Am I Depressed??
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- Опубліковано 17 лип 2024
- Today I talk about being faced with depression after the death of my grandfather. I discuss my own mental health, how I made it through. I acknowledge that sometimes just making through the tough times is success. Currently I am doing much better, and I waited until I was in a better mental space to talk about this topic and share this video.
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Totally feel your pain. I lost my husband , my mother, my brother, all my aunts and uncles and my best friend. The grief can consume you…I love your videos and hope you find peace.
So sorry
I am so sorry for the level of loss you have experienced. God bless you!!
Wow. So sorry.
I’m so sorry, I’ve bean lucky enough not to lose anyone close yet. I can’t imagine what you’ve went through 💕
💔♥️💔🙏🏼😢I’m so sorry that you also have these pains((((Anna))))
I can relate Anna.Situational Depression is no joke.Not wanting to leave our homes, not showering or binge eating.We do what we need to to get back on track. We lean on friends because they are our family too . I know I'm just a random internet stranger but I care and am glad you are back on track. Peace and love to you now and always.❤
I greatly respect you not sharing other people's business that didnt need to be shared on youtube. Also, I have struggled with depression my entire life. You are a ray of sunshine to all those around you. I appreciate how much joy you give those who watch you. You are a wonderful caring loving person. Dispite how you feel you always think of others. You have a wonderful heart
Well said!
I've been depressed my whole life and when bad things happen, like the loss of a loved one, it gets 1000000X worse. I'm glad you're able to talk about this ❤
First of all: the mint green is everything on you. Second: losing your family, it is normal to feel lonely and depressed and for other family members to start a level of alienation you didn’t know was there. I’m so sorry because I have experienced it too. But your shining soul will persevere! ❤️❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽
So many of US in PAIN! I HAVE NO FAMILY OR FRIENDS. It is me and my emotional support dog. I haven't left the apartment but 10 times since 2020. I just started seeing a Psychiatrist cause it's bad when I'm not even taking care of myself because I really haven't cared about me!!!!! 😂🐕Be glad u have even at least one person, I would love to have that
Are you ok? No seriously if you feel you have no one you can contact me. I will talk to you. No one should feel alone.
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I feel you 100% on this…
I started going to therapy and healing past trauma so I literally lost my whole family. I have my friends and my own family o created but it still hurts when you lose your blood relatives…
I see you and I hear you and your feelings are completely validated♥️
I have depression and anxiety. I take meds and they help me cope. It was trial and error to find the right kind and dose. I try and focus on good things like reading, gardening, nature, and spirituality
I'm so sorry for your loss. It is unbelievably difficult. One day at a time. ❤❤❤❤❤ Everyone thought my Mom was the greatest person on earth. She was. To everyone but me. I've spent years in therapy trying to undo the damage she did to me. And the freaky thing is I still love her.
My mom loved boys.. there were four boys and two girls. My sister always said that our mom loved the boys more, but not us as much. I thought she was crazy until I became an adult and started seeing it. I only have two children that I love them equally.
I feel you. I've lost a lot of people too. There's just me and my son now. After cancer I felt completely alone. It's a frightening feeling. Thank God for my son who was a teenager at the time. 💜
"We create the world that we believe we deserve". I felt that. Thank you for sharing your experience. Wishing you the best
You are so well-spoken and articulate when you are describing your feelings. It is incredible. ❤️🧿
Thank you for being vulnerable and putting yourself out there like this. I went through a horrible depressive episode from November to March, and I can relate to so many things you mentioned here. Your comment about allowing yourself time to do nothing is so important. Sometimes we need to shut down for a while to let ourselves process everything before we can heal. 💗💗
You are a rock star!!!! I absolutely love your personality and your outlook on life!! I have been suffering through depression and anxiety for years so I know exactly what you are talking about!!! You go girl, you got this!!!!!!
Im sorry Anna, you got this what ever it is you got this. You are an amazing person who helped so many of us when we were down and out. We are all here for you❤️
I understand what u mean though. U want to scream it from the rooftops but the funeral isnt the time or place for it.
You really said so many things that hit close to home especially the part about deserving things and taking showers and sheet cakes. i struggled with that as well when i was depressed after 4 funerals in a year. But i made it through one day at a time. It took a minute but i woke up feeling better day by day..
