I know I'm getting worse when I start going down these paths again, and start watching these videos to the point where the Recommended section is all these kinds of videos...
Its happening to me...just cuz im done staying quiet. As soon as I began setting clear , respectable boundaries...my "friends" began dropping like flies, one by one, out of my life. Even some family members casted me aside, living under the same roof but acting like the other doesn't exist. Ridiculous. Its been on this steady decline for month's...leaving me with one last friend, we are close, like brother and sister. He adores me, yet is always pushing to end our friendship because he cant handle seeing me vulnerable. And he thinks im falling victim to drugs. But im not. Idk what do to. People keep misinterpreting me
Yeah I get you both I was asked by a group of people if I was okay and then they just ran away I had like a panic attack in school in front of people and even the I was asked and then they just didn't know how to respond Sorry for ranting never get to say much...
I know it’s getting bad when my room becomes a mess and when I go from eating bad to not eating to eating a load for crap like crisps and sweets and drinking energy drinks and then the videos come into it were I sit here and watch them for hours and then realise home numb I am because I can’t even cry and nothin I do is makin things better and then comes the isolating myself from the world till have to go to school because I’m forced to go and I’m not allowed to stay off
READ THIS AND BELIEVE IT: YOU, are going to enjoy an AMAZING LIFE! AND, YOU know you deserve it! Take a little time to clean your room and keep school going! YOU'RE going to be AMAZED! YOU'LL see. God Bless You ALWAYS!
I feel you man, this feeling when even if you try to fix things, it just get worse so we just give up and let life do whatever she wants of us, ‘cause we don’t matter for anybody, we are juste trying to survive ...
@@Sid_Scot maybe? I might've heard it a while ago, but I dont remember. Sometimes I here something, and then it comes to mind later on, and I dont remember I heard it!
I hate when people do that, when they say, “why are you so sad, you don’t even have it that bad, you have such a good life and marries parents and aren’t being abused or living without a shelter or water or food, your life is amazing and perfect. Why? Why won’t you just let me feel my feelings? Why can’t you just let me be sad without making me feel guilty or even more ashamed and angry with myself. Why can’t I ever win?
I have made myself so used to the idea of no one caring that when someone acts like they do it makes me feel uncomfortable and angry because I feel like they are faking it
that was me when roach, ghost, soap, yuri, mj, spiderman (tom holland) in infinity war, tony stark in end game. all of that i didn't cry. so yeah I'm broken. and you are correct
I’m scared because it’s supposed to be getting better, but it’s been 1,060 days without her🤧 and she’s still on my mind every single day. I just wish she knew I’m sorry.
Quav Hayes I guess the only good thing about it is how eventually with time, you will realize it made you stronger and it made you the person you are now. Even though it hurts a lot, something good will come out of it. Just have to wait and let time do it’s job.😪
it feels like you're never going to get out of this but you will, one day you will; focus on other stuff she/he is gone now but you have to move on now. You have a life to live, plz take care of yourself
Well,i lost her four months ago.she was my person,the one that cried with me and comforted when i was dealing with things.she took care of me since i was a baby.and i don't think I'll know better,I'll never find somebody that will care that much.
Zainab Almateery Cherish her please my mama passed away two years ago she was and is my everything we where so close I would sit with her in bed when she was so sick she couldn’t move and I just sat there with her we would watch barb show we loved and she was so kind and great full she did not need or deserve to die the way she did the drs never found out what it was and I miss her so much I wish I did more with her I wish I helped more I wish I was great full and I can’t now so cherish everyone around you
@@trishapaytasismysavior2643 Sorry for your lost and I live in a different country thats far away from where my grandma lives and we can't afford to go there yet but my parents are trying and my grandma would face time my mom and when my mom starts to understand what's going on she would ask questions and my grandma would respond with "it's normal I'm just getting old" It's so sad to know that all our loved ones would soon die so we gotta make time with them but I can't make time with my grandma and we might go see her next year if she would still be alive☹️🙏
Zainab Almateery I hope she lives for you like my mom did I don’t know if you believe in or are religious in any way but I will pray for your grandma even though I myself am not very religious but I believe in a few things I hope she lives for you and your family I think she will if she knows you want to see her I think she will wait my mom died three times and drs resuscitated her each time she waited bc the minute after I got to the hospital she died she waited just all you can do is love her more and more every minute that goes by if you need anything or just to talk I’m here for you even though I don’t know you but I’ll listen to you ❤️
i hate myself, my body, my face, my personality. everything about myself i hate😔i need to loose weight, i need to stop being so weird & in the way. i need to be alone and by myself for a long time because i just ruin things.
To the precious you, I know that it's hard and I agree that I might not understand how you feel because it's your pain no one knows better than you. Take your time but don't say that you hate yourself you may never realize how unfair you are being to yourself. I am weird too but that's what makes me unique I love that about me You're beautiful You're loved You're not alone LOVE YOURSELF ❤️
I love you, I still love you. I want you, I still need you. You were my peace, my light, my muse. I can’t let you go from my heart. I still have so much love to give you. So much to experience with you. I hope we will meet again, this time start new. No secrets, no lies, no doubts, just unconditional love. I will be waiting with the little hope we have left.
"Will you miss me, or will you just forget... and move on? Because we both know I'm not something to be dwelled on. I'll miss you, but I do understand if you won't miss me."- how I always feel.
The worst thing about distance is you don't know if they'll miss you or forget you. This message is really making me crying already because I keep on missing my cousin Laura van Gass from the Nederlands and it is super hard for me. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Honestly there’s something soothing about these kinds of videos. I have a playlist full of them and I understand it is not great to have, but I just can’t help it. One part of me wants to forget it all; the trauma, the pain, the sadness and the guilt I brought upon myself and others. While another wants to continue watching so I will be constantly reminded; where I am, where I started, what I fought and what I continue to fight. It’s an endless cycle.. and I don’t know if I want or when to stop.
