Well I'm now down to 6mg of Valium a day and it's really tough but I just want to thank you again for your video's and your positive attitude and your honesty. Your taco binge made me smile, stay strong and keep fighting, like you said, we are going to make it. You rock!
Oh yeah, that awful toxic bodily feeling... I don't know how to describe it, but I know exactly what you mean. It's like feeling feverish, an odd hot feeling headache, beyond run-down, a sensation like having battery acid coursing through your veins... Just a very very *toxic* horrible feeling. It's been a long time since I detoxed, a couple of years... But I still remember that feeling, so clearly. Don't give up. It will get better and better, until one day, you realize you've been feeling just.... Normal. And after benzo withdrawal, normal is a beautiful thing. You'll get there, I promise. xx
Angela, thank you for continuing to share your story...I am sorry you are still suffering but we both know the process can't be rushed, it will take as long as it takes. You are doing everything in your power to heal. I am so happy you have your Pup, I can see you stroking "him" off camera! I can see your nose bothers you, too, even though you haven't mentioned it. I have all the same experiences as you and you give me hope. BB Choco
Great way to describe this girl!I have been in a horrible wave too and i have been feeling a lot worse lately.This sucks so bad but i know it won't last forever.I'm at 8 months and 18 days.I'm so glad that i have met you and we get to be in this journey together.You are one of the strongest people that i know going through this and i look up to you!You are one badass and i hope you see how strong you are.And how strong the rest of us see you as.Hope this made sense,my poor brain is in a horrible state right now and it's making it hard to put words into text lol..Hugs!
We are healing!!! Thank god girl! This has been soooo hard healing from this. So many hard days. Hopefully we are done with the hardest part and it gets easier and easier! Hugs
Your message is from years ago. But can I ask, you mentioned brain in your message. Did you felt your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I call it brain lock and fear it is permanent brain damage. I was prescriped a big amount of benzo and no warnings after my dog had to put to sleep at the age of 16 and I had terrible panic attacks. I had good active social healthy life with my dog and partner. I have been through many traumas and survived from that and been grateful to God from many things. Third time to try to taper and I have no power left but I want this drug off of me and have my good life back. My doctor says she thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go away. Thank you if you can answer if you had any problems with brain function and understanding normal things. Hope you are well.
at least I know that I'm not alone! Because I didn't think anyone else could feel this horrible and live with it. you are a true inspiration! Thank you for your and your service! trying so hard. And it hurts so bad. not to mention, no one at all understand it seems
Alvin Reynolds go to Facebook and join "benzodiazepine recovery" it's a group. You'll get tons of support. This is very hard to do alone! Keep fighting! If I can do it so can you!
Angela, it's amazing you are doing as well as you are. I can't imagine what it must be like. I was CT'd from Ativan after 6 months at 3mgs and 12 months out tomorrow. I'm no where near where you at I so appreciate what you share. Look forward to hearing updates.
Sorry to hear you are suffering so much. My acute was absolutely brutal and I still can't believe I am alive most days. I push my comfort zone a lot and every day is like exposure therapy. It's helpful to push sometimes I think it rewires the brain. You will get there soon. Our brains are not meant to feel like crap forever.
Angela, thank- you for sharing. I'm almost to the end of a slow taper off klonopin and feel like crap every day ! Glad to see your doing better its given me encouragement. Thanks again.
Anne S. I know this has been a while since you posted this but I’m dealing with a family member going through this so I’m just curious what did you start off with mg wise and how long was your taper ?
I actually have my first therapist session on Thursday. hopefully it goes well and she knows something about withdrawal. if not, I guess I'll have to tell her about it.
Hai Angela, I've watched your videos and I'm very glad you posted it! I think you are extremely strong and courage for showing your journey. I don't know if you know the Alpha Stim. I'm from the Netherlands and I use it, especially now :-) and I know it is manufactured in the USA. It helps your brain to go in to the Alpha state, I know it's also used by veterins who suffer from PTSD. There is a lot of info on the internet about it, maybe it could be usefull for you as well. Stay strong, love your videos! Xx Kim
I can tell from my own personal experience that is does help, but everybody is different! So glad to hear you are healing really great after your CT! That must have been a hell of a ride, so much respect for you!! I'm looking forward to more update videos, wishing you all the best!
Lay down on the earth and feel the energy. Soulful healing music, swimming at the beach, bush walking, ,wim hof, painting, eating tasty fruit n vegetables, icecream, nice healthy meats, beach everyday, nature therapy. Try to find things that will make you laugh. Intrusive thoughts aren't real it's just your mind n feelings that are messed up. Things will 100 percent get better 🙏😊
I found this amazing. I came off a nine year prescription of 20 mg a day. Before my taper began I broke my spiral humar. In turn that meant I had to endure both recoveries at the same time. Plus other mental issues, etc. I'm still hear somehow. I have found your the Best person, human being online to help with these issues and I think your really hot 😮 thank you Angie ❤
I am in the exact same boat as you. I was on 2 mg of Kpin for seven years. I'm 21 months out Cold turkey and still have a bad symptoms. I found that kratom actually helps me quite a bit! You should try it. You can still get it legally
Christopher Matson I'm too scared to take Tylenol right now! Ha! Be careful coming off that stuff. I heard it can be rough for some people too. Hope we both heal from this sooner rather than later!
