Could THIS Be Why SO Many People Treat You Badly?
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A huge problem for many of us with CPTSD (definitely for me) is that we end up with too many MEAN people in our lives. These can be friends, relatives, co-workers, relatives, neighbors, bosses and partners. They criticize you, they ridicule you, they ostracize you, underestimate you and they say terrible things about you that turn people against you. It may feel like you have no control over how you get treated. And while you might complain about their terrible treatment of you, you may need to do more to change your pattern. In this video, I talk about the reasons people who had abuse and neglect in childhood may be surrounded by mean people today -- and what you can do to heal.
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I hear this so much. I have chosen men in my life specifically because they were unavailable, creepy, socially and mentally inferior, even nasty and criminal - and I get it that I was being my own devil, imposing my own sentence for being a person I thought was worthy of punishment simply for existing. I am old now and it doesn't really matter anymore, but I recommend to young women who still have years ahead of them to pay close attention to the common denominator in your love relationships. That's what you have to work on. That's the start of the chain that binds you to pain.
@@MerryWidow420 I love your comment. I have also made many mistakes in relationships. I felt like I deserved to be mistreated. As I have gotten older and now a widow I am working on myself and I enjoy the peace and quiet of home
And better yet, sobriety from relationships (romance, "love," aka sex etc) to work on yourself, healing, and same sex friends.
You sound like me.
Multiple abusive marriages. I married men like my father.
When I divorced, it took two years for me to figure out that I had been emotionally abused. I was used to it because of my mother. I realized that what I had experienced was not normal.
Yep, this resonates. It was sad to realise that I'd (essentially) married my mother 😮
Ditto.
Yesss- it seems normal- good on you took me 6 years and having to read journals my doc made me keep - like a year or three after writing, cause we re write it in our head ….and don’t remember what happened cause the gaslighting
Whenever I stand up for myself, I am berated, ostracised, and talked about. I live in a toxic village community that feels unsafe but I remind myself that at my core I'm a decent person 😢
Relatable I avoid almost everyone i literally hid in my car once
@Channel89988 I'm almost a hermit now. I've hidden in my car/dived down alleyways and all sorts of avoidance tactics 🙈
@Channel89988
I hear you. I tried dating a guy after divorcing a narcissist who pretty much took every ounce of my energy. Turns out the new guy was love bombing me and turned out to be a predator. I now just avoid meeting new people here in the community as they're hostile towards outsiders, and I haven't dated for 2 years. Thank God for my companion animals, they save me every day.
I want to move away but I'm suffering with severe fatigue from years of stress.
I hear you. I really hope your situation improves. You don't deserve to be treated badly.
Im so sorry that happened😢. You dont deserve that either wish we had better experiences. The guy I thought was fine he immediately started asking me question about my body and wanted to get physical.. After we talked and then he said he only wanted instant gratification.. I almost lost all my self esteem again due to everything that happened and my loneliness.Its so not easy to trust people and after what I went through I dont trust most. Its just really not easy I hope ur situation gets better as well.
@Channel89988 it's definitely wise not to trust until proven otherwise! ❣️
I’m completely blind, on the autism spectrum and have CPTSD. For a long time, I’ve been fitting myself to other people’s crap. I allow them to put restrictions on me about when and how I should use my accommodations and ways to regulate and navigate in this world. I’ve allowed people to suppress me of my emotions and of my needs. Well, I can no longer mask and fit into society’s norms and molds! I’m allowed to be me! I’m allowed to use the regulation tools and other accommodations I need to navigate the world! I’m quirky and a goofball, but I LOVE IT! I use sensory fidget items, but SO WHAT! I’M ME! It’s what I need, and that’s ok! I’m still worth it!
Good! You have connected to yourself. Beautiful ❤
Sienna, you've been such a fun, wise and generous part of this community for a long time. Thanks for being you!
@@heedfix8465 I’m going through burnout due to masking and suppressing myself to make others comfortable and happy. I’m now realizing that it’s not working. I’m allowed to be different. It’s ok for me to be unique. Different doesn’t mean burden. I mean, it may mean that to some people. But in my world, different just means special, interesting, unique, a blessing and a gift.
