God bless you for sharing your story. You are incredibly strong. I lost my daughter at 38 weeks and her cord was all knotted, still so hard after 26 years. Our Angels are watching over us.
I am so sorry for your loss! Prayers to you all🙏🏼 Not sure if you’ve ever heard of Still A Part Of Us but I think it might be a great place for you. It’s a wonderful community hosted by a beautiful couple that also had a baby that was born still 👼
I lost my son Rowan almost a month ago... I was 36 weeks pregnant when I didn't feel him moving any more. Today is his due date... and he was our rainbow baby so it's been very difficult to live with this. I was so prepared to be a mum that I don't know if I can be anything else... we miss him terribly. 😢
I’m so incredibly sorry Lauren. Love, prayers, hugs being sent your way. This video is beyond brave. I really admire you for sharing your personal story, it was so meaningful and educational. Xo ~Lindsay
My. Love and prayers are with you. I have not experienced the loss of a baby but my youngest son had 3 separate weeks in hospital between 6months and 12months with asthma allergy pneumonia. Then just the weekend before his 2nd bday he had his first gran mal seizure. It affected him like a stroke sending him back to birth in sall ways developmentally. He now is turning 41. We spent 7 yrs ago every week going 65 miles one way for all three ot, pt, st. Plus school, local,and state provided therapy. There was someone with him continually, and of his toys , were some item to encourage him in an area of need. He never spoke well until 8+ yrs. he at 7 was his brother 's ring bearer and we were concerned he might tumble as he walked the aisle. But praise God he did not. At times now he still repeats a few words when he is rushed. He still has trouble walking at long distances or standing to long. The last 4 or 5 yrs at Christmas programs he has read the Christmas story from the book of Luke from the Bible. He is able to speak the big words and everyone understanding what he speaks. He is high level function, with special needs classes in public school main streamed. He attended the same hometown school system from kindergarten through 12th graduation. When he joined his classmates to cross the stage someone unaware of his condition would not been able to tell him from the others. He currently has been living in a 8 man group home. He has a job, goes to movies, local events, his own church. He has lived there now almost 16 years. He participates in Special Olympics,makes choices in his own activities, job, He. Is gentle, polite, intelligent, thoughtful. As your son, his strong point alway was finding ways to make you understand what he wants to convey. Even if he had to drag you it and show it to you. For up to 6to 7 yrs at times he would only say aye for yes and oh for no. So we had many one sided conversations. My proudest moments are. Still when calls on the phone and we have a conversation. Upon ending it he will say "love too" or leaving a message and say " mom this is Josh call me love you". I will continue to pray for you and your family. God has a plan for the boys future. Jeremiah 29:11. We never understand why these things happen with the short lives of the little one. I pray God will give you Have is peace and grace. I Pray this gives you hope for the little one with speech issues also they other also.God blessing for you.
Thank you for sharing your pain and your journey with your son with us. You are gifting many moms and dads with your sharing of this, because where do we go to express this pain and be really REALLY heard? You've opened that healing door for all of us. Thank you!
Lauren, I'm sorry you and your family went through this--but I love how you love to talk about Evers!!! He may not be here on earth with you, but he is always with you--he is your baby boy!! I am happy for your trip to Disney in May--enjoy every second! Thank you for sharing your story!!
Lauren I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for having the courage to share your story. I lost a baby many years ago and to be truthful Losing babies were not talked about then like they are now. There is a lot of healing in sharing your journey. Your baby boy well live on in your heart. I’ll be praying for you and your family. You are a very courageous women. Blessing to you and your family. 💕
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son. Watching this video brought back all the pain and suffering I felt when I lost my child many decades ago. I know how you are suffering. The prevailing attitude back then was get over it and move on. I was so alone in my grief and nobody wanted to discuss it with me. I am so glad that grieving parents now have emotional support. It does not lessen your grief and pain. But I am glad you have support and platforms and groups to help you work through your grief. I will hold you and your family in prayer.
*Happy belated 7th birthday Ryder.* 🎂 I just came across this video and I wanted to say, thank you so much for sharing your story with us. You and so many other brave women, really are helping others who are also struggling with loss. I myself came to UA-cam when I experienced my own personal loss and I can honestly say these stories helped me so very much, throughout the entire process of my miscarriage. I felt understood more so with these strangers on UA-cam, than with my own family and friends who have never experienced anything like what I was going through. Thanks again for sharing. Such a beautiful story. ♥️
My heart goes out to you. I am so so sorry this happened to you. My daughter lost her baby girl unexpectedly at birth in 2019. She had been laboring for twenty-four hours trying to deliver vaginally. Nurse checked her and felt like baby girl had flipped. So they recommended a c-section. No rushing, everyone was calm. As soon as little girl was lifted out of her mama and they cut the cord her little heart stopped. She never cried. Wonderful anticipation and joy swiftly turned into shock and horror. So surreal. God bless you and your family as you heal
We had a stillborn son that was 10 day's early. You seem to be handling it very well being able to laugh and smile. 4 months after this awful thing happened to us I smiled for the 1st time my husband was overjoyed over that short smile. It was a few more month's before I laughed. If not for our 2 other children I seriously would have lost my mind.
I live in California and love Disneyland! My daughter took my for my 60th birthday 4 years ago. The best part was having my granddaughter who was 5 and get to enjoy it with her. The boys were too young to go on many rides, so my daughter left them home. I had never been at Christmas time, and it was so magical!
I am 70 and I had 1 miscarriage and a term stillbirth before my 2 rainbow kids now 46 & 43. And although the grief doesn’t haunt me its always with me, even all these years later. I know how you feel. Hollow, profoundly sad and you wonder how long it will hurt so. The answer is it will always hurt, not quite as painfilled but healing takes a long time. So many if us have experienced this. Please look for Stefanie And Kameron on youtube as she had her still birth last year. May you life going forward be filled with joy. Happiness helps one heal.
