I did NOT expect this video to get so popular when I made it o_o; so, to clear some things up: This is by no means a comprehensive portrayal of DID/OSDD! I just wanted to make a hashtag relatable video for my fellow systems out there, and to give some hope to the people who were just discovering themselves and were terrified of their life being constant agony and suffering because of it. This focuses on the not-so-heavy parts of being a system; talking to headmates, making jokes, small annoyances like forgetting what you were doing as you were doing it, etc. This is NOT and never was supposed to fully encapsulate the experience. It's just a silly joke :)
OH MY GOD THE FAKING PART IS SOOO REAL! People keep telling me i’m not and the facts and stuff.. sometimes i just sit in a corner and cry from the overwhelming stress 😭 that’s until the Caregiver comes and cheers me up skkska
I .. really resonate with this, expecially the part about faking it. I keep telling myself im doing this for attention when people externally and Internally tell me im not. Its just easier to lie to yourself then face something scary. This video does help me not worry as much if i have it, so, thank you ^-^
as someone with osdd (1A), its like a never ending sitcom with yourself. think of sand undertale and his own self in different AUs, as a daily-life comedy show. INSANITY!
One interesting thing about my system is that it's autistic, but we all have different levels of sensory sensitivity and empathy and verbal stuff. Meltdowns looks different from alter to alter. Liam breaks down grabbing his hair and hyperventilating and cannot be touched. Noland curls into himself and is silent for a while so he can calm down. Blitz reacts outwardly, running away or attacking the sensory sensitivity or just getting angry. Patton cries. And for empathy Teal has hypoempathy while ollie or gus might have extra empathy. Chester is nonverbal, though old enough to speak and human. Timothy isn't human so he's also nonverbal. Teal doesn't have selective mutism. -Ollie
ThePsychicSystem approves of this video, lmao. Hey fellow system! Hope youre spending a wonderful day today. Hope youre safe and happy where you are rn.
The Manic System sends it's greetings- And now I hear fighting. Help TT But in all seriousness (currently ignoring bickering rn deae stars) thank you for sharing this. I resonate with this extremely. Though some "conversations" are DEFINITELY not that chill 😅
Its been 9 months sence i have found this video, and we have probably watched it a hundred times. Its the first video in a playlist that helped me get through a painful move and cope with potential DID/OSDD. Im yet to be diagnosed, so i can still copium hope im faking all this and just have sycosis or something, but after 2 years of dealing with the ups and downs, discovering alters, learning more about systems and putting to terms my experiences, its not as scary now. I dont know if/when i'll fully accept it, or where we are going next, but thank you. You have no idea how much this video has helped me through. thank you -Con
The Court of Consciousness enjoyed this video, we can't change hosts, but our friends are fronting more and more frequently lately (we try and do it in private, but am to do it more around close friends), we are afraid of what could happen if the host changes though and hope that doesn't happen to us.
Aldodkkde the part where i think i'm faking it is very true..though we are a questioning system and havent been diagnosed but have been told by many people (mainly friends who have DID) that i'm not faking it and if i was i would know and the dissociation and everything i experience woudln't hurt me and it wouldnt feel real to me
very true! this is because people who fake disorders know without a shadow of a doubt they’re faking. they know they don’t have the disorder, and they don’t actually experience any of the symptoms, and they don’t feel bad about faking it. faking is a continuous, conscious decision. if you’re not sure if you have a system, congrats! you’re not faking :) fakers KNOW they don’t, there’s never any sort of doubt there. anyways, good luck with your system discovery
@@phosdotnet Thank you so so much!! (For not only replying but for the reassurance) and yeah!! We've been doing alright!! One of our friends (who is a system) introduced us to Simply Plural and we have been using it!! Things have been good but still trying to wrap my brain over things and trying to get diagnosed!!
0:32 was Frankie earlier while I was dealing with the aftermath of an online argument and my mom was simultaneously lecturing me about said argument. It caught me off guard because they’re usually co-con 24/7.
