I wonder if you realize what a gift your videos are to all of us. Not only are you beautiful to watch as you speak to us from your heart, your sharing the details of what it is like to go through this hell is so much better than our trying to get our loved ones to explain what is going on for them. You have a wonderful way of speaking the truth about the effects of benzo withdrawal and what it does to the person suffering and it is a priceless gift to us. THANK YOU!
I'm so grateful for your videos this one was a real good one explaining what it is that we go through and it's worth more than money can buy to be able to have this to send to my sisters and my family into my friends that I no longer have. I have nobody zero except for one girlfriend that lives with me but she thinks it's mind over matter and it's not it's so she can you know I'm alone on the time she's busy working in his children and stuff so anyway I asked you to please watch it please watch it and anyway thank you so much I'm trying to understand myself but I'm going to do tomorrow, because I'll be the same as I am today I don't know my doctor I tried to give him some videos some videos to watch but I don't know if you will on dr. Peter breggin e r e d g i n s he knows all about the Stephanie's been into a ditch lilies files handling lawsuits in OKC things he's a very good doctor and I want to go see him eat in New York and he's never once prescribed to peel and he's a psychiatrist and he was staring at the age of 18 and eat and 88 now so anyway thank you take care
I found you through Marissa. We met in the hospital. I came off narcotics (6 years history of daily use) May 10 and Xanax on July 12. I had tapered down for 18 months. I had NO IDEA of the horrors to befall me. I has psychotic episodes, violent episodes, raging, suicidal ideation is still problematic, cutting. They put me on Seroquel, clonidin and Mirtazipine to deal with all the effects my body was going through. I literally didn't sleep for a full week. I lost my family and my home and my entire community because of this. LIterally everyone I loved will not have anything to do with me because they think I am just acting out. IT is the worst thing I've ever gone through. I am a retired RN and I had no idea it would be like this. Thanks for educating people. I hope to do the same thing as I get better.
@@sangeetalambh6389 I have improved. I still have symptoms and 2 rounds of Covid illness have made some of them worse again. But over all I qm grateful to be alive and doing as well as I am. I have an attitude of acceptance and gratitude daily. Thanks for asking.
@@debbiemayberry3260 my frd I quit alc take clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen for sleep only 15 days then quit no taper still feel disconnection of arms.and legs did u feel that sym frd ple ans 398 days sober still broken sleep 6 7 hours
This was so helpful. I cried with you. Help is so important. Knowledge is power. I love the TV comment My eyes hurt so bad all the TIME I startle at EVERYTHING. But I am persevering this 6 year hell. I also remember going to the doctor and hardly being able to walk. So damaging Thanks so much for all you do!! Truly enlightened 😙💟
Angel girl, thank you so so much for making this video.. O my soul.. My friend's and family just don't understand. Even my church is not bothered with me. God bless you. Lots of love love. Thanks for fighting for us. 🕊️💕
I actually finally took a step towards helping my mother in her recovery. I reported her doctor to the American Board of Medicine and the other enforcement agencies. If you suspect that a doctor is pushing pills or giving a patient that has a history of overdose more of the same meds, there is a complaint section to report them. They immediately called us and tried to fix the issue but that complaint stays on their record, but best of all they "fired" my mom as a patient so now he can't poison her anymore.
+Michelle Rukny good for you! I've seen other doctors refuse service to benzo victims and I say good riddance...they're only good for writing a prescription and any doctor, nurse practitioner, PA can do that.
I am 43 and have never left a public reply anywhere... don't even log into Facebook but once a month... but I needed to tell you how much this and all of your videos are helping me and my wife. I have been on this rollercoaster for 15 years and have now had enough... I was prescribed these mess, and others, because I didn't respond to restless leg syndrome... knowing what I know now I would have told them just to cut off my legs, it would have been more humane... can you tell I am upset at the USA and our medical system? Back to the topic at hand, THANK YOU! My wife said, and I quote "I wish someone would have shown me this 5 years ago, I thought you were the A word" after watching lol. Funny as I type that, that she said that... wow, taking me an hour to type this and I am a computer techie... this disorder, disease, mistake of mankind's invention of a drug... it really does extreme stuff... God Bless and thank you again for the hope, encouragement, and well communicated information.
Thanks Jocelyn!! This video is beyond great!! I became dependant by accident, via ignorance and my doctors prescriptions. I view this often for reinsurance that I can complete this journey!! God Bless, Greg
I'm so thankful and thank god for such a brave and noble character. Idk what I would have done without your testimony! spot on!! keep pushing foward! thank you. 😥
Thank you so much for your channel on benzo withdrawal. I just found it tonight. For some reason I never thought to check you tube for videos when I was researching how to deal with my long term use. It's difficult for me to go into my long term problem with them because of the exposure on the net. I'm grateful for your channel.
Thank you so much for your raw insight into surviving benzo withdrawal. I am in the middle of it and get so frustrated with family and loved ones who have no idea the pain and severe anxiety. I just don't socialize much because nobody understands how difficult it is to be around people for hrs. I am exhausted trying to be normal. I did the stupid thing of going into 28 day detox for prescribed dose. It was brutal and I agree that slow taper is the safest and best way to get off these meds that you are dependent on not addicted to.
"Hero", that fits. Tomorrow will be my 1st month, so Im still a newbie? so so hard... looking at my kid , family, friends, and not be able to tell them exactly how they can help me (and thats worse, because they feel worse) been pinball between psychiatrists , starting with a new one next week... I just hope, the 1st thing hell do is offering me medication. Beeing divorced with no GF, at the time, makes everything harder... because, I literately dont have some one to, truly talk about this thing, only my therapist (thank god). So this videos are a bless.... stories of small victories that help you going knowing tat, sooner or latter , it just a mater of persistence (AND TONS OF STRENGTH ) WE WILL MAKE IT.
You are greatly appreciated for your kind efforts addressing the issues you have faced. I am considerably more knowledgeable and courteous towards my thinking thanks to you. You're a very nice lady indeed! Kind regards
I understand everything completely. I have all the same issues. All the same problems and thoughts. I wasn’t always like this, only after I took benzos, I now have multiple mental illnesses. When I was in high school I was never like this, I was friends with everyone, was with a beautiful girl, now I can’t even make a single friend. She’s now my ex. I cannot express how much I wish I found your channel years ago. I am lucky to still be here I’ve had about 7-8 seizures because of Xanax. All happened in random places where I could have hit my head but I never did. Now I’m on clonazapam, and tapering. Currently still up because of the insomnia. It should almost be 4am here in Hawaii, but I know Sometime next week my body will adjust to only taking 1mg a day and not 1.5, because I’ve gone through this so much I now know how long it normally takes my body to adjust. I’ve always told myself and my family that maybe I haven’t died from these pills because one day I can share everything , so people know that they aren’t alone, just like you are. You have said so many things that made me gasp and rewind to make sure I heard you correctly. That’s a different type of feeling for me, maybe it’s because I haven’t met even a handful of people in real life who actually lived through this hell, they understand but they haven’t lived it, so it’s a different type of understanding if that makes sense. It’s like a sense of closeness and relief when I hear you talk. At this moment I wouldn’t be able to explain all the pain I’ve gone through in detail, my thoughts race to much for me to gather the right words. All I tell my drs when they ask is “hell” I was in so much pain day in and day out that I convinced myself that this pill(Xanax)was a demon. Satans creation. Even now i suffer long term effects from the Xanax even tho I’m on clonazapam now. Thank you so much.
Jocelyn, thank u so much for this video. i must send this to everyone! I live in the Berkshires Ma. so I'm sure u can imagine all the wonderful help there is here. lol. Medical Community is only intersted in putting ppl on meds Not taking them off. I did it all myself been the loneliest time in my life. I did the taper in 3 months. 4 mlg of Ativan and 30 of ambien, yes prescribed by Dr. 12 years. 2 years since the actual jump. Finally just starting to do ok, CNS is still fragile, but I'm getting there. I am hoping next year at this time at the 3 year mark ill be tons better :) Thanks again for this wonderful video.
You're welcome and I definitely get what you are saying. Ironically, I find that the less educated someone is, the less they understand this syndrome. Educated people are much more empathetic and open minded.....except for those in the medical profession. They are, unfortunately, the worst! I wish you a speedy recovery
A family member has been on clonazepam for over ten years. She sleeps 12 hours a day, never goes anywhere. Sees her doctor once every three months for ten minutes. He's killing her, and I can't get her to realize this.
Orella Minx My friend too and I recently quit. She is having klonic jerking interdose withdrawl. Looks like death, and I look pretty bad too. Praying for us all 😍
Hi I am going through all of this and would never wish it upon anyone! Right now currently as of today I am having psychotic thoughts.. Very disturbing and I'm scared! I feel like I am extremely high on something awful and I've been suffering for a long time. I don't know how I am ever going to feel normal again? My poor mom cried to me today, my family is stressed to see me like this. It's horrible bc I feel like it's all in my head. I scream and cry prob 3x a day, sometimes I feel like I can't do this anymore.. You are a strong strong strong person to have gone through this. I'm scared, anything comforting would be nice
Hi I know what that's like and you will heal. I know it doesn't seem like it know but we are capable of enduring more than we realize. think of the concentration camp victims who went on to live long , good lives after years of torture. Accept, accept, distract, distract, that's all you can do. think of something you can do every half hour. "this half hour I'm going to watch a video,next half hour I'll do some stretching, next I'll take a bath, next ill talk to someone on the phone. whatever you can do. you'll still be suffering but it will be different because you'll be focusing on a goal. I found support groups to be very helpful , the benzodiazepine awareness and legal action group is helpful for many because they feel their suffering serves a purpose, making a difference. you're young you have a good long life ahead of you. this is only a short time in your life history.
Thank you so much for ALL YOU DID AND ARE DOING HELPING OUR LOVED ONES, FRIENDS, AND US!❤🍀My very great friend thinks so highly of you and I am starting on my own Benzo Titration with his help. You look great and I am motivated by you. Seriously. Been through this before cold turkey and am getting help from a man that understands. Thank you honey. I am a newbie and I am so willing and wanting this, yet sooo scared. I am looking. I am listening... Erin
Love your videos! I’m so happy for you educating us on all of this! I’m 61 years old and I have been on these pills Xanax for 30 years! Never did one dr tell me how bad they were! I’m truly devastated and scared to get off,! But I must!
Thank you for this video . I thought I was going crazy . I know I had many relapses on benzos cuz I didn't understand what was going on cuz I didn't understand what was going on .Memory loss , brain fog , delusion , depression , suicidal thought , trouble speaking , hormone imbalance and the list goes on ....I started using them as prescribed at first but starting upping the dose cuz they stopped working for my insomnia . I thought about committing suicide , lost two jobs and a few relationships . Keep fighting and don't lose hope .
@@sangeetalambh6389 doing good , had withdrawals for 2 years ( i was taking clonazepam for 10 years ) and still suffer from tiredness and memory problems but that could just be me hitting 40 lol . I have a good job now and started a new apprenticeship.
@@justgo4033 my frd I quit alc and nicoteen take clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen 75 for sleep only 15. days tthen quit no taper feel disconnection of arm and leg did u feel that sym my frd ple ans I m 397 days sober now
Class action cases regarding medications should be against the Psychiatrist (they prescribe them to Damn long!) Perhaps the company’s that send them out should verify no patients taking Benzodiazepines longer than 5 week’s maximum!) Dr’s that cut you off cold turkey should be admonished, suspended, terminated.
Report to medical board...Dr. Howard s Weiss had 120 felony convictions brought against him...and lost his license ....he .could only see profit over patient care !!! I hate that my son ever met that man ..
Wow 5 year's ago you must feel amazing. All these videos are scaring me the most about cold turkey when doctors don't won't help. All they say is go to hospital and they do nothing either...Thank-you if I make it I'll send a message. Very calming video🙏
Thank you for making this. I am still going through the process. I took 4 mg of klonopin daily for about nine years. Unfortunately, my mom and my sister have been dismissive about this. My sister got a friend to talk about her experiences with benzos and used that to minimize what I was and am going through. My mom refused, the one time I asked her, to help me out, when a simple daily task got to be too much. The one time they took it seriously was to use it as a pretext for dismissing some of my observations about another's behavior towards me. Neither read the materials I sent them. I encourage others to not be like them. Support your loved one as she or he goes through this. That will mean a lot, and your failure to do so will remain an ugliness they have to face for some time to come.
