Thank you all for your comments and personal stories. Im so grateful and would like to say how amazing you all are ! Absolutely such a great community of people on this channel. How fortunate I am. Much Love, Nicola xx
Your at the forefront and you make your channel so amazing for all of us ! ...you have a kind energy that draws people in ...also you take the time to read the comments and answer that shows how much you care ....many channels really don't do that ! To me your channel is like a history lesson with lots of funny stuff thrown in ...and your filmography is amazing ! ..you connect and that is why your channel is growing ! When you reach 100 thousand I'm going to paint you a picture ...my passion is art and just creating that's what keeps my mind of that other stuff. ...❤
@@samanthaobertelle4966 thank you Samantha! I'll be amazed when I get to 100k. I never set out to start a channel originally. Can't wait to see your art! xx
Hi Nicola! Talking about such family issues in public demonstrates the strength and sincerity of your character. But if you do this to benefit other people in distress, you are proving an immeasurable wealth of spirit. Listening to Matthew's message, I think the declaration of love was also addressed to you, his older sister. For all this I appreciate even more the HUMAN BEING Nicola White. I wish you good health!
I turned 50 Oct. 11th. I suffered from depression and overcame it. Also lost a loved one by suicide who suffered from depression. So thankful for that. Thank you for raising awareness for depression. Love you channel.
Wow! First of all, thank you for your message about mental health! So many people are still afraid of the subject and don't talk about it. It' sounds like your brother was a cool guy, someone that I would have liked to hang out with. I have to say, this came at a strange time for me. I watched this on Monday the 12th, which happens to be the 25th anniversary of my husbands death from Leukemia. The struggles during his illness, and the aftermath of his death left it's marks on myself and my kids. I've dealt with depression, anxiety and PTSD. But as your message in plastic said, there is still wonderful things in this world. You just have to carry on and look for them. Today is also Thanksgiving here in Canada. Kind of appropriate! By the way, Rene, my late husband, was also a musician. He was a guitar player, his last band was a blues band by the name of Sounder. They recorded a few albums. And both of my son and daughter are currently in bands. Life goes on. I shed a few tears watching this, but that's ok. It's ok to shed tears when you need to. Again, thank you Nicola! Take care! Sending you a hug! And stay safe!
A lovely tribute Nicola to Matthew and all those suffering a "private hell"...that needs to become un-private. I was one of them and at my lowest ebb around age 26 too in the late 1980's. I almost went. Age, knowledge and support have helped. Being overly sensitive can be a curse but you need it to be creative as well. Of course you know this.
Remember what is most important: It’s not having everything go right; it’s facing whatever goes wrong. It’s not being without fear; it’s having the determination to go on in spite of it. It’s not where you stand, but the direction you’re going in. Remember to live this one day and not add tomorrow’s troubles to today’s load. Remember that every day ends and brings a new tomorrow full of exciting new things. Love what you do, do the best you can, and always remember how much you are loved.
You strolled by and I just had to follow you! You are simply delightful and I live in Oregon USA and I love discovering things and lookin for amazin treasures no matter where I am and you and all you find playin in the Mud on the Banks of the river Thames thank you for takin us along!! Much love and respect to you and yours!!! Miss Mo
Oh Nicola, I’m so sorry for your loss. My sister took her life in 2011, and both my grandfather and uncle before her. I too have had major clinical depression since I was 10. I believe many people suffer quietly when getting help is so important. So thank you for encouraging us to reach out and talk, or ask for help. I’ve had help that has changed my life. I hope someone who watches this finds the courage to seek help and further add to the gifts you and your brother have given the world. Bless you both❤️
I'm really sorry to hear that ... *Hugs* .. I'm suffering from depressions and panic attacks every day ... My anxiety is with me every day .. sometimes, when I feel strong, I can see the beautiful sides of the world ..but mostly it's dark ... I'm taking strong meds and I hope one day they will help me to be happy again.. 🌿🌸
@@nicolawhitemudlark thank you so much ... Your videos taking me always with you .. walking around and finding some treasures ... Thank you so much for this 🤗
@@MC-342 thank you so much... I wish you the same .. 🌿🌸 I know it doesn't feels like this but you are not alone.. *hugs* .. sorry for my bad English.. it's not my native language ..
Thank you so much for your video! I was paralyzed in an accident 4 1/2 years ago and it’s really hard every day to remember the vibrant life that I lived before my accident. That’s why I love your videos it’s so nice to go along on your journeys down by the river and elsewhere because that’s the kind of thing that I would do To just escape and be creative. But I have a beautiful little boy that’s four, I was pregnant with him during the time of my accident so he is my little miracle. I found a new purpose in life and I’m trying to help people going through the same thing so that they don’t feel alone! Again wonderful video cheers to your brother!
Hi Chelsea, Thank you so much for your comment. You are one amazing courageous person. Im so fortunate to be able to do down along the river when I want to and I can sometimes take it for granted. Im so happy you have your little miracle. Thank you for helping others who are going through the same thing as you. I can imagine that you bring so much hope to people. Im so glad you enjoy the videos. Nicola xx
Chelsea Rush You sound like an amazing young person! I wonder what amazing things you will accomplish by the time your son turns 14!... He will be proud of his Mom, for sure! 🙂
Having struggled with manic depression all my life, I can sympathize with your brother. I'm so sorry this happened to your brother, Nic. Bipolar disorder is real...but help is available. Your message is a good one. 😊💖
What a great tribute Nicola to your brother, it's often true that the most creative people have an opposite side which plumbs the depths and sometimes is not noticed until the time comes.
You are so right about the smile or kind word making a difference. It really can save a life. I know this myself. The guy only said 'can I help you' when I put a heavy box in my car, but it was lifechanging and he will never know :)
Nicola, any family loss is a pain that never leaves. My only child died in July 2016 and I miss him every day as I'm sure you do of your brother. We have memories that will never leave us and its good to remember the happy times not just the sad. I just want to say I really appreciate the wonderful nature filmography that you provide as a backdrop to your outings. It really sets the atmosphere and makes the viewer feel as natural a connection as one can in a video. Oh if I could find a magic wand to get me there in person :). Also, you chose the best music for them too! Hugs, and remember good memories!
Thank you for your lovely comments about my videos. I really appreciate them. I try to capture as much nature as I can so am constantly carrying my camera around with me! Im so sorry about your child. Sending you much love, Nicola xx
Oh Nicola, what a beautiful and moving tribute to your brother Matthew. My heart and loving thoughts go out to you and your precious family 🤗. I too suffer through severe depression, social anxiety and panic attacks. From the age of 4yrs(I started kindergarten very early) clear through to college, school was always a terribly stressful and anxious filled endeavor 😳😣. Although I did VERY well in school, it was exhausting with the over stimulation of people. Mental health issues run very far back in my family, too. Bipolar, social anxiety and even crippling schizophrenia. Thank you so very much for reaching out and speaking of this important issue with your UA-cam family. Your message was truly heart felt and meaningful. Blessings and peace for a lovely week ahead, sister-friend 😊🤗🤭😘🙋🏼♀️.
Thank you for sharing your message about mental illness. My only son is severely mentally ill. We need more research for treatments and certainly more empathy for those affected. Thank you again.