THE SELF DOUBT PART IS SO TRUE like- i have some suspected psychosis so i have a feeling that my sys isnt there, but then some random alter comes online and then just wanders off because my greedy ass likes to be on front all teh time >:-))) - 🥕
Could you possibly make more little animations of stuff like this if you ever get the time or if it ever interests you again I would love to see more videos like this it's honestly calming to watch.
@@phosdotnet I love these really not only doesn't give me a great source of comfort but. Right now I'm kind of going through my own little roller coaster in journey so seeing someone going through certain difficulties that I'm going through is makes me not feel as alone.
I have a question!! So, sometimes when I dissociate, I have a more child like state of mind, and sometimes I either get very negative or mad. Could this be a symptom for OSDD/DID..?/genq (no I’m not gonna go off and say “I HAVE THIS DISORDER LOL!!” All over the Internet, I know that it also comes along with professional diagnosis.)
i honestly can’t tell you for sure since i know so little about you and your situation ^^; i’m actually working on a video covering this, but i’m afraid it won’t be up for some time :p in the meantime, here’s some sources where you can do your own research at and come to a conclusion yourself: ISSTD: www.isst-d.org/ DID-Research: did-research.org/ Trauma Dissociation: traumadissociation.com/#gsc.tab=0 More Than One: morethanone.info/# Healthy Multiplicity: healthymultiplicity.com/ Dissociative Initiative: di.org.au/ The CTAD Clinic: youtube.com/@thectadclinic?si=f-a3Tw0RLU2Sl8ma Dragonheart Collective’s “Am I Plural?” Essay: dragonsroost.neocities.org/essay/AmIPlural i’d suggest looking into age regression first though before jumping to did/osdd, honestly. while child alters are absolutely a thing, there are also other ways of feeling more childlike at times without having alters! i’d like to add that there’s nothing wrong with *well researched* self diagnosis, especially since did/osdd is so stigmatized and being able to see a psychiatrist is… extremely expensive- not to mention that most people with DID spend seven years in therapy before ever getting a diagnosis. some people just don’t have access to that kind of care, but i fully believe they still deserve access to a community and resources to help them heal. a diagnosis doesn’t magically make a disorder appear, and a lack of a diagnosis doesn’t necessarily indicate that the disorder isn’t there :)
it can definitely be scary sometimes. a lot of the time, even. but i’ve made peace with a lot of my alters and over the years we’ve built a lot of trust with each other. in all honesty, my alters are the only reason i’m still alive. knowing how much they’ve done for me and how much they care makes it hard to be scared of them. it took a long time to get here, but that’s why i wanted to make the video. i wanted people to know that getting to a more comfortable place is possible. :)
I love the Omari music bc literally five seconds after booting up the game I was like “oh no, this kid is a system” I haven’t gotten very far yet so don’t tell me if I’m right
"im a system i can just leave" The other alters : *NO.* Thank you for this video ... Being a system really isnt all that bad most of the time if im being honest it has its moments and im tired of the constant betrayal of it as doom despair 24/7 .. yes it sucks sometimes. But it also is alright others .. this is so refreshing ::
Most of the time is kinda chill when nothing triggering is close to us I wanted to add an experience to see if anyone can relate When they ask you how old are you or when is your birthday and you start to dissociate 😅
Any personal question, any and all possible answers leave our head. An alter can't just answer for themself, even then some don't know or have age sliders and crap. And there is usually no one size fits all. What's my favorite music artist? Well I say cavetown and no one else knows but sometimes it's distinctly not cavetown. Idk anymore man -teal
luck and a lot of practice! our system tends to be pretty chatty in the first place, so actually *getting* other alters to talk isn’t a problem for us. after that, we spent a lot of time carefully listening and actively working towards better communication (via writing each other notes, exploring/making the inner world, journaling, just making time to focus on talking to each other, etc). we didn’t wake up with everything fully ready to go, we had to actively work towards hearing each other and talking to each other and it took a few months of active effort to be able to do it consistently and easily. it’s just about communicating and practice :) hope this helps!