Your videos are really helpful , I watch them again and again. Now I am allmost 7 months free of benzos. Every few days, my symptoms are changing, some times new intense ones come, sometimes old symptoms that are gone comes back. Is this the normal process? Every symptom, especially mental impacts us psychologically, it seems that we will be out of our mind. Will this mental trauma effects us later in life, or it's impact will go away?
Yes it’s normal for them to cycle around like that. It’s also normal to feel “worse” before you start to feel better too. Most of the trauma goes away once you’re out of this but I don’t think it’s realistic to think you will forget what happened to you
Angela, I am a member of the benzo recovery fb group. Just rewatching your video. Do you think EMDR therapy would work for the dp/dr aspect of withdrawal?
You have expressed the reasons for intrusion thoughts so well, that it makes sense. but at that time I feel so scared and disturbed by these irrational thoughts, that no matter how hard I try to convince myself, it leaves me shaking. I am now 8 months off benzos Will they fade away as time passes, because these are the most frightening, disturbing symptom for me.
@@AngiePeacockMSW you are so helpful. Thanks for doing these videos, I watch them again and again to get some validation and hope in this frightening journey.
Angela..I see u on different fb pages. I'm on and off them bc of the horror stories. If not too personal did suicidal thoughts ever take over. Mine come and go but I am also dealing with ptsd and what I believe to be gastroparesis..long history but I just don't know how to even start tapering..
Yes, suicidal urges took me over. They started as just thoughts but then they turned into urges which is why I had to cold turkey. Cold turkey saved my life, I'm sure of it. I was very very very close to suicide while still on ativan. The urges stayed with me for about 4 months and now at 8 they are just passing thoughts. In my case, they were definitely from this medicine.
How long did you had withdrawals. For me it's been 3 months please this gives me hope and shows we are not alone. I will really appreciate the reply. My withdrawals dont go away.
Did you have a spinning type of feeling in your head ? I am 8 months off benzos, this spinning feeling, like every thing is rotating, is on and off. When I was 2 months off, this symptom was there , but after that again, now at 8 months also, it came back. I have not heard this spinning head feeling from anyone. Please help
Just checking in, how you are feeling by now?, did you got your emotions back?, keep up the updates it really encourages me , im following the same steps you did and I feel ok, yet anxiety and depression is there but it's manageable. Stay well.
I was trying to wait for 10 month update but maybe I should do one soon. I feel like I've turned a corner. Wayyyy less anxiety in public now. A little more fatigue, - few more headaches. But I am so hopeful :) where are you in this journey?
Angela Peacock , thts good to hear, i am same as you at this mark, same symptoms too. Fiteque, anxiety, and some depression. I also feel so lonely sometimes.
Hi .. it's has been 5 months since I stopped xanax. My symptoms are changing all the time. From the last two days, I am feeling extreme shooting pains like bone pain with burning sensations, it's really unbearable. Why suddenly I feel so much pain, earlier it wasn't there, instead , last week I felt very numb feel, there was no sensation, no feel in my body, that was also scary. Is it normal in withdrawal? Why do I experience these extreme opposite sensations? Please help
You talked before about withdrawing from opiates as well. Where you on benzos at the time you withdrew from opiates? Where you taking both? Withdrawing from opiates causes severe anxiety as well
Angela Peacock That's good thank God for that right? I'm tapering right now and scared to death so i can't thank you enough for putting yourself out here like this. A victory in itself you should be proud. It'll help with your recovery. I'm coming off of both opiates and benzos. I was introduced to opiates after I was already prescribed benzos. I went cold turkey off of the opiates so the benzos have helped. But that's the problem. Now I'm trying to tapper off of benzos as well. And now that I'm doing my research it scares the hell out of me. I have all the extreme anxiety symptoms you mentioned even before I was ever prescribed benzos. I want to go cold turkey but I'm terrified of loosing not just my mind but my life. I'm married with kids. So I have no idea how I'm going to get through this with so much to lose you know. Again can't thank you enough. Brave people like yourself are getting the message out there to Of of us lost on this extremely dangerous epidemic
Dylan Caldwell please consider joining benzo buddies (there's a forum where you can get support) and / or the many Facebook groups so that you make sure you are tapering slowly (not the doctor way) and that you can learn new coping skills to help you. I mentioned some of my coping skills in my 6 month update video on here. Do not think for a minute that you are doomed to have anxiety the rest of your life. You can learn to manage it just like I have without meds.
Angela Peacock thanks that means a lot to me. I'll check out benzo buddies for sure thanks. At this point I'll take any support I can get. My wife is aware but as you know endless you're going through it or suffer from the extreme it's hard to understand. Exercise and meditation are the only thing that frees my monkey mind. Only 20min-1hr but I'll take it. Take care and keep on swinging. I look forward to updates.
It gets better starlight, believe me when i say this everything you just mentioned i couldn't do that either but i can now, keep your chin up my friend, and don't listen to the bad thoughts in your head it's part of the withdrawal symptoms, think of them as illusions they ain't real, stay in the fight one day at a time Andrus 🧠💪🏼
@@POLLOK_LEGENDI saw your comment and really got some hope and positivity that one day I will recover. I am 4 months off xanax, and suffering from a heavy head, stuffed block type head, the lower back of my head is warm heated feel, and it seems to me that my nerves in head are inflammed , because if I try to focus on anything thing, this heat , heavy , blocked feeling intensified dissociation from reality is also sometimes severe, so I feel severe physical anxiety also. I always live in a doubt about my reality, my mind working properly or not, fearful thoughts . Please help , is this benzo withdrawal? or I have developed some anxiety problem. I never had any issue before using this xanax..
