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  • @laurapav5802
    @laurapav5802 3 роки тому +558

    I had my best friends last 3 recorded heart beats tattooed on my shoulder. I was in a really bad space so I got them done so that I had to keep going to keep his last heart beats Alive. He died when we were 13 from cancer. But he was my world! Having his heart beats on my shoulder keeps me going to live for all the things we never got to do together.

    • @skyway000
      @skyway000 3 роки тому +14

      ❤️❤️❤️

    • @Boo_the_Gh0st
      @Boo_the_Gh0st 3 роки тому +18

      Omg that just made me cry

    • @ellamannion6963
      @ellamannion6963 3 роки тому +8

      I'm so sorry for your loss. He loves you and appreciates you. In sure hes watching over you and is grateful for everything you've done for him. Hes seems so brave to go through that scary thing.🥺❤

    • @imb2tman
      @imb2tman 3 роки тому +5

      Oh that’s really sad 😢

    • @petradegroot3578
      @petradegroot3578 Рік тому

      ❤️

  • @sydneycunfer4609
    @sydneycunfer4609 3 роки тому +283

    I have a leg sleeve that took me almost 3 years to finish and several grand, and it’s such impressive art. In times when I have the darkest thoughts, I’ve thought “I have to stay around because my artist worked so hard on this, and if I’m gone, no one can see it.” Thanks for putting this into a great story!

    • @lesliesteele3926
      @lesliesteele3926 3 роки тому +12

      I made my tattoo artist cry with me at the reasoning for one of mine. When it was done, we both cried again. There is pride in good art and taking care of it.

    • @ellamannion6963
      @ellamannion6963 3 роки тому +2

      You are so brave and your worth it.🥺❤

  • @ponetium
    @ponetium 3 роки тому +216

    This actually makes a lot of sense. I know quite a lot of people who deal with suicidal thoughts do body modifications, to keep going.

  • @strawbemmy
    @strawbemmy 3 роки тому +437

    i always pictured my dog. what would happen to him after i took my life? he would be alone and be put in a shelter and wonder where i was. or maybe, if no one found me soon enough, he would be starved and dehydrated and pass away. i could have been the reason for his death...hearing all the "you have so much to live for!" shit did nothing. looking at the future or dreaming of happiness wasnt enough. it was the little things. who would babysit my nieces every monday wednesday and friday? where would my beloved, signed billy joel poster go; would they just throw it away when they sold my house? how would my favorite show have ended?....it was the small things. sometimes looking at the big picture is useless when you should be looking at the mundane, day-to-day normalcies.

    • @RianneOK
      @RianneOK 3 роки тому +11

      For me as well, my dog is basically a lifesaver. :)

    • @sophiemccormick6796
      @sophiemccormick6796 3 роки тому +8

      ooh stay alive for your dog

    • @douglascampbell9809
      @douglascampbell9809 3 роки тому +11

      I got a cat for the same reason.
      I don't trust anyone to take care of her.

    • @Savvy_lurker_14
      @Savvy_lurker_14 3 роки тому +3

      Oh this breaks my hesrt

    • @rebeccas2801
      @rebeccas2801 3 роки тому +1

      @@douglascampbell9809 I second this

  • @lolamarie3555
    @lolamarie3555 3 роки тому +99

    When I'm in my darkest places I always go back to my cat. He would never understand and he would be confused and sad and scared, and no one knows how he likes to cuddle the way I do, and no one knows how to play with him the way I do, and while sometimes being alive feels like suffering for me, I would suffer everyday so my cat doesn't have to suffer for one.

    • @emilyvbr1878
      @emilyvbr1878 3 роки тому +2

      Me too

    • @ellamannion6963
      @ellamannion6963 3 роки тому +3

      Your so brave and it shows you love your cat he seems very cute.🥺❤

  • @danielallanillos6712
    @danielallanillos6712 3 роки тому +66

    I paused at 2:38 because i said this to my friends the other say, that i struggle minute to minute to stay alive, and...hearing that you went through that made my sigh in relieved, like...ok, i am not the only one. I now, in this moment, feel my chest lighter. So...thank you.

