It’s so helpful for me to look back at these older videos and see how far you’ve come. Feeling very helpless and have so much fear right now but this helps. Thanks so much for what you do.
I am watching all of your videos. I, too, was on Ativan for 13 years. I tapered off of it for 2 1/2 years. I am working with a Doctor/Counselor. Five weeks clean. OMG, I get pressure in my head and I hardly can walk, I have no coordination. Today I hardly had any body jerks. Angie, thank you for all you do. You are a lovely person.
Magnesium may help. The NMDA receptor is a glutamate receptor, glutamate is the major excitatory neurotransmitter in the CNS. The NMDA is gated (think of a gate keeper) in a voltage dependent way by MAGNESIUM. It needs that mag to function properly and is only pushed out of the way by the AMPA receptor which sits next to it. Benzos and alcohol jack up glutamate on withdrawal because the body responds to the drug/alcohol jacked up GABA (makes you sleepy )eventually you will recover and magnesium will help you get there.
chris kar I take 3 Epsom salt baths per week and they help me so much but sometimes my skin breaks out so that's why I've been reluctant to try mag oil and I'm way too afraid to take it orally.
I only took it for 3 months and at a very low dose, .5mg 3 times a day. The withdrawals were nothing short of pure living hell. I went cold turkey. I wasn't going to do that taper thing. I just wanted that sh*t out of my body. People might think we're exaggerating about how bad it is. You look at how tiny this little pill is and think how bad can this little thing be? Let me tell you you have no idea. It alters the very core of who you are. The rebound anxiety takes you to primordial places. The insomnia is endless. It's been a few years now but I can remember it like yesterday. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Yes it was that bad. It took about a year before I started to feel "normal" again.
Really the only thing is time. Just gotta wait it out. Stop taking it of course, but eat good sleep as much as you can just take it as easy as you can. It all passes. Might take you a few months to start noticing it. Good that you've only taken it for a short time. Your body eventually comes back into balance. Just whatever you do don't take any more of it.
Hi, glad you survived. Did you feel at any point that your brain didn't work normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I call it brain lock and suffer it all the time. I was prescriped a big amount of oxazepam in summer 2021 and doctor didn't warn me. Have never been even drunk. Had good healthy social life before my dog had to put to sleep at the age of 16 and I had terrible panic attacks weeks after weeks. I had year earlier bad trauma that I survived quite quickly but it affected me when my dog died. Year ago I was in bad withdrawl symptons of oxazepam and doctor did crossover to diazepam and brain lock went away and I got myself back, normal brain, I could see my partner and mom and other people (now i'm isolated because I just tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people) I could go to store without agoraphobia (normally don't have it) and cook and exercise and have a good feeling first time after my dog had died. I was so happy and sure I will get off of it but taper was too quick and went badly wrong. In spring I was one month without benzo and in hospital and they tapered me to zero straight and I had terrible panic attacks and withdrawl symptoms and rude doctor said I couldn't have any withdrawl symptoms and I got to home very sick. Brain lock stayed. Instead of any doctor saying that now is the time to suffer and give time to brain to heal and that brain lock will go eventually away (my new doctor believes it because when I got little while of relief of witdrawl symptoms my brain started to function) one doctor prescriped me klonopin because I couldn't function and was in constant panic and fight or flight state because of witdrawl of diazepam (although those two doctors didn't believe it) and brain lock and I took it (stupid) and it didn't help. I wake up every morning to hell and death and feel I have no brain and can't take one day anymore like this isolated and suffering. U said to my new doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it and we started month ago. I did crossover from klonopin to diazepam and because of klonopin the same amount of diazepam is big 😥 Back to squere one. I'm so sick physically and mentally and lost evebody (they are waiting but I can't be normal with anyone) I can't do much. I feel depersonalization and derealisation when I go to the store to get food and if I try to walk and run brainlock is ruing it and I feel like my brain just shuts down. Now I have a year tapering ahead and have tapered on these few weeks but I can't live like this a year. Doctor says I have tolerance and that's why klonopin didn't help and I this drug is making me sick and more anxious and I agree. She thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go away. Now we are talking about going to my country's best rehab center (we don't have good places for benzo) and they taper normally in 2-3 weeks and I said I die in that timeline and they said my doctor can talk to their doctor and ask longer time. But this is my third time of tapering and I have felt all of the witdrawl symptoms and I have no power left but I want this drug off of me and have my good life back. I fear this brain lock is permanent brain damage. Mri was fine. And it would be easier to handle all the insomnia and other suffering if my brain wasn't like I'm retarded and can't understand normal things. Thank you if you can read this and answer if you had any problems with brain function problems and keeping up with normal things. All the best.
@@jayb9687I quit Ct about 3 months ago and around my cycle I go crazy! Please tell me it will get better in time. I took it everyday for 10 months I was just like you I wanted it out of my body! I will never take another one ever!!!!!!!
It took me about a year to fully recover after slowly tapering off Klonopin over several months. (I was on about .5g daily for several months). So I was down and out for about a year and a half. Slowly emerged from it. The body and nervous system can recover if you get the nutrition and exercise.. (vitamin Bs and D3 are important). Intermittent fasting combined with HIIT exercises increases HGH which helps nerves to regenerate. Thankfully, I've been back to pre-Benzo levels of well being for a year and a half now.. Best wishes to you Angela, I know what you're going through. DO things that make you happy.
Thank you so much for the hope Bill! I'm about to start back at the gym so your comment gave me some reinforcement for that decision. So glad you are healed! How long were you on it total?
If you count the taper time, about a year on Klonopin. If you exercise (especially HIIT) while fasting, you exponentially increase natural HGH.. which I'm guessing helps regenerates the nervous system? When I say fasting, just talking about a few hours with no food/carbs, so your blood sugar levels are at their base, (intermittent fasting) This maxes out HGH.. so if you exercise before you eat breakfast, you're good. Just drink lots of water. I eat mostly between noon and about 7PM, gorging, lol.. no weight issues. Also the Vitamin Bs and D are important. It still takes some time, but you'll get better as time passes. Of course avoid benzos, alcohol (alcohol depletes B vits). I've been symptom free since last summer (2015) thankfully. Good luck... it seemed hopeless for awhile there so I kind of know where you're coming from.
Im 10 months off sertraline. Too fast taper, 15 year use. Im bedridden, cant walk more than 15 meters, extreme pain in brain like it crashed. Brain damage. Pain in body. Detached from everything. I think I could be a permanent case.
Thanks for posting this, It really helps me watching your videos. I am seven months off klonpin. It seems like your getting better and better from your videos. Getting out of the house and all of that is amazing for you! Good job!
Angie you don't know how much you've done for me, I am about at 10 and I have everything you mention, hearing you say how you had the fear of dying, it helps me so much. So happy for you you're so far along now, did you start your website yet ?
Wow your doctor is insane , your kno whats up, I will be were you are soon, im recovering from careing for my dad after taking strokes. I am so positive about it. Keep up the good work. I like the good feelings where u get goosebumps, but it takes more time, keep it up
Hi, you are so strong. Did you feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and can't understand that people can live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I call it brain lock. I wake up every morning to hell and death with no brain. I was prescriped a big amount of oxazepam and doctor didn't warn me. Had good healthy social life before my dog died. Now third time tapering ahead and have no power left but I want this drug off of me and have my good life back. Year ago my brain lock went away when I was in bad withdrawl symptons of oxazepam and doctor did crossover to diazepam 10 mg and brain lock went away and I got my life back for few weeks. I could see my partner and mom and other people (now i'm isolated because I just tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people) I could go to store without agoraphobia (normally don't have it) and cook and I was so happy that now i will get off of this drug. But taper was too quick and went badly wrong. Brain lock came back. In spring I was one month without benzo and in hospital and they tapered me to zero straight and I had terrible panic attacks and withdrawl symptoms and after month rude doctor said I couldn't have any withdrawl symptoms and I got to home very sick. Instead of any doctor saying that I'm just beginning to heal and brain lock can go away I was prescriped Klonopin to get me relief for a while and then taper but it didn't help. I took it, hoped that it would take my brain lock away and I could taper. After six months of klonopin and suffering I said to my doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it and we started month ago. I did crossover from klonopin to diazepam and tapered same time. Because of the klonopin the same amount of diazepam is big. Back to squere one 😥 Now I'm isolated, I can't be with anybody because I don't understand people talking normal things. I am disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones. When I go to the store to get food I feel depersonalization and derealisation and if I try to walk and run brainlock is ruing it and I feel like my brain just shuts down. I fear I have the worst brain lock (that nobody have felt like this) and it is permanent brain damage. My doctor says I have tolerance and that's why klonopin didn't help and she thinks this drug is making me sick and more anxious and I agree. She thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go away. Now we are talking about going to my country's best rehab center and they normally taper in 2-3 weeks and I said I die in that timeline and they said my doctor can talk to their doctor and ask longer time. But I don't know how to survive it with this brain lock and then insomia, akathisia etc wich are coming when rapid taper. And then if I get to zero I'm still in brain lock and can't function so I would have to have people to bring me food and I don't know how will I survive in rehab center and going crazy. But I'm so exhausted and mentally and psysically sick that I can't do year tapering at home even it would be gentle to brain. But I fear either way. And I'm so scared I have brain damage this lock. Because i can't live with it forever. I think suicide everyday but can't do it. I have many people around me and have a beautiful home and we were supposed to get engaged this year with my partner and try to have a baby. No I have no brain, fear even take the trash out and I have never been like this. Thank you if you can read this and answer if you had any problems with brain function problems and keeping up with normal things and understanding normal things. I fear I'm the worst case and this is my brain forever. All the best.
