That description of pregnancy made me supremely uncomfortable - thankfully I'm a man so there's little chance of me growing a bone-leeching parasite, but jeeeez
I was diagnosed with autism this year, and I’ve also always had specific phobias that others might find bizarre. I have had a phobia of the buttons on clothing since I were little, so I can’t wear particular items and certainly can’t look at them on others. If I’m eating and see them I’ll actually risk throwing up. I also have a specific phobia of most things bigger than me, from ships to big overturned tree trunks, to cars and trains. I feel uneasy around corners too, from corners of rooms to the corners of bouncy castles to other confined spaces like bathtubs. I also tend to be interested in the things I fear most, like how I love learning about ships, yet I fear them. I find spiders and squid fascinating, but fear them.
Hey Dana, fellow (brace yourself): autistic (AuDHD) Dana here! Although my name is specifically pronounced as Dahnah, more like Donna haha. Ofcourse I insist on people pronouncing my name the way I feel that my name should be pronounced ;) I am a licenced psychologist in my country, and although I don't know you I'm generally able to categorise symptoms using the representation of the mental conditions -with importantly many many nuances and intricacies) that I've built and my pattern recognition. I feel very confident about ADHD and autism, and sufficiently confident about OCD. I would like to humbly validate you in recognising some symptoms as OCD. In particular you describing immense anxiety and feelings of responsibility concerning your mum's cancer, that's not something that I could attribute to autism. It truly seems like a crippling anxiety-inducing obsession. Other fears or aspects of the fears you have can be better explained by autism (like you not being able to estimate relative odds of events, which I would expect is due to there being too many (unknown) variables to create a realistic representation in your mind). Generally though, it seems to be a mix. I greatly enjoy your vids btw, thanks for sharing your experience :> It helps me understand my autistic partner just a bit better and it's always a great pleasure to have as many perspectives on things as possible :)
Let me blow your mind-- in another video, Dana said that she only started pronouncing her name as Day-na after watch the X-Files and originally pronounced it more like yours.
I've had specific, weird phobias my entire life! I don't have OCD, but I think sensory issues have made a lot of mild inconveniences and irrational fears feel FAR more intense. Dogs, ceiling fans, vacuums, kitchen appliance noises, getting lost on public transportation, dental problems, pregnancy, police officers, falling down the stairs, becoming a victim of a terror attack, major lifestyle changes (your end of the world fear fits in here), developing a physical disability such as a limb amputation, being abandoned somewhere by my loved ones (even if I have the capacity to get home on my own), etc. I have learned how to cope with and even overcome a lot of these fears over time, but as a child, I was living in a constant state of fear and intense stress. I grew up being called "dramatic" but my parents didn't realize that my morning routine forced me to confront multiple phobias back to back.
Well i guess i don't have such imaginative phobias, but i am scared of dogs because they are so physical and unpredictable. I am scared of dentists, because i am so bad at brushing my teeth 😅 I also am scared of throwing up and nosebleeds due to some trauma i experienced post-surgery.
The thing about imagining you caused your mother's cancer is "magical thinking," and is a type of thinking common in children. How many kids whose parents get divorced convince themselves that they were the cause of the divorce? Gigantic numbers. We can convince ourselves of a lot of things, especially when they are things we can't talk about with anyone. I'm a lifelong hypochondriac myself, and it's the same sort of thing--being emotionally convinced of something you know is probably false. Escaping that emotion is hard to do.
Really interesting topic, I also felt the teeth thing for a long time, especially for my wisdom teeth. My personal fear is tall buildings and also the sky to some extend. I don't think it's a fear of heights, even when I'm on ground level and look up at a tall building or the sky, it fills me with dread.
Nah I get that kinda, I’ve only been around really tall buildings while in London or LA, and it both places I remember craning my neck to see the top and just being like oh shit no I don’t like that actually 😅
Upon becoming aware that I was Autistic, I began studying everything that I could about Autism and Autistic behaviors. I was amazed at how many of my odd quirks, mannerisms, and behaviors aligned very closely with commonly known Autistic behaviors. I was concerned that I had OCD for most of my life. I found out that I was Autistic at 40 years old. I spent a lifetime trying to understand why I am the way that I am. There is a great deal of overlap between Autism and OCD, as both involve idiosyncratic and repetitive behaviors. The only real difference is in the motivation for the behaviors.
