There’s so much I want to share, but I feel like the most important message I want to convey is that you don’t owe us (patrons) anything and we aren’t expecting anything. There’s no need to “make up” anything. There’s no need to apologize. ALL WE WANT IS FOR YOU TO FEEL BETTER. We love you, Cinnamon. And it is absolutely true that your presence has saved lives. You helped save mine. And that is not something that should make you feel responsible, like for how we are doing if you’re not working on recordings or Lives. It’s meant to say, you were here for us, now let us be here for you. Take ALL the time you need! ALL OF IT. Take it, use it, own it. Guilt-free, burden-free time is our gift to you. Just no feeling guilty about it. Our gift doesn’t work if you feel guilty and responsible for taking time for yourself and your family. ❤ XOXO
Bless your heart! Thank you for bravely sharing and inspiring us to 'be kind to ourselves.' Get well and, when you are ready, we will joyfully join you at your easel. Much 💕 love and many thanks for all you do for us
❤ thank you, for sharing you are so brave. I'm so glad you are on your healing journey. Please take all the time you need and as everyone on here said, you owe us nothing, you give so much. You are beautiful. We love you and your family so much. Such an important message you shared. Thank you again❤
God bless you Cinnamon ad you are better. You are truly blessed to have a wonderful family. ❤ Take care my sweet friend.prayers sent to you all. 🙏🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤❤😂
When I turned 50….you changed my life….you don’t know me at all…..I retired due to disabilities…..I started watching you…I couldn’t even draw stick figures….i started during an acrylic April….i was so depressed and crying daily….you made me smile…I am now creating art and I am able to reproduce almost any style of art….my family was astounded…I was astounded….you lifted me from serious depression…I was giving up…… so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I rarely comment but I did when John posted about your crisis because I've been there and was hospitalized myself 2 1/2 years ago. This brought tears to my eyes because that was when I found my hidden talent of art with you ❤️ and found how healing it is throughout my journey ✨️ we all support you Cinnamon. Take your time. There's never any pressure from our end.
Bless you my dear. My first tutorial was yours and I’ve enjoyed your art and light since. I’m so happy you are taking the time you need. No hurries no worries. We will be here when you’re ready ❤
As a therapist, I have to say thank you for being so open about your journey. We need more heroes like you to help teach the public that mental health illnesses are as common and normal as any other illness. As a diabetic I take 5 shots a day to stay healthy. I do this because my pancreas does not act properly. Mental health issues are caused by imbalances in the brain that causes it to not work properly. Medication helps to minimize symptoms while the person works on the environmental issues that got them to where they are in life. Thank you for being they light in a dark world. Thank you for saying you have had trauma. Thank you for letting people know they are not alone in the fight to keep it together. And thank you for your honesty. Donna
Your son is a jewel. The situation also says a lot about you guys as parents. He was not so scared or nervous that he felt he had to keep quiet. He trusts you implicitly. That kind of trust leads to honesty between a parent and child. Kudos mom and dad.
I teach school and our district motto is "see something, say something, do something." Your child lived that motto in a way that was needed and why we have it. You are still in my thoughts and prayers.
The timing is uncanny...i finally broke down friday at a regular doctors appointment and cried and admitted i have been depressed and anxious as long as I can remember. Never in my life have i been IN a moment of happiness its like watcing someone else live a life. And tomorrow i go back to talk about medication. I appreciate this more than you know. I hope better mental health for all of us this year.
Cinnamon, having struggled with the trauma, abuse and neglect in my childhood and suffering the emotional fallout throughout my adult life, I have to tell you how proud I am of you for taking care of yourself. Just be aware that we all support you in this wellness journey. I’m keeping you in my prayers.
Cheri me too it took me until I was 69 before I realized that I had PTSD and then I had to work through the physical and emotional trauma that I went through. Its a process and I so hope that you are getting help, it will change your life.
I am so so happy to see you again. I feel like a knot that formed in my chest when I first saw John's video just loosened. You are so loved Cinnamon Cooney ... So so so loved!
Girl, showing your vulnerability may be saving other people while you speak. I also have depression and I tell everyone about it. I don't hide it. You are a brave woman. I am so happy you listened and found the help you needed. Love you Girl.
I work at an inpatient psyciatric hospital. Mental health is just as if not more important than physical health. Please take things slow and keep putting your mental health first. Don't ever feel pressured to put UA-cam videos out because your people will be here no matter what. We can always rewatch any one of your generous amount of content (I know I do!) I'm so happy you decided to be brave and get help and I thank you for sharing your vulnerability because this can truly help others take that very brave step towards getting help.
Thank you for having the courage to share such a difficult part of your life, Cinnamon. Mental health awareness is so very important. You’re letting so many people know they aren’t alone in their struggles. I’m glad you are doing much better now! 💜
The fact that you acknowledged something was wrong, accepted the fact you needed help, and did get help is to be admired! You are seeing how strong you are now and how strong you will be! Keep going forward! Looking forward to your painting! Congratulations!