What a beautiful tribute to Matthew. You made his personality vivid. I would have loved to know him, and I am sorry for your sorrow. We are not without hope of seeing our loved ones again. I know he would be hugely gratified at how you share your joy in mudlarking. Here is another verse you might enjoy "Behold, I give you treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places." Isaiah 45:3. What is that, if not mudlarking and metal detecting?
As a sufferer of depression, my heart goes out to you and your family. It can be and is very often, a very destructive state of mind. Loved the song by the way, in my head I could hear The Buzzcocks singing it.
Nicola, what a nice tribute to your brother. So glad you can tell people to talk about depression. It's a medical condition not a weakness. Most people won't tell because of the stigma that comes with it which makes them feel more alone. Maybe you telling his story will help someone dealing with depression. Glad you can hear his voice any time you want. When I saw the rainbow in one clip it ended in the Thames. Fitting since that is where your treasures come from. Love watching what you find. We all have a little treasure hunting inside of us.
Dear dear Nicola - you give so much love and encouragement to us all. Your videos have the most positive and calming, healing effect. You are so right - the down thumbs are not even worth thinking about. Sad, mean individuals who clearly have no empathy or compassion in their lives. Hugs and much love to you and your family. You are truly amazing, so kind and such a generous spirit despite (and possibly because of) carrying the pain of loss every day as you do. xx
And in the end, it's not the years in your Life that count; Its the Life in your years" Abraham Lincoln.....Rest In Peace, Matthew....Much Love to Nicola and family..xx
What a lovely and compassionate person you are. My twin brother and I have both worked in mental health and both suffered with depression, so your words ring very true. Great video and happy belated birthday to Matthew ( I'm Matthew and also 50..)
My heart goes out to you, my beloved and hugely missed partner, Mark, took his own life in 2006 aged 42 years....he was bipolar and after suffering with a severe virus that kept him from working for a few weeks, he got it into his head that everyone would think it was his depression and he just couldn't bear that thought and the stigma that went with it in his mind.....He too was a creative, sensitive man, a great painter and philosopher, we all said he really was born in the wrong era...He was truly one of the nicest men I have ever had the pleasure to meet...since his passing, I have chosen to continue life alone and although the tears have stopped flowing so regularly, I miss him and wish so much he was still here...Love and strength to all those who may need it, especially in these difficult and worrying times...please don't suffer alone, so many of us really DO understand and are here to help you through the shadows...stay safe xx
@@altonriggs2352 We must all make our own decisions on how to live...my life is not 'diminished', only by his loss. I have two wonderful grown sons and two beautiful grandchildren, nothing else needed.. x
Nicola Thank You for sharing the loss of your younger brother Mathew. Mental Health Illness is an issue most people suffer alone. Thank You for speaking out on behalf of yourself and others. God Bless and be with you always. Norma
I lost my sister to suicide as well. Never saw it coming, however, looking back at all family photos we now see how unhappy she always was. She was very funny and caring about others over herself. Keep strong and carry on!
A beautiful tribute to your brother. For those who choose to leave this earth may not realize the hole they leave in the hearts of those they leave behind. A lot of times you can't help them. I have an older brother (69-years-old) who has difficulties, we talk on the phone and fill each other in on what we're doing. Sometimes he's in a world I don't understand, but he knows I'm always there for him. He is really intelligent so we like to talk about high falutin things, a lot of times for laughs. Thank you for your sweet and touching thoughts about your brother. I love his music style. God bless you Nicole, Love Margaret
Hi Nicola, firstly thank you for yet another wonderful and intriguing insight into the treasures of the River Thames, I would also like to thank you for the very touching moving story of your late brother and his troubles he encountered with serious mental illness. It's often easy sometimes to try to make rational comments or attempt in any way to even try to vaguely understand why someone who looks quite normal on the outside chooses regrettably to takes their own life, for these people they do not come to this decision lightly despite the love from close family members being all around them and plenty of friends they still find themselves very alone, trapped within a downward spiral of isolation and blackness, sick of the relentless pain and daily strain of having to cope with this awful internal illness and all the effects it has upon them, look at Robin Williams, No one ever predicted such a beautiful, multi-talented wonderful character doing such a thing? I am Bipolar myself just like he was and your brother and also suffer from terrible daily mental depression and torment, I have done so for many years since my diving accident back in 1989 but it really came to a serious head 3 years ago when I also lost my mother, my 21yr old son and my wife of 7 years all within 6 terrible, horrible months, I had attempted suicide previously due to ongoing strain and deep severe depression after losing my father back in 2009 as it really hit m hard and then having to give up my job and having to look solely after my mother suffering from Alzheimer's disease. Luckily for me, I was convinced by her at the time to seek medical help and go directly to the hospital, With medical help, therapy and understanding of a counsellor and medication, I finally managed to unravel some of the burdens and cope a little better with my life for it to continue, In 2018 though, and after the death of my mother and losing all the people I love in my life, I somehow plucked up the courage and moved to a remote village in the countryside, getting away from everyone and everything I was ever used to, I began life again as a clean sheet on my own living a single life with my 2 little dogs, I had no one to turn to, no family members or friends to confide in and lean on but somehow found the inner strength to take a giant leap for myself and learn to carry on, I made a new home for myself, and eventually found someone else who now loves me dearly and who finally moved in with me 14 months ago now. I still have severe depression and struggle with chronic fibromyalgia health issues but I have a new purpose and focus now in life to go on living, my partner makes sure of that, keeping me on my toes and she gives me the hope, love and inspiration to carry on living life. I miss my mum, dad and wife terribly without question every day. I am truly sorry in many ways for your loss in a big brother, a confident, a soulmate and a true friend, Bereavement often never sits well with anyone and we all deal with loss individually in our separate ways. All I can say and do know, is you will see and meet your brother again one day sweetheart, please do not ever give up on that wish and I know in my heart he will be very proud of his little sister who is clearly a tower of strength to her own family, you have such a wonderful and diverse rich life which also shows in the wonderful Son and Daughter you have created, look at how well they have both done, you should and will be extremely proud of them both, I know how proud I am of you and thank you for being in my life and part of a regular vlog which I look forward to seeing each week or so, Your videos cheer me up no end and help me cope a little better. If anything they make me smile, as they would your brother also. So take care Nicola and thank you once again x x your subscriber ...love Vinny.
