Abilify Causes Chemical Lobotomy
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I was a social worker doing case management in a mental health agency. All of my clients were brain dead due to being pumped up on psych meds, and all of them were on three to ten different types of psych meds. That’s why I quit... billing the insurance was THE MOST IMPORTANT focus for the agency, not the clients becoming healthy, healed, independent, and fully functioning. “Billable hours, billable hours, billable hours” and meeting monthly quotas was all I ever heard about. It was disgusting. They claimed the goal was to improve client lives and get them moving forward in life, but case notes and psych charts/diagnoses and treatment plans on a lot of the clients went back 20 years for that agency. The goal was to get the clients hooked and drain the juice right out of their insurance.
So sad. I've been on both the giving and receiving ends of mental health care. I understand what you're saying.
Everything you and this lady pointed out rings completely true based on my personal experience as well. I only want to add that I personally witnessed a Silver Star Geriatric Patient with nothing more than sun downers denied personal hygiene for 3 days, he was also a fall risk due to age and was ordered one-on-one nursing care, The staff would sit and play on their phones not watching him when he was up and moving. After watching this and finally speaking up in the medication line, I was screamed at to mind my own $#€!! business. If “they” Will do this to a Silver Star Veteran don’t think they won’t do it to YoU. I was discharged because “this place is making you worse”. Folks that’s only the tip of the iceberg of the things I experienced.
Rotten apples don't hire fresh ones.
Our glorious, for-profit "health" care system.
I think that they consider "brain dead" to be a win.
I was 62yrs old I'm now 70. At age 62 while in a Nursing home, I was prescribed this med. It almost killed me. Thanks to a couple of very smart caring Nurses, I lived.
glad youre here, you made it, keep at it~I'm proud.
I checked myself into the hospital due to suicidal thoughts. I have a RX symbol tattooed on my face, so they assumed I wanted drugs, gave abilify and 3 other things. I took my meds that first day and got so messed up I passed out.
❤❤❤ take good care
abilify induced me with severe neoroleptic sydrome, later i developed nerve damage.
🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝
I was on abilify as a teen. Living with a psychotic, narcissist mother can make you pretty unhappy. Instead of doing anything about my living situation after my many therapy sessions, they medicated me heavily. It made me feel like a zombie especially in combo with the 3x daily xanax I was prescribed as well.
As a kid I was not counseled on the potential side effects or withdrawal symptoms. I wanted to quit after a few months but the doctors said I could have a heart attack and die from stopping suddenly, as an otherwise healthy 16 y/o. I weaned myself off over a month and got my life back. I just wanted to feel human again, the good and bad is better than nothing at all. With my mind cleared, I threatened to take my mother to court and fight for emancipation. She let me move out at 16 1/2 to avoid everyone finding out the truth about her. After moving out, all my “mental health symptoms“ subsided entirely other than occasional anxiety from the PTSD of living with an unstable, abusive, single mother all my life. Luckily, this has been fairly easy to manage with more therapy, mindfulness exercises and natural treatments.
You deserve great things in this life and I hope you find them!very awesome of you to overcome such a rotten situation. Best wishes to you.❤
Thank you for sharing that. I truly wish you well.
I survived a psychotic, narcissist mother as well, unfortunately i can no longer press charges BUT i am writing a book that will ensure her name will be stained for the rest of her life, i hope you can fully recover from the abuse you've received, as i hope to one day do as well
ugh jesus fucking christ i am so sorry to hear you went through that shit. parents who rely on doctors prescribing drugs to “keep their kids in check” should have their parental rights revoked immediately. it really is one of the more ignominious forms of abuse due to how common and damaging it is, and how most don’t realise it until it’s too late
i had parents who flipflopped between “make sure you take your meds” and “your meds are making you act up”. and then they wonder why i smoke tons of weed now and never tell them shit
I’m sorry you went through that. I ended up with an abusive narcissistic perpetually cheating partner at 21. My first and only. I’m finally free. He kept hoovering me back in. Financially at times I had no other options. Now I’m living with my mother and free from him but 15 years with him and the constant gaslighting, manipulation, etc etc and him forcing me to get hooked on big pharma, I feel a lot of what the girl in this video feels.
Drug induced psychosis is usually best treated by staying off drugs and let time heal. The brain has an incredible ability to heal itself
Yes. CBD is also very healing when you take THC or shrooms.
How about non drug induced
@@joshuachavez3226 well, I am not a doctor so I should be careful with words, but treating a chemical chock to the brain with even more chemicals is not always a good idea. But I am not against the use of medicines, quite the opposite
Yes and someone o know was heavily medicated in an asylum like this girl😢😢😢😢😢
@@joshuachavez3226
In that case, pray for absolution ☦️🙏
Seriously never leave a psychiatric patient without a powerful advocate -
This!!!!
Yes, this poor woman's husband sounds horribly unhelpful or even suspect.
@@dharma__3God, I’m not the only one thinking he sounds like her being admitted and medicated is for nefarious reasons. He sounds very suspect…didn’t advocate for her at all. (Her sister too….)
Sadly this is now true for all medical care.
Pretty much 😢
In psychiatry, they consider "no emotions, unable to move or speak" to be a success.
My family too❤
No, that's anhedonia or catatonia or low symtoms autistic psychosis and needs to be medicated, too.
You can't win with those folks. They always drug you and you are always mentally sick.
We also have no concrete definition what it looks like to be mentally healthy, anyway, lol...
Passified
Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind ! 👍🏽💪
You need a better doctor then. That's not true.
I went to a spych "hospital" once as an adult. After waiting to see the psychiatrist for hours, the first thing I tell him is, "Im not taking any of your drugs." He strait up told me "well, you're gonna be here longer."
I wasn't manic or in psychosis, so luckily, I could think clearly. I buddied up with someone who could also think strait, so we talked and would make people in there laugh who were clearly having a worse time.
Ha! I made fun of a nurse once, and she pulled me into a room and yelled at me not to disrespect her.
If you end up in one of these hospitals, pray, find a friend, do what you have to do to "do your time," 'cause honey, you're in jail.
This happened to me. I was admitted into a hospital after my son said i was talking to people that were there. He later said he had to say that to get me help. Long story short, I had a brain tumor
I just got out of a psych hospital actually and I can attest that yes, in fact, it is jail
Welp if you are rational enough to make everyone’s experience more difficult, as long as you don’t harm anyone and can explain your actions, it is in their best interest to release you as soon as possible 😂😂😂 long weekend stay and the nurses convinced the shrink whom wanted to keep me that even while medicated I was far too disruptive to other patients to subject them to my shenanigans … such as starting the “so and so is getting out” rumours or changing name tags on food trays so lactose intolerant people would get milk 😅 it was slightly evil
@@tammyowens2309 Hope your doing well now, that sounds terrifying.
You made people laugh? Lol
Weeks later and I can't stop thinking about the hell that Jess is experiencing. Everyone please pray for Jess to have a miraculous recovery.
Amen
Thank you for your kind words ❤️ it means a lot to me 🫂
I am doing a lot better nowadays
@@Jess-1095 thank you so much for your comment. It would be great to have a more detailed update if you felt comfortable sharing more. Was there anything specific that helped you?
Everyone please say a prayer of gratitude more Jess's improvement!
After a SA, I had a breakdown and they decided that the best treatment was a medication induced coma including very high dose of seroquil. My brain has never been the same. Simple things like my handwriting changed permanently (I was taking the meds 20 years ago). I've always described it as a lobotomy. Ty for validating my experience
This is shocking.
@heinzriemann3213 it is. 30 years have passed and, while it took decades to accept, I know now my brain's been permanently altered. It needs to stop. Now. This shouldn't happen to another soul. (They recently tried to prescribe abilify to my friend for anxiety!! Luckily he trusted and took my advice to stay away. ) They don't tell parents these well proven effects...they're not side effects, they are the intended effect - but for schizophrenia and nothing less than that.