I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and blessings your way. You son is beautiful. Thank you for being so strong and sharing. God please be you and give you done peace in all this.
Hun I’m so sorry, unfortunately I’ve been thru it, his heart stopped at almost 39 weeks and never were able to find out why. The pain is so deep that it never heals or gets better I just found a different way to live which is living with the pain. Hardest thing I’ve ever went thru in my entire life. Sending you loves and deepest condolences 💐 take care of yourself! Xoxo
Sassy… I send my heart felt love to you too, for the loss and pain you’ve been through and will continue to deal with every day. I don’t know what to say. I just wanted to say something. I went through years of infertility treatments and was never blessed with a child. I struggle with the fact I will never be called MOM. 💔 I can’t compare my pain to yours by any means. I grieve the loss of children I never had. You grieve a beautiful Angel baby that lives with Jesus. It’s all hard. It’s all difficult. But none of us are alone. You will be with your baby boy for eternity ✨✨✨ don’t forget that. I wish for you peace, comfort, happiness and joy. Your Angel wants that for you. 🌟💫⭐️ from one stranger to another- you are my sister through Christ. We are both children of God. I love you 💕
I’m a first time viewer, what a beautiful way to honor your baby boy, thank you for sharing him with the world. I was a Behavioral Specialist for almost 30 years and am the grandmother of 5, 2 of which are on the autism spectrum. You’ve got this mom! I have a Disney question, 🙋🏼♀️ Looking for the blue Cinderella Dishes from the Home store, I went back to purchase them the year they first came out and they were all gone. Have a wonderful trip to the Happiest Place on Earth! Sending you a Big ((HUG))
I am so very sorry for your loss of your baby boy. Thank you for sharing Evers story. It took a lot of courage and love on your part. Your momma’s love shines though. I pray for God’s comfort for you and your family as you walk this path.
So very sorry for your loss! I know that losing your child is the hardest thing any parent can ever have to endure! I am sending you lots of love and prayers and hugs ❤🙏💔💞👼to try and help you through this difficult time !
Thank you for sharing Ever’s with us he is an absolutely beautiful baby boy& so chubby which makes him even that much cuter! You are one special momma that he chose you as his mommy. With all my love & heart sending you the brightest of lights to help keep you on the right path. Take care please
My daughter has 3 children all with August birthdays! My birthday is also in August, and it is actually my 10 year old granddaughter’s gotcha day! My daughter went on to have 2 biological boys that are actually miracles. After the last birthday party. My daughter takes a sigh of relief that birthday season is over! We are truly blessed!
Dearest Lauren 🌹This is my very first time on your YT channel, and would just like to say - Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️ for your utterly raw, emotional, and heart wrenching story of your "journey" through miscarriage. 😭 You literally got me crying along side you.😭 I have not lost a child, however I know the agonising pain from when I lost my mother in 2014. I am in no way a religious person, but I am 100% certain that Evers is smiling while looking down at you all, keeping you safe and out of harms way 🙏 I hope that you along the road find peace and tranquility, so that you can "live" again and rejoice in life, while still holding Evers in your heart💙 and treasuring his memory. 🤗🙏 Most importantly, allow yourselves time and space, to mourn and find some peace of mind with your loss. 🙏🌹 Lots of love and hugs from Hanne in Denmark.
I love this video and open door to speak of infant loss. Evers is such a beautiful little boy and I love his name. I’m so sorry to hear about your loss but that doesn’t mean that he left any smaller of an imprint on this world. I feel so much love for him and your special family. You are an incredible family. God bless you and yours sweetheart. I will be praying for you 🙏🏼💙
This is my first time watching you and I love you already 🩷 I’m so very sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing ❤️You seem like a very sweet young lady 🙏
Wishing you the happiest trip in May with your family. I wish I could hug you so much! You are an amazing woman and mother. Sending any prayers and thoughts I can.
I’m so very sorry that you’re having to walk through this. This past November I was 41 weeks and my perfectly healthy daughter died. She had a very tight knot in her cord. It was never noticed in any of the several ultrasounds that I had. Feel free to message me if you want to talk. I know exactly how horribly painful this is.
Hey, I'm soooooo sorry of your pain and loss of your beautiful baby!!! It's a mother's worst nightmare, I feel your pain. Your such a beautiful person inside and out! So wish I could hug you tight. Im sending you big hugs,love and energy 💕I believe he's with you always. Sending love to your boys too and I hope they have a beautiful life with their caring mummy. Thinking of you all 💗💔 Thanks for video 💙 very hard to do.💗
So sorry for you & your families loss 😢 sending you prayers 🙏 I didn’t have a still birth but I lost my son at 12 weeks & needed a D&C. It was horrible. I had 2 sons before w/no problems so it through me ( we weren’t trying, I was actually in nursing school) I went on to have 2 more boys! Hope you’re enjoying Disney! ❤️🖤
We've never been able to afford to go to Disney but I hope one day I will be able to give my 2 boys that experience and make those special Disney memories with them. I WILL make it happen one day. I bet your family is so excited to go, especially for your son's birthday celebration. What an amazing birthday present. 🥳 I'm sure it's much needed for you as well, to go to the happiest place on earth after going through so much recently. I hope you all have a safe trip. Have fun!! Enjoy every moment, time flies when you're having fun. 😊
I'm so sorry you have to go through the rest of your life without your son. My heart just bleeds for you. I can't say I know how you feel because I've no idea. If it does make any sense at all I remember my grandma telling my aunt who lost twin boys that God decided they were just to good for this world. God bless you lady.
Thanks for sharing anytime you need to talk about him just need to cry or the grief is overwhelming we are here I will keep you in my prayers remember God is walk with you and your family
I had a full term 39 week stillbirth. Had just been to my OB weekly appointment. Heard his heartbeat. 2 days later I went into labor. Got to the ER and when they put the monitor on me they told me he had no heartbeat. They sent me up to labor and delivery where I gave birth to my baby boy, Jason. He was born and I heard them say, "The cord is wrapped around his neck." And they knocked me out.
