God, these titles hit me like a truck and then the thumbnail is just ronald mcdonald in the hospital being visited by peter griffin. The rollercoaster of emotions is thicker than oatmeal.
Fuck dude. I didnt know about the fluids from chemo making you bloated. In marching band, we were going to London and there was this clarinetist that graduated but was able to come back to go with us. She came back looking seriously big. Like not fat but something was making her swell very disproprtionally. Nobody knew why, but we knew something was up. She was so fuckin sweet man, so we hated that something wasnt right. But she went on the weeklong trip anyway and had such a great time with us all. Sometime later, after we all graduated and in college, we saw that she passed away. So she mustve either just finished chemo or was in the middle of it when we went to London back then. Damn Teresa. I wish I couldve been there for you more. I miss you.
As someone who has suffered from a serious medical condition that impacted their entire life, I completely understand seperating your life into "before" and "after"
Likewise, you have to accept your 'new normal' and change your life accordingly. I sometimes think about before, but I push it from my mind to make way for who I am now
@@xevihc8519 It can be for people who haven't had an experience that affected them that much. I didn't get it until my issues had a major transformative escalation
@@user-mu5zv5fw3j ...obviously... the question asked was about the inspiration / origin of the name itself, because i doubt her mother named her "morg florg" lol silly goose
I haven’t played vr chat in 9 months because of school but it’s the best place sometimes, you can make so many friends age doesn’t even matter that much like it’s great but UA-cam sadly mainly promotes bad stuff about it but it’s great
When I was about 8 years old I spent a month in a hospital because I had rheumatism. 3 weeks long I had this one girl, same age, in my room. We both weren't really able to walk much, so we talked and played all day. We became pretty much best friends. So, after the 3 weeks i got released. Back to normality, while she was still stuck in there. I visited her a few times but life went on and we didn't talk to each other for a few years. With 13 years i started to develop chronic migraines - so i had to go back to the hospital to get a diagnosis. Actually the moment we left we met her mother smoking infront of the main entrance. She told us that she didn't actually have rheuma but blood cancer and that she was fighting for her life. I remember being sad, but i had that strong feeling that she would get better. 2 years later my father had a phone call with her mom. She told him that she died. And that totally crushed me. so i feel the pain the woman in the video feels. But at least it brought back so many beautiful memories. So thank u.
What happens when you get cancer in USA? do you have to pay or does insurance cover it? Also, my mum has cancer and now needs medication for the rest of her life to prevent it growing back. Would insurance cover that? I'm in the UK so it is all covered but i always think about how if we were american would my family be bankrupt now trying to pay for these drugs which probably cost 000's per month
The chances of any one person getting cancer are extremely small. This is the kind of thing you shouldn't worry about unless you actually get it. Get on with living your life and having experiences instead!
@@fraggsta Sorry dude, but cancer is absolutely likely to happen. "According to Medical News Today, 1 in 2 women and 1 in 3 men in the US will develop cancer within their lifetime". Do note that cancer like many diseases is much less likely to happen to young or healthy people. But like, it's definitely a thing that is not rare.
I don’t understand how she can talk about all this without breaking down, especially the part where she talked about her grandfather’s funeral and Amanda. Best wishes to this girl. Stay strong!
She really does sound so much like her sister, Peachjars. Somehow the fake clown smile makes the story feel all the more sincere and poignant, when you'd think it would have the opposite effect.
"Phlebotomist" was probably the word she was looking for, not Hematologist. Also, *this* video was much more a good representation of the human condition.
Isn't phlebotomy just the process of extracting the patient's blood?, I didn't know there was an specific job for that. I though every doctor and nurse could do that.
@@martiddy I mean yeah every nurse and doc can do that, but usually undergraduate students can work as a Phlebotomist part-time. And the pay ain't bad, particularly in these COVID times. I dated a Phlebotomist for a little while
I'm a 24-year-old girl right now, and... The positive attitude this girl has is inspiring, yet not overly preachy or anything. just... I'm happy for her, deeply and truly happy that she gets to experience life and casual insight like this.
Regarding the blood doctor thing, I think what she meant to say is "phlebotomist". Cancer is really a horrible disease most people are oblivious of, yet it laves such a unique mark on individuals like morgflorg that it can almost create an entire new person out of you
After all the sadness surrounding her story and the pain she's gone through 21:06 _"Ohh! Oh, this is the question! Oh!"_ Just the way she immediately lights up made me laugh
If you see this Morg, live for yourself and for Amanda. I’ve lost family members and I try to soak up sunshine and enjoy the outdoors, like they used to, for them.
@@morgflorg1281 it can be bittersweet but it makes me feel closer to them even though they’re gone. Like they’re over my shoulders while I’m on a walk or hike, enjoying a waterfall with me. Just keep trucking and good luck!
The best part about your channel is these are real stories from real people. It’s so genuine and true and it’s very eye opening to get a deep insight into these peoples lives and experiences. Thanks for always doing that Syrmor and welcome back too!
My girlfriend had acute-lymphoblastic Leukemia so this video hits really close to home. The way she described her experiences was eerily similar to my gfs stories when she was in the hospital. Thankfully she has been cancer free for a few years now but hearing stories like this always makes me happy she is still here with us and I am happy this women is still with us as well.
Without getting into too much detail I understand. My sister also had gotten leukemia cancer and had very similar experiences. She died to covid last year so I really hope your gf is doing amazing and I’m so happy she got through it
My fiance just passed last month from (ALL). She had gotten a bad batch of blood and developed sepsis. I felt this. She was all I ever wanted and we were going to get married in November of this year. She was 29. Stay strong warrior.
I recently got diagnosed with a tumor on my eye. It's extremely rare, aggressive, and so so hard to catch. This was something I needed so deeply. I hope she's doing okay.
Out of all your videos...i cried in this one. My mom lost her life exactly one month ago due to a brain tumor and “Amanda’s” story reminded me so much to what happened to my mom. I liked this video, but i don’t know how to feel about it.
And here I am, thinking I'm suffering over a dumb heartbreak. It's hearing things like this that humble me and re-center my perspective of what really matters. That something as trivial as what I am feeling is something wonderful to experience and that I'm glad it's the worst of my issues.
