Things I have learned from the comments: 1. Outer Wilds covers much of the same topic. 2. OneShot covers much of the same topic. 3. OneShot is the game that has that cat creature I see everywhere. 4. I made a LOT of people cry
It may sounds like asking too much but... play Outer Wilds. It's just... that kinda of game you wish you could forget everything about just to play it again and relieve those moments.
Outer wilds is easily one of the best games I’ve ever played, I wish I could forget everything about it and play through it for the first time again. Your only limit in the game is your own knowledge
wait wtf do u remember playing with a random kid on a rust server like 7 years ago? had a big ass rock in the snow completely walled off on the inside of the rock. i remember you showing me your channel back then at like 1k subs. con fucking grats on blowing up dude not sure how i never realized.
Two quotes from Satoru Iwata before he passed away “If I could start over, I wouldn’t change a thing.” “No part of my experience has been a waste of time”
"but in my heart... I am a gamer". Said at a time when gamers were stigmatized and demonized by the entire mainstream political and media establishment.
I was expecting a generic list. I was not expecting an incredibly sad, melancholic, nostalgic, somehow eye-opening and genuinely emotional experience. I've never seen your channel before, and I wasn't subscribed... ...I am now, because this was fucking amazing.
As I heard the words "Obsessed with undertale as a kid" it became clear to me that I'm a fairly old man. I still recognized it as a, maybe not new, but definitely not as an old game. So I googled it and it dawned on me that this game is nearly 8 years old.
I'm 29, I think being on the internet kind of makes this seem much older because we are now surrounded by kids online, the reality is that we are not really old, not truly old, we don't even know what that feels like yet, but we have an artificial sense of being ancient because we are always interacting with people we normally wouldn't have due to the age gap
Hearing that line I automatically assumed Undertale was a rerelease or remake from a 90s game and the guy in the video played the old version as a kid. Only when I read the comments it became clear he was definitely referring to a game that, to me, did not release that long ago. I still can't wrap my head around how someone was "a kid" a few years ago and now making youtube documentaries.
@@aduantas i'm 22 and feel the same. My Steam account is going to be a decade old soon, and although that's not quite half my life (made it when i was almost 14), i still feel like an old man for having a near-decade old Steam account. and granted, some people have had it since Steam launched almost 20 years ago.... but i'm not one of those.
The Halo 2 story was the most bittersweet. Before voice chat or typing were introduced to HALO, let alone consoles, the only way anyone could "communicate" was through moving around, rotating, or shooting at something. The final two players that remained, despite not being able to talk or text, seemed to feel some kind of kinship. That clip you showed where they were the only two players left? They looked like they were doing the bro hug. Then the clip where the last guy was running around. Just running around, not shooting anyone, not competing or cooperating. The last player on a dead server. ...I bet ApacheEnforcer felt like he was stuck in Purgatory.
"It's a brutally depressing experience, where nothing you do can erase the mistake you made and every option gives you a sliver of the life you had before. The world around you is dead, no matter whether you survive or not." Is high praise 🙏 Thanks for remembering my dumb little flash game ❤
I remember getting recommended that game by a Vsauce video and I still stand by my decision to work in the lab every day. Your use of permanence was very novel and I have huge kudos for the vision of the game.
There's a philosophy in game making. Games must be places of joy. And keeping players there for any other reasons would makem places of boredom. You were playing for no joy.
I was expecting some lighthearted "oh these are lost games you cant find anywhere", not an emotional video essay about permanence and determination and what it means to be human. thank you for making this, its genuinely so beautiful
I still remember dying for the first time on “Lone Wolf”. I kept expecting the objective to update, but it never did. As soon as I saw the special cutscene I knew what it really meant. Felt like I had my heart ripped out. Hurt having reality set in
Did anyone ever find a way to trick that into rolling credits without you actually dying? Star Ocean 2 and FF7: Crisis Core had 'unwinnable' battles that you could glitch the game into going past... you still lose as far as the game is concerned of course.
@@Mark-in8ju I honestly liked the religious symbolisms and themes in Halo. Sure it could be taken multiple ways, but I feel like it added a lot more depth to the lore.
A game that would've fit perfectly into this video is OneShot, as the entire game's permise revolves around the idea that you only have one try of completing the main charachters goal (hence the name OneShot, as in you only have one shot). Even though the version on Steam does have a "secret" ending after your initial first playthrough, after completing the game for a second time, it will lock you out of playing it ever again.
[SPOILER WARNING!] It doesn't really lock you out, you can play again, but instead of Niko, you play as TWM who is posing AS Niko. But it will never be the same, because you know what happens next and what will occur. Oneshot is magical for its ability to make you realize, that you can only really play once. Even when you are replaying, it isn't the same, because you know everything.
@@Ver0Epsilon True, I forgot about that. As you said, OneShot plays a lot more with the idea of the player only having one "true" playthrough than other games.
@@masterboa6321 dont go anywhere Oneshot related, I spoiled myself the beginning, and it was boring and pred8ctsble, cause i knew what to do. I hate spoilers, everyone does. For your enjoyment, please dont read my previous reply.
almost made me burst into tears lmao. been dealing with the whole "nothing lasts forever, time won't slow down for you, stop living in the past" kind of vibe lately, and this video just really nails that feeling. It's a bittersweet feeling for sure but god damn, if it isn't human to feel this way!!
Then I won't watch it. I feel bad just reading comments about how Pokemon was never good and the like. I doubt I'd be able to handle watching this video, even though I'm pretty sure the only game I recognize (I skimmed through the preview that shows up when you hover over the bar) is Undertale.
In the christmas of 1995 my parents bought me and my brothers a playstation. They did not buy us any games for it because it was too expensive, we simply had the developer disc that game with it. I was a little kid but I remember seeing it boot up the first time. I remember the game "Battle Arena Toshinden" and how when we saw the 3d characters for the first time, we all lost our minds. It was so real. Each attack, he combo, felt like we were watching a live action movie. We can never have that exact same experience again. If I went back in time to that moment, I already experienced it once so I can't really have that exact same moment. There is something amazing about reading a book for a first time, seeing a movie, listening to a song, playing a game, just experiencing something the first time. I envy those who get to have those moments again. I ran a D&D game for some younger kids back some years ago, tried real hard to make a whimsy fun game with memorable characters. I remember the look on their faces when I introduced a silly bird NPC. They hadn't gotten to experience something like this before. They are all adults now and no doubt have had better written stories given to them. But I am sure they still remember that first time. My old elementary school was torn down, you can never walk those old halls. Many of my favorite restaurants growing up have gone out of business. This applies to so many things. Time marches on, the things we love disappear sometimes as well. You never know when something you do, will be the last time you do it, or someone you talk to you never speak to again. Time marches on. It's sad, but at the same time it's what makes it so special. You should always try to appreciate what you can for that reason. "Transient guests are we..."
The scary thing is millions of people have come before us, living all sorts of lives in different time periods. They are all gone, with the most famous just text in history books. Millions more will come after us too. Life will move on even from us and our world. The change never stops even if we wish it didn't. Everything has it's day, then it's over.
I was expecting a trivia video about games that can't play anymore, but instead received a philosophical discussion about time, about life is ephemeral and how we can't just fight it, no matter how hard we try. Well done
This video is pure nostalgia, and not just because it talks about games that are no longer, but because it managed to put me in a mood I haven't experienced for years, I don't even know how to describe it, it's a weird mix of existential dread, inspiration and pure focus on the here and now while also thinking about the past. You truly managed to transport my mind to a place I haven't visited in a long time, it's been a while since a piece of media captivated my attention to the point where it felt 10x longer than it actually was, and even now that it's finished I'm still actively thinking about it an hour later. Bravo.
@@RobotronSage This reads like satire. On the off chance you're serious, there's an important point you're seeming to intentionally miss. The community and atmosphere of Halo 2 being mainstream, easily accessible without 3rd party software, and feeling completely alive knowing everyone at school most likely had an account and also played is what truly "died." Let's consider the Mega Man battle network legacy collection that is about to release in April. Why am I going to spend $60 on it, even though the roms are readily available for free? Because of accessibility and an actual online community that will breathe life into a niche series. Being able to queue up against and trade chips with an actual online community as opposed to some niche circle in a discord is a night and day gaming experience. You as an enthusiast yourself must surely know what I mean when you give your pitch to normal people about the preserved classics. If it's not on Steam, Epic, PS5, Xbox, Switch, BNET, etc. no one is going to care about playing it or taking the admittedly tedious route of emulating and connecting with people. These preserved classics typically rely on P2P and never have dedicated servers, or any of the updates and features / DLC / patches that come with a game actually being kept alive by the company itself. What you're describing exists, but it's just not comparable unfortunately. I've went down that route with Dolphin/ Slippi with Melee for gamecube and Project M. There was a community of like maybe 200 people globally because millions of people instead were playing Ultimate on the Switch.
@@RobotronSage Maybe lay off the crack for a while, nothing in this life lasts forever, you can preserve games as much as you want, one day no one will care as everyone will have moved on to newer things. Things change, it's inevitable, and there's no point in staying attached to the past, this has nothing to do with corporate propaganda, it's just a fact of life, you have to learn to move on a let the past be. If you really care that much about old games, the best you can do is remake them with current technology as this will breathe new life into them and a new generation of gamers will get to experience them.
9:43 the way to replay one chance is by playing it in incognito and then when you beat it close the incognito window and then open another one your progress wont be saved and you can play again
When I was a kid I had to convince my mom Halo reach wasn’t violent because it was alien blood… if only she knew, one of the best and most memorable experiences in my life
Halo Reach has one of the best endings in video game history to me. The ending to that game is so amazing while being something that is ultimately depressing at the same time. The thrill ride that that story is, is found basically nowhere else in gaming. It's one of those games that I wish I could entirely forget to replay again because I want to experience it again for the first time.
@@MILDMONSTER1234 I tried so many times to survive and hope there was a beatable outcome to crises core only for it to be hopeless. Great memories I wish I could do again for the first time. Over 15 years later its still as memorable as ever. Rip Zack
Halo Reach is the most recent game I played to the credits a few weeks ago. So the feels and everything about it is still fresh and boy did it hit me hard. Such an amazing merging of gameplay and storytelling.
I havent cried in two years but this video has me tearing up on the brink of crying as the last points you made in the video about our memories never being changed or altered hit me hard since my brother died in a fatal car accident and one of my fondest memories i have is of me and him playing halo 3 together, even though he always demolished me in that game i always loved playing it with him and after his death ive never found as much joy in my life as i did when he was still here. To this day i still have his xbox 360 and the same exact game disk we played together on which i clean frequently so that when im feeling sad or lonely i can play it and explore the worlds we made together in forge and get a rush of memories that always brightens my day even when it comes with a sense of mourning. Words cant describe how touched i am by this video
Awwwww now Im crying🥹🥹 That is a beautiful story My condolences and I wish you the best❤❤ And remember, Spartans never die they just go missing in action❤
goddam as someone with a constant fear of time and death, i was not expecting to relapse that fear in a yt video this was beautiful though, despite showinf up a year late im happy to see this
"Goodbye To A World", by Porter Robinson, is a song that encapsulates that feeling of seeing the world of your favourite MMO, one you've spent countless hours in, disappear becasue the servers shut down. I think it's a beautiful song and I wholeheartedly recommend everyone listening to it.
