I’ve just lost my mind watching Stephen’s last video. I didn’t get it before, the break up etc but now I do. Please continue on your journey Laura, you’re doing so good in this new chapter. X
He seems to be dangerously delusional. I think his music is amazing, but I'd like to know who put it in his mind to start doing automatic writing? It's been completely debunked, your subconscious mind does the writing, but now he thinks God is writing the words and sending him messages. I wish he would go and see Dr. Amen!
Dear Laura, you brought me to tears… as I could feel your vulnerability… it was a beautiful and healing thing to share. A great gift for us all. You are loved.
It’s easy to swing between mania and depression when you’re living in crisis mode with someone who is TRULY experiencing those swings. Stephen clearly is experiencing a dangerous manic episode, and watching you cope is heartbreaking as a fellow mom. I hope you can fully break free and heal from his ups and downs.
I grew up very thin as well, eating half my friends lunches! Thank you for talking about this. So many people get “offended” when I discuss my weight struggles, as though it’s so great to be underweight. Honestly, it’s the same if you can’t gain 10 needed pounds as the person who can’t loose it no matter how hard they try. If anyone gives you negative comments about this, ignore it. Thank you for talking about it!
Same for me. Even after having five kids I stay around 110 and eat everything in sight! I never saw bullying skinny people and different from bullying someone with a larger body. It still hurts and I don’t like when people comment on my weight
thats crazy u said that... im currently trying to gain 10 pounds. lol. i lost a lot of weight and now i want to gain 10 back but its harder than i thought.
I was severely underweight after I had my third child. No matter how much I ate, I was ravenous and couldn’t gain weight. I became so tired of people commenting on my weight. “You don’t look healthy! Are you eating enough?” It took all of my impulse control to smile and nod and remember that their concern was love based. It’s never appropriate to comment on someone’s size or weight.
@@lorikegler5587 it’s the worst when you’re pregnant and people assume you’re abusing your unborn child because you are thin by saying “make sure you’re eating that baby needs you to eat” 🙄 oh because my arms and legs are skinny you don’t see this HUGE baby bump. People need to mind their biz
You are not bipolar I think you had a normal reaction because we are all tied to our phones. I will freak out when I don’t have my phone, It’s a natural reaction. I’m glad ur works again. That’s awesome. Keep dancing. I think that’s therapy for the soul.🎉
I also know that "this is supposed to be funny" but you know what? I love the depth! I love seeing you as a whole human! I love being able to relate to the funny AND the not at all funny. Just keep doing you because I'm not the only one who thinks this.
You bring up a good point in that we truly are dependent on these phone devices. Having recently been without my phone for a week, it was actually very difficult to function, especially since I was cut off from my emotional support base, and it sent me into an emotional spiral. It gad never occurred to me that I was so dependent on my phone, but I am. I think that you are doing well and that you are an amazing woman, and you are so strong, so beautiful inside and out. You are a wonderful person and I am so proud of you and I'm grateful that you take the time to upload and share your experiences with others. Thank you Laura!
Love you Laura.This definitely sounds like ADHD overwhelm.Which I think you mentioned you have before?I have ADHD myself and can totally relate to moments like this.Remember to be kind to yourself ❤️
When I see your weekly post I LITERALLY can’t get to it fast enough. I relate to you on so many levels and appreciate your openness. Proud of you always Laura ❤and we’re all in this shit together ✊
I like your sweater. It looks cozy. I don’t think you have an eating problem. A lot of people lose weight when they have anxiety, including myself. I remove myself from situations that cause me to lose weight. If I’m a healthy weight in a relationship effortlessly, it’s a good sign. Losing weight in any situation is a red flag and your body’s way of telling you to get out of an unhealthy situation.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder around 8 years ago. They tried so many different medications and they all SUCKED. After years of struggling I found a great psychiatrist and found out that I had been misdiagnosed and I actually have borderline personality disorder with extreme adhd. Once I got the right diagnosis I was able to manage my life better. I wish you nothing but the best!!
I was diagnosed bipolar in one phone call! Had me all fucked up..on antipsychotics for a while. Went to a new therapist and she said I was absolutely not because I’d never been hospitalized. 🤦♀️
Makes me sad to see the pain in your eyes. You've got this my friend! One step forward at a time. Even if it feels like 2 steps back at times that one step forward counts. I can't tolerate relate with the anxiety but mine is the opposite problem 🙃 as far as weight goes. Sending lots of love!
No, I am a bipolar widow, losing my husband of 23 yrs to the disorder. I know this disorder well and have worked with many specialists. My late husband was bipolar. He never missed a day of work, and he only had no sleep once during his frequent mania. It is incorrect to think one can't be bipolar because they don't sleep or can't get out of bed. Those extremes don't define bipolar, and only a small percentage of those with the diagnosis account for those extreme incidents. Many have bipolar and never experience not getting out of bed, or being up all night. I take bipolar info put out seriously because that disorder cost me the most important person ion my life and so much incorrect info is spread about it.
I so appreciate your voicing all of these things. So many people struggle with these bouts of extreme anxiety. I can be in a good place mentally and suddenly a trigger or traumatic experience will launch me into these times where I ask myself "Am I sane? Am I loosing it?" It makes me hyper fixate on one thing like you did with the phone. I'm told that's very typical of people with anxiety and ADHD. I know it feels so heavy sometimes and it is. Also it will pass. Laura you are loved. You got this. No matter what. You have got this.
Everyone transfers their own experiences to others. So do I. You have to see if it suits you. I felt similar to you because of my untreated ADHD. Venlafaxine, an SNRI antidepressant, helped me at the lowest dose. Methylphenidate helps others. Maybe you need something like this too. I've always been able to function to some extent, but my balance was very fragile. And the crash when something threw me off balance just wasn't in proportion to the trigger. I did yoga, meditated, tried to mentally stabilize myself, but in the end it was the medication that saved me from these total emotional crashes. And since I also had two young children, both with ADHD, I had to find a way to be more stable. They needed me! And it worked. 😊 Feel hugged, dear Laura.
If you ever get locked out again, immediately call Apple (if you have an iPhone), and tell them you forgot your password. You can reset it, and write it down somewhere in case you forget it again. I’ve done that twice. Works like a charm. If you keep entering the incorrect password they think you have a stolen phone, but if they see just one failed attempt they are more likely to help you asap. You are not bipolar. You’ve had the foundations of your life shaken all to hell, so of course you’re rattled. Anyone who comments on anyone’s weight needs to just shut up. Completely inappropriate. You are beautiful, inside and out. Love to you and yours.
There's a huge difference between bipolar I and II. I can totally see bipolar II In Laura 💯. It's not a horrible thing! Please don't confuse this with multiple personality disorder. (AKA split personality).. many with bipolar manage just fine, especially type II. ✌️
Growing up a tall "skinny" person, it's crazy how much shit and abuse we take for being thin. Horrible crap. I feel you and think you are amazing for who are you and how you look!!