These stories always hit me different .. I'm a 26year old man with 3 kids crying listening to this in the shower while everyone is asleep .. My feelings are way to intense sometimes .. Jeez
As a cancer survivor myself, I can relate to a lot of what she said about how the chemo affected her, but for me it’s always strange to hear the more detailed stories, because I went through my treatment when I was only 5 years old, so I don’t really remember anything about my life during treatment. Really, the only thing I can truly remember from the hospital is how bad everything tasted due to the chemo killing my taste buds and me eating McDonalds all the time because it was the only thing that tasted good.
As a patient that survived genetic cancer this is a nightmare to hear and its even worse when you personally experience it you get sick easier litteraly almost every common illness is 10x worse and your tired which causes you to sleep alot hating food you used to love and not being able to go to school sometimes missing education which took a toll on my smartsand I couldn't see my family alot of the time so I went into a state of depression I thought sometimes of just well ending it but I didn't for I wanted to make sure my family was safe and because I knew it was wrong and the relief of getting rid of cancer it was... God it was amazing I could finnaly be normal and do the things I want. thats all I have to say
This brought up a lot of memories of my friend Brent. He battled with different forms of cancer all throughout his life and passed away as a teenager. He was kind beyond what words could describe. I really appreciated hearing her story. Somehow I feel comforted by it. Thank you so much.
These are 9 times out of 10 heartbreakers. Something about real stories done like this leave a lasting impression. Ive cried watching these videos more than once.
Yeah girl, you rock! I had chemo for Hodgkin's while my friend was at Hematology for Leukemia. It felt like both of us are on death sentence, watching eachother wither away. It still feels like I died and I'm living in a simulation right now. We both made it, but never really gotten our minds out of there. It takes balls of god damn fucking steel to get up from this, massive respect to you 💪
This hits so close to home because my Aunty is essentially dying of cancer but it currently has no visible active cancer cells but they’re still there because it’s too late stage to remove
My younger sister was diagnosed with cervical cancer shortly after she had her first child. On and off of Chemo several times, in and out of the hospital. Mostly in. She was declared cancerfree and in full remission two times. It came back every time. She died the 17th of March last year. About two years after her first diagnosis. She was 30. Far too young. This video reminded me of everything she went through. Though I doubt I'll ever forget it. Thank you for these videos. For letting people tell their stories. It's important.
When she was talking about her memory issues and said "My life is gone" that fucked me up way harder than I expected. I have epilepsy and ADHD, and along with my meds, my long term memory is absolute shit. Particularly when it comes to recalling specific memories or people. I've probably forgotten 95% of them; the closest I can get is sorta recalling how I felt around those times sometimes. It doesn't sound that bad, but not being able to look back on nearly anything in your life gets incredibly depressing when someone tries to make conversation about some important stretch of time in your life and all you can say is "I don't remember any of that."
I had a friend who last year died due to leukemia around i think august 2020. I hadn't seen him since 2014. I remember playing a game about coming to term with the deaths around you when i learned the new. It hit me in a very weird way. Hearing this made me realize what he was going through once he was diagnosed. I think about it often. Cancer has always been something that has terrified me to no end. I know the chances of getting it are low and that its rare but my mind says every new bump and pain is a symptom. I need not live in fear and i know that i need to be strong like Morg. All power to you Morg. Heres to January 2023 when you are officially cured
this makes me think about my mom and it sucks please say i love you to the ppl you know and try your best to make those days count, and its hard and you dont know what to do, cry its ok, sometime heartbreaks cant be healed so cry.
My mom has dealt with breast cancer, she luckily got diagnosed early, stage 2. Still had to get chemo and a mammectomy, that was almost 2 years ago now. She's doing much better, but I remember so much of that time from this story. We had a rule: no talking about the cancer, unless it was important. We always talked about positive stuff and plans for the weekend, etc. The chemo was the worst part for her, and she still gets tired way easier than she ever used to. Hope you're well, thanks for sharing your story!
As someone who had a BMT and went through a lot of the same things, I appreciate her sharing her story. To know thats its not so alien to other people my age. Thank you for sharing your story, Morgflorg, all the best
This was an amazing video. As im currently having cancer, it was really nice to hear such a detailed and true story, so similliar to mine. The best thing is she didnt only emphasize the bad and depressing emotionaly experience as a whole, but show the many obstacles and hardship going into the process, what she had to endure and be used to in her everyday life. I really appreciate that, im right now at my 7th cycle of chem, slowly aproaching the end i hope. Im really tired of everything and always having to explain to everyone around me whats it like, as if i was only one with such experiences. Sometimes i think as if people only viewed cancer as this scary thing, nobody wants to talk about it, nobody knows how to act. But here, for the first time, i heard a story of how i would probably tell it. Thank you for that video, it was calming and gave me a bit more hope. She is so wonderful, telling such a hard story in a positive tone. I hope she will never have to come back to it and lead only a happy life.
Its hard hearing people talk about cancer for me. But I still listen because my life was shaped by three incredibly important people to me having it when I was young. All 3 did not make it, it really messed me up as a kid. I really do agree, that sometimes you wish people knew their death day and other times dont. It just seems so unfair, really wish we could figure out a simple easy painless cure for cancer. I really do.
Went into this hoping to assuage my fears of cancer. Came out of it sobbing for my brother, who also died abruptly of a seizure in 2018. The veil is so fast with seizures. I'm so sorry.
Morg sounds like such a wonderful person. Thanks for doing what you do and spreading human stories around. Its beautiful... and crushing at the same time.
This video hits me so hard, my best frined died of Leukemia ten years ago. He battled for almost a year and a half, went through 3 bone marrow transpant(with two rejection) and when everything seems to be going for the good he just died. He was 21 at the time and he wasn't even been able to graduate from highschool... Thank you for your videos Syrmor and I hope to Morgflorg to never see Leukemia reappear again
this oddly resonates with me. as a childhood cancer survivor i relate to a lot of this in ways i cant explain. I cant remember a lot of my treatment but what i do remember is the ronald Mcdonald house. my family stayed at the ronald Mcdonald house when we were out of state for treatment. the ronald Mcdonald house is a project from Mcdonalds that gives places for families to stay when they have to travel for treatment. they build places like hotels specifically for kids with diseases. and that dumb little ronald clown face will always be some symbol to me. so seeing this cancer survivor as a ronald Mcdonald clown was very weird.
