i’m, my biological dad sent this to me. i only see him once a year during the summer and i love him with all my heart. him and my sister send me packages and we talk as much as possible. he just sent me this song and i know the exact reason why. my mother isn’t the greatest to me, same with my stepdad. they aren’t ok with LGBTQ+ people, and i identify with that. and i dress like a boy sometimes and they aren’t ok with that. my dad on the other hand, has always loved me no matter what and is ok with me having a girlfriend. he’s willing to take me to the doctor if i’m having medical problems, which my mother just brushes off. he knows about my trauma and my bad mental state and makes sure i know he loves me almost every day. he’s been with me through toxic relationships and multiple stepdads. and he’s been communicating this to me through music, because he knows confrontation is still scary for me sometimes. so he shows that he’s here for me with songs he finds for me. and i love him so much. he understands my struggles and finds way to work through it, and i couldn’t ask for a better father
I literally listened to this on repeat for 45 minutes this morning and cried and danced the whole time. Thank you so much for this powerful song. Sending you all the love and healing ❤️🩹💗💖
Literally dancing around my kitchen unable to let this song change and crying and singing and rejoicing for all the kids this is going to help. This song is a gift
The "but they'll love not despite but regardless" always without fail makes me absolutely sob. God this song is everything I ever needed. Thank you so much
I’ve never identified so much with a song, and you’ve hit me so close with this one and the funny fat friend, you seriously have incredible talent! Thank you for talking my true in your songs!
I know this song isnt entirly for me but as a young transmasc person who is trying to learn to love myself before transitioning this song is very easy to find solace in. Thank you Maddie
this song is exactly and entirely for you homie. trauma is trauma and loving yourself is work that is worth it as well as shedding those indoctrinated thoughts taught by others that are broken in their own ways. i hope you're on the path to learning to love yourself. i hope youi kick ass in life my random internet dude i'll never talk to again!
i can never listen to it once. before it came out i just would have the tiktok version on repeat. the first time i heard the full song i was sobbing. so powerful.
Hey babes, yes. You inspired me to be honest and come out after living 29 years. Also thank you for making a lyrics vid. So so helpful for the more handicapped fans
I was so anxious to listen to this when a girl on TikTok warned about listening to this song in the gym. I feared that it might mentally fuck me up like glimpse of us (i am really ashamed to admit this). But it is so, so, so much better 😭❤️ Thank you
I'm so happy my girlfriend showed me your music, it's so calming and introspective. Thank you for making music that helps her feel more at home in her body.
I found this song on tiktok and only heard the chorus. The part that hits home is the disappointing parents part. I was so, so scared my parents would disown me when I came out as bi. They didn’t. They celebrated and said they loved me anyway. Then I waited for 6 years to come out as non-binary and change my name because I was certain they would be against it. They weren’t. People in my family I never would have thought would be supportive said they loved me no matter what name I go by. That event happened just two days ago, so that panic to joy moment is fresh in my mind. I am lucky to have the parents and family I have. Thank you so much for such a beautiful song💕
I’m crying, I have never felt so seen and you made me realize that “the good girl was really fucking bad at being real” and I physically felt that in my heart and chest, I could quote any part of this song and have a story with it. And as a mother of 2 I want to scream it from the roof tops with them so they always know I love them no matter what 😭❤️❤️
I finally came forward and told my parents where I stand as far as sexuality and religion, and despite their disagreement with my choices, they accepted me. I remember listening to this song and thinking they wouldn't love me if I showed my true self, and surprisingly, they told me they DO still love me
leaving the mormon church was one of the hardest things i have ever done, but i dont regret it for a moment. every day is hard but i am learning what it means to love myself and choose myself first. i deserve to love who i love and be happy :,) (and so do you!)