I got locked out of my phone back when I had like an iPhone 3. I was carrying it around in my hand while shopping constantly (unknowingly) locking myself out more & more. By the end I was locked out for over 1 million minutes. I was so shocked. I threw the phone in a drawer & bought a new one. Found the phone years later and that became my kid’s first phone.
I’m going through something similar with life and it just hit and the eating is something I’m getting I’ve only ate once a day and barely anything when I do literally forcing myself 😢 traumatic events do cause that and you’re not unhinged it’s life but we’ll make it through day by day. I truly appreciate you for being so open and talking to us about this cause I’ll be listening and I’m like omg this is me rn and it just feels good to know we’re not alone when we feel we are
I was locked out of my phone back I 2020 & I couldn't figure out why because I didn't have a pass code. Had never had one. Lost a lot of pictures of my grandchildren when I had to wipe out everything. It had all backed up on cloud but somehow those pics disappeared! Guess what showed up on my phone about 5 months later? Those pics! So strange😳 When my husband had lost a lot of weight he started drinking carnations high protein drinks. It helped him tremendously! I think of you Laura when I am driving home from work. I look forward to your & Stephen's videos. I admire you so much! You are going to be ok. I just know it! Always turn to us here. We won't judge you. We have always had our own little tics from time to time. Stress will have that effect. If people do judge you, eff em! You are doing your best! With love & admiration ~Cynthia
I appreciate how real you are. Knowing that other women have the same problems IS therapy. I love you so much Laura. You help me through so much your podcasts are the shit. This too shall pass❤
Never apologize for being you. Do what you know is best for you and that is all that matters. Thank you for bringing us into your life like you have been. You are an inspiration to me and have helped me through so many dark dark days. Looking forward to seeing more of your videos and hearing your story. Lots of love and positive vibes to you ❤️
I wish I could give you a BIG hug! I love you and all the content you do. YOU ARE REAL and that's bad ass! Keep your chin up my friend! Your friend in Kingman, Arizona
The other day my husband and I left home together but, forgot our phones. He was worried. I was the voice of reason. I said, it's going to be ok. People used to do this all the time and they were fine. 😄
Bipolar and lithium was the 10 minute diagnosis I got too. Thank god I refused the diagnosis and did hardcore time in therapy first. My therapist was an angel and tracked my highs and lows which followed the pattern of my cycle. In comes the PMDD diagnosis. Life changing.
Sorry for my unhelpful comments on Facebook about gaining weight. I should know better. Sorry to hear you've been struggling lately. Can totally relate to your drive to the mall... keep being you and saying it out lowd. You are the total boss of you. ..Laura Clarey is such a together person.
I very much relate to what you’re saying. I struggle with eating because my anxiety triggers my fight flight freeze response. I have good weeks and I have bad weeks. You saying “this too shall pass. “is a good reminder for me as well. I also remind myself to be gentle to myself, and to treat me with the same kindness, forgiveness, and grace as I treat others.
Thanks for sharing, Laura. It’s healthy to speak it. “Your secrets keep you sick” is something I have heard in recovery a lot, and the older I get, the more that really sinks in and makes sense. The eating thing may have been dormant in you, and triggered recently by feelings of extreme anxiety and lack of control. Just keep doing the next right thing, and you will make it through these tough times.
Laura look up ARFID, I am going through the same exact thing with my weight and I recently found out about ARFID and I think that might be whats going on with me. When I'm stressed my throat just doesn't want to swallow food and I just don't really get hungry. I forget to eat a lot (taking care of 2 kids too doesn't help that 🤣 I know u know what I mean). I don't care much about how I look, I dont worry about gaining weight or put much thought into that stuff so I never considered an actual eating disorder. I'm so sick of people shaming me becuase of it, saying I look like a skeleton or to go eat a burger. I don't shame other people for their weight or what they look like so it shouldn't be happening to anyone.
Anger is real. We acknowledge sadness, we acknowledge happiness, we .... But it is ok to be pissed when you need to be. Lots of love and strength mama.
When my partner and I split up my appetite vanished also. My body reacts the same when I'm under high stress or in fear about something. Please don't beat yourself up, it's a normal reaction. I also relate to the phone dependence. I've recently started my own small business and it's necessary for me to be present on Insta, FB etc and I absolutely HATE it but it's the only way to help get my brand out there and generate sales. I can't stand social media and some days resent that I'm forced to use it because of how much it's infiltrated society. I wish I also lived in the woods, just doing my own thing and truly being free. Everything you've said here today is so relatable. Be kind to yourself, we do what we need to do to tolerate surviving in this F'd up world.
I’m in my 60s and I can relate to most everything you said here. But it breaks my heart to see our adult children constantly looking at their phones. I myself spend to much time on my phone or iPad-when alone- but I avoid it when I’m around others, especially our visiting kids and grandkids. It’s a sad thing if we aren’t connecting to those who matter while in their presence. I hope you can wean yourself from the non-essential uses of your phone and really be there for those you love the most. Sounds like you’re on your way. Your kiddos need all of you now more than ever. I’ve also been struggling with anxiety in the last 15 years, worse since a health scare a few years ago. It’s really affected my appetite, and I’ve always been slim to start with. I have to force myself to eat some days. I watch a lot of cooking videos to rev up my appetite. Thank you for mentioning your sponsor, Athletic Greens, I’ll be checking out their products! Be well.
I was misdiagnosed as bipolar for several years and later found out it was inaccurate and my emotional lability was from undiagnosed ADHD. I was surprised to find out how many women get misdiagnosed with bipolar when they are actually struggling with undiagnosed ADHD.
It's crazy how we have so many similar stories.. My first interaction with a psychiatrist was when I was a teen & it went very similar. I always say the same thing “I was at one point diagnosed with bi polar but he spoke entirely to my mom which set me off and then he diagnosed me like how the f*** is that possible lol”
That’s what I was going to say. I’m also bipolar. They just jump and diagnose. They don’t spend time with you. It’s this diagnosis, and on too the next.
I did this 😂😂😂. I accidentally put my phone on that setting blind people use. I couldn’t figure it out so I kept accidentally calling emergency services. Phone was locked and cops calling over and over. I had a full-blown panic attack. Then I realized I don’t actually need my phone to live. It’s so funny what you said about your kids because I do the same thing. Anytime I get upset about anything. I remind myself that my kids are alive and healthy and I have no right to complain.
I dropped my phone and it’s sim card died. I was without phone for a day and a half. It was an anxious hell. But I also had a sense of freedom and grounding when I realized it was gone for that day. Just hang in there. A-lot of people drop a-lot of weight when they are traumatized. As I feel you have been dealing with. Much love to you.❤❤❤
I have heard MORE women say how uncomfortable it makes them when someone makes a comment about their weight than saying nothing at all. And they always think their doing a good thing. Can we just STOP mentioning other peoples weight ALTOGETHER? Thanks. Proud of you Laura. All we can do is hang on right? My hands are killing me.
I understand about no appetite and fight or flight mode,,I am like that alot..I am sorry you are struggling and also appreciate your honesty and transparency, Laura..Thank you for sharing...Much love,hugs and positive vibes..
It’s pretty common in the ADHD community for especially women who have it to be misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder. Adult ADHD is still so misunderstood.
