Eating like this also dramatically improved my sleep as well, and also getting more protein. Diet is the biggest factor to mental health that is ignored by the medical community!
Reese Brindle yes it's a process of trial and error. I like Vega protein too. my only advice would be to not just do straight protein drink, mix it with some carbs and fats like coconut oil and sweet potato or low glycemic fruit such as berries
"Oh my god he is so beautiful"That was my favorite part of your video. I believe that is your mind waking up from this long sleep you been in. You can finally appreciate how beautiful everything in life is , that is what I take from your statement . Sure you might not feel like that all of the time but it is a glimpse into how things will be. You rock and I think you are inspiring. There are many people on bb who say going through this is harder than going through cancer treatments. So we aren't bieng babies this shit it's hard !
Hai Angela, amazing how far you have come. I'm 8 months off now and doing better, but I got into a bad wave last week. Flasbacks of last year and panic attacks, but I'm able to not totally freak out. Started doing EFT to get through some traumatic memories, it has been a rough road for sure. Glad you are doing better, I can relate a lot. Looking forward to your next video, xx Kim
I am happy you updated and are noticeably improving..I am also glad GI Joe is well and still keeping you company..you said many important things but one that resonated was about backing off on some of your volunteer work and trying to level out...I got mad at my psychologist last week when he asked me about goals and I said I was happy to make it through the day and he said that wasn't good enough...pee on him! I almost quit him! So keep on healing and sharing your journey and stay far away from the VA!
hang in there champ , 20 months for me and things are getting better. can function reasonably well but my stamina and strength still arnt there symptoms very managable now . paleo will help but not a magic cure. time is the only real solution. hang in there, you are doing great!
Thank you very much for these videos I've saved them to a playlist 👏🏼, underneath it all i know who i am it's just paving the way for myself one day at a time, i truly appreciate your kindness thanks again ❤️.
Aww i'm so sorry angela!!I can totally relate to what you said!I held on to everything for many months until i couldn't anymore.This w/d def takes every good thing from our lives.I'm so glad we will get it back one day.I'm always here if you need to talk!Hugs
one of the hardest things for me is also 'letting go' of good feelings amidst it all; you want to hold on and just sit in it forever, but the point comes where you've got to survive It reminds me of a documentary where a guy was stuck in frozen mountain landscape in a plane / helicopter crash -- even though he had injuries -- he laid his head back into a beam of light and everything felt 'just right' but knew he had to move on
no absolutely not. I was still having suicidal and homicidal thoughts until 3 years off. I couldn't talk about them in the video because I was scared of getting in trouble. I was miserable at 13 months off and barely sleeping 4 hours a night.
@@AngiePeacockMSW that sucks lord everyone I’ve seen is a 3 year mark for healing ❤️🩹 hopefully I’m as strong as you to do this. Your a bad ass! I’m having to move out of my house during divorce try to find a job I can handle atm and get a place to live. Thank you for responding. I’m sorry this happened to you also. Make sure you do lots of stuff you want in life. I hope the joy comes back someday. You are a beautiful strong warrior 🌹❤️
I watched this video again and again to get some hope, as now I have reached 12.5 months off mark almost same as you. I still feel hell all the time, mental symptoms are very much disturbing, and I feel getting worse with time. Will they ever go away? My head pains with a heavy feel is intense. Did you have head symptoms at this point of time?
My whole process is on this channel. Just watch some of the other videos. Yes I had a ton of head symptoms and they are all gone now. Yours will go away.
Your videos are really helpful. I always watch them to get some validation about what's going on during withdrawal. I am now 4 and half months off benzos. When I get up from a nap, I feel very toxic, weird, poisonous, chemical feel in my head. I never heard about this symptom from anyone. Is this a withdrawal symptom? I am really scared.
@@AngiePeacockMSW I was worried that it is some type of poison flowing in my head, and maybe due to taking fake or duplicate Alprazolam tablets during my use.
Thank you so much for your videos. And it does suck to feel like you've lost everything and your independence I feel the same way. But you are doing amazing 💜
ahh you're making me wanna do the diet. I will have to try it eventually maybe when things are a lil better. that's great though you're getting out for that long and had fun playing poker. I just started the gym again too, good to know it helps rebuild brain cells! still crazy to me you went to school during all this. I was terrified to leave the house in acute.
I was terrified too. But if I quit school I would have lost $1300/month and would have been homeless. I had inner akathisia every single class for 6 months and suicidal thoughts! I still don't know how I sat there without losing it.
Every thing your feeling is completely the same as me and possibly the same as everybody... we all ask: How long is this going to take and am I going to heal completely? Who am I going to become after all this? Should I be pushing myself more? And the truth is there's no real right thing to do we all learn how to cope in all different ways... I really stopped with anything that's Benzo related, I only watch a few UA-cam vids on people who are updating their stories n it seems they continuously make progress although it's very slow I do see some progress so it does give me hope that I will actually get better. So thx for posting your story.
Hi! Angie, Now it's 13 months off for me also, but still suffering a lot. Some symptoms like, heavy head, dizziness, fluctuations in Blood pressure most of the time low, with fainting feeling, weird thoughts are really intense. Did you have these at this point of time?
Can we have spells of vertigo, dizzi head as a wave after one year off? I had dizziness in my earlier months, but it improved gradually, but recently I felt severe dizziness with vertigo, can it be due to withdrawal up and down? My bp and sugar level is normal.
How many months it was the worse for you ? Im 5 months off and i feel Terrible . Thank you Angela and i feel very Proud of you that you came so far in your healing you are an inspiration . Thank you ! Hugs !
I think I got off benzos the same month as you. I have also have been doing the same diet as well. It helped a lot but I still have many symptoms. I'm very curious on how you're holding up now? On a side note I've researched how exercise further inflames our cortisol levels. Doctors actually use exercise to induce a stress response to study the adrenals and HPA axis.