is there a way I can get an idea whether or not I'm a system before I ask for a diagnosis and it turns out the diagnosis is incorrect? I'm a minor (if you need that info, and if you need more info tell me)
i’m sorry, i’m not entirely sure what you’re asking. are you saying you have a previous diagnosis you think is wrong? or are you asking how to figure out if you may have DID/OSDD before getting properly diagnosed so that you can avoid a misdiagnosis?
i’d recommend doing as much research on it as you can. i’ll link a few sites below to get you started. you can also take the DES-II, which is a diagnostic tool many professionals use in order to help with the diagnostic process. to my (admittedly limited and american-centric) knowledge, therapists can’t actually diagnose you- they have to get a psychiatrist to do it for them. the diagnostic process is extremely thorough for disorders due to DID/OSDD, and usually takes months. DES-II: traumadissociation.com/des other resources: traumadissociation.com/dissociativeidentitydisorder.html did-research.org/ morethanone.info/ plurality-hub.carrd.co/ you’ll also probably want to look at the actual diagnostic criteria in the DSM-V, but that alone doesn’t tell you much about what exactly DID/OSDD looks like. i hope this helps :) good luck!
i think im a system?? (osdd-1b specifically) like theres this person living in my head that is really loud sometimes that formed a long time ago, idk what this means 😭😭 i also tend to dissociate at random and feel like nothing is real
This is an extremely glamorized and misconstrued version of living with a dissociative disorder… it’s daily heartache, flashbacks, triggers and emotional instability for A LOT of us. We exist because of severe trauma. It’s not “chill I guess”
i made this to highlight the highs i’ve had *because* so many other people have spoken about how hard it is to live with it. it’s immensely frustrating to me that many people insist that you can’t possibly have a dissociative disorder and be happy, and go so far as to call other people out for “faking” whenever they say something positive about their headmates or comment about something funny that happened to them. not only is it frustrating though, it gives other people with this disorder the impression that their life will only ever be suffering because of it. i was one of those people. i thought that my life was over because of something that i couldn’t control, over something that i was constantly told was a horrible thing to live with. if i had seen this video when i was first discovering my system, it would have been a weight off of my shoulders. it’s a minute long video of some highs. there are absolutely lows, there are so so many lows, but it was important to me to show that there *are* highs, and there are ways to get to the point where it is a lot more chill. just because i don’t show the downs does not mean i don’t have them. sorry for the long response, i just wanted to make it clear that i was in no way trying to say that this was a 100% perfect encapsulation of this incredibly complex disorder. ^^;
@@phosdotnet we totally agree with all that! It’s just that labeling it as “what it’s really like” is extremely misleading for singlets who may not understand there *are* so many lows. But we all deserve to enjoy and appreciate the highs! Being a system is survival and that’s a lot to celebrate
with how many videos about DID and OSDD there are out there, i very highly doubt that singlets are going to stumble across this video with absolutely no former idea of what dissociative disorders are ^^; but you’re right, i’ll look into changing the title when i get the chance so it’s less misleading!
