Addiction in The Last of Us Part II (Video Essay)

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  • Опубліковано 16 лип 2023
  • Warning: this video delves deeply into the topic of addiction. If you or someone you love has suffered, or is currently suffering from this disease, the contents of the essay may be triggering. If you are suffering from addiction and need help (you do, I promise), or know someone who needs help, call 1-800-662-4357 or send your zip code via text message: 435748 (HELP4U) to find help near you now. You are not alone.
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    In this deeply personal video essay, I relate to the story of Ellie in the Last of Us Part II. Because, after all, addicts recognize addicts.
    00:00 Introduction
    07:45 The Case for Addiction in The Last of Us Part II
    20:05 The Last of Us Part II Through the Lens ("Lense" in the video - I'm sorry :) of Addiction
    39:27 Conclusion: Hope Remains
    The short video interview snippets with the game actors and director were taken from @KindaFunnyGames (I can remove them if I need to gentlemen - you do good work…I’m not making any money from the use)
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  • @21forevergone
    @21forevergone 10 місяців тому +377

    Playing as your enemy muddies the water and makes you look at the actions you took. No one wants to realize that they're the bad guy in someone else's story

    • @kris10rush63
      @kris10rush63 9 місяців тому +5

      Nope. When I’m Ellie I’m her and when I’m Abby I’m her. It makes the game emotionally insane

    • @futurestoryteller
      @futurestoryteller 9 місяців тому +3

      It's funny that people who hate the game often cite this as an inarguable black mark against it, mocking it for making rote observations about moral conflict. Yet they don't have any reservations about similar moralizing platitudes from their favorite games, films and TV shows. In many cases if they are not explicitly acting in bad faith they are reverse engineering the hate bandwagon

    • @jos-is-a-bot
      @jos-is-a-bot 9 місяців тому

      ​@@ruxandstuff6622Can I ask what happened?

    • @jos-is-a-bot
      @jos-is-a-bot 9 місяців тому

      @@ruxandstuff6622 Oh dang! Worth it.

    • @jos-is-a-bot
      @jos-is-a-bot 9 місяців тому

      @@ruxandstuff6622 Still worth it?

  • @SnarkyMole
    @SnarkyMole 9 місяців тому +85

    I always think about abbys perspective once she killed joel. She was expecting that next high/catharsis but never obtained it. This would lead to abby becoming fairly rude or snarky to anyone who questioned her decision because she knew she was in the wrong. It was only after helping lev and yara, she realized that she didn’t need that next high and she needed to move on from her father’s death

    • @AJayZy
      @AJayZy 9 місяців тому

      You also got to understand that for some people (usually hardened people), they truly believe regardless of the satisfaction, an eye for an eye is still the principle. He killed my loved one/costed humanity the vaccine (although I admit the vaccine thing was probably not on Abby’s mind for the most part) so I kill him.

  • @TheTolister
    @TheTolister 9 місяців тому +44

    I read one comment long ago and it stayed with me. For me it was the most acurate description of what the game is really really about. Ellie doesn't really hate Abby, she hates herself. This brings the meaning of Joel's lie in first game. He lied to her, she finds the truth and hates him for it. She hates him for a long time and doesn't spend time with him. Finally when she decides that she should spend time with him again and let him be her father again, he is killed almost right after that. She maybe hates Abby at first for killing Joel, but then you can see the addiction take place, where her entire lifes focus is pointing at Abby and distracting her of her inner struggle, that after all this time of choosing hating Joel she can no longer fully forgive him and all that time that she could spend the time with him she was avoiding him. She finally must forgive herself (and according to that she can forgive Abby) and be done with the addiction.

  • @erzarose2082
    @erzarose2082 10 місяців тому +284

    this genuinely made me cry from how powerful this analysis was. i always suspected that the story was about obsession, but i never considered the scientific lens of addiction. but it makes so much more sense now. in many ways, i identify myself with ellie, in others dina, but with all of this i have a newfound appreciation for this game. i still don't really find abby's parts particularly interesting, but i know they were to serve in elevating ellie's story. all in all, an incredibly powerful video, thank you so much for making this

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +12

      I’m glad it resonated with you. Thanks for taking the time to watch. I’m with you on the Abby part. It was a good idea it was just too much time with her at that moment in the game. I almost wish they started the game with her section…Be well.

    • @erzarose2082
      @erzarose2082 10 місяців тому +2

      @@NonfictionGamer i fully agree! you stay well too :)

    • @mattmas6628
      @mattmas6628 9 місяців тому +2

      Abby is in the “negative consequences” phase of her addiction during the second half of the story. At the beginning, we saw her in the “preoccupation” and “temporary satiation” phases. Ellie is only in the early stages after Joels death. Thinking she was different when everyone Maria and Tommy told her revenge wasn’t worth it, but Ellie thought she knew better. We play her story in preoccupation and loss of control.

