I can't believe how well spoken and mature you are at 15!!!! Also loved the discussion around tiktok, it's terrifying how normalised and encouraged disorded eating is on that app. I've not really struggled with eating but its so so bad for my body image and self esteem
It is so disappointing that certain social media platforms allow such harmful videos that can negatively impact so many people. Hopefully, TikTok will make some changes regarding what is allowed to be posted. Some advice for you that worked for me is, even when you see triggering things, tell TikTok you are not interested! I do not have TikTok anymore but I believe there is a feature for that. If not, scroll away from the harmful post. Wishing you luck xx
As another 15 year old, I understand how you felt as a teenager and I’m sorry you had to go through all that. Your parents definitely pressured you too much but I’m glad that you did you. No matter what you are always beautiful :)
I remember how scary it was when I got told I wasn’t able to cook anymore, even though it sounds stupid cooking was a comfort for me and having that comfort stripped from me was one of the hardest parts of recovery (even though I know it was for the best I still wish I had been allowed to keep cooking)
There are a lot of things we do when struggling that bring the Eating Disorder comfort, more than it does us. I am proud of you!! I hope you are doing better.
I am 36 years old and still struggle with my body . I got my period when I was 12 . And I looked around the room and I felt like the fattest person in the room which was not the case . I’ve never had an eating disorder but have been tempted. In high school these two girls who I thought had the perfect body . And I wanted to be like them . But as an adult I know I can’t get my little girl figure back . And I have to learn to love myself.
You're very well spoken for your young age and hold yourself in a mature way. My heart aches knowing at such a young age you went through that. I didn't think someone as young as 6 could get those ideas into their head. I wonder if its because of media or something, like where could a 6 year old come up with the idea of starvation and wanting to be that skinny. When I was 6, weight never crossed my mind. Did your family ever comment about your weight or were you around adults who talked about their own weight when you were 6? I just wonder how you made the connection "skinny = likeable" so young I struggled with anorexia from ages 13 - 18 so I relate to your story even though I was older than you when mine happened, but it lasted 5 years for me too
I appreciate your empathy, and I am sorry you struggled for so long as well. To answer your question, I did hear comments that my family made towards other people and towards themselves, which heavily impacted me.
@@sarahbaciu For sure, somehow the mind internalizes their thoughts and comments. It's like the eating disorder takes those statements and runs with them. Convincing us that we must follow along with what was said so no one else would perceive us in a way that our parents perceive others.
@@sarahbaciu You are more than welcome. Creating a safe space being able to communicate effectively, allowing people to resemble yourself along the way.... it is hard, and it is brave to do. You sure deserve every compliment it is given to your bravest self.
i don’t normally comment on videos, but i’ve been going through an eating disorder for 4+ years (i am 16 now) and this was so important for me to hear all of this coming from someone my age. i can relate to you SO much, all of it. it really opened my eyes to realize that i need to recover because i want to, not because i am being forced. i realized from this video that recovering will be so much better than where i am at now, i want to look forward to and enjoy my life, not wake up everyday with this anxiety about food and what im going to eat. it has encouraged me in every way possible to recover and push myself to do more, and that life is not about how people look. i really needed to hear and see that i am not alone, and to see that another girl my age getting through the exact same thing, and that if im strong like you, it is possible to fully recover. i have never watched your videos but i just saw this video and i am so glad i did. i want to be your friend sooo bad, i can’t imagine being surrounded by such a sweet person like you that has been through the same exact same thing as me. you are so confident, so mature, so sweet, so brave, so strong, and so SO gorgeous! you have inspired me soooo much. I WISH SO BADLY i knew you and we were friends, id love talking to you and getting to know you and just relate and talk to each other. your friends are so lucky to have you. thank you so much for this video and i already know this has changed my life. and i really want you to know that every word i said, mean it so much! thank you sarah i can’t thank you enough girl❤️
I came for the emanciated pics. But after seeing the video I don't want to relapse anymore. It was surprisingly informative. You did a great job unraveling the why's and how's of an eating disorder.
This is so fucking beautiful. We have almost the same story, im also 15 and went into recovery at the beginning of this year. you described the experience perfectly. I aspire to be as emotionally mature as you. I really enjoyed this video
It sounds like your parents helped so much and did the best they could. It might sound a little harsh to some people but to me it sounds like tough love
Tough love and mental health don't really mix well. I've never dealt with an ED before but I've struggled with mental health and self destructive coping mechanisms and if my family did this to me my mental health would honestly just get worse. I get how a parent might think taking things away or punishing their kid for relapsing might get rid of their Ed or help their mental health but mental health is a very delicate thing doing the wrong thing as a parent could just make it worse. Punishing your kid for relapsing is just going to make them feel like they can't come to you when they need help or make them want to hide it. Mental health is out of your control and unhealthy coping mechanisms can be addictive so telling them to just "stop" is going to work like punishing an addict for relapsing it's a tough battle. And taking things like phones or makeup away would probably also make it worse. If my family took things away from me because of my mental health it'd make me feel like a rat trapped in a cage not being able to do "normal" things because they fear I'll hurt myself and makeup and phones could be a copying mechanism for someone so not only would you be forcing them to just quit but you'd also be potentially taking away a comfort item on top of that . Basically tough love is 9/10 not the best way to go about parenting a mentally ill child. I'm glad this person in the video seemed to have benefitted from it but I feel like most people in this situation would probably just get worse but I'm happy it helped her
hi! the past few weeks i have been struggling with my weight and my body confidence. today especially i was feeling extremely insecure about my body, and when i opened youtube this was the first video that came up. i just have to tell you, i will never be able to help you enough. i was having thoughts of starving myself or eating less meals, but after watching this, i feel so much better about myself and i will never think that again. i want to say thank you so much for sharing your journey and i am so proud of you and how you’ve recovered. i hope u continue to be healthy and have a great day. thanks so so much ❤
Wow. I really have no words to convey the amount of feeling and understanding this video inspires in me. I, too, am a 15 year old girl in Canada & have faced many of the similar struggles with weight & body image & restrictive/binge eating. I'm also in recovery (not forced) and while it is hard, this video serves as a gentle and honest reminder of what healing is truly worth; me, my family, and everyone I love's true happiness and peace. One of the biggest driving factors that trigger eating disorders or give them the ammunition to thrive is social media. Please, for any young teens that watched this video & read this comment, DON'T spend too much time online or in negative spaces that enforce our society's entrenched obsession with diet culture. Don't make the mistake I did. Hearing your experiences was truly a comfort, Sarah. Thank you so much for sharing with us what you went through that will hopefully enlighten others. Wishing us both a safe and sound teenhood!
Hi!! I am also a 15 year old girl who really really struggles a lot with food sometimes, and I can't even describe to you how much this has helped me. you are so strong, empowering, kind, and for what it's worth, so so beautiful on the inside and out
Thanks for sharing your story. Im much older and I have been struggling with an ED since probably 9-10 years old. I feel like Im never gonna be fully healed. I go through periods where Im on a health streak or vegan streak or whatever streak lol and sometimes I do better but it never last long. My mom has an ED too so I was basically raised being brainwashed about carbs and calories and bad foods. It’s hard but I keep fighting.
