Then I heard a new sound: a living sound, like the richest, most complex, most beautiful piece of music you've ever heard. Growing in volume as a pure white light descended, it obliterated the monotonous mechanical pounding that, seemingly for eons, had been my only company up until then. The light got closer and closer, spinning around and around and generating those filaments of pure white light that I now saw were tinged, here and there, with hints of gold.
I feel you on the isolation. After my psychosis I completely isolated myself for a long time. It took me about a year to recover from my worst psychosis. I felt so ashamed and lost some friends that I thought were my friends, but they weren't really. My psychosis was on complete display on my social media story. I posted videos of myself acting psychotic and many people I knew saw it. How embarrassing
Something similar happened to me too I posted on social media and a lot of people I knew sow it. Now I’m to embarrassed to approach the people who sow my psychosis display on social media.
You are so right about the routine and exercise. When I was psychotic, for some reason riding my bicycle and playing solo basketball was kind of like a pause from the delusions and the "quest to truth". It was honestly very relaxing. Thank you for making this video!
Thank you! My son is going through this out of no where. Im gonna show him this video to contribute to his recovery, to show him that it is possible to get back to his life ❤❤❤Your amazing and thanks for sharing🙏🏿
I just had my son put in the hospital for the 3rd time in 2 1/2 years... I pray he "hears and accepts" this time.. I appreciate those who shared their stories, for if they had not, I wouldn't have any idea what's going on..
You're very brave to come forward I had this and is was very difficult for me to talk about it I'm ok now haven't had another episode mine was pretty bad excercise has helped me and terapy along with medication sleep depravation was one of the reasons I had that
Thanks for this video. I was still having symptoms for like a month after my drug induced psychosis (which was my 2nd one) in December. Even 3 months on I still get confused thoughts but I've been able to sleep more with supplements. I've had to switch anti-psychotics a few times due to bad akathisia. Currently doing a lot of mindfulness meditation and waiting for the snow to melt so I can go back to work. Shoveling dirt helps me think about nothing.
Rumination feels like one of the most intense hell-ish forms of suffering to me. It constricts and squeezes any joy from being alive. The most effective circuit breaker for me: a long meditative stroll/walk. Basically don't get influenced by thoughts. Most/many of them are parasitic and repetitive and unnecessary and programmed and unhelpful and demonic. Just live. Live your life. Don't waste it. If the thoughts help you live/love/be better then engage with them. if not, just ignore. That being said, I want to die I am raped my life is hell all I do is suffer there's no escape "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." - Ephesians 6:12 what we consume, consumes us.
I am planning on using gabapentin to get off weak opiates. Even though weak, still need help with withdrawal. How long can i take Gabapentin until physical dependent?
I got it from taking lsd and mushrooms should I take anti psychotics idk I'm scared I don't wanna have bad side effects I wanna life back to normal life
@@masonrunning Could you please mention the antipsychotic you were on and how did you taper off safely and become normal Mason? How much did you cut off your meds and the duration . a
Great video, I had a bad experience from smoking weed I did not have delusions or hallucinations but am just anxious all the time as a result of this experience and since then I have been wondering if I messed up my brain chemistry and also I do question my reality alot with alot of what's if/is this just a really bad weed trip or is this phychosis/it's been 11 years since this experience I just feel mentally numb and trap in my thoughts.
so you believe that this weed trip 11 years ago has still contributed to your current state of mind? I hope mine ends sooner. I hope you are doing better. Know of any supplements that can help in the mean time?
I knew I was psychotic due to my circumstance and the way I was sort of out of control to my normal self. People helped guide me back to normalcy for the time being but the symptoms lasted a long long time- months. I quit all drugs including caffeine for several months. Then I later got on an antidepressant.
what kind of bubble is it? I'm learning that severe depression is typical after psychosis, I'm certainly experiencing that. Dunno if that's what you're describing.
@@thaumatologysame here man. I was wondering why Ive felt so terrible, as you'd think you'd feel better upon escaping psychosis. But it's definitely post psychosis depression.
Then I heard a new sound: a living sound, like the richest, most complex, most beautiful piece of music you've ever heard. Growing in volume as a pure white light descended, it obliterated the monotonous mechanical pounding that, seemingly for eons, had been my only company up until then. The light got closer and closer, spinning around and around and generating those filaments of pure white light that I now saw were tinged, here and there, with hints of gold.
glad you're still here, psychosis is no joke man.
I feel you on the isolation. After my psychosis I completely isolated myself for a long time. It took me about a year to recover from my worst psychosis. I felt so ashamed and lost some friends that I thought were my friends, but they weren't really. My psychosis was on complete display on my social media story. I posted videos of myself acting psychotic and many people I knew saw it. How embarrassing
Are you schizophrenic?
Something similar happened to me too I posted on social media and a lot of people I knew sow it. Now I’m to embarrassed to approach the people who sow my psychosis display on social media.
@@Pinkeaglebefree That's exactly how I feel. I don't want to face their reactions
i had the exact same situation
You are so right about the routine and exercise. When I was psychotic, for some reason riding my bicycle and playing solo basketball was kind of like a pause from the delusions and the "quest to truth". It was honestly very relaxing. Thank you for making this video!