@@phosdotnet replying to your first comment. The past months of being so unsure and afraid of the possibility i have DID or OSDD has been torture. Going from trying to understand to looking for anything that could definitively prove i dont have it. with the waves of things making it scary i have been trying to deny everything, say im fakeing, ignore any voices (which hasn't gone great). I've been so afraid im going to be miserable and my life i wanted wasn't possible but this video really did help take that fear off my shoulders that if i have DID or OSDD that i'll be ok
HII I know I'm late but please help me I don't know if I have D.I.D but I know that I dissociata myself It would be disrespectful I try to figure out by myself if I have alters? For what I've done by now It's like I can feel them talking,liking their own things and being their own living thing/humans ecc... Until I can go to a psychologist for a certain diagnosis ""Can I"" still ""make"" my alters speak and get out even if I'm not sure what I have?? they make me feel really safe and sometimes everything seems clearer with them -Felix (Sorry for my bad english)
hi! i can’t tell you whether you have DID seeing as i’m not a professional, but i can point you in the direction of some sources that may help you figure out whether it’s a possibility or not. it’s not disrespectful to consider the possibility of having alters or DID- in fact, many people who have DID start going to therapy because their symptoms start showing. yes, there are people who go into psychiatric help with zero idea they’re a system, but there are also many who go into it with some idea that something is wrong and need help figuring out what’s wrong. beyond that, psychiatric help is extremely expensive, and for many people simply not accessible. there is absolutely nothing wrong with interacting with your alters and trying to heal without psychiatric help. and on the flip side, it’s also 100% okay if you realize that you don’t have alters in the end. there’s nothing wrong with trying to understand yourself and the way your brain works. my suggestion is to do a lot of research. listen to other people’s experiences and see if you relate to them. look up the diagnostic criteria for DID and OSDD. take tests like the DES-II (one of the tools used by professionals to help diagnose dissociative disorders). through all of this, listen to yourself. don’t force anything, just observe and see what’s going on. leave notes to yourself with an introduction and a greeting, and see if anyone else writes back. take it as slow as you need to- there’s no rush to know for sure. here are some starting sources, and i wish you luck! did-research.org/ traumadissociation.com/index.html#gsc.tab=0 morethanone.info/ plurality-hub.carrd.co/
i’m sorry your experiences with it weren’t chill. this isn’t all of my experience, either, it’s just the small part of it i could fit in a video under two minutes. it’s important to me that i show the good parts of it despite also struggling with it a lot, because a lot of people online only like to show the bad parts of being a system. it’s important to show others that there is hope, and they can learn to live with this disorder :)
@@phosdotnet i love that. I dont like being told that being a system is only suffering. There are advantages and its ok to see the bright side. I dont wanna feel bad for feeling bad lol i like my headmates 😁
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"Wait I am a system,I can just leave."
Frontstuck:No bitch,this is your final destination until the next train come to pick you up.
fr 😭
real
You only, No items, Final Destination
the “wait i’m a system i can just leave” is me in PE -ezra
sometimes that’s the vibe lmao
Same - Ash
Wish I could just leave during PE xD
I‘m not a system, but if I were and it had an Alter that liked sports, I‘d do whatever I could to make them take any and all PE classes I have.
Noo why is this truee-🕰️ (Tock)
As a system who's alters act like a kindergarten class and teenagers at the same time, this is relatable.
I did NOT expect this video to get so popular when I made it o_o; so, to clear some things up:
This is by no means a comprehensive portrayal of DID/OSDD! I just wanted to make a hashtag relatable video for my fellow systems out there, and to give some hope to the people who were just discovering themselves and were terrified of their life being constant agony and suffering because of it. This focuses on the not-so-heavy parts of being a system; talking to headmates, making jokes, small annoyances like forgetting what you were doing as you were doing it, etc. This is NOT and never was supposed to fully encapsulate the experience. It's just a silly joke :)
Bro I feel so bad for the guys who have to listen to my shower thoughts hdmvdksgsndj
This is so on point
same 😔 it’s fine though because i also have to deal with theirs so it evens out
Same
"oh wait, i can just leave!" *gets front stuck*
REAL
Or the other alters just like 'what makes you think I want to do this?'
@@LiEnby REALLL
OH MY GOD THE FAKING PART IS SOOO REAL! People keep telling me i’m not and the facts and stuff.. sometimes i just sit in a corner and cry from the overwhelming stress 😭 that’s until the Caregiver comes and cheers me up skkska
I .. really resonate with this, expecially the part about faking it. I keep telling myself im doing this for attention when people externally and Internally tell me im not. Its just easier to lie to yourself then face something scary. This video does help me not worry as much if i have it, so, thank you ^-^
I'm so so glad i was able to make it seem a bit less scary, that's all i ever wanted tbh
being a system is not remembering you've already watched the video but watching again because you have no memory of watching it
“what if im faking…” *_boss music from across the room starts playing_*
as someone with osdd (1A), its like a never ending sitcom with yourself. think of sand undertale and his own self in different AUs, as a daily-life comedy show. INSANITY!