When I lose hope, I watch your videos to get positivity and hope back. There are some symptoms I am experiencing that are very different and almost impossible to explain in words. I am almost 6 months off xanax, and functional, but do all the work mechanically without feeling myself doing it, feeling my body and mind is not involved in all this, ( feels my head in some deep well that is floating , a vacuum is there that disconnects my inner self. think I am different from other people around, maybe I am present for them, but not for myself, I am just faking to be there and being that person. It's not like dpdr. Have you ever heard about these in benzo withdrawal? Did you experience these? This is scary.
Well I'm about to have to venture into the withdraw soon and I'm truly not looking forward to it. I've been taking klonopin for 13 years and switched to a place that doesn't prescribe them at all and so basically I have three months of the medicine I will have to taper off which I feel isn't long enough but I have to do it somehow. Even taking the medicines I rarely leave and just don't have that feeling of going anywhere much. I've missed tons of dr appointments making any excuse to not go. I don't know what I'm truly gonna do with everything. I have a longer story and it's not truly tragic, just message me privately so I can tell you when my anxiety and everything started thanks
Robert Con I can't message you privately on UA-cam but you can look me up on Facebook. Same name. I'm sorry you are going through this. Please read the Ashton Manual. You can google it.
I am not having any more anxiety than normal, just have burning skin and nerve pain in my pelvis/sacroiliac joint area. Also, I get muscle twitches that happen right before I fall asleep and some weird vision symptoms. I came off 0.25mg Klonopin recently, was on it 8 months, went down to 0.125mg, then down to nothing 1.5 month's later. I didn't think it was withdrawal at all, the only thing that clued me in was the burning skin.
I'm 16 months and still feel like crap.I got the eye thing going on too.Oh yea,my memory is garbage.I feel like killing my self,but I don't because of my family.I just don't have no joy any more.
It can take a very loooong time for things to chemically rebalance, for your CNS to reboot and your brain and receptors have to completely relearn how it's supposed to function. It can take a couple of years even, still having off and on symptoms... But you'll pull through eventually. I promise.
I took just over 18 months to start having normal days, and at about 20 months I found myself laughing so hard I was crying while watching a stupid movie, I hadn't laughed or even cracked a genuine smile, at all, in so long I couldn't even remember the last time... It felt so good. I promise... It WILL happen for you too, you WILL get there. *Hug*
I took just over 18 months to start having normal days, and at about 20 months I found myself laughing so hard I was crying while watching a stupid movie, I hadn't laughed or even cracked a genuine smile, at all, in so long I couldn't even remember the last time... It felt so good. I promise... It WILL happen for you too, you WILL get there. *Hug*
I remember exactly, so clearly, your frustration that I can almost feel in your comment, it's palpable. Don't lose hope. I myself had gotten to a point wherebit had been so long I had accepted that I would never feel right again, I was prepared for the rest of my life to be numb and pleasureless. I can't recall noticing as it started to improve, it was more of a sudden realization that I had gotten better. It'll happen for you. Hang in there.
Thanks for the video. I C/T'd off both Ativan and Xanax almost 2 months ago. The worst part of the benzo w/d is sleep. Before benzos, I had always slept like a rock, and for many hours. Now, it takes me at least an hour to fall asleep, and I awake every hour and a half or so. Like clockwork. The awful sleep is preventing me from working. One of these days I'll have to find a way to work 40 hrs/wk with little sleep, otherwise I'll be screwed. Do you work? If so, how are you able to do it with your sleep issues?
No I don't work thank god. I was medically retired from the Army. I do go to night school and take a class online. That's really all I am able to do right now. Sleep is an issue withdrawal we just have to accept it will be like this for awhile. I'm lucky to not have too many responsibilities that would interfere when I am able to sleep. Acceptance of that symptom is the best thing you can do. It will go as we heal.
Did you experience feeling of unreality during your withdrawal, or dpdr ? I watch all your videos and get the courage to keep going. I am 4 months off xanax, and my main symptom is feeling of unreality, it's really frightening whatever I do or try to engage myself, it's seems all fake. Intrusion thoughts are also related to this, that this is not the real place or people to be with. With other severe symptoms like head pressure and blurry vision, this horrible feeling of unreality makes it almost impossible to pass a single day.
Yes, I had dr/dp for years because of my med history, kindling, and cold turkey. It was so severe for me. It's ALL GONE. It does go, it can just take a bit. I'm sorry you have it too!
Now at 8 months off, I still feel fear, shakiness, inner vibrations, dpdr, no confidence over my mind, heavy head . Did you have those at this point of your journey?
@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you for your answer :) yes improvments are very slow. Even with a accurate journal not easy to be convinced that i make progresses. Im watching your channel sinice a couple of weeks. You are doing a great job. The World need people like you.