Thank you Angela.. number 1 for your SERVICE to this country, and two for your sharing and supportive videos. Excellent tips! I am finally coming to end of two yrs of w/DS (on klonipin 8 yrs, another 1.5 yrs to taper off- no real "windows" for me either..). I think I'll make a video of my journey soon too.. the more of us doing that, the sooner we can start educating the medical community. God bless you, and it will get better, as you know 😊 !
I know exactly what your saying about looking normal but feeling anything but. I feel some wicked depression. I was on benzos 12 yrs started with axnax and added klonopin . Been clean for 11 months. Keep going forward. Proud of you!
Hey, wanted to get back to you, I'm now 1 yr 5 days sober, I've been an alcoholic since is was 16, loved all drugs til 48. The prescriptions started when I was 36 I started with the benzos, ended up adding oxy.codone, I know crazy right ! Well I managed all that into a major problem, anyway to answer you question, hell after detox for 11 days, rehab for 30 more, sober living for 2 months, then came home. To a new home, my wife and 2 kids, and feel like I knew anybody, it was surreal to say the least. My family has been undaerstanding, very supportive as they can be.god guided me to a job, new friends. Things are getting better day by day, I have a lot to be thankful for, so like my man Eminem said , Well fuck it! Might as well make the most of it. I do,! I also live a very simple structured life, of home , gym, work, try to chill, I guess you could say is I'm at a point in myl life I've decided to quit fighting the universe and take it as it comes, it's been working. Trust me I have my times where I feel horrible , lol but it's getting better and better, just trying to enjoy life as much as possible, dam the world. Love kindness, humility, just grateful! Good luck! Peace be with you! Live, live, live, because we almost didn't !!!🕉
Hi thanks for helping us. I also had to stop kombucha it's made with tea and loaded with caffeine. Try yogurt for probiotics much better than a pill and you'll get protein. Blessings and healing to you !
I feel EVERTHING you do. the food thing, the store. yes the empath. I'm still on kpin. I'm afraid too that I won't heal and I'm dying...the rages are scary. I feel the trapped too. my situation Is,now i have gastroparesis..i luv u girl.
the Oscars should be given to us because of how we act normal life... no one understands the inside of us. 5 months off cold turkey 1 mg Lorazepam. Still hell but way better than 2 months ago. there is no back now... just pushing forward every day minute by minute. faith helps me a lot to be honest. no matter if u are a christ muslim or jew, there is only one and the same creator and he loves us all. after this suffering there will be a reward. I strongly belvie in that.
@@taghreedrulia5168 i took 2 years as needed and 1 year every day. I am now 9,5 months free. I feel lot better but i still feel the symptoms. I would say i am at 70% healed now. I hope by 18 months i am done and 100% healed.
Kiko Kiklis Thanks for your reply.. Stopping cold turkey is not a good idea Im gathering information to prepare myself to taper my poor son off.. He was given an Abilify injection against our will which caused sever akathsia and they had to put him on Ativan in another hospital to treat the Akathisia and other issues that the injection caused.. Not sure how im gonna taper him,,they’re giving him 2 mg a day 1mg in the morning and 1 at night!! I hope you continue to feel better
@@taghreedrulia5168 no it is not a good idea but i did not know lot about this drug and my doctor was an ignorant. Anyway i am happy i did it because i live a life without benzos now. It is a long long ride but at the end we get our lifes back. Your son is taking a pretty high dose he must taper. I suggest you to read the Ashton manual (by dr. Heather Ashton) and ask your doctor to follow the plan from the manual.
@@AngiePeacockMSW (Short version) Hi Angie my name is Peter I'm 37 years old and have been told off doctors that i suffer from panic attacks which turned into panic disorder from 18 years old, put on numerous antidepressants which i Couldn't handle so the doctor decided to put me on buspar/buspirone it drove me more "mental" than the antidepressants made me feel insane and housebound it was taken off the market, i have been told i have PTSD from too much death in the family and a duodenal ulcer bursting which resulted in a near death experience with the loss of blood, and my panic disorder all of sudden changed its name too G.A.D with P.T.S.D with the help of a psychiatrist, on my last app with him his evaluation of me was "a nice young man with a deep rooted problem" and he never told me what that problem was just labels and diazepam 5mg 3 time's a day for months into year's the dosage doubled with tolerance to 30mg 8yrs, until my doc decided to cut me down and before i knew it i was on 20mg then back to 15mg i went cold turkey from that dosage i collapsed at home and managed to get an ambulance, paramedics got me to hospital and told me I've done it too fast, i told them i know but i don't want to be on this drug anymore they had to lower the dosage in hospital and observation because the withdrawal was bad and once at 10mg they basically stopped giving me it and they sent me home and now I'm on day 45 Angie plus a fortnight in hospital i don't count that though because they were giving me diazepam until discharge, I've bought Baylissa Frederick's book "recovery and renewal" from Amazon and Matt Haig's "Reasons to Stay Alive" both great read's i can relate to them also, and thanks to you i found Baylissa Frederick's website and meditation 👍🏻, I've had the Calm app for year's it's great 👌🏼 I'm just taking each day as it comes, your videos are a lifeline Angie every symptom you mention i can relate horrendous so they are but you give hope, I'm truly grateful and appreciative thank you very much Angie Peacock.
I get afraid of getting sick and hurt or car accident etc too. Cancer especially. I’ve even had brain scans I’m fine. I’m scared bout everything.. it’s awful.
You Katelyn rock, you want to live!! You like myself suffer in epic proportions. Don't give up, never, never give up!! You matter!! No human can replace YOU!! and we have around 8 BILLION Souls. Not one could replace YOU!! that is a fact Katelyn, you are one in 8 BILLION, never forget that!! Never,you are very special,good bless YOU!!!!
colonel Angus thanks I have all the visions symptoms she mentions have had for a year and half. I’m still really depressed.. but I love people and help people often. I pay for people’s meals donate money help with diff organizations.. I’ve give thousands to family members and helped my family members as they were dying. I don’t have anyone there for me when I need it it’s scary. I hate the eye floaters and the light show behind my eyes.
I pray for Katelyn,I literally get on my knees and pray... For you,for me and all who suffer,my name is Paul!! And remember you rock,you have the mind of a truly loving soul. Your not crazy,we just feel things differently,we are so sensitive!! But I am not a Bible thumper, not even close, just a man that cares!!! My name is Paul FLYNN from Boston;)
I started May 7th 20/20 Cold Turkey Clonazepam .Iv been only a month in ,Lord willing this will be gone .And on Top of that Im seeing a Natural Pathic Dr to help me eat clean as I can to reverse my weak Liver, and Pancreas , bile.because the Clonazepam got me to a point were my Liver is congested and my breathing gotten shallow this is why I stopped cold turkey .Its either breath or Die .I chose Life .
AMAZING SOOOO PROUD OF YOU !! Your viedos always make me smile and i get a good chuckle about what doctors tell you ! I defiantly cried with you there for a minute , but you are veey entitled to cry whenever you want !!!! Maybe your right , 40 thouands plus people are crazy coming off of benzos but what if we are not the crazy ones ? maybe we can actually see the world better now ?!?! So proudof you for apeaking up and out about suicide i think it hits us all at least once in our life but more like once a month in Benzo with drawl , not certain just a thought !! keep kicking ass women , you have a strong soul and a very caring heart !!!! An im here i know i always message you 1st but dont ever hesitate to ring me 1st !# I cant fly cause of the brain stuff but maybe we could road trip and meet in the middle one day ?!?!?!?