I feel this song in my soul, it is absolutely cathartic. I grew up Christian. I didn't know who I was until I was 19. I knew I liked girls when I was 16. I prayed so hard to...at least be bi, so I had a chance at normal. I wanted to be normal so badly, I copied everyone else's. I was a mask put upon a mask put upon a mask. I finally started asking myself the questions I asked people I wanted to get to know. I'm 28 now. For the most part, I am happy with who I am. I'm bi. I'm demi. And I'm trans. Turns out liking guys would have STILL been gay haha. And everything my 16 year old self was so eager to cover up and hide for fear of repercussions, has ended up gaining me the kind of friends teenage me could only have dreamed of. I wish others well on their journey. Just wait until you get there. It's so...free. ^.^
sobbing rn. turned into the exact type of person my mom would tell younger me to never be like and ending up like this while having her still love me regardless is something I'll never take for granted. that single line took me out.
Your music has changed my life completely! Thank you for helping me and other women of all ages learn to love themselves and F*** everyone else if they don’t!
This song relates, like many others here, to me on such a level I can't put it into words. Some parts aren't fully accurate for me, mainly the "Someday you'll think you disappoint your parents, but they'll love you not despite, but regardless" part. For me it's more like "Someday you will disappoint your parents, they'll love you despite, but not regardless" because I'm finally accepting who I am, which means I'm out to basically everyone, but my parents and most of my family don't agree with it. The only ones who don't agree and just can't accept it are my parents, and they cause me so much stress that it physically is effecting me, mostly my heart. (which has already developed issues after being almost taken out by covid last year) I know it'll get better one day, and hopefully I won't lose my parents, but it still hurts knowing that they will probably never change their minds 😔
At 32 years old....Life and reality just hit me so hard. This incredible song reminded me so much of who and why I am the person that I am today. It's almost like I was able to reflect back on my inner child and very important and critical times in and of my life. It's like I seen my self as this little girl again for the very first time.. from about 7 years of age to my current age. Thank you Maddie for helping me find all the reasons to genuinely smile again!
You probably won’t read this Maddie, but I’m forever grateful that you’re here. Your songs resonate with me. I’m bi and demi, in the place I am I can’t be true to myself because I’m in a Christian school. At some point, I’ve stopped enjoying the meals that I ate, and I was never satisfied with my body. I lost my fate and decided to end my life in 2019, that was the year my parents told me I’m going to have a sibling. So I promised myself and told God that I’d kms the moment my sibling was born. The baby died out of the blue, the heartbeat just stopped. After that every time I went to church the priest would always talk abt smth I’ve been asking. My faith has never been stronger, and I also am finally getting better and happier. Ive finally gotten diagnosed and my parents no longer scream at me, and I also found people who accept me for who I am. Hearing this song is as if it’s a message to me as well, because I used to hate myself and regret so much, but now Im happy that this is how I turned out, because there were so many good things God opened my eyes up to- and so Im vowing to live my life, loving myself first instead of hoping for someone to love me…for all those here struggling with life, no matter how long and how lost you feel in a maze, you’ll find a way out eventfully just like I did- even if it took a while. Thank you Maddie. For being here, for being a sign from God as well that I can keep pushing, loving, and living. Sincerely, A fan.
I listened to this song the first time earlier this week. I finally came out to one of my best friends as bisexual and I told their mother as well; as day or two after I listened to this song. They both love me just the same. Thank you so much Maddie. ❤️
i feel like i lost this song on my playlist for maybe a year, and then when i hear this again today.. i still remember every single word, and i just rerunning the memory of how beautiful this song is, and how much it helps me at that time lots of people are lost and blamed them self for everything because we need to maybe relearn how to started going out again. Which as a student, i have to go through it with some sh!ty schedule and even more horrible lecturer, and it was hell. But i can get through that.. ❣
You're gonna change the world for so many with this song. I don't know you... But I am so damn proud of you and for what you're doing, and all the music you've been putting out lately. You're going to do big things with your work and I can't wait to see it all
I know you won't respond to this comment Maddie but i want to tell you that you made me whole again with this song. I lost myself so many times to a point where i didn't know whether i would find myself again but i did in this song. Thank you so much, i see you, i see us ❤
You’re so wonderful, I’m so happy I’ve just discovered your music. I can relate to just about every line I keep getting goosebumps. You’re so inspirational… thank you. X❤o
Maddie you may never actually read this, but I hope you know your worthy of all the love whether it's from parents, friends, love interests, and God. Never be ashamed for who you are, we all are just humans trying to figure out this ride called life. Thank you for bringing your beauty to us.