Thank you for your story, i'm so sorry you went through that at such a young age. Anorexia doesn't control just your eating, it takes over your relationships, your hobbies, you really loose your sparkle and i'm so happy to see you use your experience for others. I used to also hate my mom hugging me incase she felt how much weight i had lost and i felt so ashamed. It's an isolating and frustrating battle and i hope you're able to find peace within yourself soon. Remember you are worth so much more than whats on your plate, i'm extremely happy for you, well done
I've been dealing with this for a few years too, turning 24 next month, and all I can say, seeing such young kids already facing this issue is actually not only extremely sad, but also pretty disturbing. I mean, when will we stop being forced to fit in such ridiculously IMPOSSIBLE standards?? How many of us have to die so that they change? 😞
I appreciate your maturity and the coherence of your speech and I was completely surprised by the feelings and "obsessions" you experienced from such a young age. I'm glad that in the end, you managed to overcome these challenges and that you were able to realize what is really good for you!. Congratulations and if you take advice from a parent, never forget that the best, honest and caring friends, without hidden interests will always be your parents!. I'm glad I got to know your story and you reconfirmed what I already knew, that we are unique, each with our experiences, obsessions, fears and finally with our defeats and victories!. Congratulations!.
You are so well spoken. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I have struggled with an eating disorder for nearly 30 years. I am so sorry this all started for you at such a young age. I wish for all of your dreams to come true, and that you continue to seek health and happiness.
4:45 I relate to this so much, whenever I look in the comments of a skinny persons video, all I see is “omg body goals!” And it makes me feel bad about myself
A 44 year old woman from Argentina here. As other pointed out, you're extremely well spoken and mature for your age! It i's sad and shocking to see how women and young girls (my gosh, you were only 6!) from different ages and latitudes feel pressured by unrealistic beauty standards. Social media has been playing a huge role but I'm glad that in one of your commments you adress the impact of family as well. In my family there has been a strong diet culture and very rude remarks about weight and physical appeareance since my early childhood and it has hurted my self esteem a lot. So adults have to be very aware of the impacts that their words and attitudes can have, because an "innocent" comment about someone's appeareance can have a lifetime-lasting impact.
I couldn't agree more! The things that an adult, especially a parent, says to a child are likely to be the most influential things because most children understand that adults know best and have authority.
Thank you so much for sharing your story and experiences. It will help me struggling to get one of my family member healed from this horrible mental discease. You are strong, brave, beautiful and most of all blessed.🙏💝 Thank you again! 🤗
You are wonderfully well-spoken and inspiring to watch. As a teen girl who also struggled with anorexia from a young age, this really resonated with me. I went through a forced recovery as well before really wanting recovery. Sometimes I go back and find videos like these to remind myself how far I've come. Sharing your story was courageous; thank you! :)
Not only is this video amazingly well filmed and edited, but you have such a great way of putting into words your experience. I'm also 15, and you're so mature and inspiring to me. I used to be the "skinny kid" and having to adapt to my body changing into one of an adult is still a struggle. I wish you all the best on your recovery journey and can't wait to watch the rest of your content! ❤
God bless you! What an inspiration you are. I am also a 15 year old girl recovered from an eating disorder. Though my story is different than yours I relate a lot and I’m so proud of you💕
just wanted to say that this video is beautiful !! you are so radiant and beautiful, and smart, and so well spoken ! You seem so mature, and I’m glad these experiences and hardships didn’t tear you down, and you realized you had a problem and you kept going and put your mind to recovering ! I really relate to this video, and it’s inspiring me to talk to my parents, and I’m really grateful you made it. I’m so happy for you. I’m sorry you went through those things at such a young age, but I’m over the moon that you seem a lot more confident !! thank you so much for making this video and sharing, it really really helps me, good luck to you, I hope you and your friends and family are doing amazing !! 💙🩵
wow, i know that i dont know you but i am so proud of how amazing you are, you have such amazing knowledge and you should be so proud of yourself. you are so beautiful and have always been
Im so glad you opened up and are healing from your eating disorder. I cant imagine the diffucilties and fear you had to go through at such a young age it broke me when I saw how tiktok and social media can really teach us how to restrict or glorify eds.
hi sarah! i just anted to let you know that youu have helped me so much during my struggle with bad body image and earing habits. i dont really have anyone to talk to about it, and i just find so much comfort in being able to relate to you about it. thank you so much for that💗💗
Although I'm sad to hear about your struggles, I am so grateful and happy to be your safe space! I plan only to continue posting. However, I will be more active on Instagram than on UA-cam. I also post recovery-related videos on Instagram! Sending you love!
so well spoken and mature yound lady. i do not know you but im so proud. To speak so well, handle life so maturly , and also share that to the world to help others. you are an amazing person and i wish you hapiness for the rest of your life little princess :))
As someone who is currently waiting on treatment for an ed and struggling everyday this makes me feel so seen. I am not far in age from you and i know i need to recover but everyday it becomes harder to choose it. My family is tired of my ed and I’m so tired of myself. Im going to keep trying
I am sorry that you are going through this. I totally understand what it is like for you and your family to be tired and hurt by your ED. I hope that you can find the strength in you to recover. I know it is hard, but you have to survive through recovery to be able to thrive later.
@@sarahbaciu I’m very happy to say that I feel better from when i made this comment. I see my doctor in 2 days and I’m ready to tell the truth even though it’s so hard. I need to recover and If I don’t help myself do that then I will never be able to fully. Im hanging on right now but I think it’s going to be ok.
you had a debit card?! at 13?! social media is awful for mental health, even for old people like me (lol, i'm 26 but you're a youngin'!), so i would think especially so for preteens! anyway, i appreciate that you talk about the relationship damage between your mom and dad. it exposes how much you love them! ❤️ thank you for getting healthy! best wishes! you are so beautiful and articulate and you seem like such a sweetheart!
I am a 36 year old woman who still struggles with body image. I was totally body positive until I got my period at age 12. I looked around the room and thought I was the fastest person in the room which i know was not the case . In high school there were these two girls who I thought at the time had the perfect bodies. Even though I’ve never had an eating disorder I have been tempted many times. Now as an adult I’m learning to love myself and my body. It’s not always easy but I do it .
It's so unfortunate to know that so many women have issues with the way their bodies look. You deserve the ability to AT LEAST accept your body. Remember that there really is no such thing as a perfect body. The idea of "perfect" is different to everyone and it changes often too. Wishing you luck and strength xx
HI! i cant believe out stories are so similar!!! My ed also started in 2021 when I was 12 and I got my period for the first and last time on May 25th. My parents noticed just like yours and after I gained their trust I relapsed in 2022, was in a failed forced recovery, relapsed again in 2023 when I finally got caught in may this year and sent to the hospital. Now im still in forced recovery and not commited to it, but I'm realising I have so much ahead of me I have to. Its hard for me cuz I have to drink a suplement everyday which makes my disorder mad and punsihes me for it by overexercising. I'm trying to fight through and wish you the same as well. I actually got my first few drops of period blood this month and I'm so proud of myself, since I dream of having my own family when I grow up. This disorder is a devil, but we can't let him control us :)
@@djuniwersalcziken Wow! This is incredible. I’m so glad that you are realizing that recovery is worth it. It’s where the biggest shift happens, in my opinion. It’s amazing that you got some drops too!! I also hope to have my own family one day! Wishing you all the best!
im so glad you're in a better place now! you are clearly a lovely soul and so well spoken, and i appreciate how you were able to cover this topic in such a way that it's not triggering for anyone watching who might be having a hard time. sending love
Wow thank you i have struggled with an eating disorder briefly for about a year and it was never as bad as yours but recovery was still a challenge for me and for me it was never forced my parents never knew about it and whenever I would lose weight I would get an extreme amount of anxiety for if anyone found out and depression and I would turn to self harm to cope I have fully gained back all the weight and am slowly gaining more as I am a child, I have always had social anxiety for as long as I can remember (that was the only thing my parents ever knew about as it was diagnosed) and to this day I still haven’t fallen out of depression and self harm and anxiety in general though I’m trying really really hard (I’ve struggled with why I should since it wasn’t like anyone was gonna know as that was my motivation with my ed and you made me realize that it’s worth it for myself to feel better myself
Wow, you are so mature and I think this is a very informative/helpful video to others. I'm the same age as you and sometimes its crazy to think about the things people my age might be going through.
