Rachel's childhood is horrific. It contains almost every type of abuse. Rachel, please try therapy even if you are using. You are VALUABLE and WORTHY of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE from healthy sources. You are young and beautiful. I want you to see what we see! Sending you a warm, kind hug.
I agree with you 💯 percent!! I pray she gets help, nobody deserves what she went thru!! A true wide awake nightmare 😥💔❤️ her family is horrible and deserves the Full punishment for that
What she said about carrying the light, believing in good and not letting evil win, really touched me. Incredible that this girl, who's experienced so much evil, still is able to reach this conclusion. Love from a girl in norway.
@@BulkernatorKerb they have clinics where she is where she can get therapy for free...I live in Cali and used to work with a lot of these clinics thru my job with a psychologist
Very true 💯💯 some are hard to watch, like Rachels, but All are informative to help us see and have compassion for those going thru this literal hell on earth. I hope she gets help, she Soooo deserves a better life after all she's been thru 😥💔❤️
I'm a recovering addict myself. I've got some much love for these people because I know what they're going through. I pray for each and every one them and I wish them all the love and happiness that life can bring.
Same situation for me. 79 days sober from alcohol. I feel there is great understanding between addicts. We all share the same problem and have the same goal.
The saddest part about all of these interviews is that no person can do anything to change the lives of these people. They have to make the choice themselves. And the disease of addiction is demon with an incredible grip.
The one near constant in all Marks' interviews is devastating childhood trauma. The ravaging effects it can cause cannot be understated. So many deeply wounded souls that would require a monumental support system and effort to overcome.
Rachel, please know this, there are people out here that care about you. Your story touches our hearts deeply. We would help you if we could but the best we can do is donate so Mark can help. I care and though it may not matter to you, I pray for you.
She sounds like such a cool person who's come into her own and hope she can get the help she so desperately needs to move forward .She has a good point that its hard to kick an addiction when you don't even have the stability. of a roof over your head and am glad that despite her hard lived experience she still believes that goodness prevails !
Listen to her bad mouth her fucking mom, then say she cry's if she doesn't hear from her. She's a complete scumbag, most of this interview is drugs talking.
@@alexb7641 It could be that the mom decided to turn a corner when it was convenient for her but it was too little too late for the daughter . People change and relationships are complex .
Every time I feel overwhelmed with life I think about these people That have it way worse then all of us. I hope you get back to ur baby boy and find peace. God is good just trust in his plan
Prayers are a nice consideration, and I do truly mean that, but the harsh reality of life and the way the world is and more importantly the way the human brain is regarding serious repeated traumatic events she only had one real hope. Either by her just realizing and admitting it to herself or by sometime who has her well being in mind and she is able to trust being able to convince her to get psychological and psychiatric professional help she needs.
Sometimes stepping out of our own misery and putting ourselves into someone else's who blows ours away, brings solace. This does not mean that our own suffering is not just as valid, it just helps us see that it can be so much worse.
My heart goes out to you Rachel. You deserved so much better from the adults in your life and should have been protected as child. I hope you will fight for better days. Get clean and find peace. YOU ARE WORTH IT!
We need to do something about this pandemic of homeless traumatized drug users. After watching every single one of Marks videos my heart is deeply troubled. I refuse to keep sitting here and watch this misery continue to unfold.
Thank you Mark for taking that step and bringing so much awareness. If only everybody that watched this video could act upon the heart breaking and do something
It all starts with ACEs. Adverse Childhood Experiences. One of the best things we can do for our future is protect and love and nurture and give stability to our youth.
You are 26. Do Not give up. There is absolutely a reason why you are still here. If you can kick the drugs and get a job i believe you can do great things. This was an extremely sad story, and it was refreshing to hear you still have hope, because once you take action on trying to turn your life around the universe will lead you to your purpose. If your seeing this i wish you the absolute best, stay safe.
Girl, you are one of the strongest women I have ever seen interviewed. You have been through so much shit, more than one should ever have to deal with. I know in my heart that this is your last life. You are currently living the hardest one anyone could live. I feel you on many levels and I pray that life brings you something to help lift the burdens you are carrying. Please, stay strong and know that you are not alone....
"Hope springs eternal". (Something I have to remind myself everyday) Rachel, I love you. Sister, you have been through it... I can relate, relatively. This lifetime has been a huge challenge for me. Fucked up family, no friend in sight and plenty of traumatic abuse, etc... But there is a brightness and awareness in you. I think you innately have the tools in you to work it out and share your gifts, your sensitive insights in whatever way. Stay Spirited and don't give up. There's still challenges ahead and self help, introspection to do. I wish you the best and I have a lot of compassion for you. And confidence. You're still young. Take care of yourSelf. Be kind to yourself. You're an aspect of Creation. Valued and necessary, essential to Spirit's jigsaw puzzle of Life unfolding. PS I'm so sorry for all the difficult challenges you've been through! But you are the epitome of the idea "we only experience what God has granted us the strength to handle"... & Overcome ❤️
Been on methadone maintenance for 10 years if it wasn’t for this program I’d be another dead addict. Methadone programs have alot of stigma but it 100% saves lives. It saved mine.
I see you. THANK YOU for telling the truth about this. Methadone is a MAINTENANCE MEDICATION. So many people assume that it's only for a while or just to cover initial withdrawals. It can be. But everyone needs to get over the misconception that it needs to be discontinued at some point. Says who?! We do whatever we need to get out of the cycle of shame and criminality and drug lifestyle that keeps us sick and using and methadone can absolutely be part of a healthy recovery program. I'm one of those success stories. I promise you, the people who knew me as a full blown addict vastly prefer this version...because I am finally able to function like a normal person. Even got off of antidepressants! I don't use alcohol. And I have never relapsed. I'll take that over the stealing, lying, manipulator I once was. I wish you well. Be proud of your success. You earned it.
