Oh, Angie. You are extraordinary. Truly. Keep going. Could they have hurt us any worse than losing who we are and our very selves? No. We must stop this crime, because THEY HAVE KNOWN FOR MORE THAN 60 YEARS. MONEY WAS MORE IMPORTANT TO THEM.
The pdrug withdrawal community can be very cruel to protracted people. Imagine attacking the long suffering and calling them names and accusing them of malingering or doing it wrong somehow. For some of us the damage is permanent and why would that make us guilty or the bad guy? Its the drugs that have injured our bodies. I've been maligned and abandoned so many times in the community, I had to walk away but I do listen to you to ground myself when I need it. I am grateful for most of your content. Anyways congrats on 7.5 years off, you're doing really, really well Angie. Keep being real. We can now value simple moments and that's enough.
Angie- You’ve seriously kept me alive since my brutal CT. Now 53 months protracted I wouldn’t miss one of your honest videos. Much love & continued healing❤
Im about 6 years and 5 months in protracted antipsychotic withdrawal. I do slowly get better, in march this year i could sit still on my chair for 40-60 min without having to pace around. I can also prepare meals for my family now without being manic. I wish my fellow psych drug survivors all the best. Thanks angie for taking the time to make this video.
@@tamihenderson4500 I can do most things now. I go on holliday, cook meals, exercise and i would say my life is pretty great now. I would say im about 85% healed. But its no wonder it takes so long for me to recover, since considering how bad things were the first year off. I still contenue to recover and i suspect i will be 90-95% healed later next year. Don't give up, all the best to you all.
Hi. Im about 85% healed now. I can cook meals, go on holliday, listen to sad music, earn money and handle most stress in my life. I can exercise and my cognition is good enough for me to have started to learn a new language. I suspect to heal from 85% to 95% in the year 2025. All the best to you all. Take care.
I started watching your videos from the beginning of my taper 4 years ago. I finally recovered about 90% but have times when I'm under stress where it feels like I'm back there. Your videos helped me not feel so alone.
Hi Angie, I recently discovered your channel and your videos have given me hope. I have 3.5 years of protracted withdrawal after 8 years of using paxil and fast tapering (guided by my stupid psychiatrist). I went through HELL in the first two years. Today, I am 40% better, but still have SEVERAL debilitating symptoms. One of them, physical weakness that doesn't seem to improve. I used to do physical activities 6 times a week before the withdrawal, now I can barely do it once. Seeing your report that after 7.5 years you have recovered your physical strength, I feel hopeful.
I actually am inspired by your progress. I don't expect to be 100% when I finish my taper. Or ever really. but the fact that we can heal and live a good enough life is enough.
Thank you so much for sharing. I'm 4.5 years off now and im going through it. This gives me hope that maybe one day I can feel better like you. I definitely feel the sensitivity and its so difficult to get through.
I will be 5 years free next week. I feel great, better than ever in some ways. But I still have some on lingering sx that come and go. Congratulations to you. You look amazing.
@@allencollins6031it does get better. I know it’s hard to believe at first but it does. And when you come out the other side it will be like a phoenix. You will never be the same but you will never reborn greater.
By far the best, the very very best ever off all the benzo coaches out there, Oo the others are good people and mean well, but ANGIE is in a league of her own . She is one of God's angels here on earth
❤ Congrats on what you've accomplished in 7.5 years Angie. The coaching you're doing must be harrowing, especially since you're talking with suicidal people. I am very empathetic, as you are, and I couldn't do the work you do. I've tried working with refugees who were going through dreadfully traumatic life events: I lasted for 4 years before having a major meltdown. Definately due to vicarious trauma. Remember to look after yourself too. It sounds like you have a routine that is working for you, but remember you can't help everyone. Give yourself breaks when you need them. God bless you 🙏🏼❤
I really appreciate these videos, Angie. I'm six months behind you and not doing nearly as well as you, but stories like yours give me hope. Thanks for taking the time to make another video. Im glad you're doing well.
I just watched the documentary you were in. I am 17 months off after a short use of benzo and a fast taper. Im still blown away by the amount of symptoms I experienced. I still have quite a few symptoms but I am healing and better than I was. The internal akathisia was the worst 😫 . Im not quite through that but its so much better. Im not in complete torture anymore. Im so happy I came across your page. Youre so strong and telling your story is helping so many including myself. This is what keeps us going, so thank you Angie 😊
This reminds me of the experience I had in the 80's when I was checking out Adult Children of Alcoholic meetings where there was no long term recovery yet...this community is still new to recovery it's just a matter of time for the Hope aspect of Recovery to show up!!!🍀
Angie Dear! You have come SUCH A LONG WAY!!! Bravo! 🏆👏 Celebrate it! I don't find this to be triggering at all. You are so straight forward & real & that's what helps me the most about your story. I hear from many who are further out, that they have healed enough to get back to their full, happy lives, & they'll think that they reached their peak, & then as the months & years pass, they get the "cherry on top". You've helped me the most out of everyone in the community. I think when we start to get that healthy sleep.. & then really get more & more healthy sleep that helps a bunch, & that is just one aspect of it. -- Shelly
I am so proud of you sweetie, you have come such a long way and are now helping others. I am still healing but feel better, and like you, any visual, bright lights, heights, or stress sets my symptoms back again but only temporarily. No way I could do what you do, it would set me back big time. You should be very proud of yourself! Love & miss you
Angie, thank you for speaking your truth and helping others to get through their experience of withdrawal/tapering. Loved hearing about your dating experience with a dysregulated person...lucky you. We're everywhere, I know.
I've been off psych drugs for 21 years.......and Elavil for about 18. Hardest drug to discontinue..massive headache every time I went lower. Grateful to be free.
With the utmost gentleness I would just like to say that protracted withdrawal symptoms align with what it's exactly like when an adult with diagnosed or undiagnosed autism regresses (worse than burnout) after years/decades of masking. An unbearable loss of ability to mask any longer happens and an autistic person is completely skill-less and at a complete loss to attempt social normality whatsoever. I know this video isn't about autism, but I had no friggen idea that coming off of benzos and opioids and alcohol and cigarettes after 17 yrs was going to leave me 100% dibilitated. Those vices helped me appear normal to the world and to myself for so very long.
One of my functional medicine doctors told me once that many of my symptoms seemed so similar to autism. Her son is autistic and she sees a lot of neurodivergent kids in her practice.
@@TableForOne01 no I’m not. I never had any of these issues until psych drugs entered my life. I wish it was a simple explanation but my issues are due to neurotoxicity. I am former military and wouldn’t have made it in rank to what I did or earned the awards I did if I had issues even 10% of this. It’s the drugs.