I would have gone to a mental hospital but i didnt have the money. I could do nothing. Couldnt sit...couldnt lie in bed...couldnt get comfortable...second by agonizing second and there is NOTHING you can do to make it go away.
you get it! Not many do..i was on for 15 years.. ..i am off ( 0.5) for three month. little uncomfortable first two weeks but manageable with exercises..interrupted sleep for sure .. really bad at two weeks..Horrible... then got better. (0.5 was not working for me, and i only took it at night) I used to take 0.5 twice a day. ...people tell me to get back on my "meds". they dont get it. i over eat a lot, gained 25 pounds but now sleeping!! Dr dont no ANYTHING! about withdrawl or they would not perscribe
God bless you Sweetie I watch this video alot and i cry. Just wanted to tell you Thank you so much. I sent it to my family not sure they watched are not.But Thank you. Still taping and praying for All going through this. Its Hard
Congratulations, Jocelyn, on your 1-year benzo-free anniversary! If my husband will be amenable to viewing this, I'd like to show this particular video to him. When I was going through acute W/D symptoms from my former psych ripping me off one cocktail and popping me on another, I'd get "You're being melodramatic" and "You're being so self-centered" from him constantly. How could I *not* be focused on this crap while enduring it 24/7? :-/ I love my husband but often feel that he doesn't "get" what's going on. I have to add that, even when I was going through this private hell, I was still able to work a full-time job, bring my kids to and from school, do homework with them, and cook dinner before simply being DONE and curling up in a bed with an adult-coloring book. I told my husband point-blank, LOOK, I've done everything I can to meet your and the boys' needs as a wife and mother; could you PLEASE try to meet some of mine? Time will tell, especially when I am finally off all of this GARBAGE my former psych put me on. :-/ In the past few months (probably since late March or early April), I've started to feel SO much better, and my husband has even mentioned (as yours has, as I saw in one of your other videos), that "the old me" is coming back. :) :) Some of my friends have told me the same thing. I am very worried, though, because I still have a LONG way to go to get off the cocktail my psych put me on after I was released from the hospital. Fortunately, I have a new (great) psych who is accepting and amenable to slow tapers. I've successfully cut down my Zoloft by more than half, and also successfully cut my Ativan dose in half (from 2 mg since Nov. to 1 mg in April) and have stabilized and HOLDING at that dose, because since April, I'm tapering down on Seroquel (an atypical--who knows why my former doc put me on that??) and am hitting a wall. I'm almost 2/3 of the way done with S, but am going to talk to my doc about holding for a little while b/c I'm not all the way stabilizing on the lowering dose. It kind of spooks me out because I first started having all these problems when my doctor took me from 20 mg Latuda down to 0 with no tapering. Latuda and Seroquel are similar, albeit Latuda hasn't been in the market as long as Seroquel, so maybe I won't have as hard a time. Regardless, I'm going to hold at a low dose of S for as long as I need to, because I never want to go back to that HELL again. I don't want to put my family through that HELL again. :( (UG, and I still have stupid Lamictal and Trazodone to taper off from.) >:( Sorry for the novel, but I have to vent and hopefully receive some feedback. Your hubby seems SO supportive and loving of you. Was your hubby always accepting of what you were going through, or did he have a tough time for a while as well? My hat goes off to you--and my heart goes OUT to you--for all you've endured.
hopefully my husband will be doing an interview soon and you can see it from his point of view. he did not always understand what was going on and received conflicting advice from friends and family. it was something we had to navigate together. FYI there is a support group for friends and family on facebook called Benzo withdrawal loved ones guide. it looks like you're in for a long journey and I'm sure your husband could use the support. I'm sorry you were placed on so many mind altering drugs without real consent. it's mind rape really
Yeah, I'm really disgusted that my old psych--AND the hospital to which I was admitted--put me on so many meds. Yet I'm also disgusted in myself for signing onto this crap. It wasn't like the doctors held a gun to my head and forced me to take these meds or anything, so I bear some responsibility in this whole ordeal. I guess I just believed them when they told me the meds would help me--because they're doctors, for crying out loud. :( Yes, I fear that it will take me several years to taper down from all of these meds, but I'm never going to do a rapid taper, as my two previous psychs tried to do with disastrous results. I take pride in being able to work and support my family, so as much as I can minimize my W/D symptoms, the better. I've decided to put a temporary hold on my Seroquel taper to stabilize on my current dose and let my nervous system catch up. My current doctor is cool with this, even though IMO she isn't the most benzo-wise, and I've had to bring printouts of the Ashton Manual to her. :P Which, to her credit, she has been receptive to reading--unlike my other two dolts for psychs. But anyway--thanks again for your ongoing support and advocacy in the community. I can't believe HOW many people whose lives have been altered, sometimes irreparably, by the damage these drugs can do.
You are so strong and very intelligent and I'm so grateful that I found your channel and few months ago. I wanted to let you know, that yesterday, I saw my Doctor and I told her about your channel and about the Ashton manual. Since I've been seeing this new Doctor, she's been very gentle in tapering me off of my sleeping pill. I've been on the Ambien for 25 years, and we've been taking 1 full mg every 2 months. If I let her know that, I need to stay there, maybe for 2 more months, she's very kind hearted and is willing to work with me, pretty much like Dr. Ashton says, that these decreases @ 10% of Valium, I believe that because I've been on the Xanax and Ambien for 25 years, I'm hoping that my Doctor and I, if needed, would slow it down, to a place where I'm not suffering, to the point of suicide. I don't want to work on getting off all. 3 meds, all at the same time. I had also remembered you saying, this should be a light bulb moment, and that if you have a Doctor who is willing to work with you. I'm beyond terrified, because many times, I've had Doctors, who have moved out of state, My last Doctor, before coming to this place, got very ill and had to close his office. Jocelyn, I'm terrified, because I got so sick before and it was just a short time, 9 days and I couldn't function. Do you think that trying to come off of the meds, due to my age 52, and the fact that I've been on them for 25 years, that , once I'done tapering, that I will die. In the past, I wasn't being given my meds, I've had seizures, auditory hallucinations and regular hallucinations, seeing things? I live alone and will not have any help. This is the most frightening thing to me. Thank you.
Hey Jocelyn, it took me a bit of time and I thought, if you ended up in my recommendation's , that I'd try to go to your Benzo brain's channel Yeees! It's back up! I'm so happy! Great job! Thank you! 💞🙌🙏👋👋👋👋🙏👍👍
thankyou for posting this. There is so much i wanted to say but just couldn't get it across due to this horrible illness. Im 11 months out and much the same as you , have good and bad days but dont feel like im going to die anymore. one day we will have our lives back! I have shared this with my family and it help alot. Thanks again
Thank you for this, my wife is currently in rehab for a 7 year benzo dependence. When I talk to her she’s so cold, mean and angry with me when she used to be so loving and sweet with me. She comes home in 2 weeks and I’m so nervous to interact with her
I'm sorry. I hope rehab helps. They usually get people off too fast and then they still go through withdrawal recovery for a long time after they get home. Either way your wife will heal and she will come back to herself slowly bit by bit. I have a video entitled "How to pretend to be human" that she might want to watch when she gets back. It's hard for us to see how much we've changed and we really do have to make an effort to pretend to be kind and such while we're healing from this cruel injury. Best of luck
@@BenzoBrains Mam I was on clonazepam for only 1 month. My doctor left me cold turkey and I went through withdrawals. Very very bad withdrawals. But my psychiatrist gave me pregabalin 75mg and paroxetine 12.5 mg. My withdrawals reduced. But when I went to pregabalin 50mg, my withdrawals came back. But now I'm stable on 50mg after 2 weeks. Should I go more slow?? Please help
I'm experiencing horrific withdrawals from taking a milder benzo 2-3 times a week for about a year. I can't even begin to imagine what daily users are going through... :/
I would not have support from my husband because he has flat-out told me he could not go through another withdrawal with me. He says he would have to leave (I would be completely alone) till I was was better. He would check in on me dailt. Gee, thanks! To be fair, he has been through some bad anxiety himself (without meds), including the death of his son from a drug overdose, and the drug use of his srcond son, who wifr died of alcohol and drug abuse last January. He really cannot cope with stress, though.
Thanks for the new vid.You are great!They got us under the influence.I'm going to start micro tapering. Very inspiring. Dr's suck.But they are needed. Thanks again LMP.
Thank you for responding. I did stop taking xanax and went on and am now on a long acting benzo....Klonopin. Klonopin works alot slower than xanax so i cant and dont pop klonopin like i did xanax so i dont think i am quite as addicted to the klon than i was the xanax. I am allowed per script 3 .5mg tablets per day but have only been taking one a day. I also take Lunesta at night and that is really helping i think. I took ambien for years but never ever got addicted to it. I could stop taking it on a dime if i had to and not feel anything....except not getting to sleep as quickly as i would like. I think i am going to stick to the once per day klonopin for now and then in a few weeks or months take it every other day. I will just do this one day at a time. God bless
For 10 months off at the time of this video you appear more coherent than I could be! Plus you look good also. Were you Polydruded? I was taken off of many at the same time and seriously feel as though I have some brain damage and I'm just over a year cold turkey.
@@sangeetalambh6389 Oh my gosh, as far as recovering from the Benzos , Antidepressants, Opioids -- my cognitive functioning is close to 100%. I was on so many different prescriptions it was unbelievable. I found Medical Medium Anthony William and decided to give it a try and began drinking celery juice and cutting out the Bad Foods. It worked. Off all my stomach and intestinal pills, just off of everything except one pain med and even for that one I am taking 1/30th of what i was. I really do suffer from horrible pain, but going through the hell of being on 2.5 mg of Klonopin daily for 16 years was a touch, plus others like Amytryptaline, multiple antidepressants, and other pain killers like Ultram and Muscle Relaxers. It been an incredible past 5 years.
My family and friends have given up on me. They believe that the benzos have made me unwell but over time they have just got on with their lives and I don't blame. At one point I was so unwell they had me sectioned. They thought it was for the best, it wasn't. I am lucky to have a local benzo support group close to me who are all ex benzo users so they get it. Also, I have a GP who understands the damage that benzos can do. He says I have a damaged central nervous system. My family have been excellent with helping my daughter over the years. When I couldn't go to an event involving my daughter they would step in and take her, she never missed out on fun days or family events. My mother would do so very much for my daughter and I. Just being there to step in if I couldn't cope. That gave my daughter and I so much time together that would have been lost. One of the worse things for me it not being able to clean the house and being reliant on others, it is humiliating. I work at a senior level for a major global beer company and then a moved in to medical sales. I was earmarked to achieve great things in my career and I was on target to do that until I took benzos for panic attacks. Within weeks I was having problems. I would go to see clients who I had known for years who were friends, but thanks to the benzos I would sit in my car at these appointments and just cry, to scared to get out of the car and go and see these people. I served in the Parachute Regiment in war zones and being on benzos filled me with more fear than being in a fire fight with the enemy. I could control myself in battle, but the benzos took that control away from him. In the end the sound of the door bell you have me in such a state of terror I would go and sit at my local A&E department because I was convinced I was dying. In combat, I was afraid but I had my mates with me and I was focused on protecting my comrades. With benzos I was alone in a continuous world of fear and pain. I now live alone. I can't work. I am basically a mess. The real me is gone. Everyday I just want to die on my terms. I don't for the sake of my daughter. I feel like the worse father in the world. I have failed my little girl so badly.
I'm so sorry. I know how holding on to your kids gives you strength and yet the parent guilt we feel is overwhelming. I'm so glad you have the support you do. I am discovering things that may help people who are long term injured. Hopefully one will be a healing factor for you
Thank you very much for that video ! My husband and I are French. I am the one tapering Valium and having a very hard time. It would be so useful to have the English subtitles on the video so that my husband could understand a little more. He is not very good at English without the subtiles ! If you could do that one day it would be wonderful 🙏
I live alone and I went through everything you describe. I couldn’t go to a doctor even if I wanted to. I could not do anything. It’s so true about loneliness. I wanted someone to be here doing some small things. I didn’t want to interact at all.
@@Waves353 Hello! I took care of myself completely. I ordered groceries on line which was a godsend. I am retired so working wasn’t an issue and my income is satisfactory for anything I need. Even now I still have balance problems and many headaches. I went cold turkey in January 2019. I feel very ill when I think about it! I have a weak heart from the stress on my body. It’s rare but it happens!
sorry for any mess up but I'm talking into my phone and my old doctor primary doctor said it would take a very long time and that's what I was trying to tell my new primary but she didn't care and then I found a new doctor and family doctor but I would never ever ask them because I don't trust any doctors now because they don't seem to care or do their research so I was just wondering did you just go to the doctor to get your medicine and you did your own tapering or did you have the Ashton manual because I don't trust any doctors to help after what I went through
+Jen Gemini I did the taper myself using the ashton manual as a guide. Please watch my video ua-cam.com/video/02VQSCqa6zE/v-deo.html I did liquid titration, micro tapering using valium. All my doctor was there for was to fill the prescription each month. Most doctors will be of little to no help during a taper unfortunately.
littlemissperfect ..exactly how I feel with doctors now and what makes me so mad is they did a documentary in England in the early 80s about a woman that was in England and she was taking Ativan and her doctor was prescribing like 6 months worth of Ativan to her and they had this reporter that did research on it and found out that certain doctors did use people to take this medication to see how it would work on them and then take it away And the reporter went to the person that actually made this medication who was the creator of Ativan and of course he was playing golf and this reporter went up to him and said why are you still letting this medication be on the market and the reporter told this man people that are taking his medication and then would stop we're going through horrific horrible withdrawals that seem to last a long long time they were going through hell and it's because you are still allowing your medication to be distributed to people and these people are really hurting from this medication and knowing that these people have problems they still prescribe this medication and ofcourse to this day when this reporter guy went up to the man who's playing golf at the time he tract this guy down who created it and he started hitting the reporter with the golf club and the guy still there you know trying to block him self and kept asking this guy why are you doing this this medication is deadly he didn't answer of course he didn't care and he just kept trying to hit the reporter it was so crazy watching this so back then they even knew! I found this video on UA-cam a couple of months back so there were people back then finding out that this medication for anxiety which is all the anxiety medications we're not good for people to take and they were giving these people this medication for a long time,the news reporter actually went to another doctor who was prescribing it at the time to the woman and of course she didn't want to answer anything and this was the woman that finally stop writing the prescriptions to the woman they were doing the documentary on and they show this woman trying to go through the withdrawals and how bad it is and putting her in the hospital and of course it never got better for her and she had to start taking it again from another doctor,so this makes me so angry at myself because I usually do research and for me at the time this is over 4 years ago not knowing I'm just thinking It was just some thing that would help me because of something I was going threw at the time, and my doctor told me it sounds like you have bad anxiety and need medication. And not doing my research I feel it was my fault but these doctors should be held responsible for not doing their research or even if they do know not telling us what could happen and realize that this is worse than any type of form of drug because there is no relief it is a forever type of medication that is the longest process to get off and is very life threatening, but thanks to people like you who try to help ...so thank you again from the bottom of my heart for really caring!
am 3 months clean after been taken between 10-15mg of xanax daily for 9 year's.. its been tough but everyday I'm feeling better, your an inspiration Jocelyn,your eyes are beautiful BTW
Tuckr Maug I'm glad to hear you're currently benzo free! I wish you a full recovery and hope you are implementing the life changes you need so you never feel the need to take xanax again.