I was going through grief and trauma and used to listen to it almost every night and cry to this, one line just always stuck with me and it hit me with a wave of sadness everytime I thought about it “You’re losing me You’re losing me and there’s nothing u can do to stop it from happening” I was going through something similar and now that I’m hearing this again in a year or two And I could only focus on the part where they say “I’ll hold on as long as I can, you hold on to urself too” And that gives me hope
To hold on to you too- This breaks you, tears you apart. It's hard. Very hard. Words can never justify what one goes through. Never ever. The Pain. The Numbness. The lump in your throat
One time I was with my bsf and we were talking about depression and I told her I tried to commit suicide 3 times she throw a water bottle at me and started crying I love her so much I’m happy to have someone like her in my life she’s so kind
I am so happy you had someone who you could tell the truth to and they not try to fix you, or give a long list of " encouragement" but just be there heart to heart. Your right, that is super kind, your friend is special;)
You know that it’s getting worse when you stop sharing that much with your best friend and when you are purposely pushing away and asking them if they really do want you as their friend. When you start warning them without causing too much suspicion on your part.
I lost the loml 2 years ago and it hurts like it just happened . Loving someone can feel so good until they leave now you’re stuck with the pain while they live their life . I dont hate you I just hate that I love you so much... thanks for all the memories you gave me .
...The mom part got me.... Everyday I become more numb I feel the. Tears begin to dry I begin to not feel I'm about to leave myself and I am fighting to hold on to me, I've been doing this for 7. Years now...I feel the strength loosening up I feel my colors fade..I've lost my mom's trust and she no longer. Shows affection..my dad hasn't been the best But He is trying my sister gets me more stuck in problems, a boy told me he's feeling and I like him to but I feel like he is too good for me, he's too good to be true I'm scared it will end up in pieces and the friendship fades away..my friends always need help and I've Been Helping as much as I can but everytime I give help I sink myself even more ...I don't want help and I don't ask for any help I'll be fine and I'll fight as much as I can for as long as I can and if I end up failing at least I'll know I tried my hardest..
i was never all here.” i hate what i see and i don’t know how to change it.” it repeats. it repeats. why won’t it be quiet? “i can’t get it outta my head, it’s constantly playing on loop so what the heII am i supposed to do?”
You do such amazing work with these audios, please keep making more! I want to get back into doing video editing, and I will for sure be using some of yours.
Happiness is deep within us... Life isn't easy... But it's beautiful to love unconditionally.. We don't all have to be successful in the meaning of physical materials but we can be so fulfilled with love spiritually without nothing but pure energy... You don't have to impress me I already loved you for who you are from the start including all your pain❤️❤️❤️❤️
I like it how people who have never felt the pain for feeling worthless joke about depression and say stuff like “just be happy!” Without realizing what people who experience this everyday really go through :)
If anyone needs someone to talk to at all I’m here for everyone You’re all loved by someone, even if you don’t know it yet, I care, someone cares, it’ll be alright. Things are gonna get better I promise
I am actually going through the same situation like this video and right now i am asking my self the same questions to my family as the part im the video that the guy is asking why make it personal when u know its lile been stab to the heart. Especially when u know i am going through depression and anxiety and guilt and isolateing my self all because of the pain i have went through
Self harm can hurt you in many ways, but it's mainly the feeling inside. Knowing that you're in such a bad place that you have to hurt yourself to try and stop the pain that you're feeling. I was once told cutting is the last step but its nto
To anybody that’s dealing with depression just know that you are beautiful and amazing and wanted and there are people that love you so please don’t take your life
Cameron Devinney ugh I’m just so self conscious like I hate my legs the veins are see through so they look purple and everyone just stares like I’m never gonna find a guy or anyone so what’s the point
Dark ASMR don’t worry, you’ll find someone that truly like you for the person that you really are, you’ll find someone to give you the time of day you deserve, and you’ll find someone that actually wants to be around you, it might take awhile might not, but it’ll be okay in the long run, trust me on that, it will be okay, even though it don’t seem like it now...
Grimreaper Entertainment thanks 😭 this is what I need no one in my life supports me, I feel like I’m slowly having more and more layers of hopelessness being built on top of my heart
I'm falling back into depression and my family tells me I have nothing to be sad about i hate my body I hate being told to go kill myself by all the kids at school its hard not to just do it already I'm really losing hope that there's any fixing me
I’m literally so numb that I can’t cry, all I can do is stare up at my ceiling and hoping I could just go to sleep and never wake up. I miss what it felt like to be happy.
Anyone else ever just wanna go to the top of a rooftop and sit on the edge then just stare down just stare down not to end your life or anything just to see everyone and there life....or is it just me
I am a junior and I remember listening to these audios freshman year. It gets better I know you hear that and don’t believe it but I promise you. As someone who has been there, you can get through this. I love you, I hear you, I’m proud of you. You can do it, I believe in you. There will be bad and good days, keep going❤️
My friends: your so lucky to be so happy and not have lost anyone. Me on the inside: dying on the inside, suffering from depression. Lost a brother, almost lost my mom a few times, lost my grandma who was practically my best friend. Me on the outside: ya, your right. *smiles*
I don't believe that one day I'll be able to feel happy again and love like I've never loved anyone before. Pain and suffering have become my comfort zone, and I can't get out of it.
Hi, if you want to talk to someoane who understands, i'm here for you. I know it may sound boring hearing that everything will be okay, but trust me it'll be okay. Remember that only after the rain the rainbow will show! You are not alone in this!
Imagine wasting your time to someone who didnt care about you.. Imagine loving someone who likes someone else.. imagine pretending to be happy just to see her happy..