I totally share your ick about pregnancy & mine extends to childbirth as well (I'm childfree by choice). It's weird because I've love having nieces & nephews!💚
Hi Dana 👋🏻 As always, the mass majority of this sounded like me just listening to myself talk 🫠 The OCD traits, the everything starting with "I'm worried that..." Etc. the irrational fears and phobias and what an actual endurance test life is because of it all 🙃
1:11 I have a large extended family & "OCD runs in the family" however, since self identifying as AuDHD & that being my special interest for 3 years, i.e. constant weekly research for 158 weeks straight, I'm just pretty convinced that OCD was the misdiagnosis used for low support need autustics in my part of the world for the later half of the 1900s. I dont know, but it just feels highly likely. I've wrestled with "am I ocd, not autustic??" A LOT, but every time an autistic youtuber with ocd speaks on it, I usually can clearly see that I dont have the compulsory component, just a preference for all my lil auti-habbits (which change frequently with the Demand Avoidance & RSD issues, so im just constantly in flux with conflicting needs!)
I’m rewatching Twilight and since I know you’re a twilight fan I was wondering how you reacted/felt about Bella’s pregnancy, because it’s basically everything you described but 10 times worse 😂 or maybe that’s what traumatised you in the first place because you were 14 when the movie came out 😅
I always forgot just how young I was when I initially got into Twilight, now that you’ve pointed it out, it really might have been the thing to cause that 😭 Unfortunately I’ve always had a ‘whatever it takes to be a vampire’ mentality, so I was so down for it as a plot point, but I remember skimming reading a lot of the detailed parts in the book, and when I saw it in the cinema I remember closing my eyes during any of her pregnancy scenes 🤣
omg! When I was younger my sister managed to pass on a phobia of hers, that had never bothered me previously - spiders! It was her reaction that eventually triggered my phobia. Listening to you here, I feel I'm under threat of developing a new phobia (genuinely)... I won't say what, for I fear it may be contagious! I think this video should come with a warning!!! (jesting)
I like how fast you say it! Pregnancy is... yeah I did ruminate quite a bit on the bone-leaching parasite part quite a bit. As for the visible hands and feet part--my autistic reaction was that I liked it WAY more than most people. I am one of those weirdos who took a video of the alien hand effect and wanted to show my family members, and most did NOT want to see it! It was my fear of throwing up in the first half of the pregnancy that was really hard, because I was nauseated frequently but have a strong feeling in my body that I need to prevent vomit from coming up. Things like an emerging cavity ("dental carries" that aren't bad enough to show up on an x-ray but ARE bad enough that it hurts me, or it's a gum infection or something and my dentist keeps missing it despite checking?) are really hard for me. I notice the change in sensation right away and it bothers me SO much. My diet is super restricted because if anything gives me a bad feeling in my teeth, I'm put off it for a few years. Sometimes it happens with healthy fibrous foods that are staple safe foods, and it makes me react by eating way less healthfully for a while. Frustrating. I have bad teeth genetics in my family though, so I do tend to worry, and apparently I brush too hard with Oral B AND Sonicare because I'm brushing away my gums and might have to go to perio to get grafts put on from the roof of my mouth. So annoying and I'm dreading every part of it.
This is crazy because I'm getting an adhd and autism assessment and have always had weird and pervasive fears of things like security cameras, blank tv screens and mechanical things. I never really understood why I had these fears but now I might have an explanation...
My big phobia I relate to my tism is being afraid of balloons. Specifically latex balloons, the crinkly ones are usually fine. I just. I’m scared they’re going to Pop. I hate the noise of popping balloons they scare me. So when I’m around balloons, I am nervous as hell. And boy. ‘Not knowing if I have OCD’ is a vibe. I’ve got issues with GRIME AND GROSS (I need gloves and mask, I can’t breathe it in, I can get it too close to my skin, I know I can wash but it’s still GROSS and I can imagine myself getting sick or germs or eughhh--), but ALSO, Morality (moral ocd exists and everyday I wONDER. So scared of seeming Not Moral, even when morals are relative, but especially cause morals are relative- what if I do something I think is fine but I’m the villain in someone else’s story? AHH??). But the big kicker is always ‘ocd involves Compulsions to curb the Obsession. I don’t think I’ve got compulsions?’ I’ve heard of Pure O OCD where it’s just obsessive rumination but ahhh, moral imperative not to ‘baselessly label myself’, so ofc I would never confidently decide on my own that I’m OCD and if my therapists say I’m not ohhh they’re the professionals so I’ll just LISTEN. But aye, if techniques for curbing OCD help, you needn’t the label, you can just use the techniques! Ofc. I just realized this. And now I need to look up some techniques cause maybe they’ll help regardless.