Hi Vinny, Thank you for sharing your story I really appreciate. You' ve been through so much heartbreak! Im so happy you have a loving partner who is on this journey with you. You're very courageous and strong - and your kind words are really appreciated too. Thank you! Love Nicola xx
Your brother was obviously a gentle and talented man, so very sad to leave this world so young and far too soon. You have a good heart Nicola and your words are so very kind. Bless you for that. Some lovely finds in your video, always good to see what you have found in the glorious Thames mud. Giving you my best, Rod K
There is no darkness like depression. It took me a long time to learn to love myself. You are a shining light in my life Nic and I'm so glad to have found you on UA-cam. Sunday evenings used to be filled with darkness, dreading the week to come. Now, at 3pm I watch Si 😍💕 then go for a wander looking for treasure, back in time to watch you at 5pm 😍💕 Followed by a peaceful sleep dreaming of clay pipes and codd bottles! (and Si occasionally 😬😂) I hope you know how much happiness you bring to others ♥️
Hi Beth. Oh Im so glad you find the videos calming and that you go looking for treasure. Have you found any treasure, that is the question Im longing for answer to!?? And Im sure Si would be very honoured to be featured in your dream! Thank you for your lovely comments. Sending you lots of love xxx
@@nicolawhitemudlark Yes I have been finding treasure! I am now the proud owner of lots of broken things! 😂 I have 2 broken codd bottles (both have my towns name on them so I love them!), loads of pipe stems and bits of pipe bowls, an inkwell, 3 bottle stoppers (one cork, one glass, one vulcanite), a few plain bottles, 5 lovely paste jars and I have boxes full of pottery which I make collages with. There is still lots of room left on my shelves (reserved for complete things!) 😊
😥😘❤✌ I am so sorry about the loss of your brother. I just lost mine, Christopher Michael Beaty. At the end of his life he suffered mental illness due to addiction. He was so strong and had a huge tender heart and it was broken to pieces. I am so thankful for you Nicola for all you share and the truly good person you are! People try to take down the good ones but you are so much bigger and it shows well in you. You are so easy to connect with in your video's. I showed my mom one of them and she said " Nicola looks like us, she must be one of us, maybe so! (We are in the US) " I will always love you" (Quoting words in your brothers great song)
Thank you Anna Marie for your lovely message Im so very sorry to hear about Christopher. I'm thinking about him and sending you love. Im delighted you found my channel so that I can read your comments which are truly appreciated. Sending you and your family love, Nicola xx
What a beautiful and heartfelt tribute to your brother. I am so very sorry for your loss. I don’t know what I would do without my brother, he’s my lifeline. He too suffers from depression and I worry about him so. And yes, it’s like what you said, sometimes it just takes a smile, a kind word, a seemingly insignificant gesture to make a difference in someone’s life. Always choose to be kind, you don’t know what the other person is going through. It was lovely to see your special finds, Nicola. Happy Birthday Matt!
It's been awhile since I watched your video. I still cannot put into words of how much your video hit me. Sorry for your loss of your brother. Depression is a big situation in the world and it is very hard to deal with. Thank you for sharing your experience with depression within your family.
Dear precious girl, with all your precious gifts and talents. Thanks for sharing your precious memories of your brother in this tender video with amazing finds. Stay safe.
Your opening was so beautiful, I remember some of the finds. Your tribute was so sweet, I know what's it's like to suffer(depression/ptsd) it isn't fun, but you just have to keep going and keep the good, let go of the bad. Build those precious memories. Well done Nic.🇨🇦🐘♥️
Hi Nicola. First I want to tell you how much I love your channel. I’m in North Carolina US and only mudlark with you on UA-cam and I love it! Thank you for sharing your story about your brother. My son was much as you described your brother,fun, artistic and very loving. He too suffered from depression and at the age of 22 in 1993 he took his own life. I know how you suffered as I saw how my daughter suffered without her brother in the world. Of course as a mother it was the most painful thing. I do believe that my Christopher is in Heaven as he loved Jesus. We will see them again someday.💕God bless you. I know you reached some of your followers and helped them take a step toward getting help. Thank you. 😘
I am so very sorry to hear of your brother, Nicola. We lost my husbands father the same way. It is incredibly painful. I admire you so much for bringing this to peoples attention and encouraging people to not be ashamed but to get help. It is true! It is no different than myself with diabetes, get help! Thank you Nicola, you are a dear dear person.
I’m so terribly sorry for your loss. Your brother sounds like an amazing person and your tribute to him was very poignant and moving. To echo your words of advice, please never be afraid to ask for help!
Not only are you brilliant, interesting and beautifully creative, you might be the sweetest, most compassionate person around as well. Your kindness astounds me. Thank you for sharing the story of your brother. A great reminder to be kind to others and ourselves too. You are doing a great job making the world a better place. Your channel is about so much more than finding treasures in the Thames. The real treasure is sharing your calm loving spirit. Thank You.
I’m profoundly sorry for your loss. My adult daughter struggles every day of her life with severe depression. It can be truly crippling. And so very heartbreaking. My thoughts are with you and Matthew today. ❤️💔
Nicola thank you for sharing your brother. I myself have chronic depression and I take life one day at a time. Some days are good and others are horrific. Love and hugs to you. 💞💞💞
Thank you so much for this beautiful message! I especially loved the poem that bobbed up from the river - good words to remember in this time of pandemic. I lost my younger sister earlier this year to alcoholism, and I know she was unhappy and feeling angry that her life had not turned out the way she expected. I wear a ring that belonged to her, so I think of her everyday. I love your videos, Nicola. I miss London, and hope to return someday soon! Happiness to you from California!
Just beautiful gathering of treasure finds film! favorite- horse head pipe and all the nature you share! Thanks for always sharing your heart. Its good to release what we feel. Im sorry for your loss, Matthew is waiting for you in Heaven, Jesus always takes care of those that struggle, always. The heart is most important. Love you for all you do, say and think. Keep up the good work!
lovely of you have left us with these memories and a very actual message that i am sure that a bunch of people worldwide is facing depression right now, very nice song thank you. 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘 a truly and warming kiss 4 U Nicola.
Made me cry Mathew has a kind face and smile I can see in the photo and from your words loved with all your heart beautiful tribute in memory on his birthday specially hearing his wonderful voice singing words from his heart I imagined him walking at the end through the sunflowers looking back smiling at you Nicola
Nicola, I’m just so touched by this beautiful video. You captured life and its preciousness in so many varied ways - through your finds, through the butterflies, through the sunflowers and to that awesome tribute to your brother. Let us all take care of one another. As you told us we are all special, you too are a beautiful find! I don’t know what I would have done without your videos these last few months. Thank you. X Hugs.
My sincere condolences for the loss of your brother. I lost both my siblings in 2016, and it still hurts. Thank you for the pep talk and for sharing your brother's beautiful music with us. That means more to me than I can ever tell you. Have a wonderful week ahead and stay well! 🦋🤍
Your words are so true. I'm sending hugs, because I know when you think about this you probably could use one. i lost my brother almost nine years ago to alcoholism. Like you, I had no idea, I lived two thousand miles away. He was very high functioning and we just didn't know. He suffered alone. He didn't want anyone to know. We have been through all of the "what if's" and the fact is, there isn't anything that we could have done. He lived his life as a free spirit. He also died two days after his birthday, so thoughts of his birth are clouded by thoughts of his death. But we keep him alive with our memories, as you are. Your thoughts on anxiety and depression are also appreciated. People need to know that it is an illness. I deal with both. I have no wish to end my life, but so many do. It is important to talk to someone to get help. Address it as soon as possible. There is help available. So, big hugs to you. My heart goes out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Rondi. It's clear how many people are affected by depression and mental health issues and my heart goes out to each and every one of them. Thanks for being so supportive. Love Nicola x
My only sibling died in 1999. I grieve, weep for her still. She would have loved your videos, the river, the wild life, your river treasures from the foreshore. You are such a lovely light dear Nic 💫
What an amazing and loving tribute to your brother! I'm sure he is watching over you! Unfortunately depression is a very under talked subject. It is much more common than anyone thinks. I totally understand as I have suffered from depression for a very long time. I am able to keep it under control now especially since I know so much more about it. Always reach out to someone. Also loved reliving your finds! Such wonderful history saved! Also wanted to say that I absolutely love your hair today!
