The worst thing in the world is to love someone. Love is the most painful and cruel feeling a person can feel in his life. I fell in love with Lily at the age of 5 in kindergarten and since then I have never loved anyone else, we remained only as friends until our 30s when I was always just a support to her but not a partner. I had to watch each of her partners, which in the end everyone disappointed her every time, but I must admit deep down I was always happy because of it. When I finally got the courage and was able to win her over and we were finally together I thought I could finally be happy too. After six months in the relationship she announced we were expecting a baby and I thought I had finally achieved everything I had hoped for in life……. Two weeks ago when Lily was seven months pregnant, a drunk driver crashed into her. Lily and the baby didn't survive. I've never in my life felt what I'm feeling right now, it feels like something is tearing me apart from the inside into a million pieces. I feel like my whole life is just a black and white movie that I'm not a part of. Nothing makes sense in my life anymore. I didn't said goodbye to her and I didn't want to let her go I want to hold her hand her everyday but I can't because she was taken away from me.
Pain is that which protects us, it leaves deep scars to remind us to be wary and builds up thick walls to keep away those that would harm us, but in the same beat it traps us alone in the dark.
Bro the pain leaves you forever when it is done with teaching you how hard or cruel life could be people says life is a gift but wise one says life is a punishment for you
Don't love deeply, till you make sure that the other part loves you with the same depth, because the depth of your love today, is the depth of your wound tomorrow.
So real, I am so afraid that if she leaves me tomorrow, I am just gonna crumble into dust, because I love her so fucking much and I know the pain is excruciatingly terrible. I don't even know if I i will be able to love again!
I've helped a lot of people. Helped a lot of people heal. My gift is I can read people well enough to help them heal and my curse is there's no one who can read me well enough to heal me. It's true, if I die today, no one will remember my existence. 😊
I’m already at my breaking point everyday I try to ask my self why do I need to live on fate wants me alive but I don’t I’m tired I’m depressed I have anxiety I have been going through emotional mental abuse I divorced her and some how I still feel it cuz she tortured me she turned my kids against me she is trying to take my rights away to see my kids and after all I have done for her worked overtime for her and my kids she said it’s not good enough cuz I’m not a man who can’t stop my mental illness and who is weak I’m done I’m tired I want this suffering over I don’t want to be here but fate wants me to be alive I don’t want to be here I try to get help and change stuff and nothing 😢😢😢 I don’t know what to anymore
Whenever I feel like I'm at my lowest, God is there to listen. Even if nobody else understands, he does. Jesus helped me through times when I just wanted to die, and he can help you too. He's there for you, all you have to do is reach out to him.
I'm In the same spot I only recently let people know how bad it is and nothing changed im tired of faking okay watching the freinds I helps get something out of life makes me happy but all I want anymore is that same thing but im starting to think thats just not something I'll ever obtain
If I disappeared tomorrow the universe would really never notice me. Sadly this statement is so true for me. It feels every day gets harder to not disappear
Then try to live the next 29 years doing things that make you happy. Try to find that one thing that you liked as a kid or in the last 30 years. Find that thing you have passion for and go 100% for it. I promise you, thats the way to be happy
Pain brought by nature hits hard, i grew up without mom and dad. I could only hear stories about them separiting which resulted into them abondoning me snd my sister but after years of struggling i had to man up and locate them coz all i wanted was to see and feel the presence of my mom and dad but just after seen my mom for the first time in my life she died three days later just upon our meeting and a month later my dad died and i once again went back to the feeling of been a fatherless and motherless. The scar cuts so deep in my heart coz i feel alone and lost.
Omg. I am so sorry. I had wonderful parents. Not perfect parents. They died 10 days apart and I was a small abandoned orphan at 55 years old. I held them as they passed and I lost a part of me that can never be found again.
I still cant understand how she just left from one day to the other after 13 years together. Becoming adults together and going through everything. I guess love is the most brutal and gruesome thing thing that has ever happened to me. All the stuff i‘ve been through is nothing compared to the pain that has been silently following me day by day. It‘s hard when you would never think of leaving somebody but the other person has it all planned.
I love these videos there's no real way to explain how you feel in life and I think these just hit the best I struggle in life to cry watching these make me feel normal and let me get my emotions out
I don't reckon anyone really cares but UA-cam is the best place to let it all out. A few years ago, I met this girl. We'll call her 'A' for now. Ever since we started speaking, it felt fake, because it was. We met on false pretenses, we were NEVER meant to be. We made it work, over the years. We cut eachother off after a lot of drama (mainly due to my fault, not her) and December 2022, we started to speak again. Right before New Years. It was the BEST feeling of my whole life, I genuinely can not reiterate it any other way. A few weeks go by, we're in January 2023 now. She cuts me off randomly, the night before we were speaking ALL night, up to 8am or so. She ends up blocking me, and at the time I had no clue why she did. I messaged her friends stupidly asking her to forgive me for whatever I did, blaming myself for something that actually wasn't my fault for once. She unblocks me to ask me to stop trying to contact her, I was devestated. A few days go by, it's her birthday. I message her saying happy birthday, I never forgot and I never will. From that point on, we gradually start talking again. I ask her why she blocked me, she told me it's because she was 'getting attached' quicker than her liking... I let it go, we kept talking. Every few months we'd have an argument in 2023 over the pettiest things, but I still loved her. At one point, I couldn't handle it anymore. I stopped speaking to her for a few months but guess what? I couldn't stop loving her. We message again, this time agreeing to not go through any of it again. I promised myself I won't get attached to her like I always do, and it worked for a few months. We're now in August, the 15th to be precise at 7:08am I'm writing this on 0 hours of sleep. I still speak to her, and I'm attached again. I don't know if she's playing with me or not, if she likes me or not, it hurts me so much. We even made plans to move near eachother and speak everyday (right now, we're long distance). I will always love her no matter what, she's a perfect being just in a bad timeline of the universe if that even makes sense. I pray to God every time to just make things work between us, you know, just make things better, help us be together, give me the courage to ask her out and for her to say yes. No one has treated her right before, I really wish she'd just give me the chance. Morale of the story, don't be like me. Move on if you can, I just can't for some reason, I tried to, I spoke to other people but no one was like her, I don't know what it is. Maybe first love attachment? Apologies to whoever read all this, if you could even be asked to. It does mean a lot to me, I just felt like I had to throw this somewhere.