Well there's nothing to imagine..... everything you were scared to loose or happen it all came in your life and broke you as hell that you just make yourself cold and pretend to be okay with everything but deep down it hurts you so bad that you can't do anything ..... you can't breathe and your life is miserable but no one sees it they just blame you for the way you are now ..... 🖤
Yes I've been in that too I think that hurts the most when you think you're the only one in your really not the only one you're just an option oh my God that hurts
imagine dating a guy that only wants you around to watch his child and clean his house. imagine having your stuff ruined by said child and it not mattering. imagine sitting outside in the cold because you walked passed him 3 times in tears and he didnt flinch. imagine asking him to use his emt skills to look at your arm because it hurts so bad that when hes running through the emt test I drop to the floor in tears and he just says it's okay. imagine crying yourself to sleep because hes been sleeping on the couch for weeks now because he "hurt his back"
Just give me a chance to hug you and heal you... I think all your worries and burdens might be lifted... Pain will be replaced with pleasure❤️❤️❤️ something that come from above... It's a high you never had... And is still wanting give me a chance to touch you without force... Gently but filled with energy
the part when it said, what mommas tryna do is protect you from losing more.... i got chills and goosebumps through my whole body because my mom is dead, and ive aldeady lost more than just her over the last three years
Nathalia I see these replies and I’m like damn it’s like they don’t understand you can’t just stop cutting... its like a drug, it’s addictive. I understand the pain of cutting and I hope you know I’m here even if you don’t know me haha. Everyone around you loves you and I know there are thousands, no millions who care for you and hope you know they are here for you every second. I promise you it gets better. Might not be soon but it will. -Grace
I wish somebody, anybody in my life would try and understand when I try to explain what I feel. Instead I get a look I know is them thinking I'm crazy and I just shut up, shut off, and plaster on that fake smile.
I find myself sad. I can relate to all of these. The mentions of self-harm, suicide, nobody missing me, all of it. Having an abusive father, my sexuality being looked down on, nobody being there, people who ditched me, everything. And I feel selfish when I complain about all these things when I know people out there have it worse than me. Way worse. And the constant weight in my chest that gets heavier, and heavier. The feeling that I was never enough. The feeling of just ending it all. The feeling of the blood trickling down my arms and thighs. The feeling of tears streaming down my face. . . . I’m 11.
Recently just recently I lost the LOML when he got to hawaii. I cried and cried when he told me that he broke up with me and when I was watching this today, I realized I was relate so much passion. It hurts me so much right now. 😭😭😭😭😭😭
imagine having depression,anxiety and you're really f'd up and you just get to to the point where you don't remember the last time you were happy.....and then someone you loved so much dies.....worst part is..i don't have to imagine it.
My biggest fear is that one day, everyone will see me how I see myself, how I think everyone sees me. because when that day comes, I know no one will stay any longer.
This hurts so badly to listen to... But I can't stop listening... It hurts... I can still remember the day my step dad died and how I felt.... And then months later my grandpa died.... At least I got to hug him one last time....
I don’t get why this is in my feed but I’ll put my 2 cents COMMUNICATION, TRUST ,LOYALTY AND LOTS OF LOVE TONS OF DEDICATION AND YOU HAVE TO BE TRULY DEVOTED TO ONE ANOTHER 💋💚💜🔐🐧🐸🐞♍️♌️
I know, I need to get up and compete those piles of assignments , prepare for my upcoming exam, reply to all those important texts, but I am exhausted, I really am and I feel pathetic that I am, there are people way of worse than me and here I am , just maybe trying to be a attention seeker but I really barely have energy in myself left. I really want to get everything done but I can’t, ever damn day and night feels like a loop and every passing moment I feel more and more useless than before. I hate it , I hate being the way I am, the person I am. But I will still try, to get up and complete all my work, even if I feel tired, I shall do it cause I have no other choice except this. Pretty sure not many will read this long paragraph but , live another day, live and try making it a bit better than yesterday. Even if it’s a bit , do it, bit by bit , you shall see that the mess is half way through. Proud of you I am. I really am cause I know this shit isn’t easy, you are doing amazing just by being here. I love you. Stay safe, good night.
idk anymore after we isolated myself i just started getting sad i started listening to audios of these sort and i just eat chocolate and i guess ive been having so much chocolate that even my mom notices and shes confronted me a couple times about this obsession ive grown to chocolate and i just dodge that question by telling her i just really like m&ms the chocolate ive been getting but i get it to represent my tears so lets say i cry 6 tears i will eat 6 m&ms and thats what ive been doing with all those m&ms mom sorry i just dont have the guts to tell you that
So much pain!! I feel like I am not good enough for anything. Career, friends, relationship. So I am all alone. People say I am not good enough and I know they're right...my personality, my body image, my looks. What do I do? I can't change myself. How do I survive in this world. Where do I go? Can't handle anymore rejctions...