Thank you so much for sharing your story Sarah!! I'm sure this helped so many people feel understood :) I'm so glad you were able to recover and I'm so sorry you went through this so young. Wishing you the best
Your parents did not handle your ed well... taking unreasonable priveleges(makeup,nails,coffee and u couldn't see your friends?! Wtf)and putting u under pressure about having to gain weight, CUS THAT'S NOT THE MAIN POINT In ed, it's about the mind. That really makes it seem that "I have to just gain weight so I can do atleast some things I want?" It's not fair and can make the recovery feel very suffocating. I just wanted to let u know that it isn't normal and u should talk about it. I could see the mind set in the end, when u said "that I still need to gain some weight so I can exerisice n do my nails" kinda putting u to the idea that it's the main thing and nog how u feel.
Sarah , I have been watching many videos researching how to help a loved one , your story and recovery is so very helpful ! It is encouraging that you are recovering and living a joyful life again ! 🌿🙏❤️
so well spoken and mature yound lady. i do not know you but im so proud/ To speak so well, handle life so matuly , and also share that to the world to help thers. you are an amazing person and i wish you hapiness for the rest of your life little princess :))
This helped me so much as I have been struggling with very similar symptoms like eating way less and I obviously have lost a lot of weight ( like 15-20 pounds) I’m still dealing with this now but this video has helped me but it will take me a while to get back to normal, thanks for sharing your story ❤❤
I'm sorry that you are going through that. I am so glad the video helped you though! Recovery will take time, but the hardship of recovery is TOTALLY worth the beauty of complete freedom.
the tiktok part is so real omg. It started w thinking my thighs were too fat and my stomach was too bloated, and comparing myself to my friends who somehow weighed way less than me and were underweight. Then, i had an obsession for modeling and saw how underweight and thin they were, and i thought to myself i should also be like that. A big part was also tiktok, that showed and encouraged disordered eating, being underweight and i wanted to be like that aswell. Now, i eat under 500 cals a day but binge very often (For me, binging is eating 1000+) and i hate it but dont wanna recover
I am sorry that you are going through so much. Unfortunately, it may take some time before you want to recover. I hope that you will find the strength in yourself to do so because a life after recovery ACTUALLY tastes better than skinny feels.
This is so sad but lovely to hear your story as a transwoman who is now 18, I have struggled with anorexia since I was 12 developed as othorexia then developed into the blasted anorexia and am still struggling to this day, I know for me it's because of the "societal rules around weight and diets" as a 2000's child diets and the dreaded slimming world were and still are rife in today's soceity, luckily I don't listen much to those rules anymore, but the long term effects of people around me even from a young age saying about others or me oh you "lost so much weight, wish i could" or the classic "oh gonna be a bit naughty having these crips (still sticks with me to this day so I have not had crisps since I developed orthorexia/anorexia) it sucks, but now looking into recovery, slowly and steadily so it doesn't overwhelm me starting with identifying my triggers and my fear foods to challenge and am so happy to be back on the recovery train hopefully to end the thoughts for good
Choosing recovery is the most important part. You can do this. Remember, even if the thoughts don't go away for some time, it doesn't mean you are failing! What is important is that you don't let the thoughts control you! When your thoughts tell you that crisps are bad, you have to try to eat them anyway!
this was such a well articulated video… i’ve never felt so proud of a stranger on the internet. 🩷 not only are you glowing and beautiful, i just know from this how sweet, kind of a person you are and that you have a lovely personality. you have so much to offer to this world, you radiate so much joy and i hope life only gets better for you from here. don’t ever forget that you deserve a happy life. ❤
The reason why I’m crying is because i believe I have a long term eating disorder as well as anxiety and depression but I tried to bring depression and anxiety up to my mother and she pushed it down to the point that I broke down right after I got into my room I can’t even explain my reasons because for 4 years I’ve been going to school with a belt or piece of fabric around my stomach as tight as I could pull it and before that all I wanted to do was die and my 2 thoughts that were and still are going through my head is that if I’m skinny I’ll be better and if I hide it all I’ll be better for context I was never a skinny kid I was known for my looks because of my child face and long wavy blonde hair but I have always surrounded myself around the same friends and in my brain they look down on me and they are much skinnier and I wish I was them and it’s gotten to the point that other than the stuff I force myself to wear I also excersise constantly I struggle to lay in bed and it’s gotten to the point that I’ve found myself waking up on my floor because I could even get up my body was so weak. Another thing that makes this worse is I’m sick constantly and I know why (my sugars and energy levels) but I can’t bring myself to say this and every time I’m sick I can’t walk and when I’m sick it gets to the point that I can’t even swallow medicine because of the tightness in my chest and how droopy I feel and I just can’t breath even. So when I watch stuff like this I’m sucking in my chest and whenever I hear the words I’m here for you I understand all I can think is no you don’t I don’t even understand you can’t put yourself I’m my shoes they would kill somebody and it’s the point that I’ve thought of just going tot he health clinic and getting checked out but then my body tells me no your just overthinking it and your fine just keep saying your fine and everything will be okay
I'm sorry you are going through something so hard. And I understand that I will probably never feel that way and, therefore, cannot completely understand. I hope you can accept the support from those who say they are there for you because even though they might not understand, their intentions are probably only to help you in whichever way they know how to. Most people who have not struggled with their mental health probably don't know what is best to say. If want to begin recovery, I would advice you tell someone trusted that you are struggling, and then allow them to support you as you take action towards your recovery.
My first ed was in 2020 when I was 12 , it got soo bad I had to go to the hospital it nearly killed me , I started recovery about November 2020 but I never had a fully healthy relationship with food , last summer I started gating in to my unhealthy eating disorder habits again and I lost a lot of weight, by the end of the summer the beginning of August my parents noticed I tried to deny it I couldn’t so I confused and I tried to convince myself to stop, but when I noticed that I lost weight and sow my before and after pictures I couldn’t so by the start of the school year I started getting into even worst habit and since then it’s been 5 weeks instead of gaining weight I lost weight and I keep gating back and forth with the I want to recover and no I don’t but now all my clothes don’t fit me even the leggings and nothing looks good on me am trying to convince myself that I need to recover but it’s hard. And thank you soo much I loved you’re video it really helped me and I hope you do well on your journey 💗💗💗💗
I am sorry you are going through something so challenging and have been for a very long time. One of my biggest pieces of advice for recovery is that a life with an Eating Disorder is much scarier than a much shorter-term recovery. I don't know anyone in person or online who ever felt "ready" to recover. But I have also met NO ONE who regrets it. Of course, that includes myself! I NEVER thought that I would be here. I hope you realize that you can do what seems impossible. I wish you luck and strength ❤
For me it was kind of the opposite but not to your extreme. I was naturally skinny and weak, and i wanted to get stronger. I saw workout videos on UA-cam and decided i wanted to become like them. I bought my first 5 pound weights at 10, and now that im 14, I have 15 pound weights. I wasnt as insecure of this than my self image and portrayance, but the hurt can make you better in all ways
I am not a professional, so I cannot be certain. However, I have had a professional say it to me: if you are willing to hurt yourself so much, there is a purpose deeper than just the way you look. The reason could be something completely different from what you see in my video and that's ok! It also might take some time to find out this deeper reason which was most certainly the case for me. However, everyone is different and on their own journeys, so I cannot speak for everyone.
Wow I can't explain how much I related to you're video Sarah,im also a fifteen year old girl and I would love to be you're friend, you seem like such a sweet and kind person and I also would like to be a doctor.. Thank so much for sharing you're story and I wish you the best.💕
I’m a little bit disappointed by the punishments by your parents. That’s not right and I feel like that would be more damaging. No one should be punished for having a disorder. It’s not about them.