    • @emilyvbr1878
      @emilyvbr1878 3 роки тому +2

      I've been through it too so I know how strong you are

    • @katrinschirmer8018
      @katrinschirmer8018 3 роки тому +2

      you are most definitely not alone. I have been there, many people have been there. you can get through this, I hope you find your light and hope soon. *hugs*

  • @WolfAdvocated
    @WolfAdvocated 3 роки тому +23

    Last year I was hospitalized 3 times for wanting to hurt myself. I have three beautiful children, but I was going through a terrible divorce which involved him immediately getting a new family and getting her pregnant (we were planning #4), and I was falling apart. As much as I wanted to pull it together for my kids, that's not what saved me.
    I got 4, yes 4, tattoos that year. I dyed my hair, pink and then blue, and then I cut it all off. I took family photos and went camping and made UA-cam videos no one watched. I cried and journaled, I wrote suicide letters and did an entire Self Love workbook. I attended counselling and psychiatry appointments. I took my meds, I checked myself into the psych ward when I needed to, I posted way too much on Facebook, I put my heart out there even when people told me I was wallowing in it and making it worse - and I survived it. My best friend forced me to eat and shower and get dressed, until I could do it on my own.
    I am a huge advocate of doing whatever the hell keeps you alive. I adopted a hedgehog, I have gotten 10 mice (5 wild ones I raised from newborns), my hedgie passed and I eventually got a new baby hedgie, I took classes and did fun things with my kids and I found hope again. Do whatever the hell sets your soul on fire and don't let anyone tell you that how you dig yourself out of that is wrong. 🖤

    • @stephw6046
      @stephw6046 3 роки тому

      Best wishes to you. 💖

  • @QueenBloom
    @QueenBloom 3 роки тому +36

    When I was struggling I bought a silver ring and had it engraved with "open windows" reminding me that no matter how trapped I might feel there is always an alternative to a locked door. It's the one piece of jewelry I always wear.

    • @alyssa6031
      @alyssa6031 3 роки тому +1

      I love this! I used to have a ring with a heartbeat and I would often play with it when I was feeling anxious

    • @MC-tl5bf
      @MC-tl5bf 3 роки тому

      that makes u sound like ur gonna enter ppls homes lol

  • @lloydislearning
    @lloydislearning 3 роки тому +237

    You’re one of the first people online I’ve come across who has spoken about the feeling of trying to keep yourself alive minute by minute and trying not to hurt yourself and that little part of you who wants to stay alive. I can very much relate and also the reasonings to stay - even though it sounds odd. I don’t think people speak about severe depression enough.
    ❤️

    • @loraleepooley3669
      @loraleepooley3669 3 роки тому +3

      You explained how I feel perfectly.

    • @oceanstaiga5928
      @oceanstaiga5928 3 роки тому +3

      I can't do it any other way than think day by day about my future and go minute by minute to convince myself to stay alive. It's hard..

    • @loraleepooley3669
      @loraleepooley3669 3 роки тому +2

      @@oceanstaiga5928 It is hard. I’m getting help. Hopefully each day will look brighter for us.

    • @ellamannion6963
      @ellamannion6963 3 роки тому +3

      You are so brave and worth it.🥺❤btw your dogs cute.

  • @yay5112
    @yay5112 3 роки тому +64

    I was in a very bad place for a long time, and I would always set “goals” for myself. I just have to make it to prom, I have to make it to hs graduation, I have to make it through my first year of college. It was a very long time of me pushing back “the date”. Eventually I got my cat, and then it was the fact that he needs me that kept me going. I have such a deep connection to him and he is the reason I’m alive today.
    I started going to therapy after the darkest time in my life, and after I was in a more stable mental place I got a tattoo of a Phoenix, reminding me that no matter how low I get, I will be able to build myself up and start again.

    • @pandakatiefominz
      @pandakatiefominz 2 роки тому

      Oh my goodness, me TOO!!! It's always been, "Well, I can't die yet, I've got to do this thing first." Then that thing happens, and there's another to focus on.

  • @austinpatrick2682
    @austinpatrick2682 3 роки тому +15

    I haven't watched a video of yours with the trigger warning in a long time. Glad I forced myself to watch this. I won't say much publicly but I barely survived last night and a lot of what you said in this video is EXACTLY what I was feeling and thinking about all night. Thanks for sharing, I feel far less broken seeing a person I admire so much admit they felt exactly the same way I do.
    Thankyou Jo. You didn't just save my life once nearly two years ago, you are ACTIVELY helping save me. I can't even describe the relief you've literally just given me. I thought I was uniquely broken in a way nobody would ever understand or be able to see past. I don't know what else to say now. Just, thank you. I'm in awe and feel relieved for the first time in days on end. THANK YOU 💓💓💓
    Don't ya love it when the UA-cam algorithm hides a comment you poured your heart into...

  • @christa6898
    @christa6898 3 роки тому +141

    As an attempt survivor who had the word “survivor” tattooed on me years prior to my attempt, I can appreciate the logic behind your reasoning. Much love to you. I look forward to your videos every week.