Your an empath. After I got off Ssri I became so sensitive, I could feel people energy around me and in the house . What do you think of chamomile tea or Kava Teas , Yogi teas are the best in my opinion . Your probably healed from benzodiazepines , You may just have a little anxiety and may need to treat it naturally. For 1000s of years people have had the same feeling we have today and they used herbs. And today we live in cities which makes things even harder which our ancestors didn't have to deal with .. Be blessed . I will keep you in prayer ..
Rez Parviz yes I am an empathy too but I promise you I still have a lot of symptoms of benzo wd. I can't drink those teas because there is a lot of herbs in there that act on gaba receptors and that is the part of the cells that benzos damaged so I have to wait before messing with them.
Ang Peabody So even if you wait till the receptors are repaired and then you drink the tea, the receptors will be damaged again. It's like a ex opiate user who says I can't run or workout anymore because my brain will not heal as working out produces natural opiates. Kava and valerian do act on these receptors , but the damage your doing to your body and mind is far worse with all the stress your putting yourself through . Some people who have anxiety conditions have less GABA in there brains to begin with . Look into thiamine . This is a B vitamin which is supposed to increase GABA in the brain ..
Rez Parviz my receptors are damaged from the medicine. I'm 13 months off of them. Why would I keep damaging them with the supplements you are suggesting? Do you 1 piece of scientific proof those herbs would help repair damaged gaba receptors from Benzodiazepines?
Ang Peabody Believe me hun, I am not trying to cause you more pain.. Do what you feel is right . All I am saying is that God put these herbs here for us on the Earth to use when we feel anxious . Unfortunately I am on 1 Mg of klonopin and have been for 15 years and every time I have reduced even a little bit , I have mild seizures. So to be honest , I have given up on getting off. This is my life and it is what it is . There is nothing I can do. I don't drink either . But my mother suffered from debilitating anxiety since I was a baby. Perhaps it's genetic , she may not have had enough GABA in here brain ever . And even as a small child I always had anxiety . All I am saying is that there may be some people who actually don't have Enough GABA to cope..
Its 15 months off cold turkey benzo and estillopram. I did a horrible blunder of ild Turkey after takin it years. Now I can't bear my physical symptoms. My.left side body is numb painful n.weak feels lik it doesn't coordinate with brain. I.want to end myself. I don't see anyone having this symptoms nor can doctors help me. I am useless from 15 months I ve a family n son. If I cant live I must end
How can doctors say things that are so ubsurd? I don't get it. My last doctor wanted to ct me from 8mg of extended release xanax in 30 days. I also mentioned protracted withdrawal syndrome and he immediately dismissed it as being a foolish idea
Hi Angela...Can you give me your opinion about taking vitamin B 12 ? as it is in the lower range in blood work, and doctor prescribed me a b12 supplement. Can it increase the symptoms, as I am now 9 months off xanax.
I have the floaters too outside too!! My psychiatrist told me floaters were not related to my anxiety and stuff it so is!! They started after a panic attack I see after images too.
Katelyn, I also have this " panic" fear, and hearing you story reminds me that we are not ALONE.it is so scary,so friggin scary,and ironically you and my have intelligence,we are smart!! But we are sensitive to everything!! We basically cry for no reason,or take things the wrong way. So Katelyn, keep fighting!! I live in Boston Massachusetts,it is. Dog eat dog city.not sure where you live,but get it nature,b mindful. Your picture shows me a beautiful young woman, struggling, please do not give up. YOU will survive Katelyn,I am touched by your story, really touched. God bless you!
colonel Angus thank you. Coming off 50 mg a day of pain med at same time. I feel like I’m dying.. I’ve had way too much stress not enough food and Sleep or help last couple years. I want to just rest and sleep for a year and gain some extra weight. Pain med withdrawal is awful..
This women ,she blows my mind,this shit happened to me!! I am a trained engineer work for Alcatel 25 years,built 4,5,6 million dollar " Tools" for Samsung,IBM, Intel,hewlet packard5,novellus you name it I did it ,then Benzos fkn took my mind
How are you doing? Your situation is similar to mine. I worry about the Iraq/afghan vets. The military Cocktail of Seroquel, Paxil, + a benzo for starters is crazy. They know many are also drinking...very bad combo as you know. Hope you are better.
You ever consiider you have a vitiam deficiency? Vitiam A D C. . When you cover one eye your brain shifts. Lay on the floor and pretend your geting up on a surf board when you stand. Take note of which foot you put forward.. try switching feet. Find which eye is your dominant . eye. Your fine get you some knitting. Or a golf training aids
Is it common to experience head symptoms, like heaviness, pressure, confusion and foggy head at 7 months off? All weird, useless, irrational thoughts disturb me so much that I feel almost out of my mind., are they common and will they improve with time?
Not really except to help me be less afraid of it. Some of my symptoms have gone away but it was with time. I still have some vision symptoms but I try to ignore them.
diablomix you taper off slow using the Ashton method and listening to your body. Learn from my doctors mistake and DO NOT COLD TURKEY. That's how you do it. Also join the support groups on Facebook. Just search the keyword "benzo" and they will all pop up. There are a lot of people to help you through.
Thank you for your videos it means a lot. This is so scary. I hope it goes away soon. I'm tapering and am at 2.5mg Valium after a rapid taper that really made me sick and trying to take this one slow with micro taper. I am prescribed medical marijuana and I'm scared that It will make me sicker. I'm not sure do you know anything about that? Thank you again for everything you do? I'm sorry you are going through this.
Jennifer R I was too scared to try any supplements or vitamins or anything. I just try to get the best nutrition as I can. If you are considering mmj then research it on benzo buddies forum before you do so you have full informed consent about the risks and benefits.
Jennifer R When i was going through acute I could not smoke or did edibles. it ramped up my anxiety so bad. and then i was stuck like that for hours. But that was my experience.
Some say that but honestly I think sometimes it’s just the state of your CNS on that particular day. I could eat the same exact food three days in a row and sometimes it would rev me up and sometimes not. I just would eat the stuff anyway! Please don’t become hyper focused on food! So many do that and then are terrified. I did it!
As benzos are mind altering meds, so after stopping it, can our brain return to normal state as it was before? There are some chemical changes also, as I feel very toxic feeling in head, and an alterd state of mind, will these changes also come to normal level only by time? I am 4 months off xanax.
Did you have rumination issues, like all types of weird thoughts? I am now 8 months off, and all type of thoughts like, how is my mind working, what is there in my head, is this my life I was in before withdrawal ? All these types and many more senseless thoughts disturb me horribly. Will they go away? I try not to focus on them
Can using bath soaps that contains alcohol ( amylcinnamyl) increase the symptoms? Which products can we use for washing hair and body? I am very much sensitive to chemicals.
Some have said they’ve had reactions to things, many have not. Try not to get scared of everything. I use the EWG app to scan all products before I buy. I like Castile soap for everything and BeautyCounter products for shampoo conditioner and makeup.
Can I take Tylenol? Will it increase the symptoms?I have a high fever since yesterday, severe cold , chills feeling. I thought it is a bad wave, but maybe it is due to some viral. Can we get high fever, chills, severe headache ,body pain due to bad wave ? I am now 7.5 months off xanax.
If you have a fever that’s usually not wd. Maybe something viral. Just always read the drug’s label you want to take and learn about risks. Usually everyone is fine with Tylenol.
I am 5 months off from Alprazolam. The nature and intensity of symptoms are changing every day so suddenly and frequently, like within a week, 2 days were severe pain, burning sensation all over, with a heavy foggy head, and 2 days, there was no feel, very dull, and numb, slow, I have to shake myself to feel my body, . It's all very scary. These new symptoms are in this 5th month , is this a sign of some severe nerves damage, I am so afraid. Why do I have such an opposite type of symptoms within a week? Is this common. In benzo withdrawal? Please help.
I think it’s actually a good sign when things are so all over the place. To me that’s PROOF it’s not permanent. Changes are good and I think many times that means some symptoms may fall off soon. It can be very severe and intense but this injury is TEMPORARY. While you’re in it it feels permanent and like you will never but you must not believe those feelings.
@@AngiePeacockMSW this is so helpful that it just saved my life. Last night, I felt horrible, intense , unbearable symptoms , couldn't sleep for a minute, so I was thinking that there is something seriously wrong, I am not going to get better. I was so frustrated, but your message , motivated me again with hope. Thanks a lot 🙏
@@AngiePeacockMSW Hi, As my symptoms in this 5th month are changing every day, and are intense, very severe, and unbearable. Last night, in the middle of the night, I felt an electric type of jerk in my body, and also in my head.( Very different from cortisol urges) This electric shock type impulses and jerks , that are also in my head is so scary to me, and leaves me shaking. If I tried to calm down and sleep, then again I felt like someone is giving me electric current , and slowly increasing the intensity. I am so afraid, why are my symptoms so severe in this 5th month? , and not ever before. Why is this electric shock type impulse in my head also? Is it all common in benzo withdrawal? Please help.