reading this as a sans fictive and i fell off the couch
*flashes back to hearing an argument about peanut butter and jelly vs Peanut butter and nutella at 1 am*- Sam
Walking into a room like three times in a row and not knowing why any of the times
One interesting thing about my system is that it's autistic, but we all have different levels of sensory sensitivity and empathy and verbal stuff. Meltdowns looks different from alter to alter. Liam breaks down grabbing his hair and hyperventilating and cannot be touched. Noland curls into himself and is silent for a while so he can calm down. Blitz reacts outwardly, running away or attacking the sensory sensitivity or just getting angry. Patton cries. And for empathy Teal has hypoempathy while ollie or gus might have extra empathy. Chester is nonverbal, though old enough to speak and human. Timothy isn't human so he's also nonverbal. Teal doesn't have selective mutism.
-Ollie
ThePsychicSystem approves of this video, lmao. Hey fellow system! Hope youre spending a wonderful day today. Hope youre safe and happy where you are rn.
hello fellow system!! the phosphor network sends well wishes!
@@phosdotnet Thanks!! ❤️💚
I have p-DID so I’m almost always fronting , and I found this really funny
What is p-DID?
@rowan404 partial dissociative identity disorder! iirc it’s when all of the symptoms of DID are there, but little to no switching occurs :)
@@phosdotnet I didn’t know that was a thing. I thought that would fall into OSDD. OSDD-1 is basically DID with the absence of one criterium, so…
@@rowan404 p-DID is DID but the host is always in front , co front , or co conscious. so theres little to no amnesia
@@siicknes Again, I feel like that would be OSDD-1b. That’s what I experience and my therapist said that OSDD-1b is likely.
The Manic System sends it's greetings-
And now I hear fighting. Help TT
But in all seriousness (currently ignoring bickering rn deae stars) thank you for sharing this. I resonate with this extremely. Though some "conversations" are DEFINITELY not that chill 😅
Love my favorite little guys!!!!
this is so relatable it hurts a bit- -berry
Its been 9 months sence i have found this video, and we have probably watched it a hundred times. Its the first video in a playlist that helped me get through a painful move and cope with potential DID/OSDD.
Im yet to be diagnosed, so i can still copium hope im faking all this and just have sycosis or something, but after 2 years of dealing with the ups and downs, discovering alters, learning more about systems and putting to terms my experiences, its not as scary now.
I dont know if/when i'll fully accept it, or where we are going next, but thank you. You have no idea how much this video has helped me through. thank you
-Con
I’m so happy to see another system!! I hope y’all are doing well!! (P.S. this was very relatable lmao-) -Connor
hope you guys are doing well too!
The Court of Consciousness enjoyed this video, we can't change hosts, but our friends are fronting more and more frequently lately (we try and do it in private, but am to do it more around close friends), we are afraid of what could happen if the host changes though and hope that doesn't happen to us.
This video was really validating and has genuinely gotten me through some hard times. Thank you.
trying to find reasons why im not a system and then i find a VERY relatable video...i love this a lot
THE QUESTIONING IF UR FAKING IS SO REAL! -Raven
Aldodkkde the part where i think i'm faking it is very true..though we are a questioning system and havent been diagnosed but have been told by many people (mainly friends who have DID) that i'm not faking it and if i was i would know and the dissociation and everything i experience woudln't hurt me and it wouldnt feel real to me
very true! this is because people who fake disorders know without a shadow of a doubt they’re faking. they know they don’t have the disorder, and they don’t actually experience any of the symptoms, and they don’t feel bad about faking it. faking is a continuous, conscious decision. if you’re not sure if you have a system, congrats! you’re not faking :) fakers KNOW they don’t, there’s never any sort of doubt there. anyways, good luck with your system discovery
@@phosdotnet Thank you so so much!! (For not only replying but for the reassurance) and yeah!! We've been doing alright!! One of our friends (who is a system) introduced us to Simply Plural and we have been using it!! Things have been good but still trying to wrap my brain over things and trying to get diagnosed!!
