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Mason
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Psychosis - Existential Truth?
Today I explore the question of whether we can take any existential truths from a psychosis experience. Are these possible existential truths valid after the experience or only during? In what mental state should we seek truth? Should we trust what we believe in psychosis? This video is a reflection on an experience I had three years ago. I will answer these questions and others, I hope you enjoy.
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Getting Back to Running After Broken Bones and Serious Surgeries
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In this video, I discuss my story of breaking my femur and hip in a serious car accident as a runner and how I built back up slowly to compete at a relatively high level again. This video covers the time frame of healing and the slow progression I took to get back to running over several years of recovery. I still have hardware in my body and run over 70 miles per week with minimal issues from ...
The Big Alta 28k Trail Race
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Some footage from an exciting trail race with 4000ft of vertical gain. I was the 14th person to cross the finish line in a field with pros and over 300 participants. It was a very hard course but I had a lot of fun. I learned that I need to work on my descending after big climbs. More races to come this spring/summer. Let me know about your next trail races and experiences on the trails in the ...
My First 50k Ultra Marathon
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This is a vlog of my first 50k in Fish Camp, CA. This was very challenging for me since my longest race up to this point was only 13.1 miles. I hope you enjoy it.
Benefits of Running - Mind, Body, Spirit
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In this video, I go over an overview of the benefits of running in my experience. I hope you can find this helpful and inspiring.
My Running Story
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This is a story of my running history from the very beginning, through trials and tribulations, and refinding my love for running at the end. I hope you enjoy it!
Cannabis Addiction and Recovery from Drug Abuse
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This video is intended to being awareness to cannabis addiction and other drug addictions. I tell a story of my drug use and the diminishing effect this had on my psyche. I hope you can learn something from this video.
Psychosis- Prolonged Flashbacks and Triggers
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Healing from psychosis isn't an instant process and there will be speedbumps along the way. I made this video to help inform those who have experienced psychosis to understand some of the issues that can come along later on in the healing process and how to manage them.
Life Update- A Clear Mind can Take You a Long Way
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In this video, I give an update about addiction recovery and discuss the power of the mind in a sober state. The mind is very powerful.
PhD - What to look for and what to expect
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PhD - What to look for and what to expect
well, first and foremost; having been given not a spirit of fear but a spirit of truth and a sound mind (regarding your aforementioned) i'd like to actually use this comment as a rebuke since you're not older than myself, of-course seeing myself not as wise in my own eyes. The medication, stay away from it unless you really believe that you can consume poison and then live regardless... some are lead like cattle to those hospitals... akathisia is a side effect that i've had to experience, it causes the type of physical and mental anguish sufficiently potent enough as a cause in having a hand become raised against yourself and that hand being the same hand that let the meds fly down the hatch."even God, who quickeneth the dead, and calleth those things which be not as though they were." Romans 4:17.
My gabby was in capsule do i would have to open it take some out and reconstruct it
This sht gave me neuropathy
Gave me extreme panic attacks, the irony is they prescribed it for general anxiety…it wasn’t until I tried to stop taking it that I made the connection to all the negative effects of this crap! I had a lot of the symptoms you describe but while ON it! It’s so subtle though that you don’t realize until you stop…and the withdrawal was horrific!
I appreciate this so much. Rough is an understatement. Idek if it was technically psychosis but if not, incredibly similar. I still feel rather far from normal, but no longer fully fledged delusional. I'm so grateful I'm surviving, I felt so sure I wouldn't
@@kayladupuis8610 glad you’re okay. Takes alot of time to feel “mostly normal” again
I had a professor friend (Dr. Vassilis Galanos) that was into black magic and is an active criminal, so to this day I still debate whether he caused it, but I literally ended up thinking I was him and did the most insane things known to man. The one thing I will say, is that when I told him I thought I was him while doing all of these crazy things, I had a paranormal dream about him that came true as soon as I woke up from it and my psychosis was gone. Lost everyone in my life, I should not even be alive right now. Take care and stay safe, my friend.
My daughter is going through this right now after recent prolonged psychosis..she can't sleep and has no peace of mind from it...Thanlyou I can assure her that at least this is normal and that it will become less prevalent and extreme..thankyou
Took two gabapentin one day apart for arthritic shoulder pain. I didn't like the side effects of sleeping too much, unstable while walking. It did stop the pain so I haven't taken another pill. Its been a few weeks now. I won't take another pill unless I'm in severe pain again. I'm not addictive to pills so no trouble setting it aside.
