it's no coincidence that daddy is in the suggestions, since both of them are unbelievably dark and haunting. bravo to both korn and otep for sharing such personal songs with us
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I used to listen to this song to confront the one who took away my innocence. It saved my life. I learned to love myself and to feel this burden no more. This song gave me liberation. It taught me to confront my demons die to myself pick myself up again and love myself again. I survived. In the words of otep I’m alive . We aren’t victims anymore we are free. Vengeance will be mine
Craving for your mother to come and help you when she knows she invited an animal into her life...it’s sickening. This song has got me through so many nights full of hatred and rage. Meeting Otep was the highlight of my life because she was so chill and cool in fort Meyers. She gets it. To all the kids that have been abused- she gets it!!!!!!!❤️.
i have been an extreme Otep fan since 2003. the scariest part of THIS song is its a big REALITY of things that actally happen in the world we live in. shes an amazing artist.
@@redbird1500 I think it did happened and I think she killed the guy. Because she quotes it practically in all their songs and she never even revealed her name.
@@redbird1500r fucking stupid. Those who have gone through it, don’t need her to “confirm” we all experienced this, as fucking disgusting as it is, we all can relate to the story. It’s scary.
this song, daddy by korn and scissors by slipknot are the 3 creepiest songs i've ever heard, oh and hallowed be thy name by iron maiden... scary stuff.
@@dravenguy9341 lol just found this 8 year old comment. Iowa is pretty great though. Have you heard the song Killers are Quiet from MFKR? I think it's an earlier version of Iowa
Good god I'm reading the comments and it's kind of disturbing that so many people have been sexually assaulted. Almost every comment is "This song hits home, it's personal to me"
Ricky Ray well see thats at least partialy why it means so much, everyone else hides it, sweep under the rug, dont talk about it, and theres nothing to convey the emotion, and even if we speak up to tell others about the fucked up things people refuse to agknowledge it doesnt travel very far and eventualy fades, but being that otep is an artist her music travels allot farther cause its heard by a massive amount of people, and is therefor much harder to ignore, people start realizeing just how badly it affects them and how much they suffer. I kinda muddle a few words, but hopefully i made my point clear enough.
No one can talk about it. I just today finally remembered what happened to me as a child, and in high school I was raped 4 times, every time it happened I told someone and they didn’t believe me. They told me it must’ve been my fault or that I must’ve done something. Most of the survivors don’t talk because we aren’t believed.
I love Otep. She is the epitome of the type of person I want to become. For those of us who've suffered, those of us living in aggression and anger at all the things we've failed to be and all that we've been damned for, even what's out of our control- she shows us purpose. She shows a way out. And it's liberating to know that the people you look up to have also somehow pushed through the shit and the shag.
It's been years since I listened to this song but whenever I do I'm overcome with such emotion. I myself am a survivor of rape and I have only ever told one person who I truly trusted but is no longer in my life. I was repeatedly raped by two men and the thought alone disgusts me. I feel sick to my stomach everytime I think about it. Its been 12 years and I still don't feel like I am worthy of anyone's love. I feel broken. I can't trust anyone. These demons haunt me everyday because I have never dealt with what has happened to me.
I have had several girlfriends who have been through the trauma and feelings afterward that you describe. The truth is that you are not broken and everyone deserves, and is worthy, of love; including you. You are very courageous to open up like that especially on a public venue like this. find someone you can trust who will be sensitive to what you have to say, as I was to these girls, and you will find healing. You can also contact support groups in your area with a google search possibly. Please be strong and remember you are not broken, but rather deserving of love. Don't let your past define your existence, you can make it through... And you will, you must believe you can...