@REAL CRAZY CRITIC who says I need to get off? I don’t plan on it. I live a good life while on it why would I mess that up? Is it 100% ideal to be on methadone the rest of my life? no, and I can see that. but find one person that lives a perfect life. It’s done wonders for me and with it I know I’m safe from ever returning to drugs. No more drugs, I now have a great relationship with my family, including my mother who I would steal from while on drugs, a wife I love, a good job. What more could I ask for?
@@lf3541 thank you! I have seen so many times where people go to the methadone clinic rush down to 0 and then sure enough they are back on drugs. It’s sad because methadone clinics are very stigmatized. I 100% know for a fact my family prefers this version of me. Everyone needs instant gratification in this world, they want to be healed from addiction ASAP so they rush off suboxone or methadone fast. Truth is we will never be healed from addiction it’s something we now carry with us. It’s up to us on how we maintain it. I got a life back I feel healthy I look healthy, and I don’t want to do anything to risk the relationship I have built and rebuilt over the last 10 years. I’m glad you have been successful in recovery it’s always nice to hear others that have made it out the other end. Keep up the good work!
@@hopemermaid It’s a synthetic opiate whose half-life is much longer than other opiates. So the withdrawals are much more protracted compared to something like oxycodone or heroin. Withdrawals often don’t start until the 72-96 hr mark, and last a month for people who are on a significant dose for an extended period of time.
Besides doing the best thing you can do for a person I will pray for her. But hearing a personal story like hers truly makes me wish I was in a financial position to offer help Rachel definitely DESERVES help.🙏🏾
Glad you give a platform & a safe place without judgement for those needing to talk and vent. It helps to get it out. I am sad for those out there in this world that are struggling in ANY way, on any given day, but especially during the Holidays. Lord, wrap your as around them, comfort them, let them know they are loved & worthy of a better life. May they feel your presence and lean on you to lead them to a better way of life.
This poor girl 💔 I 🙏 she gets therapy and help to get off the streets. She is so deserving of a good life!! Rachel, you are a light in the world and I hope you see that and shine bright. I am so very sorry for all you've been through.
I've been Living in THIS World for 49yrs, raised in Baltimore MD an I MYSELF have been thru some terrible things However I couldn't IMAGINE going through HALF of what these people have gone through! From the time some of them were BORN till present day they've ONLY known PAIN!.. 🤦🏽♀️Smdh I wish i could Save EVERYONE from these Horrible situations Especially the Children..🥺
@@pambeforethestorm9784 .. Its TRULY SICKENING how Evil an Vile humans can be to eachother. An it continues to happen Decade after Decade an it doesn't have to be this way thats the WORST part! If I had ONE Super Power it would be to END the SUFFERING of everyone EVERYWHERE!.. Much❤
Merry Christmas, Mark! 🎄🎁 Wow! This channel has opened my eyes, ears, heart & mind to the world around me and all it’s troubles and testimonies. As a result, it has also assisted me in understanding myself better - I can relate to MANY of these stories. Especially, addiction & childhood/Adolescence sexual abuse… In a profound way, with each episode, I gain closure and insight. I feel heard through the voice of another individual! Rachel, I’ll keep you in my prayers, Sis! I’m wishing you love, guidance & peace. You WILL overcome this, someday. 🙏🏽♥️💯
It was very hard to watch this but at the same time i wish Rachel all the best and that she can turn her life around. Her life has been like hell but maybe with this video someone can provide help for her. I'm glad she still believes that there's good in life despite all the tragedies she's been through. All the best to you, Rachel. ❤
Geez, life couldn't be any worse for you Rachel. Sending love and peace to your life and a giant 🫂 I'm 64 yrs old I used since grade school and finally after yrs of detox I got a grip on myself everybody's experience may be different but its all the same in the end. I have 7 years clean and have a better life now. 😺
Every single time I watch these videos I am reminded how unfair life is. We are NOT all dealt the same hand. I am one of the fortunate ones to have had a great childhood with no abuse & cannot imagine the way some of these people have grown up. What goes on in our lives when we are children shapes us into who we become as adults. Period. The scars are always there even though you may not see them with your eyes. Treat people with compassion and kindness always because you don't know what someone else has gone through..
Rachel I am Marie, living in France, and you look juste like me physically : your clear blue eyes, your Brown hair, your calmness. And you have such a soothing voice, it helps my chronic pain go down. You speak your total truth, in a World where everybody lies to conform. So I Can Say to you that I spent a shitty christmas, with nobody, because I cannot stand the Mask and costumes, that everybody Wears in my family. I dont give a shit, I dont want to pretend to be someone else. And to the totally unsensitive people I cross, I lie. They think they are so intelligent, but they are so unconscious. We cannot compare pain, but I will be thinking of you as my sister in those Times. You a great and amazingly strong Woman. I wish you the best on the journey to Come. Love, Marie.
Jesus Christ, somebody get this poor girl some therapy!! She has had an absolutely horrific upbringing and life!! I hope she takes advantage of some of the free programs they offer to get some professional help and work on getting her life back!! If she won't do it for herself,maybe she'll do it for her poor dog! He's relying on her to take care of him!! She's so broken and hopeless, understandably and needs to find some self worth again!! Shame on all those people in her life that failed her!! Truly heartbreaking!! 😢😢
Rachel I’m so sorry that you have have to endure these things. I found your testimony extremely disturbing as well as moving. You were so unfairly let down by so many people and I’m sorry about that. I don’t know what you feel you deserve but you do deserve better. The fact you are still alive and telling your story is a miracle in itself. You are testament to “never giving up”. The courage and the tenacity of soul it’s taken just to get in “Marks chair”’is incredible. The inner strength you possess is incredible. Please please seek help. I hope that you can find a therapy that can help you heal, understand and move forward. If you’ve tried it then please try again. You said yourself “there’s got to be a reason why I’m here”. Well here’s just one. There’s a beautiful son out there that will only ever have “one mother”. That is you. Think of how precious you are to him!! He needs you. Please don’t jeopardise or take away your life and leave you’re child motherless. You BOTH deserve better. You said yourself you still believe in the light and in good. Hold on to that hope. You are in my thoughts and prayers. 🙏❤️.x
How can someone live through that much s…..t. It’s difficult to understand humanity. Why are some people so cruel.?She is so young. Sending her a big hug but I wish I could give her a warm bed and meal.