You're wrong! Do you know why? Because you have the courage that is to talk about yourself, don't let anyone say that you're not good enough, do let anyone say that you're failed at you're job. You have the possibilities to change everything around you. Truly love and respect ❤ and hope to listen to you're new news soon
@@AbdullahJLD Thank you for the support dude. Wish I could have the same positivity. The truth is whether we like it or not we're compared with others all the time. And thanks to my issues I end up feeling like shit about myself 😞
@@friyaivy3818 Don't thank me please, everyone starts his life like "stupidity" and I'm not that positive guy, I replied because I know that feeling, I know how most people live. And yes, we are always being compared with others no matter what are the reasons. You have to be strong, not for anybody but for you! You have to treat yourself well, you have to be great at everything, you have to work hard on yourself, learn everything, read some positive books, write your own negative points on sheets and read them, READ THEM more and more. Remember, this is your life ain't nobody going to live except YOU! And you must handle it by using your brain. Don't listen to anyone around you, live the life that you have dreamt about. Best wishes ❤
@@AbdullahJLD That's very kind of you to say. It's refreshing to see people like you. But most of the time it's not what people say...its my own thoughts. Negative thoughts all the time and I hate it. I will try to do what you said and change my thinking. 😊
@@AbdullahJLD if this is for me... Lol yall better know i love me .. U may see me one way but i ceel n see me in the best way. I was over weightbut now that i drop those two xpounds of mine ... I look n feel better.... I will never pick those xpounds up again.... N know this im not as lonely as yall want to believe. U took the one i wanted from me so i picked up one yall dont k ow about ... N he is just as good n lives away from here n knows no one
"I'VE 'BEEN ' THERE,- THIS ISN'T THE WAY, & YES I KNOW HOW THAT 'FEELS ', I'M 'FEELING ' IT ALSO, - BUT THERE IS A WAY, & IT'S NOT THIS, & THERE IS 'NOTHING ', IN MY 'HEART', BUT 'LOVE', & EVEN THOUGH I 'REALIZE ' NOW, THAT I'M NEVER GOING TO BE WITH YOU, I WISHED, AT LEAST, I COULD 'VE TALKED TO YOU, ONE MORE TIME!!!..😪😢😭😘😍🥰❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏😇
Dear red friend until & unless it's mine I won't respond how much hard you try it's waste will meet in next life be happy forget me think that iam lefted
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I know I'm getting worse when I start going down these paths again, and start watching these videos to the point where the Recommended section is all these kinds of videos...
Same
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that is legit such a f-ing mood
Im a hang real quik
His is real hurting
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It’s sad that some people aren’t waiting for their happy ending anymore. They are just waiting for the end.
Have been waiting for the end the past 19 years, I’m only 19 rn
I love you strangers, we’re here, living at the same time. That counts for something doesn’t it? Please keep going. Be your own guardian angel ♥️
Yeah, and some of us cant wait 4 the ending ansd jsut make our own ending....
15 and can't see the point in life anymore
@@inesabracos6475 I’m so sorry I really am but we have got to stick together. You aren’t alone
everyday i forget more and more what it felt like to be happy
Kerry Becker I’m saying even when I am happy it doesn’t feel right
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Same
What is happiness anymore😞 what's the point of being happy when ur just going to come back to being sad and depressed 😞😞
That’s heartbreaking. I wish one day you’ll be happy again
you know that feeling, of everyone around you, starts to leave your life as if you are nothing.
I actually know that feeling because it's happening to me right now. Like why am I not likeable? Or people dont value me?
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Its happening to me...just cuz im done staying quiet. As soon as I began setting clear , respectable boundaries...my "friends" began dropping like flies, one by one, out of my life. Even some family members casted me aside, living under the same roof but acting like the other doesn't exist. Ridiculous.
Its been on this steady decline for month's...leaving me with one last friend, we are close, like brother and sister. He adores me, yet is always pushing to end our friendship because he cant handle seeing me vulnerable. And he thinks im falling victim to drugs. But im not. Idk what do to. People keep misinterpreting me
@Flurpderk Let's go out with a BANG
“And I’m so scared that that feeling won’t ever go away.” That last part just end me. It’s so painfully true.
Pais Libertad Well for me I'll never go away. I'm bipolar. I'll just have to live with the pain forever
Rachel Amber Everleigh I’m sorry 😔 stay strong!!✨✨✨
It's always "are you ok?"
Why is it never "I know your not ok I'm here for you"
Fr tho.. they know something's wrong yet when you say "I'm okay" they walk away..
Yeah I get you both
I was asked by a group of people if I was okay and then they just ran away I had like a panic attack in school in front of people and even the I was asked and then they just didn't know how to respond
Sorry for ranting never get to say much...
this comment section retable af
See that's the thing, people ask and you choose to say yes but I understand why and its the worst to have to say yes while mentally screaming no
I wish that’s what people say to me...but they ask if I’m ok...like for I’m crying no I’m not ok...then I lie and then I have no one...
I know it’s getting bad when my room becomes a mess and when I go from eating bad to not eating to eating a load for crap like crisps and sweets and drinking energy drinks and then the videos come into it were I sit here and watch them for hours and then realise home numb I am because I can’t even cry and nothin I do is makin things better and then comes the isolating myself from the world till have to go to school because I’m forced to go and I’m not allowed to stay off
READ THIS AND BELIEVE IT: YOU, are going to enjoy an AMAZING LIFE! AND, YOU know you deserve it! Take a little time to clean your room and keep school going! YOU'RE going to be AMAZED! YOU'LL see. God Bless You ALWAYS!
wait why is this me. thats crazy i thought i was the only one
I feel you man, this feeling when even if you try to fix things, it just get worse so we just give up and let life do whatever she wants of us, ‘cause we don’t matter for anybody, we are juste trying to survive ...
Feel that way every day
i thought i was alone. i look like a mess too.
"You still have me.. and i hate it!"
I dont hate you, but.. i wish i did! Hating you would be easier than loving you. But no. I love you
@Layla Tossas thanks. That comment was awhile ago. I'm doing better now. Thanks for caring.
I wish I could have someone like that.
Is that from a movie?
@@Sid_Scot maybe? I might've heard it a while ago, but I dont remember. Sometimes I here something, and then it comes to mind later on, and I dont remember I heard it!
@@jordyn2668 do you know how to make these vids?
"why do you always look upset?"
"stop faking"
"are you okay?"
"why are you upset? Your life is perfect" My answer: "Im fine just tired..."
yeah...