I am interested in this topic/thread but It's perplexing to me that after watching this video, people might still look to explain the features of evident neuro- toxicity as e.g. underlying Autism. I rather see the possibility that late-diagnosed/ adult-onset Autism might also be a feature of the same harm: ie neuro-toxicity from meds or other toxins. Mis-labelled. I know of so many people recently given the autism diagnosis after years of supposedly benign SSRI use. I hear how their prescribers offer the new diagnosis as an explanation for why their patient is feeling increasingly worse, not better, on their old meds. It is apparent to me that psychotropics cause autistim-like traits. I have aeen it firsthand in people i know well and over many years e.g. onset of verbal and motor tics, stimming, increased sensory sensitivity and social phobia to name a few. They weren't like this before SSRIs, but they've lost touch with who they were before the meds. The Autism diagnosos leads to a change in meds - off the SSRI (perhaps with no proper support with withdrawal) and onto the Ritalin or suchlike. In my mind, this is the typical rort of the wilfully-blind medical model, puppeteered by the marketing of drug companies that masquerades as research. Many of my post benzo-harm symptoms have the same features as seen in Autism. I did not have any features of Autism prior to meds harm, nor was I masking any or needing to. I was a well adjusted, functional adult who fell victim to off-label pharma harm through an anomalous circumstance. It would not be a new thing for the medical model to pathologise the person with yet another (replacement) diagnosis and justify trial of yet another harmful drug, while wilfully blindly failing to see the harmful neurotoxic consequences of psychotropics. There is plenty of evidence of their neural toxity. Joanna moncrieff a starter as reference. I can almost guarantee that if I put myself in the reach of the medical model they would now diagnose me with Autism. But I know differently. Autism is not the cause of the changes in my capacity, skillset and once-gregarious personality - it is neuro-toxicity from medication harm. I know it is a tonic for some to accept another label or explanation and all good if that is what they feel applies to them. I recall that @angie named her condition for what it is in this video - neuro-toxicity. I wonder what it is about this condition (neurotoxicity from meds harm) that leads some not to be convinced of it and to suggest other things instead. I find it to be yet another challenge on the path to recovery or living well with this harm. But we wouldnt still be here if we didnt succeed at navigating those..
This did scare me a bit I must admit, but perhaps its because I am in such acute withdrawl, everything is catastrophe for me and unbearable. It scares me when anyone says they are healed but also still healing because my brain says, you see thy are not healed and at any moment all the sumptoms can take over them again so no one truly heals for good. That and the horrific realization that there is only acceptance. I hate that. To me acceptance means being stuck and not having a way out so in oreder to cope one needs to accept, and I never want to do that. I feel there is no way out and I just need to die already as bad as that is too.
No the symptoms calm down compared to what you are feeling right now and the lingering stuff is not even worth mentioning. Your brain is afraid right now (in active) and didn’t even hear all the good stuff I said! Do you notice that? And no the symptoms can’t just come back at you in later years. THOSE SYMPTOMS ARE ALREADY HEALED AND GONE, why would they come back?
Oh, Angie(again). We have to consider ourselves fortunate in the midst of this horror, since Many did not make it this far. But, that is no consolation, really, is it, since this crime should never have been allowed to occur to begin with. We must love ourselves Enough to go forward, because we owe it to ourselves. We must grieve the lives we were deprived of, and ackowledge that, too..Grieve for ourselves, as we would grieve for others who have endured this harm. .
Feb 26, 2019 last time I took Ativan. Took me 9 months to water taper off 1mg. I dry cutted over 4 years prior, and was off Ativan for one year with no problems. Then I took zyrtec for allergies, and had a major panic attack while driving. I went back on 1mg Ativan for 6 years, was in constant interdose withdrawal. I hit tolerance and thought I had the flu, taking Ativan immediately gave me side effects, so I figured it out...immediately started taper. I still have tinnitus and slight balance issues. I am trying to learn to drive again, I am still sensitive to lights and sounds, but I am hopeful things will continue to improve. I feel 75 percent better.
Angie ❤ 15 months protracted I listen to your story a lot of them even one when you were dressed up at some conference thing. Thank you for your service and serving the country. Thank you for going to fight for change in policies at the White House. Hopefully November we get a change. I thought my story was the worst there’s nobody around me that is going through what I am going through and nobody understands. I cannot believe you’ve been through. You’re a fighter and a warrior and a child of God.. I’m considering going to sleep out in a camper in the driveway in the spring so my wife can have the bed back. We’re currently in separate rooms because of this. my question for you is if you considered after having your melons removed any detox type of supplements, such as charcoal or even elation therapy. I’m currently doing elation therapy and I’m on my 10th visit. It is really helped getting rid of neurotoxins. Zeolite is an option to. thank you and God bless you … ❤
I have seen people feel worse after detox so no way in hell was I going to try that. If supplements worked, I’d be selling them from a beach in Mexico 😉 always check this list too: www.benzoinfo.com/medications-and-supplements/
Wow! You can sleep 8 to 10 hours per day/night? What a blessing that is! I'm throwing down OTC sleep aids - acetaminophen PM, Diphenhydramine - I read are bad for the brain to get two to four hours of sleep per night but I'd get nearly zero hours sleep without them. I'm 3.5 years off Lexapro cold turkey. Of all the many symptoms I have, insomnia might be the worst.
Angie, thank you so much for all of your strength and vulnerability and your integrity. And for sharing this. I learn and relate a lot from what you have encountered, tried and discovered. Happy birthday too btw.
I hate fluorescent lights! They are very unnatural…The “trapped” feeling is something I am working on….the extra stimuli from light and sigh and sounds…and the speed of the inputs coming in. Interesting stuff , it’s useful to hear you talking about this,. You are so strong holding space and being there for all the people in such difficult mental states…it takes a lot of energy and emotional strength
You are an exceptional and unbelievably special human being, Angie. I’ve been waiting to schedule something with you but really struggle to communicate on the phone. I will contact you as soon as I’m ready. Thank you for being the light and force of good that you are
Angie - have you ever seen someone have a devastating reaction to one pill of an SSRI? I have horrible head symptoms like dizziness and pressure but mine are 24/7 they literally never go away. I watched your videos when you were 6-12 months off and it seems like you were doing better than I am and I only had the one pill. 😭 I’d love to schedule a meeting with you if your calendar opens up.
Yes I have lots of clients who have had a reaction to one pill of something. Yes it can be bad for a while before you start to heal. You have the same injury as someone else who was on for months or years or who tapered. It’s all the same injury. It heals.
Hello, I took 3 and a half years Klonopin 1 mg, I have been free for 12 months after a decrease of only 5 days. I have many crazy symptoms, paranoia (I think all people are looking at me), agoraphobia, depersonalization, derealization, high anxiety, tachycardia, sensitive to noise, blurred vision, paranoid intrusive obsessive thoughts. ¿Is it normal that at 12 months I still have all these symptoms? I rarely leave my house, because every time I go out, I think that all the people are looking at me, this is very hard, it makes me want to cry sometimes, it seems that this hell never ends.
You are a badass 😎 but I know what you have had to go through. Noone that hasn't gone through this can can even get the suffering and strength to get through this. 23 month off still suffering mental symptoms, trauma from it.
I’m 21 months off from an adverse reaction & still suffering. I was doing ok but then took an antibiotic & got setback the extreme inner akathisia came back 😢I’m having extreme anxiety, intrusive thoughts, fear & paranoia etc My question is are you able to take medication now & vitamins with no reaction? Have you seen ppl heal from setbacks?Sorry if you answered this I can’t watch the whole video as it’s too much stimulation right now for me
I haven't taken an antibiotic since 2014 (before I was taken off meds). The first few years off, I couldn't take anything without having a severe reaction. I didn't start taking supplements until 4 years off because I was afraid of COVID. I did okay, Vitamin D I definitely felt but just took it slow and then was okay with it. Now I can take MOST supplements with NO reaction, as long as they don't act like psych meds in some way. Yes, people have setbacks from antibiotics but YOU WILL HEAL FROM THAT too. Please hang in there. Give your body some more time.
You are are an amazing woman, and I always look to your story to give me the courage to keep going. At 18 months off, I'm still really symptomatic physically and mentally but one of my biggest concern is the fact that I can't take any meds or supplements. Is this something we ever recover from? I'm afraid I can't ever take anything again. And as much I hate meds, eventually we are all going to need it for surgery, an accident idk. Does sensitivity improve?
@AngiePeacockMSW For sure! I don't take anything besides the smallest amount of Iron because my ferritin is low. Thanks a lot and can't wait to see a video about this topic.
