Brilliant, keep up the good work in trying to highlight this. This happened to me from SSRI withdrawal, a medication I was on for 4 months, I am now in protracted withdrawal. A speedy recovery to all who are experiencing this, lets get the word out there so it cannot be denied by medical professionals any longer x
Thank you Emma, this was incredibly moving to watch. So grateful for you taking a stand and sharing your story (as well as inviting us to be a part of it). Strength in numbers x❤
Emma, I wish you could hold my hand. I see my self in you. It is unspeakably horrific amd on top the psych wards and family and friends leaving gaslighting us, etc..the cops have brutalized me. How can this be humanity. To know that many people are going through this. I dream of dying while also being terrified of death and any afterlife, only to be hit with the terror of no existence. Like what! Im stuck. Trigger warning: I scream day and night Roll on the floor begging for help, not being able to breath. Air hunger, looping toughts, akathesia, no emotions but the most horrific horror about existence. I have no positive thoughts or outlooks. I am a walking zombie. I feel in another realm. The trauma of all the i lntense unimaginable feelings. I cant survive this. Its been almost 3 years and I am not done tapering Ativan. I worry because I wasnt well before this but I know from whatever little memory I have left l, that this is levels worse.
This is happening to me right now because of venlafaxine withdrawal, 16 months after stopping (with medical help ...). My life is gone. I have a family and a little daughter. I cried when you mentioned the children in your video.
Sending so much healing your way XXXX im so sorry, life call fall apart in this completely but it can be built up again. Even when it feels impossible XXXX
Greetings! I know what you are going through, am also tapering from effexor. 25 years of interdose withdrawl, hypomania and nausea are coming to an end. It's been a lonely and destabilizing experience, please elaborate on your journey if you are able to. It's so important for healing :)
Thank you, Emma, for this moving expression of creativity and truth - and for sharing pieces of others' stories. I am someone who has also been through "it." This shit is real, it's true and it's happening to more people than probably even you or I imagine. Thank you for your voice and keep moving through it!
This is amazing!!! I'm 7 and a half months off, it's been over 18 months of hell since tapering. Getting slowly better, morning dread and depression has still been awful. I'm microdosing LSD which is helping with that. Love and strength to everyone ❤
Wow Emma. NAILED IT!! This is the best thing I’ve seen and I’ve been around the withdrawal community, tapering and slowly healing for nearly 6 years now researching constantly (when my brain can cope). 25yrs Effexor. Nearly 6 years tapering. Weighing my own doses and now at 11.78mg from 225mg. ❤ hope to be drug free within 8 months (all going to plan) then the proper healing can start. Thank you so much. Your video should be on mainstream tv every day and be part of prescriber training…… ❤❤❤
Oh my God - same here 25 years effexor and clonazapam together. Cold turkeyed off clonazapam and have been counting beads of effexor for four years. 18 mg to go from 225. You are my hero! I'm not kidding, I've never spoken to anyone in the same position. You are surviving this!! Incredible. Thanks for your post I feel better 😊
@@ema_videochannel she's so right. You don't know yet how many people will be talking about you and this song. I haven't been able to laugh at anything for such a long time - well done 👏
Hi Emma, I read your article in the mail about benzos, you have really been through a lot. I was on lorazepam for 2 weeks and I can see how it could be addictive. I’m glad I didn’t stay on it longer especially after knowing what I know now about it
Absolutely amazing! The way this was put together! Blessings to all! Emma this is beautiful art! I heard you load and clear! This is probably one of the best videos I’ve ever watched on UA-cam, ever! Ever! Thank you for sharing!
Love this. Thank you for the work you’re doing to get this message out, Emma. We need more people like you. So glad you’re doing so much better. Also, we have the same guitar. Mine’s an APX-5, but they look identical.
Hi Emma, I just heard about your story last night. I know what you have been through because I have also struggled with benzos and benzos withdrawl. I have been slowly tapering off for 7 months. It has been a nightmare during the tapering and before that. It took me a time to realize that benzos were the cause of many symptoms I had... from hell to little by little starting to breathe normally.