I cut my dosage in half overnight. 2400mg to 900 or even 600 if I forget a dose. I stopped altogether for 3 days and experienced more neurological pain so started again. So for me, it's helping.
im depressd
Solid stuff here brother..nothing like having to check out your own life while still present.... Those in desperation...... IT GOES AWAY. There is light. You can do it.
Hey would love to hear how you have got on now... 😊
Yes. Please continue. My son is 46 off meds and in jail for making threats. It is a broken system
hi
Is the paranoid experience just as real as your heathy experience?
Rumination feels like one of the most intense hell-ish forms of suffering to me. It constricts and squeezes any joy from being alive. The most effective circuit breaker for me: a long meditative stroll/walk. Basically don't get influenced by thoughts. Most/many of them are parasitic and repetitive and unnecessary and programmed and unhelpful and demonic. Just live. Live your life. Don't waste it. If the thoughts help you live/love/be better then engage with them. if not, just ignore. That being said, I want to die I am raped my life is hell all I do is suffer there's no escape "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." - Ephesians 6:12 what we consume, consumes us.
Really weird how fast the withdrawal ends but how it feels so similar to benzo or opiate withdrawal in terms of physical aspects, depression sucks with it but like alprazolam, the taper is actually fast, and when you take even 3/4 of your last dose you feel 100% better for a whole day or more. I'm used to taking withdrawal, precipitated withdrawal from opiates 17 times, countless actual withdrawals, benzo withdrawal, but I remembered I would run out of my Gabapentin halfway through the month and I told my doctor a million times the milligram I was taking and she never raised it, well give me more of a quantity so I was left crashing the next half of the month, I was wondering why I was feeling what medication it could be or actually what was wrong with my body and then I realized every time I pick up the gabapentin and start taking it again I feel better SMH
"The herb reveals you to yourself" -Bob Marley...... think about that.
This was no herb my friend
Oh Mason thank you so much I will check out your other videos but bro I am going through this very thing. To make a long story short I have been on this med for over 5 years well I had surgery and my doc increased my gabapentin from 300 mg a day to 1800 I did this for 2 months and then he abruptly took me off med without tapering. Yes a trained medical professional did this. I was off of it for two weeks the pain I have been feeling has been unreal I still have sweats and joint pain but I think the worst is over. They really need to stop prescribing this drug so freely
I have been on gabapentin for around a month regularly I was using it in high dose like 1500mg daily I have only remaining 40-300mg capsules should I tapper it slow or can I do it fast because I didn't using it from long time. I started to see if I can tapper of my benzo I was able to stop benzos but stuck on this substance for a month now. Kindly give some advice please.
Get kratom
What is your PhD in?
@@uziuzi3311 pharmaceutical and chemical science
@@masonrunning nice one, legend
Cracking video. I struggle to articulate my experiences in my videos, you nailed it. Clever guy 👏 +1 subscriber ✅
Anyone have delusions of neighboors and family members spying on you? Or that they know private things about you
Going through this right now from meth use. Only recently did this start happening to me, I've spoken to the people who are involved in my delusions, and they say that they know nothing about it, it seems so real it's hard to separate truth from reality.
@@reeceolsen-bulllock7821 are you still using? Mines was from cocaine and alcohol abuse from the withdrawals i developed some paranoia and delusion i try and use logic ti break the delusions but its easier said than done because it feels so real.
@@reeceolsen-bulllock7821 when you have time look up abbarant salience and the dopamine receptors it will explain whats going on in your brain in a nano transmitters it helped me sort if break my delusions it helps to know whats going on in a cellular level
thanks brother
You seem to be a really nice guy. Enjoyed your story and I'm all in on talking to you about anything. Wish you the best. Do you have a source of income? I'd love to be your friend. Sharing your story is very helpful for others and shows that you are open and honest. How are things working out for you now. Brother and friend, George.
@@Bambooyard things are going well now. I appreciate your kind comment. You can find my email and social media in my bio.
I am tapering from prescribed benzos. The benzo withdrawal is absolute hell and tapeting is super slow because if i try to go faster i get too many bad symptoms. So to help i started taking some gabapentin. It is helping especially now at the end of the benzo taper. Actually its the only thing helping short from sleeping in a comatose state. But now at the end my withdrawals getting worse and i am wondering if its now the gabapentin giving me withdrawals since i am taking them less now to see if i can get off the benzos. My anxiety is up and i get burning skin and feel restless just unable to function. When i take a low dose of gabapentin this goes away and i calm down dramatically. The burning hot skin cools off. So i dont know is it now increased benzo since i heard its hard shortly before tapering off or is it now gabapentin whom i relied on to help me through. How do i differentiate? Im worried now about gabapentin reading horror stories online. Benzos are hell i can verify that especially because physical dependence can kick in even after a very short time as in my case. Is gabapentin the same?? So i just changed from one hell to another? Please let me know what you know!
