The worst thing for me is waking up to all the ridiculous hateful texts and messages and even calls i sent people while alcohol demon possessed. I cant stop cringing to this day. And knowing i destroyed friendships forever hurts everyday. 😢 how do we even begin to get past that? Keep up the videos, you really do help alot of people! ❤
Oh Shayna I know all too well, it’s absolutely awful. You wake up the next day and relationships are completely ruined. You’ve made an embarrassment out of yourself and it’s awful. I’m still healing from many relationships that I no longer have because of alcoholism. Trust me I will definitely keep the videos coming!!! I love y’all!!! I love this community 🙏🖤
It's not only you this happens to. I have no idea why we even want to converse with people, wasted drunk. Alcohol affects rational thinking in our brains
great video man.. they say forgiveness is the highest form of power. “To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.”
It's good to hear you're still sober Slayer. A month after my last withdrawal I'm still sober too. I agree totally about being possessed by a demon when drinking. Nothing good comes from consuming alcohol. I've been in some very dark places (usually a police cell) due to my drinking and I don't wish to go back. Keep strong brother, I'm thinking about you and thanking god for the chance he's given us to live a sober life and enjoy the beautiful world we live in. Keep the faith brothers and sisters we can overcome this addiction.
Congratulations my friend on a month sober, that is really beautiful to hear. It’s just not worth it man, we know better. We know the path that’s calling us and it’s up to us if we are gonna go right or left. God or the devil. Sober or intoxicated. We are going to overcome this brother and stay on the right path. Also 100% thank god for another day and another chance. Many people aren’t getting that opportunity today so we must make the most of it. God bless my friend!! One day at a time, we got this. Keep me updated !
100% right there with ya. Alcohol comes straight from hell. “The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist” - Charles Baudelaire
Hey thanks jena for speaking the truth!! Also yup, it truly is the greatest trick he ever pulled. The master of deception!!! God bless and thank you for this comment 🙏
Congrats on your continued sobriety, Slayer! I'm glad you were able to let go of all those negative thoughts and feelings. It's not worth it holding onto that stuff because it just eats away at you over time. I can totally relate to holding grudges against people, and the alcohol just made those feelings worse. I think alcohol, especially liquor, can make you go temporarily insane too. It really is like you're possessed by a demon or something. I've had that drunken rage, and it's like you get this crazy strength that comes out of nowhere and it takes an army to calm you down, lol. It guess that's why gin, whiskey, vodka, etc. are called spirits! Being sober definitely puts you in a much better headspace! Great story man, you're a hell of a storyteller! God bless, and prayers for LD!!
Hey David!! Thank you so much brother 🙏 this is an awesome comment. Grudges/resentment when held onto just Damage us. It’s like you said it’s not worth holding onto. “Temporarily insane” you’re 100% right man. I’ve always found the fact they call the hard liq spirits interesting. Even as a kid I wondered what’s up with that? Even people who don’t believe in god usually can admit alcohol can turn people into…. Demons cuz there is no other word for it. Anyways hope you’re well my friend and again thank you. God bless
Bro...36 hours sober...buts rough...im just laid up on the couch .too weak to do move really...had terrible withdrawal nightmares last night... couldn't really sleep....relasped after like 45 over getting pissed off at a situation... wasn't worth it.. I'll get it back....thanks for checking on me...really appreciate it
I figured something happened bro. I’m glad to see you’re back on your feet again. Just take time, god will get you through man. God bless and one day at a time 💯💪🙏
You’re 100% right Mathew, they are in the parking lot doing push ups getting stronger by the day!! We gotta stay sharp and keep our guard up. Thanks for this comment brother! God bless
@Slayer-7373 this is why it's out my control to drink . I figured out there game . Been sober 1.5 years ..rum 2 businesses now and lost 20 lbs ..stay away from females too they are evil and in on that shit ..higher vibration higher frequency, you are safe !
I was alcoholic from 12 years old to 34. I ruined everything and tried everything to get free the last 10 years. A guy told me about Jesus Christ and I had a mind boggling beautiful encounter with Christ. I was instantly healed of deadly alcoholism as I SAT ON A BARSTOOL! That was 24 years ago. I know many ppl who are dead from alcohol. And in hell! In hindsight, I realize I was afflicted w a demon. Go to church, pray, repent. He’s our helper and healer
I just watched some Hindu videos and realized how insane it was. I can’t imagine how other people around the world think of our religion. None of us know the true path. Just do what you know is right and the best you can and make this life the best life you can because none of us actually know what awaits us after this. No matter what religion
That is beautiful Tracey, congratulations on not only your sobriety but also your walk with god. That’s awesome!!! 🙏🙏god bless. Not everyone is into Christianity and i understand that. I was an atheist/agnostic for years. It took some personal experiences for as well to get to where I am now. It’s odd because it’s like now that I believe in god, I don’t understand how I ever even questioned it. Anyways much love :)
@@Slayer-7373 thanks slayer. Yes, I can’t ever question it again- my faith. Usually it’s not instantaneous healing, but God creates a path. I’ll pray for you. I was a black out, liver damaged drunk. So… I get it. Hope and a future, T
I have destroyed many relationships because of my addiction to alcohol...just like you said, I say things and act in ways that I would never in a million years say or do while sober. It is absolutely mortifying and heartbreaking. I've ruined excellent relationships because of this.
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you. Your videos are extremely encouraging. You are open, and honest, and the things you talk about really hit home for me. I really appreciate you putting this content out there. It's very helpful
You are a great storyteller Slayer! Genuinely, you should try writing a screenplay or something that is a horror genre dealing with alcoholism as actually being demonic possession, it is a fascinating idea and a great analogy even if there will be people who don’t take it literally!
:) thanks so much Martin this is awesome of you to say. I think I will try that, that’s a great idea. Much love brotha and again thank you for not only the kind words but the awesome suggestion 💯
Great video as always! I think in my crazy drinking, 3 doors became victim to my rage. I find it strange after a certain level of intoxication you become like an open vessel for something evil to enter. And always i couldn’t remember what the tipping point was to freak out. One second you are super chill the second later you starting a fight for no reason. Still cringing when I think about that.
Hey smitty!! Thanks brother!! Always good to see you in the comments my friend. An “open vessel” that is a fantastic way of putting it. That’s exactly what you are. The switch is so fast like you said, one moment all is good and the next it’s all out mayhem. I’ve seen it with my buddies and brothers before it’s bizarre. I’m glad we are both sober today!!! God bless man.
I know about this all too well griffin! I use to do the same exact thing. I’d drive to the gas station 30 minutes before and sit outside waiting and praying for the gas station to open back up. Shaking pathetically waiting to get that next drink. Let’s never put ourselves back in that spot again brother!! Congratulations on your sobriety 🙏
Great to see you and congrats on the month of sobriety. I wondered if your brother and ex are still together. There’s a saying ‘You can’t build happiness on someone else’s misery’ . I’m glad you have realised you were only hurting yourself by holding onto the anger. Much love ❤
Hey Jean thanks so much as always :) 🖤🙏. Also 100%, as time goes on the more weight is lifted off my shoulders with that situation and it’s beautiful. For years it’s torn me apart, wore me down. I’m glad I’m finally stating to feel some clarity. Much love back to ya 🙏
🙏thanks man!!! Trust me bro I feel it sometimes. I definitely don’t feel as sharp as I once was. It’s really scary the damage that booze does to our brains. You seem like a pretty smart dude yourself though. I’ve read some different treatments and diets to help repair brain damage but it’s all debated. Some believe there is no way of fixing it at all. Scary stuff bro!! Anyways bless brotha! 💯🙏
No demons entered your good soul... What happens is the alcohol, especially in that quantity, numbs the part of the brain that controls impulses, and also directly impairs judgement... Because of the alcohol poisoning of your brain, it caused you to behave erratically, acting on those emotions that had been affecting you... An added complication of alcohol directly affecting behavior is now having to apologize to the people who have hurt you... Because it was the right thing to do. You're doing great! Keep growing and building your channel! Great endeavors❤
Definitely that's why it's called spirits. We feed them through our addictions giving them doorways into your home, I found out 50 years later. That's why being sober minded is necessary to see through the smoke. A real mind f"ck for sure. I'm there with ya.
Thank you for speaking the truth dominoe!! Thank god we are both sober today. They feed off our pain and suffering… each time we drink it’s like fueling them. Real scary sh*t. God bless and one day at a time!! You aren’t alone!
Thank you so much for your honesty. It truly means a lot helping me understand what I have been through with my ex. The story you tell is what happened to me, complete violence that comes out of nowhere and honestly almost took my life. I didn’t understand what happened and why he would do the horrible things and say the atrocious things he would say to me. How much he hated me and wished I was dead. Then the next morning, he remembered nothing. I had to stay away from him because I was so afraid that one day he would kill me and not even remember what happened. Thank you for explaining how these things happen and why. 😢
Hey 👋 thank you so much for this comment! I’m so sorry you had to go through that 😔. It’s horrific, turns people into complete monsters. Once your wrapped up in and the deeper you go the more control you lose. It’s absolutely no excuse for that type of behavior but I’m glad that my videos help you understand alcoholism more. It’s a horrible disease for everyone including the family/loved ones of the alcoholic. I hope you find healing in those situations 🙏🙏
I've never been the most spiritual person. But there's something about the dark depths of alcoholism that freaks me the fuck out 😂 If you've been there, you know
Right? 😂, I’ve heard that from multiple non spiritual people too. They are like “I don’t believe in demons….. but alcohol is kind of demonic” lol, it’s just so messed up you don’t know what other word to use for it. Anyways always awesome to see you here afterhours!!! Hope you’re doing well. God bless brotha 💯
Amen to NO charges or life behind bars, Slayer❤️🔥🙏 Thank God other family was there to restrain, dang!!! You're so right that alcohol ALWAYS makes it worse. You are definitely not alone. Good job getting through, man 😎 You're an inspiration! Life really is cruel but ultimately beautiful, especially when we focus on helping others get through❤
Slayer. My dad used to get incredibly aggressive and tear up the house and us kids. It was terrifying. Bones broken and bruises I had and had to go to school like that. My mom couldn’t stop him but she didn’t even try 😰😰😰😰😰 ty for sharing I’m glad you’re good n sober today. Love n hugs 💚🌟🤟
That’s absolutely horrible Mona I’m so sorry 😞. I thank god was never really physical. I never laid hands on my GF or any woman. I never did really any man either unless they provoked me, but I definitely became scary. Verbally abusive at times….. I’m extremely ashamed of some of the things I said Mona I won’t lie. It haunts me, but healing is what we all need on this channel. We are all on that journey each day. Much love and thank you as always!! Hope you are well! 🙏
@@Mmoose712 thank you. I knew I would lead a different life , not be the person my parents were. My mom was alcoholic too. We were never told I love you . I’m not an alcoholic. I do have challenges with anxiety, depression, PTSD. I’m an RN and try to be a good person. I love Nursing, it gives me a lot of satisfaction. But, my upbringing traumatized me so much . Thank you . 💚🤘🏻🫶🏻💕
That’s interesting pitt 🤔, I think you’re right it’s different for everyone. Pretty crazy how booze affects us all different. Also thank you!!! 🙏💪 one day at a time my friend!