Very inspirational Angie, amazing to see you heal the way you have and build a life you truly deserve for yourself 🙏😊 I’m currently coming up 6 months off psychotropic drugs after 17 years on them, i update my journey on my UA-cam channel. Hopefully I continue to heal from the iatrogenic, neurotoxicity injury. You are an inspiration to many, including myself. Keep going with the great work. 💪💪
Have you ever done the gaps diet? I’m trying rid of sibo, sifo, Candida and parasites I accumulated over the years. Also trying to heavy metal detox because the fillings I had were leaking. I’m going to try the elemental diet and heal leaky gut. I feel the same as you with being in a house with no light been in my highlander for 2 years now. I think what’s hindering us the worst is zyprexa. Akathisia sucks so bad makes me want to die every morning. I wish withdrawals like this on my soon to be abusive ex that got me put on the meds then told me if I didn’t ct he was going to divorce me. He tried to get me to kill myself after ct telling me I’m a bad mom and my life is a waste of space on this planet. All because he got million $ insurance that covers suicide. He’s a full blown narcissist so I’m having to deal with divorce to shit like that during a ct. been through a lot too can’t wait to have other feelings besides sadness anger numb emptiness. I sleep in the woods and chase tornados. I’m scared of stupid shit like staying in an apartment. Been told it takes the amount of years to heal as the years you took. I took them 13 years and took every god damn antipsychotic antidepressant medication. Zyprexa I couldn’t get off of had to use latuda to ct it but that sent me to another depth of hell worse than benzo. The psychwards know who I am and so do the police. It sucks. I don’t take any medication but I’m trying to heal naturally. I study functional medicine I’ve noticed some things do help.
Why not do the carnivore instead? If you're trying to heal from leaky gut, sibo, candida over growth then Gaps is going to make it worse, Fiber from the veggies along with plant toxins and antinutrients such as Lectins, Amines, Tannins, Trypsin inhibitors, Flavonoid Carotenoid, Curcumin, Polyphenol, Quercetin, Lycopene, Anthocyanins, Resveratrol, Phenols, Glucosinolate, Flavan-3-ol Salicylates, Oxalates, Sulfites, benzo ates, MSG, Non protein amino acids, Glycosides, Catechin, Terpenoid ,Akaloids including solanine and chaconine, Triterpenes,Lignins, Saponins, Phytic acid, and Isoflaones disrupts and feeds the bad bacteria in your microbiome including Lactobacillus, Bifidobacterium, lactococci, streptococci(only certain subtypes) Enterococci, Lactobacillus fermentum, Lactobacillus plantarum, Lactobacillus rhamnosus, Lactobacillus paracasei, Lactobacillus gasseri, Lactobacillus reuteri, Lactobacillus salivarius, Lactobacillus helveticus Clostridium, Faecalibacterium, Eubacterium, Ruminococcus, Peptococcus, Peptostreptococcus, Acinetobacter calcoaceticus Bacteroides, Bifidobacterium, Streptococcus, Enterobacteriaceae, Enterococcus, Lactobacillus, and Ruminococcus, Campylobacter, Clostridium perfringens which makes things worse plus all that stuff converts to sugar which feeds candida. Carnivore diet is far better for reseting the gut
I don’t know if it was the Lex ct, or my lifestyle. But I feel like I got hit with a baseball batt on the head and on the butt and been running around like a chicken without a head.
Please make a video on setbacks, it will be very helpful. I am 6 weeks off xanax, and had two major setbacks due to unawareness. Do the setbacks affect healing of neuro receptors? or they just trigger some intense symptoms that get settle with time?
Does using cannabis slow healing from protracted withdrawal? I’m 2 years of off everything, and use cannabis to stop the jumps and akathisia at night, so I can sleep.
Hi hun, glad you’re doing great! So proud of you ❤ Question. Dose symptoms get more and worse or if you started ok you won’t get more symptoms coming your way? I’de really appreciate your answer Xx
Some can feel worse some go away, new ones will come, old ones may come back. Healing is not linear. But!!! The good news is you are always healing underneath those symptoms. Healing is sure!
Told another mental health advocate that it's been a year off prescription Ativan. I hear what you're saying. What you're saying... all this feeling... I've been sedated on psych pills since I was 20. I had no idea my brain is beyond non functioning. I'm so angry. The tears won't stop much either. I don't have another sixty years for a do over. Thank you for your help.
Hi. Someone recommended I watch Angie's stories from a Facebook group I recently joined. There are so many to watch and I also get overwhelmed by hearing about the trauma you have experienced from injuries and withdrawal. I was wondering if someone knows where to lead me to any videos I could ask my husband to watch. I want him to be prepared for what he could possibly deal with from a care takers role. Not that I am hoping I wld need much from him but I don't want him worried from lack of understanding.
780days off 80 to 86 percent healed still tinitus still broken sleep 6 7 hours take metapralol succinate 75 mg and ivabradine for fast heart rate feel low energy sym when I feel normal
12.42gmt Irish time,,Angi I've watched a few of your videos and I have to say your a miracle,,I've a big problem with benzos and antidepressants I'm full of fear and anxiety I'm afraid even to go out I worrie about everything I need help am I going to die in withdrawal
No you cannot die from withdrawal unless you cold turkey benzos and have irretractable seizures which is pretty rare. Just don't cold turkey. Google "benzo buddies forum" and "survivingantidepressants" and learn SAFE TAPERING STRATEGIES> Do not cold turkey!
@@AngiePeacockMSW Thanks Angie I looked up benzo buddies I'm just so scared of the withdrawals from valium and alproxalam terrible fear and anxiety hope u don't mind me emailing you from time to time,??
It’s only open to clients who have had at least one session with me. I have to get to know you a little first to make sure the group stays safe and supportive to each other. It meets twice a month rotating a Saturday morning and a Thursday evening every month. If this is something you are interested in, you can book a session through www.Angiepeacock.com
Hi hon, hope you are well If the Ativan became toxic while taken it dose that mean the brain would find it more difficult to withdraw from it or it wouldn’t make a difference xx
I think releasecfs could help you get better! Lots of people with the same symptoms, it could be that all the trauma of all your experiences on these drugs and being disconnected from the inner you (inner child work) is still creating all the horrible symptoms. Lots of people in the same boat that switch to this work are healing. It’s not just yoga or meditation, it goes wayy deeper!
@@AngiePeacockMSW yeah me too, also palinopsia, or just Visual Snow. Just wanted to throw it out there. This program was really different for me and is helping me with a lot of WD symptoms.
Angie, I found you because I was watching Natasha Campbell. I have been dealing with severe depression and was prescribed an ssri. I haven’t taken in yet and don’t know an alternative. I’ve been working on healing gut almost 3 wks. But it’s not happening quick enough. Any advice?
I’m happy to do a consultation with you if you’d like to book one as it’s really hard to message back and forth on social media. I can’t work that way. I’ll just say you have to go on a personal healing journey and try to get to the bottom of what’s happening in your life. Do you have a history of other psych drugs or antibiotics that could have ruined your gut? What is the ROOT CAUSE of your depression?
Hi babe, another question please When you don’t have an episode n you’re having a calm day but feeling no joy is that still healing x or do you have to have an episode to be healing ? Thank you very much Good day Xx
Skydiving x2, another time my 120 LB dog ran into me head first, I lost consciousness, and flew 7 feet away and dislocated my shoulder and ripped everything. That was the worst one, believe it or not. I had post-concussive syndrome for 2 months after that one.
I've been thinking about this and I have a question, if that's ok? You talked about doing neuroplasticity stuff. I know you said about focusing on the stuff that is working, but did you try anything else in that department? I tried DNRS awhile back, but I'm not sure it's for me.