Please please everyone if don't take Benzo if your dealing with anxiety. Please visit a therapist or go to support groups. Therapy will help you therapy is like medicine for the soul. Stay away from medication drugs. My life is ruined im fighting for my life.
This was very good. Thank you. I see below you said yu slow tapered yourself off a la Ashton protocol. Did you take any other meds to help you off? Also any thoughts on older people who have been on these for decades if it worth it to come off. Thank you.
BRIAN!!!!!!!!!! It worries me to hear that you are going cold turkey! Am I hearing that right? No no no you don't want to do that. Sweetie really honestly that scares me so much. Please reconsider what you're doing and try to give yourself a break and know that you're not thinking right. It's okay it's okay it's temporary. It really truly is I promise. No I'm very scared and worried that if you go cold turkey the horror will be too much for you. Prayer is a daily part of my life and I understand how it feels to be miserable like this but please remember your body needs to heal and your brain needs to heal so don't do anything drastic. Please please don't
I've been talking klonopin since March. I got off xanax when i refill ran out after being on it for 3 years and i went through the worst withdrawls i never knew even could be felt. It was absolutely horrible. I will never go through that again. I'll stay addicted to klonopin if i have to.
What you experienced was a cold turkey, and I agree, no human being should ever have to endure that. I remember feeling exactly this way when I attempted a rapid taper off Ativan. there is a HUGE difference between rapid tapers, cold turkey, and a slow, micro taper over 10-24 months. I did a 15 month micro taper after switching to valium. It was not easy, it was miserable, but it was nothing like the hell of my Ativan taper. I hope you will consider this option. three years is not too bad. the older you get, the more at risk you are for dimentia and alzhiemer's . People over 65 have an 80% or more risk of dimentia and alzheimer's from long term use of benzos. That's not even taking into account the who host of other problems they cause.
Thank you! She’s not even aware of how she changed. She changed into a demon the last few months and turned against her entire family and I. Hopefully she’ll come around. Thank you
Hi, thank you for doing this, I almost died when my doctor at the time got in some trouble and I couldn't go to him no longer and back then he never told me when he prescribed this medication to me for anxiety that it would take forever almost to be healed from it he never explained anything and stupid me never did my research so when he was gone I cold turkey of course had no choice so I did it for 3 months it was horrible going into the second month I started doing research and found out it could take up to 90 days or more years just to get normal again I almost died I had to go to my primary doctor at the time I told him what was going on my friend drove me there they fit me in to see the doctor which is my primary at the time I have a new one now and she tried to hurry up and do a fast taper on me and I told her that the primary doctor I was seeing before her told me it could take a long time it's something that you can't do quickly well he left and he moved away and so this new doctor I'm seeing she did not care she told me would only take 4 weeks if that and I should be fine I was trying to show research to her she didn't care to see it so thankfully I found a family doctor that prescribes it again for me because like I said before I almost died from not having a medication my heart rate was over a hundred and thirty they did a EKG on me and that's what my old primary doctor was like it's what you're taking for anxiety you need to take this I'm not supposed to write this for you but since you almost could have died I'm going to write this for you and we are going to do this properly but of course something happened and he moved and I found like I said another doctor a family doctor but my question to you is if you can't find a doctor that will listen to you how did you do the taper basically how did you get the medication did you just get the medication from another doctor and not tell them that you were trying to taper and you decided just to do the tapper through the knowledge of social media or the Ashton manual if I said that correctly I just want to know how you were able to do a slow taper because I will never tell any doctors about this because they do not want to be bothered to help basically I'm going to try to do the tapering myself and then in the Ashton manual that I read it online it says you go from one anxiety medication to a lower dose after you've done your long-time tapering off the medication you started with and then from there you go to volumes and do a slow slow slow taper with that please let me know how you did it basically did you have to get a new doctor and they believe you or did you just get the medication from a doctor and you do it yourself sorry for such a long comment but I have watching your videos I don't remember if you said that you did find someone who helped a doctor to get the medication or you just didn't tell them and you did it yourself and thank you so much for being there because I know how painful and how horrible this whole situation is when I went through it just three months I'm going through it it was horrendous
+Jen Gemini Then answer to your question is Yes. Find a new doctor, don't even tell them your tapering if you don't have to and do it yourself. Some doctors are more comfortable prescribing if they know your trying to get off the benzo, and others only seem to become anxious when they know you're trying to get off. They assume they're dealing with an addict and force you off. ua-cam.com/video/02VQSCqa6zE/v-deo.html
i was on ambien for only a month and a half only taking as prescribed, 6 weeks after unwittingly quitting cold turkey and im feeling improvements finally
that's fantastic. I'm so glad you're improving. I was like that for four months after a cold turkey and ended up reinstating. I had only been on ambien about a week.
Youre definitely right when you say that its hell, i was scared that i had permanent damage to my brain and that the pain would last forever and some days i thought my life was over, but theres hope now :) God bless anyone else suffering with this
What advice do you have for a family whose loved one denies that benzos are contributing to their illness? The loved one also has a history of drug and alcohol abuse. Benzos were prescribed during alcohol rehabilitation and have been taken for 10 years. Agoraphobia, panic, tremors and seizures are happening now at 40mg of diazepam daily. We are desperate to get her to even review the information and videos we have found. Any suggestions are appreciated. Stay well
Hi the thought of going 9off a benzo for anyone who has experienced acute withdrawal can be so terrifying. They have to be totally committed this video may help but honestly if they're not ready I'm not sure what can be done. Some people find it less scary if someone handles their taper for them and they have no idea when they're reducing. ua-cam.com/video/r9heNJxCR8I/v-deo.html
Hi Jocelyn I'm Mark and age 56 I'm don't think I want to stop, I feel like I'm to old plus I went thru cardiac arrest and I don't think my body can handle the shock
I'm sorry to hear that. While I know people older than you who have successfully tapered, no one should feel coerced into quitting. It's a personal decision. Many unfortunately are forced and my hope is this information will help them and those who chose to get off.
how did you cope with the insomnia that came with the withdrawals? I'm having a hard time with it. I could cope with all the psychological symptoms if I could only sleep.
Ghoulin Rouge hi I'm sorry I know how frustrating it is to feel like if you could just get enough sleep things would be so much more bearable. unfortunately, as with the other symptoms you are experiencing the best way to handle insomnia is to accept accept accept, distract distract distract. focusing on it will only drive you nuts and cause you to make poor choices out of desperation. I will say the one thing that did help me post taper was making sure to get enough protein throughout the day and not spike my blood sugar . always eating a protein with a carb and making sure your carbs are low glycemic such root vegetables will help to stabilize insulin and cortisol and can greatly help with sleep issues. I've seen it work for myself and others so I know it's worth a try for you.
littlemissperfect I've watched your video on your protein shake. I have one but it's made of peas and the glutamic acid scares me. it's pretty high. isn't that the same as glutamate?
Spacystacy32 haha, I did one of those Facebook generators one time that was supposed to match you with your celebrity doppelganger and it came up with Lacy Chabert
Is there a video for family members who live with Benzodiazepan users? I would like to see one. I currently live with my Mum who is tapering. Whilst it is hard for the user it's terribly hard for me, my son... Tools to deal with this. Advice on the constant, daily issues, negativity, obsessions, blankness.... Support for people living with someone tapering?
Natty Lee Carter I've discussed this with my husband several times, getting him to do one from the perspective of a loved one. As of now I haven't made one
Hi, again :) Thank you so much for this- I notice it was posted a year ago and I am hoping and praying you have made even more recovery!! You are a blessing to this small community who desperately need advocates. I am currently tapering off of xanax, and then clonazepam, at 3 mgs a day for 6 years. I am almost done. But it hasn't gotten any easier at all- only harder. I am wondering how long after the benzo is out of your system that your body starts producing seratonin again. I dont epect to feel like "myself" again anytime soon, but would sure like to feel a little better. Many thanks and blessings!
Natalie Dols congratulations on getting this far. I know it gets harder as you get lower. everyone is different as far as getting regulated again. you'll see improvement month by month in between waves that can feel like set back but they're not. each wave gets less intense. I'm better now but I'm dealing with some chronic health issues related to benzo use so I can still be pretty limited some days in my physical functioning. but mentally it's way better.
Im off ativan after a rapid ativan taper after i was on it for 5 weeks. Doctor refused to do a slow valium crossover taper. Im now off ativan 6 months and I suffer from scary intrusive thoughts almost everyday and coffee seems to cause it because when i drink just 1 cup or less in the morning i dont get it as much or at all. Did you have scary intrusive thoughts post taper?
@rockit5288 I'm sorry I completely forgot to respond the other day! Intrusive thoughts are a common side effect. If you know the trigger that's a huge blessing. I would avoid all caffeine including coffee and tee for a while until you're more stable. Try decaf in the mornings and licorice root for stable energy throughout the day or any other adaptogenic herbs
Not only I'm suffering horrible withdrawal but the only person I trust I'm afraid is not understading how it feels and I'm afraid he's getting less close to me because of this withdrawal :(
I felt really fatigued when I was tapering and at the beginning after I finished my taper. It took a bit of time to get better. now I feel a lot better, life becomes normal again don't worry. and don't worry it will get better, don't get discouraged. I know it's hard when you are tapering or when you ar off from little time. But with time it gets a lot better
5:00 Am - Awful business this benzo taper. I would like to go to my niece’s recital today. The only way is to cheat a little. Can I go? Can I cheat a little? I’ve cheated 6 times already in the past 21 days. - So. I’m gonna come up 2 days short. Can my doctor help?
I'm 4 months off ativan and prozac.. I only took it for 26 days and I was told that I could just quit because it wasnt long term.. so I quit cold turkey.. over allot of my symptoms.. my windows are getting longer.. but I still have a few days where I'm EXTREMELY DIZZY AND WOBBLY... Does this mean that I'm almost over my withdrawals?
It sounds like you're healing. You may be sensitive for a long time though so be careful not to push yourself harder or ingest anything that could set you back.
@@BenzoBrains I just started back working and it's taking a toll on me.. I still get where I feel panicky.. and I have to coach myself back to reality.. I'm still having a few internal tremors when I'm waking up or dozing off but it's only like once a week now
@@BenzoBrains also the doctor placed me on prednisone steriods because he said that I had sinusitis infection.. the steriod made me feel like I was gonna lose my mind when I came off it after five days.. intrusive thoughts like crazy.. and this urge like I was gonna lose control smh but I didn't.. has this ever happened to you?
@@BenzoBrains I ended up in the hospital last night with another panic attack.. dizzyness, pail skin, and my heart rate was 103... But it's always fast with these benzo withdrawals.. the dr tried to give me a shot but I was afraid that it would set me back so I refused treatment 😭😭😭
Thank you for making this. How long exactly did it take for these symptoms to go away. It's been about two months for me. This last weekend was very hard I had a funeral to attend. I can only imagine how much of a fool I made of myself. I actually had made the decision to begin taking medication (kolonopin) again. I just couldn't get myself to make the phone call to do so. To be honest I don't really know how much longer I can continue this. It really seems to be doing more harm than good. Also I stopped cold turkey after nearly ten years of taking this
Jordan Cuevas Hi, from what I understand you're 2 months post cold turkey. if that's the case you're situation is different from mine because I tapered. You spent years taking a medication which altered your central nervous system and it will take time for that to heal. if you do get back on Klonipin you would need to get on a much higher dose just to stabilize out, and even then it may not work. that's why the Ashton Manual only recommends reinstating within the first couple of weeks after a cold turkey. I would like to give you a soecific time frame for healing but everyone is different. right now you are experiencing acute withdrawal and that will likely last for 1-2 years. Then your symptoms will ease and you will start becoming normal again. I know that seems unbearably long, and it really is, but there are many others just like you are right now. Learn what you can from these people in the online support communities. make accommodations for your current level of ability or disability and ride out the storm for the next year or two. You can get through this and move on from this to live a good life. For now, it's war between healing and suffering, but the healing will win in the end ♡
Can you do a detailed video about how long you used benzos, how much? And how you tapered and how long you have been in recovery? Benzo free. 😁💗. Please. Id love to hear it exactly the way it happen and you became free again.
Im at the beginning of where you were. A 4 week quick taper then reinstated to liquid valium. I hope you see this comment and can answer. I am trying to be a mom to 2 kids as well. In one of your videos you said the valium concentrate with alcohol was bad. Thats the one I am using. It took me out of acute. Do you think its ok to use that form? Also How did you do your micro taper? Did you stick to a schedule or cut when feeling symptoms were down? How was your taper? Was it hell all the way down? I would be SO grateful if you could answer. Thank you so much for these videos.