Thank you for sharing your life with us Anna and always being so raw and honest! That’s why I love you and your channel!! 🥰❤️
I really needed this video today. I had no idea how much. Thank you for sharing and being open.
That’s amazing. You should be extremely proud of yourself. You are absolutely stronger than you think you are and are inspiring and brave. Thank you.
So proud of you and how you keep growing mentally and emotionally and for being authentically you.
I feel you on this. I’m down to so little family now, as well. It’s so hard. But as much as I heard so much pain in your voice, you still managed to inspire and make me think differently. So glad you’re on the upsweep! ❤️
This is why I watch your videos. You are so transparent and honest. I am recovering from a shattered kneecap and I relate totally to your bout with situational depression! Thank you for helping so many folks mot feel alone by sharing your experiences! Take care and I look forward to many more happy times for you!
Anna, you don't need to feel like you failed! I'm sure long term you will get back to continuing on your journey and life happens. we have to give ourselves grace when we are struggling, especially when we are going through loss and grief. I also totally feel you about the funneral stuff, I recently went through this and it felt like a lot of showboating.... so sorry for your loss ❤️
I am so sorry I love your content it helps me get thru the day .we live you and are always here for you.
I really feel for you. I have had a lot of losses in my life. I have also had depression most of my life. Take time for yourself. So sorry for your loss. Thank you so much for sharing. It will get better. Much love and prayers ❤️.
I appreciate your candor and honesty. You put yourself out there and I admire that about you. You’re the realest of the real, and I’m rooting for you!!
I love how transparent you are on your channel because it can help so many people. ❤ I have also found in my life it’s ups and downs and the down always goes up eventually.
I'm sooo happy u opened up! Im going through something myself. I'm not going to express because this is your moment. I just want to give u a air/text/comment hug. Its not that u looking for anything but to express the highs and lows of what life can give you (plural), and in turn give some relief and motivation. Thanks for sharing 💝
I'm so happy to hear your doing better, Anna, you bring so much positivity into this world, like a shining light, and I hope you know how much your audience values you, you brighten anyone's mood and that's the most powerful ability of all
Thank you so much for this! I was hitting a down today, too. Feeling out of control! And you reminded me that there’s always the other side… 😊
The thing with grief is that when you experience it/let it in, it opens the door to *all* the pain in your life. Other losses, great and small. Disappointments. Weaknesses. Anxieties. They all rush in through that door. Does this make it better? Easier to get over? No, not at all. But over time you will be able to slam that door. You will figure a way to process the grief. And be prepared for the next time it opens and let’s all that shit in again. This is not necessarily clinical depression. This is being a living, breathing, feeling, caring, loving human being.
Eloquently spoken! After my dad passed I had the most intricate, vivid dreams that symbolized all of the trauma I had experienced, like watching scripted well-directed films. It led me to therapy that changed my life. The mind works in amazing ways to process our pain.
I love what you said about energy always flowing. You're helping us out here, sharing your experiences. Thank you. You're amazing and beautiful💜
I am so sorry for your loss. Your grandad sounds like a lovely person. Big hugs x
Hugs to you. I can sympathize with that sense of loss and being overwhelmed. I hope as you continue on in your life you find more joy than pain.
Hey Anna, I really feel for you right now. Losing a family member is a difficult battle and every one of us can relate.
Sending you so much love ❤️
You are amazing! So strong and courageous to speak your truth and also not call out the people who hurt you.
Anna, its one day at a time. Don't be down on yourself. You got through it and reached out for help.
Recognising it is so important. Glad you have an amazing support network. It is so difficult sometimes but one step at a time….the big wheel keeps on turning! This time will pass and you will feel amazing again x
Thanks for sharing. I get it. Focus on what you have, what you achieved. That’s what i try to.
Sometimes i get in the funk and think of the people that don’t show up.
You made it through- keep rising. 💓
Hi Anna,
Thanks for sharing your experience. It’s like your life mirrors mine in so many ways and I feel like I’m on this journey with you. Thanks so much for sharing and choosing to be vulnerable in such a public way. I’m so happy that you’re feeling better and that you’re finding ways to care for yourself. ❤️
I’m sorry to hear you have had to deal with so much loss in your life. You are amazingly strong to get through all you’ve had to deal with. I’m glad to hear you have a great support network. Take care of yourself. Sending you big hugs xoxo
Anna thank you for always being authentic. when I watch you I feel like I am hanging out with a friend and I think it's because you always present the real you. You don't hide the grit and it's so so appreciated in a time when young people are looking at social media thinking life should look like a filter. Thank you again.
