I do now:) I am 19 and in college. I am in recovery, even though it's hard. Sometimes I fail, but I try to remember that everyday I take care of myself is a win, even if taking care of myself looks different on different days. I hope you know who you are too! xoxo
Watching this is making me want to try and be more honest with my therapist. I'm in treatment for ADD, depression and generalised anxiety disorder, but was too scared to hell him about (among things) my eating problems. I'm gonna try and tell him.Thank you.
Isabel Phan What you are doing is an incredibly brave thing to seek help. I suffer from bipolar type 1, severe anxiety and ADD, and it took me loosing touch with reality and my mom physically bringing me to the hospital to get help, and another year for me to accept I needed help. I hope in the next year I can work again and attend college as i am almost 26 and this has all held me back. But I do want to tell you, you are never alone, If you start doing extremely well with your goals and you fall back a bit, that is okay, we are human all we can do is try our best. Never compromise your personal health for anyone. And never guilt your self into believing you deserve to suffer, this is hard and consistent work. Embrace the positive aspects of your ADD, anxiety and yes even depression. For me it was Art, sewing, creating, writing. And fine the one person in your friend or family you can truly talk to. I know you can recover, as can I or anyone who is recovering, we just need to take our own time.
Stephanie Regimbal That is honestly so sweet of you, thank you so much! ^-^ I decided therapy couldn't be avoided any longer when i had to quit university and am now working to hopefully go back in September. I try to do at least one thing a day no matter how tiny and just accept it and be proud of the things i do even though I'm not close to actually being productive yet. The creative side of it all (especially drawing) has been really helpful to me as well and I managed to keep a few close friends i can confide in despite all the hardship. I wish you the best of luck on your road to recovery, you are a wonderful person and deserve pure and utter happiness. :)
This video was posted the day I went into recovery. I've been in and out for the past year. I'm officially done. This video has helped through my journey and I hope it helps others. Thank you.
This is so motivating because I have had an eating disorder. It is so hard to move past it. I at only 300 calories each meal and made sure of it. I starved myself until I couldn't stand it anymore. For days I cried and said, "why am I fat?" I was obsessed at looking at my weight, making sure I didnt gain anything, but lost something. " Work harder" I always told myself. One day, I looked at my weight. I gained a lot of weight and looked at my stomach and it looked great. I thought in my head, " It's just broken " and I have never payed attention to it again. I want all those people that have eating disorders to know that I am here for them and I will help them through this. It is going to be okay.
My best friend had an eating disorder. I was the only one who knew and I ended up telling our head of year because she refused to get help. She hasn't been friends with me since but I'm so glad that I told someone as she is now a lot better.
+Tallulah Williams That is so strong of you. By doing that it makes you an amazing friend. I hope your friend realises what a good friend you were because sometimes, standing up to your friend is better than agreeing with them just so they won't be mad at you. If you hadn't done that, your friend might not even be here today ❤️
I sincerely believe in you Harriet. I know you can do this and even if you don't see this, I hope anyone who has ANY problem affecting them personally can see this and know that I'm supporting them. YOU CAN DO IT ❤️
+ClandestineGirl16X Same here. Bulimic for 7 years. Started recovery 5 years ago, for 2 years fully recovered. It takes a lot of patience and it's not easy but it's definitely worth it. I've gained back my live and I no longer identify myself with ED. And so at this moment I know who I am without my ED. I believe you can do it. Keep in mind that everything is in our heads: "We are what we think. With our thoughts, we make the world".
Hello! Just wanted to give a quick update - fully in recovery and happily attending UMass Amherst. Thank you for all of your love and support. Sending positive energy and love to all of you!
I watched this ever since last year when I was battling severe bulimia. Watching it again as I have fully recovered makes me tear again. I'm so happy I have recovered. And I know I was more worthy than this disorder. To those suffering who's in the process of recovery, you CAN DO IT. You are more worth than this disorder.
Sarah Charlotte Thank you so much. I found ways to cope by eating foods low in fat but high in carbs and by avoiding foods that bloat me to help with my body dismorphia :) You are a very kind person.
I am a male that is recovering from an eating disorder and would really like to make a video about it from the opposite gender. I felt very alone in my recovery because I was the only boy and couldn't relate with a lot of what my group members talked about. There are a lot of boys out there that struggle with the same issues so it would be very helpful to them if a video like that existed
***** Not much you can do about that unfortunately/: Just keep smiling and keep being proud :) That's what I always say in all my vlogs. Don't worry about negative people.
Mary Nehme I don't know you, so I can't say you are brave, nice, smart, kind, or any of those things. All I know is you thought you weren't pretty enough. But, statistically speaking, with over 7 billion people in the world, I bet at least 20 people, who may or may not know you, have thought, "Wow! I wish I was that beautiful!" or "Oh, look at that fine girl!" And remember you have a right to be here.
+Mary Nehme hi, maybe a little bit late, but i know the feeling of depression. Music helped me a lot, try to find something what gives you peace/rest. Well at least that's what helped me, i hope it helps you to
I don't think a video has ever moved me as much as this one has. I'm so proud of this girl, and we may be strangers but I'm so proud of her. This story left me speechless and with tears pouring down my face. I'm proud of her for fighting and being brave enough to share her story. Thank you, Harriet.
I'm 16 and I've been struggling with bulimia for a year, I have never told my parents, I am trying really hard to stop purging, so far I have gone 2 months without purging, I think I might overcome this by myself.
The more people you tell, the more support and accountability you'll have. When I was struggling with eating issues, body dysmorphia, depression and self harm I didn't feel I could tell my parents, but I found someone who I could be open with ( my sister in law) and it helped so much. I told my parents later on and they said they wished they could have helped me through it. I thought they would be mad and blame me, but they were the best people I could have possibly gone to. You're beautiful. Remember that no matter who you are, what you have done, how you look, where you are from, or how you live, you are a priceless and beautiful human being. You are worthy of living life to the fullest, being loved and loving yourself.
That was beautiful and inspiring. I really like it when you upload videos like this Buzzfeed ! And Harriet has so much courage to put herself out there like that ! I hope she will overcome her struggles and be happy !
Clean from self harm since I was 13 and clean from purging since I was 14. Only recently have I actually emotionally recovered but I can tell all of you struggling; it will get better. I promise you. It might not happen overnight, it might take a while, but it will because you are enough and more. Just stay strong, my loves.
When ever I see something about an eating disorder, I click on it hoping that it'll help me. Im not anorexic though. Anorexia isn't the only eating disorder! How do I get over binging?
set a meal plan. something that will keep you fuller throughout the day and if you feel like binging, distract yourself. have breakfast, morning snack, lunch, afternoon snack, and then dinner. try and keep it around 1400-2000 calories a day:) hope this helped!
Dezarae Bartlett I really appreciate, but its not like that. Its like how you can't tell an anorexic person to go eat a cake. Half the time I do it without even thinking about it. Its hard to explain
Dezarae Bartlett I would suggest whenever you sit down and eat, try to focus as much as possible on how you are enjoying the food and how if you are aware of that and eat slower, the food will be more beneficial to your body. This will help you not eat without enjoying the food, it will help keep you aware of just how much food you can eat before your body signals it is content, and you will start to feel less guilty because you are making an effort each time to pay attention and enjoy a beneficial amount of food. I know you can do this, even though it'll take much effort. I just want you to start off with the mindset that you will succeed. Thank you for listening, and I wish you the best!
When I was 9 Stopped gaining weight. I ate less food and I didn't realise that it was really bad. So when I was 12 I hade a big panic attack. It was horrible and I never want to be like that again. This is Going to sound really cheesy but I got stronger With the help of God. Now don't get panic atacks anymore and I'm almost normal weight. In the last year i gained 9 kilo grams. To Everyone With weight problems I have one thing to say. Fight. You Will get there but YOU have to want it and fight for it.
