Ex Transgender Woman interview-Jake

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  • Опубліковано 7 вер 2024
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Jake, a former transgender woman in Chicago, Illinois.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 22 тис.

  • @SoftWhiteUnderbelly
    @SoftWhiteUnderbelly  Рік тому +13584

    Tragically, Jake passed away from a drug overdose on January 5.

  • @judeesee894
    @judeesee894 2 роки тому +26042

    “Pedophiles exist, a lot of times they get treated better than their victims.” True statement…I’m so sorry this happened to you Jake.

    • @PvT023
      @PvT023 2 роки тому +1

      I suspect that (sometimes) the pedophiles get treated better than the victims because the cops that dispense said treatment are, at times, sadistic pedophiles as well. They despise the victims, and honestly empathize with the victimizers.

    • @09artgirl
      @09artgirl 2 роки тому

      Sometimes I think it's because so many of the judges and politicians and religious leaders are pedophiles too. WHY are there so many pedophiles in the world?

    • @botseyfern
      @botseyfern 2 роки тому +74

      I can't believe there's only 2 replays to this guy's story,,I have to say FAIR PLAY TO HIM GIVING THE STORY AS HE SEE,S IT,,

    • @lawrence1986ify
      @lawrence1986ify 2 роки тому +117

      At the end of the day, judges will only do so much. Normally, most states follow the three-strike law. Three crimes, three different victims. And it's never a guarantee either. You have to have proof. If one key aspect is off and someone proves it isn't true, those sentences just got cut in half or a third. At the end of the day, you cannot do much if you don't have a solid ass case. Furthermore, all of these heinous sex offender laws are changing in the states, and they can now be on school property. They can now be in parks, play grounds, everything. Just look up your state's laws. Trust me, it's bullshit. The government had to change it because it was becoming a constitutional right. They simply forced themselves into a corner until someone started to lean on them and made them change it. These are the same people that are supposed to help and protect you and your children. belave nothig

    • @happyface9000
      @happyface9000 2 роки тому +32

      @@lawrence1986ify Now the proof can be a behavioral study from the victim by psychologist

  • @MYEVILTWIIN
    @MYEVILTWIIN 2 роки тому +5188

    Kudos to his ex boyfriend for realising that their relationship should stop and being there for him as a friend and not walking away from him when he needed someone to talk to

    • @graciecat1918
      @graciecat1918 2 роки тому +139

      This. What an amazing human.

    • @ladymopar2024
      @ladymopar2024 2 роки тому +47

      Wow what a great man he ran into I wonder what his life would have been like if he hadn't gone out with this guy that friend of yours must be your guardian angel I'm so glad you guys found each other

    • @violetdusk1968
      @violetdusk1968 2 роки тому +98

      People with gender dysphoria need a strong support system, Jake was lucky to have found one. I hope more people like Jake can find strong support to help them before they commit suicide.

    • @serenlovelady1332
      @serenlovelady1332 2 роки тому +7

      So was he a girl previously??

    • @celinamilian
      @celinamilian 2 роки тому +18

      @@graciecat1918 "amazing human", I am tired of these fake comments. Yikes

  • @Aethelvlad
    @Aethelvlad 2 роки тому +4339

    This video quickly went from "ex transgender woman" to a philosophical conversation on how to handle and overcome childhood trauma. The title of this video does not do Jakes story justice, and it doesn't accurately represent what he has to offer all of us intellectually. I wasn't even going to watch this video but I'm glad I did.

    • @miraclesforus2
      @miraclesforus2 2 роки тому +147

      Absolutely correct.

    • @brandialexander847
      @brandialexander847 2 роки тому +72

      I totally agree!!!

    • @hollymiranda0826
      @hollymiranda0826 2 роки тому +51

      So well said!!!!

    • @krzykris
      @krzykris 2 роки тому +167

      As a father, I cannot possibly understand how someone would do this to their own child. I would trade my life for that of any of my children in an instant. This makes me angry beyond words.

    • @tarynmunger8868
      @tarynmunger8868 2 роки тому +78

      Yep! Said it perfectly. This video should be retitled.

  • @danielleseymour3505
    @danielleseymour3505 9 місяців тому +333

    He says he's not intellectual, I disagee. He may not be "educated" but he has deep critical thinking. Naturally intellectual. Super smart. I'm so sorry to hear he passed.

    • @jentealwaves
      @jentealwaves 3 місяці тому +8

      "Education does not warrant knowledge" is one of favorite quotes ever. I use it all the time.❤

    • @danielleseymour3505
      @danielleseymour3505 2 місяці тому +3

      @jentealwaves So true. I dropped out of university, and only recently stopped judging myself as "uneducated". I'm a voracious reader, and I continually surprise people with my depth of analysis. I need to respect my "self-education" more.

    • @SuperTomarnocuyoutub
      @SuperTomarnocuyoutub 2 місяці тому +2

      What happened to him?

    • @TheGoodLife-r9z
      @TheGoodLife-r9z Місяць тому +3

      @@SuperTomarnocuyoutub he. died :( he od'd

    • @SusanKelly-zl6yy
      @SusanKelly-zl6yy Місяць тому +4

      Oh nooooo he did??? What a shame. He had so much to give. He was so self aware 😢

  • @mattiaswisemann7266
    @mattiaswisemann7266 2 роки тому +10763

    The way he describes his abuse, it’s one of the darkest and most difficult things I’ve ever heard.

    • @maepicnic2460
      @maepicnic2460 2 роки тому

      Tbh thats why when the news glosses over child abuse and finding child sex rings and kids in cages…it’s not some conspiracy or political agenda…it’s the devil’s domain. Now I will say for a practical peace of mind…I’ve had my knees dislocated three times…nightmares about my son being r worded by some I won’t name. Spiritual and physical attacks by demons are real…but God gives us all different thresholds and limits and that’s where faith really comes in…as bad as it sounds…there is mercy in moments. I promise you. The disturbing agony I’ve felt I am still here and so is he…innocent suffering exists and we shall never deny this and never just listen but shall act on what we know and prevent our future children from coming across certain personalities.

    • @marifortanelli6505
      @marifortanelli6505 2 роки тому +86

      Same. I agree.

    • @pincrlgrl64
      @pincrlgrl64 2 роки тому +348

      Yeah. Why is his father not in prison?

    • @Ye_Old_Floyd_Junkie
      @Ye_Old_Floyd_Junkie 2 роки тому

      @@kelseypizur7087 yeah, bc the entirety of UA-cam will see your comment and somehow agree with you with no proof.
      Piss off.

    • @ZeroGHome24
      @ZeroGHome24 2 роки тому +6

      @@kelseypizur7087 why say it on someone else's post?

  • @Solitude1990
    @Solitude1990 2 роки тому +4354

    The moment he said his dad played back his recording of him getting raped back to him as “punishment”, I understood how truly evil his father was. My father did the same thing to me, but with my crying whenever he beat the shit outta me; and I thought THAT was bad. I cannot fucking fathom how this guy is still alive and has somehow managed to procreate and try to get his life on track. The fucking strength it takes…

    • @cookiemonster123987
      @cookiemonster123987 2 роки тому +197

      I understand, my dad used to record videos of him yelling and screaming at me while I was crying, and then he would think it was funny to show my friends anytime they came over.

    • @FatherDingo
      @FatherDingo 2 роки тому +179

      What tf guys... That is so toxic.

    • @yamoto1833
      @yamoto1833 2 роки тому +47

      @@cookiemonster123987 please ask help 🥺 NOW!

    • @yamoto1833
      @yamoto1833 2 роки тому +43

      this not normal ASK HELP PLEASE 🥺🥺😭

    • @JohnSmith-lk8cy
      @JohnSmith-lk8cy 2 роки тому

      Narcissists are the evil of the planet! We need to call them to account and expose them for the danger they are.

  • @alexisvrse
    @alexisvrse Рік тому +2759

    For him to say his childhood wasn’t awful because he wasn’t starving and he had a roof over his head despite the fact about everything that his dad did to him shows how much of a humble but damaged angel he was. Rip :(

  • @MarcioNovelli
    @MarcioNovelli 9 місяців тому +568

    Both parents should be in prison.

    • @EndZiiel
      @EndZiiel 4 місяці тому

      They are busy hiding behind religion like most religious people

    • @seeyouinthegarden
      @seeyouinthegarden 3 місяці тому +9

      Yes and amen

    • @courtney.malone
      @courtney.malone 2 місяці тому +17

      And his dad's buddies

    • @SagalDuran
      @SagalDuran 2 місяці тому +3

      Doesn't matter. Judgment Day will be far worse than jail. 😂 I find it amusing that people think that when they die they actually think they'll be free from accountability

    • @knowwankeno1de1witdelongna85
      @knowwankeno1de1witdelongna85 Місяць тому +2

      @@SagalDuranwtf r u on about? I’m beyond death, kneel!

  • @megavidaeos
    @megavidaeos 2 роки тому +2218

    In all of his horrific trauma, he still is able to mention the things he’s thankful for. What a tremendously inspirational human being.

    • @greenjupiter
      @greenjupiter Рік тому

      😢😢❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @hannahmclaren9672
      @hannahmclaren9672 Рік тому +2

      I can only hope I get to that place one day where I can still see the blessings.

    • @Fabio-1988
      @Fabio-1988 Рік тому +1

      Yes he is. His awesome!

    • @YouRemindMeOfTheBabe.
      @YouRemindMeOfTheBabe. Рік тому +6

      Absolutely! Americans are taught and encouraged to hold tight to their problems and blame everything on them. They never overcome them, they constantly tell the world about them, they blame being effortless and lazy on them, and claim to have lifetime PTSD on something 100% LESS horrible than what this poor guy went through.

    • @vidikat
      @vidikat Рік тому +1

      Agreed. 🥰

  • @JessicaLanear
    @JessicaLanear 2 роки тому +9767

    I’m not a lawyer but the statute of limitation for rape is not over. He can be brought to justice and should be.

    • @SessmaruKusanagiGaming
      @SessmaruKusanagiGaming 2 роки тому +1

      NEEDS to be.. Imagine how many other victims there are. I bet money he was selling s@dism CP as well!! That sick sh*t sells... Sadly...

    • @mrobb90
      @mrobb90 2 роки тому +1060

      @Michael Troina obvious huh? are you his dad by chance?

    • @terywetherlow7970
      @terywetherlow7970 2 роки тому +300

      Without treatment being able to excise the memory bank of the abuse, i feel there would be little, revenge, would "fix" for this. At least his dad owned it (in a very perverse, sadistic fashion imo). I was not even granted that by my step dad - guess mine is taking his lie to the grave. 50 years of the suffering i have endured won't go away. A trillion $'s could not repay what his crime cost me. Fact.

    • @terywetherlow7970
      @terywetherlow7970 2 роки тому +85

      This goal post keeps moving. Last i'd heard, legally suit would have to be filed within 7 years of recognition of abuse. Long past.....

    • @stevovimy
      @stevovimy 2 роки тому

      @Michael Troina Woke apologist. Cope and seethe you evil being.

  • @TheGuidedIntuitive
    @TheGuidedIntuitive 2 роки тому +4198

    I'm just speechless. No words for such horrible child abuse from such a evil father predator. What a strong, brave soul. The fact that he can talk about the abuse is a miracle yet a testimony to such personal growth. Bless him and his journey. He should be so proud of himself for such amazing progress. Seriously.