I did a lot of principles in this book: amzn.to/44Aw7Ml but basically applied the principles to all of my symptoms. I also tried to create small, positive experiences for myself and build on them to sort of teach my brain some of the good stuff again. It didn’t come back for me all that easily. I need to make another video about this stuff, huh?
I read that book after your recommendation, but I need to revisit it, I think. I try to focus on the tiny good things when they happen, but I'm not in a very positive state of mind, no matter how much I try to be, and good things actually make me sad because I can't feel them fully. I feel like there's always an invisible barrier between me and the world from the DPDR. It was encouraging to see that that symptom lifted for you. I know how difficult it makes everything. Anyway, yeah, a video would be great. I'd like to try something different and I'd look forward to your ideas. Thank you.
I also got visual snow since they added too much serotonin too my AD with 7 boosting serotonin supplements. I was given 16mg lorazepam (Ativan) and am in WD and tapering since 8 months. I’m at 20mg Diazepam (Valium). So the visual snow gets worse every month. So it’s getting worse over time or permanent?
@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you for answering 🙏🏼. Even the visual disturbances mostly go away or improve during healing? I mostly hear Visual Snow is permanent when induced by SSRI or too much serotonin. I got very severe light sensitivity, seeing pixels in low light conditions and very blurry and stroboscopic flashes in the dark, even with eyes closed. due to too much serotonin which I had for 5 months bc I was set on 45mg mirtazapine and 7 serotonin supplements like ashwaganda, tryptophan, 5-htp. Being super sensitive for light and got a burning skin and fever while in daylight and my body just turned off with hyper stress by just a tiny bit of light. I was CT’d of 45mg mirtazapine and put on benzo’s and 50mg quetiapine to sleep, benzo’s I’m now withdrawing off. Now in benzo WD I also start to see more distrurbances the lower I go, halo’s around lights and starbursts around lights are getting bigger and worse and have like you palinopsia while reading or ghosting effect around objects. I still need to taper off for like more than a year so I’m quite anxious that I will have permanent visual loss or disturbances. How are you dealing with that? It drives me crazy being inside all the time in low light conditions.
Can bug bites stimulate or aggravate the symptoms? I am 6 weeks off, but since a week, feeling intense head pressure and jerks, strange body sensations.that were not there before. Why I am feeling worse?
@@AngiePeacockMSW I'm sorry to hear. Have you had any improvement over time? I took Citalopram in 2012, Zoloft in 2013-14, Venlafaxine in 2015, Citalopram 2015-2022, had my last pill June 2022. 1 year later I have ED, zero erogenous sensation in my penis and emotional blunting. Volunteering for @PSSDNetwork to hopefully one day figure out what the hell is going on.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I will. My blood sugar issues are horrible I crash so bad I feel like fainting which is really scary I am on my 4th year without meds I was on them for about 6 years I am 28 years old I want to persue a phd degree in USA but I am scared I feel like I wont survive there alone due to my symptoms. My skin has red spots/lesions which is so scary. Thanks for answering .meas alot💕 Love and support.
Walmart I hate I go in and I feal like one then silver balls in a pin ball game fuckin bing bing big all over the store I'm all over it bing Bing Bing bang as I hit the door wtf mom said I said dont worry mom games lol bing bing bing bang Everytime I can not ever enjoy it i shaking uncomfortable all stiff my voice is slow delayed sluggish not good i wiah i could enjoy it damn truth
I have 7 1/2 years of training and have a masters degree and have 8 1/2 years of living through this. I see many for free when I can. I have support circles for $25. I worked for free for this community for 7 years. Should I work for free and be homeless to help you? The video you just watched was free.
Oh, Angie. You are extraordinary. Truly. Keep going. Could they have hurt us any worse than losing who we are and our very selves? No. We must stop this crime, because THEY HAVE KNOWN FOR MORE THAN 60 YEARS. MONEY WAS MORE IMPORTANT TO THEM.
The pdrug withdrawal community can be very cruel to protracted people. Imagine attacking the long suffering and calling them names and accusing them of malingering or doing it wrong somehow. For some of us the damage is permanent and why would that make us guilty or the bad guy? Its the drugs that have injured our bodies. I've been maligned and abandoned so many times in the community, I had to walk away but I do listen to you to ground myself when I need it. I am grateful for most of your content.
Anyways congrats on 7.5 years off, you're doing really, really well Angie. Keep being real. We can now value simple moments and that's enough.
How long did you take medication? Was it more then one? Love to hear your story. Are you able to work?
@@aprilhassell1747if you listened to this video, Angie specifically states what work she does, even the hours she works.
@@aprilhassell1747Angie, WE KNOW YOU HAVE SAID MANY TIMES WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU.
Angie- You’ve seriously kept me alive since my brutal CT. Now 53 months protracted I wouldn’t miss one of your honest videos. Much love & continued healing❤
I'm about 42 months.
Maybe 30% better
Doubt I'll ever be the same
how do you feel today im 2.5 years off of xanax and still struggle in the nights, the nights is so bad for me now
@@MultiFixmanhow r u now
You charge way too much…
You only “help” persons that can pay your crazy high fees
@@chetwalther-ep9zbhow old are you
Im about 6 years and 5 months in protracted antipsychotic withdrawal. I do slowly get better, in march this year i could sit still on my chair for 40-60 min without having to pace around. I can also prepare meals for my family now without being manic. I wish my fellow psych drug survivors all the best. Thanks angie for taking the time to make this video.
How are you doing now, one year after this comment?
How you’re doing now
@@tamihenderson4500 I can do most things now. I go on holliday, cook meals, exercise and i would say my life is pretty great now. I would say im about 85% healed. But its no wonder it takes so long for me to recover, since considering how bad things were the first year off. I still contenue to recover and i suspect i will be 90-95% healed later next year. Don't give up, all the best to you all.
Hi. Im about 85% healed now. I can cook meals, go on holliday, listen to sad music, earn money and handle most stress in my life. I can exercise and my cognition is good enough for me to have started to learn a new language. I suspect to heal from 85% to 95% in the year 2025. All the best to you all. Take care.
I’m 1 year and 2 months off and to be honest, seeing people still healing that far out gives me hope, it doesn’t trigger me at all.
Love the videos
You are looking so pretty!!!!!!!! I don’t understand why anybody would think those things!!!! You are absolutely incredible.
The body/mind is stupidly resilient, I can't not be in awe with it.
Angie…you are amazing
So are YOU!
You are amazing and your healing is so evident. Thank you for all that you do for all of us. So so happy for you!!
I started watching your videos from the beginning of my taper 4 years ago. I finally recovered about 90% but have times when I'm under stress where it feels like I'm back there.
Your videos helped me not feel so alone.
So happy you are almost recovered! I still see healing for me so I’m sure yours will continue.
Hi Angie, I recently discovered your channel and your videos have given me hope.
I have 3.5 years of protracted withdrawal after 8 years of using paxil and fast tapering (guided by my stupid psychiatrist). I went through HELL in the first two years. Today, I am 40% better, but still have SEVERAL debilitating symptoms. One of them, physical weakness that doesn't seem to improve. I used to do physical activities 6 times a week before the withdrawal, now I can barely do it once. Seeing your report that after 7.5 years you have recovered your physical strength, I feel hopeful.
Were you able to work during those 2 years?
I actually am inspired by your progress. I don't expect to be 100% when I finish my taper. Or ever really. but the fact that we can heal and live a good enough life is enough.
It’s a better life on this side, in a lot of ways for me!
Thank you so much for sharing. I'm 4.5 years off now and im going through it. This gives me hope that maybe one day I can feel better like you. I definitely feel the sensitivity and its so difficult to get through.
Thanks for sharing Angie!
I am just over 7.5 years off myself and still have some pretty intense waves when they are here.