Oh gosh sorry! I get rev'd up so easily around the topic and end up ranting. Apologies again and have a wonderful day 🙏
@@OG_Granny To be honest my experience with Abilify have been very different. I don't take it myself but my uncle got it prescribed and it helped him a lot with his anxiety.
So he convinced my mother to get it too for her anxiety and paranoia, and the first time she took it she praised the Lord that she was finally healed. Today she's on 30mg.
Unfortunately she still suffers from paranoid delusions, but all the things said here about Abilify are quite dumbfounding to me.
This is in Europe btw,
The parents can download the product information leaflet that clearly states all the adverse reactions and in fact has a black box warning that "this product can cause suicidal ideation/tendencies and HOMICIDAL impulses. The manufacturers KNOW and are legally required to state it clearly cos they've been successfully sued in the past and by writing it, the onus is on the prescribing physician, the parents and the patient for foolishly being their willing victim. @@OG_Granny
@@heinzriemann3213ok so your mum had anxiety but now had paranoid delusions
These places should never be allowed to cut you off from the phone, your family, or your lawyer.
My parents were denied the right to see me, as a minor - I was detained, strapped to a bed and naked for 3 days with a bed pan and a catheter because I refused to take the medication in the psych ward because I was having a weird reaction to it that made me feel itchy inside of my skin. My parents were denied access to their 15 year old with no reason for 13 days. I was catatonic and in renal failure when they finally won and got me out.
Modern phones and video allow the possibility for people to be much more closely surveiled by more people. This can radically increase protection of vulnerable people. It really is revolutionary.
@@elinope4745 We had cameras, but all of us (ages 12-17) were strip and cavity searched night and morning to make sure we didn’t have any contraband. Once I broke into the nurses’ station (I can’t remember this but my brother does) and called the store where my brother worked as a manager in a last ditch attempt in a broken brain of trying to get help. He said it was freaky that I somehow knew the number, it was in the same city as my psych ward but 3 hours from my home, and I told him I was hungry and my friend Bianca had no clothes. I hung up and he told my mom and she burst into tears because she hadn’t been able to hear me speak in over 10 days. These places need loving staff, and REGULATIONS.
@@elinope4745 Except that they take those away first!
I do know someone in a long term ward that will constantly call and text his parents and siblings if given the chance. He has a set phone time so he isn't constantly pestering his family. However, he has had life long neurological and psychiatric disorders. These disorders have caused him to threaten his family with a machete and physically assult his mother. But even with all that, I believe he has the right to outside communication. I believe he should be able to talk to his parents as they are his legal guardians, and they should be allowed to speak to a lawyer if their son can't vocalize his woes with the facility in a cohesive manner.
At the end of the day, each case is a separate human being and they should be treated as such. Of course there will be cases that fall through the cracks, abusive guardians that speak against what is best for those in their care, and genuine mistakes that happen by coincidence. However, that does not make a patient any less human. They are deserving of proper medical care, second opinions, staff that don't make them uncomfortable, safe housing, communication, informed consent, and the right to refuse mediations and procedures.
I had a friend who was a gymnast with amazing dexterity, strength, energy, and topped off with a very nice, fit body. Six months taking this poison and he became unrecognizable: ballooned up and weighed about 60 lbs heavier! I made it a point to avoid this poison and inform others of the dangers. Shame on “doctors” who just dismiss struggling patients with more poison - y’all are really helping people. Right.
Some of these medications are the best at treating certain conditions; and yes we gain weight and become physically inept… it’s a small price to pay for being truly STABLE. 🤷
@@AurenGlytterkat physical health and mental health are intricately related. If the meds are causing weight gain like that, they aren't healthy or helping the patient.
This is terrifying. The general perception on psychiatric hospitals and the harm caused via archaic, brutal, inhumane practices (which fly in the face of holistic/whole body treatment) is true. It’s sickening that in 2024 we have a psychiatric anti-care system straight outta the late 1800’s.
Makes the most money
I haven't watched this just yet, but I'm super curious and glad this video popped up. My son was prescribed abilify when he was in 6th grade. I noticed he was getting more aggressive and was even saying he wanted to off himself. I told his doctor and they INCREASED his dose. Told me that it's a mood stabilizer and it shouldn't make him like that. Well, he got worse so I slowly took him off of it. It wasn't long before the school was asking me what changes we did because he was improving.
Known side effects included aggression (physical, verbal and sexual), and compulsive gambling! Bad bad drug, IMO.
Always do research into meds. All antipsychotics, which abilify is one, are horrible for you. Its a matter of whether or not the side effects are worse than the mental illness. Like whether you will end up dead or in prison without them. Otherwise, probably do whatever you can to avoid them
All these drugs are a nightmare. And those who manufacture them should be put out of business. I have seen the nightmare they cause. And thank God I got my son away from these psycho doctors. His story started in a similar way when he was messing around with mushrooms and pot. Mushrooms are bad bad news too.
Maybe this lady should try CBD? Since mushrooms and THC started the original problem, maybe the CBD without THC could help. It’s a shame her family didn’t know how psych hospitals operate because they may have let her naturally get through ridding her body of the drugs instead of taking her there. I hope she and everyone else gets well again. I have hope that they can if they stay away from these doctors and their toxic chemicals.
Good job making the right call on your own observations.
Jess, what you said at the end makes so much sense that if food can negatively effect people then obviously an extremely powerful drug also can. They act like the drugs are immaculate and can do no wrong. It is absurd.
I think we have all been learning, these past few years especially, that the pharmaceutical industry has a lot to answer for and we have been sold one hell of a fairy tale to believe that the medical complex knows what it’s doing, and has all the answers. These days we need to face the fact that it is a Business just like any other business where profits come first, no matter the cost.
@@blueraven2345Well said
@@blueraven2345if you fight the medication cartel, they shut you up. I've been shadow banned repeatedly. I've seen people have their family targeted by 3li LiIIy. The gaslighting is constant.
3 years from quitting 100mg of Zoloft and 3mg of abilify. I can relate to everything she has experienced. For the most part I’m healed. I still struggle with empathy and memory.
When I think back to this experience, I start to cry. My heart breaks for her and others that experienced the same thing.
Do not give up if you read this or watch this video. In time, prayer and getting back to life when your capable healing will happen.
I’m very active in life now, working, laughing, exercising. I’m living.
Michael Priebe the lovely grind. He helped me tremendously!!
My nephew is nonverbal. Took abilify for years during childhood. He is now off of it but has never been the same. He hits himself in the face. Bangs his head. Paces non stop. Barely sleeps. I can’t imagine what it’s like to be in his mind. As a boy he was expressive and giggled and loved playing in the water. Now he does nothing but pace and self harm. He’s trying to communicate something but we just can’t understand. 😢
Why was he put on it?
Autism i guess. Agility, Anxiety, Aggression. All gone. For everyone, but the child...
@@myhandlehasbeenmishandled hallucinations, he had early onset schizophrenia. He was more verbal back then and would talk to people who weren’t there. He ran from someone named Tyler that was trying to choke him. The dr told my sister it would help 🤷♀️ Super easy for others to judge when it’s not their child.
@@M.Ahnungslos you have no clue what you’re talking about. Do you always answer questions for other people? My nephew has been through hell and has no quality of life. My sister did what the professionals told her to do. She was 17 when he was born. How the hell would she know not to listen to them? Talk about blaming the victim.
NEVER give psych meds to children.
I went to an outpatient center because my job was stressful and they were on the brink of terminating me for any small infraction, a coworker even said he heard HR saying they were going to go over my work with a fine tooth comb so I took a family medical leave and ended up in the outpatient center. They were trying to give us all meds and a lot of people declined. I remember my nurse and the guy who led the outpatient clinic mocked us because we declined meds they said in a mocking voice “My family member/friend said I shouldn’t take meds because we don’t know what they’ll do to me.” They acted like we were ignorant but we knew better and they must have heard that so much that it really got under their skin, enough for them to repeat it back to us.
My medical chart currently says “medical non compliant” because I weened myself off psyche meds against doctors orders. I consider it a badge of honor.