I'll post another update next week. Exercise has fixed my dizziness and if I don't exercise it's much worse. I also sleep better and feel calmer. There is a book I read called "spark" about how exercise produces BDNF which is like fertilizer for the brain and it grows new brain cells. I choose to focus on that research and how it helps me. For me, I can't heal without it.
I quit seroquel 50mg cold Turkey 3 months ago ( doctor advice) im still going trough quite uncomfortable widrawal. Such as insomnia, overstimmulation, paranoia , Anger desperation and unextinquishable craving for Dopamin. Im still scared that i be in the rest of my life. Althaugh i improved gradually over the last 3 months im still aboutley clueless where i am in this process. If there is someone here who is going or went trough a cold Turkey recovery process. I would be genuinley intressted about your experience🙏
I can relate to a lot of the lingering doubts and concerns early after the worst had passed. You will gain more confidence in your recovery as time passes. One idea about the diet.. the amino acid taurine (found in dark meat poultry especially, also in beef, salmon, etc) helps quell migraines, auras etc. And sprinting is another good exercise for releasing HGH (neural regeneration, etc). Hope you continue improving and do well in graduate school. Your courage is inspiring.
Hi Angie, I haven't had the means to do a coaching session again, but I missed talking to you. I dont know if you will see this, but quick question, did you experience psychosis from Ativan withdrawal.
Yes I did- strange thoughts about evolution and dinosaurs and lizards. I also didn’t speak and wasn’t able to look at any social media or other peoples faces for the first 4 months off.
Hang in there! Girl, you are amazing. Merryjoyousandfree... Someone on benzobuddies introduced me to that last week, What a lifesaver. I have the same symptoms as you. The visual ones are hard to deal with,.. At least to me right now. Oh and intrusive thoughts,... Ugh. Distraction is key. My idle mind is awful, I sometimes feel psychotic but if I get busy in something pleasurable, I'm WAY better and I can feel semi-normal. I'm so proud of you for keeping up with your schooling. You are inspiring! Btw, did I see you in a wounded warriors advertisement?
I was feeling terrible today for my period today it’s my first day and now my symptoms started to subside little bit I feel like all my skin burning and i have a lot head sensation, and I feel very emotional and I cry for everything . I’m 5 months off I don’t know if I will recover for this . I feel so sad I want to recover my life ! Did you experiment a lot swing moods during the period? Thank you Angela ! God bless you all your life !
I'm just want to go detox I'm sick of being so sick even while tapering. Did you. You CT an equivalent of 25 mg valium right? Did you have any GI issues. Did you take anything for it?
Why i am getting worse and worse day by day? It has been more than 4 months i stopped Alprazolam. My mental symptoms like, dissociation, doubting about my sanity, repeated thoughts are getting worse with time. I am really losing hope to get better with time. Please help.
I can’t provide coaching in UA-cam comments but it can feel really bad the first year off and then it tends to improve. Hang in there. If you need some coaching for this, consider a session with me. Www.angiepeacock.com
Hello Angela ! I hope you are you great ! You are incredible person Ángela! I would like to ask you somenthing. Can the stress aggravate symptoms ? The another I was discuss with my mom and I have a terrible symptoms and new and scariest symptoms . It’s that normal that the stress affect so much the symptoms ? God bless you .
Yes of course! Stress makes this much worse. It might help you to join one of the support groups as I can't answer every single day. Search on facebook for benzo groups or look here: www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php
It is said that healing happens underneath, but how will I heal even with time, when my nervous system that is injured so much, is triggered repeatedly by intense anxiety that is caused by any disturbing thought? I am 3 months off xanax, and feel that I am getting worse than before.
It feels like that when you are in acute withdrawal and you are! It improves the farther out from that last dose that you get. Maybe watch some of my other videos for more hope! I have some good ones.
Yes but only during acute. I had sharp pains and it felt like my head was being squeezed and it was breaking my skull. I also felt my heart beating and just a lot of pressure overall. Most of that is LONG GONE.
hang in there I am 15 months off from 20years on ativan... I know hell also, seems not as bad as yours but damn close! still suffering but getting slooowly better, lots of ups lots of downs but the ups are ahead :-)
Jesus Christ has healed me from my medications withdrawal, i just wanna say to you people that there's hope in Him, there's no way i could be healed so fast from all my cold turkeys and quitted smoking as well and i'm alright now, with a stronghold in Christ. Turn to Him people, please be realistic for a moment, even if you get 100% (wich takes a loooong time) you will be back to your pre medicated state, with Christ all things are new
That's awesome! Jesus is the only one we can trust to help us with our feelings of anxiety and depression and all those emotions that are normal, but we don't think it is so we put our trust in health practitioners who just want money and not our well-being. God helped me a lot as well and if you work as a team with Him all things are possible. He had completely taken my social anxiety away which I had since I was young and now I still get some anxiety attacks but I'm able to manage them better. I decided to stop taking any kind of pills for anything, except Tylenol when I really need it. Prayer is the strongest tool we have!
What did you do, im desperate! Im don’t want to continue like that! I was being in a hell for 24 years, could you tell me what did you do, my health is getting worse, I don’t want to die, I want smile again! 😢
Hello Angela ! I hope you are doing great ! My husband give me the flu , and I have terrible setback from that . Do you know how long time it can takes to recover from the flu ? Big hugs to you
I've had optical migrains too. Was on klonipin+ zanax 15yrs, coldturkey 11mths now. Thanks for your video, I can relate. 💟😊🙏really proud of you too, very inspiring...
How are you feeling these days, i am still at the same situation, nothing has chnged, its like im stuck in this condition, i hope you are getting better.
Wow! Good for you! College and now grad school going through this??? I can't imagine. What mental strength. Going through 9 months, cold turkey, as elderly, has another dimension. One thinks it could be permanent damage on the way to dementia...talk about intrusive thoughts. But not your problem. I'm following UA-cam Dan I see he has commented and yourself. You guys are "much" younger and feel for you to go through this young. Does the VA do anything for you, do they help? The VA thing makes me mad, I have seen this for too long...VN era. Not a vet, but many friends that went and got screwed. Do young vets think Trump can help? Or just more talk?