Lovisa Andersson This is beautiful and I am so proud of you for overcoming your eating disorder. I, myself, am not sure whether or not I believe in God but I am so glad that your faith helped you overcome such a destructive condition.
Idk if like everybody's happy today or something but I've watched like 20 videos today and civet only seen like 5 shitty comments in total. Must be a new record.
It certainly resonates with a lot of people. I hope Harriet is being told this. I'm fortunate enough to have been told by recovering parties before it got bad, but even so, it's a fight every day that I always feel like I'm losing. The pounds are disappearing even when I convince myself I'm eating better. This is definitely a story a lot of people understand in varying amounts.
Made me cry. Recovery is possible. I never believed it would be but it is. I've recently celebrated my 1st dessert (pecan pie) in 7 years. 7 years without sweets! I missed out but I'm back now and at my happiest. Good luck Harriet, you are enough
Yes you are Harriet! You are enough! What a great video, full of motivation, hope, and happiness. You truly will make a lot of people happy. Be who you are no matter what. Love yourself! Proud of you girl! Congrats to BuzzFeed as well, this is a movement.
Dear Harriet, This was an incredible video. You are so creative and inspiring. To want to recover is such an amazing and beautiful thing and I am so proud of you. You will get through this. I send you the best of luck and lots of love. Stay strong.
I don't have an eating disorder but as a sufferer of anxiety disorders I have so much compassion for those t who do! I understand what it's like to have an inner battle in your head. They are different battles but I understand what it takes to take control of your mind I stead of your mind controlling you. With the right help and support we all have the inner strength and determination to overcome mental illness in whatever form they take! Stay strong 😊! xxx
Poor baby girl. You are so brave and so strong Harriet. Thank you for sharing your struggle and story. You are loved. You are wanted. You are so resilient. And YOU are beautiful. Yes, YOU reading this too.. you are BEAUTIFUL. And so worthy. X
I got the shivers after seeing this video. Coz I'm that girl. I'm not on an actual disorder yet, and I constantly remind myself skipping meals won't do anything. But I overwork myself doing workouts even though I'm just 13. I'm not that fat. But I always felt like I'm not enough. This video made me think about what my future will be if I continue overworking myself that my arms hurt. This video is making me think twice. But I will continue. But I will limit this exercising. I promise I won't skip meals and I will eat healthy. Therefore you have helped me today. Thank you.
You are so brave and so strong. I admire people recovering from eating disorders immensely because I've seen how it can consume and destroy a life. I also was in and out of a hospital ages 15-17. Not for an eating disorder, but for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I have also seen first hand how OCD can consume and destroy a life. I recognize your worksheet papers, I'm guessing from the hospital. I hope for the best for you and that you are successful in your recovery. Remember this; sufferers of mental illness aren't victims, they're survivors. You are a survivor of your illness, and you inspire me so much. If anyone viewing is interested, my channel is a mental health awareness channel, where I talk about ways to improve your mental health and my own experiences. There is a whole community of mental health UA-camrs who are here to help you when you are struggling. If you want to, come check us out. We're here to help.
I'm crying rn... I hope you end this year feeling extremely happy and proud of yourself Harriet! Big thank you to buzzfeed for showing me and other people here this story. This girl is so strong.... I don't know what it's like to have an eating disorder but lately I have been worried, I will not put any labels on it, but, I have been skipping meals and comparing my naturally bigger body to people around me..... I'm going to try to love myself and people around me more. Thank you Harriet and buzzfeed!! Your journey has been worthwhile!! TAKE CARE ANYONE WHO IS READING THIS!!!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, STRONG AND ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey, Harriet here. Yeah, the truth is I didn't show my face in this video because I was in the hospital and I thought it might be triggering for other people and for myself looking back on this video. Voices are forever, and voices can't be a trigger to oneself or others. This video still helps me to this day because I see who I was at that time beyond the sickness. I like it because this video remains timeless, who I am and who I was, despite the changes in my body. I am still going through changes, and it's hard, but it helps that I can look back and remember what is constant: my honest and my compassion. That is me, in sickness and in health, and knowing that I am always there helps me less feel alone even during the dark times.
This is great. . .I'm so happy that Harriet finally got over her anorexia. She happens to be my best friend's sister, and I saw what she went through some of the time.
thank you for sharing your story Harriet. Like you i knew i needed to make a change and from the summer of 2014 decided i would do it and focus on being happy and recovering. all i can say is that it has worked. i'm so much stronger than before, in a much better place and altogether happier. having happiness as a goal allows you to totally focus and just works! the ending of this video made me cry, it's just what you need to hear sometimes and it makes me believe i can carry on. i am enough. i wish you all the best and thanks again xxx
I cried. My heart goes out to you Harriet, as a fellow 17 year old struggling with her body. I may not have an eating disorder, but sometimes I feel like I need to resort to purging or restricting to get my body to where I want it to be. I'm not even fat, but I feel disgusting at times. But other times, I feel beautiful. Because like you said-- I am. We all are. My body shouldn't be my preoccupation, my health should. Our body shouldn't be our preoccupation, our health should. As a someone who also wants to promote a positive body image to girls our age-- I believe in you, me, and all of us. ❤️
I don't usually comment on videos but this video touched me more than anything has ever before. I have b.e.d disorder and I have been called fat many times. When I was 11 was when I started getting upset about my weight and condition. I decided that was the time when I would work my way to overcoming my addiction. Recently and over this past year now and I have lost weight but not a lot but it felt like not much. I am now almost 13 and I got depressed again and lost my courage again. After watching this I was in tears and am so pumped to continue my journey overcome my eating disorder. We ARE enough! Don't let anyone bring you down about your weight. Thank you Harriet for giving me the inspiration to restart my life eating disorder free! I can't tell you how much this video and Harriet has moved me.
The letter at 2:12 sounded so very much like one that my mom once wrote me. Eating disorders are such unintentionally selfish monsters. They make us forget how much we matter to those around us. You do matter. I matter.
i never noticed that letter, but i just screenshotted it and sent it to my dad. it literally just brought me to tears 5 years later. he always had my back, and still does everyday. i couldn’t ask for a better father.
I remember when I first started, and I didn't even know that I had been developing an eating disorder. I skipped meals, I would stop myself from eating snacks or too much, I would even shove a toothbrush down my throat, and even today I will only eat one small meal a day because I just want to feel like all the other girls out there. I thought that I was fat and I hated myself for that, and most of the time, I still do hate myself. I'm trying to get better, but it's just so hard. As a teen, I shouldn't be this way and I know that. But I want to make it. I'm trying to make it. I want to be better.
Why I was in high school, I was in LOVE with my best girl friend. She called me at like 2am, one night crying, and proceeded to tell me she felt like dying, she was sick, she hates her self. That's when she told me she had bulimia. I thought she was the most beautiful person I'd ever seen, but she described herself as if she was some hideous monster. I just remember staying up at night feeling hopeless because I cared so much for her, yet my efforts to help her failed. I couldn't imagine what she felt like... Your story brought tears to me eyes just thinking those times. I truly wish you the best! I hope you surpass this, and truly grow up to be happy!!
Never had an eating disorder but almost did because of seeing all the "thinspo" junk on Instagram I started dieting unhealthy for a few days. Then I stopped because I didn't want to get a disorder like that. But I can understand this video. Get well Harriet.