Oh wow, I did not realize that song was genuinely inspired by the concept of MMO games being shut down. That's pretty dope. Extra cool because I associate that song with Undertale too lol
I heard this song a few years before my memory started remembering. (Which isn't saying much because I only started properly remembering like 3 years ago and I am 15 almost 16), but I used to sing "Lonely, I am so lonely, and it's the end of the world, don't blame yourself now" Because I didn't know the lyrics properly because of how much of a foggy memory the song was. But the first time I rediscovered it, I oddly felt like I had found an old part of myself again. This comment made me rediscover it a second time, and it yet again feels like finding old memories of me playing at the playground of the old daycare I went to, sitting on the bark pretending to sell ice-cream down under the slides in the wooden box. When all I had to worry about was if the girl I had a crush on liked me back and if my iron beads were heated properly so I could take it home. Those were good times. I don't have a good way to end this comment off properly so.. Thank you, genuinely, thank you :) Have an amazing day and if times aren't looking up for you at the moment, it will get better, good job for sticking through it all. and if they are looking up, good job on playing your cards right. Signing off.
thank you, this reminded me of NFS World. i could only play it for a year as a kid because the servers shut down in 2015, but that game meant the world to me. i still remember the fireworks going off in free-roam exactly when the plug was pulled. me and tons of other people gathered up in that one spot, watching those fireworks, sending goodbyes in chat, reunited in this virtual final gasp of life... i couldn't not shed a tear. i had dumped my profile beforehand, so i could play it offline, as such a project was announced before the shutdown. it did come to fruition eventually, and i could play my game again, albeit by my own. multiplayer was planned, so i kept waiting... until my old hard drive died 3 days before i wanted to back it up. my profile, the last screenshot from the official servers, named "the end of the world.png", all gone. true, the game did receive a fan-made revival a few years later, and i did play it extensively for some time... but that just wasn't the same. i was a different person by then. the memories did not fully match what i was playing. i should not have opened that HDD that one day, maybe it was still possible to save it... well! thanks again, i guess i needed this.
I know I can't ever truly re-experience it for the first time again. But I admit I still revisit it. I still go flying around and looking at this strange, scary and yet wonderful solar system. I've practically beaten the game 100%. But I still play it anywa6, cause I love it so much.
@@DeathAngel-ft8oz I've been thinking of giving this game a chance for quite a while now, and honestly? I probably will now. I've heard a lot of good stuff, heard some music, but I never touched it. In hope it's really as good as portrayed! ^^
I can't explain why, but this was soul crushing. Had a lot of good buddies from school that used to play halo. We All graduated, started families, and never spoke again.
There is one such video that i know of that can be called a masterpiece video - "The mystery of "MICHAELSOFT BINBOWS" by nick robinson. check it out if you havent already
This hits so hard and so close to my gamer heart, thank you for making this poor soul happy saying goodbye to the nostalgia and hello to new beginnings
Every time I see Halo, it reminds me nothing is the same, and it can't be repeated. That was my friends' and I high school video game, and now I don't even know where my friends are...😢
Holy crap. This video actually made me quite emotional. How most people would see the last matches as survival, it was actually a labor of love for so many. Truly inspiring thank you
Your thoughts about Halo and undertale are Awesome. Undertale for a long time had a really bizarre feel about it. There's the bright side with all the quirky characters, jokes, and happy endings, but then there's this crushing feeling of repetition and hopelessness. The characters are stuck in a loop and you're perpetuating it. On top of that, it does an effective job at commenting about player agency, and how players slowly realize what Flowey really means as a character.
This made me look back at the last 22 years of gaming. 22 years of fun, friends, and game after game. Some we’ll never get back again, others will live forever. But this point that you’ll never get that first feeling again, you’ll never be a kid after school at a buddies house again. Time moves on, but the memories are forever
No one can beat time. At the end of the road even memories fade away. We only have our actions and what we left behind weather it be bad or good. Though no one will remember a whisper of it in a century. It doesn't mean that they had no impact.
Today I finally completed the 100% of Super Mario Galaxy, a game I have played since I was a kid. Now I have watched your video and I'm crying remembering all the moments I lived playing it, how I struggled with the first boss and the satisfaction when I beat it, the first time I heard Gusty Garden Galaxy... Even if it's sad to think that I will never experience that for the first time, I'm happy it happened. Thank you so much.
If I had to choose, that's probably my favourite game, and I don't even really play consoles. A great game, for me, is one that you can re-play and still get some satisfaction out of. OK, you know the plot twist and what will happen at the end, but I still get a good deal of satisfaction seeing it all play out again. Same goes for other media: if I can't re-watch a film (or read a book for that matter) and still get at least some satisfaction about how the story is told, then it's not a good film for me.
Going through abandoned VR Chat worlds gives me those same feelings you mentioned in the end. Especially if they have pictures of the people that used to play there on the walls. Who were they? What made them leave? Are they even still alive? Doesn't matter, all that's left are their memories.
As a fellow VRC player, I cry looking back at all the photos I've taken. knowing so many beautiful people and even meeting a lot of them irl. it hurts knowing the inevitable, but it makes the memories made that much more bittersweet
That was one hell of a video. I don't think I've ever had someone so perfectly summarize why video games in general are painful for me as I approach 30. I boot up games now and either they are the same thing I've already put 1000 hours into and can't possibly explore more, or they're unfamiliar and deeply unsatisfying because I have already experienced so many endless hours of incredible joy and curiosity. No matter what I do, every time I pick up a controller these days I am simply overcome with a deep sorrow and wistfulness for those careless summer days where I knew that my friends would come over, we'd boot up the latest obsession, and the hours would breeze by with unfettered joy. I find that emotion in other things these days, but after so many ups and downs for so much of my life, video games are just too emotional and embittering to enjoy anymore.
Bro I'm starting to feel you, it's all either too familiar or too foreign. I want something comfortable, but not something I've played a thousand times. By the time I played Halo Reach almost all enjoyment of it was lost on me. I didn't care about the story enough to continue, or the gameplay. I was confused how people could love it so much since I couldn't, but it was perhaps the burnout that ruined the game.
wow this touched me :') i hope that a game of some sort come round and that you and your friends can enjoy it together as the hours go by and endless joy comes through.
In my late 30s so I feel your longing for the games and types of games you miss & put time into. But, gaming as a hobby is just that. If you don't like the games your playing, try a different genre or platform/console. The back of games I have from even 3 years ago, is still in the teens. I find newness & enjoyment from top 10 games that are highly rated everywhere, by multiple sources. But, I don't let my hobby consume me. There's still lifting heavy objects and putting them down. Overall, my time is very limited these days...dang my kids and thier video games. 😅
I wasn't expecting something of this magnitude. How eloquently put. How.. eloquently put. I've seen most of these games. Loved them, too. You got yourself a new subscriber. Take life as it comes, everyone.
I remember some kid murdered a family member out of frustration and then a week after that it was off the app store, probably no relation but at the time I thought that was the reason the creator decided to take it down
This was…incredible. It’s been so long since I felt what this video made me feel. 41 years old, sitting here with my dogs, listening to my wife talk in the phone, and just feeling memories flood my mind of Halo 2 matches, as my tears flood my eyes.
I kinda needed this I think. Going through.. Dark stuff. Just really latched on hard to Cyberpunk, I've never experienced what I would call true escapism from video games before, though there is no question I have missed out on a LOT of life due to video games. I dont know how to describe it, I just want to jump back in but there is nothing left for me there. Just binge watched the anime again last night. Can't lay off the UA-cam videos about secrets, I'm sure that's why the video got recommended. It's just, hard to not feel that characters... Don't exist. That they've never done something that wasn't written by somebody else. I'm almost 38, I feel absolutely ridiculous. But I just wish I could go back to the journey. The destination was death of that world.
Hey, wanted to start by saying that this video was awesome. I’m a night shift custodian and I’m walking around sweeping the floors replacing trash bags, the regular janitor shit. Lol. Anyways I got to the end of your video and the way you described how those players in halo 2 “waved goodbye” made me cry. I lost my grandfather a week ago and had the honor of speaking at his service, what you said made my cry tears of happiness because it made me feel like that’s what my family was doing this past Friday. So thank you, you earned a subscriber 🤘
This video is a piece of art and I was crying at the end. I'm in a point in my life right now where I feel like no matter what I do it won't matter, but knowing that there are people who will still fight to the end, even if it seems hopeless, that's what I live for. I'm going to keep fighting, even if it seems hopeless.
It's so sad when you played a game, you liked it, but forgot about it for some years. And after it you realize that that one game you loved was deleted forever. And all was left it's burning memories.
But on the other side of the coin. It's knowing that that game got a proper burial provides a bitter sweet feeling. You won't get to play it again, no one will. That won't prevent you from moving on as a person. There will always be other games, and no one else can take away the memories u made playing it to begin with. Recently, The Completionist went onto the 3DS game store and purchased every single game, and stored their base save files along w/ all possible DLC on Hard Drives to be placed in a "Video Game Museum". But I kinda feel if that goes against what the developers want. The store went down for a reason, these games lived, and they died. Trying to preserve something robs it of its right to pass on. In the same way it would feel immoral to resuscitate some1 who doesn't want it; it feels wrong to permanantly store a game that was destined to disappear forever. It's knowing that the game will be gone that gives it meaning. It almost invalidates its very existence when u refuse to let it go away in peace.
Halo Reach. My first ever Halo game I was so excited when I got it, I played it nonstop and refused to uninstall it to install my new game and then when I beat it, I felt empty I was so immersed in Halo Reach, All of those mission's only to die...
I’m hyped for Silent Hill F, but that looks more like a Fatal Frame that a Silent Hill. The teaser for Silent Hills (the non playable one) looked awesome with Norman Reedus too
@@DocTime56 I'm pretty excited for F too, and also the SH2 remake. I'm happy Konami is finally doing something with the franchise, instead of just sitting on it like they have been for the past 8-9 years
i cannot imagine the surreal feelings ApacheEnforcer experienced being the last person on the Halo 2 servers. To be that person means that the game probably meant a lot to them, so to be the LAST person to be on the servers- the last person to ever experience your favorite game...i can't imagine how it would feel. it would be so isolating.
@@thatguythatplaysgames3221no. To answer your question, no “reward” or “acknowledgment” of any sort for what I did. [Source: I *AM* “APACHE N4SIR”, Guinness World Record Holder and the last person to be on the Halo2 servers after being kicked off after 673 hours 58 minutes after -ZERO HOUR-]
It wasn’t my FAVOURITE game… it was one of me favourites but it was the one that made the biggest impact in the gaming community. It was the reason why we had voice chat. Proximity voice communications. The reasons we had 100 friends on our friends list. To name a few. Without Halo 2 and all it’s framework we wouldn’t have XBOX LIVE the way we had it then and the way we have it now as it was built around Halo2. Without Halo 2, we wouldn’t be as advanced as what we were then or at that time. We have a lot to thank Halo 2 in the background even if you were not a Halo fan… you have a lot to be thankful for!!! Halo2 servers had the biggest following vs other games like Mech Assault or any sports game… the Lobbies in Halo were top notch and after a game it didn’t disconnect you and throw you outta the lobby like it did like Mech Assault 2 did (which was a pain in the ass, cause if you didn’t write down the Gamertag of the person you liked or got along with you had no way of finding who you were in the lobby and gaming with but in Halo 2 you could carry over from one game to another [which was nice]). For me personally, Halo held a special meaning to me and I wanted to play some more games with friends a few more times for old times sales. So that’s why I played and didn’t want to put down the controller… 🎮
This is a topic I've thought a lot about recently, I love that you brought up Undertale as its mechanics are so fresh and unique, great video as always Judge man
When I was young and friends be it online ones or IRL stopped playing a game or the game when offline permanently I would get sad for awhile but then as time went on I began to realize something which is what this video (I believe) is getting at: Games that you can't experience again be it because they were multiplayer and the servers are gone or they are single player games the reality is you can never experience the same game for the first time again, ever... but that's okay. That's not a bad thing at all. What I've realized is that the sadness we all feel when we finish a game or the servers go offline is we wish we could experience it all over again and get sad because of that but we shouldn't dwell in that sadness. The reason you are sad at all is because it was something so special to you that not being able to relive it again or experience it with a clean memory having never played it before. Really if you want to you can take this idea and extrapolate it to real life with friends and family or pets. When someone passes away or moves away, you lose contact or fall out of touch, etc. It is such a gut punching feeling. Maybe I'm not the best at handling grief but the way I've always told myself to look at these types of losses is that I shouldn't get sad and sulk and get depressed that they are no longer around. Rather, I should be eternally grateful that I had them in my life and cherish the memories I have of them. Don't get me wrong it's not that I don't cry or feel sad when I lose a friend or family member or pet, I do and a lot. However I know myself well enough to know that I could very easily fall into a downward spiral of regret, wishing I could go back in the past and hang out with them again and be around them more. Same thing applies to games. One of my favorite games in the past 10 years was a game called CrossCode. When I finished it I was very very sad and cried a bit because I didn't want the good times to stop. I wanted to keep going and to keep enjoying my time with the game. The moral of the story is: Cherish your time with whatever or whoever you are spending it with. It's okay to feel grief and sadness when it's over as all things eventually come to an end, but do not dwell on/in your sadness. Genuinely be extremely grateful and eternally happy that you got to spend the time in that game or with that person. Think about how much fun you had and all the different experiences and emotions you felt and memories you've kept with you. The sadness you feel when good things end is BECAUSE they were good things and meant a lot to you. There was a period of time where I legit felt incredibly depressed and alone when all my friends slowly stopped playing Xbox Live and I switched to PC. Eventually I realized that I was approaching my grieving of the situation all wrong. I shouldn't be sad that it's over -- I should be eternally grateful that I was lucky enough to spend my time surrounded by amazing friends who gave my thousands and thousands of hours of laughter and hilarious memories. I remember so many good times playing Halo 3 custom games with my friend Darius (if there's some strange world where you see this, hope you're living your best life buddy - my ID was sneakysnake/poisonous zero n we used to play Halo 3/reach/COD MW2 on Xbox 360) along with a ton others that for some reason my brain right now cannot name, but I've never forgotten the experiences I had with them and the time we shared. Cherish your friends and the time you get to spend with them, take nothing for granted and don't dwell too long when things eventually come to an end. Don't be sad that it's over, smile because it happened.
