Long Sleeves AWARD WINNING SHORT FILM (2022)
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- Опубліковано 20 тра 2022
- Trigger warning: Contains depictions of an eating disorder, throwing up and scars from self harm.
Long Sleeves is a passion project of Josh Ryan and his highly talented associates.
Please enjoy, and do discuss.
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the moms comment about the sugar going straight to the thighs really got me. super realistic trigger.
Exactly my mum would say stuff like that and same with it going to my bum and face and that would hurt me so bad I’m glad I can relate to some people
def a trigger for me
As I'm shoving sauger in my face 🥲
My dad (sometimes my mom as well) use to say little things like that. And then I would go in my room and cry my eyes out. Then.. Not long later.. I forced myself to only eat a tiny bit a day. I got better, but that's when the SH started. Still struggling after 3 years of trying to stop.
lil story!
so basically my mom is pretty thin and she was talking about how her thighs were so small and she wanted “big” ones like me and said she need “dancer mussels” and now she wonders why I’m not hungry
I just want to point out that the brother's acting is actually really good, even with the stiff lines, he makes it seem a little more natural
Your name 💀
I think they did that on purpose??? Even if they didn’t, I personally like it better bc it makes it seem like everyone is so perfect. Realize the daughter wasn’t talking like that.
@@Noo-My-Only-Weakness-Dying helpp yeah it was something my friend came up with for me
@@theyluvme.. oooh yeah actually that's a good point!
he’s the only one..
You know what it means when you start watching these again
Stop calling me ouuutttt
Real
Summer depression, here I come!
You aren’t alone, I’m in that same spot again too 🫶❤️🩹
;-;
I'm really sorry to all the people who understood the film just by the title.
I feel called out/j
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@@ZipAndChipsame
Praying for you all 💕
as someone who struggles with self harm, the acting is killing me and im struggling to finish it 😭😭
Oof. I will be praying for you (even if ur not Christian)
@@Christian_Girl1214”Oof” isn’t the right thing to say to someone who sh’s. Please consider that.
Sorry. I didn’t mean it in that way. I genuinely am worried and feel bad for them
@@sunnamoon2092I don’t think it had bad intentions at all.
@@olooliebelleo1968 I never said they had bad intention, I was saying "oof” is not something to say to someone who s/h’s
The acting wasn’t great but the camera work was really good how it focused on everyone else wearing short sleeves and then the scene(s) where she was watching her brother eat so comfortably and how she wished she was that comfortable eating showed on her face. The comments the mum made about going to the gym to burn off the cals or how the cupcakes went straight to the thighs were done quite well and the girls reaction to that was really realistic and well done. The way they portrayed ED’s and SH portrayed was very good.
Yeah it was ok! But the script was..meh
The main girl was really good tho @@Sponey_n_akira
@@mulethedonkey2579 yeah she was good! ^^
@@mulethedonkey2579nah her crying was so bad
the brothers acting was pretty good
Something people who SH on their arms can relate to that's never talked about is the jealousy of seeing people wear short sleeves. I'm glad someone finally portrayed that aspect
Omg yea I would be sweating and I would literally dream of going outside with short sleeves
👍👍👍 i was so related ,i was cutting my heands,till summer came,than i was cutting somewhere that people can't see
@@zoradjurdjevic9987 right. I switched to the thigh. When i used to cut on my hand, i used to feel so jealous of other people wearing short sleeves. I switched very early, but i still have some scars. I have a 7 yrs long history and just SH'ed, increasing it by day after day.
@@PikaGaming24 🙁
I stopped caring. I wear short sleeves and no one says anything. Pretty sure they are scared to
I loved this so much. The only thing that would have changed is the way Kylie cried. I really thought she was laughing at first.
Yea same. And that made me so confused
all the little imperfections made me feel a little crazy, but it didn't take away from my experience too much, the plot is already disturbing.
even the subtitles said laughing
@@HippoGurll99 😢😢😣😣😣
Same
As someone who has gone through ed and sh this was portrayed perfectly, acting wasn't too bad and story came across very well. The chills I felt down my spine with the cupcakes scene was absolutely portrayed so well, the fear and intensity, the build up of it all just to end with what happened in the scene afterwards. Great work and hope future works have meanings as well written as this.
You don't have to be nice. The acting was horrible.