    • @Twinklez63
      @Twinklez63 2 роки тому +47

      Happens more than you know

    • @ghoulamvs4887
      @ghoulamvs4887 2 роки тому

      @@illreportbackinabit.8514 tell that to all the pedo priests the gop sucks the cock of

    • @ginafarrell6797
      @ginafarrell6797 2 роки тому +81

      Maybe his dad thinks he got away with it, but he will face Gods court one day. & "God does not allow the guilty to go unpunished".

    • @pia7120
      @pia7120 2 роки тому

      @@illreportbackinabit.8514 hi there, abusive parents can vote for any party actually and they are often christians too. You seem a bit brain washed, stop juding an entire group just because they dislike abortion or accept gay people or whatever you hate them for. Be a christian and love ur neighboor maybe.

    • @djabroni_brochacho4644
      @djabroni_brochacho4644 2 роки тому +25

      This is gonna be more common and accepted as humanity drifts from born again relationship in Christ to atheism, gay rights, abortion and debauchery we're seeing.

  • @kizpaws
    @kizpaws 4 місяці тому +46

    Jake said that his aim in life was to help other people, and in his own way, by being on this video, he has probably helped many who have dealt with similar issues in their lives.
    Such a well spoken, gentle soul, and tragically is gone now. RIP dear Jake, you suffer no more ♥

    • @Andrea-d6o
      @Andrea-d6o Місяць тому +1

      You helped me Jake. Gods got you now

  • @missmartinez5961
    @missmartinez5961 2 роки тому +2094

    After all the awful trauma he experienced, he still approached his dad about going to therapy together and his fear is to live with anger… what a beautiful human being. I’m so sorry you went through all this and hope you find healing.

    • @surfingbilly9654
      @surfingbilly9654 2 роки тому

      his dad does not need therapy, theres no cure or treatment for that level of evil, should be locked up for the rest of his life.

    • @carcasscruncher9354
      @carcasscruncher9354 Рік тому +4

      I couldn't have said it better MissMartinez. Thumb up it

    • @youthofyesterdayrecords
      @youthofyesterdayrecords Рік тому +48

      Therapy doesn't work of narcissistic psychopaths, and that's probably what his father is. It was sad hearing Jake try to think up a reason that any person with any semblance of humanity would do such horrific acts.

    • @louern123
      @louern123 Рік тому +1

      ❤️🙏🏻

    • @Flugs0
      @Flugs0 Рік тому +9

      you can tell he really wants to reconcile with his dad, but i dont think it will ever happen, as sad as it is

  • @emmadownunder3833
    @emmadownunder3833 2 роки тому +1653

    The abuse he suffered is one of the most sinister and vile things I’ve ever heard. I will never forget this young man. I sincerely hope he finds inner peace and sanctuary.

    • @Yvonne_ozlife
      @Yvonne_ozlife 2 роки тому

      The horrifying reality is this sort of abuse happens to many kids, especially in satanic ritualistic abuse pedo rings. Furthermore, once the child is suitably terrified they are murdered for their u know what.

    • @1Katula
      @1Katula 2 роки тому +25

      He is well on his way. He was going down the road to cutting off his body parts but he sounds like he is recovering.

    • @Sunflo07H
      @Sunflo07H 2 роки тому +16

      I'm just heartbroken

    • @sugakent4052
      @sugakent4052 2 роки тому

      Problem lays with weak soft system.
      Run by weak perverse people.
      Did you know....Muslim paedophiles and rapists are actually castrated in the street for all to watch. Fact!
      Yet America gives offenders a site all of there own with everything provided?? 🤔🤨😠

    • @josue679
      @josue679 2 роки тому +27

      i dont think it is rare, people have to keep an eye on their kids.

  • @christas2863
    @christas2863 Рік тому +1143

    The amount of children who are abused sexually in this world is mindblowing. As a new therapist, almost every person I see has this trauma in their past. It destroys life. Pure evil. Demons live among us.

    • @DeidresStuff
      @DeidresStuff Рік тому

      It goes against evolutionary instincts. We're supposed to be programmed to protect the next generation. Literal, supernatural evil may very well be the only explanation. If someone did this to my son, they wouldn't do it to anyone else. It's not a sin to kill the devil.

    • @MarMore13
      @MarMore13 Рік тому +6

      So sad!!

    • @nikkipeoples7021
      @nikkipeoples7021 Рік тому +32

      Yes. I'm an acupuncturist, and when I was in my clinical residency every single one of my patients had been abused and/or raped. It was a real eye opener. I've been in practice for well over a decade, and some of the stories I've heard are simply heart-wrenching.

    • @iris_b
      @iris_b Рік тому +20

      Terrible. What is wrong with people. How can one do this to a child 😢

    • @wolfsmiles163
      @wolfsmiles163 Рік тому +14

      One of the most incredible women I’ve ever met in my life was raped by her father and same happened to her sister. It blows my mind and makes me unable to comprehend life whenever I think about it. She’s one of the strongest, most passionate people I’ve ever met and a role model for me. She felt like an older sister who looked out for me while we were working together.

  • @cameronclare5084
    @cameronclare5084 8 місяців тому +173

    Almost cried at this. How could anyone be so evil to a little child.

    • @imafrog6179
      @imafrog6179 Місяць тому +3

      Absolutely scary how fucking brutal and cruel people can be to each other, especially to kids and their OWN children.

  • @NK-bz9wb
    @NK-bz9wb Рік тому +2193

    Heartbreaking to finish the interview only to find out Jake lost the battle to his demons. His courage and strength was beyond words. Rest peacefully, Jake.

    • @DenaMcKitrick
      @DenaMcKitrick Рік тому +6

      Where did you get this information from?

    • @BaldyFade
      @BaldyFade Рік тому +12

      @@DenaMcKitrick mark posted an update in the comments.

    • @DenaMcKitrick
      @DenaMcKitrick Рік тому +3

      @@BaldyFade Thank you.

    • @thefc3671
      @thefc3671 Рік тому +7

      What about a proper burial? Any more information about the circumstances of Jake's passing?

    • @ismth
      @ismth Рік тому +7

      @@thefc3671 just the pinned comment saying it was due to a drug overdose on Jan. 5.

  • @rikidik5352
    @rikidik5352 2 роки тому +2708

    I was sexualy abused at around age 12 but couldn't tell anyone because it was my sister's
    husband... if I had of told my dad he would have killed him and my sister would have literally DIED.
    Long story short, this is the first time this has ever came out of my mouth/written so this guy made me say it, and it's very liberating so Thank you Jake....
    The guy is dead now and I'm not sorry !!

    • @Baked502
      @Baked502 2 роки тому +51

      So, the abuser is dead now?

    • @johnvoit9629
      @johnvoit9629 2 роки тому +52

      @@Baked502 yes

    • @elainekelly3579
      @elainekelly3579 2 роки тому +101

      Let the healing come. 💜

    • @kandik7641
      @kandik7641 2 роки тому +41

      So strong of you to speak of it. How are you feeling since you've written it down?

    • @RabidDisposition
      @RabidDisposition 2 роки тому +139

      It's so sad to see how warped abused kids are. You refused to tell your dad, because he would have rightfully killed the abuser? I understand that you were a child, completely incapable of being logical, but that's just so backwards. I'm gonna teach my daughter that child abusers have no right to life, and no one's "feelings" matter more than her safety and security.
      I'm so sorry your parents failed you.

  • @zippermonster9596
    @zippermonster9596 2 роки тому +2554

    He exudes a tender masculinity. Intelligence. Interesting character. Thankful his trauma didn't ruin him completely. He is the type of person to teach society what his type of experiences can be. He is articulate and not in denial. He deserves to be listened to, so we can understand stuff like this. Make the rest of us ready to accept the things we may not understand.

    • @Jepse89
      @Jepse89 2 роки тому +38

      Great comment and very truthful.
      It’s comforting in a way to see people like Jake that didnt let stuff he has been through ruin them completely.

    • @yellowlight6002
      @yellowlight6002 2 роки тому +24

      I couldn't have said it better. Incredible person. Deserves to be heard. What a gem. I only wish him the best in this life. What a beautiful human; I am so grateful to have heard his story. I will revisit this interview time and time again because he is such a treasure.

    • @kylejnicholson
      @kylejnicholson 2 роки тому +20

      Why is it significant for you to refer to his tenderness as masculine tho...?

    • @elizabethgrogan8553
      @elizabethgrogan8553 2 роки тому +108

      @@kylejnicholson Because many men don't show tenderness. I think they may see it as a weakness. Boys are often taught to be strong and tough. I find that sad. I've heard it said that many fundamental or reformed religions teach that boys should be taught to be tough, to prevent them from "turning gay". Crazy.

    • @cathykelly5828
      @cathykelly5828 2 роки тому +1

      @@kylejnicholson my guess your an avid t.v. "c.n.n."🤓🤔watcher 😬😆 why do people feel as they have got to "anyalize shit!?! Why cant. People just say what they feel with out others trying to "make something out of it !?!""" WELCOME FOLKS TO "WOKE SOCIETY!!"😖🤪

  • @jnd5706
    @jnd5706 5 місяців тому +122

    I really wish I could go back in time and give baby Jake a hug and take him away from those awful people. This is heartbreaking.

  • @ShariUlrichHere
    @ShariUlrichHere 11 місяців тому +1672

    Incomprehensibly tragic. The fact that his father was never held accountable is unforgivable and wrong beyond words. What a beautiful soul you were Jake, I'm so sorry....

    • @sarahalbers5555
      @sarahalbers5555 9 місяців тому +15

      His mom didn't catch on to this? Hard to understand.

    • @ciobalina7445
      @ciobalina7445 8 місяців тому +21

      ​@@sarahalbers5555 I think she was in on it too.

    • @user-dc9oq2pr6v
      @user-dc9oq2pr6v 7 місяців тому +2

      @@ciobalina7445 wait what happened

    • @wesnaw3606
      @wesnaw3606 7 місяців тому +11

      judgement day will be his worst nightmare

    • @imbroken3860
      @imbroken3860 7 місяців тому +15

      My dad was never held accountable either. Thank God he is dead I finally feel free of being uncomfortable for the first time in my entire life. My mom knew but she just let him back into the home. So it is what it is. It's not my problem anymore it's theirs. I did nothing wrong. It was them that did wrong. They hopefully will have to deal with that. Me and Jake are just alike. Him and I had a very similar childhood. I had the best of everything but was being messed with my entire life till I moved out.

  • @dagmarbeeke6163
    @dagmarbeeke6163 2 роки тому +1732

    Talks about his abuse quite emotionless, but when he spoke about his brother he broke. Shows how the mind stores trauma beyond repair differently.

    • @IARRCSim
      @IARRCSim 2 роки тому +94

      It could be that he thought about his past far more often until it stopped making him very emotional. It is a bit like accepting a close person died. Eventually you accept it and stop crying. Maybe he just didn't think about his brother often enough yet to get over his death.
      I doubt it is that he cared more about his brother than himself or that he'll always cry over the death of his brother.

    • @dagmarbeeke6163
      @dagmarbeeke6163 2 роки тому +32

      @@IARRCSim I see what you mean. Knowing myself and my mother having cptsd (nowhere NEAR what this man has gone through) I noticed some similarities in his reaction and behaviour. It seems like some parts of his memories are "dead", yet not forgotten.