Do you even know how this story can help so much people going throw the same thing,this is more valuable then gold then the most precious stones on earth,, so thank you for sharing this, I know how you feel
Hey. I will share my own similar story to share my advice with you. I fell in love with a girl ("B") in June 2022. I confessed my feelings a month later. I'm still not sure if she liked me back, she kind of hinted at it but later denied it. It didn't work out because of my extreme religious beliefs. And, anyway, I now believe her when she says she never liked me back to begin with. Yet I couldn't let her go. I thought of her every day, prayed hard to hope God would make things work out. Then, I deconverted the day before New Year's Eve. I welcomed my suppressed feelings about her. I cried hard. I felt anxious. I got physically sick. Then I plucked up the courage to get in contact with her again after months of no contact. We reconciled and grabbed lunch together. I said I would be fine with just being friends, but I wasn't. I couldn't stop obsessing over her. I got a panic attack, wrote a message to her breaking it off again, and even when I tried to contact her again two weeks later, she refused to talk to see me again. She ended up blocking me on all social media. That was the in February 2023 and the beginning of me constantly going "she's the one" to "she's not the one", in biweekly cycles. I was suffering a lot. It took me until October 2023 to overcome the lies my mind was feeding me about not being able to let her go. I had let her go emotionally. At least mostly. I still feel regret or longing when I see her at school sometimes. In fact, I incidentally had a dream about her last night. Two years later. I wanted to say all of this to encourage you and show that it might take a lot of time to overcome these difficult times. If you truly want to get over her, you will. And you'll relapse into wanting her again. You might make mistakes by contacting her again. That's okay. Just keep going. Making right decisions over time. And I assume you can be happy without her. Or at least it's possible. You probably can't even stand hearing this. And that's okay. One final piece of advice: whatever your mind tells you: beware of beliefs that are both unfalsifiable and unverifiable. Wish you all the best! ❤
@@mrzukunft Just read this, this was such a touching thing. I appreciate you typing this all out. I’m glad you let her go and I know you’re feeling regret but remember what you did was for the better of you. If you’re meant to be, things will fall in place. I wish you luck in your future. ❤️
I heard that. It's time to let go. His hand isn't for me to hold, bcuz he needs too many others to hold it, so-to- speak. Loving someone who will never reciprocate, is a slow death. An altogether level of pain.
pain is when you have given up on life, when you find no happiness in life anymore. 28 years old and fighting every day, fighting with the love that is no longer in me. Anna after 5 years together, my heart cannot find peace with others. I don't let myself love others, or get close. so yes pain can be many things.
He who claimed that it's better to have loved and lost, than never have loved a t all, had neither loved nor ever experienced discard. When you love deeply and truly and yet are betrayed and replaced, something dies in you. And what is left in your heart is scorched earth. The pain is bad but it passes. The mistrust is far worse - and usually lasts forever.
Not so fun fact about my life the whole thing with "if I disappear no one would notice" I have actual evidence that no one would notice if I disappeared back when I was in school i didn't go for about 2 and a half months then I went back and spoke to my so called "friends" every single one of them said "oh I didn't realise you weren't here." that was a tough day for me
This is what it was like with my mother and its so hard to talk or explain anything to anyone. I ended up losing her in February and its made me the angriest ive ever been. Left with the burden of her death and the trauma that she had left behind.
مرة قال لي رجل حكيم :لو تعلم سرعة الناس لك في نسيانك بعد وفاتك اهل قريتك ممكن يوم او يومان جيرانك مدة اسبوع او 10 ايام اصدقائك 4 اشهر على الاكثر و ينسون ذكر سيرتك في اجتماعهم زوجتك اولادك ممكن عام و تبقى ذكرا يتفكرونك على حسب الاسباب و على حسب ما كنت في حياتهم اما امك لن تنساك ابدا .لذلك لا تتعلق كثيرا
I have her my all, and now I’m left with nothing, I’m completely alone, I put so much time and energy into her that I didn’t have any left for anyone else and now they are all gone, all of them
I hope when I truly die that I have changed many life’s. Even if it’s one life because for me it is better to have died with meaning then to not have had a purpose :(
Life is soo hard I can understand everyone in the comments, that pain is so unbearable it keeps breaking you, you try to get up, but it beats you down, tears you from inside. But I wake up everyday with a smile because Ik no one else should go through the pain that I do, and I try to spread positivity. Remember life is hard but we will never lose hope. I also standing with you ❤❤
I've never seen that quote at the end before, but I have a toxic ex trying to get back into my life again & I am 100% using that whole goodbye versus letting go & it's time to let go to try getting through to her. Last time we talked I told her to "consider me dead" as my way of saying she had o let go & accept O was never coming back into her life, but she called her cousin the sheriff to do a welfare check on me so I need to pick my words with her very carefully when I cannot avoid confrontation, which she is trying to force. TLDR: so grateful this video popped up in my recommendations. It's beautiful
One more thing to think about is that we only have one spin on this merry go round, might as well make the best of it and try to bring joy to others! Life sucks and then you die, but in the meantime, you can appreciate the beauty of life and try to show younger people the marvelous journey of life.