Krissy T Hi. if you're responding well to the liquid Valium then don't worry about it. I did follow a schedule like the one I discuss in my video Safely Tapering off Benzodiazepines. it was a daily micro reduction so there were no big cuts but I would hold here and there as needed. For me my entire taper was difficult but I did see some improvement. everyone is different though and this may not be the case for you.
I am so glad you answered. I am so happy for you that you survived and got your life back. You are my inspiration. I had never addiction to anything, I haven't even even been drunk. My biggest love, almost 16 years old dog had to put to sleep 2021 summer. The sorrow was too much (have had many traumas and depression that have survived) and I became to have awful panic attacks and the time. Doctor descriped me 6 x 15 mg oxazepam, little by little and didn't warn me about the tolerance or anything. I usted them to attacks as descriped. Then I and my childhood family and boyfriend became to worry and I wanted to taper. A mean doctor saw me and I asked for help and she was so rude and send me to rehab center. I was then on 4 x 15 mg of oxazepam. They took 30 mg of oxazepam in a week. I didn't sleep, I could barely speak, my blood pressure was high, food didn't stay inside me. I saw a doctor outside the rehab center and I was sented to hospital. There was that mean doctor and said I couldn't have any withdrawl, I was very sick. Then she sent to holiday, luckily. And other doctor saw me, I had 1 x 15 mg oxazepam at the time. He said I have withdrawl symptons and gave me 10 mg of diazepam and told me to crossover at home. At home I got to sleep and could wake up in a normal feeling and say breakfast and coffee. I was able to run and exercise and didn't have any agoraphobia that I had after my dog died (normally I am a confident and very social person) and got my normal life back and could grief my dog and also remember the good memories. They tapered me 2 mg per week, few weeks went well, I had just headaches, heart was racing. I got my own depression medication and 25 mg of quetapine to sleep, my normal medication, andI was ok. But then when I got to 6 mg I became depressed suddenly again, had agoraphobia again, lost my sleep, food didn't stay inside me and three weeks I stayd at the 6 mg but I couldn't take it anymore, I suffered si much and Lost hope, was just a prison in my home. I took overdose 😥 And I have a good life and many things and reasons to live, I am active and grateful person. My boyfriend found me after four hours and I got to hospital. Then when i came to home in a bad condition I wasn't able to sleep, was depressed and had the brain lock (I checked from the messages for my family and I had mention the brain lock before the overdose and doctors said that I didn't get any harm to my head and my head was ok in the mri for few months later). Doctor put me back to diazepam 12 mg but :it didn't help. I tapered it to 5 mg in an awful feeling. Then I went to hospital and they took me from 5 mg to zero straight. I had terrible panic attacks and symptoms and after two weeks the mean doctor said I couldn't have any withdrawl. I left the hospital in a awful feeling. My new doctor tried to relief me and prescriped me 2,5 mg of klonopin. But it didn't help. I have been on that for few months. Now I and my mother said that we think that I am in withdrawl symptoms even I am not tapering. I said I want to taper with Ashton manual and she didn't know about that but was willing to read it. Now we will start the taper this week. I am afraid and depressed and anxious. I wake up every morning to hell, like I have no brains at all. I have been sleeping now with 250 mg quetapine and 20 mg temazepam because they had to get me to sleep after I had Lost my sleep many months. I hope the brain lock goes away and depression will help and I will survive this time the taper and will heal. Thank you that you are so sure that brain lock is from the benzo and tapering. I need hope that it and ali the other goes away. I have hae previous depression in 2019 but then I survived within few months. Now I am isolated, feel depersonalization when i have to go to store and get food. Can't cook, just be. I love to run but now it is just giving me anxious. I am afraid almost anything and speak this hellish situation ali the time to my family so I can't ne around anyone. Just calling. I am grateful that you did response. I hope I will survive too.
I'm sorry to ask more but could you describe how did you experience the brain lock if you had it or have heard anyone else suffering that feeling. Thank you so much of your time and caring. I can't do almost anything because of that lock and its very scary and isolating me because I am so panicked of that feeling that I can't be with my loved ones and feel like I'm in hell with my head. Normally before this hell started and my dog died my brain was functioning very well even though I have a rare brain deseace and have had to strokes when I was a child. My deseace has been calm and have not getting worse. My brain was scanned in the mri and also eeg made few months after my overdose and there was no sign of anything bad. Thank you if you have time to response. You are my inspiration like I said and give me hope to battle this evil medication out of me.
@@lauriina85 different people use different words to describe the symptoms. You may want to watch some of my older videos or join a Facebook benzo support group to hear what other people say about their neurological symptoms. Just know that the mismanagement of you prescribing and desprescribing plus adding in more psych meds has placed you on a long path of healing. But you will heal. Be patient with yourself, listen to your own inner wisdom from now on. It's time to take your life and health into your own hands. Good luck
Also, starting now, i am going to take weekly "klonopin breaks". On fridays and saturdays take none or i will cut a .5 in half and take that half. Do you think my approach to this is good or bad?
Your smiling your happy and enjoy life people who have that problem are not happy or enjoy life without having to be on a medication that is helping you be a happy person who has to be on meds for anxiety it's not a temporary problem it's a life long problem and you have no choice but to be on meds for anxiety disorder
I'm sorry that's been your experience. I know even the worst anxiety can heal once the source of the problem is discovered and treated. Life without drugs is possible.
@@BenzoBrains I was a little harsh but I can't live with anxiety and anxiety is a serious brain disorder that is not treatable with eating well or any other means when I was a child I breathed gasoline fewm and I think it's the source of my problem I have serious brain damage cause I don't have memory and I am so very tired of it it's so frustrating and depressing to have to deal with poor memory
@@davidslefort6541 benzos can cause worse anxiety and definitely cause memory problems. They also cause brain damage. The good news is the brain is plastic and can change and heal. Anxiety is a symptom, not a disease. There are many potential causes but benzos don't treat any of them, they're a temporary bandaid that eventually festers and rots and makes the wound worse. Sorry but it honestly sounds to me like the benzo isn't doing you much good anymore. Is it possible you're simply treating the symptoms caused now by the meds?
@@BenzoBrains I never have been on benzos when I was a child I was breathing gasoline fewm and I did this for 3 years not everyday but it really cause more pain for me and I ended up in juvenile center cause I was a problematic drug dealer and abuser I got arrested and they decided that I was a long term suicidal tendencies so that they kept me until I was 18 years old and they had to deal with my symptoms for anxiety and violence cause I didn't accept that been in a juvenile center and I was in so much pain from anxiety that they put me on meds that I don't remember that name so if you have such problems for pain and stress you can't deal with it you need to stay on my escitalopram and seroquel and methadone I can't live without it because my brain function doesn't have any ability to produce endorphins or dopamine and much more of the different chemicals imbalance I have you can't live without it. What for me is so frustrating is that I loose my phone in 5 seconds and I am looking around my room and looking for my phone I can't remember what I did with my phone if you have this problem you can't and will not ever get off the meds I am on kid
@@BenzoBrains am 48 years old I am at the end of my road I can't live without my meds and I can't cause my anxiety make me sick I can't eat I can't go to the bathroom I don't want water close to me my skin is like a burning sensation and my heart just beats so hard I can't breathe and I just panic and it just gets worse and worse I get into seizures if I don't have my meds
I took one vitamin b and im now 5 days and still feeling Terrible . Do you know how many days or weeks Can take ? Thank you for your support . You are amazing person god bless you
Hello my friend ! I took vitamin b and set me back . Did you have similar experience with vitamins or supplements ? I ned help my symptoms became worse .
I'm sorry. I often tried vitamins only to have them aggravate my symptoms. B vitamins in particular are known to do that to benzo people in withdrawal. Your body should stabilize out, give it some time.
is it advisable to taper off bromazepam for using it for just a month and half?i really like to get off this meds..the longer i take this the more difficult i can withdraw from this
I’m helping a friend withdrawal from benzos and it’s very very challenging. My heart is breaking and I hope he will get over his symptoms soon. Also, the link to the support guide is 404.
I teared up watching your vid because I totally relate to what you are saying. I'm just over a year out and slowly getting better. Keep up the hard work. Just curious, how long were you on benzo's? I was on Klonopin about 10 years.
Is there any hope for me? Clonazepam 2 mg three times a day for 13 years. I don't know if I'm addicted or dependent, but it's definitely one of those and I can't not have this medicine. My family thinks that I just need to go to rehab, they don't believe me when I say that's not the way for me. I don't have any body, Only family and they don't care anymore because they think I am just using them.
There is hope. It's unlikely you're an addict unless you're abusing the medication to get high. A detox would be inappropriate either way. Try sharing the info at benzoreform.org with your family.
@@BenzoBrains I used to abuse it but haven't in years. I only take what is prescribed 2mg 2×s a day. my family, well I really don't have one at the moment. But thank you. God bless!
@sarahpearsall2248 unhealthy eating in general or the wrong supplements could thrown me off but I wouldn't call it setbacks. It's just a matter of tweaking things and then doing well again. Set backs ended up being more emotional/spiritual for me which means supplements and things weren't going to fix or change anything. I had to do the mental work
Does being completely healed feel as good as when you first get on klonopin? What exactly do I have to look forward to? I mean if I had debilitating anxiety before klonopin wouldn't I still have it once I'm done?
If you have underlying anxiety that you have not worked on aside from the klonopin it may still be present. It depends on if your anxiety was due to some physical stressor like thyroid or insulin problems, situational stress, trauma etc. Definitely look into addressing all three comoponents
@@BenzoBrains it was mainly social anxiety. I used to be very very shy and had to do a whole lot of work on myself to get my confidence up. For the longest time I refused to take any medication and I was able to transform myself into a very outgoing confident person and I was loving life...but then I started getting stage fright before I would perform and the anxiety then snowballed into every aspect of my life and that's where the klonopin came in....I feel so awkward and vulnerable around people now (6months off) and I'm so afraid I'll be stuck in this introversion even once I'm healed :( I want to be victorious and triumphant once this is over, not meek and timid
Hello! Im going throw very difficult setback from vitamins i would like to speak with you if you Can ofvourse my family and husband they dont care About me and my health
I wonder if you realize what a gift your videos are to all of us. Not only are you beautiful to watch as you speak to us from your heart, your sharing the details of what it is like to go through this hell is so much better than our trying to get our loved ones to explain what is going on for them. You have a wonderful way of speaking the truth about the effects of benzo withdrawal and what it does to the person suffering and it is a priceless gift to us. THANK YOU!
I'm so grateful for your videos this one was a real good one explaining what it is that we go through and it's worth more than money can buy to be able to have this to send to my sisters and my family into my friends that I no longer have. I have nobody zero except for one girlfriend that lives with me but she thinks it's mind over matter and it's not it's so she can you know I'm alone on the time she's busy working in his children and stuff so anyway I asked you to please watch it please watch it and anyway thank you so much I'm trying to understand myself but I'm going to do tomorrow, because I'll be the same as I am today I don't know my doctor I tried to give him some videos some videos to watch but I don't know if you will on dr. Peter breggin e r e d g i n s he knows all about the Stephanie's been into a ditch lilies files handling lawsuits in OKC things he's a very good doctor and I want to go see him eat in New York and he's never once prescribed to peel and he's a psychiatrist and he was staring at the age of 18 and eat and 88 now so anyway thank you take care
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I found you through Marissa. We met in the hospital. I came off narcotics (6 years history of daily use) May 10 and Xanax on July 12. I had tapered down for 18 months. I had NO IDEA of the horrors to befall me. I has psychotic episodes, violent episodes, raging, suicidal ideation is still problematic, cutting. They put me on Seroquel, clonidin and Mirtazipine to deal with all the effects my body was going through. I literally didn't sleep for a full week. I lost my family and my home and my entire community because of this. LIterally everyone I loved will not have anything to do with me because they think I am just acting out. IT is the worst thing I've ever gone through. I am a retired RN and I had no idea it would be like this. Thanks for educating people. I hope to do the same thing as I get better.
Debbie how r u now frd
@@sangeetalambh6389 I have improved. I still have symptoms and 2 rounds of Covid illness have made some of them worse again. But over all I qm grateful to be alive and doing as well as I am. I have an attitude of acceptance and gratitude daily. Thanks for asking.
@@debbiemayberry3260 my frd I quit alc take clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen for sleep only 15 days then quit no taper still feel disconnection of arms.and legs did u feel that sym frd ple ans 398 days sober still broken sleep 6 7 hours
@@sangeetalambh6389 Sweetheart you type exactly the way I did when I was in the throws of withdrawal. I recognize it!
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This was so helpful.
I cried with you.
Help is so important.
Knowledge is power.
I love the TV comment
My eyes hurt so bad all the TIME
I startle at EVERYTHING.
But I am persevering this 6 year hell.
I also remember going to the doctor and hardly being able to walk. So damaging
Thanks so much for all you do!!
Truly enlightened 😙💟
Holly Cline knowledge is power! For sure!!!
Angel girl, thank you so so much for making this video.. O my soul.. My friend's and family just don't understand. Even my church is not bothered with me. God bless you. Lots of love love. Thanks for fighting for us. 🕊️💕
We should start a class action law suit against the pharm companies... This situation is getting out of control... Thanks for your videos!