  • @excilda8828
    @excilda8828 3 роки тому +71

    I ended up getting a tattoo of a quote from one of my favorite stories Alice in Wonderland. It says, "There's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then." And it's been incredibly helpful reminder to me to not look back at the past, but to look to the future. I'm not the same person I was yesterday and I'll be a different person tomorrow, so I'll keep going to see who I'll be tomorrow, a week, month, or year from now.

  • @carrrlycrayon
    @carrrlycrayon 3 роки тому +115

    When I tried to OD my best friend found me floppy on the kitchen floor and I just said "I don't want to die in this shirt" because it was art my friend did and I didn't want her to carry that weight. (He changed me into a t-shirt i just got him as a gift that I proceeded to ruin with vomit)
    You think of the weirdest stuff when you're in that kind of low. It's not stuff a normal headspace person would think of.
    (It's been over a year since that night and I have 4 more cats now. Two of whom are special needs and couldn't find homes haha)

  • @evelynkrull5268
    @evelynkrull5268 3 роки тому +180

    For some reason my brain thought it was going to be a tattoo that says like "sulfa allergy" or something like that? Haha
    Also I've been suicidal in the past due to a childhood of abuse, so I relate and send my love and support

    • @XSemperIdem5
      @XSemperIdem5 3 роки тому +15

      I thought something like blood type. I thought way too literal.

    • @barbarastrayhorn4667
      @barbarastrayhorn4667 3 роки тому +4

      Same here.

    • @Amy_the_Lizard
      @Amy_the_Lizard 3 роки тому +1

      Me as well

    • @ellamannion6963
      @ellamannion6963 3 роки тому +3

      You are so brave to go through that.🥺❤

    • @randomhuman805
      @randomhuman805 3 роки тому +2

      Oh, I’m so sorry you visited that dark place. Please don’t do it. Much love ❤️. God bless you and your family.

  • @bridgethealey729
    @bridgethealey729 3 роки тому +35

    I got my tattoo after years of wanting it. It’s a wave that turns into a sun on my hip. No one else has really seen it, but it reminds me even in my darkest times or spirals, that waves will keep crashing, and the sun will always rise. It makes me think I’d rather be here to see another wave crash, and sunrise. If I take my life I won’t see my favourite thing again. It’s simple and means nothing to anyone else but it has saved my life, and stoped me from hurting myself

  • @sophielouise1094
    @sophielouise1094 3 роки тому +60

    I got the eating disorder recovery symbol tattooed so that I would have accountability, always, no matter what. It was like, as you said, an insurance policy. It’s a public statement that I am making the choice to embrace myself instead of the eating disorder. This tattoo has certainly saved my life, too. Thanks for sharing this story and all that you do ❤️

    • @strawbemmy
      @strawbemmy 3 роки тому +4

      i have one too!!

    • @carrrlycrayon
      @carrrlycrayon 3 роки тому +3

      I held my best friends hand through her journey. I saw how hard it was for her.
      I'm so proud of both of you for finding your strength and pulling yourselves up. 💜

    • @strawbemmy
      @strawbemmy 3 роки тому +3

      @@carrrlycrayon you must be such a lovely friend. thank YOU for being there for her! support means everything during a time like that 💗

    • @scottboling1331
      @scottboling1331 3 роки тому +1

      April 30 is my birthday I’m a below the knee amputee also

    • @sophielouise1094
      @sophielouise1094 3 роки тому +1

      @@carrrlycrayon thank you so much!! I’m so glad your friend has support from you

  • @fionataylor4761
    @fionataylor4761 3 роки тому +34

    Interruptions for puppy cuteness will always be welcome :)

  • @marrinf332
    @marrinf332 3 роки тому +14

    My therapist supports me getting tattoos when I’m depressed. Tattoos require so much after care and routine they can be really helpful for me.

  • @silenthades
    @silenthades 3 роки тому +5

    A friend of mine was killed in a murder suicide just before I turned sixteen and it was a really hard time for me. I started to draw a heart on my wrist every day to hold on to his memory and get myself through the grief (he was more family to me than anyone had ever been). Six years later I still do the same thing and I've been debating getting it tattooed, but the act of drawing it myself feels so personal, like renewing our promise, so I've been putting it off.

    • @GoogelyeyesSaysHej
      @GoogelyeyesSaysHej 3 роки тому +2

      You could tattoo it and then color it in in different colors

    • @redflamearrow7113
      @redflamearrow7113 Рік тому +1

      No need to tattoo it. It sounds like doing what you have been doing is just the way you need to do it!