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy I’m going to keep on working to be me, even out in the community, and if someone stares at me because I’m acting or behaving differently, well, I’m going to let them. I’ve exhausted myself and all my energy trying to act and behave normally. Well, I’m not neurotypical, nor sighted, I can’t keep pretending like I was traumatized, and that’s ok. Now it’s about not listening to the judgment of others or the judgment from myself. I’m expressing myself, I’m communicating through ways your average person doesn’t do, but I’m still doing it, and it’s not harmless.
Raised by narcissistic mother .. family scapegoat… I never got the proper help … educated my self got a university degree some good jobs but ultimately couldn’t hang on to them.. all relationships negative.. people don’t seem to like me… I’m struggling.. I just reflect and see nothing but a broken life.. struggles .. tried to do self help route.. some professionals.. but never found someone who specialized in narcissistic abuse… some days I feel like I can’t breath… this video really hit home… looking for help… late 50s thought I would have managed it better.. just real so alone…
❤you are not alone.......well done for getting a university degree!! 😊
It is a cold, cruel world. It's just that you see it for what it is. Meanwhile, be your own best friend. You got this far. You are Not living a lie like so many do. You are enough. You are worthy.
Omg! This is exactly what I have been WONDERING!!! What IS it about me that I am constantly surrounded by bullies?? However, I have finally started to accept and remove these people from my life-even sisters. Even potentially my daughter!! Thank you for this video.
My only sister and I have parted ways effective August 15th, 2024. She's always hated me. I finally accepted this fact. I haven't changed my telephone number yet, but........I will. When I do, I know that I will never see her again. .,.................... Head hung low in tears. Giving in
I used to feel anxious around mean people growing up. I thought I was secretly attracted to them all because of how flushed and excited I would become. I now know my rapid heartrate and flushed face were actually feelings of anger at their blatant cruel behaviors. I’m still learning to avoid those kinds of people, or at the very least stop fawning over them, and welcome those I feel more at ease around.
This. We are drawn to people who mistreat us in the same way that we were mistreated as a child, because we feel this is a way to finally get those needs met.
As adults we misinterpret the agitation that we feel in their presence (anger, anxiety, etc…) as attraction. Healthy attraction isn’t “fireworks” or “sparks”. It’s warm and quiet.
But we don’t understand this until we start to rewire our nervous systems and start to honestly feel how bad it feels to be around toxic people. Because our survival no longer depends on desensitizing ourselves to it.
But you’re right. Two decades into this, “butterflies” are warning system for me. It’s a warning that I’m in the presence of an angry, emotionally unavailable/toxic woman…and I need to move away from her. Not towards her.
I run into folks in the locker room and instantly go into grovel/fawning mode, like I'm talking to someone with superior intelligence or something and they LOVE it, then afterwards I'm like WHY? Why did I just put myself through that? They're just pretentious sanctimonious a-holes!!! 🤷
I think sometimes you latch onto nasty people because you're used to being around a threat, so if you can SEE the threat it's actually less stressful than not being able to see the threat. And if you're traumatized, well there's always got to be a threat, right? So you tell yourself that that person who isn't threatening you is just hiding the way in which they are threatening you. Being stabbed in the back is scarier than being stabbed in the front, right? The idea of someone who isn't looking to stab you is inconceivable.
And you're dead on about how being traumatized is ultimately self-absorbed. 😕Not my favorite thing to admit, but it's true.
I’ve been the family punching bag.. married and became the mil’s punching bag.. divorced and remarried and again became the mil’s punching bag.. I’m starting to think it’s me
Me too
Same. Happier alone
My ex’s entire family made me a punching bag.
It isn't you...your spiritual journey is putting them in a box where they aren't able to hurt you ❤
Watch the videos regarding the Scapegoat role that gets put on us in our family of origin. It’s lifelong and you’ll never convince them that you’re worthy.
i used to do this time and time again. In the last few years ive slowly gotten rid of those people . Fast forward to now i no longer keep anyone around who treat me or anyone else badly. Im learning a new me who keeps to my boundaries
I recently found the abusive email from my bro from 10 years ago, which prompted me going no contact. Reading it now, I can see how I'm healing. Reading it back then, I was incredibly shaken, felt deep shame, completely petrified and stifled anger. Now I read it differently. In his awful words, I see his huge entitlement, his ignorance of boundaries, and the menacing blame directed at me for his deep resentment.