“Just to be inside again” ugh. We need to get people housed, for so many it is they key to them getting off drugs and feeling safe. My heart goes out to Rachel. I hope you get a home soon Rachel. ❤️
This beautiful soul has been given a really bad life. I truly feel bad for her. My soul hurts for her. I'm sorry. I wish you peace. This is just human experience when this life is over it with no negative feeling and you'll go to the best place with only love. Keep the feeling of helping others because that is good for your soul. I know you're worth it, sister. You're truly beautiful.
I also agree that once my dope supply was cut w fentanyl, the withdrawals were less severe. I always find it interesting when ppl say that fentanyl withdrawals are so much worse (of course, I understand there are many factors to each person's experience). I do think ppl look to find reasons why they are justified in staying right where they are. I mean, I certainly did it, so no judgement... simply observation. It was Ayahuasca that transformed my existence and allowed me to finally put the shit behind me.
There is good out here. I can relate a lot to you. I was out on the streets for 20 years. I’ve been clean for 13 years because I met a real man that helped me and moved me away from Detroit. He died last year and I’m still deeply devastated, but I won’t use because I have to honor what he did for me. You are worthy, beautiful and a good heart. You remind me alot of myself. I was out there for such a long time , but I still believed there was good in the world. I used to get ripped off and beat up all the time for being too nice. I will pray for you and please know you can get clean and still have a good life. I was 48 when I met my husband and got my shit together so there’s still time for you. God Bless You.🌷🌷🌷🌷
My condolences for your loss, Patricia. Thank you for your courage, and your willingness to share. Thank you for your strength and kindness. May peace and happiness find you this holiday season, and for years to come.
This girl looks lifeless behind the eyes. I want her to get that spark for life back. There are charities to help you.. please get on your feet you deserve a fresh start in life ❤
Rachel, You are an incredible strong and wise person. I wish I could just erase everything evil that you’ve been through. Listening to your story I feel the strength and resilience in you. You can get out of this and create new and happy memories! Sending loads of love and know that there’s so many of us out here that is wishing nothing but the best for you and your future!
Rachel weirdly enough seems so strong given what she has gone through, nearly to the point where if she just caught a break she could turn all this around. It’s such a pity that her child isn’t enough motivator to try to change at this point. School of hard knocks sadly perpetuates this cycle of drugs and the need to get the money for drugs. I hope there is a saviour at some point that can step in and help as I believe Rachel would be a great role model one day for younger women to leave this life behind - big prayers for this young lady.
These people are hardwired now addicted to substances that literally changes the way your brain works. Its a sad reality because even if she had a good job and an opportunity to live a decent life nothing would top the effect of the "fix".
I agree. She seems so very strong to have gone thru so much and would be an excellent mentor to help young girls not get into that same cycle. I wish her well with plenty of therapy she can do it!! ❤️
Poor, poor girl. Let down by everyone in her life. The abuse she has been put through is disgusting! Rachel, you are a strong, independent woman. TRY and reach out to the services out there, get help to recover from your addiction and trauma. You deserve so much more than this. You have to do something, you're not meant to be out there! Lots of love to you x
If u ever read this... I completely TOTALLY feel you. I'm an addict... fent coke n alcohol... and besides being completely broken by allowing this shit to run and destroy my life, it's additionally depressing to deal with the fake, lying, manipulative people in the lifestyle
She doesn’t seem to be honest..so anything she says should be considered a lie or an exaggeration of the truth. She never once held herself responsible for her bad choices it was always someone else to blame.
Happiest of crazy upheaval of a topsy turvy wacked out far out trippy ass HOLIDAZE season.Many blessings filled with all that serves your highest good so can continue this immeasurable priceless work ...THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO ...AND MANY BLESSINGS SURROUND EVERYSINGLE PWRSON YOU HAVE EVERY INTERVIEWED🕊🙏💞🙏🕊🙏💞🙏🕊🙏💞🙏🕊🙏
Rachel if you see this, come to Milwaukee. I'm a recovering addict myself and would love to help you. When you're ready. No one can force it on you, but I'm a walking example that there is better. I swear on it.
Rachel you seem genuinely above average intelligence. But it's not all good to not be fazed by anything. People get told that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and it's true in some aspects, but you can tell some things just make it very difficult and instead of getting stronger you get locked in a perpetual fight. It becomes almost addictive to always be fighting the fights you know rather than trade those for new fights...like the kind that come with being sober. I hope you find a new set of problems, ones that aren't as physically dangerous. It's hard with depression to find motivation, but if you can take the first path that you can walk that includes sobriety you'll have a lot more options. Solving other problems without sobriety seems, not from personal experience but from observation, to be wasted effort. Because the only lifestyle available to you that is compatible with drug use is the one you're in now. Wish it wasn't like that, but it is... society rejects people who check out on drugs rather than helping. (Although some people like Mark try) You seem to be well aware that drugs aren't a trap because of the high or physical addiction, they're a trap because they get you away from the pain of "normal life" problems. Not everything difficult that doesn't kill you makes you stronger. If someone breaks your leg and it can't be fixed without years of physical therapy, then you are crippled. You can't just expect to get up one day with a surge of motivation to run a marathon. But you can still be happy in life walking with a cane and a limp. Good luck.
