Thank you so much for allowing me to be in this video! There is so much I could have said and I realized that right I left. This meant the world to me and I’ll always be grateful! ❤️❤️
Amazing story, thanks so much for taking the time to tell it. You've come such a long way, and I hope you continue to grow up around those who love, and support you.
I’m sorry for the struggles in school you went through, man. Kids can be brutal to each other. I think you sharing your experience like this will help bring awareness and understanding to future generations so they won’t have to endure the same level of bullying.
People should know the atrocities committed against the autistic populace: the autism Genocide clock of 2006, Judge Rotenberg’s Center for Education (1970’s to present, with forced electrocutions and death of five K-12 kids), and the rampant discrimination through stereotyping. I’m a disability researcher, and published on the above. There are probably others that I haven’t learned about yet, but it should be made known how badly autistic peoples are abused. As an autistic man, that’s my life rn, and so was this guys in some ways. Take caution; if you’ve met a person with autism, you’ve met ONE (1) person with autism.
What gets me is I know I'm autistic but it's just too expensive to get a diagnosis. One thousand plus for testing... ridiculous:/ who can afford that, especially someone who struggles to work *because* of it?
@@bruhmoment5974 I looked it up and it was basically a website created with a ten year countdown timer after a doctor announced they were 10 years from pre natal autism tests
As another gentleman on the high functioning portion of the spectrum I 100% relate to the part where you mentioned having to consciously remember to use certain social cues. I spend about 30 minutes in the shower everyday rehearsing perspective social interactions to make sure I don't come across too awkward. People don't realize the work I put into seeming socially adept
Yep. I'm pretty good at masking so it comes to me somewhat naturally but I have to rehearse and think A LOT about what I'm doing in non-verbal communication. It helps that I'm a performative personality so performing comes naturally lmfao.
i have a different flavor of autism where i use many Big Words because i genuinely cannot simplify what im trying to say, but this is nonetheless still relatable as hell
I completely understand, its like once ive learnt a word thatll fill the space of a number of smaller ones, itll overwrite the rest, when speaking purposefully.
yes! I had to train myself to learn common synonyms and practice by talking to myself, explaining topics out loud but forcing myself to sound more "casual" vs "superfluous"
God, the part about school really spoke to me. I have a severe learning disability and got many of the same accommodations. The other kids finding out was literally my worst fear at the time. Like he said, looking back I absolutely would've dropped out at some point without them, but special ed is absolutely a double-edged sword
Lots of love to the interviewee in this video! I'm an adult woman with "high functioning" autism, and I just want to throw my own experience into the ring for anyone who is school age or maybe has school age kids with autism. I was homeschooled and it actually worked out really really well for me because I was less prone to meltdowns or being bullied. I was able to still socialize via a weekly gathering of other homeschoolers who I befriended, and a lot of them were (unknown to me, even) also neurodivergent in a rainbow of different ways. I also did a lot of extracurricular activities. I was very lucky to have parents willing to facilitate social events for me outside of school, of course, and I understand not all parents can do that. Being homeschooled allowed me to do things at my own pace and focus more on my special interests with my free time. I think everyone is extremely different, and I'm sure going to public school is great for plenty of other autistic people, so please don't take my comment as a "well actually", since it sounds like it worked out well enough for the guy in this video! I just also want to let any other autistic people out there know that you aren't weak or running away if you want to move towards doing unconventional forms of schooling. I did a lot of self-teaching as my parents got busier and I got older, and it was honestly a great skill to learn.
As a therapist who works with people with autism frequently, It is such a spectrum that It is so hard to find adequate and appropriate care for each individual that I can often be heartbreaking, but you do what you can
Thank you for this video! My brother is autistic but has been nonverbal for 15 years. I try to watch as much material related to autism as I can to help him. I would never have guessed that quiet rooms can be really difficult to concentrate in, and it explains a lot.
Yes! This isn’t for everybody, but like industrial buildings can really suck because I can subconsciously see the flickering of the lights. It is very hard to explain but there is a lot to it. Everybody is different though so you just need to find out what puts your brother in the most comfort and take it from there. I hope it works for you man!
A lot of people with autism hate quiet rooms, I know I do. Some people hate absolute quietness or need music, no one with autism is the same. For example, one hurricane we had, knocked the power out, and into the night, hearing absolutely nothing in my house bugged me out. I also like cats, because they're calm and are layed back, dogs are the opposite, too much to do to take care of them and for my neighborhood, always barking at something. Take the time to talk to your brother and ask him what he wants that would make him feel better and more comfortable.
I'm a 27 year old woman with autism and was never diagnosed as a kid. I'm still working on being diagnosed actually. I don't have insurance and I can't work so no diagnosis = no help. I wish I could have been diagnosed earlier. It would've changed my life. It seemed like doctors didn't know what to look for in girls with autism, especially in the early 2000's.
As a man got diagnosed when i was 25, i truly wish you luck with that. Being a high functioning autistic person didn't help for me to seek for that diagnosis before and i too feel i could have faced many life situations better if i had the appropiate knowledge.
@@ChickentNug Being from Spain, i tried an appointment with a public health psychiatrist; turned out they haven't any specialized units that can diagnose it, so i had to go to the nearest ASD association -a private one- and pay 300€ in order to get the diagnosis process started. Im afraid you're probably not from my country, so i wish i could give you more accurate information
I'm a 22 years old woman also trying to get a diagnosis right now because i only realised this year i might very well have autism. For a very long time i couldn't spot the symptoms because it works alot different than boys having autism and there truly hasn't been enough research done for girls/women with it. I do know that from an early age girls learn to mask more so it's harder to spot autism in them. I kept doubting that i need any help but I've noticed im still not able to adapt well in social situations at all and i constantly feel drained from all the stimulation outside (mainly noise and people in crowded places) and need frequent breaks when im working part time. It's alot more harder to get a diagnosis when you're an adult with high functioning autism.
You seem to have a lot of support around you, which is really cool. I had to figure out a lot of this stuff on my own as a late diagnosed autistic person (got diagnosed at 29). It's great that you've been able to develop your social skills and make friends. I would like to comment on some stuff in the video though. I think a lot of the things you talked about relate to trying to "act normal" or acceptable to regular people. Of course this is a necessary skill we all must learn in order to survive. But I also think it's important to understand that this is an essentially unnatural way of being for us. It takes a lot of effort and can eventually take a toll on our mental and even physical health, especially as we get older. I hope you have some spaces and relationships in your life that allow you to relax and not think too much about these things. The problem is a lot of discourse around autism revolves around how we (autistics) can learn to communicate more effectively with non-autistics, but not enough of it on how non-autistics can communicate better with us. This stems from the misconception that our way of communicating is always lesser or defective. However, if you read up on studies like the Double Empathy Problem, you realize that autistic people tend to communicate with each other just as effectively as non-autistics do. The problem only really arises when it comes to non-autistic/autistic interactions. Since our brains work a bit differently it becomes harder to intuit each others thought processes. Anyway, sorry for the long comment. Just thought it might be interesting to share some of these ideas. As I said, It's awesome that you have lots of support, that you've been able to learn so much and make good relationships. I know it can be very hard. I wish you the best, hope you continue growing and thanks for sharing your story.