Thank you for sharing the details of your brothers life and struggle. So many families are affected, my grandmother committed suicide, and my mother has suffered with depression. I loved seeing your selection of artefacts, especially the cartwheel penny, as my Dad used to collect them ! 🌍🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧🌍
Nicola, another wonderful video. I love how much nature you put in your programme. And the music is awesome. Just as a birdwatcher myself I love seeing your British birds, both familiar and exotic (to me, ordinary to you). You are a bright spot in my day when I see your video. Watching you mudlark is a part of my mental health routine. I am so sorry for your loss, and appreciate your sharing Matthew's story. My nephew Matthew also suffered badly from mental health and drug dependence issues. He was getting his life together over the last couple of years and very sadly died in a car collision in March this year just before his 25th birthday, and right as we were going into shelter-in-place with the pandemic. Thank you so much for keeping us focused on what matters in life.
Hi Caren Thank you for your message - and Im so sorry to hear about your nephew Matthew. How tragic. That is heartbreaking. Im so happy that you enjoy the videos. I love making them. It's great to be able to share it with people such as yourself. Sending you lots of love. xxx
@@nicolawhitemudlark Thank you again, for your compassion and love.We are so lucky to have you here! I look forward to many many many more bird videos interrupted by pipe, button, and roman pottery finds. xxx
You brought tears to my eyes. I’m so sorry for your loss. My sister is also a huge creative and my best friend and also suffers from depression. Siblings are truly irreplaceable.
Awwww...i don't mind admitting that that just made me cry! Nicola i could see the love you still have for Matthew in your eyes. Here's sending big virtual hugs out to you, and anyone else affected by mental health xxx
Here in America, we're in dire straits! Frankly, it seems there is nothing great about the situation at all! But there is always hope. Also, here in the U.S. many companies have a program called an EAP that people can reach out to for free if they are struggling with stress, anxiety and depression amongst other issues. It can be a life line when you need it most!
Very few companies have eap. It's only the super large corporations that offer it. 99% of folks here don't have that luxury. If you do, you're one of the lucky ones.
@@socalgal714 I work in a small independent clinic with less than 50 employees. I guess we are lucky! People may not be aware that their company does offer it so, they may want to check. If it can help even one person out there by posting this, then that's worth the post.
@@theresac.3216 97% of companies with more than 5000 employees offer eap. 80 percent of companies with 1,001 - 5,000 employees have one; and 75 percent of companies with 251 - 1,000 employees have an Employee Assistance Program. However! 84.9 percent of businesses have fewer than 20 employees, 96.4 percent fewer than 100, and 99.0 percent have less than 500 workers. Which puts the majority in the out of luck bucket. Yes, you are fortunate. Most of us are not.
I discovered one of my employees was suicidal, earlier this year, and steered her toward the EAP folk. It saved her life, according to her, and was the help she didn’t know she needed, and didn’t know existed. Thank God for them!
Beautiful tribute for your brother, many class those who end their lives as selfish , trust me when I say , when your in his position ,it’s all you have left to do to end the despair your in , brilliant video Nicola tfs xx
I think sometimes people think that if they end their life it will be the best things for everyone ... if only they knew the pain that remains in the hearts of their loved ones they would never take that final step ... God bless you xx
I lost my little brother a year ago from natural causes October 8th, i couldn't stop smiling even though i have tears in my eyes from watching you talk with such love about your little brother Matthew, it brought back some lovely memories for me and helped me heal a bit from what has been a rough week so i thank you for that. I've also battled depression on and off since i was a teenager, please anyone who's reading this, if you are hurting please get help, i'm proof that it does help. Sending love and healing light to you all. Happy 50th Birthday Matthew, where ever you are i hope your at peace.
Thank you all for your comments and personal stories. Im so grateful and would like to say how amazing you all are ! Absolutely such a great community of people on this channel. How fortunate I am. Much Love, Nicola xx
Thank you for listening and thank you for taking us with you ... ❤️🌸🌿
I strongly believe that 'like-minded' folk tend to find each other without even looking..you have a good heart lovey..x
The blessing is wholly mutual. We think the world of you and adore your channel. ❤
Your at the forefront and you make your channel so amazing for all of us ! ...you have a kind energy that draws people in ...also you take the time to read the comments and answer that shows how much you care ....many channels really don't do that !
To me your channel is like a history lesson with lots of funny stuff thrown in ...and your filmography is amazing ! ..you connect and that is why your channel is growing ! When you reach 100 thousand I'm going to paint you a picture ...my passion is art and just creating that's what keeps my mind of that other stuff. ...❤
@@samanthaobertelle4966 thank you Samantha! I'll be amazed when I get to 100k. I never set out to start a channel originally. Can't wait to see your art! xx
Hi Nicola! Talking about such family issues in public demonstrates the strength and sincerity of your character. But if you do this to benefit other people in distress, you are proving an immeasurable wealth of spirit. Listening to Matthew's message, I think the declaration of love was also addressed to you, his older sister. For all this I appreciate even more the HUMAN BEING Nicola White. I wish you good health!
Thanks Vasile. That's lovely of you to say. love Nicola xx
I turned 50 Oct. 11th. I suffered from depression and overcame it. Also lost a loved one by suicide who suffered from depression.
So thankful for that. Thank you for raising awareness for depression. Love you channel.
Thank you. Love to you x
Thank you, Nicola. Thinking of you, your family and your dear brother.
Wow! First of all, thank you for your message about mental health! So many people are still afraid of the subject and don't talk about it. It' sounds like your brother was a cool guy, someone that I would have liked to hang out with. I have to say, this came at a strange time for me. I watched this on Monday the 12th, which happens to be the 25th anniversary of my husbands death from Leukemia. The struggles during his illness, and the aftermath of his death left it's marks on myself and my kids. I've dealt with depression, anxiety and PTSD. But as your message in plastic said, there is still wonderful things in this world. You just have to carry on and look for them. Today is also Thanksgiving here in Canada. Kind of appropriate! By the way, Rene, my late husband, was also a musician. He was a guitar player, his last band was a blues band by the name of Sounder. They recorded a few albums. And both of my son and daughter are currently in bands. Life goes on. I shed a few tears watching this, but that's ok. It's ok to shed tears when you need to. Again, thank you Nicola! Take care! Sending you a hug! And stay safe!
Thank you and thank you for sharing your story. Thinking of Rene and sending you and your family much love ❤️
@@nicolawhitemudlark Thanks Nicola! :)
A lovely tribute Nicola to Matthew and all those suffering a "private hell"...that needs to become un-private. I was one of them and at my lowest ebb around age 26 too in the late 1980's. I almost went. Age, knowledge and support have helped. Being overly sensitive can be a curse but you need it to be creative as well. Of course you know this.
Thanks Ian, yes, it's often creatives isn't it. xox
Remember what is most important:
It’s not having everything go right;
it’s facing whatever goes wrong.
It’s not being without fear;
it’s having the determination to go on in spite of it.
It’s not where you stand,
but the direction you’re going in.
Remember to live this one day and not add tomorrow’s troubles to today’s load.
Remember that every day ends and brings a new tomorrow full of exciting new things.
Love what you do,
do the best you can,
and always remember how much you are loved.
Thank you Francisco! xx
Beautifully written
dont ever give up on who you are!!!!
dont ever ever give up
♥️
Nicola, very thoughtful and loving. Thank you.
I am so sorry for your loss. Depression is a horrible thing.