Thank you so much for your beautiful story! Thank you for sharing. I'm a Mom of an almost 15 year old daughter who struggles with anorexia. Do you think what your parents took away from you helped you? Anything else you can think of that helped you decide to recover? My daughter doesn't see the need for recovery yet. Thank you so much for helping all of us out here!
I'm so sorry that your daughter is going through that. I understand that an ED can truly take a toll on all members of the family. I would say that the things my parents did made me a little bit more motivated to get through to the end of recovery. However, I wouldn't say that it was the most essential part. The essential part is finding the desire to recover within yourself. I understand that is probably not your favourite answer as your daughter does not see the need to recover. However, I recommend that you ask her why she wants to hold onto her ED. Is it so she can feel validated? A sense of control? A distraction? If you help her become aware of the deeper reasons, she may have more ease rising above it. Also, definitely refrain from making comments on her body like "you are too skinny". Instead, tell her that what she is doing is detrimental to her health. If she begins to recover, even then, don't make comments on her body, even if they are positive. Wishing you all the best❤
Eventhough I “recovered” from anorexia, my relationship with food feels broken forever, every time I look in the mirror or at my photos, I feel like I’m ugly …….and fat.😢
I'm sorry that sometimes people receive the "recovered" label just because their body is recovered, but their mind is not. Remember, we are our worst critics. No one else believes that you are ugly or fat. I hope that you can find the strength in you to recover your mind regarding your eating disorder and body image. You can do this and you deserve to live a better, recovered life. Sending you love and luck!
My boyfriend keeps telling me to eat more and that i need to eat more food and he gets really annoyed if i dont eat much. I think i look bad and all that
Nowadays the social media is a very triggering, it happened the same to me. In fact, i developped a cause of it, i dont think people is conscience of what they are showing…
I totally agree. Lately, I've realized how quickly "norms" and expectations have changed online, and how they keep changing so often. We have to stop falling for the traps to change ourselves because it will never be enough according to social media
hello, i just wanted to say i related to this video SO MUCH and I myself am only around 13 and ever since I was around 7, like you , i was very insecure and wanted to get 'skinny'. Last year I started eating less and exercising more, my hair started to fall out, I lost my period, I never told my parents ANYTHING and I would even sometimes p^rge, last week I realized how terrible a eating disorder is, and I started eating more :) I stopped p^rging and yesterday was the first day in a LONG time I ate a desert without feeling bad!! (I had a apple crumble ) I'm slowly starting to realize that FOOD IS FUEL!!! this video helped me realize I'm not alone and I'm so glad I'm not alone!! I'm also very glad that u recovered!
I am so proud of you for stopping some of those negative habits and mindsets. Of course, you are never alone! You can most certainly recover too! We all have the ability in us to do hard things. And the turnout of recovery is worth it!
Fu*k your awsome!!!! , thanks for helping me understand potentially how some people around me who are struggling with this stuff feel like. I didn't relise how little I knew about eating di sorders untull this, so if I ever to come in contact with it ( lets hope not) I can have a better understanding therefore help/know how to help more Thanks for this !!!
Ok this is bad, but I am 12 and I am not happy with my body, I kinda want to do what she did, because she is so skinny and pretty. I know she said not to but I really just want to be as skinny as she is 😊
you don’t understand this video. Developing an Eating Disorder will not help you achieve what you truly want. Work towards the greater good, skinny does not equal pretty. You’re twelve. Please please don’t go down this path. If you want to “lose weight” eat everything in moderation. You don’t have to give up treats. Drink some water. Exercise some more. Please look up “Adam Wright Fitness” hes my favorite way to normalize HEALTHY ways to lose weight.
@ I know it’s not healthy, and is not the point of the vid, but she’s so pretty and skinny, and I just want to look like her, and not have people laugh at me anymore
@@alexerinmartin6101 please read my comment through. You will not get what you truly want (confidence, pretty) by starving yourself. Look up Adam Wright Fitness and talk to your doctor. Please.
@@alexerinmartin6101please never think something like that again, you seem young and truly don’t understand how heartbreaking anorexia is…the point of the video isn’t the creators skinniness it’s how she’s gaining weight to get better and not be mentally and physically sick
Honestly, I've gained quite some weight since all those photos were taken! I can assure you that being that skinny was something that I would never want to experience again. Like I mentioned in the video, I was always cold, tired, dizzy and frustrated. I wouldn't wish an eating disorder on my worst enemy.
WARUM kommentiert man sowas? 1. Ist das super triggernd für sie und 2. Hat sie doch gesagt, dass sie noch zunimmt?! Lass doch ein junges Mädchen in Ruhe heilen, ohne, ihren Körper zu kommentieren
Hi, I just wanted to say I struggle from the same eating disorder as you. I was struggling ALOT and in similar ways of you. You explained it so well. You seemed so professional for a teen. And this helped to know that someone like me when through a similar thing. I’m finally recovering ❤️🩹 after two annoying years of anorexia and I just wanted to say THANK YOU! For me my recovery is never quite over yet. Maybe it never will be but I realized I got better and that’s all that matters. You helped realized that and you are amazing. You earned urself a new subscriber and like. ❤ Thank you .
I can't believe how well spoken and mature you are at 15!!!! Also loved the discussion around tiktok, it's terrifying how normalised and encouraged disorded eating is on that app. I've not really struggled with eating but its so so bad for my body image and self esteem
It is so disappointing that certain social media platforms allow such harmful videos that can negatively impact so many people. Hopefully, TikTok will make some changes regarding what is allowed to be posted. Some advice for you that worked for me is, even when you see triggering things, tell TikTok you are not interested! I do not have TikTok anymore but I believe there is a feature for that. If not, scroll away from the harmful post. Wishing you luck xx
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As another 15 year old, I understand how you felt as a teenager and I’m sorry you had to go through all that. Your parents definitely pressured you too much but I’m glad that you did you. No matter what you are always beautiful :)
I remember how scary it was when I got told I wasn’t able to cook anymore, even though it sounds stupid cooking was a comfort for me and having that comfort stripped from me was one of the hardest parts of recovery (even though I know it was for the best I still wish I had been allowed to keep cooking)
There are a lot of things we do when struggling that bring the Eating Disorder comfort, more than it does us. I am proud of you!! I hope you are doing better.
I am 36 years old and still struggle with my body . I got my period when I was 12 . And I looked around the room and I felt like the fattest person in the room which was not the case . I’ve never had an eating disorder but have been tempted. In high school these two girls who I thought had the perfect body . And I wanted to be like them . But as an adult I know I can’t get my little girl figure back . And I have to learn to love myself.
You're very well spoken for your young age and hold yourself in a mature way. My heart aches knowing at such a young age you went through that. I didn't think someone as young as 6 could get those ideas into their head. I wonder if its because of media or something, like where could a 6 year old come up with the idea of starvation and wanting to be that skinny. When I was 6, weight never crossed my mind.
Did your family ever comment about your weight or were you around adults who talked about their own weight when you were 6? I just wonder how you made the connection "skinny = likeable" so young
I struggled with anorexia from ages 13 - 18 so I relate to your story even though I was older than you when mine happened, but it lasted 5 years for me too
I appreciate your empathy, and I am sorry you struggled for so long as well. To answer your question, I did hear comments that my family made towards other people and towards themselves, which heavily impacted me.
@@sarahbaciu For sure, somehow the mind internalizes their thoughts and comments. It's like the eating disorder takes those statements and runs with them. Convincing us that we must follow along with what was said so no one else would perceive us in a way that our parents perceive others.