As you mentioned diet, so have you noticed that a type of food on a particular day increases the symptoms? I am now 6 months benzo free, but experiencing very strange symptoms some days. Like mental nausea, heavy and floating feeling in mind ( not heavy head). Can a heavy meal cause these types of symptoms.?
I love this girl love her, love her strength! I pray for you every night!! I am hoping you found serenity,you are not alone!! You are not crazy,you like myself went into HELL,HELL, HORRIFIC bpain. My God you survived. My God you deserve 70 years of living,loving, laughing,you deserve it all . If I could talk to you,I would help you!! I would buy you?? A car or something,I am frgn crying watching this.. my God fkn benzos are so HORRIFIC!!
colonel Angus I’m here! Thank you so much for your kind words and support! I’m doing a lot better but not healed yet. Follow my other UA-cam channel it’s called “being human RV.” I’ll be posting a lot of new videos in the next few weeks!
Did you experience fear and terror type feeling at this 10 months off? I am now 6 months one week off benzo, but I have fear and terror feel, on and off. At this point, physical symptoms are less, but useless, irrational, unwanted thoughts comes to my mind, and gives me extreme anxiety. I am so disturbed mentally. I am scared that how will I ever be normal if these weird thoughts keep coming in my mind?
La R I still get a little vibration feeling every now and then. Had it worse at the beginning. Unfortunately that's probably another benzo symptom. Google for benzo buddies forum and you can read how many people have it too.
"Nerve agent!?" Yeah, total bullshit. The only way you could have POSSIBLY been exposed to something like that is if you were apart of the initial invasion (this is a stretch). I'm an Iraqi veteran as well; OIF II during 2004-2005. I wish you luck on this...I've been reading about benzodiazepines and so I looked it up on UA-cam. It is unbelievable to me that they are still prescribing this stuff so liberally. Good luck and God bless. I'm wishing you well.
Okay, so you were part of the initial invasion...still unlikely that you were exposed. Those freaking VA psychs don't know a damn thing anyways (just my opinion). Don't worry..after seeing several benzo withdrawal videos I will stay the hell away from them and I will scream from the rooftops for anyone I know to stay the hell away from them. I read an article recently written by a serious journalist about her own personal experience with this stuff and her taper off and she was saying the same thing you and others are saying. The paranoid vet inside me likes to think that stories like yours are suppressed intentionally by the pharmaceutical companies holding active patents on these types of drugs...and they feed this stuff to us like it's candy. Several of my friends (who are vets) are prescribed this stuff by the VA. What would you suggest I tell them?
Beau Simmons yes I think you should tell them but would I have believed you when I was taking them? Probably not. This experience has been so extreme, no one could have convinced me had it not happened to me. Yes they are suppressing this! That is NOT a conspiracy. Want to get real mad? Look on UA-cam for "ADA vs. Ativan" and you'll see they've known about this since the 70's. Please read this too and maybe post it on your FB.... www.madinamerica.com/2016/09/veterans-letter-congress/
I don't have FB but I will look into the ADA vs. Ativan and read the letter. I'm going to tell my friends...my goal is to try not to sound like a lunatic (because apparently reality is stranger than fiction) at first. Thanks for the resources, they will most definitely help. I may share your youtube videos with them as well. Stay safe, killer. P.S.- I was in Anbar provence when I was over there. This was right after "Mission Accomplishment" and just as those muj fuckers learned how to turn trucks and vans into self guided IEDs. I was a Marine so I never even saw Bagdhad...wasn't our AO. I was there for Operation Phantom Fury and Ripper Sweep if you know what those are.
i feel like if i go cold turkey my nervous system is crazy for about 4 or 5 days with crazy anxiety and then the withdrawal effects go away. is that normal or not?
sprinkles512 are you taking them again after that period or totally stopping? 4-5 days seems really short but some people are not affected by benzo wd at all and can stop them and be fine. However, the more you go on and off the worse each next withdrawl will be. Google “kindling benzo” and read about that.
@@AngiePeacockMSW i am prescribed .5 mg of klonopin 4 times a day but i usually just take the full dose of 2mg before bed or i take a smaller dose during the middle of the day if i need it. If i take a smaller dose during the day i usually forget to re dose until the next day. I dont take one pill every few hours as prescribed. Maybe thats why my withdrawals arent that bad? also i know klonopin stays in your system for a while so if i forget to take any dose at all for a few days i dont really feel the withdrawals? idk but i quit cold turkey 3 years ago and stayed off of it for 6 months without feeling anything more than my normal anxiety. Also thank you for your videos you are very helpful. i will research kindling bezo thanks
@@AngiePeacockMSW Oh god that brain damage stuff really scares me. I have actually found myself forgetting regular things or mixing up words in a sentence that I would have never done before. My anxiety level is so high that I never feel like im getting "high" from the drug im taking, I just feel normal. Thats the hardest part about it for me because my anxiety comes from social experiences and klonopin just totally gets rid of all of that anxiety for me around people. I dont really know how I can live normally without this drug.. i dont take it for everyday social things but if im anticipating something like a family gathering or a presentation I dose up. Before I got on benzos I was a complete wreck. I couldnt walk down stairs without my knees shaking so much i couldnt go down them or making a fool of myself from being so focused on myself that I dont act confident or professional. Do you know of any alternatives if I got off of this drug to feel more confident and not feel crippling social anxiety?
@@sprinkles512 there are ways to cope with social anxiety besides benzos. They are dangerous, plain and simple. Search on YT for benzo withdrawal and you will see THOUSANDS of people like me
Hang in there champ, try a free glutamin diet, it will way lift you up, for me vegetables, fruits and boild eggs, man it really makes a difference. Good lick
Angela Peacock, believe me after one year you will feel the difference, you are almost there, postpone the gym till one year ends, do walking better, your CNS still needs rest, dont over work your self. Good luck
It’s so helpful for me to look back at these older videos and see how far you’ve come. Feeling very helpless and have so much fear right now but this helps. Thanks so much for what you do.
I am watching all of your videos. I, too, was on Ativan for 13 years. I tapered off of it for 2 1/2 years. I am working with a Doctor/Counselor. Five weeks clean. OMG, I get pressure in my head and I hardly can walk, I have no coordination. Today I hardly had any body jerks. Angie, thank you for all you do. You are a lovely person.
I keep watching this to give me hope.
watch my more recent videos too. I'm so sorry you're going through this too but I promise you it ends. Please hang on. Your time is coming.
@@AngiePeacockMSW do you have fb or watts app please
Around my cycle is the worst! It’s absolute hell I fell like I’m going backwards.
Hey you, ❤️ I hope you heal real soon! You've fought too hard to be still sick. We got this.
Right on!! You Rock!!
Magnesium may help. The NMDA receptor is a glutamate receptor, glutamate is the major excitatory neurotransmitter in the CNS. The NMDA is gated (think of a gate keeper) in a voltage dependent way by MAGNESIUM. It needs that mag to function properly and is only pushed out of the way by the AMPA receptor which sits next to it. Benzos and alcohol jack up glutamate on withdrawal because the body responds to the drug/alcohol jacked up GABA (makes you sleepy )eventually you will recover and magnesium will help you get there.
chris kar I take 3 Epsom salt baths per week and they help me so much but sometimes my skin breaks out so that's why I've been reluctant to try mag oil and I'm way too afraid to take it orally.
Good on the baths...they will help you !
thank you for being so vulnerable and open.
I only took it for 3 months and at a very low dose, .5mg 3 times a day. The withdrawals were nothing short of pure living hell. I went cold turkey. I wasn't going to do that taper thing. I just wanted that sh*t out of my body. People might think we're exaggerating about how bad it is. You look at how tiny this little pill is and think how bad can this little thing be? Let me tell you you have no idea. It alters the very core of who you are. The rebound anxiety takes you to primordial places. The insomnia is endless. It's been a few years now but I can remember it like yesterday. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Yes it was that bad. It took about a year before I started to feel "normal" again.
@John Ferguson Doing fine now. It's been about 5 years ago.
Really the only thing is time. Just gotta wait it out. Stop taking it of course, but eat good sleep as much as you can just take it as easy as you can. It all passes. Might take you a few months to start noticing it. Good that you've only taken it for a short time. Your body eventually comes back into balance. Just whatever you do don't take any more of it.
Hi, glad you survived.
Did you feel at any point that your brain didn't work normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I call it brain lock and suffer it all the time.
I was prescriped a big amount of oxazepam in summer 2021 and doctor didn't warn me.
Have never been even drunk.