I rarely comment (like some others); I have followed you since the beginning when I retired from the military (with PTSD). As a Dr in trauma now, I thought I saw something shift while watching you but we never know, right? Praying for strength and healing and commend you for bravely sharing with us. You are loved! 🥰😘🤗
You started me on my artistic journey. I was in a dark place when I found you and picked up a brush. Your energy and kindness poured though the screen to me and I found peace. I c
Take your time Art Sherpa, no pressure. Take good care of YOU. You've helped me a lot through all these years overcoming my own demons through your online art lessons. I discovered through your art lessons that I am really an artist all along buried in my hectic, demanding day job. I noe side hustle as a freelance mixmedia artist. Thank YOU is not enough. Sending love, light,peace and healing prayers to you and to your family. Namaste ❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏
Cinnamon and John, you both got me through the pandemic when I didn't have my regular art class to go to. I have always been soulfully affected by your beautiful hearts and light-filled presences. Thank you for sharing your story about how you took care of yourself and your family by seeking help. Please continue to take care of your needs and I look forward to seeing you paint again when you're ready. ❤💚🧡♥
I'm so incredibly sorry that you experienced this darkness and so did your family. You are so important and special and needed and wanted in this world, in this universe. You have been an immeasurable blessing to countless souls. I cry for your pain. But I'm so thankful for your child that they helped to lead you to get help. We LOVE you and we love your family. We want what is best for you. We want you safe and healthy. We want you to take time for yourself. Don't push yourself to work so much, we will support you ❤️
Hello Cinnamon .. You are responsible for teaching me to paint from scratch! I started watching your videos years ago. You taught me to choose paints, brushes and canvas prep. You convinced me that I could paint when I had no confidence at all! I painted mostly copies of your work and then my own pieces. It was thrilling and a wonderful gift that you gave me and many others I’m sure. I did this until 2018 when I lost my job through illness and am now disabled. I have lost my mojo and have only dabbled since. Maybe 2 paintings. I’m not clinically depressed but my reason to paint has vanished. So I stopped watching your videos as it just made me sad. Now after hearing your story I feel awful! Like I abandoned you. I’m so glad you are back with better health after what you described you have been through. You are a special person and a mentor. Lots of love to your amazing family. Thank goodness they are with you and live you so much. Suzie
Thank you and John for sharing Cinnamon. You’re so sweet and thoughtful and an awesome artist. My prayers for strength and total healing are with you. And also your husband and kids. Victory is on the way. Thank God. ❤️🙏🏻❤️
Thankyou for sharing. I've been thinking about you so much. Been here with my loved ones, forced them into this help and it saved their life. I'm tearing with you. It hurt me so bad to have to do this but afterwards it helped us all . I'm sharing this for the ones who need to get help for a loved one. It's hard too do but you become their lifeline. There has also been a suicide. This will forever be with us. To anyone reading this, reach out and get help. I say this crying.
There are many negative dark forces online but know this… You have a gift. You are one of the most talented people I have encountered. I was raised by an artist. Through her life lessons I see life differently. Heal and feel the ❤️
Uou are so lucky to have a support group, i wish i did i have no body both my parents s are gone and i lost my husband in a car accident. My children all have their lives and don't have time for me i try to gety kids to jelp me but all i get is mom i have my own family now i don't have time. Its sso sad because i think why am i jere or still here there are times i don't get out of bed for days and yes sometimes i think about ending things. So i am so glad that you got help. And i hope it continues for you.
You started me on my artistic journey. I was in a dark place when I found you and picked up a brush. Your energy and kindness poured though the screen to me and I found peace. I
We love you Cinnamon, many of us have struggles with this, too. I'm so very glad you are better. I am so glad your family is there for you. We will always be there for you.
Thank you for sharing!!! You are so blessed to have husband and life partner who loves you so much. Your family is amazing! I have no doubt you are in wonderful hands, information is knowledge, you most certainly have touched those who have suffered in silence. Thank you for your transparency and as always your incredible kindness. As always love your tutorials!! Take care of you!!! I hope Jon has support too!! It’s a family issue, we all need to pool our resources together in a time of need . Sending much love and light to you and your family. ❤
OMGosh!!!! you are so brave to let us all in. You are right. This is a wonderful support group. But you needed more, and you sought it out. Brave, brave. The definition of brave is being fearful but plunging in anyway. I wish you the very best and continued healing. I will includeyou in my prayers every night.
When I had found you in 2017 I was so broken from the loss of my mum! You & your art lessons were the start to my healing! Thank you so very much for being authentic!
Hi cinnamon I’ve been watching you for a couple years and you’re a great teacher but I haven’t watched you for the last year and a half because I recently lost my husband. I’ve been trying to get back into painting thinking it would help my brain. And tonight I thought oh I’ll watch a video from cinnamon. I haven’t watched her forever. And this is the video that I watched…. Crazy, right? Thank you so much for your kind words and advice. I’ll do my best to follow it. Good luck on your journey. And I’m so looking forward to watching you often whether it be live or a video. Thanks again dear friend.
I hardly ever comment on a video, but, this one hit home...I have suffered with depression and anxiety for my whole life. I am now 68 and still never really feel happy or content. I am good at hiding my real self to people. I am on meds, if I wasn't don't know where I would be today. I feel you coming out with your journey that it will help with the sting we feel when we mention our mental health. Thank you, just now I am praying for you and your family.
❤You sound a lot like I feel everyday ❤ I'm 65 Och! It hurts just saying that I'm 65. Most Ppl say your Blessed. Inbrace your wrinkles. Nope I'm not that kind of person. I don't see Me in the mirror? Who is that person looking back at me? I hate getting older 😢
I first learned to paint watching your videos during covid times. I don't usually comment but wanted you to know how much I appreciate that you shared this with us and I am glad you are getting the help you need now. Going through something very traumatic this past year has made me realize how quickly our mental health can change in a moment. Thank you for talking about this with us and sharing what you have learned and I wish you all the best on your healing journey.