    • @erzarose2082
      @erzarose2082 9 місяців тому +1

      @@WhyDoINeedOneOfThese k

  • @shadejustcant
    @shadejustcant 10 місяців тому +117

    you unlocked a whole new level of understanding for what ellie went through. beautifully made video, bravo.

  • @brianrmc1963
    @brianrmc1963 10 місяців тому +59

    I don’t have a predisposition toward addiction, so it always hard for me to appreciate the pain addicts feel.
    Thank you for having the courage to make this very well thought through video.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +6

      Even having been through it, I still find myself forgetting the pain addicts feel…it’s a really difficult thing to describe accurately in words. Thanks for taking the time to listen.

  • @ScarfeeEdits
    @ScarfeeEdits 9 місяців тому +19

    this video made the puzzle click in my head. I have been suffering with my own addiction problems, and have history of addiction in my family, and I could never explain why the stories of both games hit so hard for me. But once you look at it through the addiction lens as you did in this video, it all makes so so much sense. I haven’t been able to re-play Part II since I’ve first completed it, and wasn’t sure why. But now I might just give it another go. A lot of things to think about.

  • @calexxelac2457
    @calexxelac2457 7 місяців тому +4

    Greatest game ever made, I’ve played it like 12 times, and I’ve found unique ways to alter the experience every time.

  • @ErinJeanette
    @ErinJeanette 10 місяців тому +70

    As someone who's got my own addiction problems, what a compelling video and perspective.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +8

      Keep fighting!

    • @lndrstrl
      @lndrstrl 10 місяців тому +4

      i’ve been struggling with drug addiction for the past 7 months and it’s not getting better even tho i’ve got a psychiatrist, go frequently to a help center and take meds, have u got any tips? stay strong, you’re stronger than u think btw

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому +6

      Keep looking for help and be honest with yourself, are you really doing the things they are telling you or are you making half-hearted attempts to quit. I personally was 1-foot-in, 1-foot-out in getting help so many times and it never worked which led to a spiral of saying treatment doesn’t work. Go all in on recovery, anything less doesn’t usually work with real addiction.

    • @MusicBent
      @MusicBent 9 місяців тому +1

      @@lndrstrlIf we are sufficiently persistent, we will recover. Don’t give up brother. Keep getting back on your feet. Learn from your mistakes. Go to meetings. Get a sponsor. It works, if you work it. ❤

    • @lndrstrl
      @lndrstrl 9 місяців тому +1

      @@NonfictionGamer thx a lot, much appreciate the advice

  • @shadowboxr6802
    @shadowboxr6802 10 місяців тому +26

    Finishing this video I was in the same sense of awe as when I finished the game. Truly an INCREDIBLE analysis of my personal favorite game. Not only did the game speak to me at the time of playing it and finishing it, but seeing it through the lense of addiction makes it all the more powerful. Thank you for making this.

  • @sanjas8670
    @sanjas8670 10 місяців тому +22

    I've watched many... MANY reviews and analyses about this game and I have to say, yours was by far the best. I have never thought to think about addiction in this game, but you made such a good point here, I'm just floored. Great job! Immediate sub from me
    And I just want to say, you can be incredibly proud of yourself for beating your addiction. Most people don't know how incredibly hard it is to get out of this, but I do. So from the bottom of my heart, I wish you all the best in the world, stay strong, and stay as awesome as you are.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому

      I appreciate all the kind words. You stay awesome as well 🫶🏻

  • @DDoubleEDouble
    @DDoubleEDouble 10 місяців тому +46

    Wow. This video touched me deeply. You’ve earn a subscriber (regardless of what kind of content you put out going forward, I look forward to it)!
    Although, we most likely have very very different life experiences (and come from completely different countries/demographics), the human experience is universal and I really can’t even begin to explain how much I personally needed this video. So thank you. I hope the algorithm picks it up!
    I’ve not had a (serious) drug addiction but I love TLOU 2’s story for similar reasons (mainly to do with anxiety/PTSD due to very traumatic experiences as a young teenager/woman and in a way, “addiction” to self-hate etc.) and your analysis of the game is incredible. Things have been looking up for me very recently but life is still very difficult… this video really has been like a massive reminder to keep pushing.
    Also, I know I’m a random internet stranger but I’m super proud of you dude, I’ve witnessed how bad the disease of addiction can be and how tough it is to treat. 🙏🏾

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +5

      I am sorry to hear life has been particularly tough for you. I’m glad your doing well - and thanks for your support of my sobriety and message here. Like I said, always try to remember you are not alone. There are literally millions of people going through something like you (though your story is indeed unique to you), there are those who can relate - like you said the human experience is universal in so many ways. Keep fighting whatever it is you’re fighting, and be well (whatever “well” means for you).

  • @giulioscanferlato9693
    @giulioscanferlato9693 10 місяців тому +5

    3 years of analysing this game and people still find new aspects of it that make it deeper and more meaningful than before. One of the most powerful pieces of art I've ever experienced.