Had good healthy social life before my dog had to put to sleep at the age of 16 and I had terrible panic attacks weeks after weeks. I had year earlier bad trauma that I survived quite quickly but it affected me when my dog died.
Year ago I was in bad withdrawl symptons of oxazepam and doctor did crossover to diazepam and brain lock went away and I got myself back, normal brain, I could see my partner and mom and other people (now i'm isolated because I just tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people) I could go to store without agoraphobia (normally don't have it) and cook and exercise and have a good feeling first time after my dog had died.
I was so happy and sure I will get off of it but taper was too quick and went badly wrong. In spring I was one month without benzo and in hospital and they tapered me to zero straight and I had terrible panic attacks and withdrawl symptoms and rude doctor said I couldn't have any withdrawl symptoms and I got to home very sick. Brain lock stayed. Instead of any doctor saying that now is the time to suffer and give time to brain to heal and that brain lock will go eventually away (my new doctor believes it because when I got little while of relief of witdrawl symptoms my brain started to function) one doctor prescriped me klonopin because I couldn't function and was in constant panic and fight or flight state because of witdrawl of diazepam (although those two doctors didn't believe it) and brain lock and I took it (stupid) and it didn't help. I wake up every morning to hell and death and feel I have no brain and can't take one day anymore like this isolated and suffering. U said to my new doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it and we started month ago. I did crossover from klonopin to diazepam and because of klonopin the same amount of diazepam is big 😥 Back to squere one. I'm so sick physically and mentally and lost evebody (they are waiting but I can't be normal with anyone) I can't do much. I feel depersonalization and derealisation when I go to the store to get food and if I try to walk and run brainlock is ruing it and I feel like my brain just shuts down.
Now I have a year tapering ahead and have tapered on these few weeks but I can't live like this a year. Doctor says I have tolerance and that's why klonopin didn't help and I this drug is making me sick and more anxious and I agree. She thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go away.
Now we are talking about going to my country's best rehab center (we don't have good places for benzo) and they taper normally in 2-3 weeks and I said I die in that timeline and they said my doctor can talk to their doctor and ask longer time. But this is my third time of tapering and I have felt all of the witdrawl symptoms and I have no power left but I want this drug off of me and have my good life back. I fear this brain lock is permanent brain damage. Mri was fine. And it would be easier to handle all the insomnia and other suffering if my brain wasn't like I'm retarded and can't understand normal things.
Thank you if you can read this and answer if you had any problems with brain function problems and keeping up with normal things. All the best.
How are you doing now?
@@jayb9687I quit Ct about 3 months ago and around my cycle I go crazy! Please tell me it will get better in time. I took it everyday for 10 months I was just like you I wanted it out of my body! I will never take another one ever!!!!!!!
It took me about a year to fully recover after slowly tapering off Klonopin over several months. (I was on about .5g daily for several months). So I was down and out for about a year and a half. Slowly emerged from it.
The body and nervous system can recover if you get the nutrition and exercise.. (vitamin Bs and D3 are important). Intermittent fasting combined with HIIT exercises increases HGH which helps nerves to regenerate. Thankfully, I've been back to pre-Benzo levels of well being for a year and a half now.. Best wishes to you Angela, I know what you're going through. DO things that make you happy.
Thank you so much for the hope Bill! I'm about to start back at the gym so your comment gave me some reinforcement for that decision. So glad you are healed! How long were you on it total?
If you count the taper time, about a year on Klonopin. If you exercise (especially HIIT) while fasting, you exponentially increase natural HGH.. which I'm guessing helps regenerates the nervous system? When I say fasting, just talking about a few hours with no food/carbs, so your blood sugar levels are at their base, (intermittent fasting) This maxes out HGH.. so if you exercise before you eat breakfast, you're good. Just drink lots of water. I eat mostly between noon and about 7PM, gorging, lol.. no weight issues.
Also the Vitamin Bs and D are important. It still takes some time, but you'll get better as time passes. Of course avoid benzos, alcohol (alcohol depletes B vits). I've been symptom free since last summer (2015) thankfully.
Good luck... it seemed hopeless for awhile there so I kind of know where you're coming from.
Im 10 months off sertraline. Too fast taper, 15 year use. Im bedridden, cant walk more than 15 meters, extreme pain in brain like it crashed. Brain damage. Pain in body. Detached from everything. I think I could be a permanent case.
Thanks for posting this, It really helps me watching your videos. I am seven months off klonpin. It seems like your getting better and better from your videos. Getting out of the house and all of that is amazing for you! Good job!
TEd TEd thanks TED!!!
Angie you don't know how much you've done for me, I am about at 10 and I have everything you mention, hearing you say how you had the fear of dying, it helps me so much. So happy for you you're so far along now, did you start your website yet ?
Yes! Www.Angiepeacock.com
How are you now dear
@AMG749 doin the struggle still. 😪
How are you doing now?
@ashleychristie5023 better than I was but still kind of, think im sick all of the time.
im really really happy you did an update ... my best wishes to you.
Doll Bun same to you!
Wow your doctor is insane , your kno whats up, I will be were you are soon, im recovering from careing for my dad after taking strokes. I am so positive about it. Keep up the good work. I like the good feelings where u get goosebumps, but it takes more time, keep it up
I’m 7 months out. I experience so much of what you are talking about here.
It was really hard to get through that but it all goes away. Keep going. It's temporary.
Hi, you are so strong.
Did you feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and can't understand that people can live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things?
I call it brain lock. I wake up every morning to hell and death with no brain.
I was prescriped a big amount of oxazepam and doctor didn't warn me.
Had good healthy social life before my dog died.
Now third time tapering ahead and have no power left but I want this drug off of me and have my good life back.
Year ago my brain lock went away when I was in bad withdrawl symptons of oxazepam and doctor did crossover to diazepam 10 mg and brain lock went away and I got my life back for few weeks. I could see my partner and mom and other people (now i'm isolated because I just tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I am in a different reality from other people) I could go to store without agoraphobia (normally don't have it) and cook and I was so happy that now i will get off of this drug. But taper was too quick and went badly wrong. Brain lock came back. In spring I was one month without benzo and in hospital and they tapered me to zero straight and I had terrible panic attacks and withdrawl symptoms and after month rude doctor said I couldn't have any withdrawl symptoms and I got to home very sick. Instead of any doctor saying that I'm just beginning to heal and brain lock can go away I was prescriped Klonopin to get me relief for a while and then taper but it didn't help. I took it, hoped that it would take my brain lock away and I could taper. After six months of klonopin and suffering I said to my doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it and we started month ago. I did crossover from klonopin to diazepam and tapered same time. Because of the klonopin the same amount of diazepam is big. Back to squere one 😥 Now I'm isolated, I can't be with anybody because I don't understand people talking normal things. I am disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones. When I go to the store to get food I feel depersonalization and derealisation and if I try to walk and run brainlock is ruing it and I feel like my brain just shuts down. I fear I have the worst brain lock (that nobody have felt like this) and it is permanent brain damage. My doctor says I have tolerance and that's why klonopin didn't help and she thinks this drug is making me sick and more anxious and I agree. She thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go away. Now we are talking about going to my country's best rehab center and they normally taper in 2-3 weeks and I said I die in that timeline and they said my doctor can talk to their doctor and ask longer time. But I don't know how to survive it with this brain lock and then insomia, akathisia etc wich are coming when rapid taper. And then if I get to zero I'm still in brain lock and can't function so I would have to have people to bring me food and I don't know how will I survive in rehab center and going crazy. But I'm so exhausted and mentally and psysically sick that I can't do year tapering at home even it would be gentle to brain. But I fear either way. And I'm so scared I have brain damage this lock. Because i can't live with it forever. I think suicide everyday but can't do it.
I have many people around me and have a beautiful home and we were supposed to get engaged this year with my partner and try to have a baby. No I have no brain, fear even take the trash out and I have never been like this. Thank you if you can read this and answer if you had any problems with brain function problems and keeping up with normal things and understanding normal things. I fear I'm the worst case and this is my brain forever. All the best.
Thank you Angela.. number 1 for your SERVICE to this country, and two for your sharing and supportive videos. Excellent tips! I am finally coming to end of two yrs of w/DS (on klonipin 8 yrs, another 1.5 yrs to taper off- no real "windows" for me either..). I think I'll make a video of my journey soon too.. the more of us doing that, the sooner we can start educating the medical community. God bless you, and it will get better, as you know 😊 !
InHisGrace 77 yes! Please make a video! More of us need to to give others hope.
I know exactly what your saying about looking normal but feeling anything but. I feel some wicked depression. I was on benzos 12 yrs started with axnax and added klonopin . Been clean for 11 months. Keep going forward. Proud of you!