@@roahthecowYou don’t have to be mean. It wasn’t that bad
acting was ok, the script was a monstrosity
@@theblackfamily472 Opinion ≠ hate
I LOVE YOUR TWEEK PFP 😭
The brothers chewing….I can’t even
Enrages me
Same I literally smashed the mute button I was wondering if anybody would comment this
I think it was amplified on purpose
@@zerian80it’s so bad and obviously added again
I think it’s deliberate, personally, I have an ED and whenever someone eats I can hear it so loudly and I’m hyper focused on it, I find myself almost disgusted by it. That’s just my experience, but it might be hers too- great job to all involved ❤
Little story time: I struggled with SH in middle school and I always wore a long sleeve black hoodie even when it was hot outside. One time my class came in from “recess” and I was honestly about to pass out because of how hot it was out there and how long we were out there for. My teacher noticed me and he looked at me with such compassion and gave me a cold bottle of water. Idk if he knew I was going through something (other than a heat stroke) but I’m grateful for him.
Oof hope you recovered
I'm still cutting in school which it feels like an addiction and is hard to stop
@@Daniel-br7ku honestly the only thing that saved me from suicide attempts and self harm was Jesus Christ. I had an encounter with God and experienced a love I’ve never encountered before that changed me forever. I used to feel like there was darkness all around me and inside of me that I couldn’t get rid of, but as soon as I gave my life to Jesus it was like light came in. It would be careless of me to not tell you the truth of what I went through to get me to where I am now so I wanted to share some of my story with you. I pray that you also encounter Jesus and the freedom you can only find in Him. My heart goes out to you and you are loved beyond what you know♥️
I did also but again I hurted myself (scratched head badly). I survived one day without and other I couldnt anymore. It feels weird for me to not be stressed, anxious or depressed. Feels weird to be happy not worried constantly, to be "normal".@@makayladavidson5459
The brother saying “I’m here” just got me crying
I’m not about to cry at all…..
Same tears are streaming down my eyes rn
Fr the parallels to my real life have me sobbing!!
ok so like I can tell a lot of heart and effort went into this and I really respect that but the script is...not it.....
Yeah like the idea is good but the acting is um...
Oof with the mom
For real the mum was testing me
yeah the dialogue omg 💀
@@shanacharlie9940 ¨my word, child¨ --🤖
I know it’s a small detail, but I love how the eating noises were emphasised
i hate them sm like it keeps me motivated to not eat but theyre rlly good for the film
my misophonia made me want to claw my ears out but glad you love it😭
@@rasberrylemonad_same 😭
@@rasberrylemonad_I'm sorry if it sounds mean, but hearing someone saying they have misophonia makes me a little happy bc it shows me that I'm not the only one suffering from this, it makes me not feel alone anymore
Saddest thing is that mom had no idea. She thought her kids were okay... my shoulders, thighs and arms would tell a story themselves. Love to you all still struggling like me.
I am struggling with depression but not self harm. Thankfully I have reached a point where i have done it
I agree with u and as a person who has done self harm i feel that the mom knew something was off but she chose to ignore it. Thats what happened to me.
This made me cry. When the brother came up to the door and said "im here", I just felt so comforted. I want someone to care for me like that.
If something is happening, you have us even though not physically close but digitally.
The part where she cried at the door when her brother said “I’m here” made me cry. I’ve been through the same thing as she has, and I’ve never felt that I’ve ever had someone to talk to… this is nice
You got this pal
The brother character/actor is amazing: he seems at first only focus on the food, eating as much as he can; but, between bites, he's realizing something is off. In fact, he understood everything and he's... there. Just there. Alazing.
I think having the brother wear no sleeves is a good touch.
I almost got emotional watching this lol
The acting was a little off here and there but that doesn't take away from the meaning of the story
As someone who's dealt with an eating disorder off and on throughout the years and is still struggling with self-harm, to see someone suffering silently like I did but have support by her side even when she didn't realize it at first, it gives me hope that I can find that someone
I wish I had that person to lean on, but I'm still getting through it everyday on my own and with help from time to time.
You're never truly alone
Proud of you! Keep going, we're here ❤
I hope things get better for you. If you ever need us, you can vent your emotions out and we’ll listen.