I can't imagine what she went thru, not only as a child, but is Still going thru and still believes there is some good in the world.....please, please get help, you deserve a happy peaceful life more than you know....None of that was your fault! I only wish I could find everyone who hurt her, they would get exactly what they deserve. Stay strong Rachel, you are a beautiful soul ❤️
Powerful testament, account of someone's real life. Rachel's recount was not only stirring but I hope it was healing, helpful or at least some kinda release for her. Sometimes simply sharing our story, especially when there's no one in your life to listen, can be a meaningful experience Also, she's a powerful speaker. She got to the grist of it and didn't hold back. I think that's what people need to hear. And feel. I certainly did...
You are an incredible soul with some deep hope and inate wisdom. Please know your valid with your emotions but it's never to late to change and get help. Please stay well and see yourself soon. Your gorgeous and smart
This poor girl I wish I could just call her and talk to her so she has someone to turn too! You can tell she is a good person! I have faith she will turn her self around!!!! Very intelligent young woman I wish the best for her!!!!!
I feel like this interviews can be longer but sometimes is like he doesn't know what questions to ask or follow-up with and the at the end just says thanks for sharing your story. Sometimes they finish saying a heartfelt story and he goes on to the next question like whatever.
Her eyes are screaming HELP ME I'M LOST!! She tried to give up but deep down she's trying to still hold onto the faint distant glimmer of hope. May God continue to shield her heart and soul. Keep giving her the inner strength to be able to hold onto hope
I'm so glad she still has hope, incredibly proud of her for that. My heart breaks for all she has had to endure in life. I pray for good things to come!
Why when these females give their babies away they say my baby daddy’s mom has my baby instead of saying my child’s grandma has her? It almost sounds like although you are too sorry to raise your child, you’re upset because the grandmother is raising her
OH MY GOD!! Watching these videos make me feel very grateful for the simple, ordinary life I have here. I truly hope Rachel gets the help she so desperately needs and she finds true happiness, love and peace in her life. Cheers, from Country Victoria, Australia 🇦🇺 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺
Rachel's childhood is horrific. It contains almost every type of abuse. Rachel, please try therapy even if you are using. You are VALUABLE and WORTHY of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE from healthy sources. You are young and beautiful. I want you to see what we see! Sending you a warm, kind hug.
I agree with you 💯 percent!! I pray she gets help, nobody deserves what she went thru!! A true wide awake nightmare 😥💔❤️ her family is horrible and deserves the Full punishment for that
You are such a kind soul. Merry Christmas to you!! 🎄🤶
@@justasub thank you. And you as well!
how the fuck is she supposed to tru therapy if she's homeless and basically jobless? that's the whole point
Most all of these stories are the same. Some of the prostitutes on Fig had even more horrific childhoods. This is America dysfunction and violence
I celebrated nineteen years clean off of heroin yesterday.
I can relate to a lot of Rachel's story.
Keep your head up Rachel.
Absolutely love hearing about successful kicking - well
Done - you are one of few
Congratulations love ❤️ keep it up u got this!
🖤🖤🖤
So glad to hear your story ❤️ you got this, keep living a beautiful sober life! I'm sure it's extremely better now. Much respect to you 💛💎
My heart smiled! Congratulations to you!!!
What she said about carrying the light, believing in good and not letting evil win, really touched me. Incredible that this girl, who's experienced so much evil, still is able to reach this conclusion.
Love from a girl in norway.
That was a very hard watch, i really hope with all my heart she can turn her life around.
@OfficialSoftWhiteUnderbelly1 ♥️♥️♥️
Indeed. Plain and simple: Just SAD!
me too♥
RACHEL, that inner light is what saved me. Therapy can help you use that light. You are so resilient and you can do it. Trust me on this one.
Affording therapy while she's homeless?
@@BulkernatorKerb they have clinics where she is where she can get therapy for free...I live in Cali and used to work with a lot of these clinics thru my job with a psychologist
His work is the closest I’ve ever seen to a picture of someone’s soul. Very interesting and hard at times.
Very true 💯💯 some are hard to watch, like Rachels, but All are informative to help us see and have compassion for those going thru this literal hell on earth. I hope she gets help, she Soooo deserves a better life after all she's been thru 😥💔❤️
That’s a beautiful way of saying it…I hope Mark takes good care of himself. Hearing all of these stories must cause so many different emotions.
@REAL CRAZY CRITIC and a lot of these interviews are filled with lies lol
So innocent, so honest, and deserves so much more. How does this happen to such a sweet girl.
I'm a recovering addict myself. I've got some much love for these people because I know what they're going through. I pray for each and every one them and I wish them all the love and happiness that life can bring.
God Bless You & I love you 🌿🍃
Same! God bless!
@@stacisandhas3937 I love you too
@@RadRedhead222 God bless you too sweetheart
Same situation for me.
79 days sober from alcohol.
I feel there is great understanding between addicts.
We all share the same problem and have the same goal.
The saddest part about all of these interviews is that no person can do anything to change the lives of these people. They have to make the choice themselves. And the disease of addiction is demon with an incredible grip.
Mark, do not stop doing interviews with these people. Their stories need to be shared and you are their only outlet to do so ❤❤
The one near constant in all Marks' interviews is devastating childhood trauma. The ravaging effects it can cause cannot be understated.
So many deeply wounded souls that would require a monumental support system and effort to overcome.
Rachel, please know this, there are people out here that care about you. Your story touches our hearts deeply. We would help you if we could but the best we can do is donate so Mark can help. I care and though it may not matter to you, I pray for you.