I heard this from another Angel MOMMY she said her baby was extra active & that is something they are saying was now something to also watch as much as decreased movement as well. I am absolutely beyond sorry for this tragedy & the different life you know as your life ss s Angel Mom ❤ I just have to believe the Lil ones that have life within the womb but do not have life beyond are God special chosen souls to skip this phase where they are born perfect & sinless. God needed him for his purpose & God chose you ( Like Mary in a sense to carry his special chosen one for a purpose beyond this space & time. You will join him in his world in God's time & plan... hurts no less I know ❤ peace & comfort sent you way.. listen & look for his signs he is near :)
I'm so very sorry for your unbelievable loss. My niece lost her full term baby to stillbirth. She had an uneventful pregnancy. Went into labor and when they arrived at the hospital baby Nolan didn't have a heartbeat. It was most likely an umbilical cord accident. Bless you!
Lauren, I'm so sorry for your loss- I will be praying for peace and comfort for you and your family. In the meantime, love him, celebrate him, talk about him, say his name, and grieve him. (Find people who can support you in this). He is a member of your family, so putting his picture on your wall is natural. He knows he has a Mommy and Daddy and two brothers here. Don't be afraid-- It's all OK. You and my daughter, Laureen have much in common with your other children. She has a step daughter who is 12, and three boys all born between 2012-2018. The second boy, Jacob, has autism. He as no real speech, but the sweetest temperament. The youngest, has no cognitive delays, but has apraxia. Much of our lives, like yours, by necessity, revolves around treatments for the kids. Her favorite place is Disneyland too. Grandpa and I took "the littles" for 12 days, so she and daddy could take the older two to Disney World in Nov 2021. She loves pin swapping, and really needs the mental break Disney gives. The younger boys would have been tormented by such a trip from Alaska had they been included. About the treatments for the youngers, I am a registered nurse, and have been by my daughter's side at every doctor's appt, every evaluation, and every IEP. One addition I made the the IEP requirement, which I think EVERY PARENT SHOULD ADD, was that the teacher must send a note home EACH DAY, (even a check list) about what happened, activities, child's behavior, moods, etc. Because these boys are without speech we MUST know what went on during the day, so we can provide continuity of care. When Jacob (now 5) comes home from school, I sit him up to his lunch, open his backpack, read the notes and go through his treasures and chat with him about his day. If he's sung a song at school, grandpa and I talk about the song, "Oh, Grandpa, Jacob sang Old MacDonald today! You know that one, don't you?" Then we break into song. I swear I saw him roll his eyes at us. LOL Now that his younger brother has apraxia, both boys have therapies all week long at school, and two appts each outside school each week. Progress is slow, and motherhood under these circumstances is hard. She's a strong woman, but motherhood is hard. She has been angry, and sad. I've cried with her. I always tell my daughter, there are no accidents or coincidences in life. I am a woman of faith, and I believe these children needed these experiences, and they all needed a safe, loving home, in which to have them. You and Laureen don't know this because of your youth, but a disability is every other family was unheard of when I was a child. Doctors try to say "Oh it just wasn't diagnosed then". I disagree. We knew who lived in our neighborhoods. This phenomena of autism and other disabilities has increased exponentially in the last two decades. Infertility has increased. Stillbirths have increased. The more I watch, the more I believe the Lord in sending these children in the Last Days, so they can have these experiences at the best time in history for them. The same is happening for those who don't really need to stay on the planet. They only need to gain a body, then can move on. He is likely being held right now, by a deceased grandparent. We don't know how the Lord is weaving our lives together, and what we are to learn. We just need to trust Him. We feel blessed to have these little children in our family, and we love them dearly. I know the unknown can be frightening, but I promise you, the Lord will make it worth it all. Your baby will be waiting for you when you make your way back through the veil many years from now. Your baby lived, and he still lives. YOU GAVE HIM LIFE-- LIFE THAT CAN NOT BE TAKEN AWAY BY THIS MORTALITY. YOU WILL HOLD HIM AGAIN!! You will find your joy again--- continue to talk to your baby, as you do all your babies. Please consider reading the scriptures, and let the Lord send you His support through His words. He is mindful of your needs. You're in my prayers.
Seeing this makes me cry , I lost my son at 35 weeks , I didn't feel him move and the worst moment was when I got to the hospital is was told his no more ,am trying so hard to overcome this painful demise of my first born baby , sometimes I do blame myself alot . Son I pray you continue Resting easy and I love you so much
Not sure how I got here--I do watch videos about families and children (my own daughters are grown, so I get my "baby fix" through them). When you started describing the disabilities your children deal with, I really sat up. I have a family member with mild autism, and I can tell you that some of our saving graces have been early diagnosis, schools that are willing to implement an IEP & work closely with the family, and specialists who can address specific issues--not to mention parents who would move mountains for their child. Sounds like you have all of the above, so I see bright futures for your boys. My family member is all grown up, getting his Masters degree and working in cutting-edge robotic design.