I wish I could just hug it all away. Sending love and hugs 🥰🥰 Please don't apologize for being you! I appreciate all aspects of you. Thank you for sharing. I'm also in a momma bear season. I'm trying to be present and remember thoughts are just concepts, not reality but it's tough
I found you on Facebook during your Howland era and have stuck around through your life metamorphosis into a mom and stuck with you through the contest change me being a husband/father. I always have enjoyed what you produce. I read both of your books and got a lot out of it. And your podcast listeners. Listen for you. If you want to be funny, be funny if you want to be serious be serious. We are here for you not just laughs. One thing I did want to say about Stephen is I am worried he is turning into a cult leader. I used to watch his videos by can no longer is getting too weird for me. And his comment section is like a bunch of Faithful mindless followers. That’s all ,enjoyed this podcast.
I think we all have anxiety too..especially when things like this happen. I’ve suffered from anxiety, depression and panic attacks for most of my life. Our phones are our lifelines now. Also..I love you! I found you with the Pamela pumpkin video and have loved you since!!
Mania isn’t anxiety. With mania you have an incredible increase in energy and a grandiose feeling that makes you be impulsive. Hypomania is a milder version of mania and typical of bipolar II. The energy you get isn’t as high but high enough to allow you to do things, be creative, productive, etc. Now, you get a similar state from ADHD. However, mania or hypomania lasts a few days (or couple of weeks). That’s the key. You can’t be diagnosed bipolar without having a clear manic or hypomanic episode. They are not short, they don’t come and go, although some people can cycle faster. And you also need to have a well differentiated depressive episode. Sounds like you experienced ADHD emotional deregulation, but this could also happen to anyone. We all eat too attached to our phones 😅
Agreed! I have ADHD as well and this is exactly how it makes me act when I get overwhelmed with life. I relate to these feelings you are having so deeply. Get a hug from someone. Hugs and relaxation/meditation work wonders. Hoping you feel more stable soon. ❤
It always baffles me when people make negative comments and think they’re being helpful. I wish people would ask the question, “is the comment helpful” before they speak or comment. I’m sorry you’re going through some trauma…but I’m so glad you are getting the support and help you need. You are amazing Laura, don’t let anyone derail you! Hey, life is hard even in the best scenario’s and dealt with privately. I really empathize with you being in the spotlight and people thinking their unsolicited advise is welcome…it’s so well, unimaginable to me! I’m going through some really difficult times myself. I’m a breast cancer survivor. And my daughter at 22 was diagnosed with breast cancer as well. Last year at the age of 28 it came back with a vengeance. It’s in many places, ovaries, spine, clavicle, lymph nodes, skull…and more places. I don’t understand why it’s her at her young age and not me! I was mentally prepared for it to be me…not her! Mine was more advanced than hers was and my cancer was triple negative which is harder to treat, yet here I am cancer free and my daughter is fighter for her life. Talk about feelings of loss of control, anxiety and panic! I’ve had them all. I know I’m not the first parent to deal with this but darn it, it’s real stuff it’s scary and upsetting! I can’t imagine the reactions I might get if I shared my thoughts/feelings publicly and I’m not strong enough to deal with them. All I can say is that I’m irritated at times with friends and family when they compare their feelings of loved ones. They’ll talk about a sick parent, grandparent or friend. While I know they aren’t trying to be insensitive sometimes I want to yell and say, I’m sorry but those people have lived a life! They are over 60…my daughter never lived! From 22 on all she’s known is chemo, hormone blockers and feeling unhealthy. How can you compare! Her dream was to be a nurse, one day have a family and now none of that will come to fruition. So again why can’t people recognize their audience and ask the question is the helpful? Sorry you’re going through this, although I don’t know you or Stephen I enjoy your platforms and many days you both encourage and inspire me to plug along. Thank you for being genuine, funny and inspiring! And I hope I can give you a bit of encouragement too, by letting you know after each of your podcasts I pray for both of you and for your precious children. “May God bless you and protect you, may God make His face to shine on you, and give you His peace!” Numbers 6:24-26
@That Gap Tooth Girl ezkilzone you are making a bunch of horrible comments that have nothing to do with your life. Go harrass someone else if you're so busy live streaming
I was misdiagnosed as bipolar for years too ( medicated, the lot!!) - turns out I was just in need of some self love and anxiety ridden and still working on that now - these “labels” are too easily slapped on us
Sending so much love your way. I know EXACTLY how you’re feeling as a single parent. It’s very scary in general without any trauma. You’re doing good sweetheart. Keep doing what you’re doing. Don’t read the body shaming comments. Don’t take them to heart. You’re a diamond in the rough Laura. You will be ok 💗
I just love you and support what ever you need to do. We’re all just trying our best and we have to crawl in a hole for a bit. Don’t worry about what people think. You know you have the best of intentions and that’s good enough!! This too shall fucking pass!!💜
Wow, bi-polar is diagnosed by a lot more then a 20 minute question and answer session. I am BP2, I take Lamictal (0 side effects). Just addictive 😭. I could see a small amount of adhd lol. Also, my entire life is on my phone, all my information for everything. I locked out and lost my mind.
So many people were and are diagnosed and put on medication for being human. Grief and sorrow over a loss is part of being human. Having emotion doesn't require being medicated. Some things do require medication but not being human.
Aww Laura, sending you so much love. I'm sorry you're feeling so wobbly. You've been through A LOT and I'm not surprised that it's hitting you in waves. You're younger than me but I think you're so wise, love your insight and self discipline, I find it hard to stick to things that you make a point of doing even if I enjoy them, so hats off to you. Be gentle with yourself and this too will pass.
Due to trama and stress I have found myself back at my high school /addict weight. I have been forcing myself to eat for a month and gaining weight healthily. Finally up 1 pound in a month. It truly is a struggle.
Hey Laura 🎉Your looking Good … one day at a time. Thank you for taking the time to brief us but peeps need to keep some opinions and comments to themselves. Positivity forward. You’ve been through a lot and your probably still settling. You need to take some You time. I remember when I first started watching you You and Stephen went for a walk and you explained “your list” and talking like you’ve got all your “wishes” do you still have those meditation sound bowls? Maybe you could make some guided ones for someone like me who doesn’t have them? Any extra’s? I could really use those in my life right now…. I don’t talk to anyone but I’m trying to get my kids back and watching you and Stephen really are helping me out ❤ Thank You again for all you say … let’s me know it’s okay to falter we all just trying to keep moving😢
I was impulsive in my addiction also. Of course they tried to label me as bipolar while in rehab. I’m not bipolar. I also had a guy tell me that ALL addicts are bipolar and that you don’t become an addict unless your bipolar. WHAT??? No sir.
