I know that feeling too. This channel and the community is very important to me, especially this month. My youngest would've been 11 this years. He also had an anencephaly and I lost him at 19 weeks.
That really gives me hope. My children passed away in 2009 and 2011. After that their dad went down a path that wasn’t healthy and we ended our marriage. I did find a wonderful man and we got married a few years ago. It’s my hope we have a rainbow one day.
I know it may seem morbid, but I have been obsessively watching these videos despite having a healthy 15 month old baby girl. I have this constant fear I could lose her and I obsessively check on her while she sleeps. See, I didn't know I was pregnant, at 43 I had assumed I was going through menopause. I have a long history of fertility issues, I am overweight, and I had no morning sickness or anything so I was absolutely floored when I found out VERY late in the in the 3 trimester that I was pregnant. Immediately after we had a huge scare and I will never forget that feeling, I was sure I would lose my Lucy, it was the absolute worst feeling in the world. Miraculously she survived and was born perfect, she does have an eye issue called Nystagmus which will possibly interfere with driving but she is so amazing. She is my miracle and will to live. The one thing I noticed about the mothers in these videos is they never talk about themselves. At all. If they do it's just a quick aside. Birth is incredibly painful. These women (and the dads) will forever be graced with a strength most of us have never known. A mother is the strongest entity in the universe. I am so sad to hear these stories but I will remember all of your babies, they are in my heart and they live on..
So glad they have organizations to help mothers when there is a loss. I lost 2 in the early 1970's and it was, "Oh just have another." Or worse, no one said a word! I was so isolated and alone. I had two more high risk babies after that who survived though preemies. Again, so glad they have something for the young mothers.
I am so sorry for your loss! Something that probably isn’t discussed often- from an ultrasound tech’s POV, what might be seen as being a “dud” could be someone burdened with a terrible knowledge, crying inside thinking “I don’t want to do this, to say the words that will forever change someone’s life”. We can often tell something is wrong right away and it’s a moment we always remember. At least that is my experience. Prayers for you and your family ❤
All the girls have beautiful names. Elenor's thoughtfulness toward her baby sisters melted my heart. Innocent love. I'm sorry you lost your little ones.
My girlfriend lost 2 of her triplets born early, each was near 1 pound i recall. The first one died shortly after birth and the second one a week later. It was terrible going to two separate funeral services. The triplet that survived was healthy but wore glasses as a 1 year old. But other then that developed into a beautiful girl in her early twenties. Sorry mama.
I've heard from so many grieving families, that there is such a natural desire to nurture their baby, hospitals have caught on and given families the opportunity to spend as much time as they want with their baby. My niece just lost her baby girl, at 24 weeks, this past weekend. The hospital was so good. They put a picture of a butterfly on the door, so staff, even cleaning people, food staff, etc., know not to ask about their baby, as if they delivered a full term baby, alive. They also gave her a soft bear stuffed animal before she left. She told them she appreciated that she had that to hold on to, and her arms weren't empty, as she left the hospital!! A funeral home in their town, does free cremations for the families who lose their babies. And the cemetery has a special baby section, where they are putting the urn, with Liliana Marie's ashes today!
Cat’s gratitude is such a remarkable part of this story. Time and again she stopped to reflect and say how thankful she was for various individuals who were kind and supportive. Beautiful. 💞 Dave is so present with his 3 daughters and Cat at the bedside. Lovely family.
So sorry for the loss of your beautiful babies. There is joy on the fact that you got the only time to get them to where they were before the went to heaven to wait for you. God bless you. They know they are loved and they love you all. It’s going to be quite the reunion. You’re blessed.
Cat thank you for sharing your heartbreaking loss. Like the butterfly effect, your story will touch so many, in ways you can't even imagine. 🦋🦋May God bless you and your family.🙏
Such a hard yet beautiful story of love & loss. I did something very similar to you guys for my twins that I lost in 2005. Planted a tree with a cement plaque of all my niece & nephews handprints around the bottom in the mulch with a beautiful statue of 2 little ones on a teeter-totter. Thank you for sharing all 3 of your girls with us via this very needed podcast.
It seems that when we suffer these losses it's natural to search out others who have had the same experience. When my daughter had her 1st stillbirth (she had 2) I immediately went to UA-cam and searched stillbirth. I think I watched every single one.
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so sorry for your loss. Your family took beautiful care of your little angels. Big sister is adorable & so caring. So sweet.
