It has been 4 months since I was betrayed by the person I thought I was going to spend my life with. This song just perfectly describes how difficult it was for me. We both promised we won’t outgrow each other but now we’re both strangers in each other’s lives. And right now I’m still having such a difficult time letting him go and giving up the ghost of who he was with me despite getting cheated on. I think deep down I will always love him but Niki is right and I have to believe that someday I’d be fine, it’s not my fault and all I can do is wish him well and start healing without him. I just hope it come sooner because everyday i feel more dead than i was the day before.
That's alr. For me it's been almost e yrs. Yes, I haven't doing fine. But at least I'm breathing atm. Sometimes I still longing for her, bcs being with her feels like a routine i couldn't skip. But guess that's the way so that we could grow. Cheers, hun
Same, except its been a month since she left me for another. Already planned my future with her since she's my first but life has other plan for me it seems
"But I'm letting go, I'm giving up the ghost" This lyric had an impact to me. It feels like it is for me. I'm giving up my ghost: my past self that keeps haunting and torment me. I forgive myself, I'll heal myself. For those who read this who have the same ghost as mine, in time, I hope you'll able heal.
I feel like particular rhyming styles belong to Eminem or Tupac or the other great old school rappers, some angsty lines sound like inspired by Lorde, and I do see a lot of Taylor Swift in nearly all her songs. That’s just my take, some random girl who is a fan to only songwriters. I think she’s the first Indonesian singer who can nail close to their levels of lyrical excellency, I very much agree.
ok but the visual where the plane actually reaches the right side of the screen and disappears before the song ends is SO POETIC because how many times have we wanted to say what we wanted to and had to say to a person who leaves sooner than anticipated? IT'S SO HEARTWRENCHING AAAAAA
I took this song a different way than intended. My grandpa just passed away and the way I feel the lyrics is through the perspective of my grandma and her love and story with him before he passed leading to the very moment he passed. Nothing but eternal love in their eyes, soul, and touch until the very end. This song made my heart cry a little thinking about it and thinking about how much we miss him. Beautiful song released at the perfect time. Thank you NIKI 🤍🕊
Thank you for the condolences and messages of support everyone. Been a month since and it’s still difficult. The funeral and burial in Philippines (where he wanted to be buried rather than in Canada) was beautiful. And Faith, my condolences to you as well 🤍
I don't have a lovelife, nor am I broken hearted, but I just have this urge to cry my eyes out and embrace this nonexistent pain while listening to this song. Niki, why T_T
Stoopp her timing 😭 my ex and I were huge 88rising fans and niki was our queen. We got closer thanks to them and heard songs that got us together, but now a year later today I'm officially letting go. Bruh I can't, imma cry again 💀
Damn the boy that she wrote this song must be thinking all sorts of regrets now. I know she’s happy now but damn, a girl wrote what used to be her whole world for her, and must felt like tons of bricks now to let go such a rare diamond like Nicole💝
words cannot describe how grateful i feel that she decided to record this song again and damn, have to say i fall in love with this song like the first time😭❤
Aside from the humming melody, as a 'lyrics person', how she transfers one line to another, rhymes, and chose the phrasings, I can't help but be stunned and be dosed of amazement each swing and turn of the song. Such brilliance and genius of Niki as a songwriter!!
this song is perfectly worded for my situation… waking up every day asking myself “how is it now that somehow you’re a stranger you were mine just yesterday” and it breaks me a little more. it might take a while to heal, i know it… but i gotta do it. i cant be the only one living in the loop while he is already out moving and looking for next phases in life. it would be hard and i am not okay most of the days. how can I be? i lost the piece of puzzle that fits the vacant space in my heart… i lost the sunshine that brightens up my day and night, the one that illuminates the path when it was dark for me. maybe i was stupid.. i took this relationship seriously and thought this relationship was a beautiful feeling to ever happened.. but it takes two to tango… it takes two to make a relationship work. maybe i wasn’t worthy enough to be fought harder, not as much as your words when it do the convincing. i don’t know when will this feeling diminish but everyday, i just got to try.. even the sound of my heart screaming echoes throughout the horizon telling the world i don’t want to let you… but i got to do it… i have to do it…
The song feels like the universe’s way of telling me to move on. And say goodbye to his ghost. It’s been four months since left after seven long years of being together.
Lyrics Saturday sunset We're lying on my bed with five hours to go Fingers entwined and so were our minds Crying, I don't want you to go You wiped away tears But not fears under the still and clear indigo You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine" "You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow" My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy Well, nothing then much has changed 'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor My soul, it gets sicker But I'm sticking to the screenplay Gotta say I'm okay But answer this, babe How is it now that somehow you're a stranger? You were mine just yesterday I prayed the block in my airway dissipates And instead deters your airplane's way But heaven denied Destiny decried Something beautiful died Too soon But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright Someday I'll be fine But just not tonight (Oh) Plunging into all kinds of diversions Like blush wine and sonorous soirées But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline I see you're all that can intoxicate Oceans and engines You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs 'Cause now my heart's home All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away And I'm not okay But I'm letting go I'm givin' up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright But just not Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones (Hm) Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down You've lost all solid ground Both dreams and demons drowned And this void's all you've found And doubts light it aglow I have so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine And I'm letting go I'm givin' up your ghost It's come to a close I marked the end with this last song I wrote I'm letting go This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you My great lost love.