I will be 5 years free next week.
I feel great, better than ever in some ways. But I still have some on lingering sx that come and go.
Congratulations to you.
You look amazing.
Thanks for hope.
@@allencollins6031it does get better. I know it’s hard to believe at first but it does. And when you come out the other side it will be like a phoenix. You will never be the same but you will never reborn greater.
By far the best, the very very best ever off all the benzo coaches out there, Oo the others are good people and mean well, but ANGIE is in a league of her own . She is one of God's angels here on earth
You are amazing and beautiful!! Thank You for your honesty and sharing your journey🥰
❤ Congrats on what you've accomplished in 7.5 years Angie.
The coaching you're doing must be harrowing, especially since you're talking with suicidal people. I am very empathetic, as you are, and I couldn't do the work you do. I've tried working with refugees who were going through dreadfully traumatic life events: I lasted for 4 years before having a major meltdown. Definately due to vicarious trauma. Remember to look after yourself too. It sounds like you have a routine that is working for you, but remember you can't help everyone. Give yourself breaks when you need them.
God bless you 🙏🏼❤
Thank you Julie. I’m super mindful of this and do my best to take care of myself. It’s mandatory because yes this work is very difficult!
I really appreciate these videos, Angie. I'm six months behind you and not doing nearly as well as you, but stories like yours give me hope. Thanks for taking the time to make another video. Im glad you're doing well.
I just watched the documentary you were in. I am 17 months off after a short use of benzo and a fast taper. Im still blown away by the amount of symptoms I experienced. I still have quite a few symptoms but I am healing and better than I was. The internal akathisia was the worst 😫 . Im not quite through that but its so much better. Im not in complete torture anymore. Im so happy I came across your page. Youre so strong and telling your story is helping so many including myself. This is what keeps us going, so thank you Angie 😊
Hi Jennifer! Just wondering what benzo and how many mos did you take it? Thanks in advance!
This reminds me of the experience I had in the 80's when I was checking out Adult Children of Alcoholic meetings where there was no long term recovery yet...this community is still new to recovery it's just a matter of time for the Hope aspect of Recovery to show up!!!🍀
What do you mean exactly
Wow Angie, your talk was fabulous. I’am trying to find it again to share with a lot of people. I just love you.
Angie Dear! You have come SUCH A LONG WAY!!! Bravo! 🏆👏 Celebrate it! I don't find this to be triggering at all. You are so straight forward & real & that's what helps me the most about your story. I hear from many who are further out, that they have healed enough to get back to their full, happy lives, & they'll think that they reached their peak, & then as the months & years pass, they get the "cherry on top". You've helped me the most out of everyone in the community. I think when we start to get that healthy sleep.. & then really get more & more healthy sleep that helps a bunch, & that is just one aspect of it. -- Shelly
I am so proud of you sweetie, you have come such a long way and are now helping others. I am still healing but feel better, and like you, any visual, bright lights, heights, or stress sets my symptoms back again but only temporarily. No way I could do what you do, it would set me back big time. You should be very proud of yourself! Love & miss you
Xoxox You’ll always have a special place in my heart Penny. We got through this together in a lot of ways a few years back!
For me, for 7 years you have been helping me. The way you talk about things-it is very helpfull, thank you ❤❤❤
and it was all free
Angie, thank you for speaking your truth and helping others to get through their experience of withdrawal/tapering. Loved hearing about your dating experience with a dysregulated person...lucky you. We're everywhere, I know.
I've been off psych drugs for 21 years.......and Elavil for about 18. Hardest drug to discontinue..massive headache every time I went lower. Grateful to be free.
With the utmost gentleness I would just like to say that protracted withdrawal symptoms align with what it's exactly like when an adult with diagnosed or undiagnosed autism regresses (worse than burnout) after years/decades of masking. An unbearable loss of ability to mask any longer happens and an autistic person is completely skill-less and at a complete loss to attempt social normality whatsoever. I know this video isn't about autism, but I had no friggen idea that coming off of benzos and opioids and alcohol and cigarettes after 17 yrs was going to leave me 100% dibilitated. Those vices helped me appear normal to the world and to myself for so very long.
One of my functional medicine doctors told me once that many of my symptoms seemed so similar to autism. Her son is autistic and she sees a lot of neurodivergent kids in her practice.
I once left you a comment that I think you have a special gift to work with autistics. I now think you may possibly be one. How fascinating.
@@TableForOne01 no I’m not. I never had any of these issues until psych drugs entered my life. I wish it was a simple explanation but my issues are due to neurotoxicity. I am former military and wouldn’t have made it in rank to what I did or earned the awards I did if I had issues even 10% of this. It’s the drugs.
@@TableForOne01 I’m autistic and was diagnosed after getting off the drugs. I can see how benzo damage might mimic autism.
I am interested in this topic/thread but It's perplexing to me that after watching this video, people might still look to explain the features of evident neuro- toxicity as e.g. underlying Autism.
I rather see the possibility that late-diagnosed/ adult-onset Autism might also be a feature of the same harm: ie neuro-toxicity from meds or other toxins. Mis-labelled.
I know of so many people recently given the autism diagnosis after years of supposedly benign SSRI use.
I hear how their prescribers offer the new diagnosis as an explanation for why their patient is feeling increasingly worse, not better, on their old meds.
It is apparent to me that psychotropics cause autistim-like traits.
I have aeen it firsthand in people i know well and over many years e.g. onset of verbal and motor tics, stimming, increased sensory sensitivity and social phobia to name a few. They weren't like this before SSRIs, but they've lost touch with who they were before the meds.
The Autism diagnosos leads to a change in meds - off the SSRI (perhaps with no proper support with withdrawal) and onto the Ritalin or suchlike.
In my mind, this is the typical rort of the wilfully-blind medical model, puppeteered by the marketing of drug companies that masquerades as research.
Many of my post benzo-harm symptoms have the same features as seen in Autism. I did not have any features of Autism prior to meds harm, nor was I masking any or needing to. I was a well adjusted, functional adult who fell victim to off-label pharma harm through an anomalous circumstance.
It would not be a new thing for the medical model to pathologise the person with yet another (replacement) diagnosis and justify trial of yet another harmful drug, while wilfully blindly failing to see the harmful neurotoxic consequences of psychotropics. There is plenty of evidence of their neural toxity. Joanna moncrieff a starter as reference.
I can almost guarantee that if I put myself in the reach of the medical model they would now diagnose me with Autism. But I know differently. Autism is not the cause of the changes in my capacity, skillset and once-gregarious personality - it is neuro-toxicity from medication harm.
I know it is a tonic for some to accept another label or explanation and all good if that is what they feel applies to them.
I recall that @angie named her condition for what it is in this video - neuro-toxicity.
I wonder what it is about this condition (neurotoxicity from meds harm) that leads some not to be convinced of it and to suggest other things instead. I find it to be yet another challenge on the path to recovery or living well with this harm. But we wouldnt still be here if we didnt succeed at navigating those..
This did scare me a bit I must admit, but perhaps its because I am in such acute withdrawl, everything is catastrophe for me and unbearable. It scares me when anyone says they are healed but also still healing because my brain says, you see thy are not healed and at any moment all the sumptoms can take over them again so no one truly heals for good. That and the horrific realization that there is only acceptance. I hate that. To me acceptance means being stuck and not having a way out so in oreder to cope one needs to accept, and I never want to do that. I feel there is no way out and I just need to die already as bad as that is too.
No the symptoms calm down compared to what you are feeling right now and the lingering stuff is not even worth mentioning. Your brain is afraid right now (in active) and didn’t even hear all the good stuff I said! Do you notice that? And no the symptoms can’t just come back at you in later years. THOSE SYMPTOMS ARE ALREADY HEALED AND GONE, why would they come back?
