For a few minutes ? Youre pretty lucky then... this song is about depression and with depression you dont think about life for a few minutes... once you start thinking about it it only gets worse... that, for me at least, holds at least half an hour... not meant rude or anything... but the song describes how it feels to have depression
Funny thing is I am back,after diagnosed with deppresion by my local psychiatrist.tried to suicide by overdose and hanging.in 2019.now I'm here after almost a year don't give up.and please seek profesional help. Took me about 6 months to finally back on my feet.and now I got a new job outside the state Fellow survivor (I love you)
I think "Forget me I won't be myself soon" got to me the most. When you realize what your depression is doing to your mental state, it only makes it that much worse :(.
@@xxstarxx4842 This song has so many good lines and that's certainly one of them. My favorite is "enveloped in total darkness." I feel like it really describes depression to the core.
You're one of few that I've seen that can make Oliver so understandable. I don't have to look at lyrics to understand. Plus your songs are so beautiful, and deep.
I love Oliver. Honestly, he's my favorite Vocaloid of them all. He's very relatable. I don't find Oliver creepy either. like most Vocaloid fans I've met (aka, all my friends). I also find him irresistibly adorable. :)
Really, I have to agree with you. I wouldn't call him my favorite vocaloid, but I do love him. He can be very relatable at times, depending on the song he sings. For this song, he had to probably the most relatable. For a few months, I was very depressed. I didn't want to get out of bed, go to school, or even eat. I was just alone in my room, thinking about what I should do. But, I managed to get help and I'm not depressed anymore (I also find him incredibly cute) :)
I love how there isn't any background knowledge to why Oliver feels this way any people could make up there own reasons! but he could very well suffer from depresstion. that's so cool dude amazing.
"These voices, they just won't leave my head, 'don't worry, we'll help you through' they said.. " "Forget me, I won't be myself soon" "But somehow, I just no longer care.. " Damn those lyrics hit hard..
There it is.... our song........ WORKING WITH YOU HAS BEEN SO GREAT!!!!!!!! Im sorry the MV has been taking so long ;; I have a break from school (finally) starting Thursday of next week so I should have it done by the following monday........ weeps im so sorry I WILL FINISH THIS MV IVE POURED MY BLOOD INTO IT
Lyrics: Falling, I'm falling. This despair is taking over me. I can't breathe, Oh I can hear voices Inside my head. These voices, They just won't leave my head, "Don't worry, We'll help you through, " They said. Can I really go on with this madness inside? I'm stuck with my inner monster's pride. I'm plummeting into darkness, No light to be found. Please help. Forsaken, I dwell inside my room. Forget me, I won't be myself, soon. This is my slow descent Into black-born despair. But somehow, I just no longer care. Enveloped in total darkness. I can't even breathe. Help me. My lost sanity is out of my reach. Where's the future? There's no future. I've nowhere to go. Somewhere deep inside This black heart of mine, I am calling, I am screaming For the Salvation of Nothingness. My lost sanity is out of my reach. Where's the future? There's no future. I've nowhere to go. Somewhere deep inside This black heart of mine, I am calling, I am screaming For the Salvation of Nothingness. I am trapped inside This black heart of mine, I am screaming, I am calling For the Salvation of my-
+Josi_The_Piplup no matter what there is always someone who hates and destroys the protection of something beautiful by seeing all the flaws of the creation instead of all its beauty... it is sadly how the world works.
I feel so depressed now. This explains everything what i feel sometimes. This really ruins your mood. It reminds me of moments i had that were so happy but now they are gone. This song is so deep and beautiful.
I wish people would stop commenting Aki brought you here. it kinda ruins the mood tbh. No, you're not the only person who was bought here. I have nothing against Aki, in fact I love her channel. but I'm just pretty annoyed that people kinda ruin the point of comments. I wanted to see how people felt about the song in the comments, but I really can't do it that much since people saying "Aki bought me here" a lot. but this comment probably won't do anything at all. lol
That's very true! And when people say that it's annoying and as you said ruins the points of comments! I really can't stand when people things similar to that on any video.