it's been 2 weeks since we broke up, we dated for almost 4 years. I gave him my everything and was always patient with him when he was struggling physically or mentally. He has so much trauma from his childhood that it was hard for him to open up to me despite me always trying to support him through it. After a certain point I got tired of being "the teacher," I shouldn't have to teach you how I want to be loved repeatedly for years. I decided to end things with him, but deep down I'm still so desperately in love with him, I want to be there for him and watch him grow. I know he feels the same way but he never showed that his actions would change, I feel like its a lost cause. I know I should move on but I'm so stuck on this idea that we can work it out this time, we can have our happy ending like we were supposed to... I want to believe we were meant to be together and we'll find each other again, I can't imagine myself with anyone else but him....
you're such a genuine person, it might be you need another person who balances your love, it should be hand in hand, even if your ex also loved you too 😢
The one person who I cherished wholeheartedly, who made me feel whole, is the reason why there are pieces of me scattered everywhere. This is my first experience with heartbreak and seeing them with someone else in less than 6 months, really took a toll on me. A bad habit of mine is touching my wounds which prevents them from healing, I'm slowly getting there, I wish to make myself whole this time, so that whatever comes my way won't break me like it did last time.
this brings so much memories of relationships we've outgrown - people we thought we could spend the rest of our lives with; though we also know would eventually end
I miss him, I miss his voice the way he calls me "my love" or "baby". I miss our bonding my beloved ex, it's been 1 yr since we broke up because you don't know if you're moved on from your ex. And here I am, still waiting for you to come back my isaac.
Niki ini lagu favorit aku, setiap ada waktu kosong, curi2 di waktu kerja, di halte bis, di jalan aku pulang ke kosan lagu kamu selalu jadi pilihan buat playlist aku. Aku suka dengan suasana magis yang dibangun oleh Ocean and engines aku suka dengan senandung yg bisa aku ucapin di setiap langkah aku pulang. Pokoknya I really love this song and you Wkwkkw thankyou ❤❤
"and the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones" my favorite line. what an absolutely perfect description of the words "i love you"
moonbin-ah, like the lyrics of this song, now I'm letting u go, be the brightest star in the sky so i can see u in a long time, be happy in there cuz no one can hurt u now my love, I'll still love u from here!🤍
Just type Niki Oceans and engines, you'll see she's playing acoustic guitar while singing, that's the very first version of this song. People re upload it coz she probably take down her own.
I met this girl, we’re doing good, getting to know each other. Talking almost everyday. But one day I saw her post something about her ex-boyfriend and this was the background song. I searched it and now listening to it. Song hit me hard, I didn’t know shes going thru something like this. I felt like it was true love they had but the relationship didnt work out anymore. It says she finally had all the courage to let go of what they had and how she felt home with him once. Its just seems so real for them and I realized myself I wouldnt be able to give her the same way she felt because of him. Me not having experience true love. Idk I just felt sad about it. Cant be feeling like this. I have to better myself but i guess we staying with self-love so we can avoid getting hurt.
had to give up my boyfriend going abroad for college, yet we still trying to make it work for both of us. i sometimes don’t know whether we could make it or how and when this would end, i hope there’s no end in our story though ❤ i always play this song whenever i miss him alot on certain days, thank you niki for this song 🥺❤️
Niki, you perfectly wrote a song that describes the feeling of losing someone. It's been 5 months since I lost my partner and best friend. I don't wish this kind of pain to anyone because it really feels like you lost a part of you and he brought it with him. I always love him but I have no choice but to let him go. I want to see him thriving in life. I want him to be okay. I want him to find himself and appreciate life and the genuine people around him even if that means not having me in his life.
Coming back to this song. Reme.bering that 2 years ago, someone i held dear just left me. Someone i was close for 4 years. I hope you are well. Thank you for the memories you have given me. 4:51
I listen to this song while thinking about my friend group, that are not together anymore. Some of them might be hates me, but they will forever be my favorite living soul. There's a lot of things happened in June, and I wish I could turn back time so i can live the moment forever. ♾️ Beautiful things ends too soon.
i don’t know if you’ll be able to read this, but if ever… hoping you’d someday be with someone who’ll treasure you same as me or more than I can give you cuz you’re always worth it. I’m sorry I failed you to the point that your love for me can’t be brought back. I’ll be loving you in silence, my last love, Ro💗
Three months ago when this song released, I feel like "Ah this song so sad" But just feel sad and nothing more. Until today, when this song playing on coffee shop while I'm doing my work, I'm crying alone because the lyrics so relate about what I feel right now. It's been 12 days my mom passed away, I don't know about my feeling, I just feel lost like half my soul gone. I am crying so hard when lyrics "I'm know I'll be alright, someday I will be fine, but just not tonight" I believe in myself if I am gonna be alright but not today. I'm not okay, totally not okay but I need to letting go, I'm giving up the ghost, don't get me wrong, I always love you that's why I wrote this long sentence. I love you always mom🤍 I wish in another life I still your daughter, see you on another life mom🤍 I'm gonna fine, don't worry about me.
I hope you heal from everything that caused you pain. I may not be there with you anymore but I still pray that everything will work your way. I still love you, I hope we reconnect somewhere down the line, even if its just as friends. I don't want to forget you, and I hope you never forget me KC. - 🦖
It was last year when we lost that kind of "connection" we had before. I almost thought that we'd end up together. I indulged myself in this fantasy that he will be the one to save me from all these emotional turmoil and trauma I have locked myself into. I didn't care if I seem too emotionally needy. When he is around, I am happy and that was all that mattered. We used to spend late nights kissing and cuddling and I thought that was already enough sign that he actually liked me - that it will lead to something beautiful. But it was just a fantasy I created inside my head, and I have put him in this kind of pedestal that he can't even fathom. It broke my heart when he was starting to slowly slip away until he's out of reach. I mourned the supposed loss I had. One day, I woke up realizing all the sh*t I placed upon him. I realized how much I have depended emotionally on him expecting that he will continue being there for me. I realized how selfish it was. I realized what people meant by "You have to love yourself first before you love another person" - you have to be self-sufficient first so that you won't have to look for validation on other people. This song has helped me with those realizations. I started letting go of regrets - regret of not being my best self when he was around and regret that I did things that eventually made him walk away. I forgave myself, started picking each bit of my crumbled self (bits that I thought he should be picking up), and slowly put them back together again. The experience has been transformative to me on an emotional level and if anyone were to ask me if I would change anything that had happened, I would tell them that I would retain every single detail of my encounter with him. The experience changed me for the better and I think I can embark on truly healthier and happier relationships.