  • @markdejonge937
    @markdejonge937 3 роки тому +48

    one of the reasons my cat found me i didnt save her she saved me

  • @antonianavarro5776
    @antonianavarro5776 Рік тому +5

    I am going through an extremely difficult situation right now with my own foot and how I have broken it on the ball and the first toe last September. It’s April and I believe I re-broke it accidentally tapping it on a board in my backyard. You should know how incredibly inspirational you are to me because you are so kind and strong. Thank you for being here for everyone!!❤

  • @dbackscott
    @dbackscott 3 роки тому +16

    What kept me alive was thinking about how much it would hurt my family and friends if I committed suicide. My desire to keep them from experiencing that pain was bigger than my desire to end my life.
    That was almost 25 years ago now. I’m so thankful I didn’t go through with it. I now have a wife and three children, and I love them dearly.
    I also wanted to talk about anxiety. I used to think anxiety attacks were crap, and people just needed to suck it up. That was until my daughter died (about five years ago). One of the things “they” don’t tell you is anxiety attacks are one of the ways people sometimes experience intense grief. It’s astounding just how crippling they can be. I wouldn’t wish it on my enemies. Thankfully they’re an infrequent occurrence now.

    • @sabinajoh
      @sabinajoh 3 роки тому +1

      I’m so sorry about your daughter I can’t imagine

  • @sophiecarter1812
    @sophiecarter1812 3 роки тому +31

    Well I can't say no to a dogo can I? Great tattoo! Sometimes the unplanned things are exactly what we need.

  • @MandieZangora
    @MandieZangora 3 роки тому +27

    I definitely relate to the delayed reaction to trauma, going through medical trauma most times I have come home and been like “yeah that sucked but I’m fine” and then months or even years later I am torn to pieces and it builds up and is the gift that keeps on giving.
    My depression has been so bad since my first service dog passed almost exactly a year ago, she was my biggest reason to stay and helped me stay alive through the worst 10 years of my life. And the only reasons I made it through the last year was her little brother and service dog in training Flynn who, as my mom said in passing not even realizing that her words would be some that saved me, “he already lost his best friend, but thank God he has you to hold onto”
    I also remembered that exact poem and immediately wrote down my list (and still have somewhere) of reasons and every time I feel like I did I make it again and again with things just like you said! Seeing the next season of Greys Anatomy, hearing Taylor Swifts next album, going to concerts, being in a relationship, having kids, becoming an aunt, etc etc etc.
    I love that tattoo and the meaning behind it and I plan to (if I ever have the money) get a tattoo of the words “because these things will change” almost as a double meaning of even though things are shitty and awful, things will never stay stagnant and there is always the possibility of things getting better BUT ALSO as a reminder that 10 years ago I could do things I can barely dream of doing now and that the abilities I have now may not be here 10 years from now and I need to stay mindful and be grateful for what I still have.
    Also Flynnie and I are sending you and the 3 pupsketeers (a kitty) many germ free and loving hugs and hope you’re feeling better 🤟🏻🥰♥️

  • @saramae8704
    @saramae8704 3 роки тому +16

    In one of my dark times, I had "no day but today" tattooed on my left ankle. As I grew as a person I had, "This too shall pass, XO Mom," (in my mom's handwriting) tattooed on my right ankle. This duality reminds me to make the most of every day, but to remember that better days can come. I can't say they've always helped, but I love them and the symbolism behind them.

    • @rosegranger2872
      @rosegranger2872 3 роки тому +1

      No day but today. Beautiful. It reminds me of my favourite musical, Rent. No day but today is kinda the Motto of the musical.

    • @saramae8704
      @saramae8704 3 роки тому

      @@rosegranger2872 that's where it comes from for me. 😊💙

    • @rosegranger2872
      @rosegranger2872 3 роки тому

      @@saramae8704 wonderful musical, do you know the extended version of "goodbye love"? It's not in the movie but it's sooo good and I'm always sad it isn't...

    • @saramae8704
      @saramae8704 3 роки тому

      @@rosegranger2872 yes! I memorized the Broadway version before we ever dreamed of a movie.

    • @rosegranger2872
      @rosegranger2872 3 роки тому

      @@saramae8704 I didn't get the chance to see it live, I live in Germany, but it's a big dream to maybe one day see it live, though I can't imagine other actors than Idina and so on, they are just perfect for the roles

  • @karagregory69
    @karagregory69 3 роки тому +55

    I remember in a past video seeing the word, 'Hope' on the bookshelf that is by the window.