Scott Kee how are you feeling now?
Hey, wanted to get back to you, I'm now 1 yr 5 days sober, I've been an alcoholic since is was 16, loved all drugs til 48. The prescriptions started when I was 36 I started with the benzos, ended up adding oxy.codone, I know crazy right ! Well I managed all that into a major problem, anyway to answer you question, hell after detox for 11 days, rehab for 30 more, sober living for 2 months, then came home. To a new home, my wife and 2 kids, and feel like I knew anybody, it was surreal to say the least. My family has been undaerstanding, very supportive as they can be.god guided me to a job, new friends. Things are getting better day by day, I have a lot to be thankful for, so like my man Eminem said , Well fuck it! Might as well make the most of it. I do,! I also live a very simple structured life, of home , gym, work, try to chill, I guess you could say is I'm at a point in myl life I've decided to quit fighting the universe and take it as it comes, it's been working. Trust me I have my times where I feel horrible , lol but it's getting better and better, just trying to enjoy life as much as possible, dam the world. Love kindness, humility, just grateful! Good luck! Peace be with you! Live, live, live, because we almost didn't !!!🕉
Hi thanks for helping us. I also had to stop kombucha it's made with tea and loaded with caffeine. Try yogurt for probiotics much better than a pill and you'll get protein.
Blessings and healing to you !
I feel EVERTHING you do. the food thing, the store. yes the empath. I'm still on kpin. I'm afraid too that I won't heal and I'm dying...the rages are scary. I feel the trapped too. my situation Is,now i have gastroparesis..i luv u girl.
You're a strong woman! 💪👧💖
the Oscars should be given to us because of how we act normal life... no one understands the inside of us. 5 months off cold turkey 1 mg Lorazepam. Still hell but way better than 2 months ago. there is no back now... just pushing forward every day minute by minute. faith helps me a lot to be honest. no matter if u are a christ muslim or jew, there is only one and the same creator and he loves us all. after this suffering there will be a reward. I strongly belvie in that.
Totally. I act normal every day and no one has a clue how I have suffered.
Kiko Kiklis
For how long did you take 1 mg ?
Thank you
@@taghreedrulia5168 i took 2 years as needed and 1 year every day. I am now 9,5 months free. I feel lot better but i still feel the symptoms. I would say i am at 70% healed now. I hope by 18 months i am done and 100% healed.
Kiko Kiklis
Thanks for your reply..
Stopping cold turkey is not a good idea
Im gathering information to prepare myself to taper my poor son off..
He was given an Abilify injection against our will which caused sever akathsia and they had to put him on Ativan in another hospital to treat the Akathisia and other issues that the injection caused..
Not sure how im gonna taper him,,they’re giving him 2 mg a day 1mg in the morning and 1 at night!!
I hope you continue to feel better
@@taghreedrulia5168 no it is not a good idea but i did not know lot about this drug and my doctor was an ignorant. Anyway i am happy i did it because i live a life without benzos now. It is a long long ride but at the end we get our lifes back. Your son is taking a pretty high dose he must taper. I suggest you to read the Ashton manual (by dr. Heather Ashton) and ask your doctor to follow the plan from the manual.
I'd watch your videos if they were on for hours Angie i can relate so much ❤️
tell me about what happened to you.
@@AngiePeacockMSW (Short version) Hi Angie my name is Peter I'm 37 years old and have been told off doctors that i suffer from panic attacks which turned into panic disorder from 18 years old, put on numerous antidepressants which i Couldn't handle so the doctor decided to put me on buspar/buspirone it drove me more "mental" than the antidepressants made me feel insane and housebound it was taken off the market, i have been told i have PTSD from too much death in the family and a duodenal ulcer bursting which resulted in a near death experience with the loss of blood, and my panic disorder all of sudden changed its name too G.A.D with P.T.S.D with the help of a psychiatrist, on my last app with him his evaluation of me was "a nice young man with a deep rooted problem" and he never told me what that problem was just labels and diazepam 5mg 3 time's a day for months into year's the dosage doubled with tolerance to 30mg 8yrs, until my doc decided to cut me down and before i knew it i was on 20mg then back to 15mg i went cold turkey from that dosage i collapsed at home and managed to get an ambulance, paramedics got me to hospital and told me I've done it too fast, i told them i know but i don't want to be on this drug anymore they had to lower the dosage in hospital and observation because the withdrawal was bad and once at 10mg they basically stopped giving me it and they sent me home and now I'm on day 45 Angie plus a fortnight in hospital i don't count that though because they were giving me diazepam until discharge, I've bought Baylissa Frederick's book "recovery and renewal" from Amazon and Matt Haig's "Reasons to Stay Alive" both great read's i can relate to them also, and thanks to you i found Baylissa Frederick's website and meditation 👍🏻, I've had the Calm app for year's it's great 👌🏼 I'm just taking each day as it comes, your videos are a lifeline Angie every symptom you mention i can relate horrendous so they are but you give hope, I'm truly grateful and appreciative thank you very much Angie Peacock.
I lost vision too. I had exam its,20/ 20. Paul chomack can share too.
Katelyn don't give up !! EVER!!
Thanks Angela ..
david churchet thank you for watching. Happy healing to you too!
I get afraid of getting sick and hurt or car accident etc too. Cancer especially. I’ve even had brain scans I’m fine. I’m scared bout everything.. it’s awful.
I did the same thing, you are awesome you survived., please warn others, please heal. God bless you!!!!
You Katelyn rock, you want to live!! You like myself suffer in epic proportions. Don't give up, never, never give up!! You matter!! No human can replace YOU!! and we have around 8 BILLION Souls. Not one could replace YOU!! that is a fact Katelyn, you are one in 8 BILLION, never forget that!! Never,you are very special,good bless YOU!!!!
My God this really touched my soul!!
colonel Angus thanks I have all the visions symptoms she mentions have had for a year and half. I’m still really depressed.. but I love people and help people often. I pay for people’s meals donate money help with diff organizations.. I’ve give thousands to family members and helped my family members as they were dying. I don’t have anyone there for me when I need it it’s scary. I hate the eye floaters and the light show behind my eyes.
I pray for Katelyn,I literally get on my knees and pray... For you,for me and all who suffer,my name is Paul!! And remember you rock,you have the mind of a truly loving soul. Your not crazy,we just feel things differently,we are so sensitive!!
But I am not a Bible thumper, not even close, just a man that cares!!! My name is Paul FLYNN from Boston;)
You are doing well girl. I admire you. I have been there ... it is hell ... but well worth it.
Haha I slept like 7 hrs straight it was a miricale. I found that walking on nature or woods trails are really peaceful.
I can still remember the feeling after realizing I slept for over 3 hours.
Keep going . I seem to be fine with shrimp in moderation. To much salt gets me .
Yes the fatiqe is bad . It's the drop dead feeling . Hard to plan doing things in this way .
I love your videos. you're so strong. one day closer 💞
I started May 7th 20/20 Cold Turkey Clonazepam .Iv been only a month in ,Lord willing this will be gone .And on Top of that Im seeing a Natural Pathic Dr to help me eat clean as I can to reverse my weak Liver, and Pancreas , bile.because the Clonazepam got me to a point were my Liver is congested and my breathing gotten shallow this is why I stopped cold turkey .Its either breath or Die .I chose Life .
Angela, I recommend you to read the book: Recovery and renewal written by Baylissa Frederick! It will help you, for sure!
I read it!
Thank you!
AMAZING SOOOO PROUD OF YOU !! Your viedos always make me smile and i get a good chuckle about what doctors tell you ! I defiantly cried with you there for a minute , but you are veey entitled to cry whenever you want !!!! Maybe your right , 40 thouands plus people are crazy coming off of benzos but what if we are not the crazy ones ? maybe we can actually see the world better now ?!?! So proudof you for apeaking up and out about suicide i think it hits us all at least once in our life but more like once a month in Benzo with drawl , not certain just a thought !! keep kicking ass women , you have a strong soul and a very caring heart !!!! An im here i know i always message you 1st but dont ever hesitate to ring me 1st !# I cant fly cause of the brain stuff but maybe we could road trip and meet in the middle one day ?!?!?!?
Marcela Odonnell I cry a LOT by myself lol. Roadtrip for sure when I'm healed from this crap! Can't wait for your next video!
Your an empath. After I got off Ssri I became so sensitive, I could feel people energy around me and in the house . What do you think of chamomile tea or Kava Teas , Yogi teas are the best in my opinion . Your probably healed from benzodiazepines , You may just have a little anxiety and may need to treat it naturally. For 1000s of years people have had the same feeling we have today and they used herbs. And today we live in cities which makes things even harder which our ancestors didn't have to deal with ..
