1 day vs 1 year after losing my mum
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- Опубліковано 16 бер 2021
- This is my story about losing my beautiful mum to a brain tumour at the age of 24 and how I have found the first year of life without her. As hard as this was, it was really important for me to make this video to raise awareness for dealing with loss & grief and for showing other young people who have gone through parent loss that they are not alone.
I love you guys so much and I am so grateful for your friendship. See you again very soon xxx
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A heard an analogy of grief once that really made sense to me... they described the grief as being a ball inside a cardboard box. And when it first happens the grief is a huge ball in a small box, and every time the ball hits the side of the box, it triggers the feelings... but over time to box gets bigger, so it hits the sides of the box less and less. It still hurts exactly the same when it DOES hit the side of the box. But it happens less frequently. And this analogy really got me!
@ 6:58 there’s definitely a little white butterfly outside the window immediately as you’re speaking about wanting a sign or a way to know your Mum is still with you. How amazing 🤍 🦋
Wow 🤍
I just came to the comments to say the same thing! it flies past multiple times and I thought it was so special 🥺
Omg 🥺🕊🤍✨
How beautiful
I seen it too 🥰 xxxxx
I have never experienced this level of grief or loss but I sat and listened and you are just incredible Elle. The way you are using your experience to help guide others is nothing sort of incredible. You should be so proud of yourself as I’m sure your beautiful mum is as she looks down on you in this life ❤️ you are such an beautiful person and it radiates from you x
Forgive me for not watching......I just wanted to come on the comments and show some love, I lost my mom too from the horrible 'c' word and I'm also currently pregnant with my first (21 weeks) and are trying to keep my mind completely positive for my child's sake so atm I can't watch anything like this but I'm sending you so much love and healing darling, our mom's are always with us and will be with us through every step of our pregnancy and there after 💗
so sorry for your loss xx hope you're pregnancy goes well x
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I lost my mam too 2 years ago and it’s been tough since Mother’s Day. I’m still in bed now and I needed this today. Thank you ❤️
Sorry long xxx take care 😘🙏😇
so sorry for your loss x
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hope you feel better soon! ur doing amazing 🥰
Your Mum is so proud of you Elle. I lost my mum In November 2020, I was 17 and right now, 4 months later it still doesn’t feel real. You are helping so much with these videos and make us all who have been through the same thing feel much less alone, I’m sure it can’t be easy. Thank you Elle❤️
so sorry for your loss stay strong ❤️
Sorry long xxxx take care 😇🙏💗
I am so sorry for your loss, take care of yourself and I’m sending you a big cuddle 💗💗💗
Sending love 💗
You’re never alone angel, sending love ❤️
I lost my Mum (who was my only parent) very suddenly and unexpectedly less than 2 months ago. I’m 27 years old, unmarried and don’t have children yet. I’m struggling to figure out how I can live the rest of my life without her. She was my very best friend I loved her more than anything. Thank you making this video. Being okay seems so far away. You gave me a bit of hope that one day I will get there. This pain is next level. I just want to breathe again. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
I’m so sorry for your loss 😢 I also lost my mum at 27 six months ago and I’m also unmarried and have no children yet so I know exactly how you feel. I’m not going to say that you will be ok because nothing about losing your mother is ok, but I want you to know that you will get through it. Lean on your friends and remaining family, in time you will be able to remember all the good times and laugh, but things will be raw for a little while. My dms are always open if you would like to talk 💜 Sending you so much love at this difficult time 💕
i’m so sorry to hear! your mum is very proud of you in heaven :)
@@Laura-hk3xz i’m so sorry! you can do it!
I lost my mam 6 weeks ago and the first video was one of the very few comforting lifelines. Thank you so much for this second video, an absolute god sent. Sending love to those people here who need it. Things will get better 🤍
I’m sorry for your loss❤️
Sorry for your loss Annie 🤍
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so sorry for for your loss xx
Thank you🤍
15th of June 2020 my dad went missing, leaving me a suicide note and calculations for a drug over dose.
He was missing for 4 weeks before he police found his body, every single night I left the curtain and a light on hoping he had changed his mind and come back to me.