My heart goes out to anybody who has seen or is currently watching this beautiful video. Harriet I have no doubt that you have touched the lives of so many that are struggling with anorexia, including myself. You are a wonderful, beautiful, extraordinarily strong young woman... Stay strong darling, you are loved. The same for anybody who is struggling and reads this. You are worthy, you are loved, and you are enough. Thank you for being so brave for sharing your story Harriet! Wishing you recovery and happiness
as someone who is diagnosed with anorexia I think the thing I want people to know is 1) eating disorders are genetic, people have found common genes in people who have been diagnosed. 2) you never recover from eating disorders, although they do get better it is common to struggle with an ed throughout different periods of your life. 3) a person who has an ed isn't doing it for your attention (but some people do fake them for attention, which I don't get) if they really have one they are probably secretive and keep it hidden. 4) if you don't have a full dsm-5 diagnosis, do NOT say you have an eating disorder: not only is it disrespectful it is also detrimental to how people perceive individuals with EDs
+Liv Ellerton if you look through youtube and other internet videos and support groups, you will find that there is a lot of support on that subject too. Just always be careful, because you will find triggering stuff that is NOT recovery oriented or helpful (pictures of self harm, talks of methods and such), but listening to people's stories of recovery from self harm can be inspiring. Just be sure to stay clear of the triggering stuff.
What a brave and beautiful soul! I have a family member who struggles with anorexia nervosa. Thank you, beautiful and brave, Harriet. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'd love to see a video of her a year from now! I know Harriet's got it in her to change and be healthier, happier and stronger. So much love from this part of the world xo
Omgosh, she is so lovely. I've been on my way struggeling with anorexia my whole life. Last years it went really bad. But this video is going to be my reason to recover❤
I think they should make a video, "what's it like to have an eating disorder". I'd really like to see that, trying to recover myself btw:// and people have no idea how horrible eds actually are... they think it's a choice, they think that just by eating you'll recover. But no, it's mental. It's a nightmare. I would appreciate it if Buzzfeed would make a video about that!❤
there really is no "they" here. Harriet generously took it upon herself to share her story in the hope of helping others. Anyone with any disorder can do the same thing. Plus there is a lot of info on the internet about most of these issues. Best of luck.
Am I the only one who proud with my own body? I may don't have big butt but still I'm happy to be in this world and happy to be such a healthy person. I do eat healthly and balancing my exercise activities :)
+GingerCat23 I think it's just so hard for people with and ED to even think of 'being healthy' that they may read this and cause them sadness because they can't do that too.
I feel like something inside of me just snapped, hearing about your journey through all this. I find it incredibly wonderful that you were able to realise that something was wrong, because I know that's the hardest part for people going through what you are going through. Seeing the letter from you Dad brought tears to my eyes and I feel like you've made me realise something, although what that something is I am unsure of. I also want to ask your advice, about helping a friend who has recently had problems eating. I have noticed her skipping meals and going to the toilet after she eats, making me worry she is throwing up her food. I feel like crying when I think about it and I don't know what to do. Please, if there is anything you know helped you realise what was wrong, tell me, because I cannot stand here and watch her wilt away. I also don't know whether to tell someone. I feel like I would be betraying her trust if I spoke to someone about it - especially adults as they never seem to take us seriously. I don't know who to talk to about, and I don't know how to talk to her about it, and it's killing me. Please help me, I don't know what to do. I assume you know what she is going through and therefore will be able to say things that may cause her to realise that she is throwing away her life. I know that these things are not always a choice but it's breaking my heart to watch and I wish that even if she couldn't do it for herself, she could do it for me and for everyone else who loves her. I feel so unsure about everything, and I know that I am probably just overreacting but I AM TERRIFIED of all the things that could go wrong. I would never forgive myself if she took it too far. Please, I am begging you, or someone..... ANYONE who reads this... please, please help me. I need to know what to do, how to handle this. I know that if I say one thing wrong it could spiral out of control and I could seriously screw everything up. I need your help. Please.
This genuinely made me cry. Absolutely beautiful. Stay strong Harriet, and anyone else out there with eating disorders. You are enough, you are beautiful, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise ❤️💖💜
This is so moving. I'm trying my hardest as well to overcome anorexia, and am planning on telling my parents about my eating disorder. I'm going to get the help I know I need, and I hope anyone reading this comment who has an eating disorder will do the same.
Thank you Harriet. I have been struggling with my ed for 4 years and had a really good stretch for about the last year but recently all the bad thoughts have been coming back and I am fighting so hard not to relapse and this video really helped me. as I write this I'm eating and I'm not upset about so thank you for reminding me that I am strong enough to beat this, and that I am enough. I hope your journey is going well 💗🍓🌸
AMEN. This video hit the nail on the head. You cannot get back the years you have lost to this illness, but you can work hard to recover and enjoy the blessed years to come.
I'm 13 and I have depression. I know I'm sad and I get vey upset every day about it I just want it to be over. But I also know I want to be here and I hope when I get out of this I will be a bigger better person and I know I can do great things. I know I'm enough but right now that's really hard to say
Joel Galindo It's not being spoilerf jack ass, you just don't know that everyone goes through different things and not everyone has the same opinion and idea as you. Just because we're all human doesn't mean we're all the same
Joel Galindo youre an ass, first of all. second of all, depression is a psychological issue that can't really be helped from developing. you cant control depression. its not a thing that you can do easily.
Keep believing you're enough and you really are! I'm so sorry that you can't see how beautiful you are cause your disorder is lying to you. I'll be praying for you and things will be okay eventually you just got to keep fighting!!!!
I know this may not help since I've never had depression but what I would do if I did have depression is i would wake up very early and gather some picnic foods and water and go out on a sunny day and lie on my back in a big feild of grass and look at the sky. Light helps me so if u like this idea you can do that if you want! Also don't sleep in sleeping in makes you want to stay in bed all day
This just made me cry so much it sounds just like me without hospitalization. I lived with people that didn't know what any of that was. I lied on the suicidal test so they didn't admit me, and since I was still in the low healthy weight zone nothing else mattered. My doctor couldn't change their minds. I'm 19 now and still struggle. There have been a few really hard times but it does get better. Little by little you can begin to create yourself, your life. I can breathe again. For any of you out there suffering, you are beautiful. I know you don't see it, I struggle with seeing my own sometimes. But you are, and you are strong. I believe in you.
Is feeling like the food I'm eating is gonna make me even fatter an eating or mental disorder? I feel like I'm jut constantly putting on weight because of my depression. My parents would tell me to exercise so I would have a flat stomach like my sister:(. I feel like nothing can change my parent's pe view towards me and honestly I feel like they love my sister more.
I think it starts at that. I've been struggling with bulimia and that is how it started for me. I couldn't hold food in because I had an uncontrollable paranoid feeling that it was going to make me gain weight. I would get so physically sick, the only things that I wouldn't throw up was soup, I lived like that for 2 years, lost a lot of weight and looked like a sickly pale ghost. It started with my ex, who made me feel less than human for being overweight, then me being compared to my sister, who was always naturally slim. Honestly, the only thing that saved me was crossfit, it made me change the way I saw my body, instead of wanting to be skinny, I wanted to be strong. I am no longer doing crossfit, but I do exercise and I eat moderately healthy, if I do eat too much junk food I still do get physically sick, but it barely happens now. I am not a skinny supermodel, my stomach isn't flat (I have a little bit of a belly), but I am a healthy weight and I am doing this for myself. Avoid listening to what others tell you, if you want to change, change for yourself and for your health, because at the end of it all, you are the one living in your body. I'm sorry that your parents compare you to your sister, it's not right of them and I don't think they realise how much of an effect this has on you. Perhaps talk to them about it? Tell them how it makes you feel. I would also suggest seeing someone before an eating disorder starts, I wish I did.
don't think like that! You are beautiful, and if your own parents can't see that they must be blind. Everyone is beautiful in their own way and if you parents can't see that or keep comparing you to your sister, what they think doesn't deserve to have an impact on your thoughts, ideas and beliefs. Be strong! You are beautiful no matter what you think or who tells you otherwise. xoxo
Cassidy Jackson Hey, hun. Reach out. It's the scariest, but the most important decision you could make. I've been there too. It's possible to gain that self love that you know you're running after. I'm here if you need to vent or if you have any questions about recovery.