    • @annaj-ek
      @annaj-ek 2 роки тому +51

      Crying IS NOT breaking. I hate how that word is used in American English 😕

    • @dagmarbeeke6163
      @dagmarbeeke6163 2 роки тому +16

      @@annaj-ek I'm not a native English speaker, so I'm sorry if I offended you by using a word the wrong way.

    • @annaj-ek
      @annaj-ek 2 роки тому +24

      @@dagmarbeeke6163 No worries, thanks for explaining. It just makes me angry how language pathologists natural human responses. Not your fault. All the best

  • @jamieangel3766
    @jamieangel3766 2 роки тому +1948

    This guy is stronger than anyone I've ever known, what a pure soul. I wish he didn't have to go through that as a child

    • @kyle35_36
      @kyle35_36 2 роки тому +7

      me too.......mee too

    • @halleyvincent7296
      @halleyvincent7296 2 роки тому +7

      This was my thought too. But then my second thought scared me because an awful lot of the strong people that I know I’ve had to put up with more than their fair share and the strength is like a suit of armor. The clothing they put on every day. Sometimes the strongest people in the room are the ones that are the most fragile but they don’t want to alarm everyone.

    • @BraveNewWorld8101
      @BraveNewWorld8101 Рік тому +5

      @@halleyvincent7296 Calm seas forge no sailors.

    • @relly793
      @relly793 Рік тому +1

      strength is not in taking losses

    • @jamieangel3766
      @jamieangel3766 Рік тому +14

      @@relly793 It's in surviving losses, and still being a decent person, which this guy radiates

  • @atuvera9021
    @atuvera9021 9 місяців тому +144

    i come here every now and then because Jake felt like this genuine guy that i wish i could have as a friend. Its incredibly sad that he passed away, he seemed like he truly wanted to do great things for others, he exuded so much kindness.
    i know i never met him but i was extremely touched by his story.
    Rest in peace man, i hope wherever you are that you are finally sleeping without nightmares.

    • @jules6192
      @jules6192 3 місяці тому

      wait, what happened to jake???❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

  • @112alexia
    @112alexia 2 роки тому +733

    Shout out to that family that took care of him when he was a teen. Such a sweet selfless thing to do. Made him feel like he was welcome and called him son 😢 so sweet.

    • @Twinklez63
      @Twinklez63 2 роки тому +8

      They saved him.

    • @chrisbauman2562
      @chrisbauman2562 2 роки тому +1

      She

    • @Geohovahs_Hand
      @Geohovahs_Hand 2 роки тому +10

      @@chrisbauman2562 Read the title again. "Ex Transgender Woman"

    • @chrisbauman2562
      @chrisbauman2562 2 роки тому

      @@Geohovahs_Hand hahahaha call it a man all you want but that's a girl. Her pssy doesn't lie,neither does her feminine bone structure and weak frail arms

    • @chrisbauman2562
      @chrisbauman2562 2 роки тому

      @@Geohovahs_Hand delusional but jobs

  • @victoryredcolorado
    @victoryredcolorado 2 роки тому +5898

    Very intelligent and articulate. Again all the negative traits start with the parenting. Imagine this young man with a proper childhood. Hopefully he can get proper help going forward 🙏

    • @christinerobinson890
      @christinerobinson890 2 роки тому +79

      He’s so intelligent and articulate.

    • @ChunkyJo
      @ChunkyJo 2 роки тому +91

      His pacing and tone of his voice is very engaging as well. He has a natural presence on camera. This man is very similar to myself in that we both took ourselves to the edge with hard drugs and were able to realize we were legitimately going to die. I hope to hear more from him in the future.

    • @christianreactions5787
      @christianreactions5787 2 роки тому +62

      He's an inspiration though for having survived what he did and have the willpower to stay off drugs and not take doctor's dope. The way these people come into the world is horrible, but they do shine a light for others who want out as well.

    • @alaskansummertime
      @alaskansummertime 2 роки тому +42

      I think that a lot. I went to the National Chess tournament when I was a small child. People thought I was a real prodigy. Now at 50 my life is a complete wreck. I'm recovering but its still a wreck. If I had just had one adult at any time in my life that could have given me a little boost or some guidance instead of being a deeply traumatized person trying to figure out life completely alone.

    • @robertj.8859
      @robertj.8859 2 роки тому +1

      proper no.12, irish whiskey - one for all

  • @JK-lu1dg
    @JK-lu1dg 2 роки тому +999

    He's probably the strongest, wisest person I've ever heard on one of these interviews. To be able to cope with his experiences and talk about them so rationally. The only time he showed tears of sadness throughout this interview was for someone else, for his brother, not for himself. Respect due.

    • @ausetsekhmet1900
      @ausetsekhmet1900 2 роки тому +13

      He’s better than me for sure. I would be so bitter and hateful. I am now and my abuse was nothing in comparison. Without minimizing my pain, I can identify that he went through worse and came out better. Much respect and love to Jake indeed 🫡✌🏽💚

    • @Diamoondust
      @Diamoondust 2 роки тому +12

      its not a sign of weakness to show emotion and cry when recalling traumatic events. He is still very strong and I applaud him and hope the best for him and his life.

    • @JK-lu1dg
      @JK-lu1dg 2 роки тому +10

      @@Diamoondust That was not my point. I wasn't connecting strength with repressing emotions. My point about his emotions was about selflessness and who he was crying for, i.e. not for himself and for someone else.

    • @Diamoondust
      @Diamoondust 2 роки тому +1

      @@JK-lu1dg I agree, I just wanted to point it out due to the way you stated it. :)

    • @maggiebeirne5767
      @maggiebeirne5767 2 роки тому +7

      Absolutely agree he is a remarkable person to even have compassion after all the horror in his life

  • @justme17814
    @justme17814 8 місяців тому +45

    Jake, I'm so sorry. You've been through so much.
    Rest in peace, beautiful angel.
    If I could I would like to give you a hug for an hour.
    Angels are hugging you now.

  • @cherylsalmon8429
    @cherylsalmon8429 2 роки тому +541

    "I don't want to live the rest of my life as a hateful person". What a truly astonishing ambition, Jake, considering what you experienced. Having worked with many damaged children during my career, you can be truly proud of the man you have become, how you have grown in spite of your past, and of your determination to not be held back by your terrible experiences. I salute you.

  • @nannybean8134
    @nannybean8134 2 роки тому +2446

    Jake, you CAN and SHOULD "work" counseling others. You are SO empathetic, compassionate, intelligent and well-read. I am in awe that you are who you are in spite of what's happened to you. Peace and love to you, sweet Jake.

    • @jojobee42
      @jojobee42 2 роки тому +63

      Maybe first work on himself more before starting to work others. But yeah as a future goal. :)

    • @spiritmatter1553
      @spiritmatter1553 2 роки тому +9

      You need licensing to be a counselor.

    • @jadent33
      @jadent33 2 роки тому +31

      I think he’s already counseling people.

    • @donjulio4671
      @donjulio4671 2 роки тому

      One thing I’ve noticed about a lot of ppl who are homosexual or sex workers usually have background of being sexually abused. They turn to this to gain there power back.

    • @SharonBenson2674
      @SharonBenson2674 2 роки тому +8

      @@spiritmatter1553 well if he is interested he could work on getting it.

  • @kristenpro8045
    @kristenpro8045 2 роки тому +842

    I am teared up, the fact that he’s become so wholesome instead of becoming what destroyed him gives me faith in the world. He deserves the best 🥺

    • @theCosmicQueen
      @theCosmicQueen 2 роки тому +5

      Faith in Good, faith in humanity. but it's the World that does evil.

    • @samanthab6642
      @samanthab6642 2 роки тому

      Faith in his strength and resilience.

    • @suncoasthoast9479
      @suncoasthoast9479 2 роки тому +1

      *she

    • @burdy5640
      @burdy5640 2 роки тому +1

      @@suncoasthoast9479 arent they ex transgender

    • @burdy5640
      @burdy5640 2 роки тому +1

      @@suncoasthoast9479 its a he

  • @froandcara
    @froandcara 8 місяців тому +30

    Just realized he got his wings. He was my favorite interview last year. Sweet Jake. I cannot fathom how this gets processed for these tiny children. 😢 This is the hardest darkness to understand in our humanity. Wish we could hear from Jake in heaven and how he’s doing now. Prayers to us all.

  • @joshuamilbecka
    @joshuamilbecka 2 роки тому +598

    I'm a sexual assault crisis worker, that basically means I work with the police and support sexual assault victims/survivors during medical examinations and police processes. I've heard hundreds of stories relating to sexual violence but I couldn't finish this video. No other SWU video or even client story I've heard has impacted me like this one. I am so heartbroken for this person. He deserved better. Strength beyond measure.

    • @5150psychtech
      @5150psychtech 2 роки тому +54

      Thank you for advocating for victims. I’d highly recommend therapy while you explore that job. I work with sexually violent predators and hearing the stories first hand is emotionally draining. You will become numb. Protect your heart.

    • @ar-sithf.austin3744
      @ar-sithf.austin3744 2 роки тому

      There's a guy who did a video about child trafficking rings in Europe and what they do because he interviewed the women who birth these children and the man of one that buys and sells and them and how and they are born, raised, bought and sold them used up and sold for "parts" by 4 or 5. The guy who made the video was incredibly strong and brave and it was so disgusting it made me sick to my stomach several times. It was the most heinous things I've ever heard human beings do to innocent kids who will never know anything other than horror until they wake up one day in heaven with the Lord after enduring purely satanic, EVIL, just pure evil things. Man. I worked in law enforcement and saw and heard horrible things but this shit was just..... The stuff you're hearing hear isn't even close but up there. God it makes me sick to hear this terrible shit when I know innocents continue to be hurt daily, I wish I could crush them all under the feet of of God's vengeance...

    • @ar-sithf.austin3744
      @ar-sithf.austin3744 2 роки тому +12

      Thank you ladies for doing what you do. I've had family members experience the more minor side of this stuff and just that angered me as a young man when I found out and I was armed by age 11 and had guns in my possession and if I'd known what had gone on with my immediate family I'd probably wi*** out an entire family and thought nothing of it as I grew up in a military family and with law enforcement and a strong sense of black and white justice for these sort of people and it took years and a lot of school and personal experience with knowing some individuals to change my way of thinking to certain degrees... But still, the lack of complete justice just angers me to a point of knowing that some things people do can never be forgiven or undone and never punished enough on this side of life.

    • @paccarcrap
      @paccarcrap 2 роки тому +11

      I couldn't either, sooo disturbing and sad..How could you do such demonic things to your own toddler/kindergartner.

    • @mapschon3018
      @mapschon3018 2 роки тому +8

      The ending is much better, he talks about how is doing now & what he’s doing to stay clean. It’s nothing like the beginning or even middle of his interview which is absolutely heartbreaking
      Also Thank You for your work 🙏🏼

  • @dandelionveins
    @dandelionveins 2 роки тому +399

    "I'm afraid of living my life as a hateful person." We're so fortunate to have seen/heard you speak, Jake. Thank you for showing that the path to healing and recovering is treacherous but absolutely possible. My heart goes out to yours, with wishes of health, growth, and little things that make you smile.
    Thank you Mark, for doing the work that you do.

  • @wilhelmroentgen5373
    @wilhelmroentgen5373 Рік тому +1068

    I'm a 50 year old father, husband and war veteran and this made me cry. Jake you are a bright light in a dark world. Thank you for your bravery.