Thanks, also you got this.
i started crying when she did. im very emotional 😭
As someone who’s only mental health support is my brother, the brother just saying “I’m here” in the short film reminded me so much of my own life. Immediately crying.
Why the fuck is every short film "award winner" of something?
The way she started crying after he brother said “I’m here” broke me, i relate to this so much bc my brother does the same thing for me
I love that somehow, the brother knew his sister was struggling, whether he was aware of the specifics or not, and came to just be with her. ❤ I cried when she burst into tears with him on the other side of her door.
The acting is pretty cringe at times but overall this is so well done and love the camera work, very hard hitting and a very accurate representation of EDs and SH.
The mom triggered me so much The LAST thing you to talk about with a teenage girl in this day and age- is the affects of food.
I don’t have an ED (at least I don’t think).
But I’ve tried starving myself. Because my mom always is concerned about my weight because she doesn’t want me to end up like her. She wants to live through me. Skinny and perfect.
But whenever I tried starving myself- She would get worried. And then I would overeat. And I get badly insecure even at the slightest pudge on my stomach even though I don’t believe being pudgy or fat makes you ugly.
I also SH.
This short really did depict what ED feels like.
Buddy, I hate to break it to you, but what you've described sounds like the hurt of someone who is suffering from disordered eating (behaviour). An Ed doesn't have to perfectly fit into some of the knowledge categories to be valid and serious. If the topic of food and nutrition makes you feel anxious, guilty, scared, insecure, troubled, distraught, shaken, tense or anything similar on a level where you can't think about it / eat peacefully, relaxed, calm and confident for the majority of the time, you're suffering from an Ed. It might be different from how others' experiences. But from someone who has only realized at the age of 25 that they where struggling with Ed since their early childhood, you might want to seek out help. Wishing you all the self-compassion of the world, and good luck.
@@StandAloneSoul I don't have an ED, but what you said I would have to agree with
This is insanely relateable
This was perfectly beautiful. The moments of silence and the different angles, the unfocused drawer and then staring at the sleeves. I've felt it all before and I know that feeling so well. Thank you for portraying these struggles such a beautiful film. We can all get through this together
agreed, the drawer scene was unbelievably real and the cupcake scene was beautifully done
THAT ACTING OH NO 😭😭😭
IKK
“I’m here”
Destroyed me. This is amazing.
“My word child.”
“Goodness my child”
Pffft I cant
The mom is really not a very good actress.
Yeah I immediately singled her out, she speaks like a sick Victorian child and not in a good way either 😂
neither was kylies acting tbh but the story lines pretty well made
goodness my child 😂
what??@@itstired15
I know it’s probably supposed to be emotional, but I can’t take it seriously with her acting. The loud chewing noises annoy me, even though I don’t have misophonia.
i wish i had someone to tell me “im here” and really mean it
Real
Honestly love this, and I think it was portrayed really good. But I’d also love to see a version where the family just basically ignores the fact that anything is happening.
"These things 'ill go straight to your thighs." Annndd there it is. I was waiting for the comment that makes you want to puke it all up and never eat again.
The crying after throwing up is really accurate
What the hell was her mother thinking saying all that with the cupcakes?! Even with noticing the restriction behavior she portrays like it was a deliberate test . In the ED mindset, Kylie feels she failed and, therefore, must punish herself. Loved the brother, love how attentive he was to the clues right away and his non-judgemental support ❤
I destroyed both my arms, back and stomach with razors, knifes, you named, now I got sick and for the first time in my life I'm not sickly thin, because I didn't knew I used to walk to burn fat, walk for hours since kid, so I never restricted my diet, now I'm taking appetite suppressors and only drinking tea, I never exercised in my life, now I'm learning how to at home... The long sleeves, the baggy pants, the hoodie, I don't know if I use to protect myselr, or push people away.
I'm in solitary confinement, unable to have a life, or if I want one, and Im the one with the key, and I still don't know if I want to get out, because I think is the worst human trait, adaptability. You can survive in a dark, lonely, sad house... And that is scary. The monsters are with you, all the time, and even this is comforting...
I know exackly what you mean. Your not alone mate. I highly suggest you get help. There are a lot of great hotlines to call as well.