My farther was the most incredible human and my best friend, which is probably why he could never come to me about the money problems.
I understand your grief all too well, and I am so sorry you had to go through that. But so happy you are sharing your story. I couldn’t want the whole of this video as I have PTSD that is triggered constantly.
Thank you for sharing your story Ellie, they will always be with us, grief is what love leaves behind ❤️
Bless you sweetheart.....my thoughts are with you at such a harrowing time. So sorry for your loss xx
Sending you love x
My dad took his own life on the 16th June 2017. I hope you’re coping okay and getting the help you need. It’s tough journey but I promise that it will get better soon. Sending you love💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
im so sorry for your loss that is awful I can't even imagine x
your so strong🤍🤍
Your mum would be so proud of you! Your baby boy was handpicked by her 💞
So true 💙💙💙
That’s so beautiful to say x
Couldn’t have put it a better way!! Absolutely perfect I hope she sees this message^ 🥰❤️
I know the writing is about something terrible, but you are clearly a talented writer to even write your feelings in that way, the way it’s described and written shows pure intelligence
I lost my mum almost 4 months ago, unexpectedly within an hour. We still don’t know why. I feel your pain Elle. Love you 💜
Sorry long xxx
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Sending you lots of love and big hugs. We’re all here for you!❤️
Sending ♥ and 🤗
I lost my mum very suddenly in November last year also. We’re still not 100% sure what happened and why so I understand how it feels❤️ honestly these videos and the comment section is such a sanctuary to me 🙏🏻
We had my boyfriends mum in a hospital bed with a syringe driver I n the lounge whilst she was battling terminal cancer last year too, it was exactly as you said - living a nightmare. This bought up so many memories that I’ve tried to push down. I haven’t lost my own mum but losing her was like losing my second mother - so I almost know how you feel. It’s absolutly heartbreaking. Your baby is such a blessing and your mum is watching down on you everyday 🤍
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I’ve had it all, happy family of 8. Mum cheated on my Dad with his best friend and moved to UK. It broke my Dad’s heart and it made him really poorly. I watched him wanting to commit suicide (walked on him in the bathroom with wrists cut open by the bathtub) because he couldn’t deal with the pain and having to raise 6 daughters all by himself whilst working full time. He passed 11 years ago - cancer got him first. I then had to move to the UK with my 5 sisters to live with Mum who abandoned us and my late Dad’s ex best friend... it’s been 11 years and the pain is still there. I don’t remember his voice but I see his face in my dreams and I know he is watching over me and my siblings. We still cry when we talk about him but we also share some laughter over the memories we’ve been able to create with the main man in our lives. But what helped us with the grieving process is having each other as sisters: even to this date one of us will mention something about our Dad or a situation that the others would have forgotten about and it’s so amazing to be able to have each other and understand what the other sister went through. I could not have done the last 11 years without my sisters. I really feel for those people who were/are on their own. And Elle, you have shown so much strength in the last year it is so inspiring and I’m sure has helped a lot of people. Everyone has a story to share and it’s so nice to be able to talk about our feelings. I am sorry to everyone who’s ever lost a parent. Life really isn’t fair sometimes.
I lost my Father 2 weeks ago. I found him tragically just 9 hours after being with him. I tried CPR advised by 999, although deep down I recognised he had been gone for a few hours. My mind is all over the place, on top I’m 7 weeks pregnant. Thank-you Elle, these are the videos I watch with hope for the future xx
Sending my love ❤️xxx
What a beautiful person... with a beautiful soul and beautiful meaning just everything about you is so pure and I hope this message reaches you. You've helped so many people ❤
I just lost my Mum a week ago, she passed the day before my 25th birthday and 6 days before Mothers Day this year. I had to cancel her Mothers Day flowers. It still doesn't feel real. Seeing you live your life and pushing on, gives me strength. xx
I'm a carer and when you released your first video, I was working palliatively for a woman with a brain tumour. I want to thank you for being so open and honest as I genuinely feel like it enabled me to further understand what her family members were going through. Because of your videos I made sure to check in with family & support them as much as I supported their mum. I really believe your videos helped to improve the quality of care I provided, because of your video I had a much better insight into what the family was experiencing emotionally. Thankyou Elle for being so open, it has already positively impacted a family who went through the same thing x
From an 18 year old girl who lost her dad at just 16. Thank you for sharing this incredibly personal video.