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Rip and I will always love you ❤ grandpa ,but happy birthday I know you can't talked to dead person and say to a dead happy birthday😢
I hate when people do that, when they say, “why are you so sad, you don’t even have it that bad, you have such a good life and marries parents and aren’t being abused or living without a shelter or water or food, your life is amazing and perfect.
Why? Why won’t you just let me feel my feelings? Why can’t you just let me be sad without making me feel guilty or even more ashamed and angry with myself.
Why can’t I ever win?
I’m back on this side of UA-cam again but watching these almost makes the pain feel a little better..
I feel the same I’m listing to this reading the comments and crying into my pillow these videos make me feel better it makes me know I’m not alone
has anyone else felt so alone,and numb, and broken, for so long.... that...
u forgot what it's like to be happy....
Felt🥺
Same
Yes
I have made myself so used to the idea of no one caring that when someone acts like they do it makes me feel uncomfortable and angry because I feel like they are faking it
Yes and i hate it so soo soo much😥😭
i like listening to these because it’s comforting hearing people feel exactly how i feel, but actually talking about it
You know you’re not okay when you stare at the screen, not crying, not anything, just, sitting.
that was me when roach, ghost, soap, yuri, mj, spiderman (tom holland) in infinity war, tony stark in end game. all of that i didn't cry. so yeah I'm broken. and you are correct
Way to accurate
That hit hard
I’m scared because it’s supposed to be getting better, but it’s been 1,060 days without her🤧 and she’s still on my mind every single day. I just wish she knew I’m sorry.
It's been 31 days for me and right now it hurts but 2moro will be worse, and I know that cause today feels way worse than yesterday
Quav Hayes I guess the only good thing about it is how eventually with time, you will realize it made you stronger and it made you the person you are now. Even though it hurts a lot, something good will come out of it. Just have to wait and let time do it’s job.😪
WinterWolf 54 I wish I believed you
it feels like you're never going to get out of this but you will, one day you will; focus on other stuff she/he is gone now but you have to move on now. You have a life to live, plz take care of yourself
Have you ever tried to talk to her about your feelings?
My grandma was my best friend when I was little (and still is) but now I am slowly losing her
Well,i lost her four months ago.she was my person,the one that cried with me and comforted when i was dealing with things.she took care of me since i was a baby.and i don't think I'll know better,I'll never find somebody that will care that much.
Zainab Almateery
Cherish her please my mama passed away two years ago she was and is my everything we where so close I would sit with her in bed when she was so sick she couldn’t move and I just sat there with her we would watch barb show we loved and she was so kind and great full she did not need or deserve to die the way she did the drs never found out what it was and I miss her so much I wish I did more with her I wish I helped more I wish I was great full and I can’t now so cherish everyone around you
@@trishapaytasismysavior2643 Sorry for your lost and I live in a different country thats far away from where my grandma lives and we can't afford to go there yet but my parents are trying and my grandma would face time my mom and when my mom starts to understand what's going on she would ask questions and my grandma would respond with "it's normal I'm just getting old" It's so sad to know that all our loved ones would soon die so we gotta make time with them but I can't make time with my grandma and we might go see her next year if she would still be alive☹️🙏
Zainab Almateery
I hope she lives for you like my mom did I don’t know if you believe in or are religious in any way but I will pray for your grandma even though I myself am not very religious but I believe in a few things I hope she lives for you and your family I think she will if she knows you want to see her I think she will wait my mom died three times and drs resuscitated her each time she waited bc the minute after I got to the hospital she died she waited just all you can do is love her more and more every minute that goes by if you need anything or just to talk I’m here for you even though I don’t know you but I’ll listen to you ❤️
Same but my grandma is getting cold hearted...
i hate myself, my body, my face, my personality. everything about myself i hate😔i need to loose weight, i need to stop being so weird & in the way. i need to be alone and by myself for a long time because i just ruin things.
same:/
To the precious you,
I know that it's hard and I agree that I might not understand how you feel because it's your pain no one knows better than you. Take your time but don't say that you hate yourself you may never realize how unfair you are being to yourself. I am weird too but that's what makes me unique I love that about me
You're beautiful
You're loved
You're not alone
LOVE YOURSELF ❤️
Stop saying this Things about you...you are Perfect...you are precious...you are Loved
yeah I feel you I'm bout to go AWOL for a long time
it sucks that as the world spins 9 billion deep love can make life worth every breath ... take that love away ya whole.world stops ...
I love you, I still love you. I want you, I still need you. You were my peace, my light, my muse. I can’t let you go from my heart. I still have so much love to give you. So much to experience with you. I hope we will meet again, this time start new. No secrets, no lies, no doubts, just unconditional love. I will be waiting with the little hope we have left.
Never will allow this i willalwaysremember howu wasnt around when i needed u how i was lefton streetsmorethen once i dnt love u
Me too
Omg, I loved this video. The sad thing is that I could relate so much right now.
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The worst thing about distance is you dont know if theyll miss you or forget you.
"Will you miss me, or will you just forget... and move on? Because we both know I'm not something to be dwelled on. I'll miss you, but I do understand if you won't miss me."- how I always feel.
Well how did it turn out?
The worst thing about distance is you don't know if they'll miss you or forget you. This message is really making me crying already because I keep on missing my cousin Laura van Gass from the Nederlands and it is super hard for me. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Honestly there’s something soothing about these kinds of videos. I have a playlist full of them and I understand it is not great to have, but I just can’t help it.
One part of me wants to forget it all; the trauma, the pain, the sadness and the guilt I brought upon myself and others. While another wants to continue watching so I will be constantly reminded; where I am, where I started, what I fought and what I continue to fight. It’s an endless cycle.. and I don’t know if I want or when to stop.