I took medical leave when there were problems at work but my doctor warned me not to go too long or else. I imagine he meant they would think I was the problem.
honestly it's best to just find another job at that point, if it's driving you to a mental breakdown it's just not worth it. your working there to live and that isn't living.
all work and no play makes jack a dull boy
I have never been comfortable with psychiatric medications. Many in my family took them for depression. Until "science" is able to determine what is going on with the neurotransmitters in every individual case, it's like throwing a dart with a blindfold on. I take as few medications as possible
Prozac helps if you really need it lol
@@SunkistSea Flouxetine (prozac) is poison, like any other SSRI. You end developing PSSD.
Be careful.
Best wishes.
@@SunkistSeanot for me. It caused mania and self harm.
Spaghetti on a wall😂
I take Zoloft and it's a literal lifesaver. It's actually dangerous to go around telling people to avoid psychiatric meds because some people need them to function. People around me discouraged me from meds for years and I was on the brink of $uic*d*. There will always be people who will have bad side effects and there will always be bad medical care regardless. Some of us literally have a broken brain and need psychiatric meds.
What is happening in psychiatry today is criminal and evil. What happened to her and so many others is heartbreaking. Remember years ago when the Scientologists were saying psychiatry was evil and everyone said their view was crazy and dangerous? To be clear I’m not a Scientologist, but it just goes to show you even a cult can get it right sometimes.
its not just psychiatry. psychiatry is a small window into eurocentric cultures general treatment of the entire human species. everyone who isnt born well off is viewed as a disposable toy to utilize for well off peoples enjoyment/enrichment. there is absolutely zero concern placed on the humanity of people who arent wealthy in this culture. hell, its less than zero, they are conditioned to dehumanize most of our species and treat them badly on purpose.
True. Theyre very powerful and dangerous. Anyone whos losing their mind needs care and compassion and investigation..not forced against their will to be drugged into submission. There's a book called the madness of civilization by foucoult and omg its enlightening. The whole psychiatry industry was born out of making use of the mad to use in industry. So its all been about keeping people quiet so they could make baskets at first and do their jobs later. No questions ever about life. If youve had a hard life that can damage your brain and that brain damage can affect you and how you feel act etc. They dont care if you were kept under the stairs and beaten every day or if your mom just died. They just hand you mind altering drugs. I got handed lexirpo script for an itchy sore ear i kept going to the gp and she eventually said it was anxiety disorder. Im like its my damn ear! I ended up buying foot fungus cream and putting it in my ear and it cured my ear. But she was going to give me lexpro. I asked what are the side effects and she said don't look at them there are none. Cos it would be Bad for my anxiety. Thats insane. I read the side effects and was like how is this to help my ear? Even abeforr that they gave me asthma medication for my ear??? Doctors are insane.
Scientology gets a lot right. The problem is that they use all that good knowledge to enslave entire families.
I’m not an adherant nor an advocate but I did read Dianetics and do think he had some things right indeed.
@@Stan-b3vgo for the OG then, Christian Science. Scientology is just Christian Science; the scify remake
She’s right about akathisia. It’s indescribable. You cannot sit still. It’s impossible. You are compelled to move. Absolutely the worst.
10,000% agree. Feels like your skin is falling, you have all this abundant energy and like hypersensitivity .. makes your skin crawl and jumpy
Is that what this is called? I described it like a bunch of bees buzzing under my skin and extremely restless.
I get that, and the opposite, because of the polar sides of catatonia
And besides the pacing, you look perfectly fine from the outside.
Last time I had it was a couple years ago. I had surgery to remove the right side of my thyroid. That surgery went pretty well. Unfortunately, during the surgery they send a specimen of to get a quick check to find out if it was cancerous. It came back clear so they did not remove the left thyroid. Later that week after a closer look at the thyroid, they found cancer in the part they took out. So two weeks later I went under to have the left side removed also. When I was in recovery they had a problem getting my blood pressure in check. I ended up with akathisia. I was up all night pacing the halls. The nurses must of thought I was nuts. They wanted to give me some anti nausea medication and/or tramadol. I was just felt like I should not take anything and ride it out. Later I found that the anti nausea medication they wanted to give me more of has a listed side eff3ct of akathisia. I would try to sit down, but I just couldn’t. I felt compelled to move. I am extremely fortunate that it let up in the morning and a couple days later I was OK.
About 10 years ago I had akathisia for about 2 months which i realize now was related to a long term use of prescribed Ativan.
This Dr. stays calm and is a good listener. Good listeners are getting hard to find in this profession.
Narcissists prefer to hear themselves speak.
He is a good listener, but I was expecting him to say something doctor-like at some point.
EDIT: It only took nearly an hour, but he finally got to sounding like a professional.
I was as in and out of psych wards and baker acts due to addiction. Fortunately i dont have any psych issues or depression. Drugs are bad, but psych meds are the stuff not nightmares are made of. They accidentally gave me bipolar meds ONE TIME ONE DOSE it had me laid out, unable to move, unable to talk for 9 hours!!!! I cannot even imagine. My heart goes out to this woman😢❤
Dearest Jess, thank you for sharing your experience. We had a bit of a journey with my anxious son, who had a bad reaction to a MDMA trip. He had similar symptoms to you. But the medication didn't help and once he disclosed to us about the MDMA, with his psychiatrist we agreed not to give him any more medications, except some sleeping aide. He cut sugar and all the caffeinated drinks thatvwas causing him heart palpitations. He wasn't experiencing any joy and of course his whole health declined. It took 3 years of his life to the the 4 of us, 3 pets, a good psychiatrist (eventually) a psychologist, a nutritionist, a good GP, an homeopath, an acupuncturist, a bunch of friends, well even some Latin friends arrange prayers for him in Colombia! but that boy is now a 22 yo man and it's been around a year and a half that he is himself again. He missed out in many experiences, but as he says "I still can make it up for the missing experiences, because I'm alive." I wish you every success in your journey, I send you lots of strength to you and your loved ones. I hope you can reclaimed your former life and health too❤
Terrifying. Our families foolishly trust these doctors and drugs.
Foolishly is the key word. Yet people are desperate and vulnerable in those situations. They really do need help. But they don't realize whatever ails them pales in comparison to what they're about to contend with in the mental health system and with "treatment" with psychiatric medications. It's an absolute disaster.
Very few people have built their own opinion based on using both brain hemispheres and all their senses , but many believe propaganda being their intrinsic „truth „
If psycho-drugs selectively deplete essential micronutrients ?( vitamin b1 and magnesium for example/ korsakoff -psychosis) is known to be caused by alcohol abuse.
However, magnesium cured my 4th and last psychosis within 4-5 hours, whilst the Auschwitz like (mis)treatment by biorobots in white uniforms almost killed me twice .(they were promoted for doing so)
Diogenes of Sinope would highly likely still search for a (psychologically)human being (with a light during daytime)
@@ross_ulbright7779 Very true! I think that is a trap many teens and young adults fall into and it starts a journey of a nightmare.
My doctor is trying to get people not to be suicidal
Seriously
In my 50 years on this earth I’ve gotten to personally know (not as a patient) at least half a dozen people who were “psychologists, therapists” and they were all mental!
Prerequisite to being in that part of the "industry". In order to "treat" others like this woman is explaining takes a person that enjoys dealing out pain. They are soulless. The things that go on inside psych hospitals go unchecked. All forms of assault for starters. It is very disturbing.
I dated a therapist at one point, and a psychiatrist at another point. They definitely had mental problems. That's why I stopped seeing them.
that’s is the most vague stereotypical thing i’ve heard in a very i long time and i’m almost as old as you! but it’s the behavioral health that makes them mental; it’s not mental to begin with (whatever mental is
@@chantemoody8416uh what is the correlation exactly? i mean think of all the ppl who aren’t those who are pretty nuts or whatever
I knew a school psychologist who was an alcoholic and a pedophile. I think most of the mental health professionals have their own demons.
