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  • @crystalbramhill5277
    @crystalbramhill5277 3 роки тому +1647

    The work done with this channel is priceless. Providing money is fantastic and very much needed-we may not understand why some use the money for drugs, abortions etc but, this is the truth of the individuals we see in these videos. Their truth is that they, for whatever reasons, need the money to continue their addiction-the story and reasonings of why they need the money for whatever they ultimately end up purchasing is their story. This channel is more than an avenue to provide cash but an avenue and an invitation to hear these stories.
    Everyone has a story. Everyone. Not everyone has someone to sit without distraction and actually listen and hear what is being said. Hearing makes us aware, responsible and accountable. Most of us or all of us have been or are (at one point or another) judge mental before a word is ever spoken.
    After viewing these videos and hearing the stories, these individuals can no longer be a “no-name” in the streets. They have a name. They have a story. They are someone’s mother, father, sister or brother. They are OUR brother and sisters we are seeing.
    To understand that there are Americans struggling and to hearing their stories is the fruit of this channel. To understand that these individuals are not too different than us is priceless. They are us and we are them.
    It is hungry work Mark does-it is not easy to travel into the abyss that is the world of these individuals and go home and have it just “shut-off”. I’m sure the emotional aspect tied to creating content for this channel is a harsh mistress no doubt.
    To those sharing their life with us: thank you for sharing your story and your truth. I see you and I hear you.

    • @SoftWhiteUnderbelly
      @SoftWhiteUnderbelly  3 роки тому +146

      Beautiful. Thank you Crystal.

    • @butterbean3892
      @butterbean3892 3 роки тому +14

      Love this!! ❤️

    • @bostonemily617
      @bostonemily617 3 роки тому +15

      This was beautiful.

    • @stonefoxx66
      @stonefoxx66 3 роки тому +22

      Thanks for putting into words my exact feelings about this channel. Perfect 🤩

    • @jaggirl
      @jaggirl 3 роки тому +10

      Very well said..🌻

  • @touche4164
    @touche4164 3 роки тому +2631

    I think this is the first time an interviewee asked for advice. " do you have any advice for me?" She's genuine

    • @SuzanneDeniseB
      @SuzanneDeniseB 3 роки тому +68

      Yep. She made me cry. Ive been there.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому +69

      I'm sure Mark gave her some solid info &/ hooked her up with the right people. It seems I remember he did this before.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому +26

      @@SuzanneDeniseB Aww, honey, I hope you're doing ok.❤

    • @tiffysimm7346
      @tiffysimm7346 3 роки тому +36

      Yes. That was very genuine. She can make it if she applies her strength to kick her habit. Rooting for her!

    • @Dignity100
      @Dignity100 3 роки тому +32

      She's lost and is seeking guidance. I hope that she gets it. As I listened, I was thinking about all the help available for people impacted by COVID, and she's clueless.

  • @madisonfuller2326
    @madisonfuller2326 3 роки тому +2398

    She needs resources. She is so capable of coming out of this.

    • @vonderloo3184
      @vonderloo3184 3 роки тому +49

      She is smart. She just needs a little guidance.

    • @dontworryboutit4480
      @dontworryboutit4480 3 роки тому +23

      Give her some

    • @wtf9599
      @wtf9599 3 роки тому +25

      Exactly she doesn’t even want to do this stuff she just doesn’t have anyone trying to help her it’s sad

    • @lilcurious1511
      @lilcurious1511 3 роки тому +13

      @Madison Fuller I agree she definitely needs some guidance and she will be ok.

    • @muchlove9781
      @muchlove9781 3 роки тому +2

      She died y’all

  • @zenaidavanegas2675
    @zenaidavanegas2675 3 роки тому +898

    I just turned 25, 8 months ago I lost my jobs due to covid, then my fiance overdosed on heroin, then I lost my apartment, then I was robbed, my addiction was the only steady thing in my life. the only reason im not homeless is because I had a few friends willing to let me couch surf and I sold art because I am an artist. I relate so much to you. We will both be okay, we will both survive. Now I have a job that I love and I just moved into an apartment that im turning into home. I believe in us.

    • @aliwalker7667
      @aliwalker7667 3 роки тому +22

      I believe in you Zenaida, wishing you the best of the best and grab your life, live in the moment, you are so young, talented and clever. I hope you recover from your addictions and do not waste the best years of your life as I did. I WOKE up one day and realised I was in my late 40's and still addicted, I jepardised all that was good for me, sabotaged it all because I didn't believe I was worth all the amazing opportunities which came my way. It is too late for me but not for you. Sending my love & all my positive energy your way. xx Ali from south Wales xx I hear ya!

    • @eamoncunningham2387
      @eamoncunningham2387 3 роки тому +10

      be a beacon of hope,you have bin already as ive just found your comment an it drew me in,hope is powerful,more than we give it credit,without it what do we have,im so happy for you,i hope i can find my way as you have,keep shareing the good stuff man

    • @talithasuya8908
      @talithasuya8908 3 роки тому +10

      @@aliwalker7667 It's not too late for you.

    • @Sedonawhite
      @Sedonawhite 3 роки тому +11

      Good luck I just got clean and it is amazing. You deserve better than a life of addiction 💓🙏🙏🙏

    • @Sedonawhite
      @Sedonawhite 3 роки тому +4

      @@aliwalker7667 so sweet of you, thank you for being so kind 🙏

  • @raisedbiwolves3546
    @raisedbiwolves3546 3 роки тому +813

    She’s a great example of why we need to stop looking at struggling people as if they earned the struggle. People are dealt a shitty hand everyday.

    • @maddiefaye696
      @maddiefaye696 3 роки тому +12

      YES EXACTLY please see the humanity in people goddamnit !

    • @ivonned32
      @ivonned32 3 роки тому +7

      Yes, and we need to celebrate the ones that even all those shitty adversaries dealt to them keep going and want to better their lives. I know tons of immigrants like that. They were dealt misery and now they do anything in their power to keep going.

    • @joycee5493
      @joycee5493 3 роки тому +2

      Agreed!

    • @fullclipaudio
      @fullclipaudio 3 роки тому +5

      As my parents told me, "you may not be interested in the Vietnam War but the war is interested in you." In this game (and it has been proven by science to be just that - a game), the challenge is to work with the hand you've been dealt - period. The game is focused on knocking you down to see if you can get back up and then it will knock you down again. The game is only concerned with whether or not you get back up. Failure to get back up is a loss.
      If an 8 year old can decide their gender then an 8 year old can decide to become a winner. After all, you can't have it both ways.

    • @williammartinez3392
      @williammartinez3392 3 роки тому +1

      And this is correct…..

  • @stay_low_key
    @stay_low_key 3 роки тому +708

    I cried. This could be anyone of us. Be grateful for what you have because we could all loose it in a blink of an eye

  • @Joneseycat123
    @Joneseycat123 3 роки тому +292

    When she said “You have any advice for me?” And stared at the camera. I almost broke. That was one of the more pure innocent moments of the show.

  • @matt84103
    @matt84103 3 роки тому +415

    I like the way she kept asking him questions. Looks like She’s always trying to learn more. Smart girl.

  • @JudiSM79
    @JudiSM79 3 роки тому +477

    She’s literally begging for help and guidance. Please help her.

    • @mguzman6234
      @mguzman6234 3 роки тому +6

      It's so sad, she is wanting help

    • @mguzman6234
      @mguzman6234 3 роки тому

      @@RandallSGregory?

    • @mguzman6234
      @mguzman6234 3 роки тому +2

      @@RandallSGregory o you don't know me or what I do to help ppl. I'll end this conversation here. Have a good day.

    • @JudiSM79
      @JudiSM79 3 роки тому +3

      @@RandallSGregory first of all, how do you know if we have or haven’t done something for our own communities? I live in the deep Deep South and I have helped my own community in the past, mostly during Katrina. California is a shit show in regards to homelessness and drug addicts and California created the problem so they can fix it. They enable these people instead of helping them. So when people like me are begging for someone to get help, we aren’t asking to sugar coat it for an interesting video. We are asking because we see the fear and desperation in that person and they are pretty much screwed living in that state and that’s also why other folks who have their shit together are leaving California for Texas and Florida. Please don’t comment if all you can do is insult others, at the very least don’t fucking tag me because you don’t have an answer either.

    • @maryannvitelli5818
      @maryannvitelli5818 3 роки тому +1

      @@JudiSM79 Who, please is RssTTK. I didn't see that in comments at all in this section.