@@esjamison Perfectly said
Seeing this from the perspective of a psychologist, you nailed it. So wholesome and brave to put it out there. Proud of you.
@@lemondedetr Awww thank you so much!!
@@sarahbaciu You are more than welcome. Creating a safe space being able to communicate effectively, allowing people to resemble yourself along the way.... it is hard, and it is brave to do. You sure deserve every compliment it is given to your bravest self.
i don’t normally comment on videos, but i’ve been going through an eating disorder for 4+ years (i am 16 now) and this was so important for me to hear all of this coming from someone my age. i can relate to you SO much, all of it. it really opened my eyes to realize that i need to recover because i want to, not because i am being forced. i realized from this video that recovering will be so much better than where i am at now, i want to look forward to and enjoy my life, not wake up everyday with this anxiety about food and what im going to eat. it has encouraged me in every way possible to recover and push myself to do more, and that life is not about how people look. i really needed to hear and see that i am not alone, and to see that another girl my age getting through the exact same thing, and that if im strong like you, it is possible to fully recover. i have never watched your videos but i just saw this video and i am so glad i did. i want to be your friend sooo bad, i can’t imagine being surrounded by such a sweet person like you that has been through the same exact same thing as me. you are so confident, so mature, so sweet, so brave, so strong, and so SO gorgeous! you have inspired me soooo much. I WISH SO BADLY i knew you and we were friends, id love talking to you and getting to know you and just relate and talk to each other. your friends are so lucky to have you. thank you so much for this video and i already know this has changed my life. and i really want you to know that every word i said, mean it so much! thank you sarah i can’t thank you enough girl❤️
I came for the emanciated pics. But after seeing the video I don't want to relapse anymore. It was surprisingly informative. You did a great job unraveling the why's and how's of an eating disorder.
This is amazing. I am so happy this video helped you. You deserve recovery; a free life is worth any short-term struggle. Wishing you lots of luck!
This is so fucking beautiful. We have almost the same story, im also 15 and went into recovery at the beginning of this year. you described the experience perfectly. I aspire to be as emotionally mature as you. I really enjoyed this video
wow me too!!
@@subliminalzzz Thank you so much for your support! I hope that the video helped you and that you are doing well! ❤️❤️
It sounds like your parents helped so much and did the best they could. It might sound a little harsh to some people but to me it sounds like tough love
Tough love and mental health don't really mix well. I've never dealt with an ED before but I've struggled with mental health and self destructive coping mechanisms and if my family did this to me my mental health would honestly just get worse. I get how a parent might think taking things away or punishing their kid for relapsing might get rid of their Ed or help their mental health but mental health is a very delicate thing doing the wrong thing as a parent could just make it worse. Punishing your kid for relapsing is just going to make them feel like they can't come to you when they need help or make them want to hide it. Mental health is out of your control and unhealthy coping mechanisms can be addictive so telling them to just "stop" is going to work like punishing an addict for relapsing it's a tough battle. And taking things like phones or makeup away would probably also make it worse. If my family took things away from me because of my mental health it'd make me feel like a rat trapped in a cage not being able to do "normal" things because they fear I'll hurt myself and makeup and phones could be a copying mechanism for someone so not only would you be forcing them to just quit but you'd also be potentially taking away a comfort item on top of that . Basically tough love is 9/10 not the best way to go about parenting a mentally ill child. I'm glad this person in the video seemed to have benefitted from it but I feel like most people in this situation would probably just get worse but I'm happy it helped her
hi! the past few weeks i have been struggling with my weight and my body confidence. today especially i was feeling extremely insecure about my body, and when i opened youtube this was the first video that came up. i just have to tell you, i will never be able to help you enough. i was having thoughts of starving myself or eating less meals, but after watching this, i feel so much better about myself and i will never think that again. i want to say thank you so much for sharing your journey and i am so proud of you and how you’ve recovered. i hope u continue to be healthy and have a great day. thanks so so much ❤
Wow. I really have no words to convey the amount of feeling and understanding this video inspires in me. I, too, am a 15 year old girl in Canada & have faced many of the similar struggles with weight & body image & restrictive/binge eating. I'm also in recovery (not forced) and while it is hard, this video serves as a gentle and honest reminder of what healing is truly worth; me, my family, and everyone I love's true happiness and peace.
One of the biggest driving factors that trigger eating disorders or give them the ammunition to thrive is social media. Please, for any young teens that watched this video & read this comment, DON'T spend too much time online or in negative spaces that enforce our society's entrenched obsession with diet culture. Don't make the mistake I did. Hearing your experiences was truly a comfort, Sarah. Thank you so much for sharing with us what you went through that will hopefully enlighten others. Wishing us both a safe and sound teenhood!
Hi!! I am also a 15 year old girl who really really struggles a lot with food sometimes, and I can't even describe to you how much this has helped me. you are so strong, empowering, kind, and for what it's worth, so so beautiful on the inside and out
Thanks for sharing your story. Im much older and I have been struggling with an ED since probably 9-10 years old. I feel like Im never gonna be fully healed. I go through periods where Im on a health streak or vegan streak or whatever streak lol and sometimes I do better but it never last long. My mom has an ED too so I was basically raised being brainwashed about carbs and calories and bad foods. It’s hard but I keep fighting.
Thank you for your story, i'm so sorry you went through that at such a young age. Anorexia doesn't control just your eating, it takes over your relationships, your hobbies, you really loose your sparkle and i'm so happy to see you use your experience for others. I used to also hate my mom hugging me incase she felt how much weight i had lost and i felt so ashamed. It's an isolating and frustrating battle and i hope you're able to find peace within yourself soon. Remember you are worth so much more than whats on your plate, i'm extremely happy for you, well done
I've been dealing with this for a few years too, turning 24 next month, and all I can say, seeing such young kids already facing this issue is actually not only extremely sad, but also pretty disturbing. I mean, when will we stop being forced to fit in such ridiculously IMPOSSIBLE standards?? How many of us have to die so that they change? 😞
I appreciate your maturity and the coherence of your speech and I was completely surprised by the feelings and "obsessions" you experienced from such a young age. I'm glad that in the end, you managed to overcome these challenges and that you were able to realize what is really good for you!. Congratulations and if you take advice from a parent, never forget that the best, honest and caring friends, without hidden interests will always be your parents!.
I'm glad I got to know your story and you reconfirmed what I already knew, that we are unique, each with our experiences, obsessions, fears and finally with our defeats and victories!.
Congratulations!.
Thank you so much for your kindness! You are amazing
You are so well spoken. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I have struggled with an eating disorder for nearly 30 years. I am so sorry this all started for you at such a young age. I wish for all of your dreams to come true, and that you continue to seek health and happiness.
4:45 I relate to this so much, whenever I look in the comments of a skinny persons video, all I see is “omg body goals!” And it makes me feel bad about myself
A 44 year old woman from Argentina here. As other pointed out, you're extremely well spoken and mature for your age! It i's sad and shocking to see how women and young girls (my gosh, you were only 6!) from different ages and latitudes feel pressured by unrealistic beauty standards. Social media has been playing a huge role but I'm glad that in one of your commments you adress the impact of family as well. In my family there has been a strong diet culture and very rude remarks about weight and physical appeareance since my early childhood and it has hurted my self esteem a lot. So adults have to be very aware of the impacts that their words and attitudes can have, because an "innocent" comment about someone's appeareance can have a lifetime-lasting impact.
I couldn't agree more! The things that an adult, especially a parent, says to a child are likely to be the most influential things because most children understand that adults know best and have authority.
ur literally SO GORGEOUS like genuinely so don't ever think of yourself as ugly :) ur story moved me a lot and it really resonates with me
Thank you so much! I'm glad you can find something relatable. I'm wishing you all the best!