Cool video slayer , I remember the drunk texting or don't remember should I say 😂 no explanation as to why would just turn on friends and family for no reason, too much lowered inhibitions causes us to say terrible things , keep up the good work and sobriety slayer I'm 23 days today. Peace ✌️
Hey thank you luke!!! 23 days is so awesome to hear brother. Congratulations I am genuinely proud of you. Also yes the drunk texts are always almost awful lol. Keep up the great work my friend! 💯
Hey slayer, i'm coming up on 3 months sober after I had a withdrawal seizure. My last couple benders I barely remember I was in another place. It's like I would skip that feeling good and buzzing part and just blackout and pass out. Days would go by and I didn't even know it. I would usually quit drinking for a few days or so and then thought i'd go grab some drinks again and it always started as "I think i'm going to have a few beers just to take the edge off" usually i'd last like 1 day or 2 of "casual" drinking then all of sudden i'm another deadly bender drinking non stop. Last time I quit I went about 2 and a half days cold turkey no sleep and dealing with the shakes sweats and deadly fkn anxiety which was always the worst, thats why I always drank it always took away my anxiety and that "scared feeling", but yeah 2 and half days no sleep I started hearing those little voices you get in your head but it wasn't too bad not deadly hallucinations stage yet. I thought I would go out and just get my mind off things help me get through the withdrawal I stepped outside waved hi at my neighbor and thats the last I remember before waking up being told by emts that I had a seizure.
Hey Tyson!! What’s up brotha! First off congratulations on almost 3 months bro!!! 🙏💪 that is what’s up!!! Pretty incredible. Also holy sh%# man… that’s pretty serious. I’ve never had a seizure but they sound horrific. I can relate to you so much man with the “1-2 casual” I’m only gonna buy a six pack… right….. like you said it’s like we blink and we are on a deadly bender that could last only god knows how long. The withdrawals are just awful, I know all too well my friend. I stayed up for 4 nights straight once!! I’ve also had the hallucinations…. People who’ve never experienced severe alcohol withdrawal just don’t understand. That is insane too that you walked out and all went black, next thing you know you are met by emts…. That’s wild bro I’m glad you’re alive and sober. I’ve had that fear so many times while going through withdrawal… thinking any moment now I’ll have one. Screw all of that, let’s stay on the sober path my friend!!! One day at a time! God bless.
I get exactly what you’re saying about a third of this video in. I have a clip of me drunk saved on my phone. I was in a blacked out state. It’s pretty wild. Nothing violent or anything but yeah… I’m glad to be away from alcohol. I’ll be at a year sober Sunday, man! 🎉🎉🎉
@@Slayer-7373 you can do it too and it keeps getting easier as time goes on. Sure. You’ll have hard days. Even at 10 months you’re still gonna have hard days where you might think of drinking but you’ll know how to handle it easier the longer you hang on. Stay strong! 😎
God bless you, Slayer. Your story telling is beyond powerful. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for spreading your wisdom. Your willingness to share these vulnerable moments is nothing short of inspiring. I’m the same age but I must admit you are wise beyond your years. You remind me with every video you post to trust in God and remain headstrong on His path. The devil preys on our moments of weakness, but God reminds us that these moments are mere and fleeting. The devil deceits us with temptations of short term pleasure but God is with us for eternity. I agree that alcohol, like any substance, is one of the devil’s many tools to throw us off track with our Heavenly Father. I am so blessed to have realized this fact, and I pray everyday for strength and healing from the evil the devil has cursed me with. I pray the same for you, Slayer. Thanks again.
This is such a beautiful comment :) 🖤 thank you so much hermitgirl. God bless you as well, you seem extremely wise as well. I couldn’t have said it better myself. I pray that curse is lifted!! 🙏much love
So glad you finally posted a video and even though this is not my issue. I appreciate listening to your videos. LD is in the hospital. I hope you are able to contact him to give support since you know him. I see you posted about LD. If you hear any more about how he is doing, please let us know how he is. You are so honest about your experience, and I did laugh a little when you told us about being like the exorcist, but that tell us about the horrors of alcohol
Hey Ericar!!! I have reached out and talked to LD! He’s doing pretty good actually! He has his humor, we were joking around and his hopes are super high. He said Gods got his back and I believe that 100% LD will be completely okay. 🖤 Also thanks Ericar :), it’s sometimes hard being so open about these experiences but I know it will help people. It also is very therapeutic for me, to share them with people who understand it’s just beautiful. I’m glad I could get a laugh out of ya haha while also showing the brutal nature of that poison 🥃☠️. Anyways god bless and thanks for checking in Ericar!
Good video for this time of year. I've had weird and horrifying experiences on the sauce that could be interpreted as demonic. I'm sometimes tempted to drink, especially around Halloween, but remembering those experiences helps scare me sober. Congrats on the month of sobriety. I just celebrated 9 months of renewed sobriety after having a similar experience.
I didn’t even think about that till you said something Nathan haha, it does fit well for the Halloween time of the season. I’m the same way as you bro, I get tempted to drink every Halloween as well. It use to always be a party holiday. Learning how to be sober this month is definitely a journey. Also thanks so much man!! 🙏 congratulations yourself on 9 months !! 💪💪that is incredible!! Let’s stay on this sober path. One day at a time.
I am sorry to hear this...I never introduced the people I dated to my family because growing up I have been forced to see messed up stuff. I hope one day I meet a good man and start my own beautiful family 😊
Hey thank you 🙏, I don’t blame you at all for making that decision for yourself. Sometimes family really ain’t your family. You will definitely meet someone some day!!! :)
That's how I looked to myself, in a mirror, after taking 2 ambien many years ago (I'm not condemning this sleep aid, for the record), but it SCARED ME!!! I thought demon 😈, or hallucinations 😨!! I didn't act out, but felt really weird and tried to sleep, shivering in bed from fear and confusion!! Your story with your brother you recall with lucid clarity, with the help of the two witnesses!! FRIGHTENING!! 😨 Your incredible strength on that occasion has me thinking Slayer, almost like the "possessed man " in the gospel account. So glad you shared, and like you clearly stated, there's no "fun" there, and nothing to glorify !! Relatable!! Great video 📹!!! 🌟 🌟 🌟
I’ve heard horror stories about ambien Craig!! That does not surprise me!! Also yes it was super frightening. When you’re black out like that it’s just wild. This is why we both must stay far away from that garbage!!! God bless Craig!! 🙏
I firmly believe that any substance that lowers your ability to function.. have self control… totally lose inhibitions is certainly leave you open to manipulation by anything or anybody. I also think spiritism and medium stuff is also dangerous. Take care buddy. Stay focused and sober.🥊🙏🙏” Silvo”
Ugghh, Slayer, first things first. You are such a good person, and I really hope that you know that! Forgiving others for things like what your brother did takes such strength. I hope that doing that is giving you some well needed closure and helping you heal!! I know what you mean by saying that you felt possessed and looked almost demon-like in the mirror. I don't know what I feel about possession or demons. Even though I believe in God, I have a hard time wrapping my head around even the heaven and hell concept. I definitely think that we create and sometimes live in our own hell. I've looked at myself in the mirror even at times when I was not drinking, but was battling with some self-loathing, and I physically just looked monstrous to myself. I felt so ugly, and so dark in every way. It can be so hard to keep in a sober mindset when there's so much pain on so many levels. But finding ways to heal and practice loving yourself makes it possible. Forgiveness can help nurture that healing and self growth ❤ I've had a lot of people who I asked for forgiveness from, and plenty that I have needed to forgive for closure. Only a few of any of them are in my life today! But I gained some serious closure by practicing all of it. What you're describing when you talk about possession is terrifying! But know that the real you is one of the kindest people out there. Have a great rest of your weekend, friend! 😊❤
🥲🖤Amanda thank you….. you and micru are way too sweet. I told micru this and I have to say the same about you actually, you both have really helped me view my situation with my ex and brother in a different light. Believe it or not y’all and a lot others in this community have helped me heal. That’s pretty beautiful if you ask me. Thank you for taking the time to care!!! Thank you for being part of this journey!!! Much love my friend :)
@Slayer-7373 Yeah! Actually, micru had talked about forgiveness on ld's channel, too. I really liked that comment as well. I really feel that it gives us back a lot of power and offers others a chance to change 😊❤️ SO happy to be on this journey with you and happy to walk it with a bunch of like minded people. I think that in some ways, these communities have helped me more than the people in my everyday life. I just feel understood, so thank you!! I have not had a lot of time to dedicate to these channels since probably the beginning of the summer, but I'm always thinking about you all and rooting for my friends. I guess I'm still adjusting to my new job. I'm barely able to hit up the comments, but I'm trying, and I'm always sending lots of love your way! Have a great night, slayer! 😊🙏❤️
Damn bro. Thank you for sharing another story from your journey. So happy you’re in a much better place. Through years of my own struggle I had some of those “demonic” moments. Horrific stuff of nightmares. Email me anytime. Would def like to chat and share stories. Be well
Hey thank you brother as always!!! I’m always happy to see you in the comments Caesar! Also yes it seems like it’s a common theme amongst us who have drank heavy. Always seems demonic and wicked. Also hey bro could you send me another email? I have so many at the moment. I wouldn’t mind hearing some war stories haha. God bless
Thanks for sharing another story, Slayer. I have seen that same type of possession due to intoxication in someone close to me. It's super scary for sure. Also, I don't mind the way you say "man" you are a cool skater, rocker dude and that fits the way you talk👏💥✨️
Thank you Olivia :)!! Also yes it’s terrifying, I’ve been under the possession and also seen it first hand with friends/family members. It definitely makes you wonder 💭🤔 Also hey thank you so much :)! I’m glad someone likes me saying man!! Lol god bless and much love! 🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 💓💓💓💓 Not sure if you're into Disturbed but the song "The Light" seems very relatable to you. We can truly see the Light after walking through darkness🙏
@@oliviajohnston7216 I do like disturbed!! I never heard that song but I just listened to it. The message of the song is beautiful. Absolutely sometimes we must walk through the shadows to be able to find the light. God bless and thanks Olivia!!! Also I can see you have good taste in music ;) 😂