You just have to have in mind, that every type of body is good IF you treat it good! It must be really hard I understand, keep on trying to have a positive body image!
+Christina Pate Thank god, I hope the people who are watching this video realize how lucky they are. Your body is - like all bodies - great. If anyone tells you otherwise, *** them! Take care of yourself. Eat when you're hungry, treat yourself every once in a while with something yummy and live life.
+- ̗̀ Sara Matilda ̖́- I've learned to do that. Which is amazing considering where I'm coming from. My rock bottom was binging and purging 4 times a day And at 5'6' got down to 105
I'm 11 and my weight is 94lbs. I have a restricted diet and it's not because I'm anorexic. People say to me "are you anorexic? You eat so little" it some variation of that. I understand that I eat little but I have no control over what I can and can't eat. I know this is off topic but does anyone struggle with this problem, it makes me insecure and I hate it.
+Maddy K You aren't love. I started self harm when I was about 11 and it took me until I was around 14 to really realize what I was doing and why I was doing it. Keep fighting because you are enough.
I feel like everyone in the world needs to see this, regardless of weather they have an eating disorder or not. This needs to be seen, awareness needs to be raised, this is empowering. I believe you can get through this and beat it. Keep fighting
I also want this to be the year I can look back and be proud of myself. I don't have an eating disorder, but I've been struggling really bad with depression and anxiety for the last year. I am 13 years old, I feel like I want to change, and I know I will. I have a little bit of hope left, and I hope, that that's enough to get me through. I'm so happy for you Harriet, and I'm glad you had this opportunity to show your story. This was amazing.
I think Buzzfeed deserves recognition for making this video wirh Harriet, And Thank you Harriet ! There isn't much about eating disorders out there, there's only how you get it but you never really see the recovery or the coping, the struggle is so real and revovery is entirely difficult, Keep fighting to whoever has an Eating Disorder right now and anything else that they have, keep fighting! At the end of every tunnel there is light
recovering from anorexia was the hardest 6 months of my life, but in the end it's happiness and hope that gets you through it
Hope you are better xx
Stay strong I know you can do it
Francesca Skidmore I'm so proud of how far you have come beautiful :)
Aditi Sonar obfuscate insanity gabby rivas Finding Fay thank you all so much:)) x
Yay I'm so happy for you!!
"I don't know who I am without my eating disorder" :(
💙💚💛💪💪👪🙏
You are a strong and beautiful person that deserves to be happy 💗
I do now:) I am 19 and in college. I am in recovery, even though it's hard. Sometimes I fail, but I try to remember that everyday I take care of myself is a win, even if taking care of myself looks different on different days. I hope you know who you are too! xoxo
i aspire to recover one day, you give me hope that it's possible. not yet, but one day
Farraz That's how I feel hahaha
I CAN'T LIKE THIS ENOUGH.
HomTail sure you can ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡ °)
Cure you san
James Jackson yes
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20 weeks clean 9 months anorexic fighting
thanks
Stay strong! You are beautiful.
brissa nolasco That's great! Your body is your body and you need to feel good about that
You can do it
Stay strong you cam do it~
3 years fully recovered. It gets better.
Thank you.
+Izzy Foster im proud of you
Im proud of you
Izzy congrats glad everything got better
Izzy I AM SO SO PROUD ❤️
I am enough. Strongest words anyone could ever say.
So true. Alejandro Garcia
Maybe, I will get out of this prison camp which my corrupt government is keeping me in?? That's sounds stronger to me
Watching this is making me want to try and be more honest with my therapist. I'm in treatment for ADD, depression and generalised anxiety disorder, but was too scared to hell him about (among things) my eating problems. I'm gonna try and tell him.Thank you.
Isabel Phan thats very brave of you ...all the best for your recovery
lilalolli93 Thank you so much :)
no Problem
Isabel Phan What you are doing is an incredibly brave thing to seek help. I suffer from bipolar type 1, severe anxiety and ADD, and it took me loosing touch with reality and my mom physically bringing me to the hospital to get help, and another year for me to accept I needed help. I hope in the next year I can work again and attend college as i am almost 26 and this has all held me back. But I do want to tell you, you are never alone, If you start doing extremely well with your goals and you fall back a bit, that is okay, we are human all we can do is try our best. Never compromise your personal health for anyone. And never guilt your self into believing you deserve to suffer, this is hard and consistent work. Embrace the positive aspects of your ADD, anxiety and yes even depression. For me it was Art, sewing, creating, writing. And fine the one person in your friend or family you can truly talk to. I know you can recover, as can I or anyone who is recovering, we just need to take our own time.
Stephanie Regimbal That is honestly so sweet of you, thank you so much! ^-^ I decided therapy couldn't be avoided any longer when i had to quit university and am now working to hopefully go back in September. I try to do at least one thing a day no matter how tiny and just accept it and be proud of the things i do even though I'm not close to actually being productive yet. The creative side of it all (especially drawing) has been really helpful to me as well and I managed to keep a few close friends i can confide in despite all the hardship. I wish you the best of luck on your road to recovery, you are a wonderful person and deserve pure and utter happiness. :)
oh my god I didn't expect to cry this much
armyy
;-;
sugakookies Hi Army!
sugakookies if you cried it probably means you can relate
Or maybe not
This video was posted the day I went into recovery. I've been in and out for the past year. I'm officially done. This video has helped through my journey and I hope it helps others. Thank you.
I'm really proud of you ❤️
This is so motivating because I have had an eating disorder. It is so hard to move past it.
I at only 300 calories each meal and made sure of it. I starved myself until I couldn't
stand it anymore. For days I cried and said, "why am I fat?" I was obsessed at looking
at my weight, making sure I didnt gain anything, but lost something. " Work harder" I
always told myself. One day, I looked at my weight. I gained a lot of weight and looked
at my stomach and it looked great. I thought in my head, " It's just broken " and I have never
payed attention to it again. I want all those people that have eating disorders to know that I
am here for them and I will help them through this. It is going to be okay.
That must have been so hard for you
My best friend had an eating disorder. I was the only one who knew and I ended up telling our head of year because she refused to get help. She hasn't been friends with me since but I'm so glad that I told someone as she is now a lot better.
+Tallulah Williams
That is so strong of you. By doing that it makes you an amazing friend. I hope your friend realises what a good friend you were because sometimes, standing up to your friend is better than agreeing with them just so they won't be mad at you. If you hadn't done that, your friend might not even be here today ❤️
xx_liadin_xx Thanks
Your comment has made me feel so much better about the whole thing
xxx
+Tallulah Williams
I'm glad it made you feel better xx ❤️
I sincerely believe in you Harriet. I know you can do this and even if you don't see this, I hope anyone who has ANY problem affecting them personally can see this and know that I'm supporting them. YOU CAN DO IT ❤️
I thank u...I know u don't know me and I don't know u but just seeing that ppl support one another is the best feeling
heather shea YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!
Brought tears to my eyes.Beautiful story.Have a great life.God bless you.I'm crying right now and I don't know why.♥.
Natasha Vucinovic You're a beautiful person, keep smiling!
me too
yeah
it was touching
It really was and I hope Harriet will be okay
Women.