wait what the hell, I have literally so many of these same fears and I have NEVER come across anyone else having them??? like thinking you've caused bad things, TEETH, the reality of the end of the world, pregnant people... I also have emetophobia
I totally feel you on the fears of your teeth and the mental fear that if you don't do something then something bad is going to happen to the people around me. For me it started after I suddenly lost my father to a stroke while i was on vacation and I fear that happening to my mom so I get paranoid and super fucking anxious when she doesn't respond to my calls at our usual times.
In regards to spoiled food: I used to always buy the dented cans at the grocery store because I thought they were just as good as the normal ones and I felt bad for them, being ignored. Turns out dented cans have an increased risk of transmitting botulism. If you don’t know what it is, just know it’s really bad and you don’t want it. I don’t recommend looking it up.
The teeth thing gets to me alot, I got my first dentist appointment in 2 years because I was having panic attacks over worrying about my teeth. My teeth were pretty fine but I was still anxious they were going to tell me I needed all of them pulled or something lol
I get your thing about your mother's cancer. Both of my parents have had cancer and for whatever reason I have blamed myself for it. Despite knowing that it can't have been my fault.
Okay, the End of the World thing is too relateable to be funny. But... the prego thing, cracked me up. I understand totally, but it was funny. I made one human, that was my limit. Never again. I didn't enjoy being pregnant. I felt I had to breast feed, but I hated it. It was invasive and it hurt and he bit me. This was not how we bonded. :D Love my kid to the end of the universe, and I don't need or want another. He understands. It's all good.
I've heard someone else say that veganism is more common amongst autistic people in general and I thought that was interesting but didn't really know if I believed it. Your channel was recommended to me and then you mentioned that you're vegan and mind blown, maybe there's some truth in that after all :D
Had a lifelong weird Eating Disorder. Was at a clinic for 12 months. I have in the past lost weight. Also strong fear and panic with food. An attempt to explain When growing up one learns that alcohol and drugs can take one’s consciousness away. As such things such as alcohol and drugs enter the body through the mouth could it be that food can do the same as they enter the mouth. There were also ideas such as, alcohol relaxes, it is said some herbs can and so can some foods. As such anything relaxing can also be associated with the mind becoming less existent. Alcohol and drugs can take one’s mind away and also relax. However even if foods and herbs can relax true the effect would be very mild, that is, much less than say alcohol. Very mild. However if there was a mild effect it is hard for me to see degrees of this. If I eat I would not be able to be conscious therefore not alive therefore extreme fear of food. I would be doing day to day activities but not aware. Not conscious as I am moving and talking. Also the fears worsened during fog. This seemed because I could not tell the difference between solid flat surfaces and a gradient substance such as fog which one could walk through. The fog intrudes on my mind as such could it be because of Proprioception issues. It intrudes in the same way as a nearby solid surface would. As such I cannot control my thoughts in order to overcome the fear. Because the solid surface of the fog impinges on my thoughts. Could this be a Proprioception issue in some way. Even crumbs could have an affect. For some reason fog together with decrease of awareness can cause extreme fear. I used to feel say a kind of depersonalisation like am I awake. I would touch objects and if I could feel them then of course I am awake. But then I would touch again to check. Is that an object existence problem. I would put the loss of object existence in my mind done to a recent food that I had eaten then become afraid of the food. I am much better these days. Worked on it etc, still there a bit though. I wonder if it is Autism which I have/am?