Killerpunchline, there's a person to call on, who loves and cares for you deeply. His Name is Jesus. He sticks closer than this beautiful brother in the movie and can help chase away the monsters. He's borne scars on his back for you and much more. Call to Him and let Him free you.
@Asibi Ofori not everyone is religious...
@@attic.rat. You're right. Jesus was never about religion, but about getting people back in real relationship with God. I'm sorry we've often not demonstrated His heart accurately.
@@irokkoltd.9330 Theres no god bro. No god would make people suffer like that. No god would make people die from cancer, kids die from those illnes
The depressed girl reading percy jackson is the most real part of this tbh
Honestly I'm at a lost of words. The way you guys were able to use sound, different camera angles, and music to be able to express theme of this film was absolutely impressive! Definitely continue making more films
This is amazing. The fact that the brother cared that much and just knew that kylie needed someone. Dude it brought me to tears.
Amazing I want a whole movie!
This film acting may be off but message comes thru and that's the point. I think we choose to ignore a lot of signs about ourselves and others just due to fear of shame and disappointment. Talk to someone, seek help. I say with 100% honesty, it's not easy to open up and never to anyone and everyone. Find things and people who give you strength.
Okay the acting may not have been the best ever but the scene when she was throwing up in the bathroom made my sides ache like they used to and i got that cold empty feeling that you get when you drink water and iced coffee on an empty stomach. Really realistic and just an overall great short film.
Man take that award back
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//mentions of self harm and mental health (same stuff as video content)
I dont have an eating disorder but I do struggle to eat at times especially around others. During high school I stopped eating lunches and began skipping breakfast every day of the week, while eating dinner with my family. I feel like I could relate to her there, a lot.
During much of middle and high school years I cut my arms, legs, neck, and face... and my arms still have ugly, noticeable scars. Its never something I talked to anyone about, and my family still doesn't know. I was that weird kid who always wore long sleeves and pants, even on the hottest days or during my sports. It was miserable.
None of those things have I talked about before to anyone. They were habits and coping mechanisms. I didn't eat because I couldn't, I felt undeserving, and the food made me feel self-conscious. I cut myself because it was punishment. I hated myself.
All the time I was crying... a lot of traumatizing and unhappy things happened in my life. Ive blocked a lot of them out but my feelings have remained. Most of the time I just don't know why Im sad anymore. Not sure if I prefer it this way.
For the first time Im getting therapy for all this. I'm super lucky to have this opportunity. Ive never talked to anyone about how serious my issues are, not even with friends. For anyone else struggling, I advise you get help.
But there is one important thing Ive learned in my years; the only real help you will ever get is from yourself. Help yourself.
sorry for my long, self invested comment. I liked this video a lot.
Sending lots of love to everyone in need
...this may sound odd and i don't want to make this about me but dang your story is a lot like mine and reading that someone with the same struggles can get help... idk it just made me feel not alone. Thank you. Wish you the best in life and your healing journey. 🧡
Thank you so much, and you too
@@DictatoRatI’m in hs rn and my eating habits are like Al,ost exactly how urs were and also the self harm and feeling like u can’t talk to anyone about it Ty for ur comment
@@Meganthemalehand Thats tough to handle, Im wishing you the best and for you to pull through strong
@@DictatoRat thanks wishing u the best too!
Imo this😮 was very well put together and well-done loved the darkness in the setting where she sat portraying the gloom she felt about her eatinf disorder and the care & concern her brother showed without her saying a word ... great job! Loved it ❤
Bro I watched it with subtitles (cause I'm deaf) and during the bathroom scene where she throws up they literally said "laughs" when she was crying...
tf
Idk abt the iq of ai. Aren't they meant to be smart!? 😂😂😂
Yeah it even looks like she’s laughing and smiling, which makes her look insane lmao
who purges with the door open
fr 😂
Ikr
It’s so they can’t film it ig?