Laura you looking healthy those vitamin drinks are doing the trick It also could be tacking your appetite away slightly as it's filling your body needs I'm a hairdresser and always looking at your hair it's in good shape in more ways than one I notice you filled up the regrowth with some h lights looking good carry on gurl you give wonderful advice thru your experiences even this granny Carol from SouthAfrica learns from your podcasts you are a gorgeous young lady all my love
Sorry but this was hilarious because I can relate totally. I had to do this with my friends and family. My phone wouldn't work and thank god I'm from the stone age and still had a land line... LOL. My calling part of the phone quit working. Everything else did but it was a nightmare trying to get it working again. My mother is 95, lives alone, and you sounded like me with her. Mom, my phone doesn't work, you can only reach my on the landline, etc... I loved your dramatics about letting your family and friends know they wouldn't be able to reach you like they normally do.
You are obviously dealing with some hard stuff right now. Life lessons can vault us forward spiritually but damn they suck in the moment. You can do this! It won't last forever. I promise you.
I totally understand the losing appetite from anxiety - it’s so hard to eat when stressed - it’s very hard . i also agree that we are as sick as our secrets .
My baby sister is really tiny in every way and the minute she starts to lose weight, she very quickly begins to look ill. She’s been under crazy pressure in her final year at university and when we went to bring her home for Christmas, we were so shocked as she looked so so tiny. I think for people like you and my sister who don’t have any ‘give’ weight to lose, it’s so hard as it can very quickly look like a massive dramatic change whereas for people like me, losing 7/8/9lb really doesn’t make much difference at all. You’ll get there sweetheart, it’s just not easy when life is tough and I have to say, your eyes look so tired and sad right now and it’s a massive belief of mine that the eyes are the only part of a person that can’t lie however you are an amazing woman and I’m sure in time they’ll find their sparkle again ⭐️ I had this happen with my phone a few years ago- my very tech savvy husband wasn’t home and I COULDN’T call him and I went into a massive meltdown. The best part is, even to this day, I have no clue what I changed the code to. Needless to say, I went back to my old code and have never changed it since 😅 I’m absolutely terrible with technology, it just doesn’t interest me at all. I own an Apple Watch and the only thing I use it for is the time. Put a book or paint and paper in front of me and I’m yours but I just don’t take technology in at all but I do like to know I’m connected with my loved ones and so I do become lost without my phone at my fingertips incase I’m needed or incase I need someone. But calling, texting and a few social apps is as good as it gets for me 😅 Sending you all the love in the world Laura, you deserve the absolute best- never forget that sweetie ♥️
Bipolar is usually when you're either super happy, super mad and then normal. Or that's what I was always told it was. I don't believe anxiety etc has to do with it. I'd get a backup phone and definitely put your password somewhere in your house. That's one reason I hate apple phones, cause of dumb passwords and stuff for literally everything. Ditched that phone years ago. Android is so much easier lol. No waiting days for passwords, passcodes etc.
We should be way less addicted to technology, it's terrible to be honest how much we are on these darn devices, especially if you work from them. We need to be on our phones way less. It is a waste of time.
I don't often talk about this, but I was diagnosed OCD with an Anxiety disorder, after I timed out of my old therapy program I found a new therapist who only sat with me for about 15 minutes before recommending klonopin to me...which I refused because it's a hard-core tranquilizer. No judgement or shame in using medication, but a professional should take a good amount of time getting to know and learn a patients baseline before recommending medication.
Laura, if there was any way you can give yourself a holiday or some time away to give yourself some healing times. I wish you all the best. Healing vibes x
U have been such an inspiration to all mom that have been threw this. I have been in ur shoes. Ur such a beautiful person and u have nothing to worry about. U will gain the weight it’s natural in crazy moments to not have an appetite. That’s always me I’m upset I’m not hungry and my husband makes me eat something. Ur raising ur kids right and ur not crazy ur a mom and a woman lol. We’re all a little wonky lol. Hugs u got this girlfriend ❤
Have you been diagnosed with early dementia? I’m 45 and have been diagnosed and also am ADHD and suffer paralyzing anxiety. Thanks for being so real and honest! ❤️
I have gone thru this EXACTLY you will absolutely gain your weight back. I found it helpful to eat small finger foods all through the day. When u are anxious its impossible to sit down to a large meal. Grab a small bite of fruit, anything as you dance with your babies! U got this!!! This too shall pass.
I've never officially been diagnosed as bi-polar, but I have the mania that can keep you up for days and those lows that can keep you in bed for days. I've gotten way better with the lows and manage to get out of bed every day now, (I treat my depressive episodes with THC gummies. Not advocating it, it's just what works for me, saved my life, ect). I still however get the mania that can keep me up for days.
I too have the worst time eating when something traumatic or anxiety/panic kicks in. I’ve never struggled with an eating disorder either, I feel you. ❤️
I love it when I go upnth for the wknd and once a yr for 10 days. Never use my phone. I tell everyone I’ll be unplugged so don’t txt/call unless there’s an emergency. I will check it at night just to make sure there’s no emergency other then that natta I love it. Plus it helps I really don’t get service up there.
I’ve just lost my mind watching Stephen’s last video. I didn’t get it before, the break up etc but now I do. Please continue on your journey Laura, you’re doing so good in this new chapter. X
He seems to be dangerously delusional. I think his music is amazing, but I'd like to know who put it in his mind to start doing automatic writing? It's been completely debunked, your subconscious mind does the writing, but now he thinks God is writing the words and sending him messages. I wish he would go and see Dr. Amen!
@Bootsz2010 I wish his family the best but hope his sponsor steps in. Social media is not conductive to healing?
I agree his music is awesome. Why did he change into a messager from God?
“We’re as sick as our secrets”. WOW this has actually shook me, I love this
Yes 🙌🏻 The secrets your mind chews on day and night. It blocks your brain from thinking right! 😂
Dear Laura, you brought me to tears… as I could feel your vulnerability… it was a beautiful and healing thing to share. A great gift for us all. You are loved.
Don't apologize for not always being funny. You are real. And that's great!!
It’s easy to swing between mania and depression when you’re living in crisis mode with someone who is TRULY experiencing those swings. Stephen clearly is experiencing a dangerous manic episode, and watching you cope is heartbreaking as a fellow mom. I hope you can fully break free and heal from his ups and downs.
I grew up very thin as well, eating half my friends lunches! Thank you for talking about this. So many people get “offended” when I discuss my weight struggles, as though it’s so great to be underweight. Honestly, it’s the same if you can’t gain 10 needed pounds as the person who can’t loose it no matter how hard they try. If anyone gives you negative comments about this, ignore it. Thank you for talking about it!
Exactly…telling people how thin they are without knowing what they’re going through is just as rude as telling anyone they’re fat…
Same for me. Even after having five kids I stay around 110 and eat everything in sight! I never saw bullying skinny people and different from bullying someone with a larger body. It still hurts and I don’t like when people comment on my weight
thats crazy u said that... im currently trying to gain 10 pounds. lol. i lost a lot of weight and now i want to gain 10 back but its harder than i thought.
I was severely underweight after I had my third child. No matter how much I ate, I was ravenous and couldn’t gain weight. I became so tired of people commenting on my weight. “You don’t look healthy! Are you eating enough?” It took all of my impulse control to smile and nod and remember that their concern was love based. It’s never appropriate to comment on someone’s size or weight.