Me too. Send me a link and Ill contribute to her recovery.
Rachel is so strong. She's been through hell n back, regardless of her past she knows that the storm is here to pass. Keeping you in my prayers 🙏🏾 💙
Salute Mark.I watch every single video you post.Thxs.The content is great because it's real and raw.
She sounds like such a cool person who's come into her own and hope she can get the help she so desperately needs to move forward .She has a good point that its hard to kick an addiction when you don't even have the stability. of a roof over your head and am glad that despite her hard lived experience she still believes that goodness prevails !
Listen to her bad mouth her fucking mom, then say she cry's if she doesn't hear from her. She's a complete scumbag, most of this interview is drugs talking.
@@alexb7641 It could be that the mom decided to turn a corner when it was convenient for her but it was too little too late for the daughter . People change and relationships are complex .
@@celestialcircledance I don't believe a word she says, then says her brother in law raped her with her sister in the same bed lol. She's a lying sack
What a strong woman, I wish her all the best in life
The strength Rachel has is unbelievable! Hold on to that peace and hope!
Every time I feel overwhelmed with life I think about these people That have it way worse then all of us. I hope you get back to ur baby boy and find peace. God is good just trust in his plan
So do I. When I feel overwhelmed I look at these videos and say you have it pretty good girl.
Prayers are a nice consideration, and I do truly mean that, but the harsh reality of life and the way the world is and more importantly the way the human brain is regarding serious repeated traumatic events she only had one real hope. Either by her just realizing and admitting it to herself or by sometime who has her well being in mind and she is able to trust being able to convince her to get psychological and psychiatric professional help she needs.
Amen. Me and my family are living testimony 🙌
@@michaelbrooks742 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Sometimes stepping out of our own misery and putting ourselves into someone else's who blows ours away, brings solace. This does not mean that our own suffering is not just as valid, it just helps us see that it can be so much worse.
My heart goes out to you Rachel. You deserved so much better from the adults in your life and should have been protected as child. I hope you will fight for better days. Get clean and find peace. YOU ARE WORTH IT!
Mark, Happy Holidays, Rachel - there are good people in this world. I pray that you are blessed with some. You deserve to be safe and loved.
We need to do something about this pandemic of homeless traumatized drug users. After watching every single one of Marks videos my heart is deeply troubled. I refuse to keep sitting here and watch this misery continue to unfold.
Thank you Mark for taking that step and bringing so much awareness. If only everybody that watched this video could act upon the heart breaking and do something
Awareness is POWER!!!
Yes...
It all starts with ACEs. Adverse Childhood Experiences. One of the best things we can do for our future is protect and love and nurture and give stability to our youth.
AMEN, Sister! I’m soooo WITH YOU 🙌🏼🤗💕
Self medicating to deal with trauma and pain almost never works. It is a hole in the soul that can never healed with drugs.
Mark, I hope you have a wonderful holiday weekend. Very grateful for the consistent uploads and awesome content ❤️
And that holiday would be CHRISTmas
@@col.cottonhill6655 CHRISTMAS is the celebration of Jesus birth. People need to realize that
@@Last_Chance. 🤣 people are so brainwashed.
Thanks @@col.cottonhill6655, I do know it is Christmas. I hope you have a great weekend as well.
@@iamkate333 Have a great weekend as well Kate, love your comment ❤️
You are 26. Do Not give up. There is absolutely a reason why you are still here. If you can kick the drugs and get a job i believe you can do great things. This was an extremely sad story, and it was refreshing to hear you still have hope, because once you take action on trying to turn your life around the universe will lead you to your purpose. If your seeing this i wish you the absolute best, stay safe.
Girl, you are one of the strongest women I have ever seen interviewed. You have been through so much shit, more than one should ever have to deal with. I know in my heart that this is your last life. You are currently living the hardest one anyone could live.
I feel you on many levels and I pray that life brings you something to help lift the burdens you are carrying. Please, stay strong and know that you are not alone....
This is horrible what kind of life she has had to live. I hope and pray she gets the chance to experience the joys of life.
"Hope springs eternal".
(Something I have to remind myself everyday)
Rachel, I love you.
Sister, you have been through it...
I can relate, relatively. This lifetime has been a huge challenge for me. Fucked up family, no friend in sight and plenty of traumatic abuse, etc...
But there is a brightness and awareness in you.
I think you innately have the tools in you to work it out and share your gifts, your sensitive insights in whatever way.
Stay Spirited and don't give up. There's still challenges ahead and self help, introspection to do.
I wish you the best and I have a lot of compassion for you. And confidence.
You're still young. Take care of yourSelf. Be kind to yourself. You're an aspect of Creation. Valued and necessary, essential to Spirit's jigsaw puzzle of Life unfolding.
PS I'm so sorry for all the difficult challenges you've been through!
But you are the epitome of the idea "we only experience what God has granted us the strength to handle"... & Overcome ❤️
Been on methadone maintenance for 10 years if it wasn’t for this program I’d be another dead addict. Methadone programs have alot of stigma but it 100% saves lives. It saved mine.
I see you.
THANK YOU for telling the truth about this.
Methadone is a MAINTENANCE MEDICATION. So many people assume that it's only for a while or just to cover initial withdrawals. It can be. But everyone needs to get over the misconception that it needs to be discontinued at some point. Says who?!
We do whatever we need to get out of the cycle of shame and criminality and drug lifestyle that keeps us sick and using and methadone can absolutely be part of a healthy recovery program. I'm one of those success stories. I promise you, the people who knew me as a full blown addict vastly prefer this version...because I am finally able to function like a normal person.
Even got off of antidepressants! I don't use alcohol. And I have never relapsed.
I'll take that over the stealing, lying, manipulator I once was.
I wish you well. Be proud of your success. You earned it.