The feeling of pain can be defied in many different ways. It can be from betrayal or self disappointment. I’m suffering with the most unimaginable pain right now and I’m pretty sure I have depression but I don’t know how to tell my parents. I’ve suffered with so much pain for so long now that I am becoming emotionally numb. I’m getting so heavily bullied every day and my friends from my old school have completely ghosted me and I don’t know what to do. I’m constantly alone all the time and I quite literally have no one at school to talk to. I just wish it would stop for a moment. I genuinely cannot remember the last time I felt happiness. Which I know at first may sound selfish but I do try to hold onto every positive thing in my life but it is so difficult when all of the pain and torture overpowers it. I’ve completely isolated myself from my family and any hobbies I may have had before I don’t have any now because I just completely lost interest in them. Every day I deal with so much pain and yet nobody seems to care. All the people at my school can do is blame me for everything that’s happened between our friendship group. One thing I want more than anything is for one of my friends to actually act like they care and ask me if I’m okay because I’m never okay
Are you ok my friend? Don't worry you are fine and you will out of the issue like an eagle learning to fly high. focus on yourself alone and don't expect anything from anyone. this will bring peace to you
25 now finished school with a bachelors working as an electrician and a part time job at a gym. Yet the last year I ruined a good relationship I brought at the worst in someone who only wanted to love me but I pushed her away. She no longer wants anything to do with me and I have come to terms with that. I feel like a failure like I ruin good things because of my own weekness
I’m done when in a few hours I’m leaving this world I don’t want to be here anymore I have been fighting my whole life even as a toddler I remember why am I not lovable I didn’t understand the feeling but I just wanted to fall asleep and not wake up I was 4 the first time I remember having this thought I am tired am 21 years old I have been fighting these thoughts for 17 years and struggling for as long as I remember so I hope people understand why I’m tired I have been through all forms of abuse and neglect I watched my great uncle die at seven years old I have no one nobody will listen nobody will even care tomorrow when they discover that I’m gone and I’ve accepted it and I just want to say goodbye
To me it's the fact that my real parents left me when I was 2 and never bothered to contact me or anything, 33 now and still know nothing about them, I know I have a half sister and a blood brother, just knowing that I wasn't loved by my real parents makes me rage and honestly quit life. But those who did put me in their life I live for, and I am glad I never quit, sometimes there is light at the end of the tunnel, my saying is nobody can't like me, if you do, you have worse issues than me and she be my friend
I wish i could help every hurting individual in this comment section and some. I have felt pain ,i have felt loss , but there is always light and there is always good times. Its not always bad, and its not always good, but you cam guarantee you are cared for ❤.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
Love comes in to parts part one is when you find that person and its everything love is supposed to be part two is when that person you love doesn't love you back that's why people don't talk about part two because it hurts so bad, sadder than any film 💔
You think you are not tough enough think about the kid battled with cancer and lost.you think suffering is not a part of the journey and if you wanna end it do it but remember you got the chance even to that so let the rage fuel you and do whatever is needed to make you smile even in the pain or the happiness cause the story is based on sadness.
LIFE IS PAIN. I WAKE EVERY MORNING IM IN PAIN. I GO TO WORK IN PAIN. YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I WANTED TO JUST GIVE UP HOW MANY TIMES IVE THOUGHT OF JUST EINDING IT, MR house
"Don't love deeply, till you make sure that the other part loves you with the same depth, because the depth of your love today, is the depth of your wound tomorrow" So real, I am so afraid that if she leaves me tomorrow, I am just gonna crumble into dust, because I love her so fucking much and I know the pain is excruciatingly terrible. I don't even know if I i will be able to love again!
The thing is, why do we love someone who doesn’t feel the same way as us? Why do some of us choose and stay with them instead of letting go? It really hurts deeply. Sometimes I ask myself to stop but I can’t. I know that he didn’t like me that way but I can’t do it. I don’t know anymore
I feel same am in pain so bad my my mum died not long ago is killing me inside and struggling with mental health 💔 am not afraid to die anymore am so low I hope 1 day things can change 😪 💔
Some days, i feel okay, good even, but on others, I'm not, i feel like my pain doesn't matter because compared to everybody else, and their pain, i dont matter, i dont even know why im sad anymore.
It's those days you need to call a friend. People really make the time for you when your feeling down. Your pain matters to them, even though it feels like everyone is just busy with others or themselves. But your pain matters, cause seeing a friend in hurt is almost as bad as getting hurt yourself
I loved a girl, she was my everything. My angel, my support, my home. But I was too blind to see that she was hurt because of me, and guess what. I just kept hurting her again and again and I was thinking that we were okay. And one day, she was so angry at me because of my faults that i felt so scared, anxious of losing her. We made up, but I couldn't overcome my guilt, my mind kept lying to me, made me feel so many things and my mind was so confused that I did nothing but to hurt her again but she always forgave me. One day, I couldn't find the strength to go on, since I was just too tired. I thought to myself that I need to go away, because our relationship was just too painful for me. And it was always because of me. I did this to us, to her and I needed to get myself together and decided to broke up with her. Not gonna get into details but ı have made mistakes even after our break-up. I am just too ashamed of myself and feel so much pain and regret. I still love her, probably she still loves me but it seems that we can never be back together. I am sorry for who I was, and who I am. You were just too perfect and I was just too child, too blind. I am sorry for everything that I put you through, I self-sabotaged myself and our relationship. I wrecked the most beautiful thing in my life with my own hands. I just want you to be happy, you deserve this. And what I want from you is that, please don't waste this happines of yours with a man like me. You deserve all the beautiful things in this life. I will do my time in your tears and carry this burden with me, but you don't have to carry this. Because you have done nothing wrong. You just deserve the best in this life. I am so sorry because you have met me in that day, and for the time you have spent on me. I didn't deserve any of them.