  • @sharonkae4838
    @sharonkae4838 3 роки тому +817

    Oh sweetheart, if your fiance took off after you lost everything he was not worth a dime.

    • @ms.sanchez3924
      @ms.sanchez3924 3 роки тому +24

      I wonder if he contributed to her losing everything. If he did shame on him but then again I at least hope she wasn't supporting his drug habit (only if he had one) because no man should take advantage of a woman in her situation and vice versa. She's still young (plus attractive) and has a much better chance than some other ppl who aren't as young. I'm talking like middle age and beyond.

    • @katiesandin7905
      @katiesandin7905 3 роки тому +14

      That's right Sharon H... she dodged a bullet with the fiance. Not worth it. Hopefully someday she'll know that. 💞💖

    • @mt_gox
      @mt_gox 3 роки тому +6

      @@ms.sanchez3924 No, as she says, it was due to the Covid shutdowns.
      But it was worth it because, as AOC said in her tweet, every single shutdown and layoff was worth it, because it got Trump out of office!

    • @djbillybass
      @djbillybass 3 роки тому +11

      If he was worth a 💩 he would have helped her figure out how to get unemployment they would have been good.

    • @sharonkae4838
      @sharonkae4838 3 роки тому +6

      @@djbillybass Exactly, a little guidance and this girl could go a long way. Hopefully SWU has shown her the path. I wish her only the best. One life saved off of Skid Row is priceless 💞

  • @leslebrookemiller
    @leslebrookemiller 3 роки тому +447

    Loyalty: "I might look normal or seem physically normal but I don't feel normal on the inside."
    I felt that.

    • @realtalk4eva646
      @realtalk4eva646 3 роки тому +2

      Me too....every day

    • @Chris-qg8ss
      @Chris-qg8ss 3 роки тому

      Loyalty, try Prevention Point,, for rehab

    • @Wreck-it_Ralph
      @Wreck-it_Ralph 3 роки тому

      Ditto

    • @209Twinz209
      @209Twinz209 3 роки тому +4

      @@renatalove5212 what are talking about. She don't look like a junkie. Her hairs clean, clothes are clean, shes thick...

    • @209Twinz209
      @209Twinz209 3 роки тому +2

      @@renatalove5212 according to you, every ugly person in your opinion is a junkie or on drugs lol.

  • @Christine-xt8fr
    @Christine-xt8fr 3 роки тому +296

    I like that when he asked if she's ever been in love, her 1st thought was about her own self love

    • @beckyfranzel1377
      @beckyfranzel1377 3 роки тому +7

      Came here to say that too. I love that.

    • @Chris-qg8ss
      @Chris-qg8ss 3 роки тому +1

      Loyalty, try Prevention Point - for rehab

  • @ruggedindividual5255
    @ruggedindividual5255 3 роки тому +280

    She is a fighter. She has the best attitude of any interviewee I’ve watched on this channel. She’s been thru some tough shit but she doesn’t come off like a victim like many of them do. The girl poured concrete for a living-she has a work ethic and a good heart-she needs a break right now. I hope she doesn’t let the fentanyl take her down. And Mark gives her good advice at the end.

    • @mistythomas6952
      @mistythomas6952 3 роки тому +6

      Thank you for being a kind caring and open minded person. Thank you.

    • @flomillishit8348
      @flomillishit8348 2 роки тому +1

      none of them come off as victims excuse me

  • @artnelson2787
    @artnelson2787 3 роки тому +141

    The way she said, “Do you have any advice for me?”, was heart breaking. I wish the best for her.

    • @brettkenney6464
      @brettkenney6464 3 роки тому

      The only thing I didnt like was in the beginning when he said "just a mom".

    • @artnelson2787
      @artnelson2787 3 роки тому

      I think he meant that in the context of, “no abuse, but a heroin addicted mom”, “just” a mom addicted to heroin.

  • @leeann4900
    @leeann4900 3 роки тому +192

    She stated she was born 4 months premature. That is an undeniable, (imprinted fighting spirit), from deep within her soul! May God bless you, baby girl.

  • @Tenacioussstee
    @Tenacioussstee 3 роки тому +199

    I’ve never commented on any of these videos, but Loyalty...
    I want to jump in my car, drive halfway across the country, and search Skid Row for you. I love you, brave one. I will never stop thinking about you now. Ever. I pray you know your value and worth have not changed bc of your situation. You have a beautiful spirit and soul. I am rooting for you! ❤️

    • @bigmamared1
      @bigmamared1 3 роки тому

      Me too

    • @mrsholl9608
      @mrsholl9608 3 роки тому

      Such kindness 💜

    • @E_Babii420
      @E_Babii420 3 роки тому +8

      Seriously thought about making that drive! Skid row is about 2hrs away from me....breaks my heart to know she has no family, no support, and a man that left her homeless with HIS car payments! (the disrespect) I pray she finds peace and gets back on her feet! I wish I could be a shoulder for her!!!!

    • @jenniferdotson5510
      @jenniferdotson5510 3 роки тому +3

      Loyalty love who you are bc you have a beautiful soul . Get out of there , just walk away from it you are worth it !

    • @kimberlyanne434
      @kimberlyanne434 3 роки тому +3

      Loyalty is so young and has her walls up.
      But, today we saw those pretty blue eyes breaking.
      Loyalty needs the tools to life we have learned from responsible parents.
      Her pimp told her horrible things about herself.
      Loyalty needs to know that strength to walk into rehab.
      Never hookup with another loser again as long as you live, your self worth is more.
      Loyalty please don’t put another tattoo on your pretty face.
      Stop the drugs we don’t want to see a follow up on you being dead.
      You said you were waiting to hear advice you got it from me❣️

  • @ShanaNikki
    @ShanaNikki 3 роки тому +339

    Can we get an update on her? My heart hurts for her so bad. I really hope she got the help she needed. She is so genuine. ❤️

    • @peterstrayhorn5316
      @peterstrayhorn5316 3 роки тому +11

      I hope Mark was able to help her. I think she worth it. She has LD. Problems like me you can't see it on the outside but you do feel it. I'm 🙏for her.

    • @lauj888
      @lauj888 2 роки тому +4

      I would love an update on Loyalty. She needed help and deserved it so much❤️

    • @roymaddocks3184
      @roymaddocks3184 2 роки тому

      A couple of comments earlier on have noted that Loyalty has unfortunately died

    • @aiya1475
      @aiya1475 2 роки тому +1

      @@roymaddocks3184 where?

    • @roymaddocks3184
      @roymaddocks3184 2 роки тому

      @@aiya1475 I'm sorry. I don't know

  • @ArizonaAkinTv
    @ArizonaAkinTv 3 роки тому +207

    When she said so honestly and raw - “I’m scared to love!” - then she thought about what she’d said for a second and said “nahhh, I’m not scared” that was such a real statement followed up with such a relatable feeling of defensiveness after expressing some vulnerability... great interview Mark and thanks for taking her questions seriously.

  • @MyMs1979
    @MyMs1979 3 роки тому +152

    You are going to make it Loyalty. I've watched damn near if not all of these interviews and you stand out. Go to rehab any offer of meetings, training any opportunity for self improvement grab with both hands. This is an episode in your life that you can and will leave behind. Take good care. x

  • @sonyaclarke7586
    @sonyaclarke7586 3 роки тому +103

    I became homeless during covid. I am in my 50s and never thought this could happen. Like her, I was doing all the right things when I lost my job and nearly lost everything.

    • @annefogarty7540
      @annefogarty7540 3 роки тому +7

      I hope things are better for you now

    • @lauj888
      @lauj888 2 роки тому +5

      So sorry to hear you got hit by it all too❤️

    • @diesto-vg5jz
      @diesto-vg5jz 2 роки тому +17

      ....and the billionaires gained even more. Funded by taxes meant for Healthcare and education

    • @Pallazero
      @Pallazero 2 роки тому +2

      How are you now?

    • @mattsivits9834
      @mattsivits9834 2 роки тому +2

      @@diesto-vg5jz
      My old boss made millions from Covid from fake numbers saying he lost more than he really did

  • @ahmritroets601
    @ahmritroets601 3 роки тому +366

    Out of every person I have seen on your screen Mark, and I have seen them all. This is the one you want to help Mark. Im a adult now but was a runaway growing up and I can spot the savable. She is a diamond in the rough. Please guide her Mark.

    • @charmainepriestman915
      @charmainepriestman915 3 роки тому +6

      Yes!

    • @teresaacevedo4825
      @teresaacevedo4825 3 роки тому +11

      I agree ! She needs guidance ! The love of a parent. I get so upset when I hear how these young children/adults are thrown to the world when their parents aren’t there. Where are her parents family ?

