R.I.P - The Medical Anomaly ft. Oliver (VOCALOID Original Song)
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- Опубліковано 5 кві 2021
- my first music video, corrosion, has reached one million views. to celebrate, i’m releasing this song!! thank you all so much for your support ;;;
this song is about my experience with multiple unidentified illnesses as well as MCAS. it can also be applied to mental illness tho if that's how u wanna interpret it :))) thank u for watching
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Thank you all for 100,000 views!! You’re not alone, so hang in there
I love this song, thank you!
This is honestly one of my most favored songs out of everything i listen to
-gotta hope to whatever deity is out there that this doesn't turn into another i'm an awful person situation-
@@aromanticfranziskavonkarma What actually happened though? I know the comments were turned off but I dont know what happened
rip hi
(Also love you too take care of yourself)
those two dislikes are from his lungs
facts
The 3rd one is his skin
@@karina_martinez420 correct
the fourth one is his squishy bones
fifth one is his throat
Same context as
“You have a rare disease”
“What is it?”
“You get to name it”
i would name it Ligma
@@tsukichugaming1709 my god
if i got to name a desiese, i'd name it " Kil Vine "
@@tsukichugaming1709 same
Fr I have a stigma in my eye no one notices I also get random cramps in my hand
Oliver: (singing)
Skeleton A: psst bud why is there a small child in our yellow void
Skeleton B: I don’t know mate but maybe if we stay perfectly still he’ll leave…
plot twist theyre GAY and in LOVE and they adopt the kid >B)
It’s canon now
@@RIProducer omg yes
💀
@@RIProducer 😁😁😁😁😁😁 yippeee
pls don’t say that this song is about hypochondriasis it makes me very sad because this song is about my life and my experience with chronic illness :( please
i hearted this comment so it would be higher at the top
I'm sorry...
Yikes
I came across your song completely on accident, my heart goes out to you. I get compelled to share my experience.
For many years i struggled with symptoms no doctor could figure out where they were coming from and i felt absolutely miserable. But your mind/mental state, body, and spirit all are connected with the other. If one is suffering they all suffer. My bad emotional/mental state caused me to suffer physically for years. It helped me to exercise regularly, do yoga, meditation, write in a journal or talk to a trusted friend or therapist/counselor. And it took a few months of me changing my habits for better ones to feel the difference in my body. I feel so much better over all now.
This may not be your case, but it wouldn’t hurt to try. At the very least you will end up healthier.
Our bodies carry the traumas of our parents and past relatives, and the traumas show themselves in many different ways, weight gain, mental disorders, chronic pains, diseases, etc.
I hope you find an answer. Much love. Good luck.
I can very much relate to this song. So many illnesses working against me, there's no means to fix me, just keep the status quo before it slides again. It feels like the world against me. They get something is wrong with me. But they can't do anything without making it worse than before.
People who dare say that this song is hypochondriasis. Don't know how blessed they are yo not suffer from something invisible. The war we have to b Acknowledged that this sicknesses that do really exist. I’m sorry that you too have to suffer from your illnesses
Also don’t be afraid to just drop doctors and go find someone else. I had to do it a lot. I had doctors actively harm instead of help. They nearly killed my mom with their stubbornness
They have become a log.
A *deadly* log.
"There's sticks and stones inside my guts"
"There are mushrooms growing in my lungs"
*log.*
Rip please pin this
@@donutlover417 istg if they pin this I will cry- I almost cried when they hearted it- *dont Get me started-*
I won’t then-
L O G
Logn’t
"Invisible Disability? It's rather visible to me."
These are my favorite lines after listening to this song a day straight.
Me too
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not sorry
Me too
apartment COMPLEX? i find it quite simple.
Reminds me of when people say, "Your too young to feel pain" 💀 So glad pain is nonexistent until you reach that invisible line of old age
someone with depression here, ngl that line is kinda false, kids can have symptoms too
@@nebluar as a former child, yes.
@@nebluar omg tis another!
also, ive been told that way to many times by my amazing family :D/sar
@@nebluar They were being sarcastic
Actually when I was born I had a very rare genetic disease where my gut was upside down. For five months doctors couldn't figure out why I was in such pain and couldn't eat anything. At some point they were ready to put me down it was so bad, but a doctor did one last test before putting me down to insure that they couldn't find anything, they found out that my gut was upside down and nobody at the hospital had seen or even heard of something like that. They managed to fix it but now I have to live with a very weak gut, no spicy foods and doctors told to my mother that if I ever have anything the first thing see has to do is to get me to the surgeon and then if they didn't see any problem in my gut then they get me to the normal doctors. The fact that nobody in the hospital had seen something like me and thus had little to no experience in such a surgery made me quite literally the medical anomaly at that time (and I still haven't found anybody else with that problem in my life so I must guess I'm quite the rare occasion, or that occasions like me die most of the time)
I sort of relate to this, when I was born, I also had a problem, although it’s different from yours. I wasn’t able to breathe properly for a reason that I forget, so I had a breathing tool on my mouth. I won’t dive into the details since I forgot them, but I do know that my breathing problem as a baby is why I have small marks where the doctors did something (I forgot) in order for me to breathe. (also, just for clarification, they’re sealed and barely noticeable) And this is also why I have constipation sometimes
Wait people get put down?! Like I get that can happen but they didn’t even try to do anything wtf
@@sylentnote it is unethical to prolong a patient’s suffering, so if everything possible has been tried does not help a (seemingly) fatally ill patient it's better to let them go.
That’s the reason behind it, but it’s not immune to being abused when doctors give up on a patient that could have been helped
Oh jeez i hope youre alright
I hope you’re doing well! I also had something weird with me when I was little (by little I mean I was a baby), my head kinda just stopped growing (I forgot what happened) and I had to get a piece of bone removed or something so my head could grow normally and now I have a long scar on the back of my head
hhng the solidarity of having a medical condition/disability yet being ignored and underestimated when you ask for help 😔
@@niamhwilding6476 i have possible depression and adhd. anyways why do you wanna know that so bad
@@niamhwilding6476 oh. sorry
Oof, I can sort of relate. Having asperger's and (possible) random anxiety, people think I'm overreacting over small things. Like one time my family was fighting over my pet snake's health, they thought it was a small issue but I'm the only one who knows the danger. My brother told me I didn't need to freak out about it and I was like " I'm sorry, would you even care if he dies? No, you only think about yourself." Anyway nobody cares about my boring ass "issues" and life. I'm just typing this because people don't treat people like me normally, they talk to me like a dog. Only until I start talking about cthulhu do they realize I'm a person.
I have extreme difficulty regulating emotions to the point where I regularly indulge in depression and anxiety, and I’ve had quite a few episodes of hysteria- and everyone just says I’m overreacting and that it’s hormones.