Had the same leukemia as her when I was 4. I met so many kids during my time in the hospital that were so energetic even though they were being pumped full of chemicals almost daily. I'm happy I had leukemia while I was still a child and not a teen/young adult just because I can't remember fully what happened like she did. I still get the mental fog that she spoke about and it's very annoying to have when you're trying to have a conversation with someone. I'm really glad she made it out and was able to tell us a story about her and her friend
I found this channel two days ago and this video was one I was dreading to watch as my late mother (2018) went through the treatments for acute myeloid leukemia. Hearing Morgflorg talk about her experiences brought up a lot of memories and emotions which I just now realized I did not process as well as I thought I did. I'd like to thank Morgflorg for being so open about her experiences as it genuinely helped me revisit and process what occurred to me standing on the sideline of my mother her treatments.. I am genuinely happy that things are looking positive for you and I hope you are blessed with a long, healthy and prosperous life.
Thank you to her for opening my eyes to whet my best friend experienced in high school. He had acute myeloid leukemia at 16 he only survived for 6 months. I never got to say goodbye and it kills me to this day, I should have been there for him more, I should have seen him more..what a terrible best friend..I could barley accept what was happening when I was told he had cancer my 16 year old self laughed and said he’s fine he’ll be back in a few days and I just kept running from it until I saw him in his hospital bed asleep after a round of chemo and I just sat there and talked about the times of us playing modern warfare together and cried. Fuck, I miss you chandler I’m glad you’re not suffering anymore and are at peace it’s been nearly 10 years and I think of you everyday.
These videos mean a lot to me I feel like I learn things I won’t be able to learn anywhere else and I appreciate how you give people chances to tell their stories
Bruh, this whole story hit too hard today. I was diagnosed with a terminal case of Stage 4 Hodgkin's Lymphoma when I was younger but ended up surviving, and have gone to summer camps for children with cancer- both being a camper and counselor. I find that it all hits you so much harder when it is your loved ones who don't make it; I'm sorry you had to go through this.
@Gameing & Tech ah yea man, I don't wanna sound like I know this for a fact cause I'm no doctor lmao although what those probably are- are your lymph nodes. They can swell up when you have just a common cold although can swell for other reasons to. My cancer was noticed in my lymph nodes because that's where it actually began, so its always good to get it checked, especially if you have concerns!
@Gameing & Tech yea man I don't think you've gotta worry either, your mom is right. Plus I'm pretty sure lymphoma cancer is fairly curable most of the time anyways lmao. Mine was only terminal cause I was misdiagnosed and it moved to my lungs
i’ve never cried over a youtube video but wow this really made me tear up. it just brought some memories because my cousin use to have a disease and was in the hospital for 5 years and he only had like a 3% chance of living and i remember my little self felt so helpless because i’m the type of person to always want to help people out and when i can’t i would blame myself. and i’m glad he’s still here because he is like my best friend in the world we always grew up with each other and he used to tell me things like “oh you go to school” when i was little and i was like yeah it’s boring but to him the little things excited him the most and i felt like i was taking advantage of it and not being grateful. this video has brought attention to myself to stop being so selfish and ungrateful. the little things we take for granted everyday some other kid in the world wishes they can experience it.
Listening to this story of leukemia makes me understand my friend more who got it, I prayed every day for him but hearing this story makes me understand what he went through, I'm still waiting to hangout with finally in the next two months
My father and aunt have been dealing with leukaemia this last year. I can’t fathom paying for healthcare, they would be gone if not for the UK healthcare system. Like we would not afford it. It’s monstrous putting a price tag on your survival.
It took me a while to watch this one since it hits home and I completely spiral down remembering but I hope where ever you are you are happy and enjoying life 💜
I also have cancer luekimeia ( ALL) and I can understand everting she’s saying but I got cancer when I was 12 and now I am 14 still going chemo treatment. I had to go to a different city in order for me to get my treatment I went to Corpus in Texas and it was really life changing for my whole family. Also it is really hard for people who are going through treatment especially in position of COVID. I think it really affected me because I am very social with people and so the the first years of my treatment it was going well, and then when now when this COVID hit it just caused me to get depressed and sad because I couldn’t see anyone anymore because of the lockdown. But now I am doing well I’m almost done with my treatment, I’m really excited 😊
Happy to hear things are going well and that you’re almost done with your treatment, stay strong! You could do this! Wish you the best of luck, god bless you
Pancreatic cancer runs in my family it is usually a death sentence once you get it you only have so long, for these tougher cancers they really don't know much more than they did in the 50s they just blast you with radiation and the current terrible drug that slowly messes up the rest of your body. I watched my grandfather go through this till his death and he had to do the same with all of his siblings.
This made me ball my eyes out this exact situation happen to me when I was 13 almost around the same time almost the same year I got diagnosed with cancer on January 4th 2016 and had chemotherapy for a cancer called Mds which is very similar to leukemia. Crazy part is there was a girl in my school who also got cancer right around the same time and I've never tried to talk to her about it one of the biggest regrets in my life. I my just depressed that in reality this will likely happen again in my life.