@@Trustnobodyever thank you so much for this kind message. I'd forgotten that I left a comment on this video. I'm so glad that there are men like you who have helped women they were in relationships with. I can only imagine how much your encouragement has lightened their burden & given them strength. If you haven't already, I hope you find someone who brings you much joy & warmth in life. ❤️
I know it's been 4 years but your worthy of love. We had no control over what happened to us as kids unfortunately. And it does affect our daily life and it's hard to talk about I'm 23 an just said something to someone for the first time a few months ago and it was a therapist but the weight off your chest once your able to gets the words out feels unexplainable hope your doing better in life you deserve it. Keep your head up
Indra Berger I am very sorry to hear that satanic created panic soon tantrum of time for a few more minutes to get out of the house for this point of time scared forever even after I'm dead beat immature parent company of the house for this point of view from you my love cause of my head around the idea behind this love you and don't worry about it when I get home from church of lies about me I no u are infatuated u don't love me bye bye see ya another moment in future times hah yeah I'm wrong on the ground floor plan that closet door to be open some more minutes before that satanic mills to be sold out early outta that closet alrighty then stop the inanity and don't worry I am not gonna bring harm to u just know that and I am not sure what to do u got it for you to be sold out early outta that closet alrighty then stop the inanity and don't worry I am very happy with the m's I got you please bring it on his face as one of my friends from his own life future not right now twisted drunken former bagtease is back punk COWARDS on their chins my ball sack yeah I swag smack enter their backs yes smoke crack hot cum on Williams back then tea bag on his chin my ball sack yeah I swag dat nigga nac jive with an old man was just trying to come up with an idea of how much you r the problem of my son girls find out what happened now I am alive woman girls find out what happened now I don't wanna fight back ta turn off at d's demons that watched and cared for by hospital saw two police officers ta git my stuff and ill charge u wit me
54,000 views? HOLY SHIT! That is not the reason for this comment. The reason I wrote "cum" instead of "come" is not because I was illiterate or trying to make some nasty pun. I was too young to understand what the C. U. M spelling meant when making this. I used this spelling because that's how it was spelled in the Sevas Tra lyric booklet.
It makes me cry too, to me it's a son i listen to to remind myself that things could be worse. This song makes me appreciated everything good in my life, and i agree otep is amazing, they've saved me from myself a ton of times
@@redbird1500 this might be shocking, but for survivors it can actually be cathartic to share your experiences especially to others who've been through it. it's something people are told never to talk about. you don't know SHIT about who's been through it. you're part of the fucking problem, part of the reason people never go to the police to take action against their abusers. i hope you're happy with yourself.
@@redbird1500 yeah fr dude. Literally at least half the people I know (both men and women) were sexually abused as children. It is EXTREMELY extremely common. Please do not have delusions that this type of tragedy is uncommon and most people dont go through it. Because ALOT of fucking people do. Like 1 out of 4 people are sexually abused as kids. Idk why you would be so quick to assume people are making it up?
One out of four is extremely over the top, MAYBE one of ten, have some molestation including outside the family (which is horrific and I don’t mean to sound like I’m downplaying it) but one out of four in family violations would be an epidemic of unbelievable proportions.
My first concert I ever went to I was a teenager they opened up for Kittie.. and I'll never forget when she preformed this song.. dropped to her knees started crying and bashing the mic off her head..
I am yet another person who relates to this song, for 17 years infact, it was the hardest thing to talk about so I showed my friends this song and they knew.
I like this song, but bad things hapenned to me when I was a child, so listening to it makes me remember those things and makes me feel a little bit scared...
My heart goes out to all of you here who have gone through such horrible experiences. You ARE all amazing people who are well and truly deserving of all the love in the world ❤❤
I want to like Otep because I know the songs have meaning, and are stories in some sense. But honestly I'm a wimp, and she scares the Hell out of me. But I understand why her music sounds the way it does, and I respect it greatly.
i listen to a few songs like this (eg. Daddy by korn) and i haven't been sexually assaulted either but otep and JD's screaming the lyrics and the fact the you can hear the pain helps for some reason when im a bit depressed and i even like the part in daddy when JD's crying
Thus is really emotional. A friend who went through some shit sent this to me to listen to and god 😭💔 it's heartbreaking to know the things people have to go through
She saved me and unleashed a beast, the world was not ready nor I, dreams where never meat to become true. This woman taught me, no one ACTUAL person gives a shit. NOT ONE FUCKING INDIVIDUAL SOUL. I will eat the souls who try to consume the minuscule parts of me. I become the monster that the world tried to hide me from. And I don’t regret. I want to scare the people who wanted to try and scare me. And I want to not care about how they hurt, they way they didn’t care about me. If they bleed the better. No one cared when I bleed. May the world understand a flowing suffer.