Gabapentin is very addicted and an benzo addiction makes it easier to become addicted
I'm in recovery for a couple months now but I still struggle with the feeling that I'm being screen-recorded on my phone and laptop. Do you know any ways of coping with this?
I would say to try grounding. For me, it's running/weightlifting/cold water swimming and feeling in my body. Sometimes I run really really intensely lol. If I don't have time for that, I try and talk myself down from thoughts like that. Sort of like, "Ok, and what?"/"if I'm being recorded other people are also being recorded so what difference does it make?" Ensuring I have a life outside of technology helps lessen thoughts specifically aligned with those kinds of ideas. I was also lucky enough to receive therapy for a bit, my therapist told me some delusions can be interpreted in the same way that dreams can be. So maybe wonder why these thoughts are permeating, what could the roots of them be?
Good luck by the way. It gets better.
Look at it differently, you have a healthy perspective and you can go without your phone, look at it like that instead. Because truthfully, that's what it looks like from my angle if you didn't tell me this and I just met you, let's just say, realistically the truth is is that the only reason you would be recorded is if you were being looked for, yeah like the police have to be actively looking for you and have reasoning, like past history of murder or sexual assault, things like that and even if you did if you were all caught up with court and everything and you wouldn't have a phone haha but yeah you're fine, realistically these devices do record, they have recording components but majority of them are based off of how we use them voluntarily, but you've seen the first 48 show where the police look for people and they can bring up phone calls and stuff, sometimes they run into walls where the person turns off their phone or something happens they run out of signal or something that just gets them off the radar and the cops cannot monitor them, but you'd have to do something insanely stupid or insane to get them to be actively searching for you like that, that's the truth
For example if you were a tech whiz, you know how to disassemble a phone and or laptop and make yourself untraceable worst case haha😅😅
Thank you! My son is going through this out of no where. Im gonna show him this video to contribute to his recovery, to show him that it is possible to get back to his life ❤❤❤Your amazing and thanks for sharing🙏🏿
Hello everyone. Please see content on here about Open Dialogue. It is used to help people out of EMOTIONAL CRISIS. This is what psychosis is. An emotional crisis. It is not a pathology or any type of brain disease. See Dialogue Cures in Psychotic Problems - A Presentation by Jaakko Seikkula Ph D. Open Dialogue was developed in the 80s, in Finland by Alanen & colleagues. The recovery rates are much better there than in places where people are medicated heavily for life & told they have an illness. Psychosis is an emotional response to emotional distress. Please educate yourself. You are not ill for having an emotional reaction to very distressing situation/s. Health peace, strength to all my fellow humans.
L-theanine give me anxiety and so does CBD and so does Buspirone. Weed give me terrible anxiety as well. I do not know why all this stuff that relaxes most people does the opposite for me. The only thing that relaxes me is petting my stray cat and listening to music helps some and walking. I feel so terrible 3.5 years clean from a 2 year taper from xanax and now a one month taper from a 2 year 600 gabapentin dose each day, I am clean from gabapetin for about 2 weeks, I have horrible pains and fatigue, I cam completely unable to function. My mind is so foggy I can hardly type this paragraph Although certain strains of CBD does help a lot but only for a few days if I lay off of it for several weeks and take it again it will work for a few days. If you try CBD and it does not work try another brand.
How long does it take to get off medication I’ve been on medication for 7 months now
Alcohol ruins more lives than anything. Hope you still running
Never felt any different on or off.
ITS WITHDRAWAL FROM HELL!! I've been trying to quit for 2 years now and always come back to it because it helps me with pain but I have gained so much weight while on it. An obscene amount of weight because it increases my appetite so much, and even though I'm vegan Im still a fat ass because I can't lose weight while on it. Be careful. The withdrawal for me was worse than the withdrawal I had from Xanax,
I didn't eat more but not doing anything but sit sleep and eat u gain weight
I got it from taking lsd and mushrooms should I take anti psychotics idk I'm scared I don't wanna have bad side effects I wanna life back to normal life
@@flowingthroughveinsofgod well if things don’t get better in a couple of weeks you should consider your options
@@masonrunning Could you please mention the antipsychotic you were on and how did you taper off safely and become normal Mason? How much did you cut off your meds and the duration . a
@@shahnazali4000 I did not take antipsychotics.