  • @Juhani96
    @Juhani96 29 днів тому +2

    challenging their own bias can be hard to some folk but it's worth it. I love how in this story there is no any B-tier movie Good vs. Bad storyline. Its people vs. people all having their invidual problems and hard times

  • @duncanb.a.s2886
    @duncanb.a.s2886 10 місяців тому +61

    Amazing essay mate. When this game came out, I was in the darkest moment of my life. it helped me so much, so much to see what was happening in my life. I dare to say that this game actually saved me from going in a very dark road. I will always have the greatest sense of appreciation for this game. To me a true Masterpiece. Thank you so elequontley saying how I see the it.

  • @Tighris
    @Tighris 9 місяців тому +3

    This was one of the (when not THE best) video essays I've seen about this game. I never thought about it like this and it opened an entire new level of meaning to the story for me. It reminded me of the movie "requiem for a dream" that deeply impacted me when I first watched it but I have actually never watched it again because it's so heavy and uncomfortable. Like TLOU2. Both tell an important story and take you for a ride you will never forget. I really appreciate that naughty dog took this risk with the story instead of giving us what we thought we wanted.

  • @callumowen3959
    @callumowen3959 10 місяців тому +11

    Didn’t even realise this was a 48 minute video, it just flew by. Thank you for this.

  • @comiv2002
    @comiv2002 10 місяців тому +17

    as someone who just finished this game for the first time a few days ago I felt the same with the addiction angle and found it rly relatable personally since I have my own battles with my addiction to hate myself at points, but still this was a great video and that ending really touched me
    thank u for vocalising my thoughts and I hope you and your wife are doing well

  • @elijahs8560
    @elijahs8560 9 місяців тому +7

    Stories like tlou2 are so complex and nuanced that they can be interpreted for decades and i am really impressed by the originality and skill it takes to write a video essay like this. I’ve watched my fair share of tlou2 analyses and your interpretation of ellie’s story is so well researched and gave me even more appreciation for this game while making me relate a whole lot more to ellie in this game. Bravo!

  • @amaanarain2774
    @amaanarain2774 10 місяців тому +14

    This game came at the perfect time, when so many among us were struggling with loss, addiction, isolation, and uncertainty. And it brings such joy to my heart knowing that it has helped you to process what was almost certainly the most difficult chapter in your life up to this point! The Last Of Us Part II is ultimately a game about love, even when it's clouded by the noise of bloodlust and revenge. As time goes on, it's nice to see that the initial backlash that the story received is being slowly but surely drowned out by meaningful and powerful analyses such as this one.

  • @hamster5689
    @hamster5689 10 місяців тому +4

    this video essay is criminally underrated

  • @redhead6801
    @redhead6801 10 місяців тому +8

    Watching and listening to you explaining adiction made me realize my struggle with selfharm a few years ago was not my choice. Certain points you made, especially waking up the next day, realizing you did it again and will do it again, and hating yourself for it were absolutely describing my own experience. I am so glad you overcame your own addiction, that you can look back and talk about it now. I never knew why The Last of Us was so important to me; this is one of many reasons, I guess. Thank you for making this video. I see Ellie in a different light now, can somehow relate to her. I guess many people feel the same. Thank you.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +5

      It’s a very difficult thing to grasp for people who haven’t been through it. I hope your doing well.

  • @withgreatpower6169
    @withgreatpower6169 10 місяців тому +5

    Another The Last of Us video essay for me to devour and have swirling around in my head for an unspecified amount of time. I love these two games with all my heart.

  • @MissingNo_
    @MissingNo_ 9 місяців тому +2

    I'm a Certified Substance Abuse Counselor in California and I've said to my clients regarding "Rock Bottom" is that there's often a trap door at rock bottom.

  • @emmab5204
    @emmab5204 18 днів тому +1

    This explains perfectly why I could never see why people hated the game - I saw myself in everything she was, and did.
    I was addicted to so many types of self-harm, and I didn't even see it because I'd become so numb and used to it. Trying to quit, not constantly hurting myself in a million different ways, was so much more painful than to just continue - or so I thought.
    I didn't know how not to be hurting, and while choosing to quit that last time felt excruciating for a long time, I can breathe now.
    I don't abuse myself mentally, emotionally, or physically if I don't live up to some extreme standard.
    I'll probably always have the urge to in the back of my mind, but I'm learning to treat myself how I'd treat that 7 year old I once was, who just didn't know how to deal with it all. She was just a baby, and didn't deserve any of what I put her through, and neither do I.

  • @ogjames21
    @ogjames21 9 місяців тому +7

    All right. This is a stunningly thoughtful examination of a game I think was given nonsensically short shrift in the gaming community. I believe this is a phenomenal take, and approaches the subject with the same maturity and awareness that ND hoped we would approach TLoU2 with. I think you might just be the “mature” player they hope exists.
    This felt like a love letter to an important and personal subject. But if you can replicate this caliber of examination for other pieces, I’ll be here for it. Subscribed.
    I’ll be using this video essay in my elective instruction. Thanks for that.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому +3

      Yeah, not likely to be any other games I can interpret with as much personal experience as this, but I plan to try :)
      What is the topic of the elective if you don’t mind answering (I’m just curious)?