I've also recently finally realised how I am missing my 'core' self as I automatically 'read the room' to focus on others, and erase my sense of myself (more than just simple people pleasing). I felt like a ring donut!
My point is that I realised I have both been drawn to and attracted folk who matched my childhood environment, but now that I am able to engage more with myself, I am learning to check in with myself first when I'm mixing with folk at work and play. So, I feel I send out a very different vibe, and then, get a different response from and dynamic with others.
Feeling the difference is amazing and gives me hope for a better future
Thank you for this perfectly timed video! 🙏
@@maddi3582 I have gone no contact with my brother… very cruel .. I shake sometimes when I think of things he has done.. his wife same.. my only sibling … I understand exactly what you are feeling
You are reading 10 year old emails and getting all worked up? You may just be crazy
I’m getting so much better at spotting the red flags in new acquaintances. I’m finally in contact with my bodies signals for the first time in my life and it vividly shows me when someone either oversteps my boundaries or that their morals don’t align with mine. It’s hard though, and I find myself constantly debating between the side that feels lonely and longs for human connection and the side that’s aware and who finally feels comfortable in her own skin (and company)! Being 39, actively healing from childhood trauma + 1 year post an eight year relationship with a covert narcissist, I see everything so clearly now! I’m not afraid of anything anymore and I finally feel a sense of peace and hope for the future. Your videos have been very helpful this year. Thank you! ❤
Well done for learning this relatively early in life
I recently said to my therapist I thought that everyone had lost their sense of humor. She called me out on it and said, "No, we're out here, joking and laughing, you just have to keep trying to find us..."
Or maybe I dont find most people funny at all.. Especially if you are in survival mode
I think people in dysfunctional families are not taught how to set boundaries, what they want, their limits, to say no, or get up and leave. If you see your mom or dad with no boundaries, you don’t have skills to stand up for yourself. If you are not validated growing up, you question yourself. If you have a feeling that something’s off, but don’t know how to handle it (skills) things don’t get addressed.
Mean people immediately will know an individual is not gonna put up with their crap. They test you and if you don’t have the skills, they’re gonna run all over you.
I don’t think you attract mean people. I think you don’t have the skills to know how to deal with people who are trying to manipulate you.
Absolutely
Ana I'm so sorry ppl abuse u & your family didn't care. I've learned many ppl u tell your story to don't care & gaslight us. Be Blessed Fairy! Keep up the great work! Thank u so much!!!
I was a licensed Pharmacy Technician, which itself is a high stress career. I was the scapegoat and was mistreated and ostracized. It was horrible and I finally got a leave of absence because of all the trauma and stress. I decided not to go back and got another job as a checker at our local family owned market. I took a huge cut in pay but it was worth it because I was appreciated for all my hard work. I had regular customers who waited in line patiently at my check stand. I'm now 65 and retired. I have tjme for my family and two wonderful grandkids. I spend time with my friends and neighbors and enjoy my hobbies. Since I love to cook and bake, my family gets to be treated to my meals that are made with love. I encourage anybody who's in a scapegoat environment to get out of it. You deserve to be appreciated, appreciated and loved ❤
I think I get my trauma symptoms now (with your help) but now I've had to go no contact with everyone except some Co workers that became family. But having this unfortunate giant shield means you won't accept the bs! I've gone from being super social to a happy recluse.
Your people will show up.
At 43 years old I finally got to the point where I'm done ushering obligations to people that didn't earn my love and attention and time. I have learned we have only One Life to live to spend that time in a way that makes the best out of that one life.
It's means, enough to allow mean people to continue to be mean to you when you should love yourself as I've learned to love myself enough to love myself first to not feel like I'm a bad person by not giving those who were mean to me in my life and selfish to not proved that they earned the love.
I rather my feelings not be hurt than to worry about their feelings not being hurt, and for them to have hurt me my whole life trust me, their feelings won't be hurt as much as I thought it did while it let so much time being wasted.