Six years ago I found you by coincidence when I typed painting mountains. You have taught me so much . I am doing my third painting party on February 25 at my nearby moose lodge. I have put everything you have taught me into helping others feel better while painting. I struggle with anxiety depression and the only thing that has helped me is painting from your videos. You are in my prayers for a quick healing and better mental health. Lately I have been having a hard time painting because of everything going on in my life. Thank you for letting us know your journey. We love you both
I was fearful for you so after viewing the video your husband created I started praying for you and your family. Maybe I am out of line but I believe God put mental health physicians on this earth so we can not only talk with HIM but with your health professional. We all go through difficult times. Lean on US, your family and the professionals. Be blessed and I will continue praying for you and the family.💓
I’m so happy you’re doing better and although you didn’t need to tell us all of this I’m happy you did. I know I don’t personally know you but at the same time I care about you. You’re an absolutely amazing person and I speak for everyone when I say we appreciate you. We appreciate both of you. So even if you needed a year off or forever off of UA-cam I would still be grateful for all you’ve done. Much love ❤
I am so proud of you for sharing your story. It is a reminder for me to remember to take care of myself. I struggle more than I let everyone know. Thank you! You are loved! ❤❤❤
Cinnamon its ok to cry, you are a very brave woman, it was good that your child could see what was happening and prompted you to act. It’s good to see the you are getting help now and I know that you can get through this ou have a wonderful family for support and your fans are all praying for you, but know this we your fans all love you
Originally I was supposed to be with friends at a play but I got word yesterday that the performance was canceled. I am so thankful you’re getting better and look forward to seeing and hearing your voice again. You were enormously missed.
Cinnamon, I feel for you! Please rest and feel better as long as it takes. I used to teach school for many years and needed a mental health break after devoting my time and life to others. Now I'm able to help others in different ways and at my own pace.
So heartened to hear that you are better and obviously, continue to get better. We all need to be grateful for the network of people in our lives who care enough to help us when they recognize we need it. I'm so sorry that such a wonderful person as yourself has gone through something so awful. You are always so upbeat, and positive and so giving. OH! And John! His video update was so powerful, and I could see how much pain he was in knowing you were suffering. You are lucky to have him as well. Much love to you and y our family. Above all, stay well.
Cinnamon, I am so proud of you for getting help. I’m so sorry that you felt you needed to go through your journey without a support system. I’m so glad that your child was able to step in and help you. You are a beautiful, amazing, wonderful woman and we are so lucky that you were able to seek help. I hope you always know how much support you have. ❤ thank you for sharing so much of yourself and your life with us. Your honesty is so strong and beautiful. ❤
After I watched the video that John uploaded, I began to sing one of Cyndi lauper songs "*True Colors,"* to your whole Family, and to anyone who's going through times that are very challenging right now. That's the song I hear when I'm sending out vibrations of love and inner-standing for the changes that we must learn, to love and except each other for being a part of the whole, that makes us One. 🎶 I see your true colors, shining through..🎶 I see your true colors 🎶 and that's why I love you 🎶 so don't be afraid, to let them show🎶 your true colors 🎶 are beautiful...🎶 Like a Rainbow 🌈 Cinnamon you have given so much compassion and support for many people, at some difficult times in our journeys. I believe in What is given, will be returned back many fold. I'm not surprised that you are receiving so much love and compassion from your UA-cam family.❤ Thanks for letting us share your journey, with gratitude Sis. Stay strong and keep shining ever brighter.💫
God bless you…my prayers are uplifted for you, as well as John and your family. You have an immense amount of courage to share all of this. You’re gonna be ok…you are ok! I’ve watched some of your tutorials and have tried some and always thought WOW. This woman is incredibly talented. You will continue your success as an artist and you will again enjoy the fruits of your talent…..thank you my dear for sharing this very unspoken about issue. I wish you all the best very best to be blessed with the very best of health, a loving family and a happy ♥️ heart! 😊
Life is difficult for us all, you are not alone! You have given a passion for painting to me and a great friend of mine. Ask for and get any and all the help you need and never feel ashamed or scared to lean on those who love you for the help and support that we all need at some point in our lives! Our love and thoughts are with you always!
❤❤❤❤❤I am so glad that there were people in your life that were there and aware something was wrong. I would have been heartbroken if you were no longer here. I lost my daughter 5 years ago to suicide, and my brother 25 years ago to suicide, and almost lost my own life 20 years ago.... Thank you for sharing for others❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Welcome Back Cinnamon. We love and adore you. So glad you are better and back we missed you. I can’t begin to tell you how much you have helped me with my bipolar ups and downs. You have always been a beacon of light and joy when things were dark and down for me. Your beautiful creative spirit always lifts me up. I’m sending you positive vibes and healing creative energy. So thankful for your brave daughter saving your life and being so pivotal in getting you the help you needed. God is so good and always right on time. Again so thankful for your transparency and honesty and may it touch and help others.
Dear Cinnamon, I take lessons with your mother. She has been a great support for me through her lessons. I also volunteer at a pediatric hospital. My work at the hospital has taught me how grateful I am by being able to get up out of bed every morning. I have seen children battling cancer, heart problems, neurological problems, you name it. I also have read a great book which talks about soldiers who lost anything from arms and legs to half or all of the face. I have had serious episodes of high- high to low lows. Lessons with your mother, swimming 42 laps 3 times a week, and free of carbs, all has been great therapy for me. If I have managed to improve, so can you. I also must take medication. You will be fine.
I started to paint with you during lockdown and you were my self care through a very tough time in my life. Thank you for being so open and honest about what you are going through. Wishing you and everyone who can relate, lots of love and light. Self care is so important. Filling your own cup first is not selfish. it's a requirement 🤗❤
Love you! Because of you and your channel, I was inspired to paint, breaking me out of my mental health crisis. You matter, we all matter. Life is a gift.
I too did the hospital thing, years ago. Mental illness has been a part of my life since i was a child. Therapy helps... Meds help. But learning how to paint by watching your tutorials has been the outlet that has brought me more peace and confidence than I've known in many years. You guys do wonderful things, and you help us more than you know!
I am so glad you a on a healthier path for yourself and your family. So many of us wear masks, and feel pressure to be "on" all the time. Glad that you have stopped hiding from yourself and your family, and honoured that you've shared with us. Wishing the whole family strength and energy to heal together. You are so generous with your time here on UA-cam; please do everything you need to be healthy, knowing we all feel grateful for your presence here, in whatever capacity.Sending virtual hugs, energy, and love.