I was involuntarily hospitalized for su*cidal ideation after being abused by a workplace and put on 5mg of Abilify. Even that small amount was insufferable, probably partly because i knew it was against my will. I was diagnosed after literally 5 minutes of conversation with the psychiatrist.
Everyone that i spoke to in that ward was put on Abilify.
One girl told them she didn't tolerate an injectible they were going to give her and they did it anyway against her will. She ended up puking the next three+ days.
I was almost assaulted over a TV remote.
Many of the things they claim are part of our recovery plan never get done. We barely went outside, hardly had groups, did not speak to the psychiatrist more than probably 10 minutes the entirety of the time in there when we were supposed to have regular therapy sessions. One of the nurses started using me as an emotional dumping ground telling me it's not that bad and at least i didnt have cancer like she did.
I was breastfeeding at the time, they refused to let me pump, and my milk dried up. I was suffering physically and mentally for days as my nipples leaked out of my paper pajamas.
My relationship with my son was never the same.
How those nurses and doctors live with themselves I have no idea.
I guess there are huge conglomerates that own like 500+ hospitals like this. They even have all these pics online of them playing golf together, smiling, partying it up. When you contrast that with the reality of how they make their money, it makes you absolutely disgusting.
Was in 10 days, $17k
I work at an outpatient mental health clinic… the hospitals have gotten much worse over the past 15 years. It started with managed care pressuring the hospitals to move patients along like an assembly line. Then the pandemic happened and removed a lot of the group therapy from inpatient units, staff turnover got even worse… and at the same Wall Street private equity groups have been digging their way into the hospitals bit by bit, including the nonprofit ones
Ya its pure greed. Profiteering off of illness.
Whats the solution to this problem?
2010 - obamacare.
"If you like your doctor, you can keep your doctor!"
@MaddesG1 that's why they have no interest in truly healing anyone from anything. They want that steady cash flow
@@shelleypegram1450 There isn't a lot of data on harm caused by the various therapies. They have studied successes, but they haven't studied harm. In fact there's not a lot of data on outcomes. It is a huge business though. People spend billions on talk therapy, and metanalyses show it's not effective.
So glad I am seeing this tonight, my doctor's appointment is tomorrow. I won't argue with him, but I will not take it..I am 64 and no drug involved
Good, stay strong!
No, argue. These doctors need to get push back from INFORMED people. Mine tried to put me on a statin for Cholesterol. I told him I wouldn't take it. Then I told him why. I've naturally lowered my level with diet and supplements. No medicine needed.
Why are they trying to put you on abilify & how do you know?
How did the appt go?
I relate to this woman's experience so much. I'm glad this psychiatrist is shedding light on these terrible psychiatric medications. retaining info, carrying conversation, drawing on words, brain fog, a period of akashia, emotional blunting, a feeling of inner anguish that can;t be expressed,sleep problems, the feeling of trying to break out of a thick insulated stifling mold....so much she is saying I have experienced and still do to certain extents even though I stopped all meds like 16 years ago.
I'm so sorry for your pain, thank you for your kind words. Please stay strong 🫂 I know it's an impossible fight
I thought Abilify was the best drug! When I was first divorced and crying nonstop, it snapped me out of that really well. But it has side-effects of causing process addictions: sex, shopping, gambling. So I got all of those. I wasted a lot of money and my self worth. I had been on the highest dose. I have been off it for about 3 years. I am no longer feeling the emotional sting of the divorce, but the feelings of guilt and remorse over the shopping, sex, alcohol, and gambling have taken its place . I am in recovery yet again, but making progress.
Sex? Nice!
Just remember that you genuinely weren’t accountable for your actions when your brain is all gummed up with that stuff
God bless you
Jesus died for us! He forgives as soon as you ask Him to!
@@gforceforeveroh nooo not lord talk. jeesus why ?!!!! add shame w religion but the religion will free you of it? what a waist of energy just start out exempt of shame and religion and do healthy things
I swear this happened to my aunt. She is bi-polar, but she was so over medicated she was a shell. Then for a short time a new psych tapered her down. It was so bitter sweet, getting see my aunt’s personality, and then the awareness of time lost with her. She showed she was capable, and intelligence and caring. Started doing outings with me and calling for that short time. Even writing , she always would scribble, then for that time she was on limited meds she could write script. Then went to a different doc and shell never come back.
I just want to give some love to Jess for bravely sharing your story with the world. Mental health treatment is still extremely barbaric compared to the other advancements that have been made in the medical field. This story is all too common. I hope it inspires other people to share their story and spread more awareness to the horrible side effects some people experience from these new anti-psychotic meds and the way they are administered. To Jess, I hope with all my heart that u continue making progress. Never give up on finding that joy in your life that was so tragically stolen from u. ❤
The hospitals are so unsafe it's horrifying
Recently in last couple years I was SA by social worker sent from therapy. All correlating from fb group stalking from therapist and social worker. Because I kept objecting to there bogus psychiatric diagnosis on me from past. Then when the social workers criminal mischief and other suspicious behavior didn't provoke a response from me to collaborate there false diagnosis she then tortured my pet cat when I kicked her out of my house. Social worker approached me as date/relationship from fb dating and I didn't learn they (therapist and social worker) were working in my medical records until later when judge brought it up.
Now I'm being prevented from investigation and further retaliated against because I keep talking about it. Bowen center is getting all kinds of grants, praise, and awards for what they did to me.
Thorazine is given liberally to the troubled inmates in jails. My psychiatrist gave me Abilify after Seroquel was losing its effect and it instantly made me manic and I told him I didn't like it so every month when I would go back and see him and tell him this he would say ok let's increase the dose and see how that works out he did that to me 5 months in a row so I was just getting more and more manic over the 6 months. On the 6th month he let me go back to Seroquel and the next month he moved to California and I never saw him again his negligence has scarred me from taking psychiatric medications it was such a hard long 6 months and I never want to experience anything like that ever again I'd rather just learn to deal with my swings on my own then trust those monsters with my wellbeing.
This system needs a serious reboot. They basically diagnosed her as bipolar from one incident, that is disgusting and they should be held criminally liable if she has been harmed! Everybody shows signs of this that or the other sometimes that does not make a mental illness! It took them years to figure out I was bipolar lol. I take no psych meds now and use marijuana medically because it does work good for me. I went through that corrupt pill system and am done with it, they care more about profits than your mental health!
Yes, the system is very quick to slap a diagnosis and medicate. It doesn't take much curiosity, care, or empathy to do so. Any monkey can label and prescribe. But to sit and listen to a person's story and find out what's actually going on from all sides and come up with creative and comprehensive care is real help. Totally agree about the reboot! We need major reboot.
@@NeseretBemient Agree that any monkey can label and perscribe. And yet they play god with people and often have a grandiose complex. As long as you do (like a monkey) exactly what the pharmacuetical industry wants you to do, then you can do no wrong and are rewarded hansomely.
It's criminal.
If you read the DSM 5 we all fit into one diagnosis or another it’s the greatest business model of all time.
@@NeseretBemient you basically won the lottery if you can find ANY level of healthcare "professional" who will acknowledge the human body has daily nutritional requirements that if not met will lead to a cascade of severe problems that will effect every aspect of your life and well being. they have to ignore that because if they didnt, they'd have to testify in court against employers who pay people under the cost of living for causing measurable physical/financial damage to countless peoples lives and they'd have to testify against the government officials who think its ok to do that to most of the species too. its a crime against humanity in every conceivable way. they are just going with the flow of oppression to avoid having to take responsibility for their actions causing so much harm to untold amounts of innocent/vulnerable human beings.
This answered so many questions. I'm 61 and have these problems. Thank you for sharing your life as it has helped me. God bless you young lady.
Took abilify and went into psychosis. I also saw black shadow people and was terrified. It was the scariest thing I ever went through.
Those shadow people are some kind of metaphysical entity. Jerry Marzinsky worked with schizophrenics for decades and realized what was going on. You should check his channel out.
Do you know what the shadows were?