Thanks so much for this video Anna you are God sent🎉🌿💚😏💚
One of my sisters is fun to hang out with but also can be very mean. I put her on a ‘timeout’ every couple of years when it is so much. She responds with anger. She has no idea what she does. It is normal life for her to get angry at people.
I have a stepsister who sounds near identical to your own sister. These people do not and cannot understand how their behavior affects others. Her own boyfriend had to call her out to “be nice” in front of me this past Spring because of how nasty she gets. It’s definitely a “them” problem and I choose to stay away from it.
i havent spoken to my siblings in 19 years . take care of yourself.
Sounds like my sister. We don’t talk anymore either since Covid
my sister strangles me every time i go back to visit for the holidays. it took me years to remember and realize this-shes done it so many times out of nowhere and i never held her accountable. ive never even heard her utter the word “sorry.” and then i separated myself and starting remembering how she used to tattle and sell me out to our abusive mother when i did nothing wrong, and i even remembered an incident when i was 12 and she was 10 and she pushed me backward off a balcony at our aunt’s house. the reason was because i was smiling and happy. im no contact with my sister. she will never see her big sister or get anything from me ever again. i have no one to spend the holidays with and i have no friends or support due to CPTSD but at least im not actively being attacked.
@@anju8376 Ugh, I'm so sorry you went through this. All of us. I shared a womb with a sibling like this. Finally walked away and got erased. I'm sure another sibling took my place.
I watched a podcast with Halsey (I'm sorry i don't remember which one) and she or the host recommended this channel which is saving my mind everyday.
Thank you for making this video, it’s an extremely important topic. 💜✨
Glad you're here! -Calista@TeamFairy
I have been called sensitive so many times when i confront them. Like i have to just deal with their behaviour. Im so done with that
Like so many here, I have a great knack for finding "friends" that absolutely treat me like sh*t and I just put up with it until I break and then it's all over and I never see or speak to them again. Such a waste of time, emotional energy, and life. Product of divorce from an alcoholic mother who abandoned me at 14 and favors her two oldest kids. They can do no wrong. I cut off all connections to my siblings after 60 years and they're all thinking, "Gee, what's his problem?". I finally set boundaries, but 40 years too late. It sucks. I'm relationally broken and as the sunset of my life comes around, I have settled with the fact that there is nothing I can do about it. I am drawn to people who will take advantage of me and treat me poorly like a moth to light.
Don't give up! Stay here and begin to heal.❤ read the posts from others for courage and possibly ideas that you could branch out & have a better life.
I'm 76 * have gone no contact a year ago. It's a blessing!
talk therapy & 12 step program " Adult Children of Alcoholics & Dysfunctional Families meetings. I worked with their side study groups. Both were very helpful
It's never too late, is what I tell myself .
Welcome to our healing community
Thank you, Anna for your work.
My story ....
I've been under someone's thumb for 35 years ! I put up with
Verbal abuse and mistreatment all that time. I'm 76 years old . This New Years Day will be my one year anniversary of going no contact with my abusers.
My healing journey began when I started to attend the 12 step group called 'Adult Children of Alcoholics & Dysfunctional Families ' . I participated in their side study groups.
I also went individual talk therapy.
I educated myself about people with Personality Disorders from licensed professionals.
I learned about the red flags to watch out for.
Low and behold! Some of these folks were right under my nose, sucking the life out of me.
Somewhere along the way i found Anna Runkle, thankfully!
Then finally, I chose to go no contact .
After almost one year of being free of it, it is a blessing.
Welcome to the Crappy Childhood Fairy Community , all. Let's Stay & heal together.
😢 so sad. Gone through the same. But after a break long term. I noticed friends were cruel and uncaring... I decided to cut ties not worth the heartache. They are slowly being replaced by like minded people... Please be kind to yourself, you sound a good heart to me ❤
@@dukebeach1 I am of similar age… your post is EXACTLY how I feel.. exactly!!!
Yes, I always felt I always attracted mean people, but I think it was more like I was being chased by them.