Thank you so much for sharing your story and experiences. It will help me struggling to get one of my family member healed from this horrible mental discease. You are strong, brave, beautiful and most of all blessed.🙏💝 Thank you again! 🤗
Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm praying for your struggling family member ❤
@@sarahbaciu thank you! God bless you! 🙏♥️
You are wonderfully well-spoken and inspiring to watch. As a teen girl who also struggled with anorexia from a young age, this really resonated with me. I went through a forced recovery as well before really wanting recovery. Sometimes I go back and find videos like these to remind myself how far I've come. Sharing your story was courageous; thank you! :)
Not only is this video amazingly well filmed and edited, but you have such a great way of putting into words your experience. I'm also 15, and you're so mature and inspiring to me. I used to be the "skinny kid" and having to adapt to my body changing into one of an adult is still a struggle. I wish you all the best on your recovery journey and can't wait to watch the rest of your content! ❤
God bless you! What an inspiration you are. I am also a 15 year old girl recovered from an eating disorder. Though my story is different than yours I relate a lot and I’m so proud of you💕
girl we are literally the same age and oh my god im so happy for your recovery wishing you the best 💕💕 and you are so freaking pretty oh my god 💕💕🫶🫶
This video is beautifully made, just like you. proud of you kid
i’m so proud of you
just wanted to say that this video is beautiful !! you are so radiant and beautiful, and smart, and so well spoken ! You seem so mature, and I’m glad these experiences and hardships didn’t tear you down, and you realized you had a problem and you kept going and put your mind to recovering ! I really relate to this video, and it’s inspiring me to talk to my parents, and I’m really grateful you made it. I’m so happy for you. I’m sorry you went through those things at such a young age, but I’m over the moon that you seem a lot more confident !! thank you so much for making this video and sharing, it really really helps me, good luck to you, I hope you and your friends and family are doing amazing !! 💙🩵
wow, i know that i dont know you but i am so proud of how amazing you are, you have such amazing knowledge and you should be so proud of yourself. you are so beautiful and have always been
Im so glad you opened up and are healing from your eating disorder. I cant imagine the diffucilties and fear you had to go through at such a young age it broke me when I saw how tiktok and social media can really teach us how to restrict or glorify eds.
you’re so sweet 😭🩷🫶🏼 my love i’m so proud of you
You are so freaking beautiful! I’m so happy and proud of you!! Keep up the good recovery! ❤❤
hi sarah! i just anted to let you know that youu have helped me so much during my struggle with bad body image and earing habits. i dont really have anyone to talk to about it, and i just find so much comfort in being able to relate to you about it. thank you so much for that💗💗
Although I'm sad to hear about your struggles, I am so grateful and happy to be your safe space! I plan only to continue posting. However, I will be more active on Instagram than on UA-cam. I also post recovery-related videos on Instagram! Sending you love!
so well spoken and mature yound lady. i do not know you but im so proud. To speak so well, handle life so maturly , and also share that to the world to help others. you are an amazing person and i wish you hapiness for the rest of your life little princess :))
Thank you so much!
As someone who is currently waiting on treatment for an ed and struggling everyday this makes me feel so seen. I am not far in age from you and i know i need to recover but everyday it becomes harder to choose it. My family is tired of my ed and I’m so tired of myself. Im going to keep trying
I am sorry that you are going through this. I totally understand what it is like for you and your family to be tired and hurt by your ED. I hope that you can find the strength in you to recover. I know it is hard, but you have to survive through recovery to be able to thrive later.
@@sarahbaciu I’m very happy to say that I feel better from when i made this comment. I see my doctor in 2 days and I’m ready to tell the truth even though it’s so hard. I need to recover and If I don’t help myself do that then I will never be able to fully. Im hanging on right now but I think it’s going to be ok.
you had a debit card?! at 13?!
social media is awful for mental health, even for old people like me (lol, i'm 26 but you're a youngin'!), so i would think especially so for preteens!
anyway, i appreciate that you talk about the relationship damage between your mom and dad. it exposes how much you love them! ❤️ thank you for getting healthy! best wishes! you are so beautiful and articulate and you seem like such a sweetheart!
I am a 36 year old woman who still struggles with body image. I was totally body positive until I got my period at age 12. I looked around the room and thought I was the fastest person in the room which i know was not the case . In high school there were these two girls who I thought at the time had the perfect bodies. Even though I’ve never had an eating disorder I have been tempted many times. Now as an adult I’m learning to love myself and my body. It’s not always easy but I do it .
It's so unfortunate to know that so many women have issues with the way their bodies look. You deserve the ability to AT LEAST accept your body. Remember that there really is no such thing as a perfect body. The idea of "perfect" is different to everyone and it changes often too. Wishing you luck and strength xx
HI! i cant believe out stories are so similar!!! My ed also started in 2021 when I was 12 and I got my period for the first and last time on May 25th. My parents noticed just like yours and after I gained their trust I relapsed in 2022, was in a failed forced recovery, relapsed again in 2023 when I finally got caught in may this year and sent to the hospital. Now im still in forced recovery and not commited to it, but I'm realising I have so much ahead of me I have to. Its hard for me cuz I have to drink a suplement everyday which makes my disorder mad and punsihes me for it by overexercising. I'm trying to fight through and wish you the same as well. I actually got my first few drops of period blood this month and I'm so proud of myself, since I dream of having my own family when I grow up. This disorder is a devil, but we can't let him control us :)
@@djuniwersalcziken Wow! This is incredible. I’m so glad that you are realizing that recovery is worth it. It’s where the biggest shift happens, in my opinion. It’s amazing that you got some drops too!! I also hope to have my own family one day! Wishing you all the best!
seeing this as also 15 years old who’s struggling with anorexia this made me feel seen
im so glad you're in a better place now! you are clearly a lovely soul and so well spoken, and i appreciate how you were able to cover this topic in such a way that it's not triggering for anyone watching who might be having a hard time. sending love
I truly just wanted to thank you for sharing such a personal story Sarah💞
Wow thank you i have struggled with an eating disorder briefly for about a year and it was never as bad as yours but recovery was still a challenge for me and for me it was never forced my parents never knew about it and whenever I would lose weight I would get an extreme amount of anxiety for if anyone found out and depression and I would turn to self harm to cope I have fully gained back all the weight and am slowly gaining more as I am a child, I have always had social anxiety for as long as I can remember (that was the only thing my parents ever knew about as it was diagnosed) and to this day I still haven’t fallen out of depression and self harm and anxiety in general though I’m trying really really hard (I’ve struggled with why I should since it wasn’t like anyone was gonna know as that was my motivation with my ed and you made me realize that it’s worth it for myself to feel better myself
Wow, you are so mature and I think this is a very informative/helpful video to others. I'm the same age as you and sometimes its crazy to think about the things people my age might be going through.
this video it’s such a masterpiece
i want to thank you for this i was slowly getting into these habits without realizing so now i know how bad it can get, truly thank you ❤❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story Sarah!! I'm sure this helped so many people feel understood :) I'm so glad you were able to recover and I'm so sorry you went through this so young. Wishing you the best
Thank you so much!
You are such a sweet person and so well spoken! This was an excellent and informative video. Well done!
Your parents did not handle your ed well... taking unreasonable priveleges(makeup,nails,coffee and u couldn't see your friends?! Wtf)and putting u under pressure about having to gain weight, CUS THAT'S NOT THE MAIN POINT
In ed, it's about the mind.