Hello Beautiful Lauren,🥀 I first want to say how Courageous and Brave you truly are. I also want to say that It would be false for me to say that I understand how you feel 💯% I don't understand because I have never had to experience a still birth. I can not even imagine. But I can say as a Mommy myself to a beautiful Lil girl. That watching you, and hearing your so sorrowful yet courageous story I can sincerely feel your deep Sorrow. And I am truly sorrowful that you had to experience this. But I would like to tell you while watching, and listening to your story, and crying at times with you. I was shown something in my spirit. And this is what it was. Lauren Sometimes GOD allows painful things to happen to us simply to draw us closer to him. GOD is Sovereign and Ultimately in control, and these beautiful little Miracle Angels ultimately belong to him. We are just so blessed to have been chosen by GOD to L❤️VE, cherish, and care for these precious lil human beings. And I want you to truly find that Peace that can only come from our father GOD in heaven that surpasses all understanding. In Knowing that your Beautiful Lil Ever's is with JESUS and you will see him again one day. But GOD wants all of you Lauren. You and your Husband. You have been Chosen Lady. ❤️❤️❤️
i'm very sorry i lost a baby too but a little differenct though i was in a car accidenct i was 5mths due to the car accidenct the cord was rip off then died she was no more inside of me i was er had to deliver her i was a mess it took me months to feel better but i felt the loss trhough
I tried to look at the Facebook account but it was private so sorry for your loss I went through something similar I was only 26 weeks it was many years ago but you always hold that baby near and dear to your heart Brianna Michelle was her name.. I went on to have four beautiful children... God bless you and Ever and all of your family I'm so sorry for your loss... I regret so much not having pictures it was a long time ago so it was taboo I guess you could say but I hope you and your family heal
Sweet baby Evers..for his entire life inside of you he got to hear your heartbeat and feel your love 💞 I'm so sad that he didn't get to stay with you but I know beyond a shadow doubt that he, along with my best friends 3 tiny miscarried babies, June Baby, Valentina and Noelle, are with Jesus and we will get to be with them for eternity. There is no time in heaven so when baby Evers turns around.. you will be there. 💙🕊 I'm going to go to instagram now so that I can see his beautiful pictures. As a disney fan and wdw passholder I'm so happy you get to come in a couple of weeks. I suffer from depression and a little bit of pixie dust can always lift our spirits and bring moments of joy to our broken hearts. If I ever run into you I will be sure and say hi 💗 Ty for sharing Evers story... I will remember both of you forever 💐
I pray you have another child and it’s a girl I pray god heals you my prayers are with you my son was born with the cord around his neck so glad he didn’t die praise god
I lost my little boy at 20 weeks pg . Also to a subchrionic Haematoma 😨Hospital for 2 weeks before labor started . He was born moving in the sac . Seeing the nurse’s and the Dr’s reaction
No! It is NOT morbid! I lost twin babies almost 32 years ago. It was the most painful heart wrenching thing I've ever been through. It does get easier over time! I wish I would have had more pics taken. (A nurse took them.) I was in horrible shape after it happened. I felt my twins VERY early! It felt like a little tickle at first. Mine were very active as well. Oh, and my sisters had the nerve to get mad at me, at times, and say, "Well, you don't know. You don't have any kids. You're not a mom." I had to finally tell them that I AM a mother, but my children are dead! That shut them up! Some people are just ignorant. Hopefully, you have loving family around you. I actually lost two sets of twins. The first were boys and the second were girls. The first set, I was in my second semester. The second set were almost full term.
I realize you too are suffering a miscarriage or stillbirth,and i am so so sorry for you and yours❤😢 But this is not about you, not right now, lets just give this lovely lady our sympathies for the loss of her son.....MY HEARTFELT CONDOLENCES 💔😭
My friend has a 26 week stillbirth after the death of her first baby and she had a c section because she wanted her uterus out. She couldn’t bare to get pregnant again. She had gotten pregnant with an iud
Both my boys birthdays are one day apart in February and it was not planned at all. My girls are different one was born in January and other in April so altho none were planned it’s funny how all 4 were born in the first 4 months of the year.
Im so Soryfor Your loss of Your Babyand the still birthand that Your other son has autsmMyDeepestsympthathy empthathyand condolgences may My thoughts snd prayers and My Familys Thoughts and Prayers be with You
Crazy Pieces UA-camrs have daughter that sounds just like your son. She got the tablet it worked wonders but she ended up at fore getting lip and tounge ties. And just started talking away. She adds words everyday. Check them out and they answer emails. Sorry if I am being nosy. I had a niece with this problem.
Oh my goodness im sorry you lost your baby. Ive just lost my grown son violently. But your video needs serious editing necause you repeat yourself over and over again. This can be caused by grief but perhaps redo it.
You are so strong for sharing your story!! Sending you lots of love! What a beautiful, beautiful little boy! 💙
God bless you for sharing your story. You are incredibly strong. I lost my daughter at 38 weeks and her cord was all knotted, still so hard after 26 years. Our Angels are watching over us.
I am so sorry for your loss! Prayers to you all🙏🏼 Not sure if you’ve ever heard of Still A Part Of Us but I think it might be a great place for you. It’s a wonderful community hosted by a beautiful couple that also had a baby that was born still 👼
I lost my son Rowan almost a month ago... I was 36 weeks pregnant when I didn't feel him moving any more. Today is his due date... and he was our rainbow baby so it's been very difficult to live with this. I was so prepared to be a mum that I don't know if I can be anything else... we miss him terribly. 😢
May God bless you baby. 🙏
Next pregnancy buy a Doppler. Often times you tell when the baby is in distress via movement and heartbeat
@@schatzfarms4471 I think we will
@@tinawoodard2184 Thank you 💛
Look what I wrote to this Mom. I did not see your comment until after my post... this is for you too & you are a Mommy ...that will never change!!!!❤
Lauren, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story. Hugs from one Disney-loving Mom to another.