If they wanted to film it, they should’ve filmed it from the inside behind her so it wouldn’t show the open door
i practically cried just by watching a 6 minute video. it deserves the award
i struggle with sh. one thing that screws me over is how my mom announces it to get pity for having a child who does this stuff.i still struggle, and im only a week clean. i try not to do it and just cry. i used to think, "if i have scars inside, why not outside." i wont answer this. i'll let you the reader fill in the blanks. but one thing is, the way god gave me a house when i didnt have, food when i didnt have, friends when i didnt have, and a father when i didnt have, he'll give me life and hope. im only 13, but i have the mind and experience of a 80 year old. i didnt have a childhood, developing depression at the age of 8, but im working hard and i find ways to smile and not just faking it. i hope anyone reading this knows that someone, you met or have yet to meet, loves you so much and would be sad if anything happened to you. your skin isnt paper, dont cut it. your face isnt a mask, dont cover it. your body isnt a book, dont judge it. your life isnt a movie, dont end it. your heart isnt a door, dont look it. not many people read my comments, but im sure you did because you needed to hear this.
This perfectly captures ed and sh. When Kylie was at the door and started crying as her brother said ‘I’m here’- I started to cry. She just broke and I feel so connected to her. Thank you, this was beautiful!
The scene of her crying in the bathroom after purging really got me, it reminded me of the worst days of my bulimia where I would binge/purge in the single stall bathroom in my college dorm, it felt so isolating being locked away ruining my body while my friends are all having a grand time in the common room with yummy snacks :(
I have emetophobia and I really can’t deal with sick, it triggers me. But I struggle with how much I eat, and I feel so wrong to be eating and not getting rid of it. But I can’t purge or else I’ll feel worse.
I've spent quite a while trying to talk about my girlfriend, she went through this unfortunately and I was there watching her all the way until she got better; im so proud of her, I love my baby honestly. This made me cry.
I don't mean to be rude or intrusive, but how did you help her with that? I have a friend who's going thru the same thing and I just don't know how to help
The part when the brother came to her is the moment when I started crying, as someone who have deal with SH It was heartbreaking that no one ever saw it, but her brother did saw it and he doesn't need to say something to her to make her know that he is with her, and my heart feel pure for a little.
Loved the acting of the brother 🥰, I could see he really cares about his sister(s)
"im here" SENT ME I START CRYING
I think the acting was good, and the mood shifts while eating the cupcake and when seeing the dresser (which I assume holds tools for sh) were plain accurate to a T.
Her brother's expression when he realises she is struggling at the table, and the moment she bursts into further crying after he consoles her at the door were also really well done.
I also loved the detail of her not being able/willing to eat breakfast, but then managing to justify eating the tasty cupcake and looking genuinely happy while doing so, until her mother ruins it for her with the comments. It reflects really well that restrictive eds don't mean you can never ever enjoy a reasonable meal or treat, but that this occasional enjoyment is incredibly fragile and fleeting.
I feel like I don't often see that represented, usually what is shown is extremely restrictive behaviours and the stereotypical consequences like tiredness, brain fog and fainting and then sometimes a resulting binge and purging.
This was more focused on the whirlwind of emotions - from anxious to happy to being consumed by guilt - one can go through even just within eating a few bites, and I really appreciate that being the centre.
I relate to this film so much. Thank you for creating it
❤❤ love & light❤❤
I just knew why it was called Long Sleeves...everyone asking me why I always wore long sleeves...
I used to always wear long sleeves.
I like how Kylie was smiling when downstairs, how she looked genuinely fine and happy
damn this made me shed more than a few tears man..was going back over 2020 - 2021 photo album and seeing me in long sleeves in the middle of summer and as a recovered sh it felt weird to remember i cann wear short sleeves now
This is devastating and portrays a message that needs to be discussed, as someone who has struggled with this, its good to have more representation out there. Things must change in the world and we all have to do something about it.
this was so good. especially the mom's acting
Definitely
sarcasm?
@@pumkitdrawz yes
Most definitely
this is actually so real. i genuinely almost cried
I've watched this a couple times. I just realized the brother grabbed two of the cupcakes. Also I genuinely love this film.
Also, genuinely hard to tell if she's laughing or crying in the scene where she's throwing up..
i started crying when he said im here.
THE PAIN of when they offerd you your favorite food.
The fact that her brother noticed the signs within a mere few minutes while the mother was focused on other stuff, even making a comment about body sizes
As someone who has been dealing with anorexia for 1 year and self harm for 2 years, everything about this is real.
it’s really good to have this kind of representation out there on mental health issues and struggles that need to be talked about more
As somebody who went through sh, this film is very well made. Thankfully I can't relate to the ed part, since whenever I notice something is wrong with the way I see eating I do my best to stop those thoughts before it becomes something bigger.