    • @ogjames21
      @ogjames21 9 місяців тому

      @@NonfictionGamer it’s called Media in Society, and I’ve made it into a course that unpacks how identity and perspective are shaped through various forms of media. That, of course, must needs include video games. With your video, you’ve given me access to a piece that is a very grounded, detailed and nuanced examination of the human condition as portrayed through a very big video game that has as many detractors as supporters. Your video is a great demonstration of what emotional maturity looks like and I already know that my students are going to dine out for days on the conversation you’ll generate. This is the kind of stuff they live for

  • @natalia499
    @natalia499 9 місяців тому +1

    I love, LOVE, that you pointed out that in the end, Ellie's story is hopeful. No matter how hard things got to her, how many things she lost, she still decided to get up and move on.
    This is why I actually got myself Ellie's tattoo. It's a permanent and constant warning, but also a motivation to never give up, no matter what happens in life.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому +1

      I actually looked into the tattoo as well. Very cool!

  • @DazzlingMrScratch
    @DazzlingMrScratch 9 місяців тому +3

    This is probably the single best video game analysis I’ve personally watched on this website. Genuinely superb job man! Can’t wait to see what you make next.

  • @rowantheboat04
    @rowantheboat04 5 місяців тому +2

    Thank you for this analysis, this touched me incredibly deeply. I’ve struggled with addiction in the past and especially PTSD, and addiction runs in my family. Now it makes so much sense why I relate to Ellie. Thank you.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  5 місяців тому

      I’m glad I could be relatable. Keep up the fight.

  • @thxnder8447
    @thxnder8447 9 місяців тому +2

    What a beautiful and original look at one of the most controversial games of all time. Objective and emotional at the same time. Incredible, just incredible

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому

      I appreciate you could see I was attempting to be as objective as possible. Thanks for the kind words 🙏

  • @somehotperson1675
    @somehotperson1675 10 місяців тому +16

    this take on the games story is something i havent ever even thought of before but it truly surprised me and moved me in the best way possible. thank you for making this!!!

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +5

      Yeah, I searched around for stuff talking about this topic and really couldn’t find any. That’s why I ultimately decided to make this. Thanks for taking the time to watch!

    • @somehotperson1675
      @somehotperson1675 10 місяців тому +3

      @@NonfictionGamer its truly great that one single story can be interpreted and related to by so many different people, its awesome to see games telling such powerful stories!! thanks again for making this video

  • @juhjaybrums1119
    @juhjaybrums1119 10 місяців тому +2

    I didn’t think I could love this game more than I already did. Thank you for shining a light on a new perspective and for sharing your own personal experiences. Whether you see that as brave or not, you surely helped someone out there.

  • @SidPhoenix2211
    @SidPhoenix2211 10 місяців тому +10

    Absolutely beautiful video, man. I appreciate your perspective on this game SO MUCH

  • @sarthaksinghchauhan4845
    @sarthaksinghchauhan4845 10 місяців тому +10

    I have watched almost all videos breaking down this game, but i never felt any got quite what I was hoping to hear because the truth is I myself didn't know what I felt. I didn't completely agree with all the praises and definitely didn't hate it as the hate videos would suggest. That was before this video. Thank you for making this, and thank you for sharing this. I will share this video everywhere cause I genuinely think this is the best perspective to view the game. Once again, thank you for sharing this, and I hope you're doing awesome now man:")

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +2

      I’m glad (or at least appreciate) that this resonated with you. Be well.

  • @LazerzZ
    @LazerzZ 9 місяців тому +9

    This is a beautiful video and incredible interpretation of the text that you've conveyed so well and personally. Really really tremendous stuff.

  • @chamomilecujoh5464
    @chamomilecujoh5464 9 місяців тому +1

    i’m crying now. thank you for this incredible video and thank you for being so vulnerable and open in it. you are loved ❤

  • @jackm9522
    @jackm9522 9 місяців тому +2

    I’ve watched many video essays on tlou 2 but this has to be my absolute favorite… truly a beautiful masterpiece!

  • @jotakori8266
    @jotakori8266 10 місяців тому +3

    This was such a powerful essay. It had me tearing up multiple times at just how real and profound your understanding and exploration of the theme was, and how it correlated to your own lived experiences.
    One particular small thing you touched upon that stood out to me was where you pointed out how the player is supposed to dislike Ellie by the end because Ellie dislikes herself. I'd never thought of the dislike I harbored for Ellie towards the end from this perspective, despite my favorite thing about the game overall being how it forces the player to experience the same emotions as the characters. Just, really insightful analysis there.
    Thank you for making and sharing this! I wish you well and your future bright.

  • @BlakingBad
    @BlakingBad 10 місяців тому +4

    This needs more views. Very well made.