Loads of love. This is called content. I hope you do great in life.
I realize that gabapentin is very helpful for many people, but everyone is different. I was on various doses for 3 months to help with postherpetic neuralgia. OMG, this stuff sucks so much, never again, I was dizzy, tired, had the terrible drunkish brain fog feeling along with dry eyes that were often blurry and hard to focus. Just terrible, couldn't take it or function, so decided to come off. The highest does I was on was 600mg. I tapered down over 3 weeks to 100mg a day then zero. Had a boatload of withdrawal symptoms such as nausea, fatigue, anxiety, agitation, reduced appetite, wild mood swings/ crying and dizziness. The first 5 days off were the worst. I'm currently at day 13 and still not perfect, but greatly improved, still get random dizziness and waves of fatigue. Hopefully at 20 to 30 days I will feel relatively normal. I'll never take Gabapentin again.
I use Gabapentin occasionally (300 mg) before going to bed if something upsets me. It knocks me out and I sleep pretty normally. The one thing I noticed is if I take it more than 2 days in a row, it definitely starts affecting my memory. It takes a few weeks for my mental sharpness to return.
THANK YOU so much for posting this video.❤ I REALLY needed to hear this. God bless and happy trails!🎉
I took it for migraines and I would never ever take Lyirca ever again... I felt like what I imagine a heroin addict goes through in withdrawal... horrific!
Can you abuse gabapentin? My son has extremely rare form of dwarfism and he has random nerve pain and he takes gabapentin. Should I be concerned? He's 16.
you 100% can abuse it. do what you want with that enough but i've done it
Have you ever been hypnotized?
@@dipazlip not that I am aware of
@masonrunning 😅😅 the irony in this reply. Because you wouldn't be aware if you were hypnotized. I feel it though, too much..... sometimes, the only reason I'm still here is because my heart won't stop beating 😢😢
I was on 3200 mg and tapering down as of july 4. Now july 21 and im down to 1600 mg. Im doing ok with only occasional very mild anxiety. I was on it for neuropathy. I dont drink and no mental health issues. I should be completely off in about 4 more weeks as im decreading 400 mg weekly.
You are so brave I’m having delusions and it’s the worse feeling ever I don’t know what real and what’s delusions
Anyone attempting to taper Gabapentin, I recommend going much slower than this. Going down 300mg at a time is good until you get to 300mg, then try going to 200mg for a while (at least a week), then 100mg for a while, then 50mg for a while, then 25mg for a while, then 12.5mg from a while. And yes, once you go under 100mg you're cutting open the pill and just taking the powder. Just eyeball it, half is 50mg, a quarter is 25mg, an eighth is 12.5mg etc...The point: take your time and go slow, I avoided withdrawal symptoms when I did it this way.
Doctor prescribed 150 bd 5 years ago. l have been tapering it 50 at night for some period . Again l took 150 at night so on..At the ooment l intended to take 8 (75 m.g.) tablets ( 600 m.g.)per month =20m.g. Thanks for your guidece & encouragements
it starts at week 2 for me and will last a year
I hate gabapentin tbh, I was taking 10 300mg pills a day… but if I took I would shake if I didn’t take it I would convulse. Not worth it. Alcohol is bad too. Seek out better alternatives like stimulant adhd meds, or if you’re like me and take it for pain, switching to opioids was much better.
I take gabapentin for fibromyalgia it does help I believe that you do go through withdrawals if you run out im not sure if it is physically or mental addictive but if I run out the burner is horrific can't slow don't want to eat it does help get your appetite back can cause swelling though When you are in pain you don't want to eat so I believe that the good benefits outweigh the bad but just like any other drug it can be abused if you aren't careful
I feel you on the isolation. After my psychosis I completely isolated myself for a long time. It took me about a year to recover from my worst psychosis. I felt so ashamed and lost some friends that I thought were my friends, but they weren't really. My psychosis was on complete display on my social media story. I posted videos of myself acting psychotic and many people I knew saw it. How embarrassing
Are you schizophrenic?
Something similar happened to me too I posted on social media and a lot of people I knew sow it. Now I’m to embarrassed to approach the people who sow my psychosis display on social media.
@@Pinkeaglebefree That's exactly how I feel. I don't want to face their reactions
i had the exact same situation
The weird head sensations are commonly known in the withdrawal community as Brain Zaps!