She earned it, working it as much as she does is exhausting. We understand you can't bring it at the same level every day Queen, you can check out of this one lol.
That journal is a neurodivergent NIGHTMARE! She thrives on planning but not executing. I Can relate but damn, sis, get it together and find some strategies to overcome that.
This is so true, and if she does have ADHD/ADD could impact her lack of follow through. I’m not excusing her behaviors (or lack there of) at all however this could completely speak to her inability to focus and complete something that is too complicated. What kills me is this process could be really helpful but how she made it is setting her up to fail, or at the very least half ass it
I got a bullet journal, and despite my adhd behind knowing exactly how these things end for me, I actually never even wrote in it AT ALL. I was too overwhelmed with how I wanted to theme it. How I wanted to create it. It was so much more work and thinking and planning than I expected, that I started getting a panic attack from not being able to get my crap together and “be normal” 🤡 it was the last journal I bought lmfao. Enough is enough. I do so much better with my near pocket sized, plain, 4$ notebook that I can destroy and not feel bad. Seeing dates and numbers and all of that is PAST overwhelming, and just makes me panic sit 💀🤧
@@jackies6354 agreed! I used to be like this and I have ADHD. I would plan and plan and never execute. I got tired of wasting money and being stagnant so I changed my approach. It can be done.
This is the most unhinged bullet journal I’ve ever seen. I’ve never seen somebody who has so little to do in their day that they absolutely need to find a way to be busy by filling it with 7300 trackers about how they’re feeling 🤦🏻♀️
Well this is what concerns me, yeah? Because if fucking Chocolate Rain can become obsolete, she will too. And when that happens, then what? She’s spent none of her money on preparing for this inevitability. No investment in education or savings. Just spending it like she’ll always have it. At the very least she could have invested some of it. But no. Torrid hauls and junk food. It’s so horrifying to me. She’s about to enter a very dark period in her life. Hopefully it translates into the algorithm…
I just have NO idea why she doesn’t develop a skill, even a food related one, like baking really good bread or attempting time consuming elaborate desserts or something. These things take time (prep, active time, cleanup), skill, and provide you with a sense of accomplishment. She would be able to eat healthier and waaaay more delicious foods… like man if I was in her position even, why not take a language class or sign up to volunteer at an animal shelter (literally go sit in the cat room or something) or just do well thought out book reviews or SOMETHING. Like I often have slow days working from home so I make elaborate dinners frequently or read a novel a week or just busy myself with other things that make me not feel like an actual lump hahahaha
I’m having anxiety tears trying to keep up with all these trackings 😂. Our gorl just needs an Apple Watch. Also, what happened to the poster board or the notebook paper situation type deal she was writing on everyday for a few days?
Yeah this. And as a chronic Keeper of the Lists, I kind of get it? But yeah she’s way sicker than I am with respect to this. Our gorl is tracking the weather. There’s literally a million apps for that.
I can just imagine: faline working away at her actual job, coming out to see amby busily making her bullet journal over a number of days. And the constant “ do you like it bby?”, “yeah I love it bby” “aww Thankyou bby” “I’m so proud of myself” “I’m proud of you bby” “aww thanks bby” “that’s so cool bby” “omg you think so ? Omg thankyou bby your so supportive, I love you bby, now let’s order $15 fountain drinks”
Really.. imagine creating a task where you have a doodle every day so that you can decide it became too much and you had to drop all of the tasks, including the 3 out of 50 tasks that actually matter.
She also has way too much time on her hands, this way she feels like she's being productive because she's "so busy". If I fill out my days with nonsense, sure I can be busy. But what the fuck are you doing? 😂
I really do believe she would benefit from getting assessed for ADHD & possibly treated if she has it… this seems like a less logical version of something I do when I get “stuck” on stuff. Adderall keeps it at bay lol
Zack, I’m pretty sure her “special twist “ is garlic salt, garlic powder, minced onion, onion powder, every Mrs Dash ever, siracha, tapitio, and whatever the hell else she could think of to dump in there.
The secret ingredient was love for Falleen! Just kidding. I don't think they even made the food either holiday. She showed no cooking and it was all in aluminum tins. Sus
@@little.miss.flawless.70 I agree. I just feel like we would have gotten a grocery haul with the ingredients or even a cook with me situation type deal
She should track every time she quits or starts a new diet and for how long it lasts and what she used as an excuse or reason to quit/start. I think that'd actually be helpful for her
how is she not tracking her Torrid hauls, her mood about her Torrid hauls, what made her smile in Torrid Mountain each day, which Torrid she fell asleep in etc???
calling it now Amberlynn will give up on this bullet journal cuz she gets overwhelmed/bored but she will say "y'all just made me feel dumb for bullet journaling. It's ruined for me now"
If I was feline I'd be gone. Different cultures to different things. Like alot of African women wash their chicken before cooking. I've never heard of that tbh but its not something to make fun of
I sometimes wash my apples or grapes with a small pump of soap lol I just feel like water doesn’t get all the grime off and it doesn’t leave a residue after it’s rinsed so I guess I’m Team Faleen?!
@Bretton Hutt I'm the psycho that scrapes the wax off the apples before my kids eat them, so who is to say what's weird or not? My feelings would be really hurt if my husband said, "What a really dumb way of doing things! My way, just lobbing an apple at the kids on their way out the door, is better!" then he made a poll about it, then a video which shamed me about it.
@@lasskinn474what can be another thing she will write , she is at home, she knows nobody except faline, she does not learn anything new except tiktok bs. Omg what a life
I love bullet journal content and I need you all to know that it is NOT normal to have twenty daily trackers at the front of your journal. She’s gone completely off the rails.
Right??? I’m an AVID bujo participant and I have never seen it done this way haha just put the important stuff all on one tracker and toss the nonsense!
Is the "when do I wear makeup" a normal category? There is weight loss and mood tracking here and that's it. Just a bunch of the same topic over and over
@@little.miss.flawless.70 no. The most common ones are water trackers, sleep, mood, exercise, weight that kind of thing. They're usually split by the month though, it's impractical to flip all the way to the front of the journal every day
She doesn't have to workout a lot or eat even a semi-restrictive amount of calories to lose weight. It's hard to remain consistent but at 500+ lbs it should be EASY to drop a lot of weight with a little bit of effort. Crazy.
Ive bullet journaled before, and there isn’t a wrong way of doing it really. But it’s usually done month by month, a way to plan and document your days. Let’s just say I’ve never seen a bullet journal like hers 😅
I don't know... this doesn't really have any element of the actual bullet journaling system designed by Ryder Carroll, so... Not wrong, but also not bullet journaling. Annual trackers for a bunch of random things does not equal a bullet journal.
So, isn't the point of bullet journaling to have goals, plan for those goals, create mini goals and track your progress? She's literally created a journal to strictly track all her shitty days.
@@ArtCE47 yeah that's a good way to sum it up. Ryder says it's a tool to "Track the past, order the present, and design the future." there's a lot of reflection and adaptation that is a part of it so that it serves you as well as it can for what you need it to do. our gorl should add his book to her TBR! lmao
This worries me so much. Shes losing control of her life & this is clearly an attempt to control SOMETHING, ANYTHING. That’s why it’s overwhelming for us, but makes sense to her. It’s so sad at this point.
@@ZacharyMichael you are my Happy Place too! Snuggled up with my pup Floki, you, Judy and all the... hey, do you have a nickname for your YT tribe? "Besties"? I'm a relative new comer. 😘
For anyone curious, here is a full list of things that Amberlynn said she will track: 1. Weekly weigh-ins 2. Weight lost 3. Daily doodle 4. Hours slept 5. Sleep rating 6. Makeup tracker 7. When hair was brushed 8. Medicine 9. Anxiety 10. Energy level 11. Movement 12. Crying? 13. Takeout 14. Binge 15. On/off track 16. Nap 17. Hours worked? 18. Temperature 19. Weather 20. Productivity 21. How was your day rating 22. Mood 23. Rate your day (why is this in here twice??) 24. Weekly rating 25. Pages read 26. Book log (page number, book, thoughts, etc) 27. Monthly weight loss 28. Monthly UA-cam views 29. Monthly savings and checking (does she not have a bank account?) 30. Monthly sleep log 31. Subscriber log 32. Monthly water log 33. What made her smile today 34. Daily lowlight 35. Daily highlight 36. Tomorrows main goal 37. Chore tracker
This is incredibly overwhelming, I have severe anxiety and love my lists, but this is way too many lists and she's setting herself up for failure. If she spends about 5 minutes per item, which is about average... this will take up 3 hours of her day!