My dad had ALL. It’s almost scary how similar Amanda’s story is to my dads. I found out when I was in 9th grade. My mom took my sister and I out of class and told us and we all cried in the parking lot sitting on the tailgate of her truck. It’s crazy the memories this brought back. My dad tried his hardest to make the next couple of years as good as possible, and to make it feel as normal as possible. Sometimes whenever we were walking around downtown and he started falling behind everyone I would remember that he just couldn’t keep up anymore. By the time I was a senior, he had been in remission for a while. Right after high school I joined the army. He had been contemplating getting a bone marrow transplant since he’d gone into remission, but when I was in basic training he finally decided to do it. I was the first choice to be his match, so the hospital sent up a testing kit. Turns out I was a perfect match. So I got to leave basic for a few days and go give him a bone marrow transplant. It sucked a lot, but I’d do it all over again if he needed it. The transplant went great, so I left for Fort Sill. I never turned in my phone to the drill sergeants so I could keep up with how he was doing. That’s how I found out that he had started having some complications. My mom told me that he got pneumonia somehow while his immune system was almost non existent. I got called into the office and was told that I’d be going back home soon to see him. Well before I could leave I got the news. It was about 9am. We had just done pt and ate breakfast when I was called back in. They told me to call my mom and to do it now. I called and called and couldn’t get an answer. Finally she picks up and what I heard will haunt me forever. I’ll spare the details but I had to hear his final breaths. It absolutely broke me, but I’ll never forget the two people that sat with me as I cried and cried my heart out. Miss you dad 🧡
Those last few words... as someone with depression, i live with constant guilt of not living enough and not being thankfull enough and happy enough. I'm fighting for what i need right now which is recovery. It's very hard to accept that i'm enough and confront that every single day. But it's the only way forward. Thank you for this whole conversation.
This was an emotional video for me because it conveys a strong message that I hadn't thought about before and as a story it hits kinda close to home because I've had relatives and currently do have relatives that have cancer and are going through the recovery process of it and this video has help show some light as to how hard it can be for not only the individual going through it but also the family and friends that also get affected by it. Just wanted to say that I'm glad you are in remission and I hope it doesn't return. I also just wanted to say thank you for sharing a story like this.
I’ve been waiting so long for a new video. I used to watch all of them at work idk why but they got me thru a lot after I got fired from my job I just felt so empty and theses videos made me feel better its like a clam as all this chaos is happening I really just wanna say thank you
That was one of the hardest parts for me I think, I survived 3 bouts with AML Leukemia. . .the friends I met and got to know. . .so many lost their battle. The relapses. The bad news. 8 years old when I first got sick. Grew up fast. 2 bone marrow transplants and a stem cell transplant later, 20+ years later still kicking. Im sorry about your friend. Stay strong and stay as healthy as you can✊
Holy shit, as a cancer myself, I never fully realized I do the same shit with 'Before Sick' and 'After Sick'; that was a bit of an abrupt reality check.
Watching these videos is a different kind of empowerment, hearing deep and impactful stories from people is such a wonderful thing. Thank you for sharing her voice Symor. Rest in peace to Amanda. ❤
God, these titles hit me like a truck and then the thumbnail is just ronald mcdonald in the hospital being visited by peter griffin. The rollercoaster of emotions is thicker than oatmeal.
could not be more true lmao
Bruh my oatmeal is thicker...like the thickness of frosting! I think I make mine wrong
Lmaooo
I just made oatmeal
@@jovialz1437 I-
Fuck dude. I didnt know about the fluids from chemo making you bloated.
In marching band, we were going to London and there was this clarinetist that graduated but was able to come back to go with us. She came back looking seriously big. Like not fat but something was making her swell very disproprtionally. Nobody knew why, but we knew something was up. She was so fuckin sweet man, so we hated that something wasnt right. But she went on the weeklong trip anyway and had such a great time with us all. Sometime later, after we all graduated and in college, we saw that she passed away. So she mustve either just finished chemo or was in the middle of it when we went to London back then.
Damn Teresa. I wish I couldve been there for you more. I miss you.
It’s most likely from steroids, when I had chemo they put me on crazy high doses of corticosteroids which made me swell up.
@@3cc290 hope you're doing good now
@@obesewhale1899 i'm almost 3 years in remission)
Me waiting for "guy in vrchat talks about the best day of his life": 🙂
soon
@@syrmor keep spreading positivity my guy 👌😎 give dawa a virtual hug for all of his fans (let it be known that Kermit the god is dawa's biggest fan)
@@syrmor YES
@@syrmor breathe*
@@syrmor I gotta tell yah this one story you and your audience is gonna enjoy the hell out of it
As someone who has suffered from a serious medical condition that impacted their entire life, I completely understand seperating your life into "before" and "after"
We shall never forget the saltening.
Likewise, you have to accept your 'new normal' and change your life accordingly. I sometimes think about before, but I push it from my mind to make way for who I am now
Not hard to understand tbh
Had a lung transplant last year and my life changed totally so yes I agree
@@xevihc8519 It can be for people who haven't had an experience that affected them that much. I didn't get it until my issues had a major transformative escalation
I was on chemo. Not for cancer, but for my chronic illness. It was hell. I have such respect for this girl.
Thank you friend
Kudos to you max for enduring such a trial of strength. I assume that you came out on top 👏👏
@@morgflorg1281 why the name Morg florg? What's the inspiration besides perhaps some random name
@@user-mu5zv5fw3j ...obviously... the question asked was about the inspiration / origin of the name itself, because i doubt her mother named her "morg florg" lol silly goose
It’s amazing how such a cursed place can bring so many people togther at the same time and be so real. A simulation is more real that most my convos
Life: *sucks*
VR Chat players: I reject your reality and substitute my own!
I haven’t played vr chat in 9 months because of school but it’s the best place sometimes, you can make so many friends age doesn’t even matter that much like it’s great but UA-cam sadly mainly promotes bad stuff about it but it’s great
I’d imagine that the real horrors happened to ppl who don’t have access to there story, let alone a VR simulation to tell share it on
it depends on the world, murder 4 is an absolute hellhole, but there are many good worlds, such as courtroom.
Hey I think you're pretty cool bro (: my homies out here in hollywood wouldn't talk like u n I'm 24, u have a good head on your shoulders
When I was about 8 years old I spent a month in a hospital because I had rheumatism. 3 weeks long I had this one girl, same age, in my room. We both weren't really able to walk much, so we talked and played all day. We became pretty much best friends. So, after the 3 weeks i got released. Back to normality, while she was still stuck in there. I visited her a few times but life went on and we didn't talk to each other for a few years.
With 13 years i started to develop chronic migraines - so i had to go back to the hospital to get a diagnosis. Actually the moment we left we met her mother smoking infront of the main entrance. She told us that she didn't actually have rheuma but blood cancer and that she was fighting for her life. I remember being sad, but i had that strong feeling that she would get better.
2 years later my father had a phone call with her mom. She told him that she died. And that totally crushed me. so i feel the pain the woman in the video feels. But at least it brought back so many beautiful memories. So thank u.
