Why I stopped drinking
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Alcohol is so bad for us in so many ways, I hate how there's so much social pressure to drink in so many countries.
It's not even necessarily alcohol though, but self-medication. Anything you could use to help shut the (metaphorical) voices up. Alcohol is simply one of the many escapes. Focusing too much on the means of escape means we don't focus on the real problems and ultimately don't help those who need it most.
@@talideonOmg finally someone said it. Thank you! well put!
Same
@@talideon but alcohol has the added perk of being literal poison
It’s like no country gets alcohol right. It’s either banned and a criminal offense or a social expectation.
“One disappointment at a time” LMAOO
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour. 1 Peter 5:8
Dating, am I right!
😂😂😂so funny
Programming your mindset like that is so toxic. Every relationship gets doomed before even starting.
But yeah, as a line in a sketch it was funny.
Why is she always personally attacking us like that 😂
In general I don't have a issue with alcohol consumption. What bothers me is how we're sold the idea that drinking is a required part of every social situation. We need to get past the idea that drinking has to be a component of a good time.
I’m with you on this one! Why is it so abnormal and even frowned upon not to drink?
Very true.
For some of us it's too late though, since we made the change to give "societies requirements" (and some of it's champions) a big meaty middle finger, which has more or less put us in the "anti-social zone"; decades ago.
At this point, we would be equal to a Surgical Doctor who has Parkinson's & turrets syndrome that gets triggered by breathing air, while about to make a cerebral tumor removal procedure, when trying to meet "social requirements".
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I drink probably 1 or 2 times a week, but I haven't been drunk in 30 years.
Best thing I every did was decide that I liked a drink, but I don't like drunk.
Drinking less also means I have the benefit of drinking nicer.
I can sit on a good bottle of something for months.
Yes, drinking and talking about sports will have me running for the door to get away
There is also a weird pressure to drink excessively. I only drink socially (drinking-centered social events for me only amount to once or twice a month), and when I do drink, I don't exceed two drinks. People will actually comment on how little I'm drinking. Y'all - alcohol is a potent substance and you can get sick from consuming too much of it! I can't believe how normal it is to pressure people to overconsume alcohol.
I'm 6 months sober and it has honestly been the best antidepressant I've ever tried. I'm actually focusing on addressing the things that are issues in my life rather than ignoring them and burying my head in the sand. 10/10, highly recommend sobriety.
I'm a simp for a GoDaddy in uniform.
i am also at 6 months right now and that was one of the better choices so far, feels pretty good to say that
Everyone asks why don't you drink but no one asks why do you drink.
Congrats! Still working on it. Im down to once every week but I just drink a little too much everytime. I want to stop altogether eventually 🤞
Would you be willing to share how you've addressed your issues in your life? :)
I might be in a similar situation, and trying to wrestle why I should bother stopping alcohol consumption.
3 and half months sober, I got to the point I was hurting people, slow progress but worth it. Also had no idea Daddy SquareSpace, your legal and biological father, was in the military
😂😂😂😂 I never made that connection, thank you!!
I never started drinking. At 20 people thought I was a weirdo. At 30 I had people's respect.
Never started drinking either. At 43 now, i wouldn't say i have ever had peoples respect for it. Rather acceptance than respect.
And most of them still thought/think of me as a weirdo for not drinking.
Very few people i have met have reacted positively. (I can count them with the fingers on one hand, and don't even need all 5 fingers for it)
Usually the "best case scenario" is indifference...
"Drinking culture" is quite "strong" where i am from. (But it has gotten better in the last 20 years).
->I am from one of the top 3 countries in statistics of beer consumed per capita.
I'm not a drinker either, never have been. I don't understand how anyone can. No offense to anyone. Some people think the reason I don't drink is because I must have had a drinking problem. It's funny how people will offer a drink and assume every single person drinks. It's cool NOT to drink people.
@@nirfz that sounds very foreign to me. Are you perceived positively or negatively by people who are unfamiliar with your stance on alcohol?
@@DeclinedMercy That depends on the circumstances but i am not someone to bother others much.
To me it appears a mixture of positively and neutral more than negatively until that stance gets obvious.