I have questions: 1. When she gains the weight back, will she erase the hearts from the jar? 2. What if she takes a nap? Does it get added to the night sleep? Never mind. 3. She uses a pill organizer so you know if you took your meds. 4. For energy, what if she has no energy in the morning but more at night? 5. For crying, what if it’s fake-crying? Does that count? 6. What if it’s sunny in the morning and stormy at night? 7. I didn’t see a tracker for filling out the trackers. How will she know if she filled it out each day? 8. What are the consequences for failing to fill in the boxes?
Please do not use soap to wash your grapes, or any other food for that matter. You can get soaps for cleaning food specifically. But water works perfectly fine. If you're particularly bothered by the concept of unclean food you can soak your food in a mixture of vinegar and water and it works great and doesn't ruin your food nor does it have any possibility for making you sick like using soap does.
@@duck6100 do you eat your food with utensils off a plate and cook your things in cookware? Utensils and plate washed with you know with dish soap, specifcally made to not leave a taste or odor? It's perfectly fine to do as long as you rinse it and will not make you sick and preferable if you use say imported oranges peel or something in cooking whereas solvents could soak into the fruit or something like dove could leave a residue.
@@lasskinn474 I think one main difference is that many foods can have porous surfaces while dishware does not. So the soap can just slide off the dishware when you rinse it but the skin or flesh of food can actually hold on to some of the soap particles.
I am so confused about who hears an alarm in their building and stays put inside the building. Especially someone with animals and mobility issues. That is so irresponsible
That's exactly what I was thinking! Also she didn't exactly show any other emergency vehicles so it seemed as if it was just the fire alarm going off and she just complained that it ruined the "vibe" of her birthday.
I thought she said, her and feline were standing on the porch when everything was going down, and the firefighters (or whoever) stopped and waved to them 😅😂. So I’m not sure why she’s talking about it as if she was terrified and didn’t know anything about the situation
The alarm goes off in my building sometimes because a lot of elderly people pull the fire alarm instead of calling 911 when they have issues, so it sort of desensitizes people to the fire alarm going off. Maybe the same situation with Amberlynn.
I’m very similar to Amber in this way of wanting to track and journal EVERYTHING. It’s because it gives the delusion of control. It makes you feel like you are making progress and really doing something (when in reality you’re just walking in circles). It often replaces actually taking action which is the only thing that will make a difference in life. In short, it’s a delusional that makes Amber feel in control of her life.
Remember that $80 planner from November that she had custom made? Like in my remembrance, we still haven’t seen her use it 😂. All these journals have me feeling overwhelmed for her.
Honestly, that may be why she gets so much more negativity now. Things that she did when she was in her early 20s are not as cute or quirky now that she's 30. Her original audience would have aged up as well and no longer be interested in things she vlogs about. Add to that, she's aged out of the youth demographic so the younger audience might be finding her unrelatable.
But does she try though? That’s the thing. Keto was working. She lost weight fairly quickly during her brief rendezvous with keto. And promptly quit because she missed fatty carbs. And used her gallbladder as an excuse. Which it wasn’t. Fatty carbs are harder on the gallbladder than a high protein diet. I almost punched the wall when she gave up on that. That was working. And now instead she’s back on some bs food pyramid high carb calorie counting nonsense. Which doesn’t work. Ever.
@@BeckBeckGo Keto is not high protein though. It's moderate protein, high fat, and too much fat can affect gallstones, especially what she was eating. She wasn't having avocados and olive oil as her fats, it was ranch and other stuff.
bullet journal user here- having THAT many trackers can actually deter you from using your bullet journal because it gets overwhelming when you have to go back over what you did that day / the day before, and it's a LOT of remembering. In my journal, I try to condense it to book reading, tarot readings, working on my book, and hygiene (because I struggle with personal hygiene). I bet amber's gonna come back next month when people want to see her February spreads that she's gonna say "It just got SO overwhelming and I couldn't use it anymore, so I stopped" and pull out something about losing motivation to work on it and then blame it on the haydurs or on her viewers for insulting it / putting her down / whatever. she cannot be trusted!
I have a planner for budget and one for wellness(they aren't bullet journals because I'm too ADHD for that, I need something created and structured) The wellness planner you track your habits daily, but only a week at a time and you can only fit 4(I do 80 oz of water, work out, skin care and no eating out) But, it's nice cause I can change it week by week. Just the thought of tracking 556 things makes me feel INSANE!
She did do too much. And it should be a monthly spread for her trackers not yearly. That way she can see trends. She’s just overexcited. Keep it simple!
1000% she needs to add Ryder Carroll's book to her TBR, because this is NOT bullet journaling. I also track personal hygiene (washing my hair) to help manage my depression! She just needs to pick ONE thing and take it ONE week at a time and go from there. Alas... it's just from extreme to extreme for our gorl.
I think it's just another addiction for her, honestly. Anything to distract her from dire situation, she'll do. Instead of actually putting in the work to better herself and life.
As a bullet journalling aficionado, I have to point out the logistical issues with her trackers. Look at all the different colours she has for her trackers. Upwards of 10 on the mood spread alone. This means that she needs to, on a daily basis: 1) Be able to readily identify the colour that she used for each category 2) Find the pen/marker/etc that matches that category (hope she doesn't forget or misplace that colour!) 3) Actually fill in the planner For EACH AND EVERY PAGE. This is truly insane. I make monthly habit/mood trackers but I use 5 colours at most. This is so ridiculous and this bullet journal is never getting filled in, period.
YES!!! I noticed all the different colors, too!! It would be hard enough to just write down one thing for each of the 280 trackers, but to find the correct corresponding color?!? absolutely not. ugh i think she would actually benefit from bullet journaling, but she needs the og system from Ryder Carroll. not whatever the hell this is lmao
i just use a pen for my trackers. if something gets done it gets a check mark ✔️. some things have different letters to signify different things. but it's gotta be simple for me. however, i do like using metallic gel pens to make it more fun when checking things off daily lists lol
Some of the colours are super similar too. I'm not sure how nice it'll look when she fills those in and they're so similar you might not notice the difference at first.
You're right! All those colors will become confusing & overwhelming. I also bullet journal but I always keep a simplistic monthly color theme. 2 colors max & different pen line patterns for tracking. Diagonal stripes, ex's, fill ins, etc. It keeps the amount of pens needed to a minimum..bullet journals are supposed to be helpful, not daunting.
I was thinking the same thing. If she is genuinely worried about her gallbladder and also wants to lose weight, she needs to realize that she’s been trying for years and nothing is working. She needs to be forced out of the bad habits (well, forced by checking herself in for a couple of months, but you get what I’m saying). Edit because autocorrect sucks.
@@samanthaecotothermia7896 she can't do voluntary inpatient. she'd rage the f out of there in 2 days flat because they don't know her bodyyyyyyyyyyyyy. only chance is to get locked up by violating some law by accident or on purpose go smash a cop car with a hammer or something.
Apparently EmpathLynn broke her sympathy bone, because the presumably serious emergency of someone in her building was only relevant as an annoyance to her. ThrivEEEEN!
i always want to buy a planner every year bc i also love the idea of being an organized girly, but then i realize how repetitive my days are, so there’s no point lmao. i’d be writing work, cook dinner, clean, and do laundry 800 times in a row. 😂
I was rejected by a guy on Saturday after a great date because he said I wasn't hard enough to get. which I think is dumb and it hurt my feelings. so I'm here for upbeat vibes. 😆
You're right. It's dumb. I've had something similar happen and it's hurtful and confusing. Like we're accused of being game players and when you don't you accused of not playing hard to get. It's pathetic
I’ve learned to take first dates with a grain on salt and the positive is a free meal lol. I’ll let the guy contact me after and most can’t be bothered to keep up with good communication. Once they meet you and get what they want they move on. Think of the free food queen
I'm not a journaler, I'm completely disorganized and I would have no idea how to set this up, but one thing I do know - this is not it 😂 Having to flip flop amongst random pages to find what you have to fill in daily, weekly and monthly sounds insane. Also I feel like the habit trackers should be in the same realm as the mood tracker so you can directly see how your mood is affected by your habits. This stressed me the fck out.
Forreal, this seemed so chaotic… Like she had a page dedicated to the quality of her sleep at the beginning, and then another page where she’s supposed to write down at what time she went to bed etc like, 10 pages later… Sis just put everything sleep related together, you left a shit tone of blank space, there’s room
I think she just enjoys finding something to do. That’s why scratch art, constant journaling, Legos and eating. When you stay home 78% of the time y’all got to find something to do.