The fact that she is in lifelong debt because she had a disease she could not have done anything about is fucking crazy
Welcome to America
@@homelessmeme1075 unfortunately
This is why I'm trying to get out of America as soon as possible
America moment
What happens when you get cancer in USA? do you have to pay or does insurance cover it? Also, my mum has cancer and now needs medication for the rest of her life to prevent it growing back. Would insurance cover that? I'm in the UK so it is all covered but i always think about how if we were american would my family be bankrupt now trying to pay for these drugs which probably cost 000's per month
I’m so terrified of contracting cancer/leukemia. This woman is also strong for being so positive.
The chances of any one person getting cancer are extremely small. This is the kind of thing you shouldn't worry about unless you actually get it. Get on with living your life and having experiences instead!
@@fraggsta dude. Dude I love you (:
@@fraggsta Sorry dude, but cancer is absolutely likely to happen. "According to Medical News Today, 1 in 2 women and 1 in 3 men in the US will develop cancer within their lifetime". Do note that cancer like many diseases is much less likely to happen to young or healthy people. But like, it's definitely a thing that is not rare.
@@Rotem_S did u have to say that...
@@Rotem_S i looked it up online abd there’s a 39.5% chance that a man or woman will get it in their lifetime
I don’t understand how she can talk about all this without breaking down, especially the part where she talked about her grandfather’s funeral and Amanda. Best wishes to this girl. Stay strong!
I'm sure she did, probably edited parts out.
@@snowballeffect7812 yeah
You could hear it that she kinda did.
She started talking faster and faster with a more shaky voice
@@napoleon950 yep but never broke down
Pretty easy to talk about tbh, it was a part of my life and it helps me process the emotions. Thanks for listening!
I'm a grown man, I can't help but cry listening to some of these.
The dark parts of real people. It's intimate.
Being a guy don’t mean nothing, dude. Cry it out brother.
@@SuperSpooky Absoloutely. Emotions don't go away when you're a man.
It means you are a true man with empathy and feelings
I've had cancer but no were near that scale and this story makes me tear up
I turned 30 yesterday, i was a little annoyed that I'm officially not "young" anymore, this video really put my own selfish feelings into context.
nah bro 30 is still young as hell go have fun dont limit yourself
Can you explain more about the selfish feelings part in relation to this annoying girls voice?
@@deaththink you're delightful
@@deaththink ur so funny 😕
@@gsesquire3441 hahaha ... you can't be serious about the 45 comment...
This girl is so magnetic I adore her
Omg ty
Morg, look into b17 laetrile anygdalin apricot seeds
@@morgflorg1281 ofc!!
@@morgflorg1281 I hope you’re still doing well!!
@@draco8715 Fuck yeah I am
“Syrmor has uploaded a video” *Visible happiness*
Edit: morg sounds like a great person and I hope the leukemia never comes back, wish you the best.
Thank uuuuu
@@morgflorg1281 you're a awesome person morg florg
She really does sound so much like her sister, Peachjars. Somehow the fake clown smile makes the story feel all the more sincere and poignant, when you'd think it would have the opposite effect.
The different characters that people chose to be really help humanize them in some weird way
Haha! We don’t look alike at all which is funny.
she's such a strong person
I pray that January 2023 holds the great news of her being cured
"Phlebotomist" was probably the word she was looking for, not Hematologist.
Also, *this* video was much more a good representation of the human condition.
Isn't phlebotomy just the process of extracting the patient's blood?, I didn't know there was an specific job for that. I though every doctor and nurse could do that.
@@martiddy I mean yeah every nurse and doc can do that, but usually undergraduate students can work as a Phlebotomist part-time. And the pay ain't bad, particularly in these COVID times.
I dated a Phlebotomist for a little while
I'm a 24-year-old girl right now, and... The positive attitude this girl has is inspiring, yet not overly preachy or anything. just... I'm happy for her, deeply and truly happy that she gets to experience life and casual insight like this.
Regarding the blood doctor thing, I think what she meant to say is "phlebotomist". Cancer is really a horrible disease most people are oblivious of, yet it laves such a unique mark on individuals like morgflorg that it can almost create an entire new person out of you
Yes phlebotomists are the people who take your blood! I have to get blood work done every three months and that’s who I go to got for that :)
That's the word she attempted to say, but the actual doctor that specializes in blood that gave her a diagnosis was a Hematologist.
After all the sadness surrounding her story and the pain she's gone through
21:06 _"Ohh! Oh, this is the question! Oh!"_
Just the way she immediately lights up made me laugh
Oh christ when she started sounded scared and crying, fuck man that made me sad
If you see this Morg, live for yourself and for Amanda. I’ve lost family members and I try to soak up sunshine and enjoy the outdoors, like they used to, for them.
Thank u! I’m doing that later today
@@morgflorg1281 it can be bittersweet but it makes me feel closer to them even though they’re gone. Like they’re over my shoulders while I’m on a walk or hike, enjoying a waterfall with me. Just keep trucking and good luck!
3:00 she was referring to Phlebotomist. They're responsible for extracting blood and sometimes analysis
My friend Filip died from blood cancer one year ago, her story made me remember all the things Filip went through.
RIP Filip, i miss you buddy.
The best part about your channel is these are real stories from real people. It’s so genuine and true and it’s very eye opening to get a deep insight into these peoples lives and experiences. Thanks for always doing that Syrmor and welcome back too!
Syrmor might be the best interviewer I've ever seen. He's amazing at what he does, and every video gets me emotional by the end
My girlfriend had acute-lymphoblastic Leukemia so this video hits really close to home. The way she described her experiences was eerily similar to my gfs stories when she was in the hospital. Thankfully she has been cancer free for a few years now but hearing stories like this always makes me happy she is still here with us and I am happy this women is still with us as well.
Happy for you and your girlfriend, man ! :))
Celebration time come on 🎉
Without getting into too much detail I understand. My sister also had gotten leukemia cancer and had very similar experiences. She died to covid last year so I really hope your gf is doing amazing and I’m so happy she got through it
Towards the end when she just kept saying “I don’t know” I felt it. It’s all the pain and guilt and memories and u really just can process it. Wow...