I did not work. I've been on disability for 18 years because of how bad the drugs affected me. In early days, I only took 1 class and it was with professors who were my friends and who I knew beforehand. The husband taught art classes and the wife taught writing so I stayed in their classes that first year off. If I would have quit school I would have lost the remaining benefits I earned in the Army to pay for my school and it amounted to $1800/month which paid for my housing and car payment. If I would have quit completely, I would have been homeless. I also had zero support and lived alone. I was experiencing psychosis the first 3 years and I was so scared I would slip completely away, that in my desperate brain, I thought staying in 1 class would help me stay in reality. I had homicidal and suicidal thoughts and inner akathisia in all of my classes. I sat on ice packs and would dig my nails in my arms so as not to give into the urges I was feeling. I ran to the bathroom several times during class to splash myself with hot water. I was completely out of my mind and I had to practice being normal so no one would know what I was experiencing. I shook my legs constantly and got up several times per class. I had disability accommodations to give that permission to me. Later, after a few years off when I added more classes, I kept the accommodations and the teachers just thought I had brain injury and seizures (I wore sunglasses). My symptoms were such that I could not stay home and focus on my symptoms. I had also been through other withdrawals before this, and a war, so I was very experienced in being extremely uncomfortable. Obviously, psych drug withdrawal was 100000x worse than anything I had experienced before but I was desperate to not be homeless and lose my mind in the process too. What I did to survive will not be what others will do. We are each different and can withstand different levels of torture. I did what I had to do to stay alive as I am sure you are too.
@@AngiePeacockMSW yeah I heard you say that ... That's unreal!! I only took them (2mg Klonopin a day) for about a year and 7 months ... Really hoping my withdrawal doesn't last that long! ... I subbed to your channel and will for sure watch all your stuff! You seem to have done a ton of research on it! ... The messed up thing is I was on Suboxone for a pill habit I formed after I hurt my back and the doc gave me these to help ween off the subs!! 🙄 ... About a year into it I found out that Klonopin were basically the same thing as Xanax!! I had no idea they were! Guess I should have done research on it before just blindly taking it! ... This is worse than the pill withdrawal!!
GRACE GEMINO no my doctor switched me from 2mg Klonopin to 3mg Ativan and then I tapered from Ativan until I couldn’t any more because of suicidal urges. Then they cold turkey me.
Can pushing hard and distracting ourselves deeply into some work or in conversation with people increase stress on nerves and inturn symptoms severely? I am 5 months off xanax, and recently my symptoms drastically changed and intensified. In earlier months, i used to go out, do all the work, but now it's difficult to do routine task, go for a small walk. My head is so confused, foggy, heavy, nervous all the time. My mind finds it difficult to relate and connect with environment and to my own existence. It seems that mind, body and my nerves are not working in pace . What can be the cause of sudden worsening of symptoms? Can we get a late acute withdrawal? That too after 4 months? Please help.
Hi! I am 10 months off. The first month was good a little, and I am now having severe racing thoughts,severe depression, and DPDR. Vivid dreams, my symptoms are changing each month
I admire your courage and determination cause I am a former addict with a really bad anxiety and I know how hard it is I was doing China white and I was paying 400 $ a gram and there no other agent like other derivatives of benzos or morphine and it does metabolize in the body really fast and I went into seizures the first 24 hours and they sent me to ICU to stabilise cause had 3 seizures right after the first one so I know how hard it is and the anxiety is the worst part of all the symptoms of withdrawal so I admire your courage and stay clean and maybe with your experience you could help people who have the similar problem 😇😇😇👍👍👍💪💪💪
I am 4 months off xanax, and for the last week, I am having nerve pains and terrible sensations with jerks all over, almost all the times. Why I experience these new Symptoms after 3 months? With time we are supposed to get better, but I am scared, will this withdrawal may lead to some other issue?
Symptoms can morph and change into other symptoms sometimes but they all eventually go away. This takes a long time for some of us but at least give yourself 6-18 months for your body to figure it all out.
The fact your out in public at school is awesome!
The feeling is VERY REAL!!
Well I'm now down to 6mg of Valium a day and it's really tough but I just want to thank you again for your video's and your positive attitude and your honesty. Your taco binge made me smile, stay strong and keep fighting, like you said, we are going to make it. You rock!
Thanks spanna! Keep going! Healing is coming!
Oh yeah, that awful toxic bodily feeling... I don't know how to describe it, but I know exactly what you mean. It's like feeling feverish, an odd hot feeling headache, beyond run-down, a sensation like having battery acid coursing through your veins... Just a very very *toxic* horrible feeling. It's been a long time since I detoxed, a couple of years... But I still remember that feeling, so clearly. Don't give up. It will get better and better, until one day, you realize you've been feeling just.... Normal. And after benzo withdrawal, normal is a beautiful thing. You'll get there, I promise. xx
L'appel DuVide thank you for writing that! Are you 100% healed now?
You are an Awesome Young Woman ! Thank You & Best Wishes to You !
It's gonna get better and better stay strong
Angela, thank you for continuing to share your story...I am sorry you are still suffering but we both know the process can't be rushed, it will take as long as it takes. You are doing everything in your power to heal. I am so happy you have your Pup, I can see you stroking "him" off camera! I can see your nose bothers you, too, even though you haven't mentioned it. I have all the same experiences as you and you give me hope. BB Choco
yes GI Joe is the best healing buddy I could ever have and yes I get those strange smells in my nose sometimes.
Great way to describe this girl!I have been in a horrible wave too and i have been feeling a lot worse lately.This sucks so bad but i know it won't last forever.I'm at 8 months and 18 days.I'm so glad that i have met you and we get to be in this journey together.You are one of the strongest people that i know going through this and i look up to you!You are one badass and i hope you see how strong you are.And how strong the rest of us see you as.Hope this made sense,my poor brain is in a horrible state right now and it's making it hard to put words into text lol..Hugs!
We are healing!!! Thank god girl! This has been soooo hard healing from this. So many hard days. Hopefully we are done with the hardest part and it gets easier and easier! Hugs
How long did it took you to get better from withdrawals. Am on third month and am still having withdrawals.