Woo, boy I got a bunch
I’ve been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, psychosis and i have undiagnosed gender dysphoria and I might be developing an ED
And people tell me to stop ‘faking’
I forgot about my undiagnosed PTSD and Stockholm Syndrome, as I try not to think about anything related to my abuser
as someone who has undiagnosed chronic illnesses because the doctors cant find what the hell is wrong with me, it really do be like that
Same
felt this 🙃
Same
Felt this
I have idiopathic angioedema surrounding my tongue, which is basically chronic at this point
This song hits home for me- I've spent 13 years getting told I'm "too young" for whatever's happening in my spine and playing what my best friend and I liked to call 'rare disease bingo'. It gets so tiring some times and this song just means everything
_RARE DISEASE BINGO???_
*RARE DISEASE B I N G O???????*
*_RARE DISEASE BINGO?!_*
RARE DISEASE BINGO?!?!
Oh God, I feel this. I'm apparently "too young," to be having chronic knee pain.
The R.I.P checklist
Funky beat: ✅
Loose shirt: ✅
Bandage wraps: ✅
Swirly/wavey hair: ✅
Deep story: ✅
Yup, this is a certified R.I.P Classic. 💯
I've just found R.I.P and I've fallen in love, after listening to finder keepers, then found this, and I can never leave,
@@21Aster Bro same thing. It's really good
@@Cookie_Wilson glad to hear I'm not alone, I've fallen off this song sadly though, because my dad found it and played it, while I was like "no, No, NO, FATHER NOOOOOO"
@@21Aster "NO FATHER, NO!!!" Haha. Yeah.
Have these been things in all the videos? I didn't even notice :0
CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH RIP HAS IMPROVED? LIKE IF WE LOOK BACK AT CORROSION WE CAN SEE THAT THEY HAVE IMPROVED SO MUCH PV WISE AND MUSIC WISE (Not saying that corrosion is bad, it's a bop) ANYWAYS I'M GOING TO HAVE THIS ON LOOP FOR 4 HRS NOW
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YEA
so true
Medical song? With Oliver?
Definitely worth staying up till 2 am.
Still,go to bed afterwards,your mental health is important,just saying
@@moving8176 thanks, much appreciated!
@@chestcavitybagpipes anytime!
Yes thats what i thought too haha... didnt go to sleep straight after though went to sleep at like 5 haha
@@flamingcar same.
My partner has multiple chronic illnesses including POTS and it fucking pisses me off that doctors have said "you just need to excercise more" when they literally pass out, have seizures, and asthma attacks when they do
all i can say is that i'm so sorry that your partner has THOSE kind of doctors! aren't doctors supposed to help people?
my doctors are the same AJFKDSKJG "here just exercise and do physical therapy and your symptoms will be fine" My resting heart rate is 130 and you want me to exercise?? i will go into cardiac arrest and have an asthma attack or dislocate several joints tryna do that
The way Oliver slowly becomes more panicked every chorus???
well, the rot consumes
looks like the rot consumed a little too far@@Xeorboom
@@vortextheprotogen4051 these are the average symptoms of rot consumption, he is the new vessel
Dang this goes out to all the kids who've been misdiagnosed with an absurd amount of mental illnesses because nobody knows what's going on so you sorta develop a fear that you're faking or are invalid because of it.
It's me!!!
Also this SLAPS love your use of Oliver,, brain go bouncy bouncy
Edit: works with physical illnesses too, I was talkin bout my own experiences.
I originally got diagnosed with PTSD as a kid (like 8-10), but at 18 that got changed to GAD and depression with possible autism, and for a while I was always just like...keeping my diagnosis in the back of my mind, but not actually paying attention to it, so things would go wrong and I wouldn’t know why
I’ve been diagnosed with bpd and major depressive disorder w/ suicidal ideation and insomnia but I still feel like I’m faking it or it’s not real or the diagnosis is wrong and I’m 18
Same
misdiagnosed with autism checkkkkkk
BRAIN GO BOUNCY BOUNCY
This song really hits home damn
I don't have any illnesses, but my mom does. None of the doctors help her, there was one point even when she lost use of her legs because it *hurt too much to walk* and the doctors just sent her home. Didnt even get her a wheelchair. We had to buy one for her.
It's been about four years since the symptoms started and she still hasn't been diagnosed. It fucking sucks and I wish the doctors would just do the damn tests that need doing to figure out what's wrong.
bruh, doctors these days are the *worst.* Like- there's a 1% chance you get an *actual good doctor*
@@taki7346 i just took an medical appointment another day, bc the doctor that i went to see my knee problems said that i might have something about my hormones or smth like that(didnt hear anything) i spent so much time waiting, and it was like an 1 minute appointment
@@luni.um1 RIP man-
(I kinda go on a rant here, sorry) Ah, that reminds me of something my sister has to deal with. Not as extreme, but my sister has been having jaw pain for at least half her life, around a decade, and all the doctors and dentists keep saying “oh well stick things in your mouth so you stop grinding your teeth” and ignoring when both she and my mom keep trying to tell them she doesn’t grind her teeth, the pain is in the joints of her jaw. The past couple years, you can literally hear her jaw popping, and it’s gotten to the point where she sometimes can’t even eat bread and cooked carrots because chewing is just too much. They’ve only just started taking it seriously, and it’s already gotten to the point where she’ll probably need surgery. I feel really bad, because it’s not like the rest of her body is doing much better. It’s like each day a new part of her hurts, usually joints. Low iron, and a LOT of random nosebleeds leave her with basically no energy, easily overwhelmed and overstimulated, and even before I left for college, it was rare to see her up and moving, especially of her own accord and not because she was asked to help with something.
@@taki7346 insurance is twice as bad even state insurance where people can't pay for shit medically and is completely ageist
shit hits hard when you're "too young" to have chronic knee and back pain and whenever you ask for help or tell someone you think there's something wrong they always go "you're fine you don't seem ill"
This reminds me of my blood problem. I lost so much blood without any internal or external bleeding. My blood just keeps disappearing. Also my blood was a light orangey-yellow colour. And this combined with my anxiety causes me to have seizures. It's been more than a year and the doctors are still don't know what is happening to me. I just wish all of us medical anomalies to have some sort of treatment in the future. I don't want everyone to suffer.
Did you ever find out?
@@temqwerty Unfortunately, no
@@simp9876wish you well♡...
You have orange blood? Tf
Keep in mind I'm not even remotely qualified to talk about this, but the "disappearing blood" sounds like a condition called hemolytic anemia, where your red blood cells are destroyed faster than they can be produced by your body. The orangey-yellow blood is a common side effect of that, because when red blood cells die they release a compound called bilirubin, which is yellowish. Unfortunately, there are a lot of a varied ways to contract it, from genetics to infections to autoimmune disorders, but I'm sure if you do your research... Even if it's not hemolytic anemia, you could maybe find a related condition and work with your doctors to find a treatment. Best of luck.