I feel the same way I mean I love like replying to things other people comment because I can relate to some things people say and saying Aki brought you like bruh... your ruining the comments! comment what you think tbh I really like this song and I can relate because lets be honest I am a psychopath and I have lost all of my sanity!!! (this is just to support your rant!♥♥)
I have BPD (if you don't know what it is then look it up), and it makes me think I'm the worst human being in the world. Since I think that, I become depressed very easily. I found this song INCREADIBLY relatable and I couldn't help but smile when I heard it. Is that weird? I don't know, but I couldn't agree with you more.
almost 7 years have passed, i still love listening to this song, i still love how oliver made this song what it is, i always want to cry when i hear to this song.
not really, but they do seem to be the popular ones. if you want a more lightheartish sounding Oliver songs I recommend "Desync" by corasundae(it's still a bit of sad song but the melody is more upbeat) and "Starlight keeper" by momocashew. but if you like oliver and want watch a fun video. Watch the webcartoon "Bee and Puppycat" on youtube, puppycat is voiced by VOCALOID Oliver. it's an entertaining show.
This song truly is a masterpiece. The story and emotions are beautifully portrayed through poetic lyrics and effort in Oliver's voice. Steampianist, you never cease to move and amaze me with your beautiful music, you truly are a hidden gem of the vocaloid community.
This song gives me chiiills, I haven't listened to it in a hot minute but returning to it is always a depressing, yet slightly pleasant, surprise. Especially since I used to relate to this song bad like a few years ago so now I'm in a better headspace I kinda see it from a sadder perspective which makes the song hit harder.
honestly when I'm depressed I listen to this I don't know why but letting out tears and having the feeling I'm not alone and that I'm not the only one feeling this way helps me
I've been struggling with depression for years now and things are just getting worse and worse. This song, however, really helps me cope. It's easier knowing I'm not the only one going through this. To anyone else that might relate to this song; I sincerely hope you get better soon. It will take time, but I promise you things will get better. I believe in you, keep fighting. It will be worth it.
Wow, this song is beautiful.. it's great to find a song that relates to you and your feelings.. depression makes me happy, god I sound like a sadist.. anyway, this is beautiful. Well done.
This song is oddly satisfying. I listen to it every night, alone in my room. It keeps my sorrow at bay honestly, which is a little weird, but good too. This would have to be one of my favourite songs, just because it's so... Soothing.
wow this is sad because the lyrics are literally how I feel/act. god this is depressing... I love it. depression makes me "happy". this song is great and super deep
+Lizbeth im trying to get help but I don't know if anyone can fix me. the depression is taking over and i feel like I'm falling down the whole of nothingness
I can’t express how much this describes me so perfectly and as soon as I heard this song I felt like I truly understood this song and the feelings in it
Woah oliver just went opera mode on us! Hahah Awsome song (as always) Oh and the lyrics are a bit off with some words. Like the lyrics would word it one way but the song would word it a different way *shrugs*
Honestly, this entire song described what my mind was going through in elementary, plus, sometimes I still feel like this. I can't help it, damn, I just feel like I'm useless and worthless sometimes and that it would be better if I was never born, I sometimes feel like I'm a burden to my family even though they clearly love me. And then after that I'm completely fine again. Unfortunately, a lot of people go through this as well...
I feel ya... therefore: You are not a burden or worthless! Life just feels dark sometimes, but that doesn't mean anything. You are still as worthy as you always were and that is a LOT of worth
I cried. I cannot describe my emotions towards this song as anything more than *the sound of beautiful, forbidden sadness* inside of my ears. I really really really enjoyed this song; lovely as always, and I wait with bated breath for more! ಥ⌣ಥ *・°☆.。.:The Oliver Addict!*・°☆.。.:
+Jonathan Goodwin One example of a Vocaloid is the boy who sings this song - basically, Vocaloid's are sort of holographic robots that sing (and sometimes dance) to entertain others. They originate from Japan, but some (like the Vocaloid in this video) sing in English.
I used to listen to the song almost everyday a few years ago, it really helped me and it showed how I felt back then. I struggled with depression and anxiety and hearing this helped me in so many ways,,
This has got to be my favorite Oliver song. The instrumentals are beautiful, the lyrics are dark but deep and relatable, and Oliver's tuning is just perfect. He's never sounded better. Thank you Steampianist for this masterpiece. Also can I give my babie boi a hug please :)
Zehra Yassiri dude this could have so many meanings and I’m trying to figure out which one you’re intending I’m digging way too deep into this comment wtf
@@yourlocalnohomopass7236 to clarify after 4 years, l meant that no matter who will be attending, l will be the only one truly listening/understanding what's going on. On the bright side, this is no longer the truth :)
I tried to hit the high notes near the end, and I couldn’t. I’m a first soprano and had to sing in my head voice and falsetto just to get close. You expect me to believe Oliver has a higher range that me at 12?