    • @FootlessJo
      @FootlessJo  3 роки тому +14

      Yes indeed 😊 We recently moved it during some house cleaning/rearranging!

  • @user-sl5uv2gg1s
    @user-sl5uv2gg1s 3 роки тому +4

    that note about your pet needing you around for them to be taken care of brought me to tears. I have my adorable Golden for about 14 years now. my therapy, my pure expression of unconditional love. no way I am leaving this buffy fluffy living thing alone ❤ stay strong and take courage, our beloved Jo, we got your back and count on yourself you also got yours

  • @taylorr.s8082
    @taylorr.s8082 3 роки тому +4

    One of the most healing things I did in the middle of my divorce was getting a tattoo. It was part of reclaiming myself and being allowed to have a voice. I could put something on my body for me. It is a butterfly and looks like a total teenage girl tattoo but I love it. Amazing video concept.

  • @laurahenderson2155
    @laurahenderson2155 3 роки тому +2

    Thankyou Jo. I've really been struggling with depression for the lasy couple of months and have just lost my car to an accident. This video is really helping me and is making me hopeful for the future. It's funny too cause I just got your 'Anchor yourself in hope shirt' today in the mail.😊

  • @richardcaldwell6159
    @richardcaldwell6159 3 роки тому +9

    I was five or six when I found out that my mom used to have a brother. My dad said, "You're just like your uncle George, destined to blow your brains out because you're too smart to live in this world". Inoculated me against suicide, for sure. Couldn't make him right, eh?
    He's a lot nicer nowadays. And I'm still working on my symptoms from this intergenerational disease so I can't complain too loudly about his symptoms, especially since back then I used my mind to fight back...
    I'm below knee, right. ;-)

  • @arthurroberts491
    @arthurroberts491 3 роки тому +10

    Conditioner and shampoo at the same time? Never happen, does that make me invincible?
    After my wife died I did feel invincible for a while. I was hurting so bad that no thing, no event, and no person could hurt me any more than I was already hurting. So after six months I got in my car and drove away, spent two weeks traveling to various nudist resorts doing what my wife and I had talked about for 30 years. Then I went and talked to a shrink for three months and she said I was as good as I was going to get. Another three months and I invited a friend to lunch, but she was busy and it would have to be dinner. Ten months later we married, and that was nine years ago.

  • @JuMixBoox
    @JuMixBoox 3 роки тому +8

    The idea of finding someone with that tattoo... It just breaks my heart. I am so glad you chose to stay alive. I am so glad you continue to experience every day. If it keeps you alive, it's not ridiculous. Anything is with living for.

  • @cjhernandez1983
    @cjhernandez1983 3 роки тому +7

    I can completely understand your mindset. I have my godfathers signature tattooed on me on a spot of my body I would self harm and it has saved me more than once

  • @Sierai
    @Sierai 3 роки тому +6

    The bizarre stuff is indeed sometimes what gets you through. Thank you, Jo!

  • @pineapplefox3673
    @pineapplefox3673 3 роки тому +20

    I WILL NEVER DISSAPOINT SOPHIE!

  • @davegoodridge8352
    @davegoodridge8352 3 роки тому +9

    No one would feed my dogs. The one emotion I’m having the most trouble with is regret, or remorse with what I failed to do.

    • @hume6900
      @hume6900 3 роки тому +2

      David, I think regret/remorse/guilt has to be the worst. You did the best that you could do at that time and in that space. I made that first part of my comment because it eats at me and there is absolutely no way that I can change the decisions/actions taken or not taken. You can’t either, because the past is just that. Remember not only do your dogs love you and need you, but, there are others that do as well.

    • @davegoodridge8352
      @davegoodridge8352 3 роки тому

      @@hume6900 Thank You

    • @hume6900
      @hume6900 3 роки тому

      @@davegoodridge8352, you’re welcome.

  • @croutoncrouton5227
    @croutoncrouton5227 3 роки тому +8

    Jo, we're across the world and our lives are so different, but you are a role model to me because of how you seem like you are on a similar path to me ...just further along. I look at you and wish I could ask you so many questions.
    Love your videos, thank you for putting yourself out there, for all the people who need someone like you.

  • @lucyicanel
    @lucyicanel 3 роки тому +4

    The puppy is SO FREAKING CUTE! She seems like my sweet puppy, constantly craving attention and getting kind of annoyed if they don't get it.