Halo: Reach was the first game to give me a more existential view of the world and everything else. It was going through the stages of grief without having lost a person. This video has reignited that feeling of "I'm only here for so long, and I shouldn't be scared of the end cause then I'll only waste my time worried about something I can't control". This video means a lot, and I know I'm not the only one who sees the beauty in dark subjects like this.
Honestly, this is the closest a video essay has been to being perfect in my eyes. Only thing it’s missing is a mention of Outer Wilds. You should really play that game if you haven’t done so yet.
Check out Jacob Geller. Has the same vibe as this dude in the way he delivers the information. Always good to double up on essay sources bc they take a long time to make 😜
The legends that are the Noble 14. I think as the internet/gaming becomes older and game archivists' fight becomes more difficult as copyright, ownership, and corporate bs gets more complicated, their story will ring closer and closer to home for a lot of folks
I was just thinking about that.. About how.. that same story plays out in microscopic ways over and over again and will continue until something breaks.
Miss Halo Reach a whole lot. Me and my cousin played back when I was 4 until I was 13, we wish we could go back. Lone Wolf was such a great mission, too. A worthy end for Bungie’s Halo.
Me(7) and my brother(11) at the time were soo confused and thought we were doing something wrong in that mission. We both shared the controller to see who can last find the way out of that death zone, but then we realized that it must be time-based on survival. So we both shared again to see how long we will both survive. No matter how long we survived we always ended up seeing the same cutscene at the end. Then we realized, this is it. This is how the game ends. There is nothing further, but a downfall of your crew dying and eventually you at the end of it all. This game will always be on my list of best games I played and had the most fun.
@@ethanshenk2058 Yea but 343 changed it. Campaign wise yea its fine, but online multiplayer is a shell of what it once was. Even when Reach servers were active once Bungie dropped the IP, they made changes for the worse. Idk if you remember TU Slayer, but that marked the beginning of their reign with bleedthrough shield damage. They changed the mechanics of a wildly popular game and wonder why it failed once they took over. You can't vote on maps, they dont cycle the old maps enough and you're forced to play on their newer ones that are terrible, they have the bleedthrough damage, spawning with a DMR and pistol is asinine vs AR and pistol because teams can focus fire kill anyone instantly. They took away creative and fun arcade style game modes in Action Sack and changed it to be king of the kill or capture the flag. They just never understood who the fanbase was/is. So yes, you can go play it again, but it's not the same game.
Horizon Zero Dawn was one of those games for me. It does such a great job at slowly working you into what happened, and at the end you're just numb by all the things you can't change.
Some of what you described is how I feel exploring dead Minecraft servers, still clinging until the unpaid fees finally end them for good. Same with once-bustling survival servers now housing a small, dedicated playerbase. It's very melancholy looking at everything done, everything lost, and acknowledging the things I will never see. There's a heartwarming melancholy saying goodbye to things left behind, and knowing that someone somewhere remembers them for the beautiful works of creativity they were.
Mineplex going down earlier this year hit me really hard. I have tons of memories on that server, and the reality that its time was limited had never really occurred to me before the server was gone forever. Now all I have left is Hypixel, but that will inevitably die someday as well. Online games cost money to keep up and running and, because of this, every single one has a limited lifespan. Fortnite, rocket league, apex, hypixel, etc. all have a ticking clock. Some day it will no longer be viable to keep the servers running and all those games will become nothing but memories.
There used to be a minigame called Dwarves Vs Zombies. It used to feel *huge* . Then, the main dev had arguments with other devs, they went a little insane, and it died. Eventually, without the main server, recieving updates and the like, all the spinoff servers died. There have been times I visited the old spinoff servers, and it's just empty. Games which used to host well over 20+ people, now with one. Some servers eventuallly downsized to one minigame, usually not DvZ. Some became creative plot servers. All are barren. The last sentence isn't entirely true, of course, there *is* a small community organising games weekly, but you have to search to find it.
I loved this video. It hit a lot of my childhood games and then continued to hit games of my teenage and adult life. It's sort of forced me to realise how in over our heads we are sometimes and how just like things In real life games can be shut down. They can't all last forever. Sometimes we can just sit in a room full of friends or even family and talk about the good ol' times and what we miss. I love this vid man keep up the good work
This is one of the best, soul wrenching yet mesmerizing video essays i have watched in a very long time. Absolute masterclass. Thank you for this, truly.
Dude, this video actually made me feel hella emotional. It triggered so many feelings, memories and just make me think about so much. What a masterpiece of a video.
"These experiences we had cannot be changed or forgotten; time will always march forward, and as distant as those memories get, those foggy but unforgettable moments, they'll always be a part of you, for better, or for worse." This hits hard.
Halo Reach is in my top 3 games of all time, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve replayed it But no matter how many campaigns I’ve beaten, or how many more. No matter how many skulls or challenges I play with. I can never recreate the first, learning that you can’t win, learning that everyone dies was such a gut punch the first time, and now that I know I can never relive that
The antidote to this sort of backward-looking melancholy is novelty. I don't grieve the loss of my ability to experience great things for the first time ever again, because I know that there are countless other first time experiences still waiting for me, some of which will be as spectacular as anything I've ever seen. A life filled with novelty is a life well lived.
I am so very blessed by the simple ability to remember and perfectly emulate the feelings of the first time I did anything. The first time I beat Reach, my entire body shuddered, and so it has every single time afterward. When I completed Shadow of the Colossus for the first time I cried as the beautiful, beautiful music played and those credits rolled, and so I do, every single time. After my mother passed away, I went to my father and told him 'I can't even remember what she looked like from memory' and we wept, and now, years and years later, I can remember that moment and cry just the same. I only wish everyone were able to remember so clearly, physically, mentally, and spiritually.
True, but at the end of your life, there are no more new experiences and all you are left with are memories. Without preserving the past, no one would even know what you are talking about when that time comes.
Depression often makes me think of these moments in time and feel sad that I can't relive them. Makes me feel like there's no point to doing anything, simply because in the end, it won't matter. Watching videos like this remind me that I shouldn't be sad just because I can't do it again, but that I should be glad I did them at all. Thanks for reminding me that everything ends, and that I should just be happy to be apart of something so large.
There is nothing called depression it's a term for ppl who don't wanna work so they say '' i have depression so i can't work'' but they don't have it :)
This invokes haunting nostalgia. I had such a close group of friends that I met online and played games with between 1999 and 2003 while we were all in college and/or recently graduated. We met up a few times a year for LAN parties, and traversed into IRL friends. As jobs, marriages, and children became life priorities, and death had its way as well, we all wandered away from the playgrounds where we fought together, and the IRC channel where we convened in the meantime. The LAN parties had dwindled as well. I still fire up a few of the games occasionally and find that the games aren't much without those people. I have been longing for that time of my life for twenty years. Of course, as cliche' as it is, I didn't know that would be one of the most memorable times of my life while I was in it. And I know that I will never have that feeling again.
I know people hate to hear, "be happy that it happened, not sad that it's over", but it's true. I lost my mom when I was a kid (18) and then I was alone in the world and it took me a long time to come to terms with what I had no control over, but when I did I finally understood that saying. No one truly knows what's after all of this (life) they can say they do but no one can prove it so there has to be even the faintest amount of doubt involved. We do know we're on a floating rock in the middle of a universe that is beyond our comprehension in size, just 100 years ago video games were not even a thought in people's minds, and by some luck (seriously what are the odds we are sitting here today after billions of years in the making) we were all born at a time when we could experience these things... Be happy that it even happened. ❤
@@AzuriteGaming But that is the point. Everyone moves on in life. It's not the same if it happened today. Even if you did magically manage to re-assemble the avengers after 20 years. The conversations would all be about family and job and other strains of life. The blissful innocence of the late teens or early twenties is gone and the experience would feel hollow. Some things are best left in the past and while we can long to have that experience again we truly know that that can't happen and that is ok. There are new experiences and adventures to be had.
This is a really good video in its own right, but I also want to just say how cool it is that music from games like Celeste and Undertale has become standard fare for UA-camrs who need background music for their videos
I think a line Chara gives you at the end of a 2nd Geno run puts it perfectly. "You are wracked with a perverted sentimentality. I cannot understand these feelings anymore." Many experiences I will never be able to relive, only capable of reexperiencing them vicariously through other peoples' playthroughs. I loved these experiences, and part of me always wants to feel them again, no matter the path, but it wouldn't be the same. Great video.
i know this is basically what the video said but good but when i watched this, i felt the kind of sadness you get from looking at something nostalgic and remembering the good times you had then, and knowing you’ll never be able to experience that joy again, but also being happy that those memories even happened he did a really good job on this
Honestly it's crazy it seems like its a bunch of people feeling the same way. I miss how I used to play Halo 3 over again, I had fun playing the missions splitscreen and messing with the ragdoll physics. Collecting skulls...Then other games like minecraft, I remember when the hunger bar was added, and Herobrine was still kind of a thing. The first time I played borderlands 2, before they patched a bunch of the fun glitches. The old community servers I would join on black ops 1 multiplayer, and the lobby was just lively. I remember being so excited to get home and play zombies. The Richtofen easter egg line was so cool to follow up on during Treyarch's reign. Man golden age of gaming is over it seems. Now games have no atmosphere, or character. Alot of games use the exact same graphics and textures it seems. I remember when older games had an artistic look to the textures, the music, everything. I feel like now games have become like a fast food product, no one really cares about creating an experience but just creating something for people to buy until they can suck it dry...at this point im just ranting but man I miss when I would be excited to play and now most games I try to play now just feel empty. Cod4, CodMW2, WaW, Bo1, Halo 3, Halo 3 odst, Far Cry 2, Assassins creed 2 and brotherhood, Fallout 3, New Vegas, Skyrim, Oblivion, Borderlands 2, Halo wars, Battlefield 1942, Mafia 2, Garry's mod, Half life 2, Team Fortress 2....the Valve games, Bungie games and earlier CoD games were some of the best games I remember playing when I was younger. Other's I wish I had played sooner than I have, because when I was younger I was so bored and not allowed to leave home to hang out with friends that I had to play video games constantly. Now that I'm older I dont have so much time, and Im playing games I never got to play as a kid because they didn't look interesting at the time. So many regrets on moments I probably missed out on.