Me: extremely sad and about to cry watching this
UA-cam: DID YOU KNOW KELLOGS INCREASES BODY POWER AND GIVES MORE PROTEIN
Suad Mandil That's how UA-cam really is 😂
True tho
I was going through grief and trauma and used to listen to it almost every night and cry to this, one line just always stuck with me and it hit me with a wave of sadness everytime I thought about it
“You’re losing me
You’re losing me and there’s nothing u can do to stop it from happening”
I was going through something similar and now that I’m hearing this again in a year or two
And I could only focus on the part where they say “I’ll hold on as long as I can, you hold on to urself too”
And that gives me hope
first, i loveee your multi fandoms they’re soo relatable❤️
Ahhhhhh just cried
To hold on to you too- This breaks you, tears you apart. It's hard. Very hard. Words can never justify what one goes through. Never ever. The Pain. The Numbness. The lump in your throat
One time I was with my bsf and we were talking about depression and I told her I tried to commit suicide 3 times she throw a water bottle at me and started crying I love her so much I’m happy to have someone like her in my life she’s so kind
I am so happy you had someone who you could tell the truth to and they not try to fix you, or give a long list of " encouragement" but just be there heart to heart. Your right, that is super kind, your friend is special;)
Remember that child that used to laugh. They got lost. In the cold
You know that it’s getting worse when you stop sharing that much with your best friend and when you are purposely pushing away and asking them if they really do want you as their friend. When you start warning them without causing too much suspicion on your part.
I can relate to ur videos so much
I love ur post
I lost the loml 2 years ago and it hurts like it just happened . Loving someone can feel so good until they leave now you’re stuck with the pain while they live their life . I dont hate you I just hate that I love you so much... thanks for all the memories you gave me .
Amen
...The mom part got me.... Everyday I become more numb I feel the. Tears begin to dry I begin to not feel I'm about to leave myself and I am fighting to hold on to me, I've been doing this for 7. Years now...I feel the strength loosening up I feel my colors fade..I've lost my mom's trust and she no longer. Shows affection..my dad hasn't been the best But He is trying my sister gets me more stuck in problems, a boy told me he's feeling and I like him to but I feel like he is too good for me, he's too good to be true I'm scared it will end up in pieces and the friendship fades away..my friends always need help and I've Been Helping as much as I can but everytime I give help I sink myself even more ...I don't want help and I don't ask for any help I'll be fine and I'll fight as much as I can for as long as I can and if I end up failing at least I'll know I tried my hardest..
I always sit in a corner and listen to this, and think about my best friend. I think about how happy we were together
i was never all here.” i hate what i see and i don’t know how to change it.” it repeats. it repeats. why won’t it be quiet? “i can’t get it outta my head, it’s constantly playing on loop so what the heII am i supposed to do?”
I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THE EDGE OF SEVENTEEN 😢
You do such amazing work with these audios, please keep making more! I want to get back into doing video editing, and I will for sure be using some of yours.
Happiness is deep within us... Life isn't easy... But it's beautiful to love unconditionally.. We don't all have to be successful in the meaning of physical materials but we can be so fulfilled with love spiritually without nothing but pure energy... You don't have to impress me I already loved you for who you are from the start including all your pain❤️❤️❤️❤️
Please keep me 🙁
Its hard to see how easily someone can give up on you
Sadness is the only comfort that remains
“ I should've left you a long time ago.”
- 3 mins ago
Damn, I feel so broken right now.
How so you feel now?
I like it how people who have never felt the pain for feeling worthless joke about depression and say stuff like “just be happy!”
Without realizing what people who experience this everyday really go through
:)
If anyone needs someone to talk to at all I’m here for everyone
You’re all loved by someone, even if you don’t know it yet, I care, someone cares, it’ll be alright. Things are gonna get better I promise
Anorak no, it's never gonna be better. I'm bipolar. I'll always be in pain
How do you know it gets better how bc I’ve been waiting and it hasnt
I am actually going through the same situation like this video and right now i am asking my self the same questions to my family as the part im the video that the guy is asking why make it personal when u know its lile been stab to the heart. Especially when u know i am going through depression and anxiety and guilt and isolateing my self all because of the pain i have went through
I just love ur vids in alot of them I can relate
Self harm can hurt you in many ways, but it's mainly the feeling inside. Knowing that you're in such a bad place that you have to hurt yourself to try and stop the pain that you're feeling. I was once told cutting is the last step but its nto
To anybody that’s dealing with depression just know that you are beautiful and amazing and wanted and there are people that love you so please don’t take your life
Cameron Devinney ugh I’m just so self conscious like I hate my legs the veins are see through so they look purple and everyone just stares like I’m never gonna find a guy or anyone so what’s the point
Dark ASMR don’t worry, you’ll find someone that truly like you for the person that you really are, you’ll find someone to give you the time of day you deserve, and you’ll find someone that actually wants to be around you, it might take awhile might not, but it’ll be okay in the long run, trust me on that, it will be okay, even though it don’t seem like it now...
Grimreaper Entertainment thanks 😭 this is what I need no one in my life supports me, I feel like I’m slowly having more and more layers of hopelessness being built on top of my heart
Grimreaper Entertainment 😔
I'm falling back into depression and my family tells me I have nothing to be sad about i hate my body I hate being told to go kill myself by all the kids at school its hard not to just do it already I'm really losing hope that there's any fixing me
I’m literally so numb that I can’t cry, all I can do is stare up at my ceiling and hoping I could just go to sleep and never wake up. I miss what it felt like to be happy.