The VA did this to me. I no longer go to them for anything. They keep saying I have MS and conversion disorder and will not believe anything I say. So... yeah. No thanks! I have no opinion on Trump.
I feel chills, cold feeling inside, mostly in the evenings, it doesn't go even by wearing more warm clothes. Is it a symptom of benzo withdrawal? I quit them almost 5 months ago. My thyroid and other blood work is normal.
Yes if you get medically screened and they can’t find anything - usually it’s the drugs. I had the cold symptom too and I remember I was around your time off. I remember taking my temperature and it said 95.1 one time!!
@@AngiePeacockMSW ohh! 95.1 !, I will also check my temperature when I feel the chills and cold, I checked my B.P at that time, but it was ok. You are always so helpful, thank you so much, my good wishes to you 🙏
Not quite that bad but close. When your progesterone goes down right before your period, this can cause the increase in symptoms. Just hold on. It won’t be like this forever.
Your 2010 CBS News piece!!! I'm scrolling through UA-cam recommended videos, and all of a sudden I noticed your picture and name on this "homeless vets" report. What's the probability of that? You were a beautiful bride, and we could see a bit of your past life. You have been fighting this for a long time...some 6 years? You are still young and have time to healed. BTW, I think we all change somewhat as we age. Talk to to most people at 40 yrs, they changed from 20 yrs old. Do you feel like you are in a better place from that video in 2010? I wish you continued success.
snakeriverwatch of course I do! I'm about to graduate college with a 3.95 gpa in about 75 days! I have a great apartment and am doing so much better the farther away I get from psychiatry!!! The meds made me so much worse and ruined my life for 13 years. I can't wait to get a job and never look back!
I just found your channel im sure you wont see this comment i quit cold turkey lorazepam almost 5 months ago and im always dizzy.. exactly how you describe it i was only on lorazepam for a little over a month .5 milligrams i hope this ends for me :/
Beata Pietras yes it will end for you don't worry!!! I had all the tests to make sure it wasn't something else and it's not for me. It's getting better now. Keep going!
Ang Peabody omg thank you so much for the reply! Today is so bad for me :( im swaying when im sitting i can barely make food for myself i feel so off and dizzy i keep thinking its an ear problem but ive been told so many times by my doctor your ears look fine its anxiety this dizziness has good days then bad days and something i dont have it at all and the end of march till now its horrible dizziness i feel like im losing hope but watching your videos all last night i have hope!
Christian Doe gosh :/ i really hope this ends soon its already 5 months without it and dizzy every day idk how to cope with it its so hard to live life because of this
Hi Beata I'm almost 5 months off too and feel like complete hell. I feel the dizziness too. My other symptoms are extreme head pressure, muscle pressure, pins and needles, night sweats, sugar cravings, easily irritable, and impatient. I also have intense fear for stupid things like scared to be alone at home but scared to socialize. I feel I'm doing much better than I was 5 months ago. We will get better. We got this!
danielle rollyson yes pretty much the whole time. I took a beta blocker for the first 7 months then came off. I get it now whenever I’m even a tiny bit nervous or anxious.
I'm on my 25th day first three weeks were miserable , bad dreams , sweats, short of breath, extremely bad panic attacks, insomnia, but now I'm doing much better!! There is hope !!!!
I started watching you the day i got out of the hospital after being ct. 3rd ct. I am now 14 months and i am worse than ever. Going backwards. Never had a problem getting sleep thru this whole ordeal thankfully. And now all of a sudden i never sleep.and this rage is horrible its starting to scare me
Your videos gives me strength to pull myself through this terrible times. Now I am 4 months one week off xanax. Every day my symptoms are changing, new symptoms which were not there frightens me. If I starts watching some interesting things which I enjoyed last week, now after watching for 3- 4 minutes, I feel aggression mixed with a bilt of disgusting voilent feel, it's not like no joy or disinterest. Why I feel this way?
S Ms what are your symptoms? I'm still sensitive to stress and vision and perceptual distortions but working out at the gym 3 times a week and feeling strong! I even socialized last week. Getting there!
It did that to me too but I just kept going anyway. I couldn't even drive home from the gym without calling a friend to talk to me on the way home. I got worse for about 3 months but now I'm ok! Gotta push through some of that discomfort sometimes. Exercise can help sooo much that it's really important to grow new brain cells.
No I don't feel strong. Yes I feel fatigue. NORMAL people feel like that. You've made it through acute. Now it's time to push through this discomfort and GET YOUR LIFE BACK!
Your such a strong woman thank you for your story….. I failed My battle wit Klonopin cuz Even after the highest dose now I’m on Xanax 2mg helps allot more but thank you for your stories reallyy help to hear it…. You’re sooo strong … I tried cold turkey before but couldn’t take it….. ❤ wishing the best for you
Tapering slowly is the better way to get off. My doctor did this to me so I didn’t really have a choice in the matter. If you haven’t tried a slow taper (like 10-18 month taper) then you haven’t tried to get off properly and safely.
man I feel the same way now and I'm just not going to come off benzo, I feel that way taking them chest and back tightness I always think way into things, I feel like something is wrong with my spine lol but I know it's nothing I just can't get over the tension headaches but your not alone on feeling this way I have a LOT of your symptoms and I haven't came off them but a week now been on clonasapam for near 8 yrs
It's only been a month. Not a whole lot to report. I will probably wait a few months before I post the next one. The brain takes a long time to heal! Where are you in this process?
I am at 14th, still struggling with anxiety and fatique, no emotions yet, but overall a lot better, especially with the palio diet. Sleep is ok, but when i work out i get the symptoms back, I really miss working out, i cry sometimes because of that, it gives me the feeling that I am disabled.
I just started working out and I do feel a little worse for a while but then it subsides. Each time I work out it gets a little easier. You'll get there I promise!!!
yes but I didn't pace. I had the inner akathesia. Constant adrenaline and feeling like I needed to run marathons and pull my skin off. It lasted 6 months. That's why no one recommends cold turkey.