For all the people out there struggling, I just want you to know that fighting is really worth it. It might seem like nobody is there for you and it will never get better, I've been there too, but trust me, it does eventually get better. Remember to not be ashamed of going to therapy, and if you're a minor seek help from people that actually can help you, if not your parents then maybe a different adult that you trust. Maybe your auntie/uncle, older sibling or a good teacher.
Just know that you are not alone in this, and there will always be someone who loves and cares about you
As someone who sh on their arms, I love how this portrays about the need of wearing long sleeves, despite it being so uncomfortable. I usually wear long sleeves or shirts with sleeves that cover half of my arms. It's so annoying. It's like an addiction you can't stop, and I get incredibly jealous when someone is able to wear short sleeves. I've gotten so used to it that when my scars finally healed after weeks, I put on short sleeves only to feel so...naked. That's why I always wear long sleeves even if it feels like I'm going to pass out, so I love how this short film portrays that.
4:40 great angle! Very good short film in general.
Josh, this was excellent. Truly. I am amazed by the actors. It was sensitive, but thank you for the courage to make a short like this.
This is so sad. Also I'm not surprised that this film won an award. it was really good!!
The crying sounded like laughing-
Its so incredibly obvious that no one who wrote this has ever self harmed
i luv this. but tip for the actress in the role of the mother, try to exaggerate more :) it feels a bit unnatural when you’re saying things like “ thats all i ever see you eat” putting intonation in the voice and exaggerating movements to a realistic amount can help lots! im not an actress but i am an animator and artist ❤❤❤
as some who never did the ‘valid type’ of sh, to struggling with it horribly always wearing long pants and sleeves never wanting to go outside and now to someone who ofc thought about relapsing but hasn’t for a year now (I always feel teary after realising this). i feel i’m the perfect example that it really does get better. It may not feel like it at that moment, that everything’s and everyone is rude and horrible but once you start helping yourself you’ll realise the world is beautiful, people are beautiful and there’s someone out there waiting for you, waiting for you to help yourself so they can push you just that little bit more. so you’ll finally feel happy.
whatever happens you’re vaild for feeling this way, i’m proud of you for being here, being able to read this comment. the world sucks, ofc, but once you realise that this is only temporary, the pain you’re feeling is temporary, life becomes happier. if no one’s said it today, i’m proud of you. proud of you for being strong and fighting through this because there is a light at the end of the tunnel, it’s just up to you to find it.
🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍
Lord that’s the worst thing to say to someone with an ed, I’d know, I have one. But saying things like, “I knew you can’t resist this food.” Or the other stuff the mom said, is REALLY triggering. That would also have me in tears.
"goodness my child" god i cant the acting is killing me
i love how its also talking about eating disoerder and how hard it really is to just eat a cupcake
I always love coming back to videos like this.
im sorry but her acting when she's in the bathroom is sos bad she's legit smiling 😭
Some people ‘smile’ while they cry. Usually when they try to suppress it.
It's like that in every film. They look like they're laughing but they're crying.
"long sleeves again darling, my word child" "cocoa, chocolate" what award did this win? Josh, I would like a word
The way I started sobbing and I don’t ever cry watching videos
I love the power in this. Very impactful, even to someone who has no personal experience with some of these topics. Bravo.
Once when i was i was six years old, i kept asking for a second peice of cake on my brother’s birthday, and my mom got mad so she threw the cake at me and said “ eat it! Just eat it all, since you obviously can’t resist yourself!” She has made comments like this throughout my whole childhood up until now ( im 13) like “ you can’t stop eating” or “just eat it all, like usual “. And it really really effected me, i have eating problems now, i work out so much and i can’t help it, so i get this film. Alot.
oh thats horrible...i get what u mean tho- hv u told anyone close to u how ur feeling? it really helps to vent it out and have someone by ur side
@@FREEPALESTINE642 No i don’t really talk about that stuff to anyone, idk it just ackward for me to talk about my emotions even to my friends :(
I've never had an Ed but this looks like a truly horrible and heartbreaking thing to go through...
Edit: So some things have happened and I'm not doing to good.... I will be removing the part in my comment saying that I've never Sh... and I'm currently not to sure about the Ed
You can make it through!