Ya know I feel like death is a better alternative than living in a world like this
you have a knack for piecing together the words, ideas, most of us will never say- TY
Anyone else ever just wanna go to the top of a rooftop and sit on the edge then just stare down just stare down not to end your life or anything just to see everyone and there life....or is it just me
I am a junior and I remember listening to these audios freshman year. It gets better I know you hear that and don’t believe it but I promise you. As someone who has been there, you can get through this. I love you, I hear you, I’m proud of you. You can do it, I believe in you. There will be bad and good days, keep going❤️
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My friends: your so lucky to be so happy and not have lost anyone.
Me on the inside: dying on the inside, suffering from depression. Lost a brother, almost lost my mom a few times, lost my grandma who was practically my best friend.
Me on the outside: ya, your right. *smiles*
I don't believe that one day I'll be able to feel happy again and love like I've never loved anyone before. Pain and suffering have become my comfort zone, and I can't get out of it.
Hi, if you want to talk to someoane who understands, i'm here for you. I know it may sound boring hearing that everything will be okay, but trust me it'll be okay. Remember that only after the rain the rainbow will show! You are not alone in this!
Imagine wasting your time to someone who didnt care about you..
Imagine loving someone who likes someone else..
imagine pretending to be happy just to see her happy..
Imagine encouraging her to go with someone else, as she gets farther and farther away, until she just abandons you, and the entire time you loved her.
Well there's nothing to imagine..... everything you were scared to loose or happen it all came in your life and broke you as hell that you just make yourself cold and pretend to be okay with everything but deep down it hurts you so bad that you can't do anything ..... you can't breathe and your life is miserable but no one sees it they just blame you for the way you are now ..... 🖤
I still haven’t moved on from someone who never cared who never actually liked me and they have they have forgotten who I am
Yes I've been in that too I think that hurts the most when you think you're the only one in your really not the only one you're just an option oh my God that hurts
imagine dating a guy that only wants you around to watch his child and clean his house. imagine having your stuff ruined by said child and it not mattering.
imagine sitting outside in the cold because you walked passed him 3 times in tears and he didnt flinch.
imagine asking him to use his emt skills to look at your arm because it hurts so bad that when hes running through the emt test I drop to the floor in tears and he just says it's okay.
imagine crying yourself to sleep because hes been sleeping on the couch for weeks now because he "hurt his back"
This was so good... I actually got chills finaly... Feeling something else then been a empty void
I definitely am obsessed with HTGAWM, waiting on season 5 here in France! Loved this x
I stopped watching after wes died
What is this show called
@@candicechantelleforrest3731 how to get away with murder (HTGAWM)
“I don’t hate you, but I hate how you make me feel...bc I can’t have you” man I felt that
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My heart feels so broken.. it legit hurts physically... 💔
Me too💔
Just give me a chance to hug you and heal you... I think all your worries and burdens might be lifted... Pain will be replaced with pleasure❤️❤️❤️ something that come from above... It's a high you never had... And is still wanting give me a chance to touch you without force... Gently but filled with energy
And this is why I subscribed❤
the part when it said, what mommas tryna do is protect you from losing more.... i got chills and goosebumps through my whole body because my mom is dead, and ive aldeady lost more than just her over the last three years
like if youre heartbroken, listening to this and cutting
Nathalia praying for you! I have faith you will grow away from cutting 🖤
don't cut. life is painful sometimes but yeah. listen to this ua-cam.com/video/PK1Fq1hL0a8/v-deo.html
Nathalia I see these replies and I’m like damn it’s like they don’t understand you can’t just stop cutting... its like a drug, it’s addictive. I understand the pain of cutting and I hope you know I’m here even if you don’t know me haha. Everyone around you loves you and I know there are thousands, no millions who care for you and hope you know they are here for you every second. I promise you it gets better. Might not be soon but it will. -Grace
Bro same. U aint the only one cuttin. Done it for 5 years now. In 11 btw
Emakay_YT Games dude i’m so sorry that you are going through this.
I wish somebody, anybody in my life would try and understand when I try to explain what I feel. Instead I get a look I know is them thinking I'm crazy and I just shut up, shut off, and plaster on that fake smile.
Last part so real it break my 💔
I find myself sad. I can relate to all of these. The mentions of self-harm, suicide, nobody missing me, all of it. Having an abusive father, my sexuality being looked down on, nobody being there, people who ditched me, everything. And I feel selfish when I complain about all these things when I know people out there have it worse than me. Way worse. And the constant weight in my chest that gets heavier, and heavier. The feeling that I was never enough. The feeling of just ending it all. The feeling of the blood trickling down my arms and thighs. The feeling of tears streaming down my face.
. . .
I’m 11.
These are the best I absolutely love all the work you put in these 💛
Recently just recently I lost the LOML when he got to hawaii. I cried and cried when he told me that he broke up with me and when I was watching this today, I realized I was relate so much passion. It hurts me so much right now. 😭😭😭😭😭😭
"im fine"
As soon as I heard the quotes from how to get away with murder, I recognized it and my heart immediately sunk. 😭😭😭
Love when you post❤️
I’ve listened to this so many times I just don’t feel anymore
How To Get Away With Murder ❤️
The last part was so beautifull !
Me: *gets into the mood watching this*
You tube: *wanna see a rotting steak?*
imagine having depression,anxiety and you're really f'd up and you just get to to the point where you don't remember the last time you were happy.....and then someone you loved so much dies.....worst part is..i don't have to imagine it.
Me neither 😭😭😭😭
When you die everything stops but when someone you love dies it is hell to keep living and it is the hardest thing you'll ever have to do
brooo frr....people tell me to get over it but it's just sooo hard
@@elsieravalies335 Trust me I get it bro
My biggest fear is that one day, everyone will see me how I see myself, how I think everyone sees me. because when that day comes, I know no one will stay any longer.
king/queen, its a a lesson. you got this, I promise you can do this I know its shitty I know but promise the world you got this
Its my birthday and my parents forgot , I won't remind them because i feel like that will just make me feel worse
Damn I'm sorry they forgot, happy birthday 🙏🏼❤
@@shaynelle_4205 thank you ❤️
@@MANA98 happy birthday god bless you 🙏💘
@@lil_nugget_baby3030 thank you very much ❤️
shit yo, happy birthday love
"no sweet babygirl should lose as much as you have lost." damn. that hit different.