Alcohol is used to sap the spirit out of a plant and create a tincture . So when we use it , it also saps out our spirit and leaves us ....as a disoriented shell of a person... with our most valuable gift sapped out of us. Alcoholism is not a "dumb choice". It's completely understandable, and is something the human spirit does in an effort to survive.....to live.....to experience joy....connection...ultimately love
Hey J thank you so much man, i appreciate you too brotha. I’ve said it before but its true, when I read comments like these they really do keep me going. We are on this crazy journey together bro!! One day at a time. 🙏🙏
I'm very proud of you brother your doing great! You got this thing look forward to this next month too. keep slapping those demons down the longer you beat them back the weaker they get, by staying sober they are losing their ability to control you. Head into month 2 by staying positive, staying strong, keeping a unbreakable faith in God. I am praying for you too brother I'll always be around if you ever need me. Don't let the demon of temptation get a hold on you just kick it in the ass and set it on it's way. You got this and I hope the next time I hear from you we will be talking about your second month of success and the wonderful gift of sobriety we all seek after. Be safe brother keep up the great work it's all worth it believe me, it's nice waking up with self respect and a clear mind there is nothing more valuable in this world and your life than that. Looks like a strat hanging in the background you kind of remind me of a old friend of mine Stephen Ray Vaughan who was a amazing person but also fought those addiction demons, I also chat with Ted Nugent (NUGE) now and then we live pretty close to each other I usually don't talk about it much because I like my privacy, but maybe I will fill you in someday brother I myself started playing the guitar at 11 years old I'm 65 now so that should tell you a little something anyway. God Bless be safe brother
Can’t say how much I appreciate you brother. Thank you for being a companion on this sober journey. All the support is amazing. Also what? You’re neighbors with Ted nugent? Tell me about that lol! 🙏 god bless brotha
That exacly what it is we people get possessed everyday without even noticing but when we drink or indulge in activities we shouldnt we corrupt ourselves and get possessed more and more, they can even put a filter on us or people like it might appeare a person said something bad but he said entirely something else to cause an argument and feed of us
Hey, Slayer - nice guitar behind you..I play too. Looks like a jazz master type? Take care buddy. Keep praying and fighting.. the rounds of our fight never stop. We are all champs when we fight the demons of alcohol.👍” Silvo”
Hey thanks silvo!!! Always nice to talk with someone who appreciates Music and musical instruments!! Like you said man the biggest win we can get is defeating this poison that is alcohol. Anyways thanks again brother, god bless
@@AndreaPratt-d7p hey Andrea!!! I’m so sorry you’re going through that h*ll!! Please goto a hospital if you’re experiencing bad dt’s!!!’ Go to a state run detox if need be, just be safe!!! Keep me updated please. God bless
Wish we had them state run detoxes I'd go now been convinced I'm dying but will be alright as long as I have alcohol I think everytime ik sleeping ik going to different dimensions
Thanks for sharing man 💪 I have some similar stories largely different to yours but still relatable, you got this shit bro and also that guitar is pretty bad ass 💯
Hey thank you brother!! 💪I’m glad you could relate and heck yea bro thank you! Music is such a big part of my life man. Whenever someone compliments a guitar I know they have great music taste!!! 💯 bless bro.
My older brother has stories just like this. Let’s never go back to those demons again man. One day at a time, one minute at a time I’d that’s what it takes. Like you said “never again”. Thank you for this comment bro 🙏💯
Hey Slay, nice seeing you, hope things are getting settled on your end with the family. Boy that story, the details really highlight the pain and disparity. I’ve felt the rage of betrayal as well, nothing like you of course that’s on a totally different level but I’ve seen that red flash take over. What I have learned is not to allow anyone to get me to that point. Not to give that power to anyone. Anyways, I’m glad you have found forgiveness, it’s the only way. As you said, forgiveness doesn’t mean you have to rekindle the relationship, even some family are not worth having around. What he did is really messed up. The fact you were able to apologize for that incident shows the man that you are. You may have been an ass**** while intoxicated but that’s the disease. It doesn’t excuse the behavior but all is in the past now. You have to forgive you. I know you think that situation was a result of your alcoholism, I see things in a different perspective. They use the alcoholism to justify their behavior. That’s to make them feel ok. It’s a facade my friend and just bullshit. What you decide to do with this life is all up to you? Sure people will try to hold this against you but in time either they’ll see you for who you really are and if they don’t then you move on. Not everyone is meant to be in our Iives forever, just learn, grow, and evolve. Much love always my friend. I’m 💯 with you on this journey. Let’s keep climbing and achieving greatness no matter how big or small. Spreading kindness in this unkind world. I appreciate you and I SEE YOU!
Awe 🥲🖤thank you so much for this beautiful comment micru. Y’all really are too amazing. You in particular have really helped me view my situation with my ex and my brother in a different light and for that I’m extremely thankful. I’m just thankful for you in general my friend!!! This community has become part of my daily life, I was brought to tears the other night thinking about it. It’s just so amazing. Much love always and thank you again 🙏🙏:)
Prayers for your ongoing sobriety Slayer --- " it was like I purged the demon out of me " --- you killin' me bro --- laughing! I know it's not funny. And I'm not laughing at you per se. ** I want to hear different stories from you friend --- I want to hear you went to the mountains & the mountains shared their wisdom with you. And that a birdsong landed in your heart & you know you can stroke the beautiful feathers in our mind's I and Understand at once how Stunningly beautiful this aliveness is and not to be wasted or taken for granted. You tell your stories how you will. Count me among your cheerleaders. --------- in friendship, J
Hey shot in the dark!! What’s going on my friend? Are you okay? I’m gonna pray right now for you….🙏 keep your head up, I’m sorry for whatever is going on. Keep me updated !
Hey Louise thank you brother!! 🙏 also wow I never knew that, it makes sense though. It just goes right along with all the other demonic stuff with booze. God bless you my friend!! 🏴🏴 🏴
Congratulations Slayer on 1.88K Subscribers!!!😊. Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.🖤 PS Slayer What is the age difference between you and your brothers? I’m the youngest of three too. It’s Tough being the youngest.👍💞
Hey Cindy thank you so much!!! :) my younger brother is 2 years younger than me and my two older brothers are 4-7 years older than me! Also have a sister so I’m the middle child so do speak lol. Much love Cindy !
Delerium had me arrested, it was like I’d been to ‘Recall’ from the film Total Recall! I was released from hospital miles to early coz they were fed up of me appearing there every month. Nearly a year sober! Strong alcohol is called spirits for the reason, same reason you’re making this video.
Total recall haha I’ve had a couple of those moments too brother. I want to say congratulations on almost a year sober!!!!! That is absolutely incredible my friend. Also 100% it’s not just by chance that they called it “spirits”!!! God bless man. 🙏
Damn bro that's rough...not gonna lie if my brother did that to me I'd probably want to go off on him too. But thank God you got yourself straight and didn't end up in jail. Your a bigger man for rising above and moving on. Mad props to you stay clean your doing good.
Appreciate this comment my friend!! Like you said thank god things turned out the way they did. There’s a blessing in every curse. Much love and I was just listening to nirvana then i saw your comment 😂🙏.
Hello Slayer I love how real you are with us your viewers. I personally appreciate that so much. You are definitely a strong man. God bless you always Slayer. 💪💯 8/20/24
You are a young man, but you have had as many close calls of someone twice your age. If you no longer can trust yourself when you pick up the bottle it is time to put it down for good. Ultimately you either outgrow it or you succumb to it.
I’ve often thought about this Richard, thank you for being the first person to actually point it out. I’m definitely at that crossroads with my drinking. It’s either be sober….. or let myself fall back into the alcoholism…. I can’t let myself do the second option. Y’all help me stay sober and i appreciate that so much. I just gotta keep taking it one day at a time. We got this! God bless brother 🙏
I had to block my only daughter for this exact same reason, she gets abusive and texts me the most hateful messages, after ten years of me taking the abuse I got to the end of my road and blocked her, it’s been over a month and I rather to suffer the complete absence of her than suffer the horrible abuse she puts me through every time she gets drank
🙏🖤I’m so sorry to hear this. Alcohol truly turns us into monsters. It won’t stop unless the drinking stops for good! I hope you and your daughter can find peace one day. I also hope your daughter can find sobriety. Addiction is a road to nowhere….. god bless 🙏
@ thank you so very much my sweet child, i started following you because im trying to understand what my daughter is going through, and I now get so happy for you when you are doing good , it feels we are all one and we’re in this together sweetheart, please keep strong, you are an amazing young man with so much to offer to society is unbelievable because my daughter is the same way, such a beautiful soul, but for now I feel in my heart that I must keep my distance, thank you for sharing your story with all of us in such sincere way, you touch my heart, you give me hope, if you can fight this so can my daughter 🤍
I once flipped out on my family yelling the F word while we were on Main Street during a parade of old cars in Moab Utah. I drank this stuff called Underground. It’s kinda like Jager. But it completely took me over and I was like “F you!! This is BS F you!” And I stormed across the street and who knows where I went lol. I acted a fool for sure…
“Might act a fool!! ⚠️” warning should be on every single liquor bottle bro 😂😂. The combined stories of all of us together on this community is just mind blowing. It’s a real testament to how crazy booze really is!!! Hope you are well brotha.💯💯🙏
It’s weird how addiction effects people different it seems like your more hard on yourself than I personally feel you should be because when I look at most users of any substance there’s always predisposition
@ trust me I go through it too but when it came to my substance use one thing that has helped me stray away from it is learning to be more understanding with myself like you said getting more to the root of the cause and everybody around me tells me the opposite like they want me to overly blame myself even though a lot of them use in one way or another too it all comes down to how you view it honestly
Absolutely dusty, every single time. Just the thought of the hang over and regret the next day is enough to keep me away from the booze. That feeling you get after you wake up after a relapse it’s just awful. I’ve had hangovers for so long it’s weird not having them haha.
I can 100% pretty much say the same for myself. Pretty much every bad decision and every regret I have in this life is linked to booze some how. How insane is that? But you know how that world is brotha. The fact that booze is legal still blows my mind bro.