"These voices, they just won't leave my head, 'don't worry, we'll help you through' they said." My mind keeping my ego in check by it guilting me into believing my mental breakdown from last night was a cringe and try-hard "i'm the mc" moment and that my traumatic experiences are nothing compared to others' pain.
I always listen to this song. Somehow instead of it making me sad it gives me hope that I shouldn’t feel this way and I have to do everything I can to stop this feelibng.
At 1:53 I hear this kind of cry.. Like you know how when your crying then you breath in and it makes this sort of sound? Idk how to put it but it's like this crying noise and it is making me sad bc he's 12 and someone for that age....that's even more depressing because at an age that young it's just sad to go through that kind of thing.... Edit: do you guys hear it too?
honestly this song sounds like a cry for help... yet still calming and depressing... its like life... and all of us humans taking good things for granted and the good becomes bad...i like it i just need MOREEEEE sorry.
My theory on this song: This is a schizophrenic person with depression. And in the end, where Oliver (or said mentally unstable person) ends undeterminably, I have a feeling they *ended* their heartbeat and commuted suicide in the end.
In my darker times I relate to this song too much. As I listen to the lyrics, I often find myself crying and digging myself down. But at the same time, the music itself is so calming and beautiful to listen to. It reminds me to remind myself that it’s okay to feel like this sometimes. Not every second I spend on this earth has to be happy. In fact, I feel better knowing that I am sad, as I know that I will eventually feel happy later. And the difference between the dread I feel in those dark hours, and the ecstasy I feel in my happy moments, reminds me how much life is worth living. Have a beautiful day, everyone.
After years of not knowing the name of this song and only remembering how the melody went, I finally found it, and it's more depressing that I remembered, actually, the way I remember this song it's very different, this is the way I thought it was: The song is about a very young kid who has died and now is just crying for help. Yeah, very weird, also, my English wasn't that good and didn't understood a thing, and I think I probably saw this song in a top about sad or creepy songs from Vocaloid and heard it. The top was on Spanish btw.
I found this song in 2015. I used to listen to it everyday since I relate to the lyrics a lot. Here I am in 2022 and I still relate to the lyrics. Just how many years will it take for me to be happy
I enjoy this song very much because it captures what the 'darkness' can do to a human. I love this song very much and how it was composed, it just sends chills in my spine sometimes because it just so relatable to most people now
I can relate to this song ...a lot.... I have terrible anxiety...which leads to depression...which makes me think...then I just don't care...but I really do care...its complicated...
Lyrics: Falling, I'm falling, This despair is taking over me. I can't breathe, oh, I can hear voices, inside my head. These voices, they just won't leave my head. "Don't worry, we'll help you through." They said. Can I really go on, with this madness inside? I'm stuck with my inner monster's pride. I'm plummeting into darkness. No light to be found. Please, help. Forsaken, I dwell inside my room. Forget me, I won't be myself soon. This is my slow decent, into black-born despair. But somehow, I just no longer care. Enveloped in total darkness. I can't even breathe, help me. My lost sanity is out of my reach. Where's the future? There's no future. I've nowhere to go. Somewhere deep inside this black heart of mine, I am calling I am screaming for the salvation of nothingness. My lost sanity is out of my reach. Where's the future? There's no future. I've nowhere to go. Somewhere deep inside this black heart of mine, I am calling I am screaming, for the salvation of nothingness. I'm trapped inside, with this black heart of mine. I'm screaming, I am calling, for the salvation of, my... You are welcome. c:
I LOVE IT!! OMG the lyrics are soo painfully it really did made me cry. i love i love it.. please make more like these. i love all the ones you have uploaded 💖
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first thought: WHO HURT MY BABY?!
Second thought: oliver, you shouldn't be able to hit those notes.
and this was me:
at first: I feel the same... I'm broken
at second: ow ow volumes too high!
EpixZent ._. Xd
plot twist: he is gay.
remember the song?
tran le nam phuong NO. NEVER. STOP.