That's about the amount that I read. 1ish per day. (Which I track in my bullet journal, because I can't remember the titles when I'm looking for the book to gift or reread later.) But I live alone and have a long commute, so I have an audiobook playing in my ear 8-10 hours per day.
BTY- that bullet journal looks like it was meant for people with really bad memory like Alzheimer's and it would be helpful to have a list of daily things that need to be done. Notice she didn't have showers anywhere so no showers for her in 23.
"There were these really loud alarms all throughout the building" You mean the fire alarms Amber? The alarms that indicate you need to leave because there's a fire?! I've literally never heard of anyone who sits inside while their fire alarms go off especially when there's firetrucks outside.
@@ScarsFromTomorrow1 literallly and on one of her Q/A instagram stories she said that the firefighter waved at her and something else she said. But I’ve typically not seen firefighters waving to people when their on the job I feel like it was a come outside wave or like get out one not a smile and wave one idk
I’m case anyone is wondering, this is what bipolar mania looks like for some people. This won’t last long, once she is out of her manic episode she will get depressed and stop doing the journal.
Are we going to ruin this for her too? 😆 Or will the excessive bullets just like way too much? Are we journal shaming? Will we find the answers to these questions? Stay tuned til next Monday to find out. These are the Days of Our Lives
I wish she still lived in a house so she could get into gardening or something. She would like all of the planning that goes into it, plus there's an end goal that she's working towards. Mostly I feel like a small reason she's so into these journals and planning is because she generally does nothing all day and no matter who you are that has to get boring, especially with how long she's been doing it. It would benefit her a lot to get a hobby that's not just buying things.
I can only garden for a few months out of the year. It is my happy place. I have four children, and a full time job. Other hobbies, but gardening is absolutely the most calming, rewarding hobby I have. I get my kids involved too I even harvest all the seeds and dry them to plant the following season. So it's just getting better with time. I'm also learning how and where to plant things so they grow best, moving things the next year for a better color scheme. I wanna dig up part of my back yard and put my vegetable garden there and just have flowers in the front. Honestly typing this, I think I might be obsessed lol.
Yeah but gardening is exercise so she'd never do that. I mean not to be a 'hater' but amber doesn't even walk a length down the road, never mind lifting seedling trays and digging with a trowel/ taking up topsoil if she needs to
@@eleanormason2647 she could start knitting or crocheting, that requires no exercise. But I guess she would just buy 200 balls of yarn and never actually learn how to do it.
@@eleanormason2647 yeah gardening was just the first thing I thought of, I mostly just mean something she can do throughout the day that would give her something more productive to do than build legos or watch tv
@@itssaraheli although at the very least gardening is an activity that isn't a 'workout,' so she could maybe trick herself into doing it more, because she wouldn't be thinking of herself as exercising
you know she's gonna fill out that journal "intuitively" for a week then it's gonna go on a shelf next to that mammoth custom journal she showed just before the holidays
crazy how for the grape situation amberlynn was like “OMG????? that’s fucking CRAZY😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 THATS NOT NORMAL 🤯🤯🤯🤯” bc it’s not her but she’s use very fiber of her body to defend the cooking spray…..
I have been bullet journaling for years now, and watching Amberlynn flip through hers made me feel insane, I can't wait to watch your reaction to it Zach so I can feel less alone in my own emotional reaction towards watching her absurdity
I use a bullet journal! I love mine. They are great for my anxiety and depression. I use it as a planner and a daily checklist. They help me make sure I am taking my meds and keep track of things like how much sleep I am getting. The key to them tho is that the more work it is to fill it out the less likely you are to keep it up.
yeah same here. she needs to try actual bullet journaling which will help her figure out what couple things make sense for her to track... one day, one week at a time. and then she needs to REFLECT and change what needs to change and tailor it to her needs. that's literally the whole point of bullet journaling. not whatever Amber is doing here.
So she says she wants to start brushing her hair everyday. And in the next breath, says it's OK if she goes a day or three without doing so. This is why she fails at everything. She always gives herself an out. Jeesh. I didn't track my reading this much when I was prepping for my dissertation.
As a nurse, something I hear patients taking ozempic for diabetes control complain about is the lack of hunger…. Maaaaaaybe ALR enjoys being hungry a bit too much.
I have a student who started to bullet journal about 2 years ago, in order to be more productive. But all she did was decorate the journal and never did what the bullets said… And I can for sure see Amber going that route
Speaking of kindergarten and tracking the weather, my first grade class had a cry jar for any student that cried. This whole bullet journal is definitely giving preschool - 1st grade vibes. I also learned to brush my hair every day before kindergarten too, I’m pretty sure.
i’m with you for the most part but not taking care of your hair can be a symptom of depression, whether that be not brushing or washing. either way, we both know her priorities are definitely in the wrong place when it comes to these journals
@@Kbaby8.9 It was for the whole class not one particular student, but yes, it was a long time ago and wouldn’t be done today. My point was that tracking tears is silly and childish.
DID I BINGE?!! is a terrible idea 💡 🙄 BECAUSE she will look at that and say... Wow, feline, I didn't binge today. Let's go out and celebrate with ice cream 🍦 AND Olive Garden. 🤯😳 We will be watching Zachary Michael watching Amber lynn talk about how she didn't give up on her journal 🙄😶 She stopped BC it was bad for her eating disorder. Hold on, folks I think we are heading for "journal gate" 🤣🙏
I licherally just finished AF’s recap of ALR’s video since you hadn’t posted a reaction to it yet lmao. Can’t wait to hear your thoughts on her insane journal and the grape washing!
I'm a big ol journaler/planner but holy shit that journal is immediately giving me sensory overload. i cannot imagine filling out all that shit every day
I know everyone deals with things differently, but, if I tried to have to keep up with all those trackers, I’d end up throwing the whole journal out 😂😂
I can only picture the journal being useful for someone in prison, if you felt like your days were running together and endlessly redundant… needing a way to show yourself there was variety over the days, months, and years. And I think even maybe someone in prison wouldn’t have enough time or energy to keep up with all this tracking.
imo, she’s turning mundane things into trackers because she doesn’t do anything and the idea of filling in boxes makes her feel a false sense of accomplishment that she isn’t able to get elsewhere in life because she doesn’t leave her house other than to go to Walmart. it’s sad to know that this planner will likely not get filled out past February and she’ll just continue to stay cooped up in her apt self-sabotaging and not making any progress. I truly hope she proves me wrong though.
I came to an understanding with myself today. I'm getting genuinely angry with Amber. I've been watching for years. At first it was motivation for myself, but prolonged exposure to her personality changed that. It took me a long time myself to accept my own faults and self sabotage. In the last month I have lost 30 pounds with the help of my doctor, medication, and therapist. It's been the easiest weight loss journey I've been on in my life thus far. I reached the point where I put in the time to fix my core issues and now I'm on the other side and able to start reaching goals. I feared I would end up like Amber. Content to live my life of misery because I've never know anything else. A prepetual victim of my own choices because of the past I refused to work through. Projecting issues onto others and lashing out when others try to help, and then again when they slowly grow to resent me. I feared I would spend my life in my bed getting fatter, jaded, and unbearable. That the people in my life would slowly distance themselves, eventually cut me off, and leave me to be alone in the world because I couldn't show them I was worth being apart of their life. That someday i would wake up and look in the mirror and see nothing redeamable about myself, so i made the choice to try. To just look into some help, try a little bit, and then discard it all as not working after a few months. However, constant communication, self reflection, and an eventual desire to show myself my own love really changed things. I found the right people, I started being honest, I took my therapist as seriously as she took me, and for the first time in a very long time the idea of dying young actually scared me. What I learned today, watching this reaction, is that I think I'm ready to finally start growing past Amber all together. I hate her more than Chantol, who I only get updates on every once in a while just to see how far she managed to push the negatuve outlier of her life. Amber kills me in a different way. Amber sucks everything good out of me. Chantal is so outrageous and crazy. Shes easy to dismiss and laugh at for me as she quickly decends into her ultimate form of a radical, codependent, unthinking, egotistical pos. I think more and more about Amber because shes essentially the same. At this point I'm starting to wonder if having anything to do with Amber and Chantal is worth the anger it brings up in me. I wonder if watching them at this point, mostly Amber who this is 98% about, is just becoming a form of mental self harm. I listen to her gaslight me, spin circles, play the victim, shame me for having questions, say that as a reaction Chanel consumer that I am her problem to her core, say that her life is bad because of things I DO for simply watching, makeing me constantly question my own memories and reality, and her refusal to look at the reality of her own gross codependent situation. I think I'm allowing Amber too much power over my life just because she's going to die before 45 and i was scared I was too. My anger towards her is my own problem, so watching her while knowing I'm gonna burst a blood vessel is just... Self mental anguish of my own doing, right? It feels like it must be? I'm going to try dumping her like I did FB. Just a check in every once in a while to see if she's still crazy, or dead yet. Maybe I should draw a broken sympathy bone for Amber in my bullet journal for every year she lived when she dies from a heart attack herself, or she looses a foot that went blue a year ago and not getting medical help because... well, no one cares. Not even her, or people that tell her they love her.