@REAL CRAZY CRITIC who says I need to get off? I don’t plan on it. I live a good life while on it why would I mess that up? Is it 100% ideal to be on methadone the rest of my life? no, and I can see that. but find one person that lives a perfect life. It’s done wonders for me and with it I know I’m safe from ever returning to drugs. No more drugs, I now have a great relationship with my family, including my mother who I would steal from while on drugs, a wife I love, a good job. What more could I ask for?
@@lf3541 thank you! I have seen so many times where people go to the methadone clinic rush down to 0 and then sure enough they are back on drugs. It’s sad because methadone clinics are very stigmatized. I 100% know for a fact my family prefers this version of me. Everyone needs instant gratification in this world, they want to be healed from addiction ASAP so they rush off suboxone or methadone fast. Truth is we will never be healed from addiction it’s something we now carry with us. It’s up to us on how we maintain it. I got a life back I feel healthy I look healthy, and I don’t want to do anything to risk the relationship I have built and rebuilt over the last 10 years. I’m glad you have been successful in recovery it’s always nice to hear others that have made it out the other end. Keep up the good work!
@REAL CRAZY CRITIC how is it harder to get off than heroin?
@@hopemermaid It’s a synthetic opiate whose half-life is much longer than other opiates. So the withdrawals are much more protracted compared to something like oxycodone or heroin. Withdrawals often don’t start until the 72-96 hr mark, and last a month for people who are on a significant dose for an extended period of time.
Besides doing the best thing you can do for a person I will pray for her. But hearing a personal story like hers truly makes me wish I was in a financial position to offer help Rachel definitely DESERVES help.🙏🏾
She’s survived so much crap and awful abuse. Such a strong and charismatic lady. Wish I could do more to help her, her good soul shines through ❤
Glad you give a platform & a safe place without judgement for those needing to talk and vent. It helps to get it out. I am sad for those out there in this world that are struggling in ANY way, on any given day, but especially during the Holidays. Lord, wrap your as around them, comfort them, let them know they are loved & worthy of a better life. May they feel your presence and lean on you to lead them to a better way of life.
This poor girl 💔 I 🙏 she gets therapy and help to get off the streets. She is so deserving of a good life!! Rachel, you are a light in the world and I hope you see that and shine bright. I am so very sorry for all you've been through.
8:34 my good this was the worst stories ever. She really having a test-life this time poor thing my heart goes out to her. God bless her now.
I've been Living in THIS World for 49yrs, raised in Baltimore MD an I MYSELF have been thru some terrible things However I couldn't IMAGINE going through HALF of what these people have gone through! From the time some of them were BORN till present day they've ONLY known PAIN!.. 🤦🏽♀️Smdh I wish i could Save EVERYONE from these Horrible situations Especially the Children..🥺
Same here....so sad and I also wish I could help them all...I just don't know where to start!! 💯😥❤️
@@pambeforethestorm9784 .. Its TRULY SICKENING how Evil an Vile humans can be to eachother. An it continues to happen Decade after Decade an it doesn't have to be this way thats the WORST part! If I had ONE Super Power it would be to END the SUFFERING of everyone EVERYWHERE!.. Much❤
Why am I watching this sadness on Christmas eve.... wow man. Love what you do Mark!
Bless you Rachel
Merry Christmas, Mark! 🎄🎁 Wow! This channel has opened my eyes, ears, heart & mind to the world around me and all it’s troubles and testimonies. As a result, it has also assisted me in understanding myself better - I can relate to MANY of these stories. Especially, addiction & childhood/Adolescence sexual abuse… In a profound way, with each episode, I gain closure and insight. I feel heard through the voice of another individual! Rachel, I’ll keep you in my prayers, Sis! I’m wishing you love, guidance & peace. You WILL overcome this, someday. 🙏🏽♥️💯
What a sweetheart..... ❤ This young girl needs a break... I hope she gets her apt SOON!!!
Can you keep us posted on Rachel please....
It was very hard to watch this but at the same time i wish Rachel all the best and that she can turn her life around. Her life has been like hell but maybe with this video someone can provide help for her. I'm glad she still believes that there's good in life despite all the tragedies she's been through. All the best to you, Rachel. ❤
The pain in her eyes. Her childhood. My heart is aching. Praying for you Rachel 😔
Geez, life couldn't be any worse for you Rachel.
Sending love and peace to your life and a giant 🫂 I'm 64 yrs old I used since grade school and finally after yrs of detox I got a grip on myself everybody's experience may be different but its all the same in the end. I have 7 years clean and have a better life now. 😺
Congratulations on your sobriety 😊
👏👏😙
You lucked out.
Your resilience, Rachel, is astounding!!!
This poor girl had no chance. Life really isn’t fair. Prayers for her
She's such a beautiful girl. I really hope she gets clean and finds true happiness sooner than later. Big hugs honey.
She is so intelligent and beautiful! I know she can beat this and do amazing things with her life. I’m praying for Rachel so hard !!!
Every single time I watch these videos I am reminded how unfair life is. We are NOT all dealt the same hand. I am one of the fortunate ones to have had a great childhood with no abuse & cannot imagine the way some of these people have grown up. What goes on in our lives when we are children shapes us into who we become as adults. Period. The scars are always there even though you may not see them with your eyes. Treat people with compassion and kindness always because you don't know what someone else has gone through..
Happy holidays Mark. Please take some time for yourself!
Rachel I am Marie, living in France, and you look juste like me physically : your clear blue eyes, your Brown hair, your calmness. And you have such a soothing voice, it helps my chronic pain go down. You speak your total truth, in a World where everybody lies to conform. So I Can Say to you that I spent a shitty christmas, with nobody, because I cannot stand the Mask and costumes, that everybody Wears in my family. I dont give a shit, I dont want to pretend to be someone else. And to the totally unsensitive people I cross, I lie. They think they are so intelligent, but they are so unconscious.