I’ve been off and on with someone for 7 years, starting in highschool. She knows me better than my own parents do, or she used to. I’ve never been able to recreate what I felt with her when times were good, it’s almost like a high that I keep chasing. But she’s continuously left me throughout the years, sometimes understandably, but usually in an effed up way. I could not let go of this person, and I’m still struggling to do so. They’ve made excuses for why they leave, telling me it’s because of their problems, and then they’ll come right back telling me that they still love me. I’ve finally learned how to love myself, and how to appreciate the life I have. I think I will always love her, because of the times we had and the impact she had on me as a human being, but I can’t say I love myself while continuing to go in circles with a person who very obviously doesn’t love me in the same way. Letting go is unbelievably hard
DAMNNNNNN I REMEMBER THIS WAS MY FIRST NIKI'S SONG BACK THEN WHEN SHE HAD HER LITTLE UA-cam CHANNEL im so amazed she finally released this!!! i hope you can release Lullaby soon :(
i'm in the same pain this song gives .. and i don't know how i can survive each day but thanks to discovering this song.. i'll always remember the memories and accept that we're not meant to be together
Shout out to niki karena udah rilis lagu ini 2 tahun lalu, kalau ini lagu belom rilis (officially) gw gak tau lagi deh gimana bakal menghadapi diri gw sendiri setelah confess karena naksir orang 7 tahun lamanya(ikr gak relate² banget sama lagunya but this song help me a lot) makasih niki semoga bisa nonton konsernya huhu🥺
Saturday sunset We're lying on my bed with five hours to go Fingers entwined and so were our minds Crying, "I don't want you to go" You wiped away tears But not fears under the still and clear indigo You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow" My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy Well, nothing then, much has changed 'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor My soul, it gets sicker But I'm sticking to the screenplay Gotta say I'm okay But answer this, babe How is it now that, somehow, you're a strangеr? You were mine just yеsterday I pray the block in my airway dissipates And instead deters your airplane's way But heaven denied Destiny decried Something beautiful died Too soon But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you That's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright Someday, I'll be fine But just not tonight, (uu-uuh) Plunging into all kinds of diversions Like blush wine and sonorous soirées But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline I see you're all that can intoxicate Oceans and engines You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs Cause now my heart's home All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away And I'm not okay But I'm letting go I'm giving up the ghost But don't get me wrong I'll always love you That's why I wrote you this very last song I guess this is where we say goodbye I know I'll be alright But just not Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia Two years ago And the first time I learned real world superpowers Lived in three words They revitalize my fraying bones, oh Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down You've lost all solid ground Both dreams and demons drowned And this void's all you've found And doubts light it aglow I have so many questions But I'm pouring them into the ocean And I'm starting up my engine And I'm letting go I'm givin' up your ghost It's come to a close I marked the end with this last song I wrote I'm letting go This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you My great lost love
Setiap dengerin lagu ini malah jadi inget sahabat2ku yg skg udah pada jauh🥲 dengerin lagu ini waktu kerja di spi🥲 skg setiap dengerin lagi jadi selalu keinget memory waktu kerja disitu, semua yg berhubungan dengan kerjaannya orang2nya🥲 huhu ternyata kangen juga
I just saw this song again on my youtube feed and decided to listen. This song broke my heart the moment i first heard it, but also healed it as I dove into the lyrics, meaning it kindof helped me move on, it's like talking to myself but someone else is giving me the words to say while I was still moving on from him.. Niki is such a great artist. I truly appreciate her songs, I'm sure alot of people relate to her songs and i hope she gets the recognition she deserves. I love her 😭💗💗
☹️☹️ you know what hurts the most? She gave me many reasons to leave yet I stayed. But when I gave her multiple reasons to stay, she still left me anyway😔💔
I felt a betrayal, and this song just hits me so much. But as time goes on, i know that i have to let someone go. "I'm letting go. This is the last falsetto i'll ever sing to you...."