  • @randomhuman805
    @randomhuman805 3 роки тому +2

    This gave me hope. I have had bad depression and anxiety for a while. This motivates me to live my life the best I can. I may be odd to others, but, I’m not letting them control me. I’m me and no one can change that. I love this video so much because of this. Yes, it will get better. It might take 5 days, it might take 5 years. Who knows? It WILL get better. Trust me. I’m getting better everyday. Everyone who hates me, I don’t care. I’m not going to change because people told me to. God bless y’all! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍

  • @kristophjj17
    @kristophjj17 3 роки тому +13

    I got a cat to keep me going. He needs me around so some days I'm hanging in there just for him.

  • @mckinleyw.3262
    @mckinleyw.3262 3 роки тому +18

    I'm intrigued by the title

  • @think3rofficial
    @think3rofficial 2 роки тому +1

    Thanks for making this. I think a year ago, this was exactly where I was at. While I was in this rough place, I planted an avocado that I made guacamole from. It grew, and grew and I promised myself that I would not let this plant die under any circumstances. It has its ups and downs, but still grows strong. I feel connected to this plant because it was there, when I cried, when I was mad at the world but also when I recovered. This plant is my life, and it continues to grow in my house as a reminder that it’s life depends on mine but my life depends on it too. Thanks Jo.

  • @Daisy-dp2ez
    @Daisy-dp2ez 3 роки тому +5

    That was really beautiful, I have friends who get tattoos as a form of coping with their mental health. I personally find planning my tattoos, a trip or anything to look forward to really helps me in my struggles.

  • @Ashesinferno28
    @Ashesinferno28 3 роки тому +8

    I’m so proud of you! And how positive you are even through tough times, you are awesome and inspire me!

  • @BobMueller
    @BobMueller Рік тому

    Been watching your videos for a while now. I think I first found your IG reels on FB. And I know you've had a rough few years since you made this video and got this tattoo. Thank you for sharing this. I'm glad you're still here.

  • @g.g.2211
    @g.g.2211 Рік тому +1

    You're so good telling about this intimate topics!
    You make me feel a bit less alone, you make me feel heard and human.
    Sometimes when I think about the inner world of each human I'd like to just transform myself in a big hug and hug everyone struggling on planet Earth.

  • @leec5036
    @leec5036 3 роки тому +2

    Thank you so much for this. I’ve needed to hear this so so bad because I’ve been in such a bad place lately and this was a sign for me that things won’t be like that forever

  • @cynrose44
    @cynrose44 3 роки тому +2

    Your words are beautiful. I’m so glad you carried on and I wish you love and happiness always.

  • @whatrozz
    @whatrozz 3 роки тому

    Thank you Jo. Your video helped (and still help) me going through darkest times of my life! Cannot express how much you, your words and your work mean to me. You are priceless, an amazing soul and person. Thank you

  • @JodieTotman
    @JodieTotman 3 роки тому

    So honest and beautifully put, I could feel the shared experience and that comfort through the screen. Thank you x

  • @sonjab654
    @sonjab654 3 роки тому +1

    This was exactly needed in this world, you are amazing and an inspiration. I am proud of you and so thankful of this message. I got a semicolon tattooed exactly where yours is, and I have the same thoughts about " what if the coroner sees this, right after I quit. How embarrassing". Thank you so much for the well needed push. I love your work.

  • @paulatwood5356
    @paulatwood5356 3 роки тому +2

    You continue to amaze Jo
    I tried to check out once, and obviously failed.
    And I've been affected by 13 suicides in my life including my father.
    The one that hurt most was Robin Williams, I had met him and shook his hand a year or two before.
    Suicide sucks
    Thank you for all that you share.
    Paul

  • @servicedogsammy4520
    @servicedogsammy4520 3 роки тому

    I really needed to watch this video today. Thank you so much. It made me cry because you are so right. The little reminders help me fight everyday. Im glad im not alone. ❤️

  • @loveyourselfcrochet9299
    @loveyourselfcrochet9299 3 роки тому +8

    I love your story it’s really inspirational especially because I have a friend that was depressed because she had to get amputated but she started to watch your videos and it really helped her

  • @51623allissa
    @51623allissa 3 роки тому

    Wow! This was so POWERFUL! I loved this!

  • @lauragreene9660
    @lauragreene9660 3 роки тому

    I teared up when I saw the tattoo Hope and cried and smiled for the rest of the video. Thank you Jo, thank you🌟♥️🌟

  • @firegirlh2o
    @firegirlh2o 3 роки тому

    Your voice is so calming! I love watching your videos!!! Thank you for sharing your story!!

  • @linayataylor6116
    @linayataylor6116 3 роки тому

    Thank you so much Jo! I really needed this today!