That was great Emma. Thank you for making that. *clap, clap* Note: I’ve still not turned any corners over 3 1/2 years off Klonopin. I had an entire second journey once I was off medications. The worst stuff didn’t erupt until I was months, even a year+ off. Chronic akathisia & dystonia, especially the tardive stuff, has taken everything I’ve got. I’ve barely sat down for 2 years. I’ve stood with a gun to my back and have been forced to march for over 2 years. When I try and sit or lay or be in any fixed position, I feel my feet/ankles being crushed. I feel electricity and nerve pain from my feet, up my back, and out my electrified mouth. I feel electrically harpooned. Every tooth w/an electrified tongue. My fingers and hands hurt to type. All over one tablet, taken once/day at night for 3 years. Even though the injury is horrific, it’s the treatment I’ve received afterwards that caused the real trauma. Medication injury is as common as Parkinson’s or Cancer while doctors look at you like you are crazy and family looks at you like you are crazy because the doctor thinks you are crazy. People should just hear it and know and stop and immediately feel badly. Instead you get gaslit. Going to the ER for any of this is like trying to walk a giant gauntlet of ignorance. I found neurology will immediately try and refer you out to psychiatry the minute you mention it’s a benzo injury. I couldn’t even get an akathisia diagnosis when, like I said, I’ve never sat down since I saw the man . (Akathisia exploded approx 4mths off but was mostly inner while bedridden. I saw neurologists at 7mths and 11mths and 14mths.)
god, I'm so sorry to hear this for you! And I totally relate, it's like getting your body cut into pieces and people just standing by watching / ignoring the face that that IS happening. That is the most terrifying place to be, and like you say it's straight off... you're crazy. How its not clear to people I don't know... as this happens to soo many! its disgusting and shows how easy humans follow big organisations like sheep and don't look between the lines, I could go on... endlessly! I really feel your pain! I'm yet to be drug free still tapering the 3 meds, slowly one by one, since somehow stabilising, but you just never know, and your story just makes me think its so important to taper slow and do as much after care as I can. As people tend to want to just get off the meds like me I wish I could throw them all in the bin. It's easy to speed up, slow and steady, not to say you didn't do that, I know people heal differently as we are all different. I'm so sorry that you were hit that far out! Do you think anything could have triggered it? Much love X
Also watch out for Over The Counter (OTC) antihistamines or Anticholinergic medications, in general - Chlorphenamine, diphenhydramine. Coricidin for one. This is particularly bad for the elderly.
This is great and startlingly similar to my exact experience. The problem is if I show my family this it will just confirm for them that we are all crazy 😅
oh no im so sorry to hear that.. I know what it's like to have no one believe you! It took a lot for people to come round to it... and only when I was able to be more normal could I tell my story.. otherwise people just thought I was insane X
Thank you for this, for the message and yourself and others sharing their experience. I was given Triazolam after leaving my job in the emergency services to aid normalisation of sleep after 25 years of shiftwork. I developed rebound tachycardia every morning but didn't associate it with the med. Advised my GP but he for some reason discounted it. This went on for a prolonged duration then I happened upon a blurb highlighting that particular rare-ish side effect whereupon I stopped taking it but the tachycardia still persists, albeit less severe to this day. And Triazolam has now been banned here in NZ for it's serious adverse side effects.
Emma You have come out the other side We aren’t mentally Ill I stoped sleeping because of long COVID, the pandemic, and then I was polydrugged in 2021 Just two weeks ago a psych prescribed me lamictal for a mood disorder I took it one day and then said a pill will not help me! I’m hanging by a thread and feel like I have permanent brain damage
im so sorry, it can become a mess quite quickly when Drs keep telling you its you and you need more pills. And then you take it and feel worse, they don't know how to taper people so that adds to the nervous system being jarred! I was certainly at a place where I thought the damage was permanent and I was not healable. The body is quite incredible. Survivingantidepressants.org has a lot of information on all the different drugs and tapering help! sending love x
Brilliant, keep up the good work in trying to highlight this. This happened to me from SSRI withdrawal, a medication I was on for 4 months, I am now in protracted withdrawal. A speedy recovery to all who are experiencing this, lets get the word out there so it cannot be denied by medical professionals any longer x
Thank you Emma, this was incredibly moving to watch. So grateful for you taking a stand and sharing your story (as well as inviting us to be a part of it). Strength in numbers x❤
Thank you Emma, and for you sharing your story and being part of it. ALLL the LOVE X
Superb Emma
Emma, I wish you could hold my hand. I see my self in you. It is unspeakably horrific amd on top the psych wards and family and friends leaving gaslighting us, etc..the cops have brutalized me. How can this be humanity. To know that many people are going through this. I dream of dying while also being terrified of death and any afterlife, only to be hit with the terror of no existence. Like what! Im stuck.