Tho I’m a guy the line “The good girl you were was really fucking bad at being real” hit hard. Coming out & having family members tell you point blank that it’s like they don’t even know you is rough. For me that was 10 years ago and at least they stuck around to see that I’m still me. Far too many don’t get that opportunity.
I came out to my Christian grandmother that raised as bisexual while listening to this song together it helped her understand who I really am my favorite line is that good girl u were was really bad at being real ♥️
😭 😭 🤗 🤗 💪 💪 Turning 48…today…and I’m still learning and still trying, to know and love, me for ME. 🕊 Edit. Even tho, I was actually wrong about my own age and turned 47 not 48. My lifelong friend had to tell me 🤦🏻♀️ 🤷🏻♀️ Ironically. Here I am…one day before actually turning 48. 😔 Bawling my eyes out cuz I’m so alone…though I’m not. Which makes it worse. Don’t settle. Don’t enter a relationship until you are healed and can truly love and respect & honor yourself first.
i’m, my biological dad sent this to me. i only see him once a year during the summer and i love him with all my heart. him and my sister send me packages and we talk as much as possible. he just sent me this song and i know the exact reason why. my mother isn’t the greatest to me, same with my stepdad. they aren’t ok with LGBTQ+ people, and i identify with that. and i dress like a boy sometimes and they aren’t ok with that. my dad on the other hand, has always loved me no matter what and is ok with me having a girlfriend. he’s willing to take me to the doctor if i’m having medical problems, which my mother just brushes off. he knows about my trauma and my bad mental state and makes sure i know he loves me almost every day. he’s been with me through toxic relationships and multiple stepdads. and he’s been communicating this to me through music, because he knows confrontation is still scary for me sometimes. so he shows that he’s here for me with songs he finds for me. and i love him so much. he understands my struggles and finds way to work through it, and i couldn’t ask for a better father
Everyone deserves a father like yours. You are so blessed to have him.
Awesome dad 💛
well now i’m crying :) but your dad sounds like a really good person
Awesome dad!❤️
“That good girl you were was really fucking bad at being real” 😔
Yes! It hits so hard.
I literally listened to this on repeat for 45 minutes this morning and cried and danced the whole time. Thank you so much for this powerful song. Sending you all the love and healing ❤️🩹💗💖
lyric video for you might not like her
ua-cam.com/video/B3F5kvY_ndk/v-deo.html
Literally dancing around my kitchen unable to let this song change and crying and singing and rejoicing for all the kids this is going to help. This song is a gift
SAME SAME SAME
I did the same
Love that! I've been listening a lot as well. Thank you TikTok 🤣
The "but they'll love not despite but regardless" always without fail makes me absolutely sob. God this song is everything I ever needed. Thank you so much
I’ve never identified so much with a song, and you’ve hit me so close with this one and the funny fat friend, you seriously have incredible talent! Thank you for talking my true in your songs!
I know this song isnt entirly for me but as a young transmasc person who is trying to learn to love myself before transitioning this song is very easy to find solace in. Thank you Maddie
wtf is a transmasc person. are you from russia border?. Romania? u need to love others, not yourself. try this, feel better.
@@steve-rw7ty genuinely the funniest thing someone has ever responded to me with
@@The_Author_Is_Unavailable now I'm completely lost. thanks, lol nice it's funny.
this song is exactly and entirely for you homie. trauma is trauma and loving yourself is work that is worth it as well as shedding those indoctrinated thoughts taught by others that are broken in their own ways. i hope you're on the path to learning to love yourself. i hope youi kick ass in life my random internet dude i'll never talk to again!
i can never listen to it once. before it came out i just would have the tiktok version on repeat. the first time i heard the full song i was sobbing. so powerful.