Just to let everyone know, autism is a spectrum. Every autistic person will often have a vastly different brain structure to other autistic ppl compared to how neurotypicals have very similar brain structures to one another
So how autism present itself, like mine, can and will often be vastly different between individuals and it’s always nice if you make an effort to learn who is like what and what hypersensitivities to pay attention to for you friends 😊
As a woman with ASD, I hold a lot of resentment for the education system and the medical community. I was severely bullied pretty much all throughout elementary and middle school. None of the teachers or social workers in the school ever bothered to point any of my issues out to my parents. Eventually, I ended up going to therapy for depression, anxiety, self-harm, and aggressive behaviors. My therapist quickly realized that I had a lot of traits of Asperger's and suggested we pursue a diagnosis. Mind you, at this point, I'm 13 and a girl. I've had sensory issues my whole life and always struggled to make friends, so it's really not that surprising she thought I had it. However, the facilities covered by our insurance told us that I can't have Asperger's/autism because I am a girl. So we never got an official diagnosis. I don't think I'm ever going to pursue an official diagnosis unless something happens and I get committed lmao
Probably one of the most relatable videos I’ve watched on your channel. I would say have a slightly milder version of autism compared to Neptune but I can definitely relate to taking jokes and roasts the wrong way and being bullied for being autistic. I hope more people can understand us and appreciate are unique perspective on the world.
As someone with diagnosed adhd and with mild autist behavior it's always delightful to hear someone else try to explain all the constant thinking going through the head. Many times ppl look at me funny when I explain that I had to actually "manually" learn specific social cues and that I still have to take my time n plan most words coming out of my mouth bc it's often challenging to get in that effortless "auto-pilot" speaking flow and read enough fast all the combinations of verbal + non-verbal language. I manage to relax into that effortless mindset only with ppl who are close to me and that's when I also start become harder to read. My way to manage most of my daily routines is just to be openly blunt with strangers, some ppl just think I'm purposely rude and some actually take more open mindset and have friendly conversation. I know this seems really dumb to most readers, but that's how overanalytical I act every single day, or at least some point of that day. 😂
I'm also a girl who has autism. I got severely bullied as a child but nowdays I wanna become a psychiatrist because of this. Idk it just would pain me to see anyone else suffer in a similar fashion to me and if I can do something about it I'd love to. I wanna learn also about myself and more about autism cause I'm like 80% sure I probably am. I've always struggles to understand social cues, my way of socializing and the way I go about it I feel like differ enough from a neurodivergent person that I have to always mask and adapt. I noticed that when growing up, I was hella emotional and I used to stim a lot growing up. Kinda sucks now that I cant stim so I just do it on my own private time for fear of others and my family judging me. Idk I have a lot of textbook mannerisms that many autistic people display. But yea I hope to one day be able to support all those ppl who just like me needed it. I don't think I can/should get a diagnosis currently because I fear that I could be putting my career in peril as I think I could get discriminated cause of it.
I feel you, i only worked it out at 27 and the doctor told me it cost 8k as an adult to get diagnosed. So I gave up trying to get diagnosed and just accepted that I am. When I first read about all the things autistic people do and my whole life flashed before my eyes, suddenly so many things made sense
well, this confirms I'm absolutely autistic. Thank you for this vid, it's not just enlightening but encouraging. It helps to know im not alone, and my efforts to figure myself out aren't in vain. I may be high function, because I relate but I've grown more 'typical' in many areas. from struggling in my own for so long, so many of my background micromanagement thoughts are semiautomatic. But God knows they weren't for most of my life. the parts about identifying emotions, not getting jokes, taking instructions too literally, kill me I still cringe at my memories every day. I used tv and games to train myself to essentially "act normal" and that gave me an inflated view of other people, and fostered self loathing. Therapy was a huge help, so ill probably look for some autism therapy
I'm pretty rarely able to just sit down and explain stuff like people do in these videos. I know it's normal to be able to, but if someone told me to tell them my life story or what it was like growing up I would have no idea what to even say. It's like my brain just blanks out whenever people ask me personal questions and I literally cant form a response. Even if people ask about what I'm interested in or know a lot about, I still just don't know how to react. Obviously I should clarify what they're asking me, but it's like something's preventing me from doing it. For some reason writing's a lot easier for me and I can think of how I want to articulate stuff and actually come up with words that explain my thoughts and feelings. Can anyone relate to that, or does anyone know if there's a reason for me to be like this? I've always wondered but never really had a situation where it made sense to bring it up to someone. Maybe I just need to "touch grass" or talk to people more or something, but idk. Even when I used to have social skills this was a problem I dealt with to an extent
Well I can only talk from my own experience, but I have struggled a lot with sharing stuff about myself with other people. It makes it hard to form new relationships. I think a lot of it has to do with bad experiences in the past. I remember I used to be terrified of sharing my interests with other kids growing up out of fear of ridicule. I was bullied a lot when I was very young and remember asking my parents to please never mention the things that I liked when talking to other parents or kids. It made me cringe so bad. I've also heard that for some autistic people it can be hard to do certain things if they feel like they are being forced to do so, if that makes any sense. Sometimes it can feel like even someone asking politely is in a way demanding you give a part of yourself away. I wonder if it would be easier for you if you weren't asked to give information and just did so out of your own volition. Also sometimes it can be difficult for us to put our thought in to words. I often find myself rehearsing conversations in my head or going through information that I want to share to make it as easy to understand as I can. I Find that I can sometimes get stuck in my own thought process if I'm trying to talk about something without having gone through it in my head first.
Same. I don't think it would be easy for most people. Opening up like that and even putting your tastes on display makes you vulnerable. I find it helpful to at first keep my answers brief and bounce questions off of the other person in between to give myself some breathing room get a feel for the other person
Omg I feel his pain. I didn’t get diagnosed til 12. Didn’t even know what autism was til then. It took 7 years to get someone to see me to diagnose me. Kids were really nasty. No one really liked me and it led me to develop selective mutism in high school. I didn’t have my teenage years in high school. I just suicidal thoughts and homework. Parents didn’t really understand and they did what their parents did to them.