I love how the live chat was singing two trucks
dont forget about the skeletons
This song gave me shivers, especially how the diagnosis of their affliction kept getting worse and worse without any letting up.
well, you know, the rot consumes
I have BPD and epilepsy and my symptoms were completely ignored and denied by my parents and I was told that I just had depression until early this year. This song portrays the anxiety of being misdiagnosed and going without treatment so well.
Same with me but ADHD and just 20 years (my current age) before I got the diagonisis. I felt and feel like a anomaly because I can't function like people do
same but ASD and i was diagnosed when i was 7 (still ignored tho -_-)
Even if you would have depression you shouldn't be going without treatment.
Same but wip MPD, depression, and epilepsy. I had my diagnosis with epilepsy back when I was like 7. And MPD wasn't too long ago (I'm 19). Everyday I'm pissed off or feeling horrible because I don't function right. (I was still ignored though)
Not everyone can go to therapy.
"When, help you’re denied, ‘cause they say it’s benign, but you’re chronically fatigued."
That line hit like a brick. I've never related to the lyrics of a song so closely.
This message about people not understanding/taking seriously/unrecognizing illnesses really resonates with me. While not exactly related, I have Misophonia, and the amount of people who completely ignore it/think they know more about it than me/intentionally set it off because they think annoying me is funny drives me mad at times. The experience with feeling unfixable and like some kind of monster for it is really relatable, so I really have to thank you for finding a way to put something like this into words. To anyone reading this, have a nice day and I hope that you're able to get the support you need somehow!
about the people who intentionally set them off, they're huge fucking assholes. i hope they burn in hell, you don't deserve this!
Same I also have misophonia and guitar/eating noises really annoyme ijhdejhediuhei2duh
I don't know what mysophonia is, but I've got diagnosed aspergers and people at school liked to rub their hands together around me because they knew I hated the noise and everyone just _loved_ pissing me off for their own amusement. preteens and teenagers have no fucking empathy.
@@tigerkat4419 oof same i cant injoy loud music :{
@@Ardorstorm basically misophonia is a thing where certain noises can make people feel extremely sad / angry - etc
It sucks alot cause sometimes even peoples voices can make me angry waa
Lyrics:
Spooky, scary skeletons
Send shivers down your spine
Shrieking skulls will shock your soul
Seal your doom tonight
Spooky, scary skeletons
Speak with such a screech
You'll shake and shudder in surprise
When you hear these zombies shriek
We're sorry skeletons, you're so misunderstood
You only want to socialize, but I don't think we should
'Cause spooky, scary skeletons
Shout startling, shrilly screams
They'll sneak from their sarcophagus
And just won't leave you be
Spirits supernatural are shy what's all the fuss?
But bags of bones seem so unsafe, it's semi-serious
Spooky, scary skeletons
Are silly all the same
They'll smile and scrabble slowly by
And drive you so insane
Sticks and stones will break your bones
They seldom let you snooze
Spooky, scary skeletons
Will wake you with a boo!
i loved singing this in the premiere chat
Omg ty it was hard to know
Spooky
@@Ziixie skeletons
@@Ziixie shivers
As someone with a very rare and very scary illness this song hits too hard. Everyone venting in the comments and this song makes me feel much less alone.
Ah yes. The medical “stomachaly” because that is totally a word. Thanks brain.
I missread the title as medical "man normally"
Were on the same wavelength, and its the stupid one
@@alicepersson9568 yes we are pal, yes we are.
You gotta love when the live chat is talking about squishy bones, then eating bones, then two trucks and bread-
Edit:DABABY!?!?
i am responsible for the squishy bones thing
@@someguy2220 cool
@@someguy2220 thank you
@@someguy2220 your the best
@@someguy2220 I think I remember seeing you in live chat, thank you for your service :D
When the song hits too hard bc even medical professionals brush off your pain bc of your age and birth gender 😔
This literally has to be the best tuning I have EVER heard on Oliver. He sounds so clear and like, strong? Rather than the usual super-airy way his voice sounds. I'm literally in awe of how good he sounds. This is amazing
You can't be called a real vocaloid-p if you didn't write any medical horror songs👍
Yes we need more medical horror songs
There’s a few by GHOST and Creep-p called Novocaine and Hyperdontia. That’s the only ones I know
Now all they need is to write a Gumi fire song
you are a time traveler
Being honest, I just remember four, but if we talk about general medical songs there's:
Sick Sick Sick
HYPERDONTIA
NOVOCAINE
Crime and Punishment
The Clap
Bacterial Contamination
The Disease Called Love
Teratoma
Venom
People Allergy
And this song
Finally, a song about something medical
You have evolved into a true vocaloid producer
Yes.
As someone with a hyperagressive form of cancer(osteosarcoma), I feel as if I dont relate to what most people do in this song(what with incompetent doctors just dismissing obvious symptoms and the like), but I sure as HELL relate to medicine not doing shit. I might never experience side effects, but often times i dont even get the intended effect. Back during my first tumor(I'm months fourth right now thanks for asking), we tried the most aggressive chemo that they thought I could possible tolerate, and we had to switch over to an even more intense chemo because only less than 10 percent of the tumor was dead when they expected 90 percent to be dead. I also take certain pills in order to fall asleep because the pain in my leg is incredibly hard to ignore, and I can only take ONE PILL of I need to sleep and I obviously need a higher dose, but I have to wait for until the trial is over to heighten dosage for some fucking reason.
And since every single person my doctor treated with osteosarcoma at a young age fucking died and the survival rate for 5 years is only 60%, I'm just always waiting for the end.
How are you doing now?
hey, you still alive? I hope so
How are you ?
I relate to this song so much.. because I AM a medical anomaly. I have a diagnosed genetic deletion in a part of the human genome they haven’t mapped yet. It’s extremely rare if anyone wants to know it’s a 9P-21 chromosomal deletion and doctors don’t know what medical conditions come with it but so far they’ve found part of my brain didn’t fully develop seizures polycystic kidney disease severe asthma possible hypermobile-type Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and seeing a cardiologist soon about possible POTS. I’ve always been in and out of doctors and hospitals my entire life. This song really resonates and describes what I feel a lot of the time thank you.
Same here
holy shit i have never related to a song this much. I have POTS as well as a whole mess of other shit that ive spent years trying to deal with. I have lost faith in doctors after having so many dismiss me, berate me, make fun of me, and tell me in overreacting. "Theres nothing wrong with you that I can see" is a familiar phrase. Thank you for this. (I also have many a mental illness so just icing on the cake). Oliver and fukase are my favorite vocaloids ever so having oli sing this really makes it hit just right. amazing.
my family suspects i have POTS as well :( hang in there, we both can get better :)))
@@RIProducer all we can do is symptom manage i guess. We're all in this together tho :)
My brother has POTS and all the doctors dismissed him until we were finally able to convince one to run some tests because his symptoms were all so similar to one of my cousin's who also has it, and guess what they diagnosed him with!!!?!?! That's right! 🥰🥰 Doctors really gotta start listening man 💔
@@princebendy9486 fr. Im so happy for you all that they got their diagnosis. My first tilt table test was a nightmare and I had a panic attack so they wrote me off as just having anxiety and literally shooed my parents and me away 🙃
Doctors are bitches sometimes, like, you’re entire job is taking me seriously so you can help me and you fucking dismiss me
My doctors ignored my GERD until I started throwing up bile and couldn’t eat
Why is that what it takes for doctors to take us seriously?