first, congrats on your current and ongoing journey for health and personal development! I'm so glad (even as a complete stranger) that you're doing everything you can to thrive, not just survive. I have always struggled with depression and excess weight, as well, and I can see how watching the gorls can be detrimental to one's mental health. they (and their struggles) are relatable, for some of us more than others. and that's okay. and i get why ALR is more maddening than FB because ALR is still way more relatable, and she isn't an unquestionably disgusting, complete trash excuse for a human like FB. don't get me wrong, ALR is pretty bad, but i think she still has the (smallest) potential for redemption. FB, not so much, not even a little bit. i think it really shows strength for you to recognize this is Not serving you, and it's time to step away. you have to do what serves you, ALWAYS. you need your health and sanity more than the gorls need your views! you got this!! keep it up, and remember you're not alone!!
I reacted in horror to that bullet journal. It was the most neurotic thing I have ever seen, and I fail to see what if any value she would get out of compulsively tracking all of those stats.
The fact that she had all the time in the world to write out this journal just goes to show that she has no excuse for not taking the time to work towards her weight loss and mental health. Obviously she’s had a ton of time on her hands all these years
watching Judy repeatedly stave off sleep, slowly drooping her sleepy head throughout the video is instant serotonin. You take that nap queen.
omg I didn’t notice until you pointed it out but it’s so so cute! Lil miss Judy
She earned it, working it as much as she does is exhausting. We understand you can't bring it at the same level every day Queen, you can check out of this one lol.
Judy is a MF Queen.
‘If you are napping for 7hours, you are asleep bestie! You went to bed’ I died, so funny! 😂😂
That journal is a neurodivergent NIGHTMARE! She thrives on planning but not executing. I Can relate but damn, sis, get it together and find some strategies to overcome that.
This is so true, and if she does have ADHD/ADD could impact her lack of follow through. I’m not excusing her behaviors (or lack there of) at all however this could completely speak to her inability to focus and complete something that is too complicated. What kills me is this process could be really helpful but how she made it is setting her up to fail, or at the very least half ass it
I got a bullet journal, and despite my adhd behind knowing exactly how these things end for me, I actually never even wrote in it AT ALL. I was too overwhelmed with how I wanted to theme it. How I wanted to create it. It was so much more work and thinking and planning than I expected, that I started getting a panic attack from not being able to get my crap together and “be normal” 🤡 it was the last journal I bought lmfao. Enough is enough. I do so much better with my near pocket sized, plain, 4$ notebook that I can destroy and not feel bad. Seeing dates and numbers and all of that is PAST overwhelming, and just makes me panic sit 💀🤧
@lovelysimple _ I love this idea!
Yes! It’s a very common type of behavior for people who have obsessive compulsive personality disorder. And I could totally see her having ADHD too.
@@jackies6354 agreed! I used to be like this and I have ADHD. I would plan and plan and never execute. I got tired of wasting money and being stagnant so I changed my approach. It can be done.
It's so funny because when she started the journal I thought some were really good ideas, but it quickly spiraled into the most ridiculous things haha
This is the most unhinged bullet journal I’ve ever seen. I’ve never seen somebody who has so little to do in their day that they absolutely need to find a way to be busy by filling it with 7300 trackers about how they’re feeling 🤦🏻♀️
It makes me feel crazzzzy and I'm not even the one filling it out
Well this is what concerns me, yeah? Because if fucking Chocolate Rain can become obsolete, she will too. And when that happens, then what? She’s spent none of her money on preparing for this inevitability. No investment in education or savings. Just spending it like she’ll always have it. At the very least she could have invested some of it.
But no. Torrid hauls and junk food. It’s so horrifying to me. She’s about to enter a very dark period in her life. Hopefully it translates into the algorithm…
I just have NO idea why she doesn’t develop a skill, even a food related one, like baking really good bread or attempting time consuming elaborate desserts or something. These things take time (prep, active time, cleanup), skill, and provide you with a sense of accomplishment. She would be able to eat healthier and waaaay more delicious foods… like man if I was in her position even, why not take a language class or sign up to volunteer at an animal shelter (literally go sit in the cat room or something) or just do well thought out book reviews or SOMETHING. Like I often have slow days working from home so I make elaborate dinners frequently or read a novel a week or just busy myself with other things that make me not feel like an actual lump hahahaha
I’m having anxiety tears trying to keep up with all these trackings 😂. Our gorl just needs an Apple Watch. Also, what happened to the poster board or the notebook paper situation type deal she was writing on everyday for a few days?
@@brettonhutt because it takes too much time and she likes instant gratification. That’s why she can’t last on any “diet” or lifestyle change
Only ALR could make journaling about her mundane life a full time job
Right? The only thing not tracked there is perhaps going to the bathroom🥴
I mean from what I've seen, she's made a pretty good living vlogging that mundane life.
She should have a page where Faline gets a heart sticker for every time she wipes Amber's butt 🤣🤣🤣
@@hwoods-kg1jf 😂😂
@@patrycjakocela2528 That might be one of the more personal pages she said she would not show us.
Ah yes Amber, it will be very easy to stay consistent with possibly the most convoluted journal plan in existence.
Yeah this. And as a chronic Keeper of the Lists, I kind of get it? But yeah she’s way sicker than I am with respect to this. Our gorl is tracking the weather. There’s literally a million apps for that.
@@BeckBeckGo meteorologist Lynn 😭
I can just imagine: faline working away at her actual job, coming out to see amby busily making her bullet journal over a number of days. And the constant “ do you like it bby?”, “yeah I love it bby” “aww Thankyou bby” “I’m so proud of myself” “I’m proud of you bby” “aww thanks bby” “that’s so cool bby” “omg you think so ? Omg thankyou bby your so supportive, I love you bby, now let’s order $15 fountain drinks”
Remember - NO ORDERING TAKEOUT IN JANUARY! (There is no way she will stay with that. I couldn’t even do that for a month, or would want to)
🤣🤣🤣
That sounds like an actual script they would use😭
What a fever dream
“Hey bby how was work? I’m just finishing up the hair brushing section of my bullet journal - busy day for me!”
I swear she over complicates things so she has an excuse when her plan fails…
She is a self sabotage queen.
I was just thinking that.
She’s all talk. No action.
Really.. imagine creating a task where you have a doodle every day so that you can decide it became too much and you had to drop all of the tasks, including the 3 out of 50 tasks that actually matter.
She also has way too much time on her hands, this way she feels like she's being productive because she's "so busy". If I fill out my days with nonsense, sure I can be busy. But what the fuck are you doing? 😂
Somehow this girl found a way to binge on bullet journaling. 😂
Damn. When you put it like that 🤔..this shit runs deep!
I really do believe she would benefit from getting assessed for ADHD & possibly treated if she has it… this seems like a less logical version of something I do when I get “stuck” on stuff. Adderall keeps it at bay lol
Zack, I’m pretty sure her “special twist “ is garlic salt, garlic powder, minced onion, onion powder, every Mrs Dash ever, siracha, tapitio, and whatever the hell else she could think of to dump in there.
The secret ingredient was love for Falleen! Just kidding. I don't think they even made the food either holiday. She showed no cooking and it was all in aluminum tins. Sus
5 types of Mrs dash.
@@little.miss.flawless.70 I agree. I just feel like we would have gotten a grocery haul with the ingredients or even a cook with me situation type deal
@@little.miss.flawless.70 Only counter argument to that is the question of where the hell would they have bought mac & cheese that looked THAT dry?
More Pam cooking spray just sets it off 🤣
She should track every time she quits or starts a new diet and for how long it lasts and what she used as an excuse or reason to quit/start. I think that'd actually be helpful for her
Yessssss! This is actually really great feedback I hope she sees this
how is she not tracking her Torrid hauls, her mood about her Torrid hauls, what made her smile in Torrid Mountain each day, which Torrid she fell asleep in etc???