I never started drinking. There is a history of alcohalism on my mom's side so I didn't even want to risk it. Additionally, on of my biddest fears is not being in control of my own body and drinking is a really good way to loose control so I never started drinking and I don't plan to ever start drinking or do any sort of drugs.
Haven’t had a drink for 25 years and I had a lot of consequences that led me to quit drinking but the interesting part was after I sobered up for years I would find little notes scribbled in the margins of books telling myself I had to stop drinking that I had written for a decade before I stopped drinking.
100% bang on the mark. Emotional suppression only leads to inner turmoil and chaos further down the road.
I stopped drinking for a year after the pandemic as well, and ever since I decided to start drinking again “in moderation” or with “more discipline” I have been struggling with my sobriety and it’s a battle I lose too often. The universe is screaming at me at this point. Day by day!
One day at a time, do the next right thing. Proud of you for continuing to try! You're worth it!
I had a similar struggle on my road to sobriety. Someone once explained it as “it’s easier to eat no chips than to eat just one” and honestly that totally reframed drinking for me. Good luck on your journey❤
You need to find another more healthy outlet for stress and pain. That is the key.
@@TaeGuerinso true! Moderation is so hard. I’m much better at being sober than at regulating how many chips I’m eating.
I quit drinking when the pandemic was declared. I thought; this is serious, I will have to deal with this conscientiously. Most importantly, it is during the pandemic that I discovered your channel. I wish you knew how much you have helped me through the pandemic and quitting alcohol. You are rocket fuel for the soul Anna. Love Xav
That takes some serious discipline, especially when so many people started drinking more. Very cool to hear
I just recently decided to be sober. I had been getting "whispers" for the past 6 months or so. It feels good to be here. I'm glad I listened.
That is so great. Proud of you for listening to yourself.
My recent "universe screaming" moment was after my ex broke up w/ me. I thought I was handling it well as I got full into mindful practices the whole time until on one occassion I went out to drink and got drunk. I remember kissing strangers and just being crazy and loose that night. The embarrasment I felt the next morning was heavy. It was not even fun. I guess I too had pent up emotions (maybe even denied the ones that are valid). I yearned for a connection that I lost (even before the actual breakup, I felt that and kept it in) and the alcohol made me bold to find even shallow relief. Anyway, all got better after that. I love the peace that I am in right now.
That's good to hear, don't judge yourself too harshly and learn from it
So you basically chose to get drunk and cheat on your ex bf and now "you're at peace"? gurl lol.. hopefully your ex is "at peace" now too...
@@taliamorrow1812 did you read the part where it said *after* they broke up?
@taliamorrow1812 no there was no cheating. We broke up and the closure was actually pretty good that I thought I can keep positive feelings maintained. I did all the self care stuff and decided to date myself that lead to that moment. I guess what the universe really wanted me to do is to take slow steps and embrace emotions, even anger and frustration, and not just drown it out. Imagine years of self work and sometimes you'd feel you're back to square one lol but at least there is always motivation to improve.
I'd like to give you a "over the internet" hug. I've seen too many friends and family members ruin their lives with alcohol.
I've seen the brickwall falling down on people and the life long damage it causes when people refuse to even listen to that. Glad you decided to listen Anna.
I’m always amazed (and a little jealous) of how good actors can so fluently and meticulously control their expressions. I’ve watched Anna drink that glass of wine like 6 times now and everything, from the stare-into-nothingness to the frown of the mouth, fits the voice over perfectly.
And yes, I know that’s the case for pretty much all her videos.
I am extremely impressed by your ability to discuss this openly and honestly. Thank you.
Thank you for speaking on this. Alcoholism and alcohol abuse is SO common in our society that it’s easier for it to go unnoticed. Hopefully more people will become aware.
Thanks for your honest advice, Anna. I typically have more fun when not drinking, and I'm able to remember everything more clearly.
Mine was to quit my job. Everyone in my life was telling me to do so, and I thought if I just worked harder and added more projects it would fix everything, my boss was difficult, but maybe I was just misunderstanding. Therapy helped me realize I was accepting abuse and it wouldn't stop until I set boundaries, and if those boundaries kept getting crossed it wasn't a safe place. It helped to reframe it as if it was a friend going through that stuff and how I wouldn't want my friend to deal with a lack of boundaries, no separation from home and work, to put up with gaslighting and I knew I couldn't do it anymore. And then as an additional sign, like 5 people quit within three months so, it wasn't just me.
lack of boundaries and gaslighting, far too prevalent from managers and bosses.