Tried to get Librium from my doctor...like bro I need this...u gave me the script before...I ain't trying to get high off shit bro... trying to prevent the DTs...
This so reminds me of two instances where I think I was possessed. One I'll share. After my ex kicked me out of our house we shared for 1.5, and I was forced to move back home with my parents, one night, I was really shitfaced, and in basement getting something. I looked around at all my stuff in boxes that I had to move back, and decided I was gonna just trash them all. I started taking out pots and pans, and throwing them all over the basement, and just screaming like a psycho. It took my mom, dad, and brother to pick me up, someone had my legs and others upper body, because I was kicking and screaming and fighting them off the entire time. They ended up committing me to a mental hospital where I had to stay for 11 days. My liver numbers at this time, I was told, were as bad as it can get before cirrhosis. Within 11 days, they normalized. Not to mention I was like 85 LBS at the time, yet took all three normal weight adults to control me. This shit is real, and it's great that you are sharing these horror stories, because if you haven't been there, you may not believe this could ever happen to you. I think most people have this false sense that when you drink, you can never lose control like that. Congrats on a month, it's huge, and just keep sharing because it is helping you, and so many others😊
That is a WILD story kris!!! Thank you so much for sharing 🙏. I would definitely say something took you over. You said you were 85 pounds and had that strength. Same with me I weighed probably like 130-140 at the time. I was superrrr skinny. Yet I was throwing people 100 plus pounds off me. Booze is absolutely insane and way overlooked because of it’s normalization in our society. I’m glad we are both sober today!!!! Much love and god bless 🙏🖤
@@krislic84 oh I’m sorry 🤦♂️😂, the days are hard but they get easier. The more we replace the negative the more positive comes in. For me community is so important, it helps me stay sober and this UA-cam channel is part of that. Don’t hesitate reach out any time if you need to. Feel free to send me an email as well @slayersober7@gmail.com. We will get through this!!! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 no problem u didn't know my friend. I had one friend who called me kris growing up, but she's no longer a part of my life. Just keep posting content. It's so uplifting.
Woke up in jail one morning...had no idea!!! Why im locked up..im punching the cell door...it was a criminal trespassing charge... because of a full blown black out
Never say never right? I’m a very open minded person so it could happen. Always brings a smile to my face seeing you in the comments redsnapper!! Thank you my friend ! 🙏
I got some health issues...i still jog 2-3 miles everyday..and hit the heavy bag..but..I got an artery in my heart..6o percent blockage from alcohol....I eat healthy..it's from past extreme alcohol abuse
I'm still embarrassed and ashamed of my behavior while drunk... I'm a completely different person, and would rage alot. The manager at the apartments where I live actually caught me on the cameras in the parking lot raging at my ex, and showed it to me. I was like WHAT THE ACTUAL F***. I didn't recognize myself and was acting insanely. Needless to say, I'm greatful to be sober today.. Thanks for sharing your story
Oh man I know that feeling….. when someone shows you a video of you blackout. No memory of it at all…. Acting absolutely insane like you said it’s very embarrassing and shameful. I often could never watch the videos that people took of me… it actually hurt watching. I’m so happy we are both sober today and putting that sh*^%y past behind us. Anyways Thanks so much sumshine :)!!! Always good to see you in the comments. Much love and god bless 🙏
yeah i feel like i'm in this tunnel vision state with 7oh tablets the days all just blend together and i continue to pop them like candy. Walking out to the mail box to get my fix. Always ordering online. The blur state seems comfortable and it is, a sad sense of life. No soul. Goodluck ya'll while i wait sick for the mail to get here and I can continue the tunnel vision life.
Hey Pete I’m sorry brother that you’re going through that hell!!! That’s what addiction is, is hell!!! I’d suggest you call out to god man, goto a detox, goto the Hospital, goto an AA meeting do whatever you’ve got to do to get some freedom. I know how you’re living man, I know how hard it is when you’re knee deep. Keep us updated my friend. 🙏there is hope for you man, you’re alive!!
Hello I'm that Limey Subscriber from a few months back. In 5 days I will have done 6 months Alcohol Free, but I cannot experience pleasure from anything, the days feel grey. My body has earned a rest from it though-I would binge on Jack Daniel's 43% in the street in broad daylight for a birthday celebration and then take a hipflask into the bars. I'm done with it.
Hey I remember you!!! So awesome to hear from you again my friend!! 6 month’s alcohol free?!??! Whattttt congratulations 💪🙌 that is incredible bro. It brings a smile to my face knowing you went and got sober. :)
@@Slayer-7373 I'm happy to be off it but I struggle to think of a more suitable drink other than alcohol for an evening or a weekend. I was drinking for 18 years quite heavily so my Brain needs to rewire itself.
@@jakezywek6852 “rewire” that’s a great word for it man. It really is a complete rewiring of the brain. It was our goto for years and now we can’t rely on it anymore. It’s strange, years ago I just thought I’d always drink, but then it catches up with you.
My homie Lamar saved our life one night..passed out driving... driving back from San Diego California...i live in Lawrence KS...785....bro..im almost back!! Passed out at the wheel ...bro ..if Lamar wouldn't have grabbed that wheel before we drive into ravine..dig..we would have died .. Hennessy
Happy sober October y’all! 🎃
ALL THE MERRY SPOOKS TO ALL 🧡🖤🧡🖤👻🎃
@@Slayer-7373 oh yeah I forgot about sober October lol. Well I’m happy we are living it!!
@@DATONEGAMER25 💪heck yea dude!!
The worst thing for me is waking up to all the ridiculous hateful texts and messages and even calls i sent people while alcohol demon possessed. I cant stop cringing to this day. And knowing i destroyed friendships forever hurts everyday. 😢 how do we even begin to get past that? Keep up the videos, you really do help alot of people! ❤
Oh Shayna I know all too well, it’s absolutely awful. You wake up the next day and relationships are completely ruined. You’ve made an embarrassment out of yourself and it’s awful. I’m still healing from many relationships that I no longer have because of alcoholism. Trust me I will definitely keep the videos coming!!! I love y’all!!! I love this community 🙏🖤
It's not only you this happens to. I have no idea why we even want to converse with people, wasted drunk. Alcohol affects rational thinking in our brains
great video man.. they say forgiveness is the highest form of power. “To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.”
Amen to that brother 🙏💯
It's good to hear you're still sober Slayer. A month after my last withdrawal I'm still sober too. I agree totally about being possessed by a demon when drinking. Nothing good comes from consuming alcohol. I've been in some very dark places (usually a police cell) due to my drinking and I don't wish to go back. Keep strong brother, I'm thinking about you and thanking god for the chance he's given us to live a sober life and enjoy the beautiful world we live in. Keep the faith brothers and sisters we can overcome this addiction.
Congratulations my friend on a month sober, that is really beautiful to hear. It’s just not worth it man, we know better. We know the path that’s calling us and it’s up to us if we are gonna go right or left. God or the devil. Sober or intoxicated. We are going to overcome this brother and stay on the right path.
Also 100% thank god for another day and another chance. Many people aren’t getting that opportunity today so we must make the most of it. God bless my friend!! One day at a time, we got this. Keep me updated !
100% right there with ya. Alcohol comes straight from hell. “The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist” - Charles Baudelaire
Hey thanks jena for speaking the truth!! Also yup, it truly is the greatest trick he ever pulled. The master of deception!!!
God bless and thank you for this comment 🙏
Congrats on your continued sobriety, Slayer! I'm glad you were able to let go of all those negative thoughts and feelings. It's not worth it holding onto that stuff because it just eats away at you over time. I can totally relate to holding grudges against people, and the alcohol just made those feelings worse. I think alcohol, especially liquor, can make you go temporarily insane too. It really is like you're possessed by a demon or something. I've had that drunken rage, and it's like you get this crazy strength that comes out of nowhere and it takes an army to calm you down, lol. It guess that's why gin, whiskey, vodka, etc. are called spirits! Being sober definitely puts you in a much better headspace! Great story man, you're a hell of a storyteller! God bless, and prayers for LD!!
Hey David!! Thank you so much brother 🙏 this is an awesome comment. Grudges/resentment when held onto just Damage us. It’s like you said it’s not worth holding onto. “Temporarily insane” you’re 100% right man. I’ve always found the fact they call the hard liq spirits interesting. Even as a kid I wondered what’s up with that? Even people who don’t believe in god usually can admit alcohol can turn people into…. Demons cuz there is no other word for it.
Anyways hope you’re well my friend and again thank you. God bless
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks man! Hey, I noticed a guitar in the background in some of your videos. Just curious, do you play??...I do! 🤘
Bro...36 hours sober...buts rough...im just laid up on the couch
.too weak to do move really...had terrible withdrawal nightmares last night... couldn't really sleep....relasped after like 45 over getting pissed off at a situation... wasn't worth it.. I'll get it back....thanks for checking on me...really appreciate it
I figured something happened bro. I’m glad to see you’re back on your feet again. Just take time, god will get you through man. God bless and one day at a time 💯💪🙏
@@Slayer-7373 yeah bro..bad 2 week binge...vodka...beer.....I'll back brother...God bless 🙏 brother...🤟
Damn..my brain 🧠 still outta focus.. leaving out words.. 😂
I'm so glad you have a relationship with God. God bless you Slayer.
I am too Rebecca :), thank you and god bless. 🖤
Those demons be sitting sidelined just waiting for you to make mistake so they can get back in the game son ! ..watch out it's real
You’re 100% right Mathew, they are in the parking lot doing push ups getting stronger by the day!! We gotta stay sharp and keep our guard up.
Thanks for this comment brother! God bless
@Slayer-7373 this is why it's out my control to drink . I figured out there game . Been sober 1.5 years ..rum 2 businesses now and lost 20 lbs ..stay away from females too they are evil and in on that shit ..higher vibration higher frequency, you are safe !
I was alcoholic from 12 years old to 34. I ruined everything and tried everything to get free the last 10 years. A guy told me about Jesus Christ and I had a mind boggling beautiful encounter with Christ. I was instantly healed of deadly alcoholism as I SAT ON A BARSTOOL! That was 24 years ago. I know many ppl who are dead from alcohol. And in hell! In hindsight, I realize I was afflicted w a demon. Go to church, pray, repent. He’s our helper and healer
I just watched some Hindu videos and realized how insane it was. I can’t imagine how other people around the world think of our religion. None of us know the true path. Just do what you know is right and the best you can and make this life the best life you can because none of us actually know what awaits us after this. No matter what religion
That is beautiful Tracey, congratulations on not only your sobriety but also your walk with god. That’s awesome!!! 🙏🙏god bless. Not everyone is into Christianity and i understand that. I was an atheist/agnostic for years. It took some personal experiences for as well to get to where I am now. It’s odd because it’s like now that I believe in god, I don’t understand how I ever even questioned it. Anyways much love :)
None of us will ever truly understand the workings of this reality, or the next one. Some things are out of the human brain comprehension.