4:35 Darling first I want to say....YOUR COURAGEOUS BEAUTIFUL AND AN AMAZING WOMAN! Thank you for sharing this experience. I do want to point out though, you have NOTHING you need to apologize about bc essentially you're apologizing for just being you and for being alive! I see it's difficult but you sharing your situation helps set the best example to others that and it will help someone else draw the strength they need to seek help. Thank you...not for the painting lessons, but for being you!!!
I'm so thankful you are doing better! I've mentioned before how much your channel helped me. Mental health problems like depression and anxiety are so tough because they make you seek isolation which makes things worse because we start believing our untrue thoughts. PLEASE take whatever time you need to be back at the easel for us. We will be waiting. 💟
I’m glad you’re getting the help you need, and that you’re sharing your experience. We need to normalise looking after our mental health because at the end of the day, it’s our health. Thank you for everything you do ❤
Cinnamon, I have been a long-time subscriber, for years! And, John and you have been unflinchingly generous in sharing your talents and skills with SO many. I just love you, Honey!! love, Maureen
oh, it's me again! I forgot to mention that about ~ ~ 10 yrs, when I was first starting to paint, with zero innate talent, you made the cutest quote: Cinnamon, you said "not everyone can sing at the campfire, but we all want to sing anyway." Brilliant metaphor or analogy. And, it struck me and stuck with me. I cannot sing, any better than I can draw, but your comment propelled me into the world of acrylic painting. Yep. True story!! love, Maureen xoxo
Cinnamon you are a remarkable person inside and out. I haven't been on UA-cam for a good minute due to life getting in the way for my family. I'm so proud of you doing this and feel blessed that you are sharing. Everything that you said is so true. My kids are my one thing that keeps me going with their love. Thank God they not young but still need me periodically. You are so right about sleep once you loose it you can't make it up that's fir sure. I was blessed to take care of my Mom during here last few months of life. I didn't leave her side except for a couple of minutes at a time. Thank God for fast food for my family. I lost her in September. My first husband passed in October and I'm trying to help my son with that. In November my daughter's fiance's grandmother passed. Needless to say not in mood for Christmas. I lost my Dad on Christmas Eve of 18. This year was planned on being celebrated but Mom was diagnosed in June with cancer, had surgery in July on her 92 birthday the surgery went well. Two weeks later we found out it had gone to her lumbar spine. I'm totally going to get some help as soon as I can to catch a breath. Thank you so much for this video. May God bless you and your family. I'm looking forward to your next video. Take care of yourself as you are and be happy.❤️🙏✝️
Cinnamon, John, and Children......take all the time you need to bring balance back to your lives.......we will be here a month, a year, 10 years from now. We will always be an art family, and we know life has a way of throwing boomer-ranges at us. Therapy, rest, self-love are all you need to think about right now. Ring us when you feel ready....we will wait. You know you are loved by all, and always will be....xoxoxox
As i sit here with tears slowing down my face I have to say thank you. I have been subscribed to your channel for a very long time but I stopped watching and even painting and drawing for quite a long time now. I was attacked a few times and felt quite bullied on some live streams so i stopped communicating on them and then stopped them entirely. I would watch the replays to protect myself from it all. I wo not want to lay any of this on you because its definitely not your fault. I even stopped watching your Moms since some of the same people were on her live streams as well. I love you both! Thank you for telling me that it is okay to feel what i have been feeling. And it is not just due to what I explained above. There are so many things that have happened to me in my life that sent me into a self protect mode. Although it drove me away from the thing that i have always escaped to as a child and teen when the world that I lived in was so ugly. No one ever knows what another person is suffering through so the least we all can do it to just be kind. We need more kindness in this world. hugs to you!
There’s so much I want to share, but I feel like the most important message I want to convey is that you don’t owe us (patrons) anything and we aren’t expecting anything. There’s no need to “make up” anything. There’s no need to apologize. ALL WE WANT IS FOR YOU TO FEEL BETTER. We love you, Cinnamon. And it is absolutely true that your presence has saved lives. You helped save mine. And that is not something that should make you feel responsible, like for how we are doing if you’re not working on recordings or Lives. It’s meant to say, you were here for us, now let us be here for you. Take ALL the time you need! ALL OF IT. Take it, use it, own it. Guilt-free, burden-free time is our gift to you. Just no feeling guilty about it. Our gift doesn’t work if you feel guilty and responsible for taking time for yourself and your family. ❤ XOXO
So very well said, Kelliecox-riede7432! Cinnamon, I hope you print out her comment and read it several times a day! She is right. Be well…
Bless your heart! Thank you for bravely sharing and inspiring us to 'be kind to ourselves.' Get well and, when you are ready, we will joyfully join you at your easel. Much 💕 love and many thanks for all you do for us
❤ thank you, for sharing you are so brave. I'm so glad you are on your healing journey. Please take all the time you need and as everyone on here said, you owe us nothing, you give so much. You are beautiful. We love you and your family so much. Such an important message you shared. Thank you again❤
God bless you Cinnamon ad you are better. You are truly blessed to have a wonderful family. ❤ Take care my sweet friend.prayers sent to you all. 🙏🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤❤😂
Beautifully said! It’s so very true. The pressures we put on ourselves, especially for what Cinnamon does. She’s sharing a beautiful gift
When I turned 50….you changed my life….you don’t know me at all…..I retired due to disabilities…..I started watching you…I couldn’t even draw stick figures….i started during an acrylic April….i was so depressed and crying daily….you made me smile…I am now creating art and I am able to reproduce almost any style of art….my family was astounded…I was astounded….you lifted me from serious depression…I was giving up…… so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
What she said cinnamon! I am without words as I too am coming out of a very confusing health crisis. God bless u
I rarely comment but I did when John posted about your crisis because I've been there and was hospitalized myself 2 1/2 years ago. This brought tears to my eyes because that was when I found my hidden talent of art with you ❤️ and found how healing it is throughout my journey ✨️ we all support you Cinnamon. Take your time. There's never any pressure from our end.