@@dewdew80 big time, especially when you work in healthcare and the owner is just a buisness owner and has never gone to school for healthcare and has no concepts surrounding idk, ethics and laws.
Gaslighting, such a horrible & powerful word.
lol did we work at the same office?
@@Starfang_Wanderer if it’s not too personal to answer, what do you do to pay your bills now?
I love how your channel (and you!) have evolved - thank you for sharing stuff like this
This was actually really insiteful for a different reason.
I am fortunate enough to not have this level of repression, so when I drink I really don't change. Because of this, I have always had ZERO empathy for those who do change when they drink. Whether it be getting super horny and try to kiss anything that moves or really angry and aggressive, I always thought "drinking makes you more you, if you are a shitty drunk then you are just a shitty person and are good at hiding it sober." it never occurred to me that there might be things that the person needs to work out.
In the future i will try to have more sympathy for people who "change" when they drink.
Yeah that suppressing is a real thing for a lot of people. Sometimes people hold back their emotions and trauma so much just to survive.They don't know how to work through their issues so they come out when they are intoxicated. People need to find a healthy release whether that be exercise, therapy, Church. Heavy drinking, drugs are a sign something is wrong.
good on you for being humble and open-minded enough to expand your point of view!
Aaww so that means I'm actually a sleeeppyy ball of sunshine deep down? Great!
I didn't pick up on this while I was watching. Thank you for sharing!
Another thing I’ve realized is that some SSRIs or something like adderal can really not mix well with alcohol
One year sober this month. Although I miss drinking sometimes the whispers made it clear it's something I should leave behind. Applying the whisper analogy to other areas of life is something I am excited to explore thanks so much for sharing!
Thank you for this. I've been getting whispers for years now. The universe has been REALLY patient with me. This was a whisper I ignored 7 days ago when I didn't watch. Today I'm listening and it's like a friend giving me really comforting tough love. I'm close to hearing the screams but I know I sure as heck won't wait for the brick throw or brick wall to fall down. Thank you for sharing your own personal insight. It's been beautiful to watch your growth all these years and it's time I actually use it to help with my own growth. Thank you for being here. ✌💗⚘
Anyone dealing with this rn, whether you're still drinking and wanna make a change for yourself or you're sober, you can do anything you put your mind to, it won't always be easy but few things in life are, if you think it's a good choice for you it's gonna be worth it, take it slow and stay strong 🙏🏽
Thank you for this. I have been so ashamed to confront my relationship with alcohol. To see how you conquered and overcame your obstacles is really inspiring. Thank you for such a positive message.
Good for you Anna! When scientific research is not tainted by some part of the alcohol industry it is showing the only way to live well is entirely without alcohol.
hearing your full story felt different than just steps on how to fix my life but to see those changes through your alcohol/sobriety. nice different format!
I admire your ability to speak up and be open about challenges you have struggled with. I don't agree with the "universe speaking in whispers"/"inner voice" kind of thinking, but I always get new ideas watching your videos and enjoy your perspective!
This was beyond insightful, I feel so seen in such a scary way
growing up as a kid who's exposed to drinking and it being depicted as this great thing, I've always wanted to get into it. Thankfully, I am allergic to it so I really don't drink at all. The thing is, I still feel happy and connected with people that I socialize with, all without a drop of rum. Looking at it now in my late 20s where my friends complain about lifestyle diseases because of the party lifestyle, I am thankful that I never pushed myself to drink.
This is a personal topic for me so I've enjoyed getting to see you on this journey through the years and how you have expressed your experiences with it through your art. I am so, so happy for you and am so excited to see you enjoy all of the rewards
It’s brave to put yourself out there the way you do Anna. Thanks for all you’ve done for putting positive vibes out into the world. I’m glad to hear that your taking steps towards healing. Take care of yourself. Best wishes.