Tracking how often she can crane her neck to show the stupid hicky?
I am dead 💀
This genuinely made me cackle!
Does she have a tracker for how much exercise she does?
mini brands tracker, scratcher tracker 😂🎉
calling it now Amberlynn will give up on this bullet journal cuz she gets overwhelmed/bored but she will say "y'all just made me feel dumb for bullet journaling. It's ruined for me now"
it‘s either that or she just never talks about it again claiming it’s too private when in reality she’s just given up on it
Oh it will absolutely be all our fault 🙄
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@@m.ts.3267 Welterusten 😘😘
You called it
Wow, Amber worked hard at shaming Faline over the grape washing incident.
I felt the same about it. And since it's publicly it makes it a lot worse.
it was so unnecessarily dragged out too. NARC alert!
If I was feline I'd be gone. Different cultures to different things. Like alot of African women wash their chicken before cooking. I've never heard of that tbh but its not something to make fun of
I sometimes wash my apples or grapes with a small pump of soap lol I just feel like water doesn’t get all the grime off and it doesn’t leave a residue after it’s rinsed so I guess I’m Team Faleen?!
@Bretton Hutt I'm the psycho that scrapes the wax off the apples before my kids eat them, so who is to say what's weird or not? My feelings would be really hurt if my husband said, "What a really dumb way of doing things! My way, just lobbing an apple at the kids on their way out the door, is better!" then he made a poll about it, then a video which shamed me about it.
She really just pinterested “bullet journal” and then made every single one
Wait until she starts tracking how all of her bullet journals are going... this seems never ending 😂
You're right. She's missing the page where she tracks whether she journalled or not!
It will be short lived. The more pages she makes the sooner it'll end.
I’m dying 💀💀💀 she’s going to make a bullet journal to track all her journals !!!
Amberlynn is the kind of person to not use the back side of a page in a journal
"Dear Journey Journal, Today I'm writing on my journal, here I'm doodling a doodle of me going to write this journal entry. It didn't rain,"
@@lasskinn474what can be another thing she will write , she is at home, she knows nobody except faline, she does not learn anything new except tiktok bs. Omg what a life
How a journal can end when using back side and having no life
She gets through the journal quicker that way...so she can buy another!
That was me for a long time
I love bullet journal content and I need you all to know that it is NOT normal to have twenty daily trackers at the front of your journal. She’s gone completely off the rails.
Right??? I’m an AVID bujo participant and I have never seen it done this way haha just put the important stuff all on one tracker and toss the nonsense!
Is the "when do I wear makeup" a normal category? There is weight loss and mood tracking here and that's it. Just a bunch of the same topic over and over
I have no idea why but your comment made me laugh so hard 😂
I've made a mental health one where me and my counsellor looks at, I only have two trackers- mood tracker and medication tracker. That's it
@@little.miss.flawless.70 no. The most common ones are water trackers, sleep, mood, exercise, weight that kind of thing. They're usually split by the month though, it's impractical to flip all the way to the front of the journal every day
I'd have to fill out the crying tracker everyday because I'd be crying from filling out this journal
😂😂😂😂
OMG Amber pick ONE habit at a time! Are we taking bets on how quickly she abandons the journal? 😂
It’s January ninth the journal was abandoned about seven days ago 😂
giving it 3 weeks with missing days
I've said it probably took her longer to put the book together than she will actually stick with it.
They already aren't filled in. She just likes doodling.
I give it a week.
If Amber could spend the time she spent on this project doing some beginner workouts, she’d actually be making progress.
Seriously! The only thing not in that bullet journal is how long she worked out for or how many calories she burned.
100% if she gained some muscle mass by doing some easy exercises to start and then progress, her metabolism would increase
With all the different trackers you would think to put a calorie or exercise tracker 😂
She doesn't have to workout a lot or eat even a semi-restrictive amount of calories to lose weight. It's hard to remain consistent but at 500+ lbs it should be EASY to drop a lot of weight with a little bit of effort. Crazy.
Ive bullet journaled before, and there isn’t a wrong way of doing it really. But it’s usually done month by month, a way to plan and document your days. Let’s just say I’ve never seen a bullet journal like hers 😅
There isn't a wrong way to bullet journal but.....idk Amberlynn's way just FEELS wrong
I don't know... this doesn't really have any element of the actual bullet journaling system designed by Ryder Carroll, so... Not wrong, but also not bullet journaling. Annual trackers for a bunch of random things does not equal a bullet journal.
So, isn't the point of bullet journaling to have goals, plan for those goals, create mini goals and track your progress? She's literally created a journal to strictly track all her shitty days.
@@ArtCE47 yeah that's a good way to sum it up. Ryder says it's a tool to "Track the past, order the present, and design the future." there's a lot of reflection and adaptation that is a part of it so that it serves you as well as it can for what you need it to do. our gorl should add his book to her TBR! lmao
@@katzenfrau I noticed this! That she doesn't use ANY aspect of the original bullet journal system. So what about this is a bullet journal!
This worries me so much. Shes losing control of her life & this is clearly an attempt to control SOMETHING, ANYTHING. That’s why it’s overwhelming for us, but makes sense to her. It’s so sad at this point.
that’s why she controls her girlfriends too
That’s exactly what I was thinking!
*eating popcorn on the side lines while watching Becky's Ex continue to be a raging dumpster fire *
@@MalO.ver1.0.x please don’t compare her to me. i respect women and will never hurt one in any way, including emotionally
@@dumpsterfire3214 Many apologies. 😂
Yessss! I was just checking for you and here you are! Dreams do come true. Now I can color a smile box in my bullet journal!
This is what dreams are made of!!!
@@ZacharyMichael you are my Happy Place too! Snuggled up with my pup Floki, you, Judy and all the... hey, do you have a nickname for your YT tribe? "Besties"? I'm a relative new comer. 😘
But not a highlight! It has to be one or the other! 😅
@@skindeepwithjenniferbrennan hahaha I’m so confuzzled! Too many charts to chart. About to take a 7+ hour nap. 😂
For anyone curious, here is a full list of things that Amberlynn said she will track:
1. Weekly weigh-ins
2. Weight lost
3. Daily doodle
4. Hours slept
5. Sleep rating
6. Makeup tracker
7. When hair was brushed
8. Medicine
9. Anxiety
10. Energy level
11. Movement
12. Crying?
13. Takeout
14. Binge
15. On/off track
16. Nap
17. Hours worked?
18. Temperature
19. Weather
20. Productivity
21. How was your day rating
22. Mood
23. Rate your day (why is this in here twice??)
24. Weekly rating
25. Pages read
26. Book log (page number, book, thoughts, etc)
27. Monthly weight loss
28. Monthly UA-cam views
29. Monthly savings and checking (does she not have a bank account?)
30. Monthly sleep log
31. Subscriber log
32. Monthly water log
33. What made her smile today
34. Daily lowlight
35. Daily highlight
36. Tomorrows main goal
37. Chore tracker
omfg
I zoned out midlist.
@@patt335 bruv, same.
38. Track my trackers?
This is incredibly overwhelming, I have severe anxiety and love my lists, but this is way too many lists and she's setting herself up for failure. If she spends about 5 minutes per item, which is about average... this will take up 3 hours of her day!
Coloring a heart in a jar every time The Zachary Mike posts on youtube this year ✨
Omg so many hearts on the way!!!
I have questions:
1. When she gains the weight back, will she erase the hearts from the jar?
2. What if she takes a nap? Does it get added to the night sleep? Never mind.
3. She uses a pill organizer so you know if you took your meds.
4. For energy, what if she has no energy in the morning but more at night?
5. For crying, what if it’s fake-crying? Does that count?
6. What if it’s sunny in the morning and stormy at night?
7. I didn’t see a tracker for filling out the trackers. How will she know if she filled it out each day?
8. What are the consequences for failing to fill in the boxes?
😂😂
Not the image of her erasing the hearts from the jar with a tear rolling down her cheek
@@sarads7877 oop- better add that tear to the crybaby tracker bestie
YOU GET ONE MOOD A DAY
Will the jar get bigger when she gains weight I stead of loosing? 🫠
Please do not use soap to wash your grapes, or any other food for that matter. You can get soaps for cleaning food specifically. But water works perfectly fine. If you're particularly bothered by the concept of unclean food you can soak your food in a mixture of vinegar and water and it works great and doesn't ruin your food nor does it have any possibility for making you sick like using soap does.
I don't see how it's such a big deal if you wash it all the way off tho. Particularly if you're using dawn dish soap or sumn like that
@@lolwut6635 isn't your food gonna taste of soap though?