You strolled by and I just had to follow you! You are simply delightful and I live in Oregon USA and I love discovering things and lookin for amazin treasures no matter where I am and you and all you find playin in the Mud on the Banks of the river Thames thank you for takin us along!! Much love and respect to you and yours!!! Miss Mo
Thank you x
Oh Nicola, I’m so sorry for your loss. My sister took her life in 2011, and both my grandfather and uncle before her. I too have had major clinical depression since I was 10. I believe many people suffer quietly when getting help is so important. So thank you for encouraging us to reach out and talk, or ask for help. I’ve had help that has changed my life. I hope someone who watches this finds the courage to seek help and further add to the gifts you and your brother have given the world. Bless you both❤️
Thank you Nancy. Sending you lots of love xx
Very touching video and a lovely tribute to your brother ❤
I'm really sorry to hear that ... *Hugs* .. I'm suffering from depressions and panic attacks every day ... My anxiety is with me every day .. sometimes, when I feel strong, I can see the beautiful sides of the world ..but mostly it's dark ... I'm taking strong meds and I hope one day they will help me to be happy again.. 🌿🌸
🕉️☮️to you, Flora🤗.
@@juliet5114 thank you so much ... 🤗
Hi Flora. Sending you lots of love. xox
@@nicolawhitemudlark thank you so much ... Your videos taking me always with you .. walking around and finding some treasures ... Thank you so much for this 🤗
@@MC-342 thank you so much... I wish you the same .. 🌿🌸 I know it doesn't feels like this but you are not alone.. *hugs* .. sorry for my bad English.. it's not my native language ..
Thank you so much for your video! I was paralyzed in an accident 4 1/2 years ago and it’s really hard every day to remember the vibrant life that I lived before my accident. That’s why I love your videos it’s so nice to go along on your journeys down by the river and elsewhere because that’s the kind of thing that I would do To just escape and be creative. But I have a beautiful little boy that’s four, I was pregnant with him during the time of my accident so he is my little miracle. I found a new purpose in life and I’m trying to help people going through the same thing so that they don’t feel alone! Again wonderful video cheers to your brother!
Hi Chelsea, Thank you so much for your comment. You are one amazing courageous person. Im so fortunate to be able to do down along the river when I want to and I can sometimes take it for granted. Im so happy you have your little miracle. Thank you for helping others who are going through the same thing as you. I can imagine that you bring so much hope to people. Im so glad you enjoy the videos. Nicola xx
Chelsea Rush You sound like an amazing young person! I wonder what amazing things you will accomplish by the time your son turns 14!... He will be proud of his Mom, for sure! 🙂
Having struggled with manic depression all my life, I can sympathize with your brother. I'm so sorry this happened to your brother, Nic. Bipolar disorder is real...but help is available. Your message is a good one. 😊💖
Thanks Cynthia xx
Thank you Nicola.
What a great tribute Nicola to your brother, it's often true that the most creative people have an opposite side which plumbs the depths and sometimes is not noticed until the time comes.
very true Lenny x and thank you!
I so agree with you - some souls are perhaps too sensitive to live in this world ...
You are so right about the smile or kind word making a difference. It really can save a life. I know this myself. The guy only said 'can I help you' when I put a heavy box in my car, but it was lifechanging and he will never know :)
So true Sharon! xx
Nicola, any family loss is a pain that never leaves. My only child died in July 2016 and I miss him every day as I'm sure you do of your brother. We have memories that will never leave us and its good to remember the happy times not just the sad.
I just want to say I really appreciate the wonderful nature filmography that you provide as a backdrop to your outings. It really sets the atmosphere and makes the viewer feel as natural a connection as one can in a video. Oh if I could find a magic wand to get me there in person :). Also, you chose the best music for them too! Hugs, and remember good memories!
Thank you for your lovely comments about my videos. I really appreciate them. I try to capture as much nature as I can so am constantly carrying my camera around with me! Im so sorry about your child. Sending you much love, Nicola xx
A lovely tribute to your brother Nic! Sounds like he was inspired by the Ramones? I see singing runs in the family x See ya soon
Thanks Si! Yes, I reckon probably he was. See you soon for some luck in the muck I hope! x
You are an inspiration Nicola. You raise my spirits each time I watch your show 🥰
Nicola thank you ever so much for sharing from your heart. You are appreciated!
Thank you! x
Oh Nicola, what a beautiful and moving tribute to your brother Matthew. My heart and loving thoughts go out to you and your precious family 🤗.
I too suffer through severe depression, social anxiety and panic attacks. From the age of 4yrs(I started kindergarten very early) clear through to college, school was always a terribly stressful and anxious filled endeavor 😳😣.
Although I did VERY well in school, it was exhausting with the over stimulation of people.
Mental health issues run very far back in my family, too. Bipolar, social anxiety and even crippling schizophrenia.
Thank you so very much for reaching out and speaking of this important issue with your UA-cam family. Your message was truly heart felt and meaningful.
Blessings and peace for a lovely week ahead, sister-friend 😊🤗🤭😘🙋🏼♀️.
Thank you Juliet, and sending you loads of love xxx
May God bless you Juliet with healing peace, today and always. Sending my love along with my daughter, Nicola's. XX
thank you for sharing something so beautiful.
Thank you for sharing your message about mental illness. My only son is severely mentally ill. We need more research for treatments and certainly more empathy for those affected. Thank you again.
Thanks Betty. Lots of love sent your way. xx
What a lovely tribute to your brother RIP Matthew
What a beautiful tribute to Matthew. You made his personality vivid. I would have loved to know him, and I am sorry for your sorrow. We are not without hope of seeing our loved ones again. I know he would be hugely gratified at how you share your joy in mudlarking. Here is another verse you might enjoy "Behold, I give you treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places." Isaiah 45:3. What is that, if not mudlarking and metal detecting?
That's wonderful! Thank you Christine x
So proud of my daughter for bringing Matthew into the light on what would have been his 50th birthday. We will patiently wait until we meet him again.
Thank you for sharing this with us. Xx
As a sufferer of depression, my heart goes out to you and your family. It can be and is very often, a very destructive state of mind.
Loved the song by the way, in my head I could hear The Buzzcocks singing it.
Thank you! so glad you loved the song xx
I thought of Pete Shelley too. Your brother's voice is lovely. x
A fitting tribute to your brother. Thank you for sharing your story and encouraging others to not give up but seek help.
Nicola, what a nice tribute to your brother. So glad you can tell people to talk about depression. It's a medical condition not a weakness. Most people won't tell because of the stigma that comes with it which makes them feel more alone. Maybe you telling his story will help someone dealing with depression. Glad you can hear his voice any time you want. When I saw the rainbow in one clip it ended in the Thames. Fitting since that is where your treasures come from. Love watching what you find. We all have a little treasure hunting inside of us.
Thank you Debra xx
How blessed we are to hear Matthew's voice ... precious moments.
Dear dear Nicola - you give so much love and encouragement to us all. Your videos have the most positive and calming, healing effect. You are so right - the down thumbs are not even worth thinking about. Sad, mean individuals who clearly have no empathy or compassion in their lives. Hugs and much love to you and your family. You are truly amazing, so kind and such a generous spirit despite (and possibly because of) carrying the pain of loss every day as you do. xx
Thanks Penny xx
And in the end, it's not the years in your Life that count; Its the Life in your years" Abraham Lincoln.....Rest In Peace, Matthew....Much Love to Nicola and family..xx
Thank you xx
we send our love to you also - no one's life is a 'waste' but everyone's life is precious xx
What a lovely and compassionate person you are. My twin brother and I have both worked in mental health and both suffered with depression, so your words ring very true. Great video and happy belated birthday to Matthew ( I'm Matthew and also 50..)