Okay I was not expecting the story to end with Amanda dying. I didn't even know her but I was so invested in their friendship. RIP "Amanda".
Being a 20- something female and unsure of my health this hit me so hard. I’m feel for this woman, and I cried like a baby the whole way!
My fiance just passed last month from (ALL). She had gotten a bad batch of blood and developed sepsis. I felt this. She was all I ever wanted and we were going to get married in November of this year. She was 29. Stay strong warrior.
VRChat has to be one of the best places to vent
Nah
"My mom would make food and she's-
My mom is a beautiful lady..."
Jesus I cackled when she said that.
Such a cool guy for just sitting there and listening to the story's.
I recently got diagnosed with a tumor on my eye. It's extremely rare, aggressive, and so so hard to catch. This was something I needed so deeply. I hope she's doing okay.
the fact she got to keep her job for 9 months is maybe the most miraculous
Out of all your videos...i cried in this one. My mom lost her life exactly one month ago due to a brain tumor and “Amanda’s” story reminded me so much to what happened to my mom.
I liked this video, but i don’t know how to feel about it.
I'm sorry for your loss Fernando
I know words might not fix your pain, but I hope you’re able to remember the good times with her and be proud of the battle she fought
And here I am, thinking I'm suffering over a dumb heartbreak. It's hearing things like this that humble me and re-center my perspective of what really matters. That something as trivial as what I am feeling is something wonderful to experience and that I'm glad it's the worst of my issues.
These stories always hit me different .. I'm a 26year old man with 3 kids crying listening to this in the shower while everyone is asleep .. My feelings are way to intense sometimes .. Jeez
Its okay these emotions aren't intense. They are just normal. This story is truly heartbreaking.
My mother had breast cancer. Cancer survivors are true warriors.
She is incredible and strong. So glad she shared her story with us, and so glad that she is still here with us today.
As a cancer survivor myself, I can relate to a lot of what she said about how the chemo affected her, but for me it’s always strange to hear the more detailed stories, because I went through my treatment when I was only 5 years old, so I don’t really remember anything about my life during treatment. Really, the only thing I can truly remember from the hospital is how bad everything tasted due to the chemo killing my taste buds and me eating McDonalds all the time because it was the only thing that tasted good.
Hearing her start to cry talking about missing the furneral made me ball my eyes out.
There's a certain humanity to these videos that you don't find often.
As a patient that survived genetic cancer this is a nightmare to hear and its even worse when you personally experience it you get sick easier litteraly almost every common illness is 10x worse and your tired which causes you to sleep alot hating food you used to love and not being able to go to school sometimes missing education which took a toll on my smartsand I couldn't see my family alot of the time so I went into a state of depression I thought sometimes of just well ending it but I didn't for I wanted to make sure my family was safe and because I knew it was wrong and the relief of getting rid of cancer it was... God it was amazing I could finnaly be normal and do the things I want. thats all I have to say
If you don't understand me its ok never have been good at explaining things
Also I got to meet the yellow men in the operation room then I fell asleep and woke up later they look funny
This brought up a lot of memories of my friend Brent. He battled with different forms of cancer all throughout his life and passed away as a teenager. He was kind beyond what words could describe.
I really appreciated hearing her story. Somehow I feel comforted by it. Thank you so much.
These are 9 times out of 10 heartbreakers. Something about real stories done like this leave a lasting impression. Ive cried watching these videos more than once.
Her story ab them not calling her back is what happens to 99% of regular people when pursuing a health issue. Disgusting, glad shes ok
Yeah girl, you rock! I had chemo for Hodgkin's while my friend was at Hematology for Leukemia. It felt like both of us are on death sentence, watching eachother wither away. It still feels like I died and I'm living in a simulation right now. We both made it, but never really gotten our minds out of there. It takes balls of god damn fucking steel to get up from this, massive respect to you 💪
Legends never die. Keep her memory alive in your hearts and may her soul rest in peace
*"It feels like your a rebellious teenager rebelling against your own body."*
Now that's a amazing quote,
great video as always.
This hits so close to home because my Aunty is essentially dying of cancer but it currently has no visible active cancer cells but they’re still there because it’s too late stage to remove
My younger sister was diagnosed with cervical cancer shortly after she had her first child. On and off of Chemo several times, in and out of the hospital. Mostly in. She was declared cancerfree and in full remission two times. It came back every time.
She died the 17th of March last year. About two years after her first diagnosis. She was 30. Far too young.
This video reminded me of everything she went through. Though I doubt I'll ever forget it.
Thank you for these videos. For letting people tell their stories. It's important.
The way she answered the question kinda made me cry inside idk why
Glad to see you back, your videos always calm me down. Hope you are okay, also Morgflorgs story is so touching
When she was talking about her memory issues and said "My life is gone" that fucked me up way harder than I expected.
I have epilepsy and ADHD, and along with my meds, my long term memory is absolute shit. Particularly when it comes to recalling specific memories or people. I've probably forgotten 95% of them; the closest I can get is sorta recalling how I felt around those times sometimes. It doesn't sound that bad, but not being able to look back on nearly anything in your life gets incredibly depressing when someone tries to make conversation about some important stretch of time in your life and all you can say is "I don't remember any of that."
I had a friend who last year died due to leukemia around i think august 2020. I hadn't seen him since 2014. I remember playing a game about coming to term with the deaths around you when i learned the new. It hit me in a very weird way. Hearing this made me realize what he was going through once he was diagnosed. I think about it often. Cancer has always been something that has terrified me to no end. I know the chances of getting it are low and that its rare but my mind says every new bump and pain is a symptom. I need not live in fear and i know that i need to be strong like Morg. All power to you Morg. Heres to January 2023 when you are officially cured
this makes me think about my mom and it sucks please say i love you to the ppl you know and try your best to make those days count, and its hard and you dont know what to do, cry its ok, sometime heartbreaks cant be healed so cry.
My mom has dealt with breast cancer, she luckily got diagnosed early, stage 2. Still had to get chemo and a mammectomy, that was almost 2 years ago now. She's doing much better, but I remember so much of that time from this story. We had a rule: no talking about the cancer, unless it was important. We always talked about positive stuff and plans for the weekend, etc. The chemo was the worst part for her, and she still gets tired way easier than she ever used to. Hope you're well, thanks for sharing your story!