+Michelle Rukny You may want to consider joining my facebook activism group: facebook.com/groups/benzodiazapineclassactionlawsuit/?fref=nf
+stvnburg Big pharm has paid off the government hacks, You are wasting your time. Do a little googling , you will find all you need to know
I actually finally took a step towards helping my mother in her recovery. I reported her doctor to the American Board of Medicine and the other enforcement agencies. If you suspect that a doctor is pushing pills or giving a patient that has a history of overdose more of the same meds, there is a complaint section to report them. They immediately called us and tried to fix the issue but that complaint stays on their record, but best of all they "fired" my mom as a patient so now he can't poison her anymore.
+Michelle Rukny good for you! I've seen other doctors refuse service to benzo victims and I say good riddance...they're only good for writing a prescription and any doctor, nurse practitioner, PA can do that.
Michelle Rukny I'm going through the withdrawals right now but I am in
I am 43 and have never left a public reply anywhere... don't even log into Facebook but once a month... but I needed to tell you how much this and all of your videos are helping me and my wife. I have been on this rollercoaster for 15 years and have now had enough... I was prescribed these mess, and others, because I didn't respond to restless leg syndrome... knowing what I know now I would have told them just to cut off my legs, it would have been more humane... can you tell I am upset at the USA and our medical system? Back to the topic at hand, THANK YOU! My wife said, and I quote "I wish someone would have shown me this 5 years ago, I thought you were the A word" after watching lol. Funny as I type that, that she said that... wow, taking me an hour to type this and I am a computer techie... this disorder, disease, mistake of mankind's invention of a drug... it really does extreme stuff... God Bless and thank you again for the hope, encouragement, and well communicated information.
I'm sorry, I know how rough it can get. I'm so glad my videos have been able to help you and your wife.
Thank you for making this video Jocelyn. This can really help people understand what we deal with every single day.
Thanks Jocelyn!! This video is beyond great!! I became dependant by accident, via ignorance and my doctors prescriptions. I view this often for reinsurance that I can complete this journey!! God Bless, Greg
I am in tears watching this with loved ones. Thank you so much.
Me too, my son lying here telling me he wants to die and the drs don't understand. I'm really grateful for this insight x
well said. it is so amazing how the things we suffer from are the exact same. I'm Glad to hear your not suffering with an anxiety disorder.
In point..thank you.
This DRUG IS HELL. Clean for 3 months.💝
I know you are glad THAT is over with. That was crazy scary.
How do you that I need taper off
I'm so thankful and thank god for such a brave and noble character. Idk what I would have done without your testimony! spot on!! keep pushing foward! thank you. 😥
Thank you so much for your channel on benzo withdrawal. I just found it tonight. For some reason I never thought to check you tube for videos when I was researching how to deal with my long term use. It's difficult for me to go into my long term problem with them because of the exposure on the net. I'm grateful for your channel.
This hit my heart, im right in the middle of it and you are speaking words i have no energy to speak
Thank you so much for your raw insight into surviving benzo withdrawal. I am in the middle of it and get so frustrated with family and loved ones who have no idea the pain and severe anxiety. I just don't socialize much because nobody understands how difficult it is to be around people for hrs. I am exhausted trying to be normal. I did the stupid thing of going into 28 day detox for prescribed dose. It was brutal and I agree that slow taper is the safest and best way to get off these meds that you are dependent on not addicted to.
Thank you for putting everything i'm feeling, thinking and experiencing right now into words so perfectly!
"Hero", that fits. Tomorrow will be my 1st month, so Im still a newbie? so so hard... looking at my kid , family, friends, and not be able to tell them exactly how they can help me (and thats worse, because they feel worse) been pinball between psychiatrists , starting with a new one next week... I just hope, the 1st thing hell do is offering me medication.
Beeing divorced with no GF, at the time, makes everything harder... because, I literately dont have some one to, truly talk about this thing, only my therapist (thank god).
So this videos are a bless.... stories of small victories that help you going knowing tat, sooner or latter , it just a mater of persistence (AND TONS OF STRENGTH ) WE WILL MAKE IT.
You are greatly appreciated for your kind efforts addressing the issues you have faced.
I am considerably more knowledgeable and courteous towards my thinking thanks to you.
You're a very nice lady indeed! Kind regards
+sparkleplaytime Wow that's really wonderful to hear thank you.
I understand everything completely. I have all the same issues. All the same problems and thoughts. I wasn’t always like this, only after I took benzos, I now have multiple mental illnesses. When I was in high school I was never like this, I was friends with everyone, was with a beautiful girl, now I can’t even make a single friend. She’s now my ex. I cannot express how much I wish I found your channel years ago. I am lucky to still be here I’ve had about 7-8 seizures because of Xanax. All happened in random places where I could have hit my head but I never did. Now I’m on clonazapam, and tapering. Currently still up because of the insomnia. It should almost be 4am here in Hawaii, but I know Sometime next week my body will adjust to only taking 1mg a day and not 1.5, because I’ve gone through this so much I now know how long it normally takes my body to adjust. I’ve always told myself and my family that maybe I haven’t died from these pills because one day I can share everything , so people know that they aren’t alone, just like you are. You have said so many things that made me gasp and rewind to make sure I heard you correctly. That’s a different type of feeling for me, maybe it’s because I haven’t met even a handful of people in real life who actually lived through this hell, they understand but they haven’t lived it, so it’s a different type of understanding if that makes sense. It’s like a sense of closeness and relief when I hear you talk. At this moment I wouldn’t be able to explain all the pain I’ve gone through in detail, my thoughts race to much for me to gather the right words. All I tell my drs when they ask is “hell” I was in so much pain day in and day out that I convinced myself that this pill(Xanax)was a demon. Satans creation. Even now i suffer long term effects from the Xanax even tho I’m on clonazapam now. Thank you so much.
You're welcome. I know exactly what you mean. It’s so deeply comforting to see and hear someone who understands!
Yes I agree. Evil creation
Weren’t these developed by Nazis ?
We should call you Benzos beauty, for helping so many people out there !
Thank you so much for taking the time to advocate and explain. I can't seem to find the words!🙏💜
Thank you is enough. Thanks ❤
Keep up the great work spreading the message.
Jocelyn, thank u so much for this video. i must send this to everyone! I live in the Berkshires Ma. so I'm sure u can imagine all the wonderful help there is here. lol. Medical Community is only intersted in putting ppl on meds Not taking them off. I did it all myself been the loneliest time in my life. I did the taper in 3 months. 4 mlg of Ativan and 30 of ambien, yes prescribed by Dr. 12 years. 2 years since the actual jump. Finally just starting to do ok, CNS is still fragile, but I'm getting there. I am hoping next year at this time at the 3 year mark ill be tons better :) Thanks again for this wonderful video.
You're welcome and I definitely get what you are saying. Ironically, I find that the less educated someone is, the less they understand this syndrome. Educated people are much more empathetic and open minded.....except for those in the medical profession. They are, unfortunately, the worst! I wish you a speedy recovery
Twilightsprite1-i am close to the Berkshires, I'm wondering if you have found any benzowise doctors since your post. I hope you are healed and well.
A family member has been on clonazepam for over ten years. She sleeps 12 hours a day, never goes anywhere. Sees her doctor once every three months for ten minutes. He's killing her, and I can't get her to realize this.
Orella Minx
My friend too and I recently quit.
She is having klonic jerking interdose withdrawl.
Looks like death, and I look pretty bad too.
Praying for us all 😍
Another fantastic video. You've hit a home run yet again. Keep up the great work!
Hi I am going through all of this and would never wish it upon anyone! Right now currently as of today I am having psychotic thoughts.. Very disturbing and I'm scared! I feel like I am extremely high on something awful and I've been suffering for a long time. I don't know how I am ever going to feel normal again? My poor mom cried to me today, my family is stressed to see me like this. It's horrible bc I feel like it's all in my head. I scream and cry prob 3x a day, sometimes I feel like I can't do this anymore.. You are a strong strong strong person to have gone through this. I'm scared, anything comforting would be nice
Hi I know what that's like and you will heal. I know it doesn't seem like it know but we are capable of enduring more than we realize. think of the concentration camp victims who went on to live long , good lives after years of torture. Accept, accept, distract, distract, that's all you can do. think of something you can do every half hour. "this half hour I'm going to watch a video,next half hour I'll do some stretching, next I'll take a bath, next ill talk to someone on the phone. whatever you can do. you'll still be suffering but it will be different because you'll be focusing on a goal. I found support groups to be very helpful , the benzodiazepine awareness and legal action group is helpful for many because they feel their suffering serves a purpose, making a difference. you're young you have a good long life ahead of you. this is only a short time in your life history.
Thank you so much for ALL YOU DID AND ARE DOING HELPING OUR LOVED ONES, FRIENDS, AND US!❤🍀My very great friend thinks so highly of you and I am starting on my own Benzo Titration with his help. You look great and I am motivated by you. Seriously. Been through this before cold turkey and am getting help from a man that understands. Thank you honey. I am a newbie and I am so willing and wanting this, yet sooo scared. I am looking. I am listening...
Erin
Love your videos! I’m so happy for you educating us on all of this! I’m 61 years old and I have been on these pills Xanax for 30 years! Never did one dr tell me how bad they were! I’m truly devastated and scared to get off,! But I must!
my 'loved one' made things 100x worse...if you have supportive non-drug users, you're lucky
Thank you for this video . I thought I was going crazy . I know I had many relapses on benzos cuz I didn't understand what was going on cuz I didn't understand what was going on .Memory loss , brain fog , delusion , depression , suicidal thought , trouble speaking , hormone imbalance and the list goes on ....I started using them as prescribed at first but starting upping the dose cuz they stopped working for my insomnia . I thought about committing suicide , lost two jobs and a few relationships . Keep fighting and don't lose hope .
Just go 403 how r u now frd
@@sangeetalambh6389 doing good , had withdrawals for 2 years ( i was taking clonazepam for 10 years ) and still suffer from tiredness and memory problems but that could just be me hitting 40 lol . I have a good job now and started a new apprenticeship.
@@justgo4033 my frd I quit alc and nicoteen take clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen 75 for sleep only 15. days tthen quit no taper feel disconnection of arm and leg did u feel that sym my frd ple ans I m 397 days sober now
@@sangeetalambh6389 good for you being sober👍. I felt completely disconnected from my body when i was coming off benzo
@@justgo4033 do u smoke nicoteen frd
Class action cases regarding medications should be against the Psychiatrist (they prescribe them to Damn long!) Perhaps the company’s that send them out should verify no patients taking Benzodiazepines longer than 5 week’s maximum!) Dr’s that cut you off cold turkey should be admonished, suspended, terminated.
Report to medical board...Dr. Howard s Weiss had 120 felony convictions brought against him...and lost his license ....he .could only see profit over patient care !!! I hate that my son ever met that man ..
Wow 5 year's ago you must feel amazing. All these videos are scaring me the most about cold turkey when doctors don't won't help. All they say is go to hospital and they do nothing either...Thank-you if I make it I'll send a message. Very calming video🙏
I've been there. It is hard nearly impossible to function going through it. It is painful in multiple ways, and it's a living nightmare.
Thank you for making this. I am still going through the process. I took 4 mg of klonopin daily for about nine years. Unfortunately, my mom and my sister have been dismissive about this. My sister got a friend to talk about her experiences with benzos and used that to minimize what I was and am going through. My mom refused, the one time I asked her, to help me out, when a simple daily task got to be too much. The one time they took it seriously was to use it as a pretext for dismissing some of my observations about another's behavior towards me. Neither read the materials I sent them. I encourage others to not be like them. Support your loved one as she or he goes through this. That will mean a lot, and your failure to do so will remain an ugliness they have to face for some time to come.
I'm sorry I know what that's like. Just know that broken relationships can heal just like broken minds and bodies heal with time and the right tools
I would have gone to a mental hospital but i didnt have the money. I could do nothing. Couldnt sit...couldnt lie in bed...couldnt get comfortable...second by agonizing second and there is NOTHING you can do to make it go away.
Weed
@@giazadora7030 Weed is definitely not a good choice in benzo withdrawal
True,weed just made it worse for me
Thank you for your videos. We can feel very lonely because when we walk with friends, we feel like we’re walking in our own separate tunnel /bubble 😔
It can be very isolating, going through something so extreme. It's always comforting to see a face and know they understand
you get it! Not many do..i was on for 15 years.. ..i am off ( 0.5) for three month. little uncomfortable first two weeks but manageable with exercises..interrupted sleep for sure .. really bad at two weeks..Horrible... then got better. (0.5 was not working for me, and i only took it at night) I used to take 0.5 twice a day. ...people tell me to get back on my "meds". they dont get it. i over eat a lot, gained 25 pounds but now sleeping!! Dr dont no ANYTHING! about withdrawl or they would not perscribe
Jeff Nichols how did u tapper off?
God bless you Sweetie I watch this video alot and i cry. Just wanted to tell you Thank you so much. I sent it to my family not sure they watched are not.But Thank you. Still taping and praying for All going through this. Its Hard
I went to your Family site you listed and i have been use Point of Return program. Did you try it and did it help you
Congratulations, Jocelyn, on your 1-year benzo-free anniversary!
If my husband will be amenable to viewing this, I'd like to show this particular video to him. When I was going through acute W/D symptoms from my former psych ripping me off one cocktail and popping me on another, I'd get "You're being melodramatic" and "You're being so self-centered" from him constantly. How could I *not* be focused on this crap while enduring it 24/7? :-/ I love my husband but often feel that he doesn't "get" what's going on.