The Cat's Eye Nebula has the _wildest_ sense of humour and *will* crack jokes at any given moment. Thank Arc nobody else can hear half the shit we say
I didn't really understand who is part of the system and who wasn't but I liked watching this anyway:3
0:32 was Frankie earlier while I was dealing with the aftermath of an online argument and my mom was simultaneously lecturing me about said argument. It caught me off guard because they’re usually co-con 24/7.
THE SELF DOUBT PART IS SO TRUE like- i have some suspected psychosis so i have a feeling that my sys isnt there, but then some random alter comes online and then just wanders off because my greedy ass likes to be on front all teh time >:-))) - 🥕
singlet here but my gf is a host and 1:04 is so us :3
Could you possibly make more little animations of stuff like this if you ever get the time or if it ever interests you again I would love to see more videos like this it's honestly calming to watch.
i can certainly try! i’m glad you liked it so much :D
@@phosdotnet I love these really not only doesn't give me a great source of comfort but. Right now I'm kind of going through my own little roller coaster in journey so seeing someone going through certain difficulties that I'm going through is makes me not feel as alone.
THIS IS SO HASHTAG RELATEABLE SPICIFICALLY AT 0:22 AND 1:22 SO HASHTAG REAL JUST LIKE ME FR
Felt this homie/pos
I have a question!! So, sometimes when I dissociate, I have a more child like state of mind, and sometimes I either get very negative or mad. Could this be a symptom for OSDD/DID..?/genq (no I’m not gonna go off and say “I HAVE THIS DISORDER LOL!!” All over the Internet, I know that it also comes along with professional diagnosis.)
i honestly can’t tell you for sure since i know so little about you and your situation ^^; i’m actually working on a video covering this, but i’m afraid it won’t be up for some time :p in the meantime, here’s some sources where you can do your own research at and come to a conclusion yourself:
ISSTD: www.isst-d.org/
DID-Research: did-research.org/
Trauma Dissociation: traumadissociation.com/#gsc.tab=0
More Than One: morethanone.info/#
Healthy Multiplicity: healthymultiplicity.com/
Dissociative Initiative: di.org.au/
The CTAD Clinic: youtube.com/@thectadclinic?si=f-a3Tw0RLU2Sl8ma
Dragonheart Collective’s “Am I Plural?” Essay: dragonsroost.neocities.org/essay/AmIPlural
i’d suggest looking into age regression first though before jumping to did/osdd, honestly. while child alters are absolutely a thing, there are also other ways of feeling more childlike at times without having alters!
i’d like to add that there’s nothing wrong with *well researched* self diagnosis, especially since did/osdd is so stigmatized and being able to see a psychiatrist is… extremely expensive- not to mention that most people with DID spend seven years in therapy before ever getting a diagnosis. some people just don’t have access to that kind of care, but i fully believe they still deserve access to a community and resources to help them heal. a diagnosis doesn’t magically make a disorder appear, and a lack of a diagnosis doesn’t necessarily indicate that the disorder isn’t there :)
@@phosdotnet thank you!!
I feel bad for you this seems scary. My imagination haunts me as is I'd be terrified if the characters in my head developed a mind of there own.
it can definitely be scary sometimes. a lot of the time, even. but i’ve made peace with a lot of my alters and over the years we’ve built a lot of trust with each other. in all honesty, my alters are the only reason i’m still alive. knowing how much they’ve done for me and how much they care makes it hard to be scared of them.