😂😂😂
The song is so calming..
and yet
when I think about the lyrics
I have to lay down and think about life for a few minutes
For a few minutes ? Youre pretty lucky then... this song is about depression and with depression you dont think about life for a few minutes... once you start thinking about it it only gets worse... that, for me at least, holds at least half an hour... not meant rude or anything... but the song describes how it feels to have depression
You will understand once you have depression.but trust me you better hope you’re never have one
Yeah...
BIGBASCH yeah and when u know what too ask in your head ... you don’t become a answer
Funny thing is I am back,after diagnosed with deppresion by my local psychiatrist.tried to suicide by overdose and hanging.in 2019.now I'm here after almost a year don't give up.and please seek profesional help. Took me about 6 months to finally back on my feet.and now I got a new job outside the state
Fellow survivor (I love you)
This is so sad. the agonizing lyrics, depressing voice accompied by heartwrenching instrumentals just makes it a totally emotional ride
It's the best vocaloid song in my opinion lol
@@savannahkarrow561 It's definitely up there on my list. Regret Message is probably my favorite.
this along w your pfp makes this feel like a joke/lh
Therapy? No.
Listening to depressing Oliver songs? YES
YuP BeAsT pArT Of lIfE!!! :'{)
I think "Forget me I won't be myself soon" got to me the most. When you realize what your depression is doing to your mental state, it only makes it that much worse :(.
Yeah that's my fave lyric in the whole song
@@xxstarxx4842 This song has so many good lines and that's certainly one of them. My favorite is "enveloped in total darkness." I feel like it really describes depression to the core.
@@xxstarxx4842 mine is "wheres the future? theres no future, ive nowhere to go" listening to that line just rinses my brain 😌
You're one of few that I've seen that can make Oliver so understandable. I don't have to look at lyrics to understand. Plus your songs are so beautiful, and deep.
Taylor Davis the beautiful and deep part goes to the lyricist. thanks dude!!
+Steampianist I love these!
Eyyy Botar~ Yeah, Steampianist is the bomb.
+Botar Akutabi I couldn't have said so better. Steampianist's songs more often than not have a deeper meaning than you see at first glance.
This song made me cry a little because, this song is sooo... AMAZING.
I love Oliver. Honestly, he's my favorite Vocaloid of them all. He's very relatable. I don't find Oliver creepy either. like most Vocaloid fans I've met (aka, all my friends). I also find him irresistibly adorable. :)
He can be creepy. Depends what song you have him sing.
i like pie
do you think gay sex is relatetable?
yes.
Really, I have to agree with you. I wouldn't call him my favorite vocaloid, but I do love him. He can be very relatable at times, depending on the song he sings. For this song, he had to probably the most relatable. For a few months, I was very depressed. I didn't want to get out of bed, go to school, or even eat. I was just alone in my room, thinking about what I should do. But, I managed to get help and I'm not depressed anymore (I also find him incredibly cute) :)
After nearly two years this song is still beautiful, yet depressing.
The Shy Foreigner
3 years now :/
4 years now •_•
Almost 6 years now
Almost 7
Almost 8 now
I like how the breathes in between verses are chopped up, like he's trying not to cry. Adds more sorrow to the song
I love how there isn't any background knowledge to why Oliver feels this way any people could make up there own reasons! but he could very well suffer from depresstion. that's so cool dude amazing.
HeyItsSea Depression**
"These voices, they just won't leave my head, 'don't worry, we'll help you through' they said.. "
"Forget me, I won't be myself soon"
"But somehow, I just no longer care.. "
Damn those lyrics hit hard..
the part "falling im falling" just randomly got into my head and i was like IMMA LISTEN TO THIS SONG :D
There it is.... our song........
WORKING WITH YOU HAS BEEN SO GREAT!!!!!!!!
Im sorry the MV has been taking so long ;; I have a break from school (finally) starting Thursday of next week so I should have it done by the following monday........ weeps im so sorry I WILL FINISH THIS MV IVE POURED MY BLOOD INTO IT
(deleted my previous comment because i thought it might be rude) I look forward to seeing that MV. I love this song and your art is great!
The art is so pretty and understandable, even though it’s just one picture, it still portrays so much emotion and feeling, this song is BEAUTIFUL😭😭😭
Lyrics:
Falling, I'm falling.