4:17 the Culling was literally one if my favorite multiplayer games of all time. Im literally dying inside now that you mentioned it, just remembering how amazing and unique it was
This video reminded me why I love videogames ever since I was a little kid. They let you live thousands of different lives, have millions of different experiences, you can do things not even you could dream of, you meet people you never thought even existed, because all those characters in your favourite videogame were created, were designed, were given life by somebody else, just like you. Definitely more than "just a videogame".
You explained the feeling of grievance to the absolute perfect degree. This is exactly how I felt when LBP2 online servers had to be cut off, knowing that I’d no longer be able to have slap battles with my friends, stay in the pod for HOURS to simply decorate it, create stupid, goofy costumes and levels with with them. It was a realization that my childhood game, the game that has pretty much shaped me into the person I am today was gone. It felt barren. People were still online, sure. But you could only play by yourself, and realizing that option of “Diving In” with a random person has suddenly dissipated, that ruined me. I miss the Little Big Planet franchise with every fiber in my body, but I’m getting older, and those memories will always stick with me. It’s time to move on 💗
Oh my god Little Big Planet 2 was so fun for me, meeting random people was pretty enjoyable, even when I came across literal bullies I found it amusing. The fact you can dress up your character, be the character you want to be was really cool. I came across so many people on Little Big Planet 2, playing that hide and seek level/game that was made. Their was a classic Jeff The Killer survival game. That other survival game where you gotta dodge the bombs. Also messing around with the AI within story mode and putting stickers all over them. I could go on and on about Little Big Planet 2 and 3, I feel like they should do a re-release of the 2nd game for both Ps4 and Ps5. I know the 3rd is still up I believe for the Ps4 and 5 but for some reason I enjoyed the 2nd game the most.
Man this hurt me. My brother and I loved Little Big Planet and especially Little Big Planet 2. They were our childhoods. Part of me died when I learned that the servers went offline.
the feeling this video gave me was something i wasn't expecting. it was honest, cut throat and makes me think that the passing of time is the only challenge we seek to over come. life is so strange. truly awesome video.
This actually made me cry. I think everybody who enjoys video games knows that nothing can ever begin again. But man it stings. I’ve long stood by the idea that the mark of a good video game is an emotional farewell; that the ending means something. If you want to go back and experience the magic anew, then it was something worth playing. But nothing can ever begin again.
As someone who knows that I can never experience the masterpiece of a franchise that was the mass effect trilogy for the first time again, I feel this. I would give up some of my most treasured moments of gaming just to be able to join Shepard and the crew of the Normandy on their mission for the first time all over again. Encountering sovereign for the first time… Seeing the citadel for the first time… The moral debacle you must make on virmire for the first time… Discovering the truth of the protheian extinction for the first time… The list goes on. I will never get that experience back, and for that I must remind myself that I shouldn’t be sad because it’s over, I should be enjoyed because I got to experience it to begin with at all. The human psyche is truly fascinating our fascination of reminiscing about experiences we had for the first time, and our struggle in vain to recapture those moments.
15:36 "...after all, what's more human than being irrational." man that's deep. I've always thought of humans as striving to be the most rational creatures, but we hold on to things for irrational reasons. Great video.
It's less about playing them, but about feeling the way you did at the time, the raw first experiences, the people you met, the community you interacted with. Ill never forget those fleeting moments of memory that come to mind when I look back on those days as a teenager playing H3 and HReach.
Being there when the servers shut down for the final time on a game can be a really bitter experience. Looking up at the pulsing red moon as the server messages counted down to the final shutdown before we were shown the cutscene of Dalamud's fall and the first time we heard Answers was an experience. And there we knew that the game would come back, that our time spent in Eorzea would carry forward to FFXIV: ARR. Conversely, I was new to City of Heroes when it got shut down, but I could feel the palpable sorrow of other players trying desperately to create a few final memories just before the plug was pulled. That one didn't hit me personally as hard as FFXIV shutting down because I didn't have the investment, but it was far more final. Even as a fairly new player when it happened, I found myself trying to get out to places I had never had a chance to go to because I would never get another chance to see them.
So glad you talked about One Chance!! I remember being so desperate to try again as a kid that I was downloading different browsers just to get another chance
"What's more human than being irrational?" sounds the foundation of a great philosopher's legacy. That question is actually fucking me up more than anything I've ever heard in the context of gaming. This video (especially the outro) just kicked my ass. I gotta think about it so I can start healing from it. This video is a masterpiece. I subbed, and the bell is on.
god fucking damn this was such a good video. I tapped this thinking "man I like halo reach I wonder what they talk about" and holy shit. I am actually in tears. The way you threaded your words seamlessly into the visuals and explaining these things hit me in a way I don't know how to explain. Thank you
What a gem it is to randomly come across this channel. Long I've waited or stumbled upon another channel that incorporates philosophical themes to video games and/or other mediums or art forms. I first saw this video on my feed around 3-4 days ago and I resonate with the style of your essays, atmosphere, and presentation. After watching this and "Why is the Out of Bounds so Terrifying?" I must say this is becoming or already is one channel I am biased towards. I have always liked introspective, reflective, and philosophical or abstract thinking. The eloquence of the writing, the amount of research and the tying of concepts to relatable experiences is just marvelous! Props to a new subscription, may your efforts and art bear more fruits.
Great video. It really expresses the feeling I have all the time and something I've said for years about different games. "I wish I could play Undertale for the first time again." There truly is something special about video games and the experiences and social interactions they facilitate. It's magical.
Things I have learned from the comments:
1. Outer Wilds covers much of the same topic.
2. OneShot covers much of the same topic.
3. OneShot is the game that has that cat creature I see everywhere.
4. I made a LOT of people cry
That "cat lady" (Niko) has no canonical gender, like Frisk and Chara from undertale
It may sounds like asking too much but... play Outer Wilds. It's just... that kinda of game you wish you could forget everything about just to play it again and relieve those moments.
This video made me go through a nostalgic crisis
@@Aeonsteel I'm sure that cat lady appreciates this
Outer wilds is easily one of the best games I’ve ever played, I wish I could forget everything about it and play through it for the first time again. Your only limit in the game is your own knowledge
that parallel of the last mission of reach to the theme of the video is inspired film making 10/10
I appreciate it Weyln, I remember watching your Rust stuff when you first blew up and I found your channel again recently, it's cool to see you.
the goat just commented on such a peak video
wait wtf do u remember playing with a random kid on a rust server like 7 years ago? had a big ass rock in the snow completely walled off on the inside of the rock. i remember you showing me your channel back then at like 1k subs. con fucking grats on blowing up dude not sure how i never realized.
Welyn! I love your content, it's what made me appreciate great commentary like this
wot u doin ere mate good ta see ya
Two quotes from Satoru Iwata before he passed away “If I could start over, I wouldn’t change a thing.” “No part of my experience has been a waste of time”
Damn, serious Raoh energy. "Of this life, I've not a single regret!"
Okay?
"but in my heart... I am a gamer". Said at a time when gamers were stigmatized and demonized by the entire mainstream political and media establishment.
" If I start my life over again, it's bad for one life time, but I don't start my life over again, it's bad forever." - Iwata
satoru gojo
I was expecting a generic list.
I was not expecting an incredibly sad, melancholic, nostalgic, somehow eye-opening and genuinely emotional experience.
I've never seen your channel before, and I wasn't subscribed...
...I am now, because this was fucking amazing.
same af.
Viewer: How depressing is your next video on games going to be?
The Cursed Judge: Yes
Yes, this was a different kind of experience...
I fucking agree
R.I.P Strikeforce
“Spartans never die, they're just missing in action”
Another words their dead
@@ClimberinChrist *in other words
@@redvalens8861also they’re*
At this point, they are dead like the franchise that 343 made sure to try and kill off
No, they're dead...😢
"Whats more human than being irrational" that line hit me hard
I’m a word freak, and that line is phenomenal
Because you're also genZ and now you're gonna put that in a tiktok
@@solmoman woah dude he just was giving away how he felt lol
@@solmoman that is gen alpha
Why did that line strike you the way it did?
I say being rational is more human; it’s what separates us from other animals
Halo Reach actually changed my brain chemistry soo much. I don't think there is any game that is like it.
It's my favorite game of all time, I actually made a video like 3 years talking about it, but it's unlisted.
Three words, Red dead redemption.
@@TheCursedJudge where linkie
@@BIGNUGGET5434Red Dead Redemption 2
It made me cry ngl
As I heard the words "Obsessed with undertale as a kid" it became clear to me that I'm a fairly old man.
I still recognized it as a, maybe not new, but definitely not as an old game. So I googled it and it dawned on me that this game is nearly 8 years old.
I'm 29, I think being on the internet kind of makes this seem much older because we are now surrounded by kids online, the reality is that we are not really old, not truly old, we don't even know what that feels like yet, but we have an artificial sense of being ancient because we are always interacting with people we normally wouldn't have due to the age gap
Hearing that line I automatically assumed Undertale was a rerelease or remake from a 90s game and the guy in the video played the old version as a kid. Only when I read the comments it became clear he was definitely referring to a game that, to me, did not release that long ago. I still can't wrap my head around how someone was "a kid" a few years ago and now making youtube documentaries.
Undertale came out when I was 16
I think what´s also weird is that he talks about halo 2 like he was there.
@@aduantas i'm 22 and feel the same. My Steam account is going to be a decade old soon, and although that's not quite half my life (made it when i was almost 14), i still feel like an old man for having a near-decade old Steam account.
and granted, some people have had it since Steam launched almost 20 years ago.... but i'm not one of those.
The Halo 2 story was the most bittersweet. Before voice chat or typing were introduced to HALO, let alone consoles, the only way anyone could "communicate" was through moving around, rotating, or shooting at something.
The final two players that remained, despite not being able to talk or text, seemed to feel some kind of kinship. That clip you showed where they were the only two players left? They looked like they were doing the bro hug.
Then the clip where the last guy was running around. Just running around, not shooting anyone, not competing or cooperating. The last player on a dead server.
...I bet ApacheEnforcer felt like he was stuck in Purgatory.
"As someone who was desperately obsessed with Undertale as a kid"
Jesus I'm getting old
As someone who was playing Donkey Kong Country as a kid, same
Insane how time works. This line stood out to me more than the whole essay.
To me, Undertale is another game in my backlog that I bought "a couple years ago" and I'll get around to playing any day now.
Undertale was released less than 8 years ago. There is no "was" here. This dude either wasn't a kid then or he is still a kid now.
@@Zartanyus 8 years is only 2 years away from being a decade. Someone who was 15 years old then is 23 now.
"It's a brutally depressing experience, where nothing you do can erase the mistake you made and every option gives you a sliver of the life you had before. The world around you is dead, no matter whether you survive or not." Is high praise 🙏
Thanks for remembering my dumb little flash game ❤
It genuinely is such a unique game and you did wonderfully with it ❤
DUMB? Nah man, you’re a legend. I love your game! It’s a beauty!
I remember getting recommended that game by a Vsauce video and I still stand by my decision to work in the lab every day. Your use of permanence was very novel and I have huge kudos for the vision of the game.
OH SHI- It's you! Hahaha man your game was a rollercoaster of emotions, thanks for making it 👍👍
I remember watching Letsplays of it! I’d say it influenced Indie gaming, and the story was great! 💗
Oh man, I remember when we were all trying to stay on the Halo 2 servers as long as possible. Thank you for the trip down Memory Lane.
Walshy the 🐐
R3AP3R117 was there
I was level 50 in swat MLG. I still have the same account but no proof of my rank. sad.
There's a philosophy in game making. Games must be places of joy. And keeping players there for any other reasons would makem places of boredom. You were playing for no joy.
@@aleyzeeo-aleyzee2101huh?
I was expecting some lighthearted "oh these are lost games you cant find anywhere", not an emotional video essay about permanence and determination and what it means to be human. thank you for making this, its genuinely so beautiful
Nagger
I still remember dying for the first time on “Lone Wolf”. I kept expecting the objective to update, but it never did. As soon as I saw the special cutscene I knew what it really meant. Felt like I had my heart ripped out. Hurt having reality set in
The original Halo trilogy contained Christian themes in its lore. Can the Covenant be forgiven for the war they started?