  • @Cri7tian
    @Cri7tian 10 місяців тому +3

    I usually don’t write comments and I most certainly don’t subscribe to someone after the first video I watched from them. To be totally honest, (I know it sounds bad and ignorant) I don’t even click on videos if the video doesn’t have a certain amount of views. But because it was about a game that it’s probably one of my favorite ones, while it’s hated by many and I thought why not.
    And I don’t regret any second of it :)
    I have to say that you TRULY deserve more attention because this touched my heart. It was professional, yet so relatable because it was a mix between „professional“ words (I‘m not a native English speaker so maybe that’s why) and transparence with us by telling us your story with addiction.
    I myself struggle with addiction and even though it got better and I hope the worst has already passed, it touched my heart like I was at rock bottom.
    I watched some analyses on this game but your perspective was very unique and I have to thank you for the work and love you’ve put in just for you to share your story and views with us.
    Thank you ❤

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +1

      Thanks for the kind words. I’m sorry I didn’t put captions in the video (I meant to but ran out of energy towards the ends of making this and not knowing if anyone would ever even see it haha).
      I’m glad you are doing better with your addiction, remember to stay vigilant because it will likely try to make its way back into your mind.

    • @Cri7tian
      @Cri7tian 10 місяців тому +1

      @@NonfictionGamer No problem man, it wasn’t a big of a deal anyway because your voice was very calm, yet interesting and the content itself was also very high quality. Just keep what you’re doing bro ❤️

  • @vidoxi
    @vidoxi 10 місяців тому +2

    really good video! I've watched so many TLOU 2 video essays and this is one of the best IMO. people who think ellie's actions dont make sense really should watch this. I never thought about this game in relation to addiction but it makes so much sense, it's great. hang in there man, congrats on getting clean.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому +1

      Thanks for watching, and the kind words. I’m glad I could provide a different perspective.

  • @lorenpeterson5255
    @lorenpeterson5255 9 місяців тому

    stellar video and commentary, thank you for being so vulnerable with so many strangers

  • @birdistheword2497
    @birdistheword2497 10 місяців тому

    Incredible video my friend! I have always thought of this game as a tragic tale about cycles of loss and grief and I related to that through my own experiences. But seeing this through the lens of an addiction gave a new meaning to so many more elements of the game, such as Ellie's frustration with Dina when she found out she's pregnant. Ellie mostly focused on how Dina would now be a burden who could get in the way of her next fix for revenge. I had started a recent replay of this game after playing the part 1 remake and I am so happy I found this video. Thank you for making this, it means a lot to me and so many others.

  • @AlexanderLewis15
    @AlexanderLewis15 10 місяців тому +3

    This was gorgeous man, really touching and gave me a new perspective on why I love this game so much

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому

      Thanks for taking the time to listen to it.

  • @danielredd3222
    @danielredd3222 10 місяців тому +9

    I love this new take on the story I'm surprised it's never been brought up before this. Nice one!

    • @hazchem1
      @hazchem1 10 місяців тому +2

      It's not a new take. It's the author (nonfictiongamer) taking the time to explain the main themes of the game. Unfortunately, most people are unable to grasp them.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому

      @@hazchem1weirdly, I’d argue it is not a main theme of the game. To me, it’s more of an explanation for Ellie’s actions as a result of the main themes of the game (revenge, loss, etc.). Equally weirdly, it seemed after the release of the game the “decisions of the characters making no sense” became the main theme of the game…
      But I understand what you’re saying and I’m with ya 😅

    • @hazchem1
      @hazchem1 9 місяців тому +1

      @@NonfictionGamer I don't think there is a main theme. There are so many layers to the game, expertly written and developed. Before I even watched your post, I'd played through the game several times. I discussed with my friends that the standout theme for me was the destructive power of revenge and also how different individual perspectives of reality can result in drastically different ways of how you live your life in this world. Your take on addiction was excellent and revealed another layer of the game. With your life experience, you could relate to this theme very easily. I related to the theme of revenge very easily as I'm quite a vengeful person when people do me wrong. This game taught me the destructive power of revenge maybe a much as it taught you about the destructive power of addiction. For this to be relayed through the medium of a computer game is why I think it's the best game to ever be created so far.

  • @crafty_j957
    @crafty_j957 9 місяців тому +2

    Both The Last of Us part 1 and part 2 left me changed by the end of each game. I loved both; for the characters, the story and just how impactful and meaningful every little, or big, things were. I understood that Part 2 was about being addicted to revenge and how an addiction can destroy and the hurt that destruction brings.
    Back in 2008 when I was a young adult I received a phone call no one ever wants to receive. My mother died, because of her addiction to alcohol. And while that initial realization that she was gone was heart breaking it left in its wake a deep sadness that I feel till this day. Knowing that she'll never have the chance to turn her life around and get better. She never got to see me get married, to hold my son when he was born, to see him grow into an incredible human being, to help me when I was struggling (not only with my own self-hatred but with my cancer diagnosis too), and to just be there to experience life as we both grow older. Those experiences are just.... gone, never to exist. That feeling of loss is something I'll carry with me for the rest of my life, but the anger and resentment I felt towards my own mother for her choises that led to her illness completely taking over..... well that has faded over the years, leaving an emptyness.
    To anyone that's read this and gotten here I just want you to know that no matter what you're going through I know that one day things will get better. That you can, and will, get through this. That you are loved and cherished even if you've unjustly convinced yourself otherwise. One day at a time; as a cancer fighter and an ED sufferer that's in recovery, that's my motto; because the future is unknown and all I can do is try and be the best version of myself no matter what life throws my way

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому

      Well said. Thanks for sharing - Your story is a powerful one.