@@AngiePeacockMSWhow long did your head pressure last
Oh, Angie(again). We have to consider ourselves fortunate in the midst of this horror, since Many did not make it this far. But, that is no consolation, really, is it, since this crime should never have been allowed to occur to begin with. We must love ourselves Enough to go forward, because we owe it to ourselves. We must grieve the lives we were deprived of, and ackowledge that, too..Grieve for ourselves, as we would grieve for others who have endured this harm.
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Feb 26, 2019 last time I took Ativan. Took me 9 months to water taper off 1mg. I dry cutted over 4 years prior, and was off Ativan for one year with no problems. Then I took zyrtec for allergies, and had a major panic attack while driving. I went back on 1mg Ativan for 6 years, was in constant interdose withdrawal. I hit tolerance and thought I had the flu, taking Ativan immediately gave me side effects, so I figured it out...immediately started taper. I still have tinnitus and slight balance issues. I am trying to learn to drive again, I am still sensitive to lights and sounds, but I am hopeful things will continue to improve. I feel 75 percent better.
You’re getting there! I’m so happy for you!
@rumoret how are you going now?
You’re my hero.
You are MINE!
Angie ❤
15 months protracted I listen to your story a lot of them even one when you were dressed up at some conference thing. Thank you for your service and serving the country. Thank you for going to fight for change in policies at the White House. Hopefully November we get a change. I thought my story was the worst there’s nobody around me that is going through what I am going through and nobody understands. I cannot believe you’ve been through. You’re a fighter and a warrior and a child of God.. I’m considering going to sleep out in a camper in the driveway in the spring so my wife can have the bed back. We’re currently in separate rooms because of this. my question for you is if you considered after having your melons removed any detox type of supplements, such as charcoal or even elation therapy. I’m currently doing elation therapy and I’m on my 10th visit. It is really helped getting rid of neurotoxins. Zeolite is an option to.
thank you and God bless you … ❤
I have seen people feel worse after detox so no way in hell was I going to try that. If supplements worked, I’d be selling them from a beach in Mexico 😉 always check this list too: www.benzoinfo.com/medications-and-supplements/
This is so great hearing all this!! I love the part about dating or the date lol ! Keep it going!! ❤️thank you
❤you are a EMPATH thank you for what you do.❤
sending love...always..
Wow! You can sleep 8 to 10 hours per day/night? What a blessing that is! I'm throwing down OTC sleep aids - acetaminophen PM, Diphenhydramine - I read are bad for the brain to get two to four hours of sleep per night but I'd get nearly zero hours sleep without them. I'm 3.5 years off Lexapro cold turkey. Of all the many symptoms I have, insomnia might be the worst.
How long you'd been on it?
Thank you, Angie. You are an inspiration. Blessings to you!
I'm glad you feel better 😊
God work 🙏🏽
Angie, thank you so much for all of your strength and vulnerability and your integrity. And for sharing this. I learn and relate a lot from what you have encountered, tried and discovered. Happy birthday too btw.
I hate fluorescent lights! They are very unnatural…The “trapped” feeling is something I am working on….the extra stimuli from light and sigh and sounds…and the speed of the inputs coming in. Interesting stuff , it’s useful to hear you talking about this,. You are so strong holding space and being there for all the people in such difficult mental states…it takes a lot of energy and emotional strength
Thanks Angie! Judi
You are wonderful and you did amazing!❤
Thank you so much for all these helpful videos and for being willing to open up your own journey. 🙏🙏🙏 May the Lord bless you 🌈🌈
Wonderful video…Thank you for sharing your experience
Wow you look so good
Really enjoyed this update - best update yet...!! Thanks for the vid. 💯✅
You are an exceptional and unbelievably special human being, Angie. I’ve been waiting to schedule something with you but really struggle to communicate on the phone. I will contact you as soon as I’m ready. Thank you for being the light and force of good that you are
very kind words, Anthony. Thank you. And take your time. I am not going anywhere and no pressure.
@@AngiePeacockMSWu r a great coach month 27 starts
I have eye problems too
Angie - have you ever seen someone have a devastating reaction to one pill of an SSRI? I have horrible head symptoms like dizziness and pressure but mine are 24/7 they literally never go away. I watched your videos when you were 6-12 months off and it seems like you were doing better than I am and I only had the one pill. 😭 I’d love to schedule a meeting with you if your calendar opens up.
Yes I have lots of clients who have had a reaction to one pill of something. Yes it can be bad for a while before you start to heal. You have the same injury as someone else who was on for months or years or who tapered. It’s all the same injury. It heals.
Thank you so much, Angie. You’re an angel. Even if it’s been 7 months and I’m still exactly the same?
Hello, I took 3 and a half years Klonopin 1 mg, I have been free for 12 months after a decrease of only 5 days. I have many crazy symptoms, paranoia (I think all people are looking at me), agoraphobia, depersonalization, derealization, high anxiety, tachycardia, sensitive to noise, blurred vision, paranoid intrusive obsessive thoughts. ¿Is it normal that at 12 months I still have all these symptoms? I rarely leave my house, because every time I go out, I think that all the people are looking at me, this is very hard, it makes me want to cry sometimes, it seems that this hell never ends.
Yes I felt really really bad at that time off. You can go back and watch my videos from that time period.
Angie im very discouraged im in a horrible setback from taking pepcid. I am 6 years off and ive been in ACUTE FOR 8MONTHS IN HELL!!
You are a badass 😎 but I know what you have had to go through. Noone that hasn't gone through this can can even get the suffering and strength to get through this. 23 month off still suffering mental symptoms, trauma from it.
I’m 21 months off from an adverse reaction & still suffering. I was doing ok but then took an antibiotic & got setback the extreme inner akathisia came back 😢I’m having extreme anxiety, intrusive thoughts, fear & paranoia etc My question is are you able to take medication now & vitamins with no reaction? Have you seen ppl heal from setbacks?Sorry if you answered this I can’t watch the whole video as it’s too much stimulation right now for me
I haven't taken an antibiotic since 2014 (before I was taken off meds). The first few years off, I couldn't take anything without having a severe reaction. I didn't start taking supplements until 4 years off because I was afraid of COVID. I did okay, Vitamin D I definitely felt but just took it slow and then was okay with it. Now I can take MOST supplements with NO reaction, as long as they don't act like psych meds in some way. Yes, people have setbacks from antibiotics but YOU WILL HEAL FROM THAT too. Please hang in there. Give your body some more time.
@@AngiePeacockMSW Thank you ❤️❤️
You are are an amazing woman, and I always look to your story to give me the courage to keep going. At 18 months off, I'm still really symptomatic physically and mentally but one of my biggest concern is the fact that I can't take any meds or supplements. Is this something we ever recover from? I'm afraid I can't ever take anything again. And as much I hate meds, eventually we are all going to need it for surgery, an accident idk. Does sensitivity improve?
Yes somewhat. But please protect your CNS for a few years. Be very careful with things. I’ll do a video about this, soon!
@AngiePeacockMSW For sure! I don't take anything besides the smallest amount of Iron because my ferritin is low. Thanks a lot and can't wait to see a video about this topic.
OMG. I hate walmarts.. I would always tell people when asked why, I would say the lighting is weird to me.!
I love the be nice or i block u. I lf id of done that months ago i probably wouldn't be in this situation im in. That will be my mantra for life.
Very inspirational Angie, amazing to see you heal the way you have and build a life you truly deserve for yourself 🙏😊
I’m currently coming up 6 months off psychotropic drugs after 17 years on them, i update my journey on my UA-cam channel. Hopefully I continue to heal from the iatrogenic, neurotoxicity injury.