I want to say thank you for talking about this, I am always so happy when people shed more of a light on these types of feelings so people who are going through them know they aren't alone, and aren't weird!
Remember to always be kind to yourself 💞
Thank you for making us feel so good even though you weren’t feeling that way yourself. That’s a gift you have. Thank you for sharing. 💕💙💕💙💕💙💕💙
Thanks for sharing. We're living in hard times. Love your videos, I watched them all. ♥️
Thank you so much for sharing your journey and being so vulnerable!! I am recovering alcoholic and almost to 18 months soon. I have days where my discipline is great and days where I’m like crying asking god to lift all my burdens from me. I love your advice about calling people and reaching out when you’re feeling low, I still struggle with making phone calls. I’m great at opening up in person but weird about being the one to call someone.
So your advice definitely inspired me. I’m so sorry for your loss as well, it isn’t easy to lose a special person. I spend a lot of time with my grandma and don’t even want to think of the pain I’ll feel when she’s gone one day. But again thank you for sharing your journey and for being easy and kind to yourself when you were experiencing depression It sure makes it more bearable. Xoxo
Thank you so much for this beautiful video ❤
Thank you so much for this video, Anna. In speaking about your own struggles, you made me feel not so alone in the grief, loneliness, pain I have felt since my Dad’s passing in 2012 to aml leukemia, my only sister’s passing to years of alcoholism in 2016. I have been disabled since 2014, after failed spinal surgery, mobility challenges, pain that is with me every minute of the day. Pain has changed my life. Changed every aspect of my life. I have a hard time coping with it all. It’s been hard to push forward. It is scary as 💩 at times.
I am sending you love and strength, Anna. Anyone who is struggling, please know you are loved and worthy of happiness. ❤️ We are worth it, we are!!! We can and will make it through.
I've been following you for a while and you're always an inspiration to me. I'm like wow, she's really got her sh*t together, or I wish I had just an ounce of her confidence. So.... give yourself some grace and try to see yourself as the rest of us do. ❤️
Just know you are so strong, after everything you’ve been through u r still here today talking about this with us. I wish I could say I know what it feels like but if I’m being honest I can’t. I have not been in any situation like this where I feel this way. I want to let you know that I look up to you because u are so strong and brave to be expressing your feelings like this. We are all here for you and will support u no matter what!
Grief is no joke it can create so many issues I hope everyone who is currently in this situation gets better 🖤
I'm sorry for your loss. Praying for continue strengthen and healing for you 🙏🏾
Thanks for sharing ur feelings with honesty and realness. I totally feel u. U will find a great person to create your own family with. Be patient💞
When you spoke of people/family talking about how wonderful a particular person is that you have had horrible experiences with is a terrible, hopeless feeling. I can relate to that in so many ways Ana, and I’m sorry you have to go through that as I know first hand how frustrating it is. So happy for you that you’re past the rut you were in and moving forward with positivity. Your opening up about your personal struggles helps a lot of people which you should be proud of yourself for.
I’m praying for you to get through this. I lost my dad and my son within two months of each other last year. I’m still battling the hurt, anger, and this big hole in my heart🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
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Sending you lots of love and praying for some kind of comfort for you. I am so very sorry for your loss❤️❤️😘😘🙏🙏❤️❤️🙏🙏❤️❤️
Anna I wish I had the right words to help with your pain. I am sending you much love and healing thoughts.
I’m so glad that you are feeling better! I pray God give you peace in every situation you are facing 🙏🏾🙏🏾
Thank you for sharing this most personal experience. Grief triggered depression is a thing and different for everyone. It hit me too at the loss of my Dad in 2003 and my best friend in 2020. I was not one to share with others, even my husband, what I was actually feeling. I'm proud of you for reaching out to friends. And I am happy to hear you are beginning to move forward. It is really hard and we are changed forever by these chapters in our lives. Sounds like your change will be a positive one. Sending love your way. ❤
I'm glad to hear that things are looking up for you after such a rough time. Big love to you, my friend. I love your philosophy of waves - I think it's the truest description of life and everything it can throw at you I've ever heard. (Also, I'm living for your look in this video - super chic!)