Be blessed . I will keep you in prayer ..
Rez Parviz yes I am an empathy too but I promise you I still have a lot of symptoms of benzo wd. I can't drink those teas because there is a lot of herbs in there that act on gaba receptors and that is the part of the cells that benzos damaged so I have to wait before messing with them.
Ang Peabody So even if you wait till the receptors are repaired and then you drink the tea, the receptors will be damaged again. It's like a ex opiate user who says I can't run or workout anymore because my brain will not heal as working out produces natural opiates. Kava and valerian do act on these receptors , but the damage your doing to your body and mind is far worse with all the stress your putting yourself through . Some people who have anxiety conditions have less GABA in there brains to begin with . Look into thiamine . This is a B vitamin which is supposed to increase GABA in the brain ..
Rez Parviz my receptors are damaged from the medicine. I'm 13 months off of them. Why would I keep damaging them with the supplements you are suggesting? Do you 1 piece of scientific proof those herbs would help repair damaged gaba receptors from Benzodiazepines?
Ang Peabody There is some evidence that Kava does not damage receptors . Thiamine also helps rebuild GABA
Ang Peabody Believe me hun, I am not trying to cause you more pain.. Do what you feel is right . All I am saying is that God put these herbs here for us on the Earth to use when we feel anxious . Unfortunately I am on 1
Mg of klonopin and have been for 15 years and every time I have reduced even a little bit , I have mild seizures. So to be honest , I have given up on getting off. This is my life and it is what it is . There is nothing I can do. I don't drink either . But my mother suffered from debilitating anxiety since I was a baby. Perhaps it's genetic , she may not have had enough GABA in here brain ever . And even as a small child I always had anxiety . All I am saying is that there may be some people who actually don't have Enough GABA to cope..
Its 15 months off cold turkey benzo and estillopram. I did a horrible blunder of ild Turkey after takin it years. Now I can't bear my physical symptoms. My.left side body is numb painful n.weak feels lik it doesn't coordinate with brain. I.want to end myself. I don't see anyone having this symptoms nor can doctors help me. I am useless from 15 months I ve a family n son. If I cant live I must end
try being a mom and going through this.
How can doctors say things that are so ubsurd? I don't get it. My last doctor wanted to ct me from 8mg of extended release xanax in 30 days. I also mentioned protracted withdrawal syndrome and he immediately dismissed it as being a foolish idea
Please watch my latest video about helping to change that!
Hi Angela...Can you give me your opinion about taking vitamin B 12 ? as it is in the lower range in blood work, and doctor prescribed me a b12 supplement. Can it increase the symptoms, as I am now 9 months off xanax.
I have the floaters too outside too!! My psychiatrist told me floaters were not related to my anxiety and stuff it so is!! They started after a panic attack I see after images too.
Katelyn, I also have this " panic" fear, and hearing you story reminds me that we are not ALONE.it is so scary,so friggin scary,and ironically you and my have intelligence,we are smart!! But we are sensitive to everything!! We basically cry for no reason,or take things the wrong way. So Katelyn, keep fighting!! I live in Boston Massachusetts,it is. Dog eat dog city.not sure where you live,but get it nature,b mindful. Your picture shows me a beautiful young woman, struggling, please do not give up. YOU will survive Katelyn,I am touched by your story, really touched. God bless you!
colonel Angus thank you. Coming off 50 mg a day of pain med at same time. I feel like I’m dying.. I’ve had way too much stress not enough food and Sleep or help last couple years. I want to just rest and sleep for a year and gain some extra weight. Pain med withdrawal is awful..
This women ,she blows my mind,this shit happened to me!! I am a trained engineer work for Alcatel 25 years,built 4,5,6 million dollar " Tools" for Samsung,IBM, Intel,hewlet packard5,novellus you name it I did it ,then Benzos fkn took my mind
How are you doing? Your situation is similar to mine. I worry about the Iraq/afghan vets. The military Cocktail of Seroquel, Paxil, + a benzo for starters is crazy. They know many are also drinking...very bad combo as you know.
Hope you are better.
snakeriverwatch getting better every day! I feel about 75% at 12 1/2 months off now. I'm getting there!
Thanks for taking us threw this with you.
what is Klonopin Something lije chlonezepam(Rivotril )
You ever consiider you have a vitiam deficiency? Vitiam A D C. . When you cover one eye your brain shifts. Lay on the floor and pretend your geting up on a surf board when you stand. Take note of which foot you put forward.. try switching feet. Find which eye is your dominant . eye. Your fine get you some knitting. Or a golf training aids
Waiting for your update
S Ms 2 more days until I hit 1 year!
Ang Peabody I hope you are feeling well
Is it common to experience head symptoms, like heaviness, pressure, confusion and foggy head at 7 months off? All weird, useless, irrational thoughts disturb me so much that I feel almost out of my mind., are they common and will they improve with time?
I have all of these, I see blinds
My cycle makes me feel awful too. I get annoyed easy.. coming off meds are horrific I sure wished I had known the risks I was very oblivious.
5 years now since i did a cold turkey how can i reverse this
Start living your life and take your symptoms with you. Slowly and carefully reintegrate into life.
Exotropia? I was just diagnosed with that!! I’m in vision therapy now.
Did your vision therapy help
You??
Not really except to help me be less afraid of it. Some of my symptoms have gone away but it was with time. I still have some vision symptoms but I try to ignore them.
oh god... i can barely get through one day without taking my 2-3mg dose of ativan. I don't know how I am going to do this.
diablomix you taper off slow using the Ashton method and listening to your body. Learn from my doctors mistake and DO NOT COLD TURKEY. That's how you do it. Also join the support groups on Facebook. Just search the keyword "benzo" and they will all pop up. There are a lot of people to help you through.
Thank you for your videos it means a lot. This is so scary. I hope it goes away soon. I'm tapering and am at 2.5mg Valium after a rapid taper that really made me sick and trying to take this one slow with micro taper. I am prescribed medical marijuana and I'm scared that It will make me sicker. I'm not sure do you know anything about that? Thank you again for everything you do? I'm sorry you are going through this.
Jennifer R I was too scared to try any supplements or vitamins or anything. I just try to get the best nutrition as I can. If you are considering mmj then research it on benzo buddies forum before you do so you have full informed consent about the risks and benefits.
Jennifer R When i was going through acute I could not smoke or did edibles. it ramped up my anxiety so bad. and then i was stuck like that for hours. But that was my experience.
Cbd will help you
The volume is very low
Did you end up sticking with the probiotic
As you.mentioned about peanuts, can they revved up the symptoms?
And the other nuts , like almonds or walnuts also cause some effect?
Some say that but honestly I think sometimes it’s just the state of your CNS on that particular day. I could eat the same exact food three days in a row and sometimes it would rev me up and sometimes not. I just would eat the stuff anyway! Please don’t become hyper focused on food! So many do that and then are terrified. I did it!
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks. Yeah...we can't panic all the time, but I try to avoid sugar, processed food or preservatives.
As benzos are mind altering meds, so after stopping it, can our brain return to normal state as it was before?
There are some chemical changes also, as I feel very toxic feeling in head, and an alterd state of mind, will these changes also come to normal level only by time? I am 4 months off xanax.
How are you now friend
Did you have rumination issues, like all types of weird thoughts? I am now 8 months off, and all type of thoughts like, how is my mind working, what is there in my head, is this my life I was in before withdrawal ? All these types and many more senseless thoughts disturb me horribly.
Will they go away? I try not to focus on them
Yes I sure did and so many going through this do! It will go away as you heal.
Can using bath soaps that contains alcohol ( amylcinnamyl) increase the symptoms?
Which products can we use for washing hair and body? I am very much sensitive to chemicals.
Some have said they’ve had reactions to things, many have not. Try not to get scared of everything. I use the EWG app to scan all products before I buy. I like Castile soap for everything and BeautyCounter products for shampoo conditioner and makeup.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks for replying. It's really helpful.
Can I take Tylenol? Will it increase the symptoms?I have a high fever since yesterday, severe cold , chills feeling.
I thought it is a bad wave, but maybe it is due to some viral.
Can we get high fever, chills, severe headache ,body pain due to bad wave ? I am now 7.5 months off xanax.
If you have a fever that’s usually not wd. Maybe something viral. Just always read the drug’s label you want to take and learn about risks. Usually everyone is fine with Tylenol.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks. It's really helpful.
I am 5 months off from Alprazolam.
The nature and intensity of symptoms are changing every day so suddenly and frequently, like within a week, 2 days were severe pain, burning sensation all over, with a heavy foggy head, and 2 days, there was no feel, very dull, and numb, slow, I have to shake myself to feel my body, . It's all very scary. These new symptoms are in this 5th month , is this a sign of some severe nerves damage, I am so afraid.