    • @AmnBell3
      @AmnBell3 Рік тому +23

      Describes Jake beautifully "bright light in a dark world " ❤️ what an inspiration

    • @train_go_boom2065
      @train_go_boom2065 Рік тому +6

      Thank you for your service sir

    • @pyromelonz9020
      @pyromelonz9020 Рік тому +1

      I agree, but is your name actually Wilhelm Roentgen? That's really cool!

    • @ally7deto192
      @ally7deto192 Рік тому +10

      @wilhelmroentgen beautiful said💙 Unfortunately I just was reading some other comments and they stated that this sweet soul passed away a few weeks ago😢 Jake deserved so much more. This just breaks my heart.

    • @rileysmall4317
      @rileysmall4317 Рік тому +4

      jakes dead now apparently.

  • @Ihfmpw8
    @Ihfmpw8 20 днів тому +6

    Jake is now in a wonderful place now,He is loved,and healed,and has no memory of the hell he endured on earth. Much love Jake xx

  • @ira6133
    @ira6133 Рік тому +638

    He did not shed a tear talking about horrible things he's been through but when he mentioned his brother he couldn't hold it back. Amazing soul.

    • @hamtaromachina
      @hamtaromachina Рік тому +36

      The trauma is too deep he can't cry for it. It's not great

    • @XtineJohnes
      @XtineJohnes Рік тому +15

      Too much selflessness isn't good. I'm hoping he can get to the place where he can grieve and metabolize his wounds.

    • @raynarks
      @raynarks Рік тому +9

      Witnessing your siblings being abused that hurts the most. Then you grow up & people realise there’s something wrong with you and they think it’s funny to mock & abuse you. I f***ing hate people.

    • @carlosgaston3985
      @carlosgaston3985 Рік тому +8

      @@XtineJohnes those types of wounds never get heal completly, sometimes it is good to separate yourself from the scars and memorys that those episodes generate in you. I wasnt hurt as bad as him but ive got trough some abusive things and i can relate to the vivid terror dreams and not wanting them but knowing that they will be there. Grief dosnt end, and in his case is much worse.

    • @suefleming
      @suefleming Рік тому

      @@raynarks I fucking hate people too.

  • @Vilaplatano
    @Vilaplatano 10 місяців тому +1846

    went to high school with Jake. He was a really really good guy. He was always friendly which is amazing given his upbringing. RIP Jake and RIP Steve who was mentioned at 24:40. Two amazing people that went too soon.

    • @odeod
      @odeod 10 місяців тому +43

      Thankyou for sharing

    • @zorga0001
      @zorga0001 10 місяців тому +52

      Wow, he was a beautiful soul. I am devastated.

    • @lindabaker9501
      @lindabaker9501 9 місяців тому +24

      Heartbreaking
      RIP dear soul

    • @foolsfolly3476
      @foolsfolly3476 9 місяців тому +14

      Can you tell us what his father did for a living?

    • @Lenasevilla-yb4ei
      @Lenasevilla-yb4ei 9 місяців тому +1

      @@foolsfolly3476no🙄 uggh

  • @BunnyGxre
    @BunnyGxre 2 роки тому +821

    The fact that he can talk about all he’s been through so calmly is truly amazing. I’ve gone through 1000x less and choke up in tears thinking about it, the fact he can have a clear and consistent discussion about it speaks so much. Awesome person.

    • @johannaengland79
      @johannaengland79 2 роки тому +74

      It's protective. Those of us with severe childhood trauma usually either avoid talking about it at all, or talk about it like this. The events and associated feelings have been compartmentalized for our sanity. It's actually really sad to see and hear people describing their abuse this way because it means it was so severe, they have necessarily disassociated from it.

    • @Katethebush00
      @Katethebush00 2 роки тому +29

      That is a trauma response actually…

    • @scottfay3553
      @scottfay3553 2 роки тому +1

      im not 8uying any of this. He's lying

    • @ThePathOfLeastResistanc
      @ThePathOfLeastResistanc 2 роки тому +8

      It’s called disassociated

    • @msdemeanour
      @msdemeanour 2 роки тому +2

      This would have taken years of therapy.

  • @ToniaMoore-hm6el
    @ToniaMoore-hm6el 8 місяців тому +15

    You're helping me now, and you dont even know it.. Thank you very much. No one deserves what you went through. I'm 51, and I'll soon be 52, and i just asked for help 10 months ago..

  • @southstudyspecialaide4934
    @southstudyspecialaide4934 2 роки тому +386

    This is absolutely one of the most moving and inspiring things I've ever seen. It reminds me that any average bloke I pass on the street could be a superhero, and I wouldn't even know it.

    • @michellemarsh5298
      @michellemarsh5298 2 роки тому +8

      What an amazing human being. Survivor, courageous, warrior. Really a hero.

    • @nohaste4me
      @nohaste4me Рік тому

      What is it worth to be a superhero when your soul is destroyed?.....

  • @tigahead
    @tigahead Рік тому +694

    This is just about the saddest story I’ve ever heard. I’m humbled to have spent 40 minutes in Jake’s company. I’ll never forget this film.

    • @6fejmk
      @6fejmk Рік тому +2

      why, who are u?

    • @Ammerstol
      @Ammerstol Рік тому +20

      @@6fejmk What kind of stupid question is that? He referring to the length of the video.

    • @6fejmk
      @6fejmk Рік тому

      @@Ammerstol ur stupid

    • @Whateveryouwantittobe_
      @Whateveryouwantittobe_ Рік тому +8

      Jake needs Justice!

    • @thederpydude2088
      @thederpydude2088 Рік тому +3

      @@Ammerstol imma be honest, I took it literally and that did not occur to me, so thanks for clarifying.

  • @Adam-uz3hj
    @Adam-uz3hj 2 роки тому +895

    This is fucking horrific, I'm so sorry for what happened to you Jake. Extremely brave to speak about it publicly.

  • @dasman6223
    @dasman6223 Місяць тому +5

    He speaks so well. Not ‘likes’ or ‘literallys.’ No ‘bros’ or ‘dudes.’ No swearing. Very interesting man.

    • @robo_t
      @robo_t Місяць тому +5

      Would their opinion be less valid if they did say those words

  • @MetamorphosisMedispaHollywood
    @MetamorphosisMedispaHollywood 2 роки тому +526

    I have never heard a victim articulate so well the horror and the spiritual ramifications and journey where this takes a person. I wish you continued emergence from this burden.

    • @valbesh
      @valbesh 2 роки тому +2

      Agreed. Also Anneke Lucas. Another hero of mine.

    • @daniellewatson8352
      @daniellewatson8352 Рік тому +2

      Unfortunately Jake passed away early January. Very sad considering he seemed so determined to abstain from substances. 🕊

  • @emi62507
    @emi62507 2 роки тому +748

    I did not expect the interview with Jake to go in this direction. This man has been through monstrous things I could never have imagined. And yet his humanity comes through - the fact that he is working on forgiveness. I am in awe of Jake's strength, self-awareness, humility and so many emotions he evokes that I can't put into words. May the rest of your life continue to be better than the first few years of your life, and may you find the answers and enlightenment you are searching for.

    • @canaryinacoalmine7267
      @canaryinacoalmine7267 2 роки тому +7

      Of course his mother gave birth to him just to provide him to her abusive husband. Women do not care about their own children.
      She is as responsible as he is. She should be in prison along with them.

    • @mewho6199
      @mewho6199 2 роки тому +8

      I am so sorry that he's been taught to waste his time and mental energy on trying to love, understand, and forgive a person who is not entitled to or deserving of any of those things.

    • @bleechrcreechrr
      @bleechrcreechrr 2 роки тому

      ​@@canaryinacoalmine7267 it's really something how you can take a dad raping his kid, and make it the moms fault. you people never cease to amaze me

    • @FreakMeat74
      @FreakMeat74 2 роки тому +12

      @@mewho6199 Love, understanding, and forgiveness are for the benefit and peace of the person who practices such thoughts and behaviors.

    • @carnivorekat
      @carnivorekat 2 роки тому +1

      Well said. He really is an incredible individual.

  • @annwe6
    @annwe6 2 роки тому +315

    Dear Jake, thank you so much for your testimony. It was empowering to hear you state, "I am a traumatized person." I've always felt the need to hide my trauma (from childhood sexual abuse, rape, etc.). I feel ashamed of it, like I'm broken and unfixable. Your openness, clarity and courage around your trauma was refreshing and liberating to hear. Yoga saved my life as well. I've been teaching it now for 30 years. I don't think I'd have survived or been sane today without it. May you find the forgiveness in your heart you seek. Peace brother.

  • @user-sm1ub2yq1g
    @user-sm1ub2yq1g 20 днів тому +6

    My heart hurts. The shinniest star left our presence. RIP Jake

  • @gemmataylor701
    @gemmataylor701 2 роки тому +808

    My heart is breaking for that little boy inside of this extremely brave man. I wish you the best life forward. You’re amazing, wise and an inspiration

    • @den264
      @den264 Рік тому +5

      So he was a Male then tried to change to become a woman then reverted to his biological state a Male ! Did I get that correct.

    • @ribs1773
      @ribs1773 Рік тому +8

      @@den264 Yes, correct

    • @kellansmom1114
      @kellansmom1114 Рік тому +9

      His composure and insight was just so inspiring to see. He has found a way to stay soft. He understands his trauma and has taken both good and bad paths to healing. What a remarkable human. ❤️

    • @mariagatto483
      @mariagatto483 Рік тому +3

      Watching and listening as he talks, all I could see is a heart of a little boy. I feel like hugging him and being a mother to him, though I'm only 21.
      You might feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulder but remember, God is the 'Father of the fatherless...'
      Psalms 68:5

  • @Skhere256
    @Skhere256 2 роки тому +694

    This is probably your best interview. I felt EVERYTHING in this one interview. Shock, horror, anger, confusion, sadness, tears, inspiration, empathy, amazement and hope. Just amazing!!!!

    • @naomeecreates
      @naomeecreates 2 роки тому

      @Ji Ki I feel like I live in this loop everyday, remembering all my trauma. Today, I really felt like I will never be worthy of a good life, despite all the years of trying to create a happy life for myself.

    • @md21656
      @md21656 Рік тому

      You are loving person. Bless you and your adopted family as you journey on. Peace and love.

  • @Cass-es5kl
    @Cass-es5kl 2 роки тому +763

    As a past CPS worker I can't imagine his torment. Some of the children I worked with who were subjected to this perversion were totally disassociated mentally. God this makes me so angry. I wish this young man healing and peace.

    • @heathertaylor8904
      @heathertaylor8904 2 роки тому +47

      Hey I always wanted to ask someone about this. When my dad would come in my room at night and blah blah you know the drill... (sorry, I'm so over it, I just hate describing it) I had this waterfall across my wall, and there was this little blond haired blue eyed girl that seemed to have this light from inside, she'd shine so bright, would come out of the waterfall and come into my body, and I'd go sit by the waterfall in my mind, it was my happy place. I would close my eyes and imagine the sounds, and really got to the point I felt I was there. She didn't have wings or anything but I got the sense she was an angel. She would take whatever he did, because she was not like a human. She couldn't be hurt like I could. Her light was always the same, and she seemed happy to do it for me.
      Have you ever heard of anything like this in your cases? Was that splitting? What in the world made it so real to me? Is there a term for this? I'm just wondering if this is something you've heard before, or seen before, and if there's an explanation for it.