Ive been on ativan 6 months...also polydrugged...Id like to cold turkey...i dont think i could handle it...currently trying to crossover to valium for ashton. Are you on benzo buddies? I like to read progress blogs on there for reassurance. also wondered if youd tried any antagonists to upregulate gaba receptors that didnt aggro w/d symptoms maybe? are you still exercise intolerant at this point? Hope your starting to mend. thanks for serving our country. seems unfair that some of the people you served to protect got you hooked on these meds. btw i dont trust doctors anymore. Thanks for posting videos : )
about 7-10 days before period, I would get really violent thoughts, fear, intrusive thoughts, pain, things like that. All would get worse. That lasted about 2 years slowly getting less and less scary. Now I barely have any pain at all.
Sometimes before The period one week i Can get little bit aggressive and I Just wanted to eat sweet things like chocolate and donnas . And I have pain too in my body and sometimes panic attacks not all the time I’m 5 months off now . Thank you Angela and you are my inspiration . Did you get sometimes like aggressive with the period ? Many hugs to you god bless you my friend !
@@vaneramirez5235 yes i had all that. It was very scary and I would talk to friends about it and that helped so much. It's al gone now. Just a part of this journey.
yes x 100000/ I also thought I would wake up in the middle of the night and kill myself. It all goes away don't worry. Try doing guided meditations from youtube. THose helped me so much.
Hi, contact me ,I really would like to talk to you.your story touched my heart,my soul. Anyway,keep moving forward,and truly I would love to talk to you. Sincerely, Paul
You have the danm determination to get the fuck off it .it's not exactly like heroin but it's not easy either I know how gross it is so much yuks and the feeling that you can't get in the shower and eating is gross too and you can't sleep at all for weeks and heroin withdrawal is the worst fucking gross thing ever you could never find a comfortable way to sit or sleep at all so for me I had serious anxiety attacks and I was thinking about how I could die and I was going on so much more anxiety when in my mind I would think about this drowned in a crevasse and it swallowed me and the dirt just engulfed me that is what makes me so crazy cause it can't stop the anxiety is so bad when I was thinking about it
Yeah it's the most incredible thing that you can go through I am lucky enough that my doctor only prescribed me seroquel and escitalopram and amlodipine for my heart blood pressure and it's all without benzodiazepines I have anxiety really bad but escitalopram has helped me a lot I think it's time for you to try it escitalopram
Eating like this also dramatically improved my sleep as well, and also getting more protein. Diet is the biggest factor to mental health that is ignored by the medical community!
littlemissperfect is it ok to have protein shake during withdrawal, and should i go with whay or a different one.
Reese Brindle yes it's a process of trial and error. I like Vega protein too. my only advice would be to not just do straight protein drink, mix it with some carbs and fats like coconut oil and sweet potato or low glycemic fruit such as berries
Wow Ang !!! You've come so far from how unwell you look in this one. You've been reborn now ! ❤
Yes I was in the thick of it back then. Yucky!
@@AngiePeacockMSW you give me so much hope Ang. You are bloody amazing !!! 🤗♥️
😂 There you are again Lisa.
@@Bex66 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
"Oh my god he is so beautiful"That was my favorite part of your video. I believe that is your mind waking up from this long sleep you been in. You can finally appreciate how beautiful everything in life is , that is what I take from your statement . Sure you might not feel like that all of the time but it is a glimpse into how things will be. You rock and I think you are inspiring. There are many people on bb who say going through this is harder than going through cancer treatments. So we aren't bieng babies this shit it's hard !
Hai Angela, amazing how far you have come. I'm 8 months off now and doing better, but I got into a bad wave last week. Flasbacks of last year and panic attacks, but I'm able to not totally freak out. Started doing EFT to get through some traumatic memories, it has been a rough road for sure. Glad you are doing better, I can relate a lot. Looking forward to your next video, xx Kim
Thank you Angela. You give hope. Keep going. I'm happy you've come so far. What a blessing.
I am happy you updated and are noticeably improving..I am also glad GI Joe is well and still keeping you company..you said many important things but one that resonated was about backing off on some of your volunteer work and trying to level out...I got mad at my psychologist last week when he asked me about goals and I said I was happy to make it through the day and he said that wasn't good enough...pee on him! I almost quit him! So keep on healing and sharing your journey and stay far away from the VA!
Thank you. You are a warrior. I pray your healing continues at a quickened pace.
I worked out during acute too. Haha. Man it ain't for the weak and we are so weak during this. You're the best Peacock.
All I ever loved was working out. So hard.
hang in there champ , 20 months for me and things are getting better. can function reasonably well but my stamina and strength still arnt there symptoms very managable now .
paleo will help but not a magic cure. time is the only real solution. hang in there, you are doing great!
You are my HERO, WITHOUT DOUBT.
Thank you very much for these videos I've saved them to a playlist 👏🏼, underneath it all i know who i am it's just paving the way for myself one day at a time, i truly appreciate your kindness thanks again ❤️.
Aww i'm so sorry angela!!I can totally relate to what you said!I held on to everything for many months until i couldn't anymore.This w/d def takes every good thing from our lives.I'm so glad we will get it back one day.I'm always here if you need to talk!Hugs
one of the hardest things for me is also 'letting go' of good feelings amidst it all;
you want to hold on and just sit in it forever, but the point comes where you've got to survive
It reminds me of a documentary where a guy was stuck in frozen mountain landscape in a plane / helicopter crash --
even though he had injuries -- he laid his head back into a beam of light and everything felt 'just right' but knew he had to move on
I forgot to ask could you feel happiness at this month off I can still not feel happiness I only feel sadness and anger and irritability cry cry
no absolutely not. I was still having suicidal and homicidal thoughts until 3 years off. I couldn't talk about them in the video because I was scared of getting in trouble. I was miserable at 13 months off and barely sleeping 4 hours a night.