As someone who has lived through this as wellI find this song so fucking important and accurate, how it's like growing up as a little girl in a household like that. The confusion anger sadness and PTSD. its very well done, and the fact that this is improvised is absolutely beautiful to me.
ive known about otep for a long time now, but i have never heard this song. it is 5:18am and im overwhelmed with tears and chills as i sit here, a 29 year old hetero sexual black male. this happened to so many women in our generation and its fucking sickening. burn the earth kinda shit. i could hear and feel every emotion... otep is a fucking hero for helping to give voice to a such a heavy burden. one that goes unspoken. there is an intolerable unfairness on this world. one day something will avenge the innocent.
Y'all think its creepy now? You shoulda been there in the studio when the chorus part came to me and I played those 2 notes ... Thank u all for listening to it and being effected... That's the point of ALL music and art.. Well for me anyway. ;)
my heart is racing, I am stunned, got chills, does not mean anything to me but is so brilliant, so creepy, only just started listening to otep and I love them already so dark so beautiful to rhythm, the rhymes, the heavy metal guitars and dums, the screaming.. Its all, oh, so surreal:)
I always come listen to this song when I am filled with unbearable rage. I don't think I've ever listened to this song without screaming and crying in agony and anger. I would snap this disgusting planet out of existence if I could tbh. I'm really grateful to Otep for this outlet because sometimes it's the only thing that gets me through. The fact that so many people who have never experienced something like this just open their fucking mouths like anyone cares what they have to fucking say is infuriating. People = shit and that'll be the next song I listen to.
I'm literally in tears. The song is so fucked up, but it's nothing but truth, hurt, pain, and sadness. To think that so many rape victims have to feel that way, think that way, or feel ashamed just breaks my fucking heart. I couldn't imagine ever going through it, especially from someone who is supposed to guide you and be a role model. Positive vibes & spiritual healing to anyone and all who have experienced such a horrible thing. My heart sincerely goes out to all of you. Keep your heads up.
MaddyB102 I still feel ashamed. I'm invalidated because it was my ex. Even with all the stops, no, tears, fighting and then just laying there completely lifeless. The pain, I'm still ashamed of it.
I feel like there's a lot of people on here just pretending to have gone through some shit to get attention. People are fucking stupid that way. I don't take a word of what anyone on here says seriously.
Just because some people may lie about it doesn't mean you have to discredit EVERYONE'S stories about what they claim to have gone through. Plus, not many lie about something that serious, lol. Just because one fucktard wants to ruin peoples views on rape survivors doesn't mean all victims need too suffer because of that one idiotic individual who thought they could sap some attention out of someone.
I never suffered that, but the lyrics spoke to me. I saw the man with the bible as symbolic for religion, and in that respect, this song describes me perfectly. This song is just so amazing. I can't stop crying. I felt for so pong I don't have a purpose, but now I know what I want. I want to be like this woman, writing things like this, and starting a revolution.
omg... This is the first time I've ever heard this song but it is really gripping. I think it's a fitting representation of the kind of psychological torment and breakdown that comes with suffering sexual abuse and feeling like there's no way out. The way it draws on the Jonestown Tea incident to parallel the emotions is masterfully done. It's wonderful and awful and beautiful and ugly all at once and appropriately so. This is an amazing song and it's so incredibly raw and honest. Thanks.
I was listening to it I was soooo much feeling it to the point where I was gonna stop it. Because I could feel the emotion but listened through it and all I can say is WOW! It’s definitely a song that’s scary! Very much reminding me of Koran’s daddy!
jesus fucking christ what the hell did i just listen to, i literally just discovered this band and love it, clicked on this and fuck...i think i have found the most disturbing song i ever care to hear. god damn
A song that is VERY hard for me to listen to. This is something that NO child should ever have to go through. It makes my heart totally break to know she went through something like that. The reason why I fucking love this song is because it's not sugarcoated at all. It is all raw emotion pouring out. It always gets me, even when I don't think I am going to cry and get emotional, I just do, I can't help it. Otep forever!!