I have a bit of a phobia around cracking my teeth, although probably not as much as it sounds like you have. This is because- and I’m going to issue a trigger warning specifically for Dana and anyone else who has this phobia, trigger warning for icky teeth stuff-I did actually chip my teeth on a fork once. It’s just a tiny chip but it is noticeable if I look in the mirror. It was one of the most uncomfortable things I’ve ever felt in my mouth, and that’s saying something considering that I have huge sensory issues with my mouth and gums. (I didn’t always have as much of these sensory issues, or at least I wasn’t as aware of them, but after going into burnout, it’s impossible for me to floss every day, so I use a water flosser for most days.)
I went to pet a dog in a shop once and it just stood up on its back legs and looked at me and it was genuinely one of the more unsettling moments of my life, I absolutely don’t want to see a cat do it!
I'm responsible for Sean Connery dying. I looked him up on Wikipedia randomly, then the next day he died. And Dustin Diamond. Spoke to my friend about Saved By The Bell randomly, asked him what Screech been doing these days. Then next day he died as well.
As much as I don’t want to validate this, given that you’re not really responsible for it just like it wasn’t me that killed Taylor Hawkins, but please, for me, don’t think about or talk to anyone about Kevin Smith or David Duchovny 😂
See like I’d WANT to be done, but I’m too spooked to do it myself and don’t want to just wander out into the zombie gang/acid rain or whatever, so I fear I would sit somewhere until I dehydrate/starve 🫠😅
That description of pregnancy made me supremely uncomfortable - thankfully I'm a man so there's little chance of me growing a bone-leeching parasite, but jeeeez
I'm pretty sure that was the inspiration for the first Alien
Says the guy who goes by squelchnoise /j
I was diagnosed with autism this year, and I’ve also always had specific phobias that others might find bizarre. I have had a phobia of the buttons on clothing since I were little, so I can’t wear particular items and certainly can’t look at them on others. If I’m eating and see them I’ll actually risk throwing up.
I also have a specific phobia of most things bigger than me, from ships to big overturned tree trunks, to cars and trains. I feel uneasy around corners too, from corners of rooms to the corners of bouncy castles to other confined spaces like bathtubs.
I also tend to be interested in the things I fear most, like how I love learning about ships, yet I fear them. I find spiders and squid fascinating, but fear them.
this!
I hate hats and long sleeves. The thought of it grosses me out.
Hey Dana, fellow (brace yourself): autistic (AuDHD) Dana here! Although my name is specifically pronounced as Dahnah, more like Donna haha. Ofcourse I insist on people pronouncing my name the way I feel that my name should be pronounced ;)
I am a licenced psychologist in my country, and although I don't know you I'm generally able to categorise symptoms using the representation of the mental conditions -with importantly many many nuances and intricacies) that I've built and my pattern recognition. I feel very confident about ADHD and autism, and sufficiently confident about OCD. I would like to humbly validate you in recognising some symptoms as OCD. In particular you describing immense anxiety and feelings of responsibility concerning your mum's cancer, that's not something that I could attribute to autism. It truly seems like a crippling anxiety-inducing obsession. Other fears or aspects of the fears you have can be better explained by autism (like you not being able to estimate relative odds of events, which I would expect is due to there being too many (unknown) variables to create a realistic representation in your mind). Generally though, it seems to be a mix.
I greatly enjoy your vids btw, thanks for sharing your experience :> It helps me understand my autistic partner just a bit better and it's always a great pleasure to have as many perspectives on things as possible :)
Let me blow your mind-- in another video, Dana said that she only started pronouncing her name as Day-na after watch the X-Files and originally pronounced it more like yours.
@mchobbit2951 Oh sheesh, haven't heard that but that is fascinating! Thanks ^^
I've had specific, weird phobias my entire life! I don't have OCD, but I think sensory issues have made a lot of mild inconveniences and irrational fears feel FAR more intense.
Dogs, ceiling fans, vacuums, kitchen appliance noises, getting lost on public transportation, dental problems, pregnancy, police officers, falling down the stairs, becoming a victim of a terror attack, major lifestyle changes (your end of the world fear fits in here), developing a physical disability such as a limb amputation, being abandoned somewhere by my loved ones (even if I have the capacity to get home on my own), etc.
I have learned how to cope with and even overcome a lot of these fears over time, but as a child, I was living in a constant state of fear and intense stress. I grew up being called "dramatic" but my parents didn't realize that my morning routine forced me to confront multiple phobias back to back.