During my first marriage, which was abusive, alcohol was how I i coped with the abuse - it was one of very few things my ex was unable to destroy my enjoyment. When we split I started to stock up my apartment and then thought to myself, "this is an ideal time to make the changes you have always wanted to." One was cutting the booze. I still drank occasionally but it was 1 drink per week rather than averaging around 1 per day.
Thank you.Anna for being a whisper!
Love this for you!!! ❤ Of course I have always loved your content no matter what your personal life choices are but I will always support a healthy one. I have been sober over 3 1/2 years but I am most definitely an alcoholic. I don’t try to convince people and try to label anyone else as one if they say they don’t drink. Everyone should just do their own thing. But I absolutely agree that it started with a whisper and I just tried to smother that voice with a pillow and by drowning myself with more alcohol. But thankfully I’m here now. Glad you are too! Thanks again for all the wonderful stuff!
Good for you. One of the most courageous and most challenging things we must do is to have the strength to see our own truths, particularly the things that scare or shame us. I applaud your strength 🙂
Thanks for sharing Anna, I listened to similar shrieks from the universe about alcohol in 2019 and haven’t looked back 💪🏻
Loved your work on blade of the 47 ronin , can't wait for the next one
i love these shorter videos that anna puts out to help us think about small or big things in our life. she does it in a way that isn't super deep or overwhelming. thank you anna
BUNNY, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. I quit drinking back in 2018 and starting watching you in 2019 and I was CONCERNED. I know you don't know me, but seriously, super proud of you. Great job.
Thank you. This is truly a blessing. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks for sharing Anna. I can relate this to so much. My therapist and psychiatrist both told me that Alcoholism in and of itself isn't a diagnosis. So we concluded that I exhibited Alcohol Abuse Disorder for many of the same reasons as you. Also, it peaked because of the pandemic and on a lark decided late one night 263 days ago to quit drinking. Had I thought about it for just a second I would have realized that I put myself in a position to have to experience my Birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's all while being sober. What?!
But here I am. And I sometimes wonder if I could re-establish a healthier relationship with alcohol, but I know that even if it is possible... I know that I don't trust myself to do it right now. Cheers and thanks again.
I stopped drinking just because of general health stuff, and people do not want to hang out with you. Instantly no social life. It's been really weird, but at the same time, I don't want community that's contingent on drinking. It's been interesting exploring what I actually want to center my life around instead of what's expected.
I've subscribed to you on my main account since 2010... And heck, is the universe thumping me right now. Been 2 months zero proof and it's helped me unpack a lot. No one's magically perfect the second they're sober, even the day or the week or the month after, but it gets easier when you start to fill your life with things you forgot to enjoy. Thanks for sharing your story
Going on 5 years, and it feels so good :) It's a fallacy that you need to have had a huge issue with it for it to be something worth giving up, but sometimes that makes the difference!!
This was such great advice! 🌿 Thank you
thanks, exactly what i needed to hear right now
Congratulations on taking care of YOU!!
BRAVO Anna! 🎉🙌 Doing a sober 2023 myself
Congratulations on being sober...You rule girl! love youuuuu :)
LOVE you girl! You are so awesome!
I really admire you Anna! Your effort towards maturity👌🏻
3 years sober after binge drinking on social events and being a "social drinker". Never felt better.
Thank you for posting this. I'm 5 months sober from drinking after my alcoholism nearly destroyed all of my relationships and life. The Human mind is a powerful thing and with enough willpower; you can accomplish any goal you set your mind to. Never be afraid to try and quit. After all; Fear is the Mind Killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration.
Keep up the good work Anna! Your videos are great!
Congrats on your sobriety! At my worst, it was a bottle of vodka a night - now, 8 years with out a single alcoholic drink.
Use to tell myself "I drink to relax and escape reality". In reality, it was my drinking that led to most my chaos and negative outcomes - only inducing anxiety and stress. This led me to drink more and more, resulting in more and more drama, chaos, stress, failed relationships, depression, using bad judgement, shame and guilt, all put on repeat like a self destructive perpetual-motion-machine until I hit the horizonal version of Opra's analogous 'brick wall', more commonly called "rock bottom".