    • @meenamyrie9902
      @meenamyrie9902 3 роки тому +11

      Has he helped ppl in the past? (Not shade, I’m legit asking cuz idk)

    • @moniquegarcia1011
      @moniquegarcia1011 3 роки тому +9

      Yes if he helped Amanda then he can help her no questions asked atleast shes on the same mindset as he is in whether shes using or not all the money spent for amanda would do this young lady good and get her back on track.

    • @moniquegarcia1011
      @moniquegarcia1011 3 роки тому +7

      @@meenamyrie9902 yes he has he did a gofund me for a scammer kelly n is currently helping Amanda and in my opinion Amanda will relapse I hope Im wrong but I think that time,money, opportunity and respurces are being wasted helping Amanda because she didn't want to get clean she is being forced I know Im in recovery rn and everytime the justice system or cps made me quit i went back to using

  • @jhwil90
    @jhwil90 3 роки тому +331

    This is the first episode that made me feel compelled to donate. I hope Mark can help her off cam.

  • @Sweetdrownsoda
    @Sweetdrownsoda 3 роки тому +93

    This one hit me HARD. Reduced me to a puddle of tears. This could so easily be ANY of us. Feeling EXTREMELY grateful right now.

    • @andreeadobre3190
      @andreeadobre3190 3 роки тому +2

      Exactly. This could be me if I didn't have a stable, supportive family all my life. If I didn't get help for my mental health issues when I did. Never ever ever forget how much we need to be grateful for. Wish I could give her a hug.

  • @robertfleischmann1688
    @robertfleischmann1688 3 роки тому +171

    Man I’ve never wanted to rescues someone so much in my life. If I could I would provide for her everyday for the rest of my life and make her life easy and fulfilling as possible. Don’t give up girl. Ur body is still a temple. Don’t look at yourself as being less then anyone. You’re perfect. I have faith in you and I know u will get through this and have a great life one day soon.

    • @brittanyhunt6816
      @brittanyhunt6816 3 роки тому +4

      ❤️

    • @Rabbitorzo
      @Rabbitorzo 3 роки тому +6

      Genuinely hope you reach/have reached out to Mark! His email is available, this comment has received positive attention, if you're genuine in this absolutely reach out to potentially provide long term stability. Everything helps.

  • @melodydavis7052
    @melodydavis7052 3 роки тому +277

    She's a really decent lovely person who really deserves a serious break. I really hope that she gets help and guidance which will lead her to a better life. She doesn't know what to do. Sometimes when you don't know what to do, you do nothing.

    • @Dignity100
      @Dignity100 3 роки тому +7

      She really does deserve a break. I hope she makes it.

    • @prihaps
      @prihaps 3 роки тому +2

      Im in that stage unfortunately

    • @cobraking7146
      @cobraking7146 3 роки тому +2

      Word. I wish I could help her

    • @mariapadula5017
      @mariapadula5017 3 роки тому

      This makes me so sad. She's a strong person and has a lot of potential. 💔

  • @jesserhodes7430
    @jesserhodes7430 3 роки тому +406

    Life is a house of cards. We are all one or two emergencies away from losing it all. i genuinely feel for her story.

    • @James-ix4yv
      @James-ix4yv 3 роки тому +5

      My mother always said this.

    • @ThejeffJr8
      @ThejeffJr8 3 роки тому +10

      Not all of us

    • @angryox3102
      @angryox3102 3 роки тому +11

      Not everyone. There are a lot of people that have 3-6 months of income saved for emergencies. (I’m not one of those people)

    • @Tybiggs25_
      @Tybiggs25_ 3 роки тому +4

      Not everyone but you're right.

    • @honestyquality3565
      @honestyquality3565 3 роки тому +6

      A very profound statement Jesse. My brother-in-law lost his mind when his wife sent him divorce papers. He shot her 5 x with a shotgun

  • @ravensong9724
    @ravensong9724 3 роки тому +435

    My mom was same she died at 29 drugs she did drugs whole time she was pregnant I was 4 pounds my dad died too I was not placeable either at 13 and 14 I was taking care of myself no one cared, there was a lot of violence in my childhood and I still have alot of feeling non normal. I've never tried drugs, and I have two disabled sons I'm married and home, I can relate to everything she said even if we are doing fairly well the damage has already been done, it never goes totally away, I wish her well, it's hard to love yourself

    • @mpat100
      @mpat100 3 роки тому +14

      hope you doing well now

    • @mzfancy4767
      @mzfancy4767 3 роки тому +35

      So proud of u for not allowing drugs into ur life even when things were tough. May ur family be blessed. 💯

    • @kellyrenee9066
      @kellyrenee9066 3 роки тому +13

      Oh wow😕 I’m really sorry! I wish you peace and happiness💕 *Blessings*🙏🏽 Xx

    • @tasminavorkliya9342
      @tasminavorkliya9342 3 роки тому +18

      hats off to you! should be proud of yourself x

    • @marklesparkle5882
      @marklesparkle5882 3 роки тому +7

      🙏

  • @CecilLammey34
    @CecilLammey34 2 роки тому +19

    I almost lost it when she asked, "Do you have any advice for me?" It's right there for her, she's got the strength, she just needs some things to go her way. An update would be fantastic.

  • @cilla-themusiclover
    @cilla-themusiclover 3 роки тому +227

    "The harder the journey, the better the destination".
    Loyalty, look within. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for.

    • @stephenvolk7748
      @stephenvolk7748 3 роки тому +10

      She's to young to understand her wisdom

    • @YA-qj8fx
      @YA-qj8fx 3 роки тому

      @@stephenvolk7748 Yes, she is wise. She will come out of this and be stronger for it.

    • @ostarasloom7205
      @ostarasloom7205 3 роки тому +2

      Yes, I hope she can see what I see - that she is an intelligent, thoughtful individual just absolutely full of potential and deserving of all good things in life. I just wish I could hug her. 🙏

    • @YA-qj8fx
      @YA-qj8fx 3 роки тому +1

      @@ostarasloom7205Yes, I, too, also wished I could hug her and say "its gonna be ok."😥

    • @sandiali4740
      @sandiali4740 3 роки тому +4

      She’s not understanding the most important thing.
      Get off the drugs and out of skid row. It will not end well
      there.

  • @joanniegady1628
    @joanniegady1628 3 роки тому +81

    Of all the interviews I have watched, this girl has such potential to find a truly healthy happy life. I so pray she finds someone to help her

  • @Inhaleinhell
    @Inhaleinhell 2 роки тому +16

    These videos are a reminder of humility. She's suffering, in pain, maybe scared and lost and she's still has the decency to check if she's being respectful to the platform. Beautiful spirit.

  • @sharonvelasquez4456
    @sharonvelasquez4456 2 роки тому +30

    This young girl pulled at my heart while I was in my home cooking. She was born with 3 strikes against her, yet she still won't say a bad word about her mother. Talk about unconditional love 💔💔💔💔 Lord, this child deserves help🙏🏽🙏🏻🙏🙏🏿🙏🏾🙏🏼🛐🛐✝️✝️

  • @nadergeromain9692
    @nadergeromain9692 3 роки тому +166

    Talk about over labeling. She is so well
    Spoken and she expresses herself well. Everything she says makes sense.

    • @sandiali4740
      @sandiali4740 3 роки тому +2

      How does everything she say makes sense? It’s starts with
      It wasn’t the drug addiction, Maybe there is something I don’t
      Get. What she says at the beginning is misleading. It’s about Covid?
      There is one good outcome possible to drug addiction.
      One and only. Getting off the drugs. Not saying it’s easy.
      What is. Covid has nothing to do with this. Sorry the title put there
      For a reason. That is why I clicked. I love these stories. They are
      Always interesting. I disagree that this is due to Covid. It was a good
      title. If that’s what she wants to blame. That’s fine.

    • @nicestranger1352
      @nicestranger1352 3 роки тому +2

      @@sandiali4740 I was thinking the same thing she said she lost everything house car job because covid 3 months ago yet she used fentynal 6 months ago so it was because drugs!

    • @MagmaManiac
      @MagmaManiac 3 роки тому +3

      @@nicestranger1352 Could you specify where she says 3 months?
      Just to note, at the end she does say she was getting drug tested at her job regularly and didn't even smoke weed prior to lay offs

    • @YourAverageGoyl
      @YourAverageGoyl 3 роки тому +4

      @@sandiali4740 She lost everything because of the lockdowns, not drug use! Get it right. The lockdowns led to her losing her job which ultimately led to the loss of everything else. THEN she got back on drugs.