Same, but worse. My parents got a diagnosis when I was 13, but never actually informed me at all. I dont know why they thought that was the right path. I went through my entire Junior High and High School wondering why I was different. I never really learned to mask. I just never thought to google autism or Asperger's. On my 18th birthday my dad spilled the beans and i was pissed. My understanding of my own self for the past 5 years would have been so much simpler.
I generally don't watch these kinds of videos or respond to them, but it feels like this one probably hit me a bit hard. Officially diagnosed at 17 with many years of people trying to figure out what is wrong with me, but being close to the age where I'd get next to no support. So for the next 9 years I've been mostly left to my own devices, several paths of medication (none of which have any real effect), therapy (have not found a suitable therapist, except for my occupational therapist) and whatnot ending in dead ends, and while I do have some successes every now and then, my past has really left me unable to enjoy or even do a lot of things in life, and my personal social life is close to nothing, internet being somewhat better, though I am fairly reclusive and enjoy the quiet. But I have also not found any group that I could say I belong to. While I might be more "normal" than some other high functioning autists, school was still living hell, having to learn social cues was difficult, and acting upon those is still somewhat difficult, like looking someone in the eyes, not doing so being considered rude. I had 6 years in my life where shyness controlled me, and most people either bullied me or thought of me as the weird guy. Granted, some tried to help, but as autism beckons, I wasn't able to act upon it properly. So I ended up having large periods of times, usually half a year, once even two years, where I'd be completely incapable of being in the daily life due to anxiety and fears. Those fears still make up a large part of me today. So now I'm sitting here at 26, soon to be 27, being pretty broken from all those years of trauma and being misunderstood, and while my family is trying to get me back up on my feet and I am grateful for that, they still don't really "get" me, fail to understand that my brain thinks a different way (and I am constantly fighting against my subconscious), so we're at a constant clash, and I'm just here feeling like my potential is being wasted, despite having already accomplished great feats like getting some of the best grades in my last school year, and doing something completely different by going to Canada and working on a farm for 3 months.
It's important not to rush to judge people if they do something inappropriate or awkward. Whether they have autism or some other behavioral disorder that they're working on, they won't have a pin on their shirt saying so. So kindness and patience are important for getting along with people at work or on the street.
I'm also on the spectrum High functioning but I have my moments . Very late to everything too lol +adhd Fun . . . I went to special ed classes growing up . Different accommodations esp 6th grade+. Thank you for your story :)
I can totally relate. Grew up the same way being bullied and going to special Ed classes in elementary school besides classes. I've seen it and been through it all.
As a high functioning myself, this sure was something. Self reflecting and stuff, I’ve realized that maybe I needed the support I got early as a kid. I still hate the fact that I needed it but I’m starting to realize it was probably very necessary.
I was never bullied probably because I’m was always the biggest kid in class but a lot of what your saying just makes sense and explains a lot honestly especially the not looking people in the eyes, sarcasm, and tones. I always had trouble with it and was pretty much left untreated because my mom wanted me to be in “normal classes” but looking back I really could’ve used that extra attention. I never really payed attention in school and did just enough to graduate. My social skills still suck and I’m about to be 25. That extra attention could’ve been useful but idk I don’t want to seem like I’m a victim but just unfortunate circumstances that I’m working on now.
I met my girlfriend of 7 months on VRC, and she's lived her whole life being autistic, so I feel like I'm watching this from an entirely new perspective. Learning what autism is directly from someone who's spent her entire life dealing with and adapting has been the best education I could have ever asked for on the topic.
This was really informative. I have a teammate that has some similar issues and has not quite matured yet. This gave me some tips on how to get to understand him better
Yeah I have autism too. Kindergarten was ruthless to me, so were grades 1-3, teachers didn’t like me too well, kids thought I was weird and they picked on me because I had a speech impediment, I drew in my notebooks instead of talking to others. I feel like I was dragged along like a rag doll most days at school, both male and female teachers would pick me up by the arm and drag me through the halls. Sometimes even to the point of shaking me, like that would talk some sense into me. I think I had behavioral issues, might’ve made it difficult for them, but idk, I don’t think it was the best for them to do that to me.
As a 17 year old who was diagnosed with Autism, thank you for allowing others like me to share our stories. Some of us feel too shy and too embarrassed to talk about it, and some don't really mention it at all. But I embrace who I am and how God uses me for his good.
I really love these stories and I really feel empathetic with them all, I wish I could have more to say but I really do like these series' you're doing Though I find it super off putting, in general on the internet, that occasionally videos such as something about autism or ADHD have some super relatable stuff in them although I've done basic quizzes to show a probability and they're all low scores (e.g 1/4 chance, whatever). Like at 3:16 that freaked me out a little bit because often times I have to remind myself "hey am I looking too long?, Ok gesture this? Wait did I do it right? Crap I look awkward now and everyone noticed. Oh you're still saying your part... Ok nod..right?" Also with words, idk if it's common but I had to define empathetic and sympathetic because I couldn't remember which one, and if I would be insulting. Then when I come to explain these, I feel like I'm making it up to fit in.. or something like that... Then worry if I'm miss-remembering how I react in social situations. I do have social anxiety for sure though, so I worry that is skewing things. I'm in therapy for working with my anxiety (CBT atm) before I decide to do much else and focus on sorting myself out. Though I have to admit it feels lonely.
I have Autism and I am a very loud person but when I hear people yelling and screaming I get overwhelmed and have a meltdown and when I was in school i had the absolute WORST special ed teacher and she would cuss in front of us and yell at people with special needs and I never use punctuation cause it’s hard for me to use that and I have a lot of special interests like video games and it’s kinda fun and annoying
Something I just thought of recently is: Many people have their lives so easy and normal, yet they decide that making life harder for people who already have tough lives is their best course of action
As someone with several issues including autism who started his own company and networks better than most neuro-typical individuals, anything is possible so long as you properly accommodate as an adult. Do not power through, break down triggers and observe your own behavior. I can't work in the same room I sleep, for example. I HAVE to isolate myself in my work, or my attention span just isn't there. Our advantage is often that we can focus better than anyone else, and it's not time is money, but rather -attention- is money.