She is so well-spoken and her voice is so soothing to listen to in podcast format. She has a beautiful soul, and I hope she gets her mind back. My experience definitely parallels very much to hers with the vision loss, hearing loss, fatigue, although it never got as bad because I refused to go up from 2 mg or to the injection with abilify. the numbness, the anhedonia, dysfunction, depression, I so appreciate her opening up and this is even more confirmation to me not to try taking it again. All my gratitude and well wishes to this person ❤❤❤
I’m so sorry that she had such an invalidating experience
Doctors even say “2 mg” has no effect, but it does
I had taken Abilify for about 10 years, and I could not agree more with this woman and very much relate with her testimony. The nightmares and night terrors while taking that drug were so severe and intense that I can honestly swear I would never EVER wish them on anyone for any reason. From my experience, the drug would INCREASE mental health symptoms, as well as lowering my overall intelligence significantly. The depression was the worst part, which absolutely nobody can understand how close I was to not being here. I also never intended to gamble, and after the first 6 months of taking Abilify I began to steadily gamble more and more until I lost rent checks. Thankfully I no longer take it, but I still am being forced to take medication in the form of Invega (which has its own negative side effects).
That is very interesting that so many comments mentioned gambling and other forms of addiction popping up. I think the psychiatric industry is evil personified.
these mental facilities are more similar to a jail than a hospital, and that is something i've always told people.
Jail may be better. That is all many people have!
The truth is that psychiatrists are taught about side effects but they dismiss them. They don’t believe in them. And if a patient reports side effects they will prescribe more medication as the answer. It’s bizarre.
It's also incredibly easy to manipulate them into giving you specific medications
Could you do more interviews with people affected by antipsychotics? I’d appreciate that Dr Josef
Yes, I’d like to see that too
And people affected by SSRIs
I respect her so much for sharing her story. Incredibly brave and vulnerable. Hoping for the best for her recovery. ❤️🩹
I was on abilify among lots of other meds as an adolescent after early encounters with the system. My doctors were all pill pushers. I have never felt like a complete person and I struggle trying to find insight into myself and other people. My life feels like a carnival ride. I have been incarcerated in psych centers and in state prison from a young age. I have a problem with authority and I don't get along well with others after a short time because its too draining to keep appearances when I'm struggling with my own demons. Despite my attempts at self-discovery there is an empty, missing part of me that eludes understanding. I have never really been treated well by people but it is probably deserved because my thinking is that you get out what you put into the world and I have mostly brought forth negativity and suffering. I have the overwhelming feeling that I do not want to experience the struggle of existence ever again. I have to walk a fine line between wanting revenge and overcoming myself, but I don't think I am disciplined enough to do either. My life feels like A Clockwork Orange. I am in my 20s but I feel 100. I am burned out and I have little desire to see or hear anything. Thanks
Get on organic CBD, Lions Mane and do keto or carnivore (high anti-inflammatory diet is deeply healing. Sending healing your way!
When smoking a cannabis vape pen it's very important to be mindful of what voltage the pen is set to. The higher the voltage the higher the dose regardless of how long you hit it for.
Also weed is too strong now. It's unhealthy. It's not usually properly balanced with cbd.
I went through a similar drug injury and recovery process from psychiatric mishandling. This does heal. It just takes forever. Stay hopeful. You will get your life back over time. It took me about 7 years to really recover from what the medications did to me.
Jess reminds me so much of myself. When I was 17, I had two psychotic episodes from smoking too much cannabis. The first one lasted two weeks and the second one was a week long. The psychosis faded in both instances and I managed to hold onto my ego, thank God. I was actually prescribed Abilify but never took it. What followed was a decade of depression, anxiety, panic attacks, PTSD from that experience, and everything in between. When I was 23, I figured out that my parents were narcissists and that I had been actually been emotionally abused and neglected all through my childhood. My own denial and repression of this meant that I never got help for the above conditions because I basically thought my suffering was normal and that there wasn't a problem. I was in serious emotional pain and wasn't allowing myself to feel it. Victims of abuse, especially narcissistic abuse, are conditioned to look to others to define their own reality and emotions, which is why I think they go to the medical profession for a cure, thinking they know what is wrong with them. After starting therapy recently and really beginning to figure out what happened have I begun the road back to myself. So many psychiatric conditions are actually just manifestations of trauma and if the victims of this trauma can have their reality validated by a therapist who understands this, healing can occur.
Not discounting anything you said but there's a definite biological aspect in many cases. We are all exposed to thousands of man made chemicals 24/7 and eating a diet lacking in basic nutrition. Our gut is where the hormones that keep us mentally stable are created, by microbes that are needed for health. Our gut and the microbes are being devastated by our diets/exposures. That not even considering all the other ways these chemicals affect us.. neurotoxins, endocrine disruptors, etc.
@@crazyratlady3438Abilify lowers thyroid hormone. That maybe helpful is hyperthyroid is causing some psychosis. But if one is hypo or effectively low because of impaired glucose tolerance, insulin resistance and reactive hypoglyceamia.
Living with pain anxiety and depression caused by effectively low thyroid that is systematically misdiagnosed as fibromyalgia that's enough to make you wish you were dead.
Jess, you will get better. It's a very slow process. I have been going through it for 3 years now and doing a lot better. The akathesia was the worst part for me and I empathize with you so much! I want to encourage you to keep fighting! I have had to get up every day and go to work through this whole process and fake trying to be OK and it's the worst thing I have ever experienced. Just know that it does get better. Prayers for you. God Bless
It does get better? You promise?
Yes, it does get better I know I have seen it happen.
You said this so well Jess! These symptoms are the exact same as what I’ve been experiencing with PSSD torture. Your conclusion explained exactly what I was thinking of how so many innocent people are actually suffering from PSSD rather than mental illness.
PSSD?
Absolutely. My friend had got into a cóma and survived and was changed after his cóma and they refused to help him they gave him benzos which he bevame addicted to. He got no help to come off them so ended up buying them on the street and he knew he wasnt right and tried to get psych help amd they wouldnt even help him nobody would. Hes now homeless drug addict and in prison on eorde substances. Total waste of a kids life. But then they will take somone who doesnt need help and just medicate them. My doctor gave me a script for lexiprro for anxiety because i kept going to the doctor about my ear. I had a fungal ear infection. After years of going to them and finally getting told it was a mental illness i stopped going and just got fungal foot cream which helped my ear heal. I was itchy dizzy stabbing pain in my head. Nothing to do with mental illness. I was even told there is no sich thing as the inner ear by one of the gps. Gaslightted. And i was given banned antibiotics. Banned. Dangerous antibiotics. Only allowed to be used for chemotherapy. That caused my tendons to be damaged and i had severe psych symptoms from those antibiotics well documented by other people for 20 years theyve been trying to ban it. The whole meeical system is insane. If you have problems and need help and are losing your mind they're the last people i would trust on this earth to help.
@@randykitchleburger2780 PSSD=Post-SSRI sexual dysfunction
@@randykitchleburger2780 Yes that’s what the video is about, she has PSSD which occurs after stopping psych drugs and causes permanent anhedonia, sexual dysfunction, etc…
@@sc.1282 interesting, I've never heard of it. Did you know SSRIs cause sexual side effects? However, I've never really experienced them
Thank you so much for this!❤ When my years with mental illness began, I was so afraid of what people might think or that my family might think I betrayed them. It’s taken decades to find the balance that allows me to be “myself”. The more people know about mental illness, the less guilt, shame and harm. Thank you both!
Something’s still clicking in there, Jess ❤
Absolutely brilliant description of your experience
“The Glass Box” 1:04:55 - 1:05:44
Thank you 🙏
When my wife was on aripiprazole it caused something called hedonistic homeostatic dysregulation, which is something that people on medication for Parkinson's disease sometimes experience. It causes gambling addictions and kleptomania, that sort of thing. For about two months she was like some psychopathic teen motorcycle rebel.