@@lorikegler5587 it’s the worst when you’re pregnant and people assume you’re abusing your unborn child because you are thin by saying “make sure you’re eating that baby needs you to eat” 🙄 oh because my arms and legs are skinny you don’t see this HUGE baby bump. People need to mind their biz
You are not bipolar I think you had a normal reaction because we are all tied to our phones. I will freak out when I don’t have my phone, It’s a natural reaction. I’m glad ur works again. That’s awesome. Keep dancing. I think that’s therapy for the soul.🎉
I also know that "this is supposed to be funny" but you know what? I love the depth! I love seeing you as a whole human! I love being able to relate to the funny AND the not at all funny. Just keep doing you because I'm not the only one who thinks this.
You bring up a good point in that we truly are dependent on these phone devices. Having recently been without my phone for a week, it was actually very difficult to function, especially since I was cut off from my emotional support base, and it sent me into an emotional spiral. It gad never occurred to me that I was so dependent on my phone, but I am. I think that you are doing well and that you are an amazing woman, and you are so strong, so beautiful inside and out. You are a wonderful person and I am so proud of you and I'm grateful that you take the time to upload and share your experiences with others. Thank you Laura!
Love you Laura.This definitely sounds like ADHD overwhelm.Which I think you mentioned you have before?I have ADHD myself and can totally relate to moments like this.Remember to be kind to yourself ❤️
We can never do enough. It could be better. Why didn’t anyone care? Everyone doing self care doesn’t have time. Oh. More self care. ✔️❤
I'd have to second this. I also have ADHD.
You’re not alone. We are all in this private struggle in our lives and hearing you share yours is very normalising and that’s very comforting ❤
@byrdie Bailey I never realized our lives are "private struggles.". I agree. They are.
When I see your weekly post I LITERALLY can’t get to it fast enough. I relate to you on so many levels and appreciate your openness. Proud of you always Laura ❤and we’re all in this shit together ✊
Same!!
Keep on keeping on! No shame here. All acceptance and love or GET OUT! 😂
I like your sweater. It looks cozy. I don’t think you have an eating problem. A lot of people lose weight when they have anxiety, including myself. I remove myself from situations that cause me to lose weight. If I’m a healthy weight in a relationship effortlessly, it’s a good sign. Losing weight in any situation is a red flag and your body’s way of telling you to get out of an unhealthy situation.
Hehe I was thinking that too i think i ay have almost bought that one or a similar one but i got a fuchsia one instead❤
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder around 8 years ago. They tried so many different medications and they all SUCKED. After years of struggling I found a great psychiatrist and found out that I had been misdiagnosed and I actually have borderline personality disorder with extreme adhd. Once I got the right diagnosis I was able to manage my life better. I wish you nothing but the best!!
I was diagnosed bipolar in one phone call! Had me all fucked up..on antipsychotics for a while. Went to a new therapist and she said I was absolutely not because I’d never been hospitalized. 🤦♀️
Makes me sad to see the pain in your eyes. You've got this my friend! One step forward at a time. Even if it feels like 2 steps back at times that one step forward counts. I can't tolerate relate with the anxiety but mine is the opposite problem 🙃 as far as weight goes. Sending lots of love!
No, I am a bipolar widow, losing my husband of 23 yrs to the disorder. I know this disorder well and have worked with many specialists. My late husband was bipolar. He never missed a day of work, and he only had no sleep once during his frequent mania. It is incorrect to think one can't be bipolar because they don't sleep or can't get out of bed. Those extremes don't define bipolar, and only a small percentage of those with the diagnosis account for those extreme incidents. Many have bipolar and never experience not getting out of bed, or being up all night. I take bipolar info put out seriously because that disorder cost me the most important person ion my life and so much incorrect info is spread about it.
I so appreciate your voicing all of these things. So many people struggle with these bouts of extreme anxiety. I can be in a good place mentally and suddenly a trigger or traumatic experience will launch me into these times where I ask myself "Am I sane? Am I loosing it?" It makes me hyper fixate on one thing like you did with the phone. I'm told that's very typical of people with anxiety and ADHD.
I know it feels so heavy sometimes and it is. Also it will pass.
Laura you are loved. You got this. No matter what. You have got this.
This too will pass Laura!! Be kind to yourself! Too much on your plate for sure.hugs to you!!1 Ignore haters. All the best to you!!! ❤❤❤ Keep dancing!
Everyone transfers their own experiences to others. So do I. You have to see if it suits you. I felt similar to you because of my untreated ADHD. Venlafaxine, an SNRI antidepressant, helped me at the lowest dose. Methylphenidate helps others. Maybe you need something like this too. I've always been able to function to some extent, but my balance was very fragile. And the crash when something threw me off balance just wasn't in proportion to the trigger. I did yoga, meditated, tried to mentally stabilize myself, but in the end it was the medication that saved me from these total emotional crashes. And since I also had two young children, both with ADHD, I had to find a way to be more stable. They needed me! And it worked. 😊 Feel hugged, dear Laura.
If you ever get locked out again, immediately call Apple (if you have an iPhone), and tell them you forgot your password. You can reset it, and write it down somewhere in case you forget it again. I’ve done that twice. Works like a charm. If you keep entering the incorrect password they think you have a stolen phone, but if they see just one failed attempt they are more likely to help you asap.
You are not bipolar. You’ve had the foundations of your life shaken all to hell, so of course you’re rattled.
Anyone who comments on anyone’s weight needs to just shut up. Completely inappropriate. You are beautiful, inside and out. Love to you and yours.
You definitely are NOT bipolar. That’s just being a human. I wish Doctors would stop trying to make us not feel human emotions.
She 100% has bipolar qualities. At a min borderline personality disorder.
I'm not a doctor and even if I were I could never diagnose over the internet but I don't disagree with you.
There's a huge difference between bipolar I and II. I can totally see bipolar II In Laura 💯. It's not a horrible thing! Please don't confuse this with multiple personality disorder. (AKA split personality).. many with bipolar manage just fine, especially type II. ✌️
@@Angel0fTruth nobody said "multiple " personality
@Kristen Nations it seems many people confuse bipolar with a personality disorder is all I was saying.
Growing up a tall "skinny" person, it's crazy how much shit and abuse we take for being thin. Horrible crap. I feel you and think you are amazing for who are you and how you look!!
I got locked out of my phone back when I had like an iPhone 3. I was carrying it around in my hand while shopping constantly (unknowingly) locking myself out more & more. By the end I was locked out for over 1 million minutes. I was so shocked. I threw the phone in a drawer & bought a new one. Found the phone years later and that became my kid’s first phone.
Oh my God, same story!!!!! Lithium diagnosis within ten minutes!!! To be without your phone is wonderful.