We cannot compare pain, but I will be thinking of you as my sister in those Times. You a great and amazingly strong Woman. I wish you the best on the journey to Come. Love, Marie.
No one has a perfect family, I hope you can find some good in yours!
Jesus Christ, somebody get this poor girl some therapy!! She has had an absolutely horrific upbringing and life!! I hope she takes advantage of some of the free programs they offer to get some professional help and work on getting her life back!! If she won't do it for herself,maybe she'll do it for her poor dog! He's relying on her to take care of him!! She's so broken and hopeless, understandably and needs to find some self worth again!! Shame on all those people in her life that failed her!! Truly heartbreaking!! 😢😢
Rachel I’m so sorry that you have have to endure these things. I found your testimony extremely disturbing as well as moving. You were so unfairly let down by so many people and I’m sorry about that. I don’t know what you feel you deserve but you do deserve better.
The fact you are still alive and telling your story is a miracle in itself. You are testament to “never giving up”. The courage and the tenacity of soul it’s taken just to get in “Marks chair”’is incredible. The inner strength you possess is incredible.
Please please seek help. I hope that you can find a therapy that can help you heal, understand and move forward. If you’ve tried it then please try again.
You said yourself “there’s got to be a reason why I’m here”. Well here’s just one. There’s a beautiful son out there that will only ever have “one mother”. That is you. Think of how precious you are to him!! He needs you. Please don’t jeopardise or take away your life and leave you’re child motherless. You BOTH deserve better. You said yourself you still believe in the light and in good. Hold on to that hope.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
🙏❤️.x
When she said she wanted to dress up and go out to a bar, it broke my heart. May God bless you and help you find ur way ❤
You can start over when ever you’re ready. Please never give up! Im sending you love and healing right now♥️
I'm wishing this lady the very best💜🙏🙌
Hope she gets the help she needs. She seems like a good person. Blessings
So much sadness in her eyes. I feel heartbroken for people who've been so brutality abused. :(
How can someone live through that much s…..t. It’s difficult to understand humanity. Why are some people so cruel.?She is so young. Sending her a big hug but I wish I could give her a warm bed and meal.
“Just to be inside again” ugh. We need to get people housed, for so many it is they key to them getting off drugs and feeling safe. My heart goes out to Rachel. I hope you get a home soon Rachel. ❤️
Thank you for the interview Rachel and SWU
This beautiful soul has been given a really bad life. I truly feel bad for her. My soul hurts for her. I'm sorry. I wish you peace. This is just human experience when this life is over it with no negative feeling and you'll go to the best place with only love. Keep the feeling of helping others because that is good for your soul. I know you're worth it, sister. You're truly beautiful.
I really, really hope she gets help for everything she's been thru.
I also agree that once my dope supply was cut w fentanyl, the withdrawals were less severe. I always find it interesting when ppl say that fentanyl withdrawals are so much worse (of course, I understand there are many factors to each person's experience). I do think ppl look to find reasons why they are justified in staying right where they are. I mean, I certainly did it, so no judgement... simply observation.
It was Ayahuasca that transformed my existence and allowed me to finally put the shit behind me.
There is good out here. I can relate a lot to you. I was out on the streets for 20 years. I’ve been clean for 13 years because I met a real man that helped me and moved me away from Detroit. He died last year and I’m still deeply devastated, but I won’t use because I have to honor what he did for me. You are worthy, beautiful and a good heart. You remind me alot of myself. I was out there for such a long time , but I still believed there was good in the world. I used to get ripped off and beat up all the time for being too nice. I will pray for you and please know you can get clean and still have a good life. I was 48 when I met my husband and got my shit together so there’s still time for you. God Bless You.🌷🌷🌷🌷
Do you know Maddie & Jarryl? They're homeless addicts that hang out in front of Coney Island.
My condolences for your loss, Patricia. Thank you for your courage, and your willingness to share. Thank you for your strength and kindness. May peace and happiness find you this holiday season, and for years to come.
Prayers for this lady…❤
She's so beautiful. Sorry people hurt and failed her so miserably and hope she never gives up in this life.
This girl looks lifeless behind the eyes. I want her to get that spark for life back. There are charities to help you.. please get on your feet you deserve a fresh start in life ❤
Merry Christmas Mark.. thank you for all these terrifying, wonderful, eye opening stories!! Love from PA!!
Rachel, You are an incredible strong and wise person. I wish I could just erase everything evil that you’ve been through.
Listening to your story I feel the strength and resilience in you. You can get out of this and create new and happy memories!
Sending loads of love and know that there’s so many of us out here that is wishing nothing but the best for you and your future!
Rachel weirdly enough seems so strong given what she has gone through, nearly to the point where if she just caught a break she could turn all this around. It’s such a pity that her child isn’t enough motivator to try to change at this point. School of hard knocks sadly perpetuates this cycle of drugs and the need to get the money for drugs. I hope there is a saviour at some point that can step in and help as I believe Rachel would be a great role model one day for younger women to leave this life behind - big prayers for this young lady.
These people are hardwired now addicted to substances that literally changes the way your brain works. Its a sad reality because even if she had a good job and an opportunity to live a decent life nothing would top the effect of the "fix".
I agree. She seems so very strong to have gone thru so much and would be an excellent mentor to help young girls not get into that same cycle. I wish her well with plenty of therapy she can do it!! ❤️
I agree with you, but in the event any of these people find sobriety, what they do with their lives moving forward is completely up to them.
There is so much pain in the world. It’s very depressing, to say the least
Poor, poor girl. Let down by everyone in her life. The abuse she has been put through is disgusting!