Love is addictive love is more addictive than any drug that could be made I've been battling with mental health since i lost my grandfather when i was 9 on march 7 2022 i started dating a women who was like no other i immediately feel in love with her i was crazy out of my mind in love but i was still holding onto tragedies from when i was 9 but i married her anyways she brought me peace in the dark mind i had but 2 months ago i made the worst mistake in the world and i let her down broke her trust and probably lost her forever but still somehow i have this little speck of hope deep in my messed up mind iny broken heart that i can get her back again once this is over and i get help im told she still loves me misses me and wants me back. Im not able to hear her voice or see her face or even contact her rn but the love i have for her is so addictive that ill never be able to let her go in my heart or mind no matter how depressed or suicidal i am. If never letting go is what keeps you in this world than dont find the smallest thing to hold onto and do yourself a favor find help find someone to talk to
When the waiter took the other glasses away, it hurt peronally cause it has happened to me. Just sitting by myself with other tables full, and im just there, alone.
The worst thing in the world is to love someone. Love is the most painful and cruel feeling a person can feel in his life. I fell in love with Lily at the age of 5 in kindergarten and since then I have never loved anyone else, we remained only as friends until our 30s when I was always just a support to her but not a partner. I had to watch each of her partners, which in the end everyone disappointed her every time, but I must admit deep down I was always happy because of it. When I finally got the courage and was able to win her over and we were finally together I thought I could finally be happy too. After six months in the relationship she announced we were expecting a baby and I thought I had finally achieved everything I had hoped for in life……. Two weeks ago when Lily was seven months pregnant, a drunk driver crashed into her. Lily and the baby didn't survive. I've never in my life felt what I'm feeling right now, it feels like something is tearing me apart from the inside into a million pieces. I feel like my whole life is just a black and white movie that I'm not a part of. Nothing makes sense in my life anymore. I didn't said goodbye to her and I didn't want to let her go I want to hold her hand her everyday but I can't because she was taken away from me.
I'm so sorry to hear this, I hope you can find relief somewhere with family or friends or who ever is close to you
It’s well with you brother, this very sad to hear😪
Hey bro Jesus is with you in all this, press into Him bro
I don’t even know what to say I’m honestly speechless. Im just so sorry for what your going through and I pray for you.
i'm really sorry for you ! hope you can keep your head up man
Pain is that which protects us, it leaves deep scars to remind us to be wary and builds up thick walls to keep away those that would harm us, but in the same beat it traps us alone in the dark.
Damn! This is so painful and it hits so hard cuz it's true.❤
The problem is, when the pain is so big, it doesn't protect you, It crack you, you lost the faith on the world and on yourself
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Bro the pain leaves you forever when it is done with teaching you how hard or cruel life could be people says life is a gift but wise one says life is a punishment for you
It hurts when you have no one to talk to about your pain
It sure does......
It hurts even more when the person who share it with turns around to weaponize your pain against you
@@adeola7757 really
And sometimes when u get the opportunity to talk about ur pain u feel fear of being judged because you know how cruel the world is
Jesus will always listen to you. He’s always there ❤️
Pain is the rust that grows on a machine that was never cared about.
Wow that’s deep! But true
You should run without love. As hard as it sounds. But i can understand you and i think you just shut off the funktion and run without it.
Don't love deeply, till you make sure that the other part loves you with the same depth, because the depth of your love today, is the depth of your wound tomorrow.
Damn right
I going trough the same, exactly the same.
Thank you... to me its new .. fell pain. New lesson. Thx.
It's impossible to know. love is like jumping in the ocean with the promise of finding the shore.
So real, I am so afraid that if she leaves me tomorrow, I am just gonna crumble into dust, because I love her so fucking much and I know the pain is excruciatingly terrible. I don't even know if I i will be able to love again!
Patrick Jane always acts so goofy and happy but he is in a constant state of anger and sadness. It’s heartbreaking to see.
Pretty much describes me. They say the one with the biggest smile/the one making everyone laugh... is the one covering the most pain
It is easy to find someone who loves you but its really hard to find someone you really love .
That gave me something to think about. 😢
What about the other way around 😢
@@maryhozempa-pe6ry i was talking about the handsome and rich guys
Love is given someone the means to destroy you and trusting them not to, and you'll want to run from it, but yet also secretly desire it.
I've helped a lot of people. Helped a lot of people heal. My gift is I can read people well enough to help them heal and my curse is there's no one who can read me well enough to heal me. It's true, if I die today, no one will remember my existence. 😊
Well done
Its not, you are special for a lot of people. Please don’t give up tommorow is a better day!😘
I’m already at my breaking point everyday I try to ask my self why do I need to live on fate wants me alive but I don’t I’m tired I’m depressed I have anxiety I have been going through emotional mental abuse I divorced her and some how I still feel it cuz she tortured me she turned my kids against me she is trying to take my rights away to see my kids and after all I have done for her worked overtime for her and my kids she said it’s not good enough cuz I’m not a man who can’t stop my mental illness and who is weak I’m done I’m tired I want this suffering over I don’t want to be here but fate wants me to be alive I don’t want to be here I try to get help and change stuff and nothing 😢😢😢 I don’t know what to anymore
Whenever I feel like I'm at my lowest, God is there to listen. Even if nobody else understands, he does. Jesus helped me through times when I just wanted to die, and he can help you too. He's there for you, all you have to do is reach out to him.