I'm a fan of Niki for the last 3 years, but when she released Oceans & Engines I just put it on my playlist but never listened to it because I was going through a hard breakup with my ex gf and I didn't wanna do anything, for months. After HITC in Jakarta, I suddenly remember haven't really listen to this song and god I was crying so loud because It's perfectly describe how I feel about my last breakup. Now I play it on loop. Thank you, Niki. From your biggest fan, (also) Niki. 🫶🏼
There's a story that happened to me recently. I never got together with this guy nor I met him. But I want to dedicate this song to him. I liked him since we met and that went on for four years. We promised we'd find each other when we grew up and he was afraid to lose me, so was I towards him. Although, before even a year after we met, we lost in contact. I was filled with longing and I felt like a part of me was missing. I waited for two to three years for him. I prayed to God and asked him if I should keep waiting. I didn't receive a sign but days after, I got reconnected with him. He was still kind, sweet and funny as ever. Although, after a few days I realized he almost completely forgot about me. He didn't know my name and I was just someone who he met online when he was young to him. But me, I remembered him. From his name, his fear of being alone, his relatives, down to his favorite song. I was disappointed but I knew I didn't have the right to feel that way considering the years that had gone by. I heard myself in my mind saying that I should let go. I ignored it at first because I liked him. I wanted it to be him. But days after, I introduced him to my friend who he also met a few months after he first met me. Although I never told her I liked him, I wasn't comfortable with her. I noticed they got along pretty well, they spoke the same language unlike me and he seemed more comfortable and happier. One day, I concluded that I wanted to let go of my feelings because I knew couldn't continue trying everyday for us to move forward. Our distance alone already tells that we weren't for each other. I thought to myself, maybe God allowed him back into my life only to let me know that I should let go. Despite the feelings I clinged onto for four years, I knew I had to let go. So, I did. I don't hate him, he doesn't even know I like him. He's still my friend that I'll cherish. The only difference is, I'd rather be just friends with him or strangers as long as it brings peace for us. I still wish him good health and the best. Now, I believe I'll be okay, I just want to focus on things that make me happy and try out new things without carrying anything heavy like those feelings I had for him. 🤍
can't discribe how i loveeee this song 😭❤ niki never failed, omg!!! i'm soooo happy knowing niki as a best singer ❤😭 her so talented i swearrr. love you niki ❤😭❤
After just 1 week of us breaking up. I already saw him follow a new girl. He used to only follow me, no one else. I feel so sick. Everytime i see him, its so hard letting go of the memories we both had. Niki is right. Maybe someday ill be able to look at him and not feel pain in my heart. And ill finally be fine. But just not tonight.
feeling these lyrics on a whole different level, breaking my heart, when i lost him i lost myself too that i had to go therapy and get meds but niki is right im giving up his ghost and whatever left in me
It has been a year and 2 months yet i still can't get over losing my greatest love to a tragic accident, he was my everything and the day he died my whole world shattered. Destiny declined to make us end up together and nothing can ever make me heal from this kind of pain. grief will forever be a part of me now. I will be fine but i can never heal from him, he was indeed my great lost love.
i really cried so hard when i was heard this song, its so beautiful song i swear. what i experienced is also very relate with this song. thank for Niki a lot ❤️
never ever thought I will relate to this song, all I know when this got release I really enjoyed the vibe of the song. But now here I am looking in the ceiling wishing things went better when we still can do much more for each other.
New album “Nicole” out August 12th. Pre-order/pre-save: niki.lnk.to/Nicole
Autumn is my favorite ❤ I made a cover of it
Kooooooooooo
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It has been 4 months since I was betrayed by the person I thought I was going to spend my life with. This song just perfectly describes how difficult it was for me. We both promised we won’t outgrow each other but now we’re both strangers in each other’s lives. And right now I’m still having such a difficult time letting him go and giving up the ghost of who he was with me despite getting cheated on. I think deep down I will always love him but Niki is right and I have to believe that someday I’d be fine, it’s not my fault and all I can do is wish him well and start healing without him. I just hope it come sooner because everyday i feel more dead than i was the day before.
so many people shared their break-up stories by this song including you. I'm so cryinggg
That's alr. For me it's been almost e yrs. Yes, I haven't doing fine. But at least I'm breathing atm. Sometimes I still longing for her, bcs being with her feels like a routine i couldn't skip. But guess that's the way so that we could grow. Cheers, hun
3 yrs, fck me
I hope by letting him go you will find your happiness with yourself or with someone else better. It's hard but you will be fine.
Same, except its been a month since she left me for another. Already planned my future with her since she's my first but life has other plan for me it seems
"But I'm letting go, I'm giving up the ghost"
This lyric had an impact to me. It feels like it is for me. I'm giving up my ghost: my past self that keeps haunting and torment me. I forgive myself, I'll heal myself. For those who read this who have the same ghost as mine, in time, I hope you'll able heal.
it’s “you’re the one thing i swear i can’t outgrow” for me 😭😭
Imcrying 😭😭😭😭
its been a year now i hope all is well, strangers
the emotion of this song, niki never fails to paint a beautiful and melancholic story
I can't conceive the idea of having a brain that knows how to write like this. This is one of the greatest examples of lyricism I've ever seen.
I feel like particular rhyming styles belong to Eminem or Tupac or the other great old school rappers, some angsty lines sound like inspired by Lorde, and I do see a lot of Taylor Swift in nearly all her songs. That’s just my take, some random girl who is a fan to only songwriters.
I think she’s the first Indonesian singer who can nail close to their levels of lyrical excellency, I very much agree.
And she wrote this when she was 16! 🤯
@@naulahamidah6512 still her songs is original
@@justthisgirl2944 no one says otherwise😀
So far the best❤️❤️
ok but the visual where the plane actually reaches the right side of the screen and disappears before the song ends is SO POETIC because how many times have we wanted to say what we wanted to and had to say to a person who leaves sooner than anticipated? IT'S SO HEARTWRENCHING AAAAAA
I took this song a different way than intended. My grandpa just passed away and the way I feel the lyrics is through the perspective of my grandma and her love and story with him before he passed leading to the very moment he passed. Nothing but eternal love in their eyes, soul, and touch until the very end. This song made my heart cry a little thinking about it and thinking about how much we miss him. Beautiful song released at the perfect time. Thank you NIKI 🤍🕊
I cry for this. My deepest condolences to your grandpa :"
my condolences. i felt the same. because my dad passed away. yesterday's my mom's second year of celebrating their anniversary without him.
Thank you for the condolences and messages of support everyone. Been a month since and it’s still difficult. The funeral and burial in Philippines (where he wanted to be buried rather than in Canada) was beautiful. And Faith, my condolences to you as well 🤍
my girl giving us EVERYTHING in this album i bet. if she doesn't get the recognition she deserves, i'll riot.
