand depression nor suicidal thoughts. mayb educate yourself prior to assuming or making comments.
That's 100% what i want but i will do it with sleeping pills:)
I care about you
WHY EVERYONE FUCKING TIME I TRY
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