it took a long time to get here, but that’s why i wanted to make the video. i wanted people to know that getting to a more comfortable place is possible. :)
I love the Omari music bc literally five seconds after booting up the game I was like “oh no, this kid is a system” I haven’t gotten very far yet so don’t tell me if I’m right
relatable
i’m glad you think so :D
"im a system i can just leave"
The other alters : *NO.*
Thank you for this video ... Being a system really isnt all that bad most of the time if im being honest it has its moments and im tired of the constant betrayal of it as doom despair 24/7 .. yes it sucks sometimes. But it also is alright others .. this is so refreshing ::
It's L O U D. Lmao
(This video is amazing though lmao)
Relatable -Gems
we hav osdd and its not vere nis, but my naym is sammy and its niys to meet yu all
im soree if mi spelng is not goud, i am a litl
Most of the time is kinda chill when nothing triggering is close to us
I wanted to add an experience to see if anyone can relate
When they ask you how old are you or when is your birthday and you start to dissociate 😅
Any personal question, any and all possible answers leave our head. An alter can't just answer for themself, even then some don't know or have age sliders and crap. And there is usually no one size fits all. What's my favorite music artist? Well I say cavetown and no one else knows but sometimes it's distinctly not cavetown. Idk anymore man
-teal
can relate
Nya
0:22 this
so true & real
Quick Grady come do my homework -Anna
how in the name of hacking are you just able to do things what the sigma
ok seriously though how do you just talk to them they kinda just turned off after finding out so it takes (up to a few months) to actually respond
luck and a lot of practice! our system tends to be pretty chatty in the first place, so actually *getting* other alters to talk isn’t a problem for us. after that, we spent a lot of time carefully listening and actively working towards better communication (via writing each other notes, exploring/making the inner world, journaling, just making time to focus on talking to each other, etc). we didn’t wake up with everything fully ready to go, we had to actively work towards hearing each other and talking to each other and it took a few months of active effort to be able to do it consistently and easily. it’s just about communicating and practice :) hope this helps!
Accurate
is there a way I can get an idea whether or not I'm a system before I ask for a diagnosis and it turns out the diagnosis is incorrect? I'm a minor (if you need that info, and if you need more info tell me)
i’m sorry, i’m not entirely sure what you’re asking. are you saying you have a previous diagnosis you think is wrong? or are you asking how to figure out if you may have DID/OSDD before getting properly diagnosed so that you can avoid a misdiagnosis?
@@phosdotnet sorry! my bad lol, I meant how to figure out if I may have DID/OSDD before getting tested in case there's a misdiagnosis
i’d recommend doing as much research on it as you can. i’ll link a few sites below to get you started. you can also take the DES-II, which is a diagnostic tool many professionals use in order to help with the diagnostic process. to my (admittedly limited and american-centric) knowledge, therapists can’t actually diagnose you- they have to get a psychiatrist to do it for them. the diagnostic process is extremely thorough for disorders due to DID/OSDD, and usually takes months.
DES-II: traumadissociation.com/des
other resources:
traumadissociation.com/dissociativeidentitydisorder.html
did-research.org/
morethanone.info/
plurality-hub.carrd.co/
you’ll also probably want to look at the actual diagnostic criteria in the DSM-V, but that alone doesn’t tell you much about what exactly DID/OSDD looks like.
i hope this helps :) good luck!
@@phosdotnet tysm!
i think im a system?? (osdd-1b specifically) like theres this person living in my head that is really loud sometimes that formed a long time ago, idk what this means 😭😭 i also tend to dissociate at random and feel like nothing is real
if you’d like i can give you some resources to help you out ^^ i know how stressful questioning and figuring this stuff out can be lol
@@phosdotnet yes please that would be great 🙏🙏🙏 thank you so much
did-research.org/
traumadissociation.com/index.html#gsc.tab=0
morethanone.info/
plurality-hub.carrd.co/
i hope these help! good luck!
@@phosdotnet tysm!!
@@bunnyf4792 doesnr 1b have no memory loss tho?
I wish i could just leave but how the fuck do others control switches like whar
This is an extremely glamorized and misconstrued version of living with a dissociative disorder… it’s daily heartache, flashbacks, triggers and emotional instability for A LOT of us. We exist because of severe trauma. It’s not “chill I guess”
i made this to highlight the highs i’ve had *because* so many other people have spoken about how hard it is to live with it. it’s immensely frustrating to me that many people insist that you can’t possibly have a dissociative disorder and be happy, and go so far as to call other people out for “faking” whenever they say something positive about their headmates or comment about something funny that happened to them.