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Bless you my dear. My first tutorial was yours and I’ve enjoyed your art and light since. I’m so happy you are taking the time you need. No hurries no worries. We will be here when you’re ready ❤
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Huge hugs for so many reasons ♥️
As a therapist, I have to say thank you for being so open about your journey. We need more heroes like you to help teach the public that mental health illnesses are as common and normal as any other illness. As a diabetic I take 5 shots a day to stay healthy. I do this because my pancreas does not act properly. Mental health issues are caused by imbalances in the brain that causes it to not work properly. Medication helps to minimize symptoms while the person works on the environmental issues that got them to where they are in life. Thank you for being they light in a dark world. Thank you for saying you have had trauma. Thank you for letting people know they are not alone in the fight to keep it together. And thank you for your honesty. Donna
Your son is a jewel. The situation also says a lot about you guys as parents. He was not so scared or nervous that he felt he had to keep quiet. He trusts you implicitly. That kind of trust leads to honesty between a parent and child. Kudos mom and dad.
I teach school and our district motto is "see something, say something, do something." Your child lived that motto in a way that was needed and why we have it. You are still in my thoughts and prayers.
The timing is uncanny...i finally broke down friday at a regular doctors appointment and cried and admitted i have been depressed and anxious as long as I can remember. Never in my life have i been IN a moment of happiness its like watcing someone else live a life. And tomorrow i go back to talk about medication. I appreciate this more than you know. I hope better mental health for all of us this year.
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Cinnamon, having struggled with the trauma, abuse and neglect in my childhood and suffering the emotional fallout throughout my adult life, I have to tell you how proud I am of you for taking care of yourself. Just be aware that we all support you in this wellness journey. I’m keeping you in my prayers.
❤Thank you for sharing. You have always been a true inspiration in my life. Take care of yourself !
Cheri me too it took me until I was 69 before I realized that I had PTSD and then I had to work through the physical and emotional trauma that I went through. Its a process and I so hope that you are getting help, it will change your life.
I am so so happy to see you again. I feel like a knot that formed in my chest when I first saw John's video just loosened. You are so loved Cinnamon Cooney ... So so so loved!
You are a brace, caring and compassionate women who is so loved. You take care of yourself in every way possible. ❤
I didn't see John's video. Do you know where I'd find it? Thank you
Don't you dare worry about us patrons...we are good and recordings are just fine...I still have to catch-up on so many videos.....we love you!
Welcome back sweet Cinnamon. We are all here ready and waiting to give you a massive hug ❤💘
This is such a beautiful story. My younger sister died by suicide in November and I miss her terribly.
Girl, showing your vulnerability may be saving other people while you speak. I also have depression and I tell everyone about it. I don't hide it.
You are a brave woman. I am so happy you listened and found the help you needed. Love you Girl.
I work at an inpatient psyciatric hospital. Mental health is just as if not more important than physical health. Please take things slow and keep putting your mental health first. Don't ever feel pressured to put UA-cam videos out because your people will be here no matter what. We can always rewatch any one of your generous amount of content (I know I do!) I'm so happy you decided to be brave and get help and I thank you for sharing your vulnerability because this can truly help others take that very brave step towards getting help.
Thank you for having the courage to share such a difficult part of your life, Cinnamon. Mental health awareness is so very important. You’re letting so many people know they aren’t alone in their struggles. I’m glad you are doing much better now! 💜
The fact that you acknowledged something was wrong, accepted the fact you needed help, and did get help is to be admired! You are seeing how strong you are now and how strong you will be! Keep going forward! Looking forward to your painting! Congratulations!
I rarely comment (like some others); I have followed you since the beginning when I retired from the military (with PTSD). As a Dr in trauma now, I thought I saw something shift while watching you but we never know, right? Praying for strength and healing and commend you for bravely sharing with us. You are loved! 🥰😘🤗
I wish you well on your journey I lost my baby brother who was a vet suffering from PTSD.
#☝️💪🙏💖!the military isn't good for people.#obviously.
You started me on my artistic journey. I was in a dark place when I found you and picked up a brush. Your energy and kindness poured though the screen to me and I found peace. I c
Tears of happiness to see you and hear your voice. Prayers for you on your healing journey
Take your time Art Sherpa, no pressure. Take good care of YOU. You've helped me a lot through all these years overcoming my own demons through your online art lessons. I discovered through your art lessons that I am really an artist all along buried in my hectic, demanding day job. I noe side hustle as a freelance mixmedia artist. Thank YOU is not enough. Sending love, light,peace and healing prayers to you and to your family. Namaste ❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏
Cinnamon and John, you both got me through the pandemic when I didn't have my regular art class to go to. I have always been soulfully affected by your beautiful hearts and light-filled presences. Thank you for sharing your story about how you took care of yourself and your family by seeking help. Please continue to take care of your needs and I look forward to seeing you paint again when you're ready. ❤💚🧡♥
Take all the time you need. Come back when you want to and don't worry about anything else. Shit happens and then the world changes. Big Hugs {{ }}
I'm so incredibly sorry that you experienced this darkness and so did your family. You are so important and special and needed and wanted in this world, in this universe. You have been an immeasurable blessing to countless souls. I cry for your pain. But I'm so thankful for your child that they helped to lead you to get help. We LOVE you and we love your family. We want what is best for you. We want you safe and healthy. We want you to take time for yourself. Don't push yourself to work so much, we will support you ❤️
God bless you and John and your wonderful child! Your whole family! 😊✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️
Love and prayers to you, John and the family as you heal.
Hello Cinnamon .. You are responsible for teaching me to paint from scratch! I started watching your videos years ago. You taught me to choose paints, brushes and canvas prep. You convinced me that I could paint when I had no confidence at all!
I painted mostly copies of your work and then my own pieces. It was thrilling and a wonderful gift that you gave me and many others I’m sure.