Shhhh she’s our little secret
She gotta have at least one nomination for this album, if not Im gonna riot
@@jan.993 She def should 🙌
No way she doesn’t get it
Count me in
I don't have a lovelife, nor am I broken hearted, but I just have this urge to cry my eyes out and embrace this nonexistent pain while listening to this song. Niki, why T_T
same story :”)
In a happy relationship and I also teared up 😅
Same same sameeee.
My tears, pouring down 😤😤😤😤🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲
I am single asf but still tearing up, this reminds me of my friend's story
Same, idk why I crying here
Stoopp her timing 😭 my ex and I were huge 88rising fans and niki was our queen. We got closer thanks to them and heard songs that got us together, but now a year later today I'm officially letting go. Bruh I can't, imma cry again 💀
wtf thats sad and awkward at the same time
imagine you both listening to this song and just.. cry in the corner 🥲
BROOOOO, SAMEEE TT TT
Damn the boy that she wrote this song must be thinking all sorts of regrets now. I know she’s happy now but damn, a girl wrote what used to be her whole world for her, and must felt like tons of bricks now to let go such a rare diamond like Nicole💝
words cannot describe how grateful i feel that she decided to record this song again and damn, have to say i fall in love with this song like the first time😭❤
Me as well🥹
i’m new here. when did she record it before?
@@erinm7469 she wrote this song when she's 16 and uploaded it like 3 years ago. She only just released the whole song in her new album now
Aside from the humming melody, as a 'lyrics person', how she transfers one line to another, rhymes, and chose the phrasings, I can't help but be stunned and be dosed of amazement each swing and turn of the song. Such brilliance and genius of Niki as a songwriter!!
and the fact that she is indonesian😭
@@johnseredey2858 what about it?
this song is perfectly worded for my situation… waking up every day asking myself “how is it now that somehow you’re a stranger you were mine just yesterday” and it breaks me a little more. it might take a while to heal, i know it… but i gotta do it. i cant be the only one living in the loop while he is already out moving and looking for next phases in life. it would be hard and i am not okay most of the days. how can I be? i lost the piece of puzzle that fits the vacant space in my heart… i lost the sunshine that brightens up my day and night, the one that illuminates the path when it was dark for me. maybe i was stupid.. i took this relationship seriously and thought this relationship was a beautiful feeling to ever happened.. but it takes two to tango… it takes two to make a relationship work. maybe i wasn’t worthy enough to be fought harder, not as much as your words when it do the convincing. i don’t know when will this feeling diminish but everyday, i just got to try.. even the sound of my heart screaming echoes throughout the horizon telling the world i don’t want to let you… but i got to do it… i have to do it…
She's a real lyricist, artist, name it. A masterpiece.
niki's song never miss T_T
The song feels like the universe’s way of telling me to move on. And say goodbye to his ghost. It’s been four months since left after seven long years of being together.
Same with me too.. for seven long years of being together but i must let him go btw.. 🥲
I hope u guys heal in your own pace that must hurt so much :c
Lyrics
Saturday sunset
We're lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds
Crying, I don't want you to go
You wiped away tears
But not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine"
"You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow"
My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy
Well, nothing then much has changed
'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor
My soul, it gets sicker
But I'm sticking to the screenplay
Gotta say I'm okay
But answer this, babe
How is it now that somehow you're a stranger?
You were mine just yesterday
I prayed the block in my airway dissipates
And instead deters your airplane's way
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died
Too soon
But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
Someday I'll be fine
But just not tonight (Oh)
Plunging into all kinds of diversions
Like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline
I see you're all that can intoxicate
Oceans and engines
You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs
'Cause now my heart's home
All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away
And I'm not okay
But I'm letting go
I'm givin' up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
But just not
Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones (Hm)
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down
You've lost all solid ground
Both dreams and demons drowned
And this void's all you've found
And doubts light it aglow
I have so many questions
But I'm pouring them into the ocean
And I'm starting up my engine
And I'm letting go
I'm givin' up your ghost
It's come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I'm letting go
This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you
My great lost love.
@@naulahamidah6512 why not
@@naulahamidah6512 to sing along better?
When she said, “my great lost love” - you know that line will dig deep in your veins, it’s sad
it's been 2 weeks since we broke up, we dated for almost 4 years. I gave him my everything and was always patient with him when he was struggling physically or mentally. He has so much trauma from his childhood that it was hard for him to open up to me despite me always trying to support him through it. After a certain point I got tired of being "the teacher," I shouldn't have to teach you how I want to be loved repeatedly for years. I decided to end things with him, but deep down I'm still so desperately in love with him, I want to be there for him and watch him grow. I know he feels the same way but he never showed that his actions would change, I feel like its a lost cause. I know I should move on but I'm so stuck on this idea that we can work it out this time, we can have our happy ending like we were supposed to... I want to believe we were meant to be together and we'll find each other again, I can't imagine myself with anyone else but him....
you're such a genuine person, it might be you need another person who balances your love, it should be hand in hand, even if your ex also loved you too
😢
The one person who I cherished wholeheartedly, who made me feel whole, is the reason why there are pieces of me scattered everywhere. This is my first experience with heartbreak and seeing them with someone else in less than 6 months, really took a toll on me. A bad habit of mine is touching my wounds which prevents them from healing, I'm slowly getting there, I wish to make myself whole this time, so that whatever comes my way won't break me like it did last time.