That whole thing with the kids talking about you being "mentally impaired" for being involved in the socializing/speech class or what have you, that is way too real for me. I got put into those classes because I was diagnosed with low-functioning autism but I wasn't able to make friends or anything. I think it was a complete mis-match too because what they were telling me were things that I already sort of "got" already (i.e. the whole eye contact thing) and the training tapes they made us watch had such stilted acting it was nowhere near an actual social experience. I think the one thing my classes never acknowledged (or anybody at all in my life) that I needed help with was how to handle hostility because I got repeatedly baited into getting sent to the principal's office over stupid things like being told by a kid to kick him so I did and he ran over and told on me to the gym teacher. Or how I held up my index finger to tell another kid from the classes that they had one more shot at basketball (as we were taking turns) and he ran off and told the teacher I flipped them off. I was always getting in trouble and nobody really had my back so I just threw myself into my schoolwork. It was all really basic "say hello, introduce yourself/say your name, talk about what they are talking about" but when I did it out of desperation most kids would have just looked at me like I walked up and said something offensive or outright told me to leave. I also don't think those classes would've been good for high-functioning either because the soundproofing wasn't nearly good enough to keep the wails and screeches from the "even more impaired" room across from us, let alone any normal kids passing by. Probably why I got belittled too. Sometimes I have to wonder if the school systems even try because of my experience. I'm definitely chilled out now that I'm out of that socially-hostile environment but trying to relate to other people is difficult because of my experiences being nowhere close to what is normal. I don't think it's 100% autism but I feel like my environment was (or even is depending on the situation) a massive part of my social issues.
yeah i remember that something happened when i was in the first 2-3 years of shool that destroyed my future life. before that i was perfectly normal kid and i remember being mature. now im a toxic immature piece of shit with like trauma, autism addictions and alot of pain. im mad that i lost this life.. maybe in the future incarnation i will be myself since i heard that from december this year alot of the people are going to change for the better.
This guy is kind of relatable, I get why some doctors thought I had autism lol (Doctors on my country aren't trustworthy btw) I don't think the same way he does, but something like for example not leaving an arcade at all costs is something I probably had done, but I was just worried I would get lost or they wouldn't be able to find me. I also avoid eye contact, due to embarrasment, it was very hard when I was young but nowadays I do make eye contact, just not for long periods of time. I overthink things sometimes, it's what leads to most of these situations. I do make "weird" chaotic decisions sometimes. It pays off sometimes, and sometimes I surprise my friends. Life feels very depressing and predictable sometimes, I just want to make it fun. I think there's more to say on why I make those decisions, but I don't understand the rest. I guess there's many reasons why a doctor would think I was autistic where I am from. A major reason probably was that I didn't speak up, I was very reserved and quiet because I didn't trust people. Not trusting them was the right choice anyways. If I spoke up, they probably would understand me better, but because of their limited acknowledge and lack of dedication probably not. (Trust me on this one, 90% of them are horrible and don't mind hurting you for profit. American doctors, they can fail but at least not often) It's a very interesting thing to learn for me. These days, I don't know if people would think I am autistic, I think people would assume anxiety or something else, which is more accurate
I relate so much to most of this. Something else i experience having asperger's (a form of autism) is being categorized, for example i have been in special ed most of my time in school. So i got placed with people with actual physical disabilities and such. And being put in a classroom like that is really frustrating because i wasn't understood. I had no problem being with any classmates. it was just the way adults treated and talked to me like i had a physical disability.
I did the same thing with peeing my pants but actually peed. In middle school I forgot my gym uniform once and had to stand in the corner. Well I needed to pee so I tried to get the teachers attention so I could ask to leave. Mind you I was literally standing next to a door that literally had a bathroom maybe 30 feet away once outside the gym but I just stood until I couldn’t hold it and peed because I knew you don’t leave without permission. Afterwards I just acted like nothing happened.
Daaamn, now that's impressive. Ain't easy overcoming that kinda lack of social awareness as a kid. Like going camping with just a couple pieces of flint and maybe a stick if you're lucky. Bravo.
When I was young I would always participate in small talk. I acted all the time and figured small talk was this acting game that was also kind of a joke cause it’s just this pointless thing we all do… nah turns out people actually do small talk for some reason. The reason eludes me
Does anyone know how I can go about getting tested for autism? I can relate a lot to what highly-functioning autistic people say they feel and do, and I've been wondering more and more for a while now if that's what makes me struggle so much socially. I've thought about bringing it up to my dad (I'm 18 and on his heathcare), but I'm kind of worried that I'll test negatively for it and then it'll look like I'm just going for attention or being a hypochondriac. He'd probably be supporting, but I'm not positive. Taking those dumb free online tests always gives me a "moderate" or "likely" chance of having autism, but I feel like those arent trustworthy at all and it probably doesnt account for the fact that its a spectrum and not just 100% autistic or 0% autistic It could be that I'm a pretty reclusive person too, and maybe just my lack of social interaction has made me struggle with these things. It's hard to tell though
Thank you so much for allowing me to be in this video! There is so much I could have said and I realized that right I left. This meant the world to me and I’ll always be grateful! ❤️❤️
You are awesome man, loved your story, starting to understand what things my younger brother has to go through
Amazing story, thanks so much for taking the time to tell it. You've come such a long way, and I hope you continue to grow up around those who love, and support you.
I’m sorry for the struggles in school you went through, man. Kids can be brutal to each other. I think you sharing your experience like this will help bring awareness and understanding to future generations so they won’t have to endure the same level of bullying.
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us.
You are welcome 🤗
People should know the atrocities committed against the autistic populace: the autism Genocide clock of 2006, Judge Rotenberg’s Center for Education (1970’s to present, with forced electrocutions and death of five K-12 kids), and the rampant discrimination through stereotyping. I’m a disability researcher, and published on the above. There are probably others that I haven’t learned about yet, but it should be made known how badly autistic peoples are abused.
As an autistic man, that’s my life rn, and so was this guys in some ways. Take caution; if you’ve met a person with autism, you’ve met ONE (1) person with autism.
High functioning is an outdated ableist term
What gets me is I know I'm autistic but it's just too expensive to get a diagnosis. One thousand plus for testing... ridiculous:/ who can afford that, especially someone who struggles to work *because* of it?
what's the 'genocide clock'?
and now Autism speaks is funding research to find out if a developing child could have autism so the parents can abort it :,/
@@bruhmoment5974 I looked it up and it was basically a website created with a ten year countdown timer after a doctor announced they were 10 years from pre natal autism tests
As another gentleman on the high functioning portion of the spectrum I 100% relate to the part where you mentioned having to consciously remember to use certain social cues. I spend about 30 minutes in the shower everyday rehearsing perspective social interactions to make sure I don't come across too awkward. People don't realize the work I put into seeming socially adept
yeah dude, it just doesn't come naturally to us
I can relate
Yep. I'm pretty good at masking so it comes to me somewhat naturally but I have to rehearse and think A LOT about what I'm doing in non-verbal communication. It helps that I'm a performative personality so performing comes naturally lmfao.