I am sorry take care
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Elle, I’m the age your Mum was when she passed. I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt that she is so so very proud of you. You articulated your love and pain and growth over the past year perfectly. I’m certain this video will be of immense help to anyone in the early stages of loss. Sending hugs. xoxo
The strength you’ve shown will help so many, including myself. My dad has just finished radiotherapy for a brain tumour. We found out about it shortly after his lung cancer had shrunk, which we were so relieved about. He has also suffered from throat cancer. We are holding on to the here and now and appreciating the little things.
Thank you for making this video (and all the others) ❤️ sending so much love to you all.
When you said character building.. I really felt that. I lost my brother to a brain tumour when I was 17; he was just 18. It was such a poignant time in my life that it has 100% changed who I am as a person in every single way. 6 years of grieving later, you truly never get over it, but learn to live with it. Sending you so much love Elle ❤️🌟
You probably won't see this but thank you so much for this video. I'm absolutely terrified of losing any of my parents and I feel like if they die I couldn't keep on living...but this is comforting in a weird way, not that I ever want to lose them but I know I'll survive if I ever do.
I feel exactly the same as this Julia. I think about this all the time. I’m absolutely petrified of the thought, as I know I’ll feel like I don’t want to live anymore either. You are so incredibly brave and strong for doing this video Elle. You’re helping so many people by sharing what you’ve been through, even those of us who have not yet lost a parent and are petrified of the thought alone. Thank you for your selflessness 🥺🤍 you are making your mum so proud, every single day 🤍🕊✨xx
Can’t even imagine what you’re going through. Your mum would be so proud of how far you’ve come im sure! Lots of love 💕
Always supporting you! She’s so proud of you and your gorgeous family! An angel gained in heaven!❤️
You are so incredibly strong, you are making your mum and everyone else proud every single day. You are going to be an amazing mother ❤️
Losing someone close to you is the worst feeling in the world. You’re so strong and you can only take one day at a time. No words ever seem to help as the feeling is too overpowering. We’re all in this together xx
you are an amazing person inside and out Elle. Thank you for helping people and showing your vulnerability, your mum is so so proud of you and so are all your subscribers xx
I am so incredibly proud of you ell. As someone who hasn’t lost a parent, I can’t comprehend what it is like to lose a parent. I have lost loved ones close to me and know just how painful it can be but I can’t explain just how amazing you are and how your mum would be proud of the two strong, kind and beautiful women she raised , and we are here for you always. Love you elle. 🤍👼🏼
My dad came home from the hospice for a night, we laughed and watched films together.. the next day he went back to the hospice and barely woke up again for 7 days until he passed. I know what you mean about those days being the worst, because it was unbearable. Its been 2 years almost. There is nothing that can prepare you for losing a parent. Sending you so much love for the 22nd ❤️
I lost my dad when I was 4 (turning 5) I’m now almost 18 in April and I don’t remember much of him but I still miss him, I think the older you are the more it hurts because you’ve had so many more memories but my older siblings (as I’m the youngest) dealt with it completely different to me because I didn’t understand properly, my mother had to raise 4 kids alone and she worked so hard, if I lost her I don’t know what I’d do, I don’t think I could go on tbh but you’re amazing Elle! so brave and your mother will be so so proud of you and how far you’ve came
you’re beautiful and such a positive light in life - i’m loving your videos and you as a person. i’m so sorry for your loss 💚
Elle you are incredibly brave for putting such raw thoughts and feelings out on the internet. You are amazing and I'm sure your mum is looking down on you, beaming with pride ❤
I lost my dad 8 months ago to cancer at 16 , I've never felt so many emotions in so many different ways. my heart hurts everyday but these words spoke to me. Thank you ❤️ you're so strong , sending you so much love xx
She’s so proud of you! Everything happens for a reason Elle your mummy left but sent down the little angel that’s making you a mummy
Your so much stronger then you think! 💓
Did anyone see the light change at 8:26, the moment she says my mom would not expect me to sit here and say I can’t.. she’s letting you know ❤️
Elle you are an incredibly strong woman! You’ve overcome something so incredibly hard so young and also helped everyone going through something similar along they way! You are the real angel🤍 love you and your growing family xx