I'm so proud of you Anna. It's an amazing person who expands their mental understanding, then takes action using that knowledge to accomplish the truly amazing feat of fix themselves' as you've done so well so far as I can tell. Even more amazing that you 'heard the whispers' before they became brick walls - or rock bottoms - course correcting yourself and doing so early enough in life to enjoy life 'living in reality'.
True personal character transformations are exceedingly rare in human existence. Hence why a version of the Epic Hero's Journey exists in every culture going back through human history. It's to be admired.
It was the hardest thing I've ever done and I still work on it everyday.
Keep up the good work girl!
And drop this sober friend a line when you next in NYC - I'll show you a fun and fantastic (sober) good time living in reality!
Think you are doing great now. Helping everyone 😇🙏
I don’t always watch Anna but when I find myself here, I BINGE. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
I needed to hear this
I haven’t had a drop of alcohol since I was in my twenties, I’m 54. My grandfather was an alcoholic, my dad would go through two cases of beer in a week, my sister liked drinking 2 bottles of wine a night by her. Alcoholism runs in my family. I stopped because I started to like it a lot, more than I should have normally. So I just stopped. I don’t need that in my life.
pretty congratulatory worth. i mean; the vulnerability to admit a weakness and the will to choose a more fulfilling life
our anxiety makes us desperate for distractions, and they’re not all so bad, neither is anxiety, but anxiety coats the reluctance to touch our emotional selves and makes it harder to access
it’s a noble journey. i love the words you’re using; noble, honorable. and you’re right.
virtue gives our lives a type of meaning. and to live in accordance with your personal virtues, is noble.
all the best in this Anna. i’m proud of you, and keep choosing you
Really great advice !
Congrats and best wishes to you, amazing Anna, from Germany 💁♂👋
Thank you so much ...the whisper ...brought me in sight
You sure are one amazingly intellectual person. Thank you for what you. Very thought provoking.
Is this Anna or who? I'm not quite buying this.
Thanks, this by itself is another whisper to me.
You're my big sister who always has the advice I need
"The call" is a great point here - I feel like we've been trained to ignore it more than ever, almost as a marketing tactic (especially for alcohol).
"I believe in committing to one disappointment at a time." Love it!
I quit drinking 12 years ago and it's been one of the best decisions of my life.
I did 3years ago and it completely changed my life. It's like I'm finally alive again... Sure it was hard to learn how to be sober in company of friend, because we always grabbed a beer or wine.
Not to rely on alcohol in social situations
Thanks for this. Had a total piercing scream wake up call this past weekend when I took all my suppressed emotions out on a new friend. The fear of losing her or any of my relationships due to my abuse of alcohol is my biggest fear, so I'm ready to start listening.
I’ve had whispers when it came to a toxic person…. And when the brick wall hit I almost lost my career lmao so true about the whispers!! Thanks Anna for the reminders!!!!
Kudos for kicking it!! 🎉
We talk about illicit drugs, whilst alcohol is actually one of the more dangerous ones, in some ways. The withdrawals are similar to Benzodiazepines, which can be really bad, often for years.
Glad you're getting sober again. I remember when I heard the scream as a young soldier in the Army. I had a tendency to get blackout drunk in my barracks on post. Had been doing it for a while. So it was quite a shock to wake up in a bed 70 miles from my post on a late Monday morning (Technically AWOL), with a blonde woman who was twice my age _and her husband_ . Actually very nice people and I was deeply embarrassed to not even remember their names, let alone how I got off post. That was the last time I got drunk, the summer of 1986.
Stay well beautiful soul--you are cherished 💚💚💚💚
Well Done Anna Akana You're Very Smart
You have my support cuz I learned a lot from my year cleanse
This really helped me today
I find that i would ignore that inner voice too, but i need to learn to trust myself more. I quit that toxic job and i thought i would feel a wave of anxiety but i was SO RELIEVED AND HAPPY!
Yall listen to the universe/inner voice. Trust that intuition. You know what you need more than you think you do
Have a good life Anna.
Good job, Anna.
Hurting someone and not forgiving yourself would only have been a small part of the entire scenario. Possible jail time could also easily come after a drunken brawl with someone.