You are an inspiration to many, including myself. Keep going with the great work. 💪💪
Keep going! I felt so bad at that time where you are at. Sooooo brutally hard.
God work Angie 💜
I hope this doesn’t sound weird or like I’m undermining all your other good qualities, but you are so pretty! 💕
Awe thank you!!!
Have you ever done the gaps diet? I’m trying rid of sibo, sifo, Candida and parasites I accumulated over the years. Also trying to heavy metal detox because the fillings I had were leaking. I’m going to try the elemental diet and heal leaky gut. I feel the same as you with being in a house with no light been in my highlander for 2 years now. I think what’s hindering us the worst is zyprexa. Akathisia sucks so bad makes me want to die every morning. I wish withdrawals like this on my soon to be abusive ex that got me put on the meds then told me if I didn’t ct he was going to divorce me. He tried to get me to kill myself after ct telling me I’m a bad mom and my life is a waste of space on this planet. All because he got million $ insurance that covers suicide. He’s a full blown narcissist so I’m having to deal with divorce to shit like that during a ct. been through a lot too can’t wait to have other feelings besides sadness anger numb emptiness. I sleep in the woods and chase tornados. I’m scared of stupid shit like staying in an apartment. Been told it takes the amount of years to heal as the years you took. I took them 13 years and took every god damn antipsychotic antidepressant medication. Zyprexa I couldn’t get off of had to use latuda to ct it but that sent me to another depth of hell worse than benzo. The psychwards know who I am and so do the police. It sucks. I don’t take any medication but I’m trying to heal naturally. I study functional medicine I’ve noticed some things do help.
Why not do the carnivore instead? If you're trying to heal from leaky gut, sibo, candida over growth then Gaps is going to make it worse, Fiber from the veggies along with plant toxins and antinutrients such as Lectins, Amines, Tannins, Trypsin inhibitors, Flavonoid Carotenoid, Curcumin, Polyphenol, Quercetin, Lycopene, Anthocyanins, Resveratrol, Phenols, Glucosinolate, Flavan-3-ol
Salicylates, Oxalates, Sulfites, benzo ates, MSG, Non protein amino acids, Glycosides, Catechin, Terpenoid
,Akaloids including solanine and chaconine, Triterpenes,Lignins, Saponins, Phytic acid, and Isoflaones disrupts and feeds the bad bacteria in your microbiome including Lactobacillus, Bifidobacterium, lactococci, streptococci(only certain subtypes) Enterococci, Lactobacillus fermentum, Lactobacillus plantarum, Lactobacillus rhamnosus, Lactobacillus paracasei, Lactobacillus gasseri, Lactobacillus reuteri, Lactobacillus salivarius, Lactobacillus helveticus
Clostridium, Faecalibacterium, Eubacterium, Ruminococcus, Peptococcus, Peptostreptococcus, Acinetobacter calcoaceticus
Bacteroides, Bifidobacterium, Streptococcus, Enterobacteriaceae, Enterococcus, Lactobacillus, and Ruminococcus, Campylobacter, Clostridium perfringens which makes things worse plus all that stuff converts to sugar which feeds candida. Carnivore diet is far better for reseting the gut
I just did an interview with Natasha from GAPS. I will post it in the next few days.
I don’t know if it was the Lex ct, or my lifestyle. But I feel like I got hit with a baseball batt on the head and on the butt and been running around like a chicken without a head.
Could it be both?
@@AngiePeacockMSW yes I think it’s both and then just Lex caused too much instability and irritation like the final straw that broke the camels back
Please make a video on setbacks, it will be very helpful.
I am 6 weeks off xanax, and had two major setbacks due to unawareness.
Do the setbacks affect healing of neuro receptors? or they just trigger some intense symptoms that get settle with time?
I sure will!
Ive been on antipsychotics. Please help me. I'm bedridden, can barely get out of bed with severe anhedonia.
Does this get any better? Please...
YES!!! anhedonia does get better , very slowly. How are you now?
Does using cannabis slow healing from protracted withdrawal? I’m 2 years of off everything, and use cannabis to stop the jumps and akathisia at night, so I can sleep.
I don’t think anyone could know that. It would be up to you to decide that for yourself.
Im suffering from akathisia im on atavin do you think stem cell treatment would help
I haven’t seen stem cells work, no. Just have to taper off and let your body heal. There are magic cures or we’d all be taking them.
Hi hun, glad you’re doing great! So proud of you ❤
Question. Dose symptoms get more and worse or if you started ok you won’t get more symptoms coming your way? I’de really appreciate your answer Xx
Some can feel worse some go away, new ones will come, old ones may come back. Healing is not linear. But!!! The good news is you are always healing underneath those symptoms. Healing is sure!
@@AngiePeacockMSW ♥️🙏🏽😘
Angie did your brains feel mushy
Yes while I was tapering and then when I was off after cold turkey - it lasted a few years for me
@@AngiePeacockMSWwhy do you feel so toxic
@@AngiePeacockMSWmake a video on when you’re on fire how you handle that your whole body
@@AngiePeacockMSWyou need to make a video about your nervous system thank you
I would like to join protracted withdrawal group
You’re not protracted yet. Everyone in our group is 2+ years off ALL PSYCH DRUGS.
❤️🙏
Told another mental health advocate that it's been a year off prescription Ativan. I hear what you're saying. What you're saying... all this feeling... I've been sedated on psych pills since I was 20. I had no idea my brain is beyond non functioning. I'm so angry. The tears won't stop much either. I don't have another sixty years for a do over.
Thank you for your help.
Hi. Someone recommended I watch Angie's stories from a Facebook group I recently joined. There are so many to watch and I also get overwhelmed by hearing about the trauma you have experienced from injuries and withdrawal. I was wondering if someone knows where to lead me to
any videos I could ask my husband to watch. I want him to be prepared for what he could possibly deal with from a care takers role. Not that I am hoping I wld need much from him but I don't want him worried from lack of understanding.
Your husband should watch this one: ua-cam.com/video/FzJ3q_JwjeE/v-deo.htmlsi=olE1sqAWSkPzfR-f
780days off 80 to 86 percent healed still tinitus still broken sleep 6 7 hours take metapralol succinate 75 mg and ivabradine for fast heart rate feel low energy sym when I feel normal
Anger frustration sadness
No motivation is that healing? ♥️🙏🏽
Could be part of your process yes.
12.42gmt Irish time,,Angi I've watched a few of your videos and I have to say your a miracle,,I've a big problem with benzos and antidepressants I'm full of fear and anxiety I'm afraid even to go out I worrie about everything I need help am I going to die in withdrawal
No you cannot die from withdrawal unless you cold turkey benzos and have irretractable seizures which is pretty rare. Just don't cold turkey. Google "benzo buddies forum" and "survivingantidepressants" and learn SAFE TAPERING STRATEGIES> Do not cold turkey!
Thanks Angie I'm just full of fear I can't even leave my room most days and always in bed Thanks for your advice is it normal to feel this way
@@AngiePeacockMSW Thanks Angie I looked up benzo buddies I'm just so scared of the withdrawals from valium and alproxalam terrible fear and anxiety hope u don't mind me emailing you from time to time,??
Where is your protracted group?
It’s only open to clients who have had at least one session with me. I have to get to know you a little first to make sure the group stays safe and supportive to each other. It meets twice a month rotating a Saturday morning and a Thursday evening every month. If this is something you are interested in, you can book a session through www.Angiepeacock.com
@@AngiePeacockMSW I’m on your website now! Look forward to connecting soon.