It does sound like OCD. Have you ever asked a doctor/psychiatrist if you have it?
I love this video! I like your content because you don't edit so much and look so authentic. Keep it up!
Well i guess i don't have such imaginative phobias, but i am scared of dogs because they are so physical and unpredictable. I am scared of dentists, because i am so bad at brushing my teeth 😅
I also am scared of throwing up and nosebleeds due to some trauma i experienced post-surgery.
The thing about imagining you caused your mother's cancer is "magical thinking," and is a type of thinking common in children. How many kids whose parents get divorced convince themselves that they were the cause of the divorce? Gigantic numbers. We can convince ourselves of a lot of things, especially when they are things we can't talk about with anyone. I'm a lifelong hypochondriac myself, and it's the same sort of thing--being emotionally convinced of something you know is probably false. Escaping that emotion is hard to do.
i’m terrified of water jets and large fans for no apparent reason 😅
Really interesting topic, I also felt the teeth thing for a long time, especially for my wisdom teeth.
My personal fear is tall buildings and also the sky to some extend. I don't think it's a fear of heights, even when I'm on ground level and look up at a tall building or the sky, it fills me with dread.
Nah I get that kinda, I’ve only been around really tall buildings while in London or LA, and it both places I remember craning my neck to see the top and just being like oh shit no I don’t like that actually 😅
Upon becoming aware that I was Autistic, I began studying everything that I could about Autism and Autistic behaviors. I was amazed at how many of my odd quirks, mannerisms, and behaviors aligned very closely with commonly known Autistic behaviors. I was concerned that I had OCD for most of my life. I found out that I was Autistic at 40 years old. I spent a lifetime trying to understand why I am the way that I am. There is a great deal of overlap between Autism and OCD, as both involve idiosyncratic and repetitive behaviors. The only real difference is in the motivation for the behaviors.
I totally share your ick about pregnancy & mine extends to childbirth as well (I'm childfree by choice). It's weird because I've love having nieces & nephews!💚
Hi Dana 👋🏻 As always, the mass majority of this sounded like me just listening to myself talk 🫠 The OCD traits, the everything starting with "I'm worried that..." Etc. the irrational fears and phobias and what an actual endurance test life is because of it all 🙃
I have the exact same fear of and disgust for pregnancy. It started after my younger sibling and then family friends. Hate hate hate.
1:11 I have a large extended family & "OCD runs in the family" however, since self identifying as AuDHD & that being my special interest for 3 years, i.e. constant weekly research for 158 weeks straight, I'm just pretty convinced that OCD was the misdiagnosis used for low support need autustics in my part of the world for the later half of the 1900s. I dont know, but it just feels highly likely.
I've wrestled with "am I ocd, not autustic??" A LOT, but every time an autistic youtuber with ocd speaks on it, I usually can clearly see that I dont have the compulsory component, just a preference for all my lil auti-habbits (which change frequently with the Demand Avoidance & RSD issues, so im just constantly in flux with conflicting needs!)
I’m rewatching Twilight and since I know you’re a twilight fan I was wondering how you reacted/felt about Bella’s pregnancy, because it’s basically everything you described but 10 times worse 😂 or maybe that’s what traumatised you in the first place because you were 14 when the movie came out 😅
I always forgot just how young I was when I initially got into Twilight, now that you’ve pointed it out, it really might have been the thing to cause that 😭
Unfortunately I’ve always had a ‘whatever it takes to be a vampire’ mentality, so I was so down for it as a plot point, but I remember skimming reading a lot of the detailed parts in the book, and when I saw it in the cinema I remember closing my eyes during any of her pregnancy scenes 🤣
omg! When I was younger my sister managed to pass on a phobia of hers, that had never bothered me previously - spiders! It was her reaction that eventually triggered my phobia. Listening to you here, I feel I'm under threat of developing a new phobia (genuinely)... I won't say what, for I fear it may be contagious! I think this video should come with a warning!!! (jesting)
I like how fast you say it!