Your message is from years ago.
But can I ask, you mentioned brain in your message.
Did you felt your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I call it brain lock and fear it is permanent brain damage.
I was prescriped a big amount of benzo and no warnings after my dog had to put to sleep at the age of 16 and I had terrible panic attacks.
I had good active social healthy life with my dog and partner.
I have been through many traumas and survived from that and been grateful to God from many things.
Third time to try to taper and I have no power left but I want this drug off of me and have my good life back.
My doctor says she thinks when I'm enough long time off of benzo my anxiety will get easier and brain lock will go away.
Thank you if you can answer if you had any problems with brain function and understanding normal things. Hope you are well.
at least I know that I'm not alone! Because I didn't think anyone else could feel this horrible and live with it. you are a true inspiration! Thank you for your and your service! trying so hard. And it hurts so bad. not to mention, no one at all understand it seems
Alvin Reynolds go to Facebook and join "benzodiazepine recovery" it's a group. You'll get tons of support. This is very hard to do alone! Keep fighting! If I can do it so can you!
This is really helpful. Thank you. I am watching it the second time now.
Angela, it's amazing you are doing as well as you are. I can't imagine what it must be like. I was CT'd from Ativan after 6 months at 3mgs and 12 months out tomorrow. I'm no where near where you at I so appreciate what you share. Look forward to hearing updates.
Sorry to hear you are suffering so much. My acute was absolutely brutal and I still can't believe I am alive most days. I push my comfort zone a lot and every day is like exposure therapy. It's helpful to push sometimes I think it rewires the brain. You will get there soon. Our brains are not meant to feel like crap forever.
You're truly an inspiration to me. Thank you.
Well done. You sound a lot better. Stay strong.
Angela, thank- you for sharing. I'm almost to the end of a slow taper off klonopin and feel like crap every day ! Glad to see your doing better its given me encouragement. Thanks again.
Anne S. I know this has been a while since you posted this but I’m dealing with a family member going through this so I’m just curious what did you start off with mg wise and how long was your taper ?
I am also waiting for Baylissa's book to come in the mail.
her book is great
Ang Peabody I got it today. I'm excited to read it.
Thanks for your video, you really help me to stay positive
We are gonna make it!
I actually have my first therapist session on Thursday. hopefully it goes well and she knows something about withdrawal. if not, I guess I'll have to tell her about it.
Hai Angela, I've watched your videos and I'm very glad you posted it! I think you are extremely strong and courage for showing your journey. I don't know if you know the Alpha Stim. I'm from the Netherlands and I use it, especially now :-) and I know it is manufactured in the USA. It helps your brain to go in to the Alpha state, I know it's also used by veterins who suffer from PTSD. There is a lot of info on the internet about it, maybe it could be usefull for you as well. Stay strong, love your videos! Xx Kim
Thank you Kim. I will look into that if I feel a setback. So far, I'm healing really great!
Angela Peacock , i don't recommend the Alfa steem, no real evidence that it can help. how is it going with you now ?
I can tell from my own personal experience that is does help, but everybody is different! So glad to hear you are healing really great after your CT! That must have been a hell of a ride, so much respect for you!! I'm looking forward to more update videos, wishing you all the best!
Lay down on the earth and feel the energy. Soulful healing music, swimming at the beach, bush walking, ,wim hof, painting, eating tasty fruit n vegetables, icecream, nice healthy meats, beach everyday, nature therapy. Try to find things that will make you laugh. Intrusive thoughts aren't real it's just your mind n feelings that are messed up. Things will 100 percent get better 🙏😊
Thank you for the video I been dealing with Panic Attacks for three months now
Thank you
I found this amazing. I came off a nine year prescription of 20 mg a day. Before my taper began I broke my spiral humar. In turn that meant I had to endure both recoveries at the same time. Plus other mental issues, etc. I'm still hear somehow. I have found your the Best person, human being online to help with these issues and I think your really hot 😮 thank you Angie ❤
Your amazing
Thanks Ted!
I'm goin to listen I wanna talk to someone live ( like a therapist ) .. I also have the group
I am in the exact same boat as you. I was on 2 mg of Kpin for seven years. I'm 21 months out Cold turkey and still have a bad symptoms. I found that kratom actually helps me quite a bit! You should try it. You can still get it legally
Christopher Matson I'm too scared to take Tylenol right now! Ha! Be careful coming off that stuff. I heard it can be rough for some people too. Hope we both heal from this sooner rather than later!
Jesus how are you alive bro? Strength. X
Your videos are really helpful , I watch them again and again.
Now I am allmost 7 months free of benzos. Every few days, my symptoms are changing, some times new intense ones come, sometimes old symptoms that are gone comes back.
Is this the normal process?
Every symptom, especially mental impacts us psychologically, it seems that we will be out of our mind.
Will this mental trauma effects us later in life, or it's impact will go away?
Yes it’s normal for them to cycle around like that. It’s also normal to feel “worse” before you start to feel better too. Most of the trauma goes away once you’re out of this but I don’t think it’s realistic to think you will forget what happened to you
These benzo's a re something else; but YOU are more than a Conqueror! I cannot find your email address to send you an email.
click on my channel picture and send a message through youtube.
I'm trying to do that, but I'm not seeing your address?? ok, hold on..trying again. ty.
when I click on your photo , it takes me to your videos. I'm not understanding how to email you. Sorry.
Angela, I am a member of the benzo recovery fb group. Just rewatching your video. Do you think EMDR therapy would work for the dp/dr aspect of withdrawal?