    • @crafty_j957
      @crafty_j957 9 місяців тому

      @@NonfictionGamer Thank you for sharing your story as well. It was honest, upfront and articulated very well

  • @wyatthulstrom2345
    @wyatthulstrom2345 10 місяців тому +6

    Hey, that conclusion was really sweet. I don't want to over share, but it meant a lot to me. Thank you for sharing.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому

      Of the full 48 minutes, those last few minutes were what the whole thing was really for ❤️ Be well, keep fighting whatever your situation is.

    • @wyatthulstrom2345
      @wyatthulstrom2345 4 місяці тому

      ​@@NonfictionGamer
      Still here and still breathing. Thank you again. Although it's felt like a lot longer than 5 months, and I'm not at peace yet, I have seen that it's possible and that's a strange kind of fuel. I wish I knew how to explain the weight those words had on me, I've been sharing them with those I love. Thank you, random UA-cam man, those words were very helpful.

  • @eag_1252
    @eag_1252 9 місяців тому

    This is the most beautiful video essay I've ever seen, you made me cry
    And the song at the end, I haven't heard it in years until now so thanks
    I loved so much every second of this video, keep it up

  • @nicklacelle
    @nicklacelle 7 місяців тому

    Thanks for this, man. excellent video, excellent perspective.

  • @briand5882
    @briand5882 10 місяців тому +4

    love this. thank you so much for writing and sharing!

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому

      Thanks for taking the time to watch. Be well.

  • @matteNT1
    @matteNT1 14 днів тому

    Just..wow. I finally found a video of someone that has the exact same understanding of this story as me. This was just…wow. Well done

  • @ernieparedes4855
    @ernieparedes4855 9 місяців тому

    This very well might be the greatest TLOU2 video essay ever AND one of the best video essays ever, genuinely this unlocked how I always thought of TLOU2 I always knew that this game wasn’t about revenge but could never put my finger on what the game was about, thank you for this video it’s masterclass

  • @TheRealZigolt
    @TheRealZigolt 9 місяців тому

    incredible video. sheds a new light on addiction and the last of us characters as a whole. besides that, you are strong. you are inspiring. thank you for giving awareness to this subject even though it was probably tough. much love ❤

  • @sammiv3331
    @sammiv3331 9 місяців тому +1

    So many ppl stopped playing once they reached Abby’s part and it makes me so sad bc they miss out on an incredible game that makes you really think about life and the other ppl in it

  • @rachell743
    @rachell743 9 місяців тому

    tlou2 is my favourite game and i absolutely love watching video essays on it and hearing new takes. this was really interesting and fascinating listening to your analysis :)

  • @antonpais7656
    @antonpais7656 10 місяців тому +6

    Hope this blows up soon interesting video and very therapeutic for many people with addiction

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому

      Thanks, friend. It was therapeutic to make. I figured maybe it might help someone else…who knows. Be well.

  • @AbrahamRicart
    @AbrahamRicart 9 місяців тому

    Thank you man, I needed this

  • @TehMael
    @TehMael 9 місяців тому

    What a beautiful analysis❤

  • @abdellahraissouni
    @abdellahraissouni 10 місяців тому +1

    i mean wow, so much work has been put on this video, it definitly deserves more views ...
    keep working brother

  • @nolankicks
    @nolankicks 10 місяців тому +1

    Such a high quality video and a very good message. I know its hard to open up about thoses things.

  • @goracaherbata1943
    @goracaherbata1943 9 місяців тому

    Thank you for this, I cried

  • @BobBob73271
    @BobBob73271 9 місяців тому +1

    Really awesome to keep seeing people make videos on the last of us

  • @harounmbarek1716
    @harounmbarek1716 9 місяців тому +1

    this is one of the best explinations this game nicely done bro

  • @maxwolf2718
    @maxwolf2718 9 місяців тому

    Great video, thank you for taking the time to make it! Much love to you.

  • @sebas8270
    @sebas8270 9 місяців тому

    This has been one of the best videos of the last of us that I have seen, excellent work and criticism of a beautiful game, bless you

  • @FluttersShy-ln2ln
    @FluttersShy-ln2ln 9 місяців тому

    Very astute interpretation. The pain never goes away, but you can learn to control and cope with it.

  • @chunkylover5367
    @chunkylover5367 9 місяців тому

    This was such a great essay! Thank you.

  • @MOONSUN4Life
    @MOONSUN4Life 9 місяців тому

    Fascinating take on an extremely divisive topic, well done!