This song really reminds me of how people brush us off for our DID. It’s severely impacted our ability to get anything done without dissociating but because it’s a mental condition no one cares. Or how everyone keeps misdiagnosing us and giving us treatment that doesn’t help because this is something medicine can’t fix, and if we told the truth then we’d be shut down and ostracized. Definitely going in the playlist for comfort songs.
You can talk to me if you want. I may not have DID but i do have derealization and trauma
Edit : I do dissociate sometimes and I'm usually pretty aggressive in the process of it
Awe I'm so sorry that you all have to go through that, I may not know much about DID but I'm so sorry that people have so many negative stigmas about it
I'm sure that you're all just as valid as anybody else
As someone who also has DID, i understand. We didn't even know what the issue was for the longest time, so it all just seemed to be random. Honestly, just finding others with DID has done better to help us than waiting for ages, trying to have a doctor figure it out.
As someone who knows someone with DID & suspects themselves to have OSDD, I relate. Whenever we open up we either feel like we're not taken seriously or we're just straight-up not taken seriously. It sucks ;-; We're just glad to find anyone who can relate and/or understand
What’s it like being two different people at once?
You know it’s a well written song when you can empathize with the producer.
I feel like I’m not a medical anomaly, but a psychiatric anomaly, I have so many symptoms of a whole lot of stuff, but not enough to be considered serious
Me too
real
I haven’t heard the song yet, but knowing R.I.P, I’m gonna love it.
Edit: I love it.
I agree
Yes
Same
Yee
It’s good
You know, I'm not usually that big on Oliver, but with R.I.P's masterpiece tuning, he sounded pretty freaking SICK here.
To me, all Vocaloids can sound godly when done right :D
That pun made me sore...
Smiled too hard. Hurt a bit.
Awesome! There’s a lot of good songs out there by Oliver! ^_^ Even as good as this one! :D
@@megalisa830bright6 Any particular recommendations?
@@reisenudongeininaba435 amygaldas ragdoll
I love the song so much!! It's very catchy. Even though I don't have a chronic physical illness, I can relate to this song. When I was 7 I was diagnosed with an acute-onset autoimmune disorder triggered by a case of strep throat. It gave me all kinds of neuropsychiatric symptoms (including but certainly not limited to tics, OCD, raging, separation anxiety, hallucinations, sensory issues, memory impairment, deteriorated motor skills, etc.) and I spent so much of my childhood visiting doctors and staying in hospitals.
I was misdiagnosed many times with autism (as if a neurotypical 7-year-old could just somehow magically become autistic overnight) as well as schizophrenia before I was able to get a proper diagnosis. A few doctors even tried to claim that I was "faking it" in the beginning. Even after I had gotten a proper diagnosis, a lot of doctors refused to treat me because I wasn't actively showing any symptoms when they saw me. I've taken so many medications, had so many blood draws, and so many IV infusions over the years it's crazy.
I'm a teenager now and I'm mostly recovered (except for some lingering mental illness symptoms here and there), but I missed out on a lot of my childhood because of this disorder. Thank you for making this song, R.I.P., and thank you for providing the MIDI/instrumental for it as well! I would love to make a SynthV cover of this! Sorry for the long comment btw
It’s okay if this is a bit too personal but do you have PANDAS?
@@collateralPersonified Yes! I'm actually surprised someone guessed what I was talking about haha. Since you're asking, I'm assuming you have experience with PANDAS or know someone who has it?
I actually feel so bad for you! I would be so depressed if I couldn't be like normal kids and be outside and all that,but its so good to know that you got better people these days only care about thereself's. I feel so bad fro people that have to go through that. People don't deserve this but I loved the song and I recommend the song "honey i,m home" by ghost it is as good as this song so go check it out and good luck everyone out there!
@@gumiworms1328Really late reply but yeah I had PANDAS when I was a kid! I’m sorry you had to deal w it. That shit sucks.
Everytime i listen to this song the lines “And everyday they’re drawing blood. There are mushrooms growing in my lungs” hits really hard like it genuinely makes me tear up 💀 (vague context because i dont like going into details: i have suffered with lung problems my whole life and i always got my blood drawn every week when they tried to figure out what the problem was)
i relate to this so fucking hard, holy shit. i was just diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, a super rare progressive genetic condition that affects connective tissue and other things. i’m only 21 and have to use a cane now. it also comes with potential POTS and Sleep Apnea that i’m still being tested for. for my whole life i’ve had doctors say they could find nothing wrong with me. i knew something was wrong but they didn’t take me seriously and always said i was overreacting. that on top of so many mental illnesses is a lot to handle. this song speaks to me so much. i feel so seen and understood. thank you.
hope things are going well for you!
j have ghsd, which is the one on the Hypermobility spectrum that's just before EDS. I get you, and please know you're not alone. the problems may get a bit better when you're older, but I know that even if it does, the knock on effects will remain. I hope you can learn to live comfortably and enjoy things you love.
much luv, a ghsd, gerd, mentally ill, n chronic pain loser
Hey there, fellow EDS zebra. I have it too, and so do my siblings.
Fellow person with that pathologie, a lot of people in my family have it too. Got diagnose early but sometime the things they give me make it worse.
it’s so nice to see a fellow zebra :( i’m sorry that doctors haven’t been taking you seriously, but i promise it’ll all start working out when you find the right doctor. there are support groups out there that have helped me feel less angry and alone!
I have endometriosis and despite the visual effects inside me being rather tiny, it causes immense pain and bleeding, and doctors I go to are always reluctant to try more serious treatments despite the paralyzing pain I've experienced. and thats just one thing thats wrong with me lol. so this song doesnt just hit close to home it came inside and sat down for dinner
"when help you're denied 'cause they say it's benign but you're chronically fatigued" in particular...man
I've honestly been relating to this due to suspecting I have endo, too. No one wants to do surgery yet I'm finding out I can't take birth control! I'm glad someone is also kinda finding similar comfort with it thro this
@@Danidoodle It's honestly ridiculous. Push for a diagnostic laparoscopy, while it is a surgery it's a pretty low risk, low invasive one and it's basically the only way to for sure diagnose endo. I had a laparoscopy in 2019 and it helped at first, but even on birth control the symptoms are coming back. I want them to take the damn thing out of me but noooo i might want kids (i dont, and even if i did, I could adopt or have them take some eggs since my ovaries would be left in there)
@@SleepyHenryYT I think I'm going to try sometime in the future. Kinda just dealing with the pain as the days go on, haha. Some days it's pretty severe but luckily I kinda can power through it on other days. I'm sorry to hear the pill isn't seeming to help anymore. And that's seriously so infuriating, maybe they can help you by switching pills or another surgery to remove some of the built up tissue. I'm hoping for the best for you!