Thanks
I was thinking about talking to baylissa but I'm havin a hard time getting ahold of her could b my brain fog 🙃
I was nearly reinstating but found this magic leaf. It is kind of addictive but not bad. It helps me so much.
Kratom ?
You have expressed the reasons for intrusion thoughts so well, that it makes sense. but at that time I feel so scared and disturbed by these irrational thoughts, that no matter how hard I try to convince myself, it leaves me shaking.
I am now 8 months off benzos
Will they fade away as time passes, because these are the most frightening, disturbing symptom for me.
Yes they can fade at any time. It was my worst fear too that it wouldn’t go. It left a long time ago now for me and it will leave for you too.
@@AngiePeacockMSW you are so helpful. Thanks for doing these videos, I watch them again and again to get some validation and hope in this frightening journey.
Angela..I see u on different fb pages. I'm on and off them bc of the horror stories. If not too personal did suicidal thoughts ever take over. Mine come and go but I am also dealing with ptsd and what I believe to be gastroparesis..long history but I just don't know how to even start tapering..
Yes, suicidal urges took me over. They started as just thoughts but then they turned into urges which is why I had to cold turkey. Cold turkey saved my life, I'm sure of it. I was very very very close to suicide while still on ativan. The urges stayed with me for about 4 months and now at 8 they are just passing thoughts. In my case, they were definitely from this medicine.
How long did you had withdrawals. For me it's been 3 months please this gives me hope and shows we are not alone. I will really appreciate the reply. My withdrawals dont go away.
elizabeth corral I have videos for the whole process. Just click on my picture and you can see me now at 4 years off and doing much better.
Please someone help me. Cold turkey a long Diazepam habit. Got chronic insomnia for five months. This is hell. No sleep
Mee too
How are you now
Did you have a spinning type of feeling in your head ?
I am 8 months off benzos, this spinning feeling, like every thing is rotating, is on and off. When I was 2 months off, this symptom was there , but after that again, now at 8 months also, it came back.
I have not heard this spinning head feeling from anyone.
Please help
Yes it’s called Vertigo. Very common symptom. It will go away!
Just checking in, how you are feeling by now?, did you got your emotions back?, keep up the updates it really encourages me , im following the same steps you did and I feel ok, yet anxiety and depression is there but it's manageable. Stay well.
I was trying to wait for 10 month update but maybe I should do one soon. I feel like I've turned a corner. Wayyyy less anxiety in public now. A little more fatigue, - few more headaches. But I am so hopeful :) where are you in this journey?
Angela Peacock , thts good to hear, i am same as you at this mark, same symptoms too. Fiteque, anxiety, and some depression. I also feel so lonely sometimes.
Hi .. it's has been 5 months since I stopped xanax. My symptoms are changing all the time. From the last two days, I am feeling extreme shooting pains like bone pain with burning sensations, it's really unbearable.
Why suddenly I feel so much pain, earlier it wasn't there, instead , last week I felt very numb feel, there was no sensation, no feel in my body, that was also scary.
Is it normal in withdrawal?
Why do I experience these extreme opposite sensations?
Please help
You talked before about withdrawing from opiates as well. Where you on benzos at the time you withdrew from opiates? Where you taking both? Withdrawing from opiates causes severe anxiety as well
No I withdrew from opiates in 2006. No benzos were involved back then.
Angela Peacock That's good thank God for that right? I'm tapering right now and scared to death so i can't thank you enough for putting yourself out here like this. A victory in itself you should be proud. It'll help with your recovery. I'm coming off of both opiates and benzos. I was introduced to opiates after I was already prescribed benzos. I went cold turkey off of the opiates so the benzos have helped. But that's the problem. Now I'm trying to tapper off of benzos as well. And now that I'm doing my research it scares the hell out of me. I have all the extreme anxiety symptoms you mentioned even before I was ever prescribed benzos. I want to go cold turkey but I'm terrified of loosing not just my mind but my life. I'm married with kids. So I have no idea how I'm going to get through this with so much to lose you know. Again can't thank you enough. Brave people like yourself are getting the message out there to Of of us lost on this extremely dangerous epidemic
Dylan Caldwell please consider joining benzo buddies (there's a forum where you can get support) and / or the many Facebook groups so that you make sure you are tapering slowly (not the doctor way) and that you can learn new coping skills to help you.
I mentioned some of my coping skills in my 6 month update video on here.
Do not think for a minute that you are doomed to have anxiety the rest of your life. You can learn to manage it just like I have without meds.
Angela Peacock thanks that means a lot to me. I'll check out benzo buddies for sure thanks. At this point I'll take any support I can get. My wife is aware but as you know endless you're going through it or suffer from the extreme it's hard to understand. Exercise and meditation are the only thing that frees my monkey mind. Only 20min-1hr but I'll take it. Take care and keep on swinging. I look forward to updates.
I'm going through it now! I cant wash go out I mostly stay in bed!! No appetite not sleeping very weak
Hope you're feeling somewhat better.
It gets better starlight, believe me when i say this everything you just mentioned i couldn't do that either but i can now, keep your chin up my friend, and don't listen to the bad thoughts in your head it's part of the withdrawal symptoms, think of them as illusions they ain't real, stay in the fight one day at a time Andrus 🧠💪🏼
Help me. Been cold turkey from valium for 7 months got severe insomnia. When does it get better
@@POLLOK_LEGENDI saw your comment and really got some hope and positivity that one day I will recover. I am 4 months off xanax, and suffering from a heavy head, stuffed block type head, the lower back of my head is warm heated feel, and it seems to me that my nerves in head are inflammed , because if I try to focus on anything thing, this heat , heavy , blocked feeling intensified dissociation from reality is also sometimes severe, so I feel severe physical anxiety also. I always live in a doubt about my reality, my mind working properly or not, fearful thoughts .