    • @sandiali4740
      @sandiali4740 3 роки тому

      @@YourAverageGoyl
      So then we should all be on drugs. Since we have all lost something.
      You are stupid. Plain and simple

  • @JMontague990
    @JMontague990 3 роки тому +61

    Addict for 12 years myself. I'm 30 now. With 3 years clean. Just dont stop trying. Dont give up. And remember there is ALWAYS a way to get through it all so long as the desire is greater than the addiction.

    • @Louloubug323
      @Louloubug323 3 роки тому +2

      Congratulations on your sobriety.

    • @JMontague990
      @JMontague990 3 роки тому +1

      @@Louloubug323 Thank you.

  • @someonesmom4053
    @someonesmom4053 3 роки тому +308

    Ironic her name is Loyalty, and she's never gotten any from the people in her life. God bless her. 🙏

  • @nonipaulette4520
    @nonipaulette4520 3 роки тому +63

    This channel should be provided to schools. I try to watch one of these videos a day. It makes your heart compassionate to the pain in the world, how lucky I am and how grateful I am. Thank you.

  • @kdeleon401
    @kdeleon401 3 роки тому +284

    Even though she is 25....she almost needs a family to "adopt" her. A family to love her and help her get stability. She wants to work...she wants to do the right thing!

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому +10

      A family she can count on.

    • @NickysGirl
      @NickysGirl 3 роки тому +8

      I totally agree, she would do well with a loving family behind her, support her, educate her, most of all love her. Super sad she is stuck down there...

    • @babygirlamy1973
      @babygirlamy1973 3 роки тому +4

      I’m in Tennessee. I wish she would come back here. She could turn her life around.

    • @farmkid99362
      @farmkid99362 3 роки тому +6

      I want to adopt her, more then anything in the world. I have a 25 year old son. I wish the government would give me a great big house thats run down and so me and my kids could fix it up. It would give them something to feel good about them selves doing and it would help us all in the long run. So many broken kiddos (to me) that just need love and I have all the love to give 😪 even my bio kids are on board with their brothers and sisters. They already have 4 lol

    • @carlosgaspar8447
      @carlosgaspar8447 3 роки тому +1

      @@babygirlamy1973 i like the tattoo.

  • @jordanlyngle6235
    @jordanlyngle6235 3 роки тому +137

    My husband got out of the Navy right as COVID hit. I went from having everything, affording family trips, and having the ability to stay home with my daughter and go to school. To being homeless, both of us jobless, and having nothing but my car. It was a struggle. Most places wouldn't hire anyone during the pandemic and my background is in Law Enforcement and my husband worked on jets. We never pictured living this life, but it has humbled us both A LOT.Now we both work full time, I'm a full time student, and we live at my Moms. Keep pushing girl. Keep applying. I feel you sooooo hard.

    • @Fashionarily
      @Fashionarily 3 роки тому +12

      @Jessica Williamson Jordan’s comment resonated with me to the core. My significant other and I at the time got out of the Air Force as the recession hit in 2007-2008. NO ONE would hire him and I was 7 months pregnant. We had no idea what was going on until we learned it was a recession on the way. We lost it all!! No apartment just my car. Everything gone. I got 3 small jobs at the mall and did odd jobs until 9 months pregnant. He left me from the pressure of it all. I was left alone with a newborn baby and found a full time job when my son was 4 weeks old. I got a new apartment and I put my baby in daycare and enrolled myself in college with a full time schedule. I paid for daycare for my baby while I worked full time and went to school at night all on my own. It can be done especially if you are single with no kids. Be encouraged and laser focused.

    • @jayjayric4390
      @jayjayric4390 3 роки тому +5

      @Jessica Williamson I was a young mom, worked full time 11p-7a and went to nursing school full time evenings. From 3-10pm. It is do Anel but definitely very hard. Having a baby I only slept a few hours a day. Now that I’m older I can’t imagine doing that.... but in your early twenties anything is possible. Keep pushing. You can do it!!

    • @melaniegrant3934
      @melaniegrant3934 3 роки тому +8

      but people still voted for evil democrats thats scary

    • @receiving7396
      @receiving7396 3 роки тому +4

      @Jessica Williamson Luckily my college switch to full time online. So I am in 5 classes. I get up at 5 am. Get ready, get my daughter ready, take her to pre-school, get to work by 9, take lunch at 12 and do some homework at lunch, work until 7pm, get home, bathe my daughter, make dinner, story time and bed time, catch up on school work until about 11pm, sleep, and all over again. I am getting my pre-requisites for my BSN so it can be a little challenging sometimes with chemistry and math. However, I believe 100% that if I keep pushing I will never have to be in that situation again.

    • @receiving7396
      @receiving7396 3 роки тому +2

      @TaketheK I N G D O M We just realized what an amazing resource the VA. They have already helped our family a lot. There are still bumps in the road, but we see a light!

  • @jerlezz1
    @jerlezz1 3 роки тому +95

    I swear just watching her interview made me feel like I was watching myself. Everything she described about herself and her life made me relive my own life. Her fears, her uncertainty and several other things made me see myself threw her eyes. God bless this beautiful woman and i hope she finds herself through this madness.

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 3 роки тому +3

      I’m so sorry that you went through that. Stay Strong.♥️

    • @amixtwonder
      @amixtwonder 3 роки тому +2

      I hope you find or have found yourself through yours as well.

    • @stevenf7752
      @stevenf7752 3 роки тому +2

      Stay up and only try to make smart safe moves if that makes sense. Nobody should be treated bad

  • @patriciaeileen9920
    @patriciaeileen9920 3 роки тому +68

    I love her so much. You can tell she's honestly tried. There is hope for her and I hope she gets the help she deserves

  • @trippin6118
    @trippin6118 3 роки тому +330

    She was never a bad kid. She just didn't know how to deal with her mom's death

    • @downwiththezionistpsychopa9812
      @downwiththezionistpsychopa9812 3 роки тому +11

      Bullshit. Her mum is the cause of her issues. People only become truly mature when they realise the negative influence their mothers have on them as adults and learn to be independent

    • @twayne4608
      @twayne4608 3 роки тому +13

      @@downwiththezionistpsychopa9812 you said bullshit he’s wrong, then repeated what he said... “she just didn’t know how to deal with her moms death”

    • @ms.sanchez3924
      @ms.sanchez3924 3 роки тому +1

      @@twayne4608 where do you see those very EXACT words? I don't see them but saw them in the comment above his.

    • @shellabella8625
      @shellabella8625 3 роки тому +8

      There aren’t bad kids....only bad parents.

    • @SuzanneDeniseB
      @SuzanneDeniseB 3 роки тому +1

      Nope , she didn't have a chance. 😢

  • @swisstrader
    @swisstrader 3 роки тому +97

    It’s channels like this that simply make me do more good for my fellow man/woman.
    I was grabbing a coffee at Dunkin Donuts yesterday and standing outside in 28 degree weather is a homeless guy. Went in and asked for a roast beef sandwich on sourdough with cheddar cheese and got an extra coffee. Handed it to the homeless guy and he could not be any more appreciative. We then exchanged a few words and he kept calling me “Brother”, which made me feel good. Could not have been a nicer guy and made me feel good about the whole situation.

    • @sofia5096
      @sofia5096 3 роки тому +6

      Nothing feels as good as giving to people who need it

    • @gantz4u
      @gantz4u 3 роки тому +3

      One time I think this guy mistook me for homeless when I was walking my dog because he wanted to feed my dog something. My dog wasnt skinny just a rescue and I guess I look sad and homeless socially awkward or stand offish for the guy to be trying to give my dog food. But I said wait, Its got onions on it. and dogs die when they eat onions and he gave me a reaction consistent with a homeless guy turning down food for their dog. Like "oh your dogs too good for onions now?"

    • @jimmywilliams8045
      @jimmywilliams8045 3 роки тому +2

      God bless you and that person too.

    • @CarlosPerez-wt8ff
      @CarlosPerez-wt8ff 3 роки тому +2

      In SF this fein lady with a baby in a stroller standing outside a ice cream polar ask for $$, I went inside and found a couple things for them to eat. I gave it to her and she was upset that I wouldn't give her $$. I don't understand b/c I would starve just so my kids can eat. Drugs have to be evil.

    • @1AmWhatever
      @1AmWhatever 3 роки тому +1

      @Whole Health for a Whole World I feel you if you go downtown in my city at night you will get swarmed by hecklers if you are dressed halfway decent. Luckily for me I lived on the streets for two years before rising above the bullshit, so I know how to speak their language and basically get them to think twice about any shit they might've been thinking of pulling on me. Also though, I try to give them encouragement and have them realize that we live in America and it's out there to get! Have to buckle down and stop playing games with life.