I'm in tears. This really hit home hard.
same
Ulul
super inspiring video
I believe in you 💜
youll get through it xxx
+ClandestineGirl16X Same here. Bulimic for 7 years. Started recovery 5 years ago, for 2 years fully recovered. It takes a lot of patience and it's not easy but it's definitely worth it. I've gained back my live and I no longer identify myself with ED. And so at this moment I know who I am without my ED. I believe you can do it. Keep in mind that everything is in our heads: "We are what we think. With our thoughts, we make the world".
+ClandestineGirl16X I hope you're doing well. You can do it, you deserve a good life.
ClandestineGirl16X bulimic for 8 years working on recovery
Hello! Just wanted to give a quick update - fully in recovery and happily attending UMass Amherst. Thank you for all of your love and support. Sending positive energy and love to all of you!
I'm crying this was so beautiful 😭💖
Melanie Grier YOU are so beautiful!
You are also beautiful! ^^^
Me too.
Same
OMG I thought I might be the only one. It was so touching
Ladies & gentlemen, you're all BEAUTIFUL in the skin you're in! 😊
Thank you. I don't like what i look like but this helped me.
I watched this ever since last year when I was battling severe bulimia. Watching it again as I have fully recovered makes me tear again. I'm so happy I have recovered. And I know I was more worthy than this disorder. To those suffering who's in the process of recovery, you CAN DO IT. You are more worth than this disorder.
Been fighting Ana since I was 7. I'm 18 now and still fighting.
You can do it, love 💜 I believe in you
Sarah Charlotte Thank you so much. I found ways to cope by eating foods low in fat but high in carbs and by avoiding foods that bloat me to help with my body dismorphia :) You are a very kind person.
+Sophie Bortolotto all the best. :)
+ Sophie Bortolotto i hope you get better and I wish you luck! And my name is Sophie too i made up my name 😂😶😅😶
I really hope you get better. I believe in you and I know you're enough.
I am a male that is recovering from an eating disorder and would really like to make a video about it from the opposite gender. I felt very alone in my recovery because I was the only boy and couldn't relate with a lot of what my group members talked about. There are a lot of boys out there that struggle with the same issues so it would be very helpful to them if a video like that existed
You can get through this. ❤️
Kate Herreid always nice to see such nice words in the comment section of youtube for a change, keep smiling Kate :)
***** Not much you can do about that unfortunately/: Just keep smiling and keep being proud :) That's what I always say in all my vlogs. Don't worry about negative people.
Am I the only one crying while watching this?
+Phåntôm I am but it is okay
no
i cried the entire video
I cried beacause of the ad....
Nope,not at all.
I've been free from habits since March 15, 2015. Nearly died. I'm so glad I'm still here.
+Brokendeductions Mun And so am I! I'm so proud of you!
Currently recovering from depression, cutting and my eating disorder... :)
Mary Nehme I don't know you, so I can't say you are brave, nice, smart, kind, or any of those things. All I know is you thought you weren't pretty enough. But, statistically speaking, with over 7 billion people in the world, I bet at least 20 people, who may or may not know you, have thought, "Wow! I wish I was that beautiful!" or "Oh, look at that fine girl!" And remember you have a right to be here.
Mary Nehme Keep it up! there is light at the end of the tunnel, don't ever forget that!
DONT CUT URSELF I WILL CRY IF YOU DO SO DONT OK??!!!?? ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
+Mary Nehme hi, maybe a little bit late, but i know the feeling of depression. Music helped me a lot, try to find something what gives you peace/rest. Well at least that's what helped me, i hope it helps you to
You can do this :)))
I don't think a video has ever moved me as much as this one has. I'm so proud of this girl, and we may be strangers but I'm so proud of her. This story left me speechless and with tears pouring down my face. I'm proud of her for fighting and being brave enough to share her story. Thank you, Harriet.
I'm 16 and I've been struggling with bulimia for a year, I have never told my parents, I am trying really hard to stop purging, so far I have gone 2 months without purging, I think I might overcome this by myself.
I'm overcoming depression by myself, it can happen.
You can do it!❤
Keep up the good work :)
Don´t be afraid to reach out for help,it did wonders for me
The more people you tell, the more support and accountability you'll have. When I was struggling with eating issues, body dysmorphia, depression and self harm I didn't feel I could tell my parents, but I found someone who I could be open with ( my sister in law) and it helped so much. I told my parents later on and they said they wished they could have helped me through it. I thought they would be mad and blame me, but they were the best people I could have possibly gone to. You're beautiful. Remember that no matter who you are, what you have done, how you look, where you are from, or how you live, you are a priceless and beautiful human being. You are worthy of living life to the fullest, being loved and loving yourself.
That was beautiful and inspiring. I really like it when you upload videos like this Buzzfeed ! And Harriet has so much courage to put herself out there like that ! I hope she will overcome her struggles and be happy !
2 months purge free, 1 month fast free
Ray Pegher You can do it. Keep smiling :)
I'm proud of you! You can get through this ❤️
YOU'RE DOING SO GREAT WE'RE ALL SO PROUD OF YOU *tosses confetti and summersaults out the door*
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU AND I LOVE YOU
great job!
Clean from self harm since I was 13 and clean from purging since I was 14. Only recently have I actually emotionally recovered but I can tell all of you struggling; it will get better. I promise you. It might not happen overnight, it might take a while, but it will because you are enough and more. Just stay strong, my loves.
When ever I see something about an eating disorder, I click on it hoping that it'll help me. Im not anorexic though. Anorexia isn't the only eating disorder! How do I get over binging?
set a meal plan. something that will keep you fuller throughout the day and if you feel like binging, distract yourself. have breakfast, morning snack, lunch, afternoon snack, and then dinner. try and keep it around 1400-2000 calories a day:) hope this helped!
Dezarae Bartlett I really appreciate, but its not like that. Its like how you can't tell an anorexic person to go eat a cake. Half the time I do it without even thinking about it. Its hard to explain
No I definitely understand, I struggle with anorexia b/p type. Just thought it would be helpful.. There are some books available online to help also
Dezarae Bartlett I would suggest whenever you sit down and eat, try to focus as much as possible on how you are enjoying the food and how if you are aware of that and eat slower, the food will be more beneficial to your body. This will help you not eat without enjoying the food, it will help keep you aware of just how much food you can eat before your body signals it is content, and you will start to feel less guilty because you are making an effort each time to pay attention and enjoy a beneficial amount of food. I know you can do this, even though it'll take much effort. I just want you to start off with the mindset that you will succeed. Thank you for listening, and I wish you the best!
Emily Katherine dont worry Ariana Grande has it and she is staying strong
When I was 9 Stopped gaining weight.
I ate less food and I didn't realise that it was really bad.
So when I was 12 I hade a big panic attack.
It was horrible and I never want to be like that again.
This is Going to sound really cheesy but I got stronger With the help of God.
Now don't get panic atacks anymore and I'm almost normal weight.
In the last year i gained 9 kilo grams.
To Everyone With weight problems I have one thing to say.
Fight.
You Will get there but YOU have to want it and fight for it.
God is not real.
Kevin Morales Well I don't know but you don't know either.
Just eat a bunch of junk food and shove the food up your ass to help.
Kevin Morales you have your beliefs and... SHUT DA F UP! Have a nice day bu-bye.
Lovisa Andersson This is beautiful and I am so proud of you for overcoming your eating disorder. I, myself, am not sure whether or not I believe in God but I am so glad that your faith helped you overcome such a destructive condition.
wtf all of the comments are positive, I thought this was the internet
Idk if like everybody's happy today or something but I've watched like 20 videos today and civet only seen like 5 shitty comments in total. Must be a new record.
Savour it, this is a rare event. We might not ever see this again.
Because this is a serious topic and she's honest about her struggle.