Please help , is this benzo withdrawal? or I have developed some anxiety problem. I never had any issue before using this xanax..
When I lose hope, I watch your videos to get positivity and hope back.
There are some symptoms I am experiencing that are very different and almost impossible to explain in words.
I am almost 6 months off xanax, and functional, but do all the work mechanically without feeling myself doing it, feeling my body and mind is not involved in all this, ( feels my head in some deep well that is floating , a vacuum is there that disconnects my inner self. think I am different from other people around, maybe I am present for them, but not for myself, I am just faking to be there and being that person. It's not like dpdr.
Have you ever heard about these in benzo withdrawal?
Did you experience these?
This is scary.
Well I'm about to have to venture into the withdraw soon and I'm truly not looking forward to it. I've been taking klonopin for 13 years and switched to a place that doesn't prescribe them at all and so basically I have three months of the medicine I will have to taper off which I feel isn't long enough but I have to do it somehow. Even taking the medicines I rarely leave and just don't have that feeling of going anywhere much. I've missed tons of dr appointments making any excuse to not go. I don't know what I'm truly gonna do with everything. I have a longer story and it's not truly tragic, just message me privately so I can tell you when my anxiety and everything started thanks
Robert Con I can't message you privately on UA-cam but you can look me up on Facebook. Same name.
I'm sorry you are going through this.
Please read the Ashton Manual. You can google it.
I am not having any more anxiety than normal, just have burning skin and nerve pain in my pelvis/sacroiliac joint area. Also, I get muscle twitches that happen right before I fall asleep and some weird vision symptoms. I came off 0.25mg Klonopin recently, was on it 8 months, went down to 0.125mg, then down to nothing 1.5 month's later. I didn't think it was withdrawal at all, the only thing that clued me in was the burning skin.
How are you doing. How is the burning skin and nerve pain
Hey boo, how are you these days?
see latest video on my channel
I'm 16 months and still feel like crap.I got the eye thing going on too.Oh yea,my memory is garbage.I feel like killing my self,but I don't because of my family.I just don't have no joy any more.
It can take a very loooong time for things to chemically rebalance, for your CNS to reboot and your brain and receptors have to completely relearn how it's supposed to function. It can take a couple of years even, still having off and on symptoms... But you'll pull through eventually. I promise.
I took just over 18 months to start having normal days, and at about 20 months I found myself laughing so hard I was crying while watching a stupid movie, I hadn't laughed or even cracked a genuine smile, at all, in so long I couldn't even remember the last time... It felt so good. I promise... It WILL happen for you too, you WILL get there. *Hug*
I took just over 18 months to start having normal days, and at about 20 months I found myself laughing so hard I was crying while watching a stupid movie, I hadn't laughed or even cracked a genuine smile, at all, in so long I couldn't even remember the last time... It felt so good. I promise... It WILL happen for you too, you WILL get there. *Hug*
I remember exactly, so clearly, your frustration that I can almost feel in your comment, it's palpable. Don't lose hope. I myself had gotten to a point wherebit had been so long I had accepted that I would never feel right again, I was prepared for the rest of my life to be numb and pleasureless. I can't recall noticing as it started to improve, it was more of a sudden realization that I had gotten better. It'll happen for you. Hang in there.
So withdrawals do last. Am on my third month and u have lost some memory.
Thanks for the video. I C/T'd off both Ativan and Xanax almost 2 months ago. The worst part of the benzo w/d is sleep. Before benzos, I had always slept like a rock, and for many hours. Now, it takes me at least an hour to fall asleep, and I awake every hour and a half or so. Like clockwork. The awful sleep is preventing me from working. One of these days I'll have to find a way to work 40 hrs/wk with little sleep, otherwise I'll be screwed. Do you work? If so, how are you able to do it with your sleep issues?
No I don't work thank god. I was medically retired from the Army. I do go to night school and take a class online. That's really all I am able to do right now. Sleep is an issue withdrawal we just have to accept it will be like this for awhile. I'm lucky to not have too many responsibilities that would interfere when I am able to sleep. Acceptance of that symptom is the best thing you can do. It will go as we heal.
Ignacy Dobrzriski how r u now
Did you experience feeling of unreality during your withdrawal, or dpdr ? I watch all your videos and get the courage to keep going.
I am 4 months off xanax, and my main symptom is feeling of unreality, it's really frightening whatever I do or try to engage myself, it's seems all fake. Intrusion thoughts are also related to this, that this is not the real place or people to be with. With other severe symptoms like head pressure and blurry vision, this horrible feeling of unreality makes it almost impossible to pass a single day.
Yes, I had dr/dp for years because of my med history, kindling, and cold turkey. It was so severe for me. It's ALL GONE. It does go, it can just take a bit. I'm sorry you have it too!
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks for giving me hope that one day it' will go.
You are such a strong support for me.
Now at 8 months off, I still feel fear, shakiness, inner vibrations, dpdr, no confidence over my mind, heavy head .
Did you have those at this point of your journey?
Yes of course I had all of those symptoms.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks. You are always so helpful 🙏
I'm a short term user and five years out ! What is your user name on BB please ?