I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you were grieving. Not only for your grandpa but for others you lost too. You didn't fail it was just a pause to get through a hard time. I'm glad your doing better. I love your energy and sense of humor.
We love you Anna all our support always love you heaps from Australia , you have so much integrity 🌹
You are going to make a great mother someday! This video helped me a lot. Thank you for being so vulnerable.
I feel you, lost my Dad then my Mom. All the aunts and uncles are gone, that I interact with. I've struggled with depression and anxiety since my Dad passed in 2016. Was better, then my Mom passed July 2020.
My family is far away and doesn't include me in anything. It's hard some days to get out of bed and do anything.
Your past love ones are still with you in spirit ❤️ lots love light blessings too you hun and prayers .
Sending you lots of love, hugs and prayer❤️❤️🙏🙏❤️❤️🙏🙏
I am sorry for what you have been through. I have walked such a similar path and understand the complexity of family relationships when abuse and dysfunction have been your experience. I hope you will always remember that you are not crazy or unreasonable. Your situation has been. Some of the people in your life have been. You are a brave warrior who has survived and chooses to continue fighting for a life full of wonder every day. Don't let the lies of the past steal the beautiful future you have waiting for you. You aren't alone. If each day only has you eat, sleep, and breathe you did enough. You are enough and you deserve all the goodness that life can hold for you.
aww i am so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you and hope for your healing
So sorry for your loss sending prayers. Your make looks amazing 🤩
I just love you and your honesty and how you are so real.
Thankyou for sharing chicky . I am always bottling up my feelings. It’s actually good you spent some time to work on yourself it was probably needed. Don’t ever feel guilty for taking some time for yourself it’s a good thing. I myself suffer from depression especially this past month so thankyou so much for sharing chicky. Yes you are a winner ⭐️⭐️⭐️😘 ⭐️
You are blessed to have the support sy system you have. When my mom passed away my whole family fell apart she was the glue. Now I don't have any other relatives in my life friends don't have any I just shut down I do suffer from depression I know the hell you were in and i am so glad that you are feeling better. I love your videos can't wait to see what's ahead. ✌️
You are a winner and survival is the spoils. I can imagine how you feel about being alone.. I've felt kind of like that recently with some events in my life, but the kicker is, I'm not alone. It can happen no matter how many people are around you (even ones who care) anyway, you are not alone, even when it feels like it and I think you talking about it will speak to who it needs to speak to. I'm glad you are feeling better. I am so sorry for your loss and what you had to deal with in your time of grieving. And anything you wanted to say to your Grandfather, you can still tell him... I'm sure he is watching over you with love and pride. Hang in there and I look forward to hear your big news!
As a viewer from the UK I find your videos and content so good and I absolutely love you as a person wnd look forward to many more years of this xx
You are an amazing beautiful human, I am deeply sorry for your loss.
Be kind to yourself, you did not fail. You can't be perfect, nobody can. It's called life, we just gotta keep on keeping on. Big hugs lady, your an inspiration xxxxx
So sorry for your loss! May the lord give you the strength to go through this. You are a great human being! I see this in you although I don’t know you personally . I would be your friend😞
So sorry Anna , I have been depressed for most of my life and it’s hard , I always win the battle but never the actual war 😢. Best wishes 💐
Thank you for sharing. I needed this
I just want to hug you. You bring the world so much joy, and all I want is for you to feel that joy.
You can get a sheet cake delivered? Game changer....in all seriousness, I suffer from severe depression, have my whole life & i too have recently reached an all time low. I don't know your religious/ spiritual beliefs, but I am praying for you. You have lifted my spirits on many days, so thank you. You are wonderful, strong, and powerful.
Wow...I've always felt some parallel parts between my life and yours, which made you so relatable. Then I just watched this video and truly felt like your talking about me in ways. No I'm not crazy...not talking about me but could be...its so hard to have to face a family member who has hurt you on levels No 5/6 yr old should have to ever deal with, but now I'm 64 and still dealing...It was a promise to my mother, before she passed 3 yrs ago. You are Amazing and fellow Texan You are in my Prayers and Thoughts. God Bless All..Keep up great work. 🇨🇱❤🙏☝
We are all a little depressed, the last two years have been so hard on all of us. Loosing family members , it just harder because of covid because of not being able to visit the ones we love. I have trouble getting dressed some days. God Bless you Anna I pray things turn around for you.