***** *wipes sweat off forehead
Feewf I thought something was happening to the interwebz
Yeah, just imagine if she was struggling with the opposite problem, people wouldn't care. lol
Dear reader, you da real mvp!!
thanks pal ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡ °)
aw, thanks. You too/
***** True tbh i never saw someone who wasnt white with anorexic,not even a picture
DOMICS
The voice I had in my head with this made me laugh today thanks ☺
It certainly resonates with a lot of people. I hope Harriet is being told this. I'm fortunate enough to have been told by recovering parties before it got bad, but even so, it's a fight every day that I always feel like I'm losing. The pounds are disappearing even when I convince myself I'm eating better. This is definitely a story a lot of people understand in varying amounts.
Made me cry. Recovery is possible. I never believed it would be but it is. I've recently celebrated my 1st dessert (pecan pie) in 7 years. 7 years without sweets! I missed out but I'm back now and at my happiest. Good luck Harriet, you are enough
One small sentence can drive your life down. Harriet you're strong and beautiful
Yes you are Harriet! You are enough! What a great video, full of motivation, hope, and happiness. You truly will make a lot of people happy. Be who you are no matter what. Love yourself! Proud of you girl! Congrats to BuzzFeed as well, this is a movement.
Dear Harriet, This was an incredible video. You are so creative and inspiring. To want to recover is such an amazing and beautiful thing and I am so proud of you. You will get through this. I send you the best of luck and lots of love. Stay strong.
I don't have an eating disorder but as a sufferer of anxiety disorders I have so much compassion for those t
who do! I understand what it's like to have an inner battle in your head. They are different battles but I understand what it takes to take control of your mind I stead of your mind controlling you. With the right help and support we all have the inner strength and determination to overcome mental illness in whatever form they take! Stay strong 😊! xxx
Poor baby girl. You are so brave and so strong Harriet. Thank you for sharing your struggle and story. You are loved. You are wanted. You are so resilient. And YOU are beautiful. Yes, YOU reading this too.. you are BEAUTIFUL. And so worthy. X
I got the shivers after seeing this video.
Coz I'm that girl.
I'm not on an actual disorder yet, and I constantly remind myself skipping meals won't do anything.
But I overwork myself doing workouts even though I'm just 13.
I'm not that fat. But I always felt like I'm not enough.
This video made me think about what my future will be if I continue overworking myself that my arms hurt. This video is making me think twice.
But I will continue.
But I will limit this exercising.
I promise I won't skip meals and I will eat healthy.
Therefore you have helped me today.
Thank you.
THESE are the types of videos I think most of us would like to see much more often! Thank You!
You are so brave and so strong. I admire people recovering from eating disorders immensely because I've seen how it can consume and destroy a life.
I also was in and out of a hospital ages 15-17. Not for an eating disorder, but for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I have also seen first hand how OCD can consume and destroy a life. I recognize your worksheet papers, I'm guessing from the hospital.
I hope for the best for you and that you are successful in your recovery. Remember this; sufferers of mental illness aren't victims, they're survivors. You are a survivor of your illness, and you inspire me so much.
If anyone viewing is interested, my channel is a mental health awareness channel, where I talk about ways to improve your mental health and my own experiences. There is a whole community of mental health UA-camrs who are here to help you when you are struggling. If you want to, come check us out. We're here to help.
I'm crying rn... I hope you end this year feeling extremely happy and proud of yourself Harriet! Big thank you to buzzfeed for showing me and other people here this story. This girl is so strong.... I don't know what it's like to have an eating disorder but lately I have been worried, I will not put any labels on it, but, I have been skipping meals and comparing my naturally bigger body to people around me..... I'm going to try to love myself and people around me more. Thank you Harriet and buzzfeed!! Your journey has been worthwhile!! TAKE CARE ANYONE WHO IS READING THIS!!!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, STRONG AND ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey, Harriet here. Yeah, the truth is I didn't show my face in this video because I was in the hospital and I thought it might be triggering for other people and for myself looking back on this video. Voices are forever, and voices can't be a trigger to oneself or others. This video still helps me to this day because I see who I was at that time beyond the sickness. I like it because this video remains timeless, who I am and who I was, despite the changes in my body. I am still going through changes, and it's hard, but it helps that I can look back and remember what is constant: my honest and my compassion. That is me, in sickness and in health, and knowing that I am always there helps me less feel alone even during the dark times.
This is great. . .I'm so happy that Harriet finally got over her anorexia. She happens to be my best friend's sister, and I saw what she went through some of the time.
My sister has an eating disorder, it's like a minefield trying to talk and interact with her.
IncognitoSloth The only thing you can do is be patient and never give up on her :)
Yeah it's really difficult, I'm sorry.
Can you make a video about binge eating too?
YEESSS!!
+Cookie Monster! How?
Fr.. 😞
I have that.......
Yes please
thank you for sharing your story Harriet. Like you i knew i needed to make a change and from the summer of 2014 decided i would do it and focus on being happy and recovering. all i can say is that it has worked. i'm so much stronger than before, in a much better place and altogether happier. having happiness as a goal allows you to totally focus and just works! the ending of this video made me cry, it's just what you need to hear sometimes and it makes me believe i can carry on. i am enough.
i wish you all the best and thanks again
xxx
I cried.
My heart goes out to you Harriet, as a fellow 17 year old struggling with her body. I may not have an eating disorder, but sometimes I feel like I need to resort to purging or restricting to get my body to where I want it to be. I'm not even fat, but I feel disgusting at times. But other times, I feel beautiful. Because like you said-- I am. We all are. My body shouldn't be my preoccupation, my health should. Our body shouldn't be our preoccupation, our health should.
As a someone who also wants to promote a positive body image to girls our age-- I believe in you, me, and all of us. ❤️
I haven't cried at all in 2 and a half years.
Until today. Thanks.
I wish I could share my story. a guy suffering with anorexia and getting help finally
+Danny Corbitt me too
+Francesca Deakin me too
Thanks for sharing your story to give others a better understanding about this issue!
I don't usually comment on videos but this video touched me more than anything has ever before. I have b.e.d disorder and I have been called fat many times. When I was 11 was when I started getting upset about my weight and condition. I decided that was the time when I would work my way to overcoming my addiction. Recently and over this past year now and I have lost weight but not a lot but it felt like not much. I am now almost 13 and I got depressed again and lost my courage again. After watching this I was in tears and am so pumped to continue my journey overcome my eating disorder. We ARE enough! Don't let anyone bring you down about your weight. Thank you Harriet for giving me the inspiration to restart my life eating disorder free! I can't tell you how much this video and Harriet has moved me.
😢😊 the ending was really touching. "You are beautiful enough and I am beautiful enough" I loved that sentence. It made me cry
Been bulimic and anorexic since 13 due to borderline personality disorder.. Had been a cutter too.. This actually gave me hope.. Thank you.
The letter at 2:12 sounded so very much like one that my mom once wrote me. Eating disorders are such unintentionally selfish monsters. They make us forget how much we matter to those around us. You do matter. I matter.
i never noticed that letter, but i just screenshotted it and sent it to my dad. it literally just brought me to tears 5 years later. he always had my back, and still does everyday. i couldn’t ask for a better father.
@@harrietmanaker4569 Wow this couldn't have come up in my notifications at a better time. Four years later and I still need this reminder.
I remember when I first started, and I didn't even know that I had been developing an eating disorder. I skipped meals, I would stop myself from eating snacks or too much, I would even shove a toothbrush down my throat, and even today I will only eat one small meal a day because I just want to feel like all the other girls out there. I thought that I was fat and I hated myself for that, and most of the time, I still do hate myself. I'm trying to get better, but it's just so hard. As a teen, I shouldn't be this way and I know that. But I want to make it. I'm trying to make it. I want to be better.
Gabby Bray You can do it :) You WILL get better!