Klonopin used to make me think I was invisible indestructible and a master thief
@@seanlanglois8620 Lol that's the weird thing about benzos, some people experience exactly what you describe, and for others (like me) they just make me sleepy, more depressed and they don't even help my anxiety most of the time. It's really cool when useless fucking doctors prescribe something that they're *so* sure will help and it just ends up making things fucking worse.
feeling so sad reading this - then bam "For about two months she was like some psychopathic teen motorcycle rebel." I laughed out loud. I'm sorry. It's a funny delivery, but really awful that you guys went through that. I hope things are getting easier.
This is a good example not to trust doctors and definitely do not take any weird drugs they are pushing on you
aren't you watching a video of a doctor interview her?
Please do more like this. I'll watch every single one. Thank you for sharing your story. Wow. It's not just a grabby headline. This is so scary
I was prescribed abilify in combination with zoloft. I swear by it as these medicines have made my depression significantly easier to handle and I feel that I would not be here without them. Not to say it's for everyone but it certainly helped me.
The medical staff responsible for her care should be HELD ACCOUNTABLE ‼️ This is DISTURBING ‼️
Too many pyschos go into the medical field
@@catcat9582 They are not psychos. They know exactly what they are doing. Doctors are bought and paid by pharmaceutical companies to push their Poison on unsuspecting customers AKA patients. When someone gets severely injured, out comes a team of insurance companies and lawyers for damage control to make sure everything is swept under a rug. Follow the scripted template for such cases and everything is going to be cool ‼️Of course it's a mere coincidence the prescribing psychiatrist no longer works there..go figure ‼️This once vibrant young woman isn't the first and will not be the last. It's about the Almighty Dollar.. ethics and morals be damned ‼️
👉 NO ONE on this planet can determine AKA diagnose "with any accuracy" a person's baseline "AFFECT" on an initial encounter ...NO ONE ‼️
@@catcat9582 they are not psychos. They are intelligent individuals who know exactly what they are doing without accountability or reprisal‼️
It is criminal and evil what these so called professional have done to us. Seventeen years of my life, on every med imaginable. I have been robbed of my life because of those people. I'm sorry for what you were put through. Stay away from them, do not go back, Thank god you have family that will help you. Just stay off of the meds and away from those "doctors" It will get better just believe that, The process will be long but you will get there. Practice a good diet best you can afford, set up your bedroom as comfortable as you can, no distractions ( tv etc. ) and practice going to bed every night at the same time. It may take months but you will sleep again. You will get better. You may never be the person you were prior to this. You may have PTSD from this traumatic experience but you will learn to cope in your own way. Don't take the meds
28 years…. Still don’t know- trying to find myself and work without loading up on meds afaunz
Blank mind- paucity of thought- or negative symptoms.
Yes a clean diet no sugar, find someone who will help you detox. And yes you can get back to who the person you where.
My heart goes out to this sweet woman ❤️ I hope this ordeal is over soon and she can live a fulfilled and enjoyable life 🙏🏼🤞🏼
This was terrible for you; I admire your stoicism and the clear way you tell everything about this episode. It may be some
consolation to you to know that you may have saved others from falling into this difficulty. These meds are powerful; I have even seen doctors get into trouble themselves takin meds that caused personality change.
I can relate to this poor young lady's story. There is hope though. It is a long road but after 7 years of a 3 year chemical lobotomy myself, I can say my joy has returned. Hang in there sweetheart. I thank God I had faith because I don't know how people do it without it.
This gave me hope 🤧
@@ILoveMyselPH-DI have a similar story. My life is now even better than it was before my mental health diagnosis. Recovery is possible. Refuse to believe anyone who tells you it’s a life sentence. Much love ❤️
Awhile back, the army had me on prozac and remeron. That stuff turns you into a damn zombie. No desire for sex or anything. These drugs are powerful and dangerous, and should likely largely be avoided.
Easy.
Don't take substances!
It's so easy-
I found a bit of solace in this video and Jess’s story. I shared a very similar path over the course of 2023-24. Same blank mind, same medications, same loss of memory, lost friends, lost career path going from a graduate program to being part time at a grocery store now living with my parents. I don’t know where life will go for folks like us, all I can say is I hope we can slowly get back the memory. Maybe in 5 years things will be better.
I had really bad effects after taking a small dose of Abilify for only a few months. It took a while, but I eventually got better. For me, the worst of it was over after 3 months. A few things like a tremor in my finger took years, but I had accepted it as permanent. Looking back, the improvement was so slow, I couldn’t even see it as it happened.
I am so sorry you can relate to my story 🫂 please stay strong 🙏 it's a very difficult path to walk on
sending so much love to her, and gratitude for her bravery in coming on to talk about her experience 💞 could definitely see glimpses of the inner artist shining through at times, and I truly hope she's able to continue healing and rebuilding despite the pain
I have very similar feelings-or lack thereof- since 1999. Since many different antidepressants- took them for 20 years. Better since coming off, but memory, extreme fatigue, recall, sleep… never the same.
My fiancée was taking Abilify for years and she was insanely compulsive in multiple ways…. It helped her depression, but caused her to behave and act on things that were incredibly incredibly destructive to her as an individual and also our relationship…. She’s better now as far as the compulsions , however her depression is worse …. I have severe CPTSD and have been hospitalized many times, however I personally choose and do best without any heavy duty psych meds …. I take a very small amount of as needed benzodiazepines ( I seriously ONLY take it when I truly need it, I make 10-20 pills last a month and my life has been crazier than anyone else I have ever known and almost anyone I’ve ever heard of) and I am doing better now than I ever have…
Thank you for mentioning suicidal ideation on this drug.
Shrooms can bring up the hidden negative stuff for us to confront, one needs to be ready to resolve it with self-talk, not panic about it because they expected sunshine and rainbows but took the drug because of subconsciously different reasons.
I told my doctor Abilify was causing suicide ideation, and she said that it was impossible because I was over the age of 25
I'm age 40
@@jenniferjj2155 Yep. That & other lies.
Why didnt her husband drag her out?
In the 40's a hospital held my grandma thinking she had tuberculosis and the nightbefore they were going to remove her lung my grandpa broke in at night and got her out.
She never had TB btw.
You had a bad trip, were traumatized, and strike me as naive/sheltered. You're family was well intentioned; however, loved ones must be proactive, take time off of work, and be a presence at any hospital or facility. My cousin was a nurse and educated us as to the US angers within medicine as a system. She witnessed malpractice and neglect which unfortunately is common
Yep, really sad, these vape pens are really messing people up, the best thing she could have done was go home and take a shower and eat some food not call the psych ward lol
@@Jay-kk3dvIt’s not the battery, it’s the carts that are messing people up. They’ve formulated oil cartridges without all the other good things you get from flower. So they get you way higher than they ever have before. There should be regulation on how much of the psychoactive aspects can be present in carts to the terpenes, cbd, and other components
I knew an autistic girl who got depressed in college because she wasn’t good at it ended up saying SI stuff and got out on antipsychotics - her facial expression changed permanently and she like became less alive and more like a lobotomized zombie and never went off it
I think with the way things are now, if you get sad, or are shy or get nervous, then it is difficult to avoid a mental health diagnosis and being put on a psych med. I don't know anybody who has visited a psychaitrist with out walking out of the office with some kind of perscription in their hand. That is the way the system is set up.
@@pjjmsn my psychiatrist had a boy’s haircut (gay) and had a nonchalant facial expression but had a strong opinion about a single issue (SSRIs). I suspect she was numbed out on meds herself! Think about it - people who take meds will be biased toward them.
@@claireh.7605 Yes and people who perscribe meds need to believe that they are good, or they would have cognitive disonence and think of themselves as a bad person for perscribing them.
@@pjjmsn yes. I have an autistic savant with high iq uncle who works as a prison psychiatrist at a GEO group private jail. he believes police will never abuse or commit a crime against you or lie and that all the inmates are trying to mislead and predate on the staff.