Pregnancy is... yeah I did ruminate quite a bit on the bone-leaching parasite part quite a bit. As for the visible hands and feet part--my autistic reaction was that I liked it WAY more than most people. I am one of those weirdos who took a video of the alien hand effect and wanted to show my family members, and most did NOT want to see it! It was my fear of throwing up in the first half of the pregnancy that was really hard, because I was nauseated frequently but have a strong feeling in my body that I need to prevent vomit from coming up.
Things like an emerging cavity ("dental carries" that aren't bad enough to show up on an x-ray but ARE bad enough that it hurts me, or it's a gum infection or something and my dentist keeps missing it despite checking?) are really hard for me. I notice the change in sensation right away and it bothers me SO much. My diet is super restricted because if anything gives me a bad feeling in my teeth, I'm put off it for a few years. Sometimes it happens with healthy fibrous foods that are staple safe foods, and it makes me react by eating way less healthfully for a while. Frustrating. I have bad teeth genetics in my family though, so I do tend to worry, and apparently I brush too hard with Oral B AND Sonicare because I'm brushing away my gums and might have to go to perio to get grafts put on from the roof of my mouth. So annoying and I'm dreading every part of it.
YES!!!! Finally I see someone talking about this, I thought that I was mad kkkkkkk, but yeah, I'm only autistic and have the same paranoia patterns...
This is crazy because I'm getting an adhd and autism assessment and have always had weird and pervasive fears of things like security cameras, blank tv screens and mechanical things. I never really understood why I had these fears but now I might have an explanation...
My big phobia I relate to my tism is being afraid of balloons. Specifically latex balloons, the crinkly ones are usually fine. I just. I’m scared they’re going to Pop. I hate the noise of popping balloons they scare me. So when I’m around balloons, I am nervous as hell.
And boy. ‘Not knowing if I have OCD’ is a vibe. I’ve got issues with GRIME AND GROSS (I need gloves and mask, I can’t breathe it in, I can get it too close to my skin, I know I can wash but it’s still GROSS and I can imagine myself getting sick or germs or eughhh--), but ALSO, Morality (moral ocd exists and everyday I wONDER. So scared of seeming Not Moral, even when morals are relative, but especially cause morals are relative- what if I do something I think is fine but I’m the villain in someone else’s story? AHH??). But the big kicker is always ‘ocd involves Compulsions to curb the Obsession. I don’t think I’ve got compulsions?’
I’ve heard of Pure O OCD where it’s just obsessive rumination but ahhh, moral imperative not to ‘baselessly label myself’, so ofc I would never confidently decide on my own that I’m OCD and if my therapists say I’m not ohhh they’re the professionals so I’ll just LISTEN.
But aye, if techniques for curbing OCD help, you needn’t the label, you can just use the techniques! Ofc. I just realized this. And now I need to look up some techniques cause maybe they’ll help regardless.
wait what the hell, I have literally so many of these same fears and I have NEVER come across anyone else having them??? like thinking you've caused bad things, TEETH, the reality of the end of the world, pregnant people... I also have emetophobia
I totally feel you on the fears of your teeth and the mental fear that if you don't do something then something bad is going to happen to the people around me. For me it started after I suddenly lost my father to a stroke while i was on vacation and I fear that happening to my mom so I get paranoid and super fucking anxious when she doesn't respond to my calls at our usual times.
😂 your fist phobia: I also have a fears about cracking my teeth, being incapacitated and weirdly - what would I do at the end of the world? 😅
In regards to spoiled food: I used to always buy the dented cans at the grocery store because I thought they were just as good as the normal ones and I felt bad for them, being ignored. Turns out dented cans have an increased risk of transmitting botulism. If you don’t know what it is, just know it’s really bad and you don’t want it. I don’t recommend looking it up.
I’m only vaguely aware of what botulism is, and bring it up regularly for anything tinned/canned/jarred ahaha, nothing is safe for me
The teeth thing gets to me alot, I got my first dentist appointment in 2 years because I was having panic attacks over worrying about my teeth. My teeth were pretty fine but I was still anxious they were going to tell me I needed all of them pulled or something lol
I get your thing about your mother's cancer. Both of my parents have had cancer and for whatever reason I have blamed myself for it. Despite knowing that it can't have been my fault.