@::kari::exhales:: Angie is a awsome just awsome coach..SHE IS M Y COACH
i have a lot of fatigue and fogginess i stopped the drug 5 years ago cold turkey what can i do to be free of smptoms
Hi hon, hope you are well
If the Ativan became toxic while taken it dose that mean the brain would find it more difficult to withdraw from it or it wouldn’t make a difference xx
I think releasecfs could help you get better! Lots of people with the same symptoms, it could be that all the trauma of all your experiences on these drugs and being disconnected from the inner you (inner child work) is still creating all the horrible symptoms.
Lots of people in the same boat that switch to this work are healing. It’s not just yoga or meditation, it goes wayy deeper!
I’ve been doing that stuff for several years and it hasn’t helped me. I also have palinopsia.
@@AngiePeacockMSW yeah me too, also palinopsia, or just Visual Snow. Just wanted to throw it out there. This program was really different for me and is helping me with a lot of WD symptoms.
@@Dylan-od2mp palinopsia and snow are two different phenomenon.
Angie, I found you because I was watching Natasha Campbell. I have been dealing with severe depression and was prescribed an ssri. I haven’t taken in yet and don’t know an alternative. I’ve been working on healing gut almost 3 wks. But it’s not happening quick enough. Any advice?
I’m happy to do a consultation with you if you’d like to book one as it’s really hard to message back and forth on social media. I can’t work that way. I’ll just say you have to go on a personal healing journey and try to get to the bottom of what’s happening in your life. Do you have a history of other psych drugs or antibiotics that could have ruined your gut? What is the ROOT CAUSE of your depression?
Hello. Is having a burning feeling all over my body normal for withdrawal? Also some joint pain. Thank you
Yes! Both are common symptoms I hear every single day in coaching sessions with people.
Hi babe, another question please
When you don’t have an episode n you’re having a calm day but feeling no joy is that still healing x or do you have to have an episode to be healing ? Thank you very much
Good day Xx
Yes, sometimes it takes a while for the good feelings to come back. Calmness is one step towards healing so that is a very good sign!
What were the 3 previous brain injuries from?
Skydiving x2, another time my 120 LB dog ran into me head first, I lost consciousness, and flew 7 feet away and dislocated my shoulder and ripped everything. That was the worst one, believe it or not. I had post-concussive syndrome for 2 months after that one.
How do you feel about magnesium spray?
some react to it some don't. Weigh the risks and benefits and decide for yourself.
Im curious if you are able to consume caffeine? Or do you consume caffeine now?
Yes I sure do! Every day!
@AngiePeacockMSW at what year after going cold turkey did you introduce caffeine??
Angie, thoughts on antibotics during this hell?
See my video about setbacks. It’s from a few months ago.
@AngiePeacockMSW ok thanks.
I've been thinking about this and I have a question, if that's ok?
You talked about doing neuroplasticity stuff. I know you said about focusing on the stuff that is working, but did you try anything else in that department? I tried DNRS awhile back, but I'm not sure it's for me.
I did a lot of principles in this book: amzn.to/44Aw7Ml but basically applied the principles to all of my symptoms. I also tried to create small, positive experiences for myself and build on them to sort of teach my brain some of the good stuff again. It didn’t come back for me all that easily. I need to make another video about this stuff, huh?
I read that book after your recommendation, but I need to revisit it, I think. I try to focus on the tiny good things when they happen, but I'm not in a very positive state of mind, no matter how much I try to be, and good things actually make me sad because I can't feel them fully. I feel like there's always an invisible barrier between me and the world from the DPDR. It was encouraging to see that that symptom lifted for you. I know how difficult it makes everything. Anyway, yeah, a video would be great. I'd like to try something different and I'd look forward to your ideas. Thank you.
I also got visual snow since they added too much serotonin too my AD with 7 boosting serotonin supplements. I was given 16mg lorazepam (Ativan) and am in WD and tapering since 8 months. I’m at 20mg Diazepam (Valium). So the visual snow gets worse every month. So it’s getting worse over time or permanent?
You can’t say that while tapering. It’s being caused by your taper. That stuff usually goes away as you are healing.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you for answering 🙏🏼. Even the visual disturbances mostly go away or improve during healing? I mostly hear Visual Snow is permanent when induced by SSRI or too much serotonin. I got very severe light sensitivity, seeing pixels in low light conditions and very blurry and stroboscopic flashes in the dark, even with eyes closed. due to too much serotonin which I had for 5 months bc I was set on 45mg mirtazapine and 7 serotonin supplements like ashwaganda, tryptophan, 5-htp. Being super sensitive for light and got a burning skin and fever while in daylight and my body just turned off with hyper stress by just a tiny bit of light. I was CT’d of 45mg mirtazapine and put on benzo’s and 50mg quetiapine to sleep, benzo’s I’m now withdrawing off. Now in benzo WD I also start to see more distrurbances the lower I go, halo’s around lights and starbursts around lights are getting bigger and worse and have like you palinopsia while reading or ghosting effect around objects. I still need to taper off for like more than a year so I’m quite anxious that I will have permanent visual loss or disturbances. How are you dealing with that? It drives me crazy being inside all the time in low light conditions.
Can bug bites stimulate or aggravate the symptoms? I am 6 weeks off, but since a week, feeling intense head pressure and jerks, strange body sensations.that were not there before.
Why I am feeling worse?
How do I see your taoering group ? Thank you
Www.Angiepeacock.com and click on “book a session.” You’ll see it right there.
The comments. Wow.
Did you have PSSD?
Yep for 16 years.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I'm sorry to hear. Have you had any improvement over time? I took Citalopram in 2012, Zoloft in 2013-14, Venlafaxine in 2015, Citalopram 2015-2022, had my last pill June 2022. 1 year later I have ED, zero erogenous sensation in my penis and emotional blunting. Volunteering for @PSSDNetwork to hopefully one day figure out what the hell is going on.
@@AngiePeacockMSW You still have it ?
Hey Simon.. my Ed and numbness and lack of feel down there resolved pretty much at about 4 years off.
12.55gmt I'm really scared
Did you ever feel like your faith in God strengthened during your drig injury process ? Or weakened? Just curious.
Both
@@AngiePeacockMSWSame. Comes in waves
Do you think someone taking antipsychotics will heal? Im on two and cant seem to get off the olanzapine
Yes, people come off and heal from APs all the time. It is possible.
Hey angie did you have blood sugar crashing issues like hypoglycemia and skin issues? When you stoped medication.
Absolutely the first few years. They went away on their own. You can go back and watch my other videos. I probably talked about it somewhere.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I will. My blood sugar issues are horrible I crash so bad I feel like fainting which is really scary I am on my 4th year without meds I was on them for about 6 years I am 28 years old I want to persue a phd degree in USA but I am scared I feel like I wont survive there alone due to my symptoms. My skin has red spots/lesions which is so scary. Thanks for answering .meas alot💕
Love and support.
@@AngiePeacockMSWu r taking metapralol succinate now please answer
@@rameshlumb4003 no. I stopped that the first year. I do not take anything.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you
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Walmart I hate I go in and I feal like one then silver balls in a pin ball game fuckin bing bing big all over the store I'm all over it bing Bing Bing bang as I hit the door wtf mom said I said dont worry mom games lol bing bing bing bang Everytime I can not ever enjoy it i shaking uncomfortable all stiff my voice is slow delayed sluggish not good i wiah i could enjoy it damn truth
You are not “helping” others….without paying….
You are not giving…..you charge so much…
Everything you do is for a price….
I have 7 1/2 years of training and have a masters degree and have 8 1/2 years of living through this. I see many for free when I can. I have support circles for $25. I worked for free for this community for 7 years. Should I work for free and be homeless to help you? The video you just watched was free.
@@AngiePeacockMSWgreat response angie. You're supprt groups are good and $25 is affordable.