I did this until 2018 when I lost my job through illness and am now disabled. I have lost my mojo and have only dabbled since. Maybe 2 paintings.
I’m not clinically depressed but my reason to paint has vanished.
So I stopped watching your videos as it just made me sad.
Now after hearing your story I feel awful! Like I abandoned you.
I’m so glad you are back with better health after what you described you have been through.
You are a special person and a mentor.
Lots of love to your amazing family.
Thank goodness they are with you and live you so much.
Suzie
Thank you and John for sharing Cinnamon. You’re so sweet and thoughtful and an awesome artist. My prayers for strength and total healing are with you. And also your husband and kids. Victory is on the way. Thank God. ❤️🙏🏻❤️
Thankyou for sharing. I've been thinking about you so much. Been here with my loved ones, forced them into this help and it saved their life. I'm tearing with you. It hurt me so bad to have to do this but afterwards it helped us all . I'm sharing this for the ones who need to get help for a loved one. It's hard too do but you become their lifeline. There has also been a suicide. This will forever be with us. To anyone reading this, reach out and get help. I say this crying.
I had Hyperthyroidism it turned my world inside out. Please take care of yourself and don't delay.
There are many negative dark forces online but know this… You have a gift. You are one of the most talented people I have encountered. I was raised by an artist. Through her life lessons I see life differently. Heal and feel the ❤️
and John. You are a Soldier!!!
Hugs, prayers and kisses to you Cinnamon 🌹❤️ love you my friend
Uou are so lucky to have a support group, i wish i did i have no body both my parents s are gone and i lost my husband in a car accident. My children all have their lives and don't have time for me i try to gety kids to jelp me but all i get is mom i have my own family now i don't have time. Its sso sad because i think why am i jere or still here there are times i don't get out of bed for days and yes sometimes i think about ending things. So i am so glad that you got help. And i hope it continues for you.
I love you so much, woman. You are sorely needed in this world. Please thank your kid from me and ALSO YOUR BRAVE SELF for doing what was needful.
You started me on my artistic journey. I was in a dark place when I found you and picked up a brush. Your energy and kindness poured though the screen to me and I found peace. I
We love you Cinnamon, many of us have struggles with this, too. I'm so very glad you are better. I am so glad your family is there for you. We will always be there for you.
Thank you for sharing!!! You are so blessed to have husband and life partner who loves you so much. Your family is amazing! I have no doubt you are in wonderful hands, information is knowledge, you most certainly have touched those who have suffered in silence. Thank you for your transparency and as always your incredible kindness. As always love your tutorials!! Take care of you!!! I hope Jon has support too!! It’s a family issue, we all need to pool our resources together in a time of need . Sending much love and light to you and your family. ❤
OMGosh!!!! you are so brave to let us all in. You are right. This is a wonderful support group. But you needed more, and you sought it out. Brave, brave. The definition of brave is being fearful but plunging in anyway. I wish you the very best and continued healing. I will includeyou in my prayers every night.
❤Amen ❤
Sending you so much love. Congratulations for taking control of your health. I'm so proud of and for you. Thank you for sharing your story.
When I had found you in 2017 I was so broken from the loss of my mum! You & your art lessons were the start to my healing! Thank you so very much for being authentic!
❤Cinnamon helped me as well in so many ways. ❤
Me, too. ❤️
Hi cinnamon I’ve been watching you for a couple years and you’re a great teacher but I haven’t watched you for the last year and a half because I recently lost my husband. I’ve been trying to get back into painting thinking it would help my brain. And tonight I thought oh I’ll watch a video from cinnamon. I haven’t watched her forever.
And this is the video that I watched…. Crazy, right?
Thank you so much for your kind words and advice. I’ll do my best to follow it. Good luck on your journey. And I’m so looking forward to watching you often whether it be live or a video. Thanks again dear friend.
I hardly ever comment on a video, but, this one hit home...I have suffered with depression and anxiety for my whole life. I am now 68 and still never really feel happy or content. I am good at hiding my real self to people. I am on meds, if I wasn't don't know where I would be today. I feel you coming out with your journey that it will help with the sting we feel when we mention our mental health. Thank you, just now I am praying for you and your family.
❤You sound a lot like I feel everyday ❤ I'm 65 Och! It hurts just saying that I'm 65. Most Ppl say your Blessed. Inbrace your wrinkles. Nope I'm not that kind of person. I don't see
Me in the mirror? Who is that person looking back at me?
I hate getting older 😢
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I feel where you're coming from....@@purplephoenixartbymicheled9298
I first learned to paint watching your videos during covid times. I don't usually comment but wanted you to know how much I appreciate that you shared this with us and I am glad you are getting the help you need now. Going through something very traumatic this past year has made me realize how quickly our mental health can change in a moment. Thank you for talking about this with us and sharing what you have learned and I wish you all the best on your healing journey.
Six years ago I found you by coincidence when I typed painting mountains. You have taught me so much . I am doing my third painting party on February 25 at my nearby moose lodge. I have put everything you have taught me into helping others feel better while painting. I struggle with anxiety depression and the only thing that has helped me is painting from your videos. You are in my prayers for a quick healing and better mental health. Lately I have been having a hard time painting because of everything going on in my life. Thank you for letting us know your journey. We love you both
I was fearful for you so after viewing the video your husband created I started praying for you and your family. Maybe I am out of line but I believe God put mental health physicians on this earth so we can not only talk with HIM but with your health professional. We all go through difficult times. Lean on US, your family and the professionals. Be blessed and I will continue praying for you and the family.💓
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤sending you Love , and prayers ❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you for your bravery Cinnamon. This will help so many people ❤
Hugs and love ❤️ ❤❤
Thanks for sharing I will continue praying for you. 🎉
You are the reason I ever began painting. Thank you for all you do. Take care of yourself and remember you are loved ❤🫂
We love you and I know I am so proud of the steps you are taking. Sending all the love to you and your family! ❤❤❤
We love u - just take care of u sweetie!!!