  • @MsIcollins
    @MsIcollins 3 роки тому +237

    That’s so real ,” she was a good mom she just had an addiction.” That’s true for many addicts it’s not that people with addictions are bad people it’s the addiction that makes them
    Make bad decisions. Without the addiction there very normal people

    • @nad0862
      @nad0862 3 роки тому +8

      It's right but in this case her mother introduced her to drugs and was taking drugs while pregnant putting her in danger I don't think she was a good mother.

    • @kindadeadinside1872
      @kindadeadinside1872 3 роки тому +2

      @@nad0862 her mother and father were not addicts and they would never have introduced their child to harmful things they loved her even when she treated them horribly

    • @dusk5956
      @dusk5956 3 роки тому +2

      I like your statement. Sure her circumstances made her more prone to drug abuse but she chooses not to put the blame on her mother or anyone. At the end of the day, we all get a shit end of a stick and have choices.

    • @brendashacks7407
      @brendashacks7407 3 роки тому +1

      She had her "1st shot of heroin with her"

    • @maddiefaye696
      @maddiefaye696 3 роки тому +3

      In some ways I agree with this comment people can be very high functioning addicts, some even go to work and pay their bills but that doesn't mean it wasn't a chaotic childhood that obviously didn't set her up for success. The foster care system is a failure and has so many stories like this, I don't understand. You should know a kid who's gone through that much shit is just acting out. I definitely do blame the mother for giving her child heroin that is absolutely insane to me but what happens when you're on drugs is your brains prefrontal cortex deteriorates and you lose the ability to make healthy decisions. So while she was probably a good mom at times and probably even did the best she could (in a weird sense) there were many mistakes when she wasn't in a good mental space. No excuses just humanity isn't always that simple. I can see it in her and I could probably see the same thing in her mother. These generational curses are incredibly hard to break but I give her props for building herself up to that point and hopefully she can do it again because she's obviously very strong. Anyone who's gone through that much should be called a warrior in my book. We look at addicts like they're weak for going to drugs but most of the time they've gone through shit you could never even comprehend. Trauma isn't easy to handle. Period.

  • @AngelaPaulina1989
    @AngelaPaulina1989 3 роки тому +164

    I feel so terrible for this girl because you can tell she’s begging to be normal but just doesn’t have the tools. She has been self all the wrong cards. It’s really not her fault she’s turned out this way. She has a lot of potential. I really hope someone watching this lays for her rehab and thsn helps her get a job and place to live. She deserves it

    • @cianbroderick4145
      @cianbroderick4145 2 роки тому

      I relate to this comment fsr too much for it to not hurt

  • @jjtang7533
    @jjtang7533 3 роки тому +323

    She is looking for help and she's intelligent and insightful. Wise, I would even say. She has a good heart. Please help her if anyone can!

    • @danielkinn782
      @danielkinn782 3 роки тому +14

      Sooooo step up and help her. You're asking someone else to do it.

    • @YA-qj8fx
      @YA-qj8fx 3 роки тому +31

      @@danielkinn782 She needs help from people in the business of helping -- social services, charity, etc.

    • @nicolettewestdinnerparty6275
      @nicolettewestdinnerparty6275 3 роки тому +7

      She is welcome to heal with me. As said send her out!

    • @damienholland8103
      @damienholland8103 3 роки тому +5

      @@YA-qj8fx : And that comes from... taxes... increase taxes on the rich and large corporations.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому +9

      I'm sure Mark has.
      There is a gofundme account for the interviewees which you can donate to and say it's for her.

  • @senorgilley
    @senorgilley 3 роки тому +157

    I legit have never wanted to hug someone through the phone so much. This is crazy as fuck.

    • @SarahAngelOchoa
      @SarahAngelOchoa 3 роки тому +2

      right? .. me too i just wanna hug her, now as I'm crying for her and everything that's transpired in her young life

  • @estradasp
    @estradasp 3 роки тому +168

    Damn this was real. She's so relatable. Everything she's been through has made her more wise than what she even realizes. If she stays off the drugs she'll be more awake to capitalize on opportunities she might have missed while high

  • @brandytorretta3701
    @brandytorretta3701 3 роки тому +132

    “Unruly” kids are just kids with loads of trauma that doesn’t get treated in foster care. The system designed to care for our most vulnerable is severely broken and way underfunded. These are human lives. The government needs to DO SOMETHING.
    My heart breaks for this young girl, her life story is such a tragedy. I just want to hug her💔

    • @missleb3537
      @missleb3537 3 роки тому +2

      Totally agree girl... it's awful to be thrown to the wolves with no coping skills!!! I've seen so much I promised myself my son would be self reliant whatever his path. God bless the lost ones but the soul of this young lady she just needs to listen there is a reason she is on this path sadly. I look forward to her update she is ready and just needs guidance. You can do it sweetheart😍

  • @PressedbySammi
    @PressedbySammi 3 роки тому +94

    As a mother of a preemie this broke my heart. It is such a miracle this girl even survived being born as premature as she was and thankfully she was blessed to have no major complications from it. Sad to see she beat ALL those odds just to end up living such a rough, sad life so far.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому +7

      Maybe we'll get an update. I'm sure Mark pointed her in the right direction &/ hooked her up with the right people.

    • @jimmyatoms4438
      @jimmyatoms4438 3 роки тому +1

      Damn preemies.

    • @lightnascending8542
      @lightnascending8542 3 роки тому +4

      Premie babies survive all the time it’s the fact that she was a drug baby THAT premature and survived ❤️❤️❤️ such a beautiful story ❣️

    • @Theloc-fq1qq
      @Theloc-fq1qq 3 роки тому

      I was to I was 2lbs 3 oz when I was born.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому

      @@Theloc-fq1qq Wow!

  • @devan9774
    @devan9774 3 роки тому +29

    She’s definitely worthy of a good relationship, and life from what I see. I sleep in my car, and don’t have any family myself. I’m 26 and I work full time.
    I wish I could speak with this woman.
    Love yourself girl!

    • @kathyguerra7522
      @kathyguerra7522 3 роки тому +2

      Keep your head up, better times are coming!

  • @kpeezyforsheezy
    @kpeezyforsheezy 3 роки тому +165

    Loyalty -
    As we both know you won’t be able to do anything in active addiction. If you have Medi-Cal please get into a methadone program ASAP or on a waiting list for in house rehabilitation. Grant yourself some stability in your health first and foremost. One of the many upsides about both Methadone programs and in-house treatment is the social workers there! If you get into in house treatment you’ll have temporary housing and then if all goes well you can get into a half way house. There they’ll set you up with outpatient classes, work training, food stamps, all of that. Here in Sac you can stay in those for up to a year while you get back on your feet. Next, look into vocational training.
    Mark has given you a fantastic platform with thousands of people rooting for you and many willing to help, but it’s up to you to take the first step.
    You’ve got this. Get ‘em little lady!

    • @loramays4519
      @loramays4519 3 роки тому +2

      ❤❤❤❤

    • @sandy_she3469
      @sandy_she3469 3 роки тому +1

      Thanks

    • @rae2737
      @rae2737 3 роки тому +4

      Great advice.
      PLEASE LIKE the lovely woman's comment SO MARK CAN SEE. Thank you. Hopefully he can guide her and get her in the program that you have suggested.

    • @kpeezyforsheezy
      @kpeezyforsheezy 3 роки тому +8

      The program here in Sacramento (if she wants to take that leap) is called Mather. They accept people on methadone or you have to be all the way off of everything. Let’s help her out Mark! 👏🏼

    • @Sweetdrownsoda
      @Sweetdrownsoda 3 роки тому +5

      Even better, get on Suboxone, apparently it’s easier to get off of that than Methadone

  • @chaneykane3828
    @chaneykane3828 3 роки тому +25

    The way she just casually said “I wasn’t good enough for foster care” like it was nothing made me so sad 💔. People don’t even realize after a while the way they talk about themselves.

    • @tonyhoffman3309
      @tonyhoffman3309 10 місяців тому

      We believe and repeat what we are told about ourselves.

  • @viggiviggs8614
    @viggiviggs8614 3 роки тому +48

    this girl is cool, you can tell she goes through life with her spikes out and getting to talk about her traumas must've been really refreshing for her. i really hope she gets the right help.