Yes! 💯 I know you don't read these but I just want to say I feel you and I'm on the same journey... and zhuzh up the algo!💕💕 💕
"Never drink when you're going through hard times" is almost exactly the first alcohol boundary that I came up with when I was young, though I did not phrase it nearly so well. It's still an excellent policy, but it's not nearly enough to deal with something like (waves around at everything vaguely) the year that was 2020, so good on you for taking greater control.
I used to ignore the whispers and would make repeated mistakes until it hit me; the universe was sending me the SAME messages until I learned the lessons. I love being sober and I'm grateful for the lessons my drunkenness taught me. Oof.
Thank you for this, maybe it does not get the views, but this is such an important discussion
Previously undiagnosed ADHD, COVID I think kinda broke me. Hearing the whispers, very relatable…
Damn, so well said!
Congrats Anna, I, too, drank heavily from April 2020 to 12/30/22. I did not want to feel, unfortunately, I felt everything. I ballooned up to 245, from about 180. I got pass-out drunk the day before New Years and had a bad soul-churning text exchange with a friend (the conversation was not related to alcohol). I had stopped drinking before, I've lost lots of weight several times so I knew what it would take. So I flicked the light switch, I knew if I stopped drinking, I would no longer drink soda and no more ibuprofen for the headaches, I might as well give up candy too, let's throw in coffee too which eliminates sugar and powdered creme. I started to hear more whispers, I stopped swearing which helped me be less dramatic, I bought a kayak to exercise more (and I pick up trash along the shore too) and lately, I have begun to eat less meat and am really bothered by violence of any type..you get the picture, all positive changes because of one decision. Just had a physical and she said, keep doing what you are doing, you don't need those High Blood Pressure meds I had been recommending! Thanks for sharing your experience and helping me contextualize the idea about the whispering of the Universe.
Yay! Love this post! Especially your "might as welll..." approach vs " I should..."
Way less pressure & more relaxed. Thank you for sharing & congratulations on your growth!
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*ps: highly recommend getting a disco ball for your house and a bubble aka magic wand (*trust me lol).
Might as well....😉they make everything better!
3:45 same story for me kind of. Alcohol fueled rage made me realise I should just stop drinking. Luckily for me it was quite easy but I know it can be very tough for people.
Good for you, my last drink was at the end of 2012/beginning of 2013. It was during new years. Haven't had a drink since then
I've been on the sober-curious train for a while now. For me it was motivated by sports and being able to perform better, and then also being in a relationship with an alcoholic and seeing what drinking CAN do... I still like a drink every so often but probably every few months and I'm a lot more conscious now of when I do choose to drink
Point taken.
Thank you
Listening to the whispers is an art
i stopped drinking for similar reasons!! there were whispers for years and then the screeching really hit a fever pitch when i had a terrible embarrassing drunk breakdown at a party and i downloaded a sobriety app the next morning. just hit 4 months without drinking and it's helped so much!!!
While I like to drink sometimes, my policy is generally to only do it if I'm already in a decent mood, and only around people I'm incredibly comfortable with. A nice buzz can be one of the best feelings in the world for me, but responsible alcohol use is so important and I think everyone needs to do what's right for them - whether that means cutting back or quitting altogether. I've had alcoholics in my family, and I'm aware it can be a slippery slope.
I am so proud of you teacher you didn't allow the alcohol habit to mes up your beautiful live!!👌👌👍
Alcohol has never been an issue for me. When a specialist asked me about "How often do you drink alcohol" it wasn't a simple answer. I said "Well.. my spirits are at least 4 years old from when I bought them and a 12 bottle case of beer lasts me about a year and a few months". They chuckled.
BUT my crutch is food. I cook really really really well (just made 14 pounds of BBQ pulled pork over the 4th's holiday), and in return I really like to eat too. I think it's a tougher demon to fight.
Thank you for sharing your story. I have self-identified as an alcoholic for years, but now I’m wondering if I’ve just suffered from alcohol abuse disorder as well. Been sober for 1.5 years. Some days it’s easy, other days it’s really hard🙂
I don't feel so bad, my 2020 was kinda bad and I felt bad, but apparently, a lot of people went through worse .. I had no idea and only years later I hear my acquaintances ended up sleeping in cars and successful youtube people handling dealing with real issues. Thank you for sharing.
I love to hear the 4 Seasons and other classical music on your videos...