I’m so incredibly sorry Lauren. Love, prayers, hugs being sent your way. This video is beyond brave. I really admire you for sharing your personal story, it was so meaningful and educational. Xo ~Lindsay
My. Love and prayers are with you. I have not experienced the loss of a baby but my youngest son had 3 separate weeks in hospital between 6months and 12months with asthma allergy pneumonia. Then just the weekend before his 2nd bday he had his first gran mal seizure. It affected him like a stroke sending him back to birth in sall ways developmentally. He now is turning 41. We spent 7 yrs ago every week going 65 miles one way for all three ot, pt, st. Plus school, local,and state provided therapy. There was someone with him continually, and of his toys , were some item to encourage him in an area of need. He never spoke well until 8+ yrs. he at 7 was his brother 's ring bearer and we were concerned he might tumble as he walked the aisle. But praise God he did not. At times now he still repeats a few words when he is rushed. He still has trouble walking at long distances or standing to long. The last 4 or 5 yrs at Christmas programs he has read the Christmas story from the book of Luke from the Bible. He is able to speak the big words and everyone understanding what he speaks. He is high level function, with special needs classes in public school main streamed. He attended the same hometown school system from kindergarten through 12th graduation. When he joined his classmates to cross the stage someone unaware of his condition would not been able to tell him from the others. He currently has been living in a 8 man group home. He has a job, goes to movies, local events, his own church. He has lived there now almost 16 years. He participates in Special Olympics,makes choices in his own activities, job, He. Is gentle, polite, intelligent, thoughtful. As your son, his strong point alway was finding ways to make you understand what he wants to convey. Even if he had to drag you it and show it to you. For up to 6to 7 yrs at times he would only say aye for yes and oh for no. So we had many one sided conversations. My proudest moments are. Still when calls on the phone and we have a conversation. Upon ending it he will say "love too" or leaving a message and say " mom this is Josh call me love you". I will continue to pray for you and your family. God has a plan for the boys future. Jeremiah 29:11. We never understand why these things happen with the short lives of the little one. I pray God will give you Have is peace and grace. I Pray this gives you hope for the little one with speech issues also they other also.God blessing for you.
Thank you for sharing your pain and your journey with your son with us. You are gifting many moms and dads with your sharing of this, because where do we go to express this pain and be really REALLY heard? You've opened that healing door for all of us. Thank you!
Lauren, I'm sorry you and your family went through this--but I love how you love to talk about Evers!!! He may not be here on earth with you, but he is always with you--he is your baby boy!! I am happy for your trip to Disney in May--enjoy every second! Thank you for sharing your story!!
Lauren I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for having the courage to share your story. I lost a baby many years ago and to be truthful
Losing babies were not talked about then like they are now. There is a lot of healing in sharing your journey. Your baby boy well live on in your heart. I’ll be praying for you and your family. You are a very courageous women.
Blessing to you and your family. 💕
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son. Watching this video brought back all the pain and suffering I felt when I lost my child many decades ago. I know how you are suffering. The prevailing attitude back then was get over it and move on. I was so alone in my grief and nobody wanted to discuss it with me. I am so glad that grieving parents now have emotional support. It does not lessen your grief and pain. But I am glad you have support and platforms and groups to help you work through your grief. I will hold you and your family in prayer.
*Happy belated 7th birthday Ryder.* 🎂
I just came across this video and I wanted to say, thank you so much for sharing your story with us. You and so many other brave women, really are helping others who are also struggling with loss. I myself came to UA-cam when I experienced my own personal loss and I can honestly say these stories helped me so very much, throughout the entire process of my miscarriage. I felt understood more so with these strangers on UA-cam, than with my own family and friends who have never experienced anything like what I was going through. Thanks again for sharing. Such a beautiful story. ♥️
We are so blessed to have programs in public school to help children that need it!
So sorry for this unbelievable loss! prayers your way!
My heart goes out to you. I am so so sorry this happened to you. My daughter lost her baby girl unexpectedly at birth in 2019. She had been laboring for twenty-four hours trying to deliver vaginally. Nurse checked her and felt like baby girl had flipped. So they recommended a c-section. No rushing, everyone was calm. As soon as little girl was lifted out of her mama and they cut the cord her little heart stopped. She never cried. Wonderful anticipation and joy swiftly turned into shock and horror. So surreal. God bless you and your family as you heal
We had a stillborn son that was 10 day's early. You seem to be handling it very well being able to laugh and smile. 4 months after this awful thing happened to us I smiled for the 1st time my husband was overjoyed over that short smile. It was a few more month's before I laughed. If not for our 2 other children I seriously would have lost my mind.
I'm very bless to hear Evers's story. He is so loved by all his family. What a precious angel you have. Thank you for sharing, keep strong air hugs.
I live in California and love Disneyland! My daughter took my for my 60th birthday 4 years ago. The best part was having my granddaughter who was 5 and get to enjoy it with her. The boys were too young to go on many rides, so my daughter left them home. I had never been at Christmas time, and it was so magical!
So excited for the May trip! What an amazing Mother’s Day treat!
I am 70 and I had 1 miscarriage and a term stillbirth before my 2 rainbow kids now 46 & 43. And although the grief doesn’t haunt me its always with me, even all these years later. I know how you feel. Hollow, profoundly sad and you wonder how long it will hurt so. The answer is it will always hurt, not quite as painfilled but healing takes a long time. So many if us have experienced this. Please look for Stefanie And Kameron on youtube as she had her still birth last year. May you life going forward be filled with joy. Happiness helps one heal.
I am so sorry for your loss. I admire you for telling Evers story. I cannot imagine such a loss, again I am just so sorry!
I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and blessings your way. You son is beautiful. Thank you for being so strong and sharing. God please be you and give you done peace in all this.
Such a heartfelt bittersweet story. Thank you for sharing…I Subscribed 05/02/22 to help out your channel🤩
Hun I’m so sorry, unfortunately I’ve been thru it, his heart stopped at almost 39 weeks and never were able to find out why. The pain is so deep that it never heals or gets better I just found a different way to live which is living with the pain. Hardest thing I’ve ever went thru in my entire life. Sending you loves and deepest condolences 💐 take care of yourself! Xoxo
Sassy… I send my heart felt love to you too, for the loss and pain you’ve been through and will continue to deal with every day. I don’t know what to say. I just wanted to say something. I went through years of infertility treatments and was never blessed with a child. I struggle with the fact I will never be called MOM. 💔 I can’t compare my pain to yours by any means. I grieve the loss of children I never had. You grieve a beautiful Angel baby that lives with Jesus. It’s all hard. It’s all difficult. But none of us are alone. You will be with your baby boy for eternity ✨✨✨ don’t forget that. I wish for you peace, comfort, happiness and joy. Your Angel wants that for you. 🌟💫⭐️ from one stranger to another- you are my sister through Christ. We are both children of God. I love you 💕
My heart aches for you mom.