@@AngiePeacockMSW that sucks lord everyone I’ve seen is a 3 year mark for healing ❤️🩹 hopefully I’m as strong as you to do this. Your a bad ass! I’m having to move out of my house during divorce try to find a job I can handle atm and get a place to live. Thank you for responding. I’m sorry this happened to you also. Make sure you do lots of stuff you want in life. I hope the joy comes back someday. You are a beautiful strong warrior 🌹❤️
@@Filthycoffin watch my most recent videos or my other channel “being human RV.” I am enjoying life, believe me!
I watched this video again and again to get some hope, as now I have reached 12.5 months off mark almost same as you. I still feel hell all the time, mental symptoms are very much disturbing, and I feel getting worse with time. Will they ever go away? My head pains with a heavy feel is intense. Did you have head symptoms at this point of time?
My whole process is on this channel. Just watch some of the other videos. Yes I had a ton of head symptoms and they are all gone now. Yours will go away.
watched your first video. Your doing much better ,you seem much more relaxed and less restless. hope you get better soon.
Thanks Harold! That means a lot to me.
Your videos are really helpful. I always watch them to get some validation about what's going on during withdrawal.
I am now 4 and half months off benzos. When I get up from a nap, I feel very toxic, weird, poisonous, chemical feel in my head. I never heard about this symptom from anyone.
Is this a withdrawal symptom?
I am really scared.
Yes absolutely is!
@@AngiePeacockMSW I was worried that it is some type of poison flowing in my head, and maybe due to taking fake or duplicate Alprazolam tablets during my use.
You are a warrior never say sorry for what you have endured. I relate and thank you!!!!
Thank you so much for making these videos-they have been very helpful for me.
Mybrothers keepers you're welcome. I hope you are doing as well as you can!
Thank you so much for your videos. And it does suck to feel like you've lost everything and your independence I feel the same way. But you are doing amazing 💜
ahh you're making me wanna do the diet. I will have to try it eventually maybe when things are a lil better. that's great though you're getting out for that long and had fun playing poker. I just started the gym again too, good to know it helps rebuild brain cells! still crazy to me you went to school during all this. I was terrified to leave the house in acute.
I was terrified too. But if I quit school I would have lost $1300/month and would have been homeless. I had inner akathisia every single class for 6 months and suicidal thoughts! I still don't know how I sat there without losing it.
Every thing your feeling is completely the same as me and possibly the same as everybody... we all ask: How long is this going to take and am I going to heal completely? Who am I going to become after all this? Should I be pushing myself more? And the truth is there's no real right thing to do we all learn how to cope in all different ways... I really stopped with anything that's Benzo related, I only watch a few UA-cam vids on people who are updating their stories n it seems they continuously make progress although it's very slow I do see some progress so it does give me hope that I will actually get better. So thx for posting your story.
Fire Within happy healing to you too my friend. May grace carry us through.
Hi! Angie, Now it's 13 months off for me also, but still suffering a lot. Some symptoms like, heavy head, dizziness, fluctuations in Blood pressure most of the time low, with fainting feeling, weird thoughts are really intense. Did you have these at this point of time?
Can we have spells of vertigo, dizzi head as a wave after one year off? I had dizziness in my earlier months, but it improved gradually, but recently I felt severe dizziness with vertigo, can it be due to withdrawal up and down? My bp and sugar level is normal.
Yes very common
How many months it was the worse for you ? Im 5 months off and i feel Terrible . Thank you Angela and i feel very Proud of you that you came so far in your healing you are an inspiration . Thank you ! Hugs !
the worst was first 6 months, then things started feeling slowly slowly better.
Just watching it now..Says 111 views woohoo,those are great numbers lol..so proud of you angela,you're so awesome!
Hello Angela !
Did you experiment a lot of Adrenalin in the morning ? And how did you cope or what did you drink or eat for put down Adrenalin ?
I had that every single day for about 2.5 years. I still have it a little bit. There is nothing to put it down that I know of. Just healing time.
It’s normal withdrawal that sometimes I feel like my left arm sleeping even my left hand?
We are eating that way also Angela. I am so proud of you with your studies. So happy for you!
Thank you Marla!
I think I got off benzos the same month as you. I have also have been doing the same diet as well. It helped a lot but I still have many symptoms. I'm very curious on how you're holding up now? On a side note I've researched how exercise further inflames our cortisol levels. Doctors actually use exercise to induce a stress response to study the adrenals and HPA axis.
I'll post another update next week.
Exercise has fixed my dizziness and if I don't exercise it's much worse. I also sleep better and feel calmer. There is a book I read called "spark" about how exercise produces BDNF which is like fertilizer for the brain and it grows new brain cells. I choose to focus on that research and how it helps me. For me, I can't heal without it.
Okay, awesome. Thanks for your insights
I quit seroquel 50mg cold Turkey 3 months ago ( doctor advice) im still going trough quite uncomfortable widrawal. Such as insomnia, overstimmulation, paranoia , Anger desperation and unextinquishable craving for Dopamin. Im still scared that i be in the rest of my life. Althaugh i improved gradually over the last 3 months im still aboutley clueless where i am in this process. If there is someone here who is going or went trough a cold Turkey recovery process. I would be genuinley intressted about your experience🙏
How are you feeling now? I am 15 mnths out, still struggling with anxiety and low tolerance to handle stress.
Similar to you. I was able to travel by airplane a few weeks ago and i feel like that gave me some of my freedom back. Slow going but we are healing.
When was the time until u could start functioning normally?? Was it too long after u quit?? I see u were protracted does that make u disfunction??
I could function a little but not much the first few years. I was kindled really bad.
I can relate to a lot of the lingering doubts and concerns early after the worst had passed. You will gain more confidence in your recovery as time passes. One idea about the diet.. the amino acid taurine (found in dark meat poultry especially, also in beef, salmon, etc) helps quell migraines, auras etc. And sprinting is another good exercise for releasing HGH (neural regeneration, etc). Hope you continue improving and do well in graduate school. Your courage is inspiring.
Hi Angie, I haven't had the means to do a coaching session again, but I missed talking to you. I dont know if you will see this, but quick question, did you experience psychosis from Ativan withdrawal.