That really makes it seem that "I have to just gain weight so I can do atleast some things I want?" It's not fair and can make the recovery feel very suffocating. I just wanted to let u know that it isn't normal and u should talk about it. I could see the mind set in the end, when u said "that I still need to gain some weight so I can exerisice n do my nails" kinda putting u to the idea that it's the main thing and nog how u feel.
i'm sorry you went through this and you are NOT alone. !!! also your so pretty girl!!
Thank you!
Sarah , I have been watching many videos researching how to help a loved one , your story and recovery is so very helpful ! It is encouraging that you are recovering and living a joyful life again ! 🌿🙏❤️
Awww, I'm so glad I was helpful to you! I hope you can help your loved one! ❤
so well spoken and mature yound lady. i do not know you but im so proud/ To speak so well, handle life so matuly , and also share that to the world to help thers. you are an amazing person and i wish you hapiness for the rest of your life little princess :))
Im almost 12 years older than you but i really resonate with your story thank you for sharing ✨
feels so good to know that somebody my age has gone through the same things :) thanks for the share, it was really nice to hear your mature opinion :)
I’m so glad I found your channel! I’m proud of you for overcoming your Ed and you look beautiful!
I love this so much!! you are so strong and so so beautiful and i’m so proud of you. keep working hard ❤
@@kenz.aldc11 Thank you!!
This helped me so much as I have been struggling with very similar symptoms like eating way less and I obviously have lost a lot of weight ( like 15-20 pounds) I’m still dealing with this now but this video has helped me but it will take me a while to get back to normal, thanks for sharing your story ❤❤
I'm sorry that you are going through that. I am so glad the video helped you though! Recovery will take time, but the hardship of recovery is TOTALLY worth the beauty of complete freedom.
Amazing video! So glad you’re in recovery
My sister had the same issue/disorder I hope she gets better soon and heels back
the tiktok part is so real omg. It started w thinking my thighs were too fat and my stomach was too bloated, and comparing myself to my friends who somehow weighed way less than me and were underweight. Then, i had an obsession for modeling and saw how underweight and thin they were, and i thought to myself i should also be like that. A big part was also tiktok, that showed and encouraged disordered eating, being underweight and i wanted to be like that aswell. Now, i eat under 500 cals a day but binge very often (For me, binging is eating 1000+) and i hate it but dont wanna recover
I am sorry that you are going through so much. Unfortunately, it may take some time before you want to recover. I hope that you will find the strength in yourself to do so because a life after recovery ACTUALLY tastes better than skinny feels.
Your only a year older than me. I also want to be a doctor and I’m proud of you for getting better! ❤❤❤❤
This video is so inspiring ❤❤❤ Watching this has given me the courage to get better
This is so sad but lovely to hear your story as a transwoman who is now 18, I have struggled with anorexia since I was 12 developed as othorexia then developed into the blasted anorexia and am still struggling to this day, I know for me it's because of the "societal rules around weight and diets" as a 2000's child diets and the dreaded slimming world were and still are rife in today's soceity, luckily I don't listen much to those rules anymore, but the long term effects of people around me even from a young age saying about others or me oh you "lost so much weight, wish i could" or the classic "oh gonna be a bit naughty having these crips (still sticks with me to this day so I have not had crisps since I developed orthorexia/anorexia) it sucks, but now looking into recovery, slowly and steadily so it doesn't overwhelm me starting with identifying my triggers and my fear foods to challenge and am so happy to be back on the recovery train hopefully to end the thoughts for good
Choosing recovery is the most important part. You can do this. Remember, even if the thoughts don't go away for some time, it doesn't mean you are failing! What is important is that you don't let the thoughts control you! When your thoughts tell you that crisps are bad, you have to try to eat them anyway!
this was such a well articulated video… i’ve never felt so proud of a stranger on the internet. 🩷 not only are you glowing and beautiful, i just know from this how sweet, kind of a person you are and that you have a lovely personality. you have so much to offer to this world, you radiate so much joy and i hope life only gets better for you from here. don’t ever forget that you deserve a happy life. ❤
You are so kind!! Thank you so much! I hope you can offer the same words to yourself! xx
The reason why I’m crying is because i believe I have a long term eating disorder as well as anxiety and depression but I tried to bring depression and anxiety up to my mother and she pushed it down to the point that I broke down right after I got into my room I can’t even explain my reasons because for 4 years I’ve been going to school with a belt or piece of fabric around my stomach as tight as I could pull it and before that all I wanted to do was die and my 2 thoughts that were and still are going through my head is that if I’m skinny I’ll be better and if I hide it all I’ll be better for context I was never a skinny kid I was known for my looks because of my child face and long wavy blonde hair but I have always surrounded myself around the same friends and in my brain they look down on me and they are much skinnier and I wish I was them and it’s gotten to the point that other than the stuff I force myself to wear I also excersise constantly I struggle to lay in bed and it’s gotten to the point that I’ve found myself waking up on my floor because I could even get up my body was so weak. Another thing that makes this worse is I’m sick constantly and I know why (my sugars and energy levels) but I can’t bring myself to say this and every time I’m sick I can’t walk and when I’m sick it gets to the point that I can’t even swallow medicine because of the tightness in my chest and how droopy I feel and I just can’t breath even. So when I watch stuff like this I’m sucking in my chest and whenever I hear the words I’m here for you I understand all I can think is no you don’t I don’t even understand you can’t put yourself I’m my shoes they would kill somebody and it’s the point that I’ve thought of just going tot he health clinic and getting checked out but then my body tells me no your just overthinking it and your fine just keep saying your fine and everything will be okay
I'm sorry you are going through something so hard. And I understand that I will probably never feel that way and, therefore, cannot completely understand. I hope you can accept the support from those who say they are there for you because even though they might not understand, their intentions are probably only to help you in whichever way they know how to. Most people who have not struggled with their mental health probably don't know what is best to say.
If want to begin recovery, I would advice you tell someone trusted that you are struggling, and then allow them to support you as you take action towards your recovery.
You are really cool.
Keep on glowing amd growing! Cheers :)
I am scared of being sick, especially vomiting, and i think I have ADHD, but im just so stressed and anxious and yeah.
Thank you so much for sharing your story!!💟
This was super helpful because my brother has the same thing and it’s been really hard on me and my family
this is super informative and i think this would help people actually😚 u are super pretty also💗
Awww thank you!! You are so kind
There really is no body worth this life. Thank you.
My first ed was in 2020 when I was 12 , it got soo bad I had to go to the hospital it nearly killed me , I started recovery about November 2020 but I never had a fully healthy relationship with food , last summer I started gating in to my unhealthy eating disorder habits again and I lost a lot of weight, by the end of the summer the beginning of August my parents noticed I tried to deny it I couldn’t so I confused and I tried to convince myself to stop, but when I noticed that I lost weight and sow my before and after pictures I couldn’t so by the start of the school year I started getting into even worst habit and since then it’s been 5 weeks instead of gaining weight I lost weight and I keep gating back and forth with the I want to recover and no I don’t but now all my clothes don’t fit me even the leggings and nothing looks good on me am trying to convince myself that I need to recover but it’s hard. And thank you soo much I loved you’re video it really helped me and I hope you do well on your journey 💗💗💗💗
I am sorry you are going through something so challenging and have been for a very long time. One of my biggest pieces of advice for recovery is that a life with an Eating Disorder is much scarier than a much shorter-term recovery. I don't know anyone in person or online who ever felt "ready" to recover. But I have also met NO ONE who regrets it. Of course, that includes myself! I NEVER thought that I would be here. I hope you realize that you can do what seems impossible. I wish you luck and strength ❤
@@sarahbaciu thank you that was very motivating I’m trying to do better today 🤍
@@hhh._jjjr you’ve GOT THIS!!! It is possible!!
Thank you. Truly.
Great video ! Nice editing !