@@Slayer-7373 thanks slayer. Yes, I can’t ever question it again- my faith. Usually it’s not instantaneous healing, but God creates a path. I’ll pray for you.
I was a black out, liver damaged drunk. So… I get it.
Hope and a future, T
@@DownHom3 I’ll pray for you. Hills and valleys. I suggest prayer with fasting. Fasting thins the veil between you and God. Prayers…
I have destroyed many relationships because of my addiction to alcohol...just like you said, I say things and act in ways that I would never in a million years say or do while sober. It is absolutely mortifying and heartbreaking. I've ruined excellent relationships because of this.
Sadly I have too Francie 😔 i understand the pain that comes along with that. I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with this 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thank you. Your videos are extremely encouraging. You are open, and honest, and the things you talk about really hit home for me. I really appreciate you putting this content out there. It's very helpful
@@FrancieMoon9 🖤:) that is awesome to hear. It’s helpful for me too, very therapeutic.
You are a great storyteller Slayer! Genuinely, you should try writing a screenplay or something that is a horror genre dealing with alcoholism as actually being demonic possession, it is a fascinating idea and a great analogy even if there will be people who don’t take it literally!
:) thanks so much Martin this is awesome of you to say. I think I will try that, that’s a great idea. Much love brotha and again thank you for not only the kind words but the awesome suggestion 💯
I think that's what the Shining is about, loosely
@@BillSamuels79 This is so bad but I’ve never got round to seeing it 😬
Thank you for your vulnerability man. You're forgiveness and recognizing it is so important. I pray for your sobriety, and your happiness
Hey thank you xj 🙏 this means more than you know brother. God bless
@@Slayer-7373your true testimony is going to help so many people my guy 🙌
I hope your brother and family hear this.
Congrats on a month bro, let’s get a year now brutha
Thanks so much emery 💪💪 let’s go brotha!!! 1 year!
Hey Slayer Jersey girl here. Please say a prayer for LD. He's back in the hospital. Great video ❤
Hey jersey girl I will make sure to keep him in my prayers!! He’s a warrior!! He will make it through just fine. Thanks as always :) god bless
Standing in agreement with prayers ...LD was given a year and he passed it, he is a fighter Dear God please intervene in LDs health!❤@@Slayer-7373
@@Slayer-7373have you heard from Ld the last few days?.. we haven't heard from him in some days.. I'm hoping he's out of the hospital.
Great video as always! I think in my crazy drinking, 3 doors became victim to my rage. I find it strange after a certain level of intoxication you become like an open vessel for something evil to enter. And always i couldn’t remember what the tipping point was to freak out. One second you are super chill the second later you starting a fight for no reason. Still cringing when I think about that.
Hey smitty!! Thanks brother!! Always good to see you in the comments my friend. An “open vessel” that is a fantastic way of putting it. That’s exactly what you are. The switch is so fast like you said, one moment all is good and the next it’s all out mayhem. I’ve seen it with my buddies and brothers before it’s bizarre. I’m glad we are both sober today!!! God bless man.
Now LD is like the best individual ever!! I mean.. such an amazing inspiration.. amazing human being;!..
He’s an amazing friend and an amazing UA-camr as well. Just an awesome guy
Twenty years ago, I'd sit clock watching waiting for 7-Eleven to open so I could replenish my alcohol supply ... so happy those days are long gone!
I know about this all too well griffin! I use to do the same exact thing. I’d drive to the gas station 30 minutes before and sit outside waiting and praying for the gas station to open back up. Shaking pathetically waiting to get that next drink. Let’s never put ourselves back in that spot again brother!! Congratulations on your sobriety 🙏
~Hi-Five~ Thanks!
Great to see you and congrats on the month of sobriety. I wondered if your brother and ex are still together. There’s a saying ‘You can’t build happiness on someone else’s misery’ . I’m glad you have realised you were only hurting yourself by holding onto the anger. Much love ❤
Hey Jean thanks so much as always :) 🖤🙏. Also 100%, as time goes on the more weight is lifted off my shoulders with that situation and it’s beautiful. For years it’s torn me apart, wore me down. I’m glad I’m finally stating to feel some clarity. Much love back to ya 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Proud of you! 🤗
Another great video slayer.
Thank you so much Jeff!!! 💯hope you are well brotha!
So glad you're doing well ❤thanks for the vid
🙏thank you so much glen :)
Thanks for uploading slayer have a great weekend man, God bless
Thank you Rebecca!! You have a great weekend as well! God bless 🙏
Crazy story bro, you're still very articulate after years of drinking, my brains pretty fried lol
🙏thanks man!!! Trust me bro I feel it sometimes. I definitely don’t feel as sharp as I once was. It’s really scary the damage that booze does to our brains. You seem like a pretty smart dude yourself though. I’ve read some different treatments and diets to help repair brain damage but it’s all debated. Some believe there is no way of fixing it at all. Scary stuff bro!! Anyways bless brotha! 💯🙏
Bro ..i felt that evil present in my living room a few times..scared the shit outta me
I have to bro, I’ve felt that evil energy through out my entire house in the past. Alcohol is a powerful substance man. Super dark
Me too, sober a week. 🙏
@ that’s awesome lily!!! Congratulations!! 🙏💪
No demons entered your good soul... What happens is the alcohol, especially in that quantity, numbs the part of the brain that controls impulses, and also directly impairs judgement... Because of the alcohol poisoning of your brain, it caused you to behave erratically, acting on those emotions that had been affecting you... An added complication of alcohol directly affecting behavior is now having to apologize to the people who have hurt you... Because it was the right thing to do. You're doing great! Keep growing and building your channel! Great endeavors❤
I like this idea a lot more than being possessed!! Much love and thank you for this comment :) 🙏🖤
Definitely that's why it's called spirits. We feed them through our addictions giving them doorways into your home, I found out 50 years later. That's why being sober minded is necessary to see through the smoke. A real mind f"ck for sure. I'm there with ya.
Thank you for speaking the truth dominoe!! Thank god we are both sober today. They feed off our pain and suffering… each time we drink it’s like fueling them. Real scary sh*t. God bless and one day at a time!! You aren’t alone!
Thank you so much for your honesty. It truly means a lot helping me understand what I have been through with my ex. The story you tell is what happened to me, complete violence that comes out of nowhere and honestly almost took my life. I didn’t understand what happened and why he would do the horrible things and say the atrocious things he would say to me. How much he hated me and wished I was dead. Then the next morning, he remembered nothing. I had to stay away from him because I was so afraid that one day he would kill me and not even remember what happened. Thank you for explaining how these things happen and why. 😢
Hey 👋 thank you so much for this comment! I’m so sorry you had to go through that 😔. It’s horrific, turns people into complete monsters. Once your wrapped up in and the deeper you go the more control you lose. It’s absolutely no excuse for that type of behavior but I’m glad that my videos help you understand alcoholism more. It’s a horrible disease for everyone including the family/loved ones of the alcoholic. I hope you find healing in those situations 🙏🙏
I've never been the most spiritual person. But there's something about the dark depths of alcoholism that freaks me the fuck out 😂 If you've been there, you know
Right? 😂, I’ve heard that from multiple non spiritual people too. They are like “I don’t believe in demons….. but alcohol is kind of demonic” lol, it’s just so messed up you don’t know what other word to use for it. Anyways always awesome to see you here afterhours!!! Hope you’re doing well. God bless brotha 💯
Amen to NO charges or life behind bars, Slayer❤️🔥🙏 Thank God other family was there to restrain, dang!!! You're so right that alcohol ALWAYS makes it worse. You are definitely not alone. Good job getting through, man 😎 You're an inspiration! Life really is cruel but ultimately beautiful, especially when we focus on helping others get through❤
Exactly my friend!!! That is a blessing!!! Thank you for all the love and support GR, y’all inspire me. We will definitely get through. God bless
I've experienced this "possession". I'm not a violent person and there have been times where I made an absolute scene trying to fight people.
While drunk 🥴 or experiencing DT’s?
All too common sadly when it comes to drinking!!! Glad we are both sober today brother. 🙏
Slayer. My dad used to get incredibly aggressive and tear up the house and us kids. It was terrifying. Bones broken and bruises I had and had to go to school like that. My mom couldn’t stop him but she didn’t even try 😰😰😰😰😰 ty for sharing I’m glad you’re good n sober today. Love n hugs 💚🌟🤟
That’s absolutely horrible Mona I’m so sorry 😞. I thank god was never really physical. I never laid hands on my GF or any woman. I never did really any man either unless they provoked me, but I definitely became scary. Verbally abusive at times….. I’m extremely ashamed of some of the things I said Mona I won’t lie. It haunts me, but healing is what we all need on this channel. We are all on that journey each day. Much love and thank you as always!! Hope you are well! 🙏
So sorry Mona! How has that affected you as an adult?
@@Mmoose712 thank you. I knew I would lead a different life , not be the person my parents were. My mom was alcoholic too. We were never told I love you . I’m not an alcoholic. I do have challenges with anxiety, depression, PTSD. I’m an RN and try to be a good person. I love Nursing, it gives me a lot of satisfaction. But, my upbringing traumatized me so much . Thank you . 💚🤘🏻🫶🏻💕
@@Mmoose712 ❤️
@@Slayer-7373 🫶🏻💙
Must be different for everyone, when I'm like that my pupils are like pins.
Congratulations on a month Slayer.
That’s interesting pitt 🤔, I think you’re right it’s different for everyone. Pretty crazy how booze affects us all different. Also thank you!!! 🙏💪 one day at a time my friend!
Just found this. Can't watch yet but Thank u for posting. 🙏❤
Watching it is some thing for me to look forward to today.
:) hey Debbie!!! Thank you so much as always! How are you doing today??
Thank You so much for your message Slayer. 🙏❤ Sorry I didn't see it before. Take care always.Thank you for caring. Debbie
Hey slayer, so glad you are doing better. I will continue to pray for you 🙏 as with god all things are possible. Stay blessed my friend 🙏.