I'm In the same spot I only recently let people know how bad it is and nothing changed im tired of faking okay watching the freinds I helps get something out of life makes me happy but all I want anymore is that same thing but im starting to think thats just not something I'll ever obtain
Feeling like this and then watching it spoke out loud by someone. Because you just want someone to understand but you can’t speak the right words😭😭
If I disappeared tomorrow the universe would really never notice me. Sadly this statement is so true for me. It feels every day gets harder to not disappear
Love can be the most cruel and painful lesson or it can be the beautiful and amazing blessing.
Being 31 years old and knowing there could possibly be another 30 years to live scares me to my bones
Then try to live the next 29 years doing things that make you happy. Try to find that one thing that you liked as a kid or in the last 30 years. Find that thing you have passion for and go 100% for it. I promise you, thats the way to be happy
Life expectancy is like 80 bro
I'm 14 , another 60 years😅
@@TheRealATThat's 80yrs of a chance to love life. Life is absolutely awesome and beautiful
I could say what I felt reading this, but I can't. I got cold
Welcome back
@@cengizsm wow, 23 likes
alte varo legende
@@croxay4071 Bin bekannt im ganzen Land
Thank you
we're all here because of the pain of it all
This was beautiful and that message at the end made me cry very much but it hit me hard. Thanks I really needed this
Pain brought by nature hits hard, i grew up without mom and dad. I could only hear stories about them separiting which resulted into them abondoning me snd my sister but after years of struggling i had to man up and locate them coz all i wanted was to see and feel the presence of my mom and dad but just after seen my mom for the first time in my life she died three days later just upon our meeting and a month later my dad died and i once again went back to the feeling of been a fatherless and motherless. The scar cuts so deep in my heart coz i feel alone and lost.
Omg. I am so sorry. I had wonderful parents. Not perfect parents. They died 10 days apart and I was a small abandoned orphan at 55 years old. I held them as they passed and I lost a part of me that can never be found again.
Pain is like a fire that never burns out. It grows everyday. And every step just gives strength to the fire to grow.
I’m tired of being alive
we’re happy you’re still here
There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you and I might not see it but it’s there!
Go through the grind, this too shall pass
You matter dude ,dont think like that
Me too
I still cant understand how she just left from one day to the other after 13 years together. Becoming adults together and going through everything. I guess love is the most brutal and gruesome thing thing that has ever happened to me. All the stuff i‘ve been through is nothing compared to the pain that has been silently following me day by day. It‘s hard when you would never think of leaving somebody but the other person has it all planned.
I love these videos there's no real way to explain how you feel in life and I think these just hit the best I struggle in life to cry watching these make me feel normal and let me get my emotions out
I don't reckon anyone really cares but UA-cam is the best place to let it all out.
A few years ago, I met this girl. We'll call her 'A' for now. Ever since we started speaking, it felt fake, because it was. We met on false pretenses, we were NEVER meant to be. We made it work, over the years. We cut eachother off after a lot of drama (mainly due to my fault, not her) and December 2022, we started to speak again. Right before New Years. It was the BEST feeling of my whole life, I genuinely can not reiterate it any other way.
A few weeks go by, we're in January 2023 now. She cuts me off randomly, the night before we were speaking ALL night, up to 8am or so. She ends up blocking me, and at the time I had no clue why she did. I messaged her friends stupidly asking her to forgive me for whatever I did, blaming myself for something that actually wasn't my fault for once. She unblocks me to ask me to stop trying to contact her, I was devestated. A few days go by, it's her birthday. I message her saying happy birthday, I never forgot and I never will. From that point on, we gradually start talking again. I ask her why she blocked me, she told me it's because she was 'getting attached' quicker than her liking...
I let it go, we kept talking. Every few months we'd have an argument in 2023 over the pettiest things, but I still loved her. At one point, I couldn't handle it anymore. I stopped speaking to her for a few months but guess what? I couldn't stop loving her. We message again, this time agreeing to not go through any of it again. I promised myself I won't get attached to her like I always do, and it worked for a few months.
We're now in August, the 15th to be precise at 7:08am I'm writing this on 0 hours of sleep. I still speak to her, and I'm attached again. I don't know if she's playing with me or not, if she likes me or not, it hurts me so much. We even made plans to move near eachother and speak everyday (right now, we're long distance). I will always love her no matter what, she's a perfect being just in a bad timeline of the universe if that even makes sense. I pray to God every time to just make things work between us, you know, just make things better, help us be together, give me the courage to ask her out and for her to say yes. No one has treated her right before, I really wish she'd just give me the chance.
Morale of the story, don't be like me. Move on if you can, I just can't for some reason, I tried to, I spoke to other people but no one was like her, I don't know what it is. Maybe first love attachment?
Apologies to whoever read all this, if you could even be asked to. It does mean a lot to me, I just felt like I had to throw this somewhere.