Trigger warning:
I scream day and night
Roll on the floor begging for help, not being able to breath. Air hunger, looping toughts, akathesia, no emotions but the most horrific horror about existence.
I have no positive thoughts or outlooks. I am a walking zombie. I feel in another realm. The trauma of all the i lntense unimaginable feelings. I cant survive this. Its been almost 3 years and I am not done tapering Ativan. I worry because I wasnt well before this but I know from whatever little memory I have left l, that this is levels worse.
This is happening to me right now because of venlafaxine withdrawal, 16 months after stopping (with medical help ...). My life is gone. I have a family and a little daughter. I cried when you mentioned the children in your video.
Sending so much healing your way XXXX im so sorry, life call fall apart in this completely but it can be built up again. Even when it feels impossible XXXX
@emma_saunders Thank you Emma for giving me hope!
Greetings! I know what you are going through, am also tapering from effexor. 25 years of interdose withdrawl, hypomania and nausea are coming to an end. It's been a lonely and destabilizing experience, please elaborate on your journey if you are able to. It's so important for healing :)
LOVE X@@FreeWanderingThinker
Thank you, Emma, for this moving expression of creativity and truth - and for sharing pieces of others' stories. I am someone who has also been through "it." This shit is real, it's true and it's happening to more people than probably even you or I imagine.
Thank you for your voice and keep moving through it!
Thank you Greg, it happens to more people than we are lead to believe that's for sure! This shit is certainly reallll. all the love x
This is amazing!!! I'm 7 and a half months off, it's been over 18 months of hell since tapering. Getting slowly better, morning dread and depression has still been awful. I'm microdosing LSD which is helping with that.
Love and strength to everyone ❤
sending all the love!
Wow Emma. NAILED IT!!
This is the best thing I’ve seen and I’ve been around the withdrawal community, tapering and slowly healing for nearly 6 years now researching constantly (when my brain can cope). 25yrs Effexor. Nearly 6 years tapering. Weighing my own doses and now at 11.78mg from 225mg. ❤ hope to be drug free within 8 months (all going to plan) then the proper healing can start. Thank you so much. Your video should be on mainstream tv every day and be part of prescriber training…… ❤❤❤
Thank you I really appreciate xxxx
Oh my God - same here 25 years effexor and clonazapam together. Cold turkeyed off clonazapam and have been counting beads of effexor for four years. 18 mg to go from 225. You are my hero!
I'm not kidding, I've never spoken to anyone in the same position. You are surviving this!! Incredible. Thanks for your post I feel better 😊
@@ema_videochannel she's so right. You don't know yet how many people will be talking about you and this song. I haven't been able to laugh at anything for such a long time - well done 👏
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God bless you, Emma ❤ God bless you.
XXX
Hi Emma, I read your article in the mail about benzos, you have really been through a lot. I was on lorazepam for 2 weeks and I can see how it could be addictive. I’m glad I didn’t stay on it longer especially after knowing what I know now about it
Absolutely amazing! The way this was put together! Blessings to all! Emma this is beautiful art! I heard you load and clear! This is probably one of the best videos I’ve ever watched on UA-cam, ever! Ever! Thank you for sharing!
Thank you I really appreciate that! XXXX
Love this. Thank you for the work you’re doing to get this message out, Emma. We need more people like you. So glad you’re doing so much better. Also, we have the same guitar. Mine’s an APX-5, but they look identical.
Thank you 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 do you : ) lovely guitars arnt they!
Hi Emma, I just heard about your story last night. I know what you have been through because I have also struggled with benzos and benzos withdrawl. I have been slowly tapering off for 7 months. It has been a nightmare during the tapering and before that. It took me a time to realize that benzos were the cause of many symptoms I had... from hell to little by little starting to breathe normally.
Sending ♥️♥️♥️ isn’t it just a nightmare!!!!
That was great Emma. Thank you for making that. *clap, clap*
Note: I’ve still not turned any corners over 3 1/2 years off Klonopin. I had an entire second journey once I was off medications. The worst stuff didn’t erupt until I was months, even a year+ off. Chronic akathisia & dystonia, especially the tardive stuff, has taken everything I’ve got. I’ve barely sat down for 2 years. I’ve stood with a gun to my back and have been forced to march for over 2 years. When I try and sit or lay or be in any fixed position, I feel my feet/ankles being crushed. I feel electricity and nerve pain from my feet, up my back, and out my electrified mouth. I feel electrically harpooned. Every tooth w/an electrified tongue. My fingers and hands hurt to type. All over one tablet, taken once/day at night for 3 years.