I lost my mum 8 years ago and I can honestly say I still don’t think even now I’ve fully healed from the days before she passed, I understand when you say it’s like living a nightmare, sometimes I’d wake up in the morning and think I was still dreaming because I couldn’t believe what was actually happening. It’s lovely to see that although you haven’t fully healed (and like you say no one ever does) you have come far in your journey, so much so you can help others. For anyone who has recently lost someone I personally think dealing with the situation early on, embracing it and giving yourself time to understand and process what has happened is so so important and allows you to move forward on the right path step by step. Thank you for your braveness, kindness and for explaining grief in such a helpful way 💗💗💗
You can literally hear the amount of pain your in. You are beautiful inside and out, the bravest person I’ve listened to. You should be so proud x
So when you need her touch and loving gaze, gone but not forgotten is the perfect phrase. Smiling from a star that she makes glow, trust she’s always there watching as you grow ❤️
I am so happy you have such an incredible, beautiful community of angels here for you 🤍 sending all the love and hugs in the world xxxx
I lost my dad 2.5 years ago and I can relate to everything you have said. I searched long and hard for videos like this on youtube during the time, just to tell me that I’m going to be okay. You sharing all of this is going to help so many people out there who are in the same boat as us ❤️ I understand everything you feel Elle, and you are not alone 🤍
Sorry long xxx take care
I just know that a piece of your mum’s soul is going to shine through your baby boy. I feel it so deep in my bones. And she will guide you into your new journey of motherhood🕊🦋
You’re honestly going to help so many people with this video, so open, honest and raw. You’re a real life angel, the best mum to be and a daughter only a mother can dream of having. 💗 nothing anyone can say will heal your heart but just know that you’re doing an amazing there’s no expectations of how you grieve and how long it takes and as a mother I know your beautiful mum loves you and is with you always 💗
We love you you’re so strong and your little boy is your guardian angel sent from your mum 💕
You are absolutely amazing, these videos will help SO many people and we are so grateful for you 💕 Thinking of you, Katie and the rest of your family and friends at this tough time 💕💕💕
It's great that you tell how grief changes every day , I'm sure there are many people you have really helped through this tough time , im going to show this to my grandaughter who has just lost a much loved one , thankyou xx
I lost my mum almost 4 months ago to dementia. Seeing this video and even the comments on here reminds me that I’m not alone and there are others going through this too, being able to relate others helps me. Thank you for sharing Elle x
I’m so sorry❤️
I am sorry take care ❤
Sending love Elle 🤍👼🏼
You are so strong and I know that your mum is in heaven and is so proud of you! x
This video is a video that I’m sure so many of your subscribers can relate to and I am one of them, my dad passed last summer and you’re one of the people who helped me out of the dark place after he passed. Watching your videos about your mum and you’re grief has made my grieving process feel more normal. It’s made me feel like I’m not the only one who struggles and so many others are going through the exact same feelings. Thank you so much for making this video , for people like me who are also grieving , you’re doing an amazing job and remember your mum is never far away ❤️
I have been thinking of you so much this month! A very close friend of my husband and I got diagnosed with a brain tumour last September, he was initially given 12-18 months.. after having radiotherapy and 2 rounds of chemotherapy the tumour grew so no more treatment can be given he was given 3 months in February. Watching him decline and his family go through hell is heartbreaking. I have rewatched your first video about your mum so many times now just to try and get more info, I just wanted to tell you that although these videos must so hard for you to make they are helping so many other people who are going through the same or similar. Your amazing and your beautiful mother must of been so proud not only of you and Katie but also of herself for raising you so incredibly well 💕 sending lots of love to you and Katie coming up to Deborah Janes one year anniversary 😘 xx
your so strong , I lost my grandma a month today and she was like a second mum to me and im struggling so much but seeing how far you've come and how proud your making you mum gives me hope xx
I’m fortunate enough to say I’ve not experienced a huge loss before in my life but the thought of losing my mum fills me with a huge ache in my heart and with the thought of how could I survive if that were to ever happen😔😔I’ve watched your videos for a very long time and although I cant relate to what you must be going through I watch these videos in absolute awe that someone going through so much pain can still have the thought in their mind that they can help someone else! I really think you are an amazing person Elle and I honestly believe that’s a true testament to the woman who raised you! Thankyou for being you, for being so thoughtful, kind and honest because I know somewhere in the world an angel needs this video! ❤️