@@Danidoodle I'm sorry to hear that. It's awful to have to carry pain like that and pretend things are fine. I've found those electro pad things that you put on your belly and sends electrical pulses help ease the pain. I'm hoping to try and convince them to do another laparoscopy once the pandemic's done. Hope the best for you too!
I'm really sorry, but 'it didn't just hit close to home it came inside and sat down for dinner's is the funniest thing I've read
When I was a baby, I'd scream my lungs out in pain. At the time, there was something wrong with my stomach but none of my doctors could never figure out what was wrong with me. I would always scream and cry. There's still something messed up with my stomach and a few other organs to this day.
Trigger Warning ! ! be careful :) stay safe
and then adults wonder why kids hate them so much
Hope it gets better mate
That really sucks, some parents are really shitty about things like this your legs literally hurt ALOT and stop working sometimes and they can't understand that I wish you find someone who understands and can help you
i struggle with the same stuff - we can get through this together :) i believe in you
I hope that some adults realize that kids can suffer from the same thing that they do one day. it sucks for everybody (including you) who have to deal with people telling them that they’re “too young” or “being overly dramatic” or “[mental/physical illness name] doesn’t exist”.
Maybe you have a thing where your legs fall asleep much faster than other people's? And that has something to do with nerve problems I think
I feel like I can relate a little bit to this song. As a kid, I got sick super easily. Like two or three times every month I would get sick and every time I went to a doctor, they said there was nothing wrong with me. Also for some reason I only got sick at night and during the day I would feel fine. It got to the point where the doctors gave up trying to figure out what was wrong with me. Every time, they would just tell me to get chewable vitamins and protein drinks and they never did anything. About a year or two ago it stopped and I'm fine now but still nobody knows what was wrong.
You probably had a weakened Immune system, were you a picky kid? Did you eat healthy tings often, if you didn’t but you do know that may be a reason why it’s no longer happening
Tonsilitis maybe?
Only sick at night? I remember during a cold I would hate lying down, because my mucus would run directly into my nasal cavity instead of out my nose and I couldn't breathe. Although that might be pretty easy for doctors to see.
Alternatively, it could be a night terror. I have a dissociation problem where I couldn't process emotions properly, so I wouldn't know when I was getting angry/ scared/ sad etc. But sometimes when I get anxiety I don't feel it, instead I feel overwhelming nausea which doesn't go away until I've cried for a bit. Chewable vitams and protein drinks can't really help that well with emotional problems but maturing does?
@@Zero_Is_Stopping_Time i was and still am very picky but i like rarely get sick like its been a few years at least
@@tsukichugaming1709 maybe your immune system has grown
So Oliver
Dont go to an certain dentist we dont want your lower jaw getting surgically removed
(Inspired by the premiere chat-)
I mean they do emit hyperdontia vibes
Ohmygodwhydoigetthisreference-
*FAKE COUGH*
i immediately got the joke---
yes, i do know that i will go to hell
How are you today? What seems to be the problem?
Currently finishing up the non existent animatic in my head ✨
it do be like that
Haha, I do that all the time!
NO CUZ SAMEE
Me too, its not so bad rn 😌
I feel called out
jesus, this literally feels like a song I could've written about myself. every line hits so hard. god damn.
especially at 2:14 with the anesthesia instructions... serious chills.
I have 3 theories about this song
*UPDATE/NOTE: R.I.P has stated, in the description, that this song was about their experience with unidentified illnesses and MCAS.*
(TW: brief mention of su!c!de and hints towards depression)
Literal
I’ll call this character Oliver for simplicity. Oliver suffers from a rare, terminal illness and the lyrics seem to point to it being quite painful. This illness could be new and doctors cannot find a correct diagnosis, something that is hard to diagnose from surface level examining, or that Oliver's deteriorating state is being ignored despite his suffering.. This takes a toll on his mental health, becoming apathetic and somewhat su!c!dal.
Metaphorical
Oliver’s mental health is in bad shape, and the “illness” he suffers from is symbolic of his self destructive thoughts. Though this is all I have for this theory
A third theory
Or his mental illness was misdiagnosed and the bandage on his left eye could be a hint towards lobotomy. A procedure typically done on those who suffered from mental illnesses in the past. The lyrics “the doctors don’t know what to do with me” could be hinting towards the time period this song is set in sometime before humans knew what mental illness was. The confusion about Oliver’s condition and how he’s a “medical anomaly” could also be worsening his condition.
The third theory is also helped by the fact all the papers and drawings in the background is very old timey!
Also if it's literal, it may be because of the fact his "filters" don't work, to put it simply in your nose and lungs theres a bunch of filters that well, filters air to avoid getting bacteria and general bad stuff in the air, and since the lungs need to be very moist, if those filters don't work, mushrooms and mold CAN grow in your lungs, gross.
@@ikjjoli607 Not to mention that he specifically shouts out loud "Just let the mold become a part of me!" , getting fed up by all the misdiagnosis and underestimation he's putting himself through every day, and basically wanting to end his life by letting his potentially terminal disease get to him.
well olivers bandage on his eye could also just be because of his default character design, which it is in his default design
it has to be the 3rd one cause the background looks like its on papyrus, a old Egyptian writing paper, But he is also taking pills so..
Haha 666th like
as someone with an unidentified illness this song is such a MOOD
same sorta lol
i tell myself it's just laziness and refuse treatment, but i know i'm sick (or as i like to call it, defective).
@@johnathanegbert9277 i tell myself that too but its because my family and adults have told me my condition is just that im lazy lol
In the line
"just take a breath and count to three"
you can hear Oliver taking some quick breaths in the background, you may have to turn your volume up to hear it. I just found this neat to find out
As someone whose anemia keeps worsening as days go by and refuse ask for help as I know my family would pick on me, this is the new comfort song.
memes aside i absolutely adore this song but simultaneously hate how much i can relate to it,,,,
throwback to me developing various mental illnesses in part due to the incompetence of doctors treating my physical ones as a kid and now having to go through various treatments and surgeries that _might_ (but aren't guaranteed) to help me bc the vast majority of medical professionals don't yet know my condition exists, or if they do, spend more time debating the validity of it than they do trying to effectively treat it
government-assigned squishy-boned oliver kinnie hours
*Lyrics:*
“An apple a day keeps the doctor away,”
That’s what everybody says.
But salicylates turn on my fight or flight,
So i’m better off in bed.