How to figure out if you have mild autism or if you're just kinda weird and overthink everything?
I am to
i have a different flavor of autism where i use many Big Words because i genuinely cannot simplify what im trying to say, but this is nonetheless still relatable as hell
I sometimes do this as well! Relatable!
yep, got in trouble with teachers in school bc my emails were too long. I just couldn't simplify something down to 2 sentences, it was always like 6+.
I completely understand, its like once ive learnt a word thatll fill the space of a number of smaller ones, itll overwrite the rest, when speaking purposefully.
yes! I had to train myself to learn common synonyms and practice by talking to myself, explaining topics out loud but forcing myself to sound more "casual" vs "superfluous"
God, the part about school really spoke to me. I have a severe learning disability and got many of the same accommodations. The other kids finding out was literally my worst fear at the time. Like he said, looking back I absolutely would've dropped out at some point without them, but special ed is absolutely a double-edged sword
Lots of love to the interviewee in this video! I'm an adult woman with "high functioning" autism, and I just want to throw my own experience into the ring for anyone who is school age or maybe has school age kids with autism. I was homeschooled and it actually worked out really really well for me because I was less prone to meltdowns or being bullied. I was able to still socialize via a weekly gathering of other homeschoolers who I befriended, and a lot of them were (unknown to me, even) also neurodivergent in a rainbow of different ways. I also did a lot of extracurricular activities. I was very lucky to have parents willing to facilitate social events for me outside of school, of course, and I understand not all parents can do that. Being homeschooled allowed me to do things at my own pace and focus more on my special interests with my free time. I think everyone is extremely different, and I'm sure going to public school is great for plenty of other autistic people, so please don't take my comment as a "well actually", since it sounds like it worked out well enough for the guy in this video! I just also want to let any other autistic people out there know that you aren't weak or running away if you want to move towards doing unconventional forms of schooling. I did a lot of self-teaching as my parents got busier and I got older, and it was honestly a great skill to learn.
Enlightening post.
As a therapist who works with people with autism frequently, It is such a spectrum that It is so hard to find adequate and appropriate care for each individual that I can often be heartbreaking, but you do what you can
Thank you for this video! My brother is autistic but has been nonverbal for 15 years. I try to watch as much material related to autism as I can to help him. I would never have guessed that quiet rooms can be really difficult to concentrate in, and it explains a lot.
Yes! This isn’t for everybody, but like industrial buildings can really suck because I can subconsciously see the flickering of the lights. It is very hard to explain but there is a lot to it. Everybody is different though so you just need to find out what puts your brother in the most comfort and take it from there. I hope it works for you man!
A lot of people with autism hate quiet rooms, I know I do. Some people hate absolute quietness or need music, no one with autism is the same. For example, one hurricane we had, knocked the power out, and into the night, hearing absolutely nothing in my house bugged me out. I also like cats, because they're calm and are layed back, dogs are the opposite, too much to do to take care of them and for my neighborhood, always barking at something. Take the time to talk to your brother and ask him what he wants that would make him feel better and more comfortable.
As a high functioning autistic I can to an extent relate to some of this.
As a person with autism, this is so true.
I'm a 27 year old woman with autism and was never diagnosed as a kid. I'm still working on being diagnosed actually. I don't have insurance and I can't work so no diagnosis = no help. I wish I could have been diagnosed earlier. It would've changed my life. It seemed like doctors didn't know what to look for in girls with autism, especially in the early 2000's.
As a man got diagnosed when i was 25, i truly wish you luck with that. Being a high functioning autistic person didn't help for me to seek for that diagnosis before and i too feel i could have faced many life situations better if i had the appropiate knowledge.
I forgot that UA-cam also uses hashtags, so that one worked here as well.
@@carlosnavarro7830 who can you visit for a diagnosis? Information online is so vague, I don't even know where to go
@@ChickentNug Being from Spain, i tried an appointment with a public health psychiatrist; turned out they haven't any specialized units that can diagnose it, so i had to go to the nearest ASD association -a private one- and pay 300€ in order to get the diagnosis process started. Im afraid you're probably not from my country, so i wish i could give you more accurate information
I'm a 22 years old woman also trying to get a diagnosis right now because i only realised this year i might very well have autism. For a very long time i couldn't spot the symptoms because it works alot different than boys having autism and there truly hasn't been enough research done for girls/women with it. I do know that from an early age girls learn to mask more so it's harder to spot autism in them. I kept doubting that i need any help but I've noticed im still not able to adapt well in social situations at all and i constantly feel drained from all the stimulation outside (mainly noise and people in crowded places) and need frequent breaks when im working part time. It's alot more harder to get a diagnosis when you're an adult with high functioning autism.
You seem to have a lot of support around you, which is really cool. I had to figure out a lot of this stuff on my own as a late diagnosed autistic person (got diagnosed at 29). It's great that you've been able to develop your social skills and make friends. I would like to comment on some stuff in the video though.
I think a lot of the things you talked about relate to trying to "act normal" or acceptable to regular people. Of course this is a necessary skill we all must learn in order to survive. But I also think it's important to understand that this is an essentially unnatural way of being for us. It takes a lot of effort and can eventually take a toll on our mental and even physical health, especially as we get older. I hope you have some spaces and relationships in your life that allow you to relax and not think too much about these things.
The problem is a lot of discourse around autism revolves around how we (autistics) can learn to communicate more effectively with non-autistics, but not enough of it on how non-autistics can communicate better with us. This stems from the misconception that our way of communicating is always lesser or defective. However, if you read up on studies like the Double Empathy Problem, you realize that autistic people tend to communicate with each other just as effectively as non-autistics do. The problem only really arises when it comes to non-autistic/autistic interactions. Since our brains work a bit differently it becomes harder to intuit each others thought processes.
Anyway, sorry for the long comment. Just thought it might be interesting to share some of these ideas. As I said, It's awesome that you have lots of support, that you've been able to learn so much and make good relationships. I know it can be very hard.
I wish you the best, hope you continue growing and thanks for sharing your story.