Thankfully I haven't been through what a lot of kids have and, however, this piece of brilliance makes me very angry. The emotion she puts in is awesome and the actual music is so brutal it makes me even angry.
the first time i heard this song, the first two lines hit me more than any other track by otep. and i knew that this was by far going to be the rawest, most intense track id ever heard across four albums. for me this is the epitome of otep, the culmination of everything shes ever tried to say, and the brutality of it blends with the beauty of her self expression to create the clearest image of all that has formed her as she is today.
i dont blame her for being lesbian, its quiet logic wen u refer it to her dad in this song, this song inspires me and man did hot tears run down my cheeks
this song has the same emotionaly devastating effect that daddy by korn had on me when i first heard it. it's not quite as poetic, but i recommend it to any fan of this song
I actually like this song because its personal and it shows that she has been through hell and can still put it out for her fans. And it can be a becon of hope for ppl who have been through it too. Because she overcame it
when i heard this amazing artist song, i cried. wat other troubles she been through? idk. but now she lets these aching stories of pain out on paper o admire her work
@mayhem1030 the tea in the lyrics is a reference to the drink the put arsonic (I think) in to commit mass suicide in Jonestown, Guyana. Also, some people were forced to drink the tea and otherwise killed. As a Caribbean person, I can say that this was probably the sickest thing in the history of the islands.
it's no coincidence that daddy is in the suggestions, since both of them are unbelievably dark and haunting. bravo to both korn and otep for sharing such personal songs with us
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13 years later and its still the next in suggestions
15 years later and it's still the suggestions
I used to listen to this song to confront the one who took away my innocence. It saved my life. I learned to love myself and to feel this burden no more. This song gave me liberation. It taught me to confront my demons die to myself pick myself up again and love myself again. I survived. In the words of otep I’m alive . We aren’t victims anymore we are free. Vengeance will be mine
Craving for your mother to come and help you when she knows she invited an animal into her life...it’s sickening. This song has got me through so many nights full of hatred and rage. Meeting Otep was the highlight of my life because she was so chill and cool in fort Meyers. She gets it. To all the kids that have been abused- she gets it!!!!!!!❤️.
I hear you on that!!
What this the InkLife show in Ft. Myers? 2/28/2015?
Wish I could meet her. It’s like 20 years over due.
YOO thats crazy seeing this because i live in cape coral
@ochacouraraka7660 That's where I'm stationed at. 😅
As a CSA survivor... I am speechless. She put it in words. she put our feelings into words and sounds of anguish.
This song and Korn's Daddy are two of the most emotional songs and it sucks being able to relate to them...
Damn. They could honestly be remixes and still breed the same song
i have been an extreme Otep fan since 2003. the scariest part of THIS song is its a big REALITY of things that actally happen in the world we live in. shes an amazing artist.
We're not even sure if actually happened to her though... could just be fictional.
Beth Felder lol this vivid trust me.... it happened.
It doesn't matter if it "actually" happened what matters is the message.
@@redbird1500 I think it did happened and I think she killed the guy. Because she quotes it practically in all their songs and she never even revealed her name.
@@redbird1500r fucking stupid. Those who have gone through it, don’t need her to “confirm” we all experienced this, as fucking disgusting as it is, we all can relate to the story. It’s scary.
this song, daddy by korn and scissors by slipknot are the 3 creepiest songs i've ever heard, oh and hallowed be thy name by iron maiden... scary stuff.
There’s a fourth, my friend. Iowa by Slipknot (it’s 15 minutes long)
@@dravenguy9341 lol just found this 8 year old comment. Iowa is pretty great though. Have you heard the song Killers are Quiet from MFKR? I think it's an earlier version of Iowa
@@TheSPY1997 No, I have not
They're not just songs...
Good god I'm reading the comments and it's kind of disturbing that so many people have been sexually assaulted. Almost every comment is "This song hits home, it's personal to me"
Why did he delete his responses...
Ricky Ray well see thats at least partialy why it means so much, everyone else hides it, sweep under the rug, dont talk about it, and theres nothing to convey the emotion, and even if we speak up to tell others about the fucked up things people refuse to agknowledge it doesnt travel very far and eventualy fades, but being that otep is an artist her music travels allot farther cause its heard by a massive amount of people, and is therefor much harder to ignore, people start realizeing just how badly it affects them and how much they suffer. I kinda muddle a few words, but hopefully i made my point clear enough.
No one can talk about it. I just today finally remembered what happened to me as a child, and in high school I was raped 4 times, every time it happened I told someone and they didn’t believe me. They told me it must’ve been my fault or that I must’ve done something. Most of the survivors don’t talk because we aren’t believed.
1 in 5 children are sexually abused in some form. Also, the parents are the perpetrator in almost half of sexual abuse cases.
Sexual abuse is a dirty secret that victims hide. It's not easy to share.