This despair is taking over me.
I can't breathe, Oh I can hear voices
Inside my head.
These voices, They just won't leave my head,
"Don't worry, We'll help you through, " They said.
Can I really go on with this madness inside?
I'm stuck with my inner monster's pride.
I'm plummeting into darkness,
No light to be found.
Please help.
Forsaken, I dwell inside my room.
Forget me, I won't be myself, soon.
This is my slow descent
Into black-born despair.
But somehow, I just no longer care.
Enveloped in total darkness.
I can't even breathe.
Help me.
My lost sanity is out of my reach.
Where's the future?
There's no future.
I've nowhere to go.
Somewhere deep inside
This black heart of mine,
I am calling, I am screaming
For the Salvation of Nothingness.
My lost sanity is out of my reach.
Where's the future?
There's no future.
I've nowhere to go.
Somewhere deep inside
This black heart of mine,
I am calling, I am screaming
For the Salvation of Nothingness.
I am trapped inside
This black heart of mine,
I am screaming, I am calling
For the Salvation of my-
Omg thanks I am french and it was difficult to understand him
i see why there are no dislikes...*cries silently* Such a perfect song...
But there was one (shakes head) there was one
+Josi_The_Piplup no matter what there is always someone who hates and destroys the protection of something beautiful by seeing all the flaws of the creation instead of all its beauty...
it is sadly how the world works.
+bunny the neko
Yea 😔
Now theres no dislikes anymore
I keep hearing him say "My sanity is on top of my bleach"
Yeah i heard it too that why I listen to the one with lyrics
He is saying my sanity is out of my reach
Personally I think it's really clear
XD lol
ded
I feel so depressed now. This explains everything what i feel sometimes. This really ruins your mood. It reminds me of moments i had that were so happy but now they are gone. This song is so deep and beautiful.
I wish people would stop commenting Aki brought you here. it kinda ruins the mood tbh. No, you're not the only person who was bought here. I have nothing against Aki, in fact I love her channel. but I'm just pretty annoyed that people kinda ruin the point of comments. I wanted to see how people felt about the song in the comments, but I really can't do it that much since people saying "Aki bought me here" a lot. but this comment probably won't do anything at all. lol
I mean Aki brought me here, but I wouldn't comment that-- OH SHIT (don kill me)
Agreed.
I just found this and cried because.. Oliver.
That's very true! And when people say that it's annoying and as you said ruins the points of comments! I really can't stand when people things similar to that on any video.
I feel the same way I mean I love like replying to things other people comment because I can relate to some things people say and saying Aki brought you like bruh... your ruining the comments! comment what you think tbh I really like this song and I can relate because lets be honest I am a psychopath and I have lost all of my sanity!!! (this is just to support your rant!♥♥)
Ally-Chan _ No. You are not 'Psycho' or have lost all your sanity.
I know how he feels. Sometimes I feel like I am crazy and hate myself. so thank you so much makeing this. It may be depressing, but it made my day.
Im gald im not the only one.
I have BPD (if you don't know what it is then look it up), and it makes me think I'm the worst human being in the world. Since I think that, I become depressed very easily. I found this song INCREADIBLY relatable and I couldn't help but smile when I heard it. Is that weird? I don't know, but I couldn't agree with you more.
Same
This song is so depressing but the voice and music is so beautiful. Thank you. This id my new favourite song.
almost 7 years have passed, i still love listening to this song, i still love how oliver made this song what it is, i always want to cry when i hear to this song.
Are all of Oliver's song depressing?
not really, but they do seem to be the popular ones. if you want a more lightheartish sounding Oliver songs I recommend "Desync" by corasundae(it's still a bit of sad song but the melody is more upbeat) and "Starlight keeper" by momocashew. but if you like oliver and want watch a fun video. Watch the webcartoon "Bee and Puppycat" on youtube, puppycat is voiced by VOCALOID Oliver. it's an entertaining show.
Listen to gay sex
+Jesse Pinkman ...........why
Zelda Montez Tbh i've heard worse
Zelda Montez yeah
When steam-P uploads a fairy gets it's wings.
I got extremely excited! I love your songs ;u; Thanks for existing.