Did anyone ever find a way to trick that into rolling credits without you actually dying? Star Ocean 2 and FF7: Crisis Core had 'unwinnable' battles that you could glitch the game into going past... you still lose as far as the game is concerned of course.
@@Mark-in8ju I honestly liked the religious symbolisms and themes in Halo. Sure it could be taken multiple ways, but I feel like it added a lot more depth to the lore.
Spartans never die, they're just missing in action.
@@congruentcrib I agree
A game that would've fit perfectly into this video is OneShot, as the entire game's permise revolves around the idea that you only have one try of completing the main charachters goal (hence the name OneShot, as in you only have one shot). Even though the version on Steam does have a "secret" ending after your initial first playthrough, after completing the game for a second time, it will lock you out of playing it ever again.
[SPOILER WARNING!]
It doesn't really lock you out, you can play again, but instead of Niko, you play as TWM who is posing AS Niko. But it will never be the same, because you know what happens next and what will occur. Oneshot is magical for its ability to make you realize, that you can only really play once. Even when you are replaying, it isn't the same, because you know everything.
@@Ver0Epsilon True, I forgot about that. As you said, OneShot plays a lot more with the idea of the player only having one "true" playthrough than other games.
I almost didn't watch the video because I'm dodging spoilers for that game and was certain it would be here.
@@masterboa6321 dont go anywhere Oneshot related, I spoiled myself the beginning, and it was boring and pred8ctsble, cause i knew what to do. I hate spoilers, everyone does. For your enjoyment, please dont read my previous reply.
@@Ver0Epsilon The original OneShot (not the steam version) was special, if you close this game, Niko is DEAD, with nothing you can do to undo it...
almost made me burst into tears lmao. been dealing with the whole "nothing lasts forever, time won't slow down for you, stop living in the past" kind of vibe lately, and this video just really nails that feeling. It's a bittersweet feeling for sure but god damn, if it isn't human to feel this way!!
Then I won't watch it. I feel bad just reading comments about how Pokemon was never good and the like. I doubt I'd be able to handle watching this video, even though I'm pretty sure the only game I recognize (I skimmed through the preview that shows up when you hover over the bar) is Undertale.
Then I recommend you play Xenoblade Chronicles 3, it plays into that theme beatifully
Stop being so uplifting, you're making me teary eyed lol
In the christmas of 1995 my parents bought me and my brothers a playstation. They did not buy us any games for it because it was too expensive, we simply had the developer disc that game with it. I was a little kid but I remember seeing it boot up the first time. I remember the game "Battle Arena Toshinden" and how when we saw the 3d characters for the first time, we all lost our minds. It was so real. Each attack, he combo, felt like we were watching a live action movie. We can never have that exact same experience again. If I went back in time to that moment, I already experienced it once so I can't really have that exact same moment.
There is something amazing about reading a book for a first time, seeing a movie, listening to a song, playing a game, just experiencing something the first time. I envy those who get to have those moments again. I ran a D&D game for some younger kids back some years ago, tried real hard to make a whimsy fun game with memorable characters. I remember the look on their faces when I introduced a silly bird NPC. They hadn't gotten to experience something like this before. They are all adults now and no doubt have had better written stories given to them. But I am sure they still remember that first time.
My old elementary school was torn down, you can never walk those old halls. Many of my favorite restaurants growing up have gone out of business. This applies to so many things. Time marches on, the things we love disappear sometimes as well. You never know when something you do, will be the last time you do it, or someone you talk to you never speak to again. Time marches on. It's sad, but at the same time it's what makes it so special. You should always try to appreciate what you can for that reason. "Transient guests are we..."
The scary thing is millions of people have come before us, living all sorts of lives in different time periods. They are all gone, with the most famous just text in history books. Millions more will come after us too. Life will move on even from us and our world. The change never stops even if we wish it didn't. Everything has it's day, then it's over.
Like tears in rain
What did you think of Tekken 3?
the things that leave our life makes space for better things to come
I was expecting a trivia video about games that can't play anymore, but instead received a philosophical discussion about time, about life is ephemeral and how we can't just fight it, no matter how hard we try.
Well done
That's just not true, life expectancy keeps growing and immortality will eventually be a thing if we don't destroy ourselves first.
I love how you tied the Halo 2 server story with Halo Reach’s Lone Wolf mission. Insanely poetic
Was that what they were going for with the mission?
@@v.rokumonsen9338 nah, couldnt be bro. Game was done by then. Cool that Bungie left the lights on til the last person left, so to say.
@@v.rokumonsen9338 not it, it tied well, but they didn't have that in mind
This video is pure nostalgia, and not just because it talks about games that are no longer, but because it managed to put me in a mood I haven't experienced for years, I don't even know how to describe it, it's a weird mix of existential dread, inspiration and pure focus on the here and now while also thinking about the past. You truly managed to transport my mind to a place I haven't visited in a long time, it's been a while since a piece of media captivated my attention to the point where it felt 10x longer than it actually was, and even now that it's finished I'm still actively thinking about it an hour later. Bravo.
@@RobotronSage This reads like satire. On the off chance you're serious, there's an important point you're seeming to intentionally miss.
The community and atmosphere of Halo 2 being mainstream, easily accessible without 3rd party software, and feeling completely alive knowing everyone at school most likely had an account and also played is what truly "died."
Let's consider the Mega Man battle network legacy collection that is about to release in April. Why am I going to spend $60 on it, even though the roms are readily available for free? Because of accessibility and an actual online community that will breathe life into a niche series. Being able to queue up against and trade chips with an actual online community as opposed to some niche circle in a discord is a night and day gaming experience.
You as an enthusiast yourself must surely know what I mean when you give your pitch to normal people about the preserved classics.
If it's not on Steam, Epic, PS5, Xbox, Switch, BNET, etc. no one is going to care about playing it or taking the admittedly tedious route of emulating and connecting with people.
These preserved classics typically rely on P2P and never have dedicated servers, or any of the updates and features / DLC / patches that come with a game actually being kept alive by the company itself.
What you're describing exists, but it's just not comparable unfortunately. I've went down that route with Dolphin/ Slippi with Melee for gamecube and Project M. There was a community of like maybe 200 people globally because millions of people instead were playing Ultimate on the Switch.
@@RobotronSage talks about gamers but plays pinball 😤 smh
@@RobotronSage Maybe lay off the crack for a while, nothing in this life lasts forever, you can preserve games as much as you want, one day no one will care as everyone will have moved on to newer things.
Things change, it's inevitable, and there's no point in staying attached to the past, this has nothing to do with corporate propaganda, it's just a fact of life, you have to learn to move on a let the past be.
If you really care that much about old games, the best you can do is remake them with current technology as this will breathe new life into them and a new generation of gamers will get to experience them.
@ribcut well said!
@@RobotronSage you're wrong and you should feel bad
9:43
the way to replay one chance is by playing it in incognito
and then when you beat it close the incognito window and then open another one
your progress wont be saved and you can play again
When I was a kid I had to convince my mom Halo reach wasn’t violent because it was alien blood… if only she knew, one of the best and most memorable experiences in my life
On the Arbiter missions, it was MY mission to paint entire rooms with my friendlies' lovely blue blood 😂😥
Lmaoo I had to do the exact same thing, good times
Can’t you tell her?
ah he took the "its only aliens" route
I was at a friend's house and he just got halo, his mom heard Johnson say shit then kicked everyone out the house and beat his ass. Lol
Halo Reach has one of the best endings in video game history to me. The ending to that game is so amazing while being something that is ultimately depressing at the same time. The thrill ride that that story is, is found basically nowhere else in gaming. It's one of those games that I wish I could entirely forget to replay again because I want to experience it again for the first time.
Oh boy lemme tell you about FF crisis core which basically has the same ending as reach
@@MILDMONSTER1234 I tried so many times to survive and hope there was a beatable outcome to crises core only for it to be hopeless. Great memories I wish I could do again for the first time. Over 15 years later its still as memorable as ever. Rip Zack
Halo Reach is the most recent game I played to the credits a few weeks ago.
So the feels and everything about it is still fresh and boy did it hit me hard.
Such an amazing merging of gameplay and storytelling.
A couple weeks ago, I played through Reach for the first time ever. Fantastic game, though I wish it was a little longer.
We are emotional junkies.
I havent cried in two years but this video has me tearing up on the brink of crying as the last points you made in the video about our memories never being changed or altered hit me hard since my brother died in a fatal car accident and one of my fondest memories i have is of me and him playing halo 3 together, even though he always demolished me in that game i always loved playing it with him and after his death ive never found as much joy in my life as i did when he was still here. To this day i still have his xbox 360 and the same exact game disk we played together on which i clean frequently so that when im feeling sad or lonely i can play it and explore the worlds we made together in forge and get a rush of memories that always brightens my day even when it comes with a sense of mourning. Words cant describe how touched i am by this video
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Awwwww now Im crying🥹🥹
That is a beautiful story
My condolences and I wish you the best❤❤
And remember, Spartans never die they just go missing in action❤
I'm sorry about your brother. Glad you can somewhat be happy with the memories and its so cool that you clean the disc every so often
Rest in peace bro
This comment is beautyful
goddam as someone with a constant fear of time and death, i was not expecting to relapse that fear in a yt video
this was beautiful though, despite showinf up a year late im happy to see this
"Goodbye To A World", by Porter Robinson, is a song that encapsulates that feeling of seeing the world of your favourite MMO, one you've spent countless hours in, disappear becasue the servers shut down. I think it's a beautiful song and I wholeheartedly recommend everyone listening to it.
Oh wow, I did not realize that song was genuinely inspired by the concept of MMO games being shut down. That's pretty dope. Extra cool because I associate that song with Undertale too lol
I heard this song a few years before my memory started remembering. (Which isn't saying much because I only started properly remembering like 3 years ago and I am 15 almost 16), but I used to sing "Lonely, I am so lonely, and it's the end of the world, don't blame yourself now" Because I didn't know the lyrics properly because of how much of a foggy memory the song was. But the first time I rediscovered it, I oddly felt like I had found an old part of myself again. This comment made me rediscover it a second time, and it yet again feels like finding old memories of me playing at the playground of the old daycare I went to, sitting on the bark pretending to sell ice-cream down under the slides in the wooden box. When all I had to worry about was if the girl I had a crush on liked me back and if my iron beads were heated properly so I could take it home. Those were good times. I don't have a good way to end this comment off properly so.. Thank you, genuinely, thank you :)
Have an amazing day and if times aren't looking up for you at the moment, it will get better, good job for sticking through it all. and if they are looking up, good job on playing your cards right. Signing off.
@@ICanHazRecon911I’m pretty sure it wasn’t actually supposed to be about MMOs. I think OP just interpreted it that way.
thank you, this reminded me of NFS World. i could only play it for a year as a kid because the servers shut down in 2015, but that game meant the world to me. i still remember the fireworks going off in free-roam exactly when the plug was pulled. me and tons of other people gathered up in that one spot, watching those fireworks, sending goodbyes in chat, reunited in this virtual final gasp of life... i couldn't not shed a tear.
i had dumped my profile beforehand, so i could play it offline, as such a project was announced before the shutdown. it did come to fruition eventually, and i could play my game again, albeit by my own. multiplayer was planned, so i kept waiting... until my old hard drive died 3 days before i wanted to back it up.
my profile, the last screenshot from the official servers, named "the end of the world.png", all gone.
true, the game did receive a fan-made revival a few years later, and i did play it extensively for some time... but that just wasn't the same. i was a different person by then. the memories did not fully match what i was playing.
i should not have opened that HDD that one day, maybe it was still possible to save it... well! thanks again, i guess i needed this.
I have that record, it's an amazing soundtrack
I was expecting you to mention the Outer Wilds. That's probably the first game where not being able to play it again hit me like a brick.
I know I can't ever truly re-experience it for the first time again.
But I admit I still revisit it. I still go flying around and looking at this strange, scary and yet wonderful solar system.
I've practically beaten the game 100%. But I still play it anywa6, cause I love it so much.