@@duck6100 do you eat your food with utensils off a plate and cook your things in cookware? Utensils and plate washed with you know with dish soap, specifcally made to not leave a taste or odor?
It's perfectly fine to do as long as you rinse it and will not make you sick and preferable if you use say imported oranges peel or something in cooking whereas solvents could soak into the fruit or something like dove could leave a residue.
@@lasskinn474 I think one main difference is that many foods can have porous surfaces while dishware does not. So the soap can just slide off the dishware when you rinse it but the skin or flesh of food can actually hold on to some of the soap particles.
You could use vinegar and or baking soda
I am so confused about who hears an alarm in their building and stays put inside the building. Especially someone with animals and mobility issues. That is so irresponsible
That's exactly what I was thinking! Also she didn't exactly show any other emergency vehicles so it seemed as if it was just the fire alarm going off and she just complained that it ruined the "vibe" of her birthday.
Didn’t mention once that she hoped everyone was ok / worried about a potential fire I’m baffled!
I thought she said, her and feline were standing on the porch when everything was going down, and the firefighters (or whoever) stopped and waved to them 😅😂. So I’m not sure why she’s talking about it as if she was terrified and didn’t know anything about the situation
The alarm goes off in my building sometimes because a lot of elderly people pull the fire alarm instead of calling 911 when they have issues, so it sort of desensitizes people to the fire alarm going off. Maybe the same situation with Amberlynn.
i can already hear amber in a couple weeks saying "the negative comments ruined bullet journaleen for me so that's why i quit, thank guise"
I’m very similar to Amber in this way of wanting to track and journal EVERYTHING. It’s because it gives the delusion of control. It makes you feel like you are making progress and really doing something (when in reality you’re just walking in circles). It often replaces actually taking action which is the only thing that will make a difference in life. In short, it’s a delusional that makes Amber feel in control of her life.
Remember that $80 planner from November that she had custom made? Like in my remembrance, we still haven’t seen her use it 😂. All these journals have me feeling overwhelmed for her.
I do remember!
Thank you! That was my first thought! This gorl is exhausteeeen, I swear.
what about the budget book she bought in the summer that we never saw again??
She did?! Let me go back and seeee bc I'm actually interested where she bought it from lmao.
@@strwbbshrtcke2822 I’m sure she’s storing her goddess bucks for weight loss surgery in there 😂
Things ALR should be tracking....
Gallbladder issues
Lymphodema results
A1c
Skin picking issues
Weight loss
Obtainable goals
Getting sunlight
Walking distance
I feel so bad for her, she is a 30 year old woman that acts like a 15 year old that is bullied and fails in everything she tries
Honestly, that may be why she gets so much more negativity now. Things that she did when she was in her early 20s are not as cute or quirky now that she's 30. Her original audience would have aged up as well and no longer be interested in things she vlogs about. Add to that, she's aged out of the youth demographic so the younger audience might be finding her unrelatable.
I agree but do not feel bad because she could work on herself but just flops all over the place.
But does she try though? That’s the thing. Keto was working. She lost weight fairly quickly during her brief rendezvous with keto. And promptly quit because she missed fatty carbs. And used her gallbladder as an excuse. Which it wasn’t. Fatty carbs are harder on the gallbladder than a high protein diet. I almost punched the wall when she gave up on that. That was working. And now instead she’s back on some bs food pyramid high carb calorie counting nonsense. Which doesn’t work. Ever.
@@BeckBeckGo Keto is not high protein though. It's moderate protein, high fat, and too much fat can affect gallstones, especially what she was eating. She wasn't having avocados and olive oil as her fats, it was ranch and other stuff.
Really, don’t feel too badly.
I’m surprised she doesn’t have a “how many times Zachary Michael reacted to my videos” section in that bullet journal 😂💀
bullet journal user here- having THAT many trackers can actually deter you from using your bullet journal because it gets overwhelming when you have to go back over what you did that day / the day before, and it's a LOT of remembering. In my journal, I try to condense it to book reading, tarot readings, working on my book, and hygiene (because I struggle with personal hygiene). I bet amber's gonna come back next month when people want to see her February spreads that she's gonna say "It just got SO overwhelming and I couldn't use it anymore, so I stopped" and pull out something about losing motivation to work on it and then blame it on the haydurs or on her viewers for insulting it / putting her down / whatever. she cannot be trusted!
I'm actually surprised so didn't buy $100 of washi tape and stamps/ink.
@@Santiago-in1xf lol yeah but lets be real she's probably waiting to buy them for her next target / walmart haul or something
I have a planner for budget and one for wellness(they aren't bullet journals because I'm too ADHD for that, I need something created and structured) The wellness planner you track your habits daily, but only a week at a time and you can only fit 4(I do 80 oz of water, work out, skin care and no eating out) But, it's nice cause I can change it week by week.
Just the thought of tracking 556 things makes me feel INSANE!
She did do too much. And it should be a monthly spread for her trackers not yearly. That way she can see trends. She’s just overexcited. Keep it simple!
1000% she needs to add Ryder Carroll's book to her TBR, because this is NOT bullet journaling. I also track personal hygiene (washing my hair) to help manage my depression! She just needs to pick ONE thing and take it ONE week at a time and go from there. Alas... it's just from extreme to extreme for our gorl.
Start writing the memorial for the bullet journal now. I'm ready for the service.
The way she has to over quantify everything in her life is so concerning.
I think it's just another addiction for her, honestly. Anything to distract her from dire situation, she'll do. Instead of actually putting in the work to better herself and life.
If she’s for real and not trolling then yes this is quite concerning.
As a bullet journalling aficionado, I have to point out the logistical issues with her trackers.
Look at all the different colours she has for her trackers. Upwards of 10 on the mood spread alone. This means that she needs to, on a daily basis:
1) Be able to readily identify the colour that she used for each category
2) Find the pen/marker/etc that matches that category (hope she doesn't forget or misplace that colour!)
3) Actually fill in the planner
For EACH AND EVERY PAGE. This is truly insane. I make monthly habit/mood trackers but I use 5 colours at most. This is so ridiculous and this bullet journal is never getting filled in, period.
YES!!! I noticed all the different colors, too!! It would be hard enough to just write down one thing for each of the 280 trackers, but to find the correct corresponding color?!? absolutely not. ugh i think she would actually benefit from bullet journaling, but she needs the og system from Ryder Carroll. not whatever the hell this is lmao
i just use a pen for my trackers. if something gets done it gets a check mark ✔️. some things have different letters to signify different things. but it's gotta be simple for me. however, i do like using metallic gel pens to make it more fun when checking things off daily lists lol
Some of the colours are super similar too. I'm not sure how nice it'll look when she fills those in and they're so similar you might not notice the difference at first.
It looks so stressful
You're right! All those colors will become confusing & overwhelming. I also bullet journal but I always keep a simplistic monthly color theme. 2 colors max & different pen line patterns for tracking. Diagonal stripes, ex's, fill ins, etc. It keeps the amount of pens needed to a minimum..bullet journals are supposed to be helpful, not daunting.
Omg this woman needs serious in-patient help. I’m honestly scared for her. Time is running out fast, and she’s wasting it on silly journals!
Watch letiddy lol amber is good compared to her 🤣
Kindergarten time for ALR
I was thinking the same thing. If she is genuinely worried about her gallbladder and also wants to lose weight, she needs to realize that she’s been trying for years and nothing is working. She needs to be forced out of the bad habits (well, forced by checking herself in for a couple of months, but you get what I’m saying). Edit because autocorrect sucks.
@@samanthaecotothermia7896 she can't do voluntary inpatient. she'd rage the f out of there in 2 days flat because they don't know her bodyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
only chance is to get locked up by violating some law by accident or on purpose go smash a cop car with a hammer or something.
Sadly I think she’s gonna end up like LifebyJen really soon
She should have made a journal page to track how often she tracks what she's tracking everyday
Apparently EmpathLynn broke her sympathy bone, because the presumably serious emergency of someone in her building was only relevant as an annoyance to her. ThrivEEEEN!
B-but it was her birthday! She had to wake up and hear that commotion on her birthday!!😢 where’s OUR sympathy bone for poor Ambs!!!
i always want to buy a planner every year bc i also love the idea of being an organized girly, but then i realize how repetitive my days are, so there’s no point lmao. i’d be writing work, cook dinner, clean, and do laundry 800 times in a row. 😂
I was rejected by a guy on Saturday after a great date because he said I wasn't hard enough to get. which I think is dumb and it hurt my feelings. so I'm here for upbeat vibes. 😆
His loss girl
You're right. It's dumb. I've had something similar happen and it's hurtful and confusing. Like we're accused of being game players and when you don't you accused of not playing hard to get. It's pathetic
Lucky break for you. Sounds like dude is too unnecessarily complicated!