This is so relatable for me❤
Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Good grief the beginning of the video describes what Ive gone through for many years since I was in the Milwaukee Backbrace at 10 yrs old. I am learning to let go of mean people at 51 and don’t turn back! Thank you for also showing me it’s also not always about them but I need healing too and to be more reciprocal to people who are genuinely kind to me
Omg-flip flop. That one hit hard.
Love how you describe your own healing and so many things we can all relate to. Thank you ❤
Thank you for being a part of our community :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Hello Dr. Anna, thank you for this video compilation. I've realized at the age of 33 that I had a streak of critical & mean friends in my youth and teenage years, up until young adult life. The person who I am now (with therapy, meditation & shadow work) would have NEVER been around those who I considered "friends" in the past. Looking back, I know the people in my life didn't really care about me, and/or cared about themselves and their ego more than our friendship. At this point, I would NOT be friends with those people. I have standards for true friends now, and if someone had an issue with meeting those standards? They can keep walking. I'm learning that I'd prefer my own company versus having people around who passively aggressively hate on me.
I don't have any mean people left in my life. I do have a couple of people who are friends but they really aren't completely safe for me to share much with them. I have one long distance friend across the country who I consider a good friend who also has a similar background. I wish I had decent friends here where I live but have trouble in this area. I just feel disappointed by so many people.
You're so wise. Thank you for making these videos.
I left my friends because I was thinking I am too bad for them. Truthteller.
You are such a comfort to hear you talk about things that are so true in my life and many others. Things that hold us back... Thankyou so very much for taking time to make your videos. Xx
❤Good video about mean people and why the pattern keeps repeating
Bless you Anna, this video really spoke to me. The guilt and shame piece really hit home. I’ve just got out of an abusive relationship. I’ve tolerated so much bad treatment and it’s made me more ashamed. Your kindness really helps.
I've always taken abuse in stride. I'm trying to learn to recognize it and reject their treatment. I'm having to leave my family out of my life because they're the ones that treat me the worst.
I’ve noticed that your posts show up on the exact days I’m going thru the exact thing. Almost as if I’m the subject of an intervention I’m not aware of or someone close to me is asking Anna to speak on the very subject…it so bizzare…..
Thank you! So relatable!❤😔
Thank you for being a part of our community :) -Calista@TeamFairy
I love that you made a donation PLUS INTEREST to a good cause to make restitution. ❤
I've segued narcissistic friends out of my life so that it's not really that noticeable. First I start by not taking every call. Then I'm not so obliging with my availability, like only after noon. I give time for person to fill void and build other friendships.
Best way, if possible. Doesn't burn bridges or create gossip.
I did not know what one should do! Thank you for telling me!
You nailed it. Again.
I have no choice but to be screamed at by my friend...who I am staying with ( since my uninsured trailer was burned down by druggies in a trailer park. I was renting a space. It has been 3 years since my home was burned down.
I have been trying to find my own space to rent. Problem is there are no affordable safe places to rent.
So I have to take her screaming at me.
My father abused me badly when I was a little girl. I attrack abusive people? My marriages were very abusive. They ended in divorce.
I'm depressed and anxious.
OMG, this is my life! mean people all the time, around every corner. I'm always the one who ends up leaving the job or volunteer group, insted of the horrible person leaving.
I got abused by a client last week, lol so this video makes sense to me. I do think we should admit mankind is simply not good…then we can protect ourselves against all the bad people. If we hold onto the traditional beliefs from religious folks, it will not serve us in 2024 and beyond. Not trying to be mean at all!! I would really love to have this convo on a deeper level because i am so curious about a worldwide application of the “people are mean haters” philosophy imposed upon all of our hearts. We would build better fortresses against the hate…more and better networks for love.
I love your advice and insights! 💪🏻
Yep! That’s me
You're in the right place :) -Calista@TeamFairy
woah, I need this video. my friends have said to me before "jeez people are so mean to you, people never talk to me like that" and its not even just friends, it's coworkers and just random people around me. thank you for this validating video, I need the answers.
I can relate to this so much.