Winter and Lee your mission is so important and beautifully delivered here. I’m so sorry for your loss and all of these losses. Thankful for the brave sharing of your stories so that we can continue to improve care at time of infant loss. ❤😢
My heart goes out to your entire family. I’m a twin and very close to my brother and I know your twin girls will be together always. I’m just outside of Saskatoon …my absolute sincere condolences to you. So heart breaking and also so much love all at once. I wish you all the very best going forward with your life’s. ❤️
I'm not going to say I know how you feel because I absolutely don't. I lost my precious 3 month old son on September 2,1988. For me it got easier with time. Don't let anyone make you feel like you should be over it. Heal at your own pace & take as long as you need. Its unnatural for a child to die before the parents & their is no greater pain than losing your children. I know I'll always have this hole in my heart that will never go away but I've learned to except its a part of me & I'll have it till I get to hold him again. Take gentle care of your beautiful self & I wish you all the best sweetheart.
I am so very, very sorry for your devastating loss. Two beautiful, precious hearts. Our baby son was lost to SUIDS many years ago and also two miscarriages. It's a pain you carry always but one day you will see them again. God bless you all and thank you for sharing.
thank you for sharing your story of you precious girls they brought a smile to my face i am so sorry for your loss they are little angels now beautiful story of your girls
I honestly believe our loved ones send us signs if we pay attention we see them. And immediately know it was meant for us to see it. Thank you for sharing your story and many prayers sent to you and your families. Rest Easy Vilolet and Hazel.❤💜
I am so sorry your family experienced this loss! I also had two early miscarriages then lost a little boy to anancephaly at 38 wks. We found out only a week before he was born, because my doctor didn't do sonograms unless there was a medical reason. This was back in 1986 when sonograms were still not done as often. My water broke early, so they did a sono and just told us the baby wouldn't survive. The doctor advised us to "just terminate and start over". We told him we wanted to just wait it out and carry til labor began on its own. That was on Friday the 13th, and he was born the next day on Saturday very early. I remember on the drive to the hospital thinking he'd be born on Friday the 13th. It was actually Friday night, but after midnight, so technically, the 14th. We were so unprepared to face it all. After delivery, I was put into a room with a teen girl who was having a saline abortion and who kept trying to engage me in conversation about what her labor and delivery would be like. The hospital was so cold and uncaring about my feelings. I am so glad to have found this podcast as it gives me comfort hearing others' stories and makes me feel like part of a circle of sisterhood with other grieving moms. My son's name is James Curtis and he would be 38.
I know losing a baby is very painful I had a miscarriage at 4 months a baby and losing twins is even harder my heart goes out to the parents that went through sleeping babies at birth prayers sent to them all
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your story about your daughter being blunt made me think of my own childhood. I was 4 when my big sister (at age 7) died 40 years ago and I was very blunt about things. When my parents told me she passed, I immediately asked where her head was. My mom was worried I was super morbid but found out that after reading a book, it was a normal question. I guess I also told a complete stranger while we were shopping for funeral dresses that my sister died and the lady glared at me and told me I wasn't a very nice little girl...... she definitely set my mom off on her🤯😂. Kids handle death so differently.
I'm so sorry for your loss. There's a pain that only mothers who have experienced the loss of a child knows and a)ot of common experiences surrounding the loss. I lost a baby at 14 weeks and it had happened at home. I didn't know what to do with this tiny little baby that had stopped growing between 8 to 10 weeks.i had the baby in a little container in a bag and it felt so wrong but u had no idea what to do and that feeling was the worst. I took the baby to the midwives office because they offer commonwealth burials for miscarried babies that are that small. I remember being so nervous to have to walk through the office with all the pregnant mommas sitting there happy and I'm a mess with swollen red eyes from crying for 2 days straight and I didn't want to upset any of them or have them ask questions and have to explain what was in this bag. Thank god the office people took me straight back into a room and didn't make me sit and wait in the room with everyone else. They were so kind. They asked if they had permission to see my baby and they really made the worst day of my life much more bearable. I will never forget how amazing they were and I know others who didn't get such wonderful people to help them. I remember the ultrasound tech who did the scan 2 days before I delivered the baby was very quiet and I was super scared and she wouldn't let me see the screen and that told me everything I needed to know right there but she wouldn't say it. They just left me alone until the er Dr came around and told me that baby had died. I was there alone and scared and sad and it wasn't a great experience. So thankful that I got to deal with my midwife and her team when the baby came out 2 days later. If you're reading this or going thru this please know you're not alone and if you need friends and family to be there or do things let them know. Alot of times people just don't know what to say or do and they want to just spend time with baby and won't a for these things. Some people say the wrong things trying to be helpful and honestly the best thing to say is I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm here for you if you need me. Then check in with them daily and just ask if they need u or aanything. The worst is well things happen for a reason or at least you can have more kids or at least you already have a kid or kids. Don't say those things please. I also sent the midwives office a dozen pink carnations and a dozen blue to say thank you for their amazing treatment of me and my baby another such a horrible time. The year after this they helped me deliver my daughter who is now 19! If you're a person in this field please treat these ladies how you would want to be treated. Remember this is the worst day of these people's lives and you have the power to make it a little bit better and ease some of their pain.