I feel so proud for this girl.she suffered but she wishes the best for everyone.thank you
Why I was in high school, I was in LOVE with my best girl friend. She called me at like 2am, one night crying, and proceeded to tell me she felt like dying, she was sick, she hates her self. That's when she told me she had bulimia. I thought she was the most beautiful person I'd ever seen, but she described herself as if she was some hideous monster. I just remember staying up at night feeling hopeless because I cared so much for her, yet my efforts to help her failed. I couldn't imagine what she felt like... Your story brought tears to me eyes just thinking those times. I truly wish you the best! I hope you surpass this, and truly grow up to be happy!!
This was wonderful!
Anamika Diaries You're wonderful :)
***** awwwww . TELL ME IM WONDERFUL lol
Anna Ohl ANNA YOU'RE WONDERFUL
***** So are you 😊
Anna Ohl You're too 😉
I don't eat much. But when I do I can eat twice the amount that an average adult can
Lucas Hawthorne
+Lucas Hawthorne
XDDDD Same
Same..
Hahaha
Same
Never had an eating disorder but almost did because of seeing all the "thinspo" junk on Instagram I started dieting unhealthy for a few days. Then I stopped because I didn't want to get a disorder like that. But I can understand this video. Get well Harriet.
My heart goes out to anybody who has seen or is currently watching this beautiful video. Harriet I have no doubt that you have touched the lives of so many that are struggling with anorexia, including myself. You are a wonderful, beautiful, extraordinarily strong young woman... Stay strong darling, you are loved. The same for anybody who is struggling and reads this. You are worthy, you are loved, and you are enough. Thank you for being so brave for sharing your story Harriet! Wishing you recovery and happiness
This is absolutely incredible and heartbreaking. You are amazing. Thank you for sharing your story and giving others support.
as someone who is diagnosed with anorexia I think the thing I want people to know is 1) eating disorders are genetic, people have found common genes in people who have been diagnosed. 2) you never recover from eating disorders, although they do get better it is common to struggle with an ed throughout different periods of your life. 3) a person who has an ed isn't doing it for your attention (but some people do fake them for attention, which I don't get) if they really have one they are probably secretive and keep it hidden. 4) if you don't have a full dsm-5 diagnosis, do NOT say you have an eating disorder: not only is it disrespectful it is also detrimental to how people perceive individuals with EDs
Why isn't there a self harm one? Like about recovering, suffering, or showing scars? There really should be.
+Liv Ellerton if you look through youtube and other internet videos and support groups, you will find that there is a lot of support on that subject too. Just always be careful, because you will find triggering stuff that is NOT recovery oriented or helpful (pictures of self harm, talks of methods and such), but listening to people's stories of recovery from self harm can be inspiring. Just be sure to stay clear of the triggering stuff.
+jessiexkitty trust me. I've watched every video out there. I'm just awaiting a buzzfeed one.
Sorry, didn't mean to upset you. I was just trying to be supportive.
+jessiexkitty Oh no! I'm sorry I honestly didn't mean to sound upset... Darn text made it seem that way huh. No no, I appreciate the effort. c:
Ok :) no problem haha.
I used to have an eating disorder now here I am literally eating a hamburger with fries lol. I'm happy now, as is my family
Gerald Cruz Glad you made it out. Stay smiling, stay proud :)
Congrats! ! Keep strong ♥♥
Thank you both :) I appreciate your support 😊 Y'all stay happy as well :)
Gerald Cruz you're welcome :)
Remember that you're not alone. Have a wonderful life :3
Good for you thats pretty cool
What a brave and beautiful soul! I have a family member who struggles with anorexia nervosa. Thank you, beautiful and brave, Harriet. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'd love to see a video of her a year from now! I know Harriet's got it in her to change and be healthier, happier and stronger. So much love from this part of the world xo
Omgosh, she is so lovely. I've been on my way struggeling with anorexia my whole life. Last years it went really bad. But this video is going to be my reason to recover❤
And once again, thank you
I wish you the best of luck on your journey to recover :)
Lisa Enerdal You got this
I think they should make a video, "what's it like to have an eating disorder". I'd really like to see that, trying to recover myself btw:// and people have no idea how horrible eds actually are... they think it's a choice, they think that just by eating you'll recover. But no, it's mental. It's a nightmare. I would appreciate it if Buzzfeed would make a video about that!❤
+Harriet Manaker You should make UA-cam videos
there really is no "they" here. Harriet generously took it upon herself to share her story in the hope of helping others. Anyone with any disorder can do the same thing. Plus there is a lot of info on the internet about most of these issues. Best of luck.
Am I the only one who proud with my own body? I may don't have big butt but still I'm happy to be in this world and happy to be such a healthy person. I do eat healthly and balancing my exercise activities :)
You're not alone! I LOVE my body 💜
U just had to post how health u r (sry it just struc a anoince in me)
+Edward Riley She was just being proud of herself. She didn't imply anything bad about anybody else.
+GingerCat23 I think it's just so hard for people with and ED to even think of 'being healthy' that they may read this and cause them sadness because they can't do that too.
In the sheer well, I don't think like that at all but if I make them sad or anything, I'm sorry :)
I feel like something inside of me just snapped, hearing about your journey through all this. I find it incredibly wonderful that you were able to realise that something was wrong, because I know that's the hardest part for people going through what you are going through. Seeing the letter from you Dad brought tears to my eyes and I feel like you've made me realise something, although what that something is I am unsure of.
I also want to ask your advice, about helping a friend who has recently had problems eating. I have noticed her skipping meals and going to the toilet after she eats, making me worry she is throwing up her food.
I feel like crying when I think about it and I don't know what to do.
Please, if there is anything you know helped you realise what was wrong, tell me, because I cannot stand here and watch her wilt away.
I also don't know whether to tell someone. I feel like I would be betraying her trust if I spoke to someone about it - especially adults as they never seem to take us seriously.
I don't know who to talk to about, and I don't know how to talk to her about it, and it's killing me.
Please help me,
I don't know what to do.
I assume you know what she is going through and therefore will be able to say things that may cause her to realise that she is throwing away her life. I know that these things are not always a choice but it's breaking my heart to watch and I wish that even if she couldn't do it for herself, she could do it for me and for everyone else who loves her.
I feel so unsure about everything, and I know that I am probably just overreacting but I AM TERRIFIED of all the things that could go wrong. I would never forgive myself if she took it too far.
Please, I am begging you, or someone..... ANYONE who reads this... please, please help me. I need to know what to do, how to handle this. I know that if I say one thing wrong it could spiral out of control and I could seriously screw everything up.
I need your help.
Please.
This genuinely made me cry. Absolutely beautiful. Stay strong Harriet, and anyone else out there with eating disorders. You are enough, you are beautiful, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise ❤️💖💜
Trying to recover from 4 years of depression and 1 year of having bipolar disorder :)
You go buddy!
+Francesca Oteri :D
Stay strong! You can do this!
Ssme!!!
+FreeBird212 Keep recovering. Having depression or bipolar disorder doesn't define who you truly are.
This is so moving. I'm trying my hardest as well to overcome anorexia, and am planning on telling my parents about my eating disorder. I'm going to get the help I know I need, and I hope anyone reading this comment who has an eating disorder will do the same.
I read the title as "Recovering From Eating a Dinosaur".
Wow, clearly u didn't expect so much feels
+Adrian Berry That is what the first couple weeks of Anorexia recovery feel like, so basically.
lol
Thank you Harriet. I have been struggling with my ed for 4 years and had a really good stretch for about the last year but recently all the bad thoughts have been coming back and I am fighting so hard not to relapse and this video really helped me. as I write this I'm eating and I'm not upset about so thank you for reminding me that I am strong enough to beat this, and that I am enough. I hope your journey is going well 💗🍓🌸
AMEN.