I love Otep. She is the epitome of the type of person I want to become. For those of us who've suffered, those of us living in aggression and anger at all the things we've failed to be and all that we've been damned for, even what's out of our control- she shows us purpose. She shows a way out. And it's liberating to know that the people you look up to have also somehow pushed through the shit and the shag.
Well said. My feelings exactly.
Zara
I tried. Didn't work, and now I'm back. Can you do the same?
i tried as well lmao
Zara
Welcome to the club.
True I've suffered the same pain as her but not as bad stay strong who ever suffers through this
I love how she does the mans voice and the use of the instruments and melody is amazing. such emotion
this is my favourite otep song purely because of how much i can relate as a CSA survivor.
I'm really sorry that you had to go through something so horrible. I hope that you are alright now and in a safe place.
Right very intense song. Where the river runs through is a really emotional song to.
I can relate too. Sorry you had to go through that x
same :/
It's been years since I listened to this song but whenever I do I'm overcome with such emotion. I myself am a survivor of rape and I have only ever told one person who I truly trusted but is no longer in my life. I was repeatedly raped by two men and the thought alone disgusts me. I feel sick to my stomach everytime I think about it. Its been 12 years and I still don't feel like I am worthy of anyone's love. I feel broken. I can't trust anyone. These demons haunt me everyday because I have never dealt with what has happened to me.
I have had several girlfriends who have been through the trauma and feelings afterward that you describe. The truth is that you are not broken and everyone deserves, and is worthy, of love; including you. You are very courageous to open up like that especially on a public venue like this. find someone you can trust who will be sensitive to what you have to say, as I was to these girls, and you will find healing. You can also contact support groups in your area with a google search possibly. Please be strong and remember you are not broken, but rather deserving of love. Don't let your past define your existence, you can make it through... And you will, you must believe you can...
@@Trustnobodyever thank you so much for this kind message. I'd forgotten that I left a comment on this video. I'm so glad that there are men like you who have helped women they were in relationships with. I can only imagine how much your encouragement has lightened their burden & given them strength. If you haven't already, I hope you find someone who brings you much joy & warmth in life. ❤️
I know it's been 4 years but your worthy of love. We had no control over what happened to us as kids unfortunately. And it does affect our daily life and it's hard to talk about I'm 23 an just said something to someone for the first time a few months ago and it was a therapist but the weight off your chest once your able to gets the words out feels unexplainable hope your doing better in life you deserve it. Keep your head up
i really think about the abuse i went through and it gives me chills, and makes me shake every time i listen to this song...
Indra Berger I am very sorry to hear that satanic created panic soon tantrum of time for a few more minutes to get out of the house for this point of time scared forever even after I'm dead beat immature parent company of the house for this point of view from you my love cause of my head around the idea behind this love you and don't worry about it when I get home from church of lies about me I no u are infatuated u don't love me bye bye see ya another moment in future times hah yeah I'm wrong on the ground floor plan that closet door to be open some more minutes before that satanic mills to be sold out early outta that closet alrighty then stop the inanity and don't worry I am not gonna bring harm to u just know that and I am not sure what to do u got it for you to be sold out early outta that closet alrighty then stop the inanity and don't worry I am very happy with the m's I got you please bring it on his face as one of my friends from his own life future not right now twisted drunken former bagtease is back punk COWARDS on their chins my ball sack yeah I swag smack enter their backs yes smoke crack hot cum on Williams back then tea bag on his chin my ball sack yeah I swag dat nigga nac jive with an old man was just trying to come up with an idea of how much you r the problem of my son girls find out what happened now I am alive woman girls find out what happened now I don't wanna fight back ta turn off at d's demons that watched and cared for by hospital saw two police officers ta git my stuff and ill charge u wit me
Michael McSweeney stop it. Get some help.
Every time I listen to this I get goosebumps when she screams "NO DADDY DON'T"
Whoa. I feel like I was just hit with a ton of bricks. Amazing song.
XD i saw your profile pic and was like wf.... i love king diamond
I could hear it in her voice when she said the words he used to say.
54,000 views? HOLY SHIT! That is not the reason for this comment. The reason I wrote "cum" instead of "come" is not because I was illiterate or trying to make some nasty pun. I was too young to understand what the C. U. M spelling meant when making this. I used this spelling because that's how it was spelled in the Sevas Tra lyric booklet.
there is so much emotion in this song
This song has such strong emotion....I love it
Me too!!!