I’m going through something similar with life and it just hit and the eating is something I’m getting I’ve only ate once a day and barely anything when I do literally forcing myself 😢 traumatic events do cause that and you’re not unhinged it’s life but we’ll make it through day by day. I truly appreciate you for being so open and talking to us about this cause I’ll be listening and I’m like omg this is me rn and it just feels good to know we’re not alone when we feel we are
I was locked out of my phone back I 2020 & I couldn't figure out why because I didn't have a pass code. Had never had one. Lost a lot of pictures of my grandchildren when I had to wipe out everything. It had all backed up on cloud but somehow those pics disappeared! Guess what showed up on my phone about 5 months later? Those pics! So strange😳
When my husband had lost a lot of weight he started drinking carnations high protein drinks. It helped him tremendously! I think of you Laura when I am driving home from work. I look forward to your & Stephen's videos. I admire you so much! You are going to be ok. I just know it! Always turn to us here. We won't judge you. We have always had our own little tics from time to time. Stress will have that effect. If people do judge you, eff em! You are doing your best! With love & admiration ~Cynthia
I appreciate how real you are. Knowing that other women have the same problems IS therapy. I love you so much Laura. You help me through so much your podcasts are the shit. This too shall pass❤
Never apologize for being you. Do what you know is best for you and that is all that matters. Thank you for bringing us into your life like you have been. You are an inspiration to me and have helped me through so many dark dark days. Looking forward to seeing more of your videos and hearing your story. Lots of love and positive vibes to you ❤️
I wish I could give you a BIG hug! I love you and all the content you do. YOU ARE REAL and that's bad ass! Keep your chin up my friend!
Your friend in Kingman, Arizona
The other day my husband and I left home together but, forgot our phones. He was worried. I was the voice of reason. I said, it's going to be ok. People used to do this all the time and they were fine. 😄
We are complex energies, all emotions are normal. It's how we handle the emotions & the coping strategies employed to keep us safe.
Please you are sane- just don't watch Steven's video as he is now changeling GOD. You are so Strong. I admire you.
Bipolar and lithium was the 10 minute diagnosis I got too. Thank god I refused the diagnosis and did hardcore time in therapy first. My therapist was an angel and tracked my highs and lows which followed the pattern of my cycle. In comes the PMDD diagnosis. Life changing.
Sorry for my unhelpful comments on Facebook about gaining weight. I should know better. Sorry to hear you've been struggling lately. Can totally relate to your drive to the mall... keep being you and saying it out lowd. You are the total boss of you. ..Laura Clarey is such a together person.
I very much relate to what you’re saying. I struggle with eating because my anxiety triggers my fight flight freeze response. I have good weeks and I have bad weeks. You saying “this too shall pass. “is a good reminder for me as well. I also remind myself to be gentle to myself, and to treat me with the same kindness, forgiveness, and grace as I treat others.
You are amazing and so brave being this honest not only with yourself but with others. I love that jumper!! Hugs from the UK 😊
I had that same doctor in my 20’s. I’m not bipolar nor are you. We are humans having good and bad experiences. Big hugs!!!❤❤❤
Thanks for sharing, Laura. It’s healthy to speak it. “Your secrets keep you sick” is something I have heard in recovery a lot, and the older I get, the more that really sinks in and makes sense. The eating thing may have been dormant in you, and triggered recently by feelings of extreme anxiety and lack of control. Just keep doing the next right thing, and you will make it through these tough times.
Laura look up ARFID, I am going through the same exact thing with my weight and I recently found out about ARFID and I think that might be whats going on with me. When I'm stressed my throat just doesn't want to swallow food and I just don't really get hungry. I forget to eat a lot (taking care of 2 kids too doesn't help that 🤣 I know u know what I mean). I don't care much about how I look, I dont worry about gaining weight or put much thought into that stuff so I never considered an actual eating disorder. I'm so sick of people shaming me becuase of it, saying I look like a skeleton or to go eat a burger. I don't shame other people for their weight or what they look like so it shouldn't be happening to anyone.
Anger is real. We acknowledge sadness, we acknowledge happiness, we ....
But it is ok to be pissed when you need to be. Lots of love and strength mama.
Thank you Laura for being so real and open. I watch your videos and feel better just makes me feel like I’m not alone and gives me hope.
Trust ur not unhinged. Ur really you everyday and wherever you are, you are and it’s nobody else’s business. I relate to everything! Ur great.
When my partner and I split up my appetite vanished also. My body reacts the same when I'm under high stress or in fear about something. Please don't beat yourself up, it's a normal reaction. I also relate to the phone dependence. I've recently started my own small business and it's necessary for me to be present on Insta, FB etc and I absolutely HATE it but it's the only way to help get my brand out there and generate sales. I can't stand social media and some days resent that I'm forced to use it because of how much it's infiltrated society. I wish I also lived in the woods, just doing my own thing and truly being free. Everything you've said here today is so relatable. Be kind to yourself, we do what we need to do to tolerate surviving in this F'd up world.
I’m in my 60s and I can relate to most everything you said here.
But it breaks my heart to see our adult children constantly looking at their phones. I myself spend to much time on my phone or iPad-when alone- but I avoid it when I’m around others, especially our visiting kids and grandkids. It’s a sad thing if we aren’t connecting to those who matter while in their presence. I hope you can wean yourself from the non-essential uses of your phone and really be there for those you love the most. Sounds like you’re on your way. Your kiddos need all of you now more than ever.
I’ve also been struggling with anxiety in the last 15 years, worse since a health scare a few years ago. It’s really affected my appetite, and I’ve always been slim to start with. I have to force myself to eat some days.
I watch a lot of cooking videos to rev up my appetite.
Thank you for mentioning your sponsor, Athletic Greens, I’ll be checking out their products!
Be well.
I was misdiagnosed as bipolar for several years and later found out it was inaccurate and my emotional lability was from undiagnosed ADHD. I was surprised to find out how many women get misdiagnosed with bipolar when they are actually struggling with undiagnosed ADHD.
It's crazy how we have so many similar stories.. My first interaction with a psychiatrist was when I was a teen & it went very similar. I always say the same thing “I was at one point diagnosed with bi polar but he spoke entirely to my mom which set me off and then he diagnosed me like how the f*** is that possible lol”
I was diagnosed with Bipolar as well. It was C-PTSD. Same story... Dr was an idiot.
That psychiatrist should not have diagnosed you as being Bipolar without a DSM 5 test. Totally unprofessional. ( I am Bipolar)
That’s what I was going to say. I’m also bipolar. They just jump and diagnose. They don’t spend time with you. It’s this diagnosis, and on too the next.
I did this 😂😂😂. I accidentally put my phone on that setting blind people use. I couldn’t figure it out so I kept accidentally calling emergency services. Phone was locked and cops calling over and over. I had a full-blown panic attack. Then I realized I don’t actually need my phone to live. It’s so funny what you said about your kids because I do the same thing. Anytime I get upset about anything. I remind myself that my kids are alive and healthy and I have no right to complain.
You were diagnosed w adhd right? I am as well . Its sounds like that. It really effects every part of you. Mental health, emotional and even physical.