  • @casssolari2990
    @casssolari2990 3 роки тому

    That makes COMPLETE SENSE. Well done hun.

  • @barbora2832
    @barbora2832 3 роки тому

    Hey, whatever worked. I really admire your strength that you found through it.
    Sending love from Prague, Czech Republic

  • @firesoftheasylum7890
    @firesoftheasylum7890 3 роки тому +1

    I took the last voicemail I had from my mom before she passed away, saying "I love you, and you're always with me, never give up on yourself", and gave it to a friend who converted the message into the sound waves of her voice for a tattoo. Looking at it and replaying that message has kept me going through so many disasters that I would have ended myself from. Sometimes the only reason I'm still here. She was my rock and she still is.
    My sister and I tried ending our lives (didn't know this until my she called me, screaming and crying because she didn't know if she could keep herself from jumping). I got help because I wanted to help her and I couldn't do that if I was gone. It's been three years. Still surviving, usually it's breath by breath, but sometimes I can do for a couple days feeling okay.

  • @erictaylor5462
    @erictaylor5462 3 роки тому

    Your videos are part of what keeps me going. Thank you.

  • @kimtyson7908
    @kimtyson7908 2 роки тому

    I appreciate you sharing yourself and your vulnerability. This was a great video!

  • @ladyalexandra2980
    @ladyalexandra2980 Рік тому

    Very touching! Thank you for sharing!

  • @alorarose5249
    @alorarose5249 3 роки тому

    I needed this so much thank you so much for making and posting this video

  • @jonkicker1278
    @jonkicker1278 3 роки тому

    Jo, your reasoning makes total sense. You know what, that would be a great shirt or sweatshirt. Stitched just like your tattoo.

  • @gornser
    @gornser 3 роки тому

    Thanks for sharing this. Mental health deserves awareness every day

  • @selinawolf3598
    @selinawolf3598 3 роки тому

    Thank you... for beeing here too.
    I had/have a really hard time with Depression and suicidal thoughts but as you sad i found a way out or i'm still finding my way out and you help me a lot with the positive realistic thinking part.
    So thank you for helping and beeing you :)❤

  • @kaylaverrenkamp6333
    @kaylaverrenkamp6333 3 роки тому

    I rely want to thankyou for posting this. In the begging it kind of got to me about and brought up some stuff. But in the end a lot of what you said hit home and helped. So thanks you for been open and talking about this even though it's hard,

  • @arantia_vulpecula
    @arantia_vulpecula 3 роки тому +1

    thank you so much for being such an inspiration and talking about hard topics ❤️ as a person who struggles a lot with depression this hit home, and when i am able to, i plan on getting a tattoo

  • @TheBlondeNinjaXD
    @TheBlondeNinjaXD 3 роки тому +1

    You've literally posted this the day I got a foot tattoo... My first tattoo was also the symbol of me getting through the worst parts of my depression too. Thank you for getting this out there for people! It's so important!

  • @pandas_crochet_corner
    @pandas_crochet_corner 3 роки тому

    Really love and appreciate this video : ) thank you for being so loving, validating, and real

  • @derrickwalker538
    @derrickwalker538 6 місяців тому

    Hope is everything my friend!!! I’ve been there myself! Especially coming back from Afghanistan!!! Keep your head up

  • @brucehutch5419
    @brucehutch5419 Рік тому

    Jo you are such a brave courageous positive person. You are an inspiration.

  • @Lucylle
    @Lucylle 3 роки тому

    I needed this today. So much. Less then some other times but when those dark times come, I hope to god I will remember these words, your cute dog and your utterly pointless reason to stay alive that makes so much effing sense. Thank you for this. I may go cry now.

  • @7vinity575
    @7vinity575 3 роки тому

    this video came up on my youtube recommended and i wasn't gonna watch it but for some reason i did and im really glad i did watch it thank you
    !

  • @dalefunk9337
    @dalefunk9337 3 роки тому

    I always love the way you start your videos it's just a really nice positive message when you start your videos keep it up!!!

  • @Ingridlosneslokken
    @Ingridlosneslokken 3 роки тому

    This is really powerful, Jo. I'm so glad you got that tattoo ❤️

  • @LunaGray13
    @LunaGray13 3 роки тому

    I just want to say I'm sorry you felt that way and I'm so glad you're still here. 💖💕💜

  • @rileymccune6845
    @rileymccune6845 3 роки тому

    Jo. I have too many words about why I needed this video. Just know that you are a ray of hope in a dark place. Thank you so much.