I have to add that, even when I was going through this private hell, I was still able to work a full-time job, bring my kids to and from school, do homework with them, and cook dinner before simply being DONE and curling up in a bed with an adult-coloring book. I told my husband point-blank, LOOK, I've done everything I can to meet your and the boys' needs as a wife and mother; could you PLEASE try to meet some of mine? Time will tell, especially when I am finally off all of this GARBAGE my former psych put me on. :-/
In the past few months (probably since late March or early April), I've started to feel SO much better, and my husband has even mentioned (as yours has, as I saw in one of your other videos), that "the old me" is coming back. :) :) Some of my friends have told me the same thing.
I am very worried, though, because I still have a LONG way to go to get off the cocktail my psych put me on after I was released from the hospital. Fortunately, I have a new (great) psych who is accepting and amenable to slow tapers. I've successfully cut down my Zoloft by more than half, and also successfully cut my Ativan dose in half (from 2 mg since Nov. to 1 mg in April) and have stabilized and HOLDING at that dose, because since April, I'm tapering down on Seroquel (an atypical--who knows why my former doc put me on that??) and am hitting a wall. I'm almost 2/3 of the way done with S, but am going to talk to my doc about holding for a little while b/c I'm not all the way stabilizing on the lowering dose. It kind of spooks me out because I first started having all these problems when my doctor took me from 20 mg Latuda down to 0 with no tapering. Latuda and Seroquel are similar, albeit Latuda hasn't been in the market as long as Seroquel, so maybe I won't have as hard a time. Regardless, I'm going to hold at a low dose of S for as long as I need to, because I never want to go back to that HELL again. I don't want to put my family through that HELL again. :( (UG, and I still have stupid Lamictal and Trazodone to taper off from.) >:(
Sorry for the novel, but I have to vent and hopefully receive some feedback. Your hubby seems SO supportive and loving of you. Was your hubby always accepting of what you were going through, or did he have a tough time for a while as well?
My hat goes off to you--and my heart goes OUT to you--for all you've endured.
hopefully my husband will be doing an interview soon and you can see it from his point of view. he did not always understand what was going on and received conflicting advice from friends and family. it was something we had to navigate together. FYI there is a support group for friends and family on facebook called Benzo withdrawal loved ones guide. it looks like you're in for a long journey and I'm sure your husband could use the support. I'm sorry you were placed on so many mind altering drugs without real consent. it's mind rape really
Yeah, I'm really disgusted that my old psych--AND the hospital to which I was admitted--put me on so many meds. Yet I'm also disgusted in myself for signing onto this crap. It wasn't like the doctors held a gun to my head and forced me to take these meds or anything, so I bear some responsibility in this whole ordeal. I guess I just believed them when they told me the meds would help me--because they're doctors, for crying out loud. :(
Yes, I fear that it will take me several years to taper down from all of these meds, but I'm never going to do a rapid taper, as my two previous psychs tried to do with disastrous results. I take pride in being able to work and support my family, so as much as I can minimize my W/D symptoms, the better. I've decided to put a temporary hold on my Seroquel taper to stabilize on my current dose and let my nervous system catch up. My current doctor is cool with this, even though IMO she isn't the most benzo-wise, and I've had to bring printouts of the Ashton Manual to her. :P Which, to her credit, she has been receptive to reading--unlike my other two dolts for psychs.
But anyway--thanks again for your ongoing support and advocacy in the community. I can't believe HOW many people whose lives have been altered, sometimes irreparably, by the damage these drugs can do.
I'm looking forward to viewing your husband's interview btw. :)
You are an amazing person :-) you are so good on describing how we feel . No one understands me really
You are so strong and very intelligent and I'm so grateful that I found your channel and few months ago. I wanted to let you know, that yesterday, I saw my Doctor and I told her about your channel and about the Ashton manual. Since I've been seeing this new Doctor, she's been very gentle in tapering me off of my sleeping pill. I've been on the Ambien for 25 years, and we've been taking 1 full mg every 2 months. If I let her know that, I need to stay there, maybe for 2 more months, she's very kind hearted and is willing to work with me, pretty much like Dr. Ashton says, that these decreases @ 10% of Valium, I believe that because I've been on the Xanax and Ambien for 25 years, I'm hoping that my Doctor and I, if needed, would slow it down, to a place where I'm not suffering, to the point of suicide. I don't want to work on getting off all. 3 meds, all at the same time. I had also remembered you saying, this should be a light bulb moment, and that if you have a Doctor who is willing to work with you. I'm beyond terrified, because many times, I've had Doctors, who have moved out of state, My last Doctor, before coming to this place, got very ill and had to close his office. Jocelyn, I'm terrified, because I got so sick before and it was just a short time, 9 days and I couldn't function. Do you think that trying to come off of the meds, due to my age 52, and
the fact that I've been on them for 25 years, that , once I'done tapering, that I will die. In the past, I wasn't being given my meds, I've had seizures, auditory hallucinations and regular hallucinations, seeing things? I live alone and will not have any help. This is the most frightening thing to me. Thank you.
Hey Jocelyn, it took me a bit of time and I thought, if you ended up in my recommendation's , that I'd try to go to your Benzo brain's channel Yeees! It's back up! I'm so happy! Great job! Thank you! 💞🙌🙏👋👋👋👋🙏👍👍
thankyou for posting this. There is so much i wanted to say but just couldn't get it across due to this horrible illness. Im 11 months out and much the same as you , have good and bad days but dont feel like im going to die anymore. one day we will have our lives back! I have shared this with my family and it help alot. Thanks again
You're welcome. I understand how bad the cognitive fog can be. Good Luck
This made me cry. Thank you. I love you.
Thank you for this, my wife is currently in rehab for a 7 year benzo dependence. When I talk to her she’s so cold, mean and angry with me when she used to be so loving and sweet with me. She comes home in 2 weeks and I’m so nervous to interact with her
I'm sorry. I hope rehab helps. They usually get people off too fast and then they still go through withdrawal recovery for a long time after they get home. Either way your wife will heal and she will come back to herself slowly bit by bit. I have a video entitled "How to pretend to be human" that she might want to watch when she gets back. It's hard for us to see how much we've changed and we really do have to make an effort to pretend to be kind and such while we're healing from this cruel injury. Best of luck
@@BenzoBrains Mam I was on clonazepam for only 1 month. My doctor left me cold turkey and I went through withdrawals. Very very bad withdrawals.
But my psychiatrist gave me pregabalin 75mg and paroxetine 12.5 mg. My withdrawals reduced. But when I went to pregabalin 50mg, my withdrawals came back. But now I'm stable on 50mg after 2 weeks. Should I go more slow??
Please help
I'm experiencing horrific withdrawals from taking a milder benzo 2-3 times a week for about a year. I can't even begin to imagine what daily users are going through... :/
Tobias did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 101 days sober
@@sangeetalambh6389 Absolutely i did, it was awful. I never wanna go through that again..
@@Toby8845 did u feel stomach cramps
@@sangeetalambh6389 I wouldn't call it cramps, but i had a very upset stomach yes
I would not have support from my husband because he has flat-out told me he could not go through another withdrawal with me. He says he would have to leave (I would be completely alone) till I was was better. He would check in on me dailt. Gee, thanks! To be fair, he has been through some bad anxiety himself (without meds), including the death of his son from a drug overdose, and the drug use of his srcond son, who wifr died of alcohol and drug abuse last January. He really cannot cope with stress, though.
Thanks for the new vid.You are great!They got us under the influence.I'm going to start micro tapering.
Very inspiring.
Dr's suck.But they are needed.
Thanks again LMP.
Good Luck with your taper!
Thank you for responding. I did stop taking xanax and went on and am now on a long acting benzo....Klonopin. Klonopin works alot slower than xanax so i cant and dont pop klonopin like i did xanax so i dont think i am quite as addicted to the klon than i was the xanax. I am allowed per script 3 .5mg tablets per day but have only been taking one a day. I also take Lunesta at night and that is really helping i think. I took ambien for years but never ever got addicted to it. I could stop taking it on a dime if i had to and not feel anything....except not getting to sleep as quickly as i would like. I think i am going to stick to the once per day klonopin for now and then in a few weeks or months take it every other day. I will just do this one day at a time. God bless
For 10 months off at the time of this video you appear more coherent than I could be! Plus you look good also. Were you Polydruded? I was taken off of many at the same time and seriously feel as though I have some brain damage and I'm just over a year cold turkey.
Jeff Linke yes I was poly drugged. I had cold turkeyed Cymbalta a few months before benzo withdrawal
Jeff Linke how r u now my frd
@@sangeetalambh6389 Oh my gosh, as far as recovering from the Benzos , Antidepressants, Opioids -- my cognitive functioning is close to 100%. I was on so many different prescriptions it was unbelievable. I found Medical Medium Anthony William and decided to give it a try and began drinking celery juice and cutting out the Bad Foods. It worked. Off all my stomach and intestinal pills, just off of everything except one pain med and even for that one I am taking 1/30th of what i was. I really do suffer from horrible pain, but going through the hell of being on 2.5 mg of Klonopin daily for 16 years was a touch, plus others like Amytryptaline, multiple antidepressants, and other pain killers like Ultram and Muscle Relaxers. It been an incredible past 5 years.
@@jefflinke2772 my frd ur dp dr fade in tthose years ple aans
My family and friends have given up on me. They believe that the benzos have made me unwell but over time they have just got on with their lives and I don't blame. At one point I was so unwell they had me sectioned. They thought it was for the best, it wasn't. I am lucky to have a local benzo support group close to me who are all ex benzo users so they get it. Also, I have a GP who understands the damage that benzos can do. He says I have a damaged central nervous system. My family have been excellent with helping my daughter over the years. When I couldn't go to an event involving my daughter they would step in and take her, she never missed out on fun days or family events. My mother would do so very much for my daughter and I. Just being there to step in if I couldn't cope. That gave my daughter and I so much time together that would have been lost. One of the worse things for me it not being able to clean the house and being reliant on others, it is humiliating. I work at a senior level for a major global beer company and then a moved in to medical sales. I was earmarked to achieve great things in my career and I was on target to do that until I took benzos for panic attacks. Within weeks I was having problems. I would go to see clients who I had known for years who were friends, but thanks to the benzos I would sit in my car at these appointments and just cry, to scared to get out of the car and go and see these people. I served in the Parachute Regiment in war zones and being on benzos filled me with more fear than being in a fire fight with the enemy. I could control myself in battle, but the benzos took that control away from him. In the end the sound of the door bell you have me in such a state of terror I would go and sit at my local A&E department because I was convinced I was dying. In combat, I was afraid but I had my mates with me and I was focused on protecting my comrades. With benzos I was alone in a continuous world of fear and pain. I now live alone. I can't work. I am basically a mess. The real me is gone. Everyday I just want to die on my terms. I don't for the sake of my daughter. I feel like the worse father in the world. I have failed my little girl so badly.
I'm so sorry. I know how holding on to your kids gives you strength and yet the parent guilt we feel is overwhelming. I'm so glad you have the support you do. I am discovering things that may help people who are long term injured. Hopefully one will be a healing factor for you
How can it be that doctors don't know about this? How can it be?
ty so much for your courage and strength. God bless you
LTBOMB 719 thank you
Thank you very much for that video ! My husband and I are French. I am the one tapering Valium and having a very hard time. It would be so useful to have the English subtitles on the video so that my husband could understand a little more. He is not very good at English without the subtiles ! If you could do that one day it would be wonderful 🙏
I live alone and I went through everything you describe. I couldn’t go to a doctor even if I wanted to. I could not do anything. It’s so true about loneliness. I wanted someone to be here doing some small things. I didn’t want to interact at all.