Hey babes, yes. You inspired me to be honest and come out after living 29 years. Also thank you for making a lyrics vid. So so helpful for the more handicapped fans
I was so anxious to listen to this when a girl on TikTok warned about listening to this song in the gym. I feared that it might mentally fuck me up like glimpse of us (i am really ashamed to admit this). But it is so, so, so much better 😭❤️ Thank you
I'm so happy my girlfriend showed me your music, it's so calming and introspective. Thank you for making music that helps her feel more at home in her body.
I will never be able to thank you enough for your music. Your art is healing me and so many others. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
I found this song on tiktok and only heard the chorus. The part that hits home is the disappointing parents part. I was so, so scared my parents would disown me when I came out as bi. They didn’t. They celebrated and said they loved me anyway. Then I waited for 6 years to come out as non-binary and change my name because I was certain they would be against it. They weren’t. People in my family I never would have thought would be supportive said they loved me no matter what name I go by. That event happened just two days ago, so that panic to joy moment is fresh in my mind. I am lucky to have the parents and family I have. Thank you so much for such a beautiful song💕
I’m crying, I have never felt so seen and you made me realize that “the good girl was really fucking bad at being real” and I physically felt that in my heart and chest, I could quote any part of this song and have a story with it. And as a mother of 2 I want to scream it from the roof tops with them so they always know I love them no matter what 😭❤️❤️
The more confident she gets the better her posture is and I just love that
I finally came forward and told my parents where I stand as far as sexuality and religion, and despite their disagreement with my choices, they accepted me. I remember listening to this song and thinking they wouldn't love me if I showed my true self, and surprisingly, they told me they DO still love me
leaving the mormon church was one of the hardest things i have ever done, but i dont regret it for a moment. every day is hard but i am learning what it means to love myself and choose myself first. i deserve to love who i love and be happy :,) (and so do you!)
I feel this song in my soul, it is absolutely cathartic. I grew up Christian. I didn't know who I was until I was 19. I knew I liked girls when I was 16. I prayed so hard to...at least be bi, so I had a chance at normal. I wanted to be normal so badly, I copied everyone else's. I was a mask put upon a mask put upon a mask. I finally started asking myself the questions I asked people I wanted to get to know.
I'm 28 now. For the most part, I am happy with who I am. I'm bi. I'm demi. And I'm trans. Turns out liking guys would have STILL been gay haha. And everything my 16 year old self was so eager to cover up and hide for fear of repercussions, has ended up gaining me the kind of friends teenage me could only have dreamed of. I wish others well on their journey. Just wait until you get there. It's so...free. ^.^
sobbing rn. turned into the exact type of person my mom would tell younger me to never be like and ending up like this while having her still love me regardless is something I'll never take for granted. that single line took me out.
I don’t know how this song isn’t more popular. Literally so relatable for many and truly inspiring.
Your music has changed my life completely! Thank you for helping me and other women of all ages learn to love themselves and F*** everyone else if they don’t!
So ready Maddie low-key this my favorite song and everytime it pops up on my friends phone when we facetiming I start singing it
lyric video for you might not like her
ua-cam.com/video/B3F5kvY_ndk/v-deo.html
This song relates, like many others here, to me on such a level I can't put it into words. Some parts aren't fully accurate for me, mainly the "Someday you'll think you disappoint your parents, but they'll love you not despite, but regardless" part. For me it's more like "Someday you will disappoint your parents, they'll love you despite, but not regardless" because I'm finally accepting who I am, which means I'm out to basically everyone, but my parents and most of my family don't agree with it. The only ones who don't agree and just can't accept it are my parents, and they cause me so much stress that it physically is effecting me, mostly my heart. (which has already developed issues after being almost taken out by covid last year) I know it'll get better one day, and hopefully I won't lose my parents, but it still hurts knowing that they will probably never change their minds 😔
At 32 years old....Life and reality just hit me so hard. This incredible song reminded me so much of who and why I am the person that I am today. It's almost like I was able to reflect back on my inner child and very important and critical times in and of my life. It's like I seen my self as this little girl again for the very first time.. from about 7 years of age to my current age. Thank you Maddie for helping me find all the reasons to genuinely smile again!