This video hit the nail on the head.
You cannot get back the years you have lost to this illness,
but you can work hard to recover and enjoy the blessed years to come.
This is actually so touching, like if you think everyone is beautiful.
my heart goes out to all the babes that are struggling💘💞 you are enough!!!💓💫
Katie Bransky You're a beautiful soul!
***** You're so kind and nice. People like you inspire me.
MrMiccu Thank you so much dude, that means a lot :)
By the way, you're beautiful too!
MrMiccu Awh thank you dude :D That's really sweet of you to say!
I'm 13 and I have depression. I know I'm sad and I get vey upset every day about it I just want it to be over. But I also know I want to be here and I hope when I get out of this I will be a bigger better person and I know I can do great things. I know I'm enough but right now that's really hard to say
Grace DeAngelo Stay positive, stay smiling. Be happy. :) You're beautiful!
Joel Galindo It's not being spoilerf jack ass, you just don't know that everyone goes through different things and not everyone has the same opinion and idea as you. Just because we're all human doesn't mean we're all the same
Joel Galindo youre an ass, first of all. second of all, depression is a psychological issue that can't really be helped from developing. you cant control depression. its not a thing that you can do easily.
Keep believing you're enough and you really are! I'm so sorry that you can't see how beautiful you are cause your disorder is lying to you. I'll be praying for you and things will be okay eventually you just got to keep fighting!!!!
I know this may not help since I've never had depression but what I would do if I did have depression is i would wake up very early and gather some picnic foods and water and go out on a sunny day and lie on my back in a big feild of grass and look at the sky. Light helps me so if u like this idea you can do that if you want! Also don't sleep in sleeping in makes you want to stay in bed all day
This just made me cry so much it sounds just like me without hospitalization. I lived with people that didn't know what any of that was. I lied on the suicidal test so they didn't admit me, and since I was still in the low healthy weight zone nothing else mattered. My doctor couldn't change their minds. I'm 19 now and still struggle. There have been a few really hard times but it does get better. Little by little you can begin to create yourself, your life. I can breathe again.
For any of you out there suffering, you are beautiful. I know you don't see it, I struggle with seeing my own sometimes. But you are, and you are strong. I believe in you.
I'm proud of you, Harriet. I'm there, too. Afraid, but I know I'm not alone in fighting. Stay strong, good luck in your year!
Is feeling like the food I'm eating is gonna make me even fatter an eating or mental disorder? I feel like I'm jut constantly putting on weight because of my depression. My parents would tell me to exercise so I would have a flat stomach like my sister:(. I feel like nothing can change my parent's pe view towards me and honestly I feel like they love my sister more.
I think it starts at that. I've been struggling with bulimia and that is how it started for me. I couldn't hold food in because I had an uncontrollable paranoid feeling that it was going to make me gain weight. I would get so physically sick, the only things that I wouldn't throw up was soup, I lived like that for 2 years, lost a lot of weight and looked like a sickly pale ghost. It started with my ex, who made me feel less than human for being overweight, then me being compared to my sister, who was always naturally slim. Honestly, the only thing that saved me was crossfit, it made me change the way I saw my body, instead of wanting to be skinny, I wanted to be strong. I am no longer doing crossfit, but I do exercise and I eat moderately healthy, if I do eat too much junk food I still do get physically sick, but it barely happens now. I am not a skinny supermodel, my stomach isn't flat (I have a little bit of a belly), but I am a healthy weight and I am doing this for myself. Avoid listening to what others tell you, if you want to change, change for yourself and for your health, because at the end of it all, you are the one living in your body. I'm sorry that your parents compare you to your sister, it's not right of them and I don't think they realise how much of an effect this has on you. Perhaps talk to them about it? Tell them how it makes you feel. I would also suggest seeing someone before an eating disorder starts, I wish I did.
don't think like that! You are beautiful, and if your own parents can't see that they must be blind. Everyone is beautiful in their own way and if you parents can't see that or keep comparing you to your sister, what they think doesn't deserve to have an impact on your thoughts, ideas and beliefs. Be strong! You are beautiful no matter what you think or who tells you otherwise. xoxo
+Aj Lee omg same....
You can do it, Harriet! :)
It's like I was watching my story. Minus the recovery...I relate to everything and I'm only 13
Cassidy Jackson Hey, hun. Reach out. It's the scariest, but the most important decision you could make. I've been there too. It's possible to gain that self love that you know you're running after. I'm here if you need to vent or if you have any questions about recovery.
You just have to have in mind, that every type of body is good IF you treat it good! It must be really hard I understand, keep on trying to have a positive body image!
I reached out, and I'm only twelve. I'm happy with my choice, and I am strong.
Lolita Flower seriously shut the up
this is very powerful. very proud of Harriet and i respect all that shes been through
I am amazed and inspired by this. Thank you so much Harriet, your soul is beautiful! x
i am over weight and i really wanted to have an eaing disorder before this vid but now after waching it i feel happy and healthy
+Christina Pate Thank god, I hope the people who are watching this video realize how lucky they are. Your body is - like all bodies - great. If anyone tells you otherwise, *** them! Take care of yourself. Eat when you're hungry, treat yourself every once in a while with something yummy and live life.
+- ̗̀ Sara Matilda ̖́- I've learned to do that. Which is amazing considering where I'm coming from. My rock bottom was binging and purging 4 times a day
And at 5'6' got down to 105
I'm 11 and my weight is 94lbs. I have a restricted diet and it's not because I'm anorexic. People say to me "are you anorexic? You eat so little" it some variation of that. I understand that I eat little but I have no control over what I can and can't eat. I know this is off topic but does anyone struggle with this problem, it makes me insecure and I hate it.
Alice Berry yeah, let's be friends
Alice Berry I only have and Instagram and Snapchat
Alice Berry my username is litterally_just_art just don't say anything about or friendship on out cause my classmates follow it
Alice Berry can you follow cause there's tons here and girls 3:50 am 😂
Can you guys do an irl about self harm. I want to know i'm not alone
+Maddy K I promise. You are NOT alone
+Maddy K You aren't love. I started self harm when I was about 11 and it took me until I was around 14 to really realize what I was doing and why I was doing it. Keep fighting because you are enough.
Stay strong dear we love you
Same I'm glad someone people know what It's like and I'm not alone
you aren't alone. ❤️
I feel like everyone in the world needs to see this, regardless of weather they have an eating disorder or not. This needs to be seen, awareness needs to be raised, this is empowering. I believe you can get through this and beat it. Keep fighting
I also want this to be the year I can look back and be proud of myself. I don't have an eating disorder, but I've been struggling really bad with depression and anxiety for the last year. I am 13 years old, I feel like I want to change, and I know I will. I have a little bit of hope left, and I hope, that that's enough to get me through.
I'm so happy for you Harriet, and I'm glad you had this opportunity to show your story.
This was amazing.
1 week no negativity. 1 month eating the way I want
Good for you!❤️
Thanks!
+Senpai Fabulous UGH! Lucky you! Well done :D
In the sheer
Thanks! :DD
One week into recovery...
Yassss queen you go
Woooo! Keep it up :D
you're so strong, well done! 💞😊
WELL DONE❤❤❤❤
keep fighting gorgeous!! ♥
Whoever disliked this has no heart.
I think Buzzfeed deserves recognition for making this video wirh Harriet, And Thank you Harriet !
There isn't much about eating disorders out there, there's only how you get it but you never really see the recovery or the coping, the struggle is so real and revovery is entirely difficult, Keep fighting to whoever has an Eating Disorder right now and anything else that they have, keep fighting!
At the end of every tunnel there is light
Thank you so much Harriet for telling our struggle in perspective. And for the reminder and I and we were enough everyday. Blessings.