    • @marimarsilva4629
      @marimarsilva4629 2 роки тому +25

      @@heathertaylor8904 I been reading a healing book for traumatic sexual abuse and that is splitting or I believe disassociating

    • @heathertaylor8904
      @heathertaylor8904 2 роки тому +12

      @@marimarsilva4629 I thought it might be but it seems unlike what I thought splitting would look like. I still feel like she was real though I know she wasn't. I think it's just that our idea of something is usually pretty different than what it turns out to be like? Anyway.. thanks for the input!

    • @yamap1
      @yamap1 2 роки тому +9

      @@heathertaylor8904 I'm so sorry you went through something like that :(

    • @heathertaylor8904
      @heathertaylor8904 2 роки тому +11

      @@yamap1 no it really is OK. What I went through is nothing compared to what so many kids go through even today. I do appreciate the sentiment, though, you're very sweet. As crazy as it sounds, a lot of good came from it, and I'm grateful to be who I am.

  • @livea3596
    @livea3596 5 місяців тому +8

    Jake's father was malevolent. He snuffed out the life of this amazing human being. His cautionary message about Xanax really shook me. I believe his testimony to be very genuine.

  • @katrinaolsen2444
    @katrinaolsen2444 2 роки тому +901

    Jake is beyond brave. I can’t fathom why it took his mom so long to figure out what his dad was doing to him. Thank goodness he had a surrogate family after those years of horrible abuse. And that’s wonderful he got clean of drugs relatively early. Getting clean before/around age 30 with the amount of trauma he suffered ; is miraculous. God bless you Jake for your bravery. (Or if you’re an Atheist, I wish you good energy and good thoughts)

    • @hdruktenis
      @hdruktenis 2 роки тому +36

      That was really beautifully stated. This man seems like someone I would choose to have as a friend. So REAL!

    • @rayray094life
      @rayray094life 2 роки тому +3

      Yes it’s a blessing

    • @r8chlletters
      @r8chlletters 2 роки тому +22

      Mothers are the last to figure it out. I’ve seen it over and over and yes, even with my own damn mother.

    • @mumtrader
      @mumtrader 2 роки тому +14

      @@r8chlletters they’re often also being abused?

    • @illreportbackinabit.8514
      @illreportbackinabit.8514 2 роки тому

      The stuff he wen through is completely normalized by Democrats and corporations like Disney.

  • @amyludwig8685
    @amyludwig8685 11 місяців тому +990

    I was SA as an infant until I was about 9....
    I struggled for years with tragic self-harm.. alcoholism, addiction, have been assaulted in my teen years, married a man who continued this towards me..
    I had a total breakdown at 41 and finally admitted I was at the end of my life.. then I finally told the truth about what I knew happened to me as a little little girl..
    Jake's passing from an overdose, the numerous numerous addicts who were SA as children.. their lives are FOREVER altered, high jacked from this.. ending their lives.. lives of nothing but pain..
    This is why I believe that adults who SA children should face the death penalty.
    Because the consequences on a child's whole life is the same penalty..
    A life for a life.
    God rest your soul, Jake. The pain is over now.. ❤
    And Jake's father should be charged with murder.

    • @merriferrell2818
      @merriferrell2818 9 місяців тому +54

      I agree. People I know who suffered from childhood SA never recovered. The cope sometimes, but that experience is always playing in the background. Jake's fathers cruelty...the costumes, torture, playing his pain back to him... horrific. What makes people so cruel? It's demonic.

    • @Abrighterfuture24
      @Abrighterfuture24 9 місяців тому +3

      Im so sorry for what happened to you. Have you confronted these monsters?

    • @luliawka
      @luliawka 9 місяців тому +2

      I have exactly the same question!!! I can't belive it!! Omg.....

    • @Jcremo
      @Jcremo 9 місяців тому

      It turns out that Jake fabricated most of these allegations towards his father because his family cut him off financially due to his drug addiction. His family had been relentlessly harassed due to this interview.

    • @sarahalbers5555
      @sarahalbers5555 9 місяців тому +24

      My step brother was a victim of a predatory Boy Scout Troop Leader. He was one of many it turns out. He committed su*c*de.
      I am so sorry for your pain. I pray you find peace and healing.

  • @khalilahd.
    @khalilahd. 2 роки тому +489

    This was such a difficult interview to stomach. He’s been through so much and somehow survived. I can’t even imagine being abused like. I’m just so proud of him for making it out of such a difficult path. I wish him nothing but continued healing and sobriety 🙏🏽

    • @te9591
      @te9591 2 роки тому +7

      Yeah, this seems like some of the worst things you could do to people.

    • @benk79
      @benk79 2 роки тому +2

      Obvioisly brave if true... but gotta be honest, that I'm not completely convinced.

    • @sashleymo4
      @sashleymo4 2 роки тому

      It really was. My heart broke several times.

    • @sallyann985
      @sallyann985 2 роки тому

      Here you are again. You're buying the likes to your comments, right? Just about an hour ago this one comment was barely even visible and now you have over 300 likes. How is that possible. What you say is also never particularly interesting yet your comments are always at the top of the page.

    • @almarazexson1746
      @almarazexson1746 2 роки тому

      She

  • @marilynbosma2352
    @marilynbosma2352 9 місяців тому +9

    Jake, I’m incredibly sad that your dad would violate you. You are such a strong, loving man. I’m so proud of you. I’m a 68 year old mom and grandma. You are an amazing individual. God cares about you.

  • @yasib3956
    @yasib3956 Рік тому +334

    He's a gentle soul. No more pain, no more suffering, just peace. Rest easy, Jake! 🕊

  • @deceivedpanic9352
    @deceivedpanic9352 2 роки тому +515

    I know Jake... we worked together for a little while. If you see this Jake remember the days at the shit plant! Jake was one of the nicest, hardest working kids to come through the job. Very intelligent. When I met him you would have never guessed the demons that haunt him. We miss you down at the shit plant Jake! Keep your head up and stay on the road you are on. Much love.

    • @myfirstandlastchance2476
      @myfirstandlastchance2476 2 роки тому +49

      Thanks G :)

    • @amandachimin2442
      @amandachimin2442 2 роки тому +6

      My First and Last Chance Bless you for trying to be a clean light person... it is hard to do here., good on ya for trying ✨💞✨

    • @myfirstandlastchance2476
      @myfirstandlastchance2476 2 роки тому +1

      The Waukegan one?

    • @samuelsprings7245
      @samuelsprings7245 2 роки тому

      @@myfirstandlastchance2476 Much love to you, Jake. Please know that the Lord still loved you to die for you. Your experiences are the result of revolting, perverted, satanic practices. Your dad is influenced by pure evil, and I can't imagine what dealing with him must be like. A disgusting person, indeed. In prayer for you, man.

    • @deceivedpanic9352
      @deceivedpanic9352 2 роки тому

      The Vernon Hills one

  • @argent3629
    @argent3629 2 роки тому +1649

    Jake- I don't know if you'll ever read this, but you are a mind-blowing, incredibly astonishing person. You were forced to experience absolute evil in its worst form, as a child no less- and *MAINTAINED YOUR HUMANITY*. This is an amazing feat, and I'm blown away by your strength and compassion. The way you reflect on your experiences and feelings, your hopes for a more peaceful life and fulfilling future, it's a story of perseverance, of emotional strength, and of love for others. I don't know what you will do in your future, but for goodness sake, KEEP GOING. The world absolutely needs people like you, people need to hear your story as much as you're open to sharing it, and know that they are also not alone. Write a book, do more talks like this, become a counselor, I don't know, but you are incredibly important to the world. We've never met, but I'll never forget you.

    • @terryhuffaker3615
      @terryhuffaker3615 2 роки тому +41

      Ditto on that, Jake. You've survived the worst kind of abuse. That man is not a Christ follower but is truely evil.
      I'm so praying that your life can heal without that man. I think your goal to be of purpose in your life is SO valuable.
      I hope you achieve your goals.
      You are valuable, worthy and loved.

    • @levibull6063
      @levibull6063 2 роки тому +27

      I have nothing but respect for this guy ... I dont think I could keep my sanity
      I'd say I haven't gone through much but others say I have but this.... what I went through was a cakewalk compared to this
      Highest respect for this amazing human

    • @denisephillips1988
      @denisephillips1988 2 роки тому +19

      You have put into words the emotion’s everyone that is watching this feels. 😢 I hope Jake continues to have the best life ever going forward. 🙂

    • @smassey6848
      @smassey6848 2 роки тому +10

      Beautifully said!

    • @Cynn955
      @Cynn955 2 роки тому +7

      Everything you said! He is such a amazing young man🙌🏻🙌🏻❤️❤️

  • @rickevans831
    @rickevans831 9 місяців тому +19

    I just read the news and that made me sad as our son did the same - sometimes life is just too unbearable when bad things are in your head - thank you mark for the work you do as these stories need to be shared ❤

  • @leighsajo
    @leighsajo 2 роки тому +709

    I cannot imagine any human being being treated this way let alone a child. I am at such a loss for words. Sending you so much love. I am so proud of you Jake for telling your story and breaking the cycle.

    • @suchabadkitty1293
      @suchabadkitty1293 2 роки тому +13

      I know. I think about my son being a little kid, and I would have taken a bullet for him. Betraying YOUR OWN CHILD in the worst way possible? The thought just sickens me.

    • @renato7184
      @renato7184 2 роки тому +2

      @@suchabadkitty1293 there are awful people in this world.

    • @jimsmith3715
      @jimsmith3715 2 роки тому

      By his own father too. Pedophiles deserve a slow and painful death. They should be castrated the old school way without any pain relief.
      Seriously these pedophiles would get absolutely demolished by almost any person with morals

    • @travis419
      @travis419 2 роки тому +2

      That's why I can not fathom why the system releases these bastards after serving 2 years in jail. They should be in jail for the rest of their lives.

  • @MrCeppino
    @MrCeppino 2 роки тому +908

    More than 1.5 million people have watched this and have been blessed by seeing how the "human" spirit is stronger than anything. Jake you are unbelievable. Turning darkness into light. The ultimate and most meaningful job. You are already doing it. Respect and honour to you.

    • @dukeoutlandish358
      @dukeoutlandish358 2 роки тому +13

      Don't know why but this comment was the trigger to release the emotions built up from watching this. Turning darkness into light!
      He really is amazing

    • @emily-uk9hf
      @emily-uk9hf 2 роки тому +5

      Lovely and salient response. 💖

    • @gigihoudini
      @gigihoudini 2 роки тому

      ❤️

    • @sophiew1967
      @sophiew1967 2 роки тому

      👏👏👏👏

  • @melanieannette3781
    @melanieannette3781 2 роки тому +450

    Honestly, I think to me the most impressive part of the story is his ability to get sober after all of that. It’s already hard as heck to change addictive behaviors in the first place, let alone finding sobriety after such intense trauma.

    • @Stefan-ox5sk
      @Stefan-ox5sk 2 роки тому +8

      This is such a deeply disturbing world, what people go through like this guy did, is sickening. Wtf is this? this world wtf, poor baby.

    • @charsiu_808
      @charsiu_808 2 роки тому +1

      With God's help, it is possible..i know bc He delivered me from addiction

    • @alexabrown8107
      @alexabrown8107 2 роки тому +2

      Unfortunately that is basically the root of addiction, trauma. I’ve heard so many stories in my years working at a rehab.

    • @kailathefox
      @kailathefox 2 роки тому

      @@alexabrown8107 most eating disorders are also caused by trauma. A lot of shit is caused by trauma and we get diagnosed with other shit.