Thank you so much for being so brave and helping people around the world deal with grief. I think I can speak for everyone that has watched this by saying there was not a dry eye in the house. It takes a lot of courage to bare your soul and your strength is so inspiring. Thank you again lovely! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Els is so incredible and I'm so proud of how she's dealt with everything. My mum passed just over 4 years ago and I'm only just starting to feel 90% healed and yes the grief filled days are still a thing but I'm ready to let myself be happy. I hope everyone who finds themselves in a similar situation knows that they will get there one day, it won't be this hard forever. Don't give up
I can’t even imagine how this feels and the way you have handled this is absolutely mind blowing. You are an inspiration to anyone that has lost someone and you should be so, so incredibly proud of yourself, your mum is going to be looking down on you with such pride x
Can we just appreciate how much this girl had gone through and she’s still willing to help others by sharing her story! Elle you are one of a kind and I can imagine how proud your mum is! ❤️
I lost my mum when I was 18, I'm now 32 and the pain is still there but it's exactly like you said Ellie, you learn to love with it. You should be so proud of yourself 1 for making this video because I can see the pain In your eyes but be proud you have all these people in the comments that can relate or take what you have said and know they will be OK. The trick is allowing yourself to feel those sad days. And reaching out when you need help. Sending my love to everyone in the comments that knows just how losing your mum or any of your parents feels xx
The best way I ever heard someone explain grief and how it changes over time is this; imagine there is a box and inside the box is a big red button which, if pushed, will trigger a wave of grief. There is also a ball in the box. When someone loses someone close to them the ball fills the entire box and is therefore constantly pushing the button. But as time goes on the ball gets smaller and smaller until it can bounce around the box quite freely.....it still hits the button occasionally but it's not constant. Grief never goes away but the waves become further and further apart and it becomes easier to cope with.
Thinking of you at this time! You are so strong and your mum is so proud of you!
You are so strong and so beautiful!! You are an inspiration to so many women, girls and basically anyone. She would be so proud of you and how much of an amazing mum you already have become ✨💗
incredibly grateful to have not experienced the loss of a parent but watching this just thinking how important and amazing this will be for the people who need it. We are ALL proud of how you've managed it and become this amazing woman, she is incredibly proud of you.
You should be so proud of how far you’ve come, such an inspiration❤️ love you xx
Sending you so much love. I think you are incredible and I really admire how strong you've been (appeared to have been). I just cannot imagine and I don't know how I would cope in this situation. All I know is that our loved ones who have gone, live on through us
I was meant to come across this video today. I have spent the last 2 days back in the depths of despair and immense grief that I’m positive my mum had a hand in showing me this video. Elle I experienced everything as you did and I can’t believe what a comfort it was to hear you speak. You nailed every emotion I’ve been feeling and have gone through from watching my mum slip away and after her passing especially the sense of emptiness loss and profound sadness I’ve been feeling. You’ve given me hope that I’ll find happiness again one day. Can’t thank you enough god bless you xx
I have so much respect for you Elle, sharing your most raw feelings and thoughts with us, your mum is so proud of the strong women you are and the strong mum you’re about to become. You inspire me ❤️
Elle I have been following your journey. Well done to you for reaching a year and Thankyou so much for being so honest. I know as my mum died 6 months ago from the same dreaded cancer and to watch someone you love so much decline and die is really really traumatic. There’s so many emotions and each step you were saying I was nodding along with and experienced too. Its so different to how you imagine Before it happens and is with you every second of every day. I am really happy that you are expecting an angel baby and I hope that that will be for me soon too. It’s scary to think of having a baby without my mum by my side but I know that she has given me the tools to do it. I wish you all the best your positive out look and zest for life will keep you going forever and I know you will be a great mum x
Your seriously glowing 🥰💓
Your mum would be so proud of you and Katie and how far you’ve both come!