"Say your doing okay and really mean it" I can't wait to feel that way, we love you Maddie ❤
This was beautifully written, thank you. I have cried every time while listening.
It’s very rare that a song makes me this emotional, but this one brings out puddles of happy tears❤️. Amazing work, I can’t wait to hear the rest!
You probably won’t read this Maddie, but I’m forever grateful that you’re here. Your songs resonate with me. I’m bi and demi, in the place I am I can’t be true to myself because I’m in a Christian school. At some point, I’ve stopped enjoying the meals that I ate, and I was never satisfied with my body. I lost my fate and decided to end my life in 2019, that was the year my parents told me I’m going to have a sibling. So I promised myself and told God that I’d kms the moment my sibling was born. The baby died out of the blue, the heartbeat just stopped. After that every time I went to church the priest would always talk abt smth I’ve been asking. My faith has never been stronger, and I also am finally getting better and happier. Ive finally gotten diagnosed and my parents no longer scream at me, and I also found people who accept me for who I am. Hearing this song is as if it’s a message to me as well, because I used to hate myself and regret so much, but now Im happy that this is how I turned out, because there were so many good things God opened my eyes up to- and so Im vowing to live my life, loving myself first instead of hoping for someone to love me…for all those here struggling with life, no matter how long and how lost you feel in a maze, you’ll find a way out eventfully just like I did- even if it took a while. Thank you Maddie. For being here, for being a sign from God as well that I can keep pushing, loving, and living.
Sincerely,
A fan.
I listened to this song the first time earlier this week. I finally came out to one of my best friends as bisexual and I told their mother as well; as day or two after I listened to this song. They both love me just the same. Thank you so much Maddie. ❤️
Love her heart so much 🤗 🕊️
i feel like i lost this song on my playlist for maybe a year, and then when i hear this again today.. i still remember every single word, and i just rerunning the memory of how beautiful this song is, and how much it helps me at that time lots of people are lost and blamed them self for everything because we need to maybe relearn how to started going out again. Which as a student, i have to go through it with some sh!ty schedule and even more horrible lecturer, and it was hell. But i can get through that.. ❣
The tears hit me in the first verse. Thank you. ❤️
Wow, thank you so much for sharing this. My heart aches for the girls hearing this today. My love goes out to you
Your music is helping me heal . Thank you
Brought happy tears to my eyes cause this is beyond dope 👏🏿 BE YOU‼️
Wow this is absolutely beautiful! I pray you get all the success that you want and you take it and be humble.
I'm not alone. You aren't alone. Look at how many people feel the same!
Healing ❤️🩹 turning your pain into such beauty. I am so happy for you. Thank you for this!!!
You're gonna change the world for so many with this song. I don't know you... But I am so damn proud of you and for what you're doing, and all the music you've been putting out lately. You're going to do big things with your work and I can't wait to see it all
Crying. Downloading & streaming forever & ever
I know you won't respond to this comment Maddie but i want to tell you that you made me whole again with this song. I lost myself so many times to a point where i didn't know whether i would find myself again but i did in this song. Thank you so much, i see you, i see us ❤
I started crying about 30 seconds in, this song hit me so hard. Thank you so much for this 💗
I sing this & feel whole.
I love it I love it I love it!!!! Speak it girl. We need to hear it. For all the ones who never spoke out
It’s like it was written for me. Thank you!!!
This song is everything, and I can’t stop listening to it. How true it is , the path to yourself and the love you have for yourself. ❤️
You just saved a lot of lives ❤️ thank you so much
I didn’t know who you were until I heard this song, this is my first impression of you, and it’s gonna be like that for a lot of people I think
This just makes me cry for every damn time. I love love love love love this song and this video.