@@DeathAngel-ft8oz I've been thinking of giving this game a chance for quite a while now, and honestly? I probably will now. I've heard a lot of good stuff, heard some music, but I never touched it. In hope it's really as good as portrayed! ^^
the only literal version of this title
@@rxjsamira please do, it's a piece of beautiful art that each person can only experience once each lifetime.
@@rxjsamira probably the best game I ever experienced. Do not look up any information about it before playing.
incredible video, thank you
@Kmac2021 no u
AYY ITS KMAC! Good te see ye here lad!
holy shit where’ve you been?
Yo, where is guitar tip 4?
Hi Kmac2021 , how are you doign
the way this video is structured, scripted and thought out is absolutely incredible. my personal favorite video of all time. beautiful
I can't explain why, but this was soul crushing. Had a lot of good buddies from school that used to play halo. We All graduated, started families, and never spoke again.
Game of life 2.
contact them. just say hi. life is short.. just reach out.
everyone has gone through the same
It's called growing up, get over it.
@@prezidenttrump5171 lol k tough guy
You made me create a new playlist to save masterpiece videos like this to remind me why I love games so much. Thank you for making this!
Oh shit I didn't expect to see you here
Love your videos
There is one such video that i know of that can be called a masterpiece video - "The mystery of "MICHAELSOFT BINBOWS" by nick robinson. check it out if you havent already
@@jonathanwright108 same
Wild Insym spotted
My heart goes out to those players, who held on as long as they could.
thanks for making this video, it hit hard.
This hits so hard and so close to my gamer heart, thank you for making this poor soul happy saying goodbye to the nostalgia and hello to new beginnings
Every time I see Halo, it reminds me nothing is the same, and it can't be repeated. That was my friends' and I high school video game, and now I don't even know where my friends are...😢
Different time in our lives; its super weird now...
Fuck man. I miss my homies too.
Same with my buds I played GOW3 with online. Had our crew and had a lot of fun...no longer
Strange that in the presence of so many social media platforms (Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat) ... that people are as alone as ever.
@@RNAPolymerase Indeed.
This is the best video essay Ive seen in a minute
The soundtrack
The wording
The nostalgia..
10/10
Check out kaptainkristian hands down makes the best ones
Holy crap. This video actually made me quite emotional. How most people would see the last matches as survival, it was actually a labor of love for so many. Truly inspiring thank you
Glad to see I'm not the only one
Excellent video. You've captured something intangible in this work of art my friend
Your thoughts about Halo and undertale are Awesome.
Undertale for a long time had a really bizarre feel about it. There's the bright side with all the quirky characters, jokes, and happy endings, but then there's this crushing feeling of repetition and hopelessness. The characters are stuck in a loop and you're perpetuating it. On top of that, it does an effective job at commenting about player agency, and how players slowly realize what Flowey really means as a character.
One day I wanna make a video just gushing all about Undertale, there is so much to that game
@@TheCursedJudge Then the only rational thing for me to do is subscribe and wait
Your channel is great
Somtimes I think I'm the only person who just despises Undertale
@ChipTheOtter you are. There is no reason to hate it with the exception of the fanbase. Its truly a masterwork in player centered story telling.
@@Milkmangood58 I wish it were so
This made me look back at the last 22 years of gaming. 22 years of fun, friends, and game after game. Some we’ll never get back again, others will live forever. But this point that you’ll never get that first feeling again, you’ll never be a kid after school at a buddies house again. Time moves on, but the memories are forever
Until you forget or all who could remember are dead.
No one can beat time. At the end of the road even memories fade away.
We only have our actions and what we left behind weather it be bad or good. Though no one will remember a whisper of it in a century. It doesn't mean that they had no impact.
I needed this thank you Jack
Wow, wise words…
@@dr.dreamer8914 my cod2 highlight reels will live on foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Today I finally completed the 100% of Super Mario Galaxy, a game I have played since I was a kid. Now I have watched your video and I'm crying remembering all the moments I lived playing it, how I struggled with the first boss and the satisfaction when I beat it, the first time I heard Gusty Garden Galaxy... Even if it's sad to think that I will never experience that for the first time, I'm happy it happened. Thank you so much.
If I had to choose, that's probably my favourite game, and I don't even really play consoles. A great game, for me, is one that you can re-play and still get some satisfaction out of. OK, you know the plot twist and what will happen at the end, but I still get a good deal of satisfaction seeing it all play out again. Same goes for other media: if I can't re-watch a film (or read a book for that matter) and still get at least some satisfaction about how the story is told, then it's not a good film for me.
Every time I watch this video I cry. It is such a deep dive into the meaning of life. Thank you for making me reflect on everything
Going through abandoned VR Chat worlds gives me those same feelings you mentioned in the end. Especially if they have pictures of the people that used to play there on the walls. Who were they? What made them leave? Are they even still alive? Doesn't matter, all that's left are their memories.
I took videos of my gameplay on those abandoned worlds, its hard to watch them when they were full of players and a younger me behind the headset.
As a fellow VRC player, I cry looking back at all the photos I've taken. knowing so many beautiful people and even meeting a lot of them irl. it hurts knowing the inevitable, but it makes the memories made that much more bittersweet
you should try visiting historic places like pompeii THATS powerful
@@dabootvvI think Pompeii feels a little different because it isnt an instance that was loaded into reality for me and me alone.
Similar experience with abandoned second life sims
That was one hell of a video. I don't think I've ever had someone so perfectly summarize why video games in general are painful for me as I approach 30. I boot up games now and either they are the same thing I've already put 1000 hours into and can't possibly explore more, or they're unfamiliar and deeply unsatisfying because I have already experienced so many endless hours of incredible joy and curiosity. No matter what I do, every time I pick up a controller these days I am simply overcome with a deep sorrow and wistfulness for those careless summer days where I knew that my friends would come over, we'd boot up the latest obsession, and the hours would breeze by with unfettered joy. I find that emotion in other things these days, but after so many ups and downs for so much of my life, video games are just too emotional and embittering to enjoy anymore.
Bro I'm starting to feel you, it's all either too familiar or too foreign. I want something comfortable, but not something I've played a thousand times. By the time I played Halo Reach almost all enjoyment of it was lost on me. I didn't care about the story enough to continue, or the gameplay. I was confused how people could love it so much since I couldn't, but it was perhaps the burnout that ruined the game.
wow this touched me :') i hope that a game of some sort come round and that you and your friends can enjoy it together as the hours go by and endless joy comes through.
In my late 30s so I feel your longing for the games and types of games you miss & put time into. But, gaming as a hobby is just that. If you don't like the games your playing, try a different genre or platform/console. The back of games I have from even 3 years ago, is still in the teens. I find newness & enjoyment from top 10 games that are highly rated everywhere, by multiple sources. But, I don't let my hobby consume me. There's still lifting heavy objects and putting them down. Overall, my time is very limited these days...dang my kids and thier video games. 😅
Tldr; video games aren’t enjoyable and fun anymore so we should all find different hobbies to do until a new big hit comes out which is a low chance
Probably just a you issue
The last guy in Noble 14 when the other guy went off: Gentlemen... It has been a privilege playing with you
That hurts
They could still meet up in Halo 3, ODST, Reach and beyond if they shared gamer tags and added each other as friends.
I wasn't expecting something of this magnitude.
How eloquently put. How.. eloquently put.
I've seen most of these games. Loved them, too. You got yourself a new subscriber.
Take life as it comes, everyone.
Man flappy bird was hilarious, everyone was just confused when it was taken off the app store
I got the APK file if you want it
Very legit prob not a virus
Honestly I completely understand why he did it. It takes a big person to do something like that.
I remember some kid murdered a family member out of frustration and then a week after that it was off the app store, probably no relation but at the time I thought that was the reason the creator decided to take it down
@@leithfischer9431 no that was a fake story.
This was…incredible. It’s been so long since I felt what this video made me feel. 41 years old, sitting here with my dogs, listening to my wife talk in the phone, and just feeling memories flood my mind of Halo 2 matches, as my tears flood my eyes.
Go outside and touch grass
Ok boomer
Lmao
I swear as good as the comments are, the replies can be totally opposite and cringey as possible.
42 and I still have such a fond spot in my heart for halo 2 and then halo reach… unforgettable times and memories. I feel you brother 😢
The halo 2 story would have been even more wholesome if the last 2 players became friends and met in real life
they probably did
Were it so easy
@@blazetheplaneswalker you just unlocked a core memory with that line
😢
This isnt a fake reddit story..
I kinda needed this I think. Going through.. Dark stuff.
Just really latched on hard to Cyberpunk, I've never experienced what I would call true escapism from video games before, though there is no question I have missed out on a LOT of life due to video games.
I dont know how to describe it, I just want to jump back in but there is nothing left for me there. Just binge watched the anime again last night. Can't lay off the UA-cam videos about secrets, I'm sure that's why the video got recommended.
It's just, hard to not feel that characters... Don't exist. That they've never done something that wasn't written by somebody else. I'm almost 38, I feel absolutely ridiculous. But I just wish I could go back to the journey. The destination was death of that world.
"Whats more human than being irrational" this was an epic video. Im not crying, youre crying.
I read that at the same time he said it.
I almost did too.
"You're crying too!"
@Scott's Precious Little Account You've never looked at imaginary numbers then 😂
I couldn't even begin to imagine the emotional roller coaster the last player went through knowing once he was gone, it would be no more.
This "short" video felt like hours. It was a deep, heartwarming video that I will have a hard time finding anywhere else. Thank You!
It's a shame it wasn't hours
@@ApofKol it didnt need to be. It was beautiful as it is
Hey, wanted to start by saying that this video was awesome. I’m a night shift custodian and I’m walking around sweeping the floors replacing trash bags, the regular janitor shit. Lol. Anyways I got to the end of your video and the way you described how those players in halo 2 “waved goodbye” made me cry. I lost my grandfather a week ago and had the honor of speaking at his service, what you said made my cry tears of happiness because it made me feel like that’s what my family was doing this past Friday. So thank you, you earned a subscriber 🤘
This video is a piece of art and I was crying at the end. I'm in a point in my life right now where I feel like no matter what I do it won't matter, but knowing that there are people who will still fight to the end, even if it seems hopeless, that's what I live for. I'm going to keep fighting, even if it seems hopeless.
Hey friend. You're worth while and people love you. Always remember that. Don't give up hope.
Fighting to the bitter last. For if I don’t fight, why am I here?
We are all fighting together my friend
Bro gave a whole sermon 💀
Don't you dare go hollow.
It's so sad when you played a game, you liked it, but forgot about it for some years. And after it you realize that that one game you loved was deleted forever. And all was left it's burning memories.
Battlefield heroes... such great memories
But on the other side of the coin. It's knowing that that game got a proper burial provides a bitter sweet feeling. You won't get to play it again, no one will. That won't prevent you from moving on as a person. There will always be other games, and no one else can take away the memories u made playing it to begin with.
Recently, The Completionist went onto the 3DS game store and purchased every single game, and stored their base save files along w/ all possible DLC on Hard Drives to be placed in a "Video Game Museum".
But I kinda feel if that goes against what the developers want. The store went down for a reason, these games lived, and they died. Trying to preserve something robs it of its right to pass on. In the same way it would feel immoral to resuscitate some1 who doesn't want it; it feels wrong to permanantly store a game that was destined to disappear forever. It's knowing that the game will be gone that gives it meaning. It almost invalidates its very existence when u refuse to let it go away in peace.
Heartaches...heartaches...
Sounds daft but I’m like that with some flash games😂
@@Earadon my loving you there’s only heartaches…
Halo Reach. My first ever Halo game I was so excited when I got it, I played it nonstop and refused to uninstall it to install my new game and then when I beat it, I felt empty I was so immersed in Halo Reach, All of those mission's only to die...
Even nearly a decade later I'm still coping with the cancellation of Silent Hills and the removal of P.T. That was going to be such a good game.
I’m hyped for Silent Hill F, but that looks more like a Fatal Frame that a Silent Hill.