Why do I have such an opposite type of symptoms within a week? Is this common. In benzo withdrawal?
Please help.
I think it’s actually a good sign when things are so all over the place. To me that’s PROOF it’s not permanent. Changes are good and I think many times that means some symptoms may fall off soon. It can be very severe and intense but this injury is TEMPORARY. While you’re in it it feels permanent and like you will never but you must not believe those feelings.
@@AngiePeacockMSW this is so helpful that it just saved my life. Last night, I felt horrible, intense , unbearable symptoms , couldn't sleep for a minute, so I was thinking that there is something seriously wrong, I am not going to get better. I was so frustrated, but your message , motivated me again with hope.
Thanks a lot 🙏
@@AngiePeacockMSW Hi,
As my symptoms in this 5th month are changing every day, and are intense, very severe, and unbearable.
Last night, in the middle of the night, I felt an electric type of jerk in my body, and also in my head.( Very different from cortisol urges) This electric shock type impulses and jerks , that are also in my head is so scary to me, and leaves me shaking. If I tried to calm down and sleep, then again I felt like someone is giving me electric current , and slowly increasing the intensity.
I am so afraid, why are my symptoms so severe in this 5th month? , and not ever before. Why is this electric shock type impulse in my head also?
Is it all common in benzo withdrawal?
Please help.
As you mentioned diet, so have you noticed that a type of food on a particular day increases the symptoms?
I am now 6 months benzo free, but experiencing very strange symptoms some days. Like mental nausea, heavy and floating feeling in mind ( not heavy head).
Can a heavy meal cause these types of symptoms.?
It’s not the food. It’s the state of your CNS from day to day.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks, it's really helpful.
I love this girl love her, love her strength! I pray for you every night!! I am hoping you found serenity,you are not alone!! You are not crazy,you like myself went into HELL,HELL, HORRIFIC bpain. My God you survived. My God you deserve 70 years of living,loving, laughing,you deserve it all . If I could talk to you,I would help you!! I would buy you?? A car or something,I am frgn crying watching this.. my God fkn benzos are so HORRIFIC!!
colonel Angus I’m here! Thank you so much for your kind words and support! I’m doing a lot better but not healed yet. Follow my other UA-cam channel it’s called “being human RV.” I’ll be posting a lot of new videos in the next few weeks!
Healingfrom Benzos did u get Like burning pain on the left side of your stomach? It also goes on the legs and back?
Nyclette Toby i get electrical and burning feelings. :( the vision issues and racy thoughts.. are awful.
Listen,can I talk to you
Did you experience fear and terror type feeling at this 10 months off? I am now 6 months one week off benzo, but I have fear and terror feel, on and off. At this point, physical symptoms are less, but useless, irrational, unwanted thoughts comes to my mind, and gives me extreme anxiety. I am so disturbed mentally. I am scared that how will I ever be normal if these weird thoughts keep coming in my mind?
Yes I still had them at 10 months off. They will go away!
@@AngiePeacockMSW still had them at 10 months off ......fear & terror? or irrational weird thoughts?
Will they leave?
Any update super girl 💪🏻
S Ms slightly better! I'll update Jan 5 for 1 year off. Approaching fast.
Angela Peacock , so happy to hear that, stay strong you are sending a message of hope to all of us.
What's a good Facebook group to join?
facebook.com/groups/benzorecovery/
Any update soon
S Ms I'm just getting over the flu!! Ugh! It's coming very soon!!!
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with the aitvan did u get alot of termos and vibrations they r driving me insane and i did a detox of five days im worried that was a bad idea :(
La R I still get a little vibration feeling every now and then. Had it worse at the beginning. Unfortunately that's probably another benzo symptom. Google for benzo buddies forum and you can read how many people have it too.
Angela Peacock thanks
If I could pls message you on fb mam? I’m from Australia not much awareness here.
facebook.com/angela.peacock7
"Nerve agent!?" Yeah, total bullshit. The only way you could have POSSIBLY been exposed to something like that is if you were apart of the initial invasion (this is a stretch). I'm an Iraqi veteran as well; OIF II during 2004-2005. I wish you luck on this...I've been reading about benzodiazepines and so I looked it up on UA-cam. It is unbelievable to me that they are still prescribing this stuff so liberally.
Good luck and God bless. I'm wishing you well.
OIF 1 2003 Baghdad.
Yes, please stay away from benzos and tell all your friends!
Okay, so you were part of the initial invasion...still unlikely that you were exposed. Those freaking VA psychs don't know a damn thing anyways (just my opinion).
Don't worry..after seeing several benzo withdrawal videos I will stay the hell away from them and I will scream from the rooftops for anyone I know to stay the hell away from them. I read an article recently written by a serious journalist about her own personal experience with this stuff and her taper off and she was saying the same thing you and others are saying.
The paranoid vet inside me likes to think that stories like yours are suppressed intentionally by the pharmaceutical companies holding active patents on these types of drugs...and they feed this stuff to us like it's candy.
Several of my friends (who are vets) are prescribed this stuff by the VA. What would you suggest I tell them?
Beau Simmons yes I think you should tell them but would I have believed you when I was taking them? Probably not. This experience has been so extreme, no one could have convinced me had it not happened to me.
Yes they are suppressing this! That is NOT a conspiracy. Want to get real mad? Look on UA-cam for "ADA vs. Ativan" and you'll see they've known about this since the 70's.
Please read this too and maybe post it on your FB.... www.madinamerica.com/2016/09/veterans-letter-congress/
So nice to see you Angela! You are an encouragement to me!!
I don't have FB but I will look into the ADA vs. Ativan and read the letter. I'm going to tell my friends...my goal is to try not to sound like a lunatic (because apparently reality is stranger than fiction) at first. Thanks for the resources, they will most definitely help. I may share your youtube videos with them as well.
Stay safe, killer.
P.S.- I was in Anbar provence when I was over there. This was right after "Mission Accomplishment" and just as those muj fuckers learned how to turn trucks and vans into self guided IEDs. I was a Marine so I never even saw Bagdhad...wasn't our AO. I was there for Operation Phantom Fury and Ripper Sweep if you know what those are.
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i feel like if i go cold turkey my nervous system is crazy for about 4 or 5 days with crazy anxiety and then the withdrawal effects go away. is that normal or not?
sprinkles512 are you taking them again after that period or totally stopping? 4-5 days seems really short but some people are not affected by benzo wd at all and can stop them and be fine. However, the more you go on and off the worse each next withdrawl will be. Google “kindling benzo” and read about that.
@@AngiePeacockMSW i am prescribed .5 mg of klonopin 4 times a day but i usually just take the full dose of 2mg before bed or i take a smaller dose during the middle of the day if i need it. If i take a smaller dose during the day i usually forget to re dose until the next day. I dont take one pill every few hours as prescribed. Maybe thats why my withdrawals arent that bad? also i know klonopin stays in your system for a while so if i forget to take any dose at all for a few days i dont really feel the withdrawals? idk but i quit cold turkey 3 years ago and stayed off of it for 6 months without feeling anything more than my normal anxiety. Also thank you for your videos you are very helpful. i will research kindling bezo thanks
sprinkles512 www.benzo.org.uk/ashsupp11.htm
@@AngiePeacockMSW Oh god that brain damage stuff really scares me. I have actually found myself forgetting regular things or mixing up words in a sentence that I would have never done before. My anxiety level is so high that I never feel like im getting "high" from the drug im taking, I just feel normal. Thats the hardest part about it for me because my anxiety comes from social experiences and klonopin just totally gets rid of all of that anxiety for me around people. I dont really know how I can live normally without this drug.. i dont take it for everyday social things but if im anticipating something like a family gathering or a presentation I dose up. Before I got on benzos I was a complete wreck. I couldnt walk down stairs without my knees shaking so much i couldnt go down them or making a fool of myself from being so focused on myself that I dont act confident or professional. Do you know of any alternatives if I got off of this drug to feel more confident and not feel crippling social anxiety?
@@sprinkles512 there are ways to cope with social anxiety besides benzos. They are dangerous, plain and simple. Search on YT for benzo withdrawal and you will see THOUSANDS of people like me
Hang in there champ, try a free glutamin diet, it will way lift you up, for me vegetables, fruits and boild eggs, man it really makes a difference. Good lick
S Ms I'm pretty close to that right now but if I don't eat enough protein I feel very shaky and sick.
Angela Peacock, believe me after one year you will feel the difference, you are almost there, postpone the gym till one year ends, do walking better, your CNS still needs rest, dont over work your self. Good luck