So much this. And yes even my bf says people won't put up with some of the things I do and have done because I can definitely be absorbed with my own needs in the moment and disregard others boundaries etc. But has been my supportive best friend for almost 7 years. Today he was encouraging to me because he knows I did the best with the hand I was dealt and tries to get me to have compassion for myself and he was the one who originally pointed me to your channel about ten months ago. Mean people definitely seem attracted to me especially at work in the past. I got the book but have been reading Secure Love first to improve my relationship and it's been super good too. And yes I haven't had many friends in my life frankly. Some family members are also an issue and are mean. And yes I'm the meanest to myself
Lord to the Have Mercy! 🤩
This is so helpful. Without even realizing it, I have allowed way too many mean people access to me. As I wrap up 2024, I was having the hardest time finishing up a few goals because I’m recovering from unexpected negative outcomes. Every attempt to move a new friendship or relationship with relatives forward this year has resulted in isolation. Communicating boundaries and expectations hasn’t helped. What gives me hope is knowing I can start today making different choices that will lead to better outcomes. Thank you for helping me realize this. I have a few immediate actions I can take now that will change the trajectory.
I used to wonder if I had a KICK ME sign on my forehead. Sure enough… I did.
Gosh I felt the same way! "I must have 'abuse me' tattooed across my forehead! 🖐️😆
Fight the good fight. 👍🍀
great (and timely!) video, thank you
SO spot on... I've never been able to figure out WHY
boundaries is key. they will be who they are, you have the choice and the right to remove them from your inner circle. I love the terminology "crap fitting". when i notice i do that i kick people out and think "nope! i no longer crap fit myself"❤
If I could go back in time I would speak up immediately and calmly before it becomes a cycle ..you’ve got nothing to loose but their dominance even if it’s a boss they’ll pick an easier target.
Oh thank you so very much❤ I really appreciate this information and is helping me realize and understand.
Scapegoat here. I would always wonder why my friends were so mean to me. I thought it was a reflection of me. About 20 years ago, I figured out that I chose friends who were like my narc mom. I now have fewer friends but they are all kind to me.
❤Thank you so much for the work you do.
~A friend calls me constantly~I really dont like talking on the phone, anyway, but i have to carry the conversation, and its exhausting~She gets worried if i dont return her calls~The point being, im starting to feel 'mean', and i dont want to get upset with her, but thats how i feel~
A good friend wouldn't expect you to put their needs over your own. Not all the time x
I know that you are being honest and telling people to stand up for themselves. There's a lot of shame in people having a past of abuse. In our culture, there is this mentality where there is so much shame even being hurt by people. So our traumatized culture has this mentality that they are in the wrong for being exploited or showing emotion. When we cross the street in my culture, it's mostly just the pedestrians who are supposed to look both ways. When we're in a fight, the goal is "don't get beat up". There is a lot of shame staying in relationships because the saying is "don't get abused". When we are born in a cult, not by our choice, the saying is "don't be a sheep". There was an ad for car thieves that stated "Here are tips from the pros themselves about how not to be a victim".
Mostly, there is so much shame for being abused by a traumatized person. Why do we use this phrase "you attract what you are?" What ever happened to the wisdom that how people treat you doesn't determine your worth? Why don't we accept that we are in toxic environments that were poor at teaching people their worth?
All I've ever known are the mean people.
There are two things that kept me hanging on. They were family, and it was life long. Second, spiritually I felt like I was supposed to witness to them. Your comment regarding spiritual hit 🎯 me. I really appreciate you 💞
2:13 this is spot on, so accurate
Clicked bc I think about this every day of my life 🙂🙂
Yup. It’s comfortable. Crap
Family is the worst!
My father beat me and my brother. My mother neglected the both of us. People have always treated me bad. My husband died last year and even his family started treating me bad. I haven't stole anything because of fear of being caught. I'm a hospice nurse and my patients love me and respect me but eventually the patient passes away. I don't know how to heal. The abuse won't stop until I'm dead. Thank you for your reading 😊❤
My heart goes out to you. ❤️
Call people out on their BS. Build boundaries where you can. Say no more, and don't go around those folks. Let them miss out on you. Don't pick up the phone, let it go to voicemail. Don't reply to texted. Be grateful for the patients,you may be the only person that has treated them well. At least they leave this earth feeling loved.
The statement " it won't stop until I'm dead " Wow! You deserve better!