🙏 prayers for you momma.
You are an example of surviving.
My ❤ and prayers to you momma 🙏 ❤ 💙
I’m a first time viewer, what a beautiful way to honor your baby boy, thank you for sharing him with the world. I was a Behavioral Specialist for almost 30 years and am the grandmother of 5, 2 of which are on the autism spectrum. You’ve got this mom! I have a Disney question, 🙋🏼♀️ Looking for the blue Cinderella Dishes from the Home store, I went back to purchase them the year they first came out and they were all gone. Have a wonderful trip to the Happiest Place on Earth! Sending you a Big ((HUG))
I am so very sorry for your loss of your baby boy. Thank you for sharing Evers story. It took a lot of courage and love on your part. Your momma’s love shines though. I pray for God’s comfort for you and your family as you walk this path.
So very sorry for your loss! I know that losing your child is the hardest thing any parent can ever have to endure! I am sending you lots of love and prayers and hugs ❤🙏💔💞👼to try and help you through this difficult time !
Thank you for sharing Ever’s with us he is an absolutely beautiful baby boy& so chubby which makes him even that much cuter! You are one special momma that he chose you as his mommy. With all my love & heart sending you the brightest of lights to help keep you on the right path. Take care please
My daughter has 3 children all with August birthdays! My birthday is also in August, and it is actually my 10 year old granddaughter’s gotcha day! My daughter went on to have 2 biological boys that are actually miracles. After the last birthday party. My daughter takes a sigh of relief that birthday season is over! We are truly blessed!
Dearest Lauren 🌹This is my very first time on your YT channel, and would just like to say - Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️ for your utterly raw, emotional, and heart wrenching story of your "journey" through miscarriage. 😭 You literally got me crying along side you.😭 I have not lost a child, however I know the agonising pain from when I lost my mother in 2014. I am in no way a religious person, but I am 100% certain that Evers is smiling while looking down at you all, keeping you safe and out of harms way 🙏 I hope that you along the road find peace and tranquility, so that you can "live" again and rejoice in life, while still holding Evers in your heart💙 and treasuring his memory. 🤗🙏 Most importantly, allow yourselves time and space, to mourn and find some peace of mind with your loss. 🙏🌹 Lots of love and hugs from Hanne in Denmark.
You are so beautiful , amazing and so so strong.I wish I could give you a hug.Thank you for sharing his story.💜💜💜💜
I've missed you beautiful friend! I am so very sorry. Thank you for sharing your story. Sending love 💜
I love this video and open door to speak of infant loss. Evers is such a beautiful little boy and I love his name. I’m so sorry to hear about your loss but that doesn’t mean that he left any smaller of an imprint on this world. I feel so much love for him and your special family. You are an incredible family. God bless you and yours sweetheart. I will be praying for you 🙏🏼💙
This is my first time watching you and I love you already 🩷
I’m so very sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing ❤️You seem like a very sweet young lady 🙏
Wishing you the happiest trip in May with your family. I wish I could hug you so much! You are an amazing woman and mother. Sending any prayers and thoughts I can.
You know im always here supporting and loveing u
I’m so very sorry that you’re having to walk through this. This past November I was 41 weeks and my perfectly healthy daughter died. She had a very tight knot in her cord. It was never noticed in any of the several ultrasounds that I had. Feel free to message me if you want to talk. I know exactly how horribly painful this is.
Hey, I'm soooooo sorry of your pain and loss of your beautiful baby!!! It's a mother's worst nightmare, I feel your pain. Your such a beautiful person inside and out! So wish I could hug you tight. Im sending you big hugs,love and energy 💕I believe he's with you always. Sending love to your boys too and I hope they have a beautiful life with their caring mummy. Thinking of you all 💗💔 Thanks for video 💙 very hard to do.💗
So sorry for you & your families loss 😢 sending you prayers 🙏 I didn’t have a still birth but I lost my son at 12 weeks & needed a D&C. It was horrible. I had 2 sons before w/no problems so it through me ( we weren’t trying, I was actually in nursing school) I went on to have 2 more boys! Hope you’re enjoying Disney! ❤️🖤
I’m so very sorry ♥️♥️ for you and your families loss, thank you for sharing your story I know it wasn’t easy.
So sorry for your loss, prayers for your family
Isn’t it amazing how much beauty can come from grief. 🙏🏼💙♥️
We've never been able to afford to go to Disney but I hope one day I will be able to give my 2 boys that experience and make those special Disney memories with them. I WILL make it happen one day. I bet your family is so excited to go, especially for your son's birthday celebration. What an amazing birthday present. 🥳 I'm sure it's much needed for you as well, to go to the happiest place on earth after going through so much recently. I hope you all have a safe trip. Have fun!! Enjoy every moment, time flies when you're having fun. 😊
Sending you much love and prayers my sweet friend. Hope your May trip is amazing with your family. 💜
I'm so sorry you have to go through the rest of your life without your son. My heart just bleeds for you. I can't say I know how you feel because I've no idea. If it does make any sense at all I remember my grandma telling my aunt who lost twin boys that God decided they were just to good for this world. God bless you lady.
Thanks for sharing anytime you need to talk about him just need to cry or the grief is overwhelming we are here I will keep you in my prayers remember God is walk with you and your family
Thank you so much for sharing Lauren
So so sorry to hear of your sad loss of your dear baby I send prayers and my sincere Condolences to you dear. Bless you. XX
I am sending you an ever so soft hug because I care.