  • @YumiSakuraYukita
    @YumiSakuraYukita 3 роки тому

    I'm so glad i watched this video. Really needed to hear this...

  • @Max-qp9py
    @Max-qp9py 3 роки тому

    Very Proud of You!! Love from India....you are doing great. Keep Smiling.

  • @anoukbaelemans9834
    @anoukbaelemans9834 3 роки тому

    Thank you for this video!

  • @ajnelson30
    @ajnelson30 3 роки тому

    Tattoos and body modifications can have such a wonderful impact on people! I am working on my sleeve currently and whenever I feel dark or down I remind myself that I am working to finish my arms and that i have to stick around to see what I’ll look like. Also looking at my tattoos make me happy and give me self-esteem because they change how much I look.

  • @JacksonGotYou
    @JacksonGotYou 3 роки тому

    I think that joe is the most inspiring person to have a YT and she has kept me motivated that just bc i have one leg just live your life to the full
    No matter what just keep going

  • @kingofthehills34
    @kingofthehills34 3 роки тому +1

    I came over from Matt lane fitness’s channel. I cannot relate to your experiences but your story is impactful and thank you for that. I dropped a like.

  • @CamdenBloke
    @CamdenBloke 3 роки тому

    This is brilliant, thank you.

  • @HermioneDisapprovesOfJKR
    @HermioneDisapprovesOfJKR 3 роки тому +1

    You are so wonderful and I wish you all the best 💜 Thank you for all you do

  • @janw491
    @janw491 3 роки тому

    Oh my the way you describe how you felt brought tears to my eyes as I knew exactly what you were saying. It’s the most painful crushing feeling. I got through it but the memory of it stays and I don’t ever want to get to that ever again. Thank you for putting into words how so many feel

  • @jessicakenton5213
    @jessicakenton5213 3 роки тому

    You are such an inspiration Jo

  • @thewoolverine4420
    @thewoolverine4420 3 роки тому

    Thank you so much for sharing your mental health journey with us. It helps keep me strong on days like today. I have Ehlers Danlos syndrome, and today I was stuck in bed all day, sick and in lots of pain. I'm also a survivor of domestic violence and sexual assault. Hearing you talk about what helped you helps me cope with my journey. Thank you so much for being here.

    • @thewoolverine4420
      @thewoolverine4420 3 роки тому

      PS I'm in Aurora, CO! We're basically neighbors. I am not an amputee but I do use a wheelchair and I have autism. I appreciate seeing someone else who is differently-abled on here.

  • @butterflygirl191
    @butterflygirl191 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you for making this video. A little over 9 years ago my mom passed away. ( I was 5 ) Recently I have been super sad and hurt and angry. Some days I can talk about her without crying, but other days I can just think of her and I would be in my room on the floor crying until I can't breathe. I have slowly gotten more angry and out of control. This video really helps me see the light in the dark. Yes, my mom passed away, but I got an amazing step mom and a little brother out of it. I realized that I want to see how this life turns out. Thank you so much! ❤❤❤

  • @cirquegoddess
    @cirquegoddess 3 роки тому

    Brought me too tears. So much truth in her words

  • @angeldelvax7219
    @angeldelvax7219 10 місяців тому

    I know that place. A beautiful dog loving you unconditionally really gives you hope.
    Mine died last monday. One month before her 14th birthday. Been in survival mode for over 20 years now. Fighting to get out.
    Still fighting. No hope left, but still fighting anyway.

  • @lijntje266
    @lijntje266 3 роки тому

    i REALY love this ^^ great idea.

  • @maritzaaucamp4536
    @maritzaaucamp4536 3 роки тому +1

    Wow what an awesome video it really touched me I am so proud of you keep doing what you doing you are an inspiration to all of us Jo❤️

  • @AynenMakino
    @AynenMakino 3 роки тому

    Thank you for sharing that. It resonated with me.
    I have 'Give me the strength to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference' tattood across my back, from shoulder to shoulder. I know that it's 'silly', but sometimes it pushes me to try a little harder. And just that little bit of strength, or courage, across a lifetime, can make a whole lot of difference.

  • @spacechickenawareness
    @spacechickenawareness 3 роки тому +1

    I was in the same place as you one December a few years back, I wore an elf hat every time I was alone for the same reason. My survival voice said ‘you can’t do that to the first responder, they can’t find you like that with that hat this close to Christmas.’ I’m glad you found your life preserver to hold onto in the darkness.

  • @carianndutoit9693
    @carianndutoit9693 3 роки тому

    Hi =) I am so glad you are here and thank you for sharing your message =) The Tattoo i want ... I am Enough!