Im a simple man. I see Symor, I click
Man, I hope Morg is still doing okay. This story hit really hard.
As someone who had a BMT and went through a lot of the same things, I appreciate her sharing her story. To know thats its not so alien to other people my age.
Thank you for sharing your story, Morgflorg, all the best
Syrmor - doesn’t post for four months while I am happy
Me - suddenly gets depression after four months
Syrmor - I’m about end this mans whole career
i hope you get better!
Hope you get better! Internet hug :)
I really like her answer to the question, started to make me cry "you are worth fighting for"
She seems so sweet and i hope she gets cured
This was an amazing video. As im currently having cancer, it was really nice to hear such a detailed and true story, so similliar to mine. The best thing is she didnt only emphasize the bad and depressing emotionaly experience as a whole, but show the many obstacles and hardship going into the process, what she had to endure and be used to in her everyday life. I really appreciate that, im right now at my 7th cycle of chem, slowly aproaching the end i hope. Im really tired of everything and always having to explain to everyone around me whats it like, as if i was only one with such experiences. Sometimes i think as if people only viewed cancer as this scary thing, nobody wants to talk about it, nobody knows how to act. But here, for the first time, i heard a story of how i would probably tell it. Thank you for that video, it was calming and gave me a bit more hope. She is so wonderful, telling such a hard story in a positive tone. I hope she will never have to come back to it and lead only a happy life.
I hope you are doing well.
Its hard hearing people talk about cancer for me. But I still listen because my life was shaped by three incredibly important people to me having it when I was young. All 3 did not make it, it really messed me up as a kid. I really do agree, that sometimes you wish people knew their death day and other times dont. It just seems so unfair, really wish we could figure out a simple easy painless cure for cancer. I really do.
“I have cancer... Noooobody can tell me no”
Went into this hoping to assuage my fears of cancer.
Came out of it sobbing for my brother, who also died abruptly of a seizure in 2018.
The veil is so fast with seizures. I'm so sorry.
21:26
She knows the danger of platitudes. Respect. Hell, respect for the amount of care she showed for her fellow human.
such a strong person. it breaks my heart what she’s had to endure at such a young age.
Morg sounds like such a wonderful person. Thanks for doing what you do and spreading human stories around. Its beautiful... and crushing at the same time.
Im healthy and i havent left my house for 14 months and havent had a friend since high school-- 4 years ago. Pog
That must be tough, im sorry.
Cancer survivor here, I relate heavily to alot of things said here. Couldnt put alot of it into words.
you're so strong buddy :)
This video hits me so hard, my best frined died of Leukemia ten years ago. He battled for almost a year and a half, went through 3 bone marrow transpant(with two rejection) and when everything seems to be going for the good he just died. He was 21 at the time and he wasn't even been able to graduate from highschool...
Thank you for your videos Syrmor and I hope to Morgflorg to never see Leukemia reappear again
My heart goes out to this girl, hope it all works out for you
I love this series so much, makes me feel so human. I wish her the best. Rest in peace Amanda.
this oddly resonates with me. as a childhood cancer survivor i relate to a lot of this in ways i cant explain. I cant remember a lot of my treatment but what i do remember is the ronald Mcdonald house. my family stayed at the ronald Mcdonald house when we were out of state for treatment. the ronald Mcdonald house is a project from Mcdonalds that gives places for families to stay when they have to travel for treatment. they build places like hotels specifically for kids with diseases. and that dumb little ronald clown face will always be some symbol to me. so seeing this cancer survivor as a ronald Mcdonald clown was very weird.
Had the same leukemia as her when I was 4. I met so many kids during my time in the hospital that were so energetic even though they were being pumped full of chemicals almost daily.
I'm happy I had leukemia while I was still a child and not a teen/young adult just because I can't remember fully what happened like she did. I still get the mental fog that she spoke about and it's very annoying to have when you're trying to have a conversation with someone.
I'm really glad she made it out and was able to tell us a story about her and her friend
I found this channel two days ago and this video was one I was dreading to watch as my late mother (2018) went through the treatments for acute myeloid leukemia. Hearing Morgflorg talk about her experiences brought up a lot of memories and emotions which I just now realized I did not process as well as I thought I did. I'd like to thank Morgflorg for being so open about her experiences as it genuinely helped me revisit and process what occurred to me standing on the sideline of my mother her treatments.. I am genuinely happy that things are looking positive for you and I hope you are blessed with a long, healthy and prosperous life.
Babe wake up new syrmor video
Thank you to her for opening my eyes to whet my best friend experienced in high school.
He had acute myeloid leukemia at 16 he only survived for 6 months. I never got to say goodbye and it kills me to this day, I should have been there for him more, I should have seen him more..what a terrible best friend..I could barley accept what was happening when I was told he had cancer my 16 year old self laughed and said he’s fine he’ll be back in a few days and I just kept running from it until I saw him in his hospital bed asleep after a round of chemo and I just sat there and talked about the times of us playing modern warfare together and cried.
Fuck, I miss you chandler I’m glad you’re not suffering anymore and are at peace it’s been nearly 10 years and I think of you everyday.
These videos mean a lot to me I feel like I learn things I won’t be able to learn anywhere else and I appreciate how you give people chances to tell their stories
Bruh, this whole story hit too hard today. I was diagnosed with a terminal case of Stage 4 Hodgkin's Lymphoma when I was younger but ended up surviving, and have gone to summer camps for children with cancer- both being a camper and counselor. I find that it all hits you so much harder when it is your loved ones who don't make it; I'm sorry you had to go through this.
@Gameing & Tech yea I had chemo, radiation, as well as some surgeries. Although from what I can remember it was more-so chemo and radiation
@Gameing & Tech ah yea man, I don't wanna sound like I know this for a fact cause I'm no doctor lmao although what those probably are- are your lymph nodes. They can swell up when you have just a common cold although can swell for other reasons to. My cancer was noticed in my lymph nodes because that's where it actually began, so its always good to get it checked, especially if you have concerns!