🙏🙏thank you so much Tom. God bless
Cool video slayer , I remember the drunk texting or don't remember should I say 😂 no explanation as to why would just turn on friends and family for no reason, too much lowered inhibitions causes us to say terrible things , keep up the good work and sobriety slayer I'm 23 days today. Peace ✌️
Hey thank you luke!!! 23 days is so awesome to hear brother. Congratulations I am genuinely proud of you. Also yes the drunk texts are always almost awful lol.
Keep up the great work my friend! 💯
Hey slayer, i'm coming up on 3 months sober after I had a withdrawal seizure. My last couple benders I barely remember I was in another place. It's like I would skip that feeling good and buzzing part and just blackout and pass out. Days would go by and I didn't even know it. I would usually quit drinking for a few days or so and then thought i'd go grab some drinks again and it always started as "I think i'm going to have a few beers just to take the edge off" usually i'd last like 1 day or 2 of "casual" drinking then all of sudden i'm another deadly bender drinking non stop. Last time I quit I went about 2 and a half days cold turkey no sleep and dealing with the shakes sweats and deadly fkn anxiety which was always the worst, thats why I always drank it always took away my anxiety and that "scared feeling", but yeah 2 and half days no sleep I started hearing those little voices you get in your head but it wasn't too bad not deadly hallucinations stage yet. I thought I would go out and just get my mind off things help me get through the withdrawal I stepped outside waved hi at my neighbor and thats the last I remember before waking up being told by emts that I had a seizure.
Hey Tyson!! What’s up brotha! First off congratulations on almost 3 months bro!!! 🙏💪 that is what’s up!!! Pretty incredible.
Also holy sh%# man… that’s pretty serious. I’ve never had a seizure but they sound horrific. I can relate to you so much man with the “1-2 casual” I’m only gonna buy a six pack… right….. like you said it’s like we blink and we are on a deadly bender that could last only god knows how long. The withdrawals are just awful, I know all too well my friend. I stayed up for 4 nights straight once!! I’ve also had the hallucinations…. People who’ve never experienced severe alcohol withdrawal just don’t understand. That is insane too that you walked out and all went black, next thing you know you are met by emts…. That’s wild bro I’m glad you’re alive and sober. I’ve had that fear so many times while going through withdrawal… thinking any moment now I’ll have one. Screw all of that, let’s stay on the sober path my friend!!! One day at a time! God bless.
Slayer, you're a fantastic story teller man, really talented. Totally an inspiration, been watching your vids for a week now. Stay strong, u da man.
Hey thank you brotha, this is an awesome compliment 🙏🙏
I get exactly what you’re saying about a third of this video in. I have a clip of me drunk saved on my phone. I was in a blacked out state. It’s pretty wild. Nothing violent or anything but yeah… I’m glad to be away from alcohol. I’ll be at a year sober Sunday, man! 🎉🎉🎉
Congratulations on one year brother, that is absolutely awesome!!! 💪💪👏👏 an inspiration bro.
@@Slayer-7373 you can do it too and it keeps getting easier as time goes on. Sure. You’ll have hard days. Even at 10 months you’re still gonna have hard days where you might think of drinking but you’ll know how to handle it easier the longer you hang on. Stay strong! 😎
God bless you, Slayer. Your story telling is beyond powerful. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for spreading your wisdom. Your willingness to share these vulnerable moments is nothing short of inspiring. I’m the same age but I must admit you are wise beyond your years. You remind me with every video you post to trust in God and remain headstrong on His path. The devil preys on our moments of weakness, but God reminds us that these moments are mere and fleeting.
The devil deceits us with temptations of short term pleasure but God is with us for eternity. I agree that alcohol, like any substance, is one of the devil’s many tools to throw us off track with our Heavenly Father. I am so blessed to have realized this fact, and I pray everyday for strength and healing from the evil the devil has cursed me with. I pray the same for you, Slayer. Thanks again.
This is such a beautiful comment :) 🖤 thank you so much hermitgirl. God bless you as well, you seem extremely wise as well. I couldn’t have said it better myself. I pray that curse is lifted!! 🙏much love
So glad you finally posted a video and even though this is not my issue. I appreciate listening to your videos. LD is in the hospital. I hope you are able to contact him to give support since you know him. I see you posted about LD. If you hear any more about how he is doing, please let us know how he is. You are so honest about your experience, and I did laugh a little when you told us about being like the exorcist, but that tell us about the horrors of alcohol
Hey Ericar!!! I have reached out and talked to LD! He’s doing pretty good actually! He has his humor, we were joking around and his hopes are super high. He said Gods got his back and I believe that 100% LD will be completely okay. 🖤
Also thanks Ericar :), it’s sometimes hard being so open about these experiences but I know it will help people. It also is very therapeutic for me, to share them with people who understand it’s just beautiful. I’m glad I could get a laugh out of ya haha while also showing the brutal nature of that poison 🥃☠️. Anyways god bless and thanks for checking in Ericar!
@@Slayer-7373 That is good to hear. If you hear of updates, please let me know. Please let him know his online community are praying for him.
Good video for this time of year. I've had weird and horrifying experiences on the sauce that could be interpreted as demonic. I'm sometimes tempted to drink, especially around Halloween, but remembering those experiences helps scare me sober. Congrats on the month of sobriety. I just celebrated 9 months of renewed sobriety after having a similar experience.
I didn’t even think about that till you said something Nathan haha, it does fit well for the Halloween time of the season. I’m the same way as you bro, I get tempted to drink every Halloween as well. It use to always be a party holiday. Learning how to be sober this month is definitely a journey. Also thanks so much man!! 🙏 congratulations yourself on 9 months !! 💪💪that is incredible!! Let’s stay on this sober path. One day at a time.
Jesus Christ❤
Amen 🙏
Is Lord
@@PleaseForgiveYourself that’s right 💯
I am sorry to hear this...I never introduced the people I dated to my family because growing up I have been forced to see messed up stuff. I hope one day I meet a good man and start my own beautiful family 😊
Hey thank you 🙏, I don’t blame you at all for making that decision for yourself. Sometimes family really ain’t your family. You will definitely meet someone some day!!! :)
That's how I looked to myself, in a mirror, after taking 2 ambien many years ago (I'm not condemning this sleep aid, for the record), but it SCARED ME!!!
I thought demon 😈, or hallucinations 😨!! I didn't act out, but felt really weird and tried to sleep, shivering in bed from fear and confusion!!
Your story with your brother you recall with lucid clarity, with the help of the two witnesses!! FRIGHTENING!! 😨
Your incredible strength on that occasion has me thinking Slayer, almost like the "possessed man " in the gospel account.
So glad you shared, and like you clearly stated, there's no "fun" there, and nothing to glorify !!
Relatable!! Great video 📹!!! 🌟 🌟 🌟
I’ve heard horror stories about ambien Craig!! That does not surprise me!! Also yes it was super frightening. When you’re black out like that it’s just wild. This is why we both must stay far away from that garbage!!! God bless Craig!! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 🌟 🌟 🌟 🌟 🌟
Ambien, if it doesn't knock you out, is a hardcore halucinagin! Hardcore! Lol god bless
@@madmaxxx69 why do I seldom hear this? It was scary for me!! Can't forget and won't try it again!!
I firmly believe that any substance that lowers your ability to function.. have self control… totally lose inhibitions is certainly leave you open to manipulation by anything or anybody. I also think spiritism and medium stuff is also dangerous. Take care buddy. Stay focused and sober.🥊🙏🙏” Silvo”
100% silvo, I’m right there with you brotha. Thank you my friend!! I will!!! One day at a time 💪🙏god bless!
Amazing video, i needed that. Thanks.
@@BillSamuels79 hey thank you bill!!! I’m glad it helped brother. God bless! One day at a time. 🙏
Ugghh, Slayer, first things first. You are such a good person, and I really hope that you know that! Forgiving others for things like what your brother did takes such strength. I hope that doing that is giving you some well needed closure and helping you heal!! I know what you mean by saying that you felt possessed and looked almost demon-like in the mirror. I don't know what I feel about possession or demons. Even though I believe in God, I have a hard time wrapping my head around even the heaven and hell concept. I definitely think that we create and sometimes live in our own hell. I've looked at myself in the mirror even at times when I was not drinking, but was battling with some self-loathing, and I physically just looked monstrous to myself. I felt so ugly, and so dark in every way. It can be so hard to keep in a sober mindset when there's so much pain on so many levels. But finding ways to heal and practice loving yourself makes it possible. Forgiveness can help nurture that healing and self growth ❤ I've had a lot of people who I asked for forgiveness from, and plenty that I have needed to forgive for closure. Only a few of any of them are in my life today! But I gained some serious closure by practicing all of it. What you're describing when you talk about possession is terrifying! But know that the real you is one of the kindest people out there. Have a great rest of your weekend, friend! 😊❤
🥲🖤Amanda thank you….. you and micru are way too sweet. I told micru this and I have to say the same about you actually, you both have really helped me view my situation with my ex and brother in a different light. Believe it or not y’all and a lot others in this community have helped me heal. That’s pretty beautiful if you ask me. Thank you for taking the time to care!!! Thank you for being part of this journey!!! Much love my friend :)
@Slayer-7373 Yeah! Actually, micru had talked about forgiveness on ld's channel, too. I really liked that comment as well.
I really feel that it gives us back a lot of power and offers others a chance to change 😊❤️ SO happy to be on this journey with you and happy to walk it with a bunch of like minded people. I think that in some ways, these communities have helped me more than the people in my everyday life. I just feel understood, so thank you!! I have not had a lot of time to dedicate to these channels since probably the beginning of the summer, but I'm always thinking about you all and rooting for my friends. I guess I'm still adjusting to my new job. I'm barely able to hit up the comments, but I'm trying, and I'm always sending lots of love your way! Have a great night, slayer! 😊🙏❤️
Damn bro. Thank you for sharing another story from your journey. So happy you’re in a much better place.
Through years of my own struggle I had some of those “demonic” moments. Horrific stuff of nightmares.
Email me anytime. Would def like to chat and share stories.
Be well
Hey thank you brother as always!!! I’m always happy to see you in the comments Caesar! Also yes it seems like it’s a common theme amongst us who have drank heavy. Always seems demonic and wicked.
Also hey bro could you send me another email? I have so many at the moment. I wouldn’t mind hearing some war stories haha. God bless
Thanks for sharing another story, Slayer. I have seen that same type of possession due to intoxication in someone close to me. It's super scary for sure.