    • @alexabrown8107
      @alexabrown8107 2 роки тому +1

      @@kailathefox yes! It can even cause health problems. If you look at the ace tests and statistics, it can factor into stuff like heart disease, diabetes, COPD, liver disease, cancer, substance abuse, mental health issues, suicide and early mortality in general. Personally I score a 6 on aces and I have several of these issues.

  • @teapea85
    @teapea85 8 місяців тому +8

    Jake, you have impacted so many lives doing this interview, and now you have gone to a better place. You had a purpose on this earth. Rest easy ❤

  • @XIX_777
    @XIX_777 2 роки тому +429

    This shook my bones, and I was only calmed by his ability to retain a gentle nature... what a beautiful strong soul. He carries more goodwill, empathy and insight than all the adults that had the onus to protect him and most people we come across in the world.

  • @youngjazz24
    @youngjazz24 2 роки тому +790

    Jake said he wanted to do something meaningful in this world. Just want him to know this video is a piece of that. Many people watching these videos are dealing with or know someone who is dealing with similar trauma. Hearing the stories, seeing the pain and the recovery is inspiring. Thank you for openly sharing.

    • @alanwatts8239
      @alanwatts8239 2 роки тому

      Agree.

    • @lovelyrose1775
      @lovelyrose1775 2 роки тому +5

      I just want to hug him ❤

    • @MeaolaOrg4
      @MeaolaOrg4 2 роки тому

      Absolutely. He is a survivor, a thrived and a hero for telling his story!

  • @danielpotyok7446
    @danielpotyok7446 Рік тому +287

    Tragic. He was clearly an intelligent, sensitive and thoughtful person with a good heart and admirable character. This will haunt me.

    • @davidparker9676
      @davidparker9676 Рік тому

      He is in a better place now. He's no longer is tormented by nightmares and painful memories. It is very sad to realize just how terrible humans are to one another, even to their own children.
      Everyone has their struggles, some of these struggles are unimaginable. Stories like Jake's and his journey to heal are still inspiring despite the sad ending. Doing this interview was another act of kindness and sacrifice for Jake, it will help countless numbers of people to see things differently, perhaps have more compassion for those struggling with addiction and hardship.

  • @AtibaVV
    @AtibaVV 9 місяців тому +24

    Rest in peace to a true hero. May his story be immortalized here forever for the generations to reflect on

  • @Mercyforthewicked
    @Mercyforthewicked Рік тому +832

    I have honestly been thinking about this guy all day long. It really hit me that he died. He seemed like such an intelligent, empathetic person. Such a beautiful soul. You didn’t deserve what happened to you

    • @FathomlessJoy
      @FathomlessJoy Рік тому

      I read on Reddit that his story was fabricated.

    • @Mercyforthewicked
      @Mercyforthewicked Рік тому +7

      @@FathomlessJoy please explain

    • @dovydas4483
      @dovydas4483 Рік тому +2

      @@FathomlessJoy all of em are LOL

    • @como42
      @como42 Рік тому +5

      @@FathomlessJoy This makes sense, as liars typically look left when fabricating a lie. People look to the right when remembering something. I didn't trust this guy immediately.

    • @como42
      @como42 Рік тому +1

      @@FathomlessJoy If you pay attention he didn't look right once, what a sob story will do to pay the bills

  • @Heliosphan33
    @Heliosphan33 2 роки тому +802

    Seems like such a gentle dude who is nice to be around. Damn, I’m sorry Jake. There are no excuses for what you’ve been through, but I’m glad you made it through and that you’re still here.

    • @Jimmy-es8bc
      @Jimmy-es8bc 2 роки тому +5

      @Repent and believe in Jesus Christ Except if you're gay or trans though, right?

    • @Jimmy-es8bc
      @Jimmy-es8bc 2 роки тому

      @Repent and believe in Jesus Christ Repent? For what? Idiot.

    • @Malikmurad2010
      @Malikmurad2010 2 роки тому

      I can't believe it, he has been sexualy abused since infancy in USA he'll no nooooo

    • @romans1095
      @romans1095 2 роки тому +1

      @Repent and believe in Jesus Christ you are on the right track about Jesus. But where is your compassion for this man's pain? I am a Christian, I had a horrible upbringing. I also watched my siblings deal with similar. I took a lot for them as well. How about instead of just throwing out scripture. Maybe pray and have something supportive to say. Be thankful Jake is alive and made it through real life hell. Love him where's he's at.

    • @romans1095
      @romans1095 2 роки тому +2

      @@Jimmy-es8bc and no. Not except if your gay or trans. All folks have a right to Jesus. Horrible people that are hypocritical in Christianity have caused people to assume this. God will handle everyone accordingly. We all have fallen short. Not one person is perfect. Every person has a right to Jesus! Every person has a right to the life they deserve.❤️

  • @kellykebo3497
    @kellykebo3497 2 роки тому +633

    This man’s poise is just incredible. So much grace.

    • @angieallsup
      @angieallsup 2 роки тому +8

      Yes!!!! I wish I could be more like him

    • @kellykebo3497
      @kellykebo3497 2 роки тому +13

      @@angieallsup
      I believe we all have the ability to tap into this, it’s all about holding intention and not allowing the world’s chaos to derail you.

    • @nikigiovanna1570
      @nikigiovanna1570 2 роки тому +5

      So many people on the streets are very much like this.. it's depressing because a lot of them don't realize how incredible and smart they are!

    • @belindapaul9828
      @belindapaul9828 2 роки тому +2

      It's humbling tbh.

  • @guarichapicante1455
    @guarichapicante1455 Місяць тому +6

    Very sad to hear he passed away . It must be so hard to live with CPTSD . It is so unfair that people cause this amount of pain upon to others ! He seemed like he was very centered in this interview. I admire his courage, his intelligence and resilience. It´s quite incredible and admirable.

  • @CyndiBabes
    @CyndiBabes Рік тому +531

    Despite all his trauma you can see how gentle and kind he was.

    • @shonacole2124
      @shonacole2124 Рік тому +5

      I see that too

    • @robertkrepek2561
      @robertkrepek2561 Рік тому +1

      I gotta try to be more like him

    • @trixielatouche7180
      @trixielatouche7180 Рік тому +2

      My heart just breaks for him. He just seems as though he was a gentle, sensitive soul. I am so sorry his life is over. He touched my soul. I know he would have helped others struggling from the same demons. May God hold him in the palm of his hand.

    • @sfv6
      @sfv6 Рік тому

      Not inside.

  • @tamthescholar7008
    @tamthescholar7008 2 роки тому +586

    I had to force myself to watch this. His story hurts my heart, my soul. As a loving mother, it's just very difficult to listen to or even fathom that someone would not only do this to another human, but a child. Jake, I hope you find peace and experience love in some form the way every human deserves. I hate that this happened to you and hope the days ahead of you are filled with joy and happiness.

    • @sdsfgsty
      @sdsfgsty 2 роки тому +6

      You said it well!

    • @gilliandarling9239
      @gilliandarling9239 2 роки тому +22

      that father needs locking up

    • @jJust_NO_
      @jJust_NO_ 2 роки тому

      dont believe it.. drug trips will give you insane amount of imagination and so called 'memories' which didnt even happen in the first place. drugs will make you literally insane..
      so i doubt she/he has the intact, reliable memory retrieval capacity..
      drugs will give you lucid coherent imagination as if it really happened in real time

    • @JanCarol11
      @JanCarol11 2 роки тому +18

      @@gilliandarling9239 Castration would be too kind.

    • @tab0108
      @tab0108 2 роки тому +11

      Same I have a 2 and 7 year old and I cannot even process how a person can be this evil

  • @bunnybeetle1304
    @bunnybeetle1304 2 роки тому +416

    The fact that he has not given up speaks volumes. Stay strong, Jake. You’re awesome.

  • @Shawak9
    @Shawak9 8 місяців тому +44

    I'm reading a novel called A Little Life, it's about a person navigating life with extreme child abuse and trauma. It's tragic. But seeing a real person sit in front of you and tell their real story shakes you to the core.
    As majestic as the world and humanity sometime seems, its underbelly is unimaginably cruel.
    May he rest in peace.

  • @crunkxbella
    @crunkxbella 2 роки тому +575

    Reading The Body Keeps the Score helped me understand people with severe PTSD and Trauma, what this man is exhibiting here is the highest level of consciousness and enlightenment. He intuitively knows what works for him, his past, his reality, and how to frame his past in a way that does not bleed into the now. What an articulate, intelligent, brave, incredible, successful human being. The lack of anger is astonishing. The abundance of reason and introspection is bewildering. Thank you Mark for sharing such essential stories, and thank you Jake for allowing us to empathize with you.
    Edit: I feel a genuine sense of loss hearing of Jake’s passing. Jake, I hope and vehemently believe that your beautiful soul is resting in the utmost, unbridled peace. Your story touched and inspired not only my life but the lives of so many and I want you to know that your success as a human being will never be taken away because you were not able to stay with us as long as your body would organically allow. We love you and we miss you. Thank you once again for sharing your story. Rest in Peace.

    • @karenb7620
      @karenb7620 2 роки тому +6

      This is a terrific book. I recommend you read it.

    • @flakmag
      @flakmag 2 роки тому +12

      Excellent comment, Bella.. you hit the nail on the head!

    • @alexb9497
      @alexb9497 2 роки тому +6

      So well put, this is exactly what I was thinking, you articulated it perfectly.

    • @bexbyrd675
      @bexbyrd675 2 роки тому +6

      My thoughts exactly! The most heartbreaking and moving part of this interview was his resilience and commitment to introspection and healing! It quite literally gave me chills.

    • @dawngroff5681
      @dawngroff5681 2 роки тому +2

      Couldnt have said it better!👍

  • @willieyoung4818
    @willieyoung4818 2 роки тому +296

    I watched this whole episode in disbelief. How in the world does a person become so hateful to their child? I am SUPER PROUD to have had the opportunity just to meet this kid. I love you Jake buddy!!

    • @deboraholiver3716
      @deboraholiver3716 2 роки тому

      evil.... science has learned the brain is not whole.

    • @annaelisavettavonnedozza9607
      @annaelisavettavonnedozza9607 2 роки тому

      You’re not a pedophile or sexual sadist so you can’t understand. There’s no use for us trying to put ourselves in the shoes of those disgusting wastes of life

    • @MONSTERKILL2013
      @MONSTERKILL2013 2 роки тому

      You look like a man named greg paul

    • @willieyoung4818
      @willieyoung4818 2 роки тому

      @@MONSTERKILL2013 My brother...............

    • @MONSTERKILL2013
      @MONSTERKILL2013 2 роки тому

      @@willieyoung4818 Yeah, pretty uncanny

  • @codystallard5572
    @codystallard5572 2 роки тому +453

    For a person that’s been through all that shit, Jake has his head on straight, only wish him the best man.
    Jake, you spoke to wanting a job that gives you meaning, working with people and your hands is the best stress relief for me honestly. I’m a bike mechanic and giving old things new life and seeing folks faces after does it for me.

    • @ntl9974
      @ntl9974 2 роки тому +6

      How'd you get started towards being a bike mechanic?

    • @codystallard5572
      @codystallard5572 2 роки тому +10

      @@ntl9974 there was a small shop in my hometown. i walked ina asked for a job, as I had rode bmx growing up and fixed up my friends bikes. couldnt pay me for awhile as i was 15 and they didnt know how much help I could be. since then ive worked a couple more shops over the last decade, and im now a service manager for a larger local shop.