With a body of norm, and the cells that you don,
Your average haemoglobin count.
The tetany overtakes me!
I wanna be okay, but the odds
I really doubt.
Stop, giving advice, you don’t know what it’s like, being stuck with my disease.
When, help you’re denied, ‘cause they say it’s benign, but you’re chronically fatigued.
Now my throat’s full of flies, but I eat it despite, the overload of histamines.
It’s gonna be kinda tricky!
WHY DON’T YOU TRY AND FIX ME?
“You’re doing well!”
No, i’m feeling like hell, but I cannot say too much.
Thinking i’m in good health, now i’m covered in welts, from my mast cells flaring up.
Curling in on myself, ‘cause there’s nobody else, who gets so easily undone.
The look of it isn’t pretty!
As anyone can see, i’m a tragedy!
Invisible disability?
It’s rather visible to me.
An illness like this goes very far,
Beneath. The. Skin.
My arms are looking like bathroom walls,
There’s something stuck inside my lungs,
You cannot comprehend the pain i’m in!
Oh!
I am a medical anomaly.
There’s something seriously wrong with me!
And every day there’s something,
new, to, note.
I’m losing sight of my entelechy!
“Look what we have in store!”
“Yes, i’ve seen it before.”
“I can get you back on top.”
“Just don’t overextend,”
“Get some rest in your bed,”
“And then that will make it stop.”
I don’t feel the effects,
Is it all in my head?
Maybe I need a bigger dose.
Was any of this deserving?
IS THAT WHY IT’S NOT WORKING?!
“In a short time you’ll be asleep,”
“Just take a breath and count to three.”
The tourniquet’s tied so tightly,
All around, my, limbs.
And every day they’re drawing blood,
There are mushrooms growing in my lungs,
I’m waiting for the ending to begin.
Oh!
I am a medical anomaly.
Unknown, mysterious biology,
Symptoms come from the places, no, one, knows,
My body doesn’t function normally.
I am a medical anomaly.
“There’s nothing wrong with you that I can see”
I don’t know how much longer I can go,
I’m ripped apart by my repellency.
I am a medical anomaly.
I’m turning into a monstrosity,
Another day i’ve been misdiagnosed,
You better try to treat me properly.
A C.A.T scan, a nasal rinse,
The biopsies and I.V. drips.
The medicine is flowing,
Underneath, my, skin.
They’ve given me every type of drug,
There are sticks and stones inside my guts.
They do not know what kind of pain i’m in.
The doctors don’t know what to do with me.
SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!
YEAH, I’M THAT MEDICAL ANOMALY,
(I’M AN ANOMALY,)
THERE’S SOMETHING ROTTEN THAT’S INSIDE OF ME,
(INSIDE OF ME,)
AND ALL THESE THINGS I’VE HAD TO,
UN -DER -GO!
THEY’VE ALL MEANT ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!
(NO, NOTHING AT ALL!)
I AM THE MEDICAL ANOMALY,
(I’M THE ANOMALY,)
LOST IN MY OWN PECULIARITY,
(YOU’RE SCARED OF ME,)
I FEEL LIKE I’M ALREADY,
DE -COM -POSED!
JUST LET THE MOLD BECOME A PART OF ME.
((AAAAA THIS SONG IS AMAZING AND I HOPE YOU’RE COPING ALRIGHT WITH THE MEDICAL STUFF!!-))
LMAO BRO THERE ARE DO MANY ENGLISH WORDS ON HERE THAT I'VE NEVER HEARD OF AND I CANT PRONOUNCE ANY OF THEM
@@osa_xo9327 the blessing of having an English major is shining today
Tnx☺
Rewatched throught the song while reading the lyrics, I have concluded there are six words in this song that I don't know
The six words being: Salicylates, tetanty, histamines, mast cells, entelechy, and repellency.
@@alexboyer6691 that’s 5 words-
This song popped up maybe when I needed to hear it most. I've been chronically ill with a kinda rare disease, Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome + Migraines since I was 5. However I wasn't diagnosed until much later, constantly hearing "I have no idea what it could be" and jumping from new doctor to new doctor, it was tiring. I'm 21 now, and I'm struggling with a variety of new health issues, plus the ones I already know about. I am once again undergoing lots of tests only to be told "I have no idea what it could be." It's so frustrating and tiring when the people you love don't believe you, or they try and give you advice but they have no idea what it's like. So uh, yeah, thanks for making this song, it's good to know I'm not alone in feeling this way, and I'm sorry you've had to go through this stuff too.
YOO I HAVE THE SAME THING! Cyclic and migraines since like 3! I thought I was the only one!
For those who don't know, it's mostly stress induced migraines and vomiting
Oh my goodness finally a song involving MCAS. You don’t know how happy this made me feel. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one going through the pain of having it!
Favorite vocaloid + favorite type of horror + favorite producer = absolute perfection.
It hasn't even premiered yet but just from thumbnail alone this is gonna be a bop
when the docs say it's psychosomatic ✌️
nah seriously, these songs keep getting better and better! what gave it away is already on loop in my head and i expect this one to join the ranks
I relate to that first bit
I seriously vibe with this song cause I have TS, ADHD/ADD, OCD, Bipolar disorder, PTSD, Anxiety, Paranoia, Manic Depression, and heart problems. School doesn't care how I am, just that I'm going. I have a few days left and I'm sobbing cause I missed today and it was my last day I could miss. I broke down and cried to my mother and we can't get to the doctor until next Thursday. So, I'm fucked. They don't understand how much pain I'm in at all. God, I feel like I'm gonna cry again and all I wanted to do was vibe. Smh.
I am so sorry :(
This is one of many reasons kids hate school, hope it gets better for you mate
Tourette Syndrome
@@coolercoolcoolcoo i think tourette's syndrome but you can correct me if im wrong
As someone who has an autoimmune disorder as a young teen, I can relate to this song a lot. Doctors always say “do this and you’ll be fixed” or they say I’m fine lol, I seriously love this song tho 💗
As a late diagnosed autistic person, this is a mood! Amazing song, dude!
Me too. also mood
Same
Me: *hears a small portion of the song*
Me: into my list of songs you go
Literally same 😭💕
Did the exact same thing
(TW!! In detail explanations about surgery, puking, death, and other stuff. If these make you weak to your stomach, please skip this comment or read with caution.)
While I don't have much relation to the lyrics/disease/sickness Oliver has, this still hits close to home. I have serious physical issues that no one understands or takes seriously.
As a baby, I had a bad tumor in my left eye, and the doctors diagnosed me with a bunch of unnecessary shit which most wasn't true, like cancer, and told my parents the tumor spread down to my chest, which it didn't, but it was spreading to my other eye. They did a bunch of surgeries on me like cutting my optic nerve, injected chemo into my port that leads to like my blood vessels n shit, cut open my head and put a bunch of metal stuff in it, and the chemo left me paralyzed and super sick for months. I wouldn't eat or grow, and my hair was falling out. When I was finally able to move again, I would hold my breath until I would pass out, whether it was for no reason, or because I was scared.