Emphasizing that one word “Goodbye” in the most beautiful and painful way. What an amazing talent.
this brings so much memories of relationships we've outgrown - people we thought we could spend the rest of our lives with; though we also know would eventually end
I miss him, I miss his voice the way he calls me "my love" or "baby". I miss our bonding my beloved ex, it's been 1 yr since we broke up because you don't know if you're moved on from your ex. And here I am, still waiting for you to come back my isaac.
"I know I’ll be alright. But just not tonight" struck my heart so much.
frr😓🫂
Joji finally getting recognised in music charts, it's only a matter of time before Niki does too
yess
NIKI never fails in lyrics mastery
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Niki ini lagu favorit aku, setiap ada waktu kosong, curi2 di waktu kerja, di halte bis, di jalan aku pulang ke kosan lagu kamu selalu jadi pilihan buat playlist aku. Aku suka dengan suasana magis yang dibangun oleh Ocean and engines aku suka dengan senandung yg bisa aku ucapin di setiap langkah aku pulang. Pokoknya I really love this song and you Wkwkkw thankyou ❤❤
Niki's voice is so calming.
"and the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words and could revitalize my fraying bones"
my favorite line. what an absolutely perfect description of the words "i love you"
tHE AMOUNT OF PAIN THAT I FEEL WHILE HEARING THE LYRICS. GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW IT WRENCHED MY HEART
moonbin-ah, like the lyrics of this song, now I'm letting u go, be the brightest star in the sky so i can see u in a long time, be happy in there cuz no one can hurt u now my love, I'll still love u from here!🤍
this song hits different when the reason of your separation is to pursue your own goals and dreams. I really miss him and literally crying right now.
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This is an old song of her way back before 88. Listen to her first version of this song, you'll appreciate how far she's come..
can you put the link of the first ver?
Just type Niki Oceans and engines, you'll see she's playing acoustic guitar while singing, that's the very first version of this song. People re upload it coz she probably take down her own.
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 bangke lu fahmi, kitakan bisa pake bahasa indonesia ya, ngapain reply dalam bahasa engres 😂🤣
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 you can see in this channel. Its so good ua-cam.com/video/UTDOMuqmayM/v-deo.html
@@fahmihuwaidi5385 it’s still up there! just look up the title following her name : Nicole Zefanya
I met this girl, we’re doing good, getting to know each other. Talking almost everyday. But one day I saw her post something about her ex-boyfriend and this was the background song. I searched it and now listening to it. Song hit me hard, I didn’t know shes going thru something like this. I felt like it was true love they had but the relationship didnt work out anymore. It says she finally had all the courage to let go of what they had and how she felt home with him once. Its just seems so real for them and I realized myself I wouldnt be able to give her the same way she felt because of him. Me not having experience true love. Idk I just felt sad about it. Cant be feeling like this. I have to better myself but i guess we staying with self-love so we can avoid getting hurt.
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had to give up my boyfriend going abroad for college, yet we still trying to make it work for both of us. i sometimes don’t know whether we could make it or how and when this would end, i hope there’s no end in our story though ❤ i always play this song whenever i miss him alot on certain days, thank you niki for this song 🥺❤️
Niki, you perfectly wrote a song that describes the feeling of losing someone. It's been 5 months since I lost my partner and best friend. I don't wish this kind of pain to anyone because it really feels like you lost a part of you and he brought it with him. I always love him but I have no choice but to let him go. I want to see him thriving in life. I want him to be okay. I want him to find himself and appreciate life and the genuine people around him even if that means not having me in his life.
Coming back to this song. Reme.bering that 2 years ago, someone i held dear just left me. Someone i was close for 4 years. I hope you are well. Thank you for the memories you have given me. 4:51
I listen to this song while thinking about my friend group, that are not together anymore. Some of them might be hates me, but they will forever be my favorite living soul. There's a lot of things happened in June, and I wish I could turn back time so i can live the moment forever. ♾️
Beautiful things ends too soon.
NICOLE IS COMING BACK AND EVEN STRONGER THAN BEFORE WOHOO
I’m usually a tune and melody person, but holy the lyrics. It’s mantra, it’s prayer. Where does such genius come from.
i don’t know if you’ll be able to read this, but if ever… hoping you’d someday be with someone who’ll treasure you same as me or more than I can give you cuz you’re always worth it. I’m sorry I failed you to the point that your love for me can’t be brought back. I’ll be loving you in silence, my last love, Ro💗
😢😢😢😢😢
istg the bridge of this song is EVERYTHING grabe sinuntok ang pader
I'm glad you finally released this song. It was indeed a masterpiece. 🎶
Three months ago when this song released, I feel like "Ah this song so sad" But just feel sad and nothing more. Until today, when this song playing on coffee shop while I'm doing my work, I'm crying alone because the lyrics so relate about what I feel right now. It's been 12 days my mom passed away, I don't know about my feeling, I just feel lost like half my soul gone. I am crying so hard when lyrics "I'm know I'll be alright, someday I will be fine, but just not tonight"
I believe in myself if I am gonna be alright but not today. I'm not okay, totally not okay but I need to letting go, I'm giving up the ghost, don't get me wrong, I always love you that's why I wrote this long sentence. I love you always mom🤍 I wish in another life I still your daughter, see you on another life mom🤍 I'm gonna fine, don't worry about me.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Same… i lost my dad too just this year and i swear it hurts so much… we’ll be alright… but just not tonight
I hope you heal from everything that caused you pain. I may not be there with you anymore but I still pray that everything will work your way. I still love you, I hope we reconnect somewhere down the line, even if its just as friends. I don't want to forget you, and I hope you never forget me KC. - 🦖
"Heaven denied
Destiny Decried
something beautiful died"
Such heartwarming lyrics
Ty Niki for bringing back this track with this rendition
It was last year when we lost that kind of "connection" we had before. I almost thought that we'd end up together. I indulged myself in this fantasy that he will be the one to save me from all these emotional turmoil and trauma I have locked myself into. I didn't care if I seem too emotionally needy. When he is around, I am happy and that was all that mattered. We used to spend late nights kissing and cuddling and I thought that was already enough sign that he actually liked me - that it will lead to something beautiful. But it was just a fantasy I created inside my head, and I have put him in this kind of pedestal that he can't even fathom. It broke my heart when he was starting to slowly slip away until he's out of reach. I mourned the supposed loss I had. One day, I woke up realizing all the sh*t I placed upon him. I realized how much I have depended emotionally on him expecting that he will continue being there for me. I realized how selfish it was. I realized what people meant by "You have to love yourself first before you love another person" - you have to be self-sufficient first so that you won't have to look for validation on other people. This song has helped me with those realizations. I started letting go of regrets - regret of not being my best self when he was around and regret that I did things that eventually made him walk away. I forgave myself, started picking each bit of my crumbled self (bits that I thought he should be picking up), and slowly put them back together again. The experience has been transformative to me on an emotional level and if anyone were to ask me if I would change anything that had happened, I would tell them that I would retain every single detail of my encounter with him. The experience changed me for the better and I think I can embark on truly healthier and happier relationships.