Thanks Matt! Life begins at 50 for sure! xx
My heart goes out to you, my beloved and hugely missed partner, Mark, took his own life in 2006 aged 42 years....he was bipolar and after suffering with a severe virus that kept him from working for a few weeks, he got it into his head that everyone would think it was his depression and he just couldn't bear that thought and the stigma that went with it in his mind.....He too was a creative, sensitive man, a great painter and philosopher, we all said he really was born in the wrong era...He was truly one of the nicest men I have ever had the pleasure to meet...since his passing, I have chosen to continue life alone and although the tears have stopped flowing so regularly, I miss him and wish so much he was still here...Love and strength to all those who may need it, especially in these difficult and worrying times...please don't suffer alone, so many of us really DO understand and are here to help you through the shadows...stay safe xx
Thank you, Lynn🤗. ☮️🕉️ to you, sister-friend.
@@juliet5114
Hi Lynn, thank you and sending you lots of love. xox
@@nicolawhitemudlark Thanks sweetheart and for keeping me company when most needed :) xx
@@altonriggs2352 We must all make our own decisions on how to live...my life is not 'diminished', only by his loss. I have two wonderful grown sons and two beautiful grandchildren, nothing else needed.. x
great video nicola fab finds love the matt braddock find very nice
Nicola
Thank You for sharing the loss of your younger brother Mathew.
Mental Health Illness is an issue most people suffer alone.
Thank You for speaking out on behalf of yourself and others.
God Bless and be with you always.
Norma
Thank you Norma xx
Thank you for being the kind and compassionate human being you. And as always thank you for an interesting mudlarking adventure.
I lost my sister to suicide as well. Never saw it coming, however, looking back at all family photos we now see how unhappy she always was. She was very funny and caring about others over herself. Keep strong and carry on!
thanks Janet. xx
A beautiful tribute to your brother. For those who choose to leave this earth may not realize the hole they leave in the hearts of those
they leave behind. A lot of times you can't help them. I have an older brother (69-years-old) who has difficulties, we talk on the phone and
fill each other in on what we're doing. Sometimes he's in a world I don't understand, but he knows I'm always there for him. He is really
intelligent so we like to talk about high falutin things, a lot of times for laughs. Thank you for your sweet and touching thoughts about
your brother. I love his music style. God bless you Nicole, Love Margaret
Thank you x
I'm so sorry about your brother, depression is a terrible thing to deal with but help is out there, and it does help to speak about it xx
Hi Nicola, firstly thank you for yet another wonderful and intriguing insight into the treasures of the River Thames, I would also like to thank you for the very touching moving story of your late brother and his troubles he encountered with serious mental illness. It's often easy sometimes to try to make rational comments or attempt in any way to even try to vaguely understand why someone who looks quite normal on the outside chooses regrettably to takes their own life, for these people they do not come to this decision lightly despite the love from close family members being all around them and plenty of friends they still find themselves very alone, trapped within a downward spiral of isolation and blackness, sick of the relentless pain and daily strain of having to cope with this awful internal illness and all the effects it has upon them, look at Robin Williams, No one ever predicted such a beautiful, multi-talented wonderful character doing such a thing? I am Bipolar myself just like he was and your brother and also suffer from terrible daily mental depression and torment, I have done so for many years since my diving accident back in 1989 but it really came to a serious head 3 years ago when I also lost my mother, my 21yr old son and my wife of 7 years all within 6 terrible, horrible months, I had attempted suicide previously due to ongoing strain and deep severe depression after losing my father back in 2009 as it really hit m hard and then having to give up my job and having to look solely after my mother suffering from Alzheimer's disease. Luckily for me, I was convinced by her at the time to seek medical help and go directly to the hospital, With medical help, therapy and understanding of a counsellor and medication, I finally managed to unravel some of the burdens and cope a little better with my life for it to continue, In 2018 though, and after the death of my mother and losing all the people I love in my life, I somehow plucked up the courage and moved to a remote village in the countryside, getting away from everyone and everything I was ever used to, I began life again as a clean sheet on my own living a single life with my 2 little dogs, I had no one to turn to, no family members or friends to confide in and lean on but somehow found the inner strength to take a giant leap for myself and learn to carry on, I made a new home for myself, and eventually found someone else who now loves me dearly and who finally moved in with me 14 months ago now. I still have severe depression and struggle with chronic fibromyalgia health issues but I have a new purpose and focus now in life to go on living, my partner makes sure of that, keeping me on my toes and she gives me the hope, love and inspiration to carry on living life. I miss my mum, dad and wife terribly without question every day. I am truly sorry in many ways for your loss in a big brother, a confident, a soulmate and a true friend, Bereavement often never sits well with anyone and we all deal with loss individually in our separate ways. All I can say and do know, is you will see and meet your brother again one day sweetheart, please do not ever give up on that wish and I know in my heart he will be very proud of his little sister who is clearly a tower of strength to her own family, you have such a wonderful and diverse rich life which also shows in the wonderful Son and Daughter you have created, look at how well they have both done, you should and will be extremely proud of them both, I know how proud I am of you and thank you for being in my life and part of a regular vlog which I look forward to seeing each week or so, Your videos cheer me up no end and help me cope a little better. If anything they make me smile, as they would your brother also. So take care Nicola and thank you once again x x your subscriber ...love Vinny.
Hi Vinny, Thank you for sharing your story I really appreciate. You' ve been through so much heartbreak! Im so happy you have a loving partner who is on this journey with you. You're very courageous and strong - and your kind words are really appreciated too. Thank you! Love Nicola xx
Your brother was obviously a gentle and talented man, so very sad to leave this world so young and far too soon.
You have a good heart Nicola and your words are so very kind. Bless you for that. Some lovely finds in your video, always good to see what you have found in the glorious Thames mud.
Giving you my best,
Rod K
Well done, Nicole. You are truly blessed and irreplaceable, just like Matthew. ✌💔😷
There is no darkness like depression. It took me a long time to learn to love myself. You are a shining light in my life Nic and I'm so glad to have found you on UA-cam. Sunday evenings used to be filled with darkness, dreading the week to come. Now, at 3pm I watch Si 😍💕 then go for a wander looking for treasure, back in time to watch you at 5pm 😍💕 Followed by a peaceful sleep dreaming of clay pipes and codd bottles! (and Si occasionally 😬😂) I hope you know how much happiness you bring to others ♥️
Agreed Beth, beautiful comment
Hi Beth. Oh Im so glad you find the videos calming and that you go looking for treasure. Have you found any treasure, that is the question Im longing for answer to!?? And Im sure Si would be very honoured to be featured in your dream! Thank you for your lovely comments. Sending you lots of love xxx
@@nicolawhitemudlark Yes I have been finding treasure! I am now the proud owner of lots of broken things! 😂 I have 2 broken codd bottles (both have my towns name on them so I love them!), loads of pipe stems and bits of pipe bowls, an inkwell, 3 bottle stoppers (one cork, one glass, one vulcanite), a few plain bottles, 5 lovely paste jars and I have boxes full of pottery which I make collages with. There is still lots of room left on my shelves (reserved for complete things!) 😊
@@Beth_D Excellent! You've many treasures already. xox
I'm so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful video, thank you for sharing.