  • @nettricegaskins1871
    @nettricegaskins1871 3 роки тому +439

    The fiancé didn't stick around when she lost her job and took the car she paid for. He wasn't really there for her. Ever.

    • @kmsmaym
      @kmsmaym 3 роки тому +27

      It was fuckboy with tattoos 6 ft tall guarantee

    • @dominategunner178
      @dominategunner178 3 роки тому +4

      @@kmsmaym simp

    • @downwiththezionistpsychopa9812
      @downwiththezionistpsychopa9812 3 роки тому +3

      No. The man wasn’t around the mother. The mothers take the children with them. It’s rarely the dads fault it’s usually he can’t stand to deal with how degenerate the woman is, and the man struggles to discipline her. The mothers then convince the kids that ‘mummy loves you and daddy hates you’ and then they end up like this because they’re constantly searching for a ‘coddling’ love that drugs give you and mothers love gives you which is a fake, carnal type of love.
      Real love is a fathers love, discipline, correction, non emotionality, and unconditional love.
      Unfortunately when a man hasn’t overcome his own mother he can’t be a good father either

    • @velipyr
      @velipyr 3 роки тому +6

      It seems like she just needes someone around, someone who wasnt a stranger

    • @johnmooresr2318
      @johnmooresr2318 3 роки тому +3

      I was n the system when I was young I know her pain dont give up I know it's hard god got up baby he can take that pain away

  • @aliciaaltom6652
    @aliciaaltom6652 3 роки тому +201

    This is heartbreaking. If it weren't for my husband, I'd probably be in the same boat as her. Haven't worked since March of last yr. Feeling hella depressed. Just trying to make it thru the days. Sending love to this girl and anyone who reads this.

    • @TT-qs7nk
      @TT-qs7nk 3 роки тому +8

      I understand this A LOT! I was finishing my college degree before the pandemic. I took a break to be available for my family. Due to higher costs, with everyone being home, I started applying for jobs (supplement my husband's income). I've applied for over a dozen (retail and professional) positions. I'm either overqualified or underqualified -- so many people well-qualified people are looking for jobs, the market is saturated.
      So, yeah, I get it. Just because Walmart is hiring, doesn't mean I'll get the job.🤷🏽‍♀️

    • @Codeman785
      @Codeman785 3 роки тому +1

      I feel so bad for you, please keep your head up. Things will pass and get better with time. I'm one of the fortunate people that never lost any work time at all during covid. And I don't understand why every business couldn't have just practiced social distancing, require masks, redesign layouts for people to be separated and just keep working. I don't understand how so many people lost their jobs and some people still aren't working, our society is disgusting.

    • @parisa5014
      @parisa5014 3 роки тому +13

      @@CasperInkyMagoo What the hell? In what industry? The service industry employees have been laid off because of the lockdowns... so what kind of "low" job do you propose she get? FYI- I was unemployed for about six months and have a lot of professional experience and applied for EVERYTHING. Didn't matter what it was. Couldn't find a professional job for six months because of the economy, and jobs like waitressing etc wouldn't hire me because they knew I would be gone once I got another desk job. I applied for every single job where I met the qualifications, didn't matter what it was. Do you really think all of these struggling unemployed people are turning away any job!? Why would anyone? Jesus.

    • @philmccrevis5364
      @philmccrevis5364 3 роки тому +1

      thank you!

    • @magaan4717
      @magaan4717 3 роки тому

      tear drop

  • @mooncow-io
    @mooncow-io 3 роки тому +227

    When she said "sorry can I cuss??" While covering her mouth 😂 shes adorable. I really hope she can crawl out of the hole that is poverty.

    • @chilldudie242
      @chilldudie242 3 роки тому +2

      Without liberty she will never recover
      We are being subjected to this

    • @erichan6985
      @erichan6985 3 роки тому +1

      She’s bad ass Fsho Fsho

  • @rachelgreen4510
    @rachelgreen4510 3 роки тому +43

    Her photo is so striking! Like she almost walked out of another era. Bless her.

  • @felicia1375
    @felicia1375 3 роки тому +16

    Such a beautiful soul. I was in "foster care" too and was always in group homes or facilities. I truly believe that this young lady has EXTREME POTENTIAL!

  • @owlytimbre9103
    @owlytimbre9103 2 роки тому +11

    The dynamic between these two was really touching. He definitely has a strong paternal instinct. She just ate it up. She so needed to just be a kid for a minute. A kid that matters to someone. This does have to be thankless work at times. A heavy load for everyone.

  • @THIIIIRSTY
    @THIIIIRSTY 3 роки тому +23

    Something broke in my heart when she said "I wasn't good enough for foster care." Unbelievable. No one should ever feel like they aren't good enough for a home. The "support" this country offers children that come from troubled homes is nearly non-existent. It's a sickening reality across the country and we need to demand a complete social system reform to create support for individuals of all ages. ESPECIALLY the kids. She's carried that lack of worth through her early adult years and it's so unfair. I feel angry that she's where she is. Part of that anger is directed at the drugs, because I am an addict/recovering and understand exactly what it feels like to feel that lost. The other part is directed at COVID, and our lack of control over it. When will it actually start getting better? Time will tell. I hope she stays safe and finds a way out of the fentanyl. She deserves better. 25 years old. This is what we are doing to our kids. These are the tools we leave them to use in an emergency such an unemployment. We must stop pretending the kids are okay. Help them. God help them.

  • @Str8Gass
    @Str8Gass 3 роки тому +335

    She did her first shot of heroin with her mom...thats DARK

    • @Mod2ForPrez
      @Mod2ForPrez 3 роки тому +52

      It's a reality of many man, my friends mom gave all my friends our first percocets when we were 13. We all eneded up on heroin, lost 2 friends before we graduated. Being poor is rough man, most will never understand.

    • @dewilew2137
      @dewilew2137 3 роки тому +8

      That’s normal for a lot of people.

    • @marysupernova7780
      @marysupernova7780 3 роки тому +14

      My close friends dad was the one who put the needle into her arm, while she and her boyfriend were trying to help him get on his feet (they were 18 yr old parents themselves when they took him in), he got her strung out to try to keep his place on their couch, so she'd "need" him like he needed them. 3 years later, her mother who lived a thousand miles away had her working by day and tricking by night to pay the mom's bills, so that she and the toddler could share a room in her moldy trailer. Families & codependency can be complicated...

    • @kooksux
      @kooksux 3 роки тому +10

      My father gave me cocaine to put up my nose when I was 15. Unfortunately the world is a dark, dark place man.

    • @Str8Gass
      @Str8Gass 3 роки тому +2

      @@Mod2ForPrez I'm glad to see you are still here bro. Salute💯

  • @jeremyrobilotta5019
    @jeremyrobilotta5019 3 роки тому +123

    Hearing her story is so frustrating because she's clearly intelligent and has a lot of potential. She just needs life to give her one break.

  • @MB.77
    @MB.77 3 роки тому +52

    What a beautiful soul. I think if she takes Mark’s advice, she can get herself together again. She’s intelligent and got what it takes. I have a 25 year old. This may be the interview that’s touched me the deepest. I hope we see an update soon. She truly deserves the best and has so much to offer.

    • @MB.77
      @MB.77 3 роки тому +2

      @@Weightingtablesafter Thank you 😊 I had her at 18.

  • @exotic_foxholez
    @exotic_foxholez 3 роки тому +37

    Oh my God. This is such a precious human. Shes SO real and is beautifully humble and vulnerable. I hope she comes out on top.

  • @ewechoober3355
    @ewechoober3355 3 роки тому +76

    she's endearing...when she asks "Can I 'cuss?" l hope she gets help and gets out.

  • @Sweetdrownsoda
    @Sweetdrownsoda 3 роки тому +8

    ‘I felt more loss than love’ That cut DEEP.

  • @sgy8094
    @sgy8094 3 роки тому +19

    As someone who’s went through similar struggles and I’m the same age, YOU CAN COME OUT OF THIS! I believe in you girl. Just keep pushing on.

  • @rosekisiel3383
    @rosekisiel3383 3 роки тому +16

    "I was my own parent", powerful statement. My heart just breaks for her. She is so articulate and just chuckled every time she said "shit". I hope she knows she can dust herself off and stand back up and do better. Don't give up on yourself!!!

  • @corinnakresge2466
    @corinnakresge2466 3 роки тому +58

    I really like her. She's a good being, I can feel it. She can definitely go far in life. Beautiful inside and out. I wish her the best 💕 much love to everyone.