The teaser for Silent Hills (the non playable one) looked awesome with Norman Reedus too
@@DocTime56 I'm pretty excited for F too, and also the SH2 remake. I'm happy Konami is finally doing something with the franchise, instead of just sitting on it like they have been for the past 8-9 years
After Silent Hill: Downpour, I really hope they have their Resident Evil 7 moment and turn the franchise back into what it used to be
They did Kojima so dirty
@@pe3094yea idc what they might do good I still hate the company for what they did to him
i cannot imagine the surreal feelings ApacheEnforcer experienced being the last person on the Halo 2 servers. To be that person means that the game probably meant a lot to them, so to be the LAST person to be on the servers- the last person to ever experience your favorite game...i can't imagine how it would feel. it would be so isolating.
Didn't he get rewarded or acknowledged by Microsoft?
@@thatguythatplaysgames3221I hope so. He has more dedication than everyone at Microsoft combined.
@@thatguythatplaysgames3221no. To answer your question, no “reward” or “acknowledgment” of any sort for what I did.
[Source: I *AM* “APACHE N4SIR”, Guinness World Record Holder and the last person to be on the Halo2 servers after being kicked off after 673 hours 58 minutes after -ZERO HOUR-]
It wasn’t my FAVOURITE game… it was one of me favourites but it was the one that made the biggest impact in the gaming community. It was the reason why we had voice chat. Proximity voice communications. The reasons we had 100 friends on our friends list. To name a few. Without Halo 2 and all it’s framework we wouldn’t have XBOX LIVE the way we had it then and the way we have it now as it was built around Halo2. Without Halo 2, we wouldn’t be as advanced as what we were then or at that time. We have a lot to thank Halo 2 in the background even if you were not a Halo fan… you have a lot to be thankful for!!!
Halo2 servers had the biggest following vs other games like Mech Assault or any sports game… the Lobbies in Halo were top notch and after a game it didn’t disconnect you and throw you outta the lobby like it did like Mech Assault 2 did (which was a pain in the ass, cause if you didn’t write down the Gamertag of the person you liked or got along with you had no way of finding who you were in the lobby and gaming with but in Halo 2 you could carry over from one game to another [which was nice]).
For me personally, Halo held a special meaning to me and I wanted to play some more games with friends a few more times for old times sales. So that’s why I played and didn’t want to put down the controller… 🎮
@@apachen4sir631 Well now I feel like a dick
This is a topic I've thought a lot about recently, I love that you brought up Undertale as its mechanics are so fresh and unique, great video as always Judge man
When I was young and friends be it online ones or IRL stopped playing a game or the game when offline permanently I would get sad for awhile but then as time went on I began to realize something which is what this video (I believe) is getting at: Games that you can't experience again be it because they were multiplayer and the servers are gone or they are single player games the reality is you can never experience the same game for the first time again, ever... but that's okay. That's not a bad thing at all. What I've realized is that the sadness we all feel when we finish a game or the servers go offline is we wish we could experience it all over again and get sad because of that but we shouldn't dwell in that sadness. The reason you are sad at all is because it was something so special to you that not being able to relive it again or experience it with a clean memory having never played it before. Really if you want to you can take this idea and extrapolate it to real life with friends and family or pets. When someone passes away or moves away, you lose contact or fall out of touch, etc. It is such a gut punching feeling. Maybe I'm not the best at handling grief but the way I've always told myself to look at these types of losses is that I shouldn't get sad and sulk and get depressed that they are no longer around. Rather, I should be eternally grateful that I had them in my life and cherish the memories I have of them. Don't get me wrong it's not that I don't cry or feel sad when I lose a friend or family member or pet, I do and a lot. However I know myself well enough to know that I could very easily fall into a downward spiral of regret, wishing I could go back in the past and hang out with them again and be around them more. Same thing applies to games. One of my favorite games in the past 10 years was a game called CrossCode. When I finished it I was very very sad and cried a bit because I didn't want the good times to stop. I wanted to keep going and to keep enjoying my time with the game.
The moral of the story is: Cherish your time with whatever or whoever you are spending it with. It's okay to feel grief and sadness when it's over as all things eventually come to an end, but do not dwell on/in your sadness. Genuinely be extremely grateful and eternally happy that you got to spend the time in that game or with that person. Think about how much fun you had and all the different experiences and emotions you felt and memories you've kept with you. The sadness you feel when good things end is BECAUSE they were good things and meant a lot to you. There was a period of time where I legit felt incredibly depressed and alone when all my friends slowly stopped playing Xbox Live and I switched to PC. Eventually I realized that I was approaching my grieving of the situation all wrong. I shouldn't be sad that it's over -- I should be eternally grateful that I was lucky enough to spend my time surrounded by amazing friends who gave my thousands and thousands of hours of laughter and hilarious memories. I remember so many good times playing Halo 3 custom games with my friend Darius (if there's some strange world where you see this, hope you're living your best life buddy - my ID was sneakysnake/poisonous zero n we used to play Halo 3/reach/COD MW2 on Xbox 360) along with a ton others that for some reason my brain right now cannot name, but I've never forgotten the experiences I had with them and the time we shared. Cherish your friends and the time you get to spend with them, take nothing for granted and don't dwell too long when things eventually come to an end. Don't be sad that it's over, smile because it happened.
Halo: Reach was the first game to give me a more existential view of the world and everything else. It was going through the stages of grief without having lost a person. This video has reignited that feeling of "I'm only here for so long, and I shouldn't be scared of the end cause then I'll only waste my time worried about something I can't control". This video means a lot, and I know I'm not the only one who sees the beauty in dark subjects like this.
Your video essays are some of the best I’ve ever seen and I’ll admit, I’m envious of your serious talent. Keep up the good work.
I appreciate the words Haven, and I'm glad you enjoyed!
Honestly, this is the closest a video essay has been to being perfect in my eyes. Only thing it’s missing is a mention of Outer Wilds. You should really play that game if you haven’t done so yet.
I haven't, a lot of people have told me to play it in the comments though. I'm a little broke rn but I'll get it when I have the chance!
Dudes voice is soothing AF no homo
@@frogfarmer3551 you spittin facts bro
Check out Jacob Geller. Has the same vibe as this dude in the way he delivers the information. Always good to double up on essay sources bc they take a long time to make 😜
@@TheCursedJudge you're broke now, you'll be broken soon after playing. 10/10 dont google a single word
I love these kind of rant videos that always come back around in the end, gives me the feels man
The legends that are the Noble 14. I think as the internet/gaming becomes older and game archivists' fight becomes more difficult as copyright, ownership, and corporate bs gets more complicated, their story will ring closer and closer to home for a lot of folks
I was just thinking about that.. About how.. that same story plays out in microscopic ways over and over again and will continue until something breaks.
“What’s more human than being irrational” is one of the best quotes about life I’ve ever heard.
Reminds me of “Predictably Irrational: the hidden forces that shape our decisions” (a book by Dan Ariely)
Miss Halo Reach a whole lot. Me and my cousin played back when I was 4 until I was 13, we wish we could go back. Lone Wolf was such a great mission, too. A worthy end for Bungie’s Halo.
Me(7) and my brother(11) at the time were soo confused and thought we were doing something wrong in that mission. We both shared the controller to see who can last find the way out of that death zone, but then we realized that it must be time-based on survival. So we both shared again to see how long we will both survive. No matter how long we survived we always ended up seeing the same cutscene at the end. Then we realized, this is it. This is how the game ends. There is nothing further, but a downfall of your crew dying and eventually you at the end of it all.
This game will always be on my list of best games I played and had the most fun.
Its still active on master chief collection though
@@ethanshenk2058 Yea but 343 changed it. Campaign wise yea its fine, but online multiplayer is a shell of what it once was. Even when Reach servers were active once Bungie dropped the IP, they made changes for the worse. Idk if you remember TU Slayer, but that marked the beginning of their reign with bleedthrough shield damage. They changed the mechanics of a wildly popular game and wonder why it failed once they took over.
You can't vote on maps, they dont cycle the old maps enough and you're forced to play on their newer ones that are terrible, they have the bleedthrough damage, spawning with a DMR and pistol is asinine vs AR and pistol because teams can focus fire kill anyone instantly. They took away creative and fun arcade style game modes in Action Sack and changed it to be king of the kill or capture the flag.
They just never understood who the fanbase was/is. So yes, you can go play it again, but it's not the same game.
Horizon Zero Dawn was one of those games for me.
It does such a great job at slowly working you into what happened, and at the end you're just numb by all the things you can't change.
Some of what you described is how I feel exploring dead Minecraft servers, still clinging until the unpaid fees finally end them for good. Same with once-bustling survival servers now housing a small, dedicated playerbase. It's very melancholy looking at everything done, everything lost, and acknowledging the things I will never see. There's a heartwarming melancholy saying goodbye to things left behind, and knowing that someone somewhere remembers them for the beautiful works of creativity they were.
Mineplex going down earlier this year hit me really hard. I have tons of memories on that server, and the reality that its time was limited had never really occurred to me before the server was gone forever. Now all I have left is Hypixel, but that will inevitably die someday as well. Online games cost money to keep up and running and, because of this, every single one has a limited lifespan. Fortnite, rocket league, apex, hypixel, etc. all have a ticking clock. Some day it will no longer be viable to keep the servers running and all those games will become nothing but memories.
@@orange_turtle3412Wait what Mineplex died ?
What the hell....
That was my favourite server on MC
@@NehanPlays Yeah. It shut down earlier this year.
There used to be a minigame called Dwarves Vs Zombies. It used to feel *huge* . Then, the main dev had arguments with other devs, they went a little insane, and it died. Eventually, without the main server, recieving updates and the like, all the spinoff servers died.
There have been times I visited the old spinoff servers, and it's just empty. Games which used to host well over 20+ people, now with one. Some servers eventuallly downsized to one minigame, usually not DvZ. Some became creative plot servers. All are barren.
The last sentence isn't entirely true, of course, there *is* a small community organising games weekly, but you have to search to find it.
Damn, this dude is really underrated. I love your narration and choice of footage. Keep this up and you will definitely see significant growth.
You sound like a member of his board of directors
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lmao brock
the quality of this video is so insane that is disgusting how underrated this guy is
It has almost a million views in only ten days . It’s not underrated at all
I agree. This is quality stuff.
@@redshift912 JUDGE HIMSELF is stupid underrated not the video
@@redshift912 Lol literally was about to say the same
@@noopthenoop oh. wow this video blew up… I just looked at his other stuff that has no views in comparison to this.
I loved this video. It hit a lot of my childhood games and then continued to hit games of my teenage and adult life. It's sort of forced me to realise how in over our heads we are sometimes and how just like things In real life games can be shut down. They can't all last forever. Sometimes we can just sit in a room full of friends or even family and talk about the good ol' times and what we miss. I love this vid man keep up the good work
This is one of the best, soul wrenching yet mesmerizing video essays i have watched in a very long time. Absolute masterclass. Thank you for this, truly.
Dude, this video actually made me feel hella emotional. It triggered so many feelings, memories and just make me think about so much. What a masterpiece of a video.
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Man up dude
This video made me puke :) and no one cares if u are emotional :)
"These experiences we had cannot be changed or forgotten; time will always march forward, and as distant as those memories get, those foggy but unforgettable moments, they'll always be a part of you, for better, or for worse."
This hits hard.
Halo Reach is in my top 3 games of all time, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve replayed it
But no matter how many campaigns I’ve beaten, or how many more. No matter how many skulls or challenges I play with. I can never recreate the first, learning that you can’t win, learning that everyone dies was such a gut punch the first time, and now that I know I can never relive that
The antidote to this sort of backward-looking melancholy is novelty. I don't grieve the loss of my ability to experience great things for the first time ever again, because I know that there are countless other first time experiences still waiting for me, some of which will be as spectacular as anything I've ever seen. A life filled with novelty is a life well lived.