Yes I did- strange thoughts about evolution and dinosaurs and lizards. I also didn’t speak and wasn’t able to look at any social media or other peoples faces for the first 4 months off.
In which months your phisical symptoms started to subside ? Thank you ! God bless you !
I seemed to have more mental symptoms in early months then they morphed into physical. 18-22 months the mental started to subside.
Gosh I could use a hug from you
Sending a hug.
Hey i have pain weakness burning
numbness in left side of my body . Did u have these symptoms? I am really afraid its a damage n will be permanent 😊
Yes I had all that and it’s long gone now. Watch one of my more recent videos.
Hang in there! Girl, you are amazing. Merryjoyousandfree... Someone on benzobuddies introduced me to that last week, What a lifesaver. I have the same symptoms as you. The visual ones are hard to deal with,.. At least to me right now. Oh and intrusive thoughts,... Ugh. Distraction is key. My idle mind is awful, I sometimes feel psychotic but if I get busy in something pleasurable, I'm WAY better and I can feel semi-normal. I'm so proud of you for keeping up with your schooling. You are inspiring! Btw, did I see you in a wounded warriors advertisement?
haha yes that's me in WWP commercials
I was feeling terrible today for my period today it’s my first day and now my symptoms started to subside little bit I feel like all my skin burning and i have a lot head sensation, and I feel very emotional and I cry for everything . I’m 5 months off I don’t know if I will recover for this . I feel so sad I want to recover my life !
Did you experiment a lot swing moods during the period? Thank you Angela ! God bless you all your life !
I'm just want to go detox I'm sick of being so sick even while tapering. Did you. You CT an equivalent of 25 mg valium right? Did you have any GI issues. Did you take anything for it?
Why i am getting worse and worse day by day? It has been more than 4 months i stopped Alprazolam. My mental symptoms like, dissociation, doubting about my sanity, repeated thoughts are getting worse with time.
I am really losing hope to get better with time.
Please help.
I can’t provide coaching in UA-cam comments but it can feel really bad the first year off and then it tends to improve. Hang in there. If you need some coaching for this, consider a session with me. Www.angiepeacock.com
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks.🙏
Did you experience a lot of sweating? When did it go away?
Do you know if the benzo caused ocd ? Thank you Angela for always be there for all this community
vane ramirez yes for me it sure did. Had it a long time. Search on UA-cam for “benzo info coalition intrusive thoughts.” I made a video about it there
How many you considerate that your symptoms it was the worse ? Thank you for your support !
akathesia- internal restlessness and agitation.
Hello Angela !
I hope you are you great !
You are incredible person Ángela!
I would like to ask you somenthing.
Can the stress aggravate symptoms ? The another I was discuss with my mom and I have a terrible symptoms and new and scariest symptoms . It’s that normal that the stress affect so much the symptoms ?
God bless you .
Yes of course! Stress makes this much worse. It might help you to join one of the support groups as I can't answer every single day. Search on facebook for benzo groups or look here: www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php
It is said that healing happens underneath, but how will I heal even with time, when my nervous system that is injured so much, is triggered repeatedly by intense anxiety that is caused by any disturbing thought? I am 3 months off xanax, and feel that I am getting worse than before.
It feels like that when you are in acute withdrawal and you are! It improves the farther out from that last dose that you get. Maybe watch some of my other videos for more hope! I have some good ones.
@@AngiePeacockMSW thanks. Watching your videos gives me strength and hope to keep going. 🙏
Did you have physical head symptoms?
Yes but only during acute. I had sharp pains and it felt like my head was being squeezed and it was breaking my skull. I also felt my heart beating and just a lot of pressure overall. Most of that is LONG GONE.
hang in there I am 15 months off from 20years on ativan... I know hell also, seems not as bad as yours but damn close! still suffering but getting slooowly better, lots of ups lots of downs but the ups are ahead :-)
Richard Sloan thanks! I need all the hope I can get on the bad days but yes I'm doing better since this last update! ❤️
good to hear, my last week has been very good, so grateful, you learn so much about yourself during this... don't you? :-)
Jesus Christ has healed me from my medications withdrawal, i just wanna say to you people that there's hope in Him, there's no way i could be healed so fast from all my cold turkeys and quitted smoking as well and i'm alright now, with a stronghold in Christ. Turn to Him people, please be realistic for a moment, even if you get 100% (wich takes a loooong time) you will be back to your pre medicated state, with Christ all things are new
I'm praying every day. did you go to an anointed service or somewhere for your healing
Pamela Culig nope, just repented stopped living in sin and begged for his mercy, all in my house :)
how are you?
That's awesome! Jesus is the only one we can trust to help us with our feelings of anxiety and depression and all those emotions that are normal, but we don't think it is so we put our trust in health practitioners who just want money and not our well-being. God helped me a lot as well and if you work as a team with Him all things are possible. He had completely taken my social anxiety away which I had since I was young and now I still get some anxiety attacks but I'm able to manage them better. I decided to stop taking any kind of pills for anything, except Tylenol when I really need it. Prayer is the strongest tool we have!
What did you do, im desperate! Im don’t want to continue like that! I was being in a hell for 24 years, could you tell me what did you do, my health is getting worse, I don’t want to die, I want smile again! 😢
@@santabala6314 same situation right now
I have the same vision symptoms !! I feel so less alone. It distressed me so when it started.
omg when you cry, I cry.
because you've been to the hell state I've been I'm guessing.
Did you symptoms worse symptoms whit your period?
When you were eating some thing that cause more withdrawal how many days did you feel bad after food ?
Hello Angela !
I hope you are doing great !
My husband give me the flu , and I have terrible setback from that .
Do you know how long time it can takes to recover from the flu ? Big hugs to you
you'll have to google that. I'm not sure.
Thank you Angela god
Bless you
When you were having your period after how many days did you feel better ? Thank you Angela
usually 2-3 days after period ended
I've had optical migrains too. Was on klonipin+ zanax 15yrs, coldturkey 11mths now. Thanks for your video, I can relate. 💟😊🙏really proud of you too, very inspiring...