@@monsap79
Started watching these and knew I was spiraling down again. Cut to fat today and had a full blown panic attack during gym. First time I watched this video I was wondering why she was smiling while crying. Now I know. Even through all the times I’ve cried, my panic attacks, I’ve never stopped smiling. I’m so used to pretending I’m ok that even at my lowest I still am. I pushed everyone away and told them I was fine. I completely ignored my guidance counselor and smiled telling her I was fine. But I’m really really not.
omg....ru doing better?
@@FREEPALESTINE642 Oopsies I forgot about this sorry and yeah I’m doing much better. A couple hours clean :)
Okay but why is she so good at purging tho 😭
I'm jealous
no legit like. i wanna do that
This movie hits hard, I used to self harm and had anorexia for 5 years, the thoughts have never completely gone away, but they get a bit easier to control and deal with.
I burst into tears when her brother said “I’m here”..my older brother is an adult and lives in another state and we’re not very close because I didn’t get to see him growing up. All I want is for me to have a close bond with him. I also know how painful it is to look at the scars that still haven’t healed. It’s painful knowing your doing that to yourself behind your family’s back. I stared SH when I was 13 now it’s 2024. I don’t eat as much I used to and I don’t drink a lot of water which causes headaches, dizziness and nausea. I also feel hopeless everyday, even going shopping isn’t that enjoyable anymore because as soon as the moments over I go back to feeling like $h!t. The only person who knows about my SH is my family friend (who we call our older brother) and a few of my friends. Other than that no one knows, and to be honest I don’t think any of my friends really care. I haven’t told my best friend that I relapsed because she’s far away and I don’t want her worrying about me. I feel bad but I also don’t wanna do that to her. School is really tough, I’m desperately trying to get two of my grades up before the school year ends and it’s stressing me tf out. All of my friends are ignoring me so I feel beyond lonely. I don’t know who to trust because they’re all fake so yeah. Life’s going great.
Sorry for the crazy vent but thank you so much to anyone who reads this♥️
dang...i feel u- have u tried telling someone? a close friend? btw did u drink any water today, or eat anything?🤨
how is this award winning omg 💀
I loved this. The sugar comment got me. I wasn't expecting it and it was super realistic. Unrelated but when kylie was in her room I looked at the books (just being curious) and saw pjo books, whoever's room this was filmed in, you have good taste in books.
That cinematography wow this is very inspirational and memorable
i struggle w the same thing but it hasnt been bad enough lately. If i get caught doing this then i get hit or yelled at and its hard to get privacy bc i live in a studio and my mom is an enabler i hate myself so much and it doesnt help that kids are so mean im in middle school and i was perfectly happy and confident till this yr when kids started saying stuff and it hurts so bad
their words hurt u and then they ask u why u have no self esteem
Edit: u guys are so nice
I’m glad it hasn’t been as bad lately :) I’d recommend maybe try talking to online therapists. Maybe in between classes, during lunch, or whenever you get the most privacy. I’m always available to talk on discord if you’d like, but if not then I totally understand.
@@kitkat_7466 tysm u r so kind
@@kishlakstan :)
i know how you feel, i too have sooooo low self esteem, i am even scared of going out but i always say to myself that day are going to be better and that everything is going to be okay. I am glad that things are getting better for you and i hope that you will love yourself one day because you deserve to be loved :)
(And dont take kids seriously, some kids are just assholes.)
I’m in middle school too and the kids where im from are really horrible too. I’m glad that it hasn’t been as bad recently and i hope it gets better for u
I haven't done anything to myself since middle school (5 or 6 years ago now, I think). I stopped cold turkey when my dad caught it- spooked the hell out of me to see his reaction. I never once considered the he might see it. You really normalize something when you do it for a while, and even romanticize the action in your head. It feels good to have a reminder that your actions and feelings can be reflected on your body, but it's not at all worth it when someone you genuinely love more than anything else sees it and just keeps asking "why".
As much as the acting and script could have a touching up, I really liked how it was handled with the brother and how he approahced the situation.
I personally suffer from this and it's hard, but ik people are there for me.
The fact that a lot of what she did like not eating and not going out much, I saw that I do that I do that and I've been struggling with my own battle recently as well just never forget there is always someone there for you even if you don't know it yet
Omg I felt chills go down my back like three times and I was crying at “I’m here.”