I kept it together until I saw the rainbows and then lost it. I have 4 living children and only one miscarriage (9w2d); I can't imagine the pain of 2 losses and 2 more leaving. My wish for you is healing and happiness as you go forward.
You and your husband and little girl are the best mommy daddy and big sister ever . I have so much respect for you for all of you ,this the first story I ever ,been able to get through ,I have lost a baby but nothing like this experience.i feel like I know your family just by hearing this story so much love and respect ,please give Eleanore and Abigail a hug from this mommom yes I have 15 grandchildren now kisses and hugs 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰mommom shellby
I'm so sorry for your loss sweetie, my daughter had triplets and 2 boys and 1 girl and we lost the 2 boys and before they was already gone and the Doctor's had to get in to get our girl and the doctor's had to get her out so we may not lose our 3 lbs 3ozs and she is are blessed to have her now it was very upset for my daughter and son in law had an very hard but also having 1 girl that I always new that she was going to be just fine now she is 23 years old and I have know that she was a blessing to all of us. I pray for anyone who goes through this it's just sad and heartbreaking to go through this. 💔💔🙏
Thank you for sharing your beautiful girls with us and being brave and strong enough to share their story with other moms who may be experiencing a loss 🩷 I have a son who is now 19 and I’m so grateful for him because at my first scan they told me there was a issue, they saw a dark spot above him in my uterus (they thought it was blood) and basically told me I would miscarry and I absolutely lost it! The doctor who did the scan was so matter of fact and cold, she said “well if you make it through the weekend I’d be surprised but call your doctor and we’ll do another scan” so I cried the whole way home, had to tell my partner at the time what happened and that weekend was the worst I was so nervous and stressed which also made me worry because I knew baby could feel all of that but luckily we made it through and my doctor sent me back and made sure I wouldn’t see that horrible lady again and everything turned out just fine the dark line was gone and he looked great. I had a ectopic pregnancy when he was about 3 and a miscarriage shortly after that and those killed me so I have so much empathy and compassion for anyone who loses a child. I’m so very sorry 🩷 Winter, I’m so glad you started this channel and give loss moms a chance to talk about and share their children with us!
I had a kinda similar experience with my twins. On my 1st sonogram (about 5 weeks along) one of them was smaller than the other and her heart wasn't beating but the other twin's WAS. I was told in a very cold, matter of fact way that it was 'common' for one twin to die and the other twin will 'just absorb it for nourishment' and also told the typical 'don't worry'. Yeah right, I worried tremendously over the next 2 LONGEST WEEKS of my life. The next sonogram her heart was beating 💕💕💕💕 THANK GOD!!!! TWO HEARTS were beating strongly and normally!! I was the happiest woman in the world it felt like that day.
I really have no business watching these videos besides the fact I think these babies deserve to be known
after 2 back to back terrible losses , I can say I am holding my 3 month old now on my lap .
I know that feeling too. This channel and the community is very important to me, especially this month. My youngest would've been 11 this years. He also had an anencephaly and I lost him at 19 weeks.
Congratulations on your baby!!
God bless this family
@sarahdooley6164 thank you! Very hard and long road but she is here now! Early and small but she is healthy !
That really gives me hope. My children passed away in 2009 and 2011. After that their dad went down a path that wasn’t healthy and we ended our marriage. I did find a wonderful man and we got married a few years ago. It’s my hope we have a rainbow one day.