Do you even know how this story can help so much people going throw the same thing,this is more valuable then gold then the most precious stones on earth,, so thank you for sharing this, I know how you feel
Hey. I will share my own similar story to share my advice with you. I fell in love with a girl ("B") in June 2022. I confessed my feelings a month later. I'm still not sure if she liked me back, she kind of hinted at it but later denied it. It didn't work out because of my extreme religious beliefs. And, anyway, I now believe her when she says she never liked me back to begin with. Yet I couldn't let her go. I thought of her every day, prayed hard to hope God would make things work out.
Then, I deconverted the day before New Year's Eve. I welcomed my suppressed feelings about her. I cried hard. I felt anxious. I got physically sick. Then I plucked up the courage to get in contact with her again after months of no contact. We reconciled and grabbed lunch together. I said I would be fine with just being friends, but I wasn't. I couldn't stop obsessing over her. I got a panic attack, wrote a message to her breaking it off again, and even when I tried to contact her again two weeks later, she refused to talk to see me again. She ended up blocking me on all social media. That was the in February 2023 and the beginning of me constantly going "she's the one" to "she's not the one", in biweekly cycles. I was suffering a lot. It took me until October 2023 to overcome the lies my mind was feeding me about not being able to let her go. I had let her go emotionally. At least mostly. I still feel regret or longing when I see her at school sometimes. In fact, I incidentally had a dream about her last night. Two years later.
I wanted to say all of this to encourage you and show that it might take a lot of time to overcome these difficult times. If you truly want to get over her, you will. And you'll relapse into wanting her again. You might make mistakes by contacting her again. That's okay. Just keep going. Making right decisions over time. And I assume you can be happy without her. Or at least it's possible. You probably can't even stand hearing this. And that's okay. One final piece of advice: whatever your mind tells you: beware of beliefs that are both unfalsifiable and unverifiable. Wish you all the best! ❤
@@easier7975 Sorry for such a late reply. I’m so glad I could help, I wish things could get better for everyone
@@mrzukunft Just read this, this was such a touching thing. I appreciate you typing this all out. I’m glad you let her go and I know you’re feeling regret but remember what you did was for the better of you. If you’re meant to be, things will fall in place.
I wish you luck in your future. ❤️
@@jason17108 it Will, I believe ❤️
Patrick Jane has one of the saddest fictional lives imo
Wow that hits hard ❤ but amazing edit
THANKS!
I heard that. It's time to let go. His hand isn't for me to hold, bcuz he needs too many others to hold it, so-to- speak.
Loving someone who will never reciprocate, is a slow death. An altogether level of pain.
Don't worry guys, someday all the pain you're experiencing will go away forever....
yes when we will die
Yes when we finally die.
Death?
@@Psychopatologiczny yes
i once heard :" Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."
That's so true man :(
Finally! Awesome, Thank you ☺
thank you! :)
What a great video man touched my soul thank you
pain is when you have given up on life, when you find no happiness in life anymore. 28 years old and fighting every day, fighting with the love that is no longer in me. Anna after 5 years together, my heart cannot find peace with others. I don't let myself love others, or get close. so yes pain can be many things.
Take your time. Eventually you'll move on. Start loving yourself meanwhile. There will be a time where you realise you can love again.
Excellent encouragement. Bravo 👏. Bless you for caring ❤
pain is a feeling that your head makes up to save you but sometimes the save is the dangerous part
Pain is the feeling of emptiness in your heart.
been a while :) awesome edit, keep it up
thank you :)
What a heart warming video. Loved every second
I was so vulnerable with you because you said you would protect my feelings.
I was right to be scared
He who claimed that it's better to have loved and lost, than never have loved a t all, had neither loved nor ever experienced discard.
When you love deeply and truly and yet are betrayed and replaced, something dies in you. And what is left in your heart is scorched earth.
The pain is bad but it passes. The mistrust is far worse - and usually lasts forever.
she walked out of my life like it was nothing, and then made me believe we can have future...and walked out the second time :((((
So sorry brother
The same for me sorry bro
The darkness and emptiness came back😢
sorry.... mine too
Let's fine the light and wholeness together. 🙏🏼 We've been through so much in our lives, to give up now. ❤
@@timothyndiritu1147 turn on the light brr
Not so fun fact about my life the whole thing with "if I disappear no one would notice" I have actual evidence that no one would notice if I disappeared back when I was in school i didn't go for about 2 and a half months then I went back and spoke to my so called "friends" every single one of them said "oh I didn't realise you weren't here." that was a tough day for me
That doesn't sound nice. Hope you're doing okay!
This is what it was like with my mother and its so hard to talk or explain anything to anyone. I ended up losing her in February and its made me the angriest ive ever been. Left with the burden of her death and the trauma that she had left behind.
This is the greatest question of them all. It is right up there with what is the meaning of life and what is reality?
Thing is, at this point in life, I need someone who's just as alone as me. Then we can be alone, together.
That's okay. Let's be alone together🙏
If we are bonded together in pain, we are bonded together in hope, and then in healing, and then one day, we'll be bonded together in victory as well.