This song truly is a masterpiece. The story and emotions are beautifully portrayed through poetic lyrics and effort in Oliver's voice. Steampianist, you never cease to move and amaze me with your beautiful music, you truly are a hidden gem of the vocaloid community.
The music and slow rhythm calm me down when I'm upset despite the depressing lyrics.
This song gives me chiiills, I haven't listened to it in a hot minute but returning to it is always a depressing, yet slightly pleasant, surprise. Especially since I used to relate to this song bad like a few years ago so now I'm in a better headspace I kinda see it from a sadder perspective which makes the song hit harder.
This is very touching. Props to you two for making this song its beautiful.
honestly when I'm depressed I listen to this I don't know why but letting out tears and having the feeling I'm not alone and that I'm not the only one feeling this way helps me
Haven't listened to steampianist in some years because I felt like I wasn't in the mental space to. But now that I'm back I'm very happy
Tenebrae is Latin for darkness, I think...
I think it has something to do with the Bible actually.
EDIT:
It's both.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tenebrae
Interesting...
YOUR ACTUALLY RIGHT! :0
Bruh ur right I have Latin in school
Somebody get this boy a puppy
Tommy Schlauch 😂😂😂
Tommy Schlauch lol 🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐕🐶🐕🐶🐶🐕🐶🐶🐶🐕🐶🐕🐕🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐕🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐕🐶🐕🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐶🐕🐶🐶🐕🐕🐶🐕🐶🐕🐕🐶🐕🐶
or a fukase
This deserves more likes
If that happens then the puppy would die in one of his songs, so don't.
I've been struggling with depression for years now and things are just getting worse and worse.
This song, however, really helps me cope. It's easier knowing I'm not the only one going through this.
To anyone else that might relate to this song; I sincerely hope you get better soon. It will take time, but I promise you things will get better. I believe in you, keep fighting. It will be worth it.
Wow, this song is beautiful.. it's great to find a song that relates to you and your feelings.. depression makes me happy, god I sound like a sadist.. anyway, this is beautiful. Well done.
ρɦเl.εאε • ѵเ૨μร • phandom is everywhere
I've carried this song on my back like an anthem for 6 years I truly feel it in my bones *7 years now
This song is oddly satisfying. I listen to it every night, alone in my room. It keeps my sorrow at bay honestly, which is a little weird, but good too. This would have to be one of my favourite songs, just because it's so... Soothing.
i just really want to give oliver a hug and tell him to go be with the kagamines and miku T - T my poor baby
I feel like the Kagamines and Miku are the perfect choices to cheer him up :)
wow this is sad because the lyrics are literally how I feel/act. god this is depressing... I love it. depression makes me "happy". this song is great and super deep
same
Sophia I'm happy I'm not the only one
No you're not alone :)
same
+Lizbeth im trying to get help but I don't know if anyone can fix me. the depression is taking over and i feel like I'm falling down the whole of nothingness
This song remains to this day one of the most relatable vocaloid songs I’ve listened to. In all honesty, it made me feel less alone.
It's gentle and modest, calm and lonely, mysterious and sensitive, beautiful ballad!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2:35 It makes me question existence...
i used to listen to this when i was 12, now im 15 turning 16, its weird how fast time flies by
I can’t express how much this describes me so perfectly and as soon as I heard this song I felt like I truly understood this song and the feelings in it
Woah oliver just went opera mode on us! Hahah
Awsome song (as always)
Oh and the lyrics are a bit off with some words. Like the lyrics would word it one way but the song would word it a different way *shrugs*
My bad I mustve copied from the wrong .txt file hes actually saying "i cant breathe. Oh I can hear voices inside my head"
Oliver is voiced by a choir boy after all.
Honestly, this entire song described what my mind was going through in elementary, plus, sometimes I still feel like this.
I can't help it, damn, I just feel like I'm useless and worthless sometimes and that it would be better if I was never born, I sometimes feel like I'm a burden to my family even though they clearly love me.
And then after that I'm completely fine again.
Unfortunately, a lot of people go through this as well...
I feel ya... therefore: You are not a burden or worthless! Life just feels dark sometimes, but that doesn't mean anything. You are still as worthy as you always were and that is a LOT of worth
I cried. I cannot describe my emotions towards this song as anything more than *the sound of beautiful, forbidden sadness* inside of my ears. I really really really enjoyed this song; lovely as always, and I wait with bated breath for more! ಥ⌣ಥ
*・°☆.。.:The Oliver Addict!*・°☆.。.:
RedFlyer411 you've had an eargasm
You are in every comment section that I go through.