Big hug!!!
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I’m so happy you’re doing better and although you didn’t need to tell us all of this I’m happy you did. I know I don’t personally know you but at the same time I care about you. You’re an absolutely amazing person and I speak for everyone when I say we appreciate you. We appreciate both of you. So even if you needed a year off or forever off of UA-cam I would still be grateful for all you’ve done.
Much love ❤
Hugs and love Cinnamon 🤗❤
You are such a fantastic person for being vulnerable with us. Be safe.
❤❤❤❤❤so much love to you Cinnamon and family!
I am so proud of you for sharing your story. It is a reminder for me to remember to take care of myself. I struggle more than I let everyone know. Thank you! You are loved! ❤❤❤
Cinnamon its ok to cry, you are a very brave woman, it was good that your child could see what was happening and prompted you to act. It’s good to see the you are getting help now and I know that you can get through this ou have a wonderful family for support and your fans are all praying for you, but know this we your fans all love you
Children are God's angels. Bless you and your family ❤
Originally I was supposed to be with friends at a play but I got word yesterday that the performance was canceled. I am so thankful you’re getting better and look forward to seeing and hearing your voice again. You were enormously missed.
Cinnamon you have no competition, there is no better place on UA-cam ♡
Thank you for sharing. I can't imagine all y'all have been thru. I'm thinking about you sweetie. ❤❤❤
Cinnamon, I feel for you! Please rest and feel better as long as it takes. I used to teach school for many years and needed a mental health break after devoting my time and life to others. Now I'm able to help others in different ways and at my own pace.
So heartened to hear that you are better and obviously, continue to get better. We all need to be grateful for the network of people in our lives who care enough to help us when they recognize we need it. I'm so sorry that such a wonderful person as yourself has gone through something so awful. You are always so upbeat, and positive and so giving. OH! And John! His video update was so powerful, and I could see how much pain he was in knowing you were suffering. You are lucky to have him as well. Much love to you and y our family. Above all, stay well.
Praying for you and your family.
Cinnamon, I am so proud of you for getting help. I’m so sorry that you felt you needed to go through your journey without a support system. I’m so glad that your child was able to step in and help you. You are a beautiful, amazing, wonderful woman and we are so lucky that you were able to seek help. I hope you always know how much support you have. ❤ thank you for sharing so much of yourself and your life with us. Your honesty is so strong and beautiful. ❤
After I watched the video that John uploaded, I began to sing one of Cyndi lauper songs "*True Colors,"* to your whole Family, and to anyone who's going through times that are very challenging right now.
That's the song I hear when I'm sending out vibrations of love and inner-standing for the changes that we must learn, to love and except each other for being a part of the whole, that makes us One.
🎶 I see your true colors, shining through..🎶 I see your true colors 🎶 and that's why I love you 🎶 so don't be afraid, to let them show🎶 your true colors 🎶 are beautiful...🎶
Like a Rainbow 🌈
Cinnamon you have given so much compassion and support for many people, at some difficult times in our journeys. I believe in What is given, will be returned back many fold.
I'm not surprised that you are receiving so much love and compassion from your UA-cam family.❤
Thanks for letting us share your journey, with gratitude Sis.
Stay strong and keep shining ever brighter.💫
God bless you…my prayers are uplifted for you, as well as John and your family. You have an immense amount of courage to share all of this. You’re gonna be ok…you are ok! I’ve watched some of your tutorials and have tried some and always thought WOW. This woman is incredibly talented. You will continue your success as an artist and you will again enjoy the fruits of your talent…..thank you my dear for sharing this very unspoken about issue. I wish you all the best very best to be blessed with the very best of health, a loving family and a happy ♥️ heart! 😊
Life is difficult for us all, you are not alone! You have given a passion for painting to me and a great friend of mine. Ask for and get any and all the help you need and never feel ashamed or scared to lean on those who love you for the help and support that we all need at some point in our lives! Our love and thoughts are with you always!
❤ I am glad that you shared and getting the help you need, see you back at the canvas when you are ready.
❤❤❤❤❤I am so glad that there were people in your life that were there and aware something was wrong. I would have been heartbroken if you were no longer here. I lost my daughter 5 years ago to suicide, and my brother 25 years ago to suicide, and almost lost my own life 20 years ago.... Thank you for sharing for others❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Please never feel the need to apologize for taking care of yourself. You matter so much and taking care of you matters so much.
So brave, thank you for sharing your journey❤
Glad you are doing better. Sending you and your family love and light. Thank you for sharing your strength and struggles. ❤
I don't know what you're doing, but you look absolutely fantastic.
You are so courageous. Thank you for all that you do. Your videos have helped me through some tough times. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
I love you Cinnamon! I am so happy you got the help you needed. You've got this girl! Sending lots of Love & Support to you!
Welcome Back Cinnamon. We love and adore you. So glad you are better and back we missed you. I can’t begin to tell you how much you have helped me with my bipolar ups and downs. You have always been a beacon of light and joy when things were dark and down for me. Your beautiful creative spirit always lifts me up. I’m sending you positive vibes and healing creative energy. So thankful for your brave daughter saving your life and being so pivotal in getting you the help you needed. God is so good and always right on time. Again so thankful for your transparency and honesty and may it touch and help others.
Sending big hugs to you and your sweet family ❤
Thus had to be so difficult for you to bare yourself like you did. You & your family are so brave! Lots of respect for all of you!
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I understand what you are going through as I have gone through similar. Thank you for being such an inspiration.
Prayers for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your journey and letting others know it is OK not to be OK. ❤❤❤❤
You’re a BEAUTIFUL SOUL CINNAMON!!!! And your BRAVE AS HELL…and know your bravery with your honesty saved life’s. God Bless you!!