    • @artgirl1212
      @artgirl1212 2 роки тому +3

      Cody, way to go! This is your creative self and then giving is the icing on the cake. I hope Jake reads your comment. Keep going.😊

  • @Spratt_catcher
    @Spratt_catcher 8 місяців тому +44

    Your life was stolen before it had begun. I'm so sorry. There are monsters that make this world a hell scape and you deserved a shot of navigating life without the scars of abuse pulling you back. I hope wherever you are, you are healed, rebuilt and loved. Having only stumbled across this video today, I can say having not known you, the world would have been a little less shitty for having you in it. Shine on wherever you are gorgeous soul.

    • @issysmom2004
      @issysmom2004 7 місяців тому +2

      Beautifully put. Praying his sweet soul is resting peacefully 🤍

  • @claudiacamargo5104
    @claudiacamargo5104 Рік тому +443

    He seems so close , so close to freedom. The honesty he has with himself. Very heartbreaking to read he passed.

    • @svenjahartwig535
      @svenjahartwig535 11 місяців тому +30

      People who have suffered severe childhood Trauma carry the effects for their whole lives. Acknowledging their memories as their own is only one of many steps in a long journey. There are body memories, pains, dissociations, nightmares, flashbacks, built out neural circuits, the way the brain and the reality is built in this young age (0-7), the split up and separate functional circles that were built, the constant feeling of not being connected with the world, the many people that don't believe the victims, because they don't want to imagine, what can not be real for them. And many more things, that accompany the victims every day...

    • @le_th_
      @le_th_ 8 місяців тому +14

      He lost his brother. After everything else that had happened to him in his life, that loss was more than he could take. In fact, his predator-masquerading-as-a-father may have even come after him if someone he knew saw this video.

    • @JustMe-qe6pd
      @JustMe-qe6pd 7 місяців тому +5

      he's free and at peace now

    • @Ecargallasandra
      @Ecargallasandra 7 місяців тому

      @@JustMe-qe6pdshe*.

  • @delesa08
    @delesa08 2 роки тому +363

    I really, really like this person. Intelligent, self aware, and determined.

    • @hdruktenis
      @hdruktenis 2 роки тому +7

      SAME!!! I want to hang out with him and travel to weird far away places with him. What an amazing soul.

    • @danamuller554
      @danamuller554 2 роки тому +1

      I agree.

    • @TheGuiltFreeGal
      @TheGuiltFreeGal 2 роки тому

      @@hdruktenis He needs to join my Intentional Community... cuz that's what I was thinking also!

    • @myfirstandlastchance2476
      @myfirstandlastchance2476 2 роки тому +1

      @@TheGuiltFreeGal id love to join, i followed, if you want to talk some :)

    • @TheGuiltFreeGal
      @TheGuiltFreeGal 2 роки тому

      @@myfirstandlastchance2476 Beautiful. Perfect. We just got 40 acres 2 hours from any real town in northern AZ. I look forward to becoming new friends!!! You can find me I think pretty easy in FB and Instagram. We will be tiny living in campers and small dwellings... a well and solar.. no plumbing... still just dirt... a a new road just plowed. I am pretty comfortable saying it will be very quiet and peaceful... and low tech... we won't be raising animals, but plan to have plenty of veggies and eggs. We aren't looking for money, just our tribe. I will be thrilled to visit with you about it, and obviously we could plan a visit out there if you like.

  • @miigwetchful
    @miigwetchful 2 роки тому +813

    This guy needs his own channel, hes so inspiring and well spoken. He can really help others with his voice.

    • @angelofdeath275
      @angelofdeath275 2 роки тому +6

      No he doesnt.

    • @kailathefox
      @kailathefox 2 роки тому +19

      @@angelofdeath275 why not? He might be able to help others with their trauma, instead of these kids thinking they're trans...

    • @angelofdeath275
      @angelofdeath275 2 роки тому +17

      @@kailathefox No. he has spoken once about this, and he is not obligated help out some insecure kids. and I'm not even going to go into how demanding being a youtuber is, and dealing with online drama from very online people projecting their insecurites and posting shit on other social media platforms.

    • @kailathefox
      @kailathefox 2 роки тому

      @@angelofdeath275 No one said he's obligated wtf, sit down and chill. Yes being a youtuber is hard, but he spoke very well, and the OG comment isn't wrong by saying he could really help others with his story. If he doesn't want to, God speed to him. If he does, awesome. Idk why the fuck you came out aggressive af over a pleasant thought that he can help others...

    • @Lion_Hamza
      @Lion_Hamza 2 роки тому

      @@kailathefox because we need strong people to look up to like Wilhelm Tell, Karl der Grosse, Alexander the Great or equals. REAL man 👨😅

  • @anonymousunknown6354
    @anonymousunknown6354 9 місяців тому +15

    I had watched your video one year ago ,when it was out and yesterday saw the memory video posted by Mark and I was devastated. I cried like as if I some close to me has died or it felt like it was my death. After so much pain he was still coping I appreciate him so much. He is my favourite person. Only after seeing him talk I got the courage to open up about my childhood sexual abuse and no parents support. I really understand what he must gone through. The trauma doesn’t stop even when you come out of it. It took 30 yrs for me to understand that it was not my mistake and I was only a child back then. And I trained my mind to ignore it. Today I still have memories of sexual abuse from a stranger but it doesn’t hurt me anymore. I only be with people who love and respect me unconditionally. I am lucky to have support from my parents in later years. Parenting is very important subject which should be thought at all colleges. I wanted to hug Jake once but now I can’t. I dont know whether it’s right to say now he will be at peace. Only he would know how painful it would be. Now atleast he can rest in peace. I couldn’t stop thinking about him. Lots of love for your Jake. ❤

  • @dahliavaldeon4401
    @dahliavaldeon4401 2 роки тому +461

    Trying to wrap my head around the strength it took to complete this interview. Thank you for sharing your story , Jake. You had mentioned one of your goals was to help people . Well , my friend, I think you are off to an amazing start.

    • @angieallsup
      @angieallsup 2 роки тому

      Yesss!

    • @tmazi2212
      @tmazi2212 2 роки тому +1

      I just want to give you and your friend/ex-boyfriend hugs.

    • @lizabethmooney
      @lizabethmooney 2 роки тому +2

      Agree! He amazes me! He’s overcome so much and his strength, poise, intelligence and love is amazing.

  • @micalah8282
    @micalah8282 2 роки тому +360

    He is so beautiful. From his heart, his intelligence, to his soft spoken voice, and his physical appearance.

    • @eddyvideostar
      @eddyvideostar 2 роки тому

      Dear Micaiah: Any coincidence that this is a camera, a media show?

    • @1woodstockPeace
      @1woodstockPeace 2 роки тому

      @@eddyvideostar what a dumb comment

    • @martineshamzin7535
      @martineshamzin7535 2 роки тому +1

      But he is still in denial about a lot, and still using drugs in the wrong way.

    • @beckylee07
      @beckylee07 2 роки тому

      yes!

    • @mgcuriel
      @mgcuriel 2 роки тому +8

      @@martineshamzin7535 did you watch the whole interview? Because I’m pretty sure he said he is sober and talked a lot about NOT being in denial.

  • @summinella
    @summinella 2 роки тому +455

    I respect people like this so much, actually trying to cope with the trauma in a healthy way, I wish him all the best

    • @serpentines6356
      @serpentines6356 2 роки тому +7

      Me too. Much respect.
      Difficult losses, and happenings in life are so tough.
      I wish Jake all the best, and much happiness. He is a good man!
      Thank you Jake!
      🙏 💜. 🌿

    • @IndigoBellyDance
      @IndigoBellyDance 2 роки тому +2

      He seems like such a good person. Like he really is and wants to b a good human being. Truly wish all the healing and goodness for this man in his life.

  • @annadrew2926
    @annadrew2926 19 днів тому +3

    This breaks my heart to see he passed away. He had endured so much pain in life, and yet seen love in a few close people. I thought watching this he was going to do big things

  • @alistairmaleficent8776
    @alistairmaleficent8776 2 роки тому +430

    Mark, this may actually be the best interview you've ever done. Your questions were precise and incisive, and Jake is a beautiful person that's able to articulate his trauma in a rare way that is really helpful to those of us that have experienced similar things. Thank you, Mark!

    • @abbiesonntag3855
      @abbiesonntag3855 2 роки тому +3

      Agreed!

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 2 роки тому +3

      ❤️

    • @rachaelclemons8501
      @rachaelclemons8501 2 роки тому +13

      I agree. This hit my heart hard. I felt like I was listening to a real life angel honestly.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 2 роки тому +1

      @@rachaelclemons8501 Sounded sincere to me.

    • @8989griff
      @8989griff 2 роки тому

      Exactly… we need to start passing a law that if abuse a child, you get a bullet to the dome.

  • @reebz_uk
    @reebz_uk 2 роки тому +448

    There are a rare few people in this world who are stronger than diamonds. This guy is one of them. Huge huge love.

    • @rory9148
      @rory9148 2 роки тому

      @ActSmart BeSmart shut up

    • @cfneal1459
      @cfneal1459 2 роки тому

      @ActSmart BeSmart agreed.
      Perhaps, later, in another interview, he will have matured to strength.
      God have mercy.

    • @aliceinchainz
      @aliceinchainz 2 роки тому +7

      @ActSmart BeSmart The strong is interpreted differently. Perhaps they mean he’s strong for still being here, because some people would resort to suicide after being through such atrocities.

    • @dkc24
      @dkc24 2 роки тому +13

      @ActSmart BeSmart You absolutely have to be strong to overcome an opioid addiction... Without MAT program at that. He is absolutely strong, and your opinion doesn't change the fact.

    • @bbbb8285
      @bbbb8285 2 роки тому

      @@aliceinchainz Just because you choose to commit suicide doesn't mean you are not strong. Sorry.

  • @ChaChingXOXOX
    @ChaChingXOXOX 2 роки тому +400

    I just want to give him a big hug. I can't even comprehend everything he shared and said, I pray no child ever has to experience any thing like this.

    • @dinahjackson8146
      @dinahjackson8146 2 роки тому +6

      But, to many DO EXPERIENCE THIS !!! 😢😢😢

    • @chloedemure
      @chloedemure 2 роки тому +8

      Same, all I want to do is reach through the tv and hug him. What a strong, lovely young man, especially after all he’s gone through.

    • @thatswhatsup0493
      @thatswhatsup0493 2 роки тому +1

      I wanna give him a big hug too 😭😭

    • @chrisbauman2562
      @chrisbauman2562 2 роки тому

      HER

    • @kylebarrettz
      @kylebarrettz 2 роки тому

      @@chrisbauman2562 Jake is "gender fluid" love, their pronouns are he/his

  • @PrisonBecky
    @PrisonBecky 27 днів тому +6

    I wish the absolute worst on his parents and anyone else who added more pain on this poor soul.

  • @alisac910
    @alisac910 2 роки тому +212

    Respect! He actually used the term gender dysphoria and admitted to having it. People should listen to this guy.

    • @outsidersongs2682
      @outsidersongs2682 2 роки тому +31

      After suffering that torture and his sister protected and safe its no wonder he felt gender dysphoria. It may be hard to determine if a patient has that or gender dysphoria without pathology. Thats what all the years of councelling are for, but even if rooted in extreme trauma the person may need to transition to reach wellness. The majority are set free from mental pain for life after transitioning and can start living at last.