RedFlyer411 ¬¬
Why is it called Tendrils of Tenebrae? Just curious - I love the theming and the lyrics by the way!
+Connor Kappel Cool! Thanks for the help! 😁
Connor Kappel who is oliver? the singer?
Jonathan Goodwin yeah Oliver was the vocaloid used in this song
Amber Youngs what's vocaloid?
+Jonathan Goodwin One example of a Vocaloid is the boy who sings this song - basically, Vocaloid's are sort of holographic robots that sing (and sometimes dance) to entertain others. They originate from Japan, but some (like the Vocaloid in this video) sing in English.
I used to listen to the song almost everyday a few years ago, it really helped me and it showed how I felt back then. I struggled with depression and anxiety and hearing this helped me in so many ways,,
I think I found my new favorite song sure it’s depressing but that’s how I like my songs
I decided to come back to this song,it helps me reflect on stuff...I honestly like it
I felt/had chills and the feeling of something inside me clenching horribly hard when I listened to this song...
This has got to be my favorite Oliver song. The instrumentals are beautiful, the lyrics are dark but deep and relatable, and Oliver's tuning is just perfect. He's never sounded better. Thank you Steampianist for this masterpiece. Also can I give my babie boi a hug please :)
This song helps my anxiety. Its so calming, despite the lyrics. The lyrics make the song so powerful 💗❤💗❤
2:33 this hits hard
l want this to play in my funeral. Because, l will be only one listening .
Zehra Yassiri dude this could have so many meanings and I’m trying to figure out which one you’re intending I’m digging way too deep into this comment wtf
I would come to your funeral
@@yourlocalnohomopass7236 to clarify after 4 years, l meant that no matter who will be attending, l will be the only one truly listening/understanding what's going on. On the bright side, this is no longer the truth :)
@@rainwillkeeponrainingforev5288 Hopefully we all live to see better days, thanks for the sentiment.
@@zyassiri thanks
dem high notes omg
chorvaqueen I love your channel
I can do them
your music keeps getting better and better i swear... i love it!
Beautiful yet sad
Holy sh*t has it really been 8 years!?
"My lost sanity is out of my reach." This gave me chills.
after 6 years i still come back
I don't understand how you do this. All your songs are so amazing!!
this song is so dark and sad i could be creeped and and crying at that that same time.
I have never heard Oliver hit such beautiful high notes! You did awesome on this one, Oliver and Steampianist!!! 😍🤩👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽💖💖💖
I tried to hit the high notes near the end, and I couldn’t.
I’m a first soprano and had to sing in my head voice and falsetto just to get close.
You expect me to believe Oliver has a higher range that me at 12?
"These voices, they just won't leave my head, 'don't worry, we'll help you through' they said."
My mind keeping my ego in check by it guilting me into believing my mental breakdown from last night was a cringe and try-hard "i'm the mc" moment and that my traumatic experiences are nothing compared to others' pain.
There is a reason I use this song to cry myself to sleep at night...
I always listen to this song. Somehow instead of it making me sad it gives me hope that I shouldn’t feel this way and I have to do everything I can to stop this feelibng.
Left me in tears...
At 1:53 I hear this kind of cry..
Like you know how when your crying then you breath in and it makes this sort of sound? Idk how to put it but it's like this crying noise and it is making me sad bc he's 12 and someone for that age....that's even more depressing because at an age that young it's just sad to go through that kind of thing....
Edit: do you guys hear it too?
imagine being the same age of him and relating
This is a very beautiful song. Sad, but somehow relaxing.
WOAH! Another Great Song By Steampianist!!!
I Really Like This One!!
PKShaystarr and Kooky_Burrow
I found this song in March and I love it so much, I sometimes listen to it when I’m feeling sad
honestly this song sounds like a cry for help... yet still calming and depressing... its like life... and all of us humans taking good things for granted and the good becomes bad...i like it i just need MOREEEEE sorry.
My theory on this song: This is a schizophrenic person with depression.
And in the end, where Oliver (or said mentally unstable person) ends undeterminably, I have a feeling they *ended* their heartbeat and commuted suicide in the end.