مرة قال لي رجل حكيم :لو تعلم سرعة الناس لك في نسيانك بعد وفاتك اهل قريتك ممكن يوم او يومان جيرانك مدة اسبوع او 10 ايام اصدقائك 4 اشهر على الاكثر و ينسون ذكر سيرتك في اجتماعهم زوجتك اولادك ممكن عام و تبقى ذكرا يتفكرونك على حسب الاسباب و على حسب ما كنت في حياتهم اما امك لن تنساك ابدا .لذلك لا تتعلق كثيرا
I have her my all, and now I’m left with nothing, I’m completely alone, I put so much time and energy into her that I didn’t have any left for anyone else and now they are all gone, all of them
Pain teaches you.... To simle even your eyes are filled with tears 💔
I hope when I truly die that I have changed many life’s. Even if it’s one life because for me it is better to have died with meaning then to not have had a purpose :(
You want the only one... Me Im sill alive
Life is soo hard I can understand everyone in the comments, that pain is so unbearable it keeps breaking you, you try to get up, but it beats you down, tears you from inside. But I wake up everyday with a smile because Ik no one else should go through the pain that I do, and I try to spread positivity. Remember life is hard but we will never lose hope. I also standing with you ❤❤
I've never seen that quote at the end before, but I have a toxic ex trying to get back into my life again & I am 100% using that whole goodbye versus letting go & it's time to let go to try getting through to her. Last time we talked I told her to "consider me dead" as my way of saying she had o let go & accept O was never coming back into her life, but she called her cousin the sheriff to do a welfare check on me so I need to pick my words with her very carefully when I cannot avoid confrontation, which she is trying to force.
TLDR: so grateful this video popped up in my recommendations. It's beautiful
Never ours, yet ever near, her absence whispers, solitude's tear.
Loneliness 😢 is the devils play ground just like boredom and its sadness that ends humanity
Are you ok? - the question no one asks a man.
Are you ok?
@@tomasmerkesdalhall5764 Yes
@@skotnica93Are you ok?
One more thing to think about is that we only have one spin on this merry go round, might as well make the best of it and try to bring joy to others! Life sucks and then you die, but in the meantime, you can appreciate the beauty of life and try to show younger people the marvelous journey of life.
Man I am so angry at times. I just feel broken. So alone.
Feel it daily, it's slowly killing me.
At least some ppl have the courage to speak up their hearts..I wish I've had the same
yes…it's sad to realize you are just bad at letting go after 11years…
11 years oh my god my man I wonder how much you have liked her.
You are worthy of the the love that you show. One day you will find someone who will make you forget the person you loved. amen
i feel like if i go missing no one would care
I dont know you. But if you go missing i would care
Never be someone's obligation. Never be someone's liability.😊
00:38 movie name please ??....
Everyday Peter thinks only if I didn't let her make that decision or broke that fu*king promise she would still be alive
peter who
Music 🎶: farewell life (arn andersson remix)
this video is like a fermentation, the longer it becomes the bitter it gets.
The feeling of pain can be defied in many different ways. It can be from betrayal or self disappointment. I’m suffering with the most unimaginable pain right now and I’m pretty sure I have depression but I don’t know how to tell my parents. I’ve suffered with so much pain for so long now that I am becoming emotionally numb. I’m getting so heavily bullied every day and my friends from my old school have completely ghosted me and I don’t know what to do.
I’m constantly alone all the time and I quite literally have no one at school to talk to. I just wish it would stop for a moment. I genuinely cannot remember the last time I felt happiness. Which I know at first may sound selfish but I do try to hold onto every positive thing in my life but it is so difficult when all of the pain and torture overpowers it. I’ve completely isolated myself from my family and any hobbies I may have had before I don’t have any now because I just completely lost interest in them. Every day I deal with so much pain and yet nobody seems to care. All the people at my school can do is blame me for everything that’s happened between our friendship group.
One thing I want more than anything is for one of my friends to actually act like they care and ask me if I’m okay because I’m never okay
Are you ok my friend?
Don't worry you are fine and you will out of the issue like an eagle learning to fly high. focus on yourself alone and don't expect anything from anyone. this will bring peace to you
25 now finished school with a bachelors working as an electrician and a part time job at a gym. Yet the last year I ruined a good relationship I brought at the worst in someone who only wanted to love me but I pushed her away. She no longer wants anything to do with me and I have come to terms with that. I feel like a failure like I ruin good things because of my own weekness
Ever just wanted to feel sad for no reason?🥀
Our voices aren't heard til it's too late
I’m done when in a few hours I’m leaving this world I don’t want to be here anymore I have been fighting my whole life even as a toddler I remember why am I not lovable I didn’t understand the feeling but I just wanted to fall asleep and not wake up I was 4 the first time I remember having this thought I am tired am 21 years old I have been fighting these thoughts for 17 years and struggling for as long as I remember so I hope people understand why I’m tired I have been through all forms of abuse and neglect I watched my great uncle die at seven years old I have no one nobody will listen nobody will even care tomorrow when they discover that I’m gone and I’ve accepted it and I just want to say goodbye
To me it's the fact that my real parents left me when I was 2 and never bothered to contact me or anything, 33 now and still know nothing about them, I know I have a half sister and a blood brother, just knowing that I wasn't loved by my real parents makes me rage and honestly quit life. But those who did put me in their life I live for, and I am glad I never quit, sometimes there is light at the end of the tunnel, my saying is nobody can't like me, if you do, you have worse issues than me and she be my friend
We don’t learn anything in life until we endure pain!
I wish i could help every hurting individual in this comment section and some. I have felt pain ,i have felt loss , but there is always light and there is always good times. Its not always bad, and its not always good, but you cam guarantee you are cared for ❤.
I just want the pain 2 stop but idk irdk if it will 😭😭😭
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
We're all here for you, and someday, maybe not today, there is always a chance for a brighter future, even if it doesn't sound like it. We're here.
@@Sci-Fi9131 TY guys ☺️ but I don't think my future will ever be shining bright 😢😭😭
this video is like a fermentation, the longer the bitter it gets.
SO GOOD ! new sub 😍😍
It’s been a year since she left me. My taped heart still bleeds,
i still feel the cold blood in my veins.