Rachel, you are a strong, independent woman. TRY and reach out to the services out there, get help to recover from your addiction and trauma. You deserve so much more than this.
You have to do something, you're not meant to be out there!
Lots of love to you x
People need community. Be kind to people.
If u ever read this... I completely TOTALLY feel you. I'm an addict... fent coke n alcohol... and besides being completely broken by allowing this shit to run and destroy my life, it's additionally depressing to deal with the fake, lying, manipulative people in the lifestyle
She doesn’t seem to be honest..so anything she says should be considered a lie or an exaggeration of the truth.
She never once held herself responsible for her bad choices it was always someone else to blame.
Happiest of crazy upheaval of a topsy turvy wacked out far out trippy ass HOLIDAZE season.Many blessings filled with all that serves your highest good so can continue this immeasurable priceless work ...THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO ...AND MANY BLESSINGS SURROUND EVERYSINGLE PWRSON YOU HAVE EVERY INTERVIEWED🕊🙏💞🙏🕊🙏💞🙏🕊🙏💞🙏🕊🙏
She's beautiful! I would love to be her friend. I feel so bad for her. I hope someday she finds peace in her life.
Rachel if you see this, come to Milwaukee. I'm a recovering addict myself and would love to help you. When you're ready. No one can force it on you, but I'm a walking example that there is better. I swear on it.
Rachel you seem genuinely above average intelligence. But it's not all good to not be fazed by anything. People get told that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and it's true in some aspects, but you can tell some things just make it very difficult and instead of getting stronger you get locked in a perpetual fight. It becomes almost addictive to always be fighting the fights you know rather than trade those for new fights...like the kind that come with being sober.
I hope you find a new set of problems, ones that aren't as physically dangerous. It's hard with depression to find motivation, but if you can take the first path that you can walk that includes sobriety you'll have a lot more options. Solving other problems without sobriety seems, not from personal experience but from observation, to be wasted effort. Because the only lifestyle available to you that is compatible with drug use is the one you're in now. Wish it wasn't like that, but it is... society rejects people who check out on drugs rather than helping. (Although some people like Mark try)
You seem to be well aware that drugs aren't a trap because of the high or physical addiction, they're a trap because they get you away from the pain of "normal life" problems.
Not everything difficult that doesn't kill you makes you stronger. If someone breaks your leg and it can't be fixed without years of physical therapy, then you are crippled. You can't just expect to get up one day with a surge of motivation to run a marathon. But you can still be happy in life walking with a cane and a limp. Good luck.
I absolutely LOVE your comment ❤️!! Spot on!!.
Gosh she literally always finds a positive in every situation
I completely lost it when she said she couldn’t think of any happy moments in her life, except when she LEFT HOME. It was “pretty good”..🥺😭😢
Every interview this is my take away: Childhood abuse is the gateway to drug abuse and is the precursor to mental illness. 💔
May God Bless you young lady...keep moving forward.
I can't imagine what she went thru, not only as a child, but is Still going thru and still believes there is some good in the world.....please, please get help, you deserve a happy peaceful life more than you know....None of that was your fault! I only wish I could find everyone who hurt her, they would get exactly what they deserve. Stay strong Rachel, you are a beautiful soul ❤️
RACHEL, I AM SO SORRY ABOUT EVERYTHING. SENDING LOVE AND PRAYERS YOUR WAY.
Powerful testament, account of someone's real life.
Rachel's recount was not only stirring but I hope it was healing, helpful or at least some kinda release for her. Sometimes simply sharing our story, especially when there's no one in your life to listen, can be a meaningful experience
Also, she's a powerful speaker. She got to the grist of it and didn't hold back. I think that's what people need to hear. And feel. I certainly did...
You are an incredible soul with some deep hope and inate wisdom. Please know your valid with your emotions but it's never to late to change and get help. Please stay well and see yourself soon. Your gorgeous and smart
This poor girl I wish I could just call her and talk to her so she has someone to turn too! You can tell she is a good person! I have faith she will turn her self around!!!! Very intelligent young woman I wish the best for her!!!!!
Mark, pleaseeee help her. She truly deserves a real chance. 🙏
You woke up on that track for a reason Rachel. ❤
This women is broken! Everyone around her failed her !! So sad
Poor girl. Between the drugs, mental health and living situation she'll be lucky to make it to 30.
very sad i hope her fuutre will be better
You have been through so much! So much terrible shit!… But you still have time to turn things around!
I wish you all the best!
She’s smart. Years ago we use to say 2 days a party 3 IS a habit.. and she says 4 days and you’re hooked. 🙏🏼
I feel like this interviews can be longer but sometimes is like he doesn't know what questions to ask or follow-up with and the at the end just says thanks for sharing your story. Sometimes they finish saying a heartfelt story and he goes on to the next question like whatever.
Her eyes are screaming HELP ME I'M LOST!! She tried to give up but deep down she's trying to still hold onto the faint distant glimmer of hope. May God continue to shield her heart and soul. Keep giving her the inner strength to be able to hold onto hope
My heart goes out to her wherever she is I hope she knows that sending her hugs❤
I can see this woman being a great service to other addicts if she can find a way out
really interesting video mark.
I'm so glad she still has hope, incredibly proud of her for that. My heart breaks for all she has had to endure in life. I pray for good things to come!
Why when these females give their babies away they say my baby daddy’s mom has my baby instead of saying my child’s grandma has her? It almost sounds like although you are too sorry to raise your child, you’re upset because the grandmother is raising her
This is someone who I believe if help was given she would use it wisely
OH MY GOD!! Watching these videos make me feel very grateful for the simple, ordinary life I have here. I truly hope Rachel gets the help she so desperately needs and she finds true happiness, love and peace in her life. Cheers, from Country Victoria, Australia 🇦🇺 🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