Also, I don't mind the way you say "man" you are a cool skater, rocker dude and that fits the way you talk👏💥✨️
Thank you Olivia :)!! Also yes it’s terrifying, I’ve been under the possession and also seen it first hand with friends/family members. It definitely makes you wonder 💭🤔
Also hey thank you so much :)! I’m glad someone likes me saying man!! Lol god bless and much love! 🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 💓💓💓💓
Not sure if you're into Disturbed but the song "The Light" seems very relatable to you. We can truly see the Light after walking through darkness🙏
@@oliviajohnston7216 I do like disturbed!! I never heard that song but I just listened to it. The message of the song is beautiful. Absolutely sometimes we must walk through the shadows to be able to find the light.
God bless and thanks Olivia!!! Also I can see you have good taste in music ;) 😂
@Slayer-7373 awesome!! Yeah I'm a rock girl. Gotta get the angst out through music ya know😉
@@oliviajohnston7216 heck yea 🤘
Alcohol is used to sap the spirit out of a plant and create a tincture . So when we use it , it also saps out our spirit and leaves us ....as a disoriented shell of a person... with our most valuable gift sapped out of us. Alcoholism is not a "dumb choice". It's completely understandable, and is something the human spirit does in an effort to survive.....to live.....to experience joy....connection...ultimately love
This comment right here!!! 🎯 i 100% agree, thank you for saying it how it is. 🙏
Just wanna say how much I appreciate you slayer
My journey has been rough but I binge your vids like I binged alcohol
Hey J thank you so much man, i appreciate you too brotha. I’ve said it before but its true, when I read comments like these they really do keep me going. We are on this crazy journey together bro!! One day at a time. 🙏🙏
@@jmart604 thank you for being part of the journey again man. 🙏
You and LD keep me going man
Crazy how much we have in common
I'm very proud of you brother your doing great! You got this thing look forward to this next month too. keep slapping those demons down the longer you beat them back the weaker they get, by staying sober they are losing their ability to control you. Head into month 2 by staying positive, staying strong, keeping a unbreakable faith in God. I am praying for you too brother I'll always be around if you ever need me. Don't let the demon of temptation get a hold on you just kick it in the ass and set it on it's way. You got this and I hope the next time I hear from you we will be talking about your second month of success and the wonderful gift of sobriety we all seek after. Be safe brother keep up the great work it's all worth it believe me, it's nice waking up with self respect and a clear mind there is nothing more valuable in this world and your life than that. Looks like a strat hanging in the background you kind of remind me of a old friend of mine Stephen Ray Vaughan who was a amazing person but also fought those addiction demons, I also chat with Ted Nugent (NUGE) now and then we live pretty close to each other I usually don't talk about it much because I like my privacy, but maybe I will fill you in someday brother I myself started playing the guitar at 11 years old I'm 65 now so that should tell you a little something anyway. God Bless be safe brother
Can’t say how much I appreciate you brother. Thank you for being a companion on this sober journey. All the support is amazing. Also what? You’re neighbors with Ted nugent? Tell me about that lol! 🙏 god bless brotha
the dead know only one thing, it is better to be alive👍
Excellently put my friend. 💯
I just hit over a month too! Great work bro!
That is what’s up man!!! Congrats 🙏💪
That exacly what it is we people get possessed everyday without even noticing but when we drink or indulge in activities we shouldnt we corrupt ourselves and get possessed more and more, they can even put a filter on us or people like it might appeare a person said something bad but he said entirely something else to cause an argument and feed of us
I 100% agree with you bro. It seems like I’m always on board with your comments lol. We think very similar which is cool. God bless my friend!
Hey, Slayer - nice guitar behind you..I play too. Looks like a jazz master type? Take care buddy. Keep praying and fighting.. the rounds of our fight never stop. We are all champs when we fight the demons of alcohol.👍” Silvo”
Hey thanks silvo!!! Always nice to talk with someone who appreciates Music and musical instruments!! Like you said man the biggest win we can get is defeating this poison that is alcohol. Anyways thanks again brother, god bless
I'm a alcoholic slayer I appreciate u so much going through the dts rn
@@AndreaPratt-d7p hey Andrea!!! I’m so sorry you’re going through that h*ll!! Please goto a hospital if you’re experiencing bad dt’s!!!’ Go to a state run detox if need be, just be safe!!! Keep me updated please. God bless
Wish we had them state run detoxes I'd go now been convinced I'm dying but will be alright as long as I have alcohol I think everytime ik sleeping ik going to different dimensions
Thanks for sharing man 💪 I have some similar stories largely different to yours but still relatable, you got this shit bro and also that guitar is pretty bad ass 💯
Hey thank you brother!! 💪I’m glad you could relate and heck yea bro thank you! Music is such a big part of my life man. Whenever someone compliments a guitar I know they have great music taste!!! 💯 bless bro.
@Slayer-7373 That's fire bro 🔥 same I make what I call supernatural hip-hop I love music man
I remember walking around stores late at night alone on meth, eyes just like two black olives. Never again bro.
My older brother has stories just like this. Let’s never go back to those demons again man. One day at a time, one minute at a time I’d that’s what it takes. Like you said “never again”. Thank you for this comment bro 🙏💯
Young slay!! The champ is here!!
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Hey Slay, nice seeing you, hope things are getting settled on your end with the family. Boy that story, the details really highlight the pain and disparity. I’ve felt the rage of betrayal as well, nothing like you of course that’s on a totally different level but I’ve seen that red flash take over. What I have learned is not to allow anyone to get me to that point. Not to give that power to anyone.
Anyways, I’m glad you have found forgiveness, it’s the only way. As you said, forgiveness doesn’t mean you have to rekindle the relationship, even some family are not worth having around. What he did is really messed up. The fact you were able to apologize for that incident shows the man that you are. You may have been an ass**** while intoxicated but that’s the disease. It doesn’t excuse the behavior but all is in the past now. You have to forgive you. I know you think that situation was a result of your alcoholism, I see things in a different perspective. They use the alcoholism to justify their behavior. That’s to make them feel ok. It’s a facade my friend and just bullshit. What you decide to do with this life is all up to you? Sure people will try to hold this against you but in time either they’ll see you for who you really are and if they don’t then you move on. Not everyone is meant to be in our Iives forever, just learn, grow, and evolve. Much love always my friend. I’m 💯 with you on this journey. Let’s keep climbing and achieving greatness no matter how big or small. Spreading kindness in this unkind world. I appreciate you and I SEE YOU!
Awe 🥲🖤thank you so much for this beautiful comment micru. Y’all really are too amazing. You in particular have really helped me view my situation with my ex and my brother in a different light and for that I’m extremely thankful. I’m just thankful for you in general my friend!!! This community has become part of my daily life, I was brought to tears the other night thinking about it. It’s just so amazing. Much love always and thank you again 🙏🙏:)
@@Slayer-7373all emotions are good to release. It’s a form of therapy. Much love
Prayers for your ongoing sobriety Slayer --- " it was like I purged the demon out of me " --- you killin' me bro --- laughing! I know it's not funny. And I'm not laughing at you per se. ** I want to hear different stories from you friend --- I want to hear you went to the mountains & the mountains shared their wisdom with you. And that a birdsong landed in your heart & you know you can stroke the beautiful feathers in our mind's I and Understand at once how Stunningly beautiful this aliveness is and not to be wasted or taken for granted. You tell your stories how you will. Count me among your cheerleaders. --------- in friendship, J
:) thanks so much Judith!!! I will tell some different stories my friend!!! Thank you as always! I’m glad you’re on this journey with me!
Please say a special prayer for me. I will for all of y'all this demonic crap is ridiculous:(
Hey shot in the dark!! What’s going on my friend? Are you okay? I’m gonna pray right now for you….🙏 keep your head up, I’m sorry for whatever is going on. Keep me updated !
How you doing my friend?
Great video! Here in North Scotland it’s not called the Demon drink for nothing. Keep going strong , you’ve got this❤️🙏
Hey Louise thank you brother!! 🙏 also wow I never knew that, it makes sense though. It just goes right along with all the other demonic stuff with booze. God bless you my friend!! 🏴🏴 🏴
Congratulations Slayer on 1.88K Subscribers!!!😊. Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.🖤 PS Slayer What is the age difference between you and your brothers? I’m the youngest of three too. It’s Tough being the youngest.👍💞
I snagged some more subs thanks to you guys. Congrats on the subs, Slayer.
Hey Cindy thank you so much!!! :) my younger brother is 2 years younger than me and my two older brothers are 4-7 years older than me! Also have a sister so I’m the middle child so do speak lol. Much love Cindy !
Hey thank you shades 🙏!!! You deserve the subscribers brotha.
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks, Slayer. I don't know if you saw it, but send me an email. I think I have an idea you might like for a Short.
@@Slayer-7373 Wow!!! I’ll bet that was interesting growing up!!!😊👍 Cool!
Delerium had me arrested, it was like I’d been to ‘Recall’ from the film Total Recall! I was released from hospital miles to early coz they were fed up of me appearing there every month. Nearly a year sober! Strong alcohol is called spirits for the reason, same reason you’re making this video.
Total recall haha I’ve had a couple of those moments too brother. I want to say congratulations on almost a year sober!!!!! That is absolutely incredible my friend. Also 100% it’s not just by chance that they called it “spirits”!!! God bless man. 🙏
It ain't called the Demon Drink for nothing.
Exactly!!! 💯💯
You gave me inspiration to tell stories myself bro im goin to make a video next week about war stories cuz i have a bunch i can def relate bro.
This is so awesome bro. Looking forward to that video!! Ill subscribe right now so I get the notification man. 💯
I’m so proud of you
Awe thank you so much sophia!!! :)🙏
You're lucky you didn't lose any teeth. What a great story teller you are very articulate and intelligent
Dude 100% I am, also thanks man that’s awesome of you to say. 🙏
Damn bro that's rough...not gonna lie if my brother did that to me I'd probably want to go off on him too. But thank God you got yourself straight and didn't end up in jail. Your a bigger man for rising above and moving on. Mad props to you stay clean your doing good.
Appreciate this comment my friend!! Like you said thank god things turned out the way they did. There’s a blessing in every curse. Much love and I was just listening to nirvana then i saw your comment 😂🙏.
@@Slayer-7373 funny how that works lol ive got a similar story with the abnormal strength after drinking too much. Any way I can DM you?
@@grungelab9473 heck yea man! Do you have an instagram ? If not you can email me.
@@Slayer-7373 Awesome...yeah I have Insta I'll send you a request
stay safe and don't drink 👍 🙏 tc slayer
💯🙏💪god bless man, trust me I will.