For me it was kind of the opposite but not to your extreme. I was naturally skinny and weak, and i wanted to get stronger. I saw workout videos on UA-cam and decided i wanted to become like them. I bought my first 5 pound weights at 10, and now that im 14, I have 15 pound weights. I wasnt as insecure of this than my self image and portrayance, but the hurt can make you better in all ways
2:22 this question really made me realise there’s actually no good reason for all of my ED habits ..
I am not a professional, so I cannot be certain. However, I have had a professional say it to me: if you are willing to hurt yourself so much, there is a purpose deeper than just the way you look. The reason could be something completely different from what you see in my video and that's ok! It also might take some time to find out this deeper reason which was most certainly the case for me. However, everyone is different and on their own journeys, so I cannot speak for everyone.
Ive noticed that girls with this illness are so mature at the young age. Wow.
i'm proud of you.
Wow I can't explain how much I related to you're video Sarah,im also a fifteen year old girl and I would love to be you're friend, you seem like such a sweet and kind person and I also would like to be a doctor.. Thank so much for sharing you're story and I wish you the best.💕
Awww! You also seem so sweet! I hope you are doing well! ❤
Your diction is so good!!
I’m a little bit disappointed by the punishments by your parents. That’s not right and I feel like that would be more damaging. No one should be punished for having a disorder.
It’s not about them.
I relate to everything she said in the video it’s crazy and sad looking back now
Thank you so much for your beautiful story! Thank you for sharing. I'm a Mom of an almost 15 year old daughter who struggles with anorexia. Do you think what your parents took away from you helped you? Anything else you can think of that helped you decide to recover? My daughter doesn't see the need for recovery yet. Thank you so much for helping all of us out here!
I'm so sorry that your daughter is going through that. I understand that an ED can truly take a toll on all members of the family. I would say that the things my parents did made me a little bit more motivated to get through to the end of recovery. However, I wouldn't say that it was the most essential part. The essential part is finding the desire to recover within yourself. I understand that is probably not your favourite answer as your daughter does not see the need to recover. However, I recommend that you ask her why she wants to hold onto her ED. Is it so she can feel validated? A sense of control? A distraction? If you help her become aware of the deeper reasons, she may have more ease rising above it. Also, definitely refrain from making comments on her body like "you are too skinny". Instead, tell her that what she is doing is detrimental to her health. If she begins to recover, even then, don't make comments on her body, even if they are positive. Wishing you all the best❤
I’ve been struggling with ED thoughts for years now, I’m really scared. I can’t tell anyone though irl
4:27 i dont wont to be dramatic but it kinda affects our brains in a unhealthy way especially when ur fyp is full in toxicity
Eventhough I “recovered” from anorexia, my relationship with food feels broken forever, every time I look in the mirror or at my photos, I feel like I’m ugly …….and fat.😢
I'm sorry that sometimes people receive the "recovered" label just because their body is recovered, but their mind is not. Remember, we are our worst critics. No one else believes that you are ugly or fat. I hope that you can find the strength in you to recover your mind regarding your eating disorder and body image. You can do this and you deserve to live a better, recovered life. Sending you love and luck!
My boyfriend keeps telling me to eat more and that i need to eat more food and he gets really annoyed if i dont eat much. I think i look bad and all that
You story about your eating disorder is just like my story
Nowadays the social media is a very triggering, it happened the same to me. In fact, i developped a cause of it, i dont think people is conscience of what they are showing…
I totally agree. Lately, I've realized how quickly "norms" and expectations have changed online, and how they keep changing so often. We have to stop falling for the traps to change ourselves because it will never be enough according to social media
God bless you :) 🤍
hello, i just wanted to say i related to this video SO MUCH and I myself am only around 13 and ever since I was around 7, like you , i was very insecure and wanted to get 'skinny'. Last year I started eating less and exercising more, my hair started to fall out, I lost my period, I never told my parents ANYTHING and I would even sometimes p^rge, last week I realized how terrible a eating disorder is, and I started eating more :) I stopped p^rging and yesterday was the first day in a LONG time I ate a desert without feeling bad!! (I had a apple crumble ) I'm slowly starting to realize that FOOD IS FUEL!!! this video helped me realize I'm not alone and I'm so glad I'm not alone!! I'm also very glad that u recovered!
I am so proud of you for stopping some of those negative habits and mindsets. Of course, you are never alone! You can most certainly recover too! We all have the ability in us to do hard things. And the turnout of recovery is worth it!
Fu*k your awsome!!!! , thanks for helping me understand potentially how some people around me who are struggling with this stuff feel like. I didn't relise how little I knew about eating di sorders untull this, so if I ever to come in contact with it ( lets hope not) I can have a better understanding therefore help/know how to help more Thanks for this !!!
Ok this is bad, but I am 12 and I am not happy with my body, I kinda want to do what she did, because she is so skinny and pretty. I know she said not to but I really just want to be as skinny as she is 😊
you don’t understand this video. Developing an Eating Disorder will not help you achieve what you truly want. Work towards the greater good, skinny does not equal pretty. You’re twelve. Please please don’t go down this path.
If you want to “lose weight” eat everything in moderation. You don’t have to give up treats. Drink some water. Exercise some more.
Please look up “Adam Wright Fitness” hes my favorite way to normalize HEALTHY ways to lose weight.
@ I know it’s not healthy, and is not the point of the vid, but she’s so pretty and skinny, and I just want to look like her, and not have people laugh at me anymore
@@alexerinmartin6101 please read my comment through. You will not get what you truly want (confidence, pretty) by starving yourself. Look up Adam Wright Fitness and talk to your doctor. Please.
@@alexerinmartin6101please never think something like that again, you seem young and truly don’t understand how heartbreaking anorexia is…the point of the video isn’t the creators skinniness it’s how she’s gaining weight to get better and not be mentally and physically sick
Why wasn't she allowed to get her nails done
It was a form of punishment from my parents for lying to them about my weight.
I wanna be skinny like u😢
Honestly, I've gained quite some weight since all those photos were taken! I can assure you that being that skinny was something that I would never want to experience again. Like I mentioned in the video, I was always cold, tired, dizzy and frustrated. I wouldn't wish an eating disorder on my worst enemy.
@sarahbaciu you're so kind 😭❤️! (But no one wants to be fat too...)
@@24kcarrotnithis isn’t the type of thing you should comment on a video about anorexia….
Urrr so pretty
How old are you know
15
so ur weak.. u gave up on ana she saved u and made u pretty im disgusted by how big you are now I would neverr betray ana
U are not okay stop hurting others because of it, hope you get well soon
@theaeklof4084 im not hurting others on the opposite u are praying on my downfall? hoping I recover is pure evil
sybau
@@jiminschanelboot aww a cringe jimin fan
@@deadlisa2 you got nothing better to say 😂 so sybau
yeah you are still super skinny
Hey!! Let's not post this babe! Thanks :)
WARUM kommentiert man sowas? 1. Ist das super triggernd für sie und 2. Hat sie doch gesagt, dass sie noch zunimmt?! Lass doch ein junges Mädchen in Ruhe heilen, ohne, ihren Körper zu kommentieren
The world wasn't built in one day!
Ew get a life
Schämst du dich nicht? Die ist si viel jünger aber verhandelt sich viel älter und schlauer
Hi, I just wanted to say I struggle from the same eating disorder as you. I was struggling ALOT and in similar ways of you. You explained it so well. You seemed so professional for a teen. And this helped to know that someone like me when through a similar thing.
I’m finally recovering ❤️🩹 after two annoying years of anorexia and I just wanted to say THANK YOU! For me my recovery is never quite over yet. Maybe it never will be but I realized I got better and that’s all that matters. You helped realized that and you are amazing.
You earned urself a new subscriber and like. ❤
Thank you .