I tried to send a long text ,but it got lost.
I've been under someone's thumb for 35 years ! I put up with
Verbal abuse and mistreatment all that time. I'm 76 years old . This New Years Day will be my one year anniversary of going no contact with my abusers.
My healing journey began when I started to attend the 12 step group called 'Adult Children of Alcoholics & Dysfunctional Families ' . I participated in there side study groups.
I also went individual talk therapy.
Then I chose to go no contact .
After almost one year of being free of it, it is a blessing.
Welcome to the Crappy Childhood Fairy Community. Stay & heal with us.
Hospice Nurses are on the front lines of the deep realms of the heart.❤ Thank you for your work.
@@krisredlee thank you so much ❤️ you're right about my patients, they all are loveable people and they know that I am there for them. Most of my friends and family have died or moved away. I will be retiring next Spring and I hope to do some traveling, perhaps Denmark and Copenhagen. With a little luck maybe I can make new friends.
@@bc5001 thank you so much ❤️
I have been waiting to hear someone say don't tolerate mean people.
Not trauma symptom when you’re owed
I relate to all this a lot. But on an unrelated topic, where did you find those cool glasses? They are exactly what I’m looking for! ❤
Yep, this is my experience
I just had to cut ties with two writing groups who didn't care about me at all. And it was painful. It was hard...but I recognize that if I stay there any longer, I would go insane.
Fortunately, I do have a couple of groups that are very supportive and I've learned to appreciate them.
G reat perspective Its not easy. But doable, The balance required to choose a relationship with relatives VS stirring to pot is very draining… it’s the best they can do. Bad habits I never prescribed to. But its the new generation style of too face back-stabbing. They think I don’t know….
Very helpful!!!
This describes me to a ‘T’. 🤕
You're in the right place :) -Calista@TeamFairy
There is nothing but mean people.
I think we are all just trying to be good people and we are deep down but some of us have been brought up with warped lessons snd ideas of what is right and wrong and normal. It makes so many things really confusing.
I always assumed that most people don't think the way I do. I'm just more sensitive, so I easily get hurt. Then I hold a grudge forever. I want all the people who ever hurt me to own up to it and apologize, even though I know they never will.
I never ask people biographical questions, anyway, as I think it puts people on the defensive and takes the conversation into a cul-de-sac. Similarly, if someone's in questioning mode, I decline to answer and change the subject. The best conversation starts with making comments and observations and letting people respond with their opinions and ideas, as THEY want to. Do we really care what people's jobs and family situations are, when we're out? No. To ask is to be nosey. I don't do it, but it's amazing and wonderful what people do divulge, when they're happy and NOT under pressure.
You only get from others what you give to yourself. Needs Vs Wants. You have standards and you have expectations, not all expectations can be met, but standards are and should always be a hard line.
Shitty parents don't teach either standards or expectations they teach you take what you're given, and don't rock the boat or it'll get worse.
You have to teach you, I give to myself my standards and my expectations - and nothing comes second to that, at all costs, stand fast.
Yes
I sure do
Trust and respect are earned however people no longer take the time or put effort into building a connection. It's too time-consuming compared to immediate return of quick meeting and fast pace artificial life. It's a shame, we're all human and do and feel better when bonds are real and worth investing into. So I don't trust because there's no one who wants to build this type of bond.
I think for me its that I carry a lot of shame about my past and my desicions thats why I accept sometimes other peoples unacceptable behaviour. I have cut some people out of my life that werent nice and havent regretted it of course but in every new thing that I have to interact with people I am always thinking that if I am very selective I will end up alone or what if I am the problem? I am thinking since I have done this and this who am I to judge if a person is good or bad? I believe its also that even healthy people that dont take therapy or dont work on themselves can be cruel and mean even if we speak up because its not that they will respect all of our boundaries so we have to compromise I think and this is what makes us stuck.
You are suggesting having a counselor, they cost money!
Suggestion. There are sliding scale arrangements from many of organizations. Psychology training programs have student therapists. I've used them in the past . When I found the right person who was ' a fit ' for me , it was helpful. My biggest advances came when I attended Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families. It a global community now because of Zoom technology.