@@claireh.7605 Sad. It sounds like that psychiatrist has a low IQ.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. Thirty some years ago, after the birth of my daughter, a psychiatrist put me on zoloft. Within a month I knew this drug was bad for me. I got in a screaming match with the doctor when I decided to stop taking the drug. He told me I wasn't giving zoloft a chance and if I stopped taking it "who knows what would happen" and I shouldn't risk it. "What about my child?" I stopped taking zoloft and I was eventually fine. But, this doctor was so very insistent I keep using the drug, he never listened to me. I think he was biased. He was part owner of a private mental health hospital.
He was probably getting a kickback from the drug company for every script.
My mom has been on some pretty strong antipsychotic drugs for 10-plus years now. She is like a walking zombie now, with no likes, dislikes, hobbies, nothing. She doesn't even like animals anymore and she was a lifelong pet owner. I said to a friend recently, that it's like she's been chemically lobotomized. Of course, I also remember when my mom would go through her manic or depressive episodes. It's like one extreme to another and i honestly don't know whats worse.
What does your mom think about this?
@MaddyPup19450, she doesn't. Her Dr told her she would need to be on these meds for the rest of her life, so that is what she believes. I guess she just accepts this as her life. The worst thing about it all is that I've watched all of her relationships become nothing. She doesn't talk to my sister, she rarely talks to my brother, and her and my dad don't get along at all anymore. They just coexist.
@@kimberleekuz3181 that's horrible, I'm sorry. Maybe you can get her a new doctor somehow to reassess her situation.
Meds are worse
I took abilify for a week and went psychotic. Now I’m off my meds and never been better
What I can't understand is why would they diagnose her with anything when they knew she was under the influence or "coming down" from the 🍄 and weed? Also, why wouldn't they just wait it out and monitor her and give her something for sleep til she was herself again.
That is WRONG! To be honest, malpractice no?
I was on abilify back in 2011 or 2012 and it literally made me like a zombie. I was just numb to the world. I had hard-to-treat depression and had been on pretty much everything out and nothing worked. I HATED it, and ended up stop taking it after a month or two. Oddly enough, at the time I was taking it, I was in psychology in college and we were talking about how depression medication works. The teacher explained how medication is meant to keep you “right in the middle” so that you don’t experience high-highs, or low-lows. I was definitely in the middle, but not in a good way. I liked not feeling super depressed, but I also hated not being able to enjoy life. It is a horrible medication!
Thanks for bringing to light that some institutions do not have a road map for recovery of their patients. It's just a place to stick people and charge for their stay.
God... This sounds so similar to what happened to me in 2020. I have no idea what led up to it, but I somehow developed psychosis. I was in and out of hospitals, put on this and that. I do have a history or mental illness, but not psychosis. I was abused and withheld food in several of the hospitals. I don't remember clearly the first 2 weeks of the first hospital I was in because I had a seizure and hit my head. A patient is the one who told my parents, not the staff. They werent going to mention it at all to them. They put me in the "quiet room" often those first two weeks. It's fuzzy, but I can hear my own screams and cries for help and I can feel the memories of it in my body. I often lost phone privileges cause I'd go to the men's side of the facility. And we had no visitors due to covid, which just makes you go more insane. When I could I would talk to my bestie on the phone, but I'd talk about her to her. She wasn't my bestie to me, she was just someone I was talking to about herself. There were times when I'd just go quiet and silently cry on the phone and hand it over to the friend I had made. I felt like who I was was trapped inside of me, watching me go through psychosis and there was nothing I could do to stop it. As awful as it all was, I had one positive experience because of the psychosis that caused me to dive into spirituality, which is what I've been doing. But, I am not the same person that I was in 2019. I'm not as outgoing or social. My long and short term memory are awful. I still feel emotions, but I don't feel like it's as deeply as I once felt. I can't visualize anything in my head, but I think I've always been like that, but I'm not sure due to long term memory issues. I used to have hobbies. I loved writing and reading. Reading is hard now. I have to repeatedly read the same thing over and over to keep it in my head. I find it very hard to talk anymore. I'm not good at holding conversations in person. I feel for this woman. I miss who I was.
That sounds so awful Beth and my spirit wants to reach out and relay whatever empathy I can express. Best to you, and your journey of realizing those aspects of yourself that you love and miss.
Thank you so much for covering withdrawal from antipsychotics and their effects .would love to hear more stories about the challenges of antipsychotic withdrawal
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I was severely harmed by Abilify and 8 other psych drugs.
I'm stuck on Lexapro. I tried tapering off of it back in August of last year and went full psychotic. Hearing voices and hallucinating. Too scared to be left alone. Couldn't leave the house. I was nowhere near that bad before I started Lexpapro for anxiety. I went back on it but it took an entire month before the psychosis stopped. It's been ten months since then. I'm still not right. These drugs are poison. They should be illegal.
@@roderickcortez138I’m so sorry. They are poisonous and also made my condition way worse.
I completely understand what you are going through. I went cold turkey. It was hell on Earth. Now, almost 2 years later, I am slowly healing. I will pray for your healing as well. You will come out stronger and wiser
@@roderickcortez138taper off the drugs.
I see a lot of people claim they are damaged by meds YET THEY WON'T STOP TAKING THEM!
That psych hospital is bananas. I am a psych nurse and it is NOTHING like that here. I’m so sorry for what she went through
I'm so sorry this happened to you. I pray for your healing.
This is why I am glad I bottle up my emotions enough to realize that in life, there's always ups and downs, it's only a matter of knowing how to manage yourself the best way possible when it comes to tough times.
This is 💯 word for word what happened to my brother. This interview shocked me to my core but I’m glad I listened
I honestly had no idea Abilify had this kind of effect on the brain. I know this medicine has helped someone I love immensely. This is the most emotionally stable I've seen her in years. The bipolar and PTSD is still there. I don't think the pain of what she went through ever goes away, but to see her emotionally regulating like this and helping her come back from those manic lows, it's such a blessing. That's something we weren't able to do on all the other medicines she took before Abilify. Such a blessing!
It's really sad seeing everyone saying this medicine made them feel empty and emotionless. From what I've heard this medication lifts patients spirits.
imagine you tell her that she doesnt deserve to even have one meal per week unless she works 23 hours per day doing the hardest labors imaginable. think that would have a positive or negative effect on her mental health? well thats the expectations you all apply to literally everyone on earth aka the 98% of our species who arent born well off and are viewed as disposable tools by people like yourself...
@@syzygy4365i mean i’m sorry to be rude but your few experiences in people on this med do not compare to the actual studies showing the massive side effect profile and apathy
The problem was she was given a psychotic medication for a psychotic episode but wasn't psychotic. It would be like giving chemotherapy because you have some benign cancer cells in your body.
Totally misdiagnosed but she was evaluated as such to justify being given that medication. It did the exact opposite to her because she wasn't psychotic but is now.
Sickening
I didn't think I'd hear a similar story to mine. Thank you.
100% agree
the problems it left me with are beyond living with sometimes and I feel like it was a punishment dealt rather than a treatment provided
For everyone here, Valium is the off switch for most psychoactive substances. This would have been stopped with 20mg.
I have always thought it good to have some benzo handy if one is going to trip. Just in case of negative experience.
I was put on abilify for a year from 16/17 to 18 years old. I'm 24 now. I was in and out of psychiatric units as a teenager. I was switched around on a bunch of drugs and ability might be the one one that always made me jittery/ restlessness needing to move and bounce my legs when I sat, chest pain, and mind racing. All of the drugs pushed on me from medical professionals and the hospitals themselves added so much damage. I don't have schizophrenia. Autism, ptsd, depression, and anxiety yes.
Now I know this comment goes a little against the grain, but I have found Abilify to be more tolerable than other anti-psychotics. That said, I simply don't need it! I believe that my psychosis was caused by being improperly drugged with strong anti-depressants from a young age to treat supposed ADHD. I am tapering the Abilify and I am down to 10% dosage and doing great. I've been tapering for a few years now, and it will probably take another few years to complete my taper. People are going to say I'm still mentally ill because I don't know how to find a good job for the life of me. Oh well I guess the big charade will continue!
-.- you realize what you are saying? Accountability and being honest with yourself is important.