" I know i'll be alright, but just not tonight"
That's hurt
started with take a chance with me and ending with oceans & engines
that's how my year has went
i hope you'll end this year ready to heal
This is SO beautifully-written. I feel the words even though I'm not broken 😢 You are a genius, Niki!
Feel the same😢😢
I’ve been off and on with someone for 7 years, starting in highschool. She knows me better than my own parents do, or she used to. I’ve never been able to recreate what I felt with her when times were good, it’s almost like a high that I keep chasing. But she’s continuously left me throughout the years, sometimes understandably, but usually in an effed up way. I could not let go of this person, and I’m still struggling to do so. They’ve made excuses for why they leave, telling me it’s because of their problems, and then they’ll come right back telling me that they still love me. I’ve finally learned how to love myself, and how to appreciate the life I have. I think I will always love her, because of the times we had and the impact she had on me as a human being, but I can’t say I love myself while continuing to go in circles with a person who very obviously doesn’t love me in the same way. Letting go is unbelievably hard
i miss the memory, not you.
her songwriting is so unbelievably brilliant. No words sound forced, they all have meaning behind them, absolutely stunning
DAMNNNNNN I REMEMBER THIS WAS MY FIRST NIKI'S SONG BACK THEN WHEN SHE HAD HER LITTLE UA-cam CHANNEL im so amazed she finally released this!!! i hope you can release Lullaby soon :(
YES PLEASE LULLABY
@@wawjonas FAMMMMM SING ALONGGGG, AM I DERANGED TO MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUU (screammmfhdgsjdh)
YES SAME!!! THE URGE TO GATEKEEP THO 😭
NIKI singing this song with her mature voice hits different. MANIFESTING FOR ON THE DRIVE HOME TO HAVE ITS STUDIO VERSION TOO 😭😭😭
i'm doing fine and relationship's healthy as ever, but idk how this song made me so broken and tearing up and all......
i'm in the same pain this song gives ..
and i don't know how i can survive each day but thanks to discovering this song..
i'll always remember the memories
and accept that we're not meant to be together
We need an acoustic version now 🥺
that would be the original version
Shout out to niki karena udah rilis lagu ini 2 tahun lalu, kalau ini lagu belom rilis (officially) gw gak tau lagi deh gimana bakal menghadapi diri gw sendiri setelah confess karena naksir orang 7 tahun lamanya(ikr gak relate² banget sama lagunya but this song help me a lot) makasih niki semoga bisa nonton konsernya huhu🥺
this is such a masterpiece. the emotions are overflowing. 🥺
oh to listen to NIKI at this lonely night, you tell the story perfectly.
Song is immaculate :") she is one of the top lyricist and singer storyteller for me ❤️
she's a good singer and a good poet at the same time,unbelievable
Saturday sunset
We're lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds
Crying, "I don't want you to go"
You wiped away tears
But not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine
You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow"
My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy
Well, nothing then, much has changed
'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor
My soul, it gets sicker
But I'm sticking to the screenplay
Gotta say I'm okay
But answer this, babe
How is it now that, somehow, you're a strangеr?
You were mine just yеsterday
I pray the block in my airway dissipates
And instead deters your airplane's way
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died
Too soon
But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you
That's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
Someday, I'll be fine
But just not tonight, (uu-uuh)
Plunging into all kinds of diversions
Like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surgin' adrenaline
I see you're all that can intoxicate
Oceans and engines
You're skilled at infringin' on great love affairs
Cause now my heart's home
All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away
And I'm not okay
But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you
That's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
But just not
Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia
Two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers
Lived in three words
They revitalize my fraying bones, oh
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down
You've lost all solid ground
Both dreams and demons drowned
And this void's all you've found
And doubts light it aglow
I have so many questions
But I'm pouring them into the ocean
And I'm starting up my engine
And I'm letting go
I'm givin' up your ghost
It's come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I'm letting go
This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you
My great lost love
Setiap dengerin lagu ini malah jadi inget sahabat2ku yg skg udah pada jauh🥲 dengerin lagu ini waktu kerja di spi🥲 skg setiap dengerin lagi jadi selalu keinget memory waktu kerja disitu, semua yg berhubungan dengan kerjaannya orang2nya🥲 huhu ternyata kangen juga
I hope he's also feeling the same pain I've feeling tonight.