I'd like to keep that anonymous thanks! I won't be posting that here on a public website. Perhaps you can figure it out.
N. Mebrahtu how sick are you still
Did you skin burn and when dud insomnia leave?
Yes I had skin burning in acute. I had insomnia probably until month 11 but everyone is different. Yours could go away tomorrow.
I stopped seroquel coöd Turkey 13 weeks ago. Do i ever get better??
Yes it can take 6-18 months for some to start feeling better. Hang in there!
@@AngiePeacockMSW thank you for your answer :) yes improvments are very slow. Even with a accurate journal not easy to be convinced that i make progresses. Im watching your channel sinice a couple of weeks. You are doing a great job. The World need people like you.
How were you able to go to school and work while going thru this?
I did not work. I've been on disability for 18 years because of how bad the drugs affected me. In early days, I only took 1 class and it was with professors who were my friends and who I knew beforehand. The husband taught art classes and the wife taught writing so I stayed in their classes that first year off.
If I would have quit school I would have lost the remaining benefits I earned in the Army to pay for my school and it amounted to $1800/month which paid for my housing and car payment. If I would have quit completely, I would have been homeless. I also had zero support and lived alone. I was experiencing psychosis the first 3 years and I was so scared I would slip completely away, that in my desperate brain, I thought staying in 1 class would help me stay in reality.
I had homicidal and suicidal thoughts and inner akathisia in all of my classes. I sat on ice packs and would dig my nails in my arms so as not to give into the urges I was feeling. I ran to the bathroom several times during class to splash myself with hot water. I was completely out of my mind and I had to practice being normal so no one would know what I was experiencing. I shook my legs constantly and got up several times per class. I had disability accommodations to give that permission to me. Later, after a few years off when I added more classes, I kept the accommodations and the teachers just thought I had brain injury and seizures (I wore sunglasses).
My symptoms were such that I could not stay home and focus on my symptoms. I had also been through other withdrawals before this, and a war, so I was very experienced in being extremely uncomfortable. Obviously, psych drug withdrawal was 100000x worse than anything I had experienced before but I was desperate to not be homeless and lose my mind in the process too.
What I did to survive will not be what others will do. We are each different and can withstand different levels of torture. I did what I had to do to stay alive as I am sure you are too.
How long did you go with no sleep at all?
I had 20 minutes to 1 hour for the first 11 months off cold turkey. Then 3-4 hours a night for the next year.
@@AngiePeacockMSW yeah I heard you say that ... That's unreal!! I only took them (2mg Klonopin a day) for about a year and 7 months ... Really hoping my withdrawal doesn't last that long! ... I subbed to your channel and will for sure watch all your stuff! You seem to have done a ton of research on it! ... The messed up thing is I was on Suboxone for a pill habit I formed after I hurt my back and the doc gave me these to help ween off the subs!! 🙄 ... About a year into it I found out that Klonopin were basically the same thing as Xanax!! I had no idea they were! Guess I should have done research on it before just blindly taking it! ... This is worse than the pill withdrawal!!
Dd u crossover to doazepam?
GRACE GEMINO no my doctor switched me from 2mg Klonopin to 3mg Ativan and then I tapered from Ativan until I couldn’t any more because of suicidal urges. Then they cold turkey me.
@@AngiePeacockMSW you didnt kindled or reinstated benzo before the ct?
Can pushing hard and distracting ourselves deeply into some work or in conversation with people increase stress on nerves and inturn symptoms severely?
I am 5 months off xanax, and recently my symptoms drastically changed and intensified. In earlier months, i used to go out, do all the work, but now it's difficult to do routine task, go for a small walk. My head is so confused, foggy, heavy, nervous all the time. My mind finds it difficult to relate and connect with environment and to my own existence. It seems that mind, body and my nerves are not working in pace .
What can be the cause of sudden worsening of symptoms?
Can we get a late acute withdrawal? That too after 4 months?
Please help.
I’m going to make a video about this in the next two weeks. Hang on dear one!
@@AngiePeacockMSW I am waiting for the video to come.
Thanks.🙏
Hi! I am 10 months off. The first month was good a little, and I am now having severe racing thoughts,severe depression, and DPDR. Vivid dreams, my symptoms are changing each month
I admire your courage and determination cause I am a former addict with a really bad anxiety and I know how hard it is I was doing China white and I was paying 400 $ a gram and there no other agent like other derivatives of benzos or morphine and it does metabolize in the body really fast and I went into seizures the first 24 hours and they sent me to ICU to stabilise cause had 3 seizures right after the first one so I know how hard it is and the anxiety is the worst part of all the symptoms of withdrawal so I admire your courage and stay clean and maybe with your experience you could help people who have the similar problem 😇😇😇👍👍👍💪💪💪
I am 4 months off xanax, and for the last week, I am having nerve pains and terrible sensations with jerks all over, almost all the times.
Why I experience these new Symptoms after 3 months?
With time we are supposed to get better, but I am scared, will this withdrawal may lead to some other issue?
Symptoms can morph and change into other symptoms sometimes but they all eventually go away. This takes a long time for some of us but at least give yourself 6-18 months for your body to figure it all out.
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100th time watching
How r you??
how long u use it?
fixi z 6 years. They shouldn’t be taken longer than 1-2 weeks. Read the package insert issued by FDA.
8 month ? hmm ..
life is short dont waste the time . never treate or detox urself .just meet detox expert or de addiction centre