Okay, the End of the World thing is too relateable to be funny. But... the prego thing, cracked me up. I understand totally, but it was funny. I made one human, that was my limit. Never again. I didn't enjoy being pregnant. I felt I had to breast feed, but I hated it. It was invasive and it hurt and he bit me. This was not how we bonded. :D Love my kid to the end of the universe, and I don't need or want another. He understands. It's all good.
What to do at the end of the world? The FRUG.
I've heard someone else say that veganism is more common amongst autistic people in general and I thought that was interesting but didn't really know if I believed it. Your channel was recommended to me and then you mentioned that you're vegan and mind blown, maybe there's some truth in that after all :D
Had a lifelong weird Eating Disorder. Was at a clinic for 12 months. I have in the past lost weight. Also strong fear and panic with food.
An attempt to explain
When growing up one learns that alcohol and drugs can take one’s consciousness away.
As such things such as alcohol and drugs enter the body through the mouth could it be that food can do the same as they enter the mouth. There were also ideas such as, alcohol relaxes, it is said some herbs can and so can some foods. As such anything relaxing can also be associated with the mind becoming less existent. Alcohol and drugs can take one’s mind away and also relax. However even if foods and herbs can relax true the effect would be very mild, that is, much less than say alcohol. Very mild. However if there was a mild effect it is hard for me to see degrees of this. If I eat I would not be able to be conscious therefore not alive therefore extreme fear of food. I would be doing day to day activities but not aware. Not conscious as I am moving and talking. Also the fears worsened during fog. This seemed because I could not tell the difference between solid flat surfaces and a gradient substance such as fog which one could walk through. The fog intrudes on my mind as such could it be because of Proprioception issues. It intrudes in the same way as a nearby solid surface would. As such I cannot control my thoughts in order to overcome the fear. Because the solid surface of the fog impinges on my thoughts. Could this be a Proprioception issue in some way. Even crumbs could have an affect. For some reason fog together with decrease of awareness can cause extreme fear.
I used to feel say a kind of depersonalisation like am I awake. I would touch objects and if I could feel them then of course I am awake. But then I would touch again to check. Is that an object existence problem. I would put the loss of object existence in my mind done to a recent food that I had eaten then become afraid of the food.
I am much better these days. Worked on it etc, still there a bit though. I wonder if it is Autism which I have/am?
I have a bit of a phobia around cracking my teeth, although probably not as much as it sounds like you have. This is because- and I’m going to issue a trigger warning specifically for Dana and anyone else who has this phobia, trigger warning for icky teeth stuff-I did actually chip my teeth on a fork once. It’s just a tiny chip but it is noticeable if I look in the mirror. It was one of the most uncomfortable things I’ve ever felt in my mouth, and that’s saying something considering that I have huge sensory issues with my mouth and gums. (I didn’t always have as much of these sensory issues, or at least I wasn’t as aware of them, but after going into burnout, it’s impossible for me to floss every day, so I use a water flosser for most days.)
I have OCD traits but my psychiatrist said "no its Autism"
I have a fear of cats walking on two feet like in the movie the cat returns. I love cats though
I went to pet a dog in a shop once and it just stood up on its back legs and looked at me and it was genuinely one of the more unsettling moments of my life, I absolutely don’t want to see a cat do it!
9:30 I do the same in this situation,,, 😨
Hi i am Andrew I am Autistic 68 now struggle with bad anxiety and depression
I'm responsible for Sean Connery dying. I looked him up on Wikipedia randomly, then the next day he died. And Dustin Diamond. Spoke to my friend about Saved By The Bell randomly, asked him what Screech been doing these days. Then next day he died as well.
As much as I don’t want to validate this, given that you’re not really responsible for it just like it wasn’t me that killed Taylor Hawkins, but please, for me, don’t think about or talk to anyone about Kevin Smith or David Duchovny 😂
Hard relate on the pregnancy thing. Just ... no!
Also, I am the first one out in the zombie apocolypse . I am not sticking around for that sh*t!
See like I’d WANT to be done, but I’m too spooked to do it myself and don’t want to just wander out into the zombie gang/acid rain or whatever, so I fear I would sit somewhere until I dehydrate/starve 🫠😅
@@DanaAndersen Relatable. 😅 I wish I could be brave, but I have my doubts.
I think I have OCD
is worrying about situations that literally could or would happen "at the end of the world", like, catastrophizing?
do not watch aliens ;)