Good theory but you forget that some people just feel this way sometimes and they don’t have to be mentally unstable.
Jaiden Gibbs,
I didn’t forget, that’s just my theory/ headcanon.
This is how I feel everyday.........:'(
same
Same here
In my darker times I relate to this song too much. As I listen to the lyrics, I often find myself crying and digging myself down. But at the same time, the music itself is so calming and beautiful to listen to. It reminds me to remind myself that it’s okay to feel like this sometimes. Not every second I spend on this earth has to be happy. In fact, I feel better knowing that I am sad, as I know that I will eventually feel happy later. And the difference between the dread I feel in those dark hours, and the ecstasy I feel in my happy moments, reminds me how much life is worth living.
Have a beautiful day, everyone.
Ok
Damn, I felt that one. There's not many songs that I feel I can relate to on a personal level, but this is one of them.
this song makes me feel overwhelmingly sad, but it's soo good
i love how you are able to make oliver understandable, and your songs are so amazing i cant even! im so happy i found this channel
Beautiful. Simply beautiful.
I agree. It deserves every like it got.
Man this song truly crawled inside of me and festered when I first heard it
After years of not knowing the name of this song and only remembering how the melody went, I finally found it, and it's more depressing that I remembered, actually, the way I remember this song it's very different, this is the way I thought it was:
The song is about a very young kid who has died and now is just crying for help.
Yeah, very weird, also, my English wasn't that good and didn't understood a thing, and I think I probably saw this song in a top about sad or creepy songs from Vocaloid and heard it. The top was on Spanish btw.
Years later and this is still so incredibly beautiful. This helped me a lot. Thanks
When I hear this song with headphones I feels like I'm floating in space calmly.
I found this song in 2015. I used to listen to it everyday since I relate to the lyrics a lot. Here I am in 2022 and I still relate to the lyrics. Just how many years will it take for me to be happy
THIS IS A FUCKING MASTERPIECE!
Ciel Phantomhive well hello master Ciel.I didn't expect to find you here XD
I almost cried. the song is beautiful and the way it shows what depression is like makes the song so much more enjoyable and heart fulling.
I enjoy this song very much because it captures what the 'darkness' can do to a human. I love this song very much and how it was composed, it just sends chills in my spine sometimes because it just so relatable to most people now
I am still living my childhood and this is is the song to describe my life so far...
The *50* people who disliked are plummeting Into Darkness
Hey, by the way thank you for the free download! I'm going on a vacation soon, and lots of music for the road is gonna be great. :D
I love this song.
I can relate to this song ...a lot.... I have terrible anxiety...which leads to depression...which makes me think...then I just don't care...but I really do care...its complicated...
BY FAR this is the most relatable song ever written.
I forgot about this song, it's so good
Its so calming i like it
His words... Are my life. I love it.
Lyrics:
Falling,
I'm falling,
This despair is taking over me.
I can't breathe,
oh, I can hear voices,
inside my head.
These voices, they just won't leave my head.
"Don't worry, we'll help you through."
They said.
Can I really go on, with this madness inside?
I'm stuck with my inner monster's pride.
I'm plummeting into darkness.
No light to be found.
Please, help.
Forsaken,
I dwell inside my room.
Forget me,
I won't be myself soon.
This is my slow decent,
into black-born despair.
But somehow,
I just no longer care.
Enveloped in total darkness.
I can't even breathe,
help me.
My lost sanity is out of my reach.
Where's the future?
There's no future.
I've nowhere to go.
Somewhere deep inside this black heart of mine,
I am calling I am screaming for the salvation of nothingness.
My lost sanity is out of my reach.
Where's the future?
There's no future.
I've nowhere to go.
Somewhere deep inside this black heart of mine,
I am calling I am screaming, for the salvation of nothingness.
I'm trapped inside,
with this black heart of mine.
I'm screaming,
I am calling,
for the salvation of,
my...
You are welcome. c:
I LOVE IT!!
OMG the lyrics are soo painfully it really did made me cry.
i love i love it.. please make more like these.
i love all the ones you have uploaded 💖
1:46 am i the only one hearing "Please Keeeelp"
Crabs be like
@@william052007 that was funny have a like and sub
This song is so powerful, I love it... DESERVES TO BE IN THE TOP 40