I am so very blessed by the simple ability to remember and perfectly emulate the feelings of the first time I did anything. The first time I beat Reach, my entire body shuddered, and so it has every single time afterward. When I completed Shadow of the Colossus for the first time I cried as the beautiful, beautiful music played and those credits rolled, and so I do, every single time. After my mother passed away, I went to my father and told him 'I can't even remember what she looked like from memory' and we wept, and now, years and years later, I can remember that moment and cry just the same. I only wish everyone were able to remember so clearly, physically, mentally, and spiritually.
This is the exact lesson Outer Wilds teaches through the narrative front to back.
True, but at the end of your life, there are no more new experiences and all you are left with are memories. Without preserving the past, no one would even know what you are talking about when that time comes.
Depression often makes me think of these moments in time and feel sad that I can't relive them. Makes me feel like there's no point to doing anything, simply because in the end, it won't matter. Watching videos like this remind me that I shouldn't be sad just because I can't do it again, but that I should be glad I did them at all. Thanks for reminding me that everything ends, and that I should just be happy to be apart of something so large.
I experienced similar things. Keep going, it's worth it!
that’s a good way of putting it
@@oliveryt7168 I appreciate it. I've been doing better recently but I still have those days. I'm glad to know I have peoples support 😄
There is nothing called depression it's a term for ppl who don't wanna work so they say '' i have depression so i can't work'' but they don't have it :)
@@luckygaming6687 prick
This invokes haunting nostalgia. I had such a close group of friends that I met online and played games with between 1999 and 2003 while we were all in college and/or recently graduated. We met up a few times a year for LAN parties, and traversed into IRL friends. As jobs, marriages, and children became life priorities, and death had its way as well, we all wandered away from the playgrounds where we fought together, and the IRC channel where we convened in the meantime. The LAN parties had dwindled as well. I still fire up a few of the games occasionally and find that the games aren't much without those people. I have been longing for that time of my life for twenty years. Of course, as cliche' as it is, I didn't know that would be one of the most memorable times of my life while I was in it. And I know that I will never have that feeling again.
I know people hate to hear, "be happy that it happened, not sad that it's over", but it's true. I lost my mom when I was a kid (18) and then I was alone in the world and it took me a long time to come to terms with what I had no control over, but when I did I finally understood that saying. No one truly knows what's after all of this (life) they can say they do but no one can prove it so there has to be even the faintest amount of doubt involved. We do know we're on a floating rock in the middle of a universe that is beyond our comprehension in size, just 100 years ago video games were not even a thought in people's minds, and by some luck (seriously what are the odds we are sitting here today after billions of years in the making) we were all born at a time when we could experience these things... Be happy that it even happened. ❤
@@benjamindains6906 wisdom. Nostalgia is still a fickle bitch. 🥲
@@mithoviel yup it really is! My mom was still alive when we did the LAN parties and stuff so it’s a double nostalgia punch in the gut. 😂
You can have that feeling again through online games with those same friends if you still are friends with them that is.
@@AzuriteGaming But that is the point. Everyone moves on in life. It's not the same if it happened today. Even if you did magically manage to re-assemble the avengers after 20 years. The conversations would all be about family and job and other strains of life. The blissful innocence of the late teens or early twenties is gone and the experience would feel hollow. Some things are best left in the past and while we can long to have that experience again we truly know that that can't happen and that is ok. There are new experiences and adventures to be had.
This is a really good video in its own right, but I also want to just say how cool it is that music from games like Celeste and Undertale has become standard fare for UA-camrs who need background music for their videos
Those soundtracks are so insanely good. The one I most use, though, is the Beastars soundtrack.
I think a line Chara gives you at the end of a 2nd Geno run puts it perfectly.
"You are wracked with a perverted sentimentality. I cannot understand these feelings anymore."
Many experiences I will never be able to relive, only capable of reexperiencing them vicariously through other peoples' playthroughs. I loved these experiences, and part of me always wants to feel them again, no matter the path, but it wouldn't be the same.
Great video.
i know this is basically what the video said but good but when i watched this, i felt the kind of sadness you get from looking at something nostalgic and remembering the good times you had then, and knowing you’ll never be able to experience that joy again, but also being happy that those memories even happened
he did a really good job on this
Honestly it's crazy it seems like its a bunch of people feeling the same way. I miss how I used to play Halo 3 over again, I had fun playing the missions splitscreen and messing with the ragdoll physics. Collecting skulls...Then other games like minecraft, I remember when the hunger bar was added, and Herobrine was still kind of a thing. The first time I played borderlands 2, before they patched a bunch of the fun glitches. The old community servers I would join on black ops 1 multiplayer, and the lobby was just lively. I remember being so excited to get home and play zombies. The Richtofen easter egg line was so cool to follow up on during Treyarch's reign. Man golden age of gaming is over it seems. Now games have no atmosphere, or character. Alot of games use the exact same graphics and textures it seems. I remember when older games had an artistic look to the textures, the music, everything. I feel like now games have become like a fast food product, no one really cares about creating an experience but just creating something for people to buy until they can suck it dry...at this point im just ranting but man I miss when I would be excited to play and now most games I try to play now just feel empty. Cod4, CodMW2, WaW, Bo1, Halo 3, Halo 3 odst, Far Cry 2, Assassins creed 2 and brotherhood, Fallout 3, New Vegas, Skyrim, Oblivion, Borderlands 2, Halo wars, Battlefield 1942, Mafia 2, Garry's mod, Half life 2, Team Fortress 2....the Valve games, Bungie games and earlier CoD games were some of the best games I remember playing when I was younger. Other's I wish I had played sooner than I have, because when I was younger I was so bored and not allowed to leave home to hang out with friends that I had to play video games constantly. Now that I'm older I dont have so much time, and Im playing games I never got to play as a kid because they didn't look interesting at the time. So many regrets on moments I probably missed out on.
Love that old quote, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened
@@SgtJohnRemairez i am reading allat 😢
The Halo 3 title theme kills me, it makes me cry as i remember playing it with my school friends when i was a teenager.
The Portuguese word saudade perfectly describes the feeling you describe
This video is actually so beautifully put together, and your channel is so criminally underrated. you've definitively deserved a sub
4:17 the Culling was literally one if my favorite multiplayer games of all time. Im literally dying inside now that you mentioned it, just remembering how amazing and unique it was
This video reminded me why I love videogames ever since I was a little kid.
They let you live thousands of different lives, have millions of different experiences, you can do things not even you could dream of, you meet people you never thought even existed, because all those characters in your favourite videogame were created, were designed, were given life by somebody else, just like you.
Definitely more than "just a videogame".
You explained the feeling of grievance to the absolute perfect degree. This is exactly how I felt when LBP2 online servers had to be cut off, knowing that I’d no longer be able to have slap battles with my friends, stay in the pod for HOURS to simply decorate it, create stupid, goofy costumes and levels with with them. It was a realization that my childhood game, the game that has pretty much shaped me into the person I am today was gone. It felt barren. People were still online, sure. But you could only play by yourself, and realizing that option of “Diving In” with a random person has suddenly dissipated, that ruined me. I miss the Little Big Planet franchise with every fiber in my body, but I’m getting older, and those memories will always stick with me. It’s time to move on 💗
Oh my god Little Big Planet 2 was so fun for me, meeting random people was pretty enjoyable, even when I came across literal bullies I found it amusing. The fact you can dress up your character, be the character you want to be was really cool.
I came across so many people on Little Big Planet 2, playing that hide and seek level/game that was made. Their was a classic Jeff The Killer survival game. That other survival game where you gotta dodge the bombs. Also messing around with the AI within story mode and putting stickers all over them.
I could go on and on about Little Big Planet 2 and 3, I feel like they should do a re-release of the 2nd game for both Ps4 and Ps5. I know the 3rd is still up I believe for the Ps4 and 5 but for some reason I enjoyed the 2nd game the most.
Yeah, it's crazy logging in now. So many functions are unavailable and inaccessible, it's like the game is missing a huge part of its soul.
Man this hurt me. My brother and I loved Little Big Planet and especially Little Big Planet 2. They were our childhoods. Part of me died when I learned that the servers went offline.
the feeling this video gave me was something i wasn't expecting. it was honest, cut throat and makes me think that the passing of time is the only challenge we seek to over come. life is so strange. truly awesome video.
This actually made me cry. I think everybody who enjoys video games knows that nothing can ever begin again. But man it stings.
I’ve long stood by the idea that the mark of a good video game is an emotional farewell; that the ending means something. If you want to go back and experience the magic anew, then it was something worth playing. But nothing can ever begin again.
As someone who knows that I can never experience the masterpiece of a franchise that was the mass effect trilogy for the first time again, I feel this. I would give up some of my most treasured moments of gaming just to be able to join Shepard and the crew of the Normandy on their mission for the first time all over again.
Encountering sovereign for the first time…
Seeing the citadel for the first time…
The moral debacle you must make on virmire for the first time…
Discovering the truth of the protheian extinction for the first time…
The list goes on. I will never get that experience back, and for that I must remind myself that I shouldn’t be sad because it’s over, I should be enjoyed because I got to experience it to begin with at all.
The human psyche is truly fascinating our fascination of reminiscing about experiences we had for the first time, and our struggle in vain to recapture those moments.
15:36 "...after all, what's more human than being irrational." man that's deep. I've always thought of humans as striving to be the most rational creatures, but we hold on to things for irrational reasons. Great video.
It's less about playing them, but about feeling the way you did at the time, the raw first experiences, the people you met, the community you interacted with.
Ill never forget those fleeting moments of memory that come to mind when I look back on those days as a teenager playing H3 and HReach.
Being there when the servers shut down for the final time on a game can be a really bitter experience.
Looking up at the pulsing red moon as the server messages counted down to the final shutdown before we were shown the cutscene of Dalamud's fall and the first time we heard Answers was an experience. And there we knew that the game would come back, that our time spent in Eorzea would carry forward to FFXIV: ARR.
Conversely, I was new to City of Heroes when it got shut down, but I could feel the palpable sorrow of other players trying desperately to create a few final memories just before the plug was pulled. That one didn't hit me personally as hard as FFXIV shutting down because I didn't have the investment, but it was far more final. Even as a fairly new player when it happened, I found myself trying to get out to places I had never had a chance to go to because I would never get another chance to see them.
“No one can escape time. It delivers us all to the same end. You can't plug your ears and cover your eyes.”
Persona 3 baby. Lesss gooo
That's dark
@@hwanniggles187 “I’ll be watching you, even if you forget about me. And so it begins”
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Seeing the quote "There'll be another time" during Lone Wolf always hits hard
So glad you talked about One Chance!! I remember being so desperate to try again as a kid that I was downloading different browsers just to get another chance
"What's more human than being irrational?" sounds the foundation of a great philosopher's legacy. That question is actually fucking me up more than anything I've ever heard in the context of gaming. This video (especially the outro) just kicked my ass. I gotta think about it so I can start healing from it.
This video is a masterpiece. I subbed, and the bell is on.
god fucking damn this was such a good video. I tapped this thinking "man I like halo reach I wonder what they talk about" and holy shit. I am actually in tears. The way you threaded your words seamlessly into the visuals and explaining these things hit me in a way I don't know how to explain. Thank you
That's way too much emotion.
What a gem it is to randomly come across this channel. Long I've waited or stumbled upon another channel that incorporates philosophical themes to video games and/or other mediums or art forms. I first saw this video on my feed around 3-4 days ago and I resonate with the style of your essays, atmosphere, and presentation. After watching this and "Why is the Out of Bounds so Terrifying?" I must say this is becoming or already is one channel I am biased towards. I have always liked introspective, reflective, and philosophical or abstract thinking. The eloquence of the writing, the amount of research and the tying of concepts to relatable experiences is just marvelous! Props to a new subscription, may your efforts and art bear more fruits.
thank you very much, ignore the weird bot comment before now if you saw that
Jesus christ, those final words you spoke about how time moves on and how memories get more and more distant, genuinely made me tear up.
I've always knew this, and thought I analyzed into it too much. But wow you encapsulated this so well. Thank you
Great video. It really expresses the feeling I have all the time and something I've said for years about different games.
"I wish I could play Undertale for the first time again."
There truly is something special about video games and the experiences and social interactions they facilitate. It's magical.