Dear Cinnamon, I take lessons with your mother. She has been a great support for me through her lessons. I also volunteer at a pediatric hospital. My work at the hospital has taught me how grateful I am by being able to get up out of bed every morning. I have seen children battling cancer, heart problems, neurological problems, you name it. I also have read a great book which talks about soldiers who lost anything from arms and legs to half or all of the face. I have had serious episodes of high- high to low lows. Lessons with your mother, swimming 42 laps 3 times a week, and free of carbs, all has been great therapy for me. If I have managed to improve, so can you. I also must take medication. You will be fine.
We love you Cinnamon, we will be here for you.
May God help heal you throughout this time for you and your family, stay strong, you have a lot of people that love and respect all you do! ❤
I started to paint with you during lockdown and you were my self care through a very tough time in my life. Thank you for being so open and honest about what you are going through. Wishing you and everyone who can relate, lots of love and light. Self care is so important. Filling your own cup first is not selfish. it's a requirement 🤗❤
AMEN! 🩷
I’m going to sign up for therapy right now. Thank you for sharing
Love you! Because of you and your channel, I was inspired to paint, breaking me out of my mental health crisis. You matter, we all matter. Life is a gift.
I too did the hospital thing, years ago. Mental illness has been a part of my life since i was a child. Therapy helps... Meds help. But learning how to paint by watching your tutorials has been the outlet that has brought me more peace and confidence than I've known in many years. You guys do wonderful things, and you help us more than you know!
I am so glad you a on a healthier path for yourself and your family. So many of us wear masks, and feel pressure to be "on" all the time. Glad that you have stopped hiding from yourself and your family, and honoured that you've shared with us. Wishing the whole family strength and energy to heal together.
You are so generous with your time here on UA-cam; please do everything you need to be healthy, knowing we all feel grateful for your presence here, in whatever capacity.Sending virtual hugs, energy, and love.
4:35 Darling first I want to say....YOUR COURAGEOUS BEAUTIFUL AND AN AMAZING WOMAN! Thank you for sharing this experience. I do want to point out though, you have NOTHING you need to apologize about bc essentially you're apologizing for just being you and for being alive! I see it's difficult but you sharing your situation helps set the best example to others that and it will help someone else draw the strength they need to seek help.
Thank you...not for the painting lessons, but for being you!!!
I'm so thankful you are doing better! I've mentioned before how much your channel helped me. Mental health problems like depression and anxiety are so tough because they make you seek isolation which makes things worse because we start believing our untrue thoughts. PLEASE take whatever time you need to be back at the easel for us. We will be waiting. 💟
You are so brave to share this difficult subject. We love you so much you are such a amazing person
I’m glad you’re getting the help you need, and that you’re sharing your experience. We need to normalise looking after our mental health because at the end of the day, it’s our health. Thank you for everything you do ❤
Cinnamon, I have been a long-time subscriber, for years! And, John and you have been unflinchingly generous in sharing your talents and skills with SO many. I just love you, Honey!! love, Maureen
oh, it's me again! I forgot to mention that about ~ ~ 10 yrs, when I was first starting to paint, with zero innate talent, you made the cutest quote: Cinnamon, you said "not everyone can sing at the campfire, but we all want to sing anyway." Brilliant metaphor or analogy. And, it struck me and stuck with me. I cannot sing, any better than I can draw, but your comment propelled me into the world of acrylic painting. Yep. True story!! love, Maureen xoxo
Cinnamon you are a remarkable person inside and out. I haven't been on UA-cam for a good minute due to life getting in the way for my family. I'm so proud of you doing this and feel blessed that you are sharing. Everything that you said is so true. My kids are my one thing that keeps me going with their love. Thank God they not young but still need me periodically.
You are so right about sleep once you loose it you can't make it up that's fir sure.
I was blessed to take care of my Mom during here last few months of life. I didn't leave her side except for a couple of minutes at a time. Thank God for fast food for my family.
I lost her in September. My first husband passed in October and I'm trying to help my son with that. In November my daughter's fiance's grandmother passed. Needless to say not in mood for Christmas. I lost my Dad on Christmas Eve of 18.
This year was planned on being celebrated but Mom was diagnosed in June with cancer, had surgery in July on her 92 birthday the surgery went well. Two weeks later we found out it had gone to her lumbar spine.
I'm totally going to get some help as soon as I can to catch a breath. Thank you so much for this video. May God bless you and your family. I'm looking forward to your next video. Take care of yourself as you are and be happy.❤️🙏✝️
Praying for you
So great to get to hear from you Cinnamon..you have been in my thoughts and prayers 🙏🙏
Please take care of yourself. I am praying for you. Thank you for being so honest about your journey.
Everyone, ditch the plastic water bottles, and storing foods in plastics. Plastics wreak havoc on the thyroid.
Do well on your recovery Cinnamon. ❤
Cinnamon, John, and Children......take all the time you need to bring balance back to your lives.......we will be here a month, a year, 10 years from now. We will always be an art family, and we know life has a way of throwing boomer-ranges at us. Therapy, rest, self-love are all you need to think about right now. Ring us when you feel ready....we will wait. You know you are loved by all, and always will be....xoxoxox
As i sit here with tears slowing down my face I have to say thank you. I have been subscribed to your channel for a very long time but I stopped watching and even painting and drawing for quite a long time now. I was attacked a few times and felt quite bullied on some live streams so i stopped communicating on them and then stopped them entirely. I would watch the replays to protect myself from it all. I wo not want to lay any of this on you because its definitely not your fault. I even stopped watching your Moms since some of the same people were on her live streams as well. I love you both! Thank you for telling me that it is okay to feel what i have been feeling. And it is not just due to what I explained above. There are so many things that have happened to me in my life that sent me into a self protect mode. Although it drove me away from the thing that i have always escaped to as a child and teen when the world that I lived in was so ugly. No one ever knows what another person is suffering through so the least we all can do it to just be kind. We need more kindness in this world. hugs to you!