So horrifying... probably one of the most true, brutal, uncompromising portrayals of the horror and despair abuse I've ever seen.
It makes me cry too, to me it's a son i listen to to remind myself that things could be worse. This song makes me appreciated everything good in my life, and i agree otep is amazing, they've saved me from myself a ton of times
I'm reading through the comments and I'm just astounded by how many people relate to this song personally.
I'm astounded of how many people air shit that probably never even happened out on UA-cam for personal gratification or attention.
@@redbird1500 this might be shocking, but for survivors it can actually be cathartic to share your experiences especially to others who've been through it. it's something people are told never to talk about. you don't know SHIT about who's been through it. you're part of the fucking problem, part of the reason people never go to the police to take action against their abusers. i hope you're happy with yourself.
@@redbird1500 yeah fr dude. Literally at least half the people I know (both men and women) were sexually abused as children. It is EXTREMELY extremely common. Please do not have delusions that this type of tragedy is uncommon and most people dont go through it. Because ALOT of fucking people do. Like 1 out of 4 people are sexually abused as kids. Idk why you would be so quick to assume people are making it up?
One out of four is extremely over the top, MAYBE one of ten, have some molestation including outside the family (which is horrific and I don’t mean to sound like I’m downplaying it) but one out of four in family violations would be an epidemic of unbelievable proportions.
@@saltyark7564 No one talks about it. That's why it's such a shock to a lot of people. Most of the people I know have been through it including me.
I wondered why I have always felt like I do, nightmares and memory problems... This song gave me the answer and now I'm sitting here in silence.
you need anyone to talk to im here for you, I cant tell what you mean by you got the answer, but I hope you're doing okay
This is sending shivers down my spine and bringing tears to my eyes
No matter how hard humanity tries, nothing short of our total destruction will end these events.
Stop being so negative
@@nondenominationalspiritual8285 it's true. There's always gonna be sick people
@@nondenominationalspiritual8285 stop believing in humanity. Its shit.
Everytime I hear this ...it hits home cuz the abuse is real...my whole childhood was taken from me...
May you find peace one day, my dear
hope youre doing better today. I hope your journey gets easier. everyone deserves to have a safe childhood
This reminds me of Korn's "Daddy"
True... but I will put Otep's words over Jon's, any day.
ZombieDeathRace Otep just conveys more emotion in her words.
And she's entirely more poetic. Hence Otep being an anagram for Poet.
ZombieDeathRace wowo I didn't notice that
"Where the River ends" is more like that song.
Holy crap this is heavy
probably the most disturbing song I know...
This and Korn-Daddy are by far the most disturbing songs
holy shit what a performance
My first concert I ever went to I was a teenager they opened up for Kittie.. and I'll never forget when she preformed this song.. dropped to her knees started crying and bashing the mic off her head..
I am yet another person who relates to this song, for 17 years infact, it was the hardest thing to talk about so I showed my friends this song and they knew.
I like this song, but bad things hapenned to me when I was a child, so listening to it makes me remember those things and makes me feel a little bit scared...
I'm 8 years late, but it's okay. You're safe. ❤
My heart goes out to all of you here who have gone through such horrible experiences. You ARE all amazing people who are well and truly deserving of all the love in the world ❤❤
I love but really scared of this song...
the bassist and guitarists both did so fucking well on this song.
the bass at the end mimicking a heart beat gives me fucking chills down my spine
I want to like Otep because I know the songs have meaning, and are stories in some sense. But honestly I'm a wimp, and she scares the Hell out of me. But I understand why her music sounds the way it does, and I respect it greatly.
This song, among many others from Otep, helped me heal so I could actually live life. Thanks Otep! Sevas Tra!!!
i listen to a few songs like this (eg. Daddy by korn) and i haven't been sexually assaulted either but otep and JD's screaming the lyrics and the fact the you can hear the pain helps for some reason when im a bit depressed and i even like the part in daddy when JD's crying
ciano930 🌹🌹🌹
This is the saddest song i've ever heard... you can just feel the pain.