Your choice of content and editing to tell this story was brilliant.
😥😘❤✌
I am so sorry about the loss of your brother. I just lost mine, Christopher Michael Beaty. At the end of his life he suffered mental illness due to addiction. He was so strong and had a huge tender heart and it was broken to pieces.
I am so thankful for you Nicola for all you share and the truly good person you are! People try to take down the good ones but you are so much bigger and it shows well in you. You are so easy to connect with in your video's. I showed my mom one of them and she said " Nicola looks like us, she must be one of us, maybe so! (We are in the US)
" I will always love you"
(Quoting words in your brothers great song)
Thank you Anna Marie for your lovely message Im so very sorry to hear about Christopher. I'm thinking about him and sending you love. Im delighted you found my channel so that I can read your comments which are truly appreciated. Sending you and your family love, Nicola xx
What a beautiful and heartfelt tribute to your brother. I am so very sorry for your loss. I don’t know what I would do without my brother, he’s my lifeline. He too suffers from depression and I worry about him so. And yes, it’s like what you said, sometimes it just takes a smile, a kind word, a seemingly insignificant gesture to make a difference in someone’s life. Always choose to be kind, you don’t know what the other person is going through. It was lovely to see your special finds, Nicola. Happy Birthday Matt!
Thank you Lynn xx
Always treasure your loved ones - we never know what tomorrow may bring ... X
It's been awhile since I watched your video. I still cannot put into words of how much your video hit me. Sorry for your loss of your brother. Depression is a big situation in the world and it is very hard to deal with. Thank you for sharing your experience with depression within your family.
Thanks Lee x
Dear precious girl, with all your precious gifts and talents. Thanks for sharing your precious memories of your brother in this tender video with amazing finds. Stay safe.
Thank you xx
You helped many people today. Thank you and blessings to all who feel loss at this difficult time.
Thank you Leah xx
Your opening was so beautiful, I remember some of the finds. Your tribute was so sweet, I know what's it's like to suffer(depression/ptsd) it isn't fun, but you just have to keep going and keep the good, let go of the bad. Build those precious memories. Well done Nic.🇨🇦🐘♥️
Thanks Marion xx
Hi Nicola. First I want to tell you how much I love your channel. I’m in North Carolina US and only mudlark with you on UA-cam and I love it!
Thank you for sharing your story about your brother. My son was much as you described your brother,fun, artistic and very loving. He too suffered from depression and at the age of 22 in 1993 he took his own life. I know how you suffered as I saw how my daughter suffered without her brother in the world. Of course as a mother it was the most painful thing. I do believe that my Christopher is in Heaven as he loved Jesus. We will see them again someday.💕God bless you. I know you reached some of your followers and helped them take a step toward getting help. Thank you. 😘
What a great tribute to your brother. R.I.P Mathew. Xx🏴❤️
Wow thank you for sharing this story. A difficult subject but one that needs to be talked about. Blessings to you!
I love that message,that every person is important and of value!
damn right! :) xx
You are the greatest treasure on your channel.
That's so kind of you to say! xx
I am so very sorry to hear of your brother, Nicola. We lost my husbands father the same way. It is incredibly painful. I admire you so much for bringing this to peoples attention and encouraging people to not be ashamed but to get help. It is true! It is no different than myself with diabetes, get help! Thank you Nicola, you are a dear dear person.
Thank You Once More, Nicola, & Matthew...Peace
I’m so terribly sorry for your loss. Your brother sounds like an amazing person and your tribute to him was very poignant and moving. To echo your words of advice, please never be afraid to ask for help!
Thank you so much Nicola! This was probably your best video ever! You touched my heart!❤️ Coeur d'Alene, Idaho, USA
Lovely Nicola 💕 beautiful tribute. I lost my father in his 40s (1991) and my brother in his 30s (2010) to the same. I understand the devastation xx
Hi Minnie, oh goodness, yes that is so hard. Thank you for sharing that xx
Inspirational video, inspirational song. God bless us, everyone.
Thank you for sharing your brother's story. The best tribute you can make - spreading awareness about depression and encouraging people to seek help.
Thank you xx
Not only are you brilliant, interesting and beautifully creative, you might be the sweetest, most compassionate person around as well. Your kindness astounds me. Thank you for sharing the story of your brother. A great reminder to be kind to others and ourselves too. You are doing a great job making the world a better place. Your channel is about so much more than finding treasures in the Thames. The real treasure is sharing your calm loving spirit. Thank You.
That's so kind of you Kitti. xx
I’m profoundly sorry for your loss. My adult daughter struggles every day of her life with severe depression. It can be truly crippling. And so very heartbreaking. My thoughts are with you and Matthew today. ❤️💔
Thank you Nancy and lots of love to you and your daughter xx
Bless you Nancy, and especially your daughter, may she have the help she needs to bring light and healing into both your lives. xx
Blessed be, Nicola.
Nicola thank you for sharing your brother. I myself have chronic depression and I take life one day at a time. Some days are good and others are horrific. Love and hugs to you. 💞💞💞
Thank you Maria, and sending you much love from me xx
Thank you, Nicola, for sharing your brother with us and encouraging people to seek help for mental illness.
You are Brilliant Nicola... a million thanks. Thank you
ah thank you xox so are you
Thank you so much for this beautiful message! I especially loved the poem that bobbed up from the river - good words to remember in this time of pandemic. I lost my younger sister earlier this year to alcoholism, and I know she was unhappy and feeling angry that her life had not turned out the way she expected. I wear a ring that belonged to her, so I think of her everyday.
I love your videos, Nicola. I miss London, and hope to return someday soon! Happiness to you from California!
Thank you! Here's to our lovely sisters and brothers. xx
Just beautiful gathering of treasure finds film! favorite- horse head pipe and all the nature you share! Thanks for always sharing your heart. Its good to release what we feel. Im sorry for your loss, Matthew is waiting for you in Heaven, Jesus always takes care of those that struggle, always. The heart is most important.
Love you for all you do, say and think. Keep up the good work!
Thank youX
"The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves the crushed in spirit", Psalm 34. My love to you xx
Such a beautiful tribute, thank you for sharing. x
lovely of you have left us with these memories and a very actual message that i am sure that a bunch of people worldwide is facing depression right now, very nice song thank you. 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘 a truly and warming kiss 4 U Nicola.
Thank you Francisco! A big kiss and hug to you too xx
Made me cry Mathew has a kind face and smile I can see in the photo and from your words loved with all your heart beautiful tribute in memory on his birthday specially hearing his wonderful voice singing words from his heart I imagined him walking at the end through the sunflowers looking back smiling at you Nicola
Thank you. That's such a lovely thought xx
Happy Birthday to Matthew! 💕
Thank you!
Nicola, I’m just so touched by this beautiful video. You captured life and its preciousness in so many varied ways - through your finds, through the butterflies, through the sunflowers and to that awesome tribute to your brother. Let us all take care of one another. As you told us we are all special, you too are a beautiful find! I don’t know what I would have done without your videos these last few months. Thank you. X Hugs.