How are you feeling these days, i am still at the same situation, nothing has chnged, its like im stuck in this condition, i hope you are getting better.
Hahah! You read my mind. I just sat down to make an update. It will be posted within 30 minutes!
Wow! Good for you! College and now grad school going through this??? I can't imagine. What mental strength. Going through 9 months, cold turkey, as elderly, has another dimension. One thinks it could be permanent damage on the way to dementia...talk about intrusive thoughts. But not your problem. I'm following UA-cam Dan I see he has commented and yourself. You guys are "much" younger and feel for you to go through this young.
Does the VA do anything for you, do they help? The VA thing makes me mad, I have seen this for too long...VN era. Not a vet, but many friends that went and got screwed. Do young vets think Trump can help? Or just more talk?
The VA did this to me. I no longer go to them for anything. They keep saying I have MS and conversion disorder and will not believe anything I say. So... yeah. No thanks! I have no opinion on Trump.
Did you look into Gotu Kola .. I completely understand how you feel..
I don't know what to do
I feel chills, cold feeling inside, mostly in the evenings, it doesn't go even by wearing more warm clothes.
Is it a symptom of benzo withdrawal? I quit them almost 5 months ago. My thyroid and other blood work is normal.
Yes if you get medically screened and they can’t find anything - usually it’s the drugs. I had the cold symptom too and I remember I was around your time off. I remember taking my temperature and it said 95.1 one time!!
@@AngiePeacockMSW ohh! 95.1 !, I will also check my temperature when I feel the chills and cold, I checked my B.P at that time, but it was ok.
You are always so helpful, thank you so much, my good wishes to you 🙏
Hello Angela
Did you feel during the period like
You are in acute withdrawal ?
Not quite that bad but close. When your progesterone goes down right before your period, this can cause the increase in symptoms. Just hold on. It won’t be like this forever.
Thank you Angela !
Can the exercises make you worse ? The other i webt to Walk 1 hour and when i came home after one hour i was feeling Terrible bad .
Your 2010 CBS News piece!!!
I'm scrolling through UA-cam recommended videos, and all of a sudden I noticed your picture and name on this "homeless vets" report. What's the probability of that?
You were a beautiful bride, and we could see a bit of your past life. You have been fighting this for a long time...some 6 years? You are still young and have time to healed.
BTW, I think we all change somewhat as we age. Talk to to most people at 40 yrs, they changed from 20 yrs old.
Do you feel like you are in a better place from that video in 2010?
I wish you continued success.
snakeriverwatch of course I do! I'm about to graduate college with a 3.95 gpa in about 75 days! I have a great apartment and am doing so much better the farther away I get from psychiatry!!! The meds made me so much worse and ruined my life for 13 years. I can't wait to get a job and never look back!
Please post a link to that here. Thank u
I just found your channel im sure you wont see this comment i quit cold turkey lorazepam almost 5 months ago and im always dizzy.. exactly how you describe it i was only on lorazepam for a little over a month .5 milligrams i hope this ends for me :/
Beata Pietras yes it will end for you don't worry!!! I had all the tests to make sure it wasn't something else and it's not for me. It's getting better now. Keep going!
Ang Peabody omg thank you so much for the reply! Today is so bad for me :( im swaying when im sitting i can barely make food for myself i feel so off and dizzy i keep thinking its an ear problem but ive been told so many times by my doctor your ears look fine its anxiety this dizziness has good days then bad days and something i dont have it at all and the end of march till now its horrible dizziness i feel like im losing hope but watching your videos all last night i have hope!
Beata Pietras dizziness is one of the most common symptoms of benzodiazepine withdrawal.
Christian Doe gosh :/ i really hope this ends soon its already 5 months without it and dizzy every day idk how to cope with it its so hard to live life because of this
Hi Beata I'm almost 5 months off too and feel like complete hell. I feel the dizziness too. My other symptoms are extreme head pressure, muscle pressure, pins and needles, night sweats, sugar cravings, easily irritable, and impatient. I also have intense fear for stupid things like scared to be alone at home but scared to socialize. I feel I'm doing much better than I was 5 months ago. We will get better. We got this!
What was the name of the person who created your diet?
Christine Anne Dr. Kelly Brogan, holistic psychiatrist. She's on UA-cam. Watch her video about ancestral psychiatry. That's the diet I am doing.
Ang Peabody Thanks!
Hi, did you have increased heart rate during your withdrawl?
danielle rollyson yes pretty much the whole time. I took a beta blocker for the first 7 months then came off. I get it now whenever I’m even a tiny bit nervous or anxious.
Hey you out there I can use some advice
I'm on my 25th day first three weeks were miserable , bad dreams , sweats, short of breath, extremely bad panic attacks, insomnia, but now I'm doing much better!! There is hope !!!!
ted g yay! Keep going! Sometimes you feel worse other times you feel better! Buckle your seatbelt!
What protocol helped the most?
Protocol for coming off meds or for diet or for healing?
@@AngiePeacockMSW diet. You seemed to be proactive in all areas.
Its ok to eat glutaminfree bread and cookies ?
yes but sugar made me worse. More fruit and veggies, less sugar is better.
I started watching you the day i got out of the hospital after being ct. 3rd ct. I am now 14 months and i am worse than ever. Going backwards. Never had a problem getting sleep thru this whole ordeal thankfully. And now all of a sudden i never sleep.and this rage is horrible its starting to scare me
Sleep waves are common. It's temporary! Don't give up hope, healing could be just around the corner.
Your videos gives me strength to pull myself through this terrible times.
Now I am 4 months one week off xanax.
Every day my symptoms are changing, new symptoms which were not there frightens me. If I starts watching some interesting things which I enjoyed last week, now after watching for 3- 4 minutes, I feel aggression mixed with a bilt of disgusting voilent feel, it's not like no joy or disinterest. Why I feel this way?