Just carry on being true to yourself Laura, and at you're own pace, you are amazing, I have severe anxiety and depression and it is hard, 💕 xx
I dropped my phone and it’s sim card died. I was without phone for a day and a half. It was an anxious hell. But I also had a sense of freedom and grounding when I realized it was gone for that day. Just hang in there. A-lot of people drop a-lot of weight when they are traumatized. As I feel you have been dealing with. Much love to you.❤❤❤
I have heard MORE women say how uncomfortable it makes them when someone makes a comment about their weight than saying nothing at all. And they always think their doing a good thing. Can we just STOP mentioning other peoples weight ALTOGETHER? Thanks. Proud of you Laura. All we can do is hang on right? My hands are killing me.
Love you ❤️
"Even if you can't dance, even better." Girl keep on keeping on. Sending love.
I understand about no appetite and fight or flight mode,,I am like that alot..I am sorry you are struggling and also appreciate your honesty and transparency, Laura..Thank you for sharing...Much love,hugs and positive vibes..
It’s pretty common in the ADHD community for especially women who have it to be misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder. Adult ADHD is still so misunderstood.
ADHD causes a lot of ups and downs, impulsivity, confusion etc
I wish I could just hug it all away. Sending love and hugs 🥰🥰 Please don't apologize for being you! I appreciate all aspects of you. Thank you for sharing. I'm also in a momma bear season. I'm trying to be present and remember thoughts are just concepts, not reality but it's tough
I found you on Facebook during your Howland era and have stuck around through your life metamorphosis into a mom and stuck with you through the contest change me being a husband/father. I always have enjoyed what you produce. I read both of your books and got a lot out of it. And your podcast listeners. Listen for you. If you want to be funny, be funny if you want to be serious be serious. We are here for you not just laughs. One thing I did want to say about Stephen is I am worried he is turning into a cult leader. I used to watch his videos by can no longer is getting too weird for me. And his comment section is like a bunch of Faithful mindless followers. That’s all ,enjoyed this podcast.
I think we all have anxiety too..especially when things like this happen. I’ve suffered from anxiety, depression and panic attacks for most of my life. Our phones are our lifelines now. Also..I love you! I found you with the Pamela pumpkin video and have loved you since!!
Mania isn’t anxiety. With mania you have an incredible increase in energy and a grandiose feeling that makes you be impulsive. Hypomania is a milder version of mania and typical of bipolar II. The energy you get isn’t as high but high enough to allow you to do things, be creative, productive, etc. Now, you get a similar state from ADHD. However, mania or hypomania lasts a few days (or couple of weeks). That’s the key. You can’t be diagnosed bipolar without having a clear manic or hypomanic episode. They are not short, they don’t come and go, although some people can cycle faster. And you also need to have a well differentiated depressive episode.
Sounds like you experienced ADHD emotional deregulation, but this could also happen to anyone. We all eat too attached to our phones 😅
Agreed! I have ADHD as well and this is exactly how it makes me act when I get overwhelmed with life. I relate to these feelings you are having so deeply. Get a hug from someone. Hugs and relaxation/meditation work wonders. Hoping you feel more stable soon. ❤
It always baffles me when people make negative comments and think they’re being helpful. I wish people would ask the question, “is the comment helpful” before they speak or comment. I’m sorry you’re going through some trauma…but I’m so glad you are getting the support and help you need. You are amazing Laura, don’t let anyone derail you! Hey, life is hard even in the best scenario’s and dealt with privately. I really empathize with you being in the spotlight and people thinking their unsolicited advise is welcome…it’s so well, unimaginable to me!
I’m going through some really difficult times myself. I’m a breast cancer survivor. And my daughter at 22 was diagnosed with breast cancer as well. Last year at the age of 28 it came back with a vengeance. It’s in many places, ovaries, spine, clavicle, lymph nodes, skull…and more places. I don’t understand why it’s her at her young age and not me! I was mentally prepared for it to be me…not her! Mine was more advanced than hers was and my cancer was triple negative which is harder to treat, yet here I am cancer free and my daughter is fighter for her life. Talk about feelings of loss of control, anxiety and panic! I’ve had them all. I know I’m not the first parent to deal with this but darn it, it’s real stuff it’s scary and upsetting! I can’t imagine the reactions I might get if I shared my thoughts/feelings publicly and I’m not strong enough to deal with them. All I can say is that I’m irritated at times with friends and family when they compare their feelings of loved ones. They’ll talk about a sick parent, grandparent or friend. While I know they aren’t trying to be insensitive sometimes I want to yell and say, I’m sorry but those people have lived a life! They are over 60…my daughter never lived! From 22 on all she’s known is chemo, hormone blockers and feeling unhealthy. How can you compare! Her dream was to be a nurse, one day have a family and now none of that will come to fruition. So again why can’t people recognize their audience and ask the question is the helpful?
Sorry you’re going through this, although I don’t know you or Stephen I enjoy your platforms and many days you both encourage and inspire me to plug along. Thank you for being genuine, funny and inspiring! And I hope I can give you a bit of encouragement too, by letting you know after each of your podcasts I pray for both of you and for your precious children. “May God bless you and protect you, may God make His face to shine on you, and give you His peace!” Numbers 6:24-26
@That Gap Tooth Girl ezkilzone I hope you get blocked from them both. Weird
@That Gap Tooth Girl ezkilzone you are making a bunch of horrible comments that have nothing to do with your life. Go harrass someone else if you're so busy live streaming
I was misdiagnosed as bipolar for years too ( medicated, the lot!!) - turns out I was just in need of some self love and anxiety ridden and still working on that now - these “labels” are too easily slapped on us
Sending so much love your way. I know EXACTLY how you’re feeling as a single parent. It’s very scary in general without any trauma. You’re doing good sweetheart. Keep doing what you’re doing. Don’t read the body shaming comments. Don’t take them to heart. You’re a diamond in the rough Laura. You will be ok 💗
I just love you and support what ever you need to do. We’re all just trying our best and we have to crawl in a hole for a bit. Don’t worry about what people think. You know you have the best of intentions and that’s good enough!! This too shall fucking pass!!💜
Wow, bi-polar is diagnosed by a lot more then a 20 minute question and answer session. I am BP2, I take Lamictal (0 side effects). Just addictive 😭. I could see a small amount of adhd lol. Also, my entire life is on my phone, all my information for everything. I locked out and lost my mind.
So many people were and are diagnosed and put on medication for being human. Grief and sorrow over a loss is part of being human. Having emotion doesn't require being medicated. Some things do require medication but not being human.
Aww Laura, sending you so much love. I'm sorry you're feeling so wobbly. You've been through A LOT and I'm not surprised that it's hitting you in waves. You're younger than me but I think you're so wise, love your insight and self discipline, I find it hard to stick to things that you make a point of doing even if I enjoy them, so hats off to you. Be gentle with yourself and this too will pass.
Highs and lows are common for people with ADHD. So is forgetting passwords 😄
Love your new character. Can't wait to see more
Love this video thanks for opening up and being transparent and a way to keep yourself accountable
Due to trama and stress I have found myself back at my high school /addict weight. I have been forcing myself to eat for a month and gaining weight healthily. Finally up 1 pound in a month. It truly is a struggle.