and your little bundle of joy who will soon be here she’ll be watching down on him too💗💗💗 your so strong ! X
Thank You so much for this Video Elle, this is going to help so many people. Who are in a similar situation, the thought that you are going to have to go through the rest of your life without your mum. You and Katie have been in my thoughts continuously this week. Sending you both lots love and hugs. Your mum is with you always with you always, and you will see her again. This is the only thing that has kept me going in the 39 years that I have been without my mum. I know for me personally I would not be able to cope, if I thought that I would not be seeing my mum again. Lots of love Elle xx
Sending love and prayers.
You have come so far! And you are going to be the most incredible Mum and she is so proud of you! ❤️
Sending love, strength and positive thoughts to you Elle. I can’t even imagine the pain you have went through and are still going through. I know that anniversaries are so hard. But it’s so refreshing to see you so positive and as you said, that the whole process has made you a stronger and better person. I am thinking of you and everyone who is going through grief ❤️
You are so strong. Your mumma is so proud of you & Kit Kat. Well done for doing this video I’m sure it will help so many 💗
Such a lovely video, you’ve spoke so well. A lovely tone of understandable forever grief but keeping strong each day knowing your mums got your back forever. You’ve come so far, should be so proud of yourself lady 🤍🤍✨
I haven't watched this yet but just wanted to day thank you so much for sharing this, and so much of your life on youtube. I've been subscribed for some time, followed the loss of your mum closely and the impact it had on you and your sis.
This week I found out my own mam has incurable and inoperable aggressive primary liver cancer. I also have a younger sibling with additional needs living in supported accommodation. I've been putting off watching this video but set aside time to watch it tonight because i know it will be helpful and you're always so honest an open. I'm taking a deep breath and pressing play. Hope you're doing OK my love and know you aren't alone, and you're doing such a great job for your sis, I see how much love she has for you. X
So brave! Thank you for sharing your experience ❤️ I lost my Nanna who was like a second mum to me just over 8 years ago and I still feel the sting of grief on the anniversary of her passing. Really appreciated your honest expressions xx
wow this was really heartbreaking , I cried a little, I think this is one of your best vids, it has really helped me thank you so much x
Thank you so much for this video. Today is 6 months since my dad had a stroke and so in a few days he will have been gone for 6 months. I've struggled with feeling numb to that realisation for the last few days and have been angry at myself for it and it was so reassuring to hear that even you have had that experience too and I'm not alone in it. Sending lots of love, really appreciate your advice and sharing something so personal xx
Thank you so much for sharing Elle. I happen to be one of those people who are looking for someone to relate to and stumbled upon your videos. I'm so sorry about your mom. I'm so sorry to everyone who is grieving.
I resonate with this so much. I also tend to rely on to-do lists and deadlines with my progress on anything. I'm just learning there is no step-by-step or right way to process and heal. I feel like I've already learned immensely, but I know there's so much more ahead.
My mom suffered from several types of cancers, including brain cancer and passed almost a month ago (March 2, 2021). Her last days and just the days after were the most devastating experiences I've ever encountered, just as you explained and will know yourself. Due to the pandemic, only one visitor was allowed with restricted visiting times, which by default was my dad. I'm so, so thankful I was able to be there for my mom's last breath and she waited for my brother and I to arrive before passing when the nurses finally let us in (For my brother just minutes. I was lucky to have about 20 min). But sometimes I'm finding myself angry that I couldn't see or talk to her before then. I wanted so much to be with her while she was in the hospital and the situation wouldn't allow it. I'm still working through these emotions and am trying to find ways to cope.
I don't know how I'm going to get through all the first holidays without her this year. I keep thinking about how my mom won't be here when I get married or have kids too. I relied on her so much and feel like I need her just to get through these milestones. But your story and your words give me hope that I will be able to deal with this grief one day and that it's possible to feel happiness again.