Thus is really emotional. A friend who went through some shit sent this to me to listen to and god 😭💔 it's heartbreaking to know the things people have to go through
this is so sad and deep
She saved me and unleashed a beast, the world was not ready nor I, dreams where never meat to become true. This woman taught me, no one ACTUAL person gives a shit. NOT ONE FUCKING INDIVIDUAL SOUL. I will eat the souls who try to consume the minuscule parts of me. I become the monster that the world tried to hide me from. And I don’t regret. I want to scare the people who wanted to try and scare me. And I want to not care about how they hurt, they way they didn’t care about me. If they bleed the better. No one cared when I bleed. May the world understand a flowing suffer.
this song still gives me the shivers her voice is incredible
As someone who has lived through this as wellI find this song so fucking important and accurate, how it's like growing up as a little girl in a household like that. The confusion anger sadness and PTSD. its very well done, and the fact that this is improvised is absolutely beautiful to me.
Warning:- One should never listen to this song when they are having a splitting migraine
I always have a migraine.
ive known about otep for a long time now, but i have never heard this song. it is 5:18am and im overwhelmed with tears and chills as i sit here, a 29 year old hetero sexual black male. this happened to so many women in our generation and its fucking sickening. burn the earth kinda shit. i could hear and feel every emotion... otep is a fucking hero for helping to give voice to a such a heavy burden. one that goes unspoken. there is an intolerable unfairness on this world. one day something will avenge the innocent.
Daddy from korn is another of this kind of song.
dance with the devil is another one
The soul sister of Korn's "Daddy" right here.
Y'all think its creepy now? You shoulda been there in the studio when the chorus part came to me and I played those 2 notes ... Thank u all for listening to it and being effected... That's the point of ALL music and art.. Well for me anyway. ;)
You played in this band?
@@someonerandom7466 This guy was Otep’s original guitarist (Rob Patterson)
Holy shit you're him
my heart is racing, I am stunned, got chills, does not mean anything to me but is so brilliant, so creepy, only just started listening to otep and I love them already so dark so beautiful to rhythm, the rhymes, the heavy metal guitars and dums, the screaming.. Its all, oh, so surreal:)
HELL YEAH!!!!
Those who have been through it know....
This fits for me nicely because I was raped from 14-17. I was a CSA survivor yet he got away with it.
I always come listen to this song when I am filled with unbearable rage. I don't think I've ever listened to this song without screaming and crying in agony and anger. I would snap this disgusting planet out of existence if I could tbh. I'm really grateful to Otep for this outlet because sometimes it's the only thing that gets me through. The fact that so many people who have never experienced something like this just open their fucking mouths like anyone cares what they have to fucking say is infuriating. People = shit and that'll be the next song I listen to.
I'm literally in tears. The song is so fucked up, but it's nothing but truth, hurt, pain, and sadness. To think that so many rape victims have to feel that way, think that way, or feel ashamed just breaks my fucking heart. I couldn't imagine ever going through it, especially from someone who is supposed to guide you and be a role model. Positive vibes & spiritual healing to anyone and all who have experienced such a horrible thing. My heart sincerely goes out to all of you. Keep your heads up.
i feel the same. This song and lyrics are so intense.... It's horrible...
MaddyB102 I still feel ashamed. I'm invalidated because it was my ex. Even with all the stops, no, tears, fighting and then just laying there completely lifeless. The pain, I'm still ashamed of it.
I feel like there's a lot of people on here just pretending to have gone through some shit to get attention. People are fucking stupid that way. I don't take a word of what anyone on here says seriously.
Just because some people may lie about it doesn't mean you have to discredit EVERYONE'S stories about what they claim to have gone through. Plus, not many lie about something that serious, lol. Just because one fucktard wants to ruin peoples views on rape survivors doesn't mean all victims need too suffer because of that one idiotic individual who thought they could sap some attention out of someone.
MaddyB102 it's happening to me
I didn’t realize I wasn’t alone… we are more Monsterous!!! Fight for urs!
I can’t help but cry when I listen to this damn song. My childhood was fucking ruined just like hers was.
a year late but i’m so sorry.
It feels wrong to headbang to this song but it sounds so good
I never suffered that, but the lyrics spoke to me. I saw the man with the bible as symbolic for religion, and in that respect, this song describes me perfectly. This song is just so amazing. I can't stop crying. I felt for so pong I don't have a purpose, but now I know what I want. I want to be like this woman, writing things like this, and starting a revolution.
I might not want to watch this at 4 am.
Caiden Vail I should've taken this as a warning
*looks at the time*
Oh well, too late.
That's a very wise choice.