Imagine a life playing games with that fool and count your blessings to be done already! You’re worth so much more than that nonsense!
I’ve learned to take first dates with a grain on salt and the positive is a free meal lol. I’ll let the guy contact me after and most can’t be bothered to keep up with good communication. Once they meet you and get what they want they move on. Think of the free food queen
I'm not a journaler, I'm completely disorganized and I would have no idea how to set this up, but one thing I do know - this is not it 😂 Having to flip flop amongst random pages to find what you have to fill in daily, weekly and monthly sounds insane. Also I feel like the habit trackers should be in the same realm as the mood tracker so you can directly see how your mood is affected by your habits. This stressed me the fck out.
The book...review...thing just thrown in in between five mood trackers and a monthly weigh-in chart just scrambles my brain so much.
Forreal, this seemed so chaotic…
Like she had a page dedicated to the quality of her sleep at the beginning, and then another page where she’s supposed to write down at what time she went to bed etc like, 10 pages later…
Sis just put everything sleep related together, you left a shit tone of blank space, there’s room
There is no way in hell she makes it a WEEK completing all those damn trackers
That bullet journal proves she has no life… who has time for that?! Girl go take a walk! Why isn’t walking on the tracker?!
Especially tracking now many times she cries 😊
She needs a bullet journal ,To keep track of her bullet journal.
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Lmao
Dude this killed me 💀💀💀
Bahaha
Love Love ur comment 💓 u just made me laugh so deeply!
I think she just enjoys finding something to do. That’s why scratch art, constant journaling, Legos and eating. When you stay home 78% of the time y’all got to find something to do.
98%
"I can read 25 books a month."
My eyes rolling hurt me with this sentence.
Right that still has me reeling, like are we counting individual manga novels as a "book"? Because I could blow through those in 15 min
I mean some people can. I used to read two novels a day in high school trying to be top reader. 😂
well she would have enough time to do it, but it has a "I know how to lose weight" vibe to it.
That's about the amount that I read. 1ish per day. (Which I track in my bullet journal, because I can't remember the titles when I'm looking for the book to gift or reread later.)
But I live alone and have a long commute, so I have an audiobook playing in my ear 8-10 hours per day.
@@Camphorous so you're listening to them, not reading
BTY- that bullet journal looks like it was meant for people with really bad memory like Alzheimer's and it would be helpful to have a list of daily things that need to be done. Notice she didn't have showers anywhere so no showers for her in 23.
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She doesn’t even know what actual bullet journaling is... this ain’t it!!
she would definitely benefit from reading the bullet journal method instead of just finding shit on tiktok
@@dallasmarie9325 exactly, she needs to add Ryder Carroll's book to the top of her TBR 😂
to be fair this is part of it but yeah if she looked at more than one source she might find some better ways of using it
@@deasphodel3700 she would, but we're talking about researchLynn, here, sooo... 😅
The problem for her is you have to have things to do to use the actual bullet journal method. I just want to see the $80 18 month planner she bought!
I’d be so upset and hurt if my partner made fun of me publicly online for any reason. The grape thing made me sad
I’m a sensitive bb
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I don't like amber but tbh that was only a joke I would find it funny, it is a weird thing to do lol
The fact that her building was on fire and they sat there like "huh what" is so embarrassing
it takes a special kind of stupid to see a firetruck, hear a fire alarm and still not know what's up
"There were these really loud alarms all throughout the building"
You mean the fire alarms Amber? The alarms that indicate you need to leave because there's a fire?!
I've literally never heard of anyone who sits inside while their fire alarms go off especially when there's firetrucks outside.
On top of not realizing the could ask the apartment manager after the fact
Maybe she was waiting to be rescued 🤣🤣🤣🤣
@@ScarsFromTomorrow1 literallly and on one of her Q/A instagram stories she said that the firefighter waved at her and something else she said. But I’ve typically not seen firefighters waving to people when their on the job I feel like it was a come outside wave or like get out one not a smile and wave one idk
I’m case anyone is wondering, this is what bipolar mania looks like for some people. This won’t last long, once she is out of her manic episode she will get depressed and stop doing the journal.
BESTIE! You know that ChefLynn’s special twist is garlic powder, onion powder, and several different kinds of Mrs. Dash.
i assumed it was tapatio!
AND THEN WE NEVER SAW IT AGAIN
Are we going to ruin this for her too? 😆 Or will the excessive bullets just like way too much? Are we journal shaming? Will we find the answers to these questions? Stay tuned til next Monday to find out. These are the Days of Our Lives
😂 😂 Stopp
Journal shaming 😂😂
I wish she still lived in a house so she could get into gardening or something. She would like all of the planning that goes into it, plus there's an end goal that she's working towards. Mostly I feel like a small reason she's so into these journals and planning is because she generally does nothing all day and no matter who you are that has to get boring, especially with how long she's been doing it. It would benefit her a lot to get a hobby that's not just buying things.
I can only garden for a few months out of the year. It is my happy place. I have four children, and a full time job. Other hobbies, but gardening is absolutely the most calming, rewarding hobby I have. I get my kids involved too
I even harvest all the seeds and dry them to plant the following season. So it's just getting better with time. I'm also learning how and where to plant things so they grow best, moving things the next year for a better color scheme.
I wanna dig up part of my back yard and put my vegetable garden there and just have flowers in the front.
Honestly typing this, I think I might be obsessed lol.
Yeah but gardening is exercise so she'd never do that. I mean not to be a 'hater' but amber doesn't even walk a length down the road, never mind lifting seedling trays and digging with a trowel/ taking up topsoil if she needs to
@@eleanormason2647 she could start knitting or crocheting, that requires no exercise. But I guess she would just buy 200 balls of yarn and never actually learn how to do it.
@@eleanormason2647 yeah gardening was just the first thing I thought of, I mostly just mean something she can do throughout the day that would give her something more productive to do than build legos or watch tv
@@itssaraheli although at the very least gardening is an activity that isn't a 'workout,' so she could maybe trick herself into doing it more, because she wouldn't be thinking of herself as exercising
Ambers bullet journal = her sitting in the office cosplaying adulthood
Imagine you're over 30 and need to track how often you brush your hair. I can't. She did that.
She surely did bestie 😊
Also just now making mashed potatoes from scratch. Wow mashed potatoes
I was just waiting for your reaction to the bullet journal nonsense.
The wait is over kitten
an alarm was blaring for an hour and they just sat there in their apartment wondering what was going on. absolutely wild.
you know she's gonna fill out that journal "intuitively" for a week then it's gonna go on a shelf next to that mammoth custom journal she showed just before the holidays
crazy how for the grape situation amberlynn was like “OMG????? that’s fucking CRAZY😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 THATS NOT NORMAL 🤯🤯🤯🤯” bc it’s not her but she’s use very fiber of her body to defend the cooking spray…..
This is the goofiest Amber video in a LONG time and I’m obsessed. I needed this nonsense today, thank you Zach 🙏🏻
You should totally do this exact journal for a month.
I have been bullet journaling for years now, and watching Amberlynn flip through hers made me feel insane, I can't wait to watch your reaction to it Zach so I can feel less alone in my own emotional reaction towards watching her absurdity
Same- I’m over here like girl this is just a tracker journal. A cry tracker? I lost it.
@@yelhsaboll I just started the video and now I can’t wait for the friggen cry counter 😆
The funniest bit? It’s months later and we’ve neither seen or heard about this since! 😂
I just found the video and wondered if she ever showed it in the past 7 months 😂
@@brittanykay51It’s now 2024 and we never saw the bullet journal again 😂
What you said about her loving the idea of having a plan without actually following through with it is so true.
I am happy for her. She spent probably 3 days creating pages for a journal she will never complete. At least she completed making the charts I guess.
Planning is very fun; going through with it is not
I use a bullet journal! I love mine. They are great for my anxiety and depression. I use it as a planner and a daily checklist. They help me make sure I am taking my meds and keep track of things like how much sleep I am getting. The key to them tho is that the more work it is to fill it out the less likely you are to keep it up.
yeah same here. she needs to try actual bullet journaling which will help her figure out what couple things make sense for her to track... one day, one week at a time. and then she needs to REFLECT and change what needs to change and tailor it to her needs. that's literally the whole point of bullet journaling. not whatever Amber is doing here.