Thank you so much Anne. Im so glad you enjoyed it and Im so happy you enjoy the videos. Much Love, Nicola xx
My sincere condolences for the loss of your brother. I lost both my siblings in 2016, and it still hurts. Thank you for the pep talk and for sharing your brother's beautiful music with us. That means more to me than I can ever tell you. Have a wonderful week ahead and stay well! 🦋🤍
Thank you Cindy. Lots of love to you xx
@@nicolawhitemudlark Thank you :}
Thank you so much Nicola for sharing sweet memories about your precious brother! What a wonderful tribute!🎊🎉😍
Your words are so true. I'm sending hugs, because I know when you think about this you probably could use one. i lost my brother almost nine years ago to alcoholism. Like you, I had no idea, I lived two thousand miles away. He was very high functioning and we just didn't know. He suffered alone. He didn't want anyone to know. We have been through all of the "what if's" and the fact is, there isn't anything that we could have done. He lived his life as a free spirit. He also died two days after his birthday, so thoughts of his birth are clouded by thoughts of his death. But we keep him alive with our memories, as you are. Your thoughts on anxiety and depression are also appreciated. People need to know that it is an illness. I deal with both. I have no wish to end my life, but so many do. It is important to talk to someone to get help. Address it as soon as possible. There is help available. So, big hugs to you. My heart goes out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Rondi. It's clear how many people are affected by depression and mental health issues and my heart goes out to each and every one of them. Thanks for being so supportive. Love Nicola x
Sorry for your loss 🙏 😢 praying for you and your family 💚
@@fatnsassy99 thank you so much.
My only sibling died in 1999. I grieve, weep for her still. She would have loved your videos, the river, the wild life, your river treasures from the foreshore. You are such a lovely light dear Nic 💫
Thanks Marilyn xx
Marilyn Pizziferri Peace be with you ❤.
What an amazing and loving tribute to your brother! I'm sure he is watching over you! Unfortunately depression is a very under talked subject. It is much more common than anyone thinks. I totally understand as I have suffered from depression for a very long time. I am able to keep it under control now especially since I know so much more about it. Always reach out to someone. Also loved reliving your finds! Such wonderful history saved! Also wanted to say that I absolutely love your hair today!
☮️🕉️ to you, my friend 🤗.
Thank you so much. And thank you for the compliment!! sending you lots of love xx
I'm sure our loved ones are never far away ... we just don't have the eyes to see them xx
A very nice tribute.
Great video. Matthew's music is still fantastic. Happy Birthday. Thank you you for sharing with us Nichole. And the numbers. Huge hugs.
Thank you xx
A beautiful, poignant song. A wonderful episode. Thank-you Nicola.
Sorry to hear that awful news.😢Sending you and your family best wishes for the future. 😇
Thank you Adam xx
Thank you for sharing the details of your brothers life and struggle. So many families are affected, my grandmother committed suicide, and my mother has suffered with depression. I loved seeing your selection of artefacts, especially the cartwheel penny, as my Dad used to collect them ! 🌍🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧🌍
Thank you and God bless you - Matthew lives in our hearts and we have his songs to cheer us on difficult days (Mum)
@@susanknight183 yes so many families are affected and I think suicide is the hardest death to come to terms with. God bless you with peace
Nicola, another wonderful video. I love how much nature you put in your programme. And the music is awesome. Just as a birdwatcher myself I love seeing your British birds, both familiar and exotic (to me, ordinary to you). You are a bright spot in my day when I see your video. Watching you mudlark is a part of my mental health routine. I am so sorry for your loss, and appreciate your sharing Matthew's story. My nephew Matthew also suffered badly from mental health and drug dependence issues. He was getting his life together over the last couple of years and very sadly died in a car collision in March this year just before his 25th birthday, and right as we were going into shelter-in-place with the pandemic. Thank you so much for keeping us focused on what matters in life.
Hi Caren Thank you for your message - and Im so sorry to hear about your nephew Matthew. How tragic. That is heartbreaking. Im so happy that you enjoy the videos. I love making them. It's great to be able to share it with people such as yourself. Sending you lots of love. xxx
@@nicolawhitemudlark Thank you again, for your compassion and love.We are so lucky to have you here! I look forward to many many many more bird videos interrupted by pipe, button, and roman pottery finds. xxx
You brought tears to my eyes. I’m so sorry for your loss. My sister is also a huge creative and my best friend and also suffers from depression. Siblings are truly irreplaceable.
A lovely and moving tribute to Matthew. he was a kind and beautiful soul. Thinking of you and your family with much love.
So happy you are back love the music can't wait to see what you find love from Cape Town thanks for the lovely time.
Awwww...i don't mind admitting that that just made me cry! Nicola i could see the love you still have for Matthew in your eyes. Here's sending big virtual hugs out to you, and anyone else affected by mental health xxx
Thank you Adrian xx
Here in America, we're in dire straits! Frankly, it seems there is nothing great about the situation at all! But there is always hope. Also, here in the U.S. many companies have a program called an EAP that people can reach out to for free if they are struggling with stress, anxiety and depression amongst other issues. It can be a life line when you need it most!
Very few companies have eap. It's only the super large corporations that offer it. 99% of folks here don't have that luxury. If you do, you're one of the lucky ones.
@@socalgal714 I work in a small independent clinic with less than 50 employees. I guess we are lucky! People may not be aware that their company does offer it so, they may want to check. If it can help even one person out there by posting this, then that's worth the post.
@@theresac.3216 thank you Theresa for pointing this out. x
@@theresac.3216 97% of companies with more than 5000 employees offer eap. 80 percent of companies with 1,001 - 5,000 employees have one; and 75 percent of companies with 251 - 1,000 employees have an Employee Assistance Program.
However! 84.9 percent of businesses have fewer than 20 employees, 96.4 percent fewer than 100, and 99.0 percent have less than 500 workers.
Which puts the majority in the out of luck bucket.
Yes, you are fortunate. Most of us are not.
I discovered one of my employees was suicidal, earlier this year, and steered her toward the EAP folk. It saved her life, according to her, and was the help she didn’t know she needed, and didn’t know existed. Thank God for them!
Thank you Nicola for sharing your thoughts and memories of your beloved brother . May everyone take heart from your heartfelt message. Thankyou
Thank you x
Beautiful tribute for your brother, many class those who end their lives as selfish , trust me when I say , when your in his position ,it’s all you have left to do to end the despair your in , brilliant video Nicola tfs xx
Thank you Carol xx
I think sometimes people think that if they end their life it will be the best things for everyone ... if only they knew the pain that remains in the hearts of their loved ones they would never take that final step ... God bless you xx
I lost my little brother a year ago from natural causes October 8th, i couldn't stop smiling even though i have tears in my eyes from watching you talk with such love about your little brother Matthew, it brought back some lovely memories for me and helped me heal a bit from what has been a rough week so i thank you for that.
I've also battled depression on and off since i was a teenager, please anyone who's reading this, if you are hurting please get help, i'm proof that it does help.
Sending love and healing light to you all.
Happy 50th Birthday Matthew, where ever you are i hope your at peace.
Thank you. Much love xx
So sorry for your loss. 😥
So sorry for your loss may memories sustain you a snow bird flies up high to heaven.
Thank you! xx
Matthew always wanted to fly ... now his spirit can soar among the stars!
Lovely tribute to your dear brother, and also thank you for bringing awareness to world mental health day. xo from Canada 🇨🇦
What a great little punchy song 🎵! , well sung too ! 👍🙂
Thank you! x
Happy Birthday Matthew, gone but never forgotten.