Challenge accepted
This and Daddy from korn... the darkest songs ever
Jesus Christ. wtf did I just listen to. I don't have words to describe this.
Idk how ibgot here but wtf most disturbing song ever
The most powerful and insane song of alternative scene from 200X. In this time, songs like this you won't find anymore
This and Daddy by Korn were the songs of my teenage years glad I got away from that life.
omg... This is the first time I've ever heard this song but it is really gripping. I think it's a fitting representation of the kind of psychological torment and breakdown that comes with suffering sexual abuse and feeling like there's no way out. The way it draws on the Jonestown Tea incident to parallel the emotions is masterfully done. It's wonderful and awful and beautiful and ugly all at once and appropriately so. This is an amazing song and it's so incredibly raw and honest. Thanks.
This is one of the most brutal songs I've ever heard, right up there with "Daddy" by Korn and "Raped at 15" by Blahzay Roze.
Wow… I used to the the very early underoath track Innocence Stolen was an intense brush with this topic. Not even close, This is wild.
I was listening to it I was soooo much feeling it to the point where I was gonna stop it. Because I could feel the emotion but listened through it and all I can say is WOW! It’s definitely a song that’s scary! Very much reminding me of Koran’s daddy!
this is the only thing thats gotten me through living in this filthy house of secrets
I wish I could have my childhood back.
"No daddy don't"
3:18 when it gets real uncomfortable
One of my favorite song since 2002 until now
jesus fucking christ what the hell did i just listen to, i literally just discovered this band and love it, clicked on this and fuck...i think i have found the most disturbing song i ever care to hear. god damn
A song that is VERY hard for me to listen to. This is something that NO child should ever have to go through. It makes my heart totally break to know she went through something like that. The reason why I fucking love this song is because it's not sugarcoated at all. It is all raw emotion pouring out. It always gets me, even when I don't think I am going to cry and get emotional, I just do, I can't help it. Otep forever!!
One of her best ones, I keep coming back to this one
Thankfully I haven't been through what a lot of kids have and, however, this piece of brilliance makes me very angry.
The emotion she puts in is awesome and the actual music is so brutal it makes me even angry.
Somehow she put her pain in the perfect way just listen without reading and you feel her pain
This is when I believe in cursing the perpetuator. Theres a reason why karma is a bitch.
Modern Day Morrison, Love you Otep
Well, this is one intense song
Why does this somehow remind me of beyond two souls, I really love this song tho it's inspiring
That's like "daddy" from KoЯn
the first time i heard this song, the first two lines hit me more than any other track by otep. and i knew that this was by far going to be the rawest, most intense track id ever heard across four albums. for me this is the epitome of otep, the culmination of everything shes ever tried to say, and the brutality of it blends with the beauty of her self expression to create the clearest image of all that has formed her as she is today.
i dont blame her for being lesbian, its quiet logic wen u refer it to her dad in this song, this song inspires me and man did hot tears run down my cheeks
It also has the same letters as poet
This made me cry omfg
this song has the same emotionaly devastating effect that daddy by korn had on me when i first heard it. it's not quite as poetic, but i recommend it to any fan of this song
Otep Shamaya is a scary woman yet equally beautiful in her twisted way, Otep remains at top tier of my music list
Bitches think they can hurt me? This is the song I relate to the most 😃
Holy shit. 💜 I feel this in my entire body
I actually like this song because its personal and it shows that she has been through hell and can still put it out for her fans. And it can be a becon of hope for ppl who have been through it too. Because she overcame it
Intense in a sad and dark/dank way. Good sense of emotion, very creepy.
just listened for the first time. literally went into shock. great song!
big ptolomaea by ethel cain and DO YOU DOUBT ME TRAITOR by lingua ignota vibes
when i heard this amazing artist song, i cried. wat other troubles she been through? idk. but now she lets these aching stories of pain out on paper o admire her work
POWERFUL
I.LOVE.THIS.SONG........
K.
I feel very disturbed now.
phoebej1224 good
Good.
@mayhem1030 the tea in the lyrics is a reference to the drink the put arsonic (I think) in to commit mass suicide in Jonestown, Guyana.
Also, some people were forced to drink the tea and otherwise killed. As a Caribbean person, I can say that this was probably the sickest thing in the history of the islands.
This is a song that I can never fully listen too. Heartbreaking
my tears burn