Hello Slayer I love how real you are with us your viewers. I personally appreciate that so much. You are definitely a strong man. God bless you always Slayer. 💪💯
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:) thanks so much miss glam. That’s awesome of you to say
Slay..even though u like 29yrs old old ...I'm 43 yrs old...bro..we have like the exact same alcohol binge drinking stories....
You are a young man, but you have had as many close calls of someone twice your age. If you no longer can trust yourself when you pick up the bottle it is time to put it down for good. Ultimately you either outgrow it or you succumb to it.
I’ve often thought about this Richard, thank you for being the first person to actually point it out. I’m definitely at that crossroads with my drinking. It’s either be sober….. or let myself fall back into the alcoholism…. I can’t let myself do the second option. Y’all help me stay sober and i appreciate that so much. I just gotta keep taking it one day at a time. We got this! God bless brother 🙏
I had to block my only daughter for this exact same reason, she gets abusive and texts me the most hateful messages, after ten years of me taking the abuse I got to the end of my road and blocked her, it’s been over a month and I rather to suffer the complete absence of her than suffer the horrible abuse she puts me through every time she gets drank
🙏🖤I’m so sorry to hear this. Alcohol truly turns us into monsters. It won’t stop unless the drinking stops for good! I hope you and your daughter can find peace one day. I also hope your daughter can find sobriety. Addiction is a road to nowhere….. god bless 🙏
@ thank you so very much my sweet child, i started following you because im trying to understand what my daughter is going through, and I now get so happy for you when you are doing good , it feels we are all one and we’re in this together sweetheart, please keep strong, you are an amazing young man with so much to offer to society is unbelievable because my daughter is the same way, such a beautiful soul, but for now I feel in my heart that I must keep my distance, thank you for sharing your story with all of us in such sincere way, you touch my heart, you give me hope, if you can fight this so can my daughter 🤍
Woke up in jail one morning...had no idea what had happened!!! Caught a criminal trespassing charge ...like....really???
I once flipped out on my family yelling the F word while we were on Main Street during a parade of old cars in Moab Utah. I drank this stuff called Underground. It’s kinda like Jager. But it completely took me over and I was like “F you!! This is BS F you!” And I stormed across the street and who knows where I went lol. I acted a fool for sure…
“Might act a fool!! ⚠️” warning should be on every single liquor bottle bro 😂😂. The combined stories of all of us together on this community is just mind blowing. It’s a real testament to how crazy booze really is!!!
Hope you are well brotha.💯💯🙏
Absolutely Slayer..i used to say the most hateful things to my partner!..
It turns us into monster, I know all too well my friend. 🙏
It’s weird how addiction effects people different it seems like your more hard on yourself than I personally feel you should be because when I look at most users of any substance there’s always predisposition
I’ve always been my worst critic man, overly hard on myself. It’s something I’m still working on to this day! 🙏
@ trust me I go through it too but when it came to my substance use one thing that has helped me stray away from it is learning to be more understanding with myself like you said getting more to the root of the cause and everybody around me tells me the opposite like they want me to overly blame myself even though a lot of them use in one way or another too it all comes down to how you view it honestly
VAlways leaves you feeling like a fool the next day when your hungover too. You have to sit there feeling like hell thinking about what youve done.
Absolutely dusty, every single time. Just the thought of the hang over and regret the next day is enough to keep me away from the booze. That feeling you get after you wake up after a relapse it’s just awful. I’ve had hangovers for so long it’s weird not having them haha.
@@Slayer-7373 yeah it's not worth it man. Thsts for sure. Glad to see your doing good tho man. Stay strong Godbless.
Every bad decision i ever!! Made in my life!! Was alcohol influenced
I can 100% pretty much say the same for myself. Pretty much every bad decision and every regret I have in this life is linked to booze some how. How insane is that? But you know how that world is brotha. The fact that booze is legal still blows my mind bro.
Tried to get Librium from my doctor...like bro I need this...u gave me the script before...I ain't trying to get high off shit bro... trying to prevent the DTs...
It’s the same for me brotha, they won’t prescribe me nothing. Force me to go to a detox center if I decide to have a bad relapse
Yo..Slay ..got one track ..song ...u know what it is
... 2pac if my homies 🤙 call...
@@JCarm-LK785 h*ll yea man. I was heavy into pac back in the day. Got me through many battles as a youngin.
@@JCarm-LK785 what’s your favorite pac song bro?
This so reminds me of two instances where I think I was possessed. One I'll share. After my ex kicked me out of our house we shared for 1.5, and I was forced to move back home with my parents, one night, I was really shitfaced, and in basement getting something. I looked around at all my stuff in boxes that I had to move back, and decided I was gonna just trash them all. I started taking out pots and pans, and throwing them all over the basement, and just screaming like a psycho. It took my mom, dad, and brother to pick me up, someone had my legs and others upper body, because I was kicking and screaming and fighting them off the entire time. They ended up committing me to a mental hospital where I had to stay for 11 days. My liver numbers at this time, I was told, were as bad as it can get before cirrhosis. Within 11 days, they normalized. Not to mention I was like 85 LBS at the time, yet took all three normal weight adults to control me. This shit is real, and it's great that you are sharing these horror stories, because if you haven't been there, you may not believe this could ever happen to you. I think most people have this false sense that when you drink, you can never lose control like that. Congrats on a month, it's huge, and just keep sharing because it is helping you, and so many others😊
That is a WILD story kris!!! Thank you so much for sharing 🙏. I would definitely say something took you over. You said you were 85 pounds and had that strength. Same with me I weighed probably like 130-140 at the time. I was superrrr skinny. Yet I was throwing people 100 plus pounds off me. Booze is absolutely insane and way overlooked because of it’s normalization in our society. I’m glad we are both sober today!!!! Much love and god bless 🙏🖤
@@Slayer-7373 I'm actually Kristin, that's just username. But yea, we are on a good path. Every day is hard, not gonna lie, but one day at a time.
@@krislic84 oh I’m sorry 🤦♂️😂, the days are hard but they get easier. The more we replace the negative the more positive comes in. For me community is so important, it helps me stay sober and this UA-cam channel is part of that. Don’t hesitate reach out any time if you need to. Feel free to send me an email as well @slayersober7@gmail.com. We will get through this!!! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 no problem u didn't know my friend. I had one friend who called me kris growing up, but she's no longer a part of my life. Just keep posting content. It's so uplifting.
I sent you an email.
Woke up in jail one morning...had no idea!!! Why im locked up..im punching the cell door...it was a criminal trespassing charge... because of a full blown black out
15:25 maybe you will bring him back into your life if he splits up with your ex.
Never say never right? I’m a very open minded person so it could happen. Always brings a smile to my face seeing you in the comments redsnapper!! Thank you my friend ! 🙏
I got some health issues...i still jog 2-3 miles everyday..and hit the heavy bag..but..I got an artery in my heart..6o percent blockage from alcohol....I eat healthy..it's from past extreme alcohol abuse
I'm still embarrassed and ashamed of my behavior while drunk... I'm a completely different person, and would rage alot. The manager at the apartments where I live actually caught me on the cameras in the parking lot raging at my ex, and showed it to me. I was like WHAT THE ACTUAL F***. I didn't recognize myself and was acting insanely. Needless to say, I'm greatful to be sober today.. Thanks for sharing your story
Oh man I know that feeling….. when someone shows you a video of you blackout. No memory of it at all…. Acting absolutely insane like you said it’s very embarrassing and shameful. I often could never watch the videos that people took of me… it actually hurt watching. I’m so happy we are both sober today and putting that sh*^%y past behind us. Anyways Thanks so much sumshine :)!!! Always good to see you in the comments.
Much love and god bless 🙏
Ruined tons of great friendships.. because of alcohol
She won't ever accept my apology next morning...I was like what did I say..u called me dumb fatass ... 😩.ugh ...
I have a bachelor's degree from Kansas State University...still going dumbass shit because of alcohol at the time..2006-2010
yeah i feel like i'm in this tunnel vision state with 7oh tablets the days all just blend together and i continue to pop them like candy. Walking out to the mail box to get my fix. Always ordering online. The blur state seems comfortable and it is, a sad sense of life. No soul. Goodluck ya'll while i wait sick for the mail to get here and I can continue the tunnel vision life.
Hey Pete I’m sorry brother that you’re going through that hell!!! That’s what addiction is, is hell!!! I’d suggest you call out to god man, goto a detox, goto the Hospital, goto an AA meeting do whatever you’ve got to do to get some freedom. I know how you’re living man, I know how hard it is when you’re knee deep. Keep us updated my friend. 🙏there is hope for you man, you’re alive!!
Well said 👌
Hey thank you Chris!! 🙏 god bless brotha
Stay in the word of God and get strong with Jesus❤❤❤
Amen to thank Robert, thank you brother 🙏
I used to drink exactly like you. Pounding whiskey daily. Never enough until I'm blacked-out
1 is too many and 1000 isn’t enough. I know all too well my friend. 🙏
Well, I don't know where my comment went. Anyway, congrats on more subs.
Damn UA-cam!! 😂 I throw my fist up at them! 💪
Arm was numb as fck one morning... after an extreme alcohol binge... thought I was having a stroke...
One month lets gooooooo 🚀🚀🚀
💪🙏let’s go!!!!! Hope you are well my friend!!! :)
Hello I'm that Limey Subscriber from a few months back. In 5 days I will have done 6 months Alcohol Free, but I cannot experience pleasure from anything, the days feel grey. My body has earned a rest from it though-I would binge on Jack Daniel's 43% in the street in broad daylight for a birthday celebration and then take a hipflask into the bars. I'm done with it.
Hey I remember you!!! So awesome to hear from you again my friend!! 6 month’s alcohol free?!??! Whattttt congratulations 💪🙌 that is incredible bro. It brings a smile to my face knowing you went and got sober. :)
@@Slayer-7373 I'm happy to be off it but I struggle to think of a more suitable drink other than alcohol for an evening or a weekend. I was drinking for 18 years quite heavily so my Brain needs to rewire itself.
@@jakezywek6852 “rewire” that’s a great word for it man. It really is a complete rewiring of the brain. It was our goto for years and now we can’t rely on it anymore. It’s strange, years ago I just thought I’d always drink, but then it catches up with you.
My homie Lamar saved our life one night..passed out driving... driving back from San Diego California...i live in Lawrence KS...785....bro..im almost back!! Passed out at the wheel ...bro ..if Lamar wouldn't have grabbed that wheel before we drive into ravine..dig..we would have died .. Hennessy