I now have a bunch of scars, and the chemo messed up my insides. I can't go to school because if I don't get enough sleep, I get sharp pains in my head, stomach, and puke consistently, until my stomach is empty and I struggle to breath and my body tries to puke out anything else. This is when it starts feeling like forever. This stopped sense I got home schooled, but ever sense I babysat my niece, it came back worse. And even after I quit babysitting, it's still here because it's also triggered by stress, and my parents got a divorce and my dad did something really bad which caused my sister to go away, and without her I've gotten really depressed and stressed out. I'm always getting yelled at by my other sister, who is the mother of my niece.
People are scared of me sometimes. Think I'm a freak. I'm blind in one eye, which makes the blind one look all twisted (which is why Oliver is one of my comforts and highest kins- Idk what's up with his eye but I cover mine with my hair n other things too. We're also currently the same age-) and its hard to make friends, and when I do, they all eventually die or leave me. Which sucks :/
I used to be scared of bigger people after all the drugs that was forced on me and the doctors. I thought everyone wanted to hurt me. I wouldn't go near people besides my family until I was three years old.
Edit: yeah, I have more.
My parents also call me a faker because they won't get me fucking diagnosed with ADHD/tics and I'm desperate for answers. I think due to the surgeries I've had on my brain and head, I have tics and stims, but I also suspect it's ADHD. But my parents think I'm an attention seeker and a faker, which makes me feel guilty but I just want to prove that I'm not a faker.
SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT- If you got this far, I want to tell you I love you. If your going through something like me or worse than me, know we, YOU will get through this. We'll get through this together. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Again, I love you. Stay strong for me, okay?
I really hope you get better.
@@myoxidae thank you. ❤❤
If you're worrying about being a faker, you're probably not.
@@-Solidwater To be honest, they push me into thinking that. I suppress tics and stuff, but if they come out near my parents they look at me and tell me to stop looking for attention and faking, and being talked to like that really makes you wonder sometimes. But I want to prove that I'm not a faker, because deep down, I know I'm not.
You are so strong! I'm sorry you had to go through that. And about the ADHD, you are not a faker. Stimming is a common symptom for ADHD. Also, your pfp is amazing!
I think this goes without saying, but I wanna clarify something I think is important:
This song is about MISdiagnosis. Like, when you have one condition and are diagnosed with another, or it's (incorrectly) decided that you're fine. R.I.P is trying to say that receiving the incorrect treatment is bad, a sentiment which is universally agreed on by doctors in every field. That doesn't mean that receiving treatment is bad. Treatment is great, actually, and you shouldn't have an aversion to it just because of the chance that it'll be applied improperly.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that this song isn't encouraging you to give your psychiatrist the cold shoulder (from what I can tell), or to crush up your medicine and feed it to your fish. This song is more of a cautionary tale about being careful with your doctors. Communicate your symptoms properly, trust your doctor's orders, and for the love of all that is good and holy in this world, don't abuse your prescriptions.
Of course, I'm a fucking block of cheese, so what do I know?
oh wait you are a block of cheese
But yeah, this really makes sense.
"Here you go little guppy, some antibiotics and penicillin! Youre favourite!"
??? that's not what the song is about. read the description.
@@alicepersson9568 i think that killed the gup.
@@doudemoiidesuyo1682 SELAMAT PAGI, NICHIJOU FAN!!!
one of my favourite producers AND one of my favourite vocaloids??????????? damn this is gonna be AWESOME
Heak yes
@@piriahclowngutz heak lol
@@bluntfishtrauma :>
God I love Oliver so much. It’s a shame there aren’t more songs with him. I can tell when this premiers I’ll love it!
Yeah! Exactly! Oliver is one of my most favorite Vocaloids ever! ^_^ I wish more original songs were written for him! :D
Dude, I agree so much!!! Oliver is amazing! I wish there were more songs with him. That would make my life so much better! He's comforting to me
@@Star_Comet Yeah! Exactly! ^_^ Oliver is amazing! He's comforting to me too! His name, Oliver, refers to the bible 'Olive Tree', the biblical symbol of peace and therefore the implied meaning of his name is 'peaceful'! It makes sense, since he's also a choir boy! :D
@@megalisa830bright6 yeah!! I'm glad someone else gets me (^‿^✿)
Oliver is truly so underrated and so underused so I’m happy I found this song ! He sounds so lovely
cw // fatphobia with doctors
i heard this song around the time it came out and i came back to it when i finally got an answer for what is wrong with me and god it hits differently.
for two or three years doctors wouldn't take any of my issues seriously and when they finally did they took vials upon vials of blood with no answers
the only way i finally got an answer was on a video chat with a specialist because she was too far away to go out and visit.
tomorrow is my first acupuncture appointment for treatment
listening to this and remembering everything getting pushed off as weight and being told to exercise more while i was in agony just
its such a bittersweet feeling.
i have hypermobility spectrum disorder, my joints constantly bend too much to the point it strains my muscles and puts me in immense pain. when im walking outside anywhere for more than like 10 minutes i bring a cane.
all of the exercise and constant strain did nothing but build up the issue and make the pain worse for at least 2 years.
tldr; coming from someone who also has chronic illness and pain, thank you for making this song. this will forever be a song that holds a place in my heart.
THE TUNING???? THE INSTRUMENTAL???? HELLO?? I WAS EXPECTING GREATNESS BUT THIS IS JUST😭😭/POS
Wdym?
@@sanri0hub /pos i should probably add it's so good
It's lonely and mysterious, dramatic and full of suspense!!!!!!!!
I have chronic joint pain (it's recognized as a physical disability under the ADA) and a difficulty building muscle, it's supposedly easily fixed via exercise but it's so excruciating that I'd rather stay in less pain by not exercising at all and possibly getting worse, I also frequently suffer from sinus infections and colds, and I'm also photosensitive when it comes to bright lights and even the sun.
I've been looked at by doctors and stuff for multiple issues with me both physical and mental. I'm pretty sure I've been misdiagnosed multiple times and it's difficult not knowing what the fuck is going on with your body, yet being sure it isn't things that people randomly suggest.
Also being invalidated, not only have I been invalidated by my parents (who are only now understanding the extent of my pain.) But also my teachers. I remember one time in my P.E. class where one of my teachers kept pressuring me to walk faster, he kept pressuring me and pressuring me until I basically went "fuck it" and ran as fast as I could, every step was excruciating but I wouldn't stop because I physically couldn't, I ended up falling over and hitting a wall and he got mad at me when *he* was the one who pressured me.
As a trans person in an unsupportive household who’s also been struggling to get a diagnosis for a chronic (probably autoimmune) condition for most of my life, I feel this in more ways than one.