I'm so sorry😢
Love comes in to parts part one is when you find that person and its everything love is supposed to be part two is when that person you love doesn't love you back that's why people don't talk about part two because it hurts so bad, sadder than any film 💔
2:20 that's ME
You think you are not tough enough think about the kid battled with cancer and lost.you think suffering is not a part of the journey and if you wanna end it do it but remember you got the chance even to that so let the rage fuel you and do whatever is needed to make you smile even in the pain or the happiness cause the story is based on sadness.
Life is hard 🙏 stay positive strong ❤ everyone
LIFE IS PAIN. I WAKE EVERY MORNING IM IN PAIN. I GO TO WORK IN PAIN. YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I WANTED TO JUST GIVE UP HOW MANY TIMES IVE THOUGHT OF JUST EINDING IT, MR house
"Don't love deeply, till you make sure that the other part loves you with the same depth, because the depth of your love today, is the depth of your wound tomorrow" So real, I am so afraid that if she leaves me tomorrow, I am just gonna crumble into dust, because I love her so fucking much and I know the pain is excruciatingly terrible. I don't even know if I i will be able to love again!
She sounds really special to you. I hope she'll stay and understand what a caring person she has found in you
@@Flyingdutchmen98 I really hope so!😂❤️🙏
Going through a divorce right now after 25 years so….. yeah, it hurt pretty bad
The thing is, why do we love someone who doesn’t feel the same way as us? Why do some of us choose and stay with them instead of letting go? It really hurts deeply. Sometimes I ask myself to stop but I can’t. I know that he didn’t like me that way but I can’t do it. I don’t know anymore
because we are human
I stayed and she left it really hurts so much. I really don't know what to do.
bro just know
i wish when i go to sleep I won't wake up
bro just lay there
I feel same am in pain so bad my my mum died not long ago is killing me inside and struggling with mental health 💔 am not afraid to die anymore am so low I hope 1 day things can change 😪 💔
cry button..
They'd notice and then life would move on
Some days, i feel okay, good even, but on others, I'm not, i feel like my pain doesn't matter because compared to everybody else, and their pain, i dont matter, i dont even know why im sad anymore.
It's those days you need to call a friend. People really make the time for you when your feeling down. Your pain matters to them, even though it feels like everyone is just busy with others or themselves. But your pain matters, cause seeing a friend in hurt is almost as bad as getting hurt yourself
Kim 6:33
Patrick Jane! 💔
Love hurts sooo much
It’s indescribable
It’s weird kind of pain
Death is pain
Bud true 0:31 love hits sooo much more
I won't ever let go.
I loved a girl, she was my everything. My angel, my support, my home. But I was too blind to see that she was hurt because of me, and guess what. I just kept hurting her again and again and I was thinking that we were okay. And one day, she was so angry at me because of my faults that i felt so scared, anxious of losing her. We made up, but I couldn't overcome my guilt, my mind kept lying to me, made me feel so many things and my mind was so confused that I did nothing but to hurt her again but she always forgave me. One day, I couldn't find the strength to go on, since I was just too tired. I thought to myself that I need to go away, because our relationship was just too painful for me. And it was always because of me. I did this to us, to her and I needed to get myself together and decided to broke up with her. Not gonna get into details but ı have made mistakes even after our break-up. I am just too ashamed of myself and feel so much pain and regret. I still love her, probably she still loves me but it seems that we can never be back together. I am sorry for who I was, and who I am. You were just too perfect and I was just too child, too blind. I am sorry for everything that I put you through, I self-sabotaged myself and our relationship. I wrecked the most beautiful thing in my life with my own hands. I just want you to be happy, you deserve this. And what I want from you is that, please don't waste this happines of yours with a man like me. You deserve all the beautiful things in this life. I will do my time in your tears and carry this burden with me, but you don't have to carry this. Because you have done nothing wrong. You just deserve the best in this life. I am so sorry because you have met me in that day, and for the time you have spent on me. I didn't deserve any of them.
I am also tired in my head ragnar....
At this point in my life
I'm just numb to everything
Andrew and Gwen broje my heary every time, when i saw them💔💔💔😭
Please make one with summertime sadness music
Yeeeessss
Love is addictive love is more addictive than any drug that could be made I've been battling with mental health since i lost my grandfather when i was 9 on march 7 2022 i started dating a women who was like no other i immediately feel in love with her i was crazy out of my mind in love but i was still holding onto tragedies from when i was 9 but i married her anyways she brought me peace in the dark mind i had but 2 months ago i made the worst mistake in the world and i let her down broke her trust and probably lost her forever but still somehow i have this little speck of hope deep in my messed up mind iny broken heart that i can get her back again once this is over and i get help im told she still loves me misses me and wants me back. Im not able to hear her voice or see her face or even contact her rn but the love i have for her is so addictive that ill never be able to let her go in my heart or mind no matter how depressed or suicidal i am. If never letting go is what keeps you in this world than dont find the smallest thing to hold onto and do yourself a favor find help find someone to talk to
i have the worst week since 2017 bruh, almost 10 years, still can't get up
I only ever wanted to say goodbye to her now I have to let her go I understand now 😔
as dep ass the pacfic ocan bro
I think if I disappeared, there would be a sense of relief.
I hope you're doing okay; if you disappeared, I know that you would be missed. You can always feel free to speak.
sorry life,i am gonna stay
rent?
When the waiter took the other glasses away, it hurt peronally cause it has happened to me. Just sitting by myself with other tables full, and im just there, alone.