I know it may seem morbid, but I have been obsessively watching these videos despite having a healthy 15 month old baby girl. I have this constant fear I could lose her and I obsessively check on her while she sleeps. See, I didn't know I was pregnant, at 43 I had assumed I was going through menopause. I have a long history of fertility issues, I am overweight, and I had no morning sickness or anything so I was absolutely floored when I found out VERY late in the in the 3 trimester that I was pregnant. Immediately after we had a huge scare and I will never forget that feeling, I was sure I would lose my Lucy, it was the absolute worst feeling in the world. Miraculously she survived and was born perfect, she does have an eye issue called Nystagmus which will possibly interfere with driving but she is so amazing. She is my miracle and will to live. The one thing I noticed about the mothers in these videos is they never talk about themselves. At all. If they do it's just a quick aside. Birth is incredibly painful. These women (and the dads) will forever be graced with a strength most of us have never known. A mother is the strongest entity in the universe. I am so sad to hear these stories but I will remember all of your babies, they are in my heart and they live on..
Cat, Dave and Eleanor thankyou for sharing your sweet baby Girls Violet and Hazel with us, the special memories you have made are so beautiful. 🤍🤍
So glad they have organizations to help mothers when there is a loss. I lost 2 in the early 1970's and it was, "Oh just have another." Or worse, no one said a word! I was so isolated and alone. I had two more high risk babies after that who survived though preemies. Again, so glad they have something for the young mothers.
I'm so sorry for your losses.💔💔💔💔
I am so sorry for your loss! Something that probably isn’t discussed often- from an ultrasound tech’s POV, what might be seen as being a “dud” could be someone burdened with a terrible knowledge, crying inside thinking “I don’t want to do this, to say the words that will forever change someone’s life”. We can often tell something is wrong right away and it’s a moment we always remember. At least that is my experience. Prayers for you and your family ❤
Agreed. My ultrasound tech was axgriend of mine, I could tell by her face there was a problem. I told her it would be ok,as she ran out crying.
All the girls have beautiful names. Elenor's thoughtfulness toward her baby sisters melted my heart. Innocent love. I'm sorry you lost your little ones.
My girlfriend lost 2 of her triplets born early, each was near 1 pound i recall. The first one died shortly after birth and the second one a week later. It was terrible going to two separate funeral services. The triplet that survived was healthy but wore glasses as a 1 year old. But other then that developed into a beautiful girl in her early twenties. Sorry mama.
I've heard from so many grieving families, that there is such a natural desire to nurture their baby, hospitals have caught on and given families the opportunity to spend as much time as they want with their baby.
My niece just lost her baby girl, at 24 weeks, this past weekend. The hospital was so good. They put a picture of a butterfly on the door, so staff, even cleaning people, food staff, etc., know not to ask about their baby, as if they delivered a full term baby, alive. They also gave her a soft bear stuffed animal before she left. She told them she appreciated that she had that to hold on to, and her arms weren't empty, as she left the hospital!! A funeral home in their town, does free cremations for the families who lose their babies. And the cemetery has a special baby section, where they are putting the urn, with Liliana Marie's ashes today!
Cat’s gratitude is such a remarkable part of this story. Time and again she stopped to reflect and say how thankful she was for various individuals who were kind and supportive. Beautiful. 💞 Dave is so present with his 3 daughters and Cat at the bedside. Lovely family.
So sorry for the loss of your beautiful babies. There is joy on the fact that you got the only time to get them to where they were before the went to heaven to wait for you. God bless you. They know they are loved and they love you all. It’s going to be quite the reunion. You’re blessed.
Rest in heaven Hazel and Violet heaven's sweet angels. ❤
Cat thank you for sharing your heartbreaking loss. Like the butterfly effect, your story will touch so many, in ways you can't even imagine. 🦋🦋May God bless you and your family.🙏
Such a hard yet beautiful story of love & loss. I did something very similar to you guys for my twins that I lost in 2005. Planted a tree with a cement plaque of all my niece & nephews handprints around the bottom in the mulch with a beautiful statue of 2 little ones on a teeter-totter. Thank you for sharing all 3 of your girls with us via this very needed podcast.
That is a beautiful thing to do in rememberance of your babies.🎉
I’m so glad I found this channel 😢 I lost my son, Javi, in September this year. It helps so much to not feel alone.
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It seems that when we suffer these losses it's natural to search out others who have had the same experience. When my daughter had her 1st stillbirth (she had 2) I immediately went to UA-cam and searched stillbirth. I think I watched every single one.
My condolences to your family. May your angels live on in your hearts.
Aww Hazel was my grandma’s name. She was native American and a beautiful soul on earth. ❤. Your twins are very special sweet beautiful souls.
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so sorry for your loss. Your family took beautiful care of your little angels. Big sister is adorable & so caring. So sweet.