You’re so wonderful, I’m so happy I’ve just discovered your music. I can relate to just about every line I keep getting goosebumps. You’re so inspirational… thank you. X❤o
My mom showed me this song, we looked at the lyrics together than at the end we loved eachother regardless. Thank you for this song :)
This song makes me feel like someone gets it for the first time ever and for that I seriously thank you with all my heart
Maddie you may never actually read this, but I hope you know your worthy of all the love whether it's from parents, friends, love interests, and God. Never be ashamed for who you are, we all are just humans trying to figure out this ride called life. Thank you for bringing your beauty to us.
your music is so healing ♥️
Full body chills 😍 beautiful song, beautiful message
Thank you for this relatable, powerful and healing song. ❤️
I’ve been through some stuff and this made me smile for real for the first time this week thank you
I'm already loving it
I swear her songs give you more closure than anything in the world.
2:45 my favorite part
never have resonated with every lyric in a song before. just wow. Maddie you are a beautiful sole for creating this.
Listened to this song probably 100 times, and never not gotten goose bumps. This song is healing. ❤️🩹
I’ve never related to a song so much!!! I’m crying my goodness
Thank you thank you thank you for sharing your story that so many can relate to! Keep doing you and being your authentic self. The world needs you💞
You deserve the world Maddie
As an older but new transmasc person, this song says everything I would say about my life to this point. Bless you for writing these a amazing lyrics.
This is an incredibly powerful song. I love it 💜💜
Tho I’m a guy the line “The good girl you were was really fucking bad at being real” hit hard. Coming out & having family members tell you point blank that it’s like they don’t even know you is rough. For me that was 10 years ago and at least they stuck around to see that I’m still me.
Far too many don’t get that opportunity.
Thank you for this beautiful song. It is my story as well and I’m so thrilled to see if masterfully portrayed in your music.
Trying not to cry listening to this. Beautiful! ❤️
This. Just. Obliterated me in ways I didn’t know I needed. Wow. 😮💨🥺😭
She still sings like a worship leader. Lol love it
Wow you sure nailed so many things. I relate so much. Lovely song, your passion comes through so clearly.
Here for it, 8 minutes is too long to wait 🥰
I have never felt a song like I did with this on thank you for this 🥰
Keeping this on repeat, it really hits home 💕
I came out to my Christian grandmother that raised as bisexual while listening to this song together it helped her understand who I really am my favorite line is that good girl u were was really bad at being real ♥️
This got me balling first listen first line wow
😭 😭 🤗 🤗 💪 💪
Turning 48…today…and I’m still learning and still trying, to know and love, me for ME.
🕊
Edit. Even tho, I was actually wrong about my own age and turned 47 not 48. My lifelong friend had to tell me 🤦🏻♀️ 🤷🏻♀️
Ironically. Here I am…one day before actually turning 48. 😔 Bawling my eyes out cuz I’m so alone…though I’m not. Which makes it worse. Don’t settle. Don’t enter a relationship until you are healed and can truly love and respect & honor yourself first.
Chills all over.🤍🤍🤍
Can't wait when it's released
lyric video for you might not like her
ua-cam.com/video/B3F5kvY_ndk/v-deo.html
Awee a song that's actually happy ❤️
This song is literally my ringtone ❤️
So beautiful 🥰 much love from kenya 😍
Very powerful song.
WOW. THANK YOU MADDIE ZAHM
What a sweet sweet song.
Thank you Maddie
Take care of yourself sisters
I’m beyond obsessed with your music
I have to listen to this song everyday I love it thank you so much I love you
This is so healing❤
Holy sh*t. This song is my life and journey, purity ring and all. I’m a mess listening to this. Thank you ❤
This is great ❤
I'm waitingggggg
I found you because of Elyse Meyers. Thank you for sharing your message with the world.
Good lord I'm sobbing 😭
love this song so much she really changed lifes here:(🥹💕
Love your music 💙
Thank you for this
What the hell? How does she know me?!! Amazing
God goes after the one !!
I started crying so hard
Oh, this hit hard