Anna you gave yourself some grace. I understand as I was in that same dark place, so not my personality. I am on meds for depression for the first time in my life. It is a slow process to dig yourself out. It has been a weird couple of years and we all have a breaking point. But you are not letting you self stay there and that is good that you recognize it. I am here if you would like to talk. Your fellow Austinite, Robin.
Sorry about your loss! Ive been depressed my whole life. So i getcha there.
I’m so sorry about your depression. Here a verse for you from the Bible: 2 Timothy 1:7. It helps to remember this. I hope things go better for you. I’ve been there!!
Thanks for being REAL and sharing the frustration of the dichotomy of funerals and the views of how people view the person who passed. LOVE your words! Thinking of you... Sharing loneliness is being real!
Lot of respect for you to not say anything about those who have let you down. The do nothing is a really smart move. It is really sorting through emotions and maybe you needed that. Good for you!
Failing is a good thing, it means that you are trying/fighting to get to a better place in life. I’m happy to hear that you made it through this rough process. Sending you a big hug ❤️🙏🏼BLESSINGS
Awh! I'm always here for you Glitter! We love youu!
Thankyou for that share. Life really can be a rollercoaster. I've been there and what I got out of it was...hold on....because it will change. Love you.
Anna I’m so sorry I really and completely know how you feel I lost my last grandparent two weeks ago and it was my grandpa I have my favorite person in this world was my nana she was my moms mom like my heart hurts she raised, me my dad was in jail until I was 12yrs. Close your eyes and feel the warm and loving hugs im sending you. Thank you for this video I needed to see it I’ve been holding this pain in for a while now I’ve just had my cry i needed since my grandpa died then when I could finally see what you have in your hair which is the blue butterflies, blue is my nana favorite color and she loved butterflies, she put your video on my must watchlist so thank you so much for your video
You’re so emotionally intelligent, Anna. You really summed up what you’re feeling well. I’ve been there also - especially after losing my mother. You’re loved and appreciated more than you know. Wish we were real life friends so I could give you a hug!!
So sorry for your losses. A person has limits. It's good that you allowed yourself to feel. Sending you love and healing thoughts. Tomorrow is a new day. 😊
You are so self aware! You are amazing:)
Thanks for sharing. I'm 59 and single. I too dealing with this still since 2010. I keep forgetting I am not alone in these situations and neither are you. Hold onto your friends. You still look very young.
I find so much similarities to your story. Losing my mom 3 yrs ago and distance between my family. I would love to connect with you as a big sister. You're beautiful
I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather. I hope happiness comes back into your life soon
Aww, Anna. You are a beautiful human. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability. Know that you have a "youtube" family here for you. 💕 💞 ♥️
I feel your pain, Anna. Please know that you are not alone in this. I’m down to only 4 family members. My 2 best friends passed away 4 1/2 months apart. You are one of the bravest women I’ve ever seen. You have your followers here who love you. And while we can’t be with you in person, we are all embracing you online. Much love ❤️
I can relate as well. I'm so sorry you deal with all of this. Depression is real & very difficult to work through. Just know you are not alone...
Sounds like you didn't fail at all! You took the time you needed and learned a lot.
I can so relate on so many fing levels. WOrk hard on making that family for yourself. You are worthy of love and you're an amazing person.
I TOTALLY related to what you said about wonderful things being said about people who were not the great, incredible human beings people make them out to be. It is so frustrating to have to sit there and listen to people lionize others who did not treat me well. I just keep thinking I know the truth and that’s enough for me…I hope you find inner peace
Great words and I Pray I can too gain from my past of going back to the 5/6 yr old girl who was so abused and that person was a close family member and should have protected me i feel. But I will try to do what you have done. Thank you. God Bless All ❤🙏☝
I'm incredibly sorry for your loss, Anna. 💚💙
And friends are family too.
So sorry for your loss . Lost my mom sept 18 , its horrible big loss . Now my sister and I are dealing with ugly family members . We just wanted our down time to get through this and its not going to happen . But you will get through this and its normal to have the feelings your having . Dont be depressed to long before getting help. I hope the best for you .