I'll be coming back to these videos as reminders to myself. I wish you continuing strength in the years ahead. You have already been strong. ❤️
I lost my dad 4 weeks ago on Friday and as much as I love to watch your videos, I’m really scared to watch this just in case in triggers me too much. When I’m feeling stronger I will come back to watch, I know this video is here for me. Thank you for being the comfort and support I need right now as you will 100% know how I’m feeling and I completely connect with you on this 💕
So much respect to her she’s overcome so much so young❤️❤️
you’re the strongest and beautifullest woman you and Katie are such a credit to your beautiful mother, she is so so proud of you both 🤍 sending you all the love and strength in the world Elle you deserve it so much. this video is going to help so many people out there, thank you for being so brave x
You’re so brave, so strong and absolutely incredible for filming this! The amount of people it will help is too many to count. She would be so proud of the both of you, we love you x
To be able to speak so honestly and openly about such a difficult time for you truly is inspiring. You really are helping so many people by speaking out like this and reassuring them about what they’re going through. Thank you🤍
You are so brave, strong and a true inspiration to so many people. Thank you for sharing your story, we love you!
your mum would be so proud of you angel, and she is definitely watching down on you and will always protect you, katie and your baby boy💕 sending so much love xxxx
I am so sorry for your loss, you have come so far! She will always be with you even if you can’t see her 💕💕
Your so strong and truthful and a beautiful soul. We are all here for you Elle love you so much 💓💓💓
Bless you Elle X I found this video so relatable. You should be really proud of yourself for getting through this past year and all that you’ve dealt with and been through. I read a lot of books on the afterlife which are a huge comfort xxx
I cannot believe your strength. I lost my mum 19 years ago and I still couldn’t write the way you have within 24 hours. You are amazing Elle x you do learn to live with it, you are right.The grief waves over you, mostly unexpectedly but the happy memories come in the same way. You are not crazy at all for feeling the good things have been sent by your mum. I think exactly the same with mine. Thank you for this video x
This video is emotionally beautiful. Thank you for sharing your journey and showing me not to waist a day with my mum or any family member again. I truly believe she is watching down on you from her flowery garden in heaven, smiling at how far you’ve come. Keep being you Elle. You are incredible 🤍
It feels like the sun is really powerful in this video. When you spoke about being scared of living without her and the sun flashed and shone through, really made me believe she is there supporting you and always looking over you, caring for you and being so so proud of you. Im so proud of you Elle 💗
I had flashbacks when I watched my nan die, it happened for years after and I had panic attacks so I visited a hypnotherapist , he helped me view it in a different way to how I had seen it, which was a massive weight off my shoulder. It’s nice to know it’s a memory and that you’re not trapped in that moment. I’m here for you x
Can't even tell you how much I needed to see this Elle! I lost my day at the end of January and I feel like I'm walking around numb! You are so strong and such an inspiration!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Xx
Well done Els, you never cease to amaze me on how you communicate so beautifully. I’m one of your older subscribers and always enjoy seeing you, Conor and yr fur balls, you are going to be a fabulous mum and I’m sure your mum is watching over you with such pride in you, take care lovely and be kind to yourself 🙏❤️
elle i love you!! i lost my mum three years ago this june & your videos always make me feel better, also these similar comments to my situation are making me feel not so alone 🤍
The most beautiful and strong woman 🤍✨ You are absolutely glowing and so gorgeous as always! I’m sure this was really hard to upload but it was so brave and I’m sure it’ll help so many people. Sending you so much love in this difficult time xx
I have just been reading all of the comments and the amount of beautiful people who have lost parents and loved ones is honestly so so heartbreaking. Just want to send so much love to both Elle and all the angels who have commented , none of you deserved to experience such pain but I am so proud of you all - just as your lost loved ones are💜
Gosh your vulnerability is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your heart and your journey.
You’re so strong Elle, you’ve got this and everyone is so proud of you xxx
Thank you so much for you video about you mom a year later. You will never know how much I needed this. I just lost my dad who was my best friend. You answered questions I didn’t even know I had.
Thank you so much!! ❤️
My thoughts and prayers are with you Elle 💕 You definitely have "Her" beauty, strength and courage!!!