This is me, how did you have basic needs met? Also how long to recover and feel functional. Thank you
@@Waves353 Hello! I took care of myself completely. I ordered groceries on line which was a godsend. I am retired so working wasn’t an issue and my income is satisfactory for anything I need. Even now I still have balance problems and many headaches. I went cold turkey in January 2019. I feel very ill when I think about it! I have a weak heart from the stress on my body. It’s rare but it happens!
how long were you on the benzos?
sorry for any mess up but I'm talking into my phone and my old doctor primary doctor said it would take a very long time and that's what I was trying to tell my new primary but she didn't care and then I found a new doctor and family doctor but I would never ever ask them because I don't trust any doctors now because they don't seem to care or do their research so I was just wondering did you just go to the doctor to get your medicine and you did your own tapering or did you have the Ashton manual because I don't trust any doctors to help after what I went through
+Jen Gemini I did the taper myself using the ashton manual as a guide. Please watch my video ua-cam.com/video/02VQSCqa6zE/v-deo.html I did liquid titration, micro tapering using valium. All my doctor was there for was to fill the prescription each month. Most doctors will be of little to no help during a taper unfortunately.
littlemissperfect ..exactly how I feel with doctors now and what makes me so mad is they did a documentary in England in the early 80s about a woman that was in England and she was taking Ativan and her doctor was prescribing like 6 months worth of Ativan to her and they had this reporter that did research on it and found out that certain doctors did use people to take this medication to see how it would work on them and then take it away And the reporter went to the person that actually made this medication who was the creator of Ativan and of course he was playing golf and this reporter went up to him and said why are you still letting this medication be on the market and the reporter told this man people that are taking his medication and then would stop we're going through horrific horrible withdrawals that seem to last a long long time they were going through hell and it's because you are still allowing your medication to be distributed to people and these people are really hurting from this medication and knowing that these people have problems they still prescribe this medication and ofcourse to this day when this reporter guy went up to the man who's playing golf at the time he tract this guy down who created it and he started hitting the reporter with the golf club and the guy still there you know trying to block him self and kept asking this guy why are you doing this this medication is deadly he didn't answer of course he didn't care and he just kept trying to hit the reporter it was so crazy watching this so back then they even knew! I found this video on UA-cam a couple of months back so there were people back then finding out that this medication for anxiety which is all the anxiety medications we're not good for people to take and they were giving these people this medication for a long time,the news reporter actually went to another doctor who was prescribing it at the time to the woman and of course she didn't want to answer anything and this was the woman that finally stop writing the prescriptions to the woman they were doing the documentary on and they show this woman trying to go through the withdrawals and how bad it is and putting her in the hospital and of course it never got better for her and she had to start taking it again from another doctor,so this makes me so angry at myself because I usually do research and for me at the time this is over 4 years ago not knowing I'm just thinking It was just some thing that would help me because of something I was going threw at the time, and my doctor told me it sounds like you have bad anxiety and need medication. And not doing my research I feel it was my fault but these doctors should be held responsible for not doing their research or even if they do know not telling us what could happen and realize that this is worse than any type of form of drug because there is no relief it is a forever type of medication that is the longest process to get off and is very life threatening, but thanks to people like you who try to help ...so thank you again from the bottom of my heart for really caring!
am 3 months clean after been taken between 10-15mg of xanax daily for 9 year's.. its been tough but everyday I'm feeling better, your an inspiration Jocelyn,your eyes are beautiful BTW
and I actually have done it more or less cold turkey,I took 0.5mg a day for 4 days and am 3 months free of all benzos today
Tuckr Maug I'm glad to hear you're currently benzo free! I wish you a full recovery and hope you are implementing the life changes you need so you never feel the need to take xanax again.
Tuckr Maug did you continue to work through your withdrawals
It's me did u feel emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 102 days sober
Please please everyone if don't take Benzo if your dealing with anxiety. Please visit a therapist or go to support groups. Therapy will help you therapy is like medicine for the soul. Stay away from medication drugs. My life is ruined im fighting for my life.
This was very good. Thank you. I see below you said yu slow tapered yourself off a la Ashton protocol. Did you take any other meds to help you off? Also any thoughts on older people who have been on these for decades if it worth it to come off. Thank you.
BRIAN!!!!!!!!!! It worries me to hear that you are going cold turkey! Am I hearing that right? No no no you don't want to do that. Sweetie really honestly that scares me so much. Please reconsider what you're doing and try to give yourself a break and know that you're not thinking right. It's okay it's okay it's temporary. It really truly is I promise. No I'm very scared and worried that if you go cold turkey the horror will be too much for you. Prayer is a daily part of my life and I understand how it feels to be miserable like this but please remember your body needs to heal and your brain needs to heal so don't do anything drastic. Please please don't
I quit alc take benzo clonazepam 2.5 and qutipen 75 for sleep only 15 days then quit still strugling feel depersonalization 418days sober now
This is fantastic. Thank you!!!
I've been talking klonopin since March. I got off xanax when i refill ran out after being on it for 3 years and i went through the worst withdrawls i never knew even could be felt. It was absolutely horrible. I will never go through that again. I'll stay addicted to klonopin if i have to.
What you experienced was a cold turkey, and I agree, no human being should ever have to endure that. I remember feeling exactly this way when I attempted a rapid taper off Ativan. there is a HUGE difference between rapid tapers, cold turkey, and a slow, micro taper over 10-24 months. I did a 15 month micro taper after switching to valium. It was not easy, it was miserable, but it was nothing like the hell of my Ativan taper. I hope you will consider this option. three years is not too bad. the older you get, the more at risk you are for dimentia and alzhiemer's . People over 65 have an 80% or more risk of dimentia and alzheimer's from long term use of benzos. That's not even taking into account the who host of other problems they cause.
Thank you! She’s not even aware of how she changed. She changed into a demon the last few months and turned against her entire family and I. Hopefully she’ll come around. Thank you
Hi, thank you for doing this, I almost died when my doctor at the time got in some trouble and I couldn't go to him no longer and back then he never told me when he prescribed this medication to me for anxiety that it would take forever almost to be healed from it he never explained anything and stupid me never did my research so when he was gone I cold turkey of course had no choice so I did it for 3 months it was horrible going into the second month I started doing research and found out it could take up to 90 days or more years just to get normal again I almost died I had to go to my primary doctor at the time I told him what was going on my friend drove me there they fit me in to see the doctor which is my primary at the time I have a new one now and she tried to hurry up and do a fast taper on me and I told her that the primary doctor I was seeing before her told me it could take a long time it's something that you can't do quickly well he left and he moved away and so this new doctor I'm seeing she did not care she told me would only take 4 weeks if that and I should be fine I was trying to show research to her she didn't care to see it so thankfully I found a family doctor that prescribes it again for me because like I said before I almost died from not having a medication my heart rate was over a hundred and thirty they did a EKG on me and that's what my old primary doctor was like it's what you're taking for anxiety you need to take this I'm not supposed to write this for you but since you almost could have died I'm going to write this for you and we are going to do this properly but of course something happened and he moved and I found like I said another doctor a family doctor but my question to you is if you can't find a doctor that will listen to you how did you do the taper basically how did you get the medication did you just get the medication from another doctor and not tell them that you were trying to taper and you decided just to do the tapper through the knowledge of social media or the Ashton manual if I said that correctly I just want to know how you were able to do a slow taper because I will never tell any doctors about this because they do not want to be bothered to help basically I'm going to try to do the tapering myself and then in the Ashton manual that I read it online it says you go from one anxiety medication to a lower dose after you've done your long-time tapering off the medication you started with and then from there you go to volumes and do a slow slow slow taper with that please let me know how you did it basically did you have to get a new doctor and they believe you or did you just get the medication from a doctor and you do it yourself sorry for such a long comment but I have watching your videos I don't remember if you said that you did find someone who helped a doctor to get the medication or you just didn't tell them and you did it yourself and thank you so much for being there because I know how painful and how horrible this whole situation is when I went through it just three months I'm going through it it was horrendous
+Jen Gemini Then answer to your question is Yes. Find a new doctor, don't even tell them your tapering if you don't have to and do it yourself. Some doctors are more comfortable prescribing if they know your trying to get off the benzo, and others only seem to become anxious when they know you're trying to get off. They assume they're dealing with an addict and force you off. ua-cam.com/video/02VQSCqa6zE/v-deo.html
littlemissperfect ..Thank you so much, I will watch it and also thank you for caring so much to help others💖
@@aambler16 you just don't get it. Try to listen not judge on things like if a person isn't using a period, be kind.
i was on ambien for only a month and a half only taking as prescribed, 6 weeks after unwittingly quitting cold turkey and im feeling improvements finally
that's fantastic. I'm so glad you're improving. I was like that for four months after a cold turkey and ended up reinstating. I had only been on ambien about a week.
Youre definitely right when you say that its hell, i was scared that i had permanent damage to my brain and that the pain would last forever and some days i thought my life was over, but theres hope now :) God bless anyone else suffering with this
What advice do you have for a family whose loved one denies that benzos are contributing to their illness? The loved one also has a history of drug and alcohol abuse. Benzos were prescribed during alcohol rehabilitation and have been taken for 10 years. Agoraphobia, panic, tremors and seizures are happening now at 40mg of diazepam daily. We are desperate to get her to even review the information and videos we have found. Any suggestions are appreciated. Stay well
Hi the thought of going 9off a benzo for anyone who has experienced acute withdrawal can be so terrifying. They have to be totally committed this video may help but honestly if they're not ready I'm not sure what can be done. Some people find it less scary if someone handles their taper for them and they have no idea when they're reducing. ua-cam.com/video/r9heNJxCR8I/v-deo.html
Hi Jocelyn I'm Mark and age 56 I'm don't think I want to stop, I feel like I'm to old plus I went thru cardiac arrest and I don't think my body can handle the shock
I'm sorry to hear that. While I know people older than you who have successfully tapered, no one should feel coerced into quitting. It's a personal decision. Many unfortunately are forced and my hope is this information will help them and those who chose to get off.
how did you cope with the insomnia that came with the withdrawals? I'm having a hard time with it. I could cope with all the psychological symptoms if I could only sleep.
Ghoulin Rouge hi I'm sorry I know how frustrating it is to feel like if you could just get enough sleep things would be so much more bearable. unfortunately, as with the other symptoms you are experiencing the best way to handle insomnia is to accept accept accept, distract distract distract. focusing on it will only drive you nuts and cause you to make poor choices out of desperation. I will say the one thing that did help me post taper was making sure to get enough protein throughout the day and not spike my blood sugar . always eating a protein with a carb and making sure your carbs are low glycemic such root vegetables will help to stabilize insulin and cortisol and can greatly help with sleep issues. I've seen it work for myself and others so I know it's worth a try for you.
littlemissperfect I've watched your video on your protein shake. I have one but it's made of peas and the glutamic acid scares me. it's pretty high. isn't that the same as glutamate?
Hi, thanks for making this. It is very helpful, and I can relate. Just wondering if you've ever been told you resemble Lacy Chabert?
Spacystacy32 haha, I did one of those Facebook generators one time that was supposed to match you with your celebrity doppelganger and it came up with Lacy Chabert
Is there a video for family members who live with Benzodiazepan users? I would like to see one. I currently live with my Mum who is tapering. Whilst it is hard for the user it's terribly hard for me, my son... Tools to deal with this. Advice on the constant, daily issues, negativity, obsessions, blankness.... Support for people living with someone tapering?
Natty Lee Carter I've discussed this with my husband several times, getting him to do one from the perspective of a loved one. As of now I haven't made one
Benzo Brains can you then suggest any helpful websites? Most are support for the taperer not the cater or family member going thru this with them?
Hi, again :)
Thank you so much for this- I notice it was posted a year ago and I am hoping and praying you have made even more recovery!!
You are a blessing to this small community who desperately need advocates.
I am currently tapering off of xanax, and then clonazepam, at 3 mgs a day for 6 years. I am almost done. But it hasn't gotten any easier at all- only harder.
I am wondering how long after the benzo is out of your system that your body starts producing seratonin again. I dont epect to feel like "myself" again anytime soon, but would sure like to feel a little better.
Many thanks and blessings!
Natalie Dols congratulations on getting this far. I know it gets harder as you get lower. everyone is different as far as getting regulated again. you'll see improvement month by month in between waves that can feel like set back but they're not. each wave gets less intense. I'm better now but I'm dealing with some chronic health issues related to benzo use so I can still be pretty limited some days in my physical functioning. but mentally it's way better.
Im off ativan after a rapid ativan taper after i was on it for 5 weeks. Doctor refused to do a slow valium crossover taper. Im now off ativan 6 months and I suffer from scary intrusive thoughts almost everyday and coffee seems to cause it because when i drink just 1 cup or less in the morning i dont get it as much or at all.
Did you have scary intrusive thoughts post taper?
@rockit5288 I'm sorry I completely forgot to respond the other day! Intrusive thoughts are a common side effect. If you know the trigger that's a huge blessing. I would avoid all caffeine including coffee and tee for a while until you're more stable. Try decaf in the mornings and licorice root for stable energy throughout the day or any other adaptogenic herbs
How are you feeling now?
Not only I'm suffering horrible withdrawal but the only person I trust I'm afraid is not understading how it feels and I'm afraid he's getting less close to me because of this withdrawal :(
How're you doing now?
Anna boreo did u feel fatigue like no spirit in body and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 102 days sober
I feel a lot better now! ❤️ It was hard at the time I was on benzodiazepines and I was trying to withdrawal slowly, but now I definitely feel fine!
I felt really fatigued when I was tapering and at the beginning after I finished my taper. It took a bit of time to get better. now I feel a lot better, life becomes normal again don't worry. and don't worry it will get better, don't get discouraged. I know it's hard when you are tapering or when you ar off from little time. But with time it gets a lot better
@@annaboero8445 did u feel emptyness and stomach cramps in ur withdrawal please ans I m 102 days sober
5:00 Am - Awful business this benzo taper. I would like to go to my niece’s recital today. The only way is to cheat a little. Can I go? Can I cheat a little? I’ve cheated 6 times already in the past 21 days. - So. I’m gonna come up 2 days short. Can my doctor help?
I'm 4 months off ativan and prozac.. I only took it for 26 days and I was told that I could just quit because it wasnt long term.. so I quit cold turkey.. over allot of my symptoms.. my windows are getting longer.. but I still have a few days where I'm EXTREMELY DIZZY AND WOBBLY... Does this mean that I'm almost over my withdrawals?
It sounds like you're healing. You may be sensitive for a long time though so be careful not to push yourself harder or ingest anything that could set you back.
@@BenzoBrains I just started back working and it's taking a toll on me.. I still get where I feel panicky.. and I have to coach myself back to reality.. I'm still having a few internal tremors when I'm waking up or dozing off but it's only like once a week now
@@BenzoBrains also the doctor placed me on prednisone steriods because he said that I had sinusitis infection.. the steriod made me feel like I was gonna lose my mind when I came off it after five days.. intrusive thoughts like crazy.. and this urge like I was gonna lose control smh but I didn't.. has this ever happened to you?