Remember to give yourself grace! You are a beautiful, strong momma and doing a great job!! I’m rooting for your family!! ❤
Hey Laura 🎉Your looking Good … one day at a time. Thank you for taking the time to brief us but peeps need to keep some opinions and comments to themselves. Positivity forward. You’ve been through a lot and your probably still settling. You need to take some You time. I remember when I first started watching you You and Stephen went for a walk and you explained “your list” and talking like you’ve got all your “wishes” do you still have those meditation sound bowls? Maybe you could make some guided ones for someone like me who doesn’t have them? Any extra’s? I could really use those in my life right now…. I don’t talk to anyone but I’m trying to get my kids back and watching you and Stephen really are helping me out ❤ Thank You again for all you say … let’s me know it’s okay to falter we all just trying to keep moving😢
I was impulsive in my addiction also. Of course they tried to label me as bipolar while in rehab. I’m not bipolar. I also had a guy tell me that ALL addicts are bipolar and that you don’t become an addict unless your bipolar. WHAT??? No sir.
Also, I wish I was your nanny 😅
It's never helpful when people are critical. You're doing what you need to do!
I appreciate your authenticity!!
You are so inspiring, and honestly someone I look up to. Thank you for being you.
I love your videos Laura. You’re a great storyteller and ALWAYS relatable ❤
Laura you looking healthy those vitamin drinks are doing the trick It also could be tacking your appetite away slightly as it's filling your body needs I'm a hairdresser and always looking at your hair it's in good shape in more ways than one I notice you filled up the regrowth with some h lights looking good carry on gurl you give wonderful advice thru your experiences even this granny Carol from SouthAfrica learns from your podcasts you are a gorgeous young lady all my love
Sorry but this was hilarious because I can relate totally. I had to do this with my friends and family. My phone wouldn't work and thank god I'm from the stone age and still had a land line... LOL. My calling part of the phone quit working. Everything else did but it was a nightmare trying to get it working again. My mother is 95, lives alone, and you sounded like me with her. Mom, my phone doesn't work, you can only reach my on the landline, etc... I loved your dramatics about letting your family and friends know they wouldn't be able to reach you like they normally do.
You are obviously dealing with some hard stuff right now. Life lessons can vault us forward spiritually but damn they suck in the moment. You can do this! It won't last forever. I promise you.
I totally understand the losing appetite from anxiety - it’s so hard to eat when stressed - it’s very hard . i also agree that we are as sick as our secrets .
I wish I could see Laura and give her a hug 💕 She's a great soul ❤️
You are being so real and just yourself again! I love it... especially your honesty and sense of humour is great!!!❤❤❤❤
You say it’s suppose to be funny but I watch for your deep thoughts. Don’t say sorry! The real talk is wonderful.
I hope you know you're not alone
My baby sister is really tiny in every way and the minute she starts to lose weight, she very quickly begins to look ill. She’s been under crazy pressure in her final year at university and when we went to bring her home for Christmas, we were so shocked as she looked so so tiny. I think for people like you and my sister who don’t have any ‘give’ weight to lose, it’s so hard as it can very quickly look like a massive dramatic change whereas for people like me, losing 7/8/9lb really doesn’t make much difference at all. You’ll get there sweetheart, it’s just not easy when life is tough and I have to say, your eyes look so tired and sad right now and it’s a massive belief of mine that the eyes are the only part of a person that can’t lie however you are an amazing woman and I’m sure in time they’ll find their sparkle again ⭐️
I had this happen with my phone a few years ago- my very tech savvy husband wasn’t home and I COULDN’T call him and I went into a massive meltdown. The best part is, even to this day, I have no clue what I changed the code to. Needless to say, I went back to my old code and have never changed it since 😅
I’m absolutely terrible with technology, it just doesn’t interest me at all. I own an Apple Watch and the only thing I use it for is the time. Put a book or paint and paper in front of me and I’m yours but I just don’t take technology in at all but I do like to know I’m connected with my loved ones and so I do become lost without my phone at my fingertips incase I’m needed or incase I need someone. But calling, texting and a few social apps is as good as it gets for me 😅
Sending you all the love in the world Laura, you deserve the absolute best- never forget that sweetie ♥️
PS, I absolutely love your jumper, that colour really suits you ❤
I feel the same about technology
Bipolar is usually when you're either super happy, super mad and then normal. Or that's what I was always told it was. I don't believe anxiety etc has to do with it. I'd get a backup phone and definitely put your password somewhere in your house. That's one reason I hate apple phones, cause of dumb passwords and stuff for literally everything. Ditched that phone years ago. Android is so much easier lol. No waiting days for passwords, passcodes etc.
We should be way less addicted to technology, it's terrible to be honest how much we are on these darn devices, especially if you work from them. We need to be on our phones way less. It is a waste of time.
I don't often talk about this, but I was diagnosed OCD with an Anxiety disorder, after I timed out of my old therapy program I found a new therapist who only sat with me for about 15 minutes before recommending klonopin to me...which I refused because it's a hard-core tranquilizer.
No judgement or shame in using medication, but a professional should take a good amount of time getting to know and learn a patients baseline before recommending medication.
Just to also clarify, I did start anti-depressants... just made the focus in non-addictive or habit forming ones
I like when you do these talks, you're very good and interesting some of the interviews to go south
Laura, if there was any way you can give yourself a holiday or some time away to give yourself some healing times. I wish you all the best. Healing vibes x
U have been such an inspiration to all mom that have been threw this. I have been in ur shoes. Ur such a beautiful person and u have nothing to worry about. U will gain the weight it’s natural in crazy moments to not have an appetite. That’s always me I’m upset I’m not hungry and my husband makes me eat something. Ur raising ur kids right and ur not crazy ur a mom and a woman lol. We’re all a little wonky lol. Hugs u got this girlfriend ❤
Just came from Stephens latest video. There are some thirsty women in his comments section that are absolutely cray cray. It's disturbing 😳
Have you been diagnosed with early dementia? I’m 45 and have been diagnosed and also am ADHD and suffer paralyzing anxiety. Thanks for being so real and honest! ❤️
I have gone thru this EXACTLY you will absolutely gain your weight back. I found it helpful to eat small finger foods all through the day. When u are anxious its impossible to sit down to a large meal. Grab a small bite of fruit, anything as you dance with your babies! U got this!!! This too shall pass.
I've never officially been diagnosed as bi-polar, but I have the mania that can keep you up for days and those lows that can keep you in bed for days. I've gotten way better with the lows and manage to get out of bed every day now, (I treat my depressive episodes with THC gummies. Not advocating it, it's just what works for me, saved my life, ect). I still however get the mania that can keep me up for days.
That was a hard watch. Thank you for sharing. I hope you feel more grounded & safe soon x
I’ve been diagnosed with all different bs too, you’re genius!!❤❤❤
I too have the worst time eating when something traumatic or anxiety/panic kicks in. I’ve never struggled with an eating disorder either, I feel you. ❤️
I love it when I go upnth for the wknd and once a yr for 10 days. Never use my phone. I tell everyone I’ll be unplugged so don’t txt/call unless there’s an emergency. I will check it at night just to make sure there’s no emergency other then that natta I love it. Plus it helps I really don’t get service up there.