  • @phdfloppa7178
    @phdfloppa7178 7 місяців тому +1

    I personally loved Abby, her and Ellie are both awesome characters, and it sucks to see people blindly hate the game without really analyzing why it could suck.
    All in all, this video essay was pretty damn awesome.

  • @beckylhunt
    @beckylhunt 9 місяців тому

    You are truly amazing. Thank you for making this video. I never really put it together that she was in addiction.. with the issues I've had myself.. one day at time, brother. Just thank you for your words ❤

  • @nicolehex
    @nicolehex 9 місяців тому

    Beautiful video and gave me even deeper reasons to appreciate this masterpiece of a game. Thank you for being so open in your experiences and sharing this with us

  • @candyb7340
    @candyb7340 9 місяців тому

    I just want to say, thank you so much for making this video and giving me a better understanding of what struggling with addiction can be like. It not only gives me a different perspective on this game but having had family members of mine who have struggled with substance addiction, it has made me think about what they may have been experiencing while going through it. Addiction can be such a strong influence on both the person with the addiction and the people who care for that person so I can definitely see Dina’s side of this story, and you being brave enough to share your own experience with addiction has given me a stronger appreciation for my family members personal struggles with it. For that I want to say thank you so much for sharing so much with us in this video 🙂

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому

      Shedding light on addiction was exactly my hope. I’m glad it was helpful to you, and thank you for being in the life of someone with addiction - I can’t imagine how difficult it is.

  • @tannerreilly5673
    @tannerreilly5673 9 місяців тому

    this was such a great video, your talking at the end made me tear up

  • @KyleHanson72
    @KyleHanson72 2 місяці тому

    Thank you for this video. It came to me at just the right time. You have helped me greatly.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  2 місяці тому +2

      I hope you can remember what you were feeling after watching it when you need some help. Thanks for watching. Be well ❤️‍🩹

  • @MintRye
    @MintRye 9 місяців тому +1

    Wow, as someone who knows a few addicts. This put a huge perspective change for me.. this video is more than just a “Last Of Us”.. this is pure educational content. Wow. Fantastic bro. Thanks for sharing this!. 🤙🏻🙌🏻

  • @UNIQUEGUY93
    @UNIQUEGUY93 8 місяців тому

    This is one of the most thought provoking videos I have ever seen for this game. You've earned a subscriber. Looking forward to your future contents! :)

  • @awfulhozi
    @awfulhozi 9 місяців тому +1

    phenomenal vid. i sincerely thank you

  • @Verdigris961
    @Verdigris961 4 місяці тому

    I stumbled across your channel fortuitously and I am very happy I found it. It's great that you were able to extrapolate from the game and relate it to your own experience. I am also happy to hear the game helped you understand yourself better and that it reaffirmed the idea that there is hope.
    Obsessions are never easy to get over, and if so long as you feel like your state of mind depends on the satiation of that obsession, you are never going to move on. I am glad the writers made that clear and that you picked up on this as well. This is why Ellie going back to hunt Abby is not a character flaw nor a sign of bad writing. I could go on talking about why this game is a work of art but I'd be here all day.
    Unrelated, but you also have a great voice for this (:

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  4 місяці тому

      Thanks for the kind words. Does anyone like the sound of their own voice though? Haha

  • @TheOnlyTaps
    @TheOnlyTaps 9 місяців тому +3

    *Apologies for commenting again, but I could genuinely watch this ten times over. Had to show some love again and hopefully this helps the algorithm boost your video a lil more.
    Such a good message. And it's always rough to see how this game was treated by anybody who didn't want to look beyond the surface level. But it's always so dope to see how much good people took out of the game and the community that came from it.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому +1

      I appreciate the double comments to help it out, I’m glad some people are finding the video useful :)
      I love stories in all games, and this was one of the toughest stories to “like”, but very easy to find layers and layers of meaning in.

  • @Ben-jitsu23
    @Ben-jitsu23 3 місяці тому

    Amazing analysis I can relate so much to this, no wonder these games speak to my soul.

  • @Ido_mal
    @Ido_mal 10 місяців тому +1

    I started watching this video a week ago and I stopped because I hadn’t finished the game yet. but I finished it today and now the video too. In my playthrough I saw the game as you describe it I think only people who went through the trauma of addiction can understand the game best so by you publishing this video and showing people this angle it shows the true nature of the game. in the end all of it taught me a lesson that addictions and obsession are essential. the things you lose by it
    are a constant reminder to never hit rock bottom again and no matter what to keep going. So to all of the people that don’t like this masterpiece of a game keep what he said in the video in mind “it’s not the story i wanted it’s the story I needed to hear” the story we all needed to hear… so I want to thank you for this video it’s been truly incredible thank you❤️

  • @missjemmac
    @missjemmac 10 місяців тому

    This is awesome! Thanks for a different perspective on a game I already love.