Winter and Lee your mission is so important and beautifully delivered here. I’m so sorry for your loss and all of these losses. Thankful for the brave sharing of your stories so that we can continue to improve care at time of infant loss. ❤😢
My heart goes out to your entire family. I’m a twin and very close to my brother and I know your twin girls will be together always. I’m just outside of Saskatoon …my absolute sincere condolences to you. So heart breaking and also so much love all at once. I wish you all the very best going forward with your life’s. ❤️
I'm not going to say I know how you feel because I absolutely don't. I lost my precious 3 month old son on September 2,1988. For me it got easier with time.
Don't let anyone make you feel like you should be over it.
Heal at your own pace & take as long as you need.
Its unnatural for a child to die before the parents & their is no greater pain than losing your children.
I know I'll always have this hole in my heart that will never go away but I've learned to except its a part of me & I'll have it till I get to hold him again.
Take gentle care of your beautiful self & I wish you all the best sweetheart.
Beautiful comment. Sending you the same warm thoughts. Grief is so personal.
It is difficult to say only, "I'm so sorry," as that doesn't seem adequate. You told your story beautifully. Prayers!!
I am so very, very sorry for your devastating loss. Two beautiful, precious hearts. Our baby son was lost to SUIDS many years ago and also two miscarriages. It's a pain you carry always but one day you will see them again. God bless you all and thank you for sharing.
thank you for sharing your story of you precious girls they brought a smile to my face i am so sorry for your loss they are little angels now beautiful story of your girls
May you find comfort and strength knowing that your baby girls are resting in the arms of Jesus in Heaven. They are precious little gifts from God 🩷🩷🙏
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I honestly believe our loved ones send us signs if we pay attention we see them. And immediately know it was meant for us to see it. Thank you for sharing your story and many prayers sent to you and your families. Rest Easy Vilolet and Hazel.❤💜
I’m so sorry for ur loss😢
Your beautiful girls are definiatly sending you messages of love.❤ I love the tree in the yard and that it's your families happy place. ❤❤❤
A Beautiful family forever ❤️ 💜 💖 ♥️ ❤
I am so sorry your family experienced this loss! I also had two early miscarriages then lost a little boy to anancephaly at 38 wks. We found out only a week before he was born, because my doctor didn't do sonograms unless there was a medical reason. This was back in 1986 when sonograms were still not done as often. My water broke early, so they did a sono and just told us the baby wouldn't survive. The doctor advised us to "just terminate and start over". We told him we wanted to just wait it out and carry til labor began on its own. That was on Friday the 13th, and he was born the next day on Saturday very early. I remember on the drive to the hospital thinking he'd be born on Friday the 13th. It was actually Friday night, but after midnight, so technically, the 14th. We were so unprepared to face it all. After delivery, I was put into a room with a teen girl who was having a saline abortion and who kept trying to engage me in conversation about what her labor and delivery would be like. The hospital was so cold and uncaring about my feelings. I am so glad to have found this podcast as it gives me comfort hearing others' stories and makes me feel like part of a circle of sisterhood with other grieving moms. My son's name is James Curtis and he would be 38.
I'm so sorry for your loss.❤❤❤❤❤
These interviews are so emotional. You are amazing women ❤
I am sorry for your loss.
I know losing a baby is very painful I had a miscarriage at 4 months a baby and losing twins is even harder my heart goes out to the parents that went through sleeping babies at birth prayers sent to them all
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your story about your daughter being blunt made me think of my own childhood. I was 4 when my big sister (at age 7) died 40 years ago and I was very blunt about things. When my parents told me she passed, I immediately asked where her head was. My mom was worried I was super morbid but found out that after reading a book, it was a normal question. I guess I also told a complete stranger while we were shopping for funeral dresses that my sister died and the lady glared at me and told me I wasn't a very nice little girl...... she definitely set my mom off on her🤯😂. Kids handle death so differently.