@@BenzoBrains I ended up in the hospital last night with another panic attack.. dizzyness, pail skin, and my heart rate was 103... But it's always fast with these benzo withdrawals.. the dr tried to give me a shot but I was afraid that it would set me back so I refused treatment 😭😭😭
Thank you for making this. How long exactly did it take for these symptoms to go away. It's been about two months for me. This last weekend was very hard I had a funeral to attend. I can only imagine how much of a fool I made of myself. I actually had made the decision to begin taking medication (kolonopin) again. I just couldn't get myself to make the phone call to do so. To be honest I don't really know how much longer I can continue this. It really seems to be doing more harm than good. Also I stopped cold turkey after nearly ten years of taking this
Jordan Cuevas Hi, from what I understand you're 2 months post cold turkey. if that's the case you're situation is different from mine because I tapered. You spent years taking a medication which altered your central nervous system and it will take time for that to heal. if you do get back on Klonipin you would need to get on a much higher dose just to stabilize out, and even then it may not work. that's why the Ashton Manual only recommends reinstating within the first couple of weeks after a cold turkey. I would like to give you a soecific time frame for healing but everyone is different. right now you are experiencing acute withdrawal and that will likely last for 1-2 years. Then your symptoms will ease and you will start becoming normal again. I know that seems unbearably long, and it really is, but there are many others just like you are right now. Learn what you can from these people in the online support communities. make accommodations for your current level of ability or disability and ride out the storm for the next year or two. You can get through this and move on from this to live a good life. For now, it's war between healing and suffering, but the healing will win in the end ♡
Can you do a detailed video about how long you used benzos, how much? And how you tapered and how long you have been in recovery? Benzo free. 😁💗. Please. Id love to hear it exactly the way it happen and you became free again.
I answer your questions in this video and probably one other ua-cam.com/video/m4nDpHBiZCM/v-deo.html
This one
ua-cam.com/video/bXZpk5NJ8Lg/v-deo.html
Couldn't be explained better..thank you
Im at the beginning of where you were. A 4 week quick taper then reinstated to liquid valium. I hope you see this comment and can answer. I am trying to be a mom to 2 kids as well. In one of your videos you said the valium concentrate with alcohol was bad. Thats the one I am using. It took me out of acute. Do you think its ok to use that form? Also How did you do your micro taper? Did you stick to a schedule or cut when feeling symptoms were down? How was your taper? Was it hell all the way down? I would be SO grateful if you could answer. Thank you so much for these videos.
Krissy T Hi. if you're responding well to the liquid Valium then don't worry about it. I did follow a schedule like the one I discuss in my video Safely Tapering off Benzodiazepines. it was a daily micro reduction so there were no big cuts but I would hold here and there as needed. For me my entire taper was difficult but I did see some improvement. everyone is different though and this may not be the case for you.
Is "brain lock" a symptom from benzo and tapering? Like you don't understand anything simple? Please someone answer
Yes absolutely
@@BenzoBrains Thank you so much! ❤ I suffer that all day.
I am so glad you answered. I am so happy for you that you survived and got your life back. You are my inspiration.
I had never addiction to anything, I haven't even even been drunk.
My biggest love, almost 16 years old dog had to put to sleep 2021 summer. The sorrow was too much (have had many traumas and depression that have survived) and I became to have awful panic attacks and the time. Doctor descriped me 6 x 15 mg oxazepam, little by little and didn't warn me about the tolerance or anything. I usted them to attacks as descriped. Then I and my childhood family and boyfriend became to worry and I wanted to taper. A mean doctor saw me and I asked for help and she was so rude and send me to rehab center. I was then on 4 x 15 mg of oxazepam. They took 30 mg of oxazepam in a week. I didn't sleep, I could barely speak, my blood pressure was high, food didn't stay inside me. I saw a doctor outside the rehab center and I was sented to hospital. There was that mean doctor and said I couldn't have any withdrawl, I was very sick. Then she sent to holiday, luckily. And other doctor saw me, I had 1 x 15 mg oxazepam at the time. He said I have withdrawl symptons and gave me 10 mg of diazepam and told me to crossover at home. At home I got to sleep and could wake up in a normal feeling and say breakfast and coffee. I was able to run and exercise and didn't have any agoraphobia that I had after my dog died (normally I am a confident and very social person) and got my normal life back and could grief my dog and also remember the good memories. They tapered me 2 mg per week, few weeks went well, I had just headaches, heart was racing. I got my own depression medication and 25 mg of quetapine to sleep, my normal medication, andI was ok. But then when I got to 6 mg I became depressed suddenly again, had agoraphobia again, lost my sleep, food didn't stay inside me and three weeks I stayd at the 6 mg but I couldn't take it anymore, I suffered si much and Lost hope, was just a prison in my home. I took overdose 😥 And I have a good life and many things and reasons to live, I am active and grateful person.
My boyfriend found me after four hours and I got to hospital. Then when i came to home in a bad condition I wasn't able to sleep, was depressed and had the brain lock (I checked from the messages for my family and I had mention the brain lock before the overdose and doctors said that I didn't get any harm to my head and my head was ok in the mri for few months later). Doctor put me back to diazepam 12 mg but :it didn't help. I tapered it to 5 mg in an awful feeling. Then I went to hospital and they took me from 5 mg to zero straight. I had terrible panic attacks and symptoms and after two weeks the mean doctor said I couldn't have any withdrawl. I left the hospital in a awful feeling. My new doctor tried to relief me and prescriped me 2,5 mg of klonopin. But it didn't help. I have been on that for few months. Now I and my mother said that we think that I am in withdrawl symptoms even I am not tapering. I said I want to taper with Ashton manual and she didn't know about that but was willing to read it. Now we will start the taper this week. I am afraid and depressed and anxious. I wake up every morning to hell, like I have no brains at all. I have been sleeping now with 250 mg quetapine and 20 mg temazepam because they had to get me to sleep after I had Lost my sleep many months. I hope the brain lock goes away and depression will help and I will survive this time the taper and will heal. Thank you that you are so sure that brain lock is from the benzo and tapering. I need hope that it and ali the other goes away. I have hae previous depression in 2019 but then I survived within few months.
Now I am isolated, feel depersonalization when i have to go to store and get food. Can't cook, just be. I love to run but now it is just giving me anxious. I am afraid almost anything and speak this hellish situation ali the time to my family so I can't ne around anyone. Just calling. I am grateful that you did response. I hope I will survive too.
I'm sorry to ask more but could you describe how did you experience the brain lock if you had it or have heard anyone else suffering that feeling. Thank you so much of your time and caring. I can't do almost anything because of that lock and its very scary and isolating me because I am so panicked of that feeling that I can't be with my loved ones and feel like I'm in hell with my head. Normally before this hell started and my dog died my brain was functioning very well even though I have a rare brain deseace and have had to strokes when I was a child. My deseace has been calm and have not getting worse. My brain was scanned in the mri and also eeg made few months after my overdose and there was no sign of anything bad.
Thank you if you have time to response. You are my inspiration like I said and give me hope to battle this evil medication out of me.
@@lauriina85 different people use different words to describe the symptoms. You may want to watch some of my older videos or join a Facebook benzo support group to hear what other people say about their neurological symptoms. Just know that the mismanagement of you prescribing and desprescribing plus adding in more psych meds has placed you on a long path of healing. But you will heal. Be patient with yourself, listen to your own inner wisdom from now on. It's time to take your life and health into your own hands. Good luck
Also, starting now, i am going to take weekly "klonopin breaks". On fridays and saturdays take none or i will cut a .5 in half and take that half. Do you think my approach to this is good or bad?
wow. you really are beautiful in so many ways!
thanx for posting this!
Your smiling your happy and enjoy life people who have that problem are not happy or enjoy life without having to be on a medication that is helping you be a happy person who has to be on meds for anxiety it's not a temporary problem it's a life long problem and you have no choice but to be on meds for anxiety disorder
I'm sorry that's been your experience. I know even the worst anxiety can heal once the source of the problem is discovered and treated. Life without drugs is possible.
@@BenzoBrains I was a little harsh but I can't live with anxiety and anxiety is a serious brain disorder that is not treatable with eating well or any other means when I was a child I breathed gasoline fewm and I think it's the source of my problem I have serious brain damage cause I don't have memory and I am so very tired of it it's so frustrating and depressing to have to deal with poor memory
@@davidslefort6541 benzos can cause worse anxiety and definitely cause memory problems. They also cause brain damage. The good news is the brain is plastic and can change and heal. Anxiety is a symptom, not a disease. There are many potential causes but benzos don't treat any of them, they're a temporary bandaid that eventually festers and rots and makes the wound worse. Sorry but it honestly sounds to me like the benzo isn't doing you much good anymore. Is it possible you're simply treating the symptoms caused now by the meds?
@@BenzoBrains I never have been on benzos when I was a child I was breathing gasoline fewm and I did this for 3 years not everyday but it really cause more pain for me and I ended up in juvenile center cause I was a problematic drug dealer and abuser I got arrested and they decided that I was a long term suicidal tendencies so that they kept me until I was 18 years old and they had to deal with my symptoms for anxiety and violence cause I didn't accept that been in a juvenile center and I was in so much pain from anxiety that they put me on meds that I don't remember that name so if you have such problems for pain and stress you can't deal with it you need to stay on my escitalopram and seroquel and methadone I can't live without it because my brain function doesn't have any ability to produce endorphins or dopamine and much more of the different chemicals imbalance I have you can't live without it. What for me is so frustrating is that I loose my phone in 5 seconds and I am looking around my room and looking for my phone I can't remember what I did with my phone if you have this problem you can't and will not ever get off the meds I am on kid
@@BenzoBrains am 48 years old I am at the end of my road I can't live without my meds and I can't cause my anxiety make me sick I can't eat I can't go to the bathroom I don't want water close to me my skin is like a burning sensation and my heart just beats so hard I can't breathe and I just panic and it just gets worse and worse I get into seizures if I don't have my meds
I took one vitamin b and im now 5 days and still feeling Terrible .
Do you know how many days or weeks Can take ? Thank you for your support . You are amazing person god bless you
It really just depends on the person. It's not unusual for it to take 2-4 weeks to adjust
Thank you for this I am sending his to my mom!
Mickelle mitsubishi you're welcome!
I think I just saw you in a trailer for a documentary. Did that ever come out??
Hello my friend ! I took vitamin b and set me back .
Did you have similar experience with vitamins or supplements ? I ned help my symptoms became worse .
I'm sorry. I often tried vitamins only to have them aggravate my symptoms. B vitamins in particular are known to do that to benzo people in withdrawal. Your body should stabilize out, give it some time.
is it advisable to taper off bromazepam for using it for just a month and half?i really like to get off this meds..the longer i take this the more difficult i can withdraw from this
I’m helping a friend withdrawal from benzos and it’s very very challenging. My heart is breaking and I hope he will get over his symptoms soon. Also, the link to the support guide is 404.
My friend's dad suggested accupuncture. Is that relevant for this particular process?
I teared up watching your vid because I totally relate to what you are saying. I'm just over a year out and slowly getting better. Keep up the hard work.
Just curious, how long were you on benzo's? I was on Klonopin about 10 years.
thank you. I was on ativan for about three and a half years.
Cool. Glad u are getting better. Thx for the response.
Is there any hope for me? Clonazepam 2 mg three times a day for 13 years. I don't know if I'm addicted or dependent, but it's definitely one of those and I can't not have this medicine. My family thinks that I just need to go to rehab, they don't believe me when I say that's not the way for me. I don't have any body, Only family and they don't care anymore because they think I am just using them.
There is hope. It's unlikely you're an addict unless you're abusing the medication to get high. A detox would be inappropriate either way. Try sharing the info at benzoreform.org with your family.
@@BenzoBrains I used to abuse it but haven't in years. I only take what is prescribed 2mg 2×s a day. my family, well I really don't have one at the moment. But thank you. God bless!
Did you recover and then experience set back from herbs or high histamine foods?
@sarahpearsall2248 unhealthy eating in general or the wrong supplements could thrown me off but I wouldn't call it setbacks. It's just a matter of tweaking things and then doing well again. Set backs ended up being more emotional/spiritual for me which means supplements and things weren't going to fix or change anything. I had to do the mental work
Does being completely healed feel as good as when you first get on klonopin? What exactly do I have to look forward to? I mean if I had debilitating anxiety before klonopin wouldn't I still have it once I'm done?
If you have underlying anxiety that you have not worked on aside from the klonopin it may still be present. It depends on if your anxiety was due to some physical stressor like thyroid or insulin problems, situational stress, trauma etc. Definitely look into addressing all three comoponents
@@BenzoBrains it was mainly social anxiety. I used to be very very shy and had to do a whole lot of work on myself to get my confidence up. For the longest time I refused to take any medication and I was able to transform myself into a very outgoing confident person and I was loving life...but then I started getting stage fright before I would perform and the anxiety then snowballed into every aspect of my life and that's where the klonopin came in....I feel so awkward and vulnerable around people now (6months off) and I'm so afraid I'll be stuck in this introversion even once I'm healed :( I want to be victorious and triumphant once this is over, not meek and timid
God help me.. having son much pain mentally and physically from tappering 3mg to 2.5mg. Please let me be in peace and pain-free.
Yeah it's tht bad even worse, really I haven't found a word tht can describe it
Hello my friend ! Did you react to fats food ? Thank you for your support !
Fast food or fats?
Hello!
Im going throw very difficult setback from vitamins i would like to speak with you if you Can ofvourse my family and husband they dont care About me and my health