"my arms look like bathroom walls"
*absolute poetry*
I don't think I've *ever* heard Oliver tuned this well.
It slaps.
This song scares me in a way no other song does. The other songs by R.I.P., GHOST, Vane Lily, and so on, are all either incredibly relatable to me specifically, have a fictional story, or both. But this... I can't relate to. I don't know what's going on here. Something inside me knows that this person needs help, but I have no experience here. I don't know what to do with this.
So if you *do* relate to this song? I'm deeply, truly sorry, and I hope you feel better.
As someone who is still struggling to get a diagnosis and keep being bounced from doctor to doctor, treatment to treatment, desperately searching for an answer, I felt this song in my soul.
THE WAY YOU TUNED OLIVER IS
_CHEF’S KISS_
This is the only time I hate when I relate to something because that means other people have gone through the same pain.
i've got anxiety, autism, and anemia.
downsides: i almost always am dizzy and have a headache. even tiny things like someone clapping too loud can send me into a mental breakdown.
upsides: i'm an AAA battery :)
fellow triple a battery!!!
except anxiety, autism, and adhd
I like how Dex is singing in the backround with Oliver like he's either the disease inside Oliver or he's the patients/kids/victims singing along with Oliver that also have the disease or fell victim to it. :(
if i was younger and edgier i totally would've made one of these lyrics as my discord status
since I am older and more mature, I will instead play this on repeat for a week or more
If i was younger and edgier i totally wouldve made one of these lyrics as my discord status
Since i am older and more mature, i will instead make one of these lyrics as my discord status--
Seeing as I am younger and edgier I totally will make one of these lyrics my discord status.
@@justinecourtneysgavel89 seeing i am like 1% more mature i shall just shout a random line in a silent room
This song hit me hard right away. As someone who deals with versions of Type 1 Diabetes, and other diseases that are ether unidentified as well, or don't work in the conventual ways, I can sort of get where your coming from here. It's a struggle and I really do hope things get easier for you.
I'm glad you've found a way to get things off your chest through music. This one turned out amazing for sure and it's really cool getting to see another one of your fantastical works!
Hi I also deal with type one diabetes, depression, anxiety, and possible undiagnosed ADHD (I have multiple symptoms though I'm not self diagnosing) this hit especially when I was struggling with diabetes for a year, and depression since I was 7
this song means a lot to me as someone with dysautonomia (orthostatic hypotension/pots)
ive had symptoms since i was a kid, maybe 9 or younger, and doctors would never go past a simple blood test or 48 hour heart monitor. i was told i had a sensitive vagal response as a kid, when i got older my doctor said i look at screens too much (seriously)
it took me having to go to the ER because my coat hanger pain got so bad i thought i was having a heart attack, and i finally had to literally TELL my care team which test to do
i think the only care provider that ever really took me seriously was my high school nurse, who suggested pots in the first place, but i dont know what came of that? my mom swears we went to the doctor with that knowledge and nothing happened, but i dont remember ever going
im 20 now though, finally diagnosed as of a few months ago, and on medication. i still have a lot of chronic pain issues that im too tired to pursue, if it means i have to fight for myself for another decade. maybe at some point lmao
not only is this a great mental illness song, it's incredibly relatable and honest for those of us with chronic pain/chronic illnesses. i cannot express how much it means to finally have a song to relate my chronic illnesses to. the lines "invisible disability? it's rather visible to me," and "you cannot comprehend the pain i'm in," hit unbelievably hard.
i have followed your music for awhile and i am always happy to hear your new songs! keep up the good work and take care of yourself :D
Yo R.I.P. this song is a total mood!!! Omg!? Just - the whole feeling of "what the fuck is wrong with me" and dealing with misdiagnosis after misdiagnosis, and drs not knowing how to help or just not caring enough to try to help, or even doctors thinking they know better than you despite you being the one living in this hell body. Ugggggh. Really, such a mood.
And the fact you used Oliver - he works so well, aaaaaaa
From one chronically ill person/spoonie to another, I thank you for this song!! It's good to know you've got your MCAS diagnosis, and I do hope you don't have to deal with more misdiagnoses. I for one am currently living the struggle of trying to get a diagnosis and see what the fuck is up with my body. I hope you're able to find treatment that helps you!!
I don't know what's up with doctors, but after a while they just lose their humanity. They stop looking at patients as people and just start looking at them as numbers and symptoms, it's disgusting.
Psychologists too. Sure, talking does help a bit but where is the reformation? Most see "Autism" and think we are unsolvable. There is seldom any therapy for making us try to be a little more mentally stable if such a thing is possible.
Sure, some find pharmacuticals to work but not all of us can function on pills alone. Even my mom says some of her meds just slow her down, put her to sleep, or put something else into imbalance to treat her bipolar.
And medical facilities themselves, not giving proper attention to the doctors and nurses when they need basic supplies, or acknowledging when patients are observed as being sick and let them leave isolation prematurely...
My sisters tell horror stories about their former workplace's mismanagement! They had to reuse masks which they weren't allowed to replace. Patient quarantine breaches infected the whole damn place! Every last one of them! And they worked at a nursing home!
Hell, even the doctor that was supposed to deliver me (different medical facility) at my birth showed up late! He lived near the building too, but I had to be my own delivery doc! Of course it was late af o'clock but still... I was literally born impatient.
Maybe it's a coping mechanism? They see so many problems everyday, knowing just enough to know that they can't really help everyone and so they start to see things in a different way. But even if that's true (i'm not really qualified to tell you about this) it doesn't excuse any damage they do, it's a reason not an excuse.
Edit: Clarity Mainly
Interesting how your brain distorts memory overtime, Megalovania sounds different than I remember
no joke i was actually working on a megalovania remix for a while there. that shit hit close to home lmao /lh
@@RIProducer you better upload the damn thing or I will cry
this song hits different when your sick and you take your medicine but you still feel like crap
YOOOO THIS IS SUCH A BANGER!!! The premiere was also super fun, I loved chatting with you guys! :D
you too gamer
Sammme
Y’all already KNOW this song is gonna be amazing. Just watch
When that spider you ate a few years ago finally kicks in
why the fuck everytime i try to sing this in my mind i end up singin the ultimate showdown
This song really strikes a chord in my heart, as I have an illness that gives me chronic fatigue and doctors think I have mast cell too. My illness is one classified as a an "invisible illness" because I can look fine on the outside but be suffering on the inside. Every line of this song means something huge to me. I've often felt like an anomaly or a rare case, and this song expresses that perfectly.
hearing oliver say tourniquet gives me so much deja vu
Oh no-
one two three and we'll tie the tourniquet
I like how he says that "There's something in my lungs" and then later on it says "There are mushrooms growing in my lungs". It's like he finds out what was growing in his lungs
Something about Oliver's tuning here scratches my brain so good. Like, I was recently reminded of this song cause I shuffled my liked songs and now it wont leave my head.