"Firsts" While Struggling and Recovering From Anorexia

This video is about my first time experiencing, serious and meaningful things while struggling with Anorexia and while in recovery. I hope that the advice and experience I share in this video help you in whatever way you need :)
Also, I hope you enjoy it!
DISCLAIMER!
This video contains susceptible topics such as weight loss, calories, restriction, etc. However, there is NO MENTION OF NUMBERS regarding weight or calories. This video may or may not be for you! Either way, it's ok!
This video is not for comparison. Do not allow any of my experiences to make you feel invalid or like you do not deserve recovery. You always are valid and deserve recovery if you've been struggling with an eating disorder or your mental health in general.
All opinions in this video are my own. I am not a professional and I do not know your story. You may take different actions than me, regarding your recovery, and that is perfectly normal.
00:00 - Introduction
00:45 - My First Day Trying to Lose Weight
01:42 - Marker 8
05:27 - The First Time I Realized I Had a Problem
08:53 - My First Relapse
12:38 - The First Time I Wanted to Get Better
15:35 - Being Happy About Weight Gain
17:16 - My First Time Seeing Cellulite on My Body
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[@Khloudzy]

You are so inspiring. I am older than you, and I am struggling badly with this ed. I've been in a cycle since I was 13. I just wanted to let you know how proud of you I am. And you are so beautiful and strong! Though, you are younger than me, I look up to you. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Continue to inspire others. Sending much love.

[@marsforger]

I feel so similar to you. I am 15 years old right now and for the last 3 years I have had a eating disorder. It wasn't actually until last year when a doctor truly noticed how underweight I was. I have an appointment with that doctor tomorrow and I feel absolutely terrified because I didn't gain any weight. In fact, I lost some weight.
I find it SO SO HARD to recover when you feel like everyone else around you is dieting. School especially, my friends never eat lunch so I always feel so bad eating my packed lunch in front of them. Once we were in a restaurant, and they mentioned about the calories and I felt so triggered. My friends never eat breakfast because they are like "I'm never hungry in the morning". I can't help but compare myself to others
But now I regret comparing myself with others because I am terrified what the doctor will say to me tomorrow

[@sarahbaciu]

I can totally understand the constant comparison you might have against others. I also have friends who have made comments about their body and the food they eat. Comparing myself to others was one of the hardest parts of my recovery. However, in those moments when I would begin comparing myself to others, I reminded myself about how ugly everything was when I was struggling. I also remember the fact that people usually weigh more and eat more than you might think because our eating disorders tend to feed us this idea that we are bigger than everyone and eat more than everyone. You don't know what someone eats when they go home! Lastly, we all have such different needs!
I hope things are ok for you ❤