Exercise is key
If you don’t mind how long did your psychosis last?
@@lindaperez2750 Hi, my psychosis lasted around 8 or 9 months.
@@laterskater6341 did you take medicine?
@@lindaperez2750 I took anti-psychotics during the first three months. Then I continued taking SSRI's for the remainder of my psychosis.
Thank you! My son is going through this out of no where. Im gonna show him this video to contribute to his recovery, to show him that it is possible to get back to his life ❤❤❤Your amazing and thanks for sharing🙏🏿
Thank you for sharing! I wish my son would watch this video, but I still can't help him with his psychosis recovery!
I just had my son put in the hospital for the 3rd time in 2 1/2 years... I pray he "hears and accepts" this time.. I appreciate those who shared their stories, for if they had not, I wouldn't have any idea what's going on..
Loads of love. This is called content. I hope you do great in life.
This a REAL helpful video. Thank you.
Thank you for posting and best wishes to you for your health now and in the future.
You're very brave to come forward I had this and is was very difficult for me to talk about it I'm ok now haven't had another episode mine was pretty bad excercise has helped me and terapy along with medication sleep depravation was one of the reasons I had that
Thanks for this video. I was still having symptoms for like a month after my drug induced psychosis (which was my 2nd one) in December. Even 3 months on I still get confused thoughts but I've been able to sleep more with supplements. I've had to switch anti-psychotics a few times due to bad akathisia. Currently doing a lot of mindfulness meditation and waiting for the snow to melt so I can go back to work. Shoveling dirt helps me think about nothing.
No problem at all. Supplements definitely help. Keep up the meditation.
same thing happened to me, i lost my flat, friends, work through that and i made tattoos on psychosis
What if I wanna go into hibernation for 8 to 10 years away from all humans
Hey would love to hear how you have got on now... 😊
Thank you for making this :))
Of course!
It took me 31/2 years from the bang to the drdp
Rumination feels like one of the most intense hell-ish forms of suffering to me.
It constricts and squeezes any joy from being alive.
The most effective circuit breaker for me:
a long meditative stroll/walk.
Basically don't get influenced by thoughts. Most/many of them are parasitic
and repetitive and unnecessary and programmed and unhelpful and demonic.
Just live.
Live your life.
Don't waste it.
If the thoughts help you live/love/be better
then engage with them.
if not,
just ignore.
That being said,
I want to die
I am raped
my life is hell
all I do is suffer
there's no escape
"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood,
but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world,
against spiritual wickedness in high places." - Ephesians 6:12
what we consume, consumes us.
I am planning on using gabapentin to get off weak opiates. Even though weak, still need help with withdrawal. How long can i take Gabapentin until physical dependent?
I recovered as soon as I sobered up. People are going to do what they do. Its not my problem
I got it from taking lsd and mushrooms should I take anti psychotics idk I'm scared I don't wanna have bad side effects I wanna life back to normal life
@@flowingthroughveinsofgod well if things don’t get better in a couple of weeks you should consider your options
@@masonrunning
Could you please mention the antipsychotic you were on and how did you taper off safely and become normal Mason?
How much did you cut off your meds and the duration .
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@@shahnazali4000 I did not take antipsychotics.
Great video, I had a bad experience from smoking weed I did not have delusions or hallucinations but am just anxious all the time as a result of this experience and since then I have been wondering if I messed up my brain chemistry and also I do question my reality alot with alot of what's if/is this just a really bad weed trip or is this phychosis/it's been 11 years since this experience I just feel mentally numb and trap in my thoughts.
so you believe that this weed trip 11 years ago has still contributed to your current state of mind? I hope mine ends sooner. I hope you are doing better. Know of any supplements that can help in the mean time?
Sounds like u have dpdr not psychosis
How long does it take to get off medication I’ve been on medication for 7 months now
How did you get to recovery? Did you know you were psychotic or did you have someone help you get to that point. I’m assuming you took meds to recover
I knew I was psychotic due to my circumstance and the way I was sort of out of control to my normal self. People helped guide me back to normalcy for the time being but the symptoms lasted a long long time- months. I quit all drugs including caffeine for several months. Then I later got on an antidepressant.
Hi what are the medications u had for psychosis?
Thank uou🙏
I didn’t really have any for psychosis. My primary medication was running.
@@masonrunning what about your primary medication Mason?
Thank you🙏
I am taking Zoloft 25 mg
@@masonrunning Thank you Mason🙏
@@anniealex7965 Hi Mason. Did the zoloft help with Gaba withdrawal? Cheers
May i ask what drug induced your psychosis?
Does sleep deprivation cause psychosis?
Yes@@EnglishAfrican85
What if I wanna stay inside the bubble then what
what kind of bubble is it? I'm learning that severe depression is typical after psychosis, I'm certainly experiencing that. Dunno if that's what you're describing.
@@thaumatologysame here man. I was wondering why Ive felt so terrible, as you'd think you'd feel better upon escaping psychosis. But it's definitely post psychosis depression.
hi
If not too personal..was this caused by weed ??
No, many different things in combination
@@masonrunning ok.
Thanks for answering.
Thank you for sharing and being open.
Hey bro
Yo