Even though the injury is horrific, it’s the treatment I’ve received afterwards that caused the real trauma. Medication injury is as common as Parkinson’s or Cancer while doctors look at you like you are crazy and family looks at you like you are crazy because the doctor thinks you are crazy. People should just hear it and know and stop and immediately feel badly. Instead you get gaslit. Going to the ER for any of this is like trying to walk a giant gauntlet of ignorance. I found neurology will immediately try and refer you out to psychiatry the minute you mention it’s a benzo injury. I couldn’t even get an akathisia diagnosis when, like I said, I’ve never sat down since I saw the man . (Akathisia exploded approx 4mths off but was mostly inner while bedridden. I saw neurologists at 7mths and 11mths and 14mths.)
god, I'm so sorry to hear this for you! And I totally relate, it's like getting your body cut into pieces and people just standing by watching / ignoring the face that that IS happening. That is the most terrifying place to be, and like you say it's straight off... you're crazy. How its not clear to people I don't know... as this happens to soo many! its disgusting and shows how easy humans follow big organisations like sheep and don't look between the lines, I could go on... endlessly! I really feel your pain! I'm yet to be drug free still tapering the 3 meds, slowly one by one, since somehow stabilising, but you just never know, and your story just makes me think its so important to taper slow and do as much after care as I can. As people tend to want to just get off the meds like me I wish I could throw them all in the bin. It's easy to speed up, slow and steady, not to say you didn't do that, I know people heal differently as we are all different. I'm so sorry that you were hit that far out! Do you think anything could have triggered it? Much love X
keep strong,Emma bebe!!
:) XXX
Keep going & believe you will get there! You are and will be an inspiration to many. Well done Emma
XXXX thank you! XXXX
Great video, extremely well put together. 👍
Currently healing from 17 years worth of antidepressants. Keep up the good work. 😊
Keep going XXX the body is incredible! without these poisons x
Thank you Emma 💜
Thank youuu XX
Thank you
Thank you for sharing your story.
Also watch out for Over The Counter (OTC) antihistamines or Anticholinergic medications, in general - Chlorphenamine, diphenhydramine.
Coricidin for one.
This is particularly bad for the elderly.
This is great and startlingly similar to my exact experience. The problem is if I show my family this it will just confirm for them that we are all crazy 😅
oh no im so sorry to hear that.. I know what it's like to have no one believe you! It took a lot for people to come round to it... and only when I was able to be more normal could I tell my story.. otherwise people just thought I was insane X
@@ema_videochannel this video really outlines my experience to a T. Identical.
Thank you for this, for the message and yourself and others sharing their experience. I was given Triazolam after leaving my job in the emergency services to aid normalisation of sleep after 25 years of shiftwork. I developed rebound tachycardia every morning but didn't associate it with the med. Advised my GP but he for some reason discounted it. This went on for a prolonged duration then I happened upon a blurb highlighting that particular rare-ish side effect whereupon I stopped taking it but the tachycardia still persists, albeit less severe to this day. And Triazolam has now been banned here in NZ for it's serious adverse side effects.
One of my friends is going through it. These doctors are ill and the gov wants this
its so messed up once you see this world its hard to unsee it xx
Emma
You have come out the other side
We aren’t mentally Ill
I stoped sleeping because of long COVID, the pandemic, and then I was polydrugged in 2021
Just two weeks ago a psych prescribed me lamictal for a mood disorder
I took it one day and then said a pill will not help me!
I’m hanging by a thread and feel like I have permanent brain damage
im so sorry, it can become a mess quite quickly when Drs keep telling you its you and you need more pills. And then you take it and feel worse, they don't know how to taper people so that adds to the nervous system being jarred! I was certainly at a place where I thought the damage was permanent and I was not healable. The body is quite incredible. Survivingantidepressants.org has a lot of information on all the different drugs and tapering help! sending love x
I had no idea. Lord help us…Lord help them, and those taking benzos now unawares. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
God help us all pray for strength pray for self control
I never got addicted
It’s not addiction
Benzodiazepines information coalition look them up educate yourself
Emazing
Thank you : ) XXX
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Where i buy benzo?
Eric the midget's theme song. Ak ak