Keep It Up i Really Like Your videos💛💛
This is exactly what’s been on my mind and I’m sobbing rn....
No one is ugly we just live in a judgemental society
This hurts so badly to listen to... But I can't stop listening... It hurts... I can still remember the day my step dad died and how I felt.... And then months later my grandpa died.... At least I got to hug him one last time....
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I don’t get why this is in my feed but I’ll put my 2 cents COMMUNICATION, TRUST ,LOYALTY AND LOTS OF LOVE TONS OF DEDICATION AND YOU HAVE TO BE TRULY DEVOTED TO ONE ANOTHER 💋💚💜🔐🐧🐸🐞♍️♌️
I know, I need to get up and compete those piles of assignments , prepare for my upcoming exam, reply to all those important texts, but I am exhausted, I really am and I feel pathetic that I am, there are people way of worse than me and here I am , just maybe trying to be a attention seeker but I really barely have energy in myself left. I really want to get everything done but I can’t, ever damn day and night feels like a loop and every passing moment I feel more and more useless than before. I hate it , I hate being the way I am, the person I am. But I will still try, to get up and complete all my work, even if I feel tired, I shall do it cause I have no other choice except this. Pretty sure not many will read this long paragraph but , live another day, live and try making it a bit better than yesterday. Even if it’s a bit , do it, bit by bit , you shall see that the mess is half way through. Proud of you I am. I really am cause I know this shit isn’t easy, you are doing amazing just by being here. I love you. Stay safe, good night.
you never disappoint ❤️
Wrong
elliot sargus boi 😑
idk anymore after we isolated myself i just started getting sad i started listening to audios of these sort and i just eat chocolate and i guess ive been having so much chocolate that even my mom notices and shes confronted me a couple times about this obsession ive grown to chocolate and i just dodge that question by telling her i just really like m&ms the chocolate ive been getting but i get it to represent my tears so lets say i cry 6 tears i will eat 6 m&ms and thats what ive been doing with all those m&ms mom sorry i just dont have the guts to tell you that
I dont feel any thing am just living
And i dont want that
I love this so much...it broke my heart💔 so beautiful
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So much pain!! I feel like I am not good enough for anything. Career, friends, relationship. So I am all alone. People say I am not good enough and I know they're right...my personality, my body image, my looks. What do I do? I can't change myself. How do I survive in this world. Where do I go? Can't handle anymore rejctions...
You're wrong! Do you know why?
Because you have the courage that is to talk about yourself, don't let anyone say that you're not good enough, do let anyone say that you're failed at you're job. You have the possibilities to change everything around you.
Truly love and respect ❤ and hope to listen to you're new news soon
@@AbdullahJLD Thank you for the support dude. Wish I could have the same positivity. The truth is whether we like it or not we're compared with others all the time. And thanks to my issues I end up feeling like shit about myself 😞
@@friyaivy3818 Don't thank me please, everyone starts his life like "stupidity" and I'm not that positive guy, I replied because I know that feeling, I know how most people live. And yes, we are always being compared with others no matter what are the reasons.
You have to be strong, not for anybody but for you! You have to treat yourself well, you have to be great at everything, you have to work hard on yourself, learn everything, read some positive books, write your own negative points on sheets and read them, READ THEM more and more. Remember, this is your life ain't nobody going to live except YOU! And you must handle it by using your brain.
Don't listen to anyone around you, live the life that you have dreamt about.
Best wishes ❤
@@AbdullahJLD That's very kind of you to say. It's refreshing to see people like you. But most of the time it's not what people say...its my own thoughts. Negative thoughts all the time and I hate it. I will try to do what you said and change my thinking. 😊
@@AbdullahJLD if this is for me... Lol yall better know i love me .. U may see me one way but i ceel n see me in the best way. I was over weightbut now that i drop those two xpounds of mine ... I look n feel better.... I will never pick those xpounds up again.... N know this im not as lonely as yall want to believe. U took the one i wanted from me so i picked up one yall dont k ow about ... N he is just as good n lives away from here n knows no one
you know shits getting bad again when you start listening to these again.
Happy Birthday My Dear ...🎂🎁🎉
I'm sorry..
There’s time where I feel like my ribs are gonna rip my skin form the shaking and feeling like I’m suffocating
They got to say there last words but I didn’t get to say mine...
“where did our happy kid go?” your the ones who took that kid away.
ily
"I'VE 'BEEN ' THERE,- THIS ISN'T THE WAY, & YES I KNOW HOW THAT 'FEELS ', I'M 'FEELING ' IT ALSO, - BUT THERE IS A WAY, & IT'S NOT THIS, & THERE IS 'NOTHING ', IN MY 'HEART', BUT 'LOVE', & EVEN THOUGH I 'REALIZE ' NOW, THAT I'M NEVER GOING TO BE WITH YOU, I WISHED, AT LEAST, I COULD 'VE TALKED TO YOU, ONE MORE TIME!!!..😪😢😭😘😍🥰❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏😇
Omg this is so very sad I'm hurting deep inside listening to this wow
Dear red friend until & unless it's mine I won't respond how much hard you try it's waste will meet in next life be happy forget me think that iam lefted
Please stop. U know i feel it and know you can feel it. The feeling is what matters
Yes. Everyone is like that. That happens you have cried and no more tears can come out.
plz go away... leave me alone
I felt the whole last part on a personal level 😅😔🥺😭
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