  • @popoff3283
    @popoff3283 3 роки тому +139

    This girl is on the spectrum. She needs a caseworker and to get on SSI. She could still work while on disability if she wanted to. She needs to apply for benefits until at least she gets on her feet again. Hope the best for you!! You are a strong woman and deserve the best life!! God bless.

    • @jimurrata6785
      @jimurrata6785 3 роки тому +19

      She's not on the spectrum "because i was born prematurely"
      It's just the way our brains are wired.
      And it's not necessarily a 'disability' though it is a lifelong challenge relating to more 'neurotypical' society.
      Loyalty is lucid and has already proven to herself she can provide stability for herself.
      It's really hard when the stool is kicked out from under you..

    • @dlesliejones
      @dlesliejones 3 роки тому +20

      @@jimurrata6785 we all react differently to the neuro typical world. I agree her premature birth didn't cause her autism, but I understand how alien life feels for her. I self medicated for years, trying to take the edge off. It was a losing battle, and I was the loser as long as I kept drinking.
      She masks really well, but would really benefit from having someone in her corner. Like others have said, she should apply for SNAP, that would get her a case worker. She, like many of us, just needs someone to extend a little kindness. If she has her ID, she can contact any social services center. I'm not sure how that works with COVID.

    • @jimurrata6785
      @jimurrata6785 3 роки тому +17

      @@dlesliejones Yes, that's why it's a 'spectrum'.
      Getting some food benefits and a case worker to help her navigate would be a huge help.
      Unfortunately, Covid has made F2F meetings all but impossible, and the amount of physical paperwork + snailmail entrenched in the system just adds to delays and the mounting frustrations most of us feel.
      Where do you get your EBT card sent? _the third red tent on the right under the I-5_ is not going to help.
      Hell, just not having a physical address is a nightmare (I know!)
      Kindness is a blessing if you can find it. For someone who feels they can only depend on themselves (and due to lockdowns) isolation is another stressor that weighs on you.
      I'm out of benefits, and can't get an appointment, but I'm not going to use to 'make it go away'.
      It is truly hard right now and this young woman is SO relatable.
      I hope she gets the hand up she needs.

    • @dlesliejones
      @dlesliejones 3 роки тому +6

      @@jimurrata6785 there was a time when I honestly thought it was the fourth drink that got me in trouble. I proved I couldn't (safely) take one drink, by trying to prove I could drink "like a gentleman". (...and not wake up from a blackout three hundred miles from home) At least she knows she's on the Spectrum. I didn't have that assessment until two years ago, at 62. Loyalty would do well in jobs that have a high degree of autonomy. The only job I didn't leave after a year, was working for myself. I know we're all different, but it seems to be a common experience. There are near endless resources online to help accommodate and negotiate being spectral. As well as support groups that might be able to help Loyalty deal with the system.

    • @jimurrata6785
      @jimurrata6785 3 роки тому +4

      @@dlesliejones And again, on the street you're reliant on a cell phone for getting on the web.
      I'm not sure about LA, but public libraries are not a thing here right now.
      As for figuring out that you can't even dabble in alcohol, I'm glad you've come to that realization.
      Humans (most? animals) are wired for drug use.
      Neuropharmacology and the pleasure/reward synapses in the brain don't change for autists.
      When I hear an addict tell me 'I hate drugs'. No.... no you don't!
      You _LOVE_ drugs, because that's how were wired. You just hate the effects they have on you.
      I wasn't diagnosed until my '40's
      It was a blessing to _fnally_ have a reason for _who_ I was

  • @analozada9475
    @analozada9475 3 роки тому +80

    One thing I noticed is how smart, insightful and caring these people are...meanwhile I see a lot of “clean/functional” people who are quite the opposite, yet they are still making it in the world.
    What a crazy irony...

    • @colinskerrett2346
      @colinskerrett2346 3 роки тому +3

      Intelligence, insight, and being caring don’t make money/pay the bills ... not saying it in like a dick way, but its the sad truth

    • @j.t.1086
      @j.t.1086 3 роки тому

      @@007nadineL This is so very true.

  • @JesusChrist2000BC
    @JesusChrist2000BC 3 роки тому +211

    Shes just one of 40 million people that lost their job due to the lockdowns. And the sad part is some people want more restrictions while they work from home in their pajamas making 80K+ a year and never missed a paycheck.

  • @paulallen6336
    @paulallen6336 3 роки тому +22

    With in person anonymous meetings being restricted, I get my reminders to stay clean and keep trying by watching videos like this. Heroin addiction is so insidious, and family is also who I started with. It is so hard not to feel sorry for yourself, with all the years wasted on the streets, jails, and rehabs. But ultimately, nobody is gonna come save us. . . we are it. Best wishes for her.

    • @scrubkaekz3231
      @scrubkaekz3231 3 роки тому

      Amen. My fiance is a recovered addict and they haven't had meetings in months because of COVID. a support system is so so important. Find an online support meeting if you need to. He has been and said it's been a great help. Best wishes to you in your sobriety. One day at a time.

  • @frankbuescher7615
    @frankbuescher7615 3 роки тому +122

    "I've seen more on Skid Row than I've seen in any horror movie." - Damn, that is so sad.

  • @Kaiserland111
    @Kaiserland111 3 роки тому +21

    My goodness, my heart is broken for this girl. I'm only 28 but I've been so blessed my whole life, and wish I had more resources to help people like this. I wish I had the means to provide her a home and job, because she certainly seems like she would make the most of it.

  • @tatipalooza
    @tatipalooza 3 роки тому +10

    “I shouldn’t be doing as bad as I’m doing right now” man, this interview has by far been the most relatable. Losing my mom, I lost everything too, it’s hard. Feeling alone, with no family. I hope things begin to look up for you, Loyalty.

    • @kyladio93
      @kyladio93 3 роки тому

      I felt that too 🙏🏼

    • @QueenStarNova
      @QueenStarNova 3 роки тому

      Same. Rose from the ashes after an abusive and isolated childhood only to be pushed back into the fire because people are getting a flu.

  • @littlestaurt10
    @littlestaurt10 3 роки тому +15

    This is my first time ever commenting on such videos, I just wanted to say that you made me realize a lot of things I have taken for granted & it's truly inspiring to see someone like you taking responsibility and not blaming the circumstances or the society. PLEASE!! Please try to stay away from drugs as I have really high hopes for you!!! STAY STRONG!!

  • @jenniferhuerta9824
    @jenniferhuerta9824 3 роки тому +16

    This girl BROKE MY HEART!
    I can’t stop thinking about her and hoping she gets better. God Bless her!!

  • @kimberlyanne434
    @kimberlyanne434 3 роки тому +65

    I’ve been meaning to mention this , I learned from a friend who was brought up in a group home when a individual turns 18 they are released, released without luggage.
    No luggage, no unique bags just a paper bag.
    That’s it.
    So please donate all luggage to group homes and places where these young adults exit from.

    • @heidiho5179
      @heidiho5179 3 роки тому +4

      I would have maybe still had my dad’s wedding ring and other sentimental things, as well as clothing, etc., when I had to leave a foster home if I’d had a big bag or suitcase. Great idea!

    • @sarajane5306
      @sarajane5306 3 роки тому +3

      I don't know how anyone can be so heartless as to look after a young person and just turn them out on the street at 18 with nothing. Surely they have help to get their next stage of life sorted before they're locked out on the street like someone coming out of prison ? If not then America really is the most atrocious country in the world, they have all the money and facilities and education to help people and yet they fail time and time again, even the basic health care system over there is messed up. I wouldn't ever move to America even if I was paid to go.

    • @cynthiasparks7363
      @cynthiasparks7363 2 роки тому

      I work in a halfway house. We were moving the women quickly from an old house to a newer cleaner all around better facility. I had two women literally break down when I handed them garbage bags to pack. Finally one young woman told me. This feels just like foster care. I can't deal with this. I've been wkg in social services for over 20 years I didn't catch that until she said this. Now it all made sense how the women were having such a difficult time with the moving process even they were going somewhere much better. I learned NEVER give someone a trash bag to pack in.

  • @dddddaria
    @dddddaria 3 роки тому +34

    She has so much potential. You can tell that she doesn’t belong on Skid Row and just a needs financial stability and love.
    I love her cautious attitude, asking if she’s allowed to talk or mention certa things. This lifestyle definitely isn’t for her and she knows that herself.
    I really really want to help her somehow. I’m praying she gets an out before she gets comfortable at Skid Row.
    By the way I love your work Mark. The fact that she mentioned that her crying is rare is such an important detail. By just listening to her story you did something so important for her, I firmly believe that she needed this interview.