It’s just part of withdrawal to have the crazy symptoms up and down all over the place.
How are you doing wright now, i finished my 15 th month now, not ok yet.
S Ms what are your symptoms? I'm still sensitive to stress and vision and perceptual distortions but working out at the gym 3 times a week and feeling strong! I even socialized last week. Getting there!
The exact same symptoms you have, plus anxiety with little depression, still cant work out it brings me tons of anxiety
It did that to me too but I just kept going anyway. I couldn't even drive home from the gym without calling a friend to talk to me on the way home. I got worse for about 3 months but now I'm ok! Gotta push through some of that discomfort sometimes. Exercise can help sooo much that it's really important to grow new brain cells.
Ang Peabody ok what do you feel after work outs today, do you feel strong and enirgized, what about the fatique ??
No I don't feel strong. Yes I feel fatigue. NORMAL people feel like that. You've made it through acute. Now it's time to push through this discomfort and GET YOUR LIFE BACK!
Your such a strong woman thank you for your story….. I failed My battle wit Klonopin cuz Even after the highest dose now I’m on Xanax 2mg helps allot more but thank you for your stories reallyy help to hear it…. You’re sooo strong … I tried cold turkey before but couldn’t take it….. ❤ wishing the best for you
Tapering slowly is the better way to get off. My doctor did this to me so I didn’t really have a choice in the matter. If you haven’t tried a slow taper (like 10-18 month taper) then you haven’t tried to get off properly and safely.
Lol i had mt neck fused dec and this nightmare stared march n still suffereing
Dealing with a brain injuru n acdf it ruined my life
man I feel the same way now and I'm just not going to come off benzo, I feel that way taking them chest and back tightness I always think way into things, I feel like something is wrong with my spine lol but I know it's nothing I just can't get over the tension headaches but your not alone on feeling this way I have a LOT of your symptoms and I haven't came off them but a week now been on clonasapam for near 8 yrs
Any recent update
Any new update
It's only been a month. Not a whole lot to report. I will probably wait a few months before I post the next one. The brain takes a long time to heal! Where are you in this process?
I am at 14th, still struggling with anxiety and fatique, no emotions yet, but overall a lot better, especially with the palio diet. Sleep is ok, but when i work out i get the symptoms back, I really miss working out, i cry sometimes because of that, it gives me the feeling that I am disabled.
I just started working out and I do feel a little worse for a while but then it subsides. Each time I work out it gets a little easier. You'll get there I promise!!!
Are you sure, will give it a try and let you know😘
How you doing now....you were able to sleep . Dam...
This one is louder then 8 month update tho
Did you have akathesia?
yes but I didn't pace. I had the inner akathesia. Constant adrenaline and feeling like I needed to run marathons and pull my skin off. It lasted 6 months. That's why no one recommends cold turkey.
Healingfrom Benzos Angela is this like inner tremors or is it different?
Ive been on ativan 6 months...also polydrugged...Id like to cold turkey...i dont think i could handle it...currently trying to crossover to valium for ashton. Are you on benzo buddies? I like to read progress blogs on there for reassurance. also wondered if youd tried any antagonists to upregulate gaba receptors that didnt aggro w/d symptoms maybe? are you still exercise intolerant at this point? Hope your starting to mend. thanks for serving our country. seems unfair that some of the people you served to protect got you hooked on these meds. btw i dont trust doctors anymore. Thanks for posting videos : )
How was your period under Withdrawal and how was your hormons ? Thank you Angela !
about 7-10 days before period, I would get really violent thoughts, fear, intrusive thoughts, pain, things like that. All would get worse. That lasted about 2 years slowly getting less and less scary. Now I barely have any pain at all.
Sometimes before
The period one week i Can get little bit aggressive and I
Just wanted to eat sweet things like chocolate and donnas . And I have pain too in my body and sometimes panic attacks not all the time I’m 5 months off now . Thank you Angela and you are my inspiration .
Did you get sometimes like aggressive with the period ? Many hugs to you god bless you my friend !
@@vaneramirez5235 yes i had all that. It was very scary and I would talk to friends about it and that helped so much. It's al gone now. Just a part of this journey.
did you ever have sleep anxiety?
yes x 100000/ I also thought I would wake up in the middle of the night and kill myself. It all goes away don't worry. Try doing guided meditations from youtube. THose helped me so much.
Hey sweetie I love ya.. it's hard to hear your videos well
So happy you made it this far. I'm at 4.5 months cold turkey off Klonopin.
@@lauraarnold9256 I'm 3.25 years off now. See updated videos.
Hi, contact me ,I really would like to talk to you.your story touched my heart,my soul. Anyway,keep moving forward,and truly I would love to talk to you.
Sincerely,
Paul
Never wind up getting off benzodiazepines in a hospital was taken off in 3 weeks and court ordered on antipsychotic it was awful. Lost my home...
❤
You have the danm determination to get the fuck off it .it's not exactly like heroin but it's not easy either I know how gross it is so much yuks and the feeling that you can't get in the shower and eating is gross too and you can't sleep at all for weeks and heroin withdrawal is the worst fucking gross thing ever you could never find a comfortable way to sit or sleep at all so for me I had serious anxiety attacks and I was thinking about how I could die and I was going on so much more anxiety when in my mind I would think about this drowned in a crevasse and it swallowed me and the dirt just engulfed me that is what makes me so crazy cause it can't stop the anxiety is so bad when I was thinking about it
they put me on more drugs...no. YOU let them put you on more drugs
Yeah it's the most incredible thing that you can go through I am lucky enough that my doctor only prescribed me seroquel and escitalopram and amlodipine for my heart blood pressure and it's all without benzodiazepines I have anxiety really bad but escitalopram has helped me a lot I think it's time for you to try it escitalopram
no thank you.
✌️❤️🤗
Got put in a facility! Trying to get back home in some way
Boooring
Any recent update
S Ms you ask for updates a LOT! You should make videos too!
Ang Peabody, sadly I don't know how
My aim is to make one on the two years mark, i dont like short vidios,