So she says she wants to start brushing her hair everyday. And in the next breath, says it's OK if she goes a day or three without doing so. This is why she fails at everything. She always gives herself an out. Jeesh. I didn't track my reading this much when I was prepping for my dissertation.
She needs all of this because it's 53 weeks in January, according to our gorl Amber.
😂 thought I. Was trippin
@@gxldxn 😂😂😂
53 sundays 😂
THE MORE SHE TURNED THE PAGE THE MORE I KEPT LOOSING MY SHIT I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD OMFG. Made my day FR
every new tracker felt like one of those russian dolls where i was like “surely there won’t be another one” and then another one appeared XD XD XD
Not the matryoshka trackers 😭
🤣🤣the nesting dolls 🪆 😂yes!
Not Amber Lynn the Russian doll of bullet journaling 😝
She's got a lot of time on her hands and needs a sense of purpose and control. That's what's going on.
Amber only does enough to give herself the illusion of progress and this video is evidence of that
The alarm was sounding throughout the whole entire complex and she stayed in her apartment looking out the window. What the?
Imagine if she kept track of her healthy, low sodium meals… blood sugar (ahem), and 5k+ steps per day….
As a nurse, something I hear patients taking ozempic for diabetes control complain about is the lack of hunger…. Maaaaaaybe ALR enjoys being hungry a bit too much.
I to this day will never understand why she stopped ozempic. It is the only thing that has ever allowed her to lose weight.
I have a student who started to bullet journal about 2 years ago, in order to be more productive. But all she did was decorate the journal and never did what the bullets said… And I can for sure see Amber going that route
Speaking of kindergarten and tracking the weather, my first grade class had a cry jar for any student that cried. This whole bullet journal is definitely giving preschool - 1st grade vibes. I also learned to brush my hair every day before kindergarten too, I’m pretty sure.
i’m with you for the most part but not taking care of your hair can be a symptom of depression, whether that be not brushing or washing. either way, we both know her priorities are definitely in the wrong place when it comes to these journals
Also how to leave during a fire alarm
A cry jar? That seems really insensitive, and kind of messed up to do to a child
My cry jar is full 😭
@@Kbaby8.9 It was for the whole class not one particular student, but yes, it was a long time ago and wouldn’t be done today. My point was that tracking tears is silly and childish.
DID I BINGE?!! is a terrible idea 💡 🙄 BECAUSE she will look at that and say... Wow, feline, I didn't binge today. Let's go out and celebrate with ice cream 🍦 AND Olive Garden. 🤯😳 We will be watching Zachary Michael watching Amber lynn talk about how she didn't give up on her journal 🙄😶 She stopped BC it was bad for her eating disorder. Hold on, folks I think we are heading for "journal gate" 🤣🙏
I licherally just finished AF’s recap of ALR’s video since you hadn’t posted a reaction to it yet lmao. Can’t wait to hear your thoughts on her insane journal and the grape washing!
I'm a big ol journaler/planner but holy shit that journal is immediately giving me sensory overload. i cannot imagine filling out all that shit every day
This is the funniest thing to come out of the Amberverse in a while.
I know everyone deals with things differently, but, if I tried to have to keep up with all those trackers, I’d end up throwing the whole journal out 😂😂
Already taking bets that the little twist was a combo of garlic and onion powder, Pam spray, and Tapatio 😌
I’ve seen this exact comment like ten times as I’ve been scrolling through the comments, our gorl is too predictable 😂
@@AmandaBabyyyyy hahaha same! I posted mine and then saw so many saying exactly the same things 😂
I can only picture the journal being useful for someone in prison, if you felt like your days were running together and endlessly redundant… needing a way to show yourself there was variety over the days, months, and years. And I think even maybe someone in prison wouldn’t have enough time or energy to keep up with all this tracking.
That’s the market! You found it, she can sell to inmates! My cry tracker would be full 😔 😂
I think she loves the idea of checking and filling things out more than learning from it.
imo, she’s turning mundane things into trackers because she doesn’t do anything and the idea of filling in boxes makes her feel a false sense of accomplishment that she isn’t able to get elsewhere in life because she doesn’t leave her house other than to go to Walmart. it’s sad to know that this planner will likely not get filled out past February and she’ll just continue to stay cooped up in her apt self-sabotaging and not making any progress. I truly hope she proves me wrong though.
I came to an understanding with myself today. I'm getting genuinely angry with Amber. I've been watching for years. At first it was motivation for myself, but prolonged exposure to her personality changed that. It took me a long time myself to accept my own faults and self sabotage. In the last month I have lost 30 pounds with the help of my doctor, medication, and therapist. It's been the easiest weight loss journey I've been on in my life thus far. I reached the point where I put in the time to fix my core issues and now I'm on the other side and able to start reaching goals. I feared I would end up like Amber. Content to live my life of misery because I've never know anything else. A prepetual victim of my own choices because of the past I refused to work through. Projecting issues onto others and lashing out when others try to help, and then again when they slowly grow to resent me. I feared I would spend my life in my bed getting fatter, jaded, and unbearable. That the people in my life would slowly distance themselves, eventually cut me off, and leave me to be alone in the world because I couldn't show them I was worth being apart of their life. That someday i would wake up and look in the mirror and see nothing redeamable about myself, so i made the choice to try. To just look into some help, try a little bit, and then discard it all as not working after a few months. However, constant communication, self reflection, and an eventual desire to show myself my own love really changed things. I found the right people, I started being honest, I took my therapist as seriously as she took me, and for the first time in a very long time the idea of dying young actually scared me. What I learned today, watching this reaction, is that I think I'm ready to finally start growing past Amber all together. I hate her more than Chantol, who I only get updates on every once in a while just to see how far she managed to push the negatuve outlier of her life. Amber kills me in a different way. Amber sucks everything good out of me. Chantal is so outrageous and crazy. Shes easy to dismiss and laugh at for me as she quickly decends into her ultimate form of a radical, codependent, unthinking, egotistical pos. I think more and more about Amber because shes essentially the same. At this point I'm starting to wonder if having anything to do with Amber and Chantal is worth the anger it brings up in me. I wonder if watching them at this point, mostly Amber who this is 98% about, is just becoming a form of mental self harm. I listen to her gaslight me, spin circles, play the victim, shame me for having questions, say that as a reaction Chanel consumer that I am her problem to her core, say that her life is bad because of things I DO for simply watching, makeing me constantly question my own memories and reality, and her refusal to look at the reality of her own gross codependent situation. I think I'm allowing Amber too much power over my life just because she's going to die before 45 and i was scared I was too. My anger towards her is my own problem, so watching her while knowing I'm gonna burst a blood vessel is just... Self mental anguish of my own doing, right? It feels like it must be? I'm going to try dumping her like I did FB. Just a check in every once in a while to see if she's still crazy, or dead yet. Maybe I should draw a broken sympathy bone for Amber in my bullet journal for every year she lived when she dies from a heart attack herself, or she looses a foot that went blue a year ago and not getting medical help because... well, no one cares. Not even her, or people that tell her they love her.
first, congrats on your current and ongoing journey for health and personal development! I'm so glad (even as a complete stranger) that you're doing everything you can to thrive, not just survive. I have always struggled with depression and excess weight, as well, and I can see how watching the gorls can be detrimental to one's mental health. they (and their struggles) are relatable, for some of us more than others. and that's okay.
and i get why ALR is more maddening than FB because ALR is still way more relatable, and she isn't an unquestionably disgusting, complete trash excuse for a human like FB. don't get me wrong, ALR is pretty bad, but i think she still has the (smallest) potential for redemption. FB, not so much, not even a little bit.
i think it really shows strength for you to recognize this is Not serving you, and it's time to step away. you have to do what serves you, ALWAYS. you need your health and sanity more than the gorls need your views! you got this!! keep it up, and remember you're not alone!!
Thank you for sharing this. Wish you all the best 💗
I reacted in horror to that bullet journal. It was the most neurotic thing I have ever seen, and I fail to see what if any value she would get out of compulsively tracking all of those stats.
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I was waiting for her Breathing tracker page..." this is the number of breaths I took throughout the day.." 😂
The fact that she had all the time in the world to write out this journal just goes to show that she has no excuse for not taking the time to work towards her weight loss and mental health. Obviously she’s had a ton of time on her hands all these years
"That is a sleep. You went to bed." was so funny to me, oh my goodness 😆
Zachary Michael: The therapist/life coach we don't deserve and never knew we needed 😌😂
Not a therapist at all! I do not have those kind of skills lol