    • @tallentstravels5727
      @tallentstravels5727 3 роки тому +6

      Who DOES belong on Skid Row?

    • @TheVanity555
      @TheVanity555 3 роки тому +1

      @@tallentstravels5727 I was going to say I don’t think anyone belongs being on skid row. It’s just happens and it’s a sad harsh reality.

    • @dddddaria
      @dddddaria 3 роки тому

      @@tallentstravels5727 You're both right. Nobody belongs on Skid Row and it shouldn't even be a place where people can end up in the first place, but what I really should've said is that she seems more motivated to get out of there than some addicts do. I really think everyone deserves help regardless if they want it or not though.
      But some are ready to get out of there faster than others, and she even said that when she had a job etc. she had no reason to use you know?

  • @jasminelee1234
    @jasminelee1234 3 роки тому +71

    Bless this girl.🙏🏼She’s so vulnerable and has slipped through the cracks.😔I hope she gets a break. ❤️

  • @thesixt.o.7568
    @thesixt.o.7568 3 роки тому +42

    She reminds me of Kristen Stewart ...so much depth in what she says ...”I’ve felt more loss than love” 💔
    I wish her the VERY BEST! I hope she gets government SRO and her benefits...after she goes to treatment!

    • @buzzbabe1901
      @buzzbabe1901 3 роки тому +4

      Yeah, she reminds me of her too.

  • @rbromage47
    @rbromage47 3 роки тому +39

    She is a genuine person. And she has her head screwed on. When she figures everything she′ll be on top of her game like she was before and she′ll succeed even better then before. Good luck to her.

    • @anastasiabeaverhousen5042
      @anastasiabeaverhousen5042 2 роки тому

      Was she ever really on top of her “game” ? She is certainly on top of this game! Naive people will send her money- and she will buy more drugs.

  • @alexafausey636
    @alexafausey636 3 роки тому +280

    I have watched your show for a long time and Loyalty is such an amazing person. I am actually at a loss for words at how strong and brave she is. I truly think she can get back on her feet and live the life that she deserves with some help. Her personality is infectious and i wanted to be her friend just listening to how positive she is. Please tell us what we can do to help her.

    • @SoftWhiteUnderbelly
      @SoftWhiteUnderbelly  3 роки тому +158

      Okay, I see that many viewers want to help Loyalty. I’m working on it.

    • @rae2737
      @rae2737 3 роки тому +7

      MARK PLEASE GO SEE....
      K to tha' Comment
      Her advice for programs are right on. She goes into what to do/where to go and they will help her with a lot. Thanks

    • @admingetstuffed4955
      @admingetstuffed4955 3 роки тому +24

      @@SoftWhiteUnderbelly this was one of the nicest people you have interviewed and i genuinely wanted to put. my arms around her. I would love to help her in anyway. does she have a way to be contacted?

    • @China_grove
      @China_grove 3 роки тому +17

      This girl is so special - I want to go pick her up and bring her to Utah!

    • @cathygray9092
      @cathygray9092 3 роки тому +11

      @@SoftWhiteUnderbelly Thank you Mark

  • @KatrinaNicoleIvy
    @KatrinaNicoleIvy 3 роки тому +18

    I really pray for a miracle when it comes to her life. She's so honest with herself and everything that's happened.

  • @whatsittoyah5211
    @whatsittoyah5211 3 роки тому +6

    This is by far one of my favorite interviews because it talks about being an adult child and realizing you need to reparent yourself on your own parents downfalls. You don’t have to be abused or have a shitty childhood to have to reparent yourself as an adult; sometimes your parents can be your best friend in the world and not teach you certain things you need to know at the same time. It’s nothing to be ashamed of either to admit that you need to reparent yourself. Too many people call children of parents like this lazy, or stupid, when in actuality they aren’t. They’re trying to teach themselves things they should’ve been taught by their parents as an adult. And that shit is hard.

  • @nickvansickle6734
    @nickvansickle6734 3 роки тому +31

    This girl seems so smart, she’s overcome so much. I hope she figures her life out again soon.

  • @AggresivelyBenign
    @AggresivelyBenign 3 роки тому +26

    If no one in Cali can help her with resources, I’d be happy to talk to her about options and help her figure things out. Hopefully, someone more qualified than I has stepped up.

  • @LandandHomesHawaii
    @LandandHomesHawaii 3 роки тому +4

    Completely broke down when she asked mark for advice. Thank you Mark for talking with this lovely, and full of need, young person. She needs guidance that she never had. Thank you Mark for taking the time to answer her questions. Sending much love to you, her and everyone commenting on your channel🌺

  • @RP-sg7ft
    @RP-sg7ft 3 роки тому +51

    Such a beautiful young lady.. I like this girl she’s taking responsibility for her situation she just needs Abit of help bless her... wishing you well darling

    • @samanthasilfies2743
      @samanthasilfies2743 3 роки тому +2

      She is beautiful! Poor girl just got off the wrong track

  • @chayo2849
    @chayo2849 3 роки тому +52

    i wanna go down to skid row & look for loyalty. she deserves so much better.

  • @ellelucchese2026
    @ellelucchese2026 3 роки тому +17

    She broke my heart. She seems to genuinely want to do better but is so lost. I wish her the very best. Praying she gets out of this rut.

  • @susanwarner8901
    @susanwarner8901 3 роки тому +60

    She has an endearing personality in the sense she admits, endearingly to doubts and hesitations. There needs to be more resourses to help folk who have been effected from covid .... her choices just might have gone in a different direction if she recieved help. I wish you well lovely one.

  • @r7kelley553
    @r7kelley553 3 роки тому +68

    Its one thing when someone has a good life and then destroys it but it's another thing when someone doesn't even have a chance from the beginning. I couldn't imagine what a childhood like some of these people had would be like.

    • @iddefusco
      @iddefusco 3 роки тому

      She has a chance! Loyalty is a strong person! Yes she was dealt a crazy hard hand, but she knows that this bad fortune is not totally her fault! That is the most important thing. She knows she can make better choices. She is going to make it out of this. We know she can because she already has. Once she gets a chance she is going to make those good choices that will be her ticket out. Self love is powerful. I believe in you Loyalty!

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 3 роки тому

      @Daniel Robinson Consider making it out and everything looks good only to Loose it All. That's a heartbreak which takes time to come back from.

  • @adrienne4408
    @adrienne4408 3 роки тому +16

    She is so young and still so naive/innocent in a lot of aspects of life. I think she needs a good mentor that is truly dedicated to helping her get on track with real life. She needs that routine she once had and the regular testing. I hope she gets the help she needs and succeeds. She’s definitely got the potential and ability to turn it back around. Good luck girl!

  • @jiselcanales5384
    @jiselcanales5384 3 роки тому +12

    This is so genuine 🥺 I pray she gets healthy. She has the awareness and the mindset is there, it’s so clear.. she just needs help. With the right help and resources she would SOAR💞

  • @NotRKelly.
    @NotRKelly. 3 роки тому +16

    Best channel on UA-cam...wow so much perspective. The interviews are so good. Just amazing these souls! Please don’t stop them anytime soon! We need these. The whole world needs these stories...

    • @powderandpaint14
      @powderandpaint14 3 роки тому

      If you like this one also check out Invisible People, very similar.

  • @AmEn1R
    @AmEn1R 3 роки тому +29

    “What do you worry about most now?”
    Loyalty- “what’s gonna happen next?”
    What a desperate response. It hurt me when she said that. You’re going to do it!! Don’t give up or give in!!

    • @JilleneLuce
      @JilleneLuce 3 роки тому +2

      I've been exactly there where she is (not fentanyl but anti-anxiety meds addiction) some years back-- way before Covid... Really, for months in a panic, hiding from a violent husband, lost home, furnishings and job, sofa surfing, working for pennies in a foreign country to survive, thinking "what's gonna happen next? " over and over... I prayed many times, even sometimes gave thanks for whatever help God is going to send me. And slowly but surely, things got better. And today, despite all gone crazy in the world, for me things are much much better. I'll say a prayer for her. She's lovely and
      can make it!

  • @Entirelyxtooxtiredx
    @Entirelyxtooxtiredx 3 роки тому +1

    I'm a prior clinical case manager, I really think what you're doing is so admirable and want to help in anyway I can, free of charge of course. Alot of these individuals could turn their lives around with just some love, compassion and resources. I can help remotely or in Person, as I live in Las Vegas.please thumbs up this comment so he can see!

  • @infinitebb
    @infinitebb 3 роки тому +23

    you see these stories and realize how blessed your life is... poor woman... STAY STRONG