    • @StephanieLinda_
      @StephanieLinda_ 2 роки тому

      @@outsidersongs2682 yeah exactly. They were forced to be feminine and as a sex worker I see this a lot... Its called forced feminization and or being a "sissy boy" Is what the term its for men that do it .. Its disgusting but that's pretty much what his disgusting dad forced on him so yeah.. That would make a child very VERY confused w their gender.

    • @marfaxa
      @marfaxa 2 роки тому +11

      imagine focusing on that after hearing this story.

    • @kailathefox
      @kailathefox 2 роки тому +16

      @@marfaxa I mean, it's kind of important? You can have gender dysphoria and not be trans. I transitioned too thinking I was trans due to gender dysphoria. I've also survived through CSA. I've been detransitioned for 2 years now, but hormones made irreversible changes to my body. It's extremely important to bring this up.

    • @kailathefox
      @kailathefox 2 роки тому +5

      @@outsidersongs2682 the majority aren't set free, they hole themselves up... a lot of my old trans friends got botched top surgery and they don't even leave their houses now. A lot of people aren't happy with their transition and feel like they can't go back to presenting as their birth sex. We have no idea how many people detransition due to this, especially since most people won't speak up about it.

  • @Sauce....
    @Sauce.... 2 роки тому +362

    To be able to hold such a demeanor after going through all of that is really telling of just how great of a person Jake is, this dude deserves only the best

    • @nggapraying4392
      @nggapraying4392 2 роки тому +2

      So true, how could someone do something like that to a innocent child? The person being your own father... really messed up. I hope he lives better days from now on.

    • @jharrisusmc
      @jharrisusmc 2 роки тому +3

      Because it never happened

    • @cl7241
      @cl7241 2 роки тому +2

      Isn’t he gorgeous!!

    • @abigailmarughu3403
      @abigailmarughu3403 Рік тому

      @@jharrisusmcplease shut up.

  • @katfantasma7467
    @katfantasma7467 Рік тому +308

    I went to school with Jake.
    I had no idea, I'm so sorry man. Rest easy- no more pain 😢

    • @katfantasma7467
      @katfantasma7467 Рік тому +14

      And RIP to our brother Steve!

    • @victoriapopaz5303
      @victoriapopaz5303 11 місяців тому +4

      I’m so very sorry he died 🥺 but I’m just thinking ... did he have time to trust Jesus as his Saviour ..? I wonder was he BORN AGAIN ..?
      The bible is God’s authorised word
      📖👈🏼 and I must tell everybody the truth because they need to know about the afterlife_____Kjv[Acts 4:12]Neither is there salvation in any other: JESUS CHRIST for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.
      Jesus said we must be born again to enter into Heaven Kjv[John 3:3]
      I’m sad and sorry to tell everybody in the comment section that there is no RIP for everybody [ I’m not sure about Jake whether he was born again in Jesus Christ I do not know ] but Jesus said he is the only way into heaven [ Kjv Acts 4:12] and he said unless a man a woman is born again he cannot see or enter into heaven .
      Rip is a universal lie 😢 I hope people start to realise salvation is only found in Jesus Christ and no other kjv[1 Timothy 2:5] 🙏🏼

    • @banni215
      @banni215 11 місяців тому +29

      ​@@victoriapopaz5303really???? He went through horrible things in his life and passed away at a young age. You really gotta post this. So disrespectful. RIP Jake, you WILL rest in peace.

    • @victoriapopaz5303
      @victoriapopaz5303 10 місяців тому

      @@banni215 Pls Heat me out , l know my comment will offend people but I’m really not trying to be mean or offensive. I tell u all the truth📖👈🏼 because Jesus loves u all & I care very much about other people’s eternal soul & where some of u will spend ur eternity after departure ⚰️..?
      Jesus said it is appointed ONCE for man to die & after the FINAL JUDGEMENT
      Kjv [Hebrews 9:27]
      Kjv [Daniel 12:2] 👈🏼
      There’s only 1 of 2 places we all go after death? when our soul depart’s from our body [we are eternal beings ] it’ll go to either Heaven or Hell & the truth is unless a man / woman “repents” & is born again sealed by the Holy Spirit of God/ Jesus Christ
      Kjv [John 3:3-7] he or she cannot see the kingdom of heaven , after departure their soul will go straight to eternal He** to await the final Judgement of God.
      Kjv [Matthew 13:42]
      Kjv [Revelation 20:12-15]😰
      Jesus spoke more about hell then he did about Heaven so others can avoid going to that horrific place a place of pain & torment & unquenchable fire🔥[ Pls read the Kjv bible📖👈🏼 ]it’s impossible for Jesus to lie Kjv [Numbers 23:19]
      Jesus already made provision for EVERYBODY through His shed blood on the cross🎚👈🏼he died was buried& resurrected on the 3rd day & whoever believes in this shall pass from death to life & be granted access into heaven🌅
      Jesus loves us & warns us how to avoid hell & how we can get born again/saved from future Hell through heartfelt, genuine repentance = be sorry for all our sins & rebellion against God & put our faith & trust wholeheartedly in Jesus shed blood atonement aka the down payment he made on our behalf for the forgiveness of sins & eternal salvation🎚👈🏼 its an amazing , incredible free gift & we can only received it all by FAITH 🎁 Kjv [Romans 6:23]
      My heart wept for Jake. I myself was a victim I can identify with sexual child abuse because I suffered incest as a child for many years & it affected every aspect of my life so deeply but I continue to heal from the unimaginable horrors & trauma I suffered as a small child at the hands of my older brothers.
      I chose to repent= put all my faith & trust in Jesus Christ for forgiveness of sins & eternal salvation Jesus helped me day by day to make progress & even though it was a challenge a long journey for me Jesus has never given up on me & he helped me make progress.
      I’m ever so grateful that all I want to do now is tell others how to grasp the same opportunity I found in Jesus I’m really not trying to be harsh or insensitive [I do understand Jakes pain & struggle] more then some of u here in the comment section who haven’t been molested / violated by a family member’s who overstepped forbidden boundaries.
      I understand how broken Jake was & how he suffered & I wished I could have helped him overcome his trauma but unfortunately now his gone into eternity______ & God know’s where his at ..?
      My responsibility is to share the gospel Kjv [1 Corinthians 15:1-4] of Jesus with others. I need to warn people DON’T DEPART THIS WORLD WITHOUT JESUS CHRIST SALVATION!!!! I’M SENT HERE BY JESUS TO WARN OTHERS DON’T DIE IN UR SINS
      Kjv [Proverbs 14:12].
      Jesus said, nobody goes to heaven 🌅 without him.
      Kjv [ Acts 4:12]
      Kjv [John 3:26-18]
      Pls look up these biblical scriptures [Jesus is the author of the bible] It is his written word📖👈🏼 & one day we will all stand before God to account for our lives & the only thing that will matter in the end is our relationship with Jesus Christ.
      Question, is Jesus Christ ur Saviour? are u born again [ this question is for everybody in the sound of my voice ] have u trusted by faith in Jesus Christ blood atonement to wash away all ur sins ....? only faith in Jesus Christ blood can justify us before God our good deeds cannot earn our way into heaven God will not except us he only excepts is if we put our faith and trust in his Son Jesus Christ blood atonement sacrifice 🎚👈🏼
      Kjv [Revelation 20:2-15]
      Kjv [John 3:16-18]👈🏼 God
      I’ve uploaded a link on Hell God bless u all 💙🙏🏼🙇🏻‍♀️
      ua-cam.com/video/omS7QP5x--U/v-deo.htmlsi=uoqx4-VVUv3P7vf1

    • @starsailorchevrolet6484
      @starsailorchevrolet6484 10 місяців тому

      @@victoriapopaz5303troll

  • @jamesmmoore3532
    @jamesmmoore3532 21 день тому +2

    Truly saddened to hear that Jake died. What an intelligent, compassionate and insightful young man.. his level of self awareness.. I am not religious but I hope he has found peace from a truly shocking history of abuse and trauma. R.I.P.
    I can't stop thinking about what Jake could have achieved for himself and others if he had found the support to assist him further in his healing journey. 🙏

  • @johnpaddock9462
    @johnpaddock9462 2 роки тому +518

    The world needs to hear Jake’s story. He is such an amazing human being. This is, by far, my favorite interview so far.

    • @tvfan14
      @tvfan14 2 роки тому +12

      This is by far my favorite interview I have watched so far too. I could not stop watching.

    • @rileybimm6950
      @rileybimm6950 2 роки тому +3

      @@tvfan14 mine too.

    • @kmy27
      @kmy27 2 роки тому +3

      Mine as well.

    • @vidamariaixchel4962
      @vidamariaixchel4962 2 роки тому +5

      Mine too. Beautiful person, so special. ❤️

    • @apersononurphone920
      @apersononurphone920 2 роки тому

      I’d say the same thing sir

  • @RachelMarieMiller
    @RachelMarieMiller Рік тому +237

    Jake was my friend, and his brother was my friend. I am so saddened that they are gone and we couldn't do more to help.

    • @calisongbird
      @calisongbird Рік тому +18

      I am so sorry for your losses. 💔

    • @maggiecontreras12
      @maggiecontreras12 Рік тому +7

      Jake said he had a sister?

    • @RachelMarieMiller
      @RachelMarieMiller Рік тому +6

      @@maggiecontreras12 his adopted brother had a sister.

    • @maggiecontreras12
      @maggiecontreras12 Рік тому +11

      ​@@RachelMarieMiller thank you for being so open in letting us in. I watched this last night & Jake will always be in my thoughts as well as those closest to him. He made a difference in sharing his life experience & I feel honored to have encountered such an energy.

    • @RachelMarieMiller
      @RachelMarieMiller Рік тому +9

      @@maggiecontreras12 I appreciate that. I want to keep their memory and his brothers alive. (Idk if he said his name or not) We learned on eachother alot- we all had our own problems.

  • @redeyedbuggers
    @redeyedbuggers Рік тому +485

    Listening to this man’s story & watching my 2 year old play with his toys on the floor, not knowing the true horrors of the world… hits me so hard. I can’t fathom how any human being could harm their child so horrendously. Unbelievably heartbreaking. Thank you for sharing your story 💚

    • @paradiserestored6179
      @paradiserestored6179 Рік тому +8

      Same! 😭 I have a one year old little boy and I went into my bedroom last night and spoke to my husband. I said I would kill for my child and I would hurt anyone who shatters his world of peace, safety, and comfort. I did not feel safe at home growing up and am still recovering. Becoming a mom has brought up trauma I didn’t even realize was trauma. It becomes almost unbearable, knowing this is happening across the world

    • @redeyedbuggers
      @redeyedbuggers Рік тому +1

      @@paradiserestored6179 💚💚💚

    • @rorydaines3176
      @rorydaines3176 Рік тому +5

      I'm against the death penalty. And then I'm shown this shit. And I think. Am I though.

    • @azrasehic432
      @azrasehic432 Рік тому

      @@rorydaines3176 Death penalty is the only way to stop this evil.

    • @AtibaVV
      @AtibaVV Рік тому +1

      Protect yo kids. I had happen to me and I couldn't tell my mom or my dad what happen, but they always asked if it ever happened to me growing up and that help me kinda not fall the deepest dark place but I'm still in a dark place.