I wish I could jump through the screen and give you a huge hug!
My baby boy was stillborn 31 years ago even after all these years some days it hurts so bad it’s a physical pain
I had a full term 39 week stillbirth. Had just been to my OB weekly appointment. Heard his heartbeat. 2 days later I went into labor. Got to the ER and when they put the monitor on me they told me he had no heartbeat. They sent me up to labor and delivery where I gave birth to my baby boy, Jason. He was born and I heard them say, "The cord is wrapped around his neck." And they knocked me out.
I heard this from another Angel MOMMY she said her baby was extra active & that is something they are saying was now something to also watch as much as decreased movement as well. I am absolutely beyond sorry for this tragedy & the different life you know as your life ss s Angel Mom ❤ I just have to believe the Lil ones that have life within the womb but do not have life beyond are God special chosen souls to skip this phase where they are born perfect & sinless. God needed him for his purpose & God chose you ( Like Mary in a sense to carry his special chosen one for a purpose beyond this space & time. You will join him in his world in God's time & plan... hurts no less I know ❤ peace & comfort sent you way.. listen & look for his signs he is near :)
Blessings to you and entire family in Heaven and on Earth.
I'm so very sorry for your unbelievable loss. My niece lost her full term baby to stillbirth. She had an uneventful pregnancy. Went into labor and when they arrived at the hospital baby Nolan didn't have a heartbeat. It was most likely an umbilical cord accident. Bless you!
God bless this family!
So sorry for your loss 💔💔💔💔
I am so sorry for your loss 🥺💔
You're a miracle and a beautiful soul I love you
🙏🙏❤️❤️🥰💪💪
Lauren, I'm so sorry for your loss- I will be praying for peace and comfort for you and your family. In the meantime, love him, celebrate him, talk about him, say his name, and grieve him. (Find people who can support you in this). He is a member of your family, so putting his picture on your wall is natural. He knows he has a Mommy and Daddy and two brothers here. Don't be afraid-- It's all OK. You and my daughter, Laureen have much in common with your other children. She has a step daughter who is 12, and three boys all born between 2012-2018. The second boy, Jacob, has autism. He as no real speech, but the sweetest temperament. The youngest, has no cognitive delays, but has apraxia. Much of our lives, like yours, by necessity, revolves around treatments for the kids. Her favorite place is Disneyland too. Grandpa and I took "the littles" for 12 days, so she and daddy could take the older two to Disney World in Nov 2021. She loves pin swapping, and really needs the mental break Disney gives. The younger boys would have been tormented by such a trip from Alaska had they been included. About the treatments for the youngers, I am a registered nurse, and have been by my daughter's side at every doctor's appt, every evaluation, and every IEP. One addition I made the the IEP requirement, which I think EVERY PARENT SHOULD ADD, was that the teacher must send a note home EACH DAY, (even a check list) about what happened, activities, child's behavior, moods, etc. Because these boys are without speech we MUST know what went on during the day, so we can provide continuity of care. When Jacob (now 5) comes home from school, I sit him up to his lunch, open his backpack, read the notes and go through his treasures and chat with him about his day. If he's sung a song at school, grandpa and I talk about the song, "Oh, Grandpa, Jacob sang Old MacDonald today! You know that one, don't you?" Then we break into song. I swear I saw him roll his eyes at us. LOL Now that his younger brother has apraxia, both boys have therapies all week long at school, and two appts each outside school each week. Progress is slow, and motherhood under these circumstances is hard. She's a strong woman, but motherhood is hard. She has been angry, and sad. I've cried with her. I always tell my daughter, there are no accidents or coincidences in life. I am a woman of faith, and I believe these children needed these experiences, and they all needed a safe, loving home, in which to have them. You and Laureen don't know this because of your youth, but a disability is every other family was unheard of when I was a child. Doctors try to say "Oh it just wasn't diagnosed then". I disagree. We knew who lived in our neighborhoods. This phenomena of autism and other disabilities has increased exponentially in the last two decades. Infertility has increased. Stillbirths have increased. The more I watch, the more I believe the Lord in sending these children in the Last Days, so they can have these experiences at the best time in history for them. The same is happening for those who don't really need to stay on the planet. They only need to gain a body, then can move on. He is likely being held right now, by a deceased grandparent. We don't know how the Lord is weaving our lives together, and what we are to learn. We just need to trust Him. We feel blessed to have these little children in our family, and we love them dearly. I know the unknown can be frightening, but I promise you, the Lord will make it worth it all. Your baby will be waiting for you when you make your way back through the veil many years from now. Your baby lived, and he still lives. YOU GAVE HIM LIFE-- LIFE THAT CAN NOT BE TAKEN AWAY BY THIS MORTALITY. YOU WILL HOLD HIM AGAIN!! You will find your joy again--- continue to talk to your baby, as you do all your babies. Please consider reading the scriptures, and let the Lord send you His support through His words. He is mindful of your needs. You're in my prayers.
So sorry for your loss
Seeing this makes me cry , I lost my son at 35 weeks , I didn't feel him move and the worst moment was when I got to the hospital is was told his no more ,am trying so hard to overcome this painful demise of my first born baby , sometimes I do blame myself alot . Son I pray you continue Resting easy and I love you so much
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your son.
@@standup2982 thank you so much 😢
@@CynthiaJohnson-rl2yq you're welcome, and please don't blame yourself. It wasn't your fault. Sending love 💘
Not sure how I got here--I do watch videos about families and children (my own daughters are grown, so I get my "baby fix" through them). When you started describing the disabilities your children deal with, I really sat up. I have a family member with mild autism, and I can tell you that some of our saving graces have been early diagnosis, schools that are willing to implement an IEP & work closely with the family, and specialists who can address specific issues--not to mention parents who would move mountains for their child. Sounds like you have all of the above, so I see bright futures for your boys. My family member is all grown up, getting his Masters degree and working in cutting-edge robotic design.