I just saw this song again on my youtube feed and decided to listen. This song broke my heart the moment i first heard it, but also healed it as I dove into the lyrics, meaning it kindof helped me move on, it's like talking to myself but someone else is giving me the words to say while I was still moving on from him.. Niki is such a great artist. I truly appreciate her songs, I'm sure alot of people relate to her songs and i hope she gets the recognition she deserves. I love her 😭💗💗
how good is she?! like look at that words :((. i totally cry and so proud in the same time
Damn if this song won't hurt you, brb I'm just gonna cry in the corner.
This is the biggest heartbreak I have ever experienced 💔
☹️☹️ you know what hurts the most? She gave me many reasons to leave yet I stayed. But when I gave her multiple reasons to stay, she still left me anyway😔💔
I felt a betrayal, and this song just hits me so much. But as time goes on, i know that i have to let someone go. "I'm letting go. This is the last falsetto i'll ever sing to you...."
well what i can say that can't waittt for your album. First before and now Oceans & Engines ... *brb prepare all the emotions*
I'm a fan of Niki for the last 3 years, but when she released Oceans & Engines I just put it on my playlist but never listened to it because I was going through a hard breakup with my ex gf and I didn't wanna do anything, for months. After HITC in Jakarta, I suddenly remember haven't really listen to this song and god I was crying so loud because It's perfectly describe how I feel about my last breakup. Now I play it on loop. Thank you, Niki. From your biggest fan, (also) Niki. 🫶🏼
young kings and young queens, you can do it.
I heard this song for the first time today and I don't know how something so sad can be so beautiful at the same time 🥺
You’re so single that no one comes in mind while listening to this masterpiece but still you bawled 😔
Finally this kind of niki is back. Love her indie vibes before at 88 rising. ❣️
This song just...
Man, enserió amo mucho como canta NIKI, es tan arte
niki😢
thank you for this wonderful story and beautiful song
Suatu saat nnti lagu ini akan populer
Niki has the power to make a whole heart break in just 4 mins.
I am tearing up, this is why I love you niki ❤
NIKI is a huge inspiration to me and I WILL produce a song for her one day.
its such a sad and somber song, but its kind of comforting too. i love this song so much.
There's a story that happened to me recently. I never got together with this guy nor I met him. But I want to dedicate this song to him. I liked him since we met and that went on for four years. We promised we'd find each other when we grew up and he was afraid to lose me, so was I towards him. Although, before even a year after we met, we lost in contact. I was filled with longing and I felt like a part of me was missing. I waited for two to three years for him. I prayed to God and asked him if I should keep waiting. I didn't receive a sign but days after, I got reconnected with him. He was still kind, sweet and funny as ever. Although, after a few days I realized he almost completely forgot about me. He didn't know my name and I was just someone who he met online when he was young to him. But me, I remembered him. From his name, his fear of being alone, his relatives, down to his favorite song. I was disappointed but I knew I didn't have the right to feel that way considering the years that had gone by. I heard myself in my mind saying that I should let go. I ignored it at first because I liked him. I wanted it to be him. But days after, I introduced him to my friend who he also met a few months after he first met me. Although I never told her I liked him, I wasn't comfortable with her. I noticed they got along pretty well, they spoke the same language unlike me and he seemed more comfortable and happier. One day, I concluded that I wanted to let go of my feelings because I knew couldn't continue trying everyday for us to move forward. Our distance alone already tells that we weren't for each other. I thought to myself, maybe God allowed him back into my life only to let me know that I should let go. Despite the feelings I clinged onto for four years, I knew I had to let go. So, I did. I don't hate him, he doesn't even know I like him. He's still my friend that I'll cherish. The only difference is, I'd rather be just friends with him or strangers as long as it brings peace for us. I still wish him good health and the best. Now, I believe I'll be okay, I just want to focus on things that make me happy and try out new things without carrying anything heavy like those feelings I had for him. 🤍
People can change because of their environment and life experiences, so please forgive the person you were.
can't discribe how i loveeee this song 😭❤ niki never failed, omg!!! i'm soooo happy knowing niki as a best singer ❤😭 her so talented i swearrr. love you niki ❤😭❤
After just 1 week of us breaking up. I already saw him follow a new girl. He used to only follow me, no one else. I feel so sick. Everytime i see him, its so hard letting go of the memories we both had. Niki is right. Maybe someday ill be able to look at him and not feel pain in my heart. And ill finally be fine. But just not tonight.
7 days to live eto Yung iniyakan ko Ng sobra
feeling these lyrics on a whole different level, breaking my heart, when i lost him i lost myself too that i had to go therapy and get meds but niki is right im giving up his ghost and whatever left in me
4:08 never fails to amaze me. I swear I'd erase my memory just to hear it for the first time again
luv that part 😍
It has been a year and 2 months yet i still can't get over losing my greatest love to a tragic accident, he was my everything and the day he died my whole world shattered. Destiny declined to make us end up together and nothing can ever make me heal from this kind of pain. grief will forever be a part of me now. I will be fine but i can never heal from him, he was indeed my great lost love.
thanks for d song Niki, it's literally my comfort song :')
I'm so proud of you niki, so proud.
i really cried so hard when i was heard this song, its so beautiful song i swear. what i experienced is also very relate with this song. thank for Niki a lot ❤️
never ever thought I will relate to this song, all I know when this got release I really enjoyed the vibe of the song. But now here I am looking in the ceiling wishing things went better when we still can do much more for each other.
Why does every comment on here sound so poetically beautiful, I don't even think those words go together but
If the world has a thousand ways to separate us, then we must also have a thousand ways to stay together, ily
Even u didn't choose me in the end. Im still wishing all the best for u and ur dream.