@Gameing & Tech yea man I don't think you've gotta worry either, your mom is right. Plus I'm pretty sure lymphoma cancer is fairly curable most of the time anyways lmao. Mine was only terminal cause I was misdiagnosed and it moved to my lungs
i’ve never cried over a youtube video but wow this really made me tear up. it just brought some memories because my cousin use to have a disease and was in the hospital for 5 years and he only had like a 3% chance of living and i remember my little self felt so helpless because i’m the type of person to always want to help people out and when i can’t i would blame myself. and i’m glad he’s still here because he is like my best friend in the world we always grew up with each other and he used to tell me things like “oh you go to school” when i was little and i was like yeah it’s boring but to him the little things excited him the most and i felt like i was taking advantage of it and not being grateful. this video has brought attention to myself to stop being so selfish and ungrateful. the little things we take for granted everyday some other kid in the world wishes they can experience it.
Listening to this story of leukemia makes me understand my friend more who got it, I prayed every day for him but hearing this story makes me understand what he went through, I'm still waiting to hangout with finally in the next two months
My father and aunt have been dealing with leukaemia this last year. I can’t fathom paying for healthcare, they would be gone if not for the UK healthcare system. Like we would not afford it. It’s monstrous putting a price tag on your survival.
It took me a while to watch this one since it hits home and I completely spiral down remembering but I hope where ever you are you are happy and enjoying life 💜
So happy she made it. We need beautiful souls like her in this world
I also have cancer luekimeia ( ALL) and I can understand everting she’s saying but I got cancer when I was 12 and now I am 14 still going chemo treatment. I had to go to a different city in order for me to get my treatment I went to Corpus in Texas and it was really life changing for my whole family. Also it is really hard for people who are going through treatment especially in position of COVID. I think it really affected me because I am very social with people and so the the first years of my treatment it was going well, and then when now when this COVID hit it just caused me to get depressed and sad because I couldn’t see anyone anymore because of the lockdown. But now I am doing well I’m almost done with my treatment, I’m really excited 😊
Happy to hear things are going well and that you’re almost done with your treatment, stay strong! You could do this! Wish you the best of luck, god bless you
@@homelessmeme1075 Thank you❤️
I hope that girl is doing okay, she's been through a lot and I hope she gets by fine
Pancreatic cancer runs in my family it is usually a death sentence once you get it you only have so long, for these tougher cancers they really don't know much more than they did in the 50s they just blast you with radiation and the current terrible drug that slowly messes up the rest of your body. I watched my grandfather go through this till his death and he had to do the same with all of his siblings.
This made me ball my eyes out this exact situation happen to me when I was 13 almost around the same time almost the same year I got diagnosed with cancer on January 4th 2016 and had chemotherapy for a cancer called Mds which is very similar to leukemia. Crazy part is there was a girl in my school who also got cancer right around the same time and I've never tried to talk to her about it one of the biggest regrets in my life. I my just depressed that in reality this will likely happen again in my life.
My dad had ALL. It’s almost scary how similar Amanda’s story is to my dads. I found out when I was in 9th grade. My mom took my sister and I out of class and told us and we all cried in the parking lot sitting on the tailgate of her truck. It’s crazy the memories this brought back. My dad tried his hardest to make the next couple of years as good as possible, and to make it feel as normal as possible. Sometimes whenever we were walking around downtown and he started falling behind everyone I would remember that he just couldn’t keep up anymore. By the time I was a senior, he had been in remission for a while. Right after high school I joined the army. He had been contemplating getting a bone marrow transplant since he’d gone into remission, but when I was in basic training he finally decided to do it. I was the first choice to be his match, so the hospital sent up a testing kit. Turns out I was a perfect match. So I got to leave basic for a few days and go give him a bone marrow transplant. It sucked a lot, but I’d do it all over again if he needed it. The transplant went great, so I left for Fort Sill. I never turned in my phone to the drill sergeants so I could keep up with how he was doing. That’s how I found out that he had started having some complications. My mom told me that he got pneumonia somehow while his immune system was almost non existent. I got called into the office and was told that I’d be going back home soon to see him. Well before I could leave I got the news. It was about 9am. We had just done pt and ate breakfast when I was called back in. They told me to call my mom and to do it now. I called and called and couldn’t get an answer. Finally she picks up and what I heard will haunt me forever. I’ll spare the details but I had to hear his final breaths. It absolutely broke me, but I’ll never forget the two people that sat with me as I cried and cried my heart out. Miss you dad 🧡
Those last few words... as someone with depression, i live with constant guilt of not living enough and not being thankfull enough and happy enough. I'm fighting for what i need right now which is recovery. It's very hard to accept that i'm enough and confront that every single day. But it's the only way forward.
Thank you for this whole conversation.
This was an emotional video for me because it conveys a strong message that I hadn't thought about before and as a story it hits kinda close to home because I've had relatives and currently do have relatives that have cancer and are going through the recovery process of it and this video has help show some light as to how hard it can be for not only the individual going through it but also the family and friends that also get affected by it.
Just wanted to say that I'm glad you are in remission and I hope it doesn't return. I also just wanted to say thank you for sharing a story like this.
I’ve been waiting so long for a new video. I used to watch all of them at work idk why but they got me thru a lot after I got fired from my job I just felt so empty and theses videos made me feel better its like a clam as all this chaos is happening I really just wanna say thank you
This channel was has been a pleasant treat to find, im really glad you're able to give a platform to people who all have stores to tell
That was one of the hardest parts for me I think, I survived 3 bouts with AML Leukemia. . .the friends I met and got to know. . .so many lost their battle. The relapses. The bad news. 8 years old when I first got sick. Grew up fast. 2 bone marrow transplants and a stem cell transplant later, 20+ years later still kicking.
Im sorry about your friend. Stay strong and stay as healthy as you can✊
Holy shit, as a cancer myself, I never fully realized I do the same shit with 'Before Sick' and 'After Sick'; that was a bit of an abrupt reality check.
Watching these videos is a different kind of empowerment, hearing deep and impactful stories from people is such a wonderful thing. Thank you for sharing her voice Symor. Rest in peace to Amanda. ❤
Wow, this woman is so insanely strong.