So sorry for your loss. I lost son also.
Hello Beautiful Lauren,🥀 I first want to say how Courageous and Brave you truly are. I also want to say that It would be false for me to say that I understand how you feel 💯% I don't understand because I have never had to experience a still birth. I can not even imagine. But I can say as a Mommy myself to a beautiful Lil girl. That watching you, and hearing your so sorrowful yet courageous story I can sincerely feel your deep Sorrow. And I am truly sorrowful that you had to experience this. But I would like to tell you while watching, and listening to your story, and crying at times with you. I was shown something in my spirit. And this is what it was.
Lauren Sometimes GOD allows painful things to happen to us simply to draw us closer to him. GOD is Sovereign and Ultimately in control, and these beautiful little Miracle Angels ultimately belong to him. We are just so blessed to have been chosen by GOD to
L❤️VE, cherish, and care for these precious lil human beings. And I want you to truly find that Peace that can only come from our father GOD in heaven that surpasses all understanding. In Knowing that your Beautiful Lil Ever's is with JESUS and you will see him again one day. But GOD wants all of you Lauren. You and your Husband. You have been Chosen Lady. ❤️❤️❤️
So sorry for your loss.🙏🙏🤷♀️🤷♀️
🙏🙏🙏🙏
sending you love and hugs x
I'm sending you virtual hugs.
Bless,bless you,🙏💗
i'm very sorry i lost a baby too but a little differenct though i was in a car accidenct i was 5mths due to the car accidenct the cord was rip off then died she was no more inside of me i was er had to deliver her i was a mess it took me months to feel better but i felt the loss trhough
I tried to look at the Facebook account but it was private so sorry for your loss I went through something similar I was only 26 weeks it was many years ago but you always hold that baby near and dear to your heart Brianna Michelle was her name.. I went on to have four beautiful children... God bless you and Ever and all of your family I'm so sorry for your loss... I regret so much not having pictures it was a long time ago so it was taboo I guess you could say but I hope you and your family heal
Sweet baby Evers..for his entire life inside of you he got to hear your heartbeat and feel your love 💞 I'm so sad that he didn't get to stay with you but I know beyond a shadow doubt that he, along with my best friends 3 tiny miscarried babies, June Baby, Valentina and Noelle, are with Jesus and we will get to be with them for eternity. There is no time in heaven so when baby Evers turns around.. you will be there. 💙🕊 I'm going to go to instagram now so that I can see his beautiful pictures. As a disney fan and wdw passholder I'm so happy you get to come in a couple of weeks. I suffer from depression and a little bit of pixie dust can always lift our spirits and bring moments of joy to our broken hearts. If I ever run into you I will be sure and say hi 💗 Ty for sharing Evers story... I will remember both of you forever 💐
I pray you have another child and it’s a girl I pray god heals you my prayers are with you my son was born with the cord around his neck so glad he didn’t die praise god
Sending hugs - Danielle
I lost my little boy at 20 weeks pg . Also to a subchrionic Haematoma 😨Hospital for 2 weeks before labor started . He was born moving in the sac . Seeing the nurse’s and the Dr’s reaction
New subscriber. God bless you..
No! It is NOT morbid! I lost twin babies almost 32 years ago. It was the most painful heart wrenching thing I've ever been through. It does get easier over time! I wish I would have had more pics taken. (A nurse took them.) I was in horrible shape after it happened. I felt my twins VERY early! It felt like a little tickle at first. Mine were very active as well. Oh, and my sisters had the nerve to get mad at me, at times, and say, "Well, you don't know. You don't have any kids. You're not a mom." I had to finally tell them that I AM a mother, but my children are dead! That shut them up! Some people are just ignorant. Hopefully, you have loving family around you. I actually lost two sets of twins. The first were boys and the second were girls. The first set, I was in my second semester. The second set were almost full term.
I am very well thank you
Miss seeing your beautiful face!!! You are so brave and going to help so many people by talking about your angel 😇
Elisabeth Stoy?:Warum vermissen,,sie ist doch da?Oder von wem redest Du?
I realize you too are suffering a miscarriage or stillbirth,and i am so so sorry for you and yours❤😢
But this is not about you, not right now, lets just give this lovely lady our sympathies for the loss of her son.....MY HEARTFELT CONDOLENCES 💔😭
My friend has a 26 week stillbirth after the death of her first baby and she had a c section because she wanted her uterus out. She couldn’t bare to get pregnant again. She had gotten pregnant with an iud
Both my boys birthdays are one day apart in February and it was not planned at all. My girls are different one was born in January and other in April so altho none were planned it’s funny how all 4 were born in the first 4 months of the year.
Normal ist das Baby 9 Monate im Bauch der Mutter, nicht weinen!
I'm crying with you I'm really sorry.im.mom of 3 and I lost 2 babies in my pregnancies but very early and I'm in a big pain too im really sorry 😞
Also insurance won’t cover a c section with a stillborn unless there is a medical risk to you
I dealt with this. I do not understand and believe me no judging. But he was born, he was born unalive not unborn.
Im so Soryfor Your loss of Your Babyand the still birthand that Your other son has autsmMyDeepestsympthathy empthathyand condolgences may My thoughts snd prayers and My Familys Thoughts and Prayers be with You
Crazy Pieces UA-camrs have daughter that sounds just like your son. She got the tablet it worked wonders but she ended up at fore getting lip and tounge ties. And just started talking away. She adds words everyday. Check them out and they answer emails. Sorry if I am being nosy. I had a niece with this problem.
Oh my goodness im sorry you lost your baby. Ive just lost my grown son violently.
But your video needs serious editing necause you repeat yourself over and over again.
This can be caused by grief but perhaps redo it.
All pregnant moms should have a home Doppler. They cost less than $50.
Did you get the Covid vaccine while pregnant? If so, there’s your reason