  • @AvocadoDesperado_
    @AvocadoDesperado_ 3 місяці тому

    I hope that you feel proud for making this beautiful video. Bravo 👏🏽

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  3 місяці тому

      Some things certainly didn’t come across the way I meant for them to, but overall yes I am proud of making it :) thanks for the kind words 🙏

  • @sydneymoore9187
    @sydneymoore9187 10 місяців тому +7

    This is so powerful. Thank you. I also struggled with alcohol addiction, depression, and anxiety during the pandemic. I was just 16 and a very heavy drinker. It was a horrible period of my life, but I'm glad its over and it didn't get any worse. I love tlou and different interpretations of it and its sequel so much, and I love seeing it from this perspective. Again, thank you. I almost cried. I definitely would have if I wasn't on antidepressants. This is a wonderful video.

  • @iceice4741
    @iceice4741 7 місяців тому +2

    Very good analysis

  • @johngoldberg5589
    @johngoldberg5589 3 місяці тому +1

    I do believe that people who had certain life experiences understood this game right away. I found the end of part 1 to be extremely disturbing. Part 2’s ending by contrast, was strangely positive.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  3 місяці тому

      Agreed. Part 2 ended with some hope for where Part 3 is going to take the story whereas Part 1 ended with a feeling of well the story is over now.

  • @prettyoriginalnameprettyor7506
    @prettyoriginalnameprettyor7506 9 місяців тому +1

    I think this might be one of my favourite video game stories ever

  • @mimsycookiiess
    @mimsycookiiess 8 місяців тому +1

    I love this perspective and interpretation of the game!

  • @Juspaa
    @Juspaa 9 місяців тому

    This has me speechless that's how great this is :)

  • @reggyskull528
    @reggyskull528 9 місяців тому

    Bravo!!! Very powerful, very brave sharing of a personal story and perfectly relates to tlou2 my personal favorite game I’ve ever played for a lot of the reasons you layout in this video. Thank you 🙏

  • @mattmas6628
    @mattmas6628 9 місяців тому +1

    This is what I needed to hear man. I just recently quit weed after probably 10 years of VERY heavy use (I’m 27). I abuse alcohol quite a bit too and have cut out all weekday drinking, but haven’t fully committed to stopping yet since the only time my friends come around is when were all drinking on the weekends. I have my own house so I tend to be the one to host every weekend. Fully stopping booze is my next goal though.
    It’s so true that addicts think they’re “different” or like they know some secret that normal folk don’t. My friends and I had this symptom bad when we were younger, all though I grew out of that years ago and realized what we were. Even knowing that, I couldn’t stop until recently.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому

      It can be tough dealing with the friend dynamics. There’s always going to be a few who aren’t ready to let it go and want you to keep partying with them. Stay strong.

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  6 місяців тому

      How is it going?

  • @ch3burashka
    @ch3burashka 9 місяців тому

    The barn segment is probably top 3 sequences in decades(s).

  • @tanvipandit9204
    @tanvipandit9204 7 місяців тому +1

    This game is so amazing, the storyline is captivating.

  • @luisgonzalopaizhernandez8536
    @luisgonzalopaizhernandez8536 9 місяців тому

    Im an addict Im still going throught it and you make me feel heard sometimes the only thing you want is to feel heard and less alone and for the first time in years I feel safe not as a strange weirdo that is like he is because he doesn’t want to change you make me cry whit this analysis you made me reflect on my behavior and as a former addict I really want to thank you and tell you that you make me feel more like a human and less as a monster

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  9 місяців тому

      Don’t forget there are groups full of people like us out there. They listen and are very relatable.

  • @Rainyydayytodayy
    @Rainyydayytodayy 9 місяців тому

    I'm saving this video for my bad days.❤ thank you

  • @John-996
    @John-996 9 місяців тому +1

    I think the fact that there people who love the game and hate the game but can not understand each others perspective is really line with the both Abby and Ellie who can not see things from the others perspective. Last of us 2 has great story that makes you think, The Ai and Physics are great and the combat is also well done as well.

  • @Ashutosh-wp6kc
    @Ashutosh-wp6kc 6 місяців тому +1

    such a great eye opening video for an 18 year old dude who knows nothing about addiction man. Never thought about veiwing the story through the lens of addiction,makes me wanna play the game again with a new pov. You did a great job talking about your own journey,hopefully you never go back into it again. Also loved how you gave hope to those who need it throughout the video. God Bless man

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  6 місяців тому +1

      I appreciate your comment. Thanks for watching with an open mind.

  • @rebeccahoffman1346
    @rebeccahoffman1346 9 місяців тому

    Thank you for this

  • @AK-su3tz
    @AK-su3tz 10 місяців тому +2

    This video will make your channel blow up, you should make more videos because this was amazing

    • @NonfictionGamer
      @NonfictionGamer  10 місяців тому

      I plan to, but I think this was likely the most important thing I had to say haha. Thanks for the encouragement 🫶🏻

  • @andrewcozzi9163
    @andrewcozzi9163 10 місяців тому +1

    You got talent, my man 🔥