Thank you ~ I have a younger friend on this and he says similar things. He says it calms his brain and he can function more clearly without outburst
This is such a powerful and heart breaking story. Thank you so much for sharing.
I hope you know that you are still so beautiful, eloquent, raw, and vulnerable. I hope you'd consider writing your story.
This is the high cost of entering in to the mental health system and getting on psychiatric medications. I share my 13 year nightmare with antidepressant induced bipolar disorder and being on a cocktail of psych meds that was "a chemical lobotomy." The ultimate price for me is that I sleepwalked through my daughter's childhood - literally and figuratively.
My recovery came through getting into ketosis. Have you considered ketogenic diet as an intervention? I share my story and what helped me on my journey on my UA-cam channel.
I also worked as a Psych RN for 17 years and have witnessed all these things you've experienced and are speaking about. People truly lose themselves and everything near and dear to their heart. And sometimes their very lives. You described it so accurately "It's like having your soul ripped out of you."
I'm so grateful you choose to still be here and raise awareness. Your justice is your healing journey. You're using your suffering to help others and this shows your courage, strength, and love for your family. You are such a gift!
I agree with you regarding the ketosis. I also eat a meat heavy diet. Psychiatrist Chris Palmer who has been interviewed by Dr Josef and many other channels reports miracle recoveries using such diets.
@@pjjmsn I love Christ Palmer! He's wonderful. I also did an interview on bipolarcast, another wonderful resource, about my journey with the ketogenic diet.
@@NeseretBemient Great that you are sharing your sucess story! People need to learn this info!
@@pjjmsn It breaks my heart to hear stories like this. I've witnessed it for years and finally decided to speak up. I'm a bit of an introvert so it's a bit painful sometimes but I feel I need to do it. Even if it helps one person, it means something.
@@NeseretBemient I am the same. And it makes me feel better to think that I am batting for the right team and might help someone out there.
I was prescribed 10 mg of ability when I was in second grade due to misbehaving and certain anger issues, and I remember my mom saying I was like a zombie, I don't remember most of my childhood during that time, like I remember more things all the way back in 1st grade than I do from 2nd-9th grade when I was on that medication. I was slowly lowered the dosage over my life and was mostly on 5 mg every night. I was never diagnosed with bipolar or schizophrenia, only adhd later in life and even then I was on this high ish dose for such a long time for my age range and I cannot imagine how much that has effected me in the long term of my early development while under the effect of the drug. It was always a struggle for me to get off of the drug during my middle school years because every time I got in trouble while taking a break on the medication they would always blame the behavior on not being on the medication and not that I was a literal child still trying to learn consequences to my actions and it was only until high school that I finally convinced my parents to get me off of it after my new physiatrist was shocked I had been taking this for so long and that it was very odd given my diagnosis of adhd.
My entire life felt so numb during that whole time and while it did help control my actions, it controlled EVERYTHING, my thoughts, feelings, it felt like a distant disassociation and, distant to everything and everyone and think that compounded with my behaviors with the loneliness and isolation I felt during that time. Now nearly 5 years after being off of the medication I finally feel alive, I feel emotions like I never did in my childhood and everything feels so, REAL. Its weird to say but most of my childhood feels like a different distant person that no longer exists, and barely existed to begin with. I feel free.
Of course I have my biases and my specific circumstances of being medicated from such an early age, but especially with these sorts of medications and I hope its changed a lot since then but I it should be under very specific and truly necessary circumstances to prescribe such medications in early development with therapy and non medicated empathetic treatments being the first line rather than immediately going to medication with therapy afterwards such as in my case.
Thank you for sharing, I think many can relate to your experience. Also I am sorry you were put on an antipsychotic for behavioral issues. This is troubling.
@taperclinic thank you for the affirmation, these sorts of situations hit close to home and and I appreciate you taking that time to interview the individual and allow people to hear that story and what those sorts of situations can do to someone's day to day and decline in quality of life in the long term.
Thank you for sharing personal horrific events that seem to have tossed you into a tail spin for a few. Keep fighting for the life you know, BLOWN AWAY by how you were treated buy the mental health profession.. cheers you got this you sound like a strong person. .
1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.
I did mushroom medicine one night and met the dragon god Tiamat. She asked me to follow her and after that my occult powers and psychic abilities began opening up.
It's all thanks to not being sober that me eyes were opened to the true reality. I feel sad for people who are still stuck in the dark.
You said it
@jay I had a similar experience with mushrooms, but it actually cured my dependence on marijuana. Now I'm sober and don't even think about drugs.
@@jaygordon4053you opened a door that will have eternal consequences. Repent while you still can.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. This was very validating for me.
There is no hell like anhedonia with no end in sight...
Also, careful with the gabapentin. They throw that around like candy and there is very little understanding of what it does.
Same with Pregabalin. Withdrawal is crazy bad.
@@SethEssingtonused to know someone put on pregabalin or whatever it's spelled. He was fried after the first dose, me and his group immediately noticed cognitive issues; he started to abuse it, later quit. he was never the same again and is unable to keep a relationship or properly care for himself
The real name for this is called neuroleptic induced deficit syndrome. I experienced the exact same thing and was given the loading dose of invega sustenna. It's causing me the exact same struggles as the interview. I'm only 20 and have lost everything. I knew this would happen to me before the injection except they court ordered me on it.
I used to be prescribed abilify alongside an ssri for depression as a teenager. Looking back this was insane because this was the first line of treatment. I was on it for about 6 months and felt like I was crawling out of my skin the entire time, couldn't sit still or sleep. It also completely killed my emotions. Now I'm here 15 years later and my feelings are still severely blunted compared to what I recall before.
You heart is so strong, i think you are on the right track with MAOIs, you're not alone, i was forced to take a cocktail of abilify, adderal, and wellbutrin all through high school among others.
Oh sure- FORCED?
You took them readily.
So stop!....
@@rdallas81 im 26, why are you telling me what to do? I havent taken medication since i turned 18. It was force, my parents wouldnt have taken care of me if i didnt comply, etc.
@@rdallas81 back the fuck up, you have no idea who the fuck youre talking to or what ive been through. Leave me alone.
@@patrickofearthyou're not alone I know what you mean by forced med compliance
I think everyone needs to understand that street drugs started this horrific cycle for this lady. Now with drug dispensaries everywhere, this will be a more common thing for our bread and circus societies. I have seen psychosis and paranoia with quite a few weed smokers.
This happened to me with a different medication. It was the worst feeling I've ever had. I had no will or desire or motivation to eat, move, do any activities. Just getting out of bed and getting dressed required major efforts and felt like it wasnt worth it. I didn't have any desire to do anything and just wanted to lay in bed and watch my phone. It felt like too much of an effort to interact with others, even basic communication. Nothing sounded interesting, fun, enjoyable. I have anxiety and during this time I couldnt even feel anxiety. I did have the thought several times that I didn't want to exist anymore if this was my new normal. The moment I realized it could be the medication, I stopped taking it. And as soon as i stopped taking it my symptoms improved. Luckily i returned to baseline and it didnt last like hers did. This is honestly the worst thing I've ever experienced, a lack of feeling and flat feeling. I'd rather feel any of the worst emotions and feelings than nothing at all. Later I googled the drug and found stories from family members of victims who took the same meds and killed themselves randomly with zero history of self harm, and lawsuits against the manufacturer.
What medication was it?
Similar experience for me. Everything is so exhausting when you have no emotional connection to anything. You don’t want to die but you don’t want to live either. I remember just lying in bed for days, praying for sleep and hoping for a better day. I was having medication induced hypo-manic episodes. They tried to tell me I was bipolar at the age of 49, then I had BPD. Psychiatry is a gong show. I was looking for treatment for chronic migraines. Now 10 years later and 22 psych meds later, I’m still trying to scrape my brains off the sidewalk. The only drug I have left to discontinue is gabapentin. It’s been almost impossible for me to discontinue it.
Gabapentin can cause headaches, so try to wean off it ok