I'm so sorry for your loss. There's a pain that only mothers who have experienced the loss of a child knows and a)ot of common experiences surrounding the loss. I lost a baby at 14 weeks and it had happened at home. I didn't know what to do with this tiny little baby that had stopped growing between 8 to 10 weeks.i had the baby in a little container in a bag and it felt so wrong but u had no idea what to do and that feeling was the worst. I took the baby to the midwives office because they offer commonwealth burials for miscarried babies that are that small. I remember being so nervous to have to walk through the office with all the pregnant mommas sitting there happy and I'm a mess with swollen red eyes from crying for 2 days straight and I didn't want to upset any of them or have them ask questions and have to explain what was in this bag. Thank god the office people took me straight back into a room and didn't make me sit and wait in the room with everyone else. They were so kind. They asked if they had permission to see my baby and they really made the worst day of my life much more bearable. I will never forget how amazing they were and I know others who didn't get such wonderful people to help them. I remember the ultrasound tech who did the scan 2 days before I delivered the baby was very quiet and I was super scared and she wouldn't let me see the screen and that told me everything I needed to know right there but she wouldn't say it. They just left me alone until the er Dr came around and told me that baby had died. I was there alone and scared and sad and it wasn't a great experience. So thankful that I got to deal with my midwife and her team when the baby came out 2 days later. If you're reading this or going thru this please know you're not alone and if you need friends and family to be there or do things let them know. Alot of times people just don't know what to say or do and they want to just spend time with baby and won't a for these things. Some people say the wrong things trying to be helpful and honestly the best thing to say is I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm here for you if you need me. Then check in with them daily and just ask if they need u or aanything. The worst is well things happen for a reason or at least you can have more kids or at least you already have a kid or kids. Don't say those things please. I also sent the midwives office a dozen pink carnations and a dozen blue to say thank you for their amazing treatment of me and my baby another such a horrible time. The year after this they helped me deliver my daughter who is now 19! If you're a person in this field please treat these ladies how you would want to be treated. Remember this is the worst day of these people's lives and you have the power to make it a little bit better and ease some of their pain.
I kept it together until I saw the rainbows and then lost it.
I have 4 living children and only one miscarriage (9w2d); I can't imagine the pain of 2 losses and 2 more leaving. My wish for you is healing and happiness as you go forward.
So sorry luv. You will see them again as they will grow up in heaven. Seen the truth and its a beautiful place. Hugs x
I'm sorry for you loss 💔💔
You and your husband and little girl are the best mommy daddy and big sister ever . I have so much respect for you for all of you ,this the first story I ever ,been able to get through ,I have lost a baby but nothing like this experience.i feel like I know your family just by hearing this story so much love and respect ,please give Eleanore and Abigail a hug from this mommom yes I have 15 grandchildren now kisses and hugs 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰mommom shellby
Beautiful girls. So sorry for your loss.
I would love to share my story too
I'm so sorry for your loss sweetie, my daughter had triplets and 2 boys and 1 girl and we lost the 2 boys and before they was already gone and the Doctor's had to get in to get our girl and the doctor's had to get her out so we may not lose our 3 lbs 3ozs and she is are blessed to have her now it was very upset for my daughter and son in law had an very hard but also having 1 girl that I always new that she was going to be just fine now she is 23 years old and I have know that she was a blessing to all of us. I pray for anyone who goes through this it's just sad and heartbreaking to go through this. 💔💔🙏
So sweet ❤️❤️
I used to nanny for a 3 year old named Eleanor 😢
Sorry guys😪❤🙏
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Thank you for sharing your beautiful girls with us and being brave and strong enough to share their story with other moms who may be experiencing a loss 🩷 I have a son who is now 19 and I’m so grateful for him because at my first scan they told me there was a issue, they saw a dark spot above him in my uterus (they thought it was blood) and basically told me I would miscarry and I absolutely lost it! The doctor who did the scan was so matter of fact and cold, she said “well if you make it through the weekend I’d be surprised but call your doctor and we’ll do another scan” so I cried the whole way home, had to tell my partner at the time what happened and that weekend was the worst I was so nervous and stressed which also made me worry because I knew baby could feel all of that but luckily we made it through and my doctor sent me back and made sure I wouldn’t see that horrible lady again and everything turned out just fine the dark line was gone and he looked great. I had a ectopic pregnancy when he was about 3 and a miscarriage shortly after that and those killed me so I have so much empathy and compassion for anyone who loses a child. I’m so very sorry 🩷
Winter, I’m so glad you started this channel and give loss moms a chance to talk about and share their children with us!
I had a kinda similar experience with my twins. On my 1st sonogram (about 5 weeks along) one of them was smaller than the other and her heart wasn't beating but the other twin's WAS. I was told in a very cold, matter of fact way that it was 'common' for one twin to die and the other twin will 'just absorb it for nourishment' and also told the typical 'don't worry'. Yeah right, I worried tremendously over the next 2 LONGEST WEEKS of my life. The next sonogram her heart was beating 💕💕💕💕 THANK GOD!!!! TWO HEARTS were beating strongly and normally!! I was the happiest woman in the world it felt like that day.