I combined it with talk therapy.
Finding Anna Runkle pulled many .any of the pieces together for me.
Stay and begin your healing journey with us❤
You're right. Most people can't afford therapy but I'd be remiss if I didn't mention that it's there. I'm not a therapist, so I'm just saying what's true.
Sharks seek prey.
So beautiful ❤❤
Recently reconnected with an old friend, 2nd reconnection actually, first one ended in a silly argument about her needs vs mine basically. Reconnected again, thinking that she was fun to hang around with but manipulative etc. This time I notice the meaness. Dismissiveness to my stories, interests, balance of friendship etc. constant comments or correcting me. After the last one, a sharp rebuke of 'I dont care about that stuff' when discussing the plant she uses to make her cookies. (yes it is what you think and it was plant not the ethics or anything like that, it was a simple statement about when the plant is ready for harvest). But I wanted a friend and found myself back in the same situation, feeling less than. So right now havent been hanging out. And I really dont want to, thats the thing.
Oh, and the talking about me thing..we were first friends in the 1980s, she and her friends ostracized me, I ended up seeing this guy she dated and was infatuated with, and for 30 years she has complained about me to that group of friends. So every time I meet one of her friends now they seem to know about that, jeez already, so there's that and I wasnt feeling comfortable around these people either.
Thanks for reading, I have viewed lots of Anna's vids and I know they helped me recognize my reactions.
Needed this
Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Is it possible to be disregulated for months or years straight?
BTW I was once let go from a job where my boss and the HR boss ganged up on me when letting me go and said “Well, you just wanted to be a shooting star but you weren’t”. I’m sitting there like I have no idea what you’re talking about, I was happy to be part of a team and a good team player. Basically happy to be connected to people in some way. I think trying to be a shooting star is the opposite of a team player. They said lots of things that didn’t line up with what I thought my actions were. I know I did good, another lady on my team confirmed to me later after she quit and left them hanging in a really bad way. Karma.
Yes, disregulation can be lifelong if not addressed.
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I had severe depression for more than a decade and everyone left me. Now i am in a better place and some friends who i had in my young traumatized life and adult life and family came back. This is really weird and i have a hard time acting ''normal'' after what they did. I always wonder..do they know what they did becouse if they know, how in the hell they have the nerve to come back like nothing ever happened...Other than them, i've got nobody in my life. (sorry, i got triggered).
This hits home so hard. It has taken me 40 yrs to figure out that I've never ever actually had friendships that were functional relationships. Every last one only befriended me until I didn't serve a purpose for them any longer and they made no efforts to cover that crappiness up.
The only reason it's different now is because I "broke the wheel" lonely at first, I quickly found more true love in a year than what I'd ever experienced my whole life❤❤❤❤
lol. I said crap and then you said it. Lol
I 86' everybody!! But' dam' why would they treat me like that??' Where is their conscience??' & Now' I've always legit had nobody!!!
So sorry to hear that 😞
I hope you can find a way to reach out to others. Knowing there's a lot of us who are elderly & are dealing with all the challenges that come with aging is a reality check for sure!
I'm 76 and disabled!
I was able to break away and have new people in my life. It may not be possible for you to break away at age 86, but maybe there's a way to bring new social contacts into your life. Your local senior center may offer something positive possibilities.
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Please Just know there are folks like me sending you good wishes. ❤❤❤
What about a friend who has been a friend for 40 years? She can be mean. I have pushed most friends away.
I cut off my best friend of 25 years. She was racist, homophonic, anti-Semitic, made rude comments about my weight, and ultra religious. She thought she was above all others. I finally couldn’t take it anymore.
Is she a FRIEND? Or just someone you've known for 40 years?
Yes. This totally describes me except I was always interested in the other people. I don't know if there are any people who are not mean. I use to tolerate it but now I get an alert more quickly and move on. My problem is that I don't know what kindness and love is towards me. I know how to be kind and loving but people don't want to be loved, they want to be worshipped. I only worship GOD. I will not bow down to the whims of another person.
I'm really confused by this video.
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Ugh. This one will be difficult to hear. 🤦 I feel like it's tattooed on my forehead.