not only is it frustrating though, it gives other people with this disorder the impression that their life will only ever be suffering because of it. i was one of those people. i thought that my life was over because of something that i couldn’t control, over something that i was constantly told was a horrible thing to live with. if i had seen this video when i was first discovering my system, it would have been a weight off of my shoulders.
it’s a minute long video of some highs. there are absolutely lows, there are so so many lows, but it was important to me to show that there *are* highs, and there are ways to get to the point where it is a lot more chill. just because i don’t show the downs does not mean i don’t have them.
sorry for the long response, i just wanted to make it clear that i was in no way trying to say that this was a 100% perfect encapsulation of this incredibly complex disorder. ^^;
@@phosdotnet we totally agree with all that! It’s just that labeling it as “what it’s really like” is extremely misleading for singlets who may not understand there *are* so many lows. But we all deserve to enjoy and appreciate the highs! Being a system is survival and that’s a lot to celebrate
with how many videos about DID and OSDD there are out there, i very highly doubt that singlets are going to stumble across this video with absolutely no former idea of what dissociative disorders are ^^; but you’re right, i’ll look into changing the title when i get the chance so it’s less misleading!
@@phosdotnet you’d honestly be surprised with how many people have no idea, or how many people think it’s “the friends in your head” disorder still… 😅
@@phosdotnet replying to your first comment.
The past months of being so unsure and afraid of the possibility i have DID or OSDD has been torture. Going from trying to understand to looking for anything that could definitively prove i dont have it. with the waves of things making it scary i have been trying to deny everything, say im fakeing, ignore any voices (which hasn't gone great). I've been so afraid im going to be miserable and my life i wanted wasn't possible but this video really did help take that fear off my shoulders that if i have DID or OSDD that i'll be ok
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I know I'm late but please help me
I don't know if I have D.I.D but I know that I dissociata myself
It would be disrespectful I try to figure out by myself if I have alters?
For what I've done by now
It's like I can feel them talking,liking their own things and being their own living thing/humans ecc...
Until I can go to a psychologist for a certain diagnosis ""Can I"" still ""make"" my alters speak and get out even if I'm not sure what I have?? they make me feel really safe and sometimes everything seems clearer with them -Felix
(Sorry for my bad english)
hi! i can’t tell you whether you have DID seeing as i’m not a professional, but i can point you in the direction of some sources that may help you figure out whether it’s a possibility or not. it’s not disrespectful to consider the possibility of having alters or DID- in fact, many people who have DID start going to therapy because their symptoms start showing. yes, there are people who go into psychiatric help with zero idea they’re a system, but there are also many who go into it with some idea that something is wrong and need help figuring out what’s wrong. beyond that, psychiatric help is extremely expensive, and for many people simply not accessible. there is absolutely nothing wrong with interacting with your alters and trying to heal without psychiatric help. and on the flip side, it’s also 100% okay if you realize that you don’t have alters in the end. there’s nothing wrong with trying to understand yourself and the way your brain works.
my suggestion is to do a lot of research. listen to other people’s experiences and see if you relate to them. look up the diagnostic criteria for DID and OSDD. take tests like the DES-II (one of the tools used by professionals to help diagnose dissociative disorders). through all of this, listen to yourself. don’t force anything, just observe and see what’s going on. leave notes to yourself with an introduction and a greeting, and see if anyone else writes back. take it as slow as you need to- there’s no rush to know for sure.
here are some starting sources, and i wish you luck!
did-research.org/
traumadissociation.com/index.html#gsc.tab=0
morethanone.info/
plurality-hub.carrd.co/
This shit ain't chill
i’m sorry your experiences with it weren’t chill. this isn’t all of my experience, either, it’s just the small part of it i could fit in a video under two minutes. it’s important to me that i show the good parts of it despite also struggling with it a lot, because a lot of people online only like to show the bad parts of being a system. it’s important to show others that there is hope, and they can learn to live with this disorder :)
@@phosdotnet i love that. I dont like being told that being a system is only suffering. There are advantages and its ok to see the bright side. I dont wanna feel bad for feeling bad lol i like my headmates 😁
It’s either chill or chaos, depends on when-🧹