Just to let everyone know, autism is a spectrum. Every autistic person will often have a vastly different brain structure to other autistic ppl compared to how neurotypicals have very similar brain structures to one another
So how autism present itself, like mine, can and will often be vastly different between individuals and it’s always nice if you make an effort to learn who is like what and what hypersensitivities to pay attention to for you friends 😊
As a woman with ASD, I hold a lot of resentment for the education system and the medical community. I was severely bullied pretty much all throughout elementary and middle school. None of the teachers or social workers in the school ever bothered to point any of my issues out to my parents. Eventually, I ended up going to therapy for depression, anxiety, self-harm, and aggressive behaviors. My therapist quickly realized that I had a lot of traits of Asperger's and suggested we pursue a diagnosis. Mind you, at this point, I'm 13 and a girl. I've had sensory issues my whole life and always struggled to make friends, so it's really not that surprising she thought I had it. However, the facilities covered by our insurance told us that I can't have Asperger's/autism because I am a girl. So we never got an official diagnosis. I don't think I'm ever going to pursue an official diagnosis unless something happens and I get committed lmao
Probably one of the most relatable videos I’ve watched on your channel. I would say have a slightly milder version of autism compared to Neptune but I can definitely relate to taking jokes and roasts the wrong way and being bullied for being autistic. I hope more people can understand us and appreciate are unique perspective on the world.
As someone with diagnosed adhd and with mild autist behavior it's always delightful to hear someone else try to explain all the constant thinking going through the head.
Many times ppl look at me funny when I explain that I had to actually "manually" learn specific social cues and that I still have to take my time n plan most words coming out of my mouth bc it's often challenging to get in that effortless "auto-pilot" speaking flow and read enough fast all the combinations of verbal + non-verbal language. I manage to relax into that effortless mindset only with ppl who are close to me and that's when I also start become harder to read. My way to manage most of my daily routines is just to be openly blunt with strangers, some ppl just think I'm purposely rude and some actually take more open mindset and have friendly conversation. I know this seems really dumb to most readers, but that's how overanalytical I act every single day, or at least some point of that day. 😂
Remember watching these when i was a lonley ass kid at 14/15. Weird to know its going on but happy i have stories of my own to tell now
Wait are you the same guy from the video?
@@beatrix1120 no
Looking people in the eye is a major issue for me too. That and speaking in a monotone voice
I'm also a girl who has autism. I got severely bullied as a child but nowdays I wanna become a psychiatrist because of this. Idk it just would pain me to see anyone else suffer in a similar fashion to me and if I can do something about it I'd love to.
I wanna learn also about myself and more about autism cause I'm like 80% sure I probably am. I've always struggles to understand social cues, my way of socializing and the way I go about it I feel like differ enough from a neurodivergent person that I have to always mask and adapt. I noticed that when growing up, I was hella emotional and I used to stim a lot growing up. Kinda sucks now that I cant stim so I just do it on my own private time for fear of others and my family judging me.
Idk I have a lot of textbook mannerisms that many autistic people display. But yea I hope to one day be able to support all those ppl who just like me needed it. I don't think I can/should get a diagnosis currently because I fear that I could be putting my career in peril as I think I could get discriminated cause of it.
I feel you, i only worked it out at 27 and the doctor told me it cost 8k as an adult to get diagnosed. So I gave up trying to get diagnosed and just accepted that I am. When I first read about all the things autistic people do and my whole life flashed before my eyes, suddenly so many things made sense
damn. yeah schools brutal for people without autism. cant imaging going through with it
I had to hide mine through school when I moved. Kids were very bad haha.
@@destroyerofnice Yeah, all autistics have to mask, and then they hit a wall at around 20 and they fall into depression
My 8 year old has fairly high functioning autism, and this is really helpful for me to understand him a bit better
well, this confirms I'm absolutely autistic. Thank you for this vid, it's not just enlightening but encouraging. It helps to know im not alone, and my efforts to figure myself out aren't in vain. I may be high function, because I relate but I've grown more 'typical' in many areas. from struggling in my own for so long, so many of my background micromanagement thoughts are semiautomatic. But God knows they weren't for most of my life.
the parts about identifying emotions, not getting jokes, taking instructions too literally, kill me I still cringe at my memories every day. I used tv and games to train myself to essentially "act normal" and that gave me an inflated view of other people, and fostered self loathing. Therapy was a huge help, so ill probably look for some autism therapy
I'm pretty rarely able to just sit down and explain stuff like people do in these videos. I know it's normal to be able to, but if someone told me to tell them my life story or what it was like growing up I would have no idea what to even say. It's like my brain just blanks out whenever people ask me personal questions and I literally cant form a response. Even if people ask about what I'm interested in or know a lot about, I still just don't know how to react. Obviously I should clarify what they're asking me, but it's like something's preventing me from doing it.
For some reason writing's a lot easier for me and I can think of how I want to articulate stuff and actually come up with words that explain my thoughts and feelings.
Can anyone relate to that, or does anyone know if there's a reason for me to be like this? I've always wondered but never really had a situation where it made sense to bring it up to someone. Maybe I just need to "touch grass" or talk to people more or something, but idk. Even when I used to have social skills this was a problem I dealt with to an extent
Well I can only talk from my own experience, but I have struggled a lot with sharing stuff about myself with other people. It makes it hard to form new relationships. I think a lot of it has to do with bad experiences in the past. I remember I used to be terrified of sharing my interests with other kids growing up out of fear of ridicule. I was bullied a lot when I was very young and remember asking my parents to please never mention the things that I liked when talking to other parents or kids. It made me cringe so bad.
I've also heard that for some autistic people it can be hard to do certain things if they feel like they are being forced to do so, if that makes any sense. Sometimes it can feel like even someone asking politely is in a way demanding you give a part of yourself away. I wonder if it would be easier for you if you weren't asked to give information and just did so out of your own volition.
Also sometimes it can be difficult for us to put our thought in to words. I often find myself rehearsing conversations in my head or going through information that I want to share to make it as easy to understand as I can. I Find that I can sometimes get stuck in my own thought process if I'm trying to talk about something without having gone through it in my head first.
Same. I don't think it would be easy for most people. Opening up like that and even putting your tastes on display makes you vulnerable. I find it helpful to at first keep my answers brief and bounce questions off of the other person in between to give myself some breathing room get a feel for the other person
@@chonolio99 That makes a lot of sense, and I can relate to a lot of what you said. Thanks for the reply
@@chonolio99 That makes a lot of sense, and I can relate to a lot of what you said. Thanks for the reply
@@adoringfan1226 That's a good idea. I'll start trying that. Thanks
Omg I feel his pain. I didn’t get diagnosed til 12. Didn’t even know what autism was til then. It took 7 years to get someone to see me to diagnose me. Kids were really nasty.
No one really liked me and it led me to develop selective mutism in high school. I didn’t have my teenage years in high school. I just suicidal thoughts and homework. Parents didn’t really understand and they did what their parents did to them.
Same, but worse. My parents got a diagnosis when I was 13, but never actually informed me at all. I dont know why they thought that was the right path. I went through my entire Junior High and High School wondering why I was different. I never really learned to mask. I just never thought to google autism or Asperger's. On my 18th birthday my dad spilled the beans and i was pissed. My understanding of my own self for the past 5 years would have been so much simpler.
@@nathanpeterson5609 That really sucks. Things need to change. I’m sick of people’s ignorance.
Glad you're still making great content, power to you homie
I generally don't watch these kinds of videos or respond to them, but it feels like this one probably hit me a bit hard.
Officially diagnosed at 17 with many years of people trying to figure out what is wrong with me, but being close to the age where I'd get next to no support. So for the next 9 years I've been mostly left to my own devices, several paths of medication (none of which have any real effect), therapy (have not found a suitable therapist, except for my occupational therapist) and whatnot ending in dead ends, and while I do have some successes every now and then, my past has really left me unable to enjoy or even do a lot of things in life, and my personal social life is close to nothing, internet being somewhat better, though I am fairly reclusive and enjoy the quiet. But I have also not found any group that I could say I belong to.
While I might be more "normal" than some other high functioning autists, school was still living hell, having to learn social cues was difficult, and acting upon those is still somewhat difficult, like looking someone in the eyes, not doing so being considered rude. I had 6 years in my life where shyness controlled me, and most people either bullied me or thought of me as the weird guy. Granted, some tried to help, but as autism beckons, I wasn't able to act upon it properly. So I ended up having large periods of times, usually half a year, once even two years, where I'd be completely incapable of being in the daily life due to anxiety and fears. Those fears still make up a large part of me today.
So now I'm sitting here at 26, soon to be 27, being pretty broken from all those years of trauma and being misunderstood, and while my family is trying to get me back up on my feet and I am grateful for that, they still don't really "get" me, fail to understand that my brain thinks a different way (and I am constantly fighting against my subconscious), so we're at a constant clash, and I'm just here feeling like my potential is being wasted, despite having already accomplished great feats like getting some of the best grades in my last school year, and doing something completely different by going to Canada and working on a farm for 3 months.
It's important not to rush to judge people if they do something inappropriate or awkward. Whether they have autism or some other behavioral disorder that they're working on, they won't have a pin on their shirt saying so. So kindness and patience are important for getting along with people at work or on the street.
I'm also on the spectrum
High functioning but I have my moments . Very late to everything too lol +adhd
Fun . . . I went to special ed classes growing up . Different accommodations esp 6th grade+.
Thank you for your story :)
I can totally relate. Grew up the same way being bullied and going to special Ed classes in elementary school besides classes. I've seen it and been through it all.
As a high functioning myself, this sure was something. Self reflecting and stuff, I’ve realized that maybe I needed the support I got early as a kid. I still hate the fact that I needed it but I’m starting to realize it was probably very necessary.
Dude this video and these comments have me tearing up. I finally feel noticed and I know so many others feel the same way
as someone growing up with autism too i deeply relate to a lot of these things
I was never bullied probably because I’m was always the biggest kid in class but a lot of what your saying just makes sense and explains a lot honestly especially the not looking people in the eyes, sarcasm, and tones. I always had trouble with it and was pretty much left untreated because my mom wanted me to be in “normal classes” but looking back I really could’ve used that extra attention. I never really payed attention in school and did just enough to graduate. My social skills still suck and I’m about to be 25. That extra attention could’ve been useful but idk I don’t want to seem like I’m a victim but just unfortunate circumstances that I’m working on now.
I met my girlfriend of 7 months on VRC, and she's lived her whole life being autistic, so I feel like I'm watching this from an entirely new perspective. Learning what autism is directly from someone who's spent her entire life dealing with and adapting has been the best education I could have ever asked for on the topic.
This was really informative. I have a teammate that has some similar issues and has not quite matured yet. This gave me some tips on how to get to understand him better
Syrmor really putting these out like cookies
love your interviews man
Do maybe some environmental activist or a antarctica scientist or something cool/special like that
I only found out that I'm autistic around 28. So many things made sense when I worked it out but damn I can still relate to this so damn much
Crazy how even tho I’m high functioning I relate to a lot of what he said. Thank you for this
Yeah I have autism too. Kindergarten was ruthless to me, so were grades 1-3, teachers didn’t like me too well, kids thought I was weird and they picked on me because I had a speech impediment, I drew in my notebooks instead of talking to others. I feel like I was dragged along like a rag doll most days at school, both male and female teachers would pick me up by the arm and drag me through the halls. Sometimes even to the point of shaking me, like that would talk some sense into me. I think I had behavioral issues, might’ve made it difficult for them, but idk, I don’t think it was the best for them to do that to me.
As a 17 year old who was diagnosed with Autism, thank you for allowing others like me to share our stories. Some of us feel too shy and too embarrassed to talk about it, and some don't really mention it at all. But I embrace who I am and how God uses me for his good.
I really love these stories and I really feel empathetic with them all, I wish I could have more to say but I really do like these series' you're doing
Though I find it super off putting, in general on the internet, that occasionally videos such as something about autism or ADHD have some super relatable stuff in them although I've done basic quizzes to show a probability and they're all low scores (e.g 1/4 chance, whatever).
Like at 3:16 that freaked me out a little bit because often times I have to remind myself "hey am I looking too long?, Ok gesture this? Wait did I do it right? Crap I look awkward now and everyone noticed. Oh you're still saying your part... Ok nod..right?"
Also with words, idk if it's common but I had to define empathetic and sympathetic because I couldn't remember which one, and if I would be insulting.
Then when I come to explain these, I feel like I'm making it up to fit in.. or something like that... Then worry if I'm miss-remembering how I react in social situations.
I do have social anxiety for sure though, so I worry that is skewing things.
I'm in therapy for working with my anxiety (CBT atm) before I decide to do much else and focus on sorting myself out. Though I have to admit it feels lonely.
once again Syrmor has graced us with a fantastic piece of film that highlights humanity and we all should give him due praise! Bully!!
I have Autism and I am a very loud person but when I hear people yelling and screaming I get overwhelmed and have a meltdown and when I was in school i had the absolute WORST special ed teacher and she would cuss in front of us and yell at people with special needs and I never use punctuation cause it’s hard for me to use that and I have a lot of special interests like video games and it’s kinda fun and annoying
Something I just thought of recently is: Many people have their lives so easy and normal, yet they decide that making life harder for people who already have tough lives is their best course of action
I’ve never been diagnosed but all signs point to me being on the spectrum as a kid. And yeah, school was a living hell.
As someone with several issues including autism who started his own company and networks better than most neuro-typical individuals, anything is possible so long as you properly accommodate as an adult. Do not power through, break down triggers and observe your own behavior. I can't work in the same room I sleep, for example. I HAVE to isolate myself in my work, or my attention span just isn't there. Our advantage is often that we can focus better than anyone else, and it's not time is money, but rather -attention- is money.
That moment when you know certain social cues. And u ignore them/don't care about them. That's when u know ur built different
so how does one actually go about doing an interview cause this shit looks therapeutic as hell
Get on the discord and ask! Don’t lose determination on it! :D
woah, this was informative and insightfull
I have autism too and I’m scared to play vr chat because of it so I searched up Vrchat autism. Lmao
That whole thing with the kids talking about you being "mentally impaired" for being involved in the socializing/speech class or what have you, that is way too real for me.
I got put into those classes because I was diagnosed with low-functioning autism but I wasn't able to make friends or anything. I think it was a complete mis-match too because what they were telling me were things that I already sort of "got" already (i.e. the whole eye contact thing) and the training tapes they made us watch had such stilted acting it was nowhere near an actual social experience. I think the one thing my classes never acknowledged (or anybody at all in my life) that I needed help with was how to handle hostility because I got repeatedly baited into getting sent to the principal's office over stupid things like being told by a kid to kick him so I did and he ran over and told on me to the gym teacher. Or how I held up my index finger to tell another kid from the classes that they had one more shot at basketball (as we were taking turns) and he ran off and told the teacher I flipped them off. I was always getting in trouble and nobody really had my back so I just threw myself into my schoolwork. It was all really basic "say hello, introduce yourself/say your name, talk about what they are talking about" but when I did it out of desperation most kids would have just looked at me like I walked up and said something offensive or outright told me to leave.
I also don't think those classes would've been good for high-functioning either because the soundproofing wasn't nearly good enough to keep the wails and screeches from the "even more impaired" room across from us, let alone any normal kids passing by. Probably why I got belittled too. Sometimes I have to wonder if the school systems even try because of my experience.
I'm definitely chilled out now that I'm out of that socially-hostile environment but trying to relate to other people is difficult because of my experiences being nowhere close to what is normal. I don't think it's 100% autism but I feel like my environment was (or even is depending on the situation) a massive part of my social issues.
I am a fellow autistic vrchat player as well! It's nice to see there are more of us.
yeah i remember that something happened when i was in the first 2-3 years of shool that destroyed my future life. before that i was perfectly normal kid and i remember being mature. now im a toxic immature piece of shit with like trauma, autism addictions and alot of pain. im mad that i lost this life.. maybe in the future incarnation i will be myself since i heard that from december this year alot of the people are going to change for the better.
Who put these tears in my eyes
This guy is kind of relatable, I get why some doctors thought I had autism lol (Doctors on my country aren't trustworthy btw)
I don't think the same way he does, but something like for example not leaving an arcade at all costs is something I probably had done, but I was just worried I would get lost or they wouldn't be able to find me. I also avoid eye contact, due to embarrasment, it was very hard when I was young but nowadays I do make eye contact, just not for long periods of time. I overthink things sometimes, it's what leads to most of these situations. I do make "weird" chaotic decisions sometimes. It pays off sometimes, and sometimes I surprise my friends. Life feels very depressing and predictable sometimes, I just want to make it fun. I think there's more to say on why I make those decisions, but I don't understand the rest.
I guess there's many reasons why a doctor would think I was autistic where I am from. A major reason probably was that I didn't speak up, I was very reserved and quiet because I didn't trust people. Not trusting them was the right choice anyways. If I spoke up, they probably would understand me better, but because of their limited acknowledge and lack of dedication probably not. (Trust me on this one, 90% of them are horrible and don't mind hurting you for profit. American doctors, they can fail but at least not often)
It's a very interesting thing to learn for me. These days, I don't know if people would think I am autistic, I think people would assume anxiety or something else, which is more accurate
I can relate to this to an a extent but never was diagnosed so
I relate so much to most of this. Something else i experience having asperger's (a form of autism) is being categorized, for example i have been in special ed most of my time in school. So i got placed with people with actual physical disabilities and such. And being put in a classroom like that is really frustrating because i wasn't understood. I had no problem being with any classmates. it was just the way adults treated and talked to me like i had a physical disability.
I did the same thing with peeing my pants but actually peed. In middle school I forgot my gym uniform once and had to stand in the corner. Well I needed to pee so I tried to get the teachers attention so I could ask to leave. Mind you I was literally standing next to a door that literally had a bathroom maybe 30 feet away once outside the gym but I just stood until I couldn’t hold it and peed because I knew you don’t leave without permission. Afterwards I just acted like nothing happened.
Damn Syrmor doing numbers lately
Daaamn, now that's impressive. Ain't easy overcoming that kinda lack of social awareness as a kid. Like going camping with just a couple pieces of flint and maybe a stick if you're lucky. Bravo.
So true
3 syrmor uploads in a week???
When I was young I would always participate in small talk. I acted all the time and figured small talk was this acting game that was also kind of a joke cause it’s just this pointless thing we all do… nah turns out people actually do small talk for some reason. The reason eludes me
The roasting thing is true with me
I wish I never had it tbh.
Does anyone know how I can go about getting tested for autism? I can relate a lot to what highly-functioning autistic people say they feel and do, and I've been wondering more and more for a while now if that's what makes me struggle so much socially.
I've thought about bringing it up to my dad (I'm 18 and on his heathcare), but I'm kind of worried that I'll test negatively for it and then it'll look like I'm just going for attention or being a hypochondriac. He'd probably be supporting, but I'm not positive.
Taking those dumb free online tests always gives me a "moderate" or "likely" chance of having autism, but I feel like those arent trustworthy at all and it probably doesnt account for the fact that its a spectrum and not just 100% autistic or 0% autistic
It could be that I'm a pretty reclusive person too, and maybe just my lack of social interaction has made me struggle with these things. It's hard to tell though
Personally, I still don't look people in the eyes when talking to them. My brother is the same way.
Damn
This explain a lot about me
that feeling when you watch a syrmor vid and realize you have undiagnosed autism
the same
he just like me fr...
Interesting...
Throwing out school accommodations GANG.
Hi, i kinda stopped watching because im busy but i see the channel is picking up speed. Good work :)
epic
I wish I could talk to you about bipolar but could never afford VR. 33 years old and doomed
you can play VRChat if you have a PC. you dont need vr
welp, gg. guess I'm autistic cause this is literally me. I just had to learn by myself from people getting mad and bridges getting burned
I'm so early my parents still love me
Man, kids can be the fucking worse.
criminally early
early af
Sucha channel ✌️
First?
Great now im suspicious